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mantisgodsart · 5 months
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Pretend to be what you will, but under the light of the full moon, there's no more room for playing at civility (you are a monster, and you cannot control your nature)
#our art#bug fables#finished#watercolor#vi#wereweevil vi#werecreature#we use a specific paint for the eyes and claws and such here and it doesn't show in a still picture but it shimmers blue-green in the light#anyways. FUCKED UP BEAST!!!#this is for a cool & fun fic we've had in the works for um. uhh. (pause as we look at the date)#...actually don't worry about it we'll finish it eventually#wereweevil form draws inspiration from both mantids and wild boars!#we're going with the theory that weevils and primal weevils are NOT the same species#but rather different species entirely that tend to cohabitate and have some aesthetic similarities because of it#golden path weevils are a VERY altered form of weevils that have adapted very far from their original form over time#and primal weevils are a member of superorder dictyoptera split off from an ancestor like...#googling it suggests the common name we're familiar with is not actually common since it didnt bring up results but the wood mantis#but honestly it could either be a split from one of the Flat Fuck mantids or a roach w those raptorial forelegs#while golden path weevils have evolved specifically to eat seedlings and are most likely a split of acorn weevil#primal weevils are Something Else Entirely and have the “everything and the kitchen sink” diet of a roach#though they do prefer plumplings and have over time developed teeth specifically for cracking them open and eating them#their mutualistic relationship with golden path weevils stems from this: cracking open otherwise difficult plumpling prey for GP weevils#and receiving the benefits of a pack of allies for hunting more difficult prey in return#primal weevils are most likely an awakened species from what we've seen of canon but we doubt roaches would acknowledge them#as related much less potentially another form of roach#seeing as the roaches in game seem to be purely based on a handful of “pest” species and not the absolute wealth of roach species out there#that have unique adaptations or mimicry or anything of the like#we don't think they would take well to mimic roaches or anything of the like. also ties in to our hcs for levi.#if youre not one of the core species of roach then you dont get considered a “roach”. there are probably plenty of mimic roaches out there#just not acknowledged as Roaches because the Roaches bugarians are familiar with were a single culture with only a handful of species
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suicidgirl222 · 11 months
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superspookyjanelle · 8 days
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OC AESTHETIC: Riversong Hargrove
❝ The wolf who wins is the wolf you feed. The evil wolf feeds on anger, guilt, sorrow, lies, and regret. The good wolf needs a diet of love and honesty, spiced up with big spoonfuls of compassion and faith. So if you want the good wolf to win, you're going to have to starve the other one. ❞
TAGGING: @witchofinterest @fiercefray @sweetenemyfire @eddysocs @arrthurpendragon @villanele @bookstorebunny @roseygirl203 @valdrinors
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arctic-hands · 9 months
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I was lumped in with the goths during my school years*, and for sure I was horrifically depressed when I wasn't psychotically manic and had common interests like graveyards and depressing poetry and gory imagery and other morbid fascinations, but whenever I did hang out with the Goths (we weren't super super tight like BFFs or something but we got along when we hanged) I was a ridiculous contrast in fashion lol.
Standing in with a group of teenagers who for whatever quirk were all taller than me despite being around the same ages, who were wearing all black or the occasional blood red, in various states of the entirely casual-suitable for the opera fashion spectrum of fashion, often with multiple piercings and eyeliner at the very least,
was this barefaced and metal-less scrawny and smol being in a bright yellow graphic t with some stupid slogan of a meme that was outdated even by then, or a tie-dyed shirt with the Joe's Crabshack logo on it, and incredible baggy jeans that were held up by variously colored scarves because my body shape even while rail thin was awkward with regular belts and my pants would still slide down unless I tight laced a chiffon scarf as uncomfortably tight as I could around my waist, sludge gray Velcro shoes because my inconsistent growth spurts meant I had awkwardly sized feet and for whatever reason the only suitable shoes I could find in my size at the time were Velcro, occasionally a faux gold vaguely intricate Walmart bracelet around my upper arm because it made me feel Ancient Grecian, and the peace day resist ants was, because I was also in a M*A*S*H phase since I was completely fixated on the equally bipolar and similarly undiagnosed Hawkeye, I went to the army surplus store and bought an olive green boonie hat that might have come from the Korean war era but might have been from 'nam I don't remember and I was constantly wearing that everywhere.
