#their relationship is STAGNANT lets MIX IT UP!!!!!!!!

[luaveltarot]

ᴘᴀᴄ- ᴡʜAT ɪs ᴍᴀɴɪғᴇsᴛɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ?

ᴘɪʟᴇ 𝟷

Before I start, I want to let you know that letter C,B and J seems important. A new mindset awaits for you to manifest it. You have ended something that you wished to end for a long time. You had the choice to stay and accept the bare minimum or move on as you wished. You were burnt out and ran away from reality instead of facing it. You felt heavily trapped and your surroundings reflected your worsened mental health. Which could be that you didn’t care about cleanliness or there was no routine to keep you healthy, everything screamed chaos and out of place. You even ran away from the fact that your body needs rest and your health will go down the drain if you didn’t pause for awhile. Sometimes we have to take tough decisions and it’s a bittersweet feeling but once you relax in your everyday life, you will realise how badly you were in need of this pause. It’s important to move on and experience new situations, one never evolves by staying in one place. Also a change of air or change of scenery will be good if you go for it. You can even try to change/move your interiors and clean the space to feel a shift in energy if you feel stagnant. Stagnation makes you think, movement only decides action. Numbers 4 and 10 seems significant, it could be that you are facing this situation either at home (shifting homes) or your work place (change of job). Anyway, you will be forced into this period of recovery if you did not take it yourself. You might have not wanted it in the ways it came to you but if you keep an open mind then you’ll be able to see why it happened.

ᴘɪʟᴇ 2

New relationships manifests you. You’ve either taken the blame for someone in the past or you let someone dig your ground while looking at them. You treated someone like a family and they did no good to you. Even though you find yourself alone rn, it will only be for a short period of time. I see that you will not sulk or think of yourself as a victim instead you’ll stand up for your actions and see what went wrong and why. You’ll decode the reason behind the pattern of betrayal others did to you. You are taking control of your mind and you will feel like a leader in your life who has planned everything after a lot of trials and came up with a solid attitude to approach life. No one can toy with you or your emotions. Since you’ll do the shadow work, you will attract like minded friends who balance you out in the most genuine way. You could be have the most fun time of your life with them now because whenever you’re with them, it’s party all the time and it doesn’t feel forced or you just do everything to entertain them. It won’t be one sided as it used to be, you will probably not remember anyone from the past because your new friend circle is goals. Numbers 3,4,5& and 6 came in sequence so I feel you are stepping up in life and not falling back or letting past hold you back.

ᴘɪʟᴇ 3

This group is interesting firstly when I pulled the cards, it was a mix of pile 1 and pile 2. But the msg was entirely different. Something new and unique is manifesting you. You could come up with an invention out of the blue. It can be a recipe, a new theory or a sudden realisation which alters your life completely. Mostly probably, you’ve been working on something for a significant amount of time and it’s magic can finally be seen. Obviously when you come with an invention, there are more critics than supporters, however you will feel proud. This creative approach or even a unique way of thinking will make people recognise you. People will notice you for this unique approach because it’s something mind boggling lol. You went through a lot of challenges on the way to this success but no one can see it and that’s why don’t let their judgments affect you. However, this is not a magic once done will do the rest of the thing on its own, this magic, this new idea or whatever it is, requires consistency, don’t get lazy or pessimistic, it’s the time to keep going on. This unique thing could even be to find a flaw in a theory or law which already exists but no one ever noticed a flaw until now. September can be the month, when it happens. A side msg that I kept getting- what you are manifesting, is manifesting you too.

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[scuderiasundays]

you and me together

summary: a growing rift between you and carlos mixed with late night celebrations for an old friend + a little insta au at the end!

words: 1,345

a/n: this is the first time i've gotten a request for a fic so a big thank you to anon for sending this in! i've been fixated on who will win wimbledon 2023 so i had to incorporate a few tennis players 🎾

Carlos had managed to score some much-needed time off to make it to Wimbledon. The two of you had always dreamed of witnessing the pinnacle of tennis, booking the trip ages ago when the two of you were on steadier ground. Carlos was going to join you after his stint at Silverstone, while you had landed in London a day earlier to reconnect with college friends.

"Looks like Taylor's the hot favorite this year," you grinned. You and Taylor had a loose connection through Alexa, his cousin, who happened to be your college roommate. Whenever Taylor felt overwhelmed by the pressure of ATP rankings, he would swing by their apartment unannounced. The easygoing Californian would tag along to frat parties, going in as a stranger and emerging with a whole crew of newfound friends. You had played the role of Taylor's personal chauffeur, escorting him home in his intoxicated state, all the while indulging in his drunken rants about seeds, tournaments, and prize money. You always had a hunch that he had a thing for you, but your busy schedules kept the two of you delicately tiptoeing around the topic, never quite addressing it head-on.

You couldn't help but wonder how different things would be if you had taken a chance on Taylor. Stuck in a relationship that felt stagnant, you walked through the familiar streets of a city where you and Carlos had once roamed during his McLaren days. London summers seemed to stretch on forever, with the sun setting late around 9:30 PM. You and Carlos had once strolled through the city hand in hand, lost in aimless conversation. Now, the demands of your job kept you from accompanying Carlos to race weekends, while he rarely made it home, going straight from races to the simulator in Maranello.

When Carlos strolled into the hotel lobby with Charles by his side, you couldn't help but let out a faint sigh. It wasn't exactly a huge surprise since you knew Charles was a tennis fanatic, and you actually liked hanging out with him. On the other hand, you had secretly hoped this trip would be your shot at reconnecting with Carlos and maybe reviving the dwindling spark. Well, there goes that idea, you thought, feeling a twinge of disappointment set in.

As you entered the hotel room, Carlos asked, "You don't mind that I brought him, do you?" You replied, "No, not at all." Carlos proceeded to mention that he had to hit the gym since the Hungarian Grand Prix was coming up, emphasizing his "no days off" mentality. He affectionately kissed your forehead before shutting the door behind him.

Just as you were about to head out, a text notification popped up. It was from Carlos, apologizing that he couldn't make it to the Gentlemen’s Singles Final. Ferrari had sprung a last-minute PR commitment on him and Charles, but he promised to make it up to you. You were gutted, quickly dialing Alexa's number. You didn’t even feel like watching the match anymore, but she was adamant that you join her in Taylor's box. It had been years since you had last seen Taylor, and you were dazed by just how much he’d changed—a newfound aura of confidence that screamed "America’s No. 1."

"Y/N, it's been too long!" Taylor exclaimed as he pulled you into a warm hug. The atmosphere crackled with anticipation as you wished him luck and turned your attention to Centre Court, where Taylor was about to embark on an epic showdown against Carlos Alcaraz, the newly crowned world No. 1.

As the final point was won, the stadium erupted into an explosion of applause and admiration. Taylor stood tall, basking in the well-deserved glory of his hard-fought win. Emotions ran high as he shook his opponent’s hand in a display of sportsmanship and mutual respect.

Taylor's victory had set the stage for a night out on the town, and drinks were on him as the entourage made their way into the vibrant Sexy Fish in Mayfair. Congratulations poured in from all directions, amplifying the elation in the air. However, amidst the festive ambience, a pang of longing tugged at your heart, reminding you of the nights you’d spent by Carlos' side, reveling in his victories and beaming with pride.

As the evening progressed and the champagne flowed, you playfully grabbed an imaginary microphone, assuming the role of a reporter. With a mischievous glint in your eye, you turned to Taylor, who stood at the bar, soaking it all in. "You just won Wimbledon! How does it feel to be on top of the world, Mr. Fritz?" you mockingly asked him.

Taylor, caught off guard but never without his notorious charm, grinned and replied, "I don't even have words, Y/N. I wasn't in the best headspace going into the match, but you showed up, and something just clicked. Maybe I'd be World No.1 if you were in my box at every tournament." His playful words made you blush, fully aware of the harmless flirtation at play. You knew you weren't doing anything wrong, yet the room seemed to spin, overwhelming you with a sudden rush of emotions. Excusing yourself, you swiftly made your way towards the ladies' room, seeking a moment alone to gather your thoughts in the midst of the whirlwind celebration.

As Carlos and Charles walked into the restaurant, accompanied by a group of older executives, they immediately spotted you amidst the crowd. Charles couldn't help but make a lighthearted remark, "Funny seeing you here, Y/N! Any chance you can introduce us to the Wimbledon champion?" Relief washed over you, knowing they hadn't overheard your conversation with Taylor. Taylor was stunned to say the least as you walked back to the bar with two rather muscular men by your side.

“Taylor, meet the Scuderia Ferrari boys. Boys, meet Taylor.” The handshake exchanged between the three men was cordial, but Carlos, always quick-witted and ever possessive, raised one of his infamous eyebrows and chimed in, "Thanks for the introduction but I’m your boyfriend more importantly, no?" The playful remark had a tinge of jealousy in it, causing a momentary pause in the conversation.

Just then, Alexa, your ever-supportive confidante, happened to pass by. In her extremely inebriated state, she voiced what had been gnawing at her mind, "Not for long if you don't treat her right. You barely show up for her." Alexa had been there through the ups and downs of your rollercoaster of a relationship, aware of the challenges posed by long-distance and the strain it had placed on the both of you.

Overwhelmed by the weight of it all, you felt the need to escape for a moment. Without a word, you made your way outside, craving the coolness of the night air. Carlos, sensing your distress, followed closely behind. Observing your shivering, he swiftly handed you his navy blazer, offering you comfort in the only way he knew how.

"I'm sorry I haven’t been putting us first lately. I can tell I'm losing you," Carlos admitted with a hint of vulnerability in his eyes, his hands fidgeting nervously—a telltale sign of his unease. You could tell he was hurting as he struggled to find the right words. He had been grappling with the reality of your relationship slipping away, yet hesitant to poke the bear.

“It’s not just you, Carlos. It’s me too. Neither of us has been putting in the work and it shows.” Carlos nodded as his gaze softened.

“Where do we go from here?” Carlos muttered.

"Where do we go from here?" you repeated, mulling over the open-ended question. It held infinite possibilities, a multitude of paths stretching out before the two of you. And in that moment, you knew what you wanted more than anything.

A smile tugged at the corners of your lips as you looked up at Carlos, a spark dancing in your eyes. "Let's just walk around the city like we used to. Take me anywhere, as long as the night ends with you and me together."

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yourusername: what a weekend! catching up with forever friends, getting my steps in, and watching the sunrise with my person 💚

alexafritz: you’re stuck with me for life

yourusername: i love this photo of you, lex! i’d be lost in a world without you 🫶🏼

carlossainz55: solamente mía

pierregasly: how dare you even think of going to wimbledon without me, @charles_leclerc 😤

charles_leclerc: calme-toi, mate! i didn’t even get to go but i did meet @taylorfritz 😏

yourusername: get a room

fan1: i went on a run in primrose hill this morning but i didn't want to bother carlos and @yourusername because they looked so blissfully in love

taylorfritz: you and lex are the best (loudest) cheerleaders 📢

yourusername: rooting for you always!

update: part two here ➡️

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[st0nesnglitter]

Hey, I just read your “truth or dare” smut with Sirius and loved it, that is pure art. I was wondering if you could write another smut with Sirius being very dominant and having a size kink and lots of degradation, if you feel comfortable, of course. Thanksss

SIZE KINK!!!!!! Ugh I’m a whore for size kinks

A/N: this is absolutely not my best work, my writing is a little rusty. But at least it’s meaty so hopefully you’ll like some part!

