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birdmomblogs · 2 years

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Who's your fav out of the chain??

Hello Anon,

I’m finally getting around to this :D

I list most of my faves in my bio but I'm just going to assume you want full details so let me shift into awooga mode. List below the cut!

I have top 3 favourites in the chain: Warriors, Wind and Four in that order.

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1. Warriors is my number one fave. I love the fanon characterization of him being real fruity and a bit of a himbo but it's the canon characterization of him that really tickles my fancy. He's intelligent and strategic in battle of course but more than that he acts as a big brother figure in the chain. The Sunset arc is probably the best representation of his personality so far:

This mans ZOOMS to help Wolfie not even knowing they were Twi but instead under the assumption that this Wolf was an important ally to Twi. Like, HELLO??? His captainship is really *mwah* chef's kiss, here.

And then the big brother moments he has in Sunset got me sobbing. He keeps a lighthearted attitude for Twilight, which in my opinion was to distract him from whatever trauma his wounds were currently suffering. He doesn't act this way out of ego which some may interpret this as. To me, this really just shows his experience and skills in handling these types of situations... But then they are also joking around like brothers would. It’s so <3333333

BUT THEN MORE IMPORTANTLY HIS INTERACTIONS WITH WIND??? BESTIE... HELLO??? THE HAIR RUFFLE??? CUTIES! (See more cute pics here). I also just have so much appreciation for the fact that Warriors still treats Wind as the kid he deserves to be... but then I see that Wars still respects the fact that Wind is a hero and is entirely capable like the rest of them.

My last point for Warriors is that he's just so handsome, for Hylia's sake!!! I lovw him!!! Okay??? 💙 (collage images from here)

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2. Wind is a close second or honestly probably tied for first since my views on Warriors and Wind are so intrinsically linked with their brotherly dynamic. Any content I can get of Wind spending time with Warriors is something I will FEAST on. I need more. I need to be fed!

Wind reminds me a lot of my nephew who is the same age as him so I’m a bit endeared to Wind in that way. My nephew lives in the Canadian Maritimes so his love of all things related to nature, the ocean, boating and sea life and his dream to be a fisherman when he grows up is just so Wind. Because of all this, I see him as a direct parallel to Wind and can imagine what interacting with our LU boy would be like.

My nephew genuinely acts like this:

May be an unpopular opinion but I genuinely still think that Wind deserves to be treated like a kid because the others never really got that privilege before they grew up. I think it's incredibly unfair to expect Wind to relive his cycle of trauma with the expectations and duties of being the hero. Let him be a kid no matter his protests... at least sometimes. I will die on this hill.

He’s also just a very sweet and adorable boy. I guess it’s my mature and parental attitude saying this but he shouldn’t have to grow up so fast. I mean this as there’s a difference between treating him like an adult and treating him like a kid that is skilled and has gone through a lot. I just want him to be happy and will protect my blorbo at all costs as if he was another nephew of mine 🧡 (collage images from here)

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3. Four is my last fave! The Four Swords manga was my introduction to the Legend of Zelda fandom so they hold a special place in my heart because of that. Four is an incredibly interesting character to me. He’s cool, level-headed, a bit sassy, sensitive, mysterious, ambiguous... *pats Four on the head*, this fella can fit so much character in himself.

I guess it’s the mystery that I find so interesting. Four hasn’t had a big spotlight yet. Honestly, his only real moment has been the last couple Sunset updates and because of this there has been so many fan interpretations of him and I LOVE the variety of it. Is he a kid? Is he an adult? How do the colours work? etc. etc. ALSO HIS MINISH STUFF??? WHEN WILL WE GET TO SEE THAT? I AM SO INTRIGUED! I genuinely can’t wait to learn more! He has so many secret powers. I just really want to know how they will be used in the story. It’s the mystery and my childhood bias, anon.

Anyways, here’s some pics of the short king himself, Four our beloved 💙💚💜❤️ (collage images from here)

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If anyone read this whole post through, thank you for listening to me mutter on about my blorbos. I would be happy to do so again!

Lots of love, Birdo 💛💛💛

#birdmom posts #linked universe #linkeduniverse #linked universe warriors #linked universe wind #linked universe four #lu warriors #lu wind #lu four #💙#🧡#💙💚💜❤️#I hope y’all enjoy since this was fun to write #thanks for the ask #i love getting lil messages :)#warriors my beloved #wind my beloved #four my beloved #lu brainrot

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remcycl333 · 1 year

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I just saw this and thank you so much😭😭 I know I answered quickly but I'm so thankful for your answer, I saw a few blogs(you'd know them if I brought them up) admitting to being religious/believing in an external God and it freaked me tf out, because the question kept going in my head "how can they believe in one thing, if it completely contradicts the other belief they have?" And yea I know people can believe in God but still be in law of assumption, it's just the way they talk about it, you believe you're God and have control but still believe there's an external source out there controlling you and everyone else??

Thank you for being so sweet, a few blogs on here have a tendency to call anons pathetic or scold them like the anons are their children even though the anons just asked an innocent question or was scared about something, it's the reason I came to you because I've never seen you do this before, I trust you completely 😭

I used to be very religious and I hated it, I questioned everything, the hate, the constant "they're gonna go to hell, that's a sin, you're gonna go to hell," bs and I always thought "there has to be more to this, I can't suffer my whole life and then suffer more when I die," so when I saw those posts, I got so upset since they were from some of my favorite bloggers and I didn't expect a reaction from me like that because I'd never reacted so badly to anything on here☹️ I respect people's beliefs especially because my beliefs were violated even when I was told the same by very "loving" christians but I couldn't help the curiosity and fear coming back to me. I was going extremely well before I saw that so I'll probably have to be reassuring myself and not being as scared or upset for the next few days, I might sound ridiculous to some that I got upset by a simple post talking about that but the trauma goes very deep.

Once again, thank you😭😭😭 I love you and adore you so much😭😭💖💖😭💖😭💖

love you!!! i'm so glad i was able to help you<3

"there has to be more to this, I can't suffer my whole life and then suffer more when I die," that line made me so sad bc it's truly how it is when you're a child/teenager and your parents are religious. i remember when i told my fam i didn't believe in god and they all told me i was going to hell. i just said "haha ok" bc i don't even believe in hell anyway. but it's such an awful thing to tell a child. a lot of times instead of parenting you they just tell you you're going to hell for doing/believing something. it can be scary! and i don't judge you at all for having a reaction to seeing people talking about religion while also talking about something that probably brings you peace/solace/freedom.

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sizzleissues · 11 months

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"Aesthetic" spaces are not living spaces. Living spaces have traces of people living there. People on the Tok and the Gram film only when they cleaned it all up, but otherwise it's the same - somewhere better, somewhere worse. Either that, or they waste a lot of time and energy maintaining the level of clean not seen even in an IKEA parody room

You seem to be carrying a lot of shame for not being this and that. But even though your post is pretty long (and relatable and interesting), I've never once seen something specific you want to achieve. Just a general sense of "I'm not good enough". If you had a specific, realistic goal, you could achieve it. But there isn't one yet

So, if you want to be "productive" - why? What do you want to achieve with that? Or, rather, how do you think you would feel if you meet your own standarts? Do you think you even have a bar you want to reach or will it get higher with every achievement, still conveniently in the "not good enough" zone?

I'm sorry for not asking for permission and going all couch therapist on you, on anon of all things. I'm sorry for making assumptions. But it's 2 am, I'm tired and read a post my 4-years-ago self would identify *hard* with. I wish I was kind to myself back then. The past is in the past, but you can be kind to yourself now. You deserve to actually live and be yourself in your own space. We want lots of things we feel like we need. But I wish you find whatever you actually need in your life. I hope I didn't overstep, forgive me if I did. Take care. Love, internet stranger <3

Thank you anon for your concern <3 It’s very sweet of you

In terms of the actual post, think of it more of a general person rather than myself even though I used the me/myself/I pronoun. It was a writing exercise and a brief flirtation with annoyance. It is very negative and self-pitying since it reflects a feeling I think a lot of people experience, even if they don’t dwell on it and grow past it like you did.

So the ‘i’ in the piece isn’t me, it’s someone, it’s everyone. It’s a literally style. It’s my criticism of the unhealthy sense of perfection social media promotes in order to feel deserving. But it’s also me spit balling at an equally late hour and instead of just writing a condemnation of the mental state, I wrote from the state.

That said, it’s still personal to me, so yeah, it’s indeed something I have struggle with. Can’t pull all those thought’s out my ass! Writing is repacking personal experiences with a little it of changing the details garnish. But the beauty is you don’t know when I’m making something up or being genuine. Still what you’ve said is something I’m bringing to therapy since you’ve pointed out things I didn’t realise were in my thought processes and now can help me articulate them in real life. So thank you!

Little extra-

It’s my dislike of our current economic climate, my desire to break free from it and my crumbling to conform to it anyway. The burn-out of trying to improve oneself or the environment but going about it in all the wrong ways and being overcome with guilt over failing. Things I’ve worked on but I’m not so far removed from to access that mindset. That’s a relatable experience, I think, and necessary in developing compassion. Trying to live an ‘aesthetic’ life it just one symptom of a problem. (If this was a lit class this is what you’d bullshit about in an essay lol)

#anon answered #sizzle rambles #mine #sorry for length #Also all the love I am quite tired but my thinking brain quite awake #And literally the reason I wrote is because I’m currently moving and my stuff is everywhere so I’m more conscious of my space

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miastideclock · 2 years

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stray kids, love at first sight

anon asked:

Can you please make stray kids (bang chan, changbin, lino) reaction when they see you for the first time

one love at first sight coming right up

word count; 2,2k

bang chan

silent corridors, an empty building. mostly. a studio emitted a soft sound, as a producer was sat there with his headphones snug on his head. a sigh escaped his lips, then another one- getting more and more irritated by the second. the chair was uncomfortable, the room was too warm, the back of his head wouldn't stop itching, but most importantly - the song chan was working on just wouldn't come together.

the silence of the otherwise quiet building was suddenly disturbed, as the sliding door on the first floor let in a breath of fresh air. a pair of heels clicked through the lobby, and into the elevator, echoing for no one to hear.

in a moment of unprecedented rage, chan tore his headphones off, letting them fall to the floor, his head buried in his hands in frustration. he let out a groan and fell back into his chair. however, his irritation was soon replaced by confusion as he heard footsteps in the hallway. getting up from his chair, he tiptoed to where the studio door stood ajar. peeking outside, he saw a girl, or a woman - she was at the other end of the corridor.

she looked lost, and considering it was almost two in the morning, chan felt pretty confident that his assumption was correct.

"can i help you?" he asked, his voice slicing through the air, very obviously startling the woman. after jolting, she snapped her head in his direction, letting out a sigh of relief as there was no danger.

"actually, yes. i was looking for conference room six? my boss forgot some documents." she said and got closer to him.

as she stepped towards him, he felt his knees grow weaker while he took in the details of her face. chan wasn't the overly romantic type, but he swore on his life that she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.

"uh, yeah sure- i can show you there right now." he forced himself to not stutter and stumble over his words, closing the door behind him as he stepped into the corridor fully. she thanked him and he lead the way down the hall and around the corner. "uhm, who is your boss anyways? it's like midnight, why are you still working?" he asked, trying to break the awkward silence.

