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schnuffel-danny · 1 year
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I'm not going to tell anyone how to live their life, but something about basing your silly little headcanons on mental illness you have no real life experience with feels a little wrong to me.
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bluejeanstrash · 11 months
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11/10
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a/n: i got this idea from an nsfw prompt generator so if anyone else has already done this, that could be why ✌️
tags: fwb! seungcheol, overstimulation, semi-dacryphilia, forced orgasms
w/c: 2.3k
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in hindsight, telling the most competitive guy you know that you may or may not be faking your orgasms with him was probably not the best idea.
it was just 4 hours ago when jun had suggested a game of truth or drink. and it was just 3 hours 45 minutes ago when he had asked you ‘have you ever faked an orgasm?’
‘yeah?’ you’d answered like it was the most obvious thing in the world. and because whatever was in that alcohol was making you loose-lipped, you had continued.
‘in fact-’ a pause ‘-and i’m not proud of this, but i’m really good at it. the guy could never tell’
there was an immediate murmur of we can tell around the table but you interrupted.
‘trust me, you can’t. those guys still think they’ve given me the best sex of my life but they were horrible. i faked it so i could get done with it and go home’ you took a sip of your drink despite answering.
‘so, anyway, yes i’ve faked it. many times’ you had concluded, looking directly at seungcheol when you said that. you didn’t mean to look at him, he was just there in your line of sight.
he also had this funny expression on his face, somewhere between amused and offended.
were you trying to tell him something?
seungcheol and you were in a (secret) friends with benefits thing. you didn’t really call it that but that’s what it was. it had happened as a result of another game of truth or drink around 3 months ago, and thankfully, every orgasm with him in those 3 months had been very much legit.
so, when you’d seen him outside the bathroom later you’d clarified.
‘you know i wasn’t talking about you, right?’ you reassured.
‘of course you weren’t’ he answered like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
it had annoyed you. no man should be that confident.
‘oh? confident much?’
he’d leaned in, a little too close for being in public, and said ‘i may not know a lot of things...but i know how to make a woman cum’
and as his thumb softly grazed your lips, he’d stated ‘i know how to make you cum’
‘do you?’ you retorted, moving back ‘or have i been faking it and you just think you’re doing a good job?’
you don’t know why but you kind of wanted to piss him off. i mean sure, you were sleeping with him, but seungcheol was your friend before a fuck and it was always fun messing with him. 
‘what are you trying to do?’ he’d asked, an eyebrow raised in mild annoyance.
is this a challenge?
‘i’m not trying to do anything’ big. fat. lies. ‘i’m just saying you’d never know’
sounds like a challenge to him.
(12:40 am)
‘please, no more!’ you move under his arms, writhing desperately.
‘answer the question’ he holds you in place, his grip tightening around you.
‘how many was that?’
‘f-fou-r’
‘did you fake that one?’ he asks softly.
‘no, i didn’t! i fucking swear!’ 
‘hmmn’ you feel a trail of gentle kisses travel up your neck ‘but you said i would never know, remember?’ 
seungcheol’s voice sounds sweet. so very sweet. but you know that tone—it's pure condescension masquerading as sweetness.
right now, you’re sitting on the floor, back pressed to seungcheol’s chest, locked in his heavy arms. 
after jun’s, he’d offered to drive you home, which had recently become code for ‘let’s go fuck’. and before you could even kiss him at your apartment, he’d grabbed your vibrator.
he’d made you sit in front of the floor length mirror, nestled in between his legs, with a towel laid out underneath as he played with you. were you getting pampered today? maybe.
it sure felt like it after the first orgasm, and the second. but when he’d moved on to your third before you were even done with the last, you realised what this was. a lesson. a lesson for running your mouth.
‘another one then, just to be sure’ he hums, before pressing the vibrator back against your clothed cunt.
40 minutes in and seungcheol hadn’t even bothered to take your panties off. there was something quite erotic about seeing that damp patch on your underwear spread as he made you cum over and over. proof, he called it. and by now you were soaked, the silky fabric clinging to your puffy lips.
you squirm at his words, fingers digging into his skin at the overstimulation. he doesn’t even flinch.
‘look what you’re making me do to you’ he clicks his tongue like it’s a pity. like he doesn’t fucking love it.
‘you know i want to let you go, right? but we just have to be sure so there’s no confusion about this in the future’
subtext: if you ever fucking insinuate that i can’t make you cum, i’ll make you cum until you’re begging me to stop.
you try and wriggle again, but there’s no point—you’re completely at his mercy.
‘tsk, don’t move around so much. you should rest now. you’ll need the energy’ he cooes.
you can only whine helplessly at his words as you feel your brain and body consumed by a familiar high. and so you cum again, moaning his name as you do.
‘how many?’ he asks while you’re still coming down from it.
‘f-five’ 
‘did you fake that one?’
you tell him you didn’t. you promise.
‘are you sure about that?’ 
‘i’m sure! seungcheol please’
‘hmmn’ for a second there he actually contemplates letting you go but your cocky little words ring in his ear.
‘i’m not’ sadistic fuck. and once again you feel the relentless vibration as you jerk forward, your legs clamping shut. immediately, seungcheol drags you back, his lips gathered in a pout of displeasure as he drapes one heavy leg over yours to spread you open. 
‘where are you going? hmmn?’ he presses the head against your throbbing clit, not letting up for even a second as he forces another orgasm out of you. your sixth.
drained. that’s how you feel after you cum, your body falling limp against his. ‘seungcheol, i’m done’ you whine feebly, hoping to garner a little sympathy.
‘no, no’ he shushes you ‘we’re not close to being done here. i haven’t even seen your pretty pussy yet. how can we be done?’
he leans forward, two fingers grabbing the fabric of your wet panties to pull them aside. ‘how pretty’ he smiles, gaze fixated on your slick cunt, and a split second later you hear the hum of the vibrator again. the second it touches your exposed cunt, a sharp gasp escapes your lips.
‘f-fuck’ you curse, feeling that knot in your stomach just a few minutes later.
‘coming already?’ he taunts as you end up giving him another. 
‘that makes seven’ he counts it for you like he’s helping you out. you’re not sure how far he wants to push you today, but you do know you need to make it easier for you somehow.
‘please…can’t anymore…the vibrator’ you manage to string together in between quick gasps. the intensity of it against your swollen clit is too much. you need relief—something soft, something warm, something gentle—like seungcheol’s fingers. 
after what seems like forever, the buzzing stops. ‘thank you’ you whimper and are met with a wry chuckle, his body shaking behind you.
‘you shouldn’t thank me yet’ he whispers. one of his big hands wraps around your throat giving it a light squeeze before sliding down your body to your cunt, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake.
‘so wet for someone who’s faking it’ he mutters to himself, thick fingers sliding in between your wet folds as he scoops up your arousal, pushing it back inside you. his finger slips in so easily that he adds a second. as he fucks you, fingers moving in and out, a vulgar squelching noise fills the room.
‘so fucking wet’ the softness of his voice now layered with something heavier. you can tell feeling you with his bare hands must’ve really turned him on. or at least that’s what his hard on pressing into your back is saying.
as you watch his fingers disappear inside you and come out all slick and shiny, your body somehow starts to crave another orgasm. 
he knows it too. the way your walls begin to squeeze around him as he curls his fingers up, two stimulating your g-spot, while his thumb rubs your clit, all working up an incredibly hard orgasm. 
‘go on…let me see you cum for me’ his voice is all you needed to hear, because a second later you come, for the eight time, gushing all over his fingers. 
‘look at yourself’ he commands.
you do, looking lazily at your reflection through tired eyes.
‘look’ he grabs your face, forcing you to look.
‘what’s that dripping out of you?’
your eyes drop to the towel that has a very telling wet patch on it. getting overstimulated with the vibrator always made you a little messy but not like this; never like this.
‘answer me’
‘cum’ and so much of it. the way it’s stained the towel, the way it’s spread all over your inner thighs, and the way it’s still dripping out of you is such a pretty sight for seungcheol.
but you’re exhausted. it was so intense and there’s no way you can do it again. 
‘seungcheol…i don’t have any left in me’ he can’t help but smile at your silly little statement.
‘no?’ he plays along, pulling you closer. his one hand grabs your breast, softly caressing it, before taking your nipple in between his fingers. his other, slides down to your swollen clit to rub in slow circles. and finally, his soft lips kiss down your neck, peppering little pecks along the way before stopping at that spot that only he knows exists. and as he stimulates all three so slowly and sensually, you feel your body start to betray you. 
‘when did you turn into such a little liar, hmm?’ he asks, feeling your body start to tense up like it always did before release. he knows this feeling, he’s felt this over and over for the past three months—you can’t fool him. and as you bite back your moans, it takes over, and you cum again. number nine. seungcheol smiles to himself, and doesn’t stop.
he keeps going despite you just having given him one. it’s sore and sensitive but the way his lips have latched on to that spot on your neck it’s impossible not to surrender.
in a consistent rhythm he builds your high back up - neck. breasts. clit. you look at yourself in the reflection and god, it’s so erotic. the way he’s holding you—tight and completely under his control, his arms flexing as he masturbates you—makes you dizzy.
you want to curse and scream as you cum but you’re too overstimulated to formulate a single thought. only eager little moans spill out of your mouth.
‘go on, i know you want to’ he coaxes as you do, thrashing and tugging at the fabric of his pants.
‘i thought you had no more left in you?’ he teases as you come down from your tenth.
maybe it was a lie before but now you really don’t. isn’t 10 enough? he has to be satisfied with that. there’s a few seconds of silence when you think he might be. he lulls you into a false sense of security as your eyes fall shut, and then the sick sound of the vibrator fills the room again. no.
‘what do i need to do?’ your eyes sting with regret as you feel it touch your extremely sensitive clit.
you know what you need to do. you just don’t want to do it.
he pushes it harder, toying with you. fine.
‘i’m sorry, okay?’ a desperate apology finally spills out. 
‘i take it back! you would know if you made me cum’ you whine. he says nothing, simply increasing the intensity.
‘i’m sorry’ your voice breaks as two perfect tears roll down your cheeks. until now, seungcheol had only ever pushed you to tears from the denial of pleasure, never from too much of it. he finds it incredibly arousing.
‘you’re so fucking cute when you’re desperate’ he says, looking at your pathetic reflection in the mirror. you look so pretty with those wet eyes and a dripping wet pussy that he suddenly feels forgiving.
‘cum for me again and i’ll let you go’ he kisses your neck. a wet little kiss.
‘i can’t’ you cry, tears flowing free now. ‘i can’t’ 
‘you can’ and you will for him.
‘you’re going to give me one more’ he says like you have no choice in the matter and presses the vibrator harder against you as you grab onto his arms. 
‘shhh, don’t cry. be a good girl now and cum for me again. then i’ll believe you’ he cooes.
‘show me…show me how you can’t fake it with me’
as your start to spasm, your body shaking under him, you let out a moan, half of pleasure, half of exhaustion. you grip him harder, nails leaving red scratches all over his pale skin as the orgasm takes over.
he watches, fascinated at how you’re still giving him body shaking, toe curling orgasms after this many; at how your body moves at his command. he’s satisfied.
finally, you hear the buzzing stop as he puts the vibrator away. he wraps both arms around you, holding you in a tight embrace, his lips brushing against your ear.
‘how many was that?’
‘eleven’ you admit, not believing the number coming out of your mouth.
he smiles. god, it feels really fucking good to have been proved right 11 times. his eyes drop to the mess you’ve made—on the towel, on his hands, between your own legs and he feels extremely smug.
‘so, did you learn your lesson?’ he asks sweetly, placing a single kiss on your shoulder.
‘yes! i did. i promise!’ 
did you? well, if this is your punishment you may just have to piss him off again.
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Are you mad? ~ A Jake “Hangman” Seresin Drabble
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 Summary: Loosely based on the Brett Young song Can’t Sleep Without You
Warnings: Mentions of alcohol, implied smutty ending (not written), mostly unedited so please ignore the typos
Pairing:  Jake “Hangman” Seresin x Wife!Reader
Word Count: 690
A/N: Meh, this isn’t my best work. But I’ve been struggling on the writing front and wanted to get something out.
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“Are you mad? You look mad.” You asked timidly, sitting in the passenger seat of Jake’s truck.
“I’m not mad.” He responded softly.
“Your jaw is clenched, and your face is screwed up like your mad.”
“I’m annoyed, not mad.” He tried to clarify.
A few moments of silence passed between the two of you. Each time you drove under a streetlight or a car passed in the opposite direction, you could see the lingering frustration on Jake’s face. You knew that he had had a long week at work and the last thing he wanted to do was bail you out of trouble.
You and Natasha had gone out to The Hard Deck, and Bradley and Jake had declined the offers to tag along, leaving it to a girl’s night. One thing led to another; both of you had drank more than you should have. When a pair of guys wouldn’t take no for an answer from you and Phoenix, you resulted in something other than words. A thrown drink and a punch to the face later, they were both thrown from the bar, and Penny called Bradley and Jake to come to pick up their wives.
“You still look mad.” You muttered.
“I’m NOT mad! But I will be if you keep asking!” Jake raked his hand over his face. “I’m sorry.” He spoke again, this time in a softer tone. “I’m annoyed with how disgusting men can be and that I allowed myself to put you in a situation where I couldn’t protect you. I know you’re a grown woman who can care for yourself. But as your husband, it kills me to know that something like this would have never happened if I had just been there with you.”
He reached across the center console of his truck and laid his hand on your thigh.
“I know you had a long week. I’m sorry Penny had to wake you to come get me.”  
This made him chuckle, “Oh babe, I can’t sleep without you. Even if I tried, I would just toss and turn, waiting for you to come home.”
“Jake, you know I would have stayed home if you would have just asked.” You said, intertwining your fingers with his.
“I know,” He pulled your intertwined hands up to his lips and kissed the back of your hand. “That’s why I didn’t ask. I meant it when I told you to have a good time tonight. As long as I know I’m the one you’re coming home to, I’m happy. You work so hard and spend too much of your time doting on me. You deserve a night out, especially a girl’s night.”
He pulled into the driveway, letting go of your hand long enough to throw the truck in park and remove the keys from the ignition.
“Can you do me a favor?” Jake asked. “Next time, let Jimmy or Penny know what’s going on before it gets to the point of drink-throwing. Call me or text me. Hell, you could call Bradshaw if that would help.”
You giggled. “So the next time I need help, I should call Bradley?”
Jake shook his head, smiling; he knew what you were trying to do. He leaned forward and kissed you chastely. “I’m being serious,” He said, resting his forehead against your own. “I was worried when I saw Penny calling. I don’t know what I’d do if anything happened to you.”
“I promise,” You murmured, “I didn’t mean to worry you.”
“I worry about you every time you’re out of arms reach. It’s my job as your husband.” He chuckled, “You realize how accident-prone you are, right?”
You rolled your eyes, “Yeah, yeah. I know.”
Before he could speak again, you closed the distance between you and kissed him. You nipped at his bottom lip, begging to deepen the kiss. Your fingers threaded through the hair at the base of his neck. His hand cradled the side of your face. You didn’t intend for it to turn into anything, at least not at first.
“Take me to bed, lieutenant.” You whispered once the kiss broke.
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A/N: If you’ve made it this far - thank you so so so much for reading! My Masterlist can be found here. All work is also available on AO3   
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hi! this is the same anon who asked about the writing thing but--since they all had switched classes, is how you tagged/call them what they refer to each other as? (so like everyone refers to them as mediscout, engimed, demo-spy, etc.) or do they just refer to them as their new classes (so referring to the mediscout purely as Medic?) obviously they call solly spyder (which i think is so cute and very fun :>) but im curious about the others! so i guess this goes into the territory of: are there any nicknames they all call each other--or at least ones you think stand out?
Hello hello! First of all, thank you so much for asking so many questions and allowing me to talk about my AU to you all, I really appreciate that you guys are enjoying this as much as I am! <3
Second of all, I'm so sorry this took so long to answer!! I have seen your other ask concerning the writing for my AU, and I have to tell you beforehand that it's okay if you lost motivation or inspiration to write this during the long wait. I totally understand if you don’t feel like doing this anymore. Please don't force yourself to write for something you lost interest in. But I’ll gladly still infodump you about the AU!
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Names:
Sure, if you wanted to you could just call them their job names. It would make it easier for the readers to recognize each character, but I do have some actual names I came up with if you prefer something more natural sounding!
All the job switched mercs chose their own names, but I deliberately made the names they chose sound as close as possible to the OG Red mercs'. Because the irony here is that they are clones who try so desperately to be unique and different from the OG team, but still managed to somehow copy them despite all their efforts not to.
But I'm really shit at naming things so the effect was kinda lost :')
Sniper as Soldier- Monday or Mondy
Reason: When asked about his name choice, he paused for a moment and asked back, "what day is it today?"
"Monday."
"Monday it is, then."
Soldier as Spy- June or Spyder
Scout as Medic- Germs (short for germinoma) (yeah idk what happened with this one but I didn't wanna call him Jerry either)
Reason: June chose the wrong day to ask Germs about name choices. When asked, the battle worn, tired, salty field-medic grabbed a random medical book from his bookshelf; opened the book; flipped to a random page; viciously stabbed his finger on a random spot on the page and read the word under his finger: "germinoma"- all the while maintaining direct eye contact. It was supposed to be sarcastic. June took it literally, so it became his permanent nickname (much to his dismay)
Medic as Engineer- Ludovic (sometimes they call him Ludo, for short)
Spy as Demoman- Louise, Lois, Lassie, Louisiana, Lyse (any name similar sounding enough to Lois works)
Reason: His "boom sticks" are modified versions of an actual French cigarette brand called "Gauloises". Since none of the mercs actually knows how to read French, they severely butchered the pronunciation and ended up just dropping the beginning of the word entirely, sticking with "loises". However, everyone had varying interpretations of how to pronounce THAT too. So his exact name remains a mystery, and he won't clarify either (he finds it fun to see them try and guess).
