#would be happy to talk

[barghest-land]

just saw your tags about john, and it's so real, i would talk about john all day long too (im completely sane), but i don't want to bother other ppl!! (anyway love your art so much)

anon u can bother me anytime with this!! i'm thinking about him all the time, im completely normal as well (no im not). i have so many thoughts istg my brain is too small to keep them inside my head

also, thank u 🥺

#if someone walked up to me and said hey let's talk about john for 5 hours straight id kiss them on the mouth #real talk #but seriously u won't bother me with this im insane about him #would be happy to talk #literally drawing him as i write this #barghest barks

[seldompathic]

Let him speak

#sonic the hedgehog #sth #sonic art #shadow the hedgehog #sorry its kinda crappy but I'm tired and pen is NOT forgiving #i stg i forget pencils exist sometimes- being able to erase would be nice 😤 #sonadow #because any time I draw these two together its on my mind >:)) #Sonic is the king of hypocrisy. bro wants everyone to be happy but will willing let himself melt into the floor before a “feelings talk”

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[inkskinned]

before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them. #which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in! #but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected! #> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace'' #bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward. #TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex'' #WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it. #not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden? #even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

[mintypsii]

yk adorable group hug and luffy moment aside, did zoro just kick the ground . after he was hugged . is this show even real

sorry but the way nami went 🤨🏳️‍🌈 TWICE

#i love the opla i love the opla i would die for the opla #UGHHGGHGH LUFFY SHOUTING WITH HAPPINESS IS SO #inaki did graduate from the university of luffyoligy /ref #they mean everything to me u don't understand #they made everyone fruity as hell im #the kayasopp usokaya whatever the ship name kiss also counts #THEYRE SO CUTE? #sorry irrelevant i just needed to talk about it #THE AMOUNT OF JOY THIS SHOW IS GIVING ME i might die #IM GONNA DRAW SO MANY SCREENCAPS #JUST WATCH #(i cursed myself by saying that and now i never will) #one piece #op #one piece live action #opla #spoilers #min watches one piece #zolu #roronoa zoro #monkey d luffy #nami #iñaki godoy #mackenyu #emily rudd

[turtleblogatlast]

Was thinking about this again haha

Anyway I adore Hueso and Leo’s dynamic and wanted to include Hueso Jr in it because I like to think Leo can be shockingly good with kids

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt hueso #rottmnt leo #rottmnt hueso jr #rise leo #I wish we actually got to meet hueso jr #he’s so cute from the literal One Picture we saw #and it would have been so fun to see the sardonic Hueso’s son be so happy go lucky #he goes up to Leo all ‘you’re the one my papá always complains about!:D’ #and before Leo can go ‘omg tío talks about me 🥹’ jr hugs him tightly #says he ‘always wanted a brother!!’ #Leo tries not to cry fails and promptly says ‘what if I told you I’m a package deal’ #Hueso Jr now has four big bros #turtle art tag #I JUST REALIZED I SHOULD PROBABLY START KEEPING A TAG FOR ART…

[obsob]

making and weaving and loving! like we have done for millennia!!

#mine #original #ough. hello. #happy new year!!!!! first drawing of th year!!!!!!!! #also LAKSBF 15k followers. hello. welcome #i taught bf how to crochet n hes making a blanket....the irl insp for this piece... #im so proud of these colours....i used an actual real life colour palette..n i think that is th way forward #also . gradient maps my beloved #why have i always refused ur warm embrace....... #dont pay attention 2 the wool bowls okay ive seen a picture of one like once #i do want one however. tho why r they so expensive #its a bowl w a hole in it. relax #ive been listening 2 the silmarillion audiobook as ive been working...i love it sm its like incomprehensible #like. idk what ur talking abt but i love it all th same!! #i tried reading it last year n was like.......okay anyway #rereading gay nuclear disaster book rn....natasha pulley would it kill u 2 write a smut scene #i want 2 see th horrible little scientist man get railed #next book after this is . 1030 pages oaodghsdugd #my goal is to read 50 books this year but i do not think that will happen bc i refuse 2 read books less than 400 pages skjdgbskjd #someone ask me about books. i have so many opinions abt books #okay good evening. i leave u w love

[sloppy-syrup]