Word count: 3.7k

Ever since the night of the game Sirius had become more affectionate. You discussed what your friendship meant to each other and agreed to take it slow, not labeling it and letting it grow in its own pace.

But with the addition of a sexual relationship on top of friendship he has been paying you a lot more attention, being more touchy and you feared that the rest of the group had caught on. So in your mind, to try and lure off any suspicions, you had to be more flirty to the other Marauders. And as a similar night as the night of truth or dare was beginning to form you opted to sit next to Remus instead of Sirius.

“Wait, so are you meant to drink if you have done it or if you haven’t?” Lily slurred before reaching over to Peter to grab the joint floating around.

“If you have done it,” James explained, again, “but I think we should just say stuff, we don’t have to have done it to say it, y’know?”

“Okay does everyone get it?” Remus asked, ever the organizer, “drink if you’ve done it, say anything you can think of”.

The game started rather slow, people getting up to fetch things and to refill cups, but as the game progressed and the questions got juicier the players got more stagnant.

“Okay, never have I ever… slept with more than three people in a week?” Morcas asked, slowly scanning the crowd.

You didn’t really expect anyone to drink but as your eyes fell on Sirius you saw him take a sip. A pit formed in your stomach as you thought about the question. You knew he had a salacious history, certainly more extensive than yours, but you didn’t really want to think of it. The confidence you’ve built up during your sexual escapades with Sirius slowly crumbled as your thoughts ran away from you.

“I’ve got one! Never have I ever had a threesome?” Marlene asked with a wicked smile.

Lily raised her cup to her lips, as did James and they shared a giggle. The attention was directed toward them as people exclaimed and tried to get some more details as Sirius took another drink. You saw it, eyes slowly meeting his and you saw his eyebrow move towards each other in silent questioning.

You felt yourself shrink, averting your eyes and trying to focus on the ruckus that James created around the threesome. In the chaos the game kind of slipped everyones minds and sub-groups started to form around the room. You decided to top off your drink by the table where Remus stood, slightly leaning, mixing his own drink.

“Hey darling” Remus handed you some lemon juice for your drink.

“Hi Remmy” you mumbled and taste tested your little creation, scrunching your nose at the foul taste.

Remus chuckled at your reaction, “not tasty?”

You shook your head and looked up at him. In your peripheral vision you saw Sirius looking toward you. The pit in your stomach from earlier returned, and defiance grew in your body. If Sirius was so flirty and promiscuous, you could be too. Your hand found its way to Remus’ forearm, letting your fingers trace upwards.

“I just can’t get the mix right, your always turn out so tasty” you said, words slightly slurred from equal parts attempted sultriness and equal part intoxication.

Rem chuckled and turned around so he could get a fresh cup and started mixing a new drink. As he worked Lily and Marlene came up to the table.

”Surprised to see you over here” Marlene snickered and reached for a candy from the big bowl.

Your brows furrowed and looked up with a tilted head, obviously confused.

“What do you mean?” You said as Remus handed you your new drink. With just a glance down you knew that it was better than the one you’d mix.

“Just figured you’d be over by Sirius” she replied with a slight twinkle.

As the words reached your inebriated mind your face heated up to a couple thousand degrees. The worry of not having been slick was confirmed and you took a breath to conjure up a plan before replying with a smile.

“Oh no, not when Remmy looks this good” you murmured, sliding your hand over the lycanthropes bicep.

He looked down at you with a smirk and leaned over to place a kiss on your head.

“Well I’m flattered, darling”.

Marlene and Lily shared a look before walking away, mumbling to themselves about whatever. Remus turned to you again and smiled.

“So have you and Sirius stopped fucking or what?”

The question came at you like a couple hundred bees and you have to take second to realize he actually said that.

“Oh come on sweetheart, Sirius and I know everything about each other, you had to know he told me, right?” He said and his smile fell slightly.

“I-I just thought we were, y’know, secret” you mumbled and took a sip for courage. Remus let out a chuckle.

“You wanna be secret? Cause it’s pretty obvious, for everyone” he said over his cup and let his eyes sweep over the room as to prove his point. You let your gaze follow his before taking a step closer.

“Well, that’s kinda why I’ve been around you tonight” you started, quickly taking another swig, “ wanted to throw people off the scent”.

Remus’ face cracked up into a bright smile and let out a chuckle.

“Or are you tryna get him jealous?”

The thought hadn’t even crossed your mind before. He got you jealous during the game, why not retaliate?

“Want my help sweetheart?” Remus asked with a smirk, seeing your thought process like a movie outside your head.

You threw a glance over at Sirius who sat over by James, who had put up cups for a beer-pong tournament. Siri was so pretty from the side, cheekbones sculpted by some divine creature, lips slipping into such an easy smile so it was practically impossible not to smile back.

“Yes please” you almost begged him.

The rest of the night you and Remus circulated the rest of the group, like a moon to a planet, always keeping an eye out for Sirius. The beer-pong had started and with Lily and James teamed up it was quite impossible for the rest of the duos, but as they were down to the last cups Dorcas called out.

“Hey, Beauty and the Beast we need another team!”

You looked over and saw her stand next to Sirius but without any opponents on the other side. You glanced over at Remus as he rolled up his sleeves.

“Let’s go”.

You had Remus behind you, trying out your throw. With four misses in a row, and with Dorcas and Sirius leading with two cups, you tried to gather yourself. Playing with Gryffindors meant that every game is practically life or death.

“Oh come on! Just throw it!” Sirius exclaimed.

Your eyes shot up, a surprised look drawn over your whole face. His eyes had a very intriguing twinkle and he smiled in a way that made your stomach turn. So you threw it. And you made a perfect shot.

Remus let out a celebratory shout and wrapped his arms around your waist, hoisting you up slightly. You laughed and let yourself celebrate with him, lifting your arms into the air. But as Remus put you down you looked over at your opponents. As your eyes landed Sirius you saw that the twinkle had disappeared, which scared you. The second thing you noticed was that his smile had not disappeared, which scared you even more.

“Please, you’re still down a cup” Dorcas said with an eye-roll, “now stop dry humping and let’s get on with it”.

The rest of the game Remus’ left hand was always found on your person, on your shoulder, resting on your waist, guiding your own hand to make a perfect throw. And with the cloud of intoxication getting thicker as the night progressed the game got stretched out, by bathroom breaks, cup refilling and joint rolling. In the end you were tied with a single cup each and Sirius had one throw left. He looked up at you and winked before throwing the ball, making it in.

Dorcas threw herself over Sirius and whooped loudly, “ha! Suck it!”

“Better luck next time” Remus mumbled and walked over to Marlene who had the joint at this time.

Sirius sauntered over to you with two cups in his hands, “can we have a little chat?” He said through gritted teeth.

You followed him, sharing a mischievous look with Remus, before you were out of sight and earshot of the rest. He led you down a dark hall with a fast pace, gracefully not spilling your drinks. And just as you were about ask where you were going a big door appeared right by Sirius’ side. He opened the door and threw a quick, cold glance at you.

“In you go” he said and waited for you to move.

You took a few hesitant steps inside and heard him slam the door shut behind you, causing you to turn to him. He didn’t look angry, he looked peeved.

“You looked really pretty tonight” he said and handed over a glass to you.

The words confused you but you accepted the glass and looked up to him. His eyes had an intensity to them you didn’t expect after a night of drinking and it made you slightly uneasy, as if he had some sort of masterplan.

“Thank you, Siri” you mumbled, “that’s really ni-“.

“Which is one of the reasons why I’m so pissed you decided to waste it on Moony” he cut you off.

“Not because you’d ever do something with him,” he walked toward the middle of the room with slow, deliberate steps. but because you thought you could make me jealous”.

A smile crept over your face and you locked eyes with him over the brim of your cup as you took a sip. The drink was strong, one of Sirius’ drinks signature, but it still felt refreshing.

“I’d say you are a little jealous” you suggested lowly.

As those words registered in Sirius head he whipped around and looked at you again. Then he walked up and took the glass from you, placing it somewhere behind him.

“You think you’re so cute, huh?” He practically growled, “going around groping my best friend in front of me?”

His hands came up to your face, slowly pushing your stray hairs aside with care. You glanced to his lips, hopeful, but he just shook his head.

“Nuh uh, you’ve spent this whole night trying to prove some stupid point” his breath fanned over your face as he spoke, “all for what?”

You assumed it to be rhetorical question but after a beat of silence he still looked down on you expectantly, his big hand wrapping around your face and pushing your cheeks into a small pout.

“All for what?” He repeated.

“I-i uhm, I wanted to make you jealous, o-or maybe just to get your attention” you stumbled out, his lips forming into a sly smirk.

“Well isn’t that cute” he hummed, “do you like having my attention?”

You nodded and let your hands fall onto the waist of the slacks he was wearing, trying to ground yourself by grabbing onto something.

“And you’d do anything I ask, right?”

The hand not pressed into your cheek met yours by his waist, darting past them to unbuckle his belt as you nodded a second time.

“I want you to get on your knees, darling”

Your body acted even before you really understood what he was saying, sinking slowly down onto the hardwood floor. Your hands traced his thigh as you sank, making Sirius throw his head back momentarily.

When you were situated below him he took a few steps back, inspecting you like a work of art. The act was degrading in way that made your skin crawl with excitement. His eyes fell down onto you with a newfound darkness and his already tall body towered over you like never before. Your mouth fell open by itself and he chuckled, walking back up to your small frame.

“You have such good natural instincts, love” he remarked as his hand tilted your chin upwards, “what do you want?”

“I want to..” your words died down as your confidence diminished, but as you saw Sirius’ gaze you knew he wouldn’t let you get away with it.

“I want to suck your dick” you mumbled and he patted your cheek lightly in approval.

“Well what kind of monster would I be if I didn’t let you do just that”

Since his belt already was unbuckled he could just reach down and unzip his trousers, letting them pool by his ankles. You got a great view of his not so unimpressive bulge from where you were sitting and felt yourself leaning forward. With an approving smile from Sirius you let your hands slide upwards again and you delicately wrapped your fingers around the outline. As you let your hands massage him a small, wet spot formed on his dark grey boxers.

“Fuck, you’re so pretty” he groaned, tangling his hand in your hair as he pulled his underwear down.

His beautiful, pink cock sprung out, bobbing in the air as he stepped out of his boxers. He gave himself a few slow strokes as he took in your blown out eyes and flushed cheeks. He grabs his dick as you let your tongue lull out, his smile turning almost sinister as he slaps his tip down onto the pink muscle repeatedly. Without warning he thrusts forward into your warmth, pulling a loud gag from you as he groans. Sirius sets a slow pace after your initial shock dies down, savoring the feeling of your wet mouth.

“This is really what you should be doing” he murmurs, disguising a particularly shrill moan, “not dicking around with my best mate”.

In an attempt to show your obedience you try to nod but the movement makes his length shoot right down into your throat. You pull away as tears well up in your eyes and coughs escape you.

“Fuck m’sorry” you mumbled with an apologetic look over your face.

“Gods, you’re gonna make me cum way too quickly” he groans as he leans his forearms onto the wall behind you, making his cock bob against your face. You licked the thick vein displayed over you and saw Sirius’ face scrunch together tightly

“Nuh uh” he murmured and hooked his hands under your armpits to yank you up from the floor, “I just can’t wait anymore, I gotta have you”.