Demoman as Sniper- Trevis
Heavy as Pyro- Mikel
Engineer as Heavy- Belle
Pyro as Scout- Zippo
Reason: ya know... zippo lighters... and he's a scout now, so he ZIPS past you... get it?
These are all very bad names, I know, but hopefully you can tolerate my utterly abysmal naming skills :')
Nicknames:
- Monday sometimes calls Lois "Goldilocks" as his own godawful pronounciation of "Gauloises". It annoys Lois to no ends and Mondy loves it.
- He also sometimes calls Germs "bun-bun" to piss him off about his buck teeth. He feels too bad to joke about Belle's tho.
- Monday uses the most nicknames with others, 90% of which is to mock or annoy but it's all in good fun (usually)
- THEY'RE ALWAYS THE SILLIEST NICKNAMES TOO, WITH EVEN SILLER STORIES BEHIND THEM. Just think of the dumbest, goofiest, sounding names
- He once honest to God called Mikel "Jason" and did NOT elaborate
- Germs rivals Monday with his own silly nicknames for everyone, but his tend to be a bit more... vulgar
- "HEY FUCKNUGGETS"
- "fly high, chucklefest junior!"
- "calm down Colonel shrinky-dink"
Okay, that's it for now. love you, bye bye, I'll see u again in another ask!
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buckttommy · 3 months
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So just to clarify he implied the interview didn't happen because Ryan said no even though both Ryan and Oliver refused? What exactly was the accusation against Ryan here? And why would he single him out if Oliver didn't do it either? Like what was he trying to say?
And god why would Ryan agree to speak with him after all that? I'm guessing he didn't see the social media uproar or the whole thing just didn't ping his radar? Cause if it were me that's not a journalist I'm trusting or dealing with again. Sorry if you don't wanna talk about this but I tried finding your Max Gao tag a few weeks ago when the TCA were happening to see why people didn't seem too fond of him but I couldn't find any of the posts.
Yeah, that was the implication. As for why he would single him out, I just don't think he likes him very much tbh. Maybe it has to do with n-wordgate, or maybe he just wanted to save face for all his adoring fans. Either way, I remember watching his shady tweets come in and thinking how fucked up it was because he knew what would happen when he implied Ryan was at fault and did it anyway. Rancid behavior.
As for the other thing: I have NO idea where all my Max posts are. I didn't delete them because I have no reason to delete them. Because every time he's mentioned, someone asks me about him and why we hate him, and I hate answering questions over and over again when I can just link people to my tag. So the fact that I can't find ANY of my Max posts when I search my tags and search my blog in general? I don't know what to think of it but I don't like it, and it makes me annoyed.
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Glimmer 19/? Billy Butcher fic!
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NOTES! - Addison needs some taking care of before s*** hits the fan. Please reblog or comment if you like ♥
Tag List: @2dead2function @secretdreamlandmentality
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They both woke up early again the next morning, Addison groaning to herself as she thought about all the work she had scheduled for the day.
"I have to go in today," she told Billy dejectedly as she finally found the energy to sit up in his bed, rubbing her eyes. "I won't be finished until late, I'm sure."
"That's fine, love; I got it handled. How's your head?" He sat down on the edge of the bed, and she savored the look of genuine concern in his eyes.
"Better, thank you," Addison mustered a half smile, but what had happened the day before still niggled at the back of her mind. She didn't mean to, but she knew she was withdrawn and neither said anything else.
When she finished work that evening it was late and she decided to just head to the basement apartment and wait for Billy there. That would make him happy. What help was she anyway? Not much.
MM was there when she arrived and she popped a hot pocket in the microwave and grabbed a can of seltzer before sitting with him at the table where he was working on his laptop.
"Doin' okay? Looks like it's been a long day." He glanced at her knowingly.
Addison cracked her seltzer opened and cut off a corner of the cheesy pastry with her fork before she answered. "Yeah, guess I'm tired. I'm fine though."
"I talked to Annie." He said after a minute.
Addison lifted a brow at him as she raised the fork to her mouth. "Cool story, Katie Holmes." She took a bite.
MM gave her his standard look of complete impatience. "About you," he clarified. "She's free tomorrow. She can meet you here."
Addison's heart somehow dropped and soared at the same time and she felt another wave of exhaustion. "I don't know MM," she said quietly.
"Just talk to her, Addison. It's not like I'm signin' you up for a five year mission on the Enterprise for fucks sake. It's one conversation."
Addison took a breath and another bite to give herself time to think. Hadn't she just spent half the day sulking over how useless she was? She knew that MM was probably right and he chose that moment to give her that look that meant he knew it too. But Billy was not going to be happy about it. She knew that for sure.
"Okay. I guess that's fine," she finally gave in. "I'll talk to her. You're sure she doesn't mind?"
"She was more than happy when I brought it up. Excited even. She's a good kid."
Addison nodded but pulled her phone out of her back pocket to scroll through her emails and Buzzfeed. She didn't much want to talk anymore but she didn't really want to be alone either, and she couldn't deny as annoying as he could be MM had become a friend and it felt nice for a change.
At some point she moved to the couch and MM went to his own room. Frenchie and Kimiko came in but went to bed as well. The tv was on but she could barely keep her eyes open. Billy came in late and leaned over to brush his hand over her hair to wake her from dozing and she reached up to slide her fingers over his bearded jaw. His eyes were dark and he looked lovely. "Let's stay here," she murmured. She didn't want to wait even one more minute to just be wrapped up with him in bed and he looked just tired enough to agree.
She was right. He took her hand in his and led her to his room. Addison dressed down to a tank top and pulled off her jeans tiredly while Billy stripped down to his clingy knit boxers and they climbed into the small bed together.
Addison closed her eyes, trying to relax, but her mind was whirring like a spinning top, and her entire body felt tense because of it. She did her best to just block it all out but it wasn't easy, then Billy's voice, low in her ear, broke her concentration as his arm tightened around her.
"Sunshine, what is all this squirmin' for?" he rumbled from behind her in the tiny bed.
"Sorry," she sighed, she hadn't even realized she'd been moving at all. "Can't sleep. My mind is a mess."
"Let's try and relax, eh?" His hand slipped beneath her tank top and slid along her stomach and she sighed again, taking a breath and letting it out slowly.
"Did you have any luck today?" she asked quietly suddenly remembering they hadn't even talked about their respective days.
"Some," he murmured, "but it can wait for tomorrow. You're taut as a bowstring."
His palm smoothed over her hip and back to her stomach, rubbing softly and she finally felt her muscles start to relax some of their tension.
"That feels nice," she whispered.
"That's the idea."
Shifting she pressed back against his chest and soaked in the feeling of his warmth and strength, and feeling all of his body next to hers beneath the blankets.
"That's my girl..." he rumbled low, very close to her ear.
Heat blossomed low in her belly and she pressed her hips back against him unable to help herself. "Well now I feel "taut as a bowstring" for an entirely different reason," she joked.
"That's alright, ain't it? If it's what you want..."
"Mmmmmm I want..."
His hand slid up over her ribs and she hummed, squirming again, but now because all of him felt so good against her. She could feel the heat of his chest through her tank top on her back.
His hand stilled just beneath her breast and she made a little noise of discontent, trying to wriggle it where she wanted.
"Ya have to tell me, sunshine..."
She knew. She knew he was making her engage completely with him and in them so every other worry would fall away and it made her heart ache with love for him.
"Mmmmm, touch me," she murmured. "I love your hands..."
His palm slid up then to cup her breast and squeezed softly his fingers brushing over the soft curve, testing the weight.
"Perfect fit," he rumbled. "Made just for me."
Heat swelled inside of her and she purred in agreement. Fuck, every other experience she had ever had didn't even come close to what she felt with Billy, and she had to believe him. She knew though, that it was not the same for him, maybe he wouldn't come to love her like he had loved Becca but it was okay. Neither of them could change what happened and it had brought them both to here and now. She knew his caring for her was different and special in its own way.
"What next?" he asked in a roughened voice.
She moved her arm to reach back for him, but he shook his head and guided her hand gently back to her side. "Let me do this for you."
She thought her heart might burst but she set the thought of love aside for later. "Just more..." she sighed.
He shifted his thumb to brush across her nipple and it peaked immediately for him. Addison whimpered, "more..." arching into his touch.
"Alright, love, you have to be quiet, though," he teased her, and she could see his mischievous smile in her mind without looking.
"I can be - ohhhhhh..." her sentence broke off as he caught her nipple with his thumb and finger and tugged, and pleasure sparkled along her nerves. She felt as much as heard his low chuckle behind her.
He pushed her tank top up above her breasts then took his time giving equal attention to each before he finally let his hand slip down over her stomach. He stroked his fingers over her thighs then pressed his knee between them.
"Billy..." she whimpered his name as his fingers teased along her inner thighs.
"Sunshine," he rumbled, but still he teased.
Forever impatient, she shifted and wriggled out of her cotton underwear quickly, which made him chuckle again, but this time he didn't hesitate. He pressed his knee between her legs again and slid his fingers over her center, slipping between the folds and giving a gruff moan at the slickness that was waiting for him.
He slipped the tip of one inside her, just a little, then shifted up to the sensitive little bud that was waiting for him. She cried out the moment he rubbed over it, slick and hot, and he shifted his other hand to gently cover her mouth. "Careful..." She could hear the mischievous joy in his voice.
When he started making those perfect slippery circles with just the right amount of pressure, she lifted her own hand to press against his over her mouth. She could feel him all round her, holding her, taking care of her, and making sure she didn't wake the entire apartment.
Addison whimpered desperately against his broad palm as he quickened his pace and nuzzled against the curve of her neck, and after barely more than a minute he gave her a shuddering climax with his expert touch. She pressed his hand harder against her mouth as she cried out with pleasure, her body trembling against him.
He moved his hand from her mouth when she moved hers and then she turned her head to press her face into the pillow as wave after wave of bliss continued to wash over her. She gently pushed his hand away from her center when she could take no more and he wrapped her up tight against his body as she floated down from the high.
All of the tension in her body was gone now and she felt more relaxed than ever but she could still feel him hard against her.
"Billy," she murmured when she could breath again, "want you..." she wriggled her bottom against him.
"It's alright, love, I'm fine..."
"Please?" She whispered.
For a moment he didn't move but then he gave a low hum and he gave in, shifting her carefully so he could slip into her from behind, moving with lazy pleasure. His thrusts were slow and deep and measured as he curled his hand around her breast again. Her climax this time was softer, but longer, rippling through her body as he filled her perfectly. He buried his face against the back of her neck when the fluttering of her body around his cock spurred his own climax, moaning gruffly against her skin.
Afterward he kept her wrapped up tight against him and she fell asleep still as close to him as she could be.
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thiefking · 10 months
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(ALERT. WARNING. OPINIONS EXPRESSED IN THE FOLLOWING POST ARE NOT MEANT TO INSINUATE I THINK THAT PEOPLE WHO USE TONE TAGS ARE BAD OR HAVE BAD INTENTIONS. I AM SIMPLY POINTING OUT SOME OF MY FRUSTRATIONS WITH THEM AND HOW THEY WORK, OR RATHER DO NOT WORK, IN AN EXAGGERATEDLY ANGRY/LOUD MANNER AT A HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION, NOT A SPECIFIC PERSON OR PERSONS OR INCIDENT, AND IT WASN'T EVEN THE MAIN POINT OF THE POST I WAS ORIGINALLY WRITING WHICH WAS JUST ABOUT SOME ANNOYING OVER-COMMENTED STUFF ON MY POST. ALERT. WARNING)
i am still pleased and amazed at the amount of people on my tone indicator parantheticals post who AREN'T being weird and aggro, but i will say. while i got tired of the aggro ones the moment the first one showed up i have also grown tired of the "this is just tumblr tags/congrats you just reinvented tumblr tags" observation. it has been made many times, i can never tell if it's a teasing joke or if they're seriously like "umm dumbass this is the same thing" (because of course they are not paired with any indication of intent, such as a word encased in a pair of parentheses, because for some reason being overfamiliar with strangers on the internet has become very normalized, and they just expect that if they say things to people they have never met that the person they say that to will be able to tell whether they are kidding or trying to insult them, which is highly variable per person) and either way it's like...
i mean. yeah. on tumblr, that is the same thing as what you could use the tags for
but tumblr isn't a messaging app
even its in-built dms do not have tags
if you are using discord if you type a # it would prompt you to pick a channel you are referring to
The Primary Location You Would Use Tone Indicators Is In Conversation With Others And Tumblr Is Technically A Blogging Platform
also a bunch of people are like "ummm or you could just put it in the SENTENCE like a NORMAL PERSON" and first of all shut up. secondly nowhere in the post did i say that i specifically would rather someone use random parantheticals instead of just stating their intent in the actual sentence, i said i would prefer parantheticals over highly abbreviated tone tags. obviously i would prefer people just say properly what they mean, that is literally what i do when i have a genuine question to ask, i don't do "what do you mean (genuine) (sincere question) (confused)" i say "sorry i'm a little confused, what do you mean by xyz?". literally did not fucking say that i think parantheticals would be better than just saying what you actually mean to begin with IN the initial question. however THIRDLY sometimes you just fucking have adhd or the conversation is fast and you don't think to phrase it carefully. and in that situation you might realize after you already sent the message that it's ambiguous what you meant or if you were sincere, so you send like "(JOKE)" or "genuine question" or if you make a reference "(you know like xyz meme/show/game)" immediately afterwards so people know and can respond appropriately. and i would so much rather see people spell the fucking thing out instead of saying /j or /gen or god forbid /ref (WHAT!!! ARE YOU FUCKING REFERENCING!!! YOU CAN'T JUST SAY IT'S A REFERENCE AND LEAVE IT AT THAT THAT DOESN'T HELP!!! WHY IS THAT EVEN A TONE TAG!!! YOU HAVEN'T GIVEN ME ANY CONTEXT FOR IT, THIS IS NOT A TONE TO INDICATE, IT DOESN'T INDICATE ANYTHING, I COULD PROBABLY TELL FROM THE PHRASING TO BEGIN WITH THAT IT WAS SOME KIND OF REFERENCE ANYWAY, YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ZERO INFORMATION AAUUAUAAAAGGGGHHH the fucking autistic person who would not be able to tell that you were making a reference without the tag would probably also not be able to tell what the goddamn joke was supposed to be! i AM that autistic person sometimes!!! you cannot just /ref your way out of that if you are ACTUALLY TRYING to HELP AUTISTIC PEOPLE then make it clear you can be ASKED TO CLARIFY THINGS and then SUCK IT UP AND EXPLAIN THE JOKE EVEN IF IT MAKES IT LESS FUNNY!!! and this is entirely specific to Me who has never once wanted someone to use tone tags even when i do ask for clarification on something, but if you don't want to ruin your joke by explaining it and i already Understood that it was a joke, the /ref and or /j you put on it is actually. equivalent. to explaining the joke and ruining it...... because in this scenario i knew it was a joke already...)
ahem. anyway. i think the people who say "ummm orrr you could just bake it into the sentence :/" do not realize they are the ones being stupid while calling me stupid. because of the fact that they cannot read the post, where i don't say even once that i don't agree with them, because i am talking about something else, which is that if you gave me a choice between tone tags or tone parantheticals i would choose parantheticals
conversely i'm NOT tired of the elcor comparison, even a little bit, even though that one was also made a thousand times. i actually like that one a lot. i never played mass effect or anything i just think that's funny and cool. entire species that has autism... so beautiful ♡
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janokenmun · 1 year
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yknow what im gonna talk about my autism now. i have thoughts in my brain and i wish to post them (also disclaimer: i'm not 100% sure i have autism? i've always explained it as being on the border of autistic and neurotypical and i'm not fully sure which side i fall on)
im very low needs id say! i can largely function on my own, mostly it's a bit hard to take shower (hair being wet = mild bad sensory) but that's something i feel i can work on and actively get better at
the highest-needs part for me is like. if doing things for someone else, i need things explained in a Very Specific way! it has to be a completely unambiguous instruction list; i've compared it to like, instructions a robot could use. if there's anything ambiguous, i have to ask about it, and if i can't ask about it, i just end up shutting down. (this also applies to doing basically anything for the first time if it's important!)
like for example, helping clean stuff up! valid instruction sets:
"take all of these items in this specific location, and move them to this other location."
"i'll sort the items into piles. anything in pile A, put on the bookshelf. anything in pile B, put in the pantry. anything in pile C, put in your room or the basement (your choice; there's no consequences for your choices here, it doesn't matter). anything in pile D, put in the trash." (this arrangement works very well for me!!!)
