#sitting and processing

[tvdfan23]

Watch "One Direction - Where We Are (Unreleased) Audio HQ" on YouTube

#still processing #younger me and current me are sitting next to each other rn listening to this #like it feels so familar in a good way even if this is a new song #i cant explain it idk #sitting and processing #literally feels like im back in time #about to open wattpad and write another 1D fanfiction #not even joking I- #yep just processing #and yeah like maybe im teary eyed but theyre good emotions so

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

fucking bonkers to me that people watch movies in theaters. you can't control the volume. you can't rewind when you miss something. you can't choose your own subtitles. you can't even pause to use the bathroom??? there's only like 7 movies to choose from????? and you must pay money for this privilege? grotesque. repugnance. act of torture.

#all while sitting in a room full of strangers breathing out their germs. repugnant #it must be fucking wild not to have sensory processing issues. you people are aliens #'but it's a bigger screen' not if you watch at home with a laptop balanced 5 inches from your face #which people probably shouldn't do but i continue doggedly onward regardless

[shepscapades]

Souls in the Sand: Concept Art

As I’ve mentioned here and there, I’ve spent the last two years developing an original story inspired by a small Origins+Empires server a few friends and I started planning. The more I developed plans for my empire to be a sprawling overgrown cityscape of ruins and stone framework inspired by the nether, the more I built up this backstory for the character I wanted to play, a small deerfolk boy named Esra. From there, and over months of working and reworking the story and its characters, I’m proud to say I’m coming up on a 100 piece gallery for my Masters Exhibition to display this story in the form of a song-inspired comic, titled: Souls in the Sand.

Over the next month and beyond the date of my exhibition in April, I wanted to start sharing my work here! I thought it would be fitting to first share all of the concept work I did for the characters last semester as I took each character from their old lineup and reworked them from scratch to see if there were any designs I could make more unique or appropriate for the story. This process consisted of four stages: silhouettes, full-body mock-ups, face and head shapes/designs, and experimenting with the final characters’ designs with a set of unique expressions that best fit their personalities and narrative role.

Since each character was reworked separately, the “new” concept lineup is a little disjointed (and some of the characters’ faces actually ended up different from their full-body designs), but I thought it would be fun to line them up to compare the overall cast to their old designs. With each character(s) I post the concept process for, I may share little bits of the work I’m doing or talk a little about their narrative roles as I go, but for now, have Esra!

I know I don’t post original work here often, but I wanted to share parts of this journey with you guys because it’s been very meaningful to me! And I hope all of the work I’ve been doing may at the very least serve as a bit of inspiration or encouragement for us to keep making silly minecraft stories, to keep drawing the characters we love, and to keep being creative in whatever way is meaningful! <3

#original artwork #original character #character design #concept art #Shep’s oc #Souls in the Sand #sits #art escapades #minecraft original story #esra #alo #deerfolk #boarfolk #piglin #minecraft oc #oc #original characters #conceptualization #process art #rue #wren #gale #lucian #perinnet #harlow #original story #illustration #personal art #drawings #original art

[mwagneto]

let's say hypothetically i couldn't take it anymore

#idk why but the first shot of them just sitting there is the one that did me in like i #genuinely cant process it or anything that happened after that. wall in my mind #jesussssssschrissttttt duuuuudeetheyre literally sitting there. help me #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ed x stede #stede x ed #blackbonnet #gentlebeard

[an-absolute-nightmare]

do hozier fans just live like this? like, normally? like you guys just listen to a song that makes you want to fall on your knees on your way to work and then just? carry on? like your neural configuration hasn't been fundamentally altered?