"i'm a personal assistant for mrs. lee, and personal assistants never sleep." she chuckled, and chan wanted to fall over right then and there. her voice was like music to his ears, and her laughter sounded exactly like what he pictured angels would sound like.

they got to the door for the meeting room, and she stepped in, instantly finding the missing documents. she soon returned next to chan in the hallway, and they made their way back, making small talk.

"but i might ask you the same, why are you here so late?" while he spoke, she looked at chan, and he genuinely felt like jelly, using every ounce of strength to stay upright.

"i'm working on some songs, i produce for my band." he said, short and sweet. the girl nodded in understanding.

long before chan wanted, they arrived back at his studio-door, bidding their goodbyes.

"thank you so much for helping me!"

"of course. your boss should forget more documents so you can come back sometime." chan replied, mentally kicking himself as he spoke, not being able to stop himself as the words fell off his tongue.

but much to his surprise, he got a different reply from what he was expecting.

"i'll make sure of it."

and with that, she was gone.

chan fell back into his chair, letting it spin slightly as he just sat there, eyes wide at what just happened. the way she had looked at him, the way she talked and carried herself, the way he made him feel- it was bizarre, but it seemed to be exactly what chan needed.

he snapped his headphones back on and got to work, his creative vision flowing and coming to life on his computer.

lee know

the mirrors shook where they hung along the wall of the jyp-dance studio. the beat of the music felt like it was growing louder and louder by the minute as it poured out of the speakers, but the dancers didn't mind.

"five, six, seven, eight." a voice boasted through the music, counting the dancers in as they moved to the rhythm of the song. hard stomps synced just as much as light steps to move around, sweat dripping to the floor.

the song came to a close, and soon the only sound in the room was the heaving bodies of a few dancers catching their breath. once they had held their position for a few seconds to finalize the dance, a few of the fell to the floor, while others sprinted for their towels and water-bottles. minho fell to a squat, looking at the state of both himself and the others, deciding they had done enough for they day, and with that- they were dismissed.

like ants of a farm, they all peeled out of the room in a messy line, eager to get some rest after the intense practice. however, minho found himself staying behind, wanting to go through the routine once more to see if there was room for any improvement of his part.

walking over to the bench where his phone laid, connected to the speakers, he yet again turned on the music, getting into position. starting off light, the song fell harder and harder, resulting in the dance-moves becoming more and more intense.

leaning against the door to the practice room, feeling the vibrations of the bass stood a girl, waiting for the current dancer to finish up, so she could use the studio, but it was taking longer than expected. finally, the song she had heard an ungodly amount of times by now, came to and end. hoping and praying to whatever wanted to listen, she wished for the occupant to exit the room - but luck wasn't on her side.

yet again minho played the music, getting ready to dance through it, again. but before he could get properly into it, he was startled by the door swinging open. he looked at the girl standing there and then rushed over to his phone and paused the song, looking at the frame in the door.

"i'm so sorry to just burst in, but you've been in here for hours, and i was really hoping to get in some practice of my own." she spoke, a genuine apologetic tone in her voice.

had it been pretty much anyone else, minho would have kicked them right back out, telling them to get lost; but the girl in his line of sight had a hold on him like you wouldn't believe. she was the most stunning individual minho had ever laid eyes on, and it caught him seriously off guard.

her whole presence was enough to make minho lose his edge. "yeah, no- i'm so sorry. would you mind if i just ran through it like once more though?" he asked, inviting her to wait inside on the couch on the far side of the room. she gave him a sweet nod and stepped inside, closing the door behind her.

all of a sudden minho felt nervous, no longer knowing if the sweat was from the hours of dancing, or the sudden performance anxiety.

letting the music play, he moved his body like he had done countless times before, but this time he really put his whole soul into each move, feeling the electricity in his veins.

after what felt like an eternity, the song finally came to an end, and applause erupted from the couch. minho snapped his head towards her and took in her reaction. instead of feeling tired and heavy like he usually did after running a routine, he felt light as a feather, like he could conquer the world, as long as he had this mystery woman's presence by his side.

"what do you think?" he asked, noticing he was really nervous about her feedback, which was odd as he never really needed anyone's validation.

that's when they got to talking.

seo changbin

the clanking and clinging of barbells and weights crashing against each other, blending seamlessly with the grunts and heavy breaths of the gym members who found themselves knee deep in their workout routines. on the other side of the room, by the window, footsteps pounded against the treadmill in a steady fashion. changbin kept his breath steady as he pushed a button to increase the speed on the machine, upping his cardio just a little bit.

he was so deeply focused on keeping his breath and step even, that he didn't even notice his headphones had moved onto the playlist radio of his workout playlist, rather than the playlist itself.

the windows at the gym showed skyscraper views of seoul, and as the gym had strategically placed the treadmills and the elliptical machines pointing out the windows. and as changbin was currently running on the appointed machine, he had his eyes focused on one specific building, trying to keep himself focused.

he had recently noticed at dance practices that he wasn't in the best shape cardio-wise. he had been mostly doing weights in the gym recently, so he was given a workout routine to follow by one of the trainers in the jyp-building.

the minutes ticked by, and changbin felt his heart race faster and faster the further he ran. soon he found his heart beat louder than the music shooting through his headphones, having completely overtaken his senses. the taste of iron was present on the tip of his tongue not to long after.

according to his plan, he had to run for another six minutes before he could take a break, but changbin knew his body, and if he didn't step off now, they would have to scrape him off the walls. so he ditched the routine, and grabbed the sides of the treadmill, using them to steady himself as he jumped off the moving band, and onto the plastic edges that remained still. after he was no longer on the moving belt of the machine, he turned it off, it soon whirring to a stop.

with his breath heavy and his throat dry, changbin removed his headphones and wrapped them around his neck, listing to the chaos of the gym behind him instead of the carefully crafted playlist on his phone.

"excuse me?" a soft voice cut through the gym-sounds, and tickled changbin's ear. he redirected his focus to his left, where the voice came from. standing there was a girl, dressed in workout attire, her hair away from her face, and shoes tightly laced to her feet. her aura was enough to sweep changbin off his feet, and he swore to the heavens that if he wasn't already out of breath, she definitely would have caught it.

"hm?" changbin answered her, not trusting his voice with proper words just yet.

"do you think you could show me how this works? it's much fancier than the ones i'm used to." she smiled sheepishly, then gestured to the treadmill next to him, the one she was standing on.

"oh yeah, for sure." he managed to get out between breaths, still exhausted from his run. he went on to show her what buttons to push, and which to ignore. he also introduced her to the incline function, which she was new to as the ones she was used to didn't have that option.

from there they got to talking about their different routines, and cardio in general, changbin letting her in on why he was running so intensely.

"if you're running for endurance purposes, it's much more efficient to run in terrain. there is a great track not to far from here. i wouldn't mind showing you some day." she spoke, smiling with her eyes as she did, it almost sending changbin out the window.

as they had been speaking, he had taken in all of her, not knowing how such a stunning person could even walk the earth. at one point he was sure his pulse-tracking watch was going to snitch on him.

"you would do that?" he replied with a faint smile, not wanting to seem overly eager to spend more time with her, in fear he would scare her away. from there they exchanged details and went on with their respected workouts.

the rest of the day, changbin felt his workout had never been better, lifting the weights with ease and style- just in case she was watching from the treadmills.

hope you liked it! feel free to request again! -bennie ♡

#kpop #kpop reactions #kpop one shot #kpop scenarios #kpop drabble #stray kids #stray kids requests #stray kids scenarios #stray kids reactions #stray kids drabble #bang chan #skz bang chan #lee know #skz lee know #skz changbin #changbin

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heymacy · 3 years

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You people are always going on about how gay you are and then procede to act so straight. This is coming from an actual lesbian (which is a woman who is only attracted to women and not men since you seem to not know what that means) STOP CLAIMING TO BE SOMETHING YOU ARE NOT

finally, some good fucking food 😌

oh my dear, sweet, deeply misguided anon. i want you to ask yourself why you’re so threatened by lesbians with self-awareness. is it because you lack objectivity? is it a self-esteem issue? maybe it’s time to do some self-reflection and figure out why you refuse to evolve along with the rest of us.

i’m a lesbian. i don’t have to prove my identity to you, just like i’m not going to ask you to prove your identity to me. your phrasing of “actual lesbian” stinks of “gold star lesbian” energy, and since you’re making assumptions about me (& other lesbians on this website), i’m gonna go ahead and make some assumptions about you! 🥰

1) you are incapable of acknowledging the separation between physical, emotional, and sexual attraction.

2) you are incapable of acknowledging that lesbians, yourself included, can simultaneously recognize a man’s objective attractiveness and still not want to fuck them

3) your personal identity is very much linked to your label, and you feel threatened by those who use the same label but aren’t exactly like you in every possible way

4) you’re extremely judgmental and unpleasant to be around

let me know if i got any of these correct, because i think i’m probably right on the money 😇

i’ve been dealing with blithering idiots like you my entire life. honestly, you “real lesbian” defenders are on par with homophobes in my book. your nasty, elitist attitude is what prevents people from taking us seriously. if you genuinely believe that lesbianism is limited to cis female x cis female pairings, and that lesbians can’t acknowledge hot people as just that - hot people - then i feel sorry for you. truly.

get some help. touch some grass. drink some tea. and stop being such a miserable little twat 💖 the world will be better for it!

#it’s giving ‘chronically online’ energy ✨#answered #anons

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gallavictorious · 3 years

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bottom!mickey nonnie here, i had some more thoughts in response to your reply, if you don't mind? :) i can see where the trust aspect might come into play for mickey re: bottoming and i understand your thought process. the only thing that makes me doubt that is how quickly that trust must have been established between him and ian if that is the case. they haven't been fucking for that long when kash walks in on them (which is the first instance we actually know mickey bottoms). i suppose that there could have been a lot of off-screen developments and interactions, but it's too quick imo. their relationship in season one seems more puppy-love to me rather than a deep bond (which i see as starting to form in season two). the way i see it, the only level of trust that needs to be established is "i know you won't tell anyone because you're also closeted and you won't treat me like a bitch because if you do, i'll beat you tf up and just never fuck you again" which is pretty shallow and something mickey could probably have reached with other guys, too. idk, i just don't see their relationship in season one as deep enough for mickey to start trusting ian with things he's worried or insecure about. it makes more sense to me that he lets ian fuck him because it's not that big a deal, rather than because he's already let ian past his walls. we know that ian is all in by that point, but i just don't think mickey is. he likes ian, is drawn to him (probably against his better judgement), but that's as far as it goes, as i see him. since there are such few scenes between them in season one we have no choice but to make our own interpretations, and those are bound to differ. i've just never seen mickey indicate that he thinks bottoming = being a bitch, or even that it's something he worries about. the only thing to support that would be his attitude to prison, but like i said before, i don't think mickey views sex in prison the same as he views sex on the outside. he probably views everything in prison differently. on the outside, with guys who share his secret? i don't think it's too much of a stretch that he would just do what he wants. the danger is the same either way. just my interpretation of him, of course :)

Hiya, Bottom!Mickey Nonnie No. 1!

I don't mind one little bit; in fact, I'm delighted! Apart from enjoying the fun discussion, it's always gratifying to hear back from anons: you usually never actually know if your answer has reached them.

