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loadedberetta · 7 months

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I'm cruel. breakup hcs for the boys with associated music (written by yours truly; an aro) and for fem reader

cw breakups???, (mean feelings, fighting)

you and Gaz fall out of love. it's slow, it's agonizing, and both of you can feel it. it lingers, gnaws at your insides, your soul. not a distaste toward the other, rather... nothingness- you want to love him, it's just that you're empty, both of you husks as love escaped you slowly.

you sit down and try to talk about it until one of you rips the bandaid off; but letting go is not that easy. it goes on for a while, on and off, little fights, and emotionless sex. sometimes you cry, other days it's the both of you. it finally ends with one last goodbye one night, and no good morning text ever again.

he's gone, but he leaves his mark. long time passes before you realize one day you haven't thought of him for a while.

Johnny and you never really were together. it was always open, never committing to anything; neither of you brave enough to label what you shared. there was a passion, something that ignited each time he looked at you, touched you...

but it became too much, violent, and aggressive as he crawled back to you each time you pushed him away, and vice versa. there was always something that helped you look past eachothers' red flags. no option to move on as long as you fed on eachother... it culminated in big fight; until you were both exhausted, utterly spent, and there were no more tears left to cry. then radio silence.

you don't see him for a long time after that. and the next time you see him, you pass him on the street as if he weren't there. you'd been killing your ankles by wearing heels for weeks for the occasion if you run into him, so you could level with him and claim moral high ground.

no hellos, no nothing, you pass eachother by. your heels clicking with your each agonizing step.

Ghost... well, you never saw him truly. there wasn't enough time to see all of him. he got cold feet way too quick.

pushing you away with all his might, no matter how gently or roughly you approached him. nothing seemed to work. he kept such high walls that it didn't feel like a breakup, rather just a big fight culminating one night in something more. words were thrown around, as you see there's no way out of this, you tell him how you truly feel about being treated how he has been handling you; rough, and with no caution to your wellbeing. he said mean things in return about you. hurtful, vile; his emotions ran rampant. as if a wildcat, cornered, he was lashing out and scratching everything in his path without a second thought.

he packed his stuff afterward and you never saw him again. questions hung in the air. you didn't delete his number, and to this day you keep seeing him in your periphery every now and then; dissipating into fragments of your damaged soul when you turn and look to face him.

you and John met way too soon after his divorce. he needed something to get his mind off of it all, and you were there, eager to give yourself and everything at your disposal to and for him.

but you were never her. you could never be her. that perfect woman, closer in age to John than you were, a person he could imagine having a family with. but you were too sweet for that, too free and way too independent. he found it exciting and was happy for a while. but you couldn't change your ways. it went on for a long time, there was even talk about marriage... but it never came. you felt caged, and it bubbled out of you one night. he understood, listening to you and agreeing with what you were saying. that was the only time you'd seen him cry. and the next morning, you packed your stuff together and left. no fighting, no trying to hold you back, although in the back of your mind you wished he did.

for years, the urge to reach out to him haunted you, but you never did, knowing it was good that it ended when it did.

(a/n: well this one happened to turn out super fucking sad I'm sorry, I don't know what possessed me to write this, I don't usually write about this)

#I'M SO SORRY #I'm not projecting I'm really not #nothing like this has eeever happened to me #berettalks #task force 141 headcanons #task force 141 #tf 141 #cod 141 #task force 141 x reader #cod mw2 #gaz cod #soap cod #ghost cod #price cod #simon ghost riley x you #kyle garrick x reader #soap x you #john price x reader #Spotify

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arotechno · 2 years

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sometimes i think about the early days of me identifying as aro, and often i try hard not to preach about The Old Days because it's not like they were better, but i think for a lot of people newer to the community it's not always clear how surreal the past few years have been for me and many others.

i'm NOT that old. i'm only in my 20s and i've known i was aroace for less than ten years. but sometimes even that is enough to make me feel ancient. i remember when there were just, basically no dedicated aro spaces. very few aro blogs on tumblr. impossible to find aro merch, barely any aro creators on youtube and the like. we hadn't even unified around the current flag yet, in fact we were a couple iterations behind. ace stuff too, there were a lot more ace blogs and youtubers etc. than aro ones, and AVEN was already a long-standing thing, but still far less than there is now.

i'm sure if i was a bit more persistent and a lot less 15 and scared i could have found more out there, but the point stands that aro communities in 2014 were extremely insular. offline, i was the only aro person i knew, and i was deep in the closet. i only learned about being aro by accident, and i had to navigate it on my own. it took me more than a year to actually say it out loud, to myself in the mirror, because i couldn't externalize it. there was never a moment of relief at realizing who i was. it was a dawning understanding of something i always knew, and then it became my deepest secret, because there was nobody i could tell who'd understand. i didn't make aro friends online until much later.

the aspec community online, on tumblr especially, was decimated in those intervening years, and i had the "benefit" of already being closeted during those times, so i avoided the worst of the harassment that people who were openly aspec online were getting. but it did push me further into the closet and leave me with significant issues. but then, things got a little better. aro blogs started popping up. in fact, i won't name names because i'll embarass us all but if you're seeing this and you ran an aro blog in 2017ish, thank you, because you are literally the reason i decided it was safe to be openly aspec on tumblr again, and here i am.

of course, nothing is ever perfect. every community has both internal and external problems, and we're still working on ours. we've got a lot to fight for. and every time i think about all the culture and terminology we lost in the mid 2010s, i do get a little sad. but during pride month this year, i drove past a storefront that had pride flags painted in the window, and i almost started crying on the bus, because one of them was an aro flag. it was the first time i'd ever seen an aro flag in person that i didn't own.

for me, being aro was very isolating for years and sometimes still is. it's surreal (in a good way!) when i hear that kids now have multiple out aro friends irl, because it was only ever just me. but i think about myself as a young teenager, alone trying to string together an aro pride bracelet for myself in my bedroom, and to have known that in 8 years i'd be out, i'd have a community, i'd cry on public transit during pride month... well, i just wouldn't have believed it at all.

#aro #aromantic #aro community #op #long post #no literally if you were here in 2017 even if you don't have an aro blog now even if you no longer id as aro #i owe you one and will never forget that #y'all were the bravest people in the world to me

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the-s1lly-corner · 10 months

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Which of the creepypastas would be okay with an asexual s/o?

Creepypastas w/ an ace!reader!

yahoo!! sorry for taking so long to get to this!! i kinda had a small lil slump for a few days but im back!! sorry for any typos or if these seem... bllluguuguh!!! im still trying to get through that lil slump so my brains still a lil... boo!!! obligatory these are with characters that i think would be compatible with an ace reader so this isnt going to follow my base/go to list of characters! a lot of these are going to dip into admins experience as someone on the ace spectrum (asexual/aegosexual!) reader is written as vague ace identity but like. mostly involved to be ace. admittedly this leans more into most of this being ace hcs since i think for the most part they dont care/dont find issue with your identity

Characters: Slenderman, Trenderman, Eyeless Jack, Masky

CWs: mentions of sex but like. nothing too bad mostly just vague sex drives and that sort of thing, really!

Slenderman;

honestly i think he might be on the ace spectrum, or maybe thats because i dont think he really knows what sex /is/

okay well he does know what it is but he only understands it on a surface level, but otherwise he doesnt really care much for it in an everyday setting

yeah i think hes on the spectrum; i also think he might be on the aro spectrum!

only really initiates intimacy if you want it (reminder that not all aces dont have sex! attraction stuff is the main thing) but otherwise i would write him the same way as i do with a non-asexual reader!

extra headannon since his is kinda short but really hes probably the most supportive out of any creepypasta simply because i like to write him as this entity that doesnt interact much with others but is still. curious. this man does not know what lgbtphobia is (and thinks its dumb when he does find out!)

