#scientist depiction

[fvlmen]

Ok, so we all know Code Geass has its flaws, but y' know what I appreciate about it? The way scientist are depicted. They are no "Hello yeah I'm a SCIENTIST I know about rocks, biology, chemistry and hey I just accidentally broke this Uranium nucleus, now what guys?". They have specific knowledge, and there are many women between them.

When I was 16 or something, and I watched Lloyd's mechas being sabotaged by Rakshata's same damn field, I was like, "Aw, why did he go from super clever to stupid? Why doesn't he just find a way to counter that field?"

And now that I've grown up to be an (astro)physicist myself, I know I would be like, "I don't know what kind of quanto-mechanical wizardry you're doing to my robot. And please, just stop it, because I'll probably never figure it out."

#code geass #codegeass #science #thoughts you didn't ask about #lloyd asplund #rakshata chawla #physics #mecha #scientists #scientist depiction #code geass lelouch of the rebellion #anime scientists

[n4rval]

the stalker

#artwork #freakbullet followed me i was morally compelled to sit and actually make art of him #but yk brain empty = silly comic #since he so nicely decided to pay me a visit i now know exactly how to capture his features #wingdings is a creep nothing will convince me otherwise #but yk in a mad scientist kind of way #actually a nice old man whos interested in your ocs #thank you for supporting my insanity dings #undertale #gaster #wd gaster #real depiction of my creative process #deltarune #wingdings and me

[mdzs-owns-my-ass-i-guess]

I have many thoughts re: the fall of Xianle from the pov of the impact of a natural catastrophe on socio-political balance and how great natural disasters often herald the fall of civilizations via civil war and internal strife

And how there are no viable solutions to a situation like that because the forces at play cannot be reconciled even if the root cause could be ammended (which is usually impossible anyway)

And how the tensions between the people of Xianle and the people of Yong'an follow precisely the theories of human displacement and conflict stemming from resource competition crisis

And how, regardless of whatever Xie Lian might have been able to do, it would not have turned out differently for him and his kingdom, even without Human Face Disease at play

Maybe i should dust off my knowledge and write an essay

#tgcf #hob #listen all this is a perfect depiction of what a lot of scientists think may happen in the future due to the impact of climate change on #our world #and ive studied extensively on it #its the same thing

[artbyblastweave]

There was this weird-west series I read when I was a teenager called Golgotha. One plot point I found really really funny, and which I think Tumblr would sign off on, went as follows. In a town where everyone and their dog, like clockwork, has some kind of Dark Secret, the charming, widowed town Grocer’s Dark Secret is that he’s collaborating with the town mad scientist to keep his deceased wife’s head alive in a jar. And this is of course painted as the start of some truly nasty business, but then it ultimately turns out that the scientist is on the up-and-up and there’s nothing deleterious about the head-in-a-jar process beyond the fact that it’s taking a long fucking time to ethically source parts for a replacement body, and the jar has to stay at the scientists house while he scrambles to figure that out. And of course since the head is spending all this time having long philosophical late night talks with the Mad Scientist while he’s working, they ultimately forge a deep interpersonal connection, and the Grocer can only make it out to visit his wife’s head every once in a while without arousing suspicion, so he ultimately ends up falling in love with a customer of his who’s actually consistently present and salient in his day-to-day life (which of course includes a lot of batshit adventures and supernatural crisis's because this is that kind of town.) And eventually the resurrection process totally goes off without a hitch and the grocer’s wife is back good as new, but it’s been like five years and everyone involved in the scheme is in a different place than they started. So there’s no explosive resurrective tragedy or any negative moral valence assigned to the reanimation, just a melancholy but ultimately amicable split as everyone moves on with their lives. I always thought that was a fun twist on that.

#worth mentioning that IIRC the books were like. Pretty racist #so if you seek it out for purposes of fun mad scientist misadventures be prepared for a lot of. depictions #thoughts #meta

[subparticlesupercollider]

⚠️⚡️ HIGH VOLTAGE ⚡️⚠️

#eyestrain #eye strain #art #my art #fresco #lab safety #body horror #FRESCO PENIS EXPLOSION 💥 ‼️‼️ #ocs #mad scientist #mad science #sciencecore #depiction of fresco penis explosion <- i called his reanimation event that once in an old post and i rediscovered it yesterday and— #was like yeah i like that. canonize it

[brw]

Hank Pym and Hank McCoy get mixed up more often than you would think in-universe.

