#not that bad I hope

[teejaystumbles]

it’s still Halloween so have some more gory dreamling :P

For 24 long hours, when John Dee held Dream’s ruby, the world sank into madness, sleeplessness and nightmares.

Listen.

Hob Gadling dreams. He is in a dark stone basement. Moonlight through a skylight far above illuminates a broken glass sphere, large enough to hold a man.

There is a creature inside it, crouching between shards of glass. Hob steps closer, fascinated. The creature looks like a man, yet is not. Its limbs are impossibly long, its skin is white as marble and stretched tightly over visible bones. Its face is a face Hob has beheld only a handful of times but would know how to draw with his eyes closed, if he had any talent for such things. It looks like his stranger but its body is so strangely-shaped that he struggles to believe they could be one and the same. Its eyes are pools of black tar with red embers glowing in their depths. Hair that shimmers like raven’s feathers and black spider’s silk sits on its head like a crown, unruly and wild. Hob has fantasized about the feel of that hair. Despite himself he takes another step, still unsure. Can this really be…?

It watches him as he steps closer. Then it opens its mouth and releases a low and trembling moan that shakes the basement’s foundation and makes the hair on Hob’s arms stand on end. Needle-sharp teeth glint in a beam of moonlight and in a second the creature is upon him.

Hob falls to the floor on his back with a grunt, long white bony claws clutch at his chest and tear at his shirt. He stares up into the bottomless eyes and pleads:

“It is you, isn’t it? Let me help. I can help, I can…”

The creature snarls and rips straight through his shirt and tears bloody gashes into his chest. Hob hisses in pain and grapples with the creature’s – his stranger’s, he’s sure, it has to be – claws and shoulders to hold him off.

“Please, wait, what can I do-”

Needle-sharp teeth bury in his shoulder and he howls. Claws are ripping him open, digging deeper inside his chest and Hob sucks in desperate breath after breath, gasping in pain. The teeth release him and his stranger’s handsome face stares down at him with blood dripping from his lips and chin.

Give me Give me more so cold cold COLD

It shivers against him and Hob fights against the pain and lifts his arms to embrace the skeletal monstrous form of his stranger, draws painful breath to say:

“I’ve got you, I’ll hold you, I’ll warm you, please, I’m here-”

Stay stay STAY get me OUT of here give me more I NEED MORE hungry hungry cold cold HUNGRY

Sharp clawed fingers pull his ribs apart and soft lips and nose bury in his neck and pant against him as he screams. Hob is dimly aware that this must be a dream, it has to be. He has never held consciousness for so long under such physical strain and having his rib-cage opened is a first but he’s pretty sure he would have blacked out a while ago. His stranger is pushing at him as if he’s trying to crawl inside him and Hob can only shake and gasp for breath and pull him closer.

Closer Please closer more deeper deeper you you you HOB please

“Anything...anything, for you…” he whispers into unbelievably soft black hair, chokes on his own blood and coughs, pushes trembling fingers into bony shoulders to hold his stranger as he shakes and buries his face in Hob’s open chest to feast, to wear him like a mantle-

Hob HOB HOB

“Yes…”

“Hob…”

The stranger’s voice is suddenly different, no longer a rush of sound into his brain but a voice his ears register. Hob fights through the pain to open his eyes. His stranger looks at him, his face full of Hob’s blood, but his eyes are wide and glinting with now white stars in their midst and there is sanity and recognition in them.

“Ah… hello old stranger...” Hob wheezes and smiles. With a glance at them both the stranger releases Hob, a frown marring his beautiful features. He waves his right hand and suddenly the pain is gone. Hob looks down at himself and sees no blood, no torn open chest. His stranger stares down at him, now clad in a black shirt and trousers. He still has Hob’s blood on his face and Hob shivers.

He lifts his hand and brushes it over his stranger’s chin.

“You still got…”

His hand comes away bloody and his stranger’s eyes widen, he sucks in a breath and then the blood is gone.

“I am sorry, Hob. I did not wish for you to experience any of this.” he says in a voice full of sadness. “A madman held control over the dreaming for several hours. This was...a very personal nightmare that latched onto you. I apologize.”

Hob tries to think. “Oh...so this was your nightmare?”

His stranger cocks his head and then lowers his eyes. “Yes.”

“Why...why would it latch...onto me then?” Hob asks and waits with baited breath. Part of him is thrilled. His stranger is here, and even if it’s a dream, he knows it is real.

Lips like rose petals part and tremble for a second before giving him an answer.

“Because this is my nightmare. You, here...and me, like that.”

