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kyupidos · 8 months

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Hi there! I was wondering if you could write a birthday drabble for how the one and only Yuu spends their birthday.

Boyfriend Rook and the Pomefiore crew get all dolled up and see theatre performances (Hell maybe they go to one of Vil's). Afterwards Rook and reader have lunch at a fancy restaurant and enthuse about the performance.

Meanwhile everyone else is trying to get a party ready for NRC's favorite (and only) prefect. Riddle has sorted everyone into teams according to what they need to accomplish. Baking crew, Decorations crew etc. Best Friend Idia's tinkering away at their computer forl a surprise.

(Anyways this is pretty self indulgent... It would be really nice if you could release this on September 28th)

09/28/23’s delivery 🏹✉️ twisted wonderland

one and onlyヽ( ･∀･)ﾉ_θ彡☆Σ(ノ `Д´)ノ,ヽ( ･∀･)ﾉ_θ彡☆Σ(ノ `Д´)ノ ;; summary. ‘your lovely friends and your even lovelier lover work to orchestrate the best birthday for you. ’

2.1k~ words ( went a little overboard.. )

characters. all dorms, specifically pomefiore : rook hunt ;; romantic , others ;; platonic . 🖇️ tags. reader is gender neutral ( you/your ), reader is yuu, many characters show up but only rook is romantic ( and only few are mentioned by name ), may or may not have used google translate for rook’s french, romantic fluff

📡 _a/n. oho, hii!! thank goodness i checked my inbox, or else i may not have seen this 😓 thankfully, it’s the 23rd as i start to write this!! i hope this is a well enough birthday gift for you! i’ve been doing quite a few birthday fics recently, but it’s pretty fun, i must say. anyway..HAPPY BIRTHDAYY!!

. there in front of you stood your darling rook, awaiting you alongside epel and vil, who you knew for a fact he coerced into dressing the way they were at the moment ( well, vil wouldn’t be matching for long considering his upcoming stage performance that you’d be watching, but nonetheless ); he had a certain style of his, one that you could never mistake for another. he took you arm in arm, gently bringing you down the steps of ramshackle. “ah, mon lapin chéri ! you look magnificent, but it’s unexpected after all, the day is your’s!”

epel and vil waved to you as you made your ways to the gate, both of whom smiling and greeting you kindly. “happy birthday, prefect! you’re lookin’ stylish today!” vil nodded in agreement to epel’s welcoming, “indeed, as rook said, you look splendid.” just then, rook giggled merrily like a fool in love, taking your arm gently to twirl you a bit. “ah, correct you both are! mon lapin continues to be beautiful!”

you smile warmly as rook takes you arm in arm again, and now you’re continuing your walk to the magic mirror to watch vil’s soon to be theatre performance. “thank you three, seriously! this is honestly a great birthday already.” rook let out a huff of amusement, eyeing you gleefully in a sense you couldn’t exactly place. “ah, yet the day has only just begun.” you didn’t notice it just yet, but as epel ‘stumbled’ behind to fix up his outfit, those words seemed to be the phrase that allowed the boyish teen to call up a certain ace of hearts to get things started.

“heyheyy, ace..have your housewarden get that party started!”

in all honesty, you did struggle to understand twisted wonderland’s media culture and such, but even despite such an issue, you had no troubles digesting the story behind the performance vil put on. a tale of star crossed lovers, a sort of right place wrong time style of story. you might have struggled to get a reference here or there, but with rook sitting right beside you, he fared well at giving whispered commentary whenever you needed it.

truly, it was a wonderful way to celebrate your special day. clearly, there was a reason this specific theatre was rated so highly by audience and critics alike. you’d surely have to thank rook for managing to get you in, otherwise you’d probably be doing something much less entertaining. suddenly, epel tapped on your shoulder and whispered to you, “i think this part was taken inspiration from the fairest queen!”

you leaned in curiously, “is that so?” rook noticed the quiet chatter and was quick to join in to help you better grasp things, “see, as the one who’s slowly turning ill tries to find ways to look healthy once more, it mirrors a piece of history where the fairest queen concocts a potion similar—but instead, to turn into an old woman.” “ah, i think i’ve heard you mention this before.” “indeed, it is a valuable part of history!”

the rest of the performance, meanwhile, went without much commentary. its end wasn’t full of metaphors or hidden meaning, just a valuable moral with wonderfully done visuals for an onstage show, and of course as the end, the actors all gathered together to bow in front of the audience, you, rook, and epel of course clapping significantly loud for vil. there was also a special announcement regarding a certain someone’s, cough cough, your, cough cough, birthday. having the attention on you was a bit nerve wracking, but at the same time it also felt a bit nice; so it evened out in the end.

finally, you and rook waved goodbye to the other two pomefiore students, as the fully blonde was taking you along for a nice birthday restaurant dinner between the two of you. he made sure it was a place that served exclusively your favorites, and you couldn’t be happier. “just wait until you see their menus, chéri ! i’m without a doubt, you will love it all~” you simpered at that, “i’m sure that i will.”

in the end, all your conversation as you ate your first meals respectively drove back to the performance from just before. “i simply must ask, mon amour, what did you think of the story? was it to your tastes?” of course you nodded in confirmation, “nothing less of amazing, as expected of vil,” rook nodded in the background; no doubt he was impressed by his housewarden’s work as well. “though it was a shame, really.” “oh?” your boyfriend questioned curiously, looking at you to see your face and reactions, digging into his lunch in the meantime. “which bit?”

you thought for a moment, “the sick one of the two, y’know. it was such a shame that his drive for looking beautiful just because he believed it would bring him and his would’ve been lover closer led to that fate.” you then took a chunk out of your meal again, “it’s an unfortunate romance, no?” rook hummed for a moment, a bittersweet smile on his face before he took you by the hand and kissed the back of your palm ever so romantically, “well, if it makes you feel any better, mon amour..”

and then as he slowly lifted his head up for you to see his face to prove to you his words were genuine, he continued on, “i will never leave you even in sickness, as the two lovers once faced, and i wouldn’t dare to do so even in worser conditions. i chose you for a reason after all, mon cher~” his hand still having taken yours, gently so to the point you’d barely notice his touch if it wasn’t right in front of you for you to witness, you couldn’t help but fluster, even if for just a moment.

“oh? those words sound similar to wedding vows. maybe you’re planning to gift me another birthday gift, rook?” rook looked at you even more lovingly than you believed he ever could, with a teasing smile and joking tone, “ah, you’ve caught me, mon lapin! le chasseur est devenu le chassé!”

“hey, don’t joke like that now!”

“come on everyone, let’s hurry this up, for the prefect and rook’s sake!”

a groan of disbelief left the throat of an aforementioned ace of hearts, “we get it, house warden! cut us a bit of slack..” while you and rook spent your time at the restaurant, epel and vil hurried back to ramshackle dorm to give an update on where you were. as of current they were finishing up the last touches, but of course riddle couldn’t help but be strict, even so.

of course, he made quick work to organize everyone into groups; trying to be efficient as possible, having been asked personally to do so by rook himself— only the best for you! so in the end, heartslabyul and scarabia, both being dorms with plenty experience partying, shared the tasks of food and invitations, savanaclaw and pomefiore were on decorations ( in charge labor and the type of decor respectively ), diasomnia was busied with cleaning and making sure everything was where it ought to be, and octavinelle and ignihyde were working on the more work related projects of birthday party planning, like food distribution and matters similar.

floyd sighed boringly as riddle scolded ace in the background, “man, i wonder how rook is doing keeping shrimpy at bay. bet they’re having real fun, huh?” jade smiled at his brother’s antics as he continued to aid azul with counting the platters of food served on the dinner table, the octomer sighing meanwhile. “if you intend to goof off, at least spend it helping out the others. ah, perhaps you could help jamil and trey with the food?”

trey, of course passing by to plate his freshly concocted creations, smiled just a tad too nervously at the idea. “there’s no need to worry azul, we’ve made plenty enough, really.” jamil, who came by just to help in plating things nodded to trey’s words, “the kitchen is doing just fine, don’t worry about us.”

while everyone else engaged in lighthearted banter on the first floor, idia was quick as work in your room, tinkering away at your computer; nothing much, but he did hope it would be a suitable gift for you. what was he planning? why, something diabolical of course, something only a master evil mastermind could dare concoct; he planned to give you access to servers and streams that, though you’d usually have to pay some sort of premium to even get a good use out of, would be perfect for everything you’ve been meaning to get into! animes, games, audiobooks, comics and all the like—it would be available to you now! his constant use of illegal manga websites has finally come in clutch!

ortho stood— or rather, hovered— just behind him, watching him excitedly as the older shroud finished up work. “ooh, this is so exciting! i’m 100% positive the prefect will find this a gift treasurable for life!” idia ‘kehehhe’ laughed away, taking a break from the computer to crack his knuckles. “hehe, ‘m glad rook is managing to distract the prefect for this long, would’ve taken me ages to get this gift going behind their back otherwise.”

just then, a booming voice appeared right at the room’s door entrance— “idia!!” sebek spoke aloud, “what’re you doing here?! will the party be taking place here too? i’ll sweep up here as well then, in respects to the friend of me and my young master!” in the distance, idia could swear he heard “sebek, i thought i told you that overcleaning wasn’t necessary.”

originally idia was planning to respond with a sarcastic quip and then lay about ( he was done anyway ), but then a much more intimidating voice entered the room without warning. “idia, ortho, sebek, here you three are!” “holy crap, lilia?! jumpscare warning, please!” lilia smiled teasingly as he let himself down to the floor, having previously jumpscared the three when he hung upside down from the ceiling, sebek looking to idia in offense for the bat fae. “warning?! how dare you expect such a thing from him, you should learn to respect his presence like with the young master!”

“come on boys, stop fighting,” lilia merely smiled gleefully at the two’s arguing, “it’s time to hurry downstairs, the prefect’s almost home!”

those words were more than enough to cease the banter, everyone’s in the room’s eyes widening slightly at the news, other than lilia, of course. and with that, they all hurried down to the main floor now that all was said and done.

similarly to when you left ramshackle to see vil’s performance, on the way to ramshackle rook had took you by the hand to twirl you. though this time, he put more effort into having you two walk and dance than he did before. “isn’t this fun, mon lapin? things like this take up quite the sum of energy, but it’s still exhilarating~” you shook your head playfully at his tone, “this isn’t much exhilarating as it is calming, rook. we’re dancing slowly, after all.” “is that so? well, i don’t mind however you choose to see it, so long as you enjoy it <3”

slowly but surely the dancing ceased and you slowly approached the stairs, rook taking his hands to cover your eyes as you did so. you were a bit confused, but as you have so far, you figure you might as well go with the flow. “don’t look now, mon amour,” rook speaks quietly but teasingly all the same, “a surprise awaits you, i’m sure you don’t want that ruined~?” you playfully replied, “oh, of course not. i’ll keep my eyes closed.”

the atmosphere inside ramshackle was quiet and still, but if you were to focus your hearing as much as possible, you could probably hear the little shuffling every now and then, and ever so light giggling that was followed by a just as light shushing sound. as you further entered, you noticed rook’s hand slowly move from your face, presumably to turn on the light as it seemed to be dark, and once the shuffling got just a wee bit louder and he moved his other hand away as well, you took that as a sign you could open your eyes at this point.

immediately to greet your sights was a beautifully decorated version of your dorm, specifically tailored by, no doubt pomefiore, to suit your personal tastes. but more importantly, the people that greeted you hurrying away from their hiding spots to celebrate you. they all spoke aloud a their own slight variation of the phrase, but you knew full well what they were getting across as the noise hit your senses all at once.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!”

suddenly, you felt the gloved hands of rook gently hold onto your shoulders, and when you turned your head to face him, he looked at you with a smile of pure genuinity, and he spoke with honeyed words,

“happy birthday, for my one and only lapin.”

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borathae · 2 years

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“When you & Jungkook try choking again after years of avoiding the kink.”

Genre: married life!AU, Smut

Warnings: domish!Jungkook, subbish!Reader, idk it’s just that he mostly takes the lead but it’s not really domming yk, sex on a sofa, making out, thigh riding, dry humping, some nipple attention for both, Koo has the most sensitive pierced nips ever, oral (f.receiving), multiple orgasms (f.receiving), squirting, missionary, the need to be as close as possible, dirty talk, so many whispered ilys, really careful choking, he is legit so gentle with her, lots of giggles & laughter, some happy tears too, so many hugs, hand holding, they are so close and happy with each other, just the type of sex that makes you feel so good

Wordcount: 8.1k

a/n: This was inspired by this anon. It’s honestly one of the softest & sweetest things I have ever written. Holy moly, to be so in love and in return to be so loved :( I wanna sob they will always be my comfort couple 😔 this is also my birthday present for Koo 🧡

"Jungkook, I have to talk to you", you say in the middle of your dinner.

Jungkook lets the pasta drop from his fork, staring at you with big eyes.

"What did I do?" he asks, "is this about the laundry? I promise, I'm gonna do it later."

"What?"

"You just called me by my full name and said the bad words. Am I in trouble?"

You snort, "you're an idiot. You're not in trouble, I just have to talk to you about something."

"Okay?" Jungkook sounds wary, cocking his right eyebrow up.

"No just-" you click your tongue, "listen."

"I am listening."

"I was thinking for a while about trying something during sex."

"Okay, now this. This is getting interesting", he says, smirking playfully, "whatcha wanna try baby? Something kinky?" he asks, wiggling his brows.

"Yeah."

"Oooh", he coos, "wanna try it on me or on you?"

"On me."

"Interesting. Fun. Exciting. Continue”, he encourages you with a smooth flick of his wrist.

"I was thinking that maybe you could choke me again."

Jungkook parts his lips in bafflement.

"Perhaps. I don’t know, maybe. At least we could try again”, you babble, scratching the side of your neck nervously.

"You want me to choke you?" Jungkook’s voice changed drastically, having gone from playfully flirty to honestly concerned.

"Yeah, maybe."

"But that's on your no-no list. Sweetheart, are you sure?"

"I would say that I'm around ninety percent sure. I just thought that maybe I could like it again? It’s been so many years since the thing with the bad guys happened and maybe I'm over it by now?"

"And you want to test that theory?"

"Yes."

"What if I end up triggering you?"

"Then we know it's not my taste and we'll never do it again."

Jungkook studies your face with obvious hesitation in his eyes.

So you reach out, caressing his wrist softly.

“We can do it really slowly”, you suggest, “make it a good evening, really romantic and nice and then maybe we’ll just so happen to end up having sex and maybe your hand just kinda ends up on my throat. You know?”

Jungkook lowers his eyes at you, “you’re sweet talking me right now, aren’t you?”

“Yeah, obviously.”

He takes a deep breath and releases it as a defeated sigh.

“Fine, but I will try to make it the best evening ever so be warned.”

“Mhm can’t wait”, you say with a grin, returning to eating your pasta afterwards.

It has been exactly one day ever since your conversation with Jungkook and tonight is finally the night. The main lights are off and only the mood lamps scattered around the living room are on. Outside a calm summer rain waters the earth and inside the television is running, but you have long stopped watching.

Jungkook has his hand down the back of your panties, squeezing your ass in the rhythm of your dancing hips.

The shirt you are wearing is one of his', tickling your lower back with each movement.

His other hand is hidden right underneath said shirt, currently feeling up your lower back. He will hug your waist just seconds from now.

Your own hands are in his hair, playing with it as your lips dance with his'.

This is exactly how you wanted the evening to go.

First a walk by the beach and lots of conversation, then a light snack served with a romantic movie and lots of snuggles. Said snuggles then escalated into the occasional kisses until it turned into a full on make out session.

Everything went according to plan. Perfect.

Jungkook hugs your waist, doing so by pressing your stomach closer to his own and squeezing the soft flesh of your butt at the same time. He moans into your mouth, swirling his tongue against yours.

He isn’t wearing any pants. He wore baggy hanbok pants once, but took them off ages ago during your snuggles. Now only tight Calvin Kleins are keeping him modest, doing little to actually hide the hard excitement between his legs.

You wore pants once too. Baggy hanbok pants just like your husband, but you lost them during your snuggles like he did. And just like Jungkook, only a pair of Calvin Kleins cover you. Not that they stop any of your wet excitement from covering his thigh.

But that’s the beauty of it, so Jungkook would say. He can squeeze your butt and tongue kiss you all whilst feeling your pussy get wetter and wetter on his thigh. The sensation of the fabric of those black panties turning from dry and soft to completely soaked and wet, just adds to the overall feeling.

You have to break the kiss, because Jungkook made you gasp for air. He watches with half-lidded eyes as your swollen lips open and close, repeating what he did to you before. He squeezes the plump flesh of your ass between his strong, tattooed fingers and uses the leverage to roll your hips over his thigh.

Once again your pretty lips open and close in a gasp, one Jungkook feels swirl against his skin.

