#sorry for the pain LMAO

[smokbeast]

Papyrus sketches from my book the other day!

I like to think papyrus is serious and can become angry when he wants to be, but he’s such a nice and genuine sweet character he wouldn’t want to show that to the character or others.

#Like he’s just so kind he wants to see the best in people always even when they’re bad and he holds back his own pain in hopes they come #thru to it. That’s how I saw it with undyne and frisk at least and how protective he became of them after you become his friend #He has the potential obviously. He gets mad at sans JDKFJr but he’s just really sweet and I love him;;; #I’m rambling sorry I love papyrus sm #he’s like the sun of undertale and IM BRAVE ENOUGH TO SAY IT #me being silly n cringe on main LMAo #art #my art #sketches #undertale #papyrus #undertale art #I almost spelled papyrus wrong and a mutt papyrus tag came OUT WTF DOES THAT MEAN #MAYBE I DONT WANNA KNOW DKDKGN

[reegis]

seeing ur style change is so much fun sorry i keep posting these rhrjf but the first time i ever drew Ashes vs most recent

#im in too much pain to draw rn so im distracting myself sorry lmao #theres only like? #a 5 month difference #but it’s obvious to Me #they look so thin in the first one wtf was i doin g

[junaip3r]

Listen. Do you hear that? I don't hear anything. That's the point.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #gos2spoilers #crowley #aziraphale #innefable husbands #aziracrow #david tennant #michael sheen #my stuff #i present you pain in 4k .psd #sorry lmao

[hualian]

tgcf spoilers but the donghua team including this was really such a punch in the gut, especially knowing the full backstory to the second image - it made today's episode even more painful (literally within the first 6 minutes !!! they knew what they were doing) these small nuggets of future spoilers make the episodes even more interesting but DAMN I was NOT ready for this one

#tgcf #tgcf spoilers #like..... i was absolutely speechless when I saw this #donghua team... y'all really said pain this epidode #i want to call these easter eggs but what easter are we egging #even last week's nugget with the masks!!!! except that was a lot lighter than this LMAO #no words this was pure heartbreak #macy speaks #tw death #I'm sorry even the trigger warning is a spoiler

[jacensolodjo]

It is easy to make jokes about the Eastern European and Jewish prerogative about food. It is not so easy when you know both groups have been literally starved to death through no fault of their own.

It is easy for someone to say "why didn't they just leave" but not so easy knowing because these murders by starvation were intentional, the victims were actively prevented from leaving. Which in itself is proof it was intentional for these people to starve to death.

If you want us to believe something like the Holodomor was a natural famine you shouldn't also tell us about internal passports (something many countries have done in order to keep an eye on where their "undesirables" are going) and people being shot for trying to board trains, planes, busses, and carriages. If, instead, it was natural, why stop people from going somewhere that there IS food?

Through the lens of epigenetics we can begin to understand why a third generation American of EE/Jewish descent might have this anxiety about food, about making sure there is enough, that we remember those who are less fortunate, that we appear to subsist entirely on leftovers. Or, indeed, why many with these epigenetic changes tend to trend towards higher percentages of body fat. Our bodies through our genes remember a time nobody could be even a pound overweight and it knows that the body literally eats itself as we starve and the first to go of course is body fat so our bodies, knowing all this, make sure we have extra "God forbid (ptoo ptoo ptoo), just in case".

"They tried to kill us, they failed, let's eat" isn't just a pithy saying. We outlived them even despite being unable to eat. We do not hoard food, we just happen to have a lot of leftovers through this anxiety about food. "Oy, I ate too much" is a blessing. With it, we are aware of how few times our ancestors could say the same. During Pesach (Passover), we have an entire dinner party (complete with perhaps a little too much wine) and recline in style as we eat matzo and remember why it is just so damn flat (we rushed off to escape from Egypt without finishing making our dough. D'oh!). Everything on the seder plate has a meaning, with some items being added or removed based on the traditions of the family or congregation doing the seder. Such as in the past couple years the olive is added to symbolize the hope for peace in Ukraine (or, for some, peace in the Middle East). Or the orange to symbolize the inclusion of the LGBTQ community.

