#its an awful experience

[mr-orion]

Whenever i become mildly lost in thought in real life my tourettes do this new thing where i start making the minecraft damage sound, which i guess is better than barking or calling ppl babygirl or hitting myself or twitching or saying slurs or making a jerk off motion or-

*thinks a little too hard* -> "tk- tk- tk- tk-"

#tourrettes #hey if you didn't know i have tourettes #its an awful experience #i think the most hurtful part is thst people will write off my tourettes as my normal behavior #like wow okay #okaaayyyyyy #normal as in #oh orions just doing that cause he wants to

[rayne-the-neutrois-nerd]

I never really understood the first story in Cell Block Tango because I was like "oh popping gum can't be that bad, its not like they do it all the time"

Then I had a customer come in who popped their gum like every second and I...

I got it...

#its an awful experience #first lady who is never names ur justified i was nearly right there with you

[pinkeoni]

There's only one Jonathan Byers. No one else is like him. The parentified older brother with an abusive-abstentee father from a low income household who had to step up both in terms of helping out the family financially and looking after his little brother.

Nancy's relationship with Mike is not like Jonathan's is with Will, but she's not a bad sister because of that. Mike's relationship with Holly is not like it either. The Sinclair sibling's relationship is different too, and that's all okay. They all have unique dynamics.

#im making this because i keep seeing talks that if holly were to go missing either nancy or mike would be like jonathan and thats... #not true #obviously if any wheeler were to go missing thats awful for the family. not saying that #but just seeing too many people liken it to jonathans experience and i want people to acknowledge that his position #i mean not saying its NOT awful #is different than other peoples #the byers and the wheelers are different. and thats okay #all the families have their own dynamics #jonathan byers

[ritz-writes]

im acutally going crazy over any time crowely's voice goes soft. specifically the "it burned down... remember?"

he doesnt want to say it again. not only because of the shiny new trauma he has with the memory, but because he doesnt want to remind aziraphale that its gone. he doesnt want to watch aziraphale's face to fall as he remembers the bookshop—his shop, his home for over two centuries—is gone. its burned down; the building, his chairs, his books, his memories, all of it.

but he has to. so he says it gently. it cant take away the pain, but he can lessen the blow, if a fractional amount at least. he reminds him softly, but doesnt give aziraphale time to spiral.

"you can stay at my place? if you like?"

he says it just as gently, just as soft. its an offer he's never given, a line theyd never crossed before. its new and its scary, but hey, it was almost the end of the world and they might die tomororw. what did they have to lose?

so he offers with a kindness to his tone only ever reserved for aziraphale alone, and even then only shown on rare occurrences. only when he knows the angel is close to breaking. he reminds aziraphale whats been lost, but also reminds him that hes not alone. he still has crowley.

#im not well im not well #whenever crowleys voice softens i cry #'ill give you a lift. anywhere you wanna go' #'im really sorry but its burned down' #'you can stay at my place if you like?' #IM SCREAMING #hes so careful with aziraphale #esp at that busstop #aziraphale just had his entire world view turned on a head #hes had to come to terms with the idea that heaven isnt all that good and wants to end the world anyway #hes had to grapple with the undoubtedly awful experience of being discorperated #hes had to come to terms with the fact that his home is gone #and crowley knows this. he knows all of this and treads oh so carefully #i love them so much #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #crowly x aziraphale #aziraphale x crowley #ineffable husbands

[salemontrial]

Why the FUCK didn't Sasha apologize to Quinni.

#no im so pissed about that. #dude you don't give an autistic person a meltdown that big over something that hurtful #and just #walk away scot free #last time someone gave me a meltdown that hardcore I cut them off for a month. #that might just be the bpd tho #but still #quinni doesn't seem like the type to just. be chill without an apology and hearing sasha explain herself #and then she makes her her vice?????????? #she already acknowledged sasha is only in it for the power trip #sasha didn't even do anything in the investigation she just followed quinni around #which as she should #but she hasn't made up for how she treated quinni AT ALL #in fact she's just gotten MORE of a performative activist #like why the fuck was she such a bitch to missy abt spider #i get it yea. ur friends sometimes have dogshit taste in men but you don't need to make them feel like trash abt it #and the way she was like 'he fetishizes u for being black omg its probably asian girls next omg i dont feel safe' #THIS ISNT ABOUT YOU????????. #also she 100% jumpstarted quinnis identity crisis #with how she was constantly switching between infantilizing her and undermining her autonomy over her own decisions #and treating doing things quinni wanted to do and the specific way she needed to do them as a chore #and then victimizing herself!!!!!!! #like from experience that relationship dynamic IS abusive to autistic people it just is #idk if nt people get it but it's really fucking awful to come from your partner #anyway. until sasha apologizes to both quinni and missy this will continue to be a sasha hate page. #heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2 #quinni gallagher jones #sasha so #missy beckett