"Good?" he asks in a soft yet terribly raspy voice.

"Good", you whisper, giving a bundle of his soft locks a gentle twist.

He lets you pull him closer, but tilts his head in a way that would hinder your lips from touching.

"Your panties are so soaked already", he rasps.

"You feel so good. I can’t help it", you answer him, chasing his kiss with soft whimpers.

"You're so sexy, fuck baby", he moans, allowing your lips to touch. Your tongues dart out instantly, tangling with each other in a needy kiss. You want him so much and in return he wants you just as bad.

Your hands begin to wander, abandoning his hair for the sake of feeling up his torso. First his neck and shoulders, then down to his pecs.

Jungkook moans loudly when your fingers brush against his nipples. His lips falter in keeping up the rhythm.

"So good, don’t stop", he begs you, arching his back just so you can touch him even better. And as he arches his back, his hand on your ass presses you snug against him. Hard cock against pussy, driving you both insane in excitement.

His lips falter even more.

"Kiss me", you stress, twisting his nipple piercings.

"___ baby, holy fuck", he groans and laughs, tilting his head back with his eyelids fluttering.

It turns you on to watch him act like this. He may not be kissing you right now, but watching him get so turned on from nipple play totally makes up for it. You grind your pussy against his hard cock, right against his sensitive tip, and pinch his nipples again, waiting for his reaction.

"Ah. Yes, god", he moans, squeezing your butt and letting his lips part.

"That's so hot", you whisper and chase him again, biting down on his lower lip in sync with a harsh twist of his nipple piercings.

Jungkook growls deeply, picking you up only to lie you down on the couch in a position that would allow him to rest right between your legs. He angles his hips in a way so that his clothed cock grinds right against your pussy.

"Ah", you squeak in surprise, "o-oh."

"You drive me crazy, fuck baby", he growls, staring at you with blown-out pupils as his hips rut into you.

"Koo, holy shit", you gasp out, grasping his shoulders for support. The pressure is maddening, your pussy is seriously so sensitive.

"I know, feels good. Fuck baby, I love grinding on you", Jungkook whispers as he runs his left hand down your body. He reaches your thigh, giving it a strong squeeze in time with his precise grind.

"Kook…" you sigh, rolling your head to the side.

"I know, sweetie, I know", he soothes you and leans down to kiss your neck.

You shiver. All of what he does just feels so good. His hard cock against you, his strong grip on your thigh and how it so perfectly keeps you close, his weight on top of you and his neck kisses, so tender and soft. All of it feels so good.

Jungkook trails his kisses up to your ear. He licks along the shell of it slowly, moaning just for you. It leaves you feeling electric.

"Can’t get enough of you, sweetie", he whispers, moaning softly once again, "you've got me fucking crazy for you."

"You too, oh god Kook, you've got me", you answer him, reaching down to cup his buttocks.

So round and muscular. You squeeze him tightly and press his hips closer.

"Shit yes", Jungkook rasps quietly, "my cock’s so sensitive, baby. I’m going insane, that’s so good."

"You're so close like this."

"Mhm'know", he mumbles, dragging his nose over your cheek and back to your ear, "not close enough, wanna be closer."

"What are you imagining?" you ask him for the sole purpose of hearing him describe it to you. He is so good at that.

"You, me, naked as I fill you up with my cock."

You press him closer, grinding your hips up. Just imagining it is making you dizzy.

"Fuck baby I’m serious, my cock’s so sensitive", he lets out a shaky laugh, "god, I wanna rip those stupid panties off of you. Just let me get to that pussy."

"Please get me naked, baby", you beg.

"You're the best, fuck, thank you. Sit up for me, sweetie."

You follow and let Jungkook take off your shirt. He throws it on the ground and seconds later his own shirt joins the little pile of forgotten clothes.

"You're so goddamn sexy, holy fuck", he presses out.

"You think so?" you taunt, presenting your naked tits in a sexy pose.

"I'm seriously the luckiest man alive. I married a literal goddess", he says, making you giggle giddily.

You love his compliments so much. They are always honest and said with so much adoration.

Jungkook touches your sides, running his hands up to your tits afterwards. With a sigh, you let yourself fall back on your hands, awaiting his touch with arches of your back.

"So sexy, you’re so pretty like this", he praises, running his palms along the swell of your breasts. He swerves, abandoning your nipples for the sake of feeling up your tummy.

"Back please", you plead, locking eyes with him.

He looks cocky, which means he is planning to tease.

"Fuck Kook, don’t give me that look", you groan, tilting your head back.

"What look?" he asks innocently, touching along your sides with nothing but his fingertips.

"The look you get when you wanna be a little shit."

He laughs, "I'm never a little shit, you’re being mean", he says and contrary to his words he has the audacity to give your nipples the softest touch only to pull back when you chase him.

"Right now you are", you say and groan, "Kook please touch me more."

"Like this?" he taunts, flicking his thumbs over your swollen nipples.

"Yeah… ah…"

"You're so sexy, your nipples are so hard already", he rasps, taking them between his fingers just to roll them slowly.

"You touch me so good", you sigh, letting your lips fall open afterwards as a soft moan rolls over your tongue.

Jungkook feels his cock twitch at the view. He loves knowing that he made you just as obsessed with nipple play as he is. Now bear in mind, the real champion of sensitive nipples will always be Jungkook. That man can genuinely orgasm just through nipple play, but you've gotten more sensitive too over the years with him. It turns him on like crazy to know that he is responsible for that, that he touched you just right to get you there and that you love his touch so much that you are so sensitive these days.

"Love how you look", he whispers, "my beautiful", he adds with his sparkly eyes flitting between your face and your tits. He leans down to lick shapes of hearts and swirls along your ribs and upper tummy. He kisses the parts he licked, making you squirm in bliss.

His fingers slip from your nipples, but you don’t mind because he touches down your sides with such tenderness that you have to shiver.

"Don't stop", you breathe, watching with a racing heart as Jungkook shimmies into a lying position on the sofa.

He grabs you by the back of your waist, pulling your stomach into his kiss. It tickles and tingles, feels oh so hot and electric. Jungkook knows your body way too well. You have so many sensitive spots on your stomach and he knows where every single one of them lies, visiting each of them with kisses and licks until your skin feels on fire. You are so goddamn wet by now, it almost hurts to be so wet and not have him lick it up.

He places the last of his kisses on your most sensitive spot. It is right next to where your hip bone lies and the skin of your lower tummy disappears under your panties hem.

You flinch into him, parting your legs embarrassingly far.

"I can smell you baby", Jungkook rasps against your skin, "you smell so fucking wet", he teases, twisting your stomach in both arousal and embarrassment from getting called out like that.

You squirm again, rolling your hips up.

"Taste it", you try.

Jungkook lets his eyes flit up, meeting your droopy gaze with confidence.

"Say it", he whispers darkly.

You give him puppy eyes.

"No baby. With words."

"Please", you whisper, "taste it please."

"That's better", he praises, "lift your hips for me, sweetie."

You do so instantly, gasping when Jungkook begins tugging your panties down with his teeth. He struggles a little with your butt, ending up using his fingers with a chuckle rumbling in his chest.

You giggle, helping him as best as possible. This is so hot but also endearing.

Finally the panties slip off your second foot. Jungkook takes them out of his mouth and throws them on the floor.

He grins but soon pouts, "ouch, ah what the hell?", he says with widened eyes, touching his own teeth, "that kinda hurt my teeth."

"Oh dear", you crack up, "are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm good", he says, licking over his teeth once. He huffs out air and begins laughing, "well that was a fail. I wanted to be sexy."

"You were", you giggle, "you're so cute."

"Cute?"

"Yeah and hot."

Jungkook smiles, closing the distance between you and him to kiss you with laughs and giggles leaving him. He just has to. You look so beautiful when you laugh.

You hook your arms behind his head, kissing him back just as giggly and smiley.

Like this your chests are so close and hugging feels so nice. Truly, there is nothing better than interrupting your sexy little moments with giggles and laughter. This is exactly the type of sex which makes your entire body feel so good. Heart, mind and soul included. Laughing with Jungkook is the best.

"Oh baby", Jungkook breaks the kiss, snickering, "you're the cutest."

"No you are", you answer him, beaming up at him with sparkling eyes.

Jungkook gives you his prettiest bunny smile, running his palms over your cheeks.

"My pretty princess", he whispers, smile growing, "how can you be so beautiful?"

You fluster, feeling your cheeks heat up and your heart flutter. Jungkook squeezes your cheeks softly, kissing your forehead.

"God baby", he says, trailing his kisses all over your forehead and temples, "you have to stop looking like that."

"Like what?"

"Just like the most beautiful. I have a weak heart", he says and giggles, leaning in to kiss your nose, "you'll give me serious heart palpitations if you keep being the prettiest."

"Kookie stop, you’re so cheesy."

"No I'm not, I’m being honest", he says, hiding his face in the crook of your neck just so he can litter it in kisses.

You sigh, rolling your head to the side instantly.

"My wifey", he whispers, kissing his way down your collarbones "I'm so lucky to be yours."

He guides his kisses to your left breast, cupping it in his hand just so he can wrap his lips around your nipple. He sucks softly, moaning as he does.

His mouth is warm and wet, sucking you so good that goosebumps cover your skin.

With a soft slurp, he releases your nipple to worship your other one.

"Feels so nice", you let him know, combing your fingers through his hair lovingly.

"Could do this for hours", he whispers and takes your swollen nipple inside his hungry mouth.

Not that he will do this for hours, not tonight. Not when you are naked and aching for his mouth. And not when he wants to taste you like nothing else. So much in fact, that he physically has to force his lips to go slow. If he allowed his instincts to control his body, he would already be smothered by your pussy, but he doesn’t. He forces himself to go slow, to kiss all over your stomach and to really take time to feel you shiver under his fingertips.

You grow more restless when he begins kissing your sensitive spots on your lower stomach. You want him between your legs so fucking bad.

"Please", you try quietly, placing your hand on his head and parting your legs further.

Jungkook has his hands on your lower back, sneaking a glance up at you.

"You're so beautiful", he whispers, kissing your inner thigh.

Your lips part in a gasp.

"My pretty wifey", he sighs as he kisses down your thigh, closer and closer to his favourite spot. Breathing becomes oh so hard the closer he gets.

Just one turn of his head and Jungkook's lips hover right above your pussy. You can feel his hot breath swirl against you, riling you up to the point that it aches.

"Fuck you're so warm, I can feel it against my lips", he rasps.

You roll your hips up, but Jungkook moves right with you, keeping up the distance.

"Jungkook please", you stress, twisting his hair.

"Don't stress me baby", he taunts, carrying cockiness in his voice, "remember when you said that last night? Hm?"

"That was ages ago and you were being impatient."

"Oh? And you aren’t?" he throws back, chuckling lazily.

"No, I’m in pain", you whine, cracking him up even more.

"Poor baby, she's in pain", he lets his eyes flit up, "I was in pain too last night."

"Oh my god Koo", you groan, tugging at his hair harshly, "you came down my throat twice. I can’t believe you're bringing this up now when I was so good to you."

Jungkook laughs his signature little shit laugh.

"You're so cute", he says, closing his arms around your waist tightly and forcing your pussy on top of his tongue in the process.

"Yes! Ah god! Yes", you moan loudly, throwing your head back.

Jungkook snorts and breaks away just to laugh again, gazing up at you with love drunk eyes.

"What?" you whine.

"You're so loud", he snickers, "I haven’t even started."

"Shut up", you pout, "you're so mean."

"Don't get me wrong, I love it. Keep going", he says, burying his face back in your pussy with a playful growl.

He sucks on your clit all while holding your waist oh so tightly, applying even more pressure on your sensitive pussy that way.

You wanted to be quiet for the sake of being sulky, but forget about it instantly. You throw your head back and moan loudly, reaching down with your other hand to twist even more of his hair.

Jungkook answers you with another muffled growl, releasing your clit just to lick her with his wet, eager tongue. His fingers are dimpling your sides, his arms are tensing as he holds you oh so close. He is so goddamn into this.

He may have teased you about your volume, but that was just because he loves teasing you in general. In reality, he loves nothing more than getting you so good that you can’t help but be loud. Oh, when that happens Jungkook wants to eat your pussy like it’s his last fucking meal.

He moans hungrily, nuzzling his nose into you in sync with his eager lips sucking on your clit.

You flinch into him, feeling your arms shake in exhaustion. It’s getting really freaking difficult to keep yourself up when Jungkook is going crazy between your legs.

"You demon", you croak out, "fuck."

The curse word rolls over your tongue aggressively, forcing a series of reactions to run through your body. First you arch your back, then you roll your hips up and then Jungkook has the audacity to release your clit when she is pulsating in sensitivity only to flick his tongue over her quickly.

His name feels like religion as it rolls over your tongue. You fall to your elbows, letting your left leg drop against the backrest of the sofa while your right leg just kind of plops against the sofa cushions.

Jungkook growls your name, using the new position to pull you closer. His strong arms force your lower back to arch off the cushions just so he can tighten the hold on you.

Now he has you pinned against him, using his entire mouth to devour you.

"You're seriously crazy. What the actual fuck?" you press out between gasps. Your entire body wants to writhe and squirm.

Jungkook agrees with a moan and his tongue forcing its rightful way into your pussy. He feels your ring of muscle convulse around him in sync with your fluttering breaths. He looks up, realising that he can’t see much more than your throat and chin now that you have your head thrown back as far as possible. He can also look at your tits and he thinks that they look goddamn stunning. Fuck, if he wasn’t so lost in your sweet taste, he would suck on them until the skin is tender and you know that he loves you like crazy.

He slips his tongue free, slurping terribly lewdly. There is just so much sweetness for him between your legs and he can only be nasty to get all of it.

You seem to appreciate his bad table manners, writhing in his hold as sweet giggles break up your constant moans.

Jungkook chuckles right with you, feeling a trillion butterflies flutter in his stomach. He seriously feels like flying. Jungkook loves making you laugh. It makes him so happy because he knows that you are happy too and there is nothing better in this world. But when he can make you moan and laugh at the same time? Ohoho Jungkook feels on literal drugs when that happens. Pair it with the fact that you get even wetter because of it and Jungkook swears he could lift the entire world.

So he does. He lifts your hips, smothering his face with your pussy.

"Oh fuck, Kook", you moan, falling to your back as your arms officially give up on you.

"Shoulders", his voice is muffled and vibrates against your pussy, but you know what to do.

You swing your legs over his shoulders, forcing him to moan desperately.

He lifts your hips higher, taking your clit between his swollen lips. He sucks on her, whimpering oh so needily as his hips are fucking into the sofa quickly.

"Baby…holy fuck", you croak, squeezing your thighs around his head in a panicky attempt to survive his hungry mouth.

Jungkook growls and begins changing between harsh sucks, sloppy licks and nasty slurping. It starts off as clear moments where each movement can shine, but soon turns into one maddening mess of one.

You arch your back, helping him with lifting your hips even higher. You have to hook your legs behind his head or else you would have slipped. Jungkook's hearing stops working now that you are stealing it with your thighs right against his ears. Now all he can hear is the very faint sounds of you drowning in pleasure and his own sounds. Fuck, he thinks, that’s how nasty I sound? He is so loud and wet in his sounds that he should be embarrassed, but he can’t, not when you are dripping on the sofa and taste so goddamn good.

"Jungkookpleasefuck", your words reach him in one muffled jumble. He solely knows to lift his gaze because your thighs begin to tremble around his head.

He feels his cock throb at the view. You have your face hidden behind both your hands as you rub it almost desperately helplessly. He knows what that means. You are so close that you can’t think straight anymore.

Now Jungkook has to decide whether he wants to be a sadist and deny you right when you think it is safe to fall, a complete demon and let you cum only to pull back and let you squirm in a ruined high or be a sweetheart and let you cum on his tongue.

All three options sound like paradise to him. He knows that you will hate him for option one but will thank him later when he finally gives it to you, he knows that option two will make you cry and that you will tremble so cutely and that option three will give you the most intense satisfaction ever and make him feel like heaven.

Jungkook furrows his brows and pulls you closer. He decided. He is going to make you cum.

What he hadn’t expected however, was just how good he will make you cum. It starts off with aggressive shakes and uncontrollable convulsing before one flick of his tongue releases a wave of sweetness all over his face.

"Oh god, sorry can’t stop fuck, fuck, fuck", you apologize as you shower him in your wet orgasm.

Jungkook swears he could cry. He may have been surprised at first, but that is truly everything he wanted. To make you feel so good that you are squirting on his face.

He feasts on it religiously until even the last of your sweetness is coating his throat and you begin writhing in discomfort.

He drops your hips, letting your legs slip from his shoulders.

"Holy fu-uck", you press out, panting heavily.