#brieuc.txt #thinking about the time janet was called mrs mccoy #and sometimes writers say hank mccoy's middle name is j. but that's hank pym's. his is jonathan. hank mccoy's is philip. #it's not like they have that much in common they're just both scientists and primary coloured and bisexual and have a mood disorder #and have dysfunctional romances and weirdly close with their guy best friend and often mischaracterised as villains #and have evil alternate universe versions of themselves and go by a nickname rather than henry and depicted as kinky in bed and.... #well you get the idea

[brucenorris007]

Small (self-indulgent) headcanon:

Shadow and Rouge flip each other off quasi-regularly, as much because that’s their dynamic and Shadow’s a teenager as it’s a way for them to check in with each other.

It’s something else carrying over from Shadow’s time on the ARK.

After all, when you’re terminally ill, if you can muster up the vitriol for a wholehearted, albeit nonverbal fuck you even on your worst days, then you’ll probably survive to see tomorrow.

And Shadow has commented that Rouge reminds him of his sister.

@generic-sonic-fan

#Bruce talks about #Shadow #Shadow the Hedgehog #Maria Robotnik #Rouge the Bat #headcanon #I also picture that any of Gerald's scientists who took issue with his granddaughters gestures #Got either a lecture or the boot off the ARK #Maria was a whole person; depictions of her as being sunshine and rainbows 24/7 diminish the potential of her character

[funnywormz]

one thing about me is that whenever a series introduces a species of alien/monster etc and is like "these guys are all evil. every single one. completely irredeemable. they love killing and destruction and they have no function in the narrative outside of being awful and hurting people. they're all the same and none of them have the capacity to be good." i will always turn around and be like "but what if there was a nice and friendly one"

#this post is about the gorn #gorn #star trek #the chestburster thing is a little hard to get past but im sure they can find a way around that #i refuse to believe theyre all just scary monsters who love killing and that's it #those things are WARP CAPABLE!!!! they've gotta have gorn scientists and everything to do that #they have to have more going on #love snw but the decision to make the gorn one dimensional bad guys after their depiction in tos #is like. :/ #those lizards can be my friends. i know it #(<- words of a guy minutes before his jugular gets ripped out lol) #(but still. not a big fan of entire races and species being depicted as evil bc That's Just How They Are) #(i think star trek is too much of an optimistic and thoughtful series to have species like that but so far snw is proving me wrong on that) #(gotta just wait for whenever s3 drops ig)

[mad-scientist-showdown]

correct me if im wrong because i very well could be, but isnt attack on titan like. japanese imperialist propaganda or smth?? that or the creators a n/zi i cant remember which. might be both.

i'll happily correct you because you're indeed wrong! i'm aware attack on titan is unfortunately pretty controversial on this site these days bc of this but i cannot emphasize enough how like 90% of the reason why is lack of reading comprehension and people "heard it was problematic" without even knowing why. It's not 100% unproblematic and perfect --nothing is-- but it is definitely NOT fascist propaganda. If anything it's very much the opposite that was shown multiple times. If 1 message was clear and intended by the author it's that people are all just people and reality is complex and not black and white.

i'm a tournament blog i'm not going to make an essay about this lol so all i can tell you is to either hold your judgement until you read/watch the thing yourself or do research if you care enough to. If you want to dabble in the 'discourse' beyond hearsay without having to read/watch it i recommend this video and a response to it

Basically you should make your own opinion, but know that I have watched the anime and read the manga myself and I would obviously never put a character from it in this if I thought the show or author were any of the things they're accused of being.

#SORRY EVERYONE i couldnt just leave this person in my inbox #to me it's an instance of portrayal being seen as inherently propaganda. which is SOMEHOW a thing people do #like. idk HOW people get this from that but. they act like purely DEPICTING something bad means AGREEING with it?? #like “hmm they have armbands” or “hmm the jeagerists” “hmm it's eerily similar to [...]” yeah? good job seeing smth that is not hidden #at all or supposed to be? and they're never painted in a good light or portrayed to be right? #anyway anyway this isnt the place to talk about this complex topic #attack on titan #not scientist showdown #mad scientist showdown

[samble]

when am i going to see posts saying that the historians and scientists who use AI to view fragile historical documents without damaging them or to analyze mass amounts of information are soulless demons ruining the lives of artists and spitting on the face of humanity

#we are one bad post away from this methinks #ofc you do not have to like AI gen images but the way this site depicts All AI as evil with no nuance worries me #sambling #AI #this is referencing a news article i saw about something like #a group of scientists / historians using an AI to 'read' a very old scroll that couldn't be unrolled #because it was so old/fragile that doing it would restroy the scroll #and the AI could 'read' through the material to see what it said inside #and the science part is iirc SETI awhile ago automated their research to check viability of signals etc

[fawnheartedly]

It's very hard for me to find fanfics I love about Espresseleine because they're my favorite ship but under a very specific condition.