Trenderman;

very similar with slenderman but more in tuned with identity stuff and things like that

personally i hc him to be greysexual, or demisexual! i think trender is like. the only one out of the 3 brothers (that i claim) that i dont see being ready to get down and dirty? like unlike slender he KNOWS what it is and understands attraction and all that but just doesnt. feel it

so he gets it! he interacts with people more than slender but like. not openly, i mean like not as himsef?! this is kind of a side tangent but i like to think that slender beings can create false human bodies and trender is the main one who uses it

anyways! im kind of getting off topic

he understands the stigma and hate ace people can get so out of the four characters today i think he would be the most likely to offer an ear when youre getting flack

i wish i had more for trender as well but this is genuinely the first time ive written for him so im still all OWOWOOOUGH!! with how i wanna portray him

speaking of i need to do like a catch up post for him, and some other characters so i might do that soon^^

Eyeless Jack;

okay so! the two above characters are fine with it because theyre on the spectrum above but i feel like eyeless jack just outright doesnt care if your ace or not since he has a fairly low sex drive 99% of the time

sappy man, one of those "i prefer people based on their personality rather than their looks" but not in the "im so deep for this and im lying through my teeth" way i (personally) see people say (school was ROUGH man) but in a "im literally turning into a monster my skin is fucking blue and starting to rot i have no place to say anything" way

anyways

he adores you so so much and he really feels like he doesnt deserve you, bro could not care

probably tries to find flowers around his cabin that make up the ace flag/which ever flag you use

though im not sure how many grey flowers there are... hes trying his best!

Masky;

similar to eyeless jack he has a low sex drive imo so it isnt too much of a big deal to him, plus i think hes graysexual? at least i feel like he would if he knew about the label

i think asides slender and trender, he doesnt know much about this sort of thing so youre probably going to explain it to him

he mostly gets it! he gets things mixed up but hes trying his best!

overall supportive bf!! probably steals a pride pin from somewhere (dont ask)

imagine he grabs the wrong pin/j

wweoeoeohh! i hope this post is okay! admittedly i wasnt sure how this was going to turn out since, as stated above, i feel that a lot of the characters wouldnt mind/are on the spectrum themselves im not gonna lie this couldve been better but im so out of it rn that my brain is all scattered n stuff :( regardless i hope this is sufficient, and once again im so sorry for the wait TToTT

#creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x you #creepypasta headcanon #slenderman x reader #slenderman x you #trenderman x reader #trenderman x you #eyeless jack x you #eyeless jack x reader #masky x you #masky x reader

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thatsgoodsquishy0 · 7 months

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WIP Wednesday!

Tagging: @fangbangerghoul @spookyspecterino @bearlytolerant @aro-pancake @aislingdmdt @silurisanguine @dryad-of-the-dogwood @5oh5 & YOU!! Share your WIP’s!!

What started as a silly little one shot babysitter au turned into something way more creatively powerful than I thought, and by that I mean this fucking idea has highjacked my attention morning, day, and night.

Needless to say, I’m very excited to share this with you!

A Reader/Sam Coe POV fic set during Sam’s younger years, in which he was a Freestar Ranger working with his wife, Lillian Hart, as the two (really one…) care for their toddler daughter, Cora. As circumstance, and impossible luck, would have it, you’re desperate for a place to stay and the Coe’s need a nanny. You take a shine to Cora and the kindness of The Coe’s, eventually realizing the toll Lillian’s absence has taken on both her daughter and husband. He’s charismatic, sweet, and undeniably lonely. His job no longer fulfills him and his wife seems to prioritize her career over her family. You want nothing more than to comfort him, show him the same kindness you were shown the moment they blasted through on that spaceship, the moment they untied your hands, the moment they saved you from a fate worse than death, the moment your history became their history — something not so easily shaken despite your new start.

But chemistry is a strange mistress, and so are the morals of the heart.

I hope you enjoy this little sneak peek!

“Anton,” you say, fighting the lump in your throat. “You’re late.” The ceiling light glared against his earrings, matching his dubious grin as he planted himself to the ground.

“Angel. It is so good to see you again,” his russian accent stung in your ears like a bee sting. “You remember Dmitri. Boris.” He motioned to the men that hung behind him like pack dogs. You’d only seen these men a few times during Anton’s benders, or was it the glow of their hungry eyes you saw against the blackness of the drug den? Even now, darkness cloaked their unkempt presence. The hairs on the nape of your neck stood up as they stared at you.

A rock hardened in your stomach the moment you spotted the twine loosely wrapped around Dmirtri’s hands.

“I — I just came for my books,” you barely managed.

“I know dat. I’m just surprised you aren’t happy to see me,” he frowned, like a scorned lover. His grin strengthened, excitement lining the sickness of his smile the moment you eyed the rope “Are you not happy to see Anton?”

The door shrunk away from you. Your feet froze, as if you’d just stepped in freshly poured concrete. As it hardened, you gulped down your breath, your heartbeat thundered inside your chest as you forced yourself to speak. “I’m — I’m here for my books.” A pause. None of the men moved. Your pulse sped up. “Where are they?”

“Tsk. Tsk. Why do you bother with such old things?”

“Anton — “

“I do not have your books. After you left them, I … realized, they are of no use to me.”

“W-What?” An ache filled the back of your throat as you imagined him dumping the books into the ocean, on a strange planet, burning them, literally anything that disposed of your hard work and history’s greatest literary callbacks. “Where are they?” You asked again, your teeth clenched and fists balled. Your eyes bulged out of their sockets.

“Nowhere you need to concern yourself with ever again.” He snapped his fingers. Dmiriti and Boris charged like bulls as if you held a red flag. Your limbs twitched as adrenaline pumped through your body. You dodged his henchmen’s grip and bolted towards the door. Your ankle twisted as you ducked their trap a second time, ignoring the sharp pain as you turned and bolted away. The exit was so close. You just had to keep moving.

#it started out with a prompt how did it end up like this #expect lots of angst and lots of filthy smut because why the fuck not #thank you to my lovely friends who greenlit the idea for me and encouraged me to see where it might go #coemancer #starfield fanfiction

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arofili · 1 year

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@arospecfanworksweek day one | non-sam aros | círdan

The sea has always called to him, but unlike his brethren it is the waves themselves that bring him peace, not the promise of a paradise beyond. The waves are indifferent; they are constant; they are ever-changing. They are only themselves. And upon these shores, Círdan can be nothing but himself, and feel complete.

definition | flag | picrew

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web-novel-polls · 10 months

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Aroace-spec Tournament Round 1

The aroace-spec tournament will be a double-elimination tournament with 4 matches in Round 1. Polls will start Thursday, August 10th, 2023, at noon CST & remain open for 1 week (close August 17th).

Round 1

Chung Myung vs. Shu Yanyan

Kim Dokja vs. Baek Suryong

Zhao Yue vs. Cale Henituse

Song Lan vs. Liu Mingyan

Tag: #aroace spec round 1

Round 2

Shen Qingqiu vs. [Winner of Chung Myung vs. Shu Yanyan]

Yin Hanjiang vs. Wenren È

Xie Lian vs. Cheng Qian

[Winner of Kim Dokja vs. Baek Suryong] vs. Liu Qingge

Chu Wanning vs. [Winner of Zhao Yue vs. Cale Henituse]

Wen Ning vs. Mu Qing

Feng Xin vs. Wen Qing

[Winner of Song Lan vs. Liu Mingyan] vs. Jiang Cheng

Competitor List in Order of Seed under the cut

Shen Qingqiu from Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System

Submission 1: Gay Asexual

I mean have you met the man? "Assuming you're straight because you feel nothing towards either sex but you have to be the default, right? before realizing you're romantically attracted to someone but not realizing you're romantically attracted to someone because it doesn't feel like sexual attraction which is how allos explain what love is until the romantic attraction hits you like a sledge hammer" is both a common ace experience and absolutely his story arc. Also I would have submitted him sooner but I thought he was a shoe in

Submission 2:

Asexual, somewhere on the aro spectrum - I would have submitted him earlier but based on the tags I assumed I wouldn't need to and didn't want op to be spammed with too many submissions ;_; anyhow he's here now!