First off, you're damned right it's quick! I personally don't subscribe to the idea that Mickey knew that Ian was gay or had a crush on him preceding their 1x07 tryst (nothing wrong with that notion, btw, it just doesn't appeal to me), so when they suddenly start tearing off each other's clothes that's very sudden. I tend to assume there might have a tiny bit of vague interest prior to this, the proximity and tussling triggers mutual attraction, they both spring boners, and yeah, off they go? You're also quite right in (implicitly) pointing out that we don't know that they had penetrative sex at that time – maybe they moved up from mutual handjobs or just plain grinding to something more a few trysts later. Either way, you make a good point about the danger of sex outside of lock-up would be the same regardless of whether Mickey bottoms or not. I'd never really thought about that before, so thank you for pointing that out!

However, it's probable that the reason I haven't thought very much about it is because when I speak of Mickey's easy trust for Ian I don't primarily mean him trusting Ian not to reveal his secrets to anyone else, but trust him to know Mickey in a way others are not allowed – and here we disagree and that is fine. :) If you see Mickey as unbothered by being into bottoming, you can certainly find support for that in the narrative. We do have the famous ”liking what I like”-line, which absolutely can be taken at face value! The fact that I tend to interpret it as (partly) Mickey being deliberately unapologetic because he feels a bit uneasy about his preferences and is somewhat defensive about Ian's brief allusions to common prejudices around bottoming, has more to do with my assumption that – given Mickey's circumstances – this is something that Mickey's likely to feel insecure about. He's internalized his father's homophobia to some degree; it just seems reasonable to me that he'd have internalized Terry's strong conviction that Milkoviches don't bottom too. (He certainly seems ready to embody that when he attacks Ian's army fuck buddy in season 3, citing the need to kick him straight because he's the one taking it up the ass. However, that could also totally performative or seen as him making a twisted kind of in-joke, so it's hardly conclusive.) Furthermore, I feel that it's not unreasonable to question Mickey's sincerity in regards to the line mentioned above, since we do have instances of him acting seemingly geuninely dismissive even when we know he probably cares quite a bit. I'm thinking primarily about his reaction to Ian's sex strike in season 11; I just don't buy he was unbothered by that, but there's nothing in the way he expresses his lack of concern that suggests it's insincere. This doesn't mean that I think my reading of the line is the correct one, though, just that it's a possible reading given what else we know of Mickey.

But of course, this really is just my assumptions and interpretations. It's very possible to infer from his actions onscreen that Mickey is totally unconcerned about bottoming, and always has been. After all, Mickey is in many ways a genuinely confident person, and I think this extends to his sex life. (I just think there's insecurity and concern, too... Basically, I think Mickey's relationship with his own sexuality and preferences is complicated, a paradoxical tangle of confidence and shame. I find this complexity is fascinating, and if we're being honest that's probably one of the reasons why I'm not so eager to let go of the notion of it.)

That said, though, and regardless of whether or not bottomingrequires any particular trust on Mickey's part, I think we dohave some concrete evidence of Mickey letting Ian past his walls already in 1x07. Not the sex – because we don't know anything about that – but the return of the gun after. That look on Mickey's face just then? That's vulnerability. He knows that by giving the weapon back when he doesn't have to, he shows hint of a softness he can ill afford people to know he possesses at this point. It's walls dropped, if only for a moment, and I just don't see him allowing that with many – if any – other people. While it isvery quick and while there's no telling whyor how, I firmly believe that there is an immediate trust between them that goes beyond just sex. It might not be logical, but I think it's there, and that this easy, natural understanding is a huge part of what has them coming back to each other again and again in spite of the odds being stacked overwhelmingly against them. Like you, though, I don't see this as a deep bond or anything, not this early. Ian falls in love quickly and easily; for Mickey is a much slower process, because he fights even the possibility of it tooth and claw.

And ah, I'm aware that in my first response to you I promised to elaborate on my thoughts on Mickey's stint in Mexico in my reply to Bottom!Mickey Nonnie No. 2, but I ended up cutting that because it got absurdly long in comparision to my notes on what they were actuallyasking about, and that didn't seem fair or relevant to them. However, I now have a third (and a fourth... apparently this is a subject dear to your hearts, sweet followers) Bottom!Mickey Nonnie in my inbox, so if this is something you're interested in, despair not! We'll get there!

Thank you so much for getting in touch, both with your first ask and with this follow-up. I've enjoyed reading your thoughts, and developing my own in response to them, immensely! I highly value being able to civilly disagree and argue viewpoints without either side feeling the need to convince the other, so this has been a real treat. <3

#for a person who isn't very interested in smut at all #i sure have a lot of thoughts on this #mickey milkovich #gallavich #meta #asks #my stuff

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flooffybits · 4 years

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What About Us?

Idol: Jennie Kim (Blackpink)

Anon: hii! can i request a jennie scenario wherein she read a lot of comments/tweets about her fem s/o about how her s/o is only using her for her money/fame and bc of that she kind of believed it and grew distant and her s/o overhears her calling her a gold digger in front of the other members while they were hanging out and s/o gets hurt and just leaves and try to give back all jennie's gifts or something like that? angst with fluffy ending pls!! i love your scenarios always!!

Author’s note: I went too angsty with this and I had no idea how to make it fluffy, but it doesn’t end too sadly hopefully

pretty sure she doesnt even care about jennie

shes obviously dating jennie because shes in blackpink

such a fake

Jennie’s frown deepened when she saw the many malicious comments online. Of course, she’s used to people sending her hate and having rumors spread about her. But this time around, the hate was not directed at her, but rather her girlfriend.

It’s been half a year since she’s come out to the public and introduced you to the world, and even with the various support she’s gotten for having the courage of coming out, the backlash of it was the people attacking you with so many hurtful words.

Jennie knows you’re aware of them, but you’ve never spoken up about it that she wonders if you find them bothersome or not. It’s made her think.

Were you only with her because of her fame? Did you really love her?

Lately, she couldn’t help reading such comments. When she first introduced you to the public as her girlfriend, she kept watching, wanting her fans to be accepting towards you and having the same respect that they had for her. But the longer time passed, the more assumptions were thrown at you.

And your dismissive behavior did not help in easing her worries.

As a result, she’s been pulling herself back whenever the two of you were together, always eyeing you when you spent time with her and trying to notice the way you would react to her every time. Were you being sincere to her or not?

She hadn’t even realized how much she let the comments get to her head.

“I just don’t know.” She sighed once when she was with her members, eating breakfast. You were sound asleep in her bed when she left you, so she decided it was the best time she could talk to her friends about the mess that was going through her head.

She didn’t think talking to you about it would help her because obviously, she think, you’ll defend yourself.

Jisoo pursed her lips at her friend when she lowered her fork. “I don’t really think Y/n is like that.” She stated. “I mean, she’s been with you longer than the public knows. You haven’t had these thoughts before.” She added and Chaeyoung nodded. “She’s right. Y/n is a sweet girl.”

“Maybe when in public? You know that gold diggers pretend to be nice to get what they want.” Jennie reasoned and this time, Lisa cut in, a deep frown on her face. “Hey, that’s not fair. You’re not sure if she’s being genuine, but that doesn’t mean you should be calling Y/n unnie a gold digger.” She retorted, making Jennie sigh as she rubbed her temple.

“Then how am I going to tell? I can’t flat out ask her because that’s obviously too forward.” She huffs, unknowing of your presence lingering by the door.

You had woken up a little after Jennie left the bed. And in your tired state, you didn’t get up right away, only when your stomach grumbled. But as you neared the kitchen and heard more of the girls’ voices, your sleepiness began to evaporate and your heart started to crack when you heard the things your supposed girlfriend was saying about you.

The moment she had called you a gold digger, tears had already fallen from your eyes and you quickly but quietly left for her bedroom to collect your things. You switched out of the clothes Jennie had lent you the night prior, tossing them in the basket, and then slipping on your hoodie and jeans. When you had everything, you hurriedly left her a note on her nightstand, making up the excuse that something came up before silently leaving the dorm after making sure that all of the girls were still in the kitchen.

"Unnie, if you can't trust Y/n, then what's the point of being in a relationship with her?" Chaeyoung couldn't help but ask and Jennie quickly quieted down, staring at her plate. "If you're having thoughts like these, I don't think it's fair for you to be doubting her like this when she could possibly be with you without the thought of money or fame."

"Chaeyoung is right. Personally, I doubt she's ever really thought of doing that to you. She's been sweet and loving to you, we can see that when you're together." Jisoo frowned. "It's just sad that you're letting other people's opinions cloud your view of your own girlfriend."

That made Jennie wince as she dropped her head and just stare at her plate, no longer hungry when she realizes that her friends were right. You’ve been together for years, and yet she only began to doubt you because her fans refused to trust you.

She just couldn't seem to shake off the doubt that was implanted into her brain after all the things she's read for the past few weeks.

"In my opinion, break up." Lisa says sternly, pushing her chair back as she brought her empty plate to the sink. "If you don't trust her, there's no point in staying."

Chaeyoung sighed as she looked to her best friend. Of course, the younger girl was right and she understands why she's upset, but they had no right interfering with Jennie's relationship because it simply wasn't their business. The best they could do was listen and give her advice, the rest was for Jennie to deal with.

"I'll go talk to her." The blonde murmured, quietly exiting the kitchen and leaving the two older girls alone.

Jisoo eyed Jennie from across the table and kept her arms crossed, her lips pressed into a thin line. She wanted to help her friend. But she also wasn't very happy with the way she had quickly discarded all the struggles you went through together before this moment.

She was your friend, too, and it would be a lie if she said she didn't care for you as much as she did for her members.

"Why don't you get ready? We have a shoot in a few hours." She tells the younger girl and Jennie sits there for a few more minutes, contemplating if she was capable of looking at you after everything she's just said about you.

Eventually, she does go. Quietly, she heads to her room, wondering if you were still asleep since you haven't come out yet. But when she peeks inside, she's surprised to see no one there.

The bed is made, the clothes you used were put properly away and then everything else was as she left it except for the piece of paper that was left on her desk.

Upon further inspection, she recognizes your handwriting and furrows her brows at the message. It makes her suspicions grow, but at the same time, her stomach churns. She was unaware of you hearing her conversation with them, girls so she doesn’t give it too much thought, simply sending you a text to say you should text or call her when you were free before she proceeded to her closet and pick out her outfit for the day.

Jennie doesn't hear from you for the rest of the day, which confuses her.

You've always texted her throughout the day to see how she was doing, always asking her if she's eaten or drank enough water. So, now that you weren't checking up on her has thrown her off the loop.

It was already evening and she was checking her phone in case she missed a text or call, but found none.

Instead, when she arrives back with the girls, she's surprised to see you leaving her room, hands tucked in the pockets of your jacket with your head down.

Something about it sets her off, and without thinking, she scoffs at you while crossing her arms. "What the hell do you think you're doing?" She asks you, and you're surprised to see that she's already home.

"So, you ignored me for the whole day because you had something "important" to do. And when I come, I find you trying to, what, steal from me?"

"Jennie." Jisoo calls warningly while Chaeyoung and Lisa looked worried when you refuse to look at them.

But Jennie didn't mean to say those things. In her fear of finding out that you were using her, her emotions blinded her and had forced the words out, her heart pounding against her rib cage before she's watching you finally bring your hand out of your pocket and show her the spare key she had given you for the dorms.

"I came to drop this off." You try to keep your tone even, but it's so soft and fragile that the worry in the girls worsened. Jennie's expression even softened, but the confusion set in at your words. "What?"