I want this ship to happen after both of them (especially Madeleine) have character growth

I want them to go Pride & Prejudice.

To have them not working great as a forced team for a while until they start to have some sort of attraction for each other but then their bad sides gets in the way and you get something like the confession under the rain scene and Espresso finally drops all the reasons he can't stand Madeleine and he leaves only to come find Espresso much later, after having done a lot to become his best self and maybe help the lower side of the republic to be heard why not. And Espresso could learn to be less snappy and sarcastic and to talk about the issues he has instead of dealing with everythig on his own.

I mean they're not 100% Darcy and Elisabeth by any mean, if at all, but you get the idea. I just want to see a progression for them as a team but also as individuals and the general idea of them bettering themselves for the happiness of the other.

Then, and only then, i'm happily shipping them.

#cookie run #espresso cookie #madeleine cookie #espresseleine #i love them but only if they work on themselves #conditional OTP i guess #i can't enjoy them otherwise #and i'm sad about it cause it's super hard for me to find fanfics i can enjoy help #also the fandom's main depiction of them isn't how I see them #to me madeleine is full of himself but not an idiot #he's quite smart actually #emotionally stupid but smart otherwise #espresso isn't mean or a narcissist he's just a mostly sleep deprived workaholic scientist who's in a situation he doesnt like #he may not be the best teacher if you're not talented tho #my hc is that the parfaedia institute funds his researches but only if he teachs so he has to comply #and my hc about Mad's attitude towards him is that he doesn't like him at first either #but he's so used to be loved by everyone and to get away with anything easily so when someone doesn't buy it he doesn't know how to act #that's why he's rarely if ever mean to Espresso #and again he's not dumb he's just loud and dramatic #not a golden retriever but a husky #I could make a similar post about how Redpastry and Purelily are just as conditional for me #but purelily is more AU based since... it's complicated rn #and redpastry their problem is their toxic surroundings rather than their personalities #they both just need to quit their jobs basically

[daydreamerdrew]

The Incredible Hulk (1968) #268

#not Betty trying to play homemaker in an underground bunker #I remember she stressed when Glenn got kidnapped right after their honeymoon that she never even got to cook a meal for him #this here is coming after Betty divorced Glenn and then left the book for a while which was purportedly to learn independence #and she has shown a bit of firmness since then like when she was blunt with Glenn #but she’s still fully on board with Bruce’s fantasy where he’s a successful scientist and she’s his housewife raising his kids #so she's really just substituted Bruce for Glenn in her life plans who she initially was substituting for Bruce #the image of her trying to make this underground bunker a nice place to life #and then going through Bruce’s books and gushing about him is so striking to me #like girl this fantasy isn’t salvageable #there’s no way this path leads to contentment #soon after this the narration describes that she understands that #‘as long as the Hulk exists her love for Bruce Banner will be an endless exercise in despair’ #but idk I don’t think that if Bruce was really cured or even if he was never turned into the Hulk in the first place #that that would suddenly make everything work out for them #idk it’s weird because they weren’t like together together before the accident #so their relationship without the complication of the Hulk was never depicted #but I’m not convinced being his housewife would have actually been satisfactory for Betty in the long run #like... it just can't be #marvel #bruce banner #betty ross #my posts #comic panels

[gloriousmonsters]

hi sorry to lose my entire shit for a moment but

Carter, as a character, is tough. He’s a widower whose wife and child were killed, and he’s a veteran of the Civil War – as a Confederate (...) “I wanted to not absolve him of that, but also not make him pro the side he was on. The best I could do was neutralize him,” Stanton said. “And just make him disillusioned by everything he had chosen to do, war in general, let alone the wrong side. And so that was conscious at the time.” Chabon said the lack of properly grappling with Carter’s confederate ties was ultimately a “compromise.” In the final film, Carter comes across like Kurt Russell’s Jack Burton in “Big Trouble in Little China,” a gruff everyman annoyed by the overtly fantastical situation he’s in.