Anyway there's no real point to this and I regret to inform you that I never took a photo when hanging out with the goths and it's not like smartphones were mainstream enough that any of us could afford one yet, but I'm just picturing this group hangout from the outside and how it must have looked lol
*(for all that meant in the high school era, cliques weren't really a thing by then and if you had friends you prolly had multiple groups of friends based on whatever specific common interest or just what class/lunch you were in, we were all impoverished as fuck so like. Elitism was never really a thing with some notable exceptions *cough*ableism*cough*)
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rotzaprachim · 9 months
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As a staunch lover of that style of music I found Daisy jones and the six in both book and show form sooooo disappointing
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inavagrant-a · 1 year
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One of my most unhinged Mona theories is that she’s the reincarnation of one of the three Moon Sisters: Aria, Sonnet and Canon.
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dear-kumari · 2 years
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It’s kinda odd to see ppl defend Legendary Disaster’s lion swap in 2022.  I get that there were interesting meta reasons behind it but like, we do all remember that “let’s have the paladins match their lions and then switch them all up to match their original 80s placements for the nostalgic appeal” was arguably the genesis for all the worst choices in VLD’s narrative and visual design, right
#Kumari comments#Kumari abuses the tagging system#No shade to people who liked the homage I just think it was an awkward decision that spiraled out into some disastrous storytelling#I guess having an in-universe explanation for the mismatched colors was a cute idea in theory but man did it not work in practice#From a purely aesthetic standpoint it was just plain Bad#and if it'd been planned out properly all the lion cockpits wouldn't have been flooded with a single color#Lance and Keith looked terribly out of place in Red and Black and there's really no getting around that#and all the post-swap discourse basically amounted to 'but when are they gonna swap back tho' bc the expectation to match had been planted#not to mention Everything that went into getting Shiro out of the picture#idk.#sometimes … homages … aren't worth it#If they'd just gone with the original colors/placements from the start and handwaved it as an 'Altean' quirk I could've respected that#it would've felt more like an attempt to respect the sentai tropes from GoLion and less like the producers trying to have it both ways#as-is I just get the impression that they didn't respect the source material /or/ the story they were supposedly trying to tell#It's a lot like the pedantic fuckery in those live-action makes of Disney animated classics ya know?#like 'we want to shamelessly capitalize on your nostalgia but we also need a Logical Reason for xyz fairytale trope'#but perhaps a smidge more earnest bc Voltron isn't/wasn't a huge cash cow on the level of a Disney film#idk. if we're entering a 'VLD was okay actually' era of discourse can someone give me a heads up so I can go scream into a pillow for while?#bc that's not something I wanna be around for
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woolandcoffee · 1 year
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Sigh.
#woolly rambles#was it absolutely a rookie mistake to send this person who set off all of my alarm bells a copy#of the imbolc ritual i wrote for my friend and i? yes absolutely#did i really have any way of avoiding it? no not really#my friend is not nearly as experienced as i am and is one of those people who likes to include everyone#which is generally i think a positive thing but in this case not really#anyways the good sport that i am i went along with including this other person even though everything about her screams#i'm here for the aesthetic and i don't take this seriously#but saint that i am i went along with it#also because i am not great with awkward social situations#anyways did this new person immediately live up to every single one of my suspicions by copy-pasting a line from my ritual write up#and putting it on a fake movie poster she designed for a class#why yes! yes she did!#fortunately it wasn't something extremely private#or something that she in theory couldn't have gotten from another source#although she clearly hadn't#she clearly copied it directly from my write up#which again it isn't something so private that we now have A Serious Problem#but it is enough of something that i am going to quietly revoke her access to the ritual doc and not share any of my content with her again#will probably have to now navigate the social situation of my friend being friends with this person#but that's far more doable now that i have pretty solid confirmation what sort of person i'm dealing with#the deeply unserious aren't that difficult to brush off i have found#and a little binding effort to keep her hands off my shit wouldn't hurt either#though tbh the most annoying part is that i did this to myself i knew this would happen#and i do genuinely enjoy doing rituals with my friend - she's not exactly at my level but she's sincere and thoughtful#and i enjoy ritual with her#but this other person is clearly just here to piss off evangelicals and wear dark lipstick#which i simply do not truck with#like babe we all shop at sephora you're not special