You lift your head and Lisa gasps when she sees the tear tracks and red eyes, a clear indication that you've been crying. But before any of them could say anything, you were already dropping the key on the table.

"I'm leaving. Don't worry, I didn't touch anything."

"Y/n-" Chaeyoung tried calling for you, but you only shook your head and walked to the door, but Jennie tailed after you, latching onto your hand right before you could leave.

But before she could say a word, you yanked your hand away, whirling around to glare at her despite the hot tears that were already cascading down your face. "Don't fucking touch me." You gritted out, pain laced in your voice as Jennie stared at you in disbelief.

"Y/n, what is your problem?" She snapped back, your attitude setting her off from being ignored the whole day, but instead of backing out like usual, you glared back at her. "You left without even a proper goodbye, ignored me the whole day, and suddenly you're in the dorm without telling anyone, then you have the audacity to be angry?"

At that, you scoff before stepping closer to her. "I have no reason to explain myself to you." You say while stubbornly wiping your face. "The only reason I wasn't replying to you was because I was looking and packing everything you own and then dropped them off here."

At your words, Jennie's anger vanished and she looked at a loss. Her things?

You stared at her for a while before shaking your head, defeat on your features as you step away once more. "I'm not gonna stick around with someone who'd rather believe what everyone says instead of trusting me and calling me a gold digger, where her friends were the ones who defended me behind my back. I'm done."

Her heart jumped to her throat when she realized that you'd heard what she said to the girls. With the sudden revelation, she isn't quite sure what she could tell you.

"I just... I thought-"

"That the people who don't know a damn thing about me were right? That the person who stuck up for you every single time would actually treat you like a fucking toy?" You guessed for her. "They're my fans!" She defends and you frown at her, seeing clearly just where she held you.

"Yeah. And what did that make us?"

You knew that some fans wouldn't accept the fact that Jennie was dating, much more a girl, but you didn't really think that she would choose them over you, especially like this.

"Forget it, Jennie. All of your things are in your room. Goodbye."

But Jennie wouldn't let you leave when she moved to shut the door just as you opened it. "Can we talk about this?" She pleaded, panic running through her veins despite her earlier anger.

"Talk about what? Jennie, you called me a fucking gold digger because your fans said so?" You shot at her. "Do you realize how that makes our relationship?"

“I’m sorry!” She yelled back, refusing to budge as she blocked your only exit. “I know that it was dumb of me, but please, let’s talk about it.” She tries again and you try so hard to fight your tears back with the inner turmoil that was inside of you.

You wanted her to be sorry, you wanted her to take back everything she’s said behind your back, but you know that once words were let go, there was no turning back. The damage was permanent and there was no changing that no matter how many times she apologized.

Yet your heart was so damn stubborn that you couldn��t outright deny her request. So, she saw that and used it to her advantage, no matter how wrong she knows it is.

Leading you back to her room, she had noticed that her members all disappeared to their own quarters and she just hopes that they can leave things to her. That is, if she can handle what’s about to happen.

Entering her room, she spots the two boxes at the foot of her bed and she inhales sharply, seeing the necklace she had given you for your first anniversary sitting at the top of them. Only now did she notice that you weren’t wearing it, knowing fully well that you never took it off once she gave it to you.

“Y/n, I know that this is messed up, but please just... we can work this out, I swear.” She starts and you stare at her in disbelief. “What can you do to make this work? What did I do to make you even think of me like that, Jennie?” You ask in a broken voice that makes her heart crack.

“You know me. I have not once asked you to spend a single dime on me or this relationship. I have never demanded that you get me gifts or to pay for me when we go out. You know that I argue with you on who pays the bill. So, why?”

For the first time in her life, Jennie didn’t know what to say. She was always so sure of herself and the things she wanted, but now, staring at you while you desperately tried to understand where things have gone wrong has rendered her speechless.

You stand, staring at each other, and your tears refuse to stop as you covered your face with your hands and let out a shaky breath. Jennie withers at the sight of you looking so weak, so vulnerable, because of her. So, she doesn’t hesitate as she steps forward to wrap her arms tightly around you.

“I know that I was wrong to believe them.” She mutters when she feels you weakly pushing against her, but she holds on tight, refusing to let you go. “I was just so clouded with what everyone was saying and I was scared of talking to you about this.” She closed her eyes when your pushing started to weaken. “You’re right. I made our relationship look like an absolute joke for trusting someone who isn’t you and you have every right to be pissed at me. But please, I’ll do my best to be better at this. I should have known better, and you deserve so much more than what I put you through.” She could feel her own tears start to fall, but she doesn’t bother them.

You’ve stopped resisting her and just let your hands grab a fistful of her shirt, sobbing into her chest. “Please, just give me one last chance. I promise, this won’t ever happen again.” She whispers and the room is only filled with your sobs.

You’re both on the floor when Jennie feels your legs giving out. She holds you because she knows that you’re in pieces.

“Why did you have to say it?” You cried into her chest and she kisses your head while frowning to herself. She shouldn’t have done it, but all she could do now was make up for it.

She’s ruined three years in a single moment. But she swears that she’ll spend the rest of her life making up for it, even when you move past this and maybe forget about it happening.

“I’m so sorry.”

#girl group #girl group scenarios #girl group imagines #blackpink #blackpink scenarios #blackpink imagines #blackpink jennie #jennie blackpink #bp jennie #jennie #jennie kim #jennie scenarios #jennie imagines

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ebenenoir · 3 years

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Dropping the heteronormative for a sec, I think Pedro spending a lot of time with SM or even Rafa would maybe be more notable to news media if Pedro was an out queer man (not claiming he is, just figuritvely speaking here).

I’m the queer anon and my best friend of 10+ years who is the same gender as me is very openly gay. I can’t tell you how many people over the years thought we were a couple because we visit each other often despite living almost a state apart, are close with each others’ families where we go to reunions and birthdays and even funerals, she’s my go to travel companion, and is often my date to events. We’ve been like that since high school and we laugh whenever we find out someone thinks we’re together because even though she’s openly gay, I’m quietly queer and I think her being out and me being a mystery card for people is what gets the rumors going. But she and I are strictly best friends to the point we’re family and people can push a narrative on us but we’re never going to be gay for each other and even though we’re girls it shouldn’t be a double standard for queer men.

The queer community is used to having our own found families to where we treat our friendships as important and special as romantic relationships and a lot of cis/straight people can’t wrap their minds around that. It doesn’t mean there isn’t something going on with him and SM or him and Rafa, but knowing how loyal and loving and physically affectionate Pedro is with all of his friends no matter their gender, I just wouldn’t put too much focus on who he might be with romantically. Because Pedro is a sweet man who will go out of his way for the people he cares about and has never been subtle about it, and if something is romantic I genuinely think he’d make it known once he’s secure with it cause he loves showing off the people he loves. And I’d hate to think fans would kill that for him if they push their narrative onto him without confirmation from him or whoever his partner is/will be in the future.

Like you said, it’s not about how often he’s papped with his female friends, it’s how the moment he’s seen with a female it’s suddenly news about him having a potential girlfriend or someones having an affair with him just because he hasn’t had a confirmed relationship in his career and that either means he’s secretly gay or every girl is his secret lover and that’s not fair to a sweet man like Pedro. My queer heart goes out to him for just wanting to have intimacy with the people he cares about without tumblr or news sources jumping all over his actions with assumptions just because he hasn’t had a confirmed relationship and someone needs to find proof that he is capable of having one whether it’s with a man or a woman otherwise something is wrong with him and that’s not fair at all.

Hi again! I don't even know what to say because everything you said is valid.

What you said about Pedro is so sweet. 🧡 I'm glad you have a friend you can confide in. Friendships are very important.

I'd love for him to be confident enough to go out with his partner too one day. (or partners)

#anon ask

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cutietobio · 5 years

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Hey! Can you please write headcanons for Kuroo and Tendou with a girlfriend who is really bad at showing emotions? Like she can be super excited or extremely sad and it'll never show. (she doesn't have a blank face, but more like, she is slightly smiling and talking everytime the same way, no matter how she feels)

Hey, anon! Thanks so much for the request. I hope you enjoy these ❤︎

KUROO

- Kuroo would be quite observant of his girlfriend if she struggled to express her emotions physically.

- Of course, it would be quite concerning if she didn’t express her concerns verbally and keep it all bottled up with a small smile on her face.

- He’s managed to read her body language, observant about many small things that may indicate she is currently feeling something other than what her face suggests.

- Goes about it indirectly, asking her how she is and keeping a close eye on anything that may give away she isn’t doing as good as she says she is.

- Opts to cheer her up if he’s suspicious about her being upset in any way. Like I said earlier, he’s been around her long enough to pick up on small things that give away that she might be sad, angry or tired in general.

- Knows all the signs very well, even shocks some of his teammates:

- “(Name) is always so calm, it’s so refreshing. Nothing seems to affect her.”

- “She’s crossing her arms, probably holding herself back from bitch slapping someone.”

- This all plays out one day in the gym, with (Name) oblivious to the stares of Lev and Kuroo.

- Lev turns to Kuroo with wide eyes, “Wow? Really. I wouldn’t have thought. She doesn’t look angry.”

- Kuroo just grins, “I know my girl well.”

- If he’s excited about something and expresses it to his girlfriend, he isn’t expecting an equally excited expression back.

- But this is fine and he doesn’t mind it, understanding her trouble of expression and instead listening to her words rather than searching her face for a reaction.

- “That’s great, Kuroo-san. I’m really glad your team won!” Her face may not be as expressive, but hearing her sweet words is more than enough for him.

- Continues to grin even wider, pressing a kiss to her cheek.

- When she’s sad, he senses this too and will immediately try his best to make her feel better without blatantly stating something along the lines of:

- “Are you okay? You seem off.”

- Instead, he will try to cheer her up by:

- “Let’s go get ice cream after practice.” Or suggesting other favourite foods of hers that he knows she likes.

- “Did I ever mention how much I love you?” He loves taking her mind off of anything that may be bothering her by turning her attention to how much he treatures her and how trivial things shouldn’t matter to her.

- Kuroo assures his girlfriend constantly that she doesn’t need to worry about trying to express her emotions more if she gets self-conscious or beats herself up about this part of her.

- “Don’t apologize for who you are. I feel in love with you, this you.” He pokes at her chest with a playful grin, staring down at her as she stares up at him, all her anxiety about not being good enough for him melting away. Kuroo wouldn’t allow her to think it would ever be a problem for their relationship.

TENDOU

- Well… he might be a bit of a different story.

- Might be pretty blunt about it once he first notices how his girlfriend doesn’t exactly express much emotion.

- “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you really happy before.” Doesn’t realize how this could potentially harm (Name), especially if it’s something she tries to work on.

- He’s mostly upset with himself over it, feeling as if though he’s the cause behind it. Is she too scared to reveal her true self to a monster like him?

- This crazy assumption is quickly denied early in their relationship, with (Name) having a long conversation regarding how it’s difficult for her to express her emotions properly.

- Tendou is glad it had nothing to do with him and swings his arm around her shoulders, drawing her close to his side.

- “Thank goodness! I thought it had something to do with me.” Cue his goofy smile of relief.

- We all know how great Tendou is great when it comes to predictions and analytics when playing volleyball, this is present in his daily life as well.

