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I guess I just need to be bored for a while and see what comes out of it.

#diary

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Back on here after a while.

I've been really overwhelmed by every other social media platform and missed the intimacy and overall chill vibe of being here (probably not what other people associate with it but whatever).

I also need to not be perceived and mind of randomly rant about stuff and life for a while without really being heard.

Idk how long I can go on this social media break, it kind of depressed me that I am already wanting to go back to them. I guess we'll see.

#rant #diary

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Currently reading 'Detransition, baby' and enjoying it very much.

I know it is a bit controversial, I am finding it very clever and well written so far.

I had an awful Saturday evening so even though I was supposed to study I think I'll just lay in bed and read this for the rest of the morning before going to work

#detransition baby #torrey peters #booklr #my pics #book #my oc #books #books and libraries #bookworm

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I completed the community center in Stardew lol I feel so accomplished

#community center #stardew valley #yayyyyyyy #nintendo #nintendo switch #game

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I'm thinking about getting back on Tumblr, I'll try with this post and let's see how it goes!

I read Hell Bent, I honestly still don't know how to feel about this whole saga, it feels fun and then boring, and then messy and then exciting. The first half of this book was SLOW. I honestly thought about abandoning it, but then the second half was smooth and fast paced so it was easier to finish it. I still feel like it was a little rushed though.

I still kind of enjoyed it and of course I will read the sequel once it comes out (hopefully not another 3 years from now...) lol.

#leigh bardugo #hell bent #fantasy #dark fantasy #academia #dark academia #book #booklr #my pics #my oc

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I don't even like eggs but this book is SO COZY. I've been reading a lot of more challenging and serious books lately, especially non fiction, and going back to a soft, emotional Japanese novel feels good.

The second pic is a weak attempt of making a caramel drizzle for my iced coffee lol

#eggs #uova #hitonari tsuji #booklr #reading #books #books and libraries #bookworm #my pics #my post #my oc #japan #japanese literature

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Hello everyone! I think after all this time a lot of my mutuals won't even remember me, but I had such a hard year and I couldn't bring myself to create the already minimal amount of content I used to put on here.

This was always a safe space to me to share my passion for books and my academic journey, but this past year I dropped out of uni and I had many difficulties to keep up with my reading. I felt like in a way I didn't deserve to read those books, the fact that I didn't study anymore made me feel too stupid to enjoy something so beautiful. The thing that kept me coming on here was the enjoyment sharing my passions and achievements brought me, and as I lost it I felt like a fraud and talking about them felt like a chore.

I am happy to announce that after a lot of self reflection and therapy I am feeling a lot better. I am going to start uni again in September and while it's still hard not to feel a bit of disappointment in myself for not managing to make it the first time round, I feel more grounded and ready for it now than I was before. I am really excited to share my new academic journey, especially knowing that my life is now enriched with many more things than just studying - new friends, a new job, new interests and points of view.

Until then, I am happy to start sharing my readings with you all!

#booklr #studlr #university #drop out #studying #reading #i'm finally back #i hope i'll stay

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I've been feeling like shit for months now. All my aspirations and ambitions have simply disappeared and I feel like I just exist to go to work and watch tiktoks. I don't even find joy in anything anymore, I don't want to create anything anymore. I feel the same hunger for more that I felt before but now it just eats inside of me and finds no escape whatsoever. I am tired. I like my job but it's not something I can do forever. I can't go back to studying because it would send me back into depression. Not that I'm not depressed now, but at least I don't have to fulfil unattainable academic standards while I am. On top of everything I am neck deep in a relationship that is so toxic even he said it was and I don't know what to do. I don't know where to start. I am scared I can never go back to how it was before, to the shiny smart me who aced the exams and managed to do everything thanks to her ambition and drive. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I am doing and where I am going. Everything is too difficult. I can't do this anymore. I wasted yet another afternoon doing absolutely nothing. I cant anymore.

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I consistently leave social situations feeling like I’ve talked too much and too loudly, and emphatically said things I don’t mean. I leave wishing I’d given more compliments and eaten more slowly. How do other people speak so fluidly, tell their stories so gracefully? I am messy and hungry and always swearing, always starting my sentences without knowing where they’ll end. 

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I'm still reading this..... I hate it but I must finish it because it's for school sigh

At this point I just think that I have a problem with German Literature. Or maybe it's just that all the German books I read are from rich old men from the late 1800 lol

Either way, I find every single character in this book completely annoying and infuriating. Everyone seems to have loved this book, but I really can't understand why.

#buddenbrooks #thomas mann #german literature #german books #classic literature #european literature #books #booklr #books and libraries #bookworm #my pics #my post #book #bookstagram #book aesthetic #my photos #currently reading

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Hey I'm about to buy the Nintendo membership thing so I can finally play online!!

Does someone want to play stardew valley with me? I don't have any friends that play it and I really want to start a new farm lol

Let me know!

#stardew valley #nintendo #play with me #please #i don't have any friends #lol

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I swear to God Faust is the biggest piece of shit ever I am hating every second I spend studying Goethe's Faust cause everything about it is infuriating, first of all its dumb protagonist.

#goethe #faust #german literature #goethe's faust #why the fuck do i have to do this #this is bullshit #fuck this #it's only 4 credits #for fucks sake

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I need a philosophy book recommendation!

Okay so, this is going to sound weird lol. I never studied philosophy in my life, and even though the thought is intriguing it's definitely not my favourite thing. It has never been a problem since now that I am studying in a more humanistic field and people often quote important philosophers and their theories, and I can't understand because I don't have any sort of philosophic (?) background.

Plus, my boyfriend studied it for some years and he likes to talk about it and I want to be able to discuss it better with him.

Does anyone have a recommendation on books that kind of explain the most important philosophers and give some kind of summary of their ideas?

I was thinking about 'The Philosophy Book', but I don't know if it is any good!

#help #recommend me books #i need recommendations #philosophy #philosophy books #philosophy recommendation #philosophy book recommendation #booklr #books #bookworm #book recommendations #book recommendation

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I've just finished Sense and Sensibility.

Jane Austen really confuses me because the things she talks about and the way she talks about them are not really that interesting to me... Yet I find myself devouring every book of her lol

I enjoyed Pride and Prejudice WAY more (duh), but this was also a fun little weekend read!

#jane austen #sense and sensibility #ragione e sentimento #books #booklr #books and libraries #bookworm #my pics #my post #book #bookstagram #book aesthetic #my photos #mine #my oc #english literature #english #classic books #classic literature #classics #english classics

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Hello please reblog this if you're okay with people sending you random asks to get to know you better

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I am finally reading Watchmen!

This comic is amazing. It's so complex and intriguing and it incorporates so many different forms of text in the story. Even the characters are represented so well... It's really incredible.

#watchmen #comics #rorschach #nite owl #ozymandias #silk spectre #doctor manhattan #booklr #books #books and libraries #bookworm #my pics #my post #mine

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Lesson I'm learning lately: whether you do the bare minimum or go out of your way to do stuff, people's reaction is gonna be the same.

So fuck 'em let's do the bare minimum and spend the remaining time drawing stick men and writing bad fanfictions I don't even give a shit anymore