"anything in this area with property A, put in location A. anything with property B, put in location B. anything with property C, put in location C." (a bit harder, there'll be a lot of questions of things on the boundary or things with multiple relevant properties)
but if it's something like, i don't know where they want it, i will ask A Lot of questions, like one per item! and this can often get annoying to people which sucks since if i can't ask, i just shut down!
beyond that, it's mostly stuff like needing jokes to be clarified a lot, since often i'll read something as way harsher than it's intended. some people i know are really cool and will include things like "(this is a joke)" on most or all of the jokes they make! i like those people. it's hard for me to be friends with someone if i don't feel comfortable approaching them to ask for clarification on the tone of a message, but i can be acquaintances with them without too much difficulty.
then there's some relatively minor things, like i mishear things a lot and will ask "what'd you say?" a Lot! and i'll also tune out by accident while reading or thinking about something and then i'll come back to reality like "wait whatd you say i was thinking about british telephone boxes". also some images and sounds are bad sensory to me, it's not a huge deal since if it's an image i can just Look Away like switching to another chat, if it's on discord or similar i'll have to either be tabbed out or on another chat 99% of the time, or do a big screen-clearing message of purely newlines. (my gf is trying very hard to spoiler-tag things she thinks might be bad sensory! is very good.)
that's basically all of my needs relating to other people, the rest of my autism (as far as i know) essentially boils down to little challenges i can overcome on my own or little personality quirks (disclaimer: idk how many of these are autism-related, if any!). like how i will get obsessed with something and talk about it frequently for WEEKS (right now it's rats and toki pona)! or looking at a message, reading it, and then taking 7 years to reply since it was too much mental effort to reply just then and then i tab out and forget and the next time that person messages i'm like "oh yeah you said something!!". or listening to the same song for hours straight! or stuff like eating the exact same thing for lunch, every day, for years, with few exceptions (it's a ham and cheese sandwich with exactly 4 slices of ham)! or looking at a box and thinking. wow. this is an amazing piece of engineering. and inspecting every detail of the box
also uh i use a lot of words since i like being precise. which, i Imagine is Somewhat Evident in this post! (also i have no idea how i should do tags so i have been very conservative with them on this post)
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Diety4Diety Roleplay [M4M, Discord, LONGTERM, Semi-lit to Advanced-lit, We Will Change the Plot as Need-Be to Better Suit You and Your Character!]
Heyo, I’m looking for someone interested in writing a high-fantasy story! I'm looking for romance and eventually a cute little family dynamic for our characters. As said in the title, I'm searching for a long-term writing partner, so if you want something different, please ignore this post. I want a roleplay that I can make part of both of our character’s original (or canon, if you will) stories. Not just me, either; I’d like for both of us to want similar things like that! It can be hard to find a roleplay partner who you really click with, and I have found that when we chat OOC alright, we look forward to the writing itself more! No, I'm not looking for anything romantic with my RP partners. I didn't know that this was something I had to clarify, but apparently it is. With that said, I don't typically write well with those who are dry texters OOC. I’m not trying to be harsh or rude by any means, but as someone who already has a difficult time reading tone over text, dry messages don't make it any easier. Besides, it’s nice knowing when someone is equally as excited as myself about writing a story! Along with that, please be up for actively planning out the plot with me! There’s nothing worse than the plotting being one-sided. Now, I'm not too nitpicky about this; as long as the effort is there, that’s all that matters. Putting zero effort into developing the story, versus genuinely coming to a blank, are very different! I can be indecisive on certain things as well, and I don't expect you to be perfect. Everybody has their flaws, myself absolutely included. I want to add that sometimes I chat differently! Honestly, it depends on how you text me. Generally, I’ll occasionally use emojis, but I stick with emoticons and tone tags! The tone tags are probably the ones I use the most; I’ve got anxiety and sometimes worry about coming off the wrong way in a text, so I just like to be clear!
For my rules and big “no”s, it’s honestly just pretty basic things that shouldn't need to be said. However, I don't want my post to get taken down, so I’ll just clearly list those things in DMs. It’s insane how I’ve learned that I do, in fact, need to clarify these types of things. I’ve been role-playing for a good while now, and had to figure out all of that the hard way. Another “no” from me is characters who are built solely for sexual roles. I don't want to write with a character who’s whole personality is about being a bottom, or even a top. There’s a big difference between an angsty character, and a whiny character. So yeah, no whiny, helpless, infantilized characters, and no characters who are “alpha-males.” One more thing is people who are overly strict about their OCs being hurt. I understand it’s common courtesy not to give somebody else’s character major injuries without warning; I always ask before I do something like that. But please keep in mind that you can expect fighting and death scenes in this story! When I write, I go over the discord text limit and usually send two to four messages, depending on how much you give me to work with, and how action-dependent the current scene is. My biggest pet peeve is bad grammar and punctuation in the roleplay. Mistakes are fine, of course, but constant run-on sentences or poor grammar make it hard to enjoy the story. As for character face claims, AI “art,” stolen art, and real people are massive “no”s from me. First of all, I hate AI and anybody who supports it; as an artist, it’s annoying seeing people call themselves “artists” for putting a prompt into a generator that steals from actual artists. Stolen art is another obvious “no,” and it should go without saying. Real people as face claims weirds me out, and it also feels lazy; taking a photo of a random person from Pinterest and calling it an original character design is odd and lazy. What I’m fine with for face claims is artwork or commissions. Hell, even picrews as a substitute are fine until you’re able to get real art! As long as the genuine effort is there, I'm good with it. I understand it likely sounds pompous for me to expect artwork for your character, but I promise you I’m not looking for skill, just effort. On the topic of art, if I'm enjoying the roleplay and have good motivation, I’ll probably make doodles (and memes, of course) of our characters as well! Just a side note: yes, I am looking for eventual N/SFW scenes as well! As long as the timing is appropriate, and it’s not an excessive amount or too often, it’s totally fine.
About my character; My guy is an elven fertility god named Ruven. He’s caring and kind at heart, but also emotionally guarded and distant from others. Really, he’s a bit shy and gets flustered easily, as stoic as he is. Ruven is a big ol’ hefty man, standing at about 6’2” and weighing 220 lbs. He’s albino and has curly hair down past his waist, as well as many cultural tattoos from a fantasy face of mine. I will say right now, he’s Desi, about thirty billion years old, has many adult kids (sounds like a lot until you think about how old he is. Don’t worry, he hates all of his past partners now.), as well as two young children, and is a transman. I’ve had people who ended up being hateful because I didn't clarify that sooner, so I'm saying it now. He also has a rough past, which could have possibly triggering themes (SA, DV, abuse, forced marriage, child death, and derealization). Along with that, I have a fantasy homebrew world that we could use as a setting! My guy is native to a country called Sahknu, where beauty standards define one’s status and wealth. Seeing as Ruven is so pale, he’s considered very ugly for people in that kingdom which has led to him struggling a bit for money. Why is a god, the keeper of the universe’s moons, financially ruined? We’ll get to that soon!
Now for the plot! This is just a general idea, and we can make changes to fit your preferences and character. There will be romance, action, drama, and angst! For this, I’m kind of going with the idea that your character is maybe a fellow god in disguise, or possibly doesn't even know that they're a god. Amnesia tropes are always fun here! Whatever describes your character best! Seriously, I’m not going to be upset about you wanting something different! We can make changes to accommodate to your guy. Anyhow—Ruven and your character have known each other for a while now, and even though he’s been dreadfully slow to open up, he’s been a nice man. So far, he’s managed to skillfully avoid any questions wanting him to disclose personal information about himself. The best that YC has gotten is a little ramble about his two young sons, and a comment saying that ‘I’m a lot older than you think.’ The two boys themselves are named Alastair and Lavan. Alastair seems to be about six years old and is clearly adopted, seeing as he shares no resemblance to his father. Lavan, however, is only a baby and shares his dad’s trait of albinism! The older boy is enthusiastic and outgoing, often happily bringing YC many self-made drawings, while the younger is the type to start wailing if Ruven isn't holding him. To cut to the chase, Ruven is only blending in amongst the mortals because he is on the run from his ex-husband, god of the sun and fire. This man, Silas, is a cruel and sadistic person out for blood. He’s arrogant and has zero empathy for the people around him, nor for anyone who may stand in his way on his path to revenge. He will absolutely try to kill YC out of blind rage as soon as he hears about their feelings for his ex, so you can expect a fun fight scene there! See, Ruven divorced him rather harshly, and he wants nothing more than to get back at him. By “harshly,” I mean that he tried to kill him. Silas isn’t exactly the type of person to handle that kind of news well, so he needed to take drastic measures to avoid being put into danger. The sun god is not someone who’s above imprisoning and torturing the ones he “loves,” so Ruven simply didn't want to go through those things again, seeing as he’s done such in the past. He used to be a kind, gold-hearted man until he was overcome by jealousy and greed. Ultimately, that’s what led to his downfall, and Ruven’s ever-growing hatred for him. Silas is quite literally hunting this man down. At some point, he’s going to come storming into whatever place Ruven and YC are in, raising hell, and making a scene. He’ll hurt and kill people, and it’ll lead to some big fight between the three characters. This part is a little more flexible—maybe Ruven is the one who is hurt and needs to be helped to safety, or maybe YC is the one! That comes down to your personal preference because I frankly cannot decide. Either way, they narrowly escape from Silas. Now that he’s angry and hunting down both Ruven and YC, they’ve decided to simply travel together while finding elsewhere to hide. Along the way, both characters can open up to one another and be there for support. Sooner or later, they begin an official relationship, maybe even consider marriage and building more family between the two of them. Just keep in mind that they’re going to be traveling for a good while, and I mean a while. I'm not trying to rush this whole family and marriage trope, just summarizing it in a way that sounds rushed, haha. Just as things are finally getting nice, they run into Silas again, and he’s even more angry than before. He’s jealous of their happiness and is intent on finishing the fight this time. Luckily for our two protagonists, they win! They kill him, one way or another, and then live their happy lives. After that, we can continue adding on things to continue the story! I'm always open for ideas!
Please let me know if you’re interested, and I hope you all have a wonderful day!
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randomshyperson · 3 years
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For every request I send, my love, tell me what you want from me in return and I’ll do it 😩😩
But can I request a Nat x Reader where Nat is surprise visiting her family in St. Petersburg only to find her girlfriend already there because they love her more than Nat. I can see Melina being like “she knows how to take care of the pigs”
Hello! Well, I would say i want hugs and kisses but we have an ocean between us haha Hope you like this my friend, it's short but it's sweet.
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Dictionary> Медовый (darling/dear) | мой милый воин (my dear warrior)
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Sweet Petersburg - Oneshot
Natasha parked her car just outside her mother's house, the smell of recent rain in the air as she stepped out of the vehicle, a nostalgic smile on her lips to be back home after a while.
She's visiting for the weekend, St. Petersburg is cold in the autumn, but also really beautiful, and even if she didn't say it out loud, she misses her family everyday.
Nat walked towards the house, she hadn't spotted any family members, but judging by the noise of laughing and talking inside the kitchen, some of them were inside.
She left her bag on the sofa, moving to greet them when the sound of a voice made her frown. Sounded like you.
"Mom?" Nat called out loud and the laughter stopped. The next second two women were coming from the small kitchen to join Natasha in the living room, who was standing with her arms crossed.
"Tasha, darling, you're here!" Melina greeted excited as she moves to hug her daughter. But Natasha's eyes are on you, smiling shyly at her with your hands in your pockets.
"I am." She says. "I'm sorry, am I missing something? Why are you here, babe?"
She asks curiously directly at you. Before you can answer, Melina is touching your shoulder and smiling at her daughter.
"I invited her, of course." She clarifies. "She's great with the pigs, and she's such a lovely companion, Tasha."
Nat let's a short laugh.
"I know, mom. That's why I'm dating her." She says almost dry, and you roll her eyes at her jealousy. Nat is looking at you again next. "I thought you were in Turkey."
"I was." You say as you step forward, resting your hands on Natasha's hips. "I runned into Yelena there. Then she video chatted with your mom and they insisted for me to come for the weekend."
“And you didn't think about asking me to join you? At my family house?" Nat asked with incredulity, but you just smiled at how cute she looked when angry.
"Natasha, don't be like that, it's not like you two need to be together all the time." Melina intruders with a humorous gaze. "Besides, she's been here many times before."
"Wow, what? Natasha exclaim surprised, moving away from your arms as you give her a mixture of a guilty and playful look. "Are you two for real?"
Melina signs impatiently, turning away from this conversation as she walks to the kitchen, Natasha following her while complaining about not being fair that she was spending more time with you than with her own daughter.
You would have followed if Yelena didn't come into the living room with some groceries.
"Just saw Nat's car outside, didn't know she was coming." She remarks as you quickly move to help her with the bags.
"Yeah, you better keep these comments to yourself, Lena. " You say and rush to explain as the woman frowns at you. "Your sister is not pleased to know I’m used to came here without her."
"What? Why?" She asks while you two move to the kitchen, but you don't answer as you two meet Melina and Natasha again, still arguing.
"I just don't think it is fair that none of you called me to let me know that my girlfriend was around!" Natasha accuses grumpy making Yelena laugh.
"It's not our fault your girlfriend is nicer than you, poser." Yelena teases as she puts the groceries on the balcony next to you. Natasha lets go of an annoyed sign turning to her mom again.
"Mom, do something! She's mocking me!"
You want to laugh at the scene but you just stay behind, not wishing to upset Natasha anymore.
Melina sighs as she massages her temples with her fingers.
"Please,girls, don't fight each other." She asks as she ignores Natasha's protest saying that Yelena started the whole thing and moved to grab the groceries you and Yelena brought. "I'm making dinner, everyone out my kitchen!"
That's how you ended up outside, with a grumpy Natasha and a smiley Yelena, walking around the back of the house to join Alexie, who was fixing Melina's truck in the back.
"Hey dad!" Natasha greeted as you reached him, the man was under the car and lifted the vehicle in the air to smile at his daughter.
"Tasha! Hey, kid, good to see you!" He said and put the vehicle back down to roll out and stand up. "Didn't know you're joining us this weekend."
Natasha grumbles insatisfy which makes Yelena laugh and Alexei frowns in confusion.
As his girls moved to sit in the bench nearby, you whispered to him: "She didn't take well knowing you invited me over without her."
"But what's the problem with that?" He asks loudly, attracting the attention of the girls, you sign but he doesn't mind. "It's a good thing that we are having trips with you, you're part of the family now!"
Natasha wides her eyes.
"Having trips? Excuse me?" She asks angrily as she stands up. "How many times have you hung out with my family without me?"
"Well…" You started uncertainty, playing with your fingers. Yelena smirks.
"We had that trip to California last month." She counted while Alexie murmured in agreement. "Also went to Philly. She stayed here for independence day too, and we had tacos night last week. Besides that, whenever she's around my mission place I invite her for a beer." Yelena told and all Natasha did was stare in shock at her and yourself.
"Oh, don't forget China. We had that thing too." Alexie added and Natasha signed.
"You're all unbelievable." She accused as she rushed to pass through you and into the house again.
You were uncertain about following her inside.
"Well, that didn't go well." Alexei comments with an awkward posture. "I will try talk to her."
As he left, you moved to sit with Yelena.
"Sorry about that, maybe I should have left you to tell her about the trips." She said but you just signed softly.
"It's okay." You say. "It's my fault for keeping it for so long. She would have found out anyway."
Yelena murmurs and you two fall silent for a moment.
"California was really fun wasn't it?" She asks amusedly, making you smile.
"Yeah, it was."
You two exchange giggles before deciding to go back inside and you busy yourself with helping Melina with dinner.
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Alexei came back alone from Nat's room with a slight grimace that made you worried.
So you decide you should talk to her yourself.
As you reach her room, you knock before coming in.
Natasha was sitting in her window, next to her bed while looking outside. In that position, you understood that she saw you laughing and talking to Yelena in the yard and by the recents events, that might not be the best.
"Are you mad at me, Nat?" You couldn't hold your words as you reached her, and she turned her head to you immediately, a confused frown in her face.
"Of course not!"
You sign in relief, taking a step forward. "Are you mad at your family?"
"Yes."
You take a deep breath. "Do you want me to stop seeing them?"
She gives a short laugh, shaking her head in denial as she extends her hand for you to grab. As you do, she pulls you towards her gently.
"Of course I don't want you to stop seeing my family, sweetheart." She says as she circles your waist with her arms. "I just got mad at them for not inviting me."
"I'm sorry, Nat." You say. "I should have said something, but they didn't and I was worried about sounding rude or something. You know how much their approval matters to me."
She smiles tenderly, her fingers caressing you gently.
"Yeah, that's why you're so sweet and polite all the time, and they love you more than me." She declares, making you frown. "It's fine of course, how couldn't they not?"
"Don't say that, Nat." You ask as you raise your hands to her cheeks. "Your family loves you very much. They just hang out with me because you're not around as much as I am."
"You think?" She questions, sounding so vulnerable that you wish you could banish all her insecurities away.
"Of course, Nat." You state. "We only talk about you, babe. All the time. And we all love to do it because we all love you. "
She gives you a shy smile before pulling you to her laps, making you giggle as she kisses your face a few times before moving away.
"Give yourself some credit, babe." Nat says with a lovely gaze. "You're a very pleasant company and I think they love to spend time with you as much as I do."
You smile before kissing her in the mouth, gently and sweet like this moment. Scenes like this are definitely your favorites with Nat. Along with late nights with her hands running through your body.
"I love you, Медовый." She whispered against your lips.
"I love you too, мой милый воин." You say and Nat giggles.
"Since when you speak Russian?"
"Your mom is teaching me."
"Okay, out."
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PART 13
Three days later you stood in the booth and listened back to the take you’d just finished. “Yeah, if you want to comp it you can,” you said into the mic, a thumbs up from your producer when you took off the headphones.
You weren’t ignoring Jason, weren’t trying to avoid him by any means, but you weren’t sure how to proceed and he wasn’t giving any cues.
Were you allowed to be annoyed? You’d asked for space but then slept with him, tangled him up in your family and maybe it was all too much.
You came out of the booth to find Mia in the same spot you’d left her, cross-legged on the red couch with her computer on her lap. She pushed her glasses up her nose. “Did you bring your phone in there?”
“No,” you shook your head, pointing to where it hid. Wedged between the cushions beside crumbs of snacks past and loose change.
“Jason called me--twice.”
“What?” You asked quickly, moving to pick up your phone. “Why?”