In a fit of passion he pulled you as close as humanly possible, the kiss being all teeth clashing and tongue wrestling. As he kept pushing you up against the wall he unbuttoned his shirt, dark fabric slipping off of his lean shoulders.

“You know you’re really too dressed for my taste” he said, mumbled by your lips.

When you got back to earth from the kiss a pang of confidence flooded your body and you felt your arms push him away before really realizing.

“Sit down” you ordered with more dominance than you’ve ever had in your voice.

The raven haired man smirked as he sat down on the comfy bed the Room of Requirement housed, legs spread and leaning on his arms, accentuating his lean muscles.

You started to unbutton your slacks, fumbling slightly with the zipper, working for it to look seductive. Pulling them down slowly over your hips you slowly turned around to give him a view of your bum. You noticed, to your delight, when you faced him again his right hand had migrated to his cock, keeping a steady pace as he watched you intently. You stepped out of your trousers and kicked them away as you got to work to pull your shirt over your head in one swift motion, leaving you in black underwear.

“C’mon love, get over here” Sirius muttered out almost so quietly that you didn’t hear him. You sauntered over to him and straddled his hips, careful so you didn’t crush his member. As your lips reconnected you pulled his open shirt off of him, tracing the panes of muscle over this back before your hands got back to his hair. With his hands on your hips he guided your movements, making you grind down into his thigh. When it hit a particularly good spot you whimpered into his mouth and it opened up into a grin.

“This feel good huh?”

You could only nod as you steadied yourself with your hands on his shoulders and focused solely on hitting that spot over and over.

“Feel better than my cock?” He asked and you forced your eyes open to meet his as you shook your head. He chuckled and kissed your jawline.

With one swift motion he flipped the two of you over, ripping your panties with minimal effort.

“Hey!” You shrieked, looking at the fabric in his hand.

“Oh get over it, you’ve already soiled them” he smirked, feeling the wetness that resided in the clothing.

You felt your face heat up, diverting your eyes.

“Aw poor baby, are you embarrassed?” Sirius turned your head back to him with two fingers, making you look at him.

“Embarrassed that you’re so desperate to get fucked?” He asked with eye-contact that burned.

You nodded again and felt some tingling in your stomach at his words. He smiled at you, slightly sweeter than you expected in this situation, and held up his hand to your mouth. When your eyes flitted up to his in confusion he sighed.

“Spit.”

The simply word made wetness pool between your thighs and you complied quickly, to Sirius’ content. He used the saliva as lubricant over his dick before dragging a finger between your slit. He chuckled again and placed a kiss on your hip.

“My filthy girl, getting this turned on from a little degradation hm?”

The heat residing over your cheeks ignited once again and you opened your mouth to say something but could not think of anything in your defense.

“That’s fine” he mumbled as he lined himself up against you, “I’ll give you anything you want”.

He pushed in slowly, both for your comfort but also for his enjoyment. Seeing your face contort, right on the edge between pain and pleasure, and hands flexing as you tried to figure out what to do with them. He set a slow pace, intent in making sure you felt every inch of him.

“Such a little cockslut” he moaned out, feeling you squeeze him at the words, “fuck, getting tight at my words huh?”

In the cloud of pleasure where you were in made his words float together, your jaw falling slack as he increased his force. He took a hold of your hair and tighten his fist slightly to get your attention.

“Feel so fuckin’ good sweetheart” Sirius groaned out.

His cock hit you right where you needed and your hands went to his biceps, gripping onto them to ground yourself, but just as you grabbed on he moved his right arm. His fingers found your clit and he began to carefully rub circles over it, feeling you clench around him again.

“Gods if you keep doin’ that you’re gonna make me cum” you slurred out, rolling your hips to meet his thrusts.

“That’s kinda the point darling” he chuckled.

As his gaze fell down where the two of you connected he saw as he thrusted in a little bump formed in your stomach. He slowed down to watch it closely and moaned loudly.

“My cock is basically splitting you in half” he said, more to himself. The words made you flex around him and his hand went to grab your face.

“Bloody hell, don’t do that!” He reprimanded, wrapping an arm around your waist and hoisted you up slightly before flipping back over so you straddled his lap.

“If you’re gonna be a tease you’re gonna have to do the work.”

You whined at his words but started to grind against him immediately, not wanting to lose the momentum you’d already built up. From this new angle he prodded even deeper inside of you, so deep it almost hurt, and your head fell back feeling all those explosions of pleasure.

“Can’t even hold your head up” Sirius stated, hand coming up behind your back and cradling your head, “just a little toy fo’ me huh?”

His words barely registered at this point, you were too wrapped up in your impending orgasm that you only noticed his voice, tone indicating that he said something mean.

“Please Siri” you mumbled, legs slowing down slightly at the effort of riding him.

“Please what?” He grinned, eyes watching your face intently.

“I jus’ need a little help, need your help to cum” you opened your eyes properly and gave him a pleading look. His face softened and gave you a soft kiss before planting his feet on the floor to thrust up into you. He let his hands wander down to your hips and he started helping you go up and down.

“Fuck that feels so good” you moaned, letting your hand play with your clit to get you closer, “‘m about to cum Siri”.

His determination grew as he heard those words, increasing his pace to watch your face fall into bliss. When you toppled over the hill of your orgasm your legs buckled underneath you, Sirius keeping strong hands over your hips to fuck you through your climax.

As the mist of white pleasure started to clear out from your head you let out a breath you didn’t knew you held in. Sirius’ eyes were impossibly dark, making you nervous.

“How about we flip you around and let the real fun begin?”

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[organicastrologytakes]

Astrology Observations 💗💗 Your Venus sign + a Song pt. 1

ugh I hate being sappy.

I definitely don't watch rom coms in my spare time. No sir. Never

Gemini Venus: Kilby Girl by The Backseat Lovers

This song is definitely about the Gemini Venus and not in the pov of them. I chose this song mostly because of the lyrics and thrilling guitar that creates that playful and curious provoking nature of Gemini. Gemini Venus reminds me of something playful, optimistic, and goofy. They may struggle to know what they want with Mercury being chaotic as usual here. They can tend to be action oriented in love opportunities and fortune. Their love is usually sassy and playful, they don't conform to the natural order of how traditional relationships work. They are a scatter brained lover with an adventurous spirit. Gemini's like their other air Venus love to change it up, whether it be their partner or the relationship itself. They need change and love doing something out of routine. They may have a hard time deciphering if someone is romantically interested in them or if they are just being nice. Usually they just think they want to be friends. To love a Gemini Venus is to be with them is to just match their energy. This signs are generally a wild card and don't have one set love language. They love through various ways as well, they may love you one way in the beginning of the relationship and as it goes on, change the way they love you, not necessarily in a bad way, just different. These signs are an absolute joy to love and can be ultra creative with their open-minded spirit, taking you on adventures and dates you never thought possible in a partnership. They are pretty airy though so be careful of their flighty nature! They are best with someone who helps them mix it up like Aries Venus and Libra Venus. Honestly most fire and air Venus will connect with gemini Venus.

Cancer Venus: We'll Never Have Sex by Leith Ross

A true poetic masterpiece with loving pet names to represent Cancer Venus. Cancer Venus reminds me of something sweet, loving, and trusting. Representing the darker luminary in Venus, this placement needs an emotional connection and lovely understanding of who they are. These tender souls generally have good fortune and love opportunities in life, since they are not in any negative placement here unless in a bad house placement. As a lover, Cancer is very mature and usually wise, they know how to love and be loved. Although they can sometimes pick partners that may not serve them, they will usually find someone later on that will meet their needs and provide them with the love they fully deserve. Their love language is usually acts of service, quality time, and words of affirmation. They also usually desire a family, not always implying kids, but just generally having people in their life or a partner in their life that feels like home. These Venuses are best known for being a gentle partner that takes the time to understand you fully. A lover that better be adored by every individual that comes into contact with them. They best get along with other water Venus, fire, and air Venus.

Libra Venus: Sneakers by Camille

A goofy, playful, upbeat indie song for Libra Venus. Libra being the masculine representation of Venus, is at home here. This individual generally has good fortune and love opportunities here. Libra is an air sign still and can be a bit fickle minded. These individuals may change their mind on a daily basis and have a hard time focusing on what they want in life. Although they can easily change their mind, they usually make great lovers. They love attention from their lover and usually an adventure or something different. Change it up on Libra, give them gifts, shower them with affection, never let them know your next move. You must be a ninja and keep things interesting to keep them around for a while, otherwise if the relationship gets stagnant they can be easy to lose. These individuals also tend to be popular. They usually give love inconsistently, not on purpose, but because they probably thought about something else or forgot about you. No, but they can love very deeply and give you the same affection in return as they receive. They love giving others gifts and randomly giving you a lot of love, whether that be physical or with their words. They are such a unique sign to love because of their naturally sweet demeanor and completely unintentional adventure they tend to take their partners on, whether that be physically, mentally, or emotionally. They are not a dull person to be around and are fantastic partners to have at any point in your life! I feel that Libra Venuses connect most with fire Venuses and air Venuses.

Scorpio Venus: Feels Like We're Dying by Johnny Goth

A sad, melancholy song that brings out the darker side of love with Scorpio Venus. Scorpio is in detriment in this position, unfortunately. Like the moon, Scorpio can really struggle in this placement because of the nature of Venus being a planet that represents light while Scorpio represents darkness. They will often struggle with fortune and love opportunities in this lifetime. That doesn't mean that love can be difficult or challenging to have or receive, but the relationships presented may be karmic or be more of an opportunity to go through some kind of internal death. This placement more likely struggles from knowing what they want but feeling like they might not deserve it and going through a lot of self-esteem issues. This placement needs a lot of self-awareness in love, sex, and pleasure in order to have a good balance. Like the other water Venuses, they struggle with finding a partner that may be good for them and their wellbeing. When they do love in relationships, it is often intense and passionate. They love physical affection and quality time, sometimes acts of service as well. These partners can come off as abrasive and jealous if not loved correctly or communicated with properly so make sure to communicate and be open-minded to their requests to gain their trust. They are a very quality partner and create a relationship connection that is emotional, passionate, and fully loving. Treat this person right and they are an incredible partner to have along the ride of life. They often connect best with Aries Venus and other fire Venus. They enjoy other water Venus and earth Venus due to their fixed nature.

Aquarius Venus: True Blue by Boy Genius

Aquarius must have the romanticized friendship song. Honestly this is one of my personal favorite songs, and I love that this song isn't romantic (imo), but about being so known by someone deeply and completely. Saturn is expressing itself in Venus here so their love can come off quite restricted. They might feel a bit out of place and may be a bit pessimistic when it comes to the fortunes and joys that Venus is connected with. Aquarius Venus though are the most loving friends once you get to know them and can become great potential loves after a lot of time. These are not the easiest signs to win their heart, but they are definitely worth it in the end. This misunderstood air Venus is loving in their actions and words, and they love being loved in the same way. They love being seen for who they are and like when people are not ordinary. The best apart about loving this Venus sign is how attentive they are and aware of their surroundings, they are great at taking loving action that can be very specific or oriented to you. Aquarius Venus do best with other air Venuses, Cancer and Scorpio Venuses.