reading an article about how the John Carter movie failed and i may have just said ‘you FUCKING IDIOT’ out loud at the screen

what is it about dudes who say they’re the hugest fans of something and then when they get their hands on it completely miss the point of it? (ok the only other example i’m thinking of is brandon ‘oh i loved WOT’ *completely fucks up every character* sanderson, but two is still two examples!!) i just. listen it’s unlikely a lot of people here have read the John Carter/Barsoom novels, but I’d like to tell y’all about a teeny weeny minorly important detail the entire series rests on. John Carter likes to fight! Loves it! The entire reason he goes to Mars (which they change in this movie, of-fucking-course) is that it’s implied MARS HIMSELF, as in The God Of War, saw him and was like ‘that’s a funky little fighting guy I want on my extremely fight-happy planet’. even beyond that, JC fits in with the locals and gets pretty much every gain he gets in the books because he’s a happy, positive guy who LOVES to throw down, and therefore LOVES the fight-filled, strange planet he suddenly finds himself on. You know, the opposite of a wishy-washy, ‘ehhhhh i’m here but i’m like gruff and sad and don’t really caaaaare’ type character

make it a different war!! make him a union soldier! fuck i don’t like the military irl either make him not a soldier at all and just rlly into brawling if you must! homeboy was really like ‘the only path open to me is the lamest character assassination possible 😔 time to fuck up the whole story’ like you were already bitching about how you didn’t like the aesthetic and now you don’t like one of the mainstays of the plot, why don’t you just Not Adapt The Story????? hello???

#'oooh the original art is seeeeeexist' (a) a little but look the men are naked and lovingly depicted as well #it's really not as bad as some examples #(b) you made dejah thoris a random scientist just so men could ignore and disrespect her your argument is automatically invalid

[harlequinfrog]

strangelove mgs is the character ever. the woman she was in love with died and she was like “this sucks. i should make her into a nuclear weapons system”

#accurate depiction of the ethical standards of the average computer scientist

[suguruplsr]

Pride and feelings aside…

Summary ✰ A mini story, in which, you happen to catch feelings for your fuck-buddy, Gojo Satoru, who just so happens to have a girlfriend you didn't know about until... however, someone's there to pick you up when you're falling. Geto Suguru.

,, gojo satoru x fem! reader x geto suguru , depictions of sexual/suggestive themes + scenes w/ alcohol usage , drug usage (not misused) , angst w/ no comfort.

wc: 3.1k

based on the song, 77 degrees, by Mariah the Scientist

+ full masterlist of “Seventy-seven degrees…”

tagging: @r0ckst4rjk @unmatchxd @chugao @coffee-on-a-rainyautumn @fvsm4x @ivyshiyo @shadowfoxey @aliyalala @sexeyess @magalimachete @tokenblckgirl @melancholysanatomy @nekkobi @eumorele @polarbvnny @msmarklee1213 @mellow-mewow @qmsvpx @miauna @mwtsxri @ba-ks @slammynics

Dividers @/enchanthings

“satoru, fuck— right there!” honestly, there’s nothing like a late friday night, tipsy and high off a few edibles, and getting some good dick from your trusty friend, Gojo Satoru. as your hands travel along his broad shoulders, sheened with sweat under the moonlight, you realize why people fight to have this man. “yea sweetie? right here— ohhh look at you. f-fuckin’ squeezin’ me so tight.” his form that towered over you pulls away, looking down at you with a slimy grin and throwing your legs over his shoulders while you squirm. “sorry baby. you ain’t cummin’ yet. wanna play with this pussy for as long as i can, before i go~”

you don’t know when it started, you were always just friends with him. hanging out with him and the rest of your little group consisting of shoko, suguru, kento, and haibara. young adults who party over the weekends and work boring jobs during the week while considering their future. kento and shoko already chose to start college, while satoru and suguru are planning on doing something together. best friends stuff. sometimes you wonder if they really just like each other and wanna live happily ever after.

you and haibara just so happened to apply at the same famous cafe downtown. so you’ve been working as a waitress with him as a server for the past few months.

but back to your.. relationship? nah, more like situationship. well, you wish you could call it that, maybe you don’t. that reminds you too much of him. but, you and satoru are just fuck buddies who got drunk together one day five months ago. him coming over to your new house with four good bottles of soju, which were mainly for you considering he couldn’t hold his liquor. but of course, little words of how pretty you’ve always been in his eyes spewed out, and.. in the heat of the moment,, you ended up kissing him.