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waterloou · 2 years
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trayden + aqua
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erezaquezial · 2 years
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What if we start to like
the taste of coffee,
when we grow up,
just because its bitterness
helps us to deal with the
bitterness of reality
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sunshine-tattoo · 3 months
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some stuff about Alastor:
he was in his early 30s when he died in 1933
putting his birth year around 1900 or so
because of his age, there's a very good chance he fought in the WW1 trenches
hes black but had a mixed background and could potentially pass in white social circles
which was very useful since Louisiana is incredibly racist and segregation was very powerful then
he grew up speaking a mixture of English and French in New Orleans
gave himself a trans Atlantic accent at some point so he would be taken seriously
he had a very popular radio show host in New Orleans from the mid 20s to early 30s
also he was a serial killer
we don't know who he targeted as his victims (or why) but he did often eat them
my guess is rich white men who were paying slave wages during the Depression but that's just a theory
he was killed accidentally by a hunter who saw him in the swamp and thought he was a deer
which is why he has deer attributes in Hell
thought that the stock market crash in 1929 was really funny
probably because a lot of stupid rich white men lost everything
loves to cook and learned how from his mother
aro ace
Rosie the Cannibal Overlord is his very best friend
was a voodoo king when he was alive and brought those same skills and powers to Hell when he died
he is one of Viv's oldest characters, having first conceived of him during her high school days in the early 2010s
a lot of his aesthetic is based on Doctor Facilier from The Princess and the Frog
which is kinda funny that his voice actor (Keith David) now plays Husk on the show
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ladyshinga · 1 year
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I recommend to everyone online to follow at least ONE (1) weirdo. Not a qanon conspiracy flavor weirdo, I'm talking follow furries with specific fixations you've never even heard of (I just saw a post about paranormal investigator bear furries but with no context or explanation and, sure, fuck it, why not), follow artists who use materials you've never heard of before and have barely any aesthetic interest in, follow writers whose work confuses the fuck out of you but makes you pause and think.
And the next part, and this part is VITALLY important... shut the fuck up
DON'T constantly comment "what does this mean", "I don't get it", "explain it to me", "ok but why", etc
Just shut up
There's a time and place for questions and I think it's HEALTHY to have AT LEAST one place where you COMPLETELY STOP YOURSELF from questions.
A place where you sit, stare, and let yourself Not Get It.
One of the biggest problems I run into with people is their entitled expectations to Understand everything, or at least they want to THINK they understand everything (so they're a lot more likely to fall for batshit conspiracy theories because, well, pointing at a Shadowy Group Responsible For Everything is pretty easy to understand). They see something they don't get and they flip out, they want to label it, diagnose it, make panicked laws about it.
You need... NEEEEED... for the sake of your own maturity and mental health... to know when it's okay to sit there in silence and go "hm. I don't get it. Cool."
You need to know how to sit in silence in some one's art and worldview and words and think to yourself "all of this is put together in a reasonable way, but I am not connecting with it"...
GOOD.
You shouldn't HAVE to! You shouldn't be in this world thinking EVERYTHING in it is accessible to you, is understandable to you. You NEED to embrace the idea that SOME things will always evade your understanding. The universe is unfathomably huge and it's absolute NONSENSE to think to yourself that you can fathom everything in it.
Find the harmlessly weird shit to follow IN SILENCE and let yourself not understand. It's good for you.
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superspookyjanelle · 9 days
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UPCOMING FIC: A Theory of Everything
Fandom: A Discovery of Witches & Percy Jackson
oc features: Riversong Hargrove
Canon characters featured: Diana Bishop and Matthew Clairmont
TAGGING: @witchofinterest @fiercefray @sweetenemyfire @eddysocs @arrthurpendragon @villanele @bookstorebunny @roseygirl203 @valdrinors
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lilirari · 6 months
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𐙚 ⋆୨୧˚ KING OF MY HEART ⋆ ˚ ꩜ 。
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𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. summary : charles' girlfriend releases an album full of love songs to commemorate his special day.
𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. pairing : charles leclerc x fem! singer! reader
𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. faceclaim : cho miyeon of (g)i-dle
��� ࣪ ִֶָ☾. author's note : ahhh this is my first f1 related work + smau !! happy birthday to charles my beloved ❤️‍🩹 he deserves all the love & happiness in this world T_T making this made me realise that i don't know much western celebs with suitable fcs for smaus like this 😭 please do comment some western fcs so that i can use them in my next smaus ! anyways it's a little rushed honestly but i hope you'll enjoy it <3
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yourinstagram summertime happiness 🤍🫧
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charles_leclerc my pretty girl ❤️‍🩹
yourinstagram i love you baby <3
charles_leclerc i love you more, mon amour
yourinstagram i love you most !!
landonorris ew get a room 🙄
charles_leclerc you're just jealous because you're still single and you got no rizz
landonorris I HAVE RIZZ
yourinstagram LMAOOOOO ok sure pinocchio 🤥
landonorris you guys are BULLIES
yncharles4ever omg my parents !!! they look so good 😭😭
pinkyn the hair, the fit, the smile.. everything about yn >>>>
luvleclerc CHARLES' DIMPLES 🥹🥹🥹
ynlover127 HELPPPP NOT Y/N AND CHARLES GANGING UP ON LANDO AND HIS NO RIZZ AGENDA
motheryn they're right though.. he doesn't have rizz 😭
landonorris HEY I DO HAVE RIZZ !!!!
danielricciardo sure mate.. you keep telling yourself that
landonorris I THOUGHT YOU WERE ON MY SIDE DANNY
danielricciardo i AM on your side.. it's just that charles, y/n and all the others are right
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landonorris i hate it here you're all bullies
yourinstagram we love you too lando 🫶
landonorris 🚶🏻‍♂️
mlnmarta the most gorgeous girl ever !!!
carla.brocker my sister 🥺💗
leclerc_pascale je t'aime, ma belle-fille ❤️
yourinstagram je t'aime maman 🩷
lorenzotl ❤️
arthur_leclerc je me suis bien amusé, belle-sœur ☺️
yourinstagram aww, i had fun too, thur ! 🥹🤍
cl16supremacy he called her sister-in-law !!! this is not a drill !! i repeat this is not a drill !!!!
httpsyn i love how y/n is so close with all the members of the leclerc family and not just charles :( <3
arthlercluvr "belle-sœur ", " ma belle-fille ", " my sister ".. she's definitely a part of the family now
teamoyn y/n i love you and i'm happy that you're spending time with your loved ones but when are you going to come back ? 😭
iheartyn the lack of y/n content (music wise) is killing me
ynisqueen the y/n drought will end soon stay strong my brothers and sisters
ynsglasses i wish i had a positive mindset like you 😭
ynisqueen TRUST ME SHE'LL BE BACK SOON !!! i can sense it
ynsglasses i hope you're right 😞🤞
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yourinstagram my new album 'reputation' will be out on october 16th ! this is by far my best album yet and i'm honestly so proud of the songwriting i've done for this ! i can't wait to share it with you all <3 you can pre-order it now on my site ! special thanks to taylorswift for directing the music video and guiding me throughout the whole journey of making this album happen 🤍🖤
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charles_leclerc my stargirl !!! ☆
charles_leclerc wait oct 16... it's releasing on my birthday ???
yourinstagram yes 🤭
charles_leclerc judging by the aesthetics of these photos, your story update and seeing all the fan theories on x... i didn't do anything wrong, did i ? you're not going to break up with me through this album, are you ?
yourinstagram HELP CHARLES NO YOU DIDN'T AND NO I'M NOT 😭 you could never do anything wrong in my eyes.. i love you too much :( ♡ also you really shouldn't be on x reading those theories.. i can assure you that they're like only 10% accurate or so
charles_leclerc okay, love, i trust you 🤍 i can't wait to listen to it ! i'm sure it'll be amazing !
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taylorswift i had lots of fun helping you, sweetheart ! i'm going to be streaming it on all platforms once it's out ☺️🤍
yourinstagram you're so sweet 😭😭 love you sm xx
oliviarodrigo the queen is back 🗣️🗣️🗣️
conangray BESTIE'S GOING TO EAT AND DEVOUR
lanadelrey 🤍🖤
danielricciardo album of the year
yourinstagram danny it's not even out yet 😭
danielricciardo i don't care it's the album of the year i'm already calling it
yourinstagram pleaseee i love u thanks for the support 😭🤍
yncore daniel's so real for this
stargirlyn we stan a supportive bestie
lilymhe YOU'RE SO GORGEOUS 🖤
francisca.cgomes my beloved ♡
landonorris i don't care if there's like only two months left before this year ends this album and all the songs are going to top my spotify wrap just you wait and see
yourinstagram NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT
landonorris NEVER GIVE UP RAHHH the grind is real !!!! 🗣️💪🔥
maxverstappen1 IT'S ABOUT DRIVE IT'S ABOUT POWER
oscarpiastri WE STAY HUNGRY WE DEVOUR
maxielmisser HELPPP WHAT IS WITH THIS REPLY SECTION
charlesxyn LMAOADHSHDH OSCAR ????
estiesbestie this is the funniest shit i've seen all day they're all so unhinged
goatifi wtf did fia feed the drivers today 💀
therock did someone call ?
ynnation IMCRYIGJSHDHSHD
carlando455 NOT THE ROCK APPEARING OUTTA NOWHERE GOODBYE
scuderiaferrari we'll be tuning in as well 😉
iheartyn y/n's reputation era... oh, she's so going to get back at all her exes, isn't she ?