Pisces Venus: Baby by Warpaint

A whimsical, ethereal, and breathy song by Warpaint is for Pisces Venus. This Venus sign is being represented by the feminine Jupiter and is considered exalted here. These ethereal water Venuses know how to express themselves here and are often very lucky in love and fortune throughout their lifetime. These individuals may struggle with insecurity issues early in life or throughout life because Pisces can often represent fears and the inner world. These individuals may need to find self love before getting into a romantic relationship because of their tendencies to want to "fix" a partner that does not serve them. They love easily, deeply, and unconditionally. They have a love like no other and can be loyal partners under the right circumstances. Loving a Pisces Venus needs to be with care, words of affirmation, quality time, and acts of services tend to be these fishes love language of choice. Although they love cuddles too, these partners love to romanticize with their partner and find the love and joy in everything. The most joyful part of loving these individuals is how passionate, optimistic, and creative these Venuses are. They can make anything, even the most mundane, into a special moment. Cherish these individuals and make them feel seen, heard, and appreciated. They often connect best with other water Venus signs, they love intense love and emotional connection. They can also connect with fire Venuses and air Venuses on occasion.

Honestly this was mostly based on the relationship aspect and the songs, what do you think? Did any of this resonate with you? What is your Venus sign? What house is it in? :)

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[declanscunt]

kenstewy fic recs?

oh god… so many… first of all anything and everything by ao3 authors leoandsnake (especially tsd i & tsd ii) and stewyonmolly (im particularly fond of lesbian kenstewy & their senses series)

MORE RECS UNDER CUT!!!

coefficient of variation by trill_gutterbug

summary:

"No, it's not—I just want to. It's not like, a thing, you know?"

"You want to lie here slobbering on my limp dick while I read forty-seven thrilling pages of Macroprudential Policy Regulation, but it's 'not a thing.'"

Kendall's face, already hot, pulsed feverish with a livid mix of embarrassment and arousal. He shut his eyes. "Something like that, yeah."

Telemachus’ Detachment by magnoliabud

summary:

There’s one thing Logan hasn’t used against Kendall yet: his relationship with Stewy. Kendall decides to jump in front of it.

Or: thirty years of something.

Set from the middle of Series 3, after the shareholder’s meeting.

tenderness of heart by strangeluvz

summary:

Stewy,

My assistant said that you told her if I wasn’t using my phone “to at least send a fucking letter or some shit” and I don’t know whether you were joking or whatever but here. You know that being online is bad shit for me man. So here’s this: I’m OK. Is that good enough? Do you need a stool sample or something too? Vial of my blood? Let me know

Kendall Roy

*

Kendall goes offline. Stewy sends him letters.

we’ll meet in even greater darkness later by moonrocks

summary:

Kendall isn’t exactly sure what Stewy’s doing here, if this is a booty call for old times’ sake or there’s something else they need to discuss. Maybe Stewy’s just doing him another solid. Since his dad died, it’s been hard to be stagnant in his apartment all alone. Between the studio in LA and the corporate retreat in Norway, Kendall has actively avoided it, but the election is coming up, and there’s nowhere to run now. He’s in the bullpen and the beast is rearing its ugly head.

(Set sometime between 4x04 and 4x08).

some little language by strangeluvz

summary:

Stewy says, “Dude, sometimes. I think I, like, love you so much, it physically hurts.”

Kendall replies, without thinking, “What the fuck.”

*

Post-canon: Kendall goes to Stewy. Stewy’s arms are always open.

Make Good by Springandastorm

summary:

"I don't think…" Kendall trails off. His shoulders hang heavy.

"You don't think, or you do?" Stewy asks, the usual smooth scale of his voice a little softer, like he's talking Kendall off a ledge somewhere.

"I think I'm pretty fucking hollow."

"Yeah. My voice echoes when I talk to you." Stewy agrees, leaning a little closer and knocking his shoulder into his. "That's okay."

a current under sea / picked his bones in whispers by ingwertee

summary:

God, he’s been picking up the pieces for a mopey, strung out, kicked puppy version of Kendall for over a year now. Kendall’s sudden surge of confidence, however unjustified, turns him on, reminds him of the Kendall he had started to think only existed in his daydreams.

a little of the collapsing space by ohtempora

summary:

“I’m not gonna say you should have told me,” Stewy says. “You absolutely should not have told me fucking anything."

what did you tell me, mary by harukatenoh

summary:

In which Kendall and Stewy attempt to answer: what have you got in your fucking hand?

i figure you with love by alaczije

summary:

Stewy manages to do a decent job of forgetting about Kendall, and him-and-Kendall, and all the neuroses contained therein, until the pap photos leak.

Luxe / Redux by orestesfasting

summary:

He’s not sure what he’s more angry about, is the thing. The betrayal or the subsequent lie.

Or—maybe that’s not quite true. He knows which one he’s more angry about, and he knows that rationally it should be the other one. But needless to say, if Kendall had told him the truth about why he did what he did, Stewy wouldn’t be heading to his place uninvited at 11PM on a Saturday night, brimming with righteous fury like the proverbial woman scorned.

#succession fic writers are some of the insanest most talented ppl on the planet #when i was going through my bookmarks last night i was like. for the amount of kenstewy fics on ao3 (about 400?) ive bookmarked / kudos #about 1/4 of them. #which is a lot for someone as picky as i am #also… ive written a bit of kenstewy my ao3 is linked in pinned post :) #kenstewy #succession #fic recs

[littlemessyjessi]

hello ma'am! i dunno if You still accept requests... if You don't, just ignore me, please. but if do, then lucky me!

some time ago i saw posts, where in one an author compared, what bts member is most to least likely to date a chubby/plus size person and why, and in the second one, set up a list: "how many drinks it would take a bts member to hook up with a plus size girl".

tbh the second post gave me '???' reaction, but i saw Your plus size oriented works and couldn't help but think, what would You think about that ideas and how would You do it.

if that's something You would like to write, im so excited to read Your thoughts! 🫶

BTS Members and a Plus Size Reader Partner: Thoughts and Vibes

Hello, darling!

I AM still taking requests for BTS x plus size reader at the moment!

Thank you so much for reaching out!

I appreciate you!

As far as my thoughts go, they are as follows. Let's stretch and begin.

Regarding the first topic: Well, I don't think there is anything inherently wrong with this topic. I mean, plus size is just another variety of person like blond or green eyes or freckles or whatever. I don't really think there's a problem with saying who you think might or might not be into a more cushiony body type for a partner.

But just.... why? I feel like some do this from a pure point of view just out of curiosity. But some do it to be mean... in which case... I'm going to tell Jimin to hit them with a stick.

However, regarding the second topic. .... wtf?

On the one hand, I get HOW people post that and don't get massacred. We live in a society where thin is presented as prime and best.

Not to say that there is anything wrong with slender. There is 100% not and to shame anyone for their body type, regardless of that body type, is WRONG. Again, if you're bullying anyone over their appearance like that.... I'm telling Jiminie and he will get you.

And honestly, if you rely on picking apart someone's physical appearance in a negative way... it kinda seems like a sign of low intelligence.

Like really? I mean, that's kinda of a fucking joke. It's literally amusing sometimes. Not the bullying. Just the audacity is straight up funny sometimes.

I get it. The world's standards are fucked and SK Beauty standards are so unobtainable in general. Blah, blah, blah.

However, to elude to the fact that they would have to be absolutely hammered to be with a larger person?

Brooooo..... that's so fucked up.

If I were any one of them, I'd be straight up pissed for anyone ever even having the audacity to THINK they knew what my preferences were or weren't. Or rather I'd be pissed that they thought they knew me enough to speak on them and that I would need to be intoxicated to find attractive what that writer didn't.

Like broooooooooooooo. In this day and age? Body shaming? Still doing that?

It's giving small brain energy.

It's giving insecure.

It's giving very much stagnant personality and lack of growth.

How embarrassing ....

Here's the thing, none of us know what they like or don't like. We're not them. We can't read their minds. We can imagine though. The difference lies in the details. To ask how many drinks it would take is to insinuate that the plus size person is therefore less than and the member would be in need of a mind altering substance to even consider being with a fat person. Which is fucked. What is wrong with some of these people?

Now, If I were going to write this, I would instead go about it like this.

What each member loves about dating a plus size body. Like, in theory what they might like based on what little information they have released to us. Or what they might like the best about being in a mixed size relationship. Stuff like that.

But shit! I wouldn't be like... "Oh fuck, how many shots do you think it would take Jimin to bang a fatty?"

Like bro, whaaaaat?

I feel like poor Namjoonie would catch second hand embarrassment just reading that shit.

Also, I would never be so stupid as to assume that A, Jimin would play that game or B, that the shots would even touch him.

The man drinks like a fish. I'm almost certain he's part merman or siren or Poseidon him damn self.

I don't know. I can't focus on Jimin for very long.

He tricks me with the cute, lures me in with sweet and then when I get there and I think I'm safe, he turns on the sexy shit.

Mother fucker is out to get me. I'm telling ya'll.

And he fucking knows it.

Anyway, thank you so much for sending in this ask! It was fun to explore and great responding to you! Please enjoy this Koo with a bow and a bunny smile.

Love, K

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[thediktatortot]

It's not a flavor of Steddie I see but once in a blue moon, but I love the of Eddie developing a deep relationship, or an almost romantic relationship while he's healing and figuring out what he wants to do, but once he does he leaves Hawkins and everyone behind.

Steve's not the kind of guy to hold people back, so he doesn't say anything, doesn't express his feelings for Eddie because he's going through both a crisis and the feeling of loneliness as more and more people start leaving Hawkins after it all ends.

The thing is though? Eddie wants Steve, and Eddie can feel that there's something between them so he keeps going back to Hawkins every now and then, keeps in touch, keeps calling Steve or sending him letters, sharing his new life with Steve all the while not realizing that he's keeping Steve hopeful in their relationship.

Eddie does know deep down that he's stringing Steve along, keeping him on his toes as to when his feelings might finally be returned, all the while Steve keeps holding himself back from moving on because Eddie keeps giving him mixed signals.

It gets to the point where Robin steps in, calls Eddie one night and tells him that he can't be in and out of Steve's life at the same time and he has to pick one, has to either come back to Hawkins or find a a way to get Steve out of Hawkins because Steve's stagnant because of him.

It takes a bit of a wake up call for Eddie to realize he'd been hanging Steve on a long string because he knew Steve would always be there for him, always be trusted to answer his calls and write letters back to him while he's in some country he never expected to ever see in his own life time.

It isn't until he watches one of his band members finally get hitched to their girlfriend, realizing that he doesn't have to keep Steve at arms length to have his career. He knows that by now Steve might resent him but he wants to make it up to Steve and either whisk Steve away from Hawkins or to let Steve let him down as harshly as he's owed.

There's obviously a few different ways this could go from here, but I feel like this sort of story is something that hurts so good because Eddie's human, makes human mistakes and has human desires and sometimes we hurt the ones we love without meaning too.

#Steddie #Steve Harrington #Eddie Munson #Stranger Things

[mantisgodsdomain]

Milk and Green Apple for Penelope

(for this ask game)

Since we haven't introduced Penelope yet, as is standard, we'll do a quick write-up here. Penelope is a Galápagos fur seal (Arctocephalus galapagoensis). She's an accountant who works at a bank located in a tundra which primarily caters towards terrestrial animals. Though she doesn't particularly like her job, and initially picked this posting because it was the best option available to her during her CPA experience program, she sort of... got stuck.