[itachanta]

TRIGUN STAMPEDE breathtaking cinematography

#trigun #trigun stampede #trigun stampede spoilers #vash the stampede #studio orange is insane for this #i left a LOT of shots out #or i would have ended up with 50+ gifs #TRISTAMP IS BEAUTIFUL #i was in awe the whole season #it doesnt matter if you dont like the plot #the sensorial experience its enough to make your heart explode #and dont even get me started on the symbolisms #and the colours #the last one specially #still takes my breath away #tristamp #studio orange #my gifs: itachanta

[im-a-goddamn-cat]

i wanna send a message out there to anyone struggling with accepting their sexuality/orientation/gender: plz try to love yourself as much as you can, don't try to force yourself to change who you are, and don't change who you are to appease other ppl. ik it's very hard with societal expectations and all the bigotry in the world but trying to surpress your true self will just make you miserable and sometimes it can cause problems with the ppl you love. being yourself and knowing there's others just like you will make you feel so very happy and free. even if you're closeted and can't or don't wanna come out for whatever reason, you can still accept yourself as you are within yourself. you are perfect and amazing just the way you are, don't let anyone or anything make you feel any different 💕🏳️‍🌈

#i say this from experience #ive tried surpressing literally every aspect of my identity bc of internalized bigotry and its so awful #plz try loving yourself even if its hard #meowing #queer #lgbtqia #lgbt #lgbt+ #lgbtqia+ #lesbian #gay #bi #bisexual #trans #transgender #pan #pansexual #nonbinary #asexual #aromantic #aroace #ace #aro #polysexual #nb #aromantic asexual #aspec #arospec #acespec

[commanderfreddy]

people are discoursing about the laios and shiro fight bc that was always going to happen but i do hope that wave crests quickly and we can all come to see it as what it is: literally one of the best written fights between two people who are both entirely justified in their actions and acting without any malice or cruelty of all time

#theres a tendency - especially in action and faction based media (which a lot of fantasy is or is in dialogue with) - to depict fights only #as happening between someone who Is Right and someone who Is Wrong #and getting to see a full on beatdown between two dudes who are both acting in an entirely understandible way and who both dont actually #want to hurt the other at all - to the extent where their desire to maintain a positive relationship with each other is the SOURCE of their #conflict in the first place - is just so cathartic to see #like unpopular opinion but sometimes you do just need to Fight someone to work through issues youre having #like irl i would not recommend that extent of Force obviously #but if you're two people in a situation where neither has active power over the other sometimes the healthiest option involves expressing #and receiving genuine anger that is not filtered through a social buffer #like sometimes you just need to yell that someone is pissing you off by how much they invade ur time and space and sometimes you need to #yell that someone is sabotaging your ability to interact with them by not expressing any discomfort with your behaviour ever #AND MOST IMPORTANTLY SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE YELLED AT #BECAUSE it sucks. it sucks to experience and until you can both share that space of feeling awful with each other youre not gonna get past #it and you're not gonna understand each other's pain #i think they're both wonderfully well written characters and its a testament to their depth as people that i can so easily understand why #and how both of them are behaving the way they do #im still only like halfway through the manga but it is like my favourite character interaction scene so far #fred says a thing #dunmeshi

[moveslikekeithrichards]

its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

#tiddytaco #b #thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt #she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot #& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch #& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot #& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind #that whole time period was just so insane & awful #bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents #& then my grandpa died #& all our pets at the time were very old #& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year #it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last #& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity #we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse #& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her #& that was so . So bad. SO bad #like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad #just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out

[solbellaria]

Because of the Shelby situation I'm getting dream smp videos on my fyp and dear lord some of these people are not right in the head. Why are you comparing domestic abuse to the servers lore and Hamilton the musical??