Your honor, he has a short attention span

Got lazy near the middle then picked it back up a bit lol

#he would def need the videos with subway surfers at the bottom #he couldn’t pay attention to Donnie rant for the life of him #poor Donnie talks too fast sometimes #but Leo is still happy his brother wants to hang out with him lol #save rottmnt #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #artists on tumblr #tmnt #rise donnie #donatello #rise leo #leonardo #tmnt leonardo #tmnt donatello #unpause rise of the tmnt #save rise of the tmnt #save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #unpause rottmnt #unpause rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #disaster twins #animatic #rottmnt fanart #rottmnt animatic #they’re so silly #1k #Sloppy’s arts

[comradekatara]

a really defining moment of aang and sokka’s relationship is that sokka literally lets himself get beat up for aang’s amusement and entertainment like a day into knowing him. like he is literally letting aang drop him onto the ground from a not insignificant height over and over again just to see aang smile and laugh. he is putting his own safety and physical wellbeing at risk because it makes aang happy. and there’s a lot we could get into here about how sokka fundamentally views himself and his body as a vessel through which to provide services to others instead of a whole human being in his own right, but what matters for the purposes of this post is that it’s very immediately established that sokka will do anything to see aang enjoy himself, to the point that he will quite literally put up with physical abuse without complaint to make aang happy. so when people are like “it’s crazy how sokka is so smart and yet loses all his braincells whenever he’s around aang,” it’s like yeah, teenage boy adhd2adhd communication will do that, but also a large part of it is sokka contorting himself into an image that he thinks aang will appreciate, because he knows just how valuable preserving aang’s childhood joy and laughter is.

and what’s beautiful is that through actively becoming this person for aang’s benefit, he also actually starts to internalize the sentiment. through the process of letting himself be silly and goofy for the sake of making aang happy, he also absorbs some of that sillygoofy happiness and regains some of his own childhood joy and laughter and sense of wonder he truly thought he had lost forever. he’s not just helping aang retain his childhood, but aang is also helping sokka regain his sense of humanity. the sokka of book 3 is someone who enjoys “wacky, time wasting nonsense” and throws beach parties, a far cry from the sokka of book 1 who thought fun and joy were luxuries no one could afford. his selfless love for aang is also self-affirming, helps him to embrace aang’s point of view, to love himself slightly more than he otherwise would have. because to love aang is to necessarily let kindness into your life; it’s to learn how to be free.

#sometimes i remember that aang is fictional and i cannot actually be friends with him and i feel genuinely distraught #but i am comforted by the knowledge that we WOULD be friends were he real and that’s what matters #aang #sokka #aang&sokka #analysis #there are a bunch of rly fucked up directions i could take this post #but i think I’ve talked abt the fucked up aspects of their relationship plenty lately #and there’s also smth just so beautiful & poignant & sweet about how sokka doing his whole ‘denying the self to serve another’ shtick #kind of just backfires with aang because he inadvertently learns how to have fun #i do also think suki is really the person who increases his general happiness levels the most tbh #but like. aang laid the groundwork for sure #holds them….

[bizarrelittlemew]

calling it right now that season 3 starts like this

#so confused about people saying the season finale feels like the end because to me it didn't at all #there's like 5-10 issues immediately set up for another season #they're in a happy place at this point because they've both realized their love is bigger than anything else #and makes it worth working on their problems together #the problems are still very much there #both of them have deep self esteem/self loathing issues that haven't been resolved in the week since ed woke up #ed doesn't know about stede's trauma #they haven't talked through anything #and they'll be shit at starting/running an inn lmao it's not gonna go well #and those are just some of the internal issues #then there's prince ricky and all the authorities that would very much like to get their hands on both blackbeard and stede bonnet #because stede just full-on kept using his government name after faking his death. nice one #the crew are not “gone” they're more like off to college for a bit but will probably run into trouble immediately #again because while they escaped to the ship they didn't eliminate the threat (the british empire) #it's not a forever goodbye #ok this got super long already anyway i have a whole fic marinading in my brain until i've finished these 4 wips i'm in the middle of ✌️ #hope we get a renewal soon because i want to see the rest of their story!! #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd #our flag means death

[pineapple-frenzy]

Ahaha I missed zutara week again this year :'> I was way busier this week than I thought I would be. Thank god my prof moved the deadline cause ain't no way can I finish an animation by tonight ajskaidlsk anyways, since the deadline got moved I decided to take a break from it and draw some zk :>> happy zutara week!!