Jungkook lifts his head, feeling your high drip from his chin. You look fucked. So fucked in fact, that you haven’t even noticed yet that he lifted his head. You flinch in your aftershocks, shivering unbearably.

"Baby, holy fuck", Jungkook presses out, holding your waist in his tattooed hands, "you're shivering like crazy. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, you just-", you swallow heavily, "holy fuck my soul left my body", you say, shivering aggressively.

"Same honestly", Jungkook says, laying himself on top of you.

"Oh?" you tense your thigh, "since when's your cock out?"

"Don't know, I think it happened when I fucked the sofa", he says and laughs breathily, "my briefs are barely even on."

He isn’t lying. He managed to fuck them off himself to the point where they sit right under the base of his cock, pressing against his veins painfully.

"Fuck baby", he says, "it hurts so much, I just wanna be free."

"Then undress, I want you naked. Hear me?"

"Yeah, hear you", he answers hastily and works quickly to take off his briefs. He throws them far away, hitting one of your indoor palm trees with them.

You both look at it, watching it bounce of the leaves before landing in the dirt.

"Seriously? I watered it this morning. Now it’s gonna be dirty", he whines.

"It's what you get from throwing it like a madman", you giggle.

Jungkook looks at you with a grin.

"You gotta admit it was a good throw", he says.

"I guess it was impressive", you say with your lovedrunk eyes running over his face, "fuck Kook, come down here."

Jungkook obeys, lowering himself to his elbows.

He closes his eyes when you cup his face and run your thumbs over his wet chin.

"Sorry for squirting, I should have warned you."

"Don't", he says, giving you a loving gaze, "it was the hottest shit ever."

"You're literally crazy though, like couldn’t you have made me cum a little less intense?"

Jungkook smirks, shaking his head.

"I told you I'll make this the best evening ever. I'll make you cum ever harder next time", he says, painting a smile on your lips.

"I seriously married the best man", you whisper, running your fingers over his lips, "you know that I love you like crazy, don’t you?"

Jungkook smiles, kissing your fingers before leaning his cheek into your palm.

"I love you too ___", he says, turning his head to first kiss your palm and then your wrist.

He lifts his head and lets out a deep breath through his nose, giving you a boyish smirk.

"I'm so horny though, just saying but I kinda wanna fuck you", he murmurs with a cute pout and big puppy eyes, making you giggle.

"You dork, course you can fuck me. We still have to try out something, remember?"

"So you still wanna try?"

You nod your head, "after that head you just gave me even more. I want you so bad."

"I want you too. Fuck ___, I seriously ache for you", he says, gripping your hip strongly.

He moves his hips against you, grinding his cock right on your pussy. It glides through your folds and forces sparks to course through your clit.

Both your breaths shudder in reaction.

"Feel how hard I am?" he asks.

"Yeah", you sigh, grabbing his butt desperately.

"Shit, baby", he laughs lazily tilting his head back for a short second, "I seriously almost came on the sofa. You can’t even imagine how hard it was to hold back."

His words rile you up so good. You squeeze his ass, parting your legs oh so far.

"Slip inside, I’m serious", you order.

Jungkook nods his head and reaches between your bodies to align himself with you.

"Ready?"

"So ready", you say, pushing at his butt to get him to move.

Jungkook slips in, going oh so slow. He lingers at your entrance at first, fucking his cockhead right past your sensitive ring of muscle repeatedly.

You scratch down his ass and moan. This feeling will never get old. Being filled up by his veiny cock. This is all there is. Oh, if only he wouldn’t go that slowly.

"You tease.." you groan.

"I'm going insane. You’re stretching around me so well. Fuck, fitting right around me. Feel how thick my cockhead is, hm?"

"Yeah, so thick. I'm so stuffed."

"Yeah you are, shit baby I'm plugging your sweet pussy right up."

"Koo", you mewl, closing your eyes. Hearing him talk like this scrambles your brain.

"Don't close your eyes, look at me."

You peel your eyes open, locking eyes with him. He basically fucks you with just his gaze, scrambling your brain even more.

"There we go. Let me watch your eyes go out of focus as I fill you up", he orders and finally lets his cock glide deeper into you.

You can feel it happening, your gaze becomes droopier and droopier the deeper he goes. Jungkook's own gaze is faltering more and more the farther he slips into you.

"There we go baby, there we go. Look at me, you’re the prettiest when you look like that", he praises, having to moan softly.

"You're filling me up so well", you whisper, holding onto the back of his neck.

Jungkook furrows his brows, blinking rapidly. He presses out a curse and laughs in disbelief.

"Fuck, it’s so hard to look at you", he confesses.

"Feels good for you?"

"I'm in paradise baby. Fuck", he moans and chuckles lazily, curling his lips back to give view of how he grinds his teeth right in time with when his hips begin rocking into you.

"You're so hot, Kookie", you whisper, "I love the face you make when you fuck me."

"Yeah, currently trying not to cry", he says and moans breathily, fluttering his lashes.

"So good?"

"The best", he studies your face and cups it aggressively, "oh baby, you’re the best", he croaks, pulling you into a deep tongue kiss.

You pull him oh so close, kissing him back as passionately as possible. It happens naturally that his hips become faster now that you are losing yourselves in this kiss. Oh how far gone you are, how lost you are, how impossible it seems to escape. And yet you aren’t scared, pulling each other closer to stumble even further into the unknown. You have each other after all and like that, being lost doesn’t sound that bad.

You lock your legs behind his thick thighs, rolling your hips into him in the perfect rhythm to complement his movements.

"___", Jungkook says your name as if it was his favourite word, "fuck", he drops his forehead against yours, "that’s incredible. Keep doing that."

"You're so close like this", you whisper, giggling.

"Yeah", he smiles softly, "so close", he sighs, feeding you his entire length in a deep thrust.

You gasp and gasp again when he stays buried just like this, drawing hearts with his hips.

"So deep, feel it? That’s how close I am."

"Oh god Koo, please don’t stop", you whimper, squeezing his head between your hands.

"I won’t, hear me?"

"Hear you, yeah", you sigh, tilting your head to kiss him again.

Jungkook kisses you back gladly, taking your right hand to press it into the cushions right next to your head. He intertwines his fingers with you, squeezing your hand softly.

He puts his back muscles in the movements too, flexing and relaxing them skillfully to really show you all he has to offer. And he has a lot to offer. You married the best man after all and nobody can fuck like he can.

You squeeze his hand and with an arch of your back, you reach down with your unoccupied hand to dig your fingers into the sculpted muscles of his butt.

The kiss breaks because you had to moan his name.

Jungkook has his eyes closed, chasing your closeness by rubbing the tip of his nose against your cheek.

"Love that", he whispers and flexes his ass just for you.

"Me too. You have the best butt."

"No, you", he throws back, using his abs to pull his hips back in order to return to the smooth movements of before. Now he isn’t buried as deep anymore, but instead you feel him everywhere again. Feeling it this quickly after having him so deeply inside you, is heaven.

"Please Koo, don’t stop please."

"I won’t princess", he promises and squeezes your hand, "you've got me. You’ve got all of me."

You squirm, feeling oh so good.

"Choke me please", you beg quietly.

Jungkook peels his eyes open, studying your blissed out features. He slows down his movements, which forces your eyes to open as well.

"Are you sure?" he asks.

"Yeah", you tilt your head back, "please try it. I feel ready."

"I love you, ___", he says because he needs to tell you in case everything goes wrong.

"I love you too, Jungkook", you answer him, grabbing his wrist because he is still faltering. You place his hand on your throat, gasping at the weight of it.

Jungkook squeezes your hand just in sync with you, exhaling shakily as if he was the one being so close to getting choked.

"How are you doing?" he checks in.

"So good", you sigh.

"I'll apply pressure now. Say stop when it gets too much."

You nod your head, caressing his wrist, "I'm ready."

Jungkook squeezes down on your veins as gently as he can, eliciting a soft gasp from you.

"What was that?" he gasps, pulling his hand away quickly.

"God Kookie", you pull him back with a giggle, "you're more nervous than I am. Relax, I'm fine."

"Can you blame me? I don’t wanna trigger you", he says with big eyes.

"You won’t, I trust you unconditionally."

"Really?"

"Blindly even" you whisper, giving him a soft smile.

Jungkook relaxes, eyes softening and fingers resting themselves around your throat again. He squeezes down softly without warning you first because this time around he knew that you were comfortable. And he was right, you feel so good now that he is squeezing down on your veins.

With a shaky breath slipping past your lips, you wrap your fingers around his wrist.

"How's that?" he asks in a soft voice, eyes racing over your features nervously.

"A little stronger please."

He makes the faintest difference, hips faltering now that he puts so much attention into your wellbeing.

"Stronger."

A little more and a shaky moan from you.

"I feel like this is too strong”, he says, wanting to pull back but you stop him with a squeeze around his wrist.

"Don't let go please."

"Are you sure? How are you doing? Are you okay?"

"I'm so okay, oh Jungkook…" you smile, "...I'm not scared anymore."

"You're not scared?" Jungkook asks in a shaky voice.

You let out a relieved laugh, shaking your head.

"It worked Koo, I’m not scared anymore. It, it doesn’t remind me of it anymore."

Jungkook squeezes your hand and whimpers.

"Baby", he presses out.

You kiss him oh so deeply, laughing as you do. Jungkook hugs you, forgetting all about choking you for now. The happiness is just far too big. He needs to hold you, kiss you and bask in this happiness with you.

"I'm so happy for you, holy fuck I'm so happy", he says with his cheeks hurting from smiling so much.

"Me too, I’m so happy. Oh Koo", you choke out.

"I love you, holy fuck I love you so much", he presses out, cradling you closer while his hips begin rocking into you deeply.

"I love you too, I love you like crazy", you answer him in a relieved giggle.

This is one of the happiest moments you and him have ever shared. For years you were scared of choking because of what happened to you in this one alleyway. For years you had days where you felt really guilty because you knew Jungkook would love to choke you during sex and you couldn’t give it to him. And now it’s not scary anymore. You can enjoy it again. You aren’t scared anymore. Jungkook helped you get over the fear.

"Holy fuck darling", Jungkook lifts his head, giving view to his happy tears running down his cheeks, "I love you so much, I’m so happy."

"I love you too", you say and sob softly.

Jungkook cups your cheek, wiping your tears away.

"It's okay, it’s okay", he soothes you, spilling more tears now that he sees just how happy you are.

"Sorry, I’m so relieved Kook. It’s finally gone."

"I know. Oh baby, I’m so relieved too. That’s all I wanted for you. Fuck, I wanna cry."

You place your hands on his shoulders.

"Do it again Koo please."

He nods his head enthusiastically, placing his hand around your throat gently.

"Like this?" he asks, squeezing down just as he did before.

"Yes", you sigh, "please don’t stop. Oh god Kookie, I’m so happy."

"Me too", he croaks, dripping tears on your cheeks. He speeds up his hips in the desperate need to fuck you like you deserve, "holy fuck baby, I’m so happy."

Now he has it again. He has you gripping his wrist as he can feel your heartbeat race under his fingertips. He missed it so much. Now bear in mind, there was not even a second in your relationship where he blamed you for your fear or worse, was disappointed that he couldn’t choke you during sex. Sex with you is holy to him and that meant that choking became just as much of a hard limit for him as it was for you. But holy fuck, he feels like screaming in happiness now that he knows you feel so comfortable and happy with this. He was so scared that tonight would end in you having to use your safeword because he triggered you. And it didn't come true. Jungkook sobs softly, squeezing his eyes shut.

"I love you, I love you, I love you", he chants as he fucks you oh so deep, feeling your throat under his hand, "I love you, I love you", he sobs and laughs, making sweet love to you with all his heart.

You soon retort to moaning out pitched noises and whimpers of his name. You feel high. He cuts off your blood flow just enough that your head feels comfortably dizzy. Oh so loving and tender he turns your brain into mush. Oh so loving and tender, just like everything he does. Your strong man, who treats you with such tenderness and love. Not for a second you doubted your own decision for tonight and him. Not for a second your trust in him faltered, because there is no other person you trust as much as your husband.

"It feels so fucking good", Jungkook presses out shakily.

"So good", you agree, letting your hands slip to his chest. One flick of your fingers over his nipples and Jungkook shudders with his entire body.

"Please don’t stop", he presses out, tilting his head back.

"More Koo" you beg, encouraging him by twisting his heavy piercings.

His fingers work skillfully, tilting your head back first before pressing down on your pulse point. It’s like he never even stopped, knowing exactly what to do.

"Oh", you get out then your mouth falls open in a desperate gasp. It feels so good.

"Holy fuck baby, your pussy's so tight now", he has to growl, furrowing his brows in that sexy manner of his. It makes him look so pissed off and yet so incredibly hot. But you know your husband better, he isn’t angry, he is so goddamn into what you are doing. Pussydrunk and pleasure dumb. That's what this look means.

"Don't stop, you’ll make me cum", you plead, tugging harshly.

He flinches, "fuck", he spits then laughs almost mockingly crazy, "you too, shit my nipples are sensitive."

He peels his eyes open, studying your glowing face. The happiness you exude goes straight to his sensitive cock.

"How's the pressure? Still good?"

You nod your head, "still good. No. Better. So much better."

Jungkook drops his forehead against yours, keeping his eyes locked on your face even if his vision is blurry in closeness.

Like this he can feel just how ragged you are breathing. Your pulse speeds up even more under his fingertips and Jungkook swears in this moment he feels eternal.

"So tight, fuck baby you're so goddamn tight."

"It…feels….so…good", you barely get out, swallowing heavily under his strong hand. You begin to rub your palms over his nipples because anything else requires too much brain which you currently don’t have.

"Yeah that, yes baby yes. Keep doing that", Jungkook says and growls softly, "your touch is driving me insane. Fuck, your heartbeat."

"My heart…beat", you repeat, feeling your body fall into this distinct warmth you remember from all those times he did choke you. Years back in your beginnings when life on the road was your daily routine and you weren’t plagued by the memory of this day. You missed this warmth. Holy fuck, you missed it so much.

"Yeah, it's racing like crazy. You can’t even imagine how much I missed this feeling."

"Me…too…"

"Are you close, baby? Your pussy is throbbing like crazy."

"So close…Koo is so good."

"I'm so good", he chuckles then curses under his breath, "can’t reach down right now and touch your clit, wanna do it for me?"

"Ye", you get out, pressing your fingers against your clit to rub her quickly.

You squeak out loudly, ripping your eyes open.

"Koo-Kookie", you stutter.

"Fuck yes, your pussy's so wet. Keep touching yourself. Want you to cum so good."

"Close", you whisper, twisting his nipple piercing which forces his cock to throb inside of you aggressively.

"Same, fuck. You'll make me cum when you let go", he rasps, furrowing his brows in that sexy manner again, "can you do that? Can you make me cum by cumming oh so good?"

"Yeah", you sigh, tensing painfully, "baby so-"

"Soon. I know" he interrupts you, "I can feel you tensing. Your pussy's insane, she's so tight."

You rub your clit harder, twisting his nipple in a desperate attempt to keep him with you. Not that you need to keep him there. Jungkook is doing everything in his power to hold back while at the same time fucking you like you deserve to be fucked. He is craving your high more than you do. Oh, he needs it so fucking bad.

"Jmgnkoo", you babble an attempt at his name and he knows exactly what to do.

He releases the pressure on your neck, forcing all the blood to shoot back into your brain and with it, he throws you over the edge so intensely that you wail up and kick him in the back of his thigh.

Jungkook fucks into you three times and then your high makes him cum just as hard.

"Holy fuck, ah yes fuck", he presses out, growling deeply as he pumps you full of his creamy cum.

He doesn’t stop fucking you until he has you convulsing under him and your pussy is actually pushing him out.

And even then only his own exhaustion is his downfall, if his body was just that tiny bit stronger he would have fucked you to the point of yet another shared orgasm.

He rolls off of you before he can come crashing down on you with his entire body weight. Thank fuck to you and him for buying such a massive couch, he thinks as he stretches his limbs from his body comfortably.

He places his left hand on your tummy, calming down by feeling your racing heartbeat in your lower stomach.

You reach for him too, calming down by feeling his heartbeat throb in his big vein leading to his still softening cock.

"You're insane for fucking the way you do", you say with a hoarse voice.

"You too, like fuck, you're crazy", Jungkook gets out raspily.

You roll your head to the side, watching Jungkook do the same. He smiles at you, caressing your tummy with his warm hand.

You retort it, touching him softly.

"I can't show it right now 'cause my boy is spent, but you have no idea how happy I am for you", he says, voice trembling in the end.

"I'm so happy too, holy shit baby. I can’t believe that it’s finally gone", you roll to your side, shimmying closer to him.

Jungkook lets you rest your head on his arm, closing it around you afterwards.

"Me too, that’s all I wanted for you for years", he says and sniffles.

"Thank you", you whisper.

"For what, baby?"

"Just for…being so happy for me."