Finding work is difficult. She was lucky enough to get rehired by the same branch after finishing her work experience program, but she can't really find anywhere else willing to hire her right now, and her branch is hesitant to let her go, considering that she's one of the most competent people available to her department. She can't really quit, but she can't really move forward, either, so she's sort of... stuck in limbo.

She's well-paid enough that she can live relatively comfortably, but she was at least partially a diversity hire to begin with, and the place she lives in now just plain isn't made for her. She's an aquatic species in a relatively dry area, and most of the species that her branch caters to are smaller prey species - hares, kea, and lemmings, and the occasional arctic fox. Most of the infrastructure is built for people half her size or more, and being an aquatic species, she's not really built to be living terrestrially 24/7 - wearing glasses is all well and good until your prescription breaks and the best replacement pair you can find is built for a stoat, and sure, she can afford a doctor if anything comes up, but no one in her area would really know much about her species, and can she really afford the time and effort added to the expenses of flying to somewhere else entirely just to see a specialist?

As is, she feels just... stuck. She handles it, mostly, with a mix of "gritting her teeth and bearing it" and "heading out to a nearby city which actually has infrastructure for anything bigger than a fox". She sort of has to make a Day of it every time she travels out, but it's better than staying in the same town all day, and paying a bit extra for a night out isn't *too* bad, all things considered. The situation, as is, is perfectly fine. She just... wishes that she could make something of her life beyond being stagnant in a town that she expected to just be a stop in the road.

🥛 [MILK] What is your OC's relationship with their biological parents like? What about their relationship with any non-biological parental figures?

Well... it's complicated. She doesn't have a bad relationship with them, per se, but it's a bit distant - she moved to an entirely different part of the world to take this job, and most of her communication with family members is by video call and similar things as a result. She cares for her family, and she wouldn't trade them for the world, really - but they expect a lot from her, and she's been stuck at the same place long enough that she's not sure she can live up to it.

Penelope sits in the awkward sort of space where she was academically successful, but that success didn't really transfer to almost anything else. She's got a job, she's good at it, she's got a degree - but she still can't get a job besides the one she's been stuck in for years already, and "still working at the same bank" isn't the sort of thing that feels good to say, especially when you've been in the same place for far longer than you've ever wanted to be.

Her parents love her. Her mother still holds out faith that she'll get that one promotion - just a few more years and you'll get your big break, just a bit more work and they'll notice how industrious you are, just a tiny bit more effort and you'll get a better position - but you can only believe something so much when you feel like you've been stuck in the same rut for so long. There's only so much you can hear about how you have so much potential before you start feeling like you're wasting yourself, and at this point... having the same things repeated starts feeling a bit like every day she doesn't get that break is a day she's wasting her potential.

She does not currently have any non-biological parental figures. Probably a bit late in her life to get one, but who knows at this point, honestly?

🍏 [GREEN APPLE] How do they differ from the norm and how are they punished for it?

...there's a lot.

Though her workplace tried to provide accomodations when she first arrived, it's been more than eight years, and nowadays she has to do most of her accomodation herself. Her eyes aren't really made to focus above water, she's got a very different body plan than most people at the branch, she's a predator big enough to make most of the other folks in her branch a bit instinctually nervous, and being one of the only seals that most people know means that she's been re-introduced to the same three harbor seals entirely too many times by now.

People don't really make chairs for people with tails the size of their bodies around here, which means that chair backs that accomodate her are generally a matter of either custom order or hoping that she's going somewhere that's dealt with one of the other half-dozen folks with the same needs.

Penelope is, fundamentally, Not From Around Here. She's not a species that's found around here, she's not a species that's especially adapted for here, and despite being a seal that's only around a metre long she still towers over most of the people at her branch. The closest person to her size is an arctic fox in the tax department, and he still doesn't really have the same sort of experience as her. She doesn't fit The Norm, pretty much in any way, and it... really, really shows.

#asks #we speak #ocs #penelope #we took a while to answer this but anyways heres penelope she works at a bank #and then on weekends she goes to the city to get drunk off her ass and try to forget the overwhelming dread of stagnation #top ten women to expose gaps in your accessibility just by going to your place #she goes to like the same bar every time she goes Out On The Town because its the one bar that another seal works at #and theyre usually pretty good with being Not Awful because of it #anyways the most vital info about her is that she very much needs glasses but she doesnt wear them unless shes at work #the fun thing about seeing other people's ocs is that we'll see so many people making characters who are like #Important. Powerful. Cool. shit like that. and then we are here with our characters like “yeah shes an accountant” #“she feels really stuck in life and like she cant live up to the standards of her family” #“also she has to special-order chair backs bc her tail is the size of her entire torso and no one accommodates for that here” #anthro #we guess #thanks for your patience btw! we spent. way too long figuring out how to summarize her #in case youre wondering she is also struggling with a mid-life sexuality crisis just as a treat for Us Writing Her #for fun. and profit. and also being at that age where she was supposed to have settled down with a nice boy already #and now her mother is dropping increasingly obvious “you know its okay if you have something you need to tell us penelope” #“if there are any special girls in your life that you might want to bring home-” #and she lives halfway across the world and isnt dating anyone or even sure that shes on the dating market anymore #problems disease and etc. this post is over 1000 words already we'll cut it off here

[starwell-tarot]

Hi, I seen you answer something about Aries Venus. Could I ask you what it’s like to date one? I know this guy with it, but everyone tells me they’re heartbreakers and they only lust not love. And they fall quick but fall out of love even quicker

Hello!

I can give you all the info I've gathered so far. 😁

As always, please take what you read with a grain of salt as I am in no way a professional. Astrology is my hobby and my information is a mix of research I've read and observations I've made, so things can be pretty biased!

Keep in mind other aspects in the natal chart can heavily influence the behavior of a person, and that I can always be wrong about something I say and I don't mind being corrected. 😊

So, here we go! I am an Aries Venus woman. But I'm not gonna spend this time to only prove wrong the stereotypes. 😂 Because truth is, Venus in Aries can be players. It depends on their level of interest. Let me explain further by describing Aries:

Aries is ruled by Mars, the planet of action, passion, dedication and motivation. Mars ruled, Aries is stubborn, always ready to put up a fight, independent, blunt and with a strong desire to lead. With that said, I'll list my observations.

1. Aries Venus actually do enjoy challenges and the chase, and should be allowed to be the ones to lead the chase. They like "come get me" attitudes. They like to lead in the idea of "let me show you everything that I am and can offer you. I'll give you me piece by piece if you accept me". They want to show you how much they can spoil you. How much they can carry you in life, how happy they can make you feel.

I would say courting an Aries Venus yourself, when they don't show clear initiative towards you first, can be difficult.

2. Aries Venus tend to be extremely blunt. They're go getters and straightforward. Sometimes they do seem impulsive and will want to confess their heart out or drown you in kisses completely out of the blue 😂

Still, while the chase is very entertaining to them, they don't like to be thrown for a loop and kept guessing. If they are passionate enough and faced with someone who is playing hard to get, even tiny little crumbs of feeling like they're 'winning' or 'getting closer' can keep them going. As long as the crumbs exist, however. If they sense someone doesn't want them, is pretending or even worse, lying - or hiding some truth from them, they'll leave.

But playfulness is okay. Giving them a challenge is okay. It's preferred they find a partner who will want to play fight with them (and maybe let them win 😂) as long as everything in good spirits and just for fun. Healthy Aries Venus don't want to seriously compete with you, and they don't like playing mind games.

3. Aries placements are all about passion and intensity. This is mostly where they split into categories of heartbreakers or single-mindedness.

This stereotype is that they fall in love fast and then fall out super fast and move on even faster. A sock a day, as they might say. I feel this can happen if their passion is towards the chase itself. If they want to be with a person, any person. If they just want to date, basically. If all they want is romance, thrill and adventure and to win someone over, then yes. They're gonna 'fabricate their passion for the person'. The person can feel as if their lover is literally burning them alive with passion and interest but it could be short lasting if all they want is casual fun. (Or if they're going along with a relationship just to see what will come out of it)

Furthermore, they can break hearts if their relationships become boring halfway. They feed off of passion, off of a dynamic relationship where you keep admiring each other and proving love to each other on a daily. They hate feeling stagnant or as if 'i love you' is just normal now or like a daily task. If they become bored or feel the other person isn't as passionate in the relationship as they are, or that the relationship is dying or becoming too sluggish, they're gonna leave.

However in most cases, (and by that I mean mostly in healthy cases) Aries is independent and self sufficient. They're usually not co-dependent and just dating for the thrill of it isn't fun. They'd more likely want to wait to meet a person who truly sets them on fire and then - and only then chase after them as if their life depends on it.

I've personally heard Aries Venus date rarely, and like I said, only if their attraction to that person is very strong. A simple interest or likey-likey doesn't really phase the kind of Aries Venus who are searching for THE PERSON who will keep them in love forever. They're ride or die type people and search for a love so loyal, so dedicated, so intense it will burn them alive.

If someone does catch their eye and the passion goes to their head, everyone is gonna know. (Sometimes they won't though. Sometimes they're gonna be hilariously oblivious to their own feelings while everyone else knows) Their love is LOUD. They chase, they compliment, they shower in affection, attention. They're very blunt about it and won't even struggle to hide it. I often say, Aries Venus is the most likely Venus sign to do that kinda movie scene where they bring a boom box to your window to serenade you and hold a love confession written on a gigantic cardboard.

If that person then returns their passion, is open to being playful and active, can maintain a certain degree of independence in the relationship, is honest, intense and loyal, the Aries Venus will wanna stay forever 😂

They can be the epitome of single-mindedness in this case, kinda like Scorpio placements. (Since traditionally they're both Mars-ruled). They're gonna be so decided, so sure and committed. They're gonna have 'me and you against the world' vibes and feel as if they're literally bloodbound to their peers (be it friends or lovers.) Protective. Somewhat possessive or territorial, maybe. And the intensity, sometime it's not cool and romantic like in the movies. Sometimes, it's actually way too intense and they need to let people breathe.

Articles on the internet say they also need space in relationships often 🤔 I'm not very sure.