and that was that.

there’s nights where you can taste the soju that was on his lips that day, thinking of him as your hands trail down to the straps of your panties. but nowadays, you don’t have to play with your clit and contemplate calling the pinned contact in your messages. cringy enough, a little, “u up?” text is enough for satoru to eagerly drive to your house before you can even think of sliding a finger in.

you look up at satoru as he teases your pussy, tip pulling in and out as he emits tiny murmurs out of you. he’s so handsome like this, and any other day. cerulean eyes focused on the gap of your hole, tongue sticking out a bit and his chest muscles flexing every time he’s pushed in just a slight bit more than the tip. then as usual, he fills you up to the hilt, both of you whining as he steals away your breath with a sloppy kiss. telling you how well you’re doing for him.

you almost wish you could experience this every night.

“turn a bit f’me sweetheart~” satoru coos. he was on your couch, legs crossed with a sweet smile on his face. he had taken you out shopping, saying that a girl like you deserves to be spoiled. having daddy’s money must be nice. rather than letting him go into the dressing rooms with you, risking him sneaking in and possibly getting you two in trouble, you decided to make him let you shop on your own, and promised him a show later. and later was now.

you turned to give him a tiny twirl, showing off the pink frilly dress. you hear him make a sound of amazement, “it’s that pretty?” “no.. well— yeah, but fuck. it’s you.” satoru groans, gesturing for you to come closer. you giggle, taking your place on his lap as his hands immediately move along your exposed thighs. “mm, yeah?” you purr, bringing a hand to his throat and encasing your fingers around it while your thumb tilts his chin up to you. you love watching how he visibly folds, adjusting you in his lap with a bite of his lip.

“for sure hun. you make me wanna rip it off you, maybe even fuck you in it. so beautiful.” he hums, hand breaching the area of your heat. his fingers pull the strings of your matching lace, making you pinch his neck when he snaps it. you could feel your blood rush around your body, flustered from his pure awe. “this one feels new..” and you huff, cute eyes looking up at him with ridicule. “you can’t even see it!” but satoru only gives you that charming smile, glasses tilting with the move of his head. “but i will later, yea?” and you roll your eyes, not bothering to hide your smile as he kisses the corner of your mouth. “yea..”

you part with a kiss placed on his jaw, strutting away to try on the dozen other outfits you bought. all for him to see. you did purposely buy a few that you knew he’d like, like a few summer dresses. and of course, white lingerie underneath to top it off. you just love the attention he gives you, giving you the feeling as if you’re on top of the world. you wish you knew how to make it stay like that.

the night ended like always, your arms around his neck while he thrusted inside you with low murmurs and grunts that circled around the room. but you couldn’t help but notice his phone went off more than usual.

not any of your business though.

it’s nothing like going to a nice bar during a random hot summer night in late june, hanging out with your friends as a little catch up and drinking together. until everyone’s swallowing in their own thoughts and wandering about the place while you sit and watch.

“you two are close.” suguru hums, taking a sip of his beer while you watch satoru talk to another girl, all happy and comfortable, maybe an old ‘friend’, from the way she casually places a kiss below his jaw. your spot. you don’t know why the bubbling feeling in your chest wasn’t quelled with three cans of beer, but keeping your eyes on the white haired man and his interactions didn’t help in the slightest.

with a disappointing sigh, you turn to suguru, who gave you his signature smile, head tilted on his palm and giving you a look that would’ve made you shy away. in the past at least. “obvious?”

“for sure.”

“fuck.” you groan turning around on the barstool, facing the bar and stealing one of shoko’s shots, making her scoff with a, “what the hell?”. to which you smile sheepishly in return, the taste of vodka blooming on your lips while you’re already sliding your purse to her so she can fish out some money for her next drink.

“reminded me of us. you’re so damn selfish.”

suguru quips lowly, dark eyes studying the way your eyes narrow, glancing over to him before looking at the dark brown wood of the bar table. “yea? well i clearly haven’t lost that trait, messing with you two…” you shrug, making him chuckle. “i’d say you have a type, well.. if you weren’t going for someone as mediocre as satoru. no offense sweetheart, but don’t get your hopes up. especially when he’s attached to her.” suguru gives you a pat on the back, letting the warmth of his hand linger before walking away.

you don’t even care to ponder over his last sentence, you're sure it’ll come to you later in life. you just wish you had said something in return, wanting to prove that handsome idiot wrong. but the way satoru comes back to you with marks of that woman’s lipstick shining on his neck proves you wrong. you really shouldn’t get your hopes up, but perhaps you wish this was some romantic story where he’s just trying to make you jealous.

and not you falling down an empty rabbit hole.