"Darling", he says softly, "don’t thank me for that. I'll always be happy for you, you know that. Don’t you?"

"Yeah I do, I just", you place your hand on his chest right where his heart is racing, "I just wanna remind you from time to time that I appreciate your support and that I don’t take it for granted."

Jungkook smiles, flipping to his side just so he can face you and fix your messy curls of hair in the front.

"You're so cute", he says, "I'm seriously the luckiest man ever. Every day I fall deeper for you."

"Jungkookie darling, you’re so cute", you reach up, fixing his sweaty bangs, "me too. I don’t think I’ll ever stop."

Jungkook gives you his cutest, most brightest bunny smile. It makes your heart flutter because he is so handsome when he smiles.

"We gotta rewatch the movie though, I don’t think I have any idea what it was about", he says.

You sneak a glance at the TV. The home screen is looking back at you, letting you know that the movie stopped godknows how long ago.

"Yeah me neither. But then, that was our plan all along", you say.

"Yeah, you’re right. It was a good plan."

"The best plan", you grin goofily, "kinda pissed that we ruined the couch though."

"Yeah I get that", he snickers, "I'll wash it, don’t worry."

You snuggle into him, relaxing when he kisses your forehead.

"Let's do it together. We'll have to deep clean the house for autumn anyways."

"Sounds like a plan", Jungkook says, cradling you in his arms, "I love you, my darling."

"I love you too, my sweetheart."

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Oh, fuck I forgot another thing... I never put up part 2 of this. So, here it is lol. Finally put it up when the word doc was at exactly 99 pages too. The tarot still isn't done. god...help..me.

It’s probably because when Boku Mikoto went to sleep at the beginning of Milgram Ore Mikoto woke up and just did whatever the hell made that boing noise. On top of that all the things that Ore Mikoto does are things that Boku Mikoto has actively tried to quit doing. Mikoto states this during his first interrogation,

Q.17 Do you smoke?

Mikoto: Only electric; I used to smoke real cigarettes in the past but since I started my job, I’ve stopped.

We can discern that this happens after him starting his job because his murders are implied to be heavily tied to his work predicament as the tarot thing explained.

Q.20 Are you more of a morning person or a night person?

Mikoto: I used to be basically nocturnal. Recently though I’ve been falling asleep pretty early.

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that right as they show Ore Mikoto begin to watch tv it then transitions to this scene of Boku Mikoto waking up.

So the other guy is more than likely the reason the other prisoners don’t know when he sleeps and that alone may have been why Kotoko had her suspicions about him before his first interrogation. The guy is just in there literally doing anything to release pent up energy to the point Amane made a noise complaint.

I’m not over that boing noise coming from his room. Like what the hell made that noise. I mean if there’s a bed in that cell, he’s jumping on it at that point. Es was too afraid and confused by the boing to go in to check and if Kotoko went in back then she would’ve gotten her ass handed to her.

Because of point C. The other Mikoto has limited patterns of behavior. This is illustrated in the John Doe voice drama when Kotoko fights them. She states that “Your technique is definitely that of an amateur. The way you use those muscles of yours is subpar.” The other Mikoto, unlike what is illustrated in MeMe doesn’t have a full understanding of how to use Mikoto’s strength, at least not in a calculative way.

During MeMe, we see that Mikoto plays into his strengths by using something he’s admittedly educated with a baseball bat. To make up and account for any gap in strength between himself and his targets. Sneak attacking most of his victims as we see Kotoko do as well.

MeMe doesn’t show many brute force head on attacks like we overhear in the John Doe voice drama. However, since memories vary between personalities he always has time to learn the more he’s out. He seemingly learned his lesson from his first encounter with Kotoko since he’s able to fight her off during the intermission.

Kotoko’s birthday interaction with them also supports this framing as he responds to her threats with,

“Haah?! Why don’t you try it then you lunatic?! I’ll crush anyone who tries to harm me. I’ll make sure to thoroughly beat you at your own game!”

Did you catch that last part? I’ll make sure to thoroughly beat you at your own game. The fact that Ore Mikoto is comparing Kotoko’s behavior to a game implies that he is actively working to understand the rules of it. Not just the rules around Kotoko but probably around Milgram as a whole.

Which honestly makes the most sense. For him to actually be able to protect anything he first needs an understanding of what’s going on and where danger could come from. During the intermission he doesn’t go on the offensive immediately like he did in the interrogation room or like Kotoko does. Given he remembers good and well how that turned out even if Mikoto doesn’t.

Instead he spends his time being so outwardly hostile and closed off that Mikoto basically becomes unapproachable. Then actively chews through his restraints. Mikoto's trial two design directly reflects who’s been out the longest. In this case Ore Mikoto who unlike Boku can’t tie his shoelaces perfectly,

Boku Mikoto:

Ore Mikoto:

Scratches at his head messing up his hair instead of rubbing the back of his neck,

Oh, yeah and may eat through leather! None of his restraints were lengthened/undone because of the verdict he just bit through it like a gremlin bastard child. He even ripped the fabric beneath. For comparison let’s put Mikoto side by side with Amane.

The clasps at the bottom of Amane’s restraints are still visible and they’ve lengthened. Showing that they’ve gotten tighter because of her verdict. In contrast Mikoto’s restraints have gotten shorter and looser because he bit and ripped through them. We know this is not a result of his verdict because Jackalope says he’s been running about free and unrestrained.

Even though I find the idea of Kotoko resorting to knawing on Mikoto in their fight just because she was losing that badly amusing it’s implied she didn’t even get close enough to him to do anything. Also, if she did get close enough to do this, she wouldn’t bite at his restraints.

Come on we all know at this point she has a tendency to go for the eyes. Too soon sorry. (It's not too soon at this point!) Sometimes she goes for the arms and legs too though. Okay, okay I’ll stop. That and she would definitely want to keep him restrained. I mean the restraints are the result of Es' judgements and a byproduct of Milgram. So, why would she purposely destroy them if her intended goal is to work alongside the facility?

Honestly, Kotoko taught Ore Mikoto dodge and inspect, then immediately regretted it. She’s just here like this fucker shouldn’t exist because she’s embarrassed to admit that once again in her haste to physically assault people for kicks she ended up causing more problems for herself. That’s what she gets for showing her hand early in the interrogation room, I suppose. Something she was called out for by Yuno after her whole attack during the break.

Now that we’ve gone over why Kotoko couldn’t do shit to Ore Mikoto during their second round. What does this mean? Well, it means that once again, like with the hangman, his current state is something self-inflicted. It also means Haruka isn’t the only one learning stuff in Milgram Ore Mikoto is slowly learning as well. Yet, if he’s learning how to be a calculative fighter now... I'm sincerely asking again, then what’s with the behavior in MeMe?

Dissociative Amnesia is when someone is incapable of remembering integral personal information about themselves. Information that would usually normally not be forgotten due to general forgetfulness. Usually, the information forgotten is directly connected to one’s conscious awareness and would be described as autobiographical memory.

Is anyone starting to see why after writing all this and looking this song over more times than I should have, it keeps coming back to how the murders are depicted within the mv. The way it conflicts with all the information we have on the other personality but coincides with what we know about Mikoto. All this is what has led me to believe the murders weren’t done by Ore Mikoto but by Boku Mikoto, who, like Es said from the start forgot he did it.

More than likely due to dissociative amnesia. So, let’s talk about that.

What’s dissociative amnesia?

Is there a difference between it and dissociative identity disorder?

Can you have one without the other?

Is this starting to click yet; are you getting what I’m putting down? Mikoto doesn’t remember his murder but that’s not because Ore Mikoto did it. In fact, as stated before, Mikoto very well could have had undiagnosed dissociative identity disorder way before any of this even happened.

Dissociative amnesia can occur after most traumatic experiences. Even though the memory isn’t consciously accessible by the individual it can still subconsciously impact their behavior and mannerisms. For example, if someone is recorded doing something and it’s shown to a lot of people, they may forget the incident itself happened and what they did in response to it but subconsciously be hypervigilant about being surveilled.

All without really remembering why.

Mikoto is very straightforward when it comes to doing things with others in mind, and it’s heavily implied this isn’t a mentality that started recently through the lyrics of his song. That his whole life he’s probably been doing that, and while it’s easy to go oh he just snapped and then the other personality appeared.

That’s not how DID works, baby. So, let’s get into that and any other wrong assumptions. So, speed run. Mikoto isn’t bad system rep cause DID is not a system. At least it’s not when it’s formed. What?? I hear you asking it’s not? No, it’s fucking not and I’d enjoy it if people would stop asserting it is. Because it’s never been. If you’re looking for system representation though that’s Amane.

I have no kind way of saying this please stop imposing surface level interpretations of actual disorders on media and people.

Wait but Amane isn’t a system? Okay, let me break it down for you. A system is usually what people with dissociative identity disorder work towards having after becoming aware of these other personalities. Until they are actively made aware of these separate personalities it is unlikely that a system will exist. This is the reason Boku Mikoto has at least to Jackalopes admission been restrained but Ore Mikoto has not been.

Now why are you saying a genuine case of dissociative identity disorder isn’t a system the same thing. NO, NO IT’S NOT! That’s OSDD or Partial Dissociative Identity Disorder.

Milgram has already made it clear that the thing stopping the prisoners from attacking Es was imposed through a form of psychological manipulation. This manipulation makes them believe there’s a barrier between them and Es. However, the truth is they’ve been mentally conditioned to not be able to hit Es. The reason this conditioning only affects Boku Mikoto and not Ore Mikoto is because they are existing in two separate mental states not as a system.

I feel like that should’ve been the first hint that it wasn’t a system but a genuine case of dissociative identity disorder. Unlike in a system where there is some communication between separate personalities, or they are at least aware of each other’s existence. Other personalities when it comes to dissociative identity disorder aren’t really controlled, spoken to in that capacity, and most times the person with the disorder can be completely unaware that they have it until much later in life.

But what are those?!

Okay, OSDD stands for Other Specified Dissociative Disorder. It’s just as difficult to get diagnosed with. However, when people don’t fit all of the criteria necessary to be diagnosed with DID yet have been facing long term issues that cause distress or impairment along with some dissociative symptoms, they likely would be diagnosed with this.

On the other hand, Partial Dissociative identity Disorder is a more recent term for a type of OSDD. It’s unlikely that you’d come across the term in North America unless you were doing an essay or something but who would do that… It’s also possibly what Amane has.

It’s when a person still experiences disturbances with their personality, like with DID, but there is a dominant personality. Intrusion from other parts is usually irregular and may only happen during emotional or distressing situations. This is more reminiscent of the discussions around systems brought up as points of contention to the depiction of Mikoto’s DID.

Remember that first post the prelude or preface when I said, “All we’re missing is overt ableism, racism, and sexism disguised as feminism.” Bet most thought that wasn’t coming up again.

But guess what we’ve got one baby! We found it, OVERT ABLEISM! Pop the champagne ma we made it! Okay fake celebration aside. Yeah, now while some thought they were being kind, others considerately just advocating for better rep most were just grossly uninformed. That’s something anyone can be regardless of if they have the disorder or not.

I’m not going to claim that I know everything about autism or adhd just because I have them both. Hell, I only skimmed my diagnosis forms. I don’t believe any neurodivergent person would or should claim to know everything about the disorder they have. Unless I don't know they're a psychologist specializing in the disorder I suppose. Even then a person’s diagnosis is very personal to them, and I can’t tell anyone who has DID or any other diagnosis how they should personally feel about how said diagnosis is represented in media.

However, how someone personally feels and what’s being asserted as fact are two different things. The only people being hurt by the assertion that dissociative identity disorder only works one specific way is people with that disorder. Most of whom go undiagnosed for a multitude of reasons.

Look, I know it hurts to be called out for internalized ableism or any ism. I’m not trying to be a dick about it. It sucks but sometimes ableism is caused by well-meaning people who don’t know what they’re talking about. Being misinformed and under educated can cause instances of discrimination. Instances that can be avoided by taking a moment to step back and genuinely ask do I know enough about this topic.

Especially when it comes to something as personal and diverse as mental health. If the answer is no then go do research, look for information, broaden your horizons. If your opinion still hasn’t changed that’s fine but you’ll be more informed and better equipped to explain why. We’re all learning together here. Do you really think I planned that reveal out.

Sure, I had a feeling that Amane may have a dissociative disorder before starting this essay and even discussed it with friends. However, the overt ableism thing is something I discovered alongside everyone as I was typing this. Okay maybe a bit earlier since I’m not putting this up directly after typing this. Or am I? No, we’re not.

You don’t even have to believe me. I did say do your own research after all. Since I said that this is a great time to list the books I got as references for this. Because I too could be full of shit. I am not a psychiatrist because I didn’t finish college and I’m here now still in debt writing over sixty pages on a fictional character and typing out an existential crisis-

REFERENCES

Eich, E., Macaulay, D., Loewenstein, R.J., Dihle, P.H. (1997). Implicit Memory, Interpersonality Amnesia, and Dissociative Identity Disorder. In: Read, J.D., Lindsay, D.S. (eds) Recollections of Trauma. NATO ASI Series, vol 291. Springer, Boston, MA.

Kluft, R.P. (1996). Dissociative Identity Disorder. In: Michelson, L.K., Ray, W.J. (eds) Handbook of Dissociation. Springer, Boston, MA.

Reinders, A.A.T.S., Willemsen, A.T.M. (2014). Dissociative Identity Disorder and Fantasy Proneness: A Positron Emission Tomography Study of Authentic and Enacted Dissociative Identity States. In: Dierckx, R., Otte, A., de Vries, E., van Waarde, A., den Boer, J. (eds) PET and SPECT in Psychiatry. Springer, Berlin, Heidelberg. International Society for the study of trauma and disassociation: What are the dissociative disorders.

Now back to Amane. How do we know that she is the system or partial dissociative identity disorder rep people are looking for? Because they show it in the Minigrams all the time.

Since this is a common gag in some anime and manga it’s easy to overlook. The most recent example of this I can think of is My Next Life as a Villainess. However, what sets Amane apart from that iteration of this trope is one thing. Shidou keeps getting in there too.

The reason Shidou keeps finding his way into this council may not just be a funny little gag but in fact a way to allude to there being a system here. Not only that but Shidou just may be directly impacting it. Amane’s entire council is only made up of variations of herself until Shidou appears out of the blue one day. It’s even shown that at times Shidou isn’t even still discussing the thing that Amane is deliberating on in her head. Like here-

In Amane’s mind Shidou appears and brings up the phrase seeing is believing. Which honestly sounds like something he would say but when she throws the pancakes in his face he’s begun discussing where the word pancake comes from. He’d already said this is something she wouldn’t be able to understand until she experienced it herself. There’s not much reason for him to reiterate that again but this time attach it to a saying.

Plus, the next time he appears in the council he doesn’t even speak before the other Amane’s run out screaming then Amane our usual Amane throws the pancakes in his face. The council doesn’t try to kick Shidou out from the table or just kill him.

They’re just trying to avoid him so his presence doesn’t impact their judgements which would explain the fear filled screaming especially if up there it’s only been them for the longest time.

Plus, it’s not out of character for Amane to react viscerally to him getting up there. Yet him getting in there shows that regardless of how much Amane wants to admit it or not he is growing on her. This interpretation fits with her first cover Positive Parade as well.

“We can’t stop. You’ll be alright and end up smiling beautifully. I’m not wrong but if someone says “no that’s not right” I won’t support anything that denies you.” Also, literally today as I’m typing this:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAHIRU

Also, thanks for accidentally helping prove my point lol-

Amane: Happy Birthday. Mahiru; how has your condition been lately?

Mahiru: Ah, Amane; thank you. Yes, I’m fine. If I use a wheelchair, I can still move around. It’s all thanks to Shidou’s treatment.

Amane: It is only appropriate that I give a warning first. The realm you and Shidou are treading within is forbidden. If you continue to work against or disrupt the natural order, you’ll only hasten your demise. So, think about your next steps carefully.

Mahiru: Amane…Are you actually, Amane?

Sometimes things just fall together was literally messaged this by Star after having a phone call about this exact topic. Also, lol, Amane literally went if God wanted you to walk, you’d be walking get out of that wheelchair. Like come on Amane it’s a wheelchair calm down. She is not toeing the same line as Shidou. He is a literal doctor she’s just injured. Leave her alone!

Damn she really hates all aspects of medicine.

Mahiru is so unlucky she gets jumped almost dies and then is threatened for using a mobility aid by a fifteen-year-old. Mahiru and Mikoto having some of the worst birthday interactions this trial. Like happy birthday Kotoko- You shouldn’t exist. Happy birthday Mahiru, also if you continue to test fate you will meet yours sooner tee hee. As they’re just there like “???”