“I don’t know,” she shrugged, “I didn’t answer!”
You scrolled through the texts he’d sent, two missed calls on your phone, too.
Jason (3:45pm): Can I come over tonight? We should talk.
Jason (4:12pm): I can bring food
Jason (4:41pm): Actually, where are you?
Jason (5:01pm): Nevermind!
Your eyes were bugging out of your head, Mia looked up in horror but when you met her eyes, she smiled a little.
“I have no idea what’s happening,” you said, phone pressed to your ear. A thousand thoughts in the milliseconds between the rings. Was he breaking up with you? Was he okay? Were his kids okay? Did something happen?
“Hey, hi--”
“Are you okay?” You said quickly when he answered.
“Yeah, I’m in the lobby.”
“What lobby?”
“I’m here, I came to see you.”
“What? Why?”
“Because you didn’t answer your phone,” he laughed a little bit.
“What’s wrong?”
“I’ll see you in a minute!”
“Jason!”
He hung up, Mia’s eyes were wide in anticipation when you turned to see her.
“I said I didn’t answer,” she clarified. “Never said I didn’t text him to tell him where he could find you.”
“You suck,” you pointed a finger. “Almost as much as him but it’s fucking close at this point.”
“He said it was important! Said he really needed to talk to you.”
Another stomach flip. “I look like shit,” you wiped under your eyes to clear any mascara smudges, rushed over to a mirror on the wall to inspect. Studio days meant sweatpants, hair in a bun, bags of Cheetos even when your producer reminded you to save your voice. If you were going to get dumped, at least you could try to look presentable. “I haven’t brushed my hair all day because I didn’t plan to see anyone.”
“You look fine,” Mia watched you with a look of judgment. “He’s also seen you looking way worse.”
“Thanks,” you shot her a glare.
A knock on the door, a lump in your throat. You let out a slow exhale, preparing yourself for the worst: he couldn’t do this, he needed more space, this was never going to work anyway. Hopefully he’d at least let you down gently.
You pulled the door open and found him standing there, a smile on his face when he saw you.
“Hi,” he greeted.
“Hi,” you said, thrown off by the fact that he wasn’t frowning, didn’t look angry or upset. Actually, he looked happy. “Are you okay? What’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” he laughed a little. “I wanted to come talk to you, about the other day and--”
“You freaked me the fuck out,” you whacked him in the chest, a wave of relief that crashed into anger. “What the fuck is wrong with you? Calling Mia? That’s emergency level shit!”
“No it’s not!” he laughed, not at all guilty for the near heart attack he’d caused. “Emergency level shit would be saying it’s an emergency,” he quirked his eyebrows to sell his point. “I never said that.”
You wanted to be mad, but the way he smiled down at you pulled a smirk to your lips. You redirected: “why are you here then?”
“Can we go for a walk?”
“A walk?” Your eyebrows lifted. “Outside?”
“S’typically where people walk, yeah.”
“I was referring to the fact that we’re in New York City and there’s paparazzi, but--thanks for being a sarcastic prick.”
“You’re welcome,” he nodded sincerely. You rolled your eyes but turned on your heel to find your coat. Be right back, just getting some air, Mia gave a knowing glance and your producer waved you off, plenty of work to do.
So you followed him down to the lobby and out onto the sidewalk, day had faded into dusk, Christmas lights blinked overhead, strung to the street lights in a park down the block.
“You know--before I bought my house in Brooklyn I lived a few blocks up from here, near the river.”
“Really?” You looked over your shoulder, down the cross street that would lead in that direction.
“I used to come walk in this park with Otis when he was a baby and wouldn’t sleep. So I spent a lot of time here in 2014.”
You smiled up at him, felt a wave of butterflies when he met your eyes. A few more steps before he sat on a bench, patted the spot next to him in an invitation to sit. Dark enough that you had twenty minutes, hopefully no one would recognize you beneath the glow of a street lamp.
“I’m sorry I freaked out the other day--I wasn’t trying to be an asshole.”
“You weren’t being an asshole. I get it, that was kind of a lot to drag you into. I didn’t even think about it.”
“No,” he laughed a little. “It’s fine, I was glad to go with you.”
You eyed him suspiciously, playfully. “Didn’t seem that way.”
“Yeah, well, I got in my own head.”
You nodded, you knew the feeling.
He let out a sigh, let his knee knock into yours. “I’ve been thinking a lot, over the last few days, about you and about me and about…vegetable gardens.”
A small smile, still nervous. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” he nodded. “A lot, a lot. And, you know, if that’s something that’s really important to you, I don’t want to take it off the table. It’s just, obviously, I thought I was done, you know? I thought a lot of things would be different about my life and--things change and that’s great, in a lot of ways, because it means now I get to hang out with you. And you were just--I didn’t expect it. A total curveball, if you will.”
You felt a jolt of electricity at the familiar word, a zip down your spine in the chilly winter air. That had to be a sign, right?
“What are you saying?”
He thought on it for a second, decided to just come out with it. “I’m saying that if you want a vegetable garden with me I would be open to that conversation.”
You pulled your head back in shock, eyes wide at his words when he smiled.
“Didn’t see that one coming, huh?”
“No,” you admitted, a bit of a laugh when you sighed. “Not at all.”
“You don’t have to have any thoughts, or anything, I just wanted to be honest because,” a pause, he shrugged like his words were simple and true and didn’t need to be dressed up. “Because I love you.”
You blurted it out quickly, unplanned and unexpected when you shook your head. “I don’t think I do.”
“Love me?” He looked concerned.
“No,” you giggled, “I don’t think I want a vegetable garden.”
“Oh.” He was quiet, still, like the world was frozen and like he didn’t know what to do. You blinked a few times, the admission aloud felt suffocating and terrifying, but relief washed over you when he asked: “are you sure?”
“So far. For now, yeah.”
A quiet laugh, he reached a hand forward, laced his fingers in the space between yours. “I don’t want you to say that because you think that’s what I want you to say.”
“Is that what you want me to say?” You challenged, a smirk on your face, the tension in the air broke in half.
“I want you to tell the truth, Y/N.”
You kept his gaze for a second, nodded and then looked to the ground. “I feel like I’m supposed to want one. But I don’t feel so pulled to it that I can’t imagine my life without one. And I certainly don’t want one enough to choose that over you.”
He smiled at that, “yeah?”
“Yeah. So maybe, I don’t know, we just…put a pin in that? See if anything changes for us?”
“Deal,” he nodded.
“And maybe I can, I don’t know, hang out in your garden or something? I don’t know. Not if you don’t want me to.”
“No,” he laughed, a grin on his face. “I want you to, and that sounds really sexual now that I’m hearing you say it back to me, so just know that I’m into both of those things. The sexual and nonsexual meaning behind that.”
You rolled your eyes, saw someone slow to a stop on the other side of the street as their eyes settled on you.
“One o’clock,” you lowered your voice. “Potential sighting.”
He wiggled his eyebrows after he glanced over, “spy talk is kind of hot.”
You stood from the bench and held out your hand, a roll of your eyes when he took it and fell into step with you.
“Hey,” he tugged on your hand, pulling your attention back to him. “I love you.”
“Okay,” you nodded, a smile when he made a face.
“Okay?” He laughed a little. “That’s all I get?”
You nodded playfully, rolling your eyes and exaggerating your own emotion.
“Do you love me?” He asked with an offended look, you fought the smile and bit your tongue, chanced a look up at him to see how much he’d squirm. Apparently your acting skills had gotten better, you saw a flash of fear in his eyes before you relented.
“Yes, fine, okay! I love you, I do.”
“Jesus,” he sighed, dropping your hand quickly. “don’t pause like that. You’re fucked up, you’re a sick human!”
“I’ve learned my comedic timing from the best,” you shot him a narrowed glare.
He was a few steps ahead now, heading back for the studio building on West 12th Street as he quickened his pace. “Yeah, well, you’re not supposed to trick the trickster.”
“Oh get over yourself,” you laughed. “Can’t take your own medicine?”
“No,” he slung an arm around your shoulder, pulling you into his side when he kissed your temple. “I’m a big baby and I’m requesting that you never joke like that with me again.”
“I can’t make that promise. Especially after you pulled an asshole move today by freaking me out.”
“I came here to make up, to apologize!” He laughed.
“So are we done taking space? Is this the resuming that you wanted?”
He smiled down at you, a slow nod. He paused for a second like he was thinking, deciding whether or not to take the leap. “I’d like that. And on that note, not a decision for right now, but something to think about…”
Oh god. Your stomach sank, a nervous feeling in your core despite the smile on his face. “Yeah?”
“Maybe you could come to London with me. After the holidays, when I go back to film.”
You smiled up at him, pulled on his hand just like he’d done before, reached up to kiss him on the mouth even though there were plenty of people on the sidewalk and there were plenty of reasons to wait until you got inside.
But you didn’t want to, so you didn’t.
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Daisy was in the other room, eyes glued to the big TV on the wall when Jason poured you a glass of wine. You were about to take it, clink it against his when his phone buzzed on the counter.
“Uh oh,” he looked down. “That’s Alexander’s mom.”
You sipped your wine when he answered it, you agreed to be here with one of them. Come have dinner, stay the night, we’ll hang out with Daisy. It’ll be fine.
You agreed because so far, she felt less intimidating. He’d divulged on your first date that she liked your music, she seemed less confused by your presence the first time you found yourself face to face with her in this very house.
Now, she was quietly watching TV and didn’t seem to think anything of the fact that you sat in the kitchen with her father. Her age made her mostly oblivious, that’s what Jason said, at least. So you showed up and smiled when she answered the door and invited you in.
Hey, yeah--oh, shoot, did he? I can bring it over. Yeah, of course! No, no, thanks for letting me know. Sure, I’ll see you soon. Okay, great, bye.
You took another sip of wine and eyed him when he hung up.
“He forgot his sleeping bag. They’re sleeping in the living room, so--he needs it. I’m gonna go bring it to him.”
You glanced towards the living room quickly, then looked back at him with a fear in your eyes. He could sense it.
“You’ll be fine,” he leaned to the left to get a peek into the living room. “She’s basically in a Paw Patrol coma.”
“Jason--do you not remember what happened the last time you left me alone in this house?”
“It’s like 10 minutes away. I won’t be long.” He reached for his keys on the counter and you let out a sigh. “She likes you! She literally laughed at your joke before.”
You whisper-yelled as you peered around the corner: “she’d laugh at anything if you mention Peppa Pig!”
“She’ll probably be hungry soon, just make the box of mac and cheese on the counter if she gets whiny, she’ll love you forever.”
“I have to feed her?”
“You just handled a two week old with no issue, I think you’ll be fine, babe.”
“I had Nolan for emotional support!”
“I have a hard time believing he provided any level of emotional support.”
You made a face, true. “Fine,” you admitted. “But I at least had another set of hands.”
“She’s five,” he reminded, heading into the living room. “Nine times out of ten she can wipe by herself.”
“Oh Jesus Christ,” you groaned.
He rolled his eyes at you, let his hand rest on top of her head when he briefed her on the unfolding situation. “Hey, Daisy--daddy’s gotta run over to Otis’ friend’s house, okay? I’ve got to bring him his sleeping bag.”
She looked at him and then eyed you over his shoulder. “Okay.”
“Okay? Y/N’s gonna be here, can she watch TV with you?”
Another hesitant look when she shrugged. “Okay.”
“Okay,” he laughed a little, looking at you quickly. “Just think back to those babysitting classes you took.”
A middle school extracurricular you never should have disclosed. Fuck you, you mouthed, censoring yourself in front of his daughter. He stepped forward, kissed you on the mouth but then pulled back quickly. He hadn’t done that before with her in the same room.
She wasn’t looking, she was staring at the TV like she had been for the last 23 minutes.
“Okay,” he stepped backwards and into the foyer, picked up the sleeping bag that had been forgotten, then smiled. “I’ll be back, call me if you need me. Love you!”
You started to say it back, but then realized he was probably talking to Daisy. She muttered a tiny love you without even peeling her eyes away from the screen.
He shut the door, out into the cold night air. You sank into the couch and let your eyes flicker between Daisy and the TV, wondering if she’d even acknowledge your presence. How were you supposed to make small talk with a small child?
“Good show, huh?”
She looked at you for a second, ignored what you said, and then looked back to the TV.
Okay, so there was that.
Maybe you’d just wait it out: sit here and watch the show until he came back through the door and saved you from having to interact too much. Maybe you wouldn’t even talk to her at all.
It’s not that you didn’t want to. I mean, if anything, you wanted her to like you and hoped that this would be a bonding experience in one way or another. Should you offer to braid her hair? Buy her a new doll? You swallowed the anxiety that bubbled, just be patient.
Four minutes until the episode ended. When it did, she turned to see you.
“Do you like my dad?”
You paused, weighing the options in your head.
“I do.”
She nodded as if your answer made sense. “He said he likes you.”
“That’s nice of him,” you smiled.
She mirrored your smile. “Do you like fudgsicles?”
“Fudgsicles?” You giggled a little. “They’re the best type of popsicle.”
Her face lit up and she giggled. “That’s what I think too! I’m hungry for a fudgsicle.”
“Do you know if your dad has any?”
“No,” she shook her head before leaping off the couch and into the kitchen. “Let’s check!”
You followed behind her, watched as she tugged the freezer open with both of her tiny arms and then looked inside.
“Do you see any?”
“No,” she frowned, turning around to show you just how disappointing this was. “Can we go get some?”
“Oh--I don’t--maybe we can call your dad and ask him to get some on his way back?”
“No! We can go to the store, the one that daddy brings me to.”
“On the corner?”
“Yeah!” She hurried over to the door and jumped up to reach her jacket on the hook.
“What about the mac and cheese?”
“I don’t want that, I want a fudgsicle!”
“Hold on, I don’t know--let me call your dad.”
“Please!” She turned around to pout at you.
“I can call him--”
“Please, Y/N!”
She knew your name? Of course she did, he’d said it and you’d said it and obviously she’d heard it. But she’d never said it. Maybe that’s what broke you, a swelling of your heart and you knew it: you’d probably do anything she asked.
“We can go quick and if they don’t have them, we’re coming straight home,” you bargained. “We’re coming straight home either way.”
She whooped in excitement, sat on the stairs and you helped her get her shoes on before you sent a text:
Y/N (7:02pm): We’re walking to the corner store to get fudgsicles. Speak now or forever hold your peace.
You held her hand on the sidewalk, listened when she told you about her day at school and wondered if he’d freak out that you took her outside of the house.
A reply when Daisy tugged open the door and the overhead bells chimed:
Jason (7:08pm): Wow, she got her way quick
Jason (7:09pm): On my way back!
A sigh of relief when she pointed to them through the glass door. There they are! She walked them up to the register, you pulled out your wallet and smiled at the teenager behind the counter, a small smile in gratitude for not asking for a photo despite the wide eyes that stared back at you.
She practically ran home, tore into one before you even got your coat off. She settled back into the couch, the box in between her legs like her own personal treasure when you came to sit beside her.
“Yummy?”
She nodded, reached in and tugged another out, holding it out for you. You couldn’t help but smile. She wouldn’t offer you one if she hated you, right? She was too tiny and pure and innocent to get caught up in the drama in your relationship, so you took it and smiled.
Once it was out of the wrapper, she tapped hers against yours, mumbled cheers when she pressed play on the remote and turned her attention back to her show.
You sat there, stealing glances in her direction every few seconds to make sure she didn’t choke or stop breathing or do anything else that would ruin the otherwise successful night.
Another ten minutes before he pushed the door open, wiped his sneakers on the mat near the door and smiled.
You hopped up off the couch, licked your second fudgsicle as you walked over to him. You wiggled your brows, curtsied silently to in honor of your outstanding performance: best girlfriend turned babysitter.
He smiled, came to drape an arm over your shoulders.
“Hey Dais—”
“Hi dad,” she waved over her shoulder but didn’t look, earning a laugh from him as you both headed for the kitchen.
Once you were out of earshot, he turned to see you.
“Not too miserable, right?”
“I guess not,” you admitted.
“Did she eat dinner?”
“Dinner?” You asked, eyeing the unopened box of mac n’ cheese on the counter.
“Yeah, you know. The meal after lunch but before you go to sleep.”
You rolled your eyes, waited a second before admitting: “Fudgsicles.”
“Fudgsicles?” His eyebrows arched, amused. “That’s all she ate for dinner?”
“Is that bad?”
“Oh, no, no—” he made a funny face, rolled his eyes before looking at you again. “Yes! Yes that’s bad! That’s not dinner food.”
You laughed, “I’m sorry! Okay? I don’t know what to do with children.”
“You’re selling yourself short, but I’ll let it slide since this was your first babysitting gig.”
“This suddenly sounds like a porno.”
He eyed you over his shoulder when he went to put the box back in the pantry, “we can make it one.”
“I tried to get her to eat it but she was pretty adamant about going to the store. She practically held a gun to my head and I didn’t want to chance her murdering me if I said no, so—”
“Yeah she can be kind of violent,” he said sarcastically, a roll of his eyes at your exaggeration.
“Oh relax, she’s clearly fine,” you motioned to the living room.
“She is,” he agreed. “But you definitely bribed my daughter with popsicles.”
“Fudgsicles,” you corrected.
“Right, that.”
He watched you for a second, laughed when you offered an innocent look. He put her to bed around 9pm, came back to the kitchen to find you nursing the glass of wine you’d abandoned earlier for Paw Patrol.
You sat at the counter now, the lights dim when he leaned on the granite across from you. Quiet for a few seconds, you fluttered your lashes and pushed him. “Yes?”