Mod Propaganda

Was completely okay with not marrying anyone (because all the women in the world “belong to the protagonist”)

So fucking weird about sex. He has to mentally contort his brain seven ways to Sunday to even IMAGINE fucking someone (earning him the title of “most homophobic gay person”)

“He’s not gay, Binghe is”

Reads bad erotica and then complains about the plot inconsistencies

Accidentally wife beams/romances pretty much every single character he meets

Jiang Cheng from the Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Submission 1: romantic and sex indifferent aroace

I love that guy, he’s the most aroace guy I’ve ever met. and his outfit is literally the ace flag plus he’s like wearing a ring that looks a lot like wearing a ring that looks a lot like the ace ring. and the fact that he has no canon love interest and is never shown to want a romantic or sexual relationship. he gives me very “romance is something other people do, I just don’t care for it, I got other things to do” you get me??

Submission 2: Aroace

Despite people trying to convince him to get married/get an heir, in 13 years he never finds someone. His list of bride qualities is absurd to the point of "no one like this exists so I'll never have to get married". Is grossed out by displays of sexual attraction. Purple

Submission 3: Both

No spouse. Wears ace colors. Case closed.

Chu Wanning from the Husky and His White Cat Shizun

Mod Propaganda

Mo Ran “unlocking” his sexual desire….ok

Yeah, that’s pretty much it, but it’s pretty definitive. He doesn’t really experience sexual attraction until a little bit after they start dating idk what you want me to say

I wouldn’t say he’s aromantic or aro-spec bc it was more that he was in love with Mo Ran for years, but he’s definitely ace-spec. If he wasn’t, he’d probably be attracted to SOMEONE, but he’s explicitly not even sexually attracted to Mo Ran (who he has a crush on) until much, much later (like, after getting together later), from what I remember.

And in comparison, Mo Ran… experiences a lot of sexual and romantic attraction to different people but doesn’t seem to show/experience it as much after he falls in love with Chu Wanning. It’s clear that he had it for other people, but he’s now devoted to Chu Wanning; even if he was attracted to someone else, I doubt it would be mentioned. Chu Wanning, however, definitely has not experienced sexual attraction to anyone other than Mo Ran, and that was only AFTER they started dating.

Liu Qingge from Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System

Submission 1: Gay Grayace

He spends most of his life with one interest and that's fighting and then when he falls for a man he's confused by it and proceeds to flirt in the most awkward way possible. Also he has the grey-white-sometimes purple colour scheme

Submission 2: Aroace

The idea of him being asexual is presented right there on the page and you can't take that away from me. Yes I think he is in love with sqq yes I also think he is aroace. He can be both!

Submission 3: Asexual/Ace-spec

I think he’s sex repulsed given his icy or horrified reactions when sexual topics are discussed. He was also once forcibly aroused when hit by an aphrodisiac, and he responded in a way that implied he had never experienced that before. Additionally, his instinct was not to do anything sexual, but to commit acts of violence.

Mod Propaganda

Canonically not interest in romance by word of God

MXTX: “[Liu Qingge] isn't interested in Shen Qingqiu. He isn't interested in anyone. He's only interested in fighting. He wants to be the strongest and the best.” (Source)

Canonically had no clue he was sexually aroused in the Succubi Extra / interpreted it as “wanting to fight” (which isn’t the same as not experiencing sexual attraction, but that’s also not a trademark of allosexuality)

Speaking of, he never specifically seems interested in Shen Qingqiu romantically or sexually - he’s usually shipped with him bc of his devotion, not a clear desire for romance. Though that’s pretty much just up for personal interpretation

Xie Lian from Heaven Official’s Blessing

Submission 1: Demisexual

He's heavily demi coded. Man has no interest in sex what so ever for 800 years and then makes a strong personal connection to one (1) person and is shocked when he's suddenly interested

Submission 2: Demisexual

I think he is demisexual. He was canonically celibate for 800+ years and doesn’t seem to have too much of a problem with it, until he meets and binds with the love interest. Suddenly this whole celibacy thing becomes difficult.

Seeing a character similar to me was an amazing experience and I think he deserves all the love!

Mu Qing from Heaven Official’s Blessing

Mod Propaganda

He’s sworn off sex for, like, 800+ years, and also had no romantic relationships during that time (as far as we know).

Feng Xin from Heaven Official’s Blessing

Submission: Sex Averse Asexual and Aromantic

He had a sexual relationship with one (1) woman and had such a bad time he developed a fear of women in general. Also, he's a very good archer, so he has to be an aroace lolgetit?

Wenren È from Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know

Submission 1: Asexual

I haven't actually read this book yet but I've heard it's ace as hell and I wanted to make sure he was submitted

Submission 2: Asexual demiromantic

Resubmitting him because I have now read the book. And oh boy. He is not allo. He spends the whole book being confused about love and romance, and why that, specifically, would be such a huge motivator for people. He has no interest in it besides how it affects someone else and causes them problems. He falls in love by the end but he still doesn't understand how love works for other people at all

Mod Propaganda

“Wenren È cultivated the Path of Slaughter, and when he saw a beautiful woman, his first thought would be what kind of difference there was to fight a woman versus a man.” - Ch.6

The beginning part of the story is just him trying to understand what romance is and why a novel is saying he was in love with Baili Qingmiao.

Interprets “love is always seeing the other person” as “I should force Baili Qingmiao to be able to physically see this boy at all times”

He eventually becomes stupidly in love with Yin Hanjiang, but it’s a Journey. He clearly does not experience/understand romantic and sexual attraction until then.

Yin Hanjiang from Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know

Submission 1: Asexual

I haven't read this book yet but I heard it was ace as hell and I wanted to make sure he got into the poll

Submission 2: Demisexual demiromantic

Resubmitting him too because, having read the book, he is also not allo. He very clearly draws a line between love and desire, which allo people usually don't do. He spends the entire book being fairly platonically loyal to Wenren E and then when someone explains what love is and he notices that it lines up with how he feels about Wenren E, he's mad about it. Plus the aroace feeling of falling in love with someone and having that shake your entire being to the core. Also, when asked, he doesn't know what love is, but none of the characters in this book do, so.

Mod Propaganda

Literally only cares about Wenren È

“And as for Yin Hanjiang, he actually seemed to deeply believe he was an ice-cold sword, blind and heartless, not caring if what was in front of him was a man, woman, or beast, so long as it wasn’t Wenren È.” - Ch.6

One of the only characters that’s clearly in love/obsessed with someone at the very beginning, but the story clearly talks about how he Only Likes Wenren È specifically, romantically and sexually (probably. Haven’t gotten that far).

Anyway, demisexual and demiromantic.

Wen Qing from the Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Submission: Lesbian Asexual

She just has the vibe. Trust me, I'm ace

Wen Ning from the Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Submission 1: Aromantic ("A Good Aro Boi")

He never shows any kind of romantic interest in anyone. He's definitely in a QPR with Wei Wuxian and tangentially Lan Wangji though.