“you clearly had fun.” you point out, gesturing to the fresh hickies laying along satoru’s neck. they weren’t yours, considering you haven’t seen him much lately. after maybe a week of texting and a few nudes, he had finally come over. talking about the restaurant he took his ‘friend’ to.

a look of.. guilt? takes over his expression, turning his head away on the other side of your pillow and humming. “yeah i guess.. nothing special though. not like you.” and you roll your eyes, smiling though, as you slap his bare chest, climbing on top of him and dragging your palm around his chest. “oh really? why should i believe that? if we were really special you’d..” you pause when you see his brows furrow, as if he’s expecting your next words.

touchy subject huh? you two must not be as close you thought you were.

but the look of disbelief in his eyes makes you throw it all away in your little wishing well. a well full of things satoru makes your heart wish for. you try to brush it off, giving a sigh and leaning down to kiss him. “you really think we’re special?”

“you’re definitely special.”

it takes all your might to bite down the feeling in your throat as he flips you over. your heart probably exaggerated all those gestures, those rare soft moments, everything, that made you feel like you were on top of the world. like you were his world. you feel sick, but you’ll take what you can get.

so you try to devour all of him, taking every touch with all you can. you don’t have the strength to remind yourself that, this, you two, aren’t anything special. he’s doing this for his benefit so why not do the same. even if your wants differentiate from his.

it doesn’t hurt to dream.

you focus on the feelings of satoru’s lips on yours, both of your hands trying to undo each other's clothing, but you can feel the vibrations of his phone in his back pocket. “toru~ put it up.” you whine, pushy him away slightly and giving a look when he tries to chase your lips. “fine.” he sighs, pulling out said object and quickly taking a look at the notifications as he heads to your dresser.

you aren’t oblivious, and you aren’t stupid. you can see the way he smiles, genuinely even, standing still to respond to what you think is a message.

it could be anyone, you remind yourself.

you make an exaggerated sound from your spot on your bed, making him put away the device, and looking over to you. a bothered look flashes over his eyes before he lifts his shirt up. “sorry to keep ya waiting sweets.” satoru grins, moving closer and placing a hand on your neck while you move closer to the pair of gray sweats in front of you.

“s’okay. jus’ wanna suck on y’r cock.” you sigh, emitting a laugh from him while you get to work pulling down the pants.

you couldn’t let him fuck you that night with how uncomfortable you felt. the look— no, glare. he gave you, even if it was only a split second, felt like you were intruding on something when it was the other way around. like a look of distaste.

when you told him you were too tired for anything extra, he placed a kiss on your cheek, immediately tidying himself up before heading out. the satoru you knew would never do that, unless he made sure you were feeling okay and begging to have a taste of you, maybe even staying the night.

fuck, you feel so dry you might just have to call him. for old times sake. you hate how troubled you are by your unrequited love.

satoru barely comes over now, and if he does, it’s for a quickie. which, of course, is the point of your “relationship”. but satoru had never made it feel like that's all it was. like there was a possibility for more than you two just digging in each other's pants.

but now, either he doesn’t respond or he’s busy. normal adult stuff, you get it. you shouldn’t be crying as you sip your glass of whine, sitting lonely at your dining table after satoru told you he’d be here.

something came up.

is what he told you. you even responded in that same minute, getting nothing in response while you wallow in your shame and disappointment. it shouldn’t hurt but it really fucking does. you wish you didn’t ruin the friendship. you wish so badly.

you’re probably just every other enjoyment in life for him, something he’ll use when he wants and throws away when he wants.

how fucked up of a situation could this be?

“i think we should stop seeing each other. if you know what i mean.” it’s 10 pm when satoru shows up at your door, unexpectedly and catching you off guard. it’s your second pity party after three weeks of no communication with him. three weeks since you had accepted you caught feelings for the daring heart throb of japan.