#zutara #zuko #katara #atla #zutara week 2023 #my art #i drew them in my softer style cause i am soft for them :'>> #i think they always look a bit older and more mature in this style even tho i only really change the brushes i use when i draw in this styl #it's just different brushes but the look and feel to it is different from how i draw now with different brushes i think #or maybe i'm just tripping and my art looks the same regardless of what brushes i use aidlajdlajsk #anyways yeah happy zk week!! sorry for missing it again this year :'>> #thank you to my classmate who talked to our prof for an extension akdjlakdkak #i couldn't have drawn this today and would have been cramming right now :'>> #i'm gonna rb some old zk art later to make up for missing this year's zk week djaldjlaksk

[happyk44]

Percy proposes spontaneously one night and Annabeth says no and he's like "...why" and she squints at him annoyed

"because I have my own proposal plans and an actual ring. So shush up and sit on your Yes for another couple months"

Percy is extremely annoying over the next couple months. He crafts makeshift rings out of whatever is lying around. Paper leftover from straws, bottle cap rings, the dying flowers from the vase on the windowsill. He will randomly propose to her with them, never in public, he wouldn't do that, but in front of their friends, before bed, when she's in the shower, as she's working are all viable options and she flatly responds "no" every time

Her proposal is pretty special and definitely worth the rejection and the wait. His heart thrums and he blurts yes before she even gets to her knee on the cool sand. She rolls her eyes and asks properly anyway, only to be tackled with a stream of yes's pressed against her mouth. It takes them a couple seconds after to find the ring where Percy knocked it into the sand. But it's a great proposal and a beautiful handcrafted ring.

It becomes even better when she pulls out a glass jar filled with all of Percy's "rings" and smiles back at him.

"You get a yes this time too," she says, pulling out one of the rings and letting Percy fit it around her finger. It's a shitty seashell ring he made at Estelle's afterschool program. She didn't want to leave until she was finished with her picture, so Percy sat down on the tiny chairs and tried to string wire through pre-drilled holes and beads. He made her a bracelet, made Annabeth a ring.

It sits thick and awkward on her hand, goofy compared to the smooth celestial bronze on Percy's finger shining in the quiet moonlight. But she's happy, and so is he.

#percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #felt like being sappy #happy talks pjo #anyway annabeth would 100% reject Percy's proposal because she started planning an indepth one herself the day they started dating

[hinata-boke]

captain and vice captain

#haikyuu #my art #yamaguchi #kageyama #doodle #i want to see more of them interact!! #main interactions i remember are in the supplementary material #like that one audio thing where 1st years were walking home and talking abt one of their matches and kags compliments yams serve #and yams is surprised #and in the recent haikyuu fiesta where tsukki said yams would be best suited as captain #and kags said he should tell yams bc it would make him happy #i dunno i wanna see more of them just being amicable it makes me happy #its hard to be rude to yams bc hes actually just a relatively normal and nice guy jdsknffds #also the little scene where yamaguchi pushes kageyama to get checked out when he gets a nosebleed #my little captain

[inkskinned]

it mattered because when my brother asked me what if this is the happiest you'll ever be? the best you'll ever get? the thing i felt was fear, not peace. everybody thought you were so perfect for me. even i thought you were "helping me grow". i had to challenge every internal clock. make myself more thoughtful, more kind, more beautiful.

i told my therapist it was good because i like the changes i made and there's something so strong about saying i did that. the problem is that i can like the difference all i want, but i changed for you. something akin to getting your name tattooed, all my progress is stamped with fuck you.

it was the happiest i'd ever been and also the best i'd ever gotten. i would still get in the car and think what the fuck just happened.