- It gets quite creepy how Tendou knows exactly how his girlfriend is feeling, at this rate, it doesn’t even matter if she’s bad at showing her emotions because Tendou is extremely good at reading her.

- “Why so glum?” He asks casually, popping out of nowhere as he wraps an arm around his girlfriend’s shoulder who looks completely normal.

- (Name) has expressed on many occasions how grateful she is of him, being able to read her like nobody else can. She will express this calmly while Tendou makes a big scene about it, his girlfriend’s words melting his heart like nobody else had been able to before.

- - “Wakatoshi!” He will walk up to his friend with long strides, wiping away fake tears, “My girlfriend is the best.” He continues to express how in love he is while Ushijima desperately tries getting his snack free from the, apparently busted, vending machine.

- If his girlfriend is self-conscious about her inability to convey emotions easily, he will laugh it off and call her ‘silly’. He will ultimately change his response if he still senses her doubt.

- “Hey, Hey. Don’t be sad,” He says as he grabs her arm gently, (Name) will smile in return. It’s a genuine smile which surprises Tendou at first but he ends up grinning in response, “Look at that cute smile! Stop hiding that from me.”

- Supports her with all his heart, stating that it’s always something she could work on if she wanted to and that he would be there for her during the process.

#kuroo #kuroo testuro #tendou #tendou satori #kuroo x reader #tendou x reader #haikyuu #haikyuu!!#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu headcanons

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makeste · 5 years

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probably like my 500th rant about Kacchan and Deku and their confused relationship

oh my yes. he’s had the greatest fanboy of our time admiring him since they were preschoolers. and Izuku has certainly never attempted to hide his total awe at every single thing Kacchan does.

although the essaying part of me does want to bring up that until very recently, Kacchan didn't realize that it was admiration, though. he genuinely believed it to be pretty much the opposite of that. because he felt insecure and vulnerable around Deku, he reasoned that Deku must be trying to make him feel like that on purpose, and so he convinced himself that Deku was looking down on him, as we now understand as of their second fight. so in that sense it’s interesting, because you could actually argue that he doesn’t know what sincere admiration looks like. he’s been around it his whole life, and yet the whole time, all he ever saw were his own insecurities mirrored back at him. he wasn’t able to see past that to view Deku’s feelings for what they actually were. in which case the more skeptical way to view his encounter with Shindou would be to assume that Kacchan is actually just doing what he always does, and greeting any and all displays of amicability and warmth with hostility and suspicion.

but I think the truth most likely falls somewhere in between. Deku notwithstanding, he generally is very perceptive. the complexity of all of his mixed-up childhood feelings has always made that relationship more difficult for him to understand. but he’s fairly good at reading between the lines when it involves virtually anyone else. he picked up on Kurogiri’s weakness just from a turn of phrase. he accurately assessed his own status quo with the League of Villains, including when it changed from “they won’t try and hurt me” to “yeah now they absolutely will fuck my shit up.” he sussed out the truth about All Might and Deku’s relationship by correctly decoding a single sentence that was phrased in such a way as to have its true meaning understood only by Deku. he also correctly surmised that All for One and All Might had a longstanding archnemesis relationship, well before he actually learned who All for One was. and he subsequently picked up on All Might’s cues that this was a secret of vital importance, and so fell in line with keeping it even without being asked.

to sum up, he actually is a lot better at reading and understanding people than he lets on. but Deku is the exception to the rule. pardon me for going off on a whole new (and much longer) tangent, but I think he actually cares a lot about Deku’s opinion of him. he goes to great lengths to pretend that he doesn’t, attempting to reclassify him as “just a pebble in his shoe” and so forth, but I don’t know. there has to be a reason he reacted that badly to thinking that Deku saw him as weak. would he have responded the same way if it had been anyone else?

Katsuki’s thoughts on Izuku from before the log bridge fall are still (still!) unknown to us. we know that Izuku thought the world of Katsuki, and still does for that matter. but we never did get Katsuki’s perspective on it. but -- basically his whole personality shifts when he is only four years old. he goes from being happy and confident and smiling constantly to being defensive and confrontational and angry all the time and almost never smiling outside of a fight. that’s not a coincidence that this only happens after he stops being friends with Izuku. basically everything about this implies that he was actually a lot more hurt by that incident than he lets on. he puts up a lot of walls afterwards. he eventually tries to break off his entire friendship with Deku by any means necessary.

all of this leads me to think they were closer than previously inferred. and why wouldn’t they be? they spent a ton of time together during one of the most impressionable and trusting periods of their lives. they shared character-defining traits in common; they had the same dream and looked up to the same person. we tend to question whether it was really a friendship per se, because we know Katsuki was kind of a jackhole, and came up with the Deku nickname, and so forth. but he does the exact same fucking thing now with Kirishima and his other U.A. friends, and no one questions whether he actually cares about them. one of the crucial things we come to understand about Katsuki over the course of the series is that his attitude toward people is not a true reflection of how he actually feels about them. he trusts Kirishima in spite of disparaging him with every other breath and calling him by an insulting nickname. once we understand this, there’s no reason not to assume things wouldn’t have been the exact same way back with Deku when they were four. that his smugness and his putdowns concealed a very real trust and a close connection between them.

and that closeness, I think, is ironically the very thing that blinds him to Deku’s obvious admiration and esteem. that misunderstanding, when it happens, is devastating. the fear of being perceived as weak by anyone is bad enough, but with Deku in particular, it really fucks him up. to have a connection like that shattered so suddenly is damaging as fuck. just... I feel like I’m doing a really bad job of explaining this. but basically, if we go off the assumption that they were close, that means we’re dealing with feelings of hurt and betrayal that go beyond what we might have originally assumed. those are very powerful negative emotions for a four-year-old to suddenly be grappling with, and they’re precisely the kind of emotions that can completely overwhelm and suppress any kind of actual rational thought. and the thing is that there was no way for poor Izuku to have mended this, even if he understood what was actually going on, because the initial infraction never actually came from him at all, but from Katsuki’s own mind. his own fears being projected, because he was young and lacked the ability then to see things from Deku’s perspective.

anyways. when I said “tangent” I meant it lol. wow. but I think the original point of this was trying to explain why Katsuki, who normally is very sharp and aware, would have so much trouble deciphering the actions of the one person he’s spent more time around than any other. and to explain that Deku is an exception and that Katsuki’s lack of self-awareness about that relationship doesn’t reflect his overall insightfulness otherwise. he knew Shindou was trouble because Shindou was a smooth-talking little shit who just happened to want to get all buddy-buddy with the school at the top of everyone’s hitlist right before the fucking exam, and anyone who was taking those circumstances in consideration should have had the same warning bells ringing off in their own minds tbh. so yeah, hence “your words don’t match your eyes.” and also because he never lets his guard down that easily anyway. and that part of it does have everything to do with Deku.

anyways anon I’m sorry I took this very sweet BakuDeku ask and turned it into sort of a sad and meandering BakuDeku ask lol. I was thinking about some of this stuff the other day, and this was like a cheatcode that activated this whole mini-rant. I’m just constantly fascinated by the sheer depth and intensity of all of the feelings these two have associated with one another, and how that relationship is both their greatest strength and their greatest vulnerability all wrapped up in one. they both were so damaged by it, but now it’s the thing that’s spurring them on to become stronger than ever with each other’s help. gah.

#bnha #boku no hero academia #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku #bakudeku #bnha meta #makeste reads bnha #asks #anon asks #I feel like I keep harping on the same points over and over again with my bkdk essays #I'm just trying to put it into words what it is that compels me so much about them #anyways yeah lately I've been thinking a lot about the whole 'childhood friends' thing #and thinking that I've maybe been too dismissive about something the series has tried to tell us repeatedly #I would give a lot to actually get kacchan's perspective on the whole thing for once #one of the many reasons why I'm so impatient for a *certain someone* to just come out and reveal his hero name already #why u do this to me boy #bakugou meta

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russianperioddrama · 5 years

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Why was Pyotr such so antagonistic towards Ekaterina when she tried so hard to love him? She clearly went above and behind to understand him and make him happy when she didn't have to since marriages were loveless at the time. But Elizoveta does the exact same things her predecessor does and he's besotted? He didn't deserve Ekaterina at all.

So, I’m going to assume this is about Ekaterina asopposed to Velikaya (the 2015 show) or history, since that’s not an accuratedescription of historical events and it doesn’t sound like it’s tryingto describe Velikaya. Ekaterina seems to fit the bill most as far as the whole “shetried so hard and he pushed her away!” It’s also the more widely known shown.With that assumption….well, Anon I disagree with you.

First of all, on the idea that Liza did the “same thing”as Catherine. I’m assuming that by “same thing” you mean that she was nice tohim and participated in his interests (like the soldier training). But that’s avery surface way of looking at that, even without considering that we don’tlike every person who is nice to us or shows an interest in us the same way orto the same extent. Liza and Catherine have very different personalities, whichis a major factor. Peter and Liza are a lot better matched in personality andinterests than Peter and Catherine. They both like music, they both enjoyrunning around with the soldiers (Liza seems to genuinely enjoy the game/training),they’re both dorks with a weird sense of humor. It’s very sweet that Catherinetries to participate in his interests, but she’s actively trying to get himto like her. She’s doing it because she’s trying to reach a goal; Liza isjust enjoying herself. Like even compare the scene where Peter and Liza are runningaround with the soldiers and the scene where Catherine dresses up in a uniformcoat and pretends to be a corporal. Catherine is doing this to flirt,trying to get a kiss. Liza seems to just be genuinely having fun and when she kisseshim it’s spontaneous and out of genuine emotion. You can see it in how theylook at each other right before they kiss.

Also, Liza understands him immediately the way Catherinedoesn’t. Maybe because they’re both social outsiders in a way. (Peter at least feelslike one and Liza is always put down, even by her own sister, because she’snot beautiful and graceful and doesn’t have flawless social skills.) Liza, fromthe first scene with Peter, shows an understanding of Peter’s vulnerabilities.She calls him out on being tactless about her limp but when it comes for her topass comment on his smallpox scars, she calls them shrapnel wounds. I couldwrite a whole essay on the significance of that alone, probably, but it’sclearly exactly the kind of thing he needed to hear and, honestly, showsa pretty amazing understanding of someone she’s just met. Catherine, on theother hand, has a complete failing of understanding of Peter’s situation andhis fears when they first get married. He’s terrified and he tells her that almostexplicitly more than once and she just doesn’t understand. Because they’redifferent people. She can’t relate to his fear of his aunt and even if she can,her ideas about what should be done about the situation are polar opposite tohis.

And here’s where we get to the “antagonistic” part.This is also a subject worthy of its own meta, but I’ll try to do a summaryversion here.

Catherine certainly didn’t have to get Peter tolove her nor should she be expected to love him. It’s an arranged marriage,after all. But this goes both ways. He also has no obligation to love her or toget her to love him.

That being said, of course, it’s admirable for her to try,and in the face of her efforts, Peter’s unequivocal rejection of her feels likeantagonism and is jarring. He certainly could have been nicer to her. But it’sa progression. And the way they act toward each other is also in line withtheir individual goals and practical interests here, as well as their personalities.It’s advantageous for Catherine if Peter likes her. Not only because itwould make her marriage more pleasant (both emotionally and to the extent thatsex is clearly important to Catherine) but also for her to retain her positionand avoid trouble at court she absolutely must give birth to an heir.

