#not leaving

[lizzardson]

god i wish I posted on tiktok because the need to make one of those "do you feel ashamed / when you hear my name" videos about kevin and jean is overwhelming

#aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #kevin day #jean moreau #anyway i think he does feel ashamed #(and i think he should) #i have a feeling tsc might change my mind but as the story stands right now i just cant get over what kevin did to jean #not leaving #because i do understand that #but like. lying about it #making jean complicit in something he had no part in #leaving jean to deal with the consequenses alone #leaving him to clean up kevins mess #it drives me insane #he deserved better

[toasterbath7065797369]

okay five days on social media and i’m tired of social media again. it’s been fun guys

#not leaving #just saying #actually might reconsider for my own sanity

[thisliminalspacedaydreams]

Regulus: I am so awfully repressed, why would anyone want to be with me?

James: What you think I want isn’t what I really want, evidently. 

Regulus: You can have someone whose body functions. Someone who isn’t—struggling like I am. Someone who’s—normal.

James: But I want you.

Regulus: You’ll get bored. Everyone eventually does.

James: So?

Regulus: So? Why would you want to put yourself through this?

James: Maybe I want to know what it’s like to love what ruins you. Maybe I hope the next thing I love kills me. I hope you do.

#jegulus #I've been jegulussing recently #for no reason #it's not even a story #just random shit popping in my head #not leaving #making a home until I shit it out here #jeggy

[remembertheplunge]

Long Train Running

September 9, 1989. Saturday

Long Train Running.

Will some eyes read this 300 years hence? Or, are all our words and deeds herein destined for my eyes only? 

I picked up a book which reflected a diary kept by a man in1660. He lived through a plague and a revolution. He spoke of spending a little on pleasure now, for, if you wait, you may grow too old to enjoy it. 

Fred Small said today “We, in all our pain, in all that we care about, won’t be remembered in 100 years. I agreed verbally, but, somehow, know it not to be true.

For, every little step is important. As Alan Watts says “A fruit fly born and living a million years ago for a brief time was vital to the balance and to the puzzle of it all.”

We may not be recalled individually. In fact, who cares if we are? We will be long dead. But, the spirit of the effort, of the collective process, will still be living. And, that’s why each present building block is important.

"Time is the only thing that we all have the same amount of, so, it’s important to consider how we spend it.” Quote from ancient woman in ancient evening.

Quote from Graffiti board at Cask and Cleaver Bar “No matter where I go, there I am.”

I mentioned this to Fred Small, who left San Diego at 11pm last night arriving at Riverbank at 10am via bus and Amtrak train. He chuckled . It hit home.  He kept saying today “It doesn’t matter where you go, people and situations are the same.. Just, in the case of San Diego, more of the same. 

And, we had a good day together, book ended by silver trains guided into impatient stops by breathless winds and valley sighs. And, as the train lights moved off to meld into memory and endless track, the closure was loneliness.

He races away from what ails him. He will pass Donald DeCamp in Bakersfield on his way down. Another refugee from the embattled Public Defender’s office.

And, I stood there in the fading light. And I watched until he disappeared. And, I knew it was ok to go home.

End of this part of the entry

Note.

Fred Small and I were Deputy Public Defenders together in Modesto, California. In 1989, there were openings in the San Diego Public Defender’s office and at least two lawyers from our office, including Fred, got hired there. I decided not to apply to work in San Diego. Don De Camp also had been a lawyer in our Modesto office,. He left to become a deputy District Attorney in Bakersfield.

Apparently, Fred Small took the train up from San Diego to Riverbank station which is near Modesto, and returned to San Diego by train the same day. That is what I am describing in the above entry.

Alan Watts was a philosopher and writer who died in 1973

#journaling #9/8/1989 #writing #not leaving #cant escape yourself #trains #public defenders #job pressure

[taintedglass]

I'd spent too much time hanging onto a friendship that I knew wouldn't last. But how do you let go of a friendship you've always wanted, even if there were times when it came at your own expense? When you feel on top of the world with that person ... how do you admit to yourself that they're more toxic than good?