#warm up #writeblr #i spent a lot of time picturing our future #how funny to think: in each version of our future #i was never myself #i was someone smarter kinder braver #better adept. #who could navigate the way you shouted and got angry at small things and never fucking believed the best of me #i would never be needy and you'd never get tired of me #people usually talk about how we picture people as being “fixable”. but i assumed i was the problem. my idyllic picture wasn't of you. #it was a version of me that wasn't ill. that needed no extra help. that could be your wife and happy #the fact i wasn't happy was because there is something so wrong inside me. it's always been that way. i convinced myself: #if i stay i can change. if i stay i can make it worth it. i can apologize and fix this. and make us both okay. #for the last year i've been thinking about how you blamed our whole breakup on me. how it was my fault for whatever thing. #and i agreed with you. because of course i did. you'd trained me to believe everything was my fault . that you wanted to love me and i made #it far too hard. that i was always finding ways to ''set you off'. #a few days ago while i was doing something else #i realized that while i was in crisis you told me to fuck off and find someone else to get help. and you never fucking apologized . #you said i made you do that because i wasn't being sensible. i had been crying too hard to speak clearly. #you said: you're doing this to manipulate me. #you forgave yourself for that. i had to forgive you without apology. you said you were right to react that way. and then you were SO #SO annoyed. any time i said: i feel like you aren't nice to me. it is hard to trust that you love me. #i don't think about you that much anymore. but these days when i do: all i can think is that im not sure u ever really understood kindness #you were the cruelest to the people closest to you. and most of the time. that meant it fell to me.

[aler-ii]

💿 Introducing the CD Set by Alerii 🌐

4k gift!! When I tell you this has been a wip for a year... definitely caused me a challenge but I love the result anyways. Inspired by the Cyber Y2K renaissance + complimentary Trinketz™ to pair with it! Also huge huge thank you to the S4S forums for helping me sort out problems with the mesh.

Base Game Compatible

All Frames, All LODS

CD Jeans: 6k polys | 24 Swatches, Trinketz: 12k polys | 16 Swatches

PSD for recolouring included in dl

Respect my TOU

Consider donating to my Ko-Fi!

download (sfs, free | seperate + rar file)

Preview under the cut in order: Fem frame | Masc Frame | Turnaround

#i love talking like a flipthrough magazine #anyways im just happy to finally share it aghhh the concept is so fun to me #would love to see if anyone recolours the disks!!! #sims4 #ts4 #sims 4 cc #ts4 clothes #ts4 jeans #sims 4 cc finds #ts4cc #ts4 cc finds #dls

[s0fter-sin]

soap and ghost, after months of flirting, of having each other’s backs and saving each other’s lives, of knowing the other better than they know themselves, finally getting together

ghost letting himself free fall onto the bed, soap following, always following his lead. they barely pull apart enough to get their shirts over their heads, hands running over muscles and scars and holding close

soap kisses every new scar that’s revealed to him, from the thick keloid divot over his ribs from some kind of puncture to the innumerable slashes and stitch wounds holding his torso together until he’s mouthing over his collarbones; the tips of his fingers lightly caressing the edges of his mask

ghost who’s been so quiet, so overwhelmed by soap’s touch that all he can do is sink into him, panting gasping breaths, finally pushes out, “don’t ask me. please…”

soap freezes, mouth hovering over his skin. “ghost…?”

ghost’s face is tilted away, eyes held so tightly shut they tremor while the rest of his body stays lax beneath his. desperate. resigned. “please don’t ask me, johnny.”

soap lets his hand fall from the mask, coming to run soothing circles over his clothed hip. “why?”

“because i’ll say yes,” he confesses and it’s great and terrible; a warning and a relinquishment laid at soap’s feet. “i’ll always say yes to you.”

for a long moment, there’s nothing but their shared breaths, nothing but their hearts beating for the other. until soap finally leans down to press a kiss to the corner of his hidden mouth; his lips meeting faint raised scar tissue he might never see

“i’ll never ask.”

ghost’s eyes drift open and they catch on soap’s; on a sea of promise and fierce protection

“i swear… i’ll never ask, ghost.”

#ghost who would take off his mask for johnny in a heartbeat and soap who would never let him take it off for anything but himself my belove #they proceed to have the softest most tender sex youve ever seen #im talking missionary chest to chest arms and legs wrapped so tightly all they can is rock #just god the love and the trust and the understanding #ghost knows hes not ready knows he would be violently uncomfortable the entire time #but would still put himself through it if thats what johnny wanted #and soap who would never ask him to sacrifice his comfort for something as insignificant as his own wants #like he would ever see that as a worthy reason #like he could ever find happiness in it knowing ghost was uncomfortable #he’ll spend the rest of his life showing ghost he doesnt need to compromise his comfort or his coping mechanisms for him #coming out of my cage and ive been soing just fine.txt #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #ghost x soap #we’re a team. ghost team #save post