A shrug of his left shoulder when he let his eyes glance down to the floor. You weren’t used to him being nervous, if anything you’d gotten all too familiar with the smirks and the challenging but playful smiles that accompanied most of his words. The dishwasher churned and he cleared his throat.
“I meant what I said the other night about London.” His eyes met yours briefly, you nodded but then he looked away, fumbled with a loose iPhone charger. “I don’t want to go six months without you.”
His voice was quiet, like admitting the truth might shatter whatever there was between you: love, uncertainty, hesitation.
He chanced a look up in your direction, vulnerability on his face when you smiled.
“But I also think it’s worth talking about what that would look like.”
That threw you off a bit. You nodded, let your chin rest in the palm of your hand when he stood up straight and took a breath.
“Liv is gonna come, you know, so we’re all in the same place. Separate places, obviously, same city. You could stay with me, I know that’s kind of a lot, but it’s only six months. Obviously your tour starts in the spring, and you don’t have to come the whole time, if you don’t want to.”
You smiled at the way he rambled, touched by the fragility in his voice and the look on his face: please say yes.
You hadn’t meant to give a noncommittal answer earlier in the week: let me talk to Mia, to my team, look at the calendar. If anything the invitation caught you off guard and while most of you wanted to shout yes, of course, yes, you also knew that it’d require more thought than that.
“So the kids will be with me, some of the time. They’ll do school, obviously, stay with Liv a lot. But just, you know, to be transparent. They’ll all be there, too.”
You nodded again in understanding, just like last year. He was quiet now, trying to read the look on your face to determine where you stood.
“I do want to come,” you admitted, a slow nod that first pulled a smile to his face, but then confusion.
A soft laugh. “Sounds like there’s a gentle let down coming…”
“But I don’t want it to be too much…for them.”
“For them?”
“For your family,” you shrugged, a knot in your stomach when you realized that phrase would always include her.
“I wouldn’t ask you if I thought it would be.”
“I know,” you said quickly, a bit of a smile when you looked up at him. He’d never do something that was bad for his kids, he’d never float a suggestion like this if he hadn’t already thought it through and then through again. “That’s a lot of time to spend together, though.”
“For you and me, or for all of us?”
“Well, I meant for you and me but…both.”
“You don’t want to wake up beside me every day?” He brought a hand to his chest and let his eyebrows dip in feigned shock. “And go to sleep next to me every night?”
“I don’t want to intrude,” you corrected, a smile tugging at your lips. Always so dramatic.
“You and the intruding,” he shook his head, narrowed his eyes at you playfully.
“I’ve never done this before,” you defended, a little more honest when he rounded the counter to be closer to you.
“Done what?”
You hadn’t expected him to throw it back at you so quickly. Your lips parted when you hesitated, a breath before you admitted: “Been involved with someone who has a whole family. One that I’m not a part of.”
He kept his eyes on you for a second, you saw the flash of emotion in them when he smiled, a confession in the dark kitchen when the clock on the wall ticked.
“I want you to be a part of it, Y/N, that’s what I’m asking. Come with me, live with me there, burn some more pancakes in my kitchen--but this time my kids might be around so just make sure you’re wearing pants.”
“I was wearing pants last time!” You defended, a smile on your lips when he rolled his eyes.
“I know, I know—and unfortunately that will have to remain the pattern if they’re squandering in my house.”
“Squandering?” You eyed him, really? “They’re your children.”
“I think they are,” he shrugged, never one to give up on a joke that easy. He regained composure and cleared his throat, serious again.
“I want you to come, I mean it.”
You rolled your eyes, he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into his chest.
“Fine,” you mumbled into his chest.
“What was that?” He pulled back, stuck his chin out and looked down at you. “What’d you say?”
“I said okay,” you rolled your eyes, biting back a laugh at his playfulness: never a dull moment.
“Okay what?”
“Oh my god,” you shoved him away, laughed when you walked to put your empty wine glass in the sink. “You’re annoying.”
“I’m sorry, I just have no clue what you’re talking about.”
“Jason,” you turned around, tried your best to shoot him an unimpressed glare.
“Y/N,” he replied, an innocent look on his face when he put both hands on the counter. “You just need to say it.”
“Say what?” You played along now, pulling a scoff from him.
“You’re unbelievable!” He laughed. “You want to come to London.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you walked past him, heading for the stairs.
He followed behind, excitement threaded through his words. “Sounds like someone decided she’s gonna move in with someone.”
“I don’t know who you’re talking about,” you looked over your shoulder.
He stopped at the bottom of the stairs, looked up at you when you turned on your heel and crossed your arms.
He was going to wait you out--you knew the look on his face and you knew he’d play this game all night if he needed to. His eyebrows rose, eyes went wide as if to say go ahead, I’m waiting.
“Alright, okay,” you relented theatrically. “I’m someone and I want to come.”
“You do?” He smiled.
“I do.”
A few steps up until he was on the one right below you. “Okay, roomie,” he teased. “Should we shake on it?”
You rolled your eyes, he offered a hand in truce, but you kissed him instead.
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AN: Hi friends!!!! So excited to give part 13! I will be honest and say that I might not be able to post weekly moving forward as I've been v busy at work, but I do have a lot up my sleeve for this story!!!! Thanks for reading and sending lots of love!
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Can I request a male reader with Christopher Smith *and* Adrian Chase where the other team members find out one by one that the three are dating each other.
Thank you for the ask anon! I hope you like what I came up with! 🥰
Thanks to @spooky-ghosts for beta reading for me! 💖
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“There is no way! I saw him practically sitting in Chris’s lap the other day. Those two are totally an item.” Economos says.
“Well, I don’t know what you saw, but I saw him on the couch playing with Adrian’s hair while Adrian’s head was in his lap! So, those two are definitely seeing each other.” Harcourt shoots back.
“Sorry, Economos, I agree with Harcourt. I walked in on him basically pinning Adrian against the wall the other day and it looked like they were about to start making out at any second.” Adebayo interjected.
“Thank you, Ads!” Harcourt exclaims.
But then Keeya, who normally didn’t say too much at these after-hour get-togethers at the bar, speaks up, “I hate to disagree, babe. But when I came to pick you up the other day, I could have sworn I saw him and Chris in the back of his truck going at it.”
Shocked, Adebayo turns to her wife. “Why didn’t you tell me about that?”
Keeya shrugs. “I couldn’t tell for sure and, honestly, I didn’t really want to get closer to find out.”
Soon, everyone began talking over one another trying to justify their belief about who you were currently sleeping with. But then, Harcourt spies the door to the bar opening and exclaims, “Shut up, shut up! He’s here!”
The table fell silent as you sauntered over and slid into the booth. Nodding at everyone, you say, “Hey guys. Sorry I’m late. What did I miss?”
Everyone exchanges glances but no one says anything. You eye the table in confusion before finally sighing, “What’s going on?”
“Are you dating Chris?” Economos blurts out. Everyone else shoots him a dirty look before turning their attention back to you.
You nonchalantly grab your usual drink the waiter just dropped off for you and shrug as you take a swig, “Yeah, and?”
Economos pumps his fist in triumph while Keeya gives Adebayo a pointed stare. But Harcourt just shakes her head. “No, because I thought you were dating Adrian.”
“I am.” You take another drink as everyone looks at you in confusion. “I don’t see what’s hard to understand about this.”
“So…” Adebayo says slowly. “You’re dating both Chris and Adrian at the same time?” When you nod, she asks, “Do they know?”
You chuckle as you swirl your drink in your glass. “Yeah, I’m pretty sure they know. Considering what the three of us were just doing before I got here.”
Once again, everyone is just left staring at you, speechless. Finally, Harcourt says, “Oh, so the three of you… together…”
You sigh, starting to get slightly annoyed with all the questions. “Yes. The three of us are all dating each other. Together. At the same time. Does anyone have a problem with that?”
“No! Not at all!” Everyone hurries to clarify. Adebayo speaks up over the commotion. “It’s just that we didn’t know for sure if you were seeing either of them, so both is just a bit of a surprise. But if you three are happy, then we’re happy for you.”
Relaxing back into the seat, you smile softly. “Yeah, yeah, we’re happy.”
Harcourt nods. “Then we’re happy for you. But this better not affect how you three cooperate or work together on the team.”
Your soft smile shifts into a sly grin as you down the rest of your drink. “I don’t think that will be a problem considering it hasn’t affected us these last three months.”
“WHAT?!”
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parkerslatte · 3 years
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Stood Up
Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader
Warnings: allusions to sex
Word Count: 1.7k
Summary: Y/N is excited about her date and when the night rolls around, she gets stood up. She calls the one person she knows will make her night better.
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***
Y/N walked through the doors to the BAU with a radiant smile on her face. Spencer was the first to notice and couldn’t help but smile himself as her smile was infectious. She waved at him as he placed her bag down on her desk. The excitement coursing through her veins was still there from the phone call she had received that morning. 
“What’s got you so happy?” Emily questioned. 
“Well, you know that guy I told you about.” Y/N said, sitting on top of her desk.
“Which one, the blonde or brunette?” Emily questioned, taking a sip from her drink.
“The blonde,” Y/N clarified and Emily nodded, “Well the two of us have been talking non stopover the last couple of days and he asked me on a date tonight.” 
“Where are you going?” Emily asked.
“I don’t know, this fancy restaurant,” Y/N answered, “So I have an excuse to wear that dress I bought when we went shopping.”
“Ooh, the sexy one?” Emily perked up.
Y/N clicked her fingers, “That’s the one.”
“Well, after the date, I need details.” Emily stated, sitting at her own desk.
“Obviously.” Y/N laughed. As she sat down at her own desk, Y/N arranged all of the work she needed to do for the day, not noticing the distraught looking genius sitting not too far away. 
***
Y/N had gotten to the restaurant a little earlier than she and her date had arranged. She was seated at the table he reserved and waited. Getting out her phone, she was greeted by a text from  Emily making her promise to tell her everything that happened. Y/N laughed slightly at the text before placing her phone to the side. 
Five minutes had passed and her date was going to show up any minute. Y/N was excited. She had been talking to him for the last couple of weeks and they really hit it off. It was the first date she had been on in a while as she was constantly pulled away on cases and the dates she had planned lost interest as she kept having to reschedule. 
Another five minutes had passed and a waitress had come up to her table asking if she wanted  a drink. Y/N refused, wanting to wait for her date. He was late but Y/N deduced that to traffic. After all, five minutes wasn’t a lot. She checked her phone and contemplated texting Emily but she knew that if she did, the two would get sucked into conversation and Y/N wouldn’t notice when her date would arrive. 
Ten minutes passed and Y/N was getting nervous. She hadn’t received a text from her date at all. She had to even check the name of the restaurant to make sure she was at the right one. Y/N still had hope that her date would show up but deep down she knew that he was never going to show up. Y/N flagged down the waitress that offered her a drink earlier and ordered one. Her date would have a lot of explaining to do if he turned up. 
Another ten minutes passed and Y/N knew that her date was a no show. He was half an hour late with no text. The people sitting in the restaurant offered he looks of sympathy to which Y/N ignored. Y/N would have preferred it if he texted her that he wanted to cancel the date, at least it would've been less humiliating than sitting in a restaurant on  her own for half an hour. 
Sighing, Y/N pulled out her phone. The night was still young as she was excited about tonight and she wasn’t going to let someone ruin it. Pressing down on one of her contacts, she raised the phone to her ear. It rang three times before there was an answer. 
“Hello?” Spencer’s voice sounded through the phone.
“Spence, hey.” Y/N said.
“Y/N, I thought you were on a date.” He questioned.
“Well, I thought I was too but apparently he had more important things to do. He stood me up.” Y/N sighed. 
“I’m sorry,” Spencer said, sounding genuine, “I know you were excited.”
“I was but now I know what he’s really like so I guess I dodged a bullet,” Y/N joked, “But I was phoning to ask you if you wanted to meet me here. I thought it would be fun and you don’t have to if you don’t want to, I’ll just ask-”
“I’d love to come and meet you.” Spencer cut off her rambling.
“Really?” Y/N said, suddenly lighting up, “That’s great. I’ll text you the address. It’s quite a fancy restaurant, so dress fancy.”
***
Y/N was sitting at her table for another fifteen minutes before Spencer came in through the door. As soon as she saw Spencer, she got up from the table and wrapped him in a tight hug. He wrapped his arms back around her pulling her close. Normally if someone tried to hug him, Spencer would recoil and offer them a wave and a smile instead. But when it came to Y/N, he would hug her forever if he could. 
When Y/N pulled away, Spencer saw the dress she was wearing. It was a simple black dress but it looked incredible on Y/N.
“You look beautiful.” Spencer mumbled. 
Y/N smiled, “Thank you Dr. Reid,” Y/N scanned Spencer’s body and his attire, “You don’t look too bad yourself.”
Spencer smiled at her before the two sat down at the table. Y/N’s smile didn’t once leave her face as she ordered what she wanted and Spencer watched her with a love struck expression on his face. 
“Thank you for coming, Spence,” Y/N said, reaching across the table and taking his hand, “I really appreciate it.”
“Of course,” Spencer said, gently holding her hand, “I couldn’t think of anywhere else I’d rather be.”
Y/N smiled back at him before her face fell slightly, “I’m just annoyed at my date, he didn’t even text me or anything. I would’ve felt less hurt if he just cancelled instead but he let me sit here for half an hour waiting.”
“You shouldn’t get caught up on him. He obviously doesn’t appreciate you for who you are. He missed out on going on a date with the most amazing woman ever.” Spencer said. 
“I wouldn’t go that far.” Y/N replied, looking down at the table.
“I would,” Spencer said, “You are the most incredible, strong and beautiful women ever, your date missed out big time.”
“Thanks Spence,” Y/N smiled, holding onto his hand a little tighter, “It’s just that no one had ever said that to me before.”
“Well they should,” Spencer said, “Because it’s true.”
Before Y/N could respond, the waitress came back with their food, ending the conversation. There was so much Y/N wanted to say but she guessed it had to wait until another time. 
***
After their meal, Y/N and Spencer walked arm in arm down the street. Spencer insisted on walking her home. No words were exchanged between the two, Y/N’s mind was replaying the conversation they had back at the restaurant. 
“Spencer?”
“Yeah?” He said, looking down at Y/N.
“Did you really mean those things? Back at the restaurant, how you said I was the most amazing woman ever?”
“I meant every word,” Spencer said without hesitation, “And you should hear it more often, you underestimate your value.”
Y/N stopped walking, causing Spencer to stop. He looked back at her confused before she threw her arms around his neck and hugged him. 
“Thank you, you have no idea how much I needed to hear those words.” Y/N mumbled into his neck.
“Anytime.” Spencer replied. 
The two stayed like that for a few minutes, wrapped in each other’s embrace. They gently swayed from side to side. 
“Can I ask you a question?” Y/N questioned, pulling away from the hug to look Spencer in the eye.
“Anything.” Spencer mumbled, his breath gently fanning her face due to their close proximity. 
“Do you want to go out on an official date?” Y/N said, “I would class this one but we didn’t exactly plan it and it wasn’t typically where we would go and-”
Y/N was suddenly cut off by a pair of soft lips against her own. Spencer’s arms moved from Y/N’s waist to gently cup her face, pulling her in closer. Y/N gripped onto the front of his jacket pulling him closer toward her. The sensation of kissing Spencer was one Y/N had never experienced before. There was a lot of passion behind the kiss but there was a gentleness behind it as well. It caused Y/N’s heart to flutter. 
Spencer was the first to pull away, resting his forehead against hers, both of their eyes were shut, processing what had just happened. Y/N could still feel the ghost of Spencer’s lips on her own. 
“So…” Y/N started as the two had calmed down from the kiss, “I think that we should just class this as our first date.”
Spencer chuckled, “I agree.” He said before capturing her lips with his own once again. 
***
The following day at work, Y/N was working quietly at her desk when Emily suddenly appeared at her side.
“So, how was your date?” She questioned, “You didn’t tell me all the details.”
“It went…” Y/N locked eyes with Spencer from across the room, he was trying to hide his smile behind his coffee cup, “Well. It went well.”
“Well? Just well?” Emily questioned. 
“It went more than well actually, I scored a second date.” 
“Oh, look at you,” Emily teased, nudging her, “Anything else?”
Y/N looked at Spencer who was trying hard not to make it look obvious he was listening to the conversation, “Well he’s an amazing kisser and amazing at...well I’m not going to say it out loud since we are in the workplace but you get my gist.”
Y/N watched as Spencer nearly spat out his coffee, he started coughing. Emily turned her attention towards him, “You okay Reid?”
“Yeah, I’m perfectly fine.” He said nervously before leaving to go and find something to wipe up his spilt coffee.
“What’s up with him?” Emily questioned.
“I have no idea,” Y/N responded, repressing a smirk.
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personasintro · 3 years
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drunk over sober | ksj drabble
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⇢ 𝒔𝒚𝒏𝒐𝒑𝒔𝒊𝒔; getting through the evening in his presence calls for help and that's why you decide to reach for one thing that could possibly get you through it, or maybe it helps you in a whole another way
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What did you do in your past life to deserve this? To deserve such an overly confident, snarky, cocky bastard to be in your life. Why couldn't your friends find a nice human being that is polite, friendly and modest? Not… him.
And the fact everyone is so okay with him acting like he owns everything just makes your blood boil even more. Why the hell did you even agree to come here in the first place? Oh yeah, because one of your friends Jimin, assured you he won't be here. But rather than be mad at Jimin for lying to you because well, your worst enemy – the epitome of evil is right here, you're actually more mad at his presence.
Or maybe because he's enjoying this night to the fullest, even has the decency to lift up his glass of wine at you as he cockily quirks up one of his brows and sends a smirk your way. You gape at him like a fish, features twisting to a deep scowl and a glare. But he looks even more amused at your obvious anger, living for it.