#see what i did there with carry on #hehe #i'm halfway through the album and i'm putting it on pause for the day i fear my brain doesn't have the capability to process that much #gloriousness in one sitting #hozier

[obsob]

big man...why is he so big...(hes full of love)

#mine #original #oug im tired!!! sleepy!! #what hve i done this week... i processes like 30 orders bc i had such a backlog OGUG. did 2 drawings for my portfolio. did this drawing #also did sm good planning! and sketching! #i was gna colour my portfolio drawings but im. pretty worn out so now maybe i will not #my lower back has been rlly sore also so . im gna try n avoid sitting at my desk heeh #its like half 12 whilst im queueing this....gna hve sm lunch soon. adn then read maybe. i finished my book this morn it was ver good #foxen bloom by. someone. cannae remember !!! very good nice an short #its a nice day..might go 4 walk #ive started on the sleeves for my jumper uehue !!!! am def gna run out of wool so annoying....will b short like. half a ball. #im gettin close 2 finishing my blanket....kinda...i ordered too much wool for that kjbsdkjbs #yes yes reading. i should do yoga maybe. world of pain #okay goodbye

[masterofiodine]

i absolutely adore that photo of ben and i just had to draw him (/cap) like that

#ik it's the same since bsn is in costume and everything but i just felt like this is cap #idk if it makes sense #also im aware that i wasnt able to capture the essence of that photo but well i cant do anything about it now #im not quite satisfied with how it turned out #i really have to work on backgrounds and shading and stuff #but this is part of the process yk #so enjoy #also #why did i chose something that is so hard to draw #like the shadows there are so strong since he's sitting in front of really light window and it just doesnt look right #bbc ghosts captain #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts fanart #the captain #moi is arting

[omaano]

"Kriffing hell, he’d fallen asleep. On Boba.  They’d stayed back to back, but Din’s head had leaned over onto Boba’s shoulder. The poor guy had been holding Din’s weight for—a quick check of his chrono eased some of his guilt; it’d only been ten minutes." Mand'alor Cabur chapter 14 by @nautilicious

This is one of my all-time favourite BobaDin fics, please give it a read and heap some love on the author, they really deserve it! (Their Boba is amazing. He isn't actively present all that much, but even then he has a presence, you know? and it's so good, I love him so much there!!!)

#also happy (slightly) early birthday to me! I'm getting all my presents early this year apparently even from myself XD #I honestly didn't think I'd finish it by the day but turns out I'm even a day early... thanks to dog sitting taking up all my time lol #bobadin #boba x din #boba/din #boba fett #din djarin #the mandalorian fanart #tbobf fanart #my art #star wars fanart #tbobf #the mandalorian #digital art #digital illustration #fanart #It's not exactly what I'd imagined but I'm so happy with it! #as well as how I could stick to the greenish palette through the process #I tweaked the colours a little once it was done #because I grow self conscious about it feeling too warm and yellow but I think it looks nice #I'm keeping all my blues and reds and purples and browns to another painting #another 3 but you know. one project - so one painting

[hylianane]

And when OPLA calls back to Zeff telling the crew to read stories to Zoro so he can hear their voices and recover faster, by having Sanji sit by his bedside on Thriller Bark and read him a book about the All Blue. What will you do then?

#literally the scene of Nami reading Zoro Noland’s book at the Baratie is my favorite addition #cause East Blue Nami is so damn prideful so seeing her do something that seems silly- #(reading to someone who isn’t listening) #-is such a fun way to mark her progress as a character #I can see her being the one to remind Sanji of Zeff’s advice and the act of reading to Zoro being a way to process the sort of. #hit to his pride and even self-perception that is Zoro’s interference in Thriller Bark. #why did Zoro stop him? Why would Zoro want to die in his place? Choose his dream instead of his own? #(maybe because he knew that sitting by your friend still body- helpless- is the worst feeling in the world) #Aside from this though I can specifically see the book being about the All Blue working #cause its a reminder about what a wonderful dream Sanji has. It’s a way to regain vigor and the willingness to fight for it #after having just tried to discard it in the face of Kuma moments prior #matt owens are you out there. please #opla #one piece #roronoa zoro #blackleg sanji #opla spoilers #for like future seasons that may or may not even happen #my post #zosan

[horsegirlhob]

Season 6 Buffy really just needed someone to give her good information about kink and BDSM and shit I'm not saying it would solve all her problems but I do think it would help with several of them.