“oh yeah— totally. not like we really were.” you shrug, fighting back the feeling of bile in your throat. the expression on satoru’s face lets you know you hit the spot, making his nod awkwardly and wave. “i guess ill go now.”

you close the door shut, maybe slammed, grabbing your cold bottle of water on the table in your living room as you travel through your house to your bathroom. why did you have to see his face, why did you have to see the way he dressed up so nicely, probably coming back from a date with that ‘friend’.

you know.

you remember every single detail of his face, it wasn’t hard to notice the smudge of red lipstick on his lips.

you put the tablet flat on your tongue, swallowing it and taking a big gulp of water all in one go. the sick feeling throughout your body slowly dissipates as you stand over the sink, looking at the running water in trance.

what a fool you are, huh? falling for someone who was meant to only make you feel good. that’s just a recipe for disaster.

you don’t know how long you stayed in there, gripping your counter as tears slowly slipped down your face while you fell to your knees.

today was a hectic day, business was bustling and there were lots of people coming in the cafe for the fall themed items. like pumpkin spice latte, hot chocolate, pumpkin pie, etc. the aroma flowing through the place was even better, you’ll have to ask your boss what she may have sprayed before opening. but maybe it’s just the food.

however, seeing a few families or couples smile, the joyful mood flowing around as the hot summer slowly ended, groups of teens coming in to hang out before school starts back up. all of it felt nice. like a nice view of what your life could be if you weren’t some depressed woman who had nothing to show.

you sigh, grabbing your notepad and walking out from the back of the cafe. you just needed a tiny mental breather, too overstimulated with the many people. you never know how to explain it, like claustrophobia without literally experiencing it.

but you just leave it to your mind and senses just feeling overwhelmed. you’ll have time to take your daily pill later.

as you head to a ready table, your mind halts while your body strays to the table. the tufts of white hair, and blue eyes that locked onto you made the peace in your body waver. why was he here? maybe he came to check up on you? not like he doesn’t know where you work.

oh how wrong you are.

“how may i take your order?” your voice breaks, coughing a bit and playing it off as a minor issue when the woman in front of satoru gives you a look of concern, so sweet, and you feel like you recognize her. “hey y/n. i know you’re busy right now so i’ll introduce you to her later, im not sure if you two had met before, hehe. but we’ll have…” your smile is forced, the grip on your pen only getting stronger as you recognize the pet names he calls her, names he used to give you.

but with how casually he says them, maybe she was first.

the satoru you knew doesn’t even introduce or take out girls unless he’s dating them. which means this is clearly a new sight for you.

you don’t remember anything after they left, too caught up in your whirlwind of heartbreak and confusion to focus on anything other than getting through your shift. which led to you now, crying in your car right after work. you just needed to let it out.

better than crying on your way home and risking an accident.

satoru seemed happy with her, he really did. a tension between them that you never had with him. the woman was even sweet enough to tip you big simply for being her boyfriend’s friend. you don’t have the courage to dislike her, not when you were shamelessly looking over at her boyfriend with eyes full of want and desperation.

but of course he didn’t notice.

if only you didn’t fuck up the friendship, maybe you were just in a different light to him, compared to her. maybe you would’ve had the chance to showcase all of you to him, rather than the rough intimacy within the confines of your bedroom. fuck, you’re stupid.

how the hell are you supposed to show you love someone when you two are just having sex to cure your sexual needs. that’s like begging for a disaster to happen.

hearing a knock on the passenger side of your tinted window, you quickly shuffle to put the yellow bottle of pills in your armrest box. you take a look at yourself in the mirror, taking note of your puffy red eyes.

you hope it’s some stranger who doesn’t care about your wellbeing.

wiping your face, you roll down the window, greeted with the sight of a nihilistic smile and dark gold eyes that scan your form with a scoff. “unlock the door princess. not gonna let you get all sappy over some pretty boy who's missin’ out on someone like you.”

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Long post ahead. My full thoughts on the fallout series. TW for references to Sexual Assault, racism, antisemitism. It's not particularly in depth here- but I do reference specific acts of violence done in the show.

I've had people insinuate I'm only mad because I'm a New Vegas fan, because I think they retconned the lore. I'm not upset at the fallout show for its dubious lore additions and reworks. I think they're quite bad in places, but they're by far the least of the show's problems.

This isn't a case of a New Vegas fan mad they messed with my game in a way I didn't like.

Please refer to literally any of my posts pointing out the racism and antisemitism in the show. They brand a black man in episode 1. They named the enclave scientist after a real life holocaust survivor and then spent most of the show lobbing around his decapitated head like a volleyball.

But I'd like to consider other elements of the show. View it as a whole.