#“lmao dream with his response is so angelica and wilbur is hamilton 😆” i have 3 letters #please be normal about victims of abuse im begging #its awful seeing shelby bravely speak up about her experience and it getting turned into a meme #shubble #wilbur soot

[batfamhyperfixation]

Imagine if Tim "Public Figure and CEO of Wayne Enterprises" Drake had to take his boyfriend Bernard "Agent of Chaos (I swear, no pun intended)" Dowd on a PR-suggested interview after the public finds out they are dating, like-

Interviewer: And what is your favorite pastime, Bernard?

Bernard, who swore before the interview that he would not say anything that would make either of them look bad or cause a controversy: watching Tim read conservapedia and get angry

#my friends the queer experience is merely reading conservapedia and being amuzed by how hilariously awful it is before shoving it in the #face of your most easily upsetable queer friend and watching them read it. one of my friends was so angry she wrote rebuttals to every #point all in one sitting. #tim would be like aww bernard is in a bad mood i gotta overreact to cheer him up then he would promptly forget that when he reads #that the earth was created 6000 years ago and dinos and humans lived at the same time. he would promptly lose his shit. not to mention #their homosexual agenda page like i swear it is so awful it's actually funny cause you're sitting there like this has gotta be a satire #the entire website is just the funniest thing i have ever read #tim and Bernard will randomly joke about it usually like 'whats on the agenda today' or the 'gee brain what do ya wanna to do today?' #and then the other will start quoting stuff from conservapedia but they dont tell people its quoted so people are getting concerned #tim drake #bernard dowd #timber #timbern

[gmaybe666]

the girls are fighting !!!!!!

pt 1. of 'argument'.

THUNK

for context on their fight, this takes you to the initial comic that started it all

#I spent so long on this I am a LOOOSSSEEEERRR #but ive enjoyed experimenting and developing my comic style #its fun to keep making and trying #when is pt 2. coming?? idk #kenstewy #kendall roy #stewy hosseini #college kenstewy #stewy x kendall #kendall x stewy #the last panel was me trying to capture that awful feeling #of anxiety/shame/regret/hurt when someone is mad at you and they're not responding #like ive had it and it feels like im gonna vomit. especially the silent treatment where you have to wait it out #the anxiety gets crazy #ALSO nobody cares but I was thinking of a plot at work and im implying stewy got so mad at ken- #for sleeping with rava he got drunk and like ahem gave head to a couple of guys at a party and like made out with a girl #its probably not clear but I tried to imply it with 'busy. I heard'

[spaciebabie]

does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

#spacie spoinks #bruh #like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭 #i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is??? #cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk #''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing #like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it. #it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why??? #strange as hell. #i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like #a week and that was like the worst week of my life #i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like. #the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy'' #I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP #HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS???? #me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!! #im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche #the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god) #its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful. #so horrid #also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr #idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it) #sometjing 2 think abt i guess? #anybeans. i tire. #hope i never experience that again #ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again'' #NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[luvstruckmutt]

RANT ABOUT PEOPLES WEIRD ATTITUDE ABOUT SHANE STARDEW VALLEY INCOMING!!!

saw people complaining about shane today and saying he is a bad and awful husband and they divorced him after seeing his room and that he becomes boring after he starts getting therapy because the interesting thing about him is his struggle with addiction and after you "fix him" what's the point of being with him And just?? Why?? Did you even marry him?? Like?? I dunno, people are allowed to have opinions on characters but so many peoples' opinions are just?? Really bad and rooted deeply in ableism and misconceptions about mental health/addiction and are super saviory??

I have said this a thousand times but you can't fix people. That's literally not how people work. You can, however, be there for people and try and create a safe environment for them to be able to help themselves!! AND THATS EXACTLY EHAT FUCKING HAPPEMS IN STARDEW!! Shane gets help ON HIS OWN because he is being supported by both his family and the farmer. And to see that just fucking fly over peoples heads makes me so mad because DID WE PLAY THE SAME FUCLING GAME?? YOU DONT FIX SHIT!! YOU ACT AS PART OF A SUPPORT SYSTEM!! (Which is very important but like) YOU AS A SINGULAR PERSON CANT FIX PEOPLE!!