#spilled ink #prose #spilled thoughts #spilled words #thoughts #writer #prose poetry #prose poem #late night thoughts #spilled poetry #past friendships #bullied #bullying #lack of closure #staying #not leaving #abuse #mental health #selfish #selfish thoughts #losing self #shattered confidence #excerpt from a story i'll never write #excerpts from my life #quotes #spilled prose #spilledink #spilled writing #spilled poem #spilled quotes

[styrbear]

Not leaving Tumblr any time soon, I love it here, but since the exodus seems to be happening on the hellsite, I will be trying to post more on Bluesky. Again, I am not going anywhere on Tumblr so no pressure, just letting you all know!

#bluesky #not leaving #srsly i love it here

[clockworkbee]

#not leaving #the book thief #quotes #markus zusak #children

[sweetempty]

I'm not going anywhere. What is the point of being together if we don't stay through the hard times? What is the point of needing you if I just decide to walk away? It doesn't make sense, so I'm not going anywhere.

#my own thoughts #personal thoughts #thinking #endurance #stay with me #I'm here #Not leaving #current mood

[albonium]

i wonder what are rbr's plans for the future driver wise, i know they have a lot of drivers in their junior academy but most of them aren't close to being f1 ready yet or might never be. max is gonna leave at some point, yuki might leave to go to aston once they get honda motors? daniel is 34. i don't see checo lasting much longer either

#i think they think they'll easily get someone like lando or charles but that's a gamble bc if mclaren or ferrari start performing they're #not leaving #then what ? #and what if they suddenly don't perform better than everyone else ?

[kynrki]

IM BACK BITCH🤣🤣🤣

#im back fr #not leaving #hiatus is DONE BITCH #FUCK THAT HOE

[holyfvkc]

got a taste for the cherry I just need to take a bite.

#oh justes sorry but im leaving for them together #im crushing nita too #i meant LIVING #not leaving #LIVING #demi lovato #demi's band #nita strauss #era: holyfvck #holyfvck #demi no brasil #holy fvck tour

[evilhorse]

I’m not leaving you alone again.

#knights of x #captain britain #elizabeth braddock #rachel summers #prestige #not leaving #promise #touching #romantic #love #lesbians #mutants #tini howard #bob quinn #marvel comics #comics #2020s comics

[mentalbarf]

NOT LEAVING

the thing is, we never left

Twitter: @mentalbarfwtf

Mental Barf 2023

mentalbarf.xyz

#not leaving #not fucking leaving #wolf of wall street #stocks #investing #crypto trading #nft #nfts #art #glitch #glitch art #dark glitch #dark art #glitch aesthetic #glitch animation #glitch vibes #crypto art #crypto artist #tezos #tezos nft #clean nft #objktcom #digital art #digital artist #mental barf

[blackborderlinekitty]

for the Love of God, speak up! say something!

#communication #honesty #trust #let's fix it #relationship #staying #fighting #overcoming #together #by your side #not leaving

[t00thpasteface]

got told at lunch "you feel like Tumblr Incarnate" and i had to tell them i've been here for 13 years and counting. i was here three years before dashcon happened. i saw the mishapocalypse. i survived the gigapause. i've been here longer than the shoelaces post. i've been here since it was hipsters versus fandom and i played both sides extensively by overdoing the sepia filters on everything and making my own flashing galaxy gif edits for my fandom posts. i'm every tumblr. it's all in me

#i've been on this site longer than mash was on the air and I WILL NOT LEAVE UNTIL IT IS A SMOLDERING 404 PAGE #shebbz shoutz

[officialspec]

walkable cities also means sittable cities send tweet

#nearest seat always being 300+ meters away is like top 5 reasons i never leave the house