I didn’t even really need to defend this idea this much since the minigrams literally tell us all this is happening in her head with a big sign but we’re here now so…

That’s not even going into all the similarities and contradictions between her and Mikoto. Her believing deeply in a higher power while he says he doesn’t believe because there’s nothing he’d gain from it. Yet, clearly believing in Tarot a great deal. They both committed murder through bludgeoning and have the same empty look in their eyes in their trial two designs. So, we may have gotten two forms of dissociative rep. Though I get the kneejerk reactions since I rarely saw any decent representation if any growing up.

So, sure people were uninformed, but does that really make it ableist? Can't it just be being uneducated?

People assumed that there was a typical way DID presented itself and felt that Mikoto didn’t properly represent that. Ableism is the discrimination of and social prejudice against people with disabilities under the belief that people with typical abilities are superior. A lot of people assume ableism cannot happen within disabled communities. It very much can.

Even without stating ableism can occur wherever a norm or typical depiction of something exists whether physical or psychological. Which a good chunk of the fanbase tried to create a standard version of DID. Something that in of itself is already a problem.

It’s literally just ableist to ask if someone is really disabled, how disabled they are, or imply they’re faking. Made incredibly worse by the fact that Mikoto never self-reported having DID. Everyone else but him has said he has it. So, how the fuck is he faking at that point?

For a racial equivalent I’ve personally experienced it’s basically going, “You don’t talk black?” Except as a person with a disability I got its lovely variant, “You talk so well you can’t possibly have autism.” That stopped me from getting tested for autism before. That psychiatrist went I know what’s actually wrong with you it’s low self-esteem you just communicate so well when you open up it can’t be autism.

Congratulations; can you communicate while also having Autism? Then some specialist may believe you aren’t entitled to your diagnosis. Or even just, “But you can write entire essays on a topic how could you have ADHD but pay attention that long. Are you sure you’re not just looking for an excuse to be lazy.”

To the surprise of no one that first lady was also racist cause isms tend to come in pairs. Spent a session telling me that critical race theory shouldn’t be taught in schools. Honestly, no one would believe the people with psychiatry degrees in my state. The woman who diagnosed me immediately weaponized the diagnosis against me and begin being directly ableist towards me.

It’s no secret that I’m 27 (at the time I wrote this I am now 28 can you believe how time and my inability to do shit in a timely manner coincide) and this fandom skews on the younger side for a psychological murder show with a heavy mystery aspect… So, I can’t be too surprised that this isn’t common knowledge, I guess. I’m saying all this to get the point across that I am a full ass adult but when she found out I had autism she literally just started talking about me to my father like I was still a child. Basically, just talking about me and not to me.

She would also repeat things over and over like do you understand. Then got really mad when all her testing was finished and she discovered my verbal comprehension (vci) was above those of approximately 99% of my peers as though I was just pretending to be stupid. I was just here like oh your fancy test says I’m not a dumbass look at that. She also withheld my diagnosis forms from me and lied about sending them to my primary care doctor. Had to fax that shit to them myself.

Is it apparent I’ve faced multiple forms of discrimination at this point because got damn. Everyone experiences ableism in different ways and as it happens they might not even know it’s that. My experiences won’t align with everyone else’s and that’s absolutely okay. In that same vein I think it’s okay for Mikoto, Haruka, and Amane to not be perfect representations of whatever disabilities they may have. At the end of the day I don’t think their murders had anything to do with their disabilities and trying to play it off as though they do is a disservice to them.

It's like Amane said with her age we shouldn’t treat her any differently just because she’s a child. Because that doesn’t mean she has any less of a freewill than the others here and it’s the same when it comes to disabilities as well. Every type of person can be a murderer not just people with disorders or disabilities.

So, I think there’s ableism involved here absolutely.

It also certainly didn’t help that I saw a good deal of people putting forth that the writer was perpetuating a harmful stereotype despite there not being any proof of that outside of the confirmation Mikoto had DID. I don't think this has to be said but a character having a confirmed disorder doesn't immediately make them bad representation. Some went as far as projecting the same stereotype, they were against on the media to further prove it was bad.

It's fine to dislike the dipiction or Mikoto as a character but I feel it's reaching shakey ground when people are going this character having confirmed insert mental disorder here is bad. Not only that but I believe it should be interrogated why this mindset was displayed when it came to Mikoto having DID but not Haruka possibly having autism. I feel the response to Mikoto and his narrative serves to highlight just how stigmatized and overlooked DID remains even now.

Super fun. Moving on.

Then through doing this most of the fandom fell right into the exact same stereotypes and subconscious biases that negatively affect people with dissociative identity disorder on the regular basis. Grossly asserting that he must be faking because the way it presents in him doesn’t fit ones view of the disorder or how the internet has presented it, immediately blaming and asserting the other personality committed the murders check, saying he deserves to be in there cause he’s either a danger to others or himself check. Something made worse simply because individuals who have DID and no more than two personality states are often times accused of faking more than those who have more than two.

However, it's still difficult for either types of people to get diagnosed or taken seriously just because of how the disorder continues to be meet with a wide range of skepticism both publicly and professionally.

Unlike with what Amane has where there is a dominant personality. The thing that makes d.i.d difficult to manage and deal with is that lack of communication and awareness when it comes to the issue. At times dissociative identity disorder can form rapidly due to incredibly traumatizing situations. However, Mikoto’s situation may not be one of those cases.

Okay follow me for a bit we know that Mikoto remembers playing baseball in high school from his first trial interrogations questions.

“Do you have baseball experience?

I played baseball in high school; I wasn't very good at it though. I still practice my swing when I get frustrated with work.”

Remember that emphasis I put on the pullback in the swing on that attack in the previous post go back and look at the pictures if you need to. The reason we highlighted that is because it shows an understanding of how much strength is needed to get the desired result. This sort of move as we've gone over doesn’t seem like the guy we heard fighting Kotoko in the interrogation room or heard about fighting her off when she had weapons like plural not just a single weapon.

Certain behavior from Mikoto after doesn’t make sense like the thing on Kotoko’s birthday. Would he really attempt to call a truce with her after experiencing being attacked by her even if it was the other who faced the attack unlike with being watched Mikoto shows very little- Well, more so no signs of being wary of Kotoko after either of their conflicts.

Let’s talk about interpersonality amnesia. It’s exactly as it sounds amnesia between personality states. There is already a solid example of how this works within Milgram. It is the reason that the other personality within Mikoto can hit Es and Mikoto cannot. Whatever conditioning that occurred to have the prisoners be incapable of hitting Es did not occur to the other personality.

In fact it’s pretty much like it didn’t even happen to him. Because it didn’t it happened to the other guy. His continued wariness around being surveiled is consistent with what we know about dissociative amnesia. He remembers what triggered the trauma to avoid it but for now at least to our knowledge not the trauma itself. This issue could occur even if he already had dissociative identity disorder before facing this trauma.

As of now the other Kayano knows about their murders to some capacity even believing he was right to respond in the way he did without specifying what he was responding to. Because of this he has no reason to be chummy with anyone here and while he’s out he hasn’t been. Because if he knows that they themselves have killed, then they’d have no reason to believe that the others haven’t like Mikoto does at the beginning of Milgram.

Mikoto asserts that he hasn't killed anyone so more than likely no one else did. Because if Milgram is wrong about him which it must be than how could they be right about the others. Basically he labeled everyone else as Innocent in his own mind through association to himself. He pretty much goes if I murdered someone well I'd know that wouldn't I and all I do know is I haven't. Sure my memory is bad but I wouldn't forget something like that surely.

The memory of that conditioning is therefore specific to the Kayano who was fronting at the time of their incarceration. This is probably why Jackalope reacts to Mikoto settling back down as an issue because that conditioning can’t take place without the other personality out. It's could also be why despite the other Mikoto knowing they did something he's also vague about it when talking to Es during the first trial. When asked about if he remembers his murder now instead of confirming or denying it he just laughs and says Es doesn't know when to shut up.

This can be viewed as a confirmation that he knows or showcase that he's does know they did someone but what exactly could be lost on him as well. If it's a memory Mikoto lost due to dissociative amnesia then the other guy may not know a thing about the sin Mikoto was brought in for just his part in it. If Mikoto was pushed to brink of stress the other personality could have come out during the crimes. In most sce es in MeMe Mikoto seems to have firm control over the situation. However, as I believe we discussed in the previous post if Mikoto was injured during one of his attacks successfully had the tables turned on him it's not unlike the other guy would come out in response to that.

This could be why he immediately rushes Kotoko and jumps to violence with Es because he learned the best thing to do when facing conflict is get offensive before your opponent does. Just charge in because if you don't you could end up dying instead. So when cornered by Kotoko he immediately fell back on what he did before rushing in.

Now the thing with the conditioning could be proven false if the Kayano who was incarcerated attempts and succeeds at hitting Es sometime later. However, the likelihood of that is nonexistent due to said Kayano’s statements on violence. Since he thinks resorting to violence is immature and embarrassing, he is less likely to attack Es overall. Especially given the fact that he still holds to the belief that he is being surveilled. A belief that at this point has been confirmed. So, this is much less likely to be an action he takes, especially in a room where he knows he is being recorded like during interrogations.

However, it seems that the guilty verdict from trial one has pushed Kayano to such a state of stress that such a buildup is no longer necessary for a personality change to occur. Basically, he’s constantly stressed now. This is saying something given the fact he was already on the edge when he was brought into Milgram. Given his hyperveligence about being surveiled and tge fact he is now being forced to live in a panopticon for an indefinite period of time and his concerns about losing his job.

Honestly, if Mikoto heard the recording of him in the John Doe voice drama he’d probably die of embarrassment or never leave his cell again. Personality shifts in people with d.i.d at times can have very specific triggers. Kayano has made it clear on numerous occasions that theirs is stress. We saw on Kotoko’s birthday that switching between personalities has become more common and more seamless. We hear Kayano begin to hyperventilate (as a result of Es' continued assertion that he's a murderer and then weaponization of Kayano's admittedly poor and now poorer memory against him) before the other personality presents itself in the John Doe voice drama.

Okay, finally done. I doubt anyone is gonna finish this.

All of this leads us to believe that there's a high chance that if Mikoto Kayano is voted Guilty again that we won’t be seeing the Kayano brought in by Milgram at all third trial. The second trial commencement notice even alludes to this by saying we'd need to get the other Kayano out again for him to be restrained. Because the restraint within Milgram isn't just tying them up but mental conditioning as well there's no telling how it will affect the two personality states.

For all any of us know it could very well be the equivalent of forcibly merging the two states together.

#milgram #mikoto kayano #amane momose

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Lion King II: Simba's Pride Review (Birthday Review for WeirdKev27)

Hello all you happy people and it's time once again for that annual tradition where I celebrate Kev, my client turned friend and client who comissions much of the reviews you see on this blog, exactly how he likes.. by talking about lions for a while. And after covering the rather abismal interquel 1/2 last year, we're finally onto the sequel this year, Simba's Pride.

Simba's Pride is my first time covering one of Disney's various DTV sequels. And while many a kid can recalled having to suffer through these things , I honestly don't have a ton of experince with them. I saw about 6 as a kid: the aladdin sequels, extremley goofy movie, this one, pocahantas and hunchback. I saw them advertised sure but I was more a toy story kid. I watched and was scarred by that one way more than most other disney films outside of say Aladdin, which I remember watching all the time .That and the aristocats. MOstly for that bitching opening

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So i'ts not a suprise the only ones I really remembered were the aladdin sequels.. and extremley goofy movie, which is likely responsible for me loving goofy so much. Yes over the orignal , I just headbanged to the aristocats what makes you think I just magically turned into this one day?

That said.. I was curious to revisit this one when the time came as Lion King II has one of the better reputations among the disney sequels, feeling both SLIGHLTY more necessary. It's well liked to the point that when lion king sequel series LIon Guard happened, Lion King 2 was kept fully canon, to the point season 3 goes out of it's way to explain why the new crop of chracters from lion guard are absent during this film.

So the question is does this film hold up... or is it simply good by comparison to Mulan II: Everyone Woke up On the Wrong Side of the Bed This Morning? Find out with me under the cut.

We're Doin a Sequel: I almost didn't have much of a production section this time, but thankfully wikipedia provides.. in this case an old LA Times article from when the movie was in pre-release. It's not DEEP into production but it least it gives me some insight into how the sausage was made on this one.

The first was this pretty damming line from Buena Vista Home Entertainment's president, which sums up the DTV boom in a nutshell

“We look at the feature animation business as a way to set up the original story,” said Michael Johnson, president of Buena Vista Home Entertainment Worldwide. “Their energies are absorbed completely in new productions. So we have set up a division through the television animation group to do the sequels. . . . That’s not to say this isn’t good enough to go theatrical.”

This.. may be one of the grossest things i've seen disney do. It's not homophobia gross, it's not "making a feature film next to a concentration camp" gross, but it's still horrible to make a division just to make cheap sequels you don't consider anything but money , not only discrediting the work done by the animators on these films, but also admitting your making a shoddy product just to get money from parents who trust your brand. Am I saying this is the first or last time any company, disney included, pulled this kind of shit? No. Not even close. Even GOOD movies have done greasy shit to their animators, see the shoddy conditions on across the spider-verse. But this is still a special kind of wrong and set up a whole industry of wrong in these cheap half assed sequels. If antyhing could remind me WHY we need the writers and actors strikes, this is a big flashing symbol as to why as execs haven't really changed how they treat animation, just the tactics for being shitty to it.

That being said as always it didn't stop the team from trying hard, as Sharon Morill, then vp of DisneyTVA which also ran these things, was determined to break the stigma. It sadly didn't happen, but I can't fault her for trying. And Lion King II did try. It had a four year development cycle, which for animation seems pretty normal, but for one of these films is twice the length. They also changed up some things along the way but we'll get more into that with the film itself. The film released to mostly good reviews, with no one liking it more than the first but still finding it a fine sequel. So what'd I think of it? Let's explore that shall we? A Good Idea at The Time The core of Lion King II isn't terrible. it has some cracks just from the foundation but it's a solid idea for a sequel: We focus now on Kiara, Simba's daughter, played by the star of one of my faviorite franchises and a huge get for the time, Scream star Neve Campbell, who was just coming off scream 2 when this film came out no less. She does a great job once we get to the present with what she has, suprising no one. This honestly wasn't a bad move: unlike most disney sequels the setup for one is there in the finale with Kiara's cornoation, which is where this film picks up before going into her life as a cub, then spending most of the film on her as a young adult. Not only that the film does have the clever idea to play off Simba's trauma: he's overprotective of his daughter and Nala can see it.. and it wears on her more and more with time, with her finding pride rock confining and being annoyed he constantly sends her gay grandpas to go spy on her. You can see both sides: To kiara the pridelands have become a cage her dad's keeping her in but you get that simba still has lingering trauma from both Mufasa's death and his own buffet of near death experinces. Simba is wrong to smother her like this, but you can at least see why he's like this.

This time though there's ANOTHER lead, Kovu, played by disney legend and goof Jason Marsden, which sets a trend: While Cambell is a big flashy name most of the cast are either returning form the first one or are vetran voice actors or tv stars. Nothing wrong with this as the cast with one glaring exception we'll get to all does a fantastic job. The only one not to return is Rowan Atkinson, whose replaced by Fraiser Vetran Edward Hibbert and who does.. fine. He's not as good as rowan, but he's not bad and Zazu isn't in the film enough for it to be a real issue.

Kovu is one of the outcasts, a group of lions who were banished from the pridelands for supporting scar wholeheartdly. I'm a bit torn on the outsiders as the concept: I like the idea Scar had actual supporters, that Simba, given how much scar had done to him, overreacted and banished them all instead of trying to work with them, giving them legit reasons beyond WE EVIL to hate Simba and want him dead. That said.. their also a MASSIVE retcon that makes zero sense in the context of the original film. What lionesses we saw hated Scar and resented him, the pridelands were dying so it's hard to see why anyone would support him, even a small pack , EXCEPT simply being evil, and NONE OF THEM did anything about scar being eaten by the hyenas nor against the rest of the lions, nor tried to start a war when Simba exiled them. The Hyenas are also conspciously absent as , despite Cheech Marin being tapped to return, they were apparently written out.

There's also a massive elephant in the room: See if you look at Kovu you notice he kinda LOOKS like Scar and his mom, the leader of the outcasts and one of the best parts of the film Zira, played by Suzanna Planchette to vllanous resentful perfection, acts more like a vengeful widow. Surely i'm just reading too much into this and Disney didn't SERIOUSLLY consider making a film about incest right?

Yes. I wish to Mufasa up above I was kidding. Granted this info is midly suspect as neither tv tropes nor wikipedia have a link for it.. but givne Kovu looks like scar, how Zira acts about her former leader and lover, and how it seems very weird Scar wouldn't just sire an heir outright and just pick some random baby, i'm feeling it's true and it's laughable they got as far as they did before someone said "Wait isn't this incest' Which yes, yes it is. It makes the romance between the two feel weird as even with the film trying to act like Kovu isn't scar's son just his heir... it still very much comes off like Kovu IS scar's son and no one brings it up becuase lions apparently give a much of a shit about incest as the writers of this flim did.