As far as Peter knows, he needs the exact opposite. Notthat a an emotionally fulfilling marriage would be bad for him, obviously, butit’s dangerous. Remember, he overheard Elizabeth’s conversation withShuvalov where she mused about locking him in a monastery or a prison cellafter he fathers an heir. He’s seen her do similar things (see: baby Ivan VI, Ivan’sfamily), he knows that she is ruthless and that she’s disappointed In him. Hehas no reason, really, to not believe that she will go through withthis. So, for Peter, having a child could be catastrophic. Birth control wasn’treally a thing back then so he needed to keep his distance from Catherine. Thisis easiest to do if they don’t care about each other or maintain a strictlyplatonic friendship. (Which he isn’t necessarily opposed to at the start, bythe way. Catherine herself brings it up after Paul is born – that he had wantedto stay friends after they were married. Of course, by then it’s too late.) Thennot caring about each other is safer for him. He tries to explain this to her –“We could be a wonderful couple if it wasn’t for my aunt.” She reacts firstwith disbelief and then with a proposition that they find a way to ~fight back~which he thinks is naïve at best and crazy at worst. In some ways he’s right.They don’t have a lot of power in this situation. If Elizabeth had decided to gothrough with her threats, she easily could have. And they have thisconversation again and again – before their marriage, on their wedding night,after they’re already married.

Initially, he only really rejects her romantic advances.He’s socially awkward and sometimes abrasive, but that’s just an unfortunatepersonality trait + trauma. (And, at the beginning, teenage bravado. He’s onlyone year older than her.) But he’s not always abrasive with her, even when shetries to do something he’s uncomfortable with. E.g. the first time she tries tokiss him, he merely pulls away and asks why she did it. She doesn’t get thehint and tries to kiss him again and he stops her rather gently.Actually, it’d say that he’s actually pretty friendly toward her at thestart. Definitely not antagonistic. He rejects her romantic advances butthat’s not the same thing. (He’s freaks a bit in that theater scene where they’reacting out sword fighting when she throws the sword at him, but he’s also a teenageboy who got embarrassed in front of his friends. And he still tries to be gracefulabout it by praising her skills anyway.) He doesn’t really like…care about her,but he just met her. She’s basically a stranger. Why would he really carethan much?

The first time he’s mean to her is on the bridge afterthe scene with the practice wedding thing. That’s the whole “did you dream ofsomething terrible?” / “I dreamed of you” exchange. But look at what happens there.He doesn’t want to marry her; he’s scared about his future. It’s extra traumaticbecause he had been so excited to finally have a family of his own butthen that’s implicitly wrenched away from him by Elizabeth. Not only that but Elizabethplayed an extra mean game with him – asking him to choose a bride and when hedoes, saying “nope, we’re doing what I want.” It’s mind games and,understandably, it pisses him off. In a way, yes, he’s projecting a bit of hisanger with Elizabeth onto Catherine, and that’s not fair, but I digress. Thisscene is more than that.

This scene is a great example of their complete misunderstandingof each other. It starts with her asking “aren’t you happy?” he says no and shesays “but we’ve waited for this for so long!” Except they haven’t. He hasn’t.He’s told her he doesn’t want this. And she is basically saying that shehasn’t heard him at all. And then it gets worse. Peter, despite his hesitations,opens up to her. Or at least he really tries to. He talks about wanting to gofar, far away and never come back. That he doesn’t want power, he just wants tobe left alone. She point blank tells him she doesn’t understand him at all. Naturally,he backtracks, puts on a bit of bravado. Talks about wanting to start performingscience experiences and she….basically laughs at him. And he STILL doesn’t lashout at her. He excuses himself and tries to retreat. And only then, whenshe calls him back and tries to force a continuance of the conversation does helash out. Yes, it’s still mean, but wouldn’t you say it’s understandable? Aftershowing vulnerability and getting so thoroughly rejected?

I’d say that this is also the first moment where thepotential for a tentative friendship between them begins to break down. Theyare completely incapable of communicating. And that’s not any one person’s fault.But it still doesn’t break down all the way immediately. I’d actually saythat Catherine pushing and pushing to be accepted as a romantic partnerputs just as much strain on the relationship as anything Peter does. Yes, it’sunderstandable why she does it. She needs to have a child. She wants to havesex. But as he established at the start of all this, neither of them had an obligationto love the other. Peter tries to set boundaries and is clearly uncomfortable aboutthe idea of sex and nudity in front of people, etc, at this point in his life. He’snot really attracted to Catherine. He isn’t in love with her. (This is allbeyond the issues of being afraid of the consequences of having a child.) Hetells her “no” again and again and she tries to push past those boundariesagain and again. “No’ still means “no” even if a guy is saying it. If thegenders were revered, fandom would call Catherine’s sort of pushiness “creepy”and “predatory.” I’m not trying to argue here that that’s what it is, but her pushingis NOT making an uncomfortable situation any better.

The worst scene from pre-Saltykov (which is a WHOLE otherstage at that point and neither of them is really trying anymore) period and where things completely break down is thepost-small pox scene. It’s a really uncomfortable scene. Peter really is meanto her during it. But a) I don’t think it’s evidence that he was “soantagonistic” toward her as a general rule and b) he’s in a really darkplace at that point emotionally. I’m not gong to go into it much because thisis already way too long and I think it’s pretty obvious. He saw the horror onher face when she first walks in. Her reaction is understandable but certain itwould have hurt. And at the end there, where he slaps her, from what I understand,she made yet another attempt to kiss him. It was probably well intentioned– “I’m willing to be with you despite the scars” kind of thing – but it once again violatesboundaries he’s set again and again and she keeps ignoring.

In conclusion. I don’t agree that either one of them isthe “at fault” party. They were two teenagers, terribly matched, withridiculous external pressures, left alone to navigate an emotionally thornysituation. Peter wasn’t antagonistic toward her; he merely didn’t want to beromantically/sexually involved with her. And when he was being a dick it wasn’tjust out of nowhere and Catherine is no angel. Peter and Liza were much bettermatched in personality and in taste, had chosen each other, did not have thesame external pressures creating external conflicts of interest and happened ata much later time in Peter’s life when he was probably far more ready for andcomfortable with having a romantic/sexual relationship.

#ekaterina #catherine 2014 #ekaterina tv #meta #1700s #tv series #Anonymous #reign of catherine ii #reign of peter iii #reign of elizabeth of russia #asks

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this episode showed me some things: 1st - I kind of liked Kelly Ann and of course nobody deserves death but she really was a snitch. ok she said she did it because of what devon told her but why she when teresa confronted her tried to ruin hers and james relationship although she knew T has feelings for him?? a so called sister and family doesn’t do this, she should‘ve come straight to her, so this sister talk all bullshit imo

2nd Pote: I know he is a very popular character and almost everyone loves him but this time he seemed really dumb to me. He didn‘t act rational, directly draw his conclusion that James is the mole without regarding anything else and trying to convince Teresa, always with his silly sentences like „He is different than us“, maybe he likes and accepts him but it is senseless first to say he would die for you and then acting like he is the only option to be traitor although he knows Teresa probably loves this guy But with KA he was totally blind and hurt, James had to kill her (I hadn‘t done it for him at this point but maybe that was personal for James) and didn’t even apologize to him. Conclusion: in like 10 min lmao James figured that some shit was played with him and made them kind of look dumb in the end and people complaining he closed of to T,she deserved it,he was so sweet the episode and she cold again I‘m more TeamJames than ever after that lol

Hey, anon! Sorry for getting to this so late. I’d say trying to ruin Teresa and James’ relationship was the least bad thing Kelly Anne did, lol, all things considered. She framed James as the mole which would have, minimum, resulted in him being thrown out of the cartel and Teresa dumping him. Y’all know Pote would’ve been calling for his head. Teresa almost died in that missile attack in Bolivia. I think Kelly Anne made a poor but understandable choice and realized too late what she should have done (which was go to Teresa, you’re right). I think she genuinely did love Teresa, tho.

Pote isn’t my favorite character by a stretch. I understand that others love him and I get why but I can’t get over what happened in Sinaloa and that all the development for his relationship with Teresa happened off-screen. He didn’t just jump to conclusions this time, tho. When Teresa called him she asked him if he was alone before telling him about the tracker. He asked her if she thought if might be James, because of the connection to Devon, and she said she didn’t know. So he was ultimately following Teresa’s lead. She had her doubts, tho, which Pote never did and that was his failing. He didn’t consider all the angles including James being much better at sneaky shady shit than that. I did hate that comment about James not being like them, tho, because I don’t know what that means exactly but it wasn’t meant as a compliment. (I’ve always thought that people make too many generous assumptions about Pote just because we see him in the flash forwards. He has his failings as a person and sicario, once placed his pride before Teresa’s life, and at the end of the day “men like Pote only follow the strong” is a compliment but a warning too.)

I’m not going to defend what Teresa did as having been right, because it wasn’t. She was wrong, she shouldn’t have assumed it was James, she should have gone to him and been upfront about what was happening. However. Setting aside that Teresa isn’t the same trusting person she was in season one, or even the more guarded woman she was at the end of season two when she left Guero behind, there were things that pointed to James. The connection to Devon, the use of a tracker. If we’re being honest, the clues that pointed to Kelly Anne weren’t as direct (she was using and acting squirrely all the time, she would be easy to blackmail; other clues were for the audience such as Devon’s conversation at the end of 3x05 which Teresa wasn’t privy to).

Teresa knew on some level it wasn’t James, that’s why she had her doubts from the beginning; even when there were solid clues pointing to him. What suggested to her that it wasn’t him is their connection, her feelings for him, etc., and these are things she’s spent most of this season refusing to acknowledge. Which was the problem.

#ask #queen of the south #james valdez #teresa mendoza #pote #kelly anne awken #jeresa #Anonymous

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Meet & Greet

Anon asked: Hey B! Love your imagines ❤️ Could you write one where Tom and main character meet in a meet and greet of one of TH’s concerts and he immidately likes her so much, and wants to be closer with her?

~ Thank you for the request. Enjoy! ~

The fans were all crowded at the center of the room. The conversation was a very easy going one and the guys as well as the fans felt particularly relaxed during this Meet & Greet with your favorite band, Tokio Hotel. As always, some fans were more talkative than other and you, this time, felt more like observing the guys instead of talking and asking the same questions as everyone else. After a few minutes observing the whole event, you noticed you were capable of seeing things the other fans couldn’t. You saw how Georg, smiled sweetly and in an introspective way every time someone said something about their beginning years as a band; you clearly saw him getting lost in his memories and you loved the calm look in his eyes. You could see how Gustav’s eyes and cheeks would shine every time he got an opportunity to talk about his new small family. Unlike Georg that was looking into the past with a sweet nostalgia, Gustav was looking at his future with the hope of a new life with his wife and baby girl. Bill’s smile was more transparent than ever, giving away the gentleness in his heart he sometimes tried to hide with a ‘cool attitude’. You could see all this because you chose to look rather than seeing. There was only one thing bothering you and that was Tom. He seemed blurry, as if he was not allowing anything from his true self to spontaneously show in a gesture, a smile or a look. He was the only one you could not figure out.