“Y'know, this glaring at him won't do anything.”
The melodic voice resounds next to you, your eyes moving from the devil himself to your friend who's looking at Seokjin amusingly before he looks at you with the same amused eyes. That's great! Even he's enjoying this. Are you the only one being miserable? Maybe you should leave this bar, leave the group of your friends to maybe open a bottle of wine for yourself.
“Don't talk to me,” you grit, trying to appear intimidating but it only makes Jimin chuckle which makes your brow twitch in irritation. “You lied to me. You told me he won't be here tonight.”
“I didn't lie,” Jimin clarifies, “He wasn't supposed to come but decided to tag along at the last minute.”
“Of course, he did,” you roll your eyes. “He likes to make my life miserable.”
Now it's Jimin's turn to roll his eyes, finding the hatred between you two pathetic and childish. You don't even know how it started. Seokjin always made you irritated from the moment you met him. You don't like overly confident men, thinking they can do anything and act however they like. Then he started to make fun of you, throwing snarky remarks your way ever since he noticed the way you clearly wasn't very fond of his presence. And it quickly turns into bickering whenever the two of you are in the same room.
He has already managed to comment on your outfit the second he saw you.
“This is not your grandma's funeral, Y/N.”
How dare he bring your poor grandma into this? You know he did that just to annoy you, that doesn't make it okay.
To be fair, you did tell him something back. “Oh really? Says the man who's wearing his dad's clothes.”
It's certain you made your friends laugh, both of you did. They always have fun whenever it comes down to your bickering. Seokjin didn't even look offended by your comment, just smirked your way as he gulped down more wine. That pisses you even more. He barely shows annoyance or any negative reaction. He always remains calm, amused and cocky. It pisses you off.
And of course, he doesn't look as if he's wearing his dad's clothes. He looks far from it. He might be close to his thirties, but he looks amazing. But surely, he knows that. Everyone knows that – even you. But you'd rather have your arm cut off than to admit it out loud.
“You both are freaking stubborn. Whatever the two of you have going on, you need to sort it out.”
“Sort it out,” you scoff, “As if that's possible.”
“It is,” Jimin says, a grin making its way to his lips. “I feel a certain tension here.” He wiggles his eyebrows at you while you frown, glaring at him for a moment before you let his words sink in and you realize what he's hinting at.
“Oh, fuck no!” you exclaim, wanting nothing else than to punch him for even mentioning that but you know you'd feel awful later. “Y'know what? I won't let him get to me. I'm gonna have fun.” you say lightly, your tone awfully fake but you go along with it as you gulp the rest of your wine.
“Now, I'm gonna get some more.” you inform him, Jimin's mouth is opening.
“That's not what I--”
But you're already gone, making your way towards the bar to order more wine but not before you brush past Seokjin giving him the nastiest glare. However, it only makes him chuckle, turning around for a moment to look at you amusingly as he's met with your back and swaying ass.
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You usually make good decisions.
You always think through things because usually, you're a responsible person.
Usually – that's the key word because you're certainly not proving yourself to make good decisions. As much as you'd like to blame it on Suckjin (yes, because he really sucks), it's your own fault for deciding that drinking might be the best idea for how to get through the night. Part of you wanted to leave as soon as you saw his dumb and handsome face but you haven't seen your friends for two weeks and you wouldn't give him that satisfaction to show him how much his presence affects you. Or more like it annoys you.
Who are you kidding. He certainly affects you more than you'd like to admit, if he didn't – you wouldn't keep ordering wine (and probably going bankrupt because you'd save a lot of money by buying a whole bottle of wine, rather than buying one glass every ten to fifteen minutes). However, you're in a bar and it's quite obvious you pay more than you'd if you just bottle an alcohol from a convenience store.
Also, if he wouldn't affect you that much you'd listen to your friends' worries and advice to slow down. You did the right opposite. You feel like you started ordering even more frequently.
But most importantly, if he wasn't affecting you, you certainly wouldn't throw up into the toilet of the ladies restroom.
And the fact you embarrassed yourself in front of (not just your friends) but also everyone in a bar while running to the ladies with a hand over your mouth, to keep the vomit inside until you're free to let it out.
Oh, fuck so fucking embarrassing.
Your knees ache as you hug the toilet, not caring about possible bacterias laying on the toilet seat. If you were sober, you'd actually be so disgusting.
When one of your female friends comes to check on you, you rasp out that you're okay and will be out in a few minutes. You weren't.
You've been here for god knows how long but considering how many women already went to use the restroom, you must've been here for quite some time. Luckily, you stayed quiet and didn't throw up while anyone else was here.
Your stomach is uncomfortably clenched reminding you that you're about to have a wild awakening in the morning full of regret, you know you emptied everything in your stomach. You've a weird sour taste in your mouth, causing you to groan disgustedly at yourself. Once you flush the toilet for like the fifth time by now, you get the courage to walk out and check your appearance in the mirror.
You look awful. You also feel like it.
You rinse your mouth a few times, feeling lucky that no one has decided to come here to see your head in a sink while spitting out the water to get rid of that awful taste of vomits in your mouth. Your make-up is slightly smudged but it's actually not that awful once you wipe your undereyes and the smudged mascara there.
Once you're ready, knowing you've to walk out of those doors to face the others (and by that, you don't just mean your friends but also everyone that witnessed you clearly ready to throw up), you brace yourself and open the door.
You're startled to be met with Seokjin leaning against the wall, standing there just on the opposite side of you as your eyes meet right away. He sighs, awfully similar to sighing in relief, as he takes your appearance and eyes you up and down.
“How are you feeling?” he asks, straightening himself.
“Like shit,” you answer honestly, grabbing the side of your throbbing head. “I think I'm still drunk.” you tell him, stumbling when a woman makes her way towards the restroom and you've to move to let her in since you've been standing right in front of the door.
Seokjin stretches his arms towards you, getting a faint hold of your wrists. HIs brows are furrowed while he stares at you.
“Come on, let's get you home.” he says, taking a few steps closer to you as you glare at him.
“You?” Is the only thing you let out of your mouth, ready to resist but Seokjin holds you close since you seem to have barely any balance.
You might've thrown up everything in your stomach, but your head throbs and you're still very much drunk.
“Yes,” he answers simply, “Everyone else went home. I told them I'd get you home safely.”
You scoff, not believing your friends. So, they just left you here? With him? They know you don't like him! The hell, you hate him! They know all of it and yet, they left you here with him.
Little do you know, Seokjin promised to take care of you. He was met with a few skeptical stares from your friends but Jimin assured them it's okay. The smirk Jimin gave Seokjin just as he was walking out of the bar didn't go unnoticed by him.
And here he is. Has been waiting for half an hour for you. He did get worried, wondering if you hadn't passed out on the floor or something and had this urge to just walk into the ladies restroom, knowing that might've got him kicked out of this bar.
Luckily, you walked out of there before he really decided to do it.
As much as you hate Seokjin, and doing a stupid decision, you know the smartest option for you is to just go with him. It's dangerous to go alone and even though you want to prove to him you don't need him or his help, you kind of do and it definitely helps to get you home safely, just like he promised to you and his friends.
So you huff under your breath, brushing past him but saying nothing in return but you know he's right behind you, feeling his presence following you out of a bar.
“Oh shit, I haven't paid for my drinks.” you exclaim once you make it outside.
Thank god, no one stared at you while walking out of a bar. You already feel embarrassed as it is.
“I took care of it,” Seokjin tells you, phone attached to his ear as he ignores your suspicious eyes and calls a cab for the two of you.
You groan, feeling your legs getting weak so you sit on a curb, hugging your arms as you feel a chilly breeze on your exposed arms.
After he makes the call, hanging up with a polite “Thank you, we'll be waiting”, he's joining you and sitting beside you as you eye him suspiciously again.
He probably feels your eyes on him, but he stares ahead watching cars passing by.
“Why would you pay for me?” you ask, voice drowsy as you keep your tired eyes on him.
He turns his head to you, staring at you for a moment as he lets out a chuckle. “I expect you to pay me back. I'm no charity.” he scoffs causing you to scoff back.
“Don't worry,” you murmur, feeling angry for some reason even though of course, you'd pay him back. You wouldn't let him pay for such an expensive wine, or even if it was a cheap one, just so he could use it one day against you. You don't need his money.
But deep down, you're glad he took care of it so you could just walk out of the bar and not spend any longer in it than necessarily. What you're angry about is the way he reacted. And here you thought he's being weird by the whole taking care of you thing. He's still the same idiot.
Your thoughts are cut off by him taking off his suit and throwing it over your small figure. You instantly feel the heat from it, knowing it's his body that made it warm. You open your mouth, staring at him surprisingly as he chuckles at your reaction.
“Well, don't look at me so surprised.”
“I am surprised,” you point out, “Thanks though.”
“What? I didn't hear you?”
You look at him again, opening your mouth but once you see the corner of his mouth twitching, you know he heard you and is just making you say it again.
“Your mistake.” you huff.
You don't know for how long you sit there waiting for the cab, but you feel yourself getting more and more tired, looking for a place to lean your head against which happens to be Seokjin's shoulder. You're too out of it to check out his reaction or realize what you just did.
His shoulder feels nice. The one you kept making fun of him, actually you made fun of both of his shoulders. Suddenly, you start feeling guilty for it and you blame you being drunk for it because you're already opening your mouth.
“I'm sorry for making fun of your shoulders,” you mutter, yawning sleepily. “They feel nice.”
Seokjin laughs, actually it's something between a laugh and a chuckle but he finds your confession and apology funny nevertheless.
“I know you secretly love them.” he teases you, causing you to groan in response. Oh god, you're so out of it.
“I hate you secretly.” you inform him, causing him to snicker.
“It's not that big of a secret.” he points out, making you chuckle for some reason. He's right. It's quite obvious.
“You hate me too, don't make me feel guilty.”
“I don't hate you,” he tells you, sounding serious for a second before he chuckles. “You just can't take some teasing.”
You lift your head up quickly, groaning when you feel it spin as your vision gets blurry. You glare at Seokjin, seeing double – two Seokjins – but you glare at him nevertheless.
“Teasing?” you exclaim, “That's not teasing! That's pissing me off and you know it.” you snap but lay your head back when it starts to hurt even more. He lets you, scoffing a little.
And he stays quiet, letting the distant sounds of cars and people chatting that walk past you be the only sound between you two. You're on a verge of actually falling asleep, closing your eyes for the first time since fighting the urge to close them since you laid your head on Seokjin's shoulder.
But yet again, Seokjin manages to open his mouth again and for some reason, you're not as annoyed as you'd normally be.
“Do you believe in soulmates?”
It's so random, you don't get why he's asking you this but you're also very drunk to put too much thought into it.
You let his question linger in the air and in your mind, pursing your lips slightly in a silent thought before you come up with a quite sober answer. “I think everyone is in your life for a reason.”
“Oh, so I'm in your life for a reason.” he teases you and if you looked up at him, you'd see him wiggling his brows.
“Yeah, to piss me off apparently.” you tell him, getting to hear a breathy laugh from him.
“You piss me off too,” he says, sounding both amusing and accusing at the same time. Maybe even offended too. “But I like you.” he admits.
It's like a slap to your face and thanks to your drunkenness, it takes a while to fully understand his words but once you do, you whip your head in his direction while looking at him like a deer caught in the headlights.
“You what?”
“Come on, isn't it obvious?” he laughs almost bitterly, but keeps his tone light and even when he looks at you with his dark brown eyes, you see nothing but softness in them.
Okay, you're really drunk.
“Do you think I'd take care of you, borrowed you my suit to keep you warm and waited in front of the restroom for half an hour just because I hate you?”
You're speechless, not fully realizing that Kim Seokjin, the Kim Seokjin that makes fun of you whenever you're around, just confessed that he doesn't hate you. And admitted verbally and loudly what he's done for you so far. Even though you didn't ask for it, you know deep down you appreciate it.
“I don't understand…” you mumble, “What about all the teasing and annoying me?”
“It's just teasing, it's not my fault you can't take a joke.” he snorts, causing you to send him a glare. It's just a small confirmation that yes, he still acts like a dick but the difference is, that you're not overly mad over it and don't want to slap his handsome face.
“You and I have a different concept of a joke,” you scoff, “I don't like those jokes.”
“Alright, no more teasing and jokes,” he says, causing you to raise your brows at him lazily. You don't believe him. “Don't look at me like that, I'm serious. And just a reminder, you haven't been going easy on me too. I'm just lucky I have thick skin and can take a joke.”
You want to have some smartass response, to say something back about how he's making it seem like you're some kind of a prude that can't joke around, because you can. You're quite a fun person to be around. He just doesn't know that side of you because you just straightass go into an attack mode whenever he is around.
And as your drunk mind thinks about it, you do feel an obvious guilt slowly building but you're too drunk to fully tell him what you think. But you try your best, muttering the first thing that comes to your mind.
“I'm sorry to joke about your shoulders,” you almost whisper, pouting. “I like them. They're comfy. At least this left is.”
That's right, you've been leaning on his left shoulder only.
Seokjin snorts at that before he erupts laughing, causing you to cringe at the loud sound close to your ear but you find yourself smiling. He catches the sight of your smile, his laugh slowly dying as he keeps his lips stretched into a similar one.
“I can assure you my right shoulder is just as comfortable,” he remarks, causing you to snort as you nod at him. “I don't know what's up with you and my shoulders. You said far more mean things about my own personality than my appearance.”
You cringe at that, feeling the guilt even more. Perhaps it's the tone in his voice that makes you think that you making fun of his personality rather than appearance somehow affected him too.
“I'm sorry,” you murmur, hiding your face back in his shoulder once he looks at you, chuckling as you not so sneakily hide your shy face. “You said mean things to me too.”
“I'm sorry,” he says back, louder and more confident than when you said it. “I think we both have something to feel guilty about.”
You just nod, muttering something about how long it's taking for the cab to arrive. Seokjin is not sure if you did it to change the topic purposely, or you're just so drunk that you mind drifts elsewhere. Nevertheless, he coaxes you to stand up as he helps you, not minding the way your body practically stumbles into his in the middle of it. He has a tight grip on you, tucking a few restless strands of your hair behind your ear. Yeah, he commented that too. Something about how having your hair in a bun makes you look like you're in a job meeting rather than hanging out with your friends in a bar.
He cringes at that, having the need to apologize for that but you seem distracted by something else and that something else happens to be his lips. You're shameless, maybe you don't realize that you're staring and that he obviously sees you… but you just keep staring.
“I'm sure I made fun of your lips too.” you drunkenly murmur, causing Seokjin to breathe out a chuckle.
“You did.” he confirms your suspicion, causing you to sigh.
“I like them.” you tell him honestly, eyes lazily closing and smile stretching to the same lazy and drunk smile. And you bluntly reach towards them, your point finger tracing the bottom lip.
Seokjin feels the tip of his ears heating up, wondering how it must look like to someone that just walks by. You're in front of a bar with you drunk while tracing his lips as if it's the most normal and common thing ever.
“You know,” Seokjin starts, your finger no longer in front of his mouth. “I think I prefer you drunk over sober.”
That makes you snort, chuckling slightly as you lean towards him and bump your forehead into his chest. Wow, it's hard. You stay like that, trying to ignore the throb in your head.
“I think I prefer you when I'm drunk than when I'm sober.” you admit, causing him to laugh, hands respectfully on your back as you keep swaying slightly.
Suddenly, you've this urge to look at him because god knows if you'll ever have that opportunity. So you do, finding him already looking at you.
“But I wish you were sober now, though.” he admits too, your brows furrowing in a confusion for a moment.
“Why?”
“So I could kiss you.” he bluntly responds, your eyes widening and for a moment, you feel like you sobered up. That's not true, though. You just feel like it.
“You--you want to kiss… me?” you point at yourself, wondering if this is some kind of sick joke of his, so he can laugh about it later.
But he looks honest, staring at you with a deep glance. It makes you swallow dryly.
“Yeah,” he nods, “But you're drunk. And I don't want to take advantage of that.”
You stare at him cutely, your lips pouting without you even realizing and your pupils are big and waiting, causing him to grab your face gently. He traces his thumb over your lips, similar to what you did just a few minutes ago while tracing his own plush lips.
You called him Kylie Jenner look-alike if you remember correctly. God, you were such a bitch.
You like his lips.
“I'm not that drunk,” you stupidly protest, causing Seokjin's brows to raise in shock from your sudden interest in him kissing you. But he quickly shakes himself out of it and chuckles at your eagerness.
“How about a compromise?” he asks, catching your interest as you nod without thinking of it.
It's until he leans towards you, face just a few inches from yours. You can feel the heat coming off his breath, warming your face while your heart seems to be the only thing sober and awake.
His lips are so close, he is so close. You can smell his incredible and expensive cologne making you almost whimper in his direction but before he can take another inch closer to you, you realize something and panic.
“Wait, wait!” you exclaim, catching him off guard as he stares at you surprised while pulling away slightly, giving you some space as your hand is already on your mouth.
Are you about to throw up? Oh fuck, he'd be so embarrassed if you throw up at the idea of him kissing you.
“I threw up!” you inform him which makes him snort because he obviously knows that.
He heard weird noises that undoubtedly came from you while he was waiting for you.
But he doesn't tell you that to not make you embarrassed. He's not that big of a dick, even if you think he maybe is.
“But I rinsed my mouth!” you quickly jump to say, not wanting him to think like you stink or something. You made sure your mouth doesn't smell like vomits. The thought of him kissing you while you threw up just twenty minutes ago makes you want to throw up again. In your defense, you did rinse your mouth a lot and you no longer can smell or taste vomits in your mouth.