Consider the inherent misogyny of having a female main character whose entire character arc is just her getting abused for 8 episodes. How the trajectory of her character revolves around not giving up on the humanity of the man who waterboarded her and sold her to organ harvesters. A female main character who is raped in the first episode and watches her entire community get brutalized and who comes out of it completely unphased- still as plucky as ever- just worried about her dad.

Consider the horror of having a black woman be the one to drop the bombs. Consider the horror of her leading a council of elites who have infiltrated and taken over the US government. Consider the ways this group is presented and shown, the ways every fault of the US government in the series is offloaded onto a shadowy group of elites.

Consider how the capitalist critique of the show only goes so far as saying there's a secret organization of bad people who must be purged. The antisemitism and conspiratorial nonsense inherent to that premise.

Consider the rampant classism with the show's depiction of Wastelanders as either animalistic monsters or too stupid to live.

Consider the ways the show punishes nearly every act of kindness- the ways the world rewards might-makes-right authoritarians.

Consider the way the NCR collapsed offscreen because a disgruntled husband was mad his wife left him, and how after it collapsed the army immediately became raiders and the survivors became blood drinking cultists. Don't give me "it's just shady sands that collapsed" because the NCR was a developed nation. If one of their cities blew up, they would send aid. They would assist.

Consider the way the show constantly uses sex crimes as comedy and horror- the incest jokes and the "chicken fucker" bit, and the Vault 4 monster impregnation and the main character's rape in the first episode.

Consider the ableism of the treatment of ghouls, how every ghoul is now a ticking time bomb, how Lucy helps free a small dementia-riddled old ghoul woman from a medical torture facility and then is immediately punished with the woman trying to inexplicably murder her. Thaddeus openly talks about ghoul exterminationism and it's never a joke or a bit- he just says it and nobody reacts or says anything.

Consider the way the Vault 33 town councillors use real world progressive talking points about restorative justice and prison abolition and multiculturalism- meanwhile Norm advocates for the death penalty and a closed society. How Norm is shown as good and righteous and the vault dwellers range from deluded to damningly stupid- how the mere concept of restorative justice is made a farce because the NCR raiders are screaming about eating organs and murdering people 24/7.

Consider the way they removed the Boneyard, and the Followers of the Apocalypse by extension. In New Vegas we heard about the Followers operating a university in LA. It's gone now. Not destroyed by bombs- but written out of existence because the Boneyard never existed, and Shady Sands is in its place. Consider what that says about this world- that the group most dedicated to peace and rebuilding has been surgically excised from the narrative- destroyed more wholly than even the NCR- written out of existence entirely.

This is the single most reactionary fallout story that has been produced. By a fucking country mile.

Whatever lore critiques there are should be secondary. The storytelling is reactionary in ways I straight up have not seen from other Bethesda entries in the series. It is cruel to a fault, and depicts a world that is incapable of healing or growing- where the best you can do is hold onto that small spark of goodness while every bit of the society around you tries to murder it out of you. This isn't a story about rebuilding, or about postwar politics, or about society- it's about dueling warlords and might makes right attitudes and grimdark views of the nature of humanity. It's fallout in aesthetics alone- and it's perhaps the most hateful thing I've seen come out of this series outside of the actual neonazis in the fanbase.

Whatever hope there is in Moldaver's final moments looking out over the glittering ruins of LA is undercut by the knowledge of what came before. What was destroyed. And it's undercut by the Brotherhood's totalitarian control. It's not hopeful, it's the bare minimum of survival. It's all the progress of the postwar world, 200 years of humanity and history, reduced to just barely getting the lights back on.

In the intro to fallout 1, "War Never Changes" is used as thematic glue. It ties together two concepts- past wars- and present capitalism and militarism.

Ron Perlman describes the Roman Empire, the Spanish conquests of the Americas, and the Nazi regime- and then he says "war never changes" and uses it to connect those past atrocities to the modern world of the setting- to the war that ended everything. The phrase existed to link the resource wars and their ensuing fallout to all the crimes of empire prior. War never changes wasn't a hard and fast rule of human nature- it was a specific condemnation of America.

Lonesome Road even ends with the phrase refuted. War Never Changes. But men do, through the roads they walk. There is hope. That's what this series has always been about. The Master died at the end of fallout 1 and said "leave while you still have hope."

In this show, the black woman Vault Tec exec who ends the world says the phrase. It's stripped of all meaning. Just a generic throwback because it's a famous phrase in the series' history. It's not a condemnation of America, it's a celebratory thing. Vault Tec toasting to the end of the world.

What a thing to see this series become. What a thing to see celebrated.

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