24hrsofyn i was thinking the same thing too but she told charles that only 10% of the theories are true so...
ynarchive i think the aesthetics of this album might actually be misleading us and the songs might turn out to be so lovey dovey or 🩷🥰🧚🏻‍♀️💐🌈🍭
rosesforyn you're probably right ynarchive
leclerc_pascale impatiently waiting for the album to drop 🥰
ynisqueen YOOOOO WHAT DID I TELL YOU GUYS
anythingforyn never doubting you again girl
yncity next time we're on a y/n drought again, i'm coming to you
ynisqueen i feel so powerful
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charles_leclerc feeling sorry for carlos for the issue on his car today. crossed the finish line p5, it was the maximum we could've done today. by far the hardest race of my career physically... gonna sleep well tonight 😅
also big congrats to max for winning his third championship !
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yourinstagram you did so good, my darling 🥺🫶 i'm so proud of you !!
charles_leclerc merci, ma chérie ❤️‍🩹 please come to bed now.. i can't sleep without you
yourinstagram omw, baby <3
maxverstappen1 thanks mate ! you drove well today 💪
scuderiaferrari incredible effort, charles 🔥
schumisworld the third picture... i just know he's looking at y/n
leclerc_pascale repose-toi bien, mon fils 🫶
carlossainz55 ❤️
charlos.lesainz we love you charles 🥰
ferrarilover the way he's looking at y/n in the last pic.. he's so down bad fr 😭
pumamotorsport proud !! sleep well ❤️🤝
f1withamy sleep well, my goat !!!
ynsbiggestfan i need someone to look at me like the way charles looks at y/n 😞
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yourinstagram joyeux anniversaire, mon amour ❤️‍🩹 you've been by my side since day one and i can never thank you enough for everything you've done for me. i'm so proud of how far you've come and everything you've accomplished till now. i know that you'll achieve your dreams someday because you're the most determined and hardworking person i know so don't give up and just keep on trying to reach your goals, love.
and yes, the entire reputation album is my birthday gift to you. i couldn't just write a single song for you and leave it there so i went ahead and composed a whole album only for you. i hope you'll like your gift :p
i'm so glad to have met you on that one fateful day and i'm super proud to call you mine. you are my starboy, my home, the king of my heart and i will love you forever & always.
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charles_leclerc merci beaucoup, ma bien-aimée. je t'aime pour toujours 🤍
yourinstagram je t'aime, charles 🥹
landonorris you guys are so cute it's sickening 🤢
leclerc_pascale 🥰
scuderiaferrari the best couple on the paddock everyone !! we're so glad charles has such a wonderful partner like you, y/n 🫶
scuderiaferrari also reputation's been on repeat the entire day ! our queen slayed !!!
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redbullracing happy birthday charles !! and congratulations on the success of reputation, y/n ❤️🔥 our drivers have been bopping their heads to the songs all day long !