I'd go on a limb and say one might also face troubles with them wanting to do things 'their way' in relationships. They might dislike romantic culture in some cases 🤔

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I think that's all I have. 😁

Once more, this is me writing based off of the material I've read before and my personal experiences. Things can be wrong, as some things written are just assumptions. You can always leave feedback. ✨

#astro observations #astrology #answered #anon #venus in aries #astro notes

[viragosoul]

*   magnets   ⏤⏤⏤⏤    @efhemra

she only said yes to him because she thought he was joking.

because that's what their relationship seems to be comprised of ⏤ amusement, quips, a sense of no holds barred with thinly veiled teasing. he's a welcome distraction to the disarray that currently makes up her life, the bar becoming an unforeseen point of solace amongst this stagnant town. siyeon has almost gotten used to placating the feelings of others with watered down remarks, but with every jab thrown her way, kojirō makes sure that she doesn't get too comfortable. it's irritating as much as it is enticing in the way that he easily catches every insult she attempts to throw his way, entertaining the words in a way an adult does with a child's toy, that knowing simper before throwing something back of his own. she hopes that enough alcohol will kill the flutters that coat her stomach.

at least the intrigue is mutual, she thinks. when it was revealed that siyeon would have her own space at the exhibition, somehow the topic of conversation would always circle back to him insisting on helping in some type of way ⏤ something about wanting to learn her craft, in his own words. super corny, she replies. there's something about letting people in during her process that makes her feel exposed in a way that's hard to explain, would honestly prefer to work alone so she could be as erratic or obsessive as she wants, but by his third time of bringing it up ( and with a help of a drink he mixes, despite the fact that she downplays how tasty it actually is ) there's a date she gives to swing by the studio after classes to see how much help he truly can be.

that exchange nearly slips her mind as the days pass, throwing herself into the project once the idea gets going. it's only when a flash of ash blonde is comes into her peripheral view that it comes into the forefront of her memory, dark eyes moving from the bottom of her sculpture onto the sight of kojirō at the entrance, widening as they do so. "shit, you were being for real?" she questions with a couple of blinks, then her next thought is something along the lines of how she should have looked more presentable than how she does now ⏤ brunette tresses tossed into a messy bun, on the floor surrounded by wood shavings and decrepit, thrown away planks of wood in several assortments. "well, come on in then. we'll finally get to see if you're more than just a pretty face and a lame mouth," laughter follows as the woman rises to her feet, brushing the wood particles off of her clothes and hands before moving closer, "did you actually come here to learn something or work? or was that just your way of trying to be alone with me?" a raised eyebrow, a set up for another possible punchline.

#◟ * 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞 › fire to a flame‚ ignite it #◟ * kojiro › magnets #efhemra #mguacti

[hollowsoul12]

Anywho, on to a less happy post that I've been wanting to make, yet was unable to make due to personal OCD reasons, I'm going to talk about the bright contraversity, but more specifically how poorly the tumblr side of the community has handled and how separating art from artist is tricky in this situation. (Now just like most of the bright post this will be getting into it, this post contains mentions of serious and horrible sexual topics relating to AdminBright. If you are a bright system you should go into this post with caution, as I won't be kind of AdminBrights creations in the slightest. Also you should check out Daisy Adia's document on her previous relationship with AdminBright regardless of whether you read this post or not)

So, most of you have probably already know of the basic gist of the situation, but if you have not been checking the scp tumblr tag for a while or dont even know what a AdminBright i, let me just catch you up to speed: Recently the contraversity of AdminBright (or Theduckman), the creator of Dr. Bright, Brights family, and handful of other SCPs as well as being a previous staff member for the wiki before he was banned, after "the list of things Dr. Bright is not allowed to do at the foundation" was temporarily deleted by a leaving staff member without telling the rest staff. The reason this article specifically was targeted was because AdminBright is a known s*x pest that s*xually and emotionally manipulated/ab*sed multiple people and, due to the list being the most egregious interpretation of his self insert on the wiki (as the list portrayed him as a womanizer and pervert), its been one that held the most hatred in the on-site community. Unfortunately, due to the licensing and previous scp wiki rules, the article has been brought back and has gained protected status due to its unprompted deletion. This one action, however, has lit a new spark of hope of getting rid bright from the site, as the list was the biggest stop sign in peoples hope of getting rid of him and with its deletion it weakened that obstacle. Now people on both the off-site and on-site community have been going about protesting and rewriting articles surrounding bright from changing his name and creating a new character to less than subtle frustration of allowing the bright list back. Meanwhile their is many others that are simply trying to figure out with what to do next. 

This latter group, however, is where the problem's mentioned in the beginning have started to occur. You see, the tumblr side of the community, as well as many other parts of the off-site community, have (and I try to put this is the nicest way possible) been stagnant in relation to scp, but tumblr in particular has been extremely stagnant. What I mean in this case is that unless its about a scp that's over 1000+ upvotes or is character/group that got a cult following during series 1-3 (alagadda, nalka/sarkics, the doctors of the foundation). it wont get discussed and even then the stuff discussed isn't looked at from a meta/real life angle. It is also due to this extreme stagnation that now that this situation about bright has once again resurfaced, it has been a mixed about the idea of getting rid of or even replacing bright. Some have decided to cut ties with bright, but a very vocal group of people on here have decided to basically dig their heals in here and even started to deflect the anger towards people trying to replace him like DJ Kaktus.

Now, I've tried my best to keep calm try to figure out a way to reach a certain middle ground with this situation, as I know their is a lot people that kin bright are generally normal/good people, and tried to figure out a ultimatum, but you know what I'm just gonna say my truthful opinion:

If you are a bright fan or any SCP fan for that matter and actually care about being against Theduckman, THEN JUST FUCKING MOVE ON FROM HIS SHITTY FETISH INSERT AND HIS INSERTS ABLEIST CODED FAMILY!!!

"BUT HE ISN'T A SELF INSERT ANYMORE, THE COMMUNITY HAS RECLAIMED HIM." Dr. Bright has been constantly used as a stand in for his creators sick fantasies, not just on the SCP wiki, but also in sexual roleplay. Dr. Bright, the character, was used by Theduckman to take advantage of people. Dr. Bright, the character, is reason Theduckman got to the position of admin and was able to take advantage of people. Hell, Brights amulet and his ability to swap bodies ican literally tie directly back to Theduckmans branding fetish Even after he got banned, he actively encouraged people to keep using his characters! Most in not all active on-site authors know of Theduckmans past, and guess what, THEY WANT HIM GONE. Their also victims of Theduckman that want him gone. The only reason why people seem to have "separated" bright from Theduckman is because of the disconnect between the off-site and on-site communities, but I guarantee if many people actually knew the situation, more people would not be supporting keeping him around.

"BUT DR. BRIGHT AND HIS FAMILY ARE IMPORTANT TO THE SCP LORE" Dr. Bright and his family have not, is not, and will never be important to the lore of SCP because THEIR IS NO CANNON. Their entire storylines where Bright doesn't exist, hell their is multiple timelines where the foundation does not exist. And even if their was one overarching lore, bright and his family barley play a role in modern scp or are just their for name recognition. 

"BUT CHANGING BRIGHTS NAME DOESN'T CHANGE ANYTHING, WHY WOULD EVEN CHANGE THE NAME BUT KEEP THE CHARACTER THE SAME" BECAUSE OF BRIGHT FANS THAT DON"T WANT LET HIM DIE! STUFF LIKE SHAW ONLY EXSIST BECAUSE WON"T FUCKING LET BRIGHT DIE!

*Ahem* So, yeah, thats my opinion. Truthfully I know that its impossible to actually get rid of Bright and truthfully that not every single person thinks the same way about Bright as I do. In truth, this post is NOT meant to hat on people that like Bright but rather is meant show how fucked up Bright as a character is and how his existence in this fandoms needs to change. And in truth that change appears to be finally happening with the list being temporarily deleted. I hope that one day we finally can leave bright as a memory, but till that day we just have to stick to rewrites

#scp 963 #jack bright #bright family #dr bright #bright drama #scp

[yzeltia]

FFXIVWrite Day 20: Anon

Characters: Lahabrea, Praxithius (Y'zel Unsundered)

Summary: Praxithius is summoned to the Words of Lahabrea

Rating: Teen

Notes: Ambiguous spoilers for 6.2

Heeled steps of trepidation echoed through the empty halls of The Words of Lahabreha as a cloaked figure progressed through its halls, mingling with the disjointed noodling piano ambiently playing overhead. A private summons by a Convocation, for most, would be an honor. For Praxithius, it only held dread.

Arriving at his destination, the young Ancient entered, finding his host standing at a large window overlooking Amarout, hands behind his back. Beside him, his phonograph spun, playing freestyle jazz into the sound system created for the building.

"I received your letter sir," Praxithius announced, giving a slight bow as Lahabreha turned towards him.

The older man nodded then lifted the needle off the record before taking a seat at his desk. Before him, coffee steamed from a pot. "Have a seat Praxithius, and pour."

Nodding, the young man entered then took his seat before pouring two cups for them both. Out of habit, he mixed a spoonful of cream into his host's cup then slid it over before doing the same for himself .

"That was precise of you. I imagine my son taught you that," the man asked before taking a deep drink.

"Yes sir."

"It is my preferred drink as well."

"The way Toni- Er, Erichthonius speaks, one might think there could be no similarities between you."

"Do you believe that," Lahabreha asked cooly.

"Try as we might, we cannot help but resemble those who raised us in some manner, for better or worse."

"Well put," the man answered, growing silent for a moment. "It's come to my attention that my son holds great affection for you."

Praxithius rested his hands on his lap and looked down, avoiding the other's gaze. There was no warmth to the statement, nor disapproval, just a stagnant fact.

"We are close, sir."

"What was described to me was a relationship which entailed intermittent cohabitation on his off cycles. Cohabitation held on my own estate."

Praxithius looked up, face flushing beneath his mask. "Are you having Erichthonius watched?"

"Always. And those involved in his affairs. My many mistakes have prevented me from having a relationship with my son. I am left with little in the way of keeping myself invested in his life. Imposing myself directly would only further his frustrations with me. I am always on the periphery, that is how it must be."

Praxithius clutched at his robes before looking up. "So you'd pretend not to care and let him hate you?"

"I do not care, because I cannot care."

"That is ludacris sir," Praxithius blurted out, slamming his hands on the table as he rose from his seat.

"It is so. I cannot feel the joy of seeing him matched, nor the pride for his ambition, or the grief of the loss of his love. I only act as I know I should."

"You make it sound like you were forced into this."

Lahabreha turned in his chair. "I am reaping what I have sewn."

Praxithius shook as he sat back down. "Why have you called me here? If you're as removed as you say, what matter is your son's happiness to you?"

"Is that what you believe you are?"

"Yes!"

The room went quiet for a moment as Praxithius continued to shake and Lahabreha stared out towards Amarout. "You've no ambition. You serve our star; however, you move forward only for yourself and my son. This is not a criticism, but an observation. 

My blessing would mean little to my son as things stand. And I imagine you care not for my opinion on the matter. Yet, if I had to choose a partner for my son, it would be one unburdened by their own work and supports his. Who's dream is Erichthonius."

The younger ancient ceased his quivering, looking up to his lover's father, the man's gaze fixed outside. It was almost clinical the way he said it, no weight, or optimism. Another fact.

"That is all I wished to say on the matter and I've put a voice and features to a name. I have business elsewhere. You may finish your coffee and go," Lahabreha ordered before finishing his own cup and standing to leave. 

Praxithius's gaze drifted down to his coffee, remaining silent as the man passed, jolting as a firm hand came upon his shoulder before lifting away. Standing, the young man turned, removing his mask so the other could see the fire in his eyes. "He is my dream sir. He will know love, and smile again. Anon even..."

Lahabreha paused briefly in the door, turning his ruby gaze back to Praxithius before making his exit in full.

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #final fantasy 14 #ffxiv oc #ffxivwrite2022 #lahabrea #Praxithius #pandaemonium #patch 6.2

[theluxuriansecret]

Diary Entry 04152024

9:19 pm

Dear Diary,

I feel so fat, ugly, sick and disgusting. I am back to 160lbs and I am disappointed in myself. I have so much time to work out, and yet I doom scroll. I am stuck and stagnant but I know I can be doing so much better. I did the one thing I didn't want to do, I let the happiness get to me. Tomorrow I have no excuses. My job is no longer exhausting me and this is the last week where I get to kinda glide through and not have any of my own assignments. So, I have to find a way to get myself into it this week. I think the worst part is that I haven't partaken in any of my hobbies. I kinda find myself in that weird stage of again, scrolling my life away. I feel really anxious about it because there are things I really want to do and I am letting the days fleet into oblivion. I want more for myself so I will be doing more.