Perhaps it seems paradoxical to eat so much in one sitting instead of saving some for a time where food may be scarce. But it goes hand in hand with "They tried to kill us, they failed". We have survived another day and have enjoyed good food and good company. In spite of everything they did to us. We feast out of spite. Perhaps because of all those times our enemies were eating without a care in the world while our ancestors watched and starved. We have proof of commie buffets while starving Ukrainians watched from the street. We have proof of Jews being teased with food, with Gentiles tossing heels of bread on the ground so they could watch as said Jews fought over it or flinging a sausage and laughing as Jews raced to get it as if they were playing fetch with a dog. Or the innumerable times people were killed for stealing a handful of grain when many times they were the ones who had farmed the grain in the first damn place.

There are many who do not see starvation as a tool of genocide. They don't understand how starvation can break a community. Death by Hunger, the translation of Holodomor, was not about control like people claim (in other words they claim the death was an accident, that the starving was meant to keep people in line. If they had just behaved themselves they wouldn't have died etc.,). It was always and forever about a stronger group ridding the world of another group without getting literal and metaphorical blood on their hands. They could cite plausible deniability. It wasn't their fault, honest, it was just bad luck.

The stereotypical scene of people in lines that stretch multiple city blocks was in fact the norm. And more often than not, only the first few dozen would get anything at all and everyone else would find they had wasted an entire day waiting for food that was never meant to be given to them in the first place. The supply was purposely small. At least for those who were either too low in the Party or not a part of it at all. For Jews, you turned to the black market which was often caught selling spoiled food as well as food that wasn't actually food at all (such as sawdust masquerading as bread). Which happened even with regular stores because as a Jew you could only buy certain things and everyone knew it and still would not sell the genuine article because why should they? It is, after all, going to a Jew. Soviet areas were guilty of doing this to everyone, too.

So if you are visiting an EE and/or Jewish home and they actively push food on you and insist you take leftovers, that is their love language. We want you to have enough because far too many times our people did not. And in Jewish culture, it is a literal mitzvah to provide food to those who cannot procure it themselves either because of money/access, or they are going thru the bereavement process or otherwise incapable of dealing with making sure they have something to eat (such as an illness that prompts them being added to the Mi Shebeirach list which in many congregations is printed and given out to refer to during the Mi Shebeirach prayer during services and may also be paired with the mourner's kaddish list). It is why when you go to a house where the occupants are sitting Shiva, you will often find their kitchen stacked with tupperware of varying sizes and cuisine and you will often be instructed to bring something as well though it isn't a requirement. Generally, your presence is considered the more important aspect of the Jewish bereavement process. (Just do not say you are going to sit Shiva with someone. Rather, you are paying a Shiva call or condolence call. Only the mourners are in fact sitting Shiva. Also important: try the door first before ringing or knocking, as usually that is seen as an interruption to sitting Shiva which is frowned upon. And do not literally call them unless told otherwise for the same reason.)

Food makes or breaks us. Food is not inherently moral or immoral. And yes, perhaps there is always room for dessert. And maybe we do eat too much but that's okay. We have survived to enjoy it, so let us do so. Nu, it is what our ancestors would want.

#anti communism #holodomor #judaism #jumblr #ukrainian #culture #food mention #the holodomor was genocide #genocide tag #gosh i went all over the place in this didn't i #i'm sorry it started storming and i was hiding out in the bath tub trying to get my lower body to stop screaming in pain lmao #long post #anyway chag pesach sameach

[kana7o]

May Sketches!

#obikin #i had fun with all of these HUHUU #theres 2 whump pics and they look the same bc i didnt read the prompt properly LMAO #it was supposed to be anakin taking care of obiwan.... #oh well two cakes #and obiwan is in pain either way so <3 #ALSO I WISH I COULD DRAW BEEG SCARY ANAKIN TOWERING OVER HIS SMOL MASTER #IM NOT GOOD AT DRAWING FURRY THO CRIES #I FORGOT TO TAG #pregnancy #IM SORRY I FORGOT SHDVZYAVS #mpreg #sw

[alisoncooper]

[image id: four screencaps from bbc ghosts, series one, episode three, 'happy death day' when pat tells alison tomorrow is his death day. the first screencap features a subtitle that's been altered to read, 'tomorrow's bbc ghosts final series day.' the following three screencaps show alison initially looking happy, then progressively more sad. the subtitles for these screencaps have been changed to read 'oh! happy...bbc ghosts final series day'. /end id]

#bbc ghosts #ghosts bbc #shitposting my way through the pain #anyway sorry this is badly captioned i made this so fast lmao #also i'm scheduling this for midnight because this 27 year old baby needs sleep #but alison's reaction here is exactly how i feel about s5 #effie rambles

[uncanny-tranny]

I think when people conceptualize pain and disability, what they think of is something like this:

It's conceptualized as something you are cured from, that pain can be only temporary, and you will one day "get better."