His stranger sighs softly and steps back.

“I was...imprisoned. For a very long time. When I escaped I left this part of me here… I could not control it. And you stumbled upon it. Of all the nightmares that exist, you had to find this one.”

He shakes his head angrily and turns to leave.

“There will be no more bad dreams tonight, Hob Gadling, I promise. Sleep well.”

“Wait!”

Hob desperately reaches for him, grabs at his shoulder and pulls him back. His stranger frowns at him but waits. Hob releases a nervous breath.

“It wasn’t a nightmare. Not to me. I would…” he swallows heavily. “I would give you all you need. Anytime. Anything. I mean it.”

The stranger stares at him, lips parted, looking taken aback, if Hob where to guess. Hob feels himself blushing, feels his heart tripping and beating loudly and gives a helpless smile. He releases the other’s shoulder and looks at his feet.

“Sorry. I, I just wanted to tell you. I...hope to see you again. Soon?”

He lifts his eyes to his stranger’s face again with so much hope it’s choking him. Twin stars glitter in eyes like black tidal pools and a tiny smile plays at the edges of the stranger’s lips. A voice like dark velvet is the last thing Hob registers before he is sinking into soft dreamless depths.

“Very soon, Hob.”

#I needed to know what happened to Hob in 24 hours and so I wrote my own take on it #haven't seen any fic like that around please rec me if you know any #also Dream leaving a monstrous part of himself that existed while in the cage rings very true to me #anyway I hope you enjoy my weird gory love language #own writing #dreamling #tw: gore #it's a dream so #not that bad I hope #dream of the endless #hob gadling

[badolmen]

WARNING 18+

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#ra speaks #it’s a silly joke/pun dw #we stay silly :3 #edit: #woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/ #10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water. #15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :] #20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then #25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today #30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3 #40k. I just slept 9 hours straight for the first time in weeks :] remember to ask for help when you need it! no glory in senseless suffering

[hansoeii]

look at you, you're gorgeous!

#and nothing bad ever happened #this might've been what aziraphale imagined when he asked crowley to come with him #I have returned to tend to your wounds good omens fandom #hope this helps you heal #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens fanart #good omens 2 fanart #aziracrow fanart #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots #ineffable husbands fanart #neil gaiman #david tennant #michael sheen #aziraphale #crowley #my art #digital art #fanart

[vita-divata]

Getting ready for bed~

#my art #korrasami #legend of korra #tlok #asami sato #I wanna practice with more dynamic poses like that :3 #it’s really fun #lemon #kinda #hope tumbl doesn’t do anything bad to this post……..

[broh3m3]

"I-It's a matter of life or death!"

#twisted wonderland #twst #jamil viper #ace trappola #kalim al asim #brohemeart #drawn sometime last year #everytime jamil says he hopes theres no bugs in the guest room i feel a little bad cause theres no way ramshackles not infested

[montanabohemian]

if i see a single one of you pissed that your faves canceled an event or a con appearance because they're striking for fair wages then imma come for you in your sleep 🔪🔪🔪

(direct that fury where it belongs: AMPTP and the execs)

#sag aftra #sagaftra #sag aftra strong #sag aftra strike #union strong #wga strike #PAY THE FUCKING ACTORS AND WRITERS #i hope the execs lose EVERYTHING #sag strike #sag-aftra #(BY THE WAY I'VE MADE A MINOR EDIT ON THE ORIGINAL POST) #in case you're confused: BE PISSED OFF. BUT DIRECT IT AT AMPTP AND THE EXECS. #if you don't get to see your fave at an event or a con? IT IS NOT THE UNION'S FAULT. IT IS THE FAULT OF THE EXECS #AMPTP AND THE EXECS ARE REFUSINGS TO NEGOTIATE IN GOOD FAITH AND ARE REFUSING TO PAY ACTORS AND WRITERS FAIRLY #SUPPORT THE WGA AND SAG STRIKE #if that means you can't see them at a con? then take the money you were gonna spend on that con and donate it #to the entertainment community fund #DIRECT YOUR ANGER WHERE IT BELONGS #WHICH IS AT AMPTP AND THE GREEDY PIECE OF SHIT EXECS #another edit: i forgot to add alt text which is my bad. I HAVE CORRECTED THAT.