yncharles4ever MY PARENTS 😭😭 I WANT WHAT THEY HAVE
reputationyn REPUTATION IS SO FIRE, Y/N !!! U DID AMAZING WE LOVE YOU
ynshousewife the king of her heart 🥹🥹🥹
ynisaqtpie imagine getting a whole album dedicated just to you on your birthday.. charles is the luckiest man ever
conangray goals !!! <3 loved your new album, bestie 🫂🫶
mlnmarta cutest lovebirds 🫶
joris_trouche ❤️❤️
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charles_leclerc 26 👑 celebrated today with my family. thank you all for the wishes and gifts, really appreciate it 🫶
also, to my darling y/n : thank you for making my day extra special by giving me the best birthday gift ever. i will cherish you and this album forever. i adore you so much, ma chérie, my end game, the queen of my heart 😘
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yourinstagram you're too sweet, baby ☹️ ily ily ily mwah <3
leclerc_pascale je t'aime mon doux enfant 🥰
arthur_leclerc 🫶
lorenzotl ❤️🔥
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borrowmyshovel · 2 months
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i don't have a fully formed theory on it but i feel that the queer community is deeply hostile to neurodivergence. Endless, contradicting rules, the constant threat of social ostracism, an encouragement towards self-policing. Queer identity is less about self expression and more about placing oneself in the "correct" spot in an expansive web of oppressor/oppressed power relations that must then inform your actions and the actions of others toward you. Maintaining your place is a full-time job of public relations where you must project at all times the aesthetic the corresponds to your assigned identity, which itself is everchanging and dependent on the exact subgroup of the queer community you are dealing with at any given time. Your painstakingly maintained presentation may fall out of fashion at any time, or your entire identity may be altogether rejected, leaving you the choice of standing your ground despite the mockery and harrassment, or sweeping the offending label under the rug and moving yourself to a more acceptable one. Even if you follow everything to the letter, once enough people dislike you that becomes reason in itself to have your place rejected. It somehow manages to offer neither the freedom of self-expression nor the comfort of well-established rules. It's just high school. It's just endless fucking high school.
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wnderkoo · 7 months
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WATCH | JJK
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୨୧ see what you want to see, but all i see is him right now
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Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!
You're late.
For once in your college career, you're late.
Blame your friends for dragging you out on a school night and not letting you go home until almost midnight- it took two iced mochas to pump you with enough energy to make it pass your door.
Entering the classroom, you let out a sigh when the professor doesn't berate you in front of the entire class. Instead, he looks at you with passive indifference, silently beckoning you to find a seat.
The Visual Arts course required a more practical classroom rather than an auditorium, organised with high tables that sat two people- it had the messy kind of aesthetic you would expect in a K-Drama.
When you look to your usual table, you cry a little inside seeing blocks of clay and newspaper scattered on top of it. Though, given how late you were, you felt that it had been deserved.
Scanning the classroom, you're mortified to find that the only spare seat in the class is next to him.
Tattoos, piercings, the hint of muscles beneath his shirt- Jeon Jungkook is everything you should stay away from.
You had walked in on your first day, surprised to say the least when you saw him at a table. He was the last person you expected to take an arts course but Jungkook had surprised you, becoming one of the top students in the class with his unique art style which blew you away every time.
As if feeling you glaring into the side of his head, he lifts his eyes, meeting yours almost immediately. He gives you a smile that hits you right in the stomach- damn him.
You hear the professor cough awkwardly, signalling to you that you need to find a seat.
Reluctantly, you make your way to his table and sit down beside Jungkook, avoiding his curious gaze as you try to listen in to the rest of the lesson.
Today was theory, and since you'd done the pre-reading, there wasn't much to be missed.
Maybe it's your lack of sleep, or the certain distraction beside you, but you can't seem to find it in you to pay attention to the words of your professor.
No matter how straight you sit up and act like the principles of clay are the most interesting topic on the planet, your mind wanders off.
When you hear a chuckle from beside you, your head snaps towards Jungkook.
"What?" you ask in a whisper, not trying to get called on to answer a question for talking, knowing you wouldn't have the first clue to the answer.
"You're on the edge of your seat," he comments, grinning down at you like it's hilarious.
"If you sit anymore forward, you'll fall right off."
Rolling your eyes, you take in his own posture. Jungook was leaning back in his chair, looking more relaxed than you've been in your entire life. Yet, something told you he was still paying attention.
You knew he did well in school, no matter how shocking it was that the boy who partied and slacked off in class got straight As.
"C'mon babe, you can relax."
Your head snaps back to the front of the room, hoping Jungkook can only see the back of your head and not the heat creeping onto your cheeks.
It's five minutes later, with your professor still rambling on, that his words really win you over.
Scooting back, you let yourself relax into your seat.
From beside you, Jungkook gives you a smug smile.
"Better right?"
"Mhm."
Sitting beside Jungkook wasn't as bad as you had thought it would be. He didn't even flirt with you that much, although he did call you 'babe' a few times, each time bringing the same heat to rise on your cheeks.
He had even offered you his notes to help answer the questions from today's theory work.
The second part of the lesson was always practical, and today you were experimenting with sculpting. Discarding your chairs, you roll up your sleeves and get straight down to business.
While you're fighting hard not to break a sweat as you battle the stiff clay, Jungkook hardly blinks as he start kneading the clay and moulding it into shapes.