In reality, it's something more like this:

Pain is often non-linear in nature. When you see somebody in low-pain days, weeks, or perhaps longer, that doesn't mean that they have "healed." Not all pain is curable, and the idea that it is is only hurting people who experience pain. Yes, it is uncomfortable to imagine that we might not be able to heal, that we might, in fact, become disabled by pain that will never heal. But running from this possibility is not the solution.

#disability #chronic pain #described images #image description in alt #sorry about my handwriting i was using an art program on my phone <3 #plus it isn't a graph based on like... empirical data. it's illustrative of an attitude i see from often abled people #i'm having a good-ish week so far with my pain but that doesn't mean it is gone #i know i have talked about this before but i wanted to do it more as an image than text #i think it can help people understand better (at least it does for me) #man i don't think i've made a graph since mid high school LMAO

[artforkuponuts]

The Three of Swords

This card depicts a fundamentally sorrowful experience— tarot readers suggest this may be in the form of a lost relationship, an accidental death, or some other form of not just depression or malaise but deeply emotional sorrow.

#loki #mogs art #loki fanart #agent of asgard #tarot #aoa loki #the thre of swords is just so perfect for aoa loki. the death is his own and its both accidental and orchestrated #the swords piercing him are modeled after gram the heros blade of truth. and what is more deeply emotionally painful than loki's truth? #the storm os a traditional background for this card but it also represents thor and the rain falling in the scene of their confrontation #aaaaaaa #i just have so much to say #ill go now im sorry #lmao

[ilukavee]

Mundane life

#genshin impact #artists on tumblr #aether #comics #genshin comic #xiao #xiao genshin #xiaoaether #this looks to me more like a painful memory #LMAO ((((NOT ANGST)))) I SWEAR #I love them in this event they're so tender #also found a new fav tone brush <3 #i'm sorry but aether's hand just cracks me up #i might have been sleep-deprived

[redactedcrowart]

happy belated morbnetsversary have something sad

#WE ARE ALL GOING TO PRETEND I DID NOT FUCK UP THE INCORRECT EYE #by the time i realised i was already too far in to switch it. whatever man i'm committed #tw implied suicide #eyestrain cw #lmao. anyway #brian marble hornets #marble hornets #i'm not tagging the operator. fuck you #to everyone that tries to decipher my tiny awful fucking handwriting: i am sorry. i enjoy pain #my art #uhhhhhhhhhhhh #shit it's been a while #mh #art #illustration #brian mh #brian thomas marble hornets #this is such a fucking mess WE ARE GOING TO IGNORE IT

[eggy-the-boy]

Something something Charles giving himself the brawn label and Edwin the brains label. Something something Edwin always compliments Charles when he figures something out. Calling him a genius and emphasizes that Charles is more than just the fighter of the two. Something something these two make my brain rot.

#Sorry I'm really bad at articulating what I mean here cause my thoughts are so jumbled rn but aahhhhhhh #just something about Charles seeing himself as one thing and Edwin telling him he's not #especially when Charles is worried about becoming like his dad #like self depreciation is so easy to fall into but It's nice when someone is there to tell you that no you are more than you think #it's just so sweet ahhhhhhhhhhhh #I'm bad at explaining things #I love this show so much and I think Charles might being passing Niko as my favourite character lmao he's just so relatable #anyways #dead boy detectives #charles rowland #edwin payne #edwin paine #dead boy detective agency #dbd

[akuma-tenshi]

oh i am OBSESSED

#just in case you weren't convinced that rare case is the best coa skin to exist #HE'S SO FUCKING GORGEOUS AND FOR WHAT???? #like fugitive and luminary are like.. objectively better i think #but i think rare case is my personal favourite #i encourage you all to go listen to i had to die to survive it's very him #gonna be the first non-s-tier i make a playlist for lmao #the prettiest boy. i'm so sorry you're in pain #body horror #???? ig?????? #body horror kinda comes with the territory of coa7 #rambling #idv #identity v #coa 7 #call of the abyss #coa #idv coa #idv call of the abyss #idv call of the abyss 7 #call of the abyss 7 #idv coa 7 #emil mesmer #idv emil #idv patient #not tagging ada you can barely see her

[blindmagdalena]