Zira and Kovu are fascinating though: Zir ais as clever as scar, has a swagger to her and seems just at all times like a snarling engine of vengance. Her husband is dead.. and so his murderer shall burn. She's not deeply complex, but she is incredibly fun to watch and sometimes tha'ts all you need. Kovu meanwhile has a LOT of fascinating layers: he shows up hostile to kira as a cub and it's clear with how the outsiders function that he's been raised as a weapon his whole life: only to fight an dsurvivie with what scraps they have out there. And his transition to adulthood is shattering: Kiara is just herself but older, simply less willing to take her dad's shit after a lifetime of it. Kovu by contrast goes from a fairly sweet innocent kid.. to a revenge engine modled by his mom to infiltrate the lions and kill simba. Marsden gives a truly awesome performance, with just what Kovu has become being clear.. but also that beneath that what he could get from Simba's side of things.. could be better.

The problem is that while the setup is really good, the first third of the film having the two as kids and setting up the situation, and it's enough that I just ignore the massive leaps needed for the outsiders to exist or the fact their basically the hyenas but as lions, the rest of the film... does almost nothing with it. Instead of diving into these two characters and especially Kovu's very complciated crisis of concious.. they just do things in the most most cliche and tired way possible: Kovu finds his new life almost instantly better and plans to tell Kiara asap but can't, his clan gets tired and attacks, Simba blames Kovu and tries to clamp down harder and kiara leaves, theyg o back to stop a war. it's basically west side story or romeo and juliet but speedran so all the actual conflict and emotoin is gone. Kovu dosen't even kill anyone, the death is on Simba for Kovu's brother.

Oh and since we have to talk about him at some point let's talk about Kovu's brother. His brother is Nuka, a shabby lion who thinks he should be heir but proves every second why he shoudln't and why his mom didn't choose him, basically being comedy relief. They then try to give him a tragic death scene which would work.. if it were not for one clear error. one horrible mistake that ruins the character. They cast Andy Dick to play him

Yeah even putting aside his harassment , general creepiness and the fact John Lovitz had FRESHLY punched him in the face for making a crack about Phil Hartman post death (AFTER also enabling Hartman's wife's drug addiction), WHY would , even for the price of a nickle, you cast ANDY DICK for a dramatic death. Even before we knew he was somehow even worse, Andy Dick's whole existance was to be a punching bag. you hire him to annoy your audience and your characters. You CAN have a comedy characters death mean something and be truly gutting, take 24's death in venture bros or even among disney hooty getting turned into a puppet during owl house. But you have to make us care about that character on some level beyond being a joke no one takes seriously first. With Nuka.. he's just a dick who envied his brother and stupidly challenged Simba to a fight. And even as much of a dick as Simba is in this film, more on that in a moment, Simba STILL tried to just bat Nuka away. Simba, despite being ambushed, despite his hatred of the outsiders, despite everything you'd expect.. WENT EASY ON HIM. He didn't want to kill anyone. He only started getting serious when Nuka, somehow, proved to be an actual opponent and didn't even kill him on purpose. The idea of Simba being forced to that is good, but it just dosen't work when the character is nothing and had no personality other than "Pralines and Dick". Fuck em. And most good ideas end up like Kovu or Pralines and Andy Dick. Kiara is mostly wasted, mostly just wanting to bone her cousin and having a fairly sterotpicla disney princess arc, Rafiki is just there to push the main couple together, and Simba .. simba gets done kinda wrong. While the idea of him turning to his worst impulses over trauma is good, the film has so much going on instead he just comes off as a massive prick whose prejduiced, judges Kovu because he , in the context of the film HAPPENS to look like his arch enemy and isn't related to him, and treats his daughter like shit. Brodrick tries but there isn't enough depth given to Simba or anyone for this flim to work. The film just feels half assed...

It dosen't help despite not really giving the story time to breathe.. it also spends a LARGGGGEEE MEATY CHUNK of the storytelling on musical numbers. There's about as many as the original.. but I can barely recall them, with all just feeling like half hearted rehashes of the originals And unlike the original films songs which were all vital to the plot in some way (Circle of Life set the tone and theme of the film, I Just Cant' Wait To Be King fully sets up Simba's character for the first act and has him ditching Zazu, Be Prepared fleshes out Scar and sets up his big plan to kill Mufasa while also revealing at it's start that Scar was working with the Hyenas and by it's end reveals the Hyenas as a real threat, Hakuna Matata handles the time skip and sets up Simba for the third act, and Can You Feel the Love Tonight? has Simba and Nala begin their romance, which is key in getting him to go home. ). In contrast while these numbers COULD commuincate key stuff, they all go on so long they just pad out a film that REALLY didn't need padding, it needed a liver and some kidneys to help it function better.

The one thing the film does really well.. is the animation. Seriously while you can tell this isnj't a theatrical budget.. you can also tell the animators stretched every dime they had to make this LOOK theatrical grade. While some shots i've seen, or some sequels i've seen outright look like they were made cheaply, Lion King II looks damn good and worthy of the original. Despite all the challenges it'd bring the characters still look expressive, colorful with just that hint of real animal movements that made the original's animation so damn good. It may not look as good as the original but for what they had to work with it looks as close as they could possibly get and that's DAMN impressive.

So yeah overall this film isn't great. I wanted to like it I did: It sounded good.. but the final product , even acknowlding the struggles they likely had, is so padded and full of wasted potetial it just makes me sad. It's still probably one of the better Disney Sequels as it both had a reson to exist, good ideas and the animation is again fucking beautiful. But it sadly isn't as much as it could've been. Hopefully when I get to Lion Guard at some point, we'll see what a lion king followup truly could've been. For now.. we can only watch this and see someone almost but not quite make it. Maybe if disney wasn't treating these like disposable money factories this could've actually worked.

#the lion king #the lion king ii: simba's pride #kiara #kovu #simba #zazu #timon and pumbaa #neve campbell #matthew broderick #jason marsden #andy dick

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The greatest thing that I have achieved 2/10

Chapter title: Little moments that pass us by Summary: After Haley’s death, Aaron isn’t sure how to move on from the grief. Then one night, months later he finds himself falling into bed with Emily, his best friend and that changes everything. Rating: Explicit Word Count: 2,1k Warnings: Grief, morning sickness, pregnancy

Hi Haley, it’s been a while since I’ve been here, a while since I’ve written you and I’m sorry about that. But I’m here now. I miss you every day, I still find it hard to look at the pictures of you in the apartment, but Jack loves them. He kisses the framed picture of you next to his bed every night, but I’m sure you know that, I’m sure you feel this love for you even from the beyond..

We’re doing okay, somehow, I never thought we would. But I’m not going to lie, life would be so much easier if you were here. You were such a light for Jack and it’s one of those qualities I will never possess. He’s still playing soccer, he’s getting good at it too. I’m sure you know that, am sure that you’re watching over his every move from wherever you are.

Which is why I think you already know this as well, but I think I really screwed things up down here. I slept with Emily and now I’m afraid that I’ve ruined our friendship. You once said that you thought I was in love with her, and I could have been, before… before everything. But life happens and now I feel like I’ve made a mistake.

I don’t know, maybe it’s weird talking about this with you, after all who would talk about another woman to their ex-wife? But I know you’d be my voice of reason, I know that you wanted me happy just as much as I wanted you happy. But I’m not ready, even if it wasn’t Emily, if it had been someone else, I’m not ready to move on.

Anyways, enough about me. I’m bringing Jack next time since it’s your birthday.

Until then, I miss you – Aaron.

Emily walks into the office the following Monday and she sees Aaron in his office. Not that she was surprised, he was always there before the rest of them, always the last one to leave, even now. She looked around and saw Spencer in the kitchenette but no one else from the team seemed to be in yet. She sighs but still makes her way up the stairs. They hadn’t talked since that Friday, only two whole days really, but it felt strange because she was used to talking to him almost every day.

When she knocks on his open door his eyes lock on hers and she can see the way his jaw clenches, how his posture instantly seems more tense.

“Can I come in?” She asks and waits for him to nod before entering his office. She closes the door softly behind her before making her way to the chair across from him. “I thought it would be best for us to talk.” She offers him a smile that he barely returns, and she knows that she’ll be the one carrying the conversation.

“Are you alright?” He asks and it surprises her that it’s the first thing he says.

“I am.” Her head tilts to the side as she takes in his appearance, he looks tired in a way he normally wouldn’t, everything seemingly in place but still something missing. “Are you?”

“I’m fine.” He says and puts the pen he’s still holding down and releases a sigh. He had thought all weekend about how their first interaction would go, had no idea what it meant for their friendship.

“Relax Hotch, I’m not expecting roses and dates.” She tries chucking but the sound catches in her throat because once not too long ago that had been exactly what she had wanted. “We were drunk, it happened.” She fixes him with a stare and she sees him visibly relaxing. “But we are best friends and colleagues and I want you to know that this won’t be an issue unless we let it. At least not on my end.”

For a second everything is quiet as he looks at her with softening eyes.

“I was worried you would be angry.” He tells her honestly. “That I had taken advantage of you.”

This time she does chuckle, the sound much softer than he had expected.

“I seem to remember me coming on to you.” She leans back in her chair, the mood in the room already a little lighter. “And don’t get me wrong it was a great night but…”

“But we work together.” He finishes for her and she smiles sadly at him.

“And you’re still grieving, I know I’m the first one since the divorce, and it was unfair of me to take that from you.”

“You didn’t take anything from me, Em.” He lets himself lean over the desk and take her hand to squeeze. “We were drunk and made a mistake, but don’t ever think that I didn’t want it or didn’t enjoy it.” He smiles and let’s go of her hand and only a couple of seconds later there’s a knock on his door.

“Come in!” He yells and JJ pops her head in, files already in hand.

“I’m sorry am I interrupting?” She looks between the pair curiously but as they both shake their heads she holds up the files. “We have a case.”

“We’ll be right there.” He tells the blonde who disappears as quickly as she had showed up.

“We’re okay right?” Emily asks as she stands up and smooths out her jacket. “One time thing that we don’t mention again?”

“We’re okay.” He promises with a smile as he stands up as well. They walk into the round table room together and Aaron takes a seat beside JJ and Emily sits down in between Derek and Dave. When he looks back at her she’s already looking through files, and he knows that they’ll be alright.

More than a month goes go by and things have gone back to normal. They work together and it’s like nothing had changed, like that night was a dream. Then one morning she wakes up queasy, barely makes it to the bathroom in time before she’s throwing up the remains of the dinner from the previous night. She wipes her mouth when she’s done but finds that she’s too tired to stand up. She had been tired lately but had chalked it up to general exhaustion from too little sleep and too long days.

Then another wave of nausea hits her and somewhere between heaving into the toilet and gathering the strength to make it back into the bedroom to get her phone from the nightstand she calls JJ.

“Hey Jajye,” She walks back to the bathroom and sits on the floor. She leans back against the bathtub in case she needs to throw up again, already feeling her stomach churning. “I think I have food poisoning or a stomach bug or something, anyways I don’t think I can make it in today.”

“Oh honey, I’m sorry.” Comes JJ’s voice over the phone. “I’m not sure if we’re going anywhere yet, I’ll try to stop by with some stuff for you if we do and if not I’ll come by as soon as possible.”

Emily wants to argue, wants to tell her that she’s fine but she doesn’t have it in her and she knew that the blonde wouldn’t listen to her anyways.

“Thanks JJ.” She says instead before hanging up. She leans her head back against the tub’s edge and wills the churning in her stomach to stop.

“Hey Hotch,” JJ walks into his office first thing when she gets to the office. “Emily is sick, she sounded pretty terrible when I spoke to her. We don’t have a case yet, so I was wondering if it would be okay for me to head over to her apartment with some stuff? I’ll be quick.”

Aaron is nodding before she even finishes speaking. For as long as Emily had worked at the BAU, she had never taken a sick day.

“That’s fine, but bring your phone in case we need to reach you.”

“Of course.” She nods and turns, but the sound of his voice stops her.

“Tell her to feel better.” His eyebrows are furrowed, worry clearly written all over his face. Emily had been off for the last couple of weeks, tired in a way he wasn’t used to seeing her, but every time he had asked if she was okay she had shrugged him off.

“I will.” JJ smiles reassuringly at him and then heads toward the elevator.

JJ rings the doorbell not even forty minutes later but when Emily doesn’t open the door she’s quick to use the spare key she had.

“Emily?” She calls out as she walks through the apartment.

“Upstairs. In the bathroom.” Comes her muffled voice and JJ is quick to walk towards the stairs.

She brings the bag with her as she climbs the stairs towards the bedroom and adjoining bathroom. She finds Emily on the floor of the bathroom, pale and sweaty.

“Oh honey.” She starts to move toward her friend but Emily puts her hand up.

“I don’t know if I’m contagious.” She says weakly and it makes JJ smile.

“I don’t care I have a toddler remember.” She sits beside her and brushes Emily sweaty bangs out of her eyes. “You look horrible.”

“Gee thanks.” Emily replies dryly. “I just woke up really nauseous and I’m exhausted. Maybe it’s a stomach bug.”

“You have been more tired lately.” She agrees and rubs her shoulders, her hand warm compared to Emily’s body. “Have you anything to drink? Eat?” JJ rummages through the bag and pulls out a bottle of ginger ale.

“I had some water and kept that down, I haven’t been sick in a while I just haven’t wanted to get up.” Emily doesn’t resist when JJ hands her the bottle and she takes a small sip. “That is actually really good, thank you.” She smiles softly at JJ.

“Come on, let’s get you up.” She helps Emily up and together they walk into the bedroom and Emily sits down on the edge of the bed while continuing to sip the ginger ale. “I got you more ginger ale and water, some bread just because it’s easy for the stomach,” She continues to rummage through the bag and then stops momentarily. “and I got this, just to be safe.” She slowly holds up the package for Emily to see, a knowing look on the blonde’s face.

“A pregnancy test, really?” She almost laughs but finds that she’s too tired to muster up the energy. “That’s crazy I haven’t had sex in…” She trails off as her mind goes back to that night, she does the math and realizes that her period is a week late. “Oh shit.”

The following night Aaron has just put Jack to bed when his phone rings. He sees Emily’s name flashing on the screen and he’s instantly worried. She hadn’t been at the office for two days, it felt weird, not having her there.

“Hotchner.” He answers and sits down on the couch.

“Hey Hotch, it’s me Emily,” She sounds anxious even through the phone and his worry instantly sky rockets. “Can I come by? I need to talk to you.”

“Yeah sure, are you alright?” It’s a second too long before she replies.

“I’m fine. I’ll be at your place in twenty.”

Those twenty minutes feels like hours to him. He can tell that something is wrong, his gut screaming at him that it’s something huge. He busies himself by cleaning around the apartment, washing dishes and picking up Jack’s toys until the soft knock on his front door finally sounds through the apartment.

When he opens the door he can see the dark rings under her eyes, how she’s bitten her bottom lip red.

“Hey.” She walks inside when he steps to the side. “Is Jack awake?”

“No.” He gestures for her to sit on the couch and then sits down next to her. “What’s going on Emily?”

She takes a moment to let out a breath, her eyes darting around the apartment as she musters up enough courage to tell him what she has only known for certain for a few hours. It was weird, feeling this anxious around him. But then she looks back at him he’s looking at her with nothing but worry and it she knows that no matter what, this was Aaron Hotchner, her best friend sitting in front of her.

“I’m pregnant.”

#hotchniss #hotchniss fanfiction #hotchniss fanfic #Criminal Minds Fanfiction #aaron hotchner x emily prentiss #aaron x emily

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Thess vs The List, Again

Oh, I failed to mention that I have been working on my whole resolution to at least try all of my games by the end of the year. This is slightly made problematic by the fact that I keep getting more games, but hey, it's not that bad of a problem to have. At least if I keep trying, I can whittle down the list of games I haven't even touched yet. So here we go:

Transistor: This is the one that won my little poll, and while the general story seems really interesting, the controls are not exactly intuitive for me. My tolerance for fiddly has pretty much died. I'll probably try it again when I have a few more spoons available.

Pentiment: Now this one, I liked. It doesn't exactly feed that need for Doing Things that attracts me to a lot of games (whether it's a farming sim, building sim, or just something where I can beat on people without getting arrested), but definitely an interesting one.

Garden In: This is a new one for me (released last year), but ... I mean, that still counts towards "whittling down the list", right? As the name suggests, it's basically a gardening sim, but one where you can also decorate your surroundings and the plants don't die a permanent death if dry or infested with bugs. So it's very Zen, though I figure it'll probably be one I finish all the achievements for and then put away for awhile, only to come back when I need that particular kind of Zen. Like I do with Pan'orama.