I also just hate the "I can fix them" attitude because, at least in this specific situation, the people saying this are the same people who divorce him because his room is ugly or because he is implied to relapse and still is depressed??? It feels like the same thing as when someone has "spread kindness!" or "love each other!" in their bio and then is the most rancid hateful person ever? The room thing in particular makes me mad because LIKE WHAT DID YUOU THINK IT WAS GOING TO LOOK LIKE?? YOU SAW HIS ROOM AT MARNIE'S, WHAT MADE YOU THINK HIS ROOM IN YOUR HOUSE WAS GOING TO BE ORGANIZED AND SPOTLESS???

Idk like, again, you can dislike Shane and even regret marrying him. He's not very nice to you until you really get his hearts up there so he comes off as rude and abrasive. You don't HAVE TO LIKE HIM!! But so many people just spout hateful shit and it's like god, I hope you never have anyone in your life who suffers from mental illness because even though Shane is a video game character, the stuff you're saying and the ideas you have surrounding addiction and mental health are super toxic and weird and I hope no real person ever has to be subjected to them.

edit (put this in the tags but then wanted to add it to the main post):

#stardew shane #shane sdv #stardew valley #its like also #relapse is often a part of recovery. it doesnt mean the person has given up trying to help themselves or anything it just happens. #and people are so weird for demonizing it or chalking it up to shane not loving you or something?? #i cant speak on relapsing based in addiction but ive relapsed on other things and i know that it makes you feel so disappointed im yourself #to on top of that awful feeling have someone who you thought cared about you get mad and make your crisis all about them must be so painful #again like Shane is a character but the things he goes through are incredibly realistic and mirror a lot of peoples real life experiences s #just think before you fucking speak ig #tw: alcholism #tw: addiction #relapse mention #mental illness #rant #cupid.txt #tw: ableism #🌶️

[feline-evil]

Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.

#metalocalypse #jay talkin #I'm sorry they wrote that awful gross little man far too likeable and relatable to on a trans level #for me not to hoot and holler and cheer for the trans pickles agenda #changes nothing about his character arc or any of the show anyone is capable of being the kind of person he is #don't make the mistake of thinking thats exclusive to cis men #his transness wouldnt change that #only adds on an extra layer to him that i think works fantastically. #Listen that dude was rejected by his family driven to drink and drugs young to escape that ran away to be in a band #is called fucking Pickles of all things and refuses to tell anyone his real last name; #over the span of four seasons and two movies he slowly starts to learn to be for others what he never had #he becomes more caring more supportive #it's not a stretch to say he undoes some of the toxic masculinity he's been keeping himself shielded behind #and learns how to be a kinder man. #all of which have no contradictions with him being trans! #In fact it doesn't take much extra thought to find ways a lot of this can line up with some trans masculine experiences #i mean. Did no one else have a younger phase where they swung as far as they could into crass rude and uncaring ways #to try and assert their masculinity only to grow and realise that you can be a man and be more caring. #Did no one else have father issues. 1 800 come on now i know those are both shared experiences a lot of us have had LOL. #at the end of the day this show aired nearly 20 years ago and is finished. we're not getting more of it #so nothing is altered nor changed if pickles is canonically trans or not ok. its fine #i mean hell i dont even need canon confirmation hes trans to me and thats all i care abt #but i think if yr getting suuuuuper weird abt needing him not to be canonically trans you have some issues #and bio essentialist ideals of gender if you think only a cis man can act like he does #again. anyone can be like that. its not exclusive. him being trans would not change him in any way shape or form lol #AND ALSO GODDDUUUGH for once i love getting to see a guy pushing 50 whos depicted as trans #do you have any idea how dire and barren it is out here. we never get to see a trans guy older than 30 and whos not a pristine model #I WANT MORE OLD SHLUBBY SHITHEAD TRANS GUYS IN MEDIA

[oh-warizoro]

#meme ish #The rage of emotions I experience while reading a new op chapter is insane #Yesterday I was like aw imma he sad if Zoro doesn't show up in the new ch. Its his bday #BUT NAH NEVERMIND #ohara; the void history; poneglyphs - has been one of my fav mysteries since I started reading one piece #I'm loving how it's all coming together and how seemingly unrelated things are connected 😭❤️ #op spoilers #GO READ ONE PIECE OMG YALL #ch: 1066 #opspoilers #opwmspoilers #§mine