[kuchipachi]

loversneverdie.com

#found the website that made hope you find what you’re looking for bumper sticker…… #i fucking need these. i literally just bought two new carabiners the other night but i need these so bad…. #found objects

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#good omens #´hello friends!! how are you!! #I hope you're doing well! ( ´ ▽ ` ) #I have a big cough but otherwise I am good! It's nothign bad I am just very slimey #usually I am not a cough person I am not sure where this is coming from #most of the time I just get a stuffy nose #has my nose gotten stronger #but there are good news too I have already found a VERY good chestnut to put into my pocket this autumn!! its very small! (❁´▽`❁) #it's been a very warm autumn in Germany so far so it has not really felt like fall yet #but yesterday it was all rainy and stormy and I had two new books and it was the best day possible to have a slimey cough (: #and now I feel SO much autumn I am close to buying a set of window colors #I do not know what I would to with the window colors I just have this strong urge in me to buy a window color set #the last time I did a window color was at the birtday of a class mate I think she turned 9 and I made a deer #but for some reason we did this craft 5 minutes before we all had to leave so we had to carry our window color deer home wet #unfortunatly for the deer and me I fell down the stairs of her house and smeared the deer all over me and i screamed the entire drive home #which wasn't very long but it probably felt very long for the mother who had a screaming child covered in window color deer inside her car

[angsty-art-ist]

certified coolkid moment: finding the rotting corpse of your classmate in the woods

#i know the players were mostly focusing on the mystery in this scene. but for the characters that must have been terrifying #i’m so emo about lucy frostblade #i hope she knows that she’s being avenged. i hope she knows her body was found. i hope she knows the rats stood vigil around her grave #arcades art #illustration #procreate #fantasy high #fantasy high d20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high fanart #dimension twenty fanart #dimension 20 fanart #fantasy high dimension 20 #dimension twenty #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #kristen chilis applebees #fabian aramais seacaster #fabian seacaster #fig faeth #figueroth faeth #gorgug thistlespring #adaine o'shaughnessey #adaine abernant #riz gukgak #the bad kids fantasy high #the bad kids #lucy frostblade

[millacm]

mini bad kids ! I'm making this into a sticker to hand out to folks at D20 live in Glasgow !!

#milla's art #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy #fig faeth #adine abernant #gorgug thistlespring #kristen applebees #fabian seacaster #riz gukgak #the bad kids #im so excited for the live show!! hope I make some new friends #if you're also going to glasgow let me know !

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[lieu-rey]

first meeting

#rdr2 #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #issac morgan #man sees baby for the first time ever and is surprised that theyre tiny little creatures #arthur being the man he is mustve had SO many emotions holding issac for the first time. and this is all he manages to say in the moment #im lowkey projecting bc when i met my niece i absolutely REFUSED to hold her until i saw her the second time and i was like. #oh my fucking god shes so fucking tiny #anyway. i hope nothing bad happens to them ever<3 #btw arthurs clothes come from an edit of a young version of him that i saw #and i also saw a video of someone managing to find a repurposed model of eliza in rdr2s data and shes got dark hair! #so i gave issac dark hair (and arthurs blue eyes<3) #arthurs definitrly into people with dark hair #pspspspsp arthur i have dark hair pspspspspspspsp #AHEM anyway- #sorry i cant draw babies even tho i see one all the time now LMFAO #my art

[obey-me-but-bad]

3 : Home Sweet Home

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#i hope you know that the line thickness and paneling and arms/hands are not going to be consistent ever #obey me but bad #obey me #obey me lucifer #obey me mc #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan

[hexedwithluck]

old sedusas :3

#sedusa #ppg #powerpuff girls #ima goodlady #i actually don't even remember if it was her or if it was angewomon who was my first cartoon crush #i wanted to be her so bad LOL #anyway i hope she's in the upcoming re-reboot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if that's still a thing???? :(((( #my art

[acertainmoshke]

I've been having a tough time lately, and when I don't have the energy for everything keeping up with social media is one of the first things I slip on. But I still care about all my writing buddies, so:

Reblog if you're not offended when people take a long time to answer asks, forget to reply to your replies, lag behind in tag games, or skip several weekly ask games.

#writeblr is so important to me and I get so scared people will think I'm a bad friend or don't care #but I can barely keep up with my own actual life right now #moshke writes #writeblr #also I'm not judging anyone for not reblogging this I don't believe in reblog bait #but I hope a few people who are up for it do

[lady-harrowhark]

love when people say the locked tomb books are confusing. correct. that's what we're here for. tamsyn muir dumped us in the middle of the story and said "cope." we're lucky if we even know who our main character is.

#as if that's a bad thing 🙄 #i hope i never fully understand these books and that's the truth #i want to be picking crumbs out of their crevices on my 93rd reread #the locked tomb #tamsyn muir #tlt #greatest hits