#dylan says things #btvs #I had forgot just how deeply ashamed she is of enjoying kinky sex #like obviously she's ashamed of her relationship with Spike but she is also explicitly so worried about the type of sex they're having #its wild to rewatch the show there's so much i just didnt fully process or understand in my previous go through #cause the first and previously only time i watched it all the way through was in late elementary school #which btw. absolutely insane to be 11 years old watching Buffy and Spike fuck a house down with your parents sitting on the couch with you

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

That's the face he makes when he's feeling silly.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #I tried so hard to squeeze in the fact this bar boy was 100% down to take on wwx's surname. #Unfortunately for him...sitting at the table is a man who's biggest dream is to hyphenate his surname with that very same man #though as far as I'm aware taking on your husbands surname is culturally a very different process in this setting #but in modern times I think the surname thing would genuinely be a point of contention for these guys. #wwx of old would hate taking someone else's name. And wwx of 'i want to be an attic wife' future would want nothing less #lwj of 'we are equals and I want to represent that as much as our bond' would argue his point like a law case. #lwj of now has to sit at a table and see someone living his dream and he's too lawful of indiscriminate killing. But he's thinking about it #It's like the relationship between you & your laptop & your cat. lwj is the cat that is *going* to make you pay attention to him. #apologies for soft-skipping an upload yesterday. I had to redo a few comics and it set me back B*(

[starcurtain]

Woke: Alhaitham sold his grandmother's house and moved into the research center because he didn't like living in an empty home with so many memories.

Also woke: Alhaitham sold his grandmother's house and moved into the research center because it was the last remaining tie he had to Kaveh, and taking ownership of it ensured that Kaveh would have to communicate with him again at least one more time.

#genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #haikaveh #kavetham #just sitting here thinking about #the thought process a character like Alhaitham would have to go through #to move out of a familiar and furnished home #to move into a virtually unfurnished research building #with no familiar comforts #and no experience himself in setting up a home #there's no way it was nicer than his previous house #maybe closer to the akademiya #but other than that? #a total nuisance to have to move and rearrange everything in his life #what could have driven him to make such a big change #and did Kaveh’s connection to the research center factor in #I'm thinking very hard okay

[keymintt]

letting things slip

#art #comic #comics #ocs #honeybee #grimm #yarrow #digital #my art #busted this whole thing out in one (3-4 hour) sitting #anyways love it when one character tries their best to hide that they're not. fully human and the other is just 👀 abt that shit #fighting for my life trying to figure out how to make coloring comics go quicker it's the biggest snag in my process #tbh i think i need to switch to more limited palette stuff for my own sake but i gotta figure out some ideas

[reunioninn]

Daisuke's Notes on Robo-Ky's Concept:

A robot made by incorporating Ky's movements.

When we were developing the consumer version, we decided to add a bonus character. But we didn't have enough time to create any new characters. There was talk of making extra characters (characters with slightly different specs), which was what other companies were doing, but we felt that wouldn't be enough. We decided to thoroughly tinker with what we could, so we broke up Ky, added weird sound effects and gimmicks, and called him Robo-Ky. We joked that not only were the specs different, but the character itself was different too. However, he became quite popular and was promoted to a proper character on the roster later on. At first, his face was the same as Ky's. I decided to change it, making it more with a "robot" in mind. Or perhaps something like one of Leiji Matsumoto's robots, with a radar on his head. When you say "robot", there are all sorts of things that fall under this category like mobile suits, but when I say "robot", I mean it like this.

#SORRY THIS HAS BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS #anyways i wasnt expecting much about his personality or anything but i still like knowing the creation process #but its interesting that he has his own 'unique' definition of a robot #also keeping the thought in the back of my mind that in another interview daisuke said he really enjoyed designing robo ky #and considers him a personal favorite #guilty gear #robo ky

[n4rval]

the stalker

#artwork #freakbullet followed me i was morally compelled to sit and actually make art of him #but yk brain empty = silly comic #since he so nicely decided to pay me a visit i now know exactly how to capture his features #wingdings is a creep nothing will convince me otherwise #but yk in a mad scientist kind of way #actually a nice old man whos interested in your ocs #thank you for supporting my insanity dings #undertale #gaster #wd gaster #real depiction of my creative process #deltarune #wingdings and me