After some huffing and puffing, you suddenly feel his eyes on you.
"Need some help?" he asks.
"Nope. Doing. Just. Fine."
His laugh is the first thing you hear before you feel his presence unnervingly close to you.
You almost gasp when he slips one hand beneath each of yours, lacing your fingers together.
"There's your problem, your hands aren't warm enough. The clay won't be mouldable."
Throughout much of high-school and even some of college, guys overly mansplained things to you as if you couldn't comprehend them, but Jungkook's tone didn't belittle you or make you feel stupid. He was just telling you what you needed to know.
He squeezes your hands in his for a moment before pulling his hand away. He beckons toward the clay, urging you to try moulding it now, and unsurprisingly the clay is much easier to shape in just a few seconds.
You silently wonder why Jungkook didn't just warm the clay up for you, but you were thankful that he didn't try to peg you as the damsel in distress.
Before you know it, an hour and a half has passed and your clay elephant and Jungkook's mushroom are standing proudly on the desk.
The hallway is crowded as you make your way to your next class, the chatter almost too loud for you to hear your name being called. Looking over your shoulder, you see none other than Jungkook jogging to catch up to you.
"Hey."
"Hey?"
You almost look around wondering if he was calling someone with the same name as you, but you can't mistake the boyish grin he looks at you with.
"Do you have any plans tonight?" he asks, hooking an arm around your shoulders to usher you to keep walking.
You quickly realise that if you'd stay still just a moment longer, one of the football throwing jocks would have bulldozed right over you.
"Probably just reading class material, why?"
Your confusion must be funny since Jungkook laughs softly.
"Let's get dinner together," he suggests, making your eyes bulge out of your head.
Did Jeon Jungkook really just ask you to dinner?
"You want to go to dinner with me?" you ask, looking up at him.
"I mean yeah, that's why I asked..." his hand comes up to scratch the back of his head, and you realise it's the first time you've ever seen Jungkook look so timid.
Jeon Jungkook. Campus heart-crusher Jeon Jungkook. Has a new girl on his arm every party Jeon Jungkook.
Before you can voice your hesitation, someone calls Jungkook's name from across the hall, tearing both your attention and Jungkook's to a certain brown haired man.
You recognise Kim Taehyung's face through the crowd, waving at you and flashing you his box smile.
"Yo Kook! You still getting the beer for the party tonight?"
While the two communicate through loud shouts, you take the mention of a party as your cue to leave. Jungkook was probably only asking you to dinner because he had nothing better to do. He probably just forgot about the party he was clearly needed at.
You push past the doors and start down the footpath towards the other cluster of buildings across campus when Jungkook is once again calling your name.
"Sorry about that," he says with his boyish smile, falling into step beside you.
"So tonight? Dinner?"
His adamancy about this dinner is throwing you off, especially when you hadn't even interacted with Jungkook enough for him to be practically begging.
"Don't you need to get beer for the party?" you ask.
"I can get that done by 6:30 and still be in time to pick you up at 7," he replies smoothly, stuffing his hands into his pockets.
"You don't want to go to the party?"
You can't even mask your surprise, looking up at him to see if he's playing a joke on you.
"I'm sure you'd enjoy that way more than dinner with me," you laugh.
"Nah."
One word, so casually, so confident. You actually believe him.
"Okay, fine. Dinner tonight."
Jungkook all but leaps into the air with a fist up, his elation enough to make a passer-by believe he'd just won the lottery.
You finally reach the English department for your next class, but you stop before the door and turn to face Jungkook.
You stare at him fully, trying to grasp what he was playing at. Unable to read him, you sigh and start walking to the door and with one final look over your shoulder, your words are half a demand and a wish.
"Remember, 7 PM. Don't be late!"
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He's late.
You'd felt bad earlier for letting his reputation and rumours make you question his intentions, but now he was just living up to them.
You'd spent an hour getting ready, and were horrified to find yourself smiling more than once as you imagined how the night would turn out. You couldn't help it, you were excited.
Every minute is a laugh in your face as you wait on the couch. Maybe he had found someone at the party worth staying for.
You felt stupid for believing you really could be different.
You're just about to give up and wallow in bed while cursing men when your doorbell rings.
You have half a mind to ignore him but you also can't help but be curious to see how he tries to save himself.
The door opens to a guilty looking Jungkook, whose eyes light up just seeing you, as if he had expected you to never talk to him again.
