saw another 'cannibalism as a metaphor for love' tiktok and it made me think of nick and troy, specifically this scene:
i know the scene isn't really about cannibalism (they're basically eating human brain but it's from the infected so?? idk. cannibalism.), it’s about the drug use. but my point is, i'm absolutely insane and my brain started over analyzing this whole part of 3x14 and how it can be seen as a metaphor for troy accepting his sexuality. allow me to elaborate:
nick takes the drug almost instantly, without any hesitation = he’s comfortable with his sexuality
on the other hand, troy doesn’t like the idea of taking the drug and he tries to convince nick to leave (which i honestly think is really sweet, it shows how much he cares about nick, but i’ll talk about that in some other post) = troy has internalized homophobia
however, when he notices that everyone in the room, including nick, is watching him and waiting for him to take the drug, he just goes for it. he allows himself to explore a part of his identity that he was too scared to accept until now. troy was finally away from the ranch and from his father. he felt safe with nick at el bazaar.
after that, we can see that troy is finally truly happy, probably for the first time in his whole life. happy with nick. they’re both smiling and laughing together in the next scene and are just being themselves. troy even says that he’s grateful to nick for that night (in 3x15, when he’s talking to madison) and i feel like that’s something we need to talk about more. it’s beautiful :( <3
(the cointoss of destiny is giving you a trickkkkkk)
(tw: knife, kidnapping, manhandling)
"Happy Halloween, thanks for stopping by-! Sorry, the candy bowl is just a little bit inside. It's too chilly for me to come to the door! Just step inside a little furthe- there you go-"
There's a knife at your gut as you're shoved against the door, forcing it shut again.
Phoebe Green's "Maniac" is THE Trick song because the lyrics are them hear me out
You play girls like a man, (Nick)
but your eyes are like a child (either of them, but especially Nick's eyes are sad and puppy all the time)
(Especially in this scene)
Your face is cool and calm, but your hair is wrecked and wild (very obviously nick)
You hide behind your metaphors and pray that no one sees the fare behind your poker face: (consider Troy's "you stayed at the ranch because you love me" and children of violence speech)
Your dark and twisted needs (Nick's drug addiction, Troy's mommy issues, his experiments)
The girls all think you love them, but they make you feel sick (possibly Troy's not being straight and toxic Madison thing)
You smile and whisper in their ear but drop them just as quick (far fetched but Nick staying when Luciana left)
The bottles 'round the back all contain the hearts of lovers (Troy killing Mike, I don't believe they had anything besides friendship but still)
Lipstick stains on the pillow and lies under the covers (I literally don't believe in Nick and Luci)
Let me in, wear me out
Let me in, wear me out
Let me in, wear me out
Let me in, wear me out
(the push and pull Nick and Troy have going on, constantly pointing guns @ eachother)
Your fragile heart and your paper skin (Troy ft. trauma, basement, spoon, and hammer)
Such a beautiful boy filled with so much sin (LITERALLY TROY. and also Nick, but especially Troy, self-explanatory)
Your reflection is your very worst enemy ("you and me are more alike than you think," -Troy @ Nick
"you share the same self-destruction," -Alicia @ Nick
"maybe I'm as sick as he is." "He's a murderer." "Just don't forget what he is" - Nick @ Alicia/Madison)
Behind the glass is an angel, but the devil's beneath (the scene where Troy warns Nick of the horde (with the broken window) and overall the lines of who the 'bad guy' is being blurred(who is behind and who beneath the glass = angel/devil)
You smile at the moon even though it's haunting you (Nick's insomnia/sleeplessness)
You wonder if it ever feels as lonely as you do (literally Troy.)
Your nose is always bleeding but it's fine 'cause it looks pretty (Nick constantly being covered in blood)
It doesn't scare you like it did before the angel city (Los Angeles being Nick's starting point and all (self-explanatory))
(Goofy ahh pic I know)
You maniac, you tortured artist, do you crave attention? (Troy, self-explanatory)
Your shaking hands a consequence of how much you don't mention (both of them prob. Being reluctant to talk about the past, still being affected a lot by it, though(sort of headcanon/sort of canon))
Your mind was made of magic, now its ugly and diseased (Alicia talks about how she used to look up to Nick (this land is your land) and then the drug use. Also, Nick being like his dad and suicidal. Troy being twisted like he is)
Hell is in your head, and your head's between your knees (most definitely both of them, again a headcanon but self-explanatory)
Let me in, wear me out
Let me in, wear me out
Your fragile heart and your paper skin
Such a beautiful boy filled with so much sin
Your reflection is your very worst enemy
Behind the glass is an angel, but the devil's beneath
(See the first time these appear)
You're so lonely, choked on money (not sure about this one as money doesn't play any role here)
Do you ever feel like you completely? ("You'll never feel freer or more yourself than when it's five in the morning and the sun's about to rise and you're out of your mind")
You're so quiet, eyes look tired (Nick fr)
You look like you're barely alive (them 24/7)
You're unreal, I can feel every single bone by your spine (had they gotten together properly :\ )
You're so pretty when you're spitting in the sink, but you can't think straight (Troy after getting beat up, probably)
Ace Attorney ask: What do you think the favorite teas of each of the prosecutors would be? (The ones from aa1-6, but you can include others as you'd like : >)