Cheng Qian from Liu Yao: the Revitalization of Fuyao Sect

Submission: Sex Favorable Asexual

He has the Vibes

Kim Dokja from Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint

Submission 1: demiromantic graysexual, romance/sex indifferent

bc yoohankim is the most qpr qpr to ever qpr

Submission 2: demiromantic graysexual

yoohankim is soo queerplatonic it makes my chest hurt. and ysa and kdj are THE qpr ever. also i read the submissions list and my jaw deadass dropped when i saw that someone else had the exact same kdj hcs as me like asjdnghfdhdbn!ksnk#**#*@*

Cale Henituse from Lout of the Count’s Family

Submission: Aroace

Not a speck of romantic interest in this man. The only thing he wants to do in bed is sleep

Song Lan from the Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Submission: Asexual or Demisexual

I love whenever I'm reading fic where he is ace-spec it feels very correct

Shu Yanyan from Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know

Submission: Hypersexual Aromantic

She likes the sex. She loves the sex. Sex is how she does cultivation. But she states multiple times that she would never settle down with anyone, and when asked what love is she has no idea. Everyone should read this book

Chung Myung from Return of the Mount Hua Sect

Submission: Aroace

He's so aroace! to me!! He's hard on the outside, but soft on the inside, no matter what he wants us to believe. He also says it multiple times that what he loves the most is the Mount Hua sect! He clearly loved his father/older brother figure, and his best friend, and thinks of them every chapter (they have passed away). And his current friends!! I wasn't expecting them to 'found family' this hard and fast, but they did! These kids care about each other so much </3

Liu Mingyan from Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System

Submission:

Aroacespec Liu sibs ftw! Only one of og!Binghe's wives he doesn't have sex scenes with. Writes freaky smut fanfic but has no canon love interest of her own (apart from binghe/in the svsss timeline) despite being an unparalled beauty, which is aroacespec behavior

Zhao Yue from The Bandit’s Strategy / Tu Fei Gong Lue

Submission: demisexual & demiromantic

He has a whole mental monolgue about how when he was a teenager, he never experienced neither sexual nor romantic attraction, when all other boys his age around him seemed to - and how he thought this was simply something that wasn't in his fate. And that this only changed after he met, & spent a lot of time with (the other half of main couple) Wen Liunian. (This happened when Zhao Yue was in his twenties)..........To me, this felt like the closest the author could come to describing a character as demi without using the actual word.

Baek Suryong from Best Teacher Baek

Submission: Aroace

Suryong ignores and shoots down, but mostly plainly doesn't notice any flirting attempts. Rather the ones he does notice make him uncomfortable. He shows no interest in either sex or romance, despite meeting many people he'd describe as beautiful. Found a neat lifehack for having children without the pesky inbetween process, and has since picked up a bunch of disciples. When thinking about his future he doesn't considered marriage, or romantic relationships, as future goals. At one point we get a side character's POV, who talks about the many lovestruck people around him. Said romantic attention just never shows up in his own POV.

#aroace spec character tournament #aroace spec round 1 #brackets #aroace spec brackets #long post #my posts

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pollyna · 2 years

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On this queer house (and I'm sorry for the running comments? annnd it got shippy lol):

Class '86:

Wolfman: gay but when the kids start using the moronsexual name he starts to identify with that because he married Hollywood, didn't he?

Hollywood: gay and he would like to say to his husband that he's the moron, not him, get it?

Sundown: bi

Chipper: bi

Slider: bi even if thought he was straight for the longest of times (did know u were that old, Ronnie)

Iceman: gay/homosexual/gay (the day he comes out to Ron he would liked to answer: and during summer the sand is hot. Something other earth breaking truth I should made aware of?)

Goose: queer (he serenades them and leaves them with a broken heart, and then Carole comes around and his brain fries once and for all)

Maverick: the bi king

Cougar: he's probably gay but he's repressed af so he says he's the most heterosexual person on this and other planets (I read too many past!cougar/iceman where he breaks iceman's heart to not be of part)

Merlin: not enough informations on him but after surviving being Mav's backset he will probably reconsider half of his life

Jester & Viper: they're tired dads™️ nothing else is required by them, that's says more than anything else.

People around the '86 class:

Carole: bi

Charlie: bi? (me🤝charlie: questioning her sexuality)

Class '22(?):

Rooster: bi (the tale wants that Bradley realised he was bi while putting milk in his cereal, at the tender age of 13, obtaining to spill milk everywhere and on his uncle Tom's uniform too)

Hangman: gay (the day he did coming out with Javy he presented himself drapped in rainbow flag because he had to make an entrance. He was fifteen and Javy was still asleep. The cuddle a lot after because Javy was still sleeping Seresin.)

Coyote: he's the tired bisexual of the group for the love of god someone should give this man a break

Phoenix: greyro bisexual (she is the dangerous thing Halo sleeps with. Who needs a knife or a gun when she is there)

Bob: aroace (his&Phe queerplatonic relationship is life. Apparently in this language is known as the ay-ay spectrum bc you can't pronounce the a someone should give bob the maracas to play as introduction when they ask him his sexuality)

Halo: aro lesbian (Phe says she kisses her in the softest and more determined way someone has ever kissed her)

Omaha: biromantic asexual (flying as backset with Halo give him time to talk about shit he isn't really comfortable talking with everybody around)

Payback: gay (when he was five he asked his mom if he could fall in love with a plane because they were absolutely the best thing ever. Now he thinks the same everytime he looks at Mickey)

Fanboy: pan (his granma ironed the the flag for his first pride because don't you dare going around with that thing all wrinkled)

Harvard: greysexual homoromantic (his bio on Instagram says, Harvard graduate, medical doctor, Naval aviator, my other half snors)

Yale: gay (he's a big fan of ds9 and most of his photos have a quote of the tvshow expect from when he postes about Harvard, than is poetry. It's nauseating, the entire squad hates and loves it.)

Fritz: raging bi with a little application for older people that everybody in the NAVY knows about (see his crush on Admiral Kazansky)

People around the '22 class:

Cyclone: he's bi but he won't let anyone knows because he's not weak

Hondo: pan (his wife made him a patch that he wears for all June and it has the dagger squad insigna in but it isn't in black and white but in blue, pink and yellow)

Warlock: queer (he says the term fits quiet well with him and honest to God Navy is already hard enough without him having to question his own label. His cat is the most affectionate creature this planet has ever saw and sometimes he takes her to work because it's a good antistress and leaves Cyclone and his problems out of his door)

Penny: bi™️ (she meets Charlie, at someone point along the line, and they have a sort of rebound night because of Maverick but it stops being about Maverick 0.01 second after they kiss.)

#everybody's queer in this house don't fight me #but we can talk about it and discuss them for sure #the 86' class #the 20(22?)' class #the people around them too #lgbtqia+ characters #hope i haven't forgot anyone 🌈#i'm not going to tag everyone or the shippy part it would take me a lifetime #but i'm going to say this: warlock is the tuvok of tpg:mav #top gun(1986)#top gun: maverick

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vintageseawitch · 1 year

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if there are any twilight book sequels written then published, i promise to look up spoilers because if i find out the Volturi decide to create hybrids of their own (🤢🤮) then i will refuse to read let alone own them. as curious as Aro may be about it, it's horrendous that he would try it out himself. the creation of hybrids is legitimately terrifying body horror to me & even Aro's "indifference" towards humans doesn't automatically make him a psychopath about this sort of thing.