I have many mixed feelings, I hate that I can't put my phone down. I hate how I feel about my friends. My relationship with my dad has shifted and its strange, I hate living at home, but I couldn't move out even if I wanted to, I want to make future plans with my boyfriend, I feel fat, I hate how fucking horny I am all the time. I want more for myself. I told myself this would be the week I start my routine and yet I am still doing the last minute bullshit I've been doing, and I fucking hate it.

I do not have plans for graduation pictures yet, I don't even have a dress!!! Truly that's one of the biggest routes of my stress because I don't want anyone else to take my photos, but I also need him to be honest about if he can even take mine. I NEED to be the one to bring it up too because obviously my pictures are not a priority, and they shouldn't be. But it's the fact that I am so fucking over undergrad and it keeps rearing its disgusting head back into my life. I worked my ass off to get away from it and here it is, still in the way. I am going to have to take off work to graduate college, like how stupid is that.

ALSO.. I feel also a little bothered by the fact that my boyfriend hung up the phone with me to take a video of the sunset and then didn't call me back like.. why haven't you called me back? I know I am over thinking but when I am stressed about one thing, I stress about 20 other things and become overwhelmed. It's truly one of my fatal character flaws.

Today, I also ate like shit. I haven't eaten like shit in a long ass time. Not only did I eat like shit, I also just ate a lot. Like started the day off with egg salad, then I attempted to eat this spicy ramen that was way too fucking spicy, which made me drink milk. I added yellow rice to try to mellow out the spiciness of my ramen but that really didn't help, so I gave up on it. For dinner, I ate more yellow rice and three fried chicken wings, two drums and a flat. Finished off with an ice cream sandwich. BTW I have a cavity that has been bothering me for weeks. But my fucking dentist went and moved and the office was rebranded, still a dentist, just not the one who takes my insurance.

Why are services only open during working hours requiring you to take off so that you can use them. Why should I have to lose money so that I can spend money to have services I need done. Also, I still haven't found a PCP (primary care provider). I hate this adulting thing a lot. I am scared that I am not going to be a good adult because there are already so many things I do not do on my own or lack.

I try to convince myself I'll be fine, but then I remember I plan on sharing my life with someone who is so competent and capable of living on their own, they got the CHANCE to live on their own, will I ever? It doesn't seem likely.

#adulting is hard #dear diary #online diary #journal #secret diary #secret journal #journaling #2024 #post grad problems #post grad life #new relationship #anxiety #friendship #secrets #secret

[ashotofhelena]

2024

Dwelling on the past... perhaps my favorite December pastime. There is truly nothing more I enjoy than writing down my thoughts regarding the past 365 days, and what I am looking forward to the next 365 days.

Well, it happened. My theory of odd years being better has officially been disproven. I came into 2023 feeling excited, hopeful that it is finally an odd year -- things will finally grow and change for me. And to be clear, I do think 2023 was a year of personal growth. I definitely learned so much about myself, my needs, what I want to focus on in the future.

Yet, it was definitely not a year of change. While I would not say I feel stagnant, I also definitely did not create the changes I wanted to in 2023. Again, I find myself in the same job, the same relationship status, the same mindset. I don't think there is anything wrong, per se, with no changes, but I also am actively craving things that I didn't achieve this year. I guess that is why I feel like 2023 was a down year for me -- I had all these high hopes and expectations for change that never materialized.

Reading back on my 2023 entry, I wanted the year to be the year of change. That didn't happen. Perhaps it was the way I interacted with the world that did not bring the change; perhaps it was the way I overthought things with myself that led to another year of slight melancholy. But with the fresh start of 2024, I absolutely do want to strive for the changes I desire, and make it imperative that I achieve those changes.

2024 will be the year of focus, self-care, and abundance. Instead of leaning into change itself, I feel like focusing on my mindset will help me to gravitate towards the change I want. So with that, here are my resolutions for the year.

Dating and adopting an open mind to meeting new people. I am making this the priority goal for me in 2024. I have never really desired needing a partner, and while I still don't think I need someone else, I do find myself wanting to meet someone who truly sees me for who I am, and want to experience life with me. As a way to quantify this -- I am going to try going on 2 first dates a months.

Hard 31! I refuse to do the full Hard 75 but I am committed to doing Hard 31 in January (give or take the weekend I am in Austin). My version will be 31 days long, no alcohol, working out 1 hour everyday, eating out once a week only, no processed carbs or sugar while eating in, reading 10-15 minutes a day, and going to bed by 11:30pm every night. Let's see how I do...

Run 1K miles. I am committed to doing the 9+1 this year and that means a lot of running! With that, I am going to up my annual goal back up to 1K and hoping to go even beyond that. Running has been up and down for me this year so I really want 2024 to be the year I relearn to enjoy it consistently.

Read 30 books. Similar to last year, I want to focus on books mostly by BIPOC and underrepresented groups authors. Having diverse consumption brings so much value to me and I really enjoyed learning from the books I have read from those authors this year.

Do more pilates, yoga and weight lifting. With the running, I am hoping to add in other types of workout classes. I think I will do 2 classes a week of a mix of the 3 types above.

Financial planning. This one is big - the older the get, the more I realize I value financial security. Taking the time tomorrow to get some financials in order, and then continue to manage it via YNAB / Mint over time.

Look for a new job. 2023 was professionally a rollercoaster. On one hand, I love the work I do, my manager & team, and the products I get to work on. On the other hand, the company has shown that they may not care as much about their employees as I thought. I am also in a stage of my life where I am really valuing career growth and pay, which is something I am not sure my current role will give me. I wouldn't leave for just any job, but I am going to spend the time looking for roles that fit and will get me to the next level of my career.

Journal consistently every day. I started journaling this year and it has been so helpful, but I think I would get even more value if I did it everyday and wrote down my general feelings for the day. Take the time to do this on a daily basis.

Actually look into a writing class or comedy class! I really enjoy writing my thoughts down and want to seriously look into taking a writing class, and just start writing more. I will restart my Substack, and take a writing class in the new year. I also think I might want to take a comedy class? We will see on that one...

Stop buying materials / clothes / Amazon as much. I have been in a rabbit hole of fashion reels and it has got me consuming SO much more than usual. Making it a goal to not buy any new clothing for the first 4 months of the year, and then reassess in May if I need anything. Same with random things from Amazon - only the essentials!

Other misc. resolutions: be more intentional about my media consumption (and also be more international! I want to listen to music and read books and watch movies from non-Western countries); be more mindful of my alcohol consumption in general; make an effort to see people I really want to see and be a planner; travel to at least one new state and two new countries!; continue to eat less meat and sugar!

I am grateful to have made it another year in one piece, and happy to have had beautiful memories and friends to share them with in 2023. But I would not be lying if I also said I am really relieved that the social concept of the new year is happening today, and I can look forward to 2024. As always, I am cautiously optimistic for what 2024 will bring, and hope it will be a year of new beginnings, and sated yearnings.

#2024 #resolutions

[codegengar]

i don't know why i tend to feel lost the day after my therapy session. what we talked about during the time ended up in a different direction than what i expected – we talked about my relationship and how i felt a sense of restlessness due to the different trajectories d and i are taking in life. despite everything, i'm trying to move forward, to succeed in school and do co-op to help with my future. him, on the other hand... i do not want to psychoanalyze, but perhaps the routine is comforting, and change is hard for him as his past has been always in a state of uncertainty and instability. but so was mine. yet mine was always a kind of internal struggle ultimately, i think, while his is a mix of both, but perhaps more externally.

in that, i do not know. this morning, i was unconscious as he was getting ready to go to work at six in the morning, despite always being somewhat roused when he kissed me goodbye. because of this, when i awoke to some creaky sounds around my dormitory, i wondered if he was still in the room (i thought i felt his phone next to me, but it could be me touching the camera part of my own which could simulate the feel of his pop-socket), and if he was crossed with me from the night before. it felt like a blast in the past, when i refused to be sexually intimate because i overate during dinner (we had sushi-bake for the first time, without the baking). although come to think of it, after the last week of having a higher libido, i feel it crashing down a bit. female hormonal cycles will always be a mystery. but it could also do with the fact that i do feel uncomfortable down there, and i feel the need to take my supplements again to prevent any recurring bacterial infections. i should really inform him to get me more d-mannose.

i ended up not doing any studying today (or yesterday rather, as it is past midnight), as i woefully always hope i do the night before. i did do a few major chores in the afternoon (i.e. fold the laundry and wash the dishes), and hopefully that lends to d being more productive in some way. but my guess is that he ended up playing escape from tarkov for the last six hours since i've left.

and that was the what i was getting at earlier. it just feels like we are stagnant, which i do not mind, but it does not help with my motivation and productivity. i always had the idea that once i escaped my dysfunctional family, that i would be cured from the lethargy and lack of motivation that came with the mental anguish of living with them. but it doesn't work that way, and in hindsight, it sounds kind of silly. that lack of motivation is part of my depression, which won't be magically cured just because i removed myself from a toxic environment (which i go back to every weekend, as i offered to my mother to compromise for letting me run away from her controlling grasp). i wish he was working towards some sort of goal, which would help motivate me move towards my goals. because i do not really have any friends that are studious besides a, who is in a co-op work term right now and is not on campus to spend any time together. i've been keeping in touch with t more often, but we are not that close that she replies on time when i ask her where she is on campus to study. which is inconvenient since she is theoretically the most accessible person for me to connect with, as she also lives on campus.

the one good thing about going back to my parents' house for the weekend is seeing my cat, even though she's not very affectionate unless i am lying down (when you are busy doing something and are lying down, she'll sit on you. very rewarding experience). i wish we could keep pets in our dorm. not that it stops people (t's roommate has some gerbils), but a cat is more noticeable than rodents, and we do not have the funds to do so as we are both trying to save money (which we are failing to do so as of late with our new furnishing purchases).

i told d to wake me up before noon starting this week to go on walks to motivate me to at least not feel like my day is ruined by waking up in the afternoon. i am going to push myself to not be an ass and actually wake up when he tells me to do so (although that will involve sleeping earlier, which i need to tell myself to tell him to get off his pc at night). i have not fallen in a proper routine since first year (although technically, looking back on my transcript, i had someone of a routine in third year when there was hybrid classes. it just did not feel like one because d was following me everywhere and i ended up skipping a lot of my classes to spend my mornings with him).

it feels like i am indulging in my vices, but i am not happier, or feel good in the slightest. i guess that is what my coping mechanism is – engaging in a lot of short-term, dopamine inducing things that end up making me feel more guilty. but i am not trying to. realistically, i tell myself taking one to two mental health days are okay, but not the whole week (which is what i have been doing, essentially).

i'll try again tomorrow. it will be a new day.

i will go to church (and sleep throughout the entire mass), have lunch with my family, and hopefully request to go home earlier since it does not seem they have a fancy dinner planned. our fancy dinner was today (aka yesterday), as my mother celebrated my achievement of landing a co-op job for next semester. maybe telling them to drop me off in kerrisdale will be a good idea, as i need to buy more double eyelid tape in size medium, and i can study at the japanese green tea café. my wallet won't like that idea though. i'll ask my dad for some lunch money or something, haha.

the term 'high-functioning' seems so out of place, but i guess it is what it is. i have done quite decently for myself as a borderline. goodnight.