He chuckles, eyes scrunched as he inches closer to you and you almost protest (because just in case, you'd die of embarrassment) but you're taken aback when his lips find your forehead instead of your lips. He gives you a soft kiss there, smiling down at you as you gape at him with an open mouth.
This is the compromise he talked about, but you're too drunk to realize that.
“Come on, the cab is here.” he says, taking your hand in his as he leads you to a cab.
Once you both sit there, you give the cab driver your address before you allow yourself to finally relax and feel something soft under your butt rather than a hard pavement. You're not too shy to scoot closer to Seokjin, even though you've been glued to him from the moment you made it into the cab. You let your head rest over his right shoulder this time, commenting that it's comfortable too that makes him laugh.
It's the last thing he hears from you because he soon realizes you fell asleep, cuddling up to him. He's not sure if he'll be able to wake you up once you make it to your apartment building and he has no plans trying to get into your purse, so he sighs and tells the driver to drive you to his apartment instead. It's not far from yours anyway and the cab driver is more than happy to charge him for it.
But he doesn't care about money. If he did, he wouldn't pay that much money over the wine you drank and threw up all of it in the same day.
He wasn't joking when he said he wants you to pay back, but maybe now, he'll live without you paying him back. He can think of it as if it's redemption by burying the hatchet.
And as he glances at your peaceful sleeping figure that still is very much glued to his warm body, he knows it might be just worth it.
He just hopes you won't kill him in the morning once you find out you're at his place. And maybe, just maybe, he hopes a lot that you'll remember everything in the morning.
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iwadori · 3 years
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Atsumu dating Kita's younger sister (their manager). That's it. That's the request. Hope you like this prompt 🤞😅
Dating your brothers teammate (Atsumu)
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Word count: 1.6K
Genre: angst, fluff
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ATSUMU
You and Atsumu started dating a month after Kita introduced you in your first year
You’re now in your second year and still going strong
However, no ones knows about your relationship since Atsumu said you being the manager and him being the setter it will affect the team dynamic?
You start the day off, seeing a message from your boyfriend,
‘Tsumu: Mornning babe, can’t wait to see you today!
You don’t respond, you are Atsumu have been at odds for the past few weeks as you feel like you guys should make your relationship public. Not even public per se, but you definitely feel it shouldn’t be hidden away especially with it being nearly two years of you being together.
Of course, Atsumu disagreed. He felt like at this moment you and him revealing your relationship to the team will just mess up the ‘dynamics’ or whatever that’s supposed to mean.
You get ready for school eating the breakfast your grandma made you and conversing with her and Kita before you both headed off to school together meeting Aran on the way.
You had an early morning practice and you didn’t mind it. To be honest, you love being around the team you were all a little family, you having a good relationship with all the guys.
This morning, the guys were all practicing different sorts of skills Kita was helping some of the gives with dives and receives and the rest doing other things. You were helping Osamu, Suna and Atsumu with there serves. 
Regardless of your public or private relationship status with Atsumu, you the twins and Suna were all good friends. You did have a slight inclination that Osamu and Suna knew of the relationship with you and Suna but just didn’t bring it up.
At the end of practice, the usual fan club was there waiting for the twins and the other guys to flirt and talk with them. As you are their manager, you did get some slight hate and jealousy from the other girls in your year but you didn’t pay no mind to it. 
When leaving practice, Atsumu (who usually walks with you to your class) gets stopped by a girl who seems to have something important to say so you politely step to the side (still in ear shot though.) 
“Miya-san” she said a bit nervous as her finger were shaking “I have this letter I would like for you to read.” 
He took the letter and said “Thank you, and you can just call me Atsumu” he smile at her.
“Thank you Atsumu, I hope to hear a response to you soon” she says about to walk away “Also, just to clarify you are single right?”
“Yes yes of course” he assures quickly making you annoyed “Why did you ask?”
“I assumed you were dating your manager, you seem pretty close”
“Oh her” he laughs and you already start to walk to your lesson leaving him behind “we’re just friends”
This makes the girl smile as she leaves, Atsumu turns to where you were standing shocked that you were completely vanished. He did think back to the conversation you had a week ago about your relationship status which did make him kind of sad for you since he did understand your reasoning he just wanted to you atleast wait it out till nationals is done.
He finds you at lunch, and to him it seems you don’t have a problem with him at all as you were being your usual smiley self interacting with him and all of your friends. So he assumed everything was fine (which it wasn’t of course.)
The next day at practice, when it ended the same girl came back again this time with friends and instead of approaching Atsumu they decided to approach you.
“Hi you’re the manager right?” one of them asks.
“Yup I have been for the past couple years.” you say 
“Oh and you’re definitely not dating any of the guys on the team right?”
“I don’t see why it’s any of your business, but no i’m not.” it pained you to say this but you did agree with Atsumu to say you weren’t dating to people and as much as it pained you to say this you couldn’t break your ‘agreement.’
Once the girls leave, you start to softly cry because you don’t want to have to hide your relationship anymore. Atsumu enters the corridor and sees you upset and rushes towards you, “Hey babe what’s wrong with you?” he asks 
“Nothing ‘tsumu just go back to practice” you murmur 
“No i’m not going until you tell me whats wrong?”
“it’s just that girl that confessed to you yesterday and her friends approached me about if I was dating anyone and i-”
“what did you say, he told them no right?” he interrupts
“Is that all you care about? Wether I keep our relationship secret or not ..” you say slightly raising your voice 
“Well I would appreciate if you don’t go round telling the world that you’re dating me gosh Y/N” he shouts a bit 
“I’m not even fucking doing that, I havent told a soul and that’s all because of YOU” 
You’re screaming match has alerted the team (who you didn’t notice) and they all stood around you watching before Kita steps in “Y/N are you okay??”
“yeah i’m fine bro” you say preparing to leave with tears still in your eyes “I just got into an argument with a friend” 
Before you leave the corridor you look back at Atsumu and catch all the guys attention when you say “Also Atsumu, happy anniversay ‘babe’”
“I KNEW IT!” shouts Osamu but Suna nudges him telling him to ‘read the room.’ Kita slowly approaches Atsumu and punches him in the face “I don’t care what you did but you made my sister cry so you better go fix it you dick”
Atsumu nodded and clutched his face, “Also I think it was pretty evident that you guys were dating.”
“Wait they were dating?” said Aran
You were in your room, scrolling through old pictures of you and Atsumu and looking at the presents he was going to give him for your anniversary still crying. You hear a knock on your door “Granny, I’m not hungry right now” you shout. But the door opens anyways “Granny I said I wasn-” you pause when you see a bruised Atsumu ‘Kita’ you think making yourself smile at the thought of your brother coming to your defence.
“Y/N, i’m sorry baby for trying to hide our relationship and not seeing how wrong it was until it was knocked into me... literally” he says cautiously sitting on your bed “ I’ve always wanted to be able to show off to the world but I just couldn’t cause I thought Kita would be mad and I genuinely thought it would mess up the team dynamic, however I’d rather have Kita be mad at me and the team loosing nationals if it meant getting to date you”
His words make you swoon and to add on to your fawning he whips out a wrapped up box giving it to you. When you open it, you see it’s a necklace with both your initials on it “ Happy anniversay babe, this has been one of the best years of my life.”
You silently hand him your presents, murmuring a quiet “Happy anniversary.” After seeing your presents, he gives you a big deep hug whispering mutiple thank yous and compliments into your neck making you smile.
“So does this mean we’re in a public relationship? right?” you ask making sure you were on the same page.
“Of course!” he exclaims “Also check your phone”
You look down at your phone seeing a bunch of notifications all tagging you in one post that was from Atsumu on instagram. It was 8 pictures of him and you and a caption that read *insert long romantic sappy paragraph that I’m too lazy too write since its 3 am :3* 
Your heart was overwhelmed with love for Atsumu, you spent the rest of your night cuddling and watching movies and before you went to sleep you told him you loved him.
Waking up the next morning, you thought it was all a dream to be honest. Because there was no way that Atsumu did all that right? You go downstairs and are shocked at the sight you see, Atsumu and Kita both sitting down eating breakfast together “What are you doing with my boyfr-” you stop yourself from finishing that sentence,
“Its okay Y/N you can say boyfriend, I have given your boyfriend the talk I just had to make sure that he knows that if he was ever to lay a finger on you that he would definitely get a bi-”
“Ughh nii-chan you’re being so embarrasing” you say pulling Atsumu back upstairs hearing Kita’s laughter in the backround.
You and Atsumu, stay together and it wasn’t much of a suprise when your relationship was public to the rest of the school and that girl that wanted Atsumu she ended up with Osamu anyways (it does makes sense since they do have the same face afterall.) Kita enjoys his days embarassing the both of you whenever you’re at your house. But you don’t care since you can finally show off to the world how great your boyfriend is.
Authors Notes: I don’t know if you wanted it to have angst in it but I hope you enjoy? Might make this a series so if you want anymore characters Request them and I’ll write for them too 
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forever-rogue · 3 years
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Baby Steps (A Good Man)
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A/N: Hello my sunshines! I’m back with another little installment of the AGM ‘verse with our favorite Javi and Dulzura! I love them so much and I’m glad y’all do too! I hope you guys enjoy!  As always, comments and feedback are welcome, and if you’d like to be tagged let me know! Xx
*can be read as a standalone or part of the ‘verse as a whole*
Pairing: Professor! Javi x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 5.8k
Warnings: language, pregnant!reader
A GOOD MAN ‘VERSE MASTERLIST
MASTERLIST
JAVIER MASTERLIST
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“Mrs. Peña?” the sound of your name still surprised you, despite the fact that the students had been calling you for several months now. A grin worked its way onto your face as you looked at the young boy who was watching you with wide, eager eyes. Putting your pen down, you motioned for him to continue, “will you come outside and play with us?”
“You want me to hang out with you guys?” you almost laughed at the idea that any kid deemed you worthy of spending time with them, “I thought teachers were lame, Mikey?”
“Some of them, but not all of them! You’re pretty cool,” he smiled and displayed his toothy grin. How were you supposed to say no to him? You nodded and stood up, taking the hand he was holding out to you, “besides we’re playing kickball and we need one more person!!”
“I should have known you were just using me for my exceptional skills,” you pretended to be hurt as he pulled out of the building and into the playground, where the sun was shining brightly. 
Normally, you’d have turned him down, opting to get some work done during the lunch period, but decided you might as well indulge him and yourself. You really enjoyed the kids you had this year, and it was a gorgeous early spring day. 
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Turns out, kickball with a bunch of seven and eight year olds was not as simple as it seemed. They seemed to come up with all sorts of nonsense rules, and on top of it all, they happened to be extremely competitive. And yet...you were thoroughly enjoying yourself - and glad you had opted to wear jeans today instead of a skirt or dress. Javi had been particularly fond of the tight, high-waisted jeans that hugged you in all the right places, getting very handsy before you both had to leave for work. Typical Javier; not that you minded of course. 
“Come on, give us a good one, Mrs. P!” Mikey yelled at the top of his small lungs as you proceeded to kick the ball that was rolled at you. You offered up a firm kick, but not one you would have used if you’d been playing with only adults. Taking unfair advantage was something you definitely didn’t want to do.
As soon as your foot made contact with the red rubber ball, you watched it whistle through the air before running to the first base. But...it was over before it started as you ran and then immediately proceeded to trip over your slightly untied shoelaces. You made contact with the hard earth before you knew and rolled your ankle in the process. 
You landed with a mixture of an annoyed sigh and a loud oof as you chided yourself. You should have made sure they were properly tied before doing anything. The kids clambered around you, faces anxious as they tried to make sure you were okay. Physically you were sure you’d be just fine, but mentally your pride was wounded. Oh, to make a fool of yourself in front of a bunch of children. 
“I’m alright,” you promised as you slowly rose to your feet; an instant tinge of pain shot through your ankle and leg as you almost lost your balance again. Maybe you were hurt… “it’s alright - you guys go back to playing and I’m going to go back to the classroom and sit for a moment. I might have twisted my ankle.”
They nodded, but gave you wary looks as you hobbled back inside the building. You should have remained the umpire and refused to play; you were obviously not coordinated enough for any of this. Slumping back in your chair, you rolled up your pant leg and hissed at the sight of the already swollen ankle. Shit.
“You’d better get that checked out,” Anna, one of the teachers from across the hall looked at you with a pained expression, “looks painful.”
“Nothing some rest and elevation won’t fix,” you insisted as you slumped against the back of the chair, “I’m too old for this! When did I become an adult?"
“Hey, at least they think you’re cool,” she huffed playfully, “they never ask me to play! But seriously, that looks pretty bad. And it happened at work, you know how they get about stuff like that.”
“Fineeee,” you groaned, “I’ll go to the school nurse.”
“I would recommend an actual urgent care or ER visit,” she raised an eyebrow, “besides, you know how Javi gets - he'll flay us all if he thought we weren’t looking out for you.”
“He’s...something else.”
“He’s amazing,” she reminded as you nodded in agreement. For how much of a worrywart he could be, you knew it was all out of love, “now go and get it checked out. I’ll handle getting the sub in and telling everyone. You have enough to worry about. Can you make it okay, or will you need a ride? Should I call Javi?”
“I can drive myself,” you promised, thankful it happened to your left foot and not the right, “I’m not going to bother my darling, overprotective husband just yet. Not until I can confirm that nothing is actually wrong. I don’t want him to stress over nothing, and I’m sure by the time he gets home tonight he’ll just be laughing at me and my clumsiness!”
“Alright,” Anna grabbed your purse and handed it to you, as you managed to slink out of the chair, “go get checked out and feel better. If you need anything at all, just call me.”
“Thanks for all of your help,” you hobbled towards the door, trying to keep as much weight off of your foot as possible, as Anna grimaced at you, “I swear it’s not that bad - worse than it looks.”
“Sure, sure,” she disagreed politely, “now quit stalling and go get help!”
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The white walls and bright lights of the exam room were enough to rattle your nerves, even if just ever so lightly. You sat on the examination bed and tried to keep yourself calm as you waited for the nurse to come back and begin examining you. Nothing but the distant sounds of people outside and the tick-tock of the aging clock met your ears. You almost wish you’d called Javier just to have some company. Shit.
“Mrs. Peña?” a kind looking woman, maybe around Javier’s age poked her head in as you nodded, “sorry for the wait, we’re pretty busy right now. You’re here for a rolled ankle?”
“Yeah,” you answered as you relaxed at her comforting presence as she came in and sat on her rolling stool, eyes immediately dropping your swollen and irritated ankle, “I was playing with my kids outside - kickball - and then tripped over my own damn feet and ta da!”
“Were you at home when this happened? Playing with your kids?”
“Oh no, I’m a teacher,” you quickly explained, a warm flush rising up your cheeks at the thought of children, “it was on their lunch break at school. I-I don’t have any children of my own.”
You weren’t sure why you felt the need to offer up a clarifying statement.
“I see,” she made a few notes before turning back to you, “it looks pretty bad, to be quite frank. I’m going to assume it wasn’t a break, a sprain rather, from how you’re managing, but we’ll need to do some x-rays to confirm. We’ll do your blood work as well just to make sure everything is in order. Before we do x-rays or anything - are you pregnant?”
“No,” you admitted, looking at your feet as you tried not to sigh. It had been on your mind recently, and you weren’t sure quite what to make of your own feelings on the matter. While you hadn't been actively trying, you couldn't help but wonder if it would ever happen.
“Any chance you could be?” 
“Umm,” you twiddled your thumbs as you shrugged your shoulders, “I-I suppose. I’m not on birth control and my husband and I don’t use protection...we’ve been trying but not trying if that makes sense? But my cycle’s been regular so I highly doubt it.”
“Okay,” the scratching of her pen on paper was almost maddening as she was making notes and you just sat there. You could curse yourself for babbling on to her, but you couldn’t really help it. Besides, it’d be better for them to know all the details if they were going to x-ray and poke and prod you, “very good. Let me just go get everything and we’ll get started and a better look at everything. We’ll have you set and on your way in no time.”
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“Here you go,” you scratched Stevie’s ears as you offered him a treat, a scrap of carrot from the vegetables you were chopping up for dinner, “what do you think, buddy? Should we tell him tonight?”
“Should we tell who and what tonight?” Javi’s voice startled you so much that you almost dropped your knife. You hadn’t even heard him come in, ever the sneaky DEA agent as he walked into the kitchen. A smile was on his face as he came over to you and pressed a soft kiss to your lips, “hi baby.”
“J-Javi,” you couldn’t help but melt into his touch, despite his surprise arrival, “you’re home!”
“Oh very observant of you, Dulzura,” he teased as he pulled back and started to undo his tie. It was only then that he noticed you weren’t wearing what you had earlier in the day; you were in one of his sweaters and a pair of joggers and… “what the hell happened to your ankle?!”
There it was  - Javier switching into overdrive. You put everything down on the counter and turned to him, putting on your most innocent and sheepish expression. His large, warm hands found your face as he looked you over to make sure you were okay. 
“It’s nothing, Javi,” you promised him, “I swear it. It’s just a bad sprain, but I went and had it looked at and they wrapped it and gave me pain killers. It’s umm...a stupid little story actually…”
“What happened?” he bent down and reached out to tentatively and delicately cheek the binding to make sure the nurse had properly tended to your sprain. He made a small sound of disgruntled satisfaction before standing up and waiting for a proper explanation, “why didn’t you call me?”
“I didn’t want to worry you, Javier,” you promised as he crossed his arms over his broad but acquiesced with a nod, “you’re so busy, and honestly, it wasn’t a big deal at all. Besides, Anna was ready to call you immediately, but I told her not to worry. All that happened was that I was outside with the kids and we were playing kickball and I tried over my laces, fell, and twisted my ankle. It hurts, but no fracture or anything.”