Arms crossed over your chest, you take him in.
His hair is a little disheveled like he run his hand through it one too many times on the drive over here. Wearing a simple white Nike t-shirt and black cargo pants, he was making it a lot harder to stay upset.
It also didn't help that he smelled so fucking good.
"Baby-"
You cut him off, pinning with a look that says 'try again'. He winces at your coldness, though he knows its deserved.
"Yn."
"You're late."
"I know, and I'm so fucking sorry. You don't know how fast I drove to get here," he says, looking genuinely distraught.
A part of you feels petty for not wanting to hear him out. Your pride was wounded and maybe it would be better to stay home.
"It's fine, you can just go back to the party."
You're about to close the door in his face when he steps into the doorway, a hurt expression on his face.
"Please, give me another chance. I'll do whatever it takes to make it up to you," he practically begs, looking and sounding close to falling to his knees.
"Fuck, I even got you flowers because I didn't want you to be upset."
You had realised earlier that you never told Jungkook where you lived. You're not sure exactly how he managed to get your number, you think from one of your friends who share a course with him, but he had messaged you earlier and gotten it.
You'd made sure to tell him not to get you flowers (you felt pretentious assuming he would in the first place) because flowers were for dates and this definitely wasn't a date.
Except when he pulls out the bouquet, you almost just forget everything. He could have half assed it and bought supermarket owned flowers, but he went all out. You're not sure where he managed to get such a beautiful arrangement on short notice, but the longer you look at them, the less upset you feel.
"You think you can win me over with flowers?" you chide, except even Jungkook can tell your resolve is crumbling.
"Is it working?" he asks with a smile when he notices your expression is more lighthearted.
"Yes."
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You're glad Jungkook took you to eat somewhere casual enough that you didn't feel like you couldn't talk, but fancy enough that you weren't just eating fast food. A good middle ground served for the conversation that came easy between you while you waited for your food to come.
Jungkook explains why he was late, which you assure him he is forgiven for, and he tells you that he'll still spend however long it takes to make it up to you.
After dinner you split the bill because it still definitely isn't a date, much to Jungkook's dismay.
You spend the rest of the night walking along the boardwalk, seeming to never run out of things to talk about.
You steal a photo of Jungkook being scammed into playing a carnival game. You also capture the moment he turns around, grinning at you after he managed to knock down all of the pins.
He snaps a photo of you holding the massive teddy bear that almost takes up half of the frame.
He tells you to keep it as an early birthday present because this definitely isn't a date, even though he says it as he winks at you.
When the end of the night draws near, Jungkook asks if you want to go on the ferris where which you immediately say yes to.
He leaves the teddy bear by the operator and you're too eager to get on that you miss the $10 he slips to the guy to make the wheel stop when you're at the top.
Jungkook gets in beside you, resting his arm along the back of your seat because it's 'more comfortable'.
The wheel starts moving, and your eyes dart every which way trying to capture all the sights as you rise higher and higher.
You point out buildings in the distance and Jungkook smiles
When you reach the top you almost burst out laughing when the ride comes to a stop.
Turning to Jungkook, you roll your eyes at his cheesy smile. You're aware your smile is just as big.
"Of course you did," you tease, even as you find yourself moving just a margin closer.
"What can I say? I'm a romantic," he says playfully.
You can't lie and say you had expected any of this to happen tonight. Some parts were cliche, sure, but some parts were also just so genuine, so Jungkook.
People can see what they want to see and say what they want to say about him, but in this moment all you see is Jungkook.
Jungkook who won you a giant teddy bear even after being scammed $15 for it. Jungkook who paid for your icecream even though this isn't a date. Jungkook who paid the operator of the ferris wheel to stop when you were at the top.
Maybe it's the kind of cliche where the smart girl does fall for the bad boy. He'll drive you home, walk you to your front step and kiss you goodnight.
Maybe it's the kind of cliche where you want him to.
"This still isn't a date."
The words are said as a joke but Jungkook doesn't have time to laugh before you're pressing your lips to his.
His hand immediately cups your cheek, holding you close as he reciprocates.
And boy does he reciprocate.
His lips are soft against yours and when you sigh softly Jungkook slides his tongue into your mouth.
It's the kind of kiss that takes your breath away and leaves you both panting afterwards. Jungkook smiles at you, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand from when the kiss had turned heated and sloppy.
"Definitely not a date."
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