Model Builder: I liked this one, and it's very much my kind of Zen, but it can also be a little fiddly, so I'm going to have to restart that one. Probably going to be my go-to Zen for awhile once I've 100%-ed Garden In.

Enigmatis: The Ghost of Maple Creek: Thrown at my head for Christmas this year. I mean, I had the second, third, and fourth game in that series, and was just missing the first, so ... yeah. Anyway, a pretty standard hidden object game, and definitely my idea of a good time. (Side note: even if they don't live on my wishlist, a hidden object game never goes amiss.)

This War Of Mine: Yeah, I know, it was THE game for awhile and I'm only just now poking at it. It looks really interesting, and I'm slowly figuring out how to work the thing, but ... I think it's a little too grim for me at the moment. I need something way more sunshiney at this point. Or at least something that isn't "Everyone is living in abject misery". If I wanted that, I'd just look outside.

An Arcade Full Of Cats: More hidden object fun, and much more my speed. No particular story involved; just a "Find the cats and stuff" mandate and a bit of messing with the set dressing. It's cute, it's fun, and I guess I must not be alone in thinking that because there's a whole franchise of "Full Of Cats" hidden object games (where in some cases, there's a whole achievement based around finding the representations of the dev team's cats, so you get finding cartoon cats and real-furbaby cat tax).

Memory Fragment: Another one that's fiddlier than it needs to be, honestly. I think they were trying a little too hard with some of the mechanics. I'll probably try it again at some point.

Paradise Killer: I'm only a few minutes into this one, but it honestly wasn't grabbing me. The premise is ... probably interesting, but while I will probably carry on a little further just to see what's going on with it, the fact is that it's a first-person perspective game and those are hard for me. Might have to go into the NOPE column on general principles. And, y'know, not wanting my head to explode.

I'm pretty well resigned to not getting everything at least sampled before the end of the year. Not least because a) my birthday's coming up and for most people, hitting my Steam wishlist is just the easiest option, given the whole "ocean in the way thing" (plus maybe presents to myself, y'know), b) I actually want to finish a Baldur's Gate 3 playthrough, and c) Horizon: Forbidden West comes out in about 7 weeks and that's going to eat my time for awhile (I should probably pick up Zero Dawn again just to remind myself what I'm doing there). Plus d) the office is a mess again (that's for another post, though). Still, I'm going to keep poking away at it. There are a lot of games there, and I have a 2TB external drive (plus space remaining on the 1TB external drive I got in honour of Baldur's Gate 3), so even the ones I didn't bother installing could see a return to at least test out. Plus it'd be nice to know the ones I can just leave uninstalled in perpetuity. Also, there's the off chance that some of the first-person perspective ones could be played, if they're not too frenetic ... y'know, if I bothered to get my prescription checked. I'm looking into that but I'm trying to figure out how best to go, "Look, I just want my prescription; I'll order the glasses themselves online because it's cheaper". We'll see. I do have an entire week off coming up soon. Ugh. They're going to do that stupid eye-puff glaucoma test that always leaves me with a migraine for the rest of the day. Still, better that than the increasingly regular headaches I've been getting lately. Part of it's probably stress, but the rest is probably "my eyes are going to shit". If I didn't need varifocals, it'd be fine! Or at least cheaper!

Don't mind me. It's not a lack of being able to afford it. It's a combination of sticker shock and general frustration with the whole process. Mostly because it just has to be done again a year or two down the line. The whole problem with being an adult is having to take yourself to the doctor etc, not to mention paying for it.

#Thess plays video games #Thess is a motherfucking adult

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Why the poster for "Dick Figures: The Movie" is so good

Okay, I've done enough Meguca-posting for the time being. It's time to analyse Dick Figures stuff again!

INTRODUCTION

As all of us probably know, the early 2010s web series "Dick Figures" had a movie that was released back in 2013 (almost ten years ago now, yeesh...) simply called "Dick Figures: The Movie".

I'm sure all of us already know by now, but for those who don't: Funded through Kickstarter, the movie focuses on Red and Blue as they go on a quest to find the Great Sword of Destiny so Blue will be able to get the perfect gift for Pink's birthday.

I've already done some posts related to the movie in the past, but I want to focus on one specific thing today: The poster.

Now, I honestly always really liked this poster: The layout, the vibe, the colours, the characters' expressions/poses, the shading, everything. It just fills me with some form of strange emotion that I can't describe.

That said, though... I've been thinking it through lately, so I decided to try and break this poster down to figure out just why it's so great - which is exactly want I want to talk about today!

CHARACTERS

When you look at the poster, the first thing you notice are the characters - and for good reason. Not only do they look at their best here, but each pose and expression fits their personalites just about perfectly!

Red has a cocky open smile while looking like he's about ready to fight, his pose itself showing he's basically a master at kung-fu.

Blue, on the other hand, looks more determined as he holds the Great Sword of Destiny, his pose seeming more calm.

Lord Tourettes is his usual, bubbly self with a bright smile on his face, kind of looks like he's leaping a bit.

Pink is looking up at Blue, showing that they're both boyfriend and girlfriend. She's also holding the sacred lotus from the end of the movie.

Stacy, similarly, is looking up at Red, showing that they're also boyfriend and girlfriend. However, she's holding alcohol (both in bottle and can form), showing that she and Red are also...y'know.

Broseph, of course, is just showing off and flexing his non-existent muscles. What more can I say?

Captain Crookygrin is doing a salute, showing that he's a pilot.

Mr. Dingleberry is just Mr. Dingleberry. Not much to say here.

In the background, the Takagami demon ninjas seem to be closing in, all of them having different poses.

At the very front of all of them, peeping up from the logo is the Raccoon. He's basically the one that helped initiate Red and Blue's quest, so it only makes sense for him to be where he is.

BACKGROUND

At the very back, we can see the map from the movie that Red and Blue use during their quest, which takes up the whole background.

Alongside that, there's also fire in the background, which basically fits the whole Dick Figures vibe perfectly - as well as being weirdly reminiscent of the poster for the South Park movie (which makes sense, since they're both animated movies aimed at adults. But that doesn't stop many younger people from enjoying them anyways, so...):

Finally, there's homages to the three locations Red and Blue end up in during their quest: The mountain (where they find the handle of the sword) represents Japan, the Eiffel Tower (where they find the blade of the sword) obviously represents France, and the ground itself seems to represent the mountain behind Red and Blue's hometown (where the gem of the sword is hidden).

Also, I noticed something pretty cool a few days back: On Red's side of the poster, there seems to be blue lighting - while on Blue's side of it, there's red lighting. I find that really neat!

CONCLUSION

In conclusion, this poster is raw as all heck. It's probably one of my all-time favourite movie posters, right up there with the posters for Madoka Magica Rebellion (which actually came out the same year this movie did, coincidentally enough) and Sonic 2 (I honestly really like all three main posters, but I had to choose only one):

Honestly, it's just absolutely insane how much detail went into this poster, especially since it's for a movie about literal stick figures of all things. Then again... Putting my last two analyses related to the movie in mind, I shouldn't really be surprised.

Even despite the fact most of the characters are just coloured stick figures (alongside the fact all of the backgrounds in the actual movie are just shades of grey), you can just tell the people working on the movie put a lot of effort into it: From the animation itself, to the backgrounds, to how the characters are fleshed out from the original web-series, to even the music. Both Ed Skudder and Zack Keller were absolutely determined on making something that the fans would adore, and it payed off big-time.

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SO!

Pretty good show honestly. I think it may perhaps come off a little underwhelming compared to last time because they released the full trailers early, so it was chiefly just talking, but I was still pleased.

The only thing I really wanted out of it was one (1) of my predictions coming true and one (1) surprise, and well, between the Watase Family and Nishitani...... THREE!!!!!, that's exactly what I got. Kiryu looking up at the sky like he's struggling to remember who he (allegedly) proposed to is hilarious though same energy as Jo not remembering Ikumi's name ghdshgkdhf the exchange kind of reminded me of Ichi talking to Arakawa as well... the "don't say it in the past tense" one you know the one...

Also next summit in September so that'll be a lovely birthday present :) For Me :)

Also x2 I love seeing which of my asks you decide to reblog. Whether it's because of the actual ask or because of my commentary it always feels like a win (<- normal to want and possible to achieve)

even if Considerably underwhelming, what information's been given IS causin a lotta buzz right now so !!! pretty successful summit in some regards ( ❁´◡`❁;;)

i just wish we got to see LAD8 gameplay, that's probably the only thing i really wanted but i guess there is still the fall summit (and for your birthday's sake i hope it's a real banger one)!

#snap chats #BEEN TRYING TO REPLY TO THIS ONE FOR LIKE HALF AN HOUR NOW IM SO SORRY VLEKVKJ #i was still on the call with my friend so i couldnt think straight and i wanted to give this my full attention when responding #anyway. i dont think i have to say anything about the conversation between ichi and kiryu #mostly cause ive already been doin that with the other asks huh ☠️#DEFINITELY probably The Main Attraction to everyone tonight... so mysterious... def leavin me confused LMAO #but SO true love how ichi freely assumes arakawa was bangin back in the day but with kiryu he's like Oh God Prob Not #and i mean. is he entirely wrong ☠️#which is what makes kiryu's response all the more funnier 'been around the block' at max you got three girls #one of them arguably being your sister and the other was a mole and the other one yall separated on agreed terms #WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT SIR. he caught on proposing cause he wasnt ever with anyone long enough TO propose ☠️☠️#AH AND i actually like most- if not all- the asks you answer if that's anything :)#my main's shadowbanned so it probably doesnt show up but i always do enjoy reading your commentary or responses to people #i feel awkward rbing asks since For Some Reason in my head that's. Illegal #but sometimes there ARE topics i really wanna leave a comment or ramble bout for one reason or another #absolutely flattered it's considered a win tho cause thats how i feel whenever i see you like or rb any of my posts fjaLKJLKJA #cause yk... in a general sense im very bland or just outright foolish SO it's always cool when you enjoy my posts ♪(´▽｀)#esp when theres so much love and thought in yours- its very cool is what i can say in the Utter Most Simplest of terms #terms i have to use cause my hands starting to hurt from all the typing owie ow ow ow（；´x｀）#ill leave with saying HOPEFULLY for the next summit i can stream it... my mic worked well with my call with my friend SO #it's def ready for. whatever i got in store ok my hand REALLY hurts now i gotta cap it （；´д｀）

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Happy Louis’ birthday day! What does Louis mean to you?

thank u love!! 🫶

being that i don’t know him personally all i can speak to is the impact as an artist that he’s had on me, and getting to sort of watch him grow up while i grew up as well. so w that in mind i think i’ll just share some memories/what comes to mind when i think of him

• him being my fave from day one and getting so excited whenever we’d get some more louis solos as the 1d albums were released

• also on that note, when i was teenager i had a bestie who was also into 1d and she got us a 1d puzzle as a silly little thing to do while we were basically living together (lmao) and let me tell u his face was the first to get put together like my life depended on it and i just remember that so fondly and vividly

• the overwhelming feeling of pride when he first released just hold on, and that feeling only growing as he released solo albums and started touring. having seen him go from a lil 19yr old boy to a fully grown ass man who’s doing his own thing and doing it so well has been such a source of inspiration for me and i’m so so so proud of him

• similarly, having also lost a parent recently and trying to keep finding my own creative path, it amazes me that louis has been able to do everything he’s done in the last few years. like it seriously leaves me speechless thinking about it. and honestly i really needed someone to look up to that i know has been through their own version of the same thing, it’s helped keep me going these last few months and only makes me want to keep growing even tho it’s harder than it’s ever been before. again, words can’t fully describe how i fully feel about this tbh

• i’ve said this before a million times but seeing him live is an experience that will always be so dear to my heart. he brought such a sense of safety and community into that venue and even in the lineup waiting to get in. he seems to have this energy to him that allows others to feel safe to be themselves completely and also be kind and take care of one another, and that is exactly what i want to do w my life in my own way. i admire that about him so fucking much.

• also finding community through fandom surrounding him in particular has been both insane and amazing and i love my louie mutuals w all my heart <3

• i also can’t not talk about the amount of Gender he’s always been giving. lately he has been a really good person for me to look to fashion-wise as I’ve been carving out my own gender expression, and i may or may not use him as a reference when i get my hair cut now fhhdjsks

anyway. i’m endlessly grateful for him and his music and i hope that 32 is another great year for him 💙

#can rowyn answer a simple question without an essay-length response? no #i apologize 🫶#anyway thank uuuu hope ur doin well!#asks #louispositivityanon

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If I Could Only Keep 10 Decks

I simultaneously love and hate questions like this. On one hand, it makes you evaluate everything and look at what's really important to you. On the other hand, thinking of letting things go sucks. But when I looked at my decks, I found that the choices were easier than I thought they would be. I decided to choose 5 tarot decks and 5 oracle decks for balance. I'll start with the tarot cards.

Tarot Cards

Sacred Rose Tarot

We're starting at the very beginning. This is the deck that my dad bought me for my birthday when I was 12. I had seen tarot used on TV or a movie, and was completely obsessed with it. All I wanted that year was a tarot deck. So Dad took me to a metaphysical store called The Sphynx in Midtown Atlanta, and bought my first deck. It was really hard to learn on, but it's incredibly precious to me. I couldn't let this deck go if I tried.

Pamela Colman Smith Commemorative Rider Waite Smith

I ordered this deck from the UK before the American version came out. And I'm glad I did, because the colors on the American version are washed out and dull. I also trimmed the white borders off, and edged this deck in black. It looks great and it feels really good to shuffle. It's my ride-or-die deck. I use it to read at DragonCon and any other events because it's just such a good reader. It loves to read for other people, but it doesn't really read for me well at all. I'm OK with that. I think that you need a deck that's primarily for other people. It's my travel deck that goes everywhere in my purse with me!

Thoth Tarot

I bought this as a study deck and forgot about it for a few years. I read somewhere that the 3 of Cups was associated with Persephone, and I was hooked! I started studying it here and there when I got a chance, but never really did a deep dive. Then, in 2022, I used it for my daily draws every day, and I learned a lot. I love this deck and its layers of symbolism. I should use it more, but I love having it near me. I could spend years studying this deck and never get tired.

The Forhaxa Tarot

I love this deck for a few reasons. First, the art is absolute perfection. It's so complex and layered. Second, it's based on Swedish folklore. I don't know most of the references, but it makes me want to study the tales. Third, it was given to me by my awesome husbear. A trifecta of awesome!

The Alleyman's Tarot

What can I say about the Alleyman's Tarot? If you know, you know. It's just so fuckin' COOL. It's a mixed deck of cards from different artists that come together to make a jumbled, crazy mess of fantastic art. And you're encouraged to bend the cards (I could never), write on the cards (I have), and even get rid of the cards you don't like (I just set them neatly aside). The Alleyman has a few other neat tricks up his sleeve, including a dice set (that reads really well), and he's coming out with some oracle decks as a Kickstarter early next year. LOVE!

Oracle Cards

The Faeries Oracle

This is one of my oldest decks. I can't remember exactly when I bought it, but It wasn't that long after it was released in 2000. I just love Brian Froud. And believe it or not, this deck is a good reader. The messages are deep and meaningful. I don't read with it often, but when I do, it always reads true. I love it!

Tea Leaf Fortune Cards

I really don't know much about reading tea leaves, but these cards are just cool. They're small and round, and they come with a huge bag that you can 'shuffle' them in. I should definitely use these more than I do, but if I had to make a choice about my 10 decks, they would definitely make the cut.

The Arcane Bullshit Oracle

This deck is an irreverent collection of weirdness and I love it. Again, the husbear bought it for me, and that gives it a special place in my heart, but I honestly love how this deck thumbs its nose at how serious cartomancers can take themselves. It's a big 'fuck you' to anyone who can't take a joke, and I'm here for it.

Seasons of the Witch Samhain Oracle

This deck is MOODY AF. The art is stunning in shades of black and grey with pops of red, and the messages are creepy and eerie like you would want in a Samhain deck. And the red edges? COME ON. Beautiful. This deck is so much better than the Yule version, which screws everything up with all the thys and thous that are misused. It really begs to be used in the dark half of the year. The Mabon and Beltane editions are really great too, it's a shame the Yule oracle is written so weirdly. I'm sure I'll still collect all the sabbats.

The Herbal Astrology Oracle

This is still a pretty new deck to me, and I admit I haven't delved into it like I would like. But there's just SO MUCH TO LEARN and dive into with this deck. It's deep. And the first time I read with it, it gave a really intense reading that I won't go into details about because it hasn't come to pass yet. I can tell that this deck is accurate and will give good messages, though. I could spend years on this deck and still feel like I have more to learn. And the art is stunning! ******** So that's it! That's my list. How about you? Do you have some favorite decks that you could never part with? Or decks that you keep around because you keep intending to spend more time with them? What are your 10 decks? Let me know in the comments. Blessed be! Read the full article

#cartomancy #decks #divination #oracle #pagan #tarot #wicca #witchcraft

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your-dietician · 2 years

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Dunkin’ changed its rewards program. Devotees of the coffee brand are expressing their outrage on Reddit.