The Meet & Greet had already finished and the fans were finally leaving the room. I was honestly happy to see them leaving because I was terribly tired and I simply wanted to be alone and rest. I was about to leave myself when I saw the profile of a girl I hadn’t noticed before during the meeting. Her hair fell gracefully caressing her cheek, her lips were red like two spring flowers, her eyes were not looking at me but that just increased the feeling of mystery she had so quickly aroused inside of me. She was not different from the other girls but I saw in her a delicate beauty that transformed her in an unattainable absolute of perfection. She mesmerized me.

Tom quickly tried to go after you, but failed to go across a small group of fans without being stopped by them, asking him to take a last selfie. When he managed to finally get out of the room and follow the way you had taken a few minutes ago, he could not find you. His hopes that had aroused so swiftly before now faded just as fast with the sight of an empty lobby and a grey sky outside the hotel where the M&G had taken place. Frustrated, tired and not in a very good mood, he decided to go for a cigarette in the loneliness of the back alley.

I needed a break, a cigarette and specially some time alone. I had to get out of the hotel for just a moment. I felt so overwhelmed by something I could not name and that made me even more frustrated. I could not get her out of my head and especially how I had missed her when she was so close. I just needed the opportunity to say a few words to her and it had slipped off my hands. Damn, what an idiot.

I opened the door and the cold air hit my face. “Ahh…” I closed my eyes taking a deep breath and noticed it had started raining, it was so beautiful. I lit my cigarette and tried to take in the beautiful feeling of loneliness the rain always awakens in me when I saw a moving shadow to my left.  It was her. She was alone, resting her back against the wall.

“Oh, I’m sorry…” Tom said feeling unusually nervous and vulnerable.

“Don’t worry, I was leaving anyway.” You said taking hold of your bag and walking away from him.

Tom…Tom Kaulitz was standing right there, beside me. I guess this sudden encounter drove me to absurdly and impulsively run away from what I most like and admire. No cameras were around, no bodyguards, no other fans…everything felt so real and that was scarier than anything else. I looked at him and he looked so simple, not like that unreachable superstar I had seen in the M&G, he looked, well…he looked just like Tom. His mask from before had faded away and he stood plain and simple beside me, just as surprised as I was. Facing reality is scary, so scary I felt the need to leave. I kind of didn’t want to meet him like this, I was afraid he was not going to be the Tom I had imagined.

“Please don’t. Don’t leave just because I’m here. Besides, it’s raining.” He smiled and looked even more earthly. “I just needed a break.”  he let out a deep breath and the smoke coming from his mouth and nose veiled his perfect face.  “What were you doing here?” He asked smiling .

“I…I thought I would wait for the rain to pass but it seems to be getting worst.” You both looked up the dark grey sky in silence, the sound of the falling rain on the glass roof above your heads filling it. Tom walked towards you, leaned against the wall and looked at you with curiosity.

“So, you are a fan, right?” The smoke in his mouth moved slowly across his lips.

“I am, yes” you blushed, thinking he was going to assume you were just another crazy fan.

“Well that’s weird.” 

“What’s weird?” you asked 

“I don’t remember you talking, asking questions or even taking photos during the Meet & Greet. You behaved so differently, why?” his voice was gentle and gaze direct. You smiled almost to yourself, he assumptions were interesting to hear.

“I guess I chose to listen and look rather than talking and making noise. Don’t assume we are all the same Tom.” You crossed your arms inf ront of you as the rain kept falling on the surface of a small puddle beside your feet. “I mean, yes, we all like you and your music but some of us know how to respect you and ourselves.” You looked at your watch and realized it was almost time for you to go home, your bus was going to leave in less than 15 minutes. Tom was now silent and you felt his eyes all over you. You didn’t know why but he kept looking at you with curiosity and a sort of wonder.

“Well nice to meet you Tom.” you said putting on your jacket and getting ready to walk under the rain.

“What, you’re leaving?” He got closer to you and by instinct, grabbed your hand. “At lead wait for me to finish my cigarette. Plus you are going to get all wet.” He didn’t let go of you. His grasp was gentle and firm. He truly didn’t want you to leave.

“I can’t stay. If I do, I’ll miss my bus.” You smiled at him and you saw his cheeks blushing against his will. “Plus the rain has almost stopped now so I won’t get too wet I think” you tried to reassure him.

“But…” Tom looked down and his voice suddenly didn’t sound as confident as it did before. “At least let me give you something then.” You frowned not understanding what he meant by that. He suddenly threw his cigarette on the sidewalk and went back inside the hotel. A few seconds later he came back and handed you an umbrella. “It’s the least I can do. If you get wet you might get sick and we don’t want that.” Suddenly, the Tom you had missed before during the meeting reveled himself now before you. As you took the umbrella, the simple and real Tom you had just met showed you in that genuine gesture his unique and precious gentle heart.

I truly didn’t want her to leave, she was…different. She smiled at me and looked, I felt, into my very hidden and unknown feelings. Her eyes, only hers, had managed to cut across my façade. Now I understood why she chose to remain quiet during the meeting; because he was capable to look passed my fake self and into a ‘Tom’ I thought was long forgotten and lost to my very self. She brought that back. It seemed as if she saw in me the same thing I discovered in her. She came closer and sweetly kissed me on the cheek.

“Thank you Tom.” She stepped back but I held her hand.

“Just promise me one thing.” I was not going to let her go, never to see her again. I could not.

“What is it?” she was surprised and a bit nervous, I would dare to say.

“Promise me that you’ll be here tomorrow at mid day.”

“Why?” I smiled and had to look down to the wet floor. The weak light of the day gave this whole moment a feeling of tranquility and hidden hope.

“Because, first of all, I will be needing my umbrella back. And second, because I want to see you again, that simple.” She took a deep breath and squeezed my hand tight in hers, almost as a reflex.

“I promise, but now I really have to go Tom. I’m sorry.” I grabbed her arms and stared at her.

“I’ll be waiting then. I…I have so many things it want to talk about with you.”  

“Ok” she said shyly with a smile and finally walked away from me.

As you walked away from the hotel, you looked back and, behind a thin courting of falling raindrops you saw him, now across the street. You stopped to take in this moment and suspend it in your memory and heart. You smiled involuntarily and, just as if he had been able to see your smile across the grey glow from the puddles on the sidewalk, he waved goodbye at you. How strange, you thought to yourself as a faint ray of sun cut through the thick clouds transforming the rain into a golden stream from heaven, you had never thought this Meet & Greet would turn out like this.

#Tom Kaulitz #tom kaulitz long imagines

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i have so many theories right now...what if the guys are just trying to win a bet set on the oc? or maybe jk just doesn’t realize he likes the oc and mistakes his own actions as platonic ones? also, as readers, we see the story through the oc’s eyes so we focus on that angst part at the end of chap9, but then again, the oc has stated multiple times to hoseok and so many people that her and jk would never be more. whatever she went trough there, jk could have been trough the same a million times.

ahhhh you guys are the best!!! srsly i am so honored to have so many thoughtful, lovely, incredible asks theorizing about the plot and what jk’s intentions are!!! i would love to respond to each and every one of them, but unfortunately, i am unable to confirm or deny anything!

But i think these are super interesting and i’ve read all of them, and i’d love it if other ppl did as well! MORE ASKS UNDER THE CUT:

Anonymous said:I know Hoseok wasn’t in this chapter but I feel like Hoseok is gonna play her like jk did and she’s gonna be left in the dust with no one and resort to being even more icy. Jungkook has a lot of problems and it’s really evident that he likes her in that way. Fuckbois are really something else man. They get scared of affection yet lead girls on and make them scared of it. It’s like a constant cycle of insecurity. Damn I wish she was with jimin. He would’ve provided all the love and affection

Anonymous said:lmao why is everyone assuming jk will never change and that he’s going to be an Evil Fuckboi™️ forever. like, we can see how the oc changed throughout the story, so why y’all thinking jk can’t do the same. the story isn’t over, there is more to learn, and the oc and jk have more development to go through. anyway, deep in my heart I’m hoping they’ll get a happy ending 💜

Anonymous said:Why do I get the feeling that Jungkook has slight romantic feelings towards the oc but his fear of not wanting to get hurt outweighs those thoughts. I don’t know though I might be completely off😫Thank you for the update!

Anonymous said:I tried reading the story in JK's POV and I cant help but feel as if he isnt the one at fault for making OC cry. Yes, he rejected her but he's known as a fkboy. He stated clearly that he didn't want a relationship, he thought OC knew that clearly. Thus he thought they were just friends. All the things he said was misinterpreted into a romantic way cause people kept forcing OC to view their relationship romantically. I felt that if ppl didnt do that, OC wldnt have developed feelings for him.

carlyangel123 said:Ok everyone is saying that Jungkook hasn't changed at all and I'm not saying like oh yall wrong or anything😂. But I think, based on Jungkook's showcase of clinginess and affectionate actions through the past chapters, that he HAS fallen for the OC. However, bc of his past (not wanting to go through another possible heartbreak), his assumption the OC would never like him, and just maybe insecurities that he's denying it and forcing himself to be indifferent like the OC did in the beginning.🤔🤔

Anonymous said:Nah nah nah nah lu i refuse to believe that everything jungkook did was all platonic but through oc’s eyes we saw as romantic. Im trying to remember everything he’s done for her and trying to see it from a platonic pov but i cant. So here’s my conclusion: jk likes oc but during the car ride and seeing his hand in hers he had a realization and became fearful of being hurt like he was before. Thats why he put his barriers up again CUZ LIKE HOW COULD THAT BE THE SAME JK I JUST ALDJSKAHALA

Anonymous said:Jin was an ass who only wanted sex, cheated on y/n and didn't care for her, many people think that Jk may've gone through something similar with his ex, but I think JK's ex was totally different, she was in fact... the opposite. Possessive, wanted to be with jk all the time, didn't let him breath, etc... That's why he doesn't want a relationship, he suffered the opposite extreme of what the oc suffered with jin, also this would mean the oc is the complete opposite to jk's ex aka why he likes her

Anonymous said:i’m analyzing NR again and just a theory of my own: jk’s relationship with his ex girlfriend started as a fwb type and jk was the one to develop feelings first, and at first it was good and then severely went downhill? this theory is probably far from correct, but i was just piecing together the fact that he hates hookup culture, but is able to engage in it with OC, maybe jk just wanted the physical emotion or OC reminds jk of his ex? anyways i’m enjoying the story so so much! best wishes lu 💜

Anonymous said:Wait so like OC got reminded of Jin when she met JK, so I thought that maybe JK saw himself in OC? Bc sometimes they REALLY think alike.. Idk man I just had this idea.. I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH LU HAVE A NICE DAYYYY–❄️🐰

Anonymous said:I've been thinking about oc's relationship with seokjin and jk's with his ex gf. We don't know anything about her except two things: the oc reminded jk of her (as jk reminded her of seokjin) and the "don't leave me like she did" he said while drunk. If seokjin helped oc build who she is and what she wants in a relationship, we could say that maybe jk wants something that lacked in his previous relationship, like emotional support or a caring hand. It matches oc's Ice Queen reputation a bit to me

Anonymous said:Omg jks roues are definitely along the lines of “dont fall for anyone”

Anonymous said:so like, i feel as tho hyejin plays a more important role than we’re realizing. why does she seem so obsessed with jk if everyone knows he’s a fuckboy who doesn’t do relationships? why does she think she’s different? why does she think she has a chance? unless they already have a history we don’t know about...?? 🤔

Anonymous said:Personally, I wasn‘t that surprised about Jungkook not feeling the same way as OC. I don‘t blame him, he was honest from the very beginning with her. At the same time, I cannot blame OC either for feeling the way she does. Hookup culture leads you to believe that the person you‘re sleeping with should not care for you. I assume that OC interpreted the signals from JK in the wrong way, and thought he might love her when, in reality, he does care about her, but not in the way she wants. (1) ☀️

Anonymous said:JK has found smn he can talk to, and share smth else beyond sex. At the very end, I think OC might be the one who will push him outside his shell but not necessarily be the one he will fall in love with. (2)☀️

Anonymous said:I feel like oc and Jungkook might be on the same wavelength but because Jungkook clearly hasn’t gotten over his ex and whatever happened he might be pushing oc away. Plus the fact he even wants to stay friends with her is quite sweet in itself. It shows he genuinely cares about her, but probably isn’t ready to have any sort of relationship. You haven’t mentioned him having any female friends either so all of that skinship he does with oc might just be his way of being friendly??