Aro, despite his penchant for ruthlessness, is a softie, too. i like to imagine the thought of putting a uterus-owner through such a specific & horrific form of torture fills him with revulsion & guilt. yes, humans are red-eyed vampires' food, but even humans get disturbed at the thought of animals they consume going through needless pain especially for selfish reasons.

at this point the canon of this silly franchise means approximately shit to me so if smeyers decides to make her refined, considerably more interesting clan of vampires into true monsters, she can fuck right off because they deserve better than that. they're not villains simply because they're doing what is natural to them & the Cullens are a creepier cult than the Volturi will ever be. at least everyone knows that the three kings are dangerous. the Cullens are too busy being gentrified hypocrites (completely beige & lacking a good, old-fashioned dungeon & set of coffins... the dark drama is what draws us to vampires in the first place & someone like Forever Emo Teenager McWalking Red Flag scoffs at such things like a good little boring creeper on top of them actually not giving a damn about humans considering how in midnight sun it's clear they wouldn't have batted an eye at killing bella because said little boring creeper - or the prodigal son 🙄 - can barely control himself around her like it's her problem to deal with. glob i hate that & his losing control around her would make their "lives" a Little Bit Uncomfortable lmao) with Whatever The Fuck Weird Dynamic they have going on.

if anyone would be cruel anyways, it would be Caius out of the three kings, but i refuse to believe even he would go that far. a part of it is the thought of needing to be close to a human like that would disgust him but another is at least when they feed it's quick. if anyone is to endure a terribly long torture it would be Nahuel's biological father because he's a real monster. like, yes, somehow the Volturi never found out about hybrids, but they never went & tried to find out what would happen themselves.

i like to think the more the three kings researched it the more horrified they would be, but that could just be my biases & preferences showing. bella & edward's daughter displays disturbingly similar compulsory "abilities" or however one would describe them like Immortal Children because everyone's sudden pull to her after she touched them is WAY too similar to the enchantment vampires experience around the latter type of child so i think the Volturi (especially Jane) would be weirded out by that connection considering how long they've studied them.

i'm not saying every hybrid is like bella & edward's kid, but i'm pretty sure Aro noticed that neither she nor the rest of the family really like or trust the Volturi that much PLUS the Romanians are some of her favorite vamps. pretty sure that has put the Volturi on their guard (so to speak) (also Carlisle what the FUCK why are you being so weird about the Volturi. why tf does edward have his stupid attitude about them whyyyy make them your enemy especially considering the drama in new moon & eddie blatantly disrespecting the ancient group by expecting them to be Suicide Assistance as though that's what they're there for & have nothing better to do & Aro doing you a MASSIVE favor). ya know, as pretty as he's portrayed in the movies, i'm liking him as a character less & less (he's the biggest hypocrite of them all & playing a dangerous game of delusions - like hun, sorry, but no matter how much you pretend, you are not a human any longer & maybe you don't realize it (or WANT to) but you totally think you're better than humans seeing as you bend their rules especially if it's for your extremely problematic red-headed "son" - but THEN AGAIN you're certainly good at wiping out local wildlife like big predators so maybe you're more like humans than you think & i mean that as a slur).

i totally get derailed in my little rants on here & i'm only a little bit embarrased since this is pretty much how my brain works & how i talk lmao so tl;dr if the Volturi become the worst kind of monsters in future books when it comes to hybrids (aka "making their own" 🤢🤢🤢🤮🤮🤮), smeyers can fuck right off some more & the Cullens & their creepy cult & creepier hybrid kid are the worst. i still like Emmett though even if he chooses to stick around the problematic bunch (pretty sure Carlisle has a gift as well; it's amazing that so many vampires are not only able to live with each other peacefully but rigidly stick to a diet that is unnatural to their kind - a kind of creature that follows their instincts above almost most things. oh Carlisle, you certainly transferred your wild need to repress almost too exceedingly well).

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aroclan · 1 year

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recently as i queue this, i came across a question to @alloaro-azelf that i wanted to write my own answer to:

4 - Which did you figure out first- that you were aromantic or that you were allosexual? Or both at the same time?

aromantic definitely came first, because i learned it first. i pretty much self-discovered aromantic while trying to work out the meaning of "aces can still love!" because, to me, there didn't seem to be a point to dating for its own sake. i thought "romance" was nothing more than an extremely elaborate euphemism.

(i had forgotten about 'friends with benefits.' i did not understand at the time how that was not a romance, either.)

so! i started my blog on just 'aromantic', using the green-to-white-to-black 5-stripe flag as my icon. over time, i noticed a pervasive "aro=ace" assumption, and i wanted to be louder about being allo aro. because both things are deeply important to my experience. luckily, just a few days later, the green-and-gold flag was proposed. it's been my icon ever since.

(I figured there would be a lot of similar icons. So mine has always said "AC" in it, in teal.)

#aro allo #aro #queue

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anxiouslyfred · 2 years

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Merged Names

for @aro-sides-week prompt of queerplatonic

Summary: Their group of friends mixed their names together to make friendship names when they were young and Remus was happy with that. Now their friends are partnering off and putting relationships above their friendship and he reconsidering Virgil’s suggestion of a QPR.

Relationships: QPR Remus& Virgil& Roman, Background Thomceit and Logicality

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It started as children, with one of those memory book things full of games to play together. The twins had gotten it as a treat for not causing chaos in the bookshop. It mentioned creating a friendship in the first few pages so of course everyone they were friends with was trying to make ones which sounded good. The ones Remus could remember still, mostly because they all still got used occasionally were things like: Romus, Thoman, Logton, Logil, Jangil and so many more. Just with 7 friends it feels like there are limitless combinations of names.

They hadn't known about ship names, or perhaps it hadn't been a things back then, so nobody thought for a second that this could seem romantic. Roman even came up with an absurd conglomeration of names meant to be the friendship name for the entire group. He made certificates even, declaring nothing would ever be more important that the friendship of PatJanRoMusMasGilAn.

Even after the discovery of shipping and name mixing to indicate romance, none of them ever really gave up their friendship names. When Patton and Logan started dating they even went so far as to find a new name to be their ship name, Logicality. It took longer to explain how they reached that name than it did for anyone to accept they were dating now.

The names were also what lead to Remus discovering the term aromantic. He described learning it on a trip down and LGBT-tastic internet black hole but what had started that was wondering if there were specific ship names for friendships or brotherly relationships. He'd just wanted to see what his group of friends did done by others or for fictional characters. Remus had immediately added it to the list of labels he threw out when nosy fools refused to accept queer as his identity, all true to varying degree but somehow aro felt the most right.

Virgil was the one who frowned upon hearing different labels whenever someone new and eventually asked, “So which of your many identities is most important to you?”

Hearing the question meant the world. Of course Roman knew, regular messages about their projects meant he picked up on the flag which appeared most often in Remus's creations, but knowing someone cared enough to honestly ask. Remus beamed, “Aro. MY archery really has been improving. It's fantastic for harvesting orchards.”

“Cool, so you don't want romance at all, what about a QPR?” Virgil snorted at the joke, but carried on asking his question.

Remus shrugged, gesturing broadly to the room they were waiting for the rest of their friend to arrive for a game night in, “Meh, I've got the Patjanromusmasgilan's still. It's enough for me.”

And it was, while only Logicality were an official romance and had never treated friendship as less important, Remus was fine with his big friendship septagon.

Then Thomceit became a thing and even if Thomas still treated their friends the same, Janus was keeping more time for dates than he had in previous relationships. It made Remus wish the certificates Roman had made were legally binding.

Even worse was that Logan assumed Janus was demonstrating the true 'right way' to be dating and also started arranging more dates and less friendship gatherings after that. Both couples starting to prefer dates over the group activities Roman and Remus suggested.

It came to a head on a movie night. Everyone had been invited, had said they were coming. Thomas had called and said Janus had arranged a surprise date so they wouldn't make it. That had been fine, Roman, Remus and Virgil just started the first movie while waiting for Patton and Logan to arrive.

Then Logan text saying a film Patton had been excited about was back in cinemas so that was where they were going instead of coming to their evening, and perhaps they could do something as friends next week.

“I was wrong Virge!” Remus whined a few minutes after the message was received.