[sacredjoanne]

Uranus in Libra: Meaning, Traits & Compatibility

Let’s talk about Uranus in Libra. Brace yourself for some major shakeups in the harmony department.

Uranus is like that friend who always has something up their sleeve, and in Libra, they love to stir the pot of relationships.

You might suddenly feel the urge to break free from a stagnant partnership or take your dating game to the next level.

This cosmic game-changer will have you questioning your values and pushing you to be true to yourself, even if it means ruffling some feathers.

Get ready for some unexpected twists and turns, but don’t worry – Uranus always has your back and is here to bring excitement and growth into your life.

What Does Uranus in Libra Mean?

pursuit of genuine

They may seem like your typical social butterfly, but with Uranus in Libra, they’re anything but typical.

These individuals are rebels with a cause, fighting for justice and fairness in every aspect of their lives.

They’ll shake things up, challenge the status quo, and take bold risks in the pursuit of genuine, authentic connections between people.

Free Spirits of the Zodiac

Uranus in Libra folks are true free spirits, constantly pushing boundaries and exploring new territory.

They have a deep need for independence and self-expression, and won’t let anything keep them from living life on their own terms.

Innovation is Key

With Uranus in Libra, innovation is key.

These individuals are constantly seeking new and better ways of doing things and will stop at nothing to make their visions a reality.

They’re masters of change, always adapting to new situations, and inspiring others to do the same.

Embrace your Weirdness

Uranus in Libra encourages these individuals to embrace their weirdness fully.

They’re not content with fitting in and following the crowd.

Instead, they’re always looking to stand out, be unique, and express their true selves.

They remind us that our quirks and oddities are what make us special, and we should celebrate them at all times.

Think Outside the Box

Last but not least, Uranus in Libra encourages us to think outside the box.

These individuals are masters of improvisation, always coming up with creative solutions to unexpected problems.

They remind us that life is full of surprises, and it’s our ability to adapt and think creatively that will help us navigate them with grace and ease.

Uranus in Libra Strengths

The Ultimate Diplomat

When Uranus is in Libra, there’s an uncanny ability to smooth out rough edges and bring everyone together.

Libras are natural-born diplomats, and when Uranus is in the mix, they take it up a notch.

They’re like the United Nations of the zodiac, able to navigate even the stickiest of situations with ease and grace.

A Breakthrough Artist

Uranus is all about innovation, and when it’s in Libra, that energy is channeled into the arts.

Uranus in Libra peeps are often talented artists who push boundaries and break rules.

They’re the ones who make art that makes you go, “Wait, what?” They use their unique perspective to create works that challenge and inspire.

The Relationship Revolutionizer

While Libras are known for their love of partnership, Uranus in Libra takes that to a whole new level.

They’re not content with simply being half of a duo; they want to revolutionize what it means to be in a relationship.

They’ll challenge every assumption and tradition until they find something that works for them and their partner.

They’re constantly pushing the boundaries of what it means to be in love.

The Unpredictable Peacemaker

Uranus in Libra folks are all about peace and harmony, but they have an unpredictable streak.

While they may seem calm and collected on the surface, they’re always one step away from shaking things up.

They’ll throw a curveball into the mix just to keep things interesting, and somehow, it always works out for the best.

The Champion of Personal Freedom

Uranus in Libra is all about personal freedom and autonomy.

They will fight tooth and nail for their right to be themselves, and they won’t let anyone or anything stand in their way.

They’re not interested in conforming to society’s expectations; they want to pave their own path and live life on their own terms.

Uranus in Libra Struggles

The Love Rollercoaster

With Uranus in Libra, they can expect an unpredictable love life.

The thrill of the chase is irresistible, but finding stability in relationships might be a challenge.

They may find themselves in fleeting romances that fizzle out quickly or even in unconventional relationships that raise eyebrows.

But they’ll learn to embrace the twists and turns and find joy in the ride.

The Professional Wildcard

Uranus in Libra may bring unexpected changes in their career.

They’re not afraid to take risks, but they might find themselves jumping from job to job or struggling to find a steady path.

However, their unique perspective and innovation will eventually lead them to success.

The Rebel Without a Cause

Individuality is essential for those with Uranus in Libra. They are fiercely independent and don’t mind going against the norm.

They might even be seen as rebellious or unconventional but will always stand up for what they believe in.

Their unique perspective and defiance of societal norms will always inspire others.

The Friendship Quandary

With Uranus in Libra, making friends can be a bit of a challenge. They value close relationships but may struggle to find their tribe.

They might find themselves in and out of different friend groups or struggle to find connections that stick.

However, once they do, they will cherish their friendships and be fiercely loyal.

The Beautiful Mind

Those with Uranus in Libra have a brilliant mind that thinks outside the box.

They have a unique perspective on the world and are always seeking ways to make things better.

They might be seen as eccentric or a bit quirky, but they march to the beat of their drum.

They have the ability to make the world a better place through innovation and creativity.

Uranus in Libra Man

The Charm Offensive

Uranus in Libra men have a magnetic charm that attracts people to them like moths to a flame.

They have mastered the art of flirting, and their sweet talk can make anyone feel special.

They are always decked out in the latest trendy fashions, and they know how to accessorize like a pro.

When it comes to socializing, they are the life of the party, and their witty banter can keep people entertained for hours.

The Rebel Within

Uranus in Libra men might seem like a smooth operator, but underneath that suave exterior lies a rebellious streak.

They don’t want to conform to society’s expectations and are always pushing boundaries and challenging norms.

They march to the beat of their drum and don’t care what others think of them.

This tendency can make them great innovators and creative thinkers, but it can also lead them down a path of self-destruction.

The Emotional Tightrope Walker

Uranus in Libra men are famously indecisive, and this indecision can extend to their emotions.

They have a hard time navigating their feelings and can swing from one extreme to another.

They might be happy one moment and brooding the next.

Their friends and partners might have a tough time keeping up with this emotional rollercoaster.

But they also have the ability to understand and empathize with others’ emotions, making them a great shoulder to cry on.

The Professional Chameleon

Uranus in Libra men are adaptable and can excel in any profession they choose.

They are great at working with others and can work well in a team environment or solo.

They have a natural talent for diplomacy, making them great negotiators and mediators.

But they can also be impulsive and change their minds frequently, causing confusion and chaos in the workplace.

The Masculine Mystique

Uranus in Libra men challenge traditional masculinity stereotypes.

They don’t conform to the macho ideals of society and are not afraid to embrace their feminine side.

They might be more in touch with their emotions, prefer more traditionally feminine hobbies, or have a non-traditional approach to relationships.

This approach to masculinity can be refreshing and inspiring, but it can also lead to judgment and criticism from others who expect men to fit a certain mold.

Uranus in Libra Woman

Libra’s Balance

The Uranus in Libra woman is a rare breed who blends unpredictability with balance.

She’s the type of girl who can balance her checkbook and then spontaneously buy a plane ticket to Bali.

In any social gathering, she’s the one who stands out with her unconventional fashion and quirky humor.

The Queen of Independence

The Uranus in Libra woman is the epitome of independence.

She needs space and freedom to be herself and hates to be tied down in any relationship or job.

She’s always up for trying new things and is the first to jump on the next big trend.

She’s the queen of taking risks and always follows her gut instinct.

The Diplomat

The Uranus in Libra woman is a skilled diplomat and mediator. She’s fair and just and always sees both sides of the story.

She’s the perfect person to have on your team during a crisis or a tough negotiation.

She’s also passionate about social justice and can’t stand to see anyone bullied or oppressed.

A Feminine Rebel

The Uranus in Libra woman is a rebel without a cause.

She’s the type of girl who marches to the beat of her own drum and celebrates her femininity on her own terms.

She’s not afraid to break societal norms and challenge gender stereotypes.

She values her own style and unique perspective and doesn’t let anyone sway her.

A Creative Trailblazer

The Uranus in Libra woman is a creative trailblazer who thinks outside the box.

She’s always open to new ideas and approaches things from a unique angle.

She’s a visionary who can see the bigger picture and imagine infinite possibilities.

Her creativity and innovation make her a true force to be reckoned with in whatever field she chooses to pursue.

Libra Uranus – Love & Compatibility

Love or Freedom?

Individuals with Uranus in Libra have a unique dance when it comes to love.

They value freedom above all else but are also passionate about love.

This can make it tricky when it comes to relationships. Finding a balance between the two is key.

Spontaneous Acts of Love

Being spontaneous is a top priority for those with Uranus in Libra. They despise routines and predictability.

If you want to win their heart, try doing something spontaneous like taking them on a surprise trip.

The Power of Communication

Communication is the foundation of any relationship, but it’s especially crucial for Uranus in Libra.

They value open dialogue and honesty above all else.

If you’re not ready to communicate openly and honestly, you might not be the right partner for them.

Love From a Distance

Uranus in Libra individuals can have a hard time committing to a partner because of their strong desire for freedom.

They may prefer long-distance relationships or having their own space.

Trust is essential in these scenarios, and both partners should be willing to work on the relationship.

Breaking Boundaries

Uranus is known as the planet of disruption, and individuals with Uranus in Libra embrace this energy.

They often challenge traditional relationship boundaries and norms.

They want to create their own path toward love and partnerships, which can lead to exciting new beginnings or unexpected endings.

Libra Uranus – Career And Money

The Rebel Careerist

Uranus in Libra individuals are not content with a run-of-the-mill career.

They want something that stands out, something that is unique and challenging.

They often find themselves drawn to careers that others might deem risky or unconventional.

They are the rebels of the workforce, breaking rules and creating new paths. They thrive on change and are not afraid to shake things up.

The Financial Tightrope Walker

When it comes to money matters, Uranus in Libra individuals find themselves walking a tightrope between financial security and financial freedom.

They are risk-takers at heart, and sometimes their impulsive nature can lead them down a path of financial instability.

However, with their natural charm and negotiation skills, they are also great at bouncing back from financial setbacks and finding new opportunities for growth.

The Collaborative Entrepreneur

Uranus in Libra individuals are not just content with a 9-5 job.

They also have a strong entrepreneurial drive, and they enjoy collaborating with others to create new businesses or ventures.

They are excellent at networking and connecting with like-minded individuals, and they thrive in environments that allow them to be creative and innovative.

The Socially Conscious Investor

Under Uranus’s influence, those with Uranus in Libra tend to be socially conscious investors.

They are drawn to companies that share their values and beliefs, and they are not afraid to put their money where their mouth is.

They are often early adopters of new technologies or innovative products that align with their principles, and they are constantly seeking new ways to make a positive impact in the world.

The Change Agent

Above all, Uranus in Libra individuals are change agents.

They are here to shake things up, to challenge the status quo, and to create new possibilities for themselves and others.

They are not afraid to take risks, and they are always looking for ways to make a difference.

Whether it’s in their careers or their financial decisions, they are always pushing the boundaries and exploring new horizons.

Final Thoughts

Picture this: Uranus in Libra walks into a party and everyone’s head turns.

This astrological combo is known for being the life of the party with a magnetic energy that draws people in.

They’re charming as heck but don’t be fooled, Uranus in Libra is not one to be tied down.

They value independence and crave excitement and spontaneity in all aspects of their life, including relationships.

So, if you’re dating a Uranus in Libra, don’t be afraid to spice things up and keep things fresh, they’ll love it!

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