Anonymous said:I feel like Jungkook is not over his ex and maybe he will end up with her, maybe he really does like the OC for the sex and the friendship. That's all.

Anonymous said:What if JK still likes his ex? :O

Anonymous said:Hummm sometimes I feel like in the end they're just going to be experiences for each other. I mean the OC and JK, maybe they will have none relationship at all, not friendship nor fuck buddies nor bf and gf...

dodoesdidwill said:Hyejin's line "You are really good at skating. I'm amazed" what? No way he was practicing after OC took him to skate, right? There must be something we don't know yet...

Anonymous said:Ok, if "New Rules" has taught me anything, it's to NOT judge a book by its covers. I judged Mijoo too harshly & things weren't as they seemed. Not repeating the same mistake with Kook. He was obviously hurt by someone in the past, just like the OC. Sooo... Maybe OC is not the only one with new rules? Maybe Kook was so hurt, one of his rules is to not fall in love again, or to ever put himself in a vulnerable position to be hurt again? Idk but I don't think he's that much of a dickwad

Anonymous said:Okay, so you said that we've been seeing JK through the OC's perspective and that we need to sort through the facts and her assumptions. What the anon who talked about JK having FWBs for the intimacy said really made sense to me and I thought about the fact that, if my memory serves me correctly, we've only seen JK with the OC. We have no way of knowing how he's acted in other FWB relationships. Maybe this is how he's been with all of them??? I dunno.

Anonymous said:i think new rules! jk likes OC too. this thing going on between them isn't just platonic. but the problem is, he really doesn't want to invest in a relationship, as some sort of defense mechanism (kind of like repression maybe?) i can't wait to find out more about his past and see exactly how it's correlating with his actions rn. I'm super hooked in your story lu! you never fail to deliver as always 💜

Anonymous said:I think jk is just as scared of what he feels for oc as oc is scared of what she feels for jk. Like I think oc already went through a ‘I need to protect myself from my feelings for him’ phase and I think jk is going through that now after their time at the hotel. I think he realized that he likes her a lot more than he realized and after coming back he’s trying to shut his feelings so he doesn’t go through whatever happened with his ex again

Anonymous said:JK said he hated hookup culture yet he partakes in it. My theory is that he might've done the same as OC has now done. Maybe had a sort of fwb relationship with his ex and subsequently fell for them, and they broke his heart. But again, idk if that's enough for someone to want to abstain from romantic relationships forever, though it does depend on the person. I'm probably wayyyy off but it's worth a shot :')

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Private Instruction

A/N: An anon request for a smutty JJ x Reader where the reader teaches her how to go down on a girl. This is Pre-Will and super cheesy. I hope you enjoy :D @coveofmemories @sexualemobitch @jamiemelyn @unstoppableangel8 @iammostdefinitelyonfire26 @marvelfanlife @amarislestrange @obsessed5sosfreak @sonhadoraativa @1enchantedfantasy1 @ace-and-rosey @blakendores @twelveyearoldchildprodigy @offbrandcursewords @entelechysymphony @milkandcookies528 @pugs-cats-bb-8 @davidr0ssi @sarahkay-19

Warnings: Smut

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“Jayge, you’ve gotta get back out there,” you said encouragingly. As her best friend, the last thing you wanted was for JJ to be alone when she so badly wanted to share her life with someone. “I realize your last couple of relationships didn’t end well, but there is some lucky ass guy out there who is going to love you.”

JJ laughed lightly, the air escaping through her nose as she turned from the kitchen counter to face you. “What makes you think I’m only interested in men?” Your eyes widened at the thought. JJ liked women? Oh, that was not good news for your wandering mind. JJ was quite possibly the most beautiful woman in the world to you and she’d been the object of your affections since you started at the Bureau. As you formed your thoughts into something coherent, you attempted to wipe the blush off your face.

“In all our years of knowing each other, you’ve never once mentioned being bisexual.”

She shrugged and turned back toward the counter, where she was preparing mini ice cream sundaes for you both. “Guess, it just never came up. I’ve never been with a woman though. I just know I like them. I’m...” JJ told you nearly everything. What was she going to say?

“What?” You asked, but she turned away again. “Come on, I’m one of your best friends in the world, tell me.”

You definitely weren’t expecting the next words out of her mouth. “I’m nervous about ever getting into a relationship with a woman because I wouldn’t know what to do...sexually.”

You walked up to her side and placed your hand on her shoulder. “Did you know what to do the first time you were with a guy?”

“Kind of. Books and stuff.”

“Book learning is so minimal. I mean practically. Did you know what he liked? What he wanted? Before you slept with him?” Her wariness about the whole situation was actually pretty adorable. She shook her head. Of course she didn’t. No one did. You flew by the seat of your pants and hoped that you had a communicative lover so you could figure out what they liked. Whether it was with a man or a woman, it didn’t matter - same rules applied. “Exactly. If you end up with a woman, you’ll figure it out. Plus, you just have to do what you know you like on her.” You’d always been under the assumption that women were better lovers than men because women tended to pay attention more.

The conversation died into nothingness for a few moments before she blushed at the fact that it had even happened. “You’ll figure it out as you go along. I did.” Out and proud since the age of 15, you’d had relationships with both men and women and knew your way around bodies of all shapes and sizes. “You’ll just need to find someone who’s willing to teach you all the things you need to know,” you laughed. Shy was never your thing; you lifted your fingers in a “v” shape on either side of your mouth and made an “obscene” gesture.

“What? Like you?” JJ asked. Was she joking? Maybe she was joking? But why on earth should you let this opportunity slide?

The images that had run through your head in regards to JJ and a bed ran the gamut from her writhing underneath your fingers to her head buried between your legs to using a range of different toys on each other. “Jayge, I would be more than willing to teach you all about the ways of eating out of that’s what you want.” Honestly, it was said in jest. Never in a million years did you expect her to actually be open to the idea.

“Really?” She asked genuinely. “Would you?”

When she turned to meet your gaze again, she’d frozen in place, her eyes full of curiosity. “I mean, Jayge, you’re beautiful. If you genuinely have no idea what you’d be doing, I could give you some practical instruction. It’s not like I don’t think you’re one of the most beautiful creatures in existence.”

JJ blushed and looked at the floor. She’d always been so confident; seeing her so meek and unconfident was unusual. One last time, you tried to gauge whether or not she was serious. Once you did, you closed the space between you and placed your arms on either side of her body, resting against the counter.

In your mind, you’d done this with such confidence, but you never imagined actually getting the opportunity. Hesitantly, you leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss to her lips. Her eyes fluttered closed - lips pressed insistently against your own. You lifted your hands to the sides of her neck, cradling her face as you parted her lips with your tongue and turned to sweet kiss into a more passionate one. She tasted of strawberries; it was all you could do not to devour her right there.

Apparently, the feeling must’ve been somewhat mutual because she snaked her delicate hands around your waist and pulled you closer. Her trembling fingers told you she wanted more, but was hesitant to do anything wrong. “Slide your hands under my shirt,” you whispered, her mouth eager to swallow your words. Grabbing her hand, you placed it at the hemline of your shirt, hissing slightly when she lifted the material and the cool air of the apartment hit your heated skin.

When you leaned into the kiss, reveling in the feel of her fingertips against your stomach, JJ moaned into you. “See,” you said. Your lips brushed against hers, just a hair’s breath away. “You know what you’re doing without realizing it.”

“Does that mean we have to stop?” Her giggle made you melt. How could someone be simultaneously so sexy and so cute? It was maddening.

You shook your head and parted her lips once more. “Not if you don’t want to, Jayge.” Her sigh of relief made you wonder if she wanted this as more than just instruction on the art of women loving women. Everything in you hoped that that was the case, but even if it wasn’t you were going to enjoy this. Stay in the moment.

In a blur of soft fabrics, bright colors and quiet thudding sounds, somehow, you and JJ had ended up in your bedroom, thin slips of lace now all that were covering you. “Jayge, you are so gorgeous.” Marveling at her sun-kissed skin, you slowly kissed down her collarbone, between her breasts and down toward the hemline of her black lace panties. “Never imagined I’d get to do this.”

Your tongue jutted out to taste her above the lace; the sweetest sound you’ve ever heard left from between her lips as you kissed her. As her back arched upward, she brought her hands to her breasts. Taut peaks became visible underneath the delicate material, silently begging to be freed from their restraints. Despite what she’d said, JJ didn’t seem to need much instruction, but that didn’t mean that you weren’t going to make sure she enjoyed this.

Breathing heavily, you kissed back up her frame and lifted her top half off the bed so that you could remove her bra and sending it floating to the floor. You weren’t about to leave her upper half neglected as your tongue traveled over her, tasting. You brought each nipple in your mouth before taking her hands in yours and placing them over her sensitive breasts. “I’ll take care of the rest.”

JJ whined sweetly as you glided back down her stomach, leaving small love bites along the way. You grabbed the material between your teeth and pulled them down her legs bit by bit, before resorting to using your hands; you were growing impatient. This moment had played over and over again in your mind nearly since you began working with her; you weren’t about to wait much longer, especially once you heard her mutter your name. “Y/N,” she breathed.

“As with men, start out slow,” you said, laughing against her as you kissed her folds. “Figure out what she likes. What sounds is she making and when is she making them?” Raking your fingers gently around her thighs, you flattened your tongue and licked up the length of her slit; she quivered, but you wanted more.

Your tongue delved into her folds, licking and sucking gently at first, and then more insistently. When she arched upward into your mouth, you took a second to tease her. “Arching is usually a good sign that you’re doing something right.” Her smile brought a laugh up from the depths of you as you returned to devouring her, adding the sensation of your fingers thrusting in and out of her slick heat as your mouth provided a suction around her sensitive bundle of nerves. “Oh my god,” she breathed. “Y/N, please...more.”

Feverishly, you kissed and licked at her center until she was writhing underneath you, arching up into your mouth and begging for more with only her strangled cries of pleasure. You nearly shook with your own pleasure; watching her come undone was more than worth the price of this session of instruction. As she eased down from her climax, you kissed back up her body and took her lips in a passionate yet sweet kiss. “I think that was a very successful study session,” you giggled against her.

“I’d say so,” she said, her breaths still slightly ragged. She slid her hand up the length of your back and into your hair. “But I think I may need another lesson or two.”

You chuckled into her neck. “I’m sure I could be convinced to provide you further instruction.”

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