“About creatures rising from the deep to kill everyone being the end of La La Land? Yeah, I agree.” Virgil nodded, snickering but turning to face him, too used to Remus to believe the sentence to connect to what was their focus in the moment.

“Nooo,” Remus carried on whining, draping himself over Roman's lap to actually look at Virgil, not directing his question at his brother but keeping him included in the situation, “Can this be a QPR? Can we promise to keep putting each other as a priority even if you get a romance?” He didn't care that people spoke about QPR's similarly to romantic relationships and some would be squicked out to hear of one between siblings, but didn't want to face rejection if Roman was like that and he hadn't realised.

Before Virgil could reply however, Roman's hand was in his hair, tugging it back so they could have eye contact, “Can I be included in this?”

“Sure! I just won't make sexual or fake flirtatious comments to you, same as ever. What do ya say, Ender-Virge?” He easily agreed, one hand coming to shake the hand Roman had free as if a deal was struck before turning back to Virgil.

“Wouldn't have suggested it originally if I didn't want that.” Virgil muttered, a small smile forming as he nodded. “Hell, if you want the tax benefits we could even get the paperwork done in a registry office at some point.” He snickered, remembering that had been the only reason Remus had ever understood for anyone to get married.

Remus scrunched his face up, backing off to be leaning more against Roman and less in view at the suggestion.

“Revirgeman? Brogil? Do we need a name mix just for the three of us now? Romusgil? Rogilmus?” Roman's musing got laughter washing the distaste from Remus's face before he could react to the allusion of marriage with retching.

“Can we just say we're stuck like glue instead?” Virgil offered, shaking his head and shoving lightly at Roman's shoulder for the mangled names.

Of course Remus immediately jumped up, turning to head out of the room, “I can actually glue us together! That'd help!”

“NO!” came the simultaneous yell as he got tackled from both sides, leaving them in a tangled heap of a tight hug as La La Land carried on playing in the background.

#arosidesweek2022 #aro Remus #QPR creativitwins #QPR Dukexiety #QPR crativitwinxiety #background Thomceit #background Logicality #remus sanders #virgil sanders #roman sanders

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mcrmadness · 2 years

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I have always been more or less of an outsider and an outcast, but some days I really hate it how every aspect of me just seems to strenghten that even more. Somehow I ended up with the identities that make me different and to not fit in with the others in such "marginalized" groups.

I am:

Neurodivergent: so I ever really fit in my peers of which majority were neurotypicals. Back then (late 90s to mid 2000s) there just were no words for this, so I was just Weird and Different, and bullied for that.

Agender: I don't relate to the term "trans". My gender simply does not exist, so there's nothing about it to fix either. Which means I don't relate to trans memes, and I don't relate to gender memes (unless it's another agender making the meme), and I don't understand gender envy because I simply don't feel it.

Asexual and aromantic: so I don't really fit in lgbt+ places. The rainbow flag does not repsent me because it's still so strongly associated with gay people, as well as allosexual (and alloromantic) lgbt+ people, and I'm neither gay nor straight, nor allo. So I don't feel like using the rainbow flag, because it would give the wrong impression of me to people. I, also, do not feel connected with individual flags either, so I've never used the ace/aro/aroace flags.

Loveless aro: I don't connect with any post talking about love or about loving humans. I simply don't love humans. I don't know wha that feels like. I can care deeply about people and animals and things, but it's not the same. It does not mean the same as what "loviing" means to so many. However, I do think I love objects and concepts and ideas. Just not any specific living creature.

Sex-repulsed and romance-repulsed: so at least I fall under the stereotypes of an aroace... but at what cost.

Because of all this above, mainly the aspec aspects (lol you see what I did there), I don't fit in fandom spaces. People go nuts when they see their favorite celebrity, and I don't understand why. That's just a human being? Why are y'all going nuts over a human being? Or why are y'all so keen on seeing skin? Or men in dresses/skirts? What's so special about that? Reblogging posts about my favorite celebrities is almost impossible because of all that commentary added that I cannot relate to because I don't understand what is it so special about that that it causes people to act such ways.

Finding fanfiction is impossible because I don't read mature content. Finding audience for my fanfiction is difficult because I don't write mature content. I am wondering if other aspec people face this same problem, and this is actually why I started writing this post in the first place. My fandom is already very small and the number of fanfics has only two digits in it, so it's not like finding a needle in a haystack, cos the haystack is almost nonexistent but also there is no needle to find.

I try not to compare my AO3 stats to others', but it's really difficult. And it makes me sad sometimes. Mainly because I've gotten the impression that so many people in fandoms treat fanfiction as a way to just find explicit smut to read. Bit like how maybe back in the day, before fanfiction, people would read and write books (about original characters maybe). And as someone who does not write mature content, I feel like when people see that G or T rating there, they don't even give the text a change. I'm not sure if people are there to read stories/hopefully well written text or just to read smut. I mean, there is nothing wrong in either, I'm not saying that there would be. I'm only saying that it makes me, an aroace with sex-repulsion, feel myself so lonely when I write something that means so much to me and then people see it's G or T and don't even want to take a look at it because there's no smut. It could also be just my age, but I've figured I enjoy reading and care about well writen text actually more than the actual plot or events (as long as it's not smut, cos that just is not my thing anymore).

And it also makes me sad that there ARE so well written stories out there but I can't read them because they go into smut so quickly and there's nothing left for me to read because I prefer to skip those scenes from fanfics. So basically I understand that it's probably the same the other way around: G or T is just not their cup of tea. And that's valid. But do they ever even give those a chance? I often try to give a chance for everything, which is why I know well written text exist, and it's a bummer I can't read those because of my preferences.

I also should never ever read other fanfics' comments because, idk, seeing people commenting about those and often focusing on how the smut was written... yeah, just makes me feel like my work is waste of time. Or maybe not waste of time, it's never waste of time to me, but posting them might be waste of time, if reading them is not really anyone's cup of tea. Especially now when I have started to back away from even fluff. I used to love writing fluff, because no one was writing nice fluff without smut, so I had to write it myself. But lately I have been writing fluff so much that it has lost its magic. It's boring now. I have gone through every possible scenario and can't come up with new ones that would be exciting anymore. Everything is just repeating itself. I'm kiss-repulsed, so I have never enjoyed writing or mentioning the kisses, but they still were a big part of the fluff I wanted to read about, so I included those. But now they also feel pointless. I don't like how they feel like the peak of a scene every time. It's not. There are other important things too than to always end a scene with two people kissing, I don't like it being the climax of a scene anymore. I'm more into the emotional intimacy now, but I'm afraid people are even less into reading my fanfics if I stop writing even that physical fluff.

I wish I had OCs to write about. That way it could be a G as I just want and people could read and rate it without expectations. But I don't know what I should write about. Nothing interests me, you know? What I said there about me nowadays valuing the text over the events and content, this also applies to my own writing. I LOVE writing, but in order to do that, I must write about something interesting to me, but I can't come up with any kind of interesting plot or character I would be INTERESTED in writing about. I always play with ideas of a story but I feel like everything has veen invented already and it could accidentally turn into a knock-off I did not even realize would be copying something. The worst case scenario would be to invent something and have someone else tell you you're plagiarising something, you have never even heard of before, but people would not believe you because people are so keen on lying anyway. (Or then I'm just traumatized by that case when I was 10 and drew a comic book character and someone claimed I had copied it from a comic I had never even heard of, and she did not believe me when I said I don't even KNOW what that comic is. She was convinced I was just lying to her.)

I don't know. Maybe I should try actual brain storming. Writing down and doodling stuff in case it would open some loot boxes in my brain I did not even know about. Even an OC comic would be great, or something that was a combination of these two...