New Post has been published on https://medianwire.com/dunkin-changed-its-rewards-program-devotees-of-the-coffee-brand-are-expressing-their-outrage-on-reddit/

Dunkin’ changed its rewards program. Devotees of the coffee brand are expressing their outrage on Reddit.

An army of loyal Dunkin’ fans has risen up against their favorite coffee chain after it rolled out a new rewards program that they say makes it more difficult to earn a free drink of their choice.

The previous DD Perks program offered a free drink of any kind at $40 spent. The new Dunkin’ Rewards system, unveiled last week, requires customers to spend $70 to get a free crafted drink such as an espresso, cold brew or refresher. Customers also no longer get a free drink on their birthdays.

Such changes ignited a rowdy discussion on the /DunkinDonuts subreddit, where users vented their frustrations and vowed to ditch the coffee brand they said they were once loyal to.

“I no longer run on Dunkin,” wrote one Reddit user, referring to the chain’s slogan: “America runs on Dunkin’.”

“Rip dunks, it was nice while you were actually rewarding, even tho you only got my drinks right 1/3 of the time,” the same user added, using an emoji of a gravestone.

Though it has thousands of locations scattered across the United States, Dunkin’ has long held onto a loyal customer base in the Northeast, where it is headquartered. It’s so beloved there that the recent closing of two Dunkin’ locations in Stow, Massachusetts, left the town in mourning. Since its inception in 1950, the chain has become a go-to for many across the country who rely on it as an affordable coffee fix.

Dunkin’ has seen the backlash online, but it appears to be sticking to its new plan.

“After a few years, it was time for a change,” the official Dunkin’ account tweeted, in response to one user asking why the company enacted a different rewards system. “We listened to our members’ feedback and made several new enhancements like redeeming points for rewards on food and drinks!”

In a statement to NBC News, Dunkin’ president Scott Murphy elaborated.

“Change is always going to be an adjustment, but in the long run, Dunkin’ loyalists will benefit even more,” Murphy said. “Dunkin’ Rewards is all about choice for our members; with a more dynamic rewards structure where they start earning rewards at a lower spend threshold, they can redeem points for a wider variety of food and beverages and choose when and how they use their points.”

He also referred NBC News to the original press release announcing the rewards.

Still, many Dunkin’ devotees say they are ditching the brand for good. Some in the Reddit forum said they’ve already uninstalled the app in favor of making coffee at home or switching to a different chain.

“I might just make the switch to Wawa or Starbucks just out of spite,” another Redditor posted. “Thanks Dunkin.”

Others have made posts breaking down the math of exactly how the two programs differ as customers express outrage about the company advertising Dunkin’ Rewards as an upgrade when, to many, it seemed to be the opposite.

“Honestly, this is what pisses me off the most,” a commenter posted. “The changes to the reward program are one thing, but the attempt to gaslight customers into thinking they’re getting a better deal is sickeningly unethical.”

The backlash has spilled over to Twitter, where people continue to rally against Dunkin’ as they lament that their daily coffee is no longer worth buying.

Ryan Gonzalez said he has gotten his coffee from Dunkin’ for eight years. But in the days since its new rewards program took over, the 21-year-old college student has been looking elsewhere for his daily caffeine fix.

Gonzalez, who attends school in the Boston area, said he visited Dunkin’ frequently enough to earn a beverage of choice at least every other week. But now, instead of waiting longer and spending more money for that same free drink, he’s been getting his coffee from the dining hall or making it at home.

“Dunkin’ was always the more affordable, true-to-their-roots coffee chain, especially compared to Starbucks, which is more of a premium coffee chain,” he said. “It’s Dunks. It was a lot more simple. But now it feels like Dunkin’ is trying to become Starbucks and it’s just kind of losing its identity as the brand that I love.”

Knowlton Anderson, who lives in New York City, said where he gets his coffee on any given day typically depends on whichever rewards program will benefit him most.

Anderson, 22, said Dunkin’ and Starbucks are equidistant from his apartment, but that he’ll be choosing the latter a lot more, as well as trying out more of the city’s local coffee shops.

“I think there’s been such a strong reaction online because Dunkin’ kind of positions itself as the people’s coffee, and this feels very much like a move to drive out the everyday consumer to try to elevate their brand,” Anderson said. “It’s trying to position as if you’re getting more access to better options through this new upgrade, but if you break down the math, it’s pretty clear to see that you’re not.”

Latiesha Perritt, 30, said she would pick up a Dunkin’ coffee three to five times a week on her way to work, often earning a free drink every week. But Peritt, a Sterling, Virginia, resident, said after Dunkin’ made its announcement, she’s planning to roll back how often she buys her coffee rather than making it at home.

Having worked at a Dunkin’ before, Perritt said she’s seen firsthand how strong the customer base is. The same faces returned to the store day after day, she said, so losing their loyalty might come with costly consequences for the company.

“It’s kind of like a slap in the face as a customer,” she said.

Many of those lashing out online say they just hope for a return to the old Dunkin’ plan.

As one Twitter user joked, “i need us all to collectively manifest the downfall of dunkin rewards so they bring back dd perks.”

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darkmulti · 3 years

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-> 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐚 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞, 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐦𝐨𝐝𝐞

-> 𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭, 𝐲𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐟𝐢𝐚 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐝.

-> 𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

-> releasing this a bit early because we reached 4K+!! Thank you guys so much! I love you all<3

-> THIS PROFILE CONTAINS DUB-CON AND NON-CON THEMES! PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

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It was a Saturday night — the busiest day of the week. You worked at the strip club, not as an exotic dancer but as a waiter. The money you were making was just enough for you to survive on your own.

Tonight, you wanted to ask your boss if you could start working as a dancer. You packed your new dancewear and everything you might need in case the boss says yes. It was around 4 pm when you arrived. You walked to your boss’s office and gently knocked on the door.

“Come in”

You grab the door handle and push the door open, revealing your boss Taehyung with a glass of whiskey in his hand.

“Hello, little one. What can I help you with?”

You thought the nickname was creepy at first, and when you politely asked him to stop calling you that, he said that he had a nickname for every employee. Over time, you’ve grown used to it. And you’d be lying if you said that it didn’t give you butterflies in your stomach.

“I know this is sudden, but can I start dancing?”

Taehyung squeezed the glass cup tightly, almost shattering it with his bare hand.

“But why? You’re just a little angel. Angels don’t sin, little one.”

“Sir, I really need money. I want to go back to school and get a degree so I can have a permanent job.”

There was a pause of silence before you spoke up again.

“I-I can show you my skills. I’ve been practicing. I even brought my dancewear.”

Taehyung shoots you a glare. It was intense and almost threatening. He sighs as he puts the glass of whiskey on his desk and walks to the couch, where he sat down with his muscular thighs spread apart.

“Go wear your little outfit and come back here.”

You innerly smile and leave to the dressing room to change. Once the door closed, Taehyung let out a chuckle. He’s never going to allow you to be a dancer, he just wants to watch you for his pleasure.

After adjusting your straps and fixing up your hair, you sprayed some perfume around your neck and walk back to his office.

“Sir, I’m ready.”

“Good, now come in and lock the door.”

You did as told then remove your robe. It didn’t take long for Taehyung’s member to harden after seeing your body on full display. Taehyung turned some music on then said “the stage is all yours, little one.”

You’ve been practicing for months, just for this moment. Bending over and whipping your hair back, showing off your beautiful body to him. Taehyung motioned you to come to him, so you can give him a lap dance.

He placed his hands on your hips and made you grind on his bulge. Your face warmed up after feeling his boner that you caused. Taehyung started moving his hips with yours, making you whimper.

His hands moved to your breast and gave it a light squeeze. “Sir, I thought touching is not allowed.”

“I’m the boss. I make the rules. Right now, touching is allowed.” You were too naive to understand that he was manipulating you.

30 minutes pass and you finally stop and take a step back.

“So... what did you think?”

You were expecting a positive response and even a praise but you got the complete opposite.

“I’m sorry, little one. You’re not good enough. I can give you a raise but I’m not letting you become a dancer.”

“But what if I practice more? Could you reconsider?!”

“No is my final answer, little one. I’m a very busy man and I don’t have time to watch you dance just for you to fail.”

Embarrassed. You felt so embarrassed. You genuinely thought Taehyung was enjoying your show. Well, it sure as hell looked like it. A gloomy look took over your face and you walked towards the door to leave.

“Don’t give me that pouty face, little one.”

Taehyung abruptly pulled you on his lap and attached his lips to yours. You didn’t respond until Taehyung’s hand spanked your butt, causing you to moan.

“Grind on me, baby. I know you want it just as much as I do.”

You rubbed your clit harder against his bulge until you released. “Keep moving, little one. Help daddy cum too.” He growled, before grabbing your face and kissing you again. Deep moans left his mouth turning you on even more. His hands all over your body — it felt euphoric.

Taehyung let out one last groan before cumming in his pants. “Fuck! You’re so fucking good.” he kissed your jawline and moved down to your neck.

“How about this, little one. You become my personal dancer and I pay you money. You can stay with me, I’ll buy you everything you need as long as you accompany me and satisfy my sexual needs.”

“Like a sugar daddy?”

“Exactly”

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Rules:

No dating

No lying

No revealing clothes

If something is wrong, tell him

No swearing

Don’t be bratty

Obey him

Never reject his kisses

Don’t leave without his permission

Answer his calls and texts immediately

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How he’s like:

Taehyung’s a charming, gentleman

He treats you like a queen

He never ignores you

You’re his first priority

This man spoils the shit out of you

He buys you luxurious clothes and accessories

For your birthday, he bought you a brand new Porsche convertible

Taehyung’s very possessive, but you honestly don’t mind

You love spending time with him anyways

Anytime another male is too close to you, he wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you closer to him

If you hug him, his hands will immediately go down to your ass and grab it

He’s very affectionate

Even at important events, Taehyung will always hug you, kiss your lips, cheeks and forehead in front of anyone

Sometimes you forget that you’re his sugar baby because he treats you like his wife

Your opinion matters to him

Whether it’s a big or small decision, he always wants to hear what you think

In the morning, he makes you breakfast

Especially if you had a long night with him (if ykyk)

When he’s doing work, he makes you sit on his lap and do some cock warming

Taehyung loves travelling with you

He’d rent out expensive villas or hotel room

Taehyung loves swimming with you

The man enjoys your company

You’re so lovable, sweet and innocent

It was almost like you were made for him

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Yandere Taehyung:

Taehyung was secretly obsessed with you

After he hired you as a waiter, he wanted to know everything about you

Since the job application required your address, Taehyung knew where you lived

He broke into your apartment and hid tiny cameras in places you’d never see

There were cameras in your kitchen, living room, bedroom and bathroom

He did this to keep an eye on you and make sure that you’re not seeing another man

When you’re at work, Taehyung stops by your apartment and takes some of your underwear to get off

He hacked into all your social media accounts, unfollowed guys he didn’t like and checked your dm’s regularly to make sure nobody was trying to get with you

If you made plans with your friends, Taehyung would show up (in disguise) and watch you from afar

Whenever you had plans or even a date, Taehyung would call you and say that more waiters are needed and he will pay extra because it’s an emergency

So you end up cancelling on your friends/date which angers them

Soon, your friends stopped inviting you to hang out because you always cancel last minute because of work

Taehyung’s plan was too isolated you from your friends which gives him the perfect opportunity to swoop in and be your one and only companion

And what do you know, his plan worked

Not only that but since you have no friends anymore, you’re always with him

So he never has to worry about you fooling around behind his back

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Sex Life:

Taehyung was incredible in bed

He never failed to satisfy your sexual needs

You’ve both tried so many kinky things in bed and it was honestly fun

He was addicted to eating you out

Hickeys all over your body. Between your thighs, on your stomach and chest. All over your neck, collar bone and jawline.

Taehyung loves marking what’s his

Traditional rough sex + doggy

But hey, it gets the job done

Three round minimum, 7 rounds maximum

Taehyung will always cum inside of you

He loves watching himself cum into your little hole

He gets more turned on when watches cum his leaking out of your hole and running down your thigh

Dry humping is something he’s into

The idea of both of your coming without having actual sex drives him crazy

Blowjobs for days

He loves watching you suck him off

Make eye contact with him while you suck and he’ll have an orgasm

You must swallow all of his cum

Don’t spit it out

Before Taehyung got you, he used to use your underwear to masturbate

You eventually started to notice that a bunch of your panties disappeared

Therefore, Taehyung returned most of them (except for his favourites), some washed, some not

Taehyung could literally cum to the thought of you wearing panties covered in his dried-up cum

It made him hard just thinking about it

Over time, you notice Taehyung becoming more aggressive in bed

It would get so bad that you’d have to use the safe word to get him to stop

You noticed he started doing things he’s never discussed with you before

Sometimes, you cry under him because he scares you

He’d pin your hands above your head and fuck as hard as he could

You were not used to it nor were you a big fan of it

He was taking everything out on you

Taehyung would start at 21:30 and finish at 04:00

Unknowingly, Taehyung’s yandere side took over him

Some may know him as V

His cruel and sadistic side who felt no remorse whatsoever

V’s kinks are dark and heavy

He choked you until you couldn’t breathe, tied you up so you couldn’t move, and slapped you when you asked him to stop

V enjoyed watching you cry too

Overstimulation was the worst part

Your core was crying for a break but V couldn’t care less

The man fucked you until you passed out

Minimum 7 rounds, maximum... there’s no maximum

In the morning, he’d still be deep in you and depending on his mood, he may or may not fuck you again

At this point, you didn’t care if it was Taehyung or V, you needed to leave him

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Trying to break off the (3 years) contract:

This is when Taehyung goes fucking insane.

After nights of relentless sex, you finally decide to break the contract. You couldn’t handle the abuse anymore. Sex every night to “remind you of your place” was complete bullshit. You stayed with him for two more months, hoping that the old, sweet Taehyung would come back and save you.

Unfortunately, he never did. After you lost all hope, you wanted to get away from Taehyung as soon as possible. He can keep all the gifts and money he’s given you if that means freedom.

You woke up only to see Taehyung missing from the bed. He must’ve gone to work, you thought. You get ready and pack all of the clothes you brought to his mansion. You write a small message on a notepad, saying that it’s over. You didn’t dare to tell him face to face because you knew exactly where it would’ve lead to.

You left his mansion and took the bus back to your apartment. An hour later, Taehyung was blowing up your phone, spamming you with messages.

“Where the fuck are you?!”

“Answer my calls!”

“Explain the message on the notepad!”

“What do you mean that we’re “done” ?”

“The contract’s not over yet! I still fucking own you.”

“Get your ass over here!”

“You’re making your punishment worse for yourself.”

“How can you say goodbye to me like this?! Do I mean nothing to you?!”

“You’re going to regret this!”

“Come back here, now!”

“Stay where you are, I’m on my way!”

You started to tear up because you were petrified. You drop your phone in fear and ran into your closet. You hid in a basket full of your clothes so no one could see you. Not even a minute passed and Taehyung was banging on your apartment door.

“OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR, Y/N.”

You covered your mouth, stopping the sobs from coming out. You needed to find a weapon. You looked around your closet and that’s when you spotted something.

A camera.

A tiny camera is hidden in plain sight. Your heart dropped to your stomach. How long has that been there? Who placed it there? Your mind immediately went to Taehyung. You were trying to connect the dots but how could he have possibly gotten into your apartment?

You stopped questioning when you heard Taehyung break down the door. He came right to your bedroom and opened the closet door. He pulled out the basket you were hiding. “Get up.”

That’s when you knew the camera belonged to him. He knew your exact location. You couldn’t help but wonder how long he’s been watching you.

You take a deep breath in and stand up. Taehyung’s fierce eyes encountered your terrified ones. He grabbed your jaw and pulled your face close to his.

“What the fuck were you thinking?! You nearly gave me a heart attack! I thought one of my enemies kidnapped you but no! You just left me with a shitty ass note.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Sorry?!” Taehyung pinched the bridge of his nose. “SORRY?! THAT’S ALL YOU FUCKING GOT?!”

He picked up your glass jewelry box and threw it on the floor. The whole thing shattered, causing you to burst out in tears. “T- Taehyung! Stop! Stop it! You’re scaring me!”

“Good bitch. Seems like I haven’t scared you enough because you still have the nerve to fucking leave me.”

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Omg, I finally wrote something after months of being an unproductive piece of shit.

This is bad, but I still hope you enjoyed 😊

Oh and I apologize for any mistakes. Like always, I’m half asleep:)

xoxo,

naina❣️

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