I'm suffering from baby fever and i'm thinking about how overjoyed hl would be when him & his partner's baby reaches out to grab his hand. Little tiny hand with their whole fist around one of his fingers looking up at him with those big loving eyes. don't look at me i'm ugly sobbing in the corner

nooooo don't do this to me!!! the scene of him holding baby Teddy always puts my ovaries in a vice, and he didn't even LIKE that baby. but god he held him so naturally. the little bounces! the back rubs!

i know he's being his very terrible self in this scene but just imagine him with a baby he actually likes 😭

#darling anon #ask and you shall receive #dadlander #this scene was lit so DARK it's such a pain in the ass to gif #i just cranked up the brightness sorry lmao #homelander headcanons

[orcelito]

in the Wolfwood side story of trimax volume 8 chapter 6, we see this visual metaphor:

[ID: Three pages from Trigun Maximum. The first pages shows Wolfwood staring up at a flying bird and carving it in wood. He thinks to himself, "Us humans... We look up at them... and feel longin'. But they may look down at us... and envy how we have earth and shade to escape the pain of endlessly flappin' yer wings to survive." The second page shows a new scene where he is talking to Maylene. She looks up at a bird in the sky and tells him, "I... used to be an orphan. I've always depended on others for survival. Mr. Priest... How does the world look when you are able to choose your own path?" As she talks, Wolfwood is shown with a resigned look to his eyes. In the third page, Wolfwood replies, "Knock it off. Look over there." The bird lands, and we see that its feathers are mangled. Wolfwood continues, "That bird... It's in terrible shape. If you could look into its heart, you'd know all it wants is a safe place to sleep, a few scraps of food, and a life of peace. You'd know just how much it would envy yer luxurious cage." End ID]

(all pages from @trigun-manga-overhaul)

even at the time of first reading this, I wondered if it was a metaphor for Vash. at this point in the story, it's just after Wolfwood broke Vash out of the ark. we've seen the horrible truths of Vash's life over and over again... & the fact that at the end of the day, he just wants to live a quiet life of peace.

this suspicion turned into certainty with these pages in volume 10 chapter 4

[ID: Four pages of Trigun Maximum. The first is a single panel of Vash passing by a bloodied Wolfwood with a hand on his shoulder, telling him, "Crush him." In the second page, Vash walks off, leaving Wolfwood to his fight. Wolfwood preps his gun and says to himself, "I'm sorry... Needle-Noggin..." The third page is a wide shot of the sky, followed by a flying bird just like the ones seen in the prior pages. The fourth page is a shot of Vash staring up at the bird. His face is partially obscured in darkness with his eyes out of shot, but he is not smiling and his posture is hunched. The final panel is blank white. End ID]

... yeah. with the same imagery of the bird, we see Vash looking up at it with a hard to read expression. partially obscured, so we don't even see his eyes, but in his posture and the lack of a smile... you can see his pain. he's only just learned that Wolfwood is dying, and he wants so badly to be able to save him... but he can't. he's forced to accept that this is Wolfwood's fight, so he leaves him to it even as it agonizes him.

looking up at the bird that's forced to keep flying to survive... Vash is that bird. for the first time since he was a child, he allowed himself to grow truly close to someone. he found himself wanting to share a future with him, to share their Tomorrows...

[ID: A panel progression of Vash listening to Wolfwood fight. His face is partially obscured until it's revealed that he is weeping in agony. End ID]

but it wasn't meant to be. Vash isn't a being that can settle down like that.

he's cursed to forever fly.

#speculation nation #trigun #vashwood #trigun meta #fanny reads trigun #fanny's trigun analysis #trigun spoilers/ #trimax spoilers/ #uhm. sorry #if it's any consolation this post brought me Great Pain to write too #i've had this in mind for a while. since when i first read volume 10 actually. but i decided to remake the post #to a more comprehensive version. So. #Vash Is That Bird. i need to lie down now lmao

[labotor]

recent + old scarecrow art dump 🎃

#jonathan crane #the scarecrow #btas #dc #my art #when I say old I mean... 4 years ago lmao #idk if its a bad thing or not I think its still up to my standards 💀 #tho TBF the recent one was a quickie to stop my drawing skills from degrading completely lol #I cant understate how obsessed I am with this weirdo #it comes in waves over years but listening to the batman audio adventures has got me right back into his clutches #the MC's dad from b99 voices him and his performance is soooo MMMM #mad scientist + halloween-adjacent design combo just has me in a chokehold #the new batman adventures design is so gawddamn good and underused but it is a pain in the bum to draw #once again sorry for treating my tumblr tags as a personal diary