#mcrmadness' deep thoughts #asexual #aromantic #aroace #aspec #long post

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I just read your thing about your WIP with the aro character and it literally sounds so amazing please tell me more

omg yes yes okay thank u sm here is a big ramble below the cut!!!!! cw for emotionally abusive family members.

okay SO!! the book has two main characters, brian (he/him, aroace) and xeno (they/them, non-SAM aro). they became roommates in their junior year of college through chance. they are both autistic (and brian has adhd), but brian tends to be hyposensitive (needs more stimulation) and xeno tends to be hypersensitive (needs less stimulation) and i think possibly brian didn't know he was autistic at this point, so for a while they had lots of clashes through their sensory needs being so unaligned, and not properly thinking to communicate about it. xeno could not stand brian for probably the first five or six months they knew each other.

but at about the six month point, the two of them started to figure things out, and they also found out that they were both aro (they'd each known, but hadn't told each other) (brian came into xeno's room for the first time (they are a very private person and did not allow him in before), saw their aro flag on the wall, and went "!!!!!!!!!!!" about it). so there was a little bit of awkward transition as they started to figure out how to coexist in a way that met both of their needs, and then they started to get along much better, to the point where they decided to stay roommates for their senior year.

over the course of that year, they grew much much closer, and ultimately entered into a qpr with each other. they continued living together after they graduated. the novel starts midway through the first year after they graduated college, so they're both 23-24.

now!! here is where things get interesting. brian is a wizard, and comes from a whole magical family. but his family is mmmm extremely Not Good. they dedicate themselves to saving the world from monsters (there's a lot more technicality/worldbuilding around this, it's a lot more complicated than that, but that's the tl;dr of it). but the thing is, if you are constantly fighting monsters, sometimes you don't win. and if the monsters want to end the world, not winning is not an option. so the family really prioritizes having Lots of family members, so that there is always enough backup that someone dying won't meant the world ends. but this results in the mindset that any individual family member is expendable. it is a very toxic and traumatizing environment to grow up in; there's a lot of strict hierarchy going on, and a lot of prescribed roles people are expected to fill, and deviating from those roles is heavily frowned upon.

brian is kid number 4 of 9 in his own lineup of siblings, and has a ton of cousins. he wound up taking on the role of peacekeeper in his immediate family. he had to do a lot of managing the emotions of his older siblings and parents, and a lot of parenting his younger siblings, all while neglecting his own needs. so he is a very sweet boy, very attentive to the needs of others, and very good at ignoring his own needs. he has 0 self esteem and does not believe he matters at all, but is really good at hiding it.

he came out to his family as aroace when he was a freshman in college; he'd known for a while, but hadn't told anyone. the reason he decided to come out is that he didn't feel comfortable with the idea of bringing a partner or children into the family, when the family business is so dangerous, because if anything were ever to happen to them he'd consider it his fault. he loves children very much and would love to be a parent, but he doesn't think it is possible for him to do that, because he's unwilling to let his children be part of the family business, and doesn't believe it is possible to cut his family off when he's so used to being controlled by them. and so, even though his reasons for not wanting kids or a partner had nothing to do with his being aroace, he used coming out as an "excuse" for why he wasn't comfortable with that, rather than tell his family the truth about why he won't have kids.

now, the thing is, from brian's behavior, most people tend to assume he's gay, which he has very mixed feelings about. but his family are among the people who assumed he's gay. they were perfectly ready to be supportive of that when he came out, but they were taken off guard by his being aroace, and by his announcement about his intention not to have kids when that's such a big value in the family. so brian was put in a state of semi-disownment where his family refused to talk to him and forbade him from contacting his younger siblings (which he was very crushed over).

xeno, on the other hand, had a really nice childhood in a well-adjusted family that was supportive of their gender and their aroness and their autism. they have two moms, and two siblings, one older and one younger (i forget what the genders of the siblings are, but i do have it written down somewhere). at least one of their moms, possibly both, is/are (a) lawyer(s) (this will be important towards the end of the story). their moms also have like. intimidating scary goth x nonthreatening-but-actually-equally-as-dangerous bubblegum pink vibes. it's great.

xeno majored in accounting in college (which will also be important towards the end of the story), and wants to go into accountancy, but currently they work at the local library. i think they probably have a special interest in math (which means i have to do research about math to write them well, rip me lol) (they probably also have a little bit of shame/internalized ableism going on about it, all "oh i have such a stereotypical SpIn, im a bad autistic" </3 but they've been working on working through that for a while now, and it's much better than it was in for example high school). they have alexithymia and really struggle with projecting the socially appropriate emotions for a given social situation.

so that's how things stand going into the opening of the novel, when brian's family decide that it's time to bring brian back into the fold. his two oldest siblings, marlena and garrett (marlena is in line to become the matriarch of the family, garrett is her second in command, they are both very manipulative people) show up to get brian's help with defeating the latest threat to the world (which is, again, an oversimplification, there's a ton of worldbuilding around what they're actually trying to do, but that's the gist of what they're doing).

brian desperately tries to get them to leave before xeno comes home by agreeing to their every demand, but he isn't fast enough and xeno arrives while marlena and garrett are still there. now, xeno has picked up, from things brian has let slip in the past, that his family is Not Great and Probably Emotionally Abusive, so they immediately go into fighting mode to protect brian.

marlena, meanwhile, notices right away how close brian and xeno are. she doesn't really understand what a qpr is, but she does process that xeno is very important to brian and he would clearly do pretty much anything to keep them safe. so in her mind, xeno immediately becomes a target (which is what brian was afraid of and why he wanted her to leave before xeno got home), the idea being that if she can convince xeno to go along with what she wants and join the family business, brian will follow, and she'll have full control over him again like she was used to growing up. the problem with that plan being that xeno is extremely stubborn and strongly distrusts magic and has also already decided that they hate marlena's guts, so. convincing them to join the family is Not Going To Happen.

marlena and garrett want brian to come with them, and xeno is unwilling to let brian go anywhere with his family, but brian feels like he Has To go. marlena proposes that xeno can come along. brian is adamantly opposed to this idea, wanting to keep xeno away from his family for their own safety, but he won't defy his family enough to not go with them. and xeno also doesn't want to go, but isn't willing to leave brian, so they agree to come along.

after a stop at brian's family home to pick up some magic supplies as well as his younger sibling arlo (they/them), who is just old enough to begin going on these types of quests, they begin basically a Magical Road Trip. wherein xeno has their distrust of magic challenged, brian has his belief that he must obey his family challenged, and a whole lot of fun and interesting spoiler-y stuff happens in the effort to Save The World, from a threat it turns out the likes of which have not been seen in living memory.

i am currently almost done with the plotting stage for this story, and then i plan to write it, edit it, and start looking for an agent!! i have been writing (mostly fantasy novels) for almost nine years now, and i think between the amount i've developed my writing skills, the hook for the story, and my level of investment in this story, i'm ready to try and get published. so. the goal is for this to be an actual real book that people can buy, sometime within the next few years. we'll see how it goes!!

#xeno and brian #peregrin said a thing #froggybxy

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concubuck · 2 years

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💔 😘 💝

((💔Do they have a certain type of person they will not enter into a relationship with?

Um? Like. Almost everyone. That's why he's single sdfgh

Like nearly everyone everywhere wouldn't enter a relationship with MOST people due to simply not being interested in them, and I'm sure this question isn't meant to ask "list every single conceivable trait your character isn't interested in. Describe the entirety of the 97% of the human race that does nothing for them." Because that's ridiculous.

So I feel like this question MUST mean "is there anyone he'd not enter a relationship with, even though he's interested in them?" Like, what traits are dealbreakers in spite of otherwise being attracted to them?