Javier’s lips twitched as he tried not to laugh, his shoulders shaking with effort as he just studied you, “are you....are you serious, Dulzura?”
“Don’t laugh at me!” you pouted as he started laughing at your dismal nod when you confirmed that that was what actually happened, “they thought I was cool and how was I supposed to say no to them!? I’m the cool teacher to them!”
“And look what that got you,” he snickered as you sighed heavily, “I’m sorry - I’m sorry. As long as you’re okay, that’s what matters. Whatever you need, just tell me the word and I’ll make sure you have it. I’ll take good care of you, Dulzura.”
“I know you will...you always do,” your heart raced as you tried to decide whether or not to tell him the rest of your revelations. But then he looked at you with those eyes, those soft brown, gentle eyes, and your heart melted. He gently pulled you into his arms as he kissed you again, chasing after your soft, sweet lips with his own, seemingly never able to get enough of you, “Javier, I love you.”
“I love you too,” you felt him smile against your lips, “what’s brought on your sudden declaration of love, mi alma?”
“I...I’m pregnant,” you blurted it out without even really thinking about it. Javier pulled back as a surprised expression crossed his features. He looked at you, seemingly in a state of shock, before opening and closing his mouth a few times, “Javi?”
“You’re pregnant?” he repeated as you nodded. It took about a moment for everything to finally come full circle as he finally realized what you had said. Immediately, an overwhelming wave of emotion came over you as you felt the back of your eyes start to sting with tears. He grabbed your face and slowly crashed his lips back onto yours and kissed deeply and slowly, “holy shit.”
“I know,” you beamed at him, “they asked before they did x-rays and blood work and then well...they discovered I was pregnant. I had no clue and then they told me and yeah - holy shit."
“That’s amazing,” he said softly, “pregnant....”
“I know,” you breathed him in and ran a hand through his dark curls, “I’m not far along, only like six weeks, so it’s still very early, but yes. We’re finally having a baby, Javier!
“I don’t know what I ever did to deserve you,” he whispered as he wrapped his arms around and held you in a tight embrace, “I love you so much.”
“You deserve this - everything. You are such a good man, Javier, and I am so honored to call you my husband, and the father of my child,” he almost melted under your praise as you traced along his features before resting your hand on his cheek, “I love you, Javi. I am so excited for this.”
“Me too,” he agreed, “this is everything - you are everything.”
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3 months pregnant
“Dulzura?” Javier yawned as he wiped the sleep from his eyes as he got up and found you in the kitchen, peering into the fridge. You were in the mood for...something. You just weren’t sure what that something was. Everything sounded good but nothing seemed to satiate that craving you had deep within, “what are you doing up?”
“I couldn’t sleep,” you admitted, hoping you hadn’t woken him up by accident, “and I got hungry. I’m sorry if I woke you, my love. Go back to bed, Javier.”
“It’s fine,” he insisted as he shuffled into the kitchen and slowly pried you away from the fridge, “sit down, and let me make you something to eat. What sounds good?”
“Javier,” you did as he asked, padding over to the other side of the counter and taking a seat at the bar. You rested your head on your hands as he stifled a yawn, "honey, go back to bed. You're exhausted and you've got back to back classes tomorrow."
"They start in the late morning," he insisted, with a sleepy nod as you just laughed at him. He was such a stubborn man sometimes it drove you crazy - but you knew it came from a place of love and concern, "don't sleep well without you anyways. 's better when you're there."
"Oh, my sweet husband," he reached into the fridge and pulled out some cheese, butter, and your favorite pickled jalapeños. You watched in curiosity as he went to the bread box and grabbed the fresh loaf of bread you'd purchased earlier at the store, "grilled cheese?"
"Grilled cheese with jalapeños," he corrected, a lazy smile tugged up the corners of his mouth. You made a small sound of musing as you realized it didn't sound too bad at all, "and tomato soup, naturally. How does that sound?"
"Sounds delicious," you grinned eagerly as you leaned in to watch him work. You made a small sound of surprise as your stomach rumbled loudly. Apparently you were hungrier than you had thought, "apparently, my stomach and I agree. I think its your daughter that agrees."
At the mention of your baby, Javier paused and smiled, his eyes flitting to your barely visible bump. Some days he still couldn't believe that you were having a baby. You were his wife. What a wild world it was indeed; years ago he'd never dreamed he would have all of this. The Javier that once existed and refused to believe that there was any light in the world could never have pictured any of this. 
But here you were. Continually proving him wrong. And he loved it all.
"Wait - how do you know we're having a girl?" he asked, suddenly wide awake as he raised an eyebrow at you, "I thought we still need to wait another month or so."
"We do," you grinned at him, "but I just know. I'm sure of it!"
"Well, you do have a fifty-fifty chance of being right…"
"I have a hundred percent chance of being right," you insisted as you reached over the counter and grabbed the jar of pickled jalapeños and fished a few out, and popped them into your mouth, "don't argue with your pregnant wife, Javier Peña. You of all people should know not to cross someone so dangerous."
He snorted with laughter, suddenly feeling much more awake as he sliced up cheese and turned on the stove, "and if we end up having a son?"
"Then we keep having more until we have a daughter and I am proven right," you plastered on a sweet smile, knowing it would wind him up. You'd never really discussed how many children you wanted or planned on having. It was just a sort of...whatever happens happens type thing. But, if you were being honest, you'd probably have given Javier as many children as he wanted. Your husband fell silent as he watched you for a moment before taking the jar away from, "nothing to add? Silence isn't like you, my love."
"We can have as many as you'd like," he promised, "you're the one doing all the hard work. If you're done after one, then it's fine for me. You already amaze me every day."
"Don't make me cry, Javier," your whole body soaked in the warmth and love from his simple words, "its getting really easy at this point, and you're taking advantage!"
"Sorry," he shot you a wink before leaning over and pressing a soft kiss to your lips, "back to business."
"Hmm," you mused quietly, "I thought kissing me was business."
"I thought you were hungry?"
"Fine," you playfully huffed as he carried on cooking, "Javi?"
"Dulzura?"
"I love you," you beamed at him, the little smile that worked its way onto his face take your breath away - as it always had. 
"I love you."
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6 months pregnant
A huff escaped your lips as you tried to reach for the socks and underwear that had fallen out of the laundry basket. It was no easy feat when you couldn’t see your own feet anymore. But you were determined to get everything up and off the floor as you walked back towards your bedroom to put away the clean clothes. And you weren’t about to give up and ask for help - not yet anyway.
Instead, you opted to awkwardly lower yourself to the floor in order to blindly grab for the discarded items. But it was no use...this was almost harder. 
“You alright, Dulzura?” Javier came in and found you struggling, cleaning his dirty hands off on a rag. He’d been working outside, getting the garden spruced up as the summer slowly came to an end, “can’t reach?”
“I can,” you stuck your tongue out at him as he huffed with laughter, but motioned for you to go on. Wanting to prove that you were right, and weren’t completely helpless after all. It hadn’t been easy having to give up a lot of the things you used to be able to do with ease as you progressed in your pregnancy. The fact that none of your pants would fit over your belly anymore had been a point of horror for you - it meant you were truly and actually pregnant, you were actually having a baby. You’d always known, but that had been what made it all extremely real. Every day you got closer and closer to your due date, it all became a little more real. Exciting - but terrifying. 
Not being able to see your feet had been another blow. You could hardly get proper shoes on anymore, opting for easy slide ons, which were great for the warmth of summer and didn’t matter since you were on summer break along with your kids. It was almost as though Javier could sense your frustration, and he’d often silently help you with getting your shoes on in the morning. He never said a word, knowing he didn’t have to. He always told you he loved you in so many ways, often without saying it. 
You tried to again, dangling your hand along on the floor as you tried again. After watching you struggle for a moment, Javier came over and grabbed everything in one foul swoop before taking your hand in his and helping you upright. 
“Hey,” you pouted at him as he put the items back into your basket, “I almost had it!”
“I know,” he kissed the tip of your nose, “but I wanted to help. Why can I not help my gorgeous wife?”
“Your very pregnant and easily frustrated wife?” you teased as you started to walk towards the bedroom. He followed after you, swatting at your bum as you squealed in delight, “Javier!”
“Come on, mi alma,” he grinned, “let me help put everything away.”
“If I let you help, you’re just going to take me to bed and then I’ll have to wash the sheets again!”
“I’ve never heard a single complaint from you before,” as you set the basket on the dresser, he came up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist before settling a hand on your belly and gently rubbing it a few times. He pressed a few kisses to the side of your neck as you tilted your head to give him easier access, “there we go, Dulzura. Just like you like it.”
“You’re the worst,” you teased as you turned your head to kiss him, “you’re lucky I love you. And I’m seemingly always in the mood right now - they really weren’t kidding about pregnancy making you more horny. Although, I’ve never heard a single complaint from you before.”
“And you never will,” he promised, his low in your ear as you tried not to completely let your mind wander too far away, “do you have any plans for this afternoon, Dulzura?”
“N-no,” you  managed to choke out as one of his hands skimmed along the waistband of your leggings. You knew exactly where this was going, and you were loath to stop him, especially as he slowly kept kissing you.
“Good,” he rasped, “because I have plans for you. Been thinking about you all day, especially in these tight leggings. You knew exactly what you were doing, didn’t you honey?”
“Uh huh,” you agreed as his warm hand slipped inside and a shiver ran up your spine, “Javier. Please.”
“Don’t worry, mi alma,” he captured your gasp in a sweet kiss, “I’ll take good care of you.”
The laundry could definitely wait.
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9 months pregnant 
It was an early, chilling morning as you sipped on some tea as you sat out in the garden. It was probably too cold to be sitting outside, but you were handled up in blankets and didn't care. 
Christmas was a few weeks away and you enjoyed peeking into the neighbor's yards to see what they all had going on for decorations.
"Are you sure you don't want to come inside?" Javier poked his head out from the sliding screen door, his brow furrowed in concentration, "its freezing! And I have breakfast!"
"I've got blankets and a baby keeping me warm," you reminded him, pointing at your large belly. You were due in a couple of weeks; how time had flown. He jokingly frowned at you, sticking out his tongue. Playfully rolling your eyes, you clambered to your feet and waddled over to him, "fine, hold on you big baby. This is because I want breakfast."
Javier was on his winter break from teaching and you were on maternity leave now and you definitely didn't mind having him around all the time. If you could have always had it this way, you definitely wouldn't have minded.
"I'm just looking out for you," he insisted with a pout as you pressed a kiss to his lips, "I talked to Papà. He's really excited to come in a few weeks - more like excited to meet his grandbaby."
"I'm not complaining at all," you insisted, knowing there would be many sleepless nights and chaotic days ahead of you, "we'll need all the help we can get. Hell, maybe we can convince Steve and Connie to come and visit too…"
"I'm sure we'll have all the help in the world between our families and friends, Dulzura," he promised as he took your hand and pulled you into the warm kitchen, putting a plate of breakfast for you on the counter, "I'm sure we'll get sick of having so many people around."
"I guess we'll just have to wait and see," you took a bite and smiled as Stevie laid by your feet. The whole house was warm and cozy, perfectly decorated for Christmas, with a huge tree and already lots of presents. Javier had really outdone himself this year, seemingly more in the Christmas spirit than you. Honestly, you were feeling a little bit out of it - being so pregnant would do that to you. 
You watched your husband for a few moments, admiring his profile and lazy smile. Gods, you were still so in love with him. He felt you watching him closely, and turned to you, cooking a dark brow, "what's on your mind, mi alma?"
"Nothing much," you shrugged lightly, feeling a flush of warmth was over you at him catching you, "just thinking about how I love you, and how I'm glad you're here with me, that you knocked me up, and yeah. Are you…are you nervous Javi?"
"About the baby?"
"No, about the Astros' odds next season," you snorted as he groaned at your joke, "of course the baby. I'm just...so nervous. Like I feel ready to meet her, but I'm so scared that I'll fuck it up somehow."
"You still think its a girl?"
"Positive," you grinned at him - you'd decided not to find out the sex ahead of time, leaving it a surprise for both of you. You were still convinced it was a girl, Javier was undecided, "we'll find out soon enough!"
"Either way," he brought his plate and sat down next to you, "everything will be alright. You're going to be an amazing mother, Dulzura. You are everything."
"I love you, Javier," you beamed as he gently put a hand on your belly, "I know it'll be alright, but holy shit - I'm so nervous. Its getting so real lately. We're going to be parents."
"Parents," he repeated, "fuck."
"Who would have thought-" you were quickly cut off when you felt the baby flutter round. A small sound of surprise left your lips as you grabbed Javier's hand and placed it on your belly, "she's telling you not to curse."
He was silent for a moment as a smile spread on his features; despite having felt this many times by now, it still continued to surprise him. He couldn't even imagine how it felt for you, "this is...everything."
"I realized I didn't know what to get you for Christmas so I got you a baby instead," you don't know why it came to mind, but as soon as the words left your lips you brought into a fit of laughter - Javier joined in, a brilliant sound that you adored above all.
"Best Christmas present ever," he whispered before leaning in and giving you a gentle kiss - sweet from the syrup and pancakes he had just eaten, "I mean it. I love you both more than you will ever know."
"We love you too," you grinned as he stroked your belly, "I'm glad your class was the only one available and I took it. I'm glad you were a grumpy professor that let me into his office - I was able to work my magic and look where that got us."
He threw his back with laughter, his dark curls shining brilliantly in the light as his eyes crinkled in the corners. You'd never been more glad for subjecting yourself to his class.
"Me too," he whispered as he put a hand on your cheek, "you always were a stubborn thing."
"Some things never change," you stuck your tongue out at him, "I trust your daughter will be the same!"
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You were humming to yourself as you shuffled around the kitchen and tried to put together a mid afternoon snack when you felt an odd sensation in your lower belly. It caused you to drop the knife on the counter as you held onto the marble and gritted your teeth. Stevie was at your feet in an instant, looking at you with concern.
"Its okay, buddy," you reassured him as the pain passed. Surely it couldn't have been anything too bad...probably just an end of pregnancy pain. Sighing at your nonsense worry, you reached for the knife again but before you reached it, the pain was back, "never mind, shit shit shit."
Trying to keep yourself calm, you leaned against the counter and tried to even your breathing. Contractions. Of course. You were due in a week and you still hadn't been expecting it.
"Javier?" he was down the hall in the second bedroom that had been converted into the nursery, putting away the final touches of clothing. Before he could respond, you felt an odd sensation followed by liquid running down your legs, "Javier!"
"What's wrong, Dulzura?" he rushed down the hall and back into the kitchen, worry etched onto his features as you stood there in shock and clutched at your belly, "honey-"
"My water broke," you said meekly as you pointed to your wet pants, "and I've had a few contractions - I think the baby's coming."
"Okay," he immediately kicked into gear as he remained cool and calm, despite wanting to panic and worry along with you, "its okay. I'm going to get the hospital bag, we'll get you in the car, Stevie to the neighbor, and then we'll go and have a baby."
"You make it seem so simple," you huffed lightly as you tried to channel his inner calm demeanor, "we'll be okay, right? I-I'm scared…"
"I know, honey," he promised as he kissed the side of your head, "you've done so amazing already, it will all be okay. I'm right here, okay? I'm just going to grab your bag and the dog and we'll go. Ten minutes and we'll be on the way."
"Okay," you agreed as he practically ran down the hall to get your packed bag, "we're going to have a baby, Javi."
"Indeed we are," he agreed with a small smile as he reached for his wallet and keys and stuff for the neighbor to watch Stevie for a few days, "we're having our baby."
Holy shit.
»»————- ♡ ————-««
“You’re doing amazing, sweetheart,” Javier praised you as you squeezed his hand after another push. You groaned and gritted your teeth as you glared at him; this was absolute hell, “the baby’s almost there.”
“Shut up, Javier,” you hissed as you got ready for another push, “I am never letting you touch me again! You did this to me.”
“Hey - it was a team effort,” he reminded you in a vain attempt at a joke. Your death glare and the squeezing of his hand said it all, “sorry, Dulzura. I love you.”
“I love you too,” you said as you took a deep breath, “but right now, I’m blaming this on you.”
“Fair enough,” he said as you pushed again. He was sure his hand was going to break.
»»————- ♡ ————-««
It wasn’t much longer before you were laying back and holding the smallest bundle you could ever imagine in your arms. You were somewhere between crying tears of joy and exhaustion, as you stared at your newborn daughter in awe. Javier was sitting next to you, looking down at her, his own eyes glossy as he gently touched her cheek. She had the darkest eyes and a shock of dark hair, already taking after her father. She had come into the world squealing and crying but had fallen asleep almost as soon as Javier held her. 
“I told you we were having a girl,” you teased him softly, “I was right. Look at her, Javier. That’s our daughter. We made her.”
“You did all the hard work, mi alma,” he whispered as he pressed a kiss to the side of your head, “she’s beautiful.”
“Lucia Luna Peña,” you grinned at your husband, “it’s perfect. I love you both more than you could ever know. Javier...you really are everything to me - the best friend, best husband, and now the best father. She’s going to love the hell out of you, just like I do.”
He remained silent for a moment as he looked at the sleeping baby before looking back at you. His whole world was in his arms, and the thought of that alone was enough to overwhelm him with emotion. He’d never thought he wanted this - a “boring” job, a home, a wife, and a baby. 
But here he was. And he had never felt happier, never felt more full of love and life. This was everything. 
“I love you so much, Dulzura - you and Lucia,” he promised as he rested his head on top of yours, “you have given me everything, more than you know. Te quiero con todo.”
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