And I don't think Alastor can do that. He doesn't have "I hate you but I love you." There's no "romantically drawn to you in spite of." If someone does or is something that he dislikes enough that he wouldn't date them... then like, he doesn't want to date them in the first place? He never became interested? He doesn't have to reluctantly make the choice between desire and distaste? There's no desire.

In general, it takes a LONG time for romantic attraction to arise in him, if it ever arises at all. Extreme aro with only 1% demi. By the time a relationship is on the table, he's already known someone long enough and well enough to know if they do anything he can't stand; and if they do, he simply never becomes attracted.

He might refuse to enter a relationship with someone he's attracted to just because he doesn't want to be in a relationship—he's done that before—but that has nothing to do with the person he's turning down.

😘Does their demeanor change when in a relationship?

Already answered! And I can't really think of anything to add to that answer skfdh sorry

💝How long until they feel secure and comfortable in a relationship?

... You know, this dude has so little romantic experience, once he's actually in a relationship I don't know that it would ever even occur to him to feel INsecure. He's never been betrayed! Never been cheated on! Never had someone go "I thought I loved you and I tried to make it work but the spark just isn't there"! Never been played or strung along!

He is pure and untarnished and even though he's spent a century reveling in the hilarious tragedies of other people's failed love lives, deep in his heart he thinks that he's smarter than them. And that because he's more cautious and less love-thirsty, if he ever DID agree to enter a relationship, he would successfully identify all the warning signs and red flags the first time around and land himself in a great relationship. Can't make stupid mistakes driven by attraction if you don't feel attraction!!! He's got to be careful, sure—but as long as he thinks he IS being careful and thinks he's "putting in the work," he doesn't think anything could go wrong.

So once it was official, he'd feel pretty secure pretty fast. Because he's Just Too Clever to get fucked over.

The one thing he'd worry about is outside forces threatening his relationship. Like I said earlier about him viewing his whole life as a narrative—if for example he dates a sinner, there'd be part of him worrying, "what if I'm just unconsciously fulfilling my role as succubus? What if we were arranged to get together so that I can serve as their 'punishment,' making them miserable in Hell, and also corrupting them with lust? What if the DIVINE PURPOSE of our relationship is to make each other unhappy?"

But like, that's not him feeling insecure with his partner. That's him watching over his back in case God does something.))

#arachn0philia #ask #meme #ooc

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beyblade-e · 10 months

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Lgbtq+ hcs for some beyblade characters

Because I have nothing better to do apparently

Gingka - Every single kids franchise anime protagonist is either pan or aro I don't make the rules. Since "the only romance he knows is beyblade" I'm choosing to go with the latter option, but you can take your pick.

Madoka - Pan. Girl has walking flag syndrome.

Benkei - The men liker ever. I'm not 100% confident in saying he's gay, but I do know that I love him and he loves men.

Kyoya - Unfortunately for everyone I wasn't joking about him being pitch for Gingka. He can just do that. I think he's somewhere on the bi/aro spectrum (also bc of walking flag syndrome). I know that a character having bandages on their chest is just how anime portrays a character as the specialest little edgelord, but I'm choosing to interpret it as evidence for my trans headcanon anyway. He would absolutely refuse to get a binder and just use bandages despite it being super unhealthy because it looks cooler.

Ryuga - I also wasn't joking about him being trans and just not knowing it because no one ever told him how binary gender works. Aroace, mostly because obviously, and partly because every character I'm insane about is aroace no exceptions.

Reiji - People with binary genders don't look Like That nor do they like snakes that much. That guy is definitely somewhere on the demigender spectrum. Actually he's on every spectrum there is call him a triple A battery the way he's aro ace and autism

Tsubasa - Nonbinary also because of walking flag syndrome, they have big he/they energy.

Yu - Straightn't but he doesn't know or care about it because he's still in his "girls are gross and have cooties and homosexuality is a myth just like santa and taxes" era

Masamune - He also thinks girls have cooties and being gay doesn't exist, yet he has two boyfriends. Cringe

Honorable mentions ummm. Tobio and Ryutaro hang out in a way that is inherently not straight but not inherently romantic. Idk any specifics about Yuki but there is Something going on there. Conversely, Tetsuya has so much nothing going on that it qualifies him to be in this post. I feel like Jack and Hikaru may be queer coded in a questionable/deeply stereotypical way but that's a whole other post that I am not qualified enough to make.

In conclusion beyblade is queer as fuck if you believe. Thanks for reading.

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anonxconfession · 11 months

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{A Privileged Ex}

{Not my story}

So a number of years back I was dating this woman who I'll call Britney. Britney and I (NonBirany) dated for 4 and a half years and in that time I discovered what the horrors of misogyny can do to a person. Britney grew up with Republican parents and a brother who was always on drugs and I don't mean weed. Her parents constantly favored her dead beat brother to the point of "running out of money" but not actually because they live in a huge house that they can still afford and they go on luxurious trips to other countries.

Anyway so I felt like I needed to help her in any way that I could, thinking that because of her obvious abuse and the fact that she old stories of being SAd and her family not believing her I felt for her very deeply. This caused me to miss all the red flags in our relationship.

I thought that because she'd suffered abuse that she figured out the system she lived in was inherently abusive and that she wanted out of it. I was wrong. Not only did she claim to just "forgive" her abusers but she also claims she forgave her rapists. At the time I let it be because it was her truama and she needed to heal however she felt best. This only changed when she started trying to force me to forgive MY abusers and would frequently guilt and gaslight me into forgiving the woman who nearly starved me to death. I realize now that this poor woman had been brainwashed into thinking that this toxic positivity was the proper healthy way to deal with abuse and her cognitive dissonance was so thick that nothing I said ever made it through to her that this was not healthy and that her mindset only benefited her abusers. She didn't like that I challenged her in that way and would turn around and call me the toxic one. Claiming I abused her when all I ever did was try to get her away from abusers.

At some point I realized there was nothing I could do for her and I debated breaking up with her. Especially since I did everything in this relationship and she did absolutely nothing. I carried her to where she is today and when I needed her help in return she broke up with me and abandoned me.

I was heartbroken for a long time before discovering I was Ace and aro. I was happy to be free of her but she still wants to be friends. I'm at a loss because I would love to continue to try and help her but she's not seeking therapy because she doesn't think anything is wrong and I'm tired of playing therapist to a woman who has more money than I might ever have and yet she still doesn't even listen to me. Sure, eventually I can convince her to stop doing certain things. But she always ends up back where she started then gets up set when I don't see how much she's "changed".

I'm so tired of being her babysitter that I happily welcome the fact that she hasn't spoken to me in weeks. I want to let her go but I don't want to abandon her either because, frankly, she's not strong enough to survive on her own. So right now I simply welcome the silence and try to advise her when I can but I feel like this not only isn't fair to her because I no longer even enjoy speaking with her but also it's unfair to me who just feels like a therapist at this point.

Any time I've tried exiting the relationship in the past she'd always hunt me down via my other social media to try and force me to talk it out. She only starts to panic when I want to leave so I'm tempted to delete all my social media before leaving our shared discord server and exiting the friendship forever.

I'm just tired of being a therapist to a brat who says "life never changes suddenly" and scolds me for thinking so when literally in the span of a few hours my own mother went from alive to dead during a very sudden heart attack that her doctors were not expecting. She knew this and yet still said that to me.

Right now she's in the middle of moving so I'm think after she moves in with these new friends of hers I'm going to quietly ghost her. Not that this mildly stalkerish person wouldn't try and hunt me down demanding an explanation but I need to stand my ground this time. I don't owe her anything especially since I carried her privileged ass to where she is today and she acknowledges none of it and still forces this toxic positivity onto me.

Fucking pray for me man

#not my story #anons confess #confession #toxic ex

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