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Cutting Hair as Punishment in the Twilight Saga

Okay, I’ve been trying to organize my thoughts around this into a sort-of-essay format for a while, because I find it disturbingly mean-spirited: Meyer has a pattern of using hair-cutting as a form of punishment for characters, especially female characters, who fail to embrace Bella and the Cullens with open arms. I’m talking particularly about Leah and Lauren, both of whom, while not outright antagonists like Victoria or James, are situated along with Rosalie as “against” Bella throughout the series. The Quileute pack, meanwhile, is situated largely “against” the Cullens, meaning Jacob and the rest of the pack get the Haircut of Shame, too.

(Also, I’ve been creeping through @panlight ‘s blog because I thought she had a recent post relating to this -- I was probably thinking of this submission and her addendum, which does discuss Meyer’s “punishment” of certain characters, but that post was about characters suffering for not waiting for True Love, or daring to do the Devil’s Tango before marriage. Still, it’s on-theme and very much worth reading, like all her stuff!)

So here’s the general outline: first I’m gonna talk about the shapeshifters and how their overall lack of choice frames cutting their hair as something forced on them and therefore punitive. Then I’m going to discuss Meyer’s FAQ response where she reveals that Lauren was tricked into cutting off most of her hair over the summer before New Moon, and how this adds an extra fun misogynistic element to the hair-cutting theme with respect to Lauren and Leah. I also use way too many words to do it, sorry.

Punishment | The Shapeshifters Are Given No Other Option

I don’t have the background or knowledge to discuss the significance of long hair to indigenous culture and identity in detail, and my understanding is that different tribes ascribe different meanings to it. What I’ve read it about it suggests that, generally, long hair represents strength of one’s individual spirit and of the community. It’s a source of pride, and is only cut off voluntarily in extraordinary circumstances, often as an expression of grief, or to mark a significant life change.

This sort of works in the context of the shapeshifters all cutting their hair -- phasing into a giant wolf, discovering the existence of the supernatural, and assuming the role of protectors is a major life event for these characters. But the negative associations make it a troubling choice on Meyer’s part, and that’s without even getting into the problem of her imposing her own worldbuilding onto the legends and culture of a real tribe. Because of the lack of choice involved in becoming a shapeshifter, the whole situation feels like a scenario in which the Quileute characters have their hair forcibly cut -- a degrading and traumatic act that (depending on their particular tribal belief) might symbolically sever them from their sense of cultural identity and connection with the rest of their tribe.

It all kind of begs the question: why does Meyer even have shapeshifting work this way? What narrative utility is there in having the length of their hair in human form determine the length of their fur as wolves, thereby compelling the shapeshifters to cut it so it isn’t a physical impediment? It’s another sign of the changes in Jacob, sure, but he’s already being uncharacteristically cold and distant, plus suddenly has the physique of a fit twenty-five-year-old; Bella already knows something’s very wrong. His short hair is just another jarring thing for Bella to notice and mourn, like the loss of Jacob’s “baby face” and general sunniness.

It does work as a symbolic thing, representing another sacrifice Jacob has to make and the change in how he now has to perceive himself -- but he’s already got a literal giant wolf form to represent that change in identity/self-perception. Forcing him to cut his hair too just feels like piling on. My argument here, which I hope will be supported when I discuss Lauren and Leah further in, is that it’s not just piling on, but actively punitive -- because much like Leah and Lauren are “against” Bella, the pack at large is “against” the Cullens pretty much through the end of the series.

The Quileute pack is definitely not a Cullen fanclub. The entire purpose of their existence is to destroy vampires, and the truce they have with the Cullens isn’t friendly. They still don’t particularly like or trust the Cullens even after allying with them in Eclipse, and in Breaking Dawn Sam is fully prepared to go to war against them to enforce the treaty. Bella expresses frustration with Jacob and the pack for not appreciating the Cullens more, yet is curiously less willing to scold Alice, Edward, or Rosalie when they call the Quileutes dogs and complain about their smell. (I think she might reprimand Edward for it at some point, but I don’t remember the exact passage.) Bella even starts throwing around “dog” and “mutt” as an insult herself -- I think we know whose side ol’ “Switzerland” is on, here, and whose side Meyer is on as well. The Quileutes aren’t exactly enemies, and in fact are crucial to the Cullens’ survival in both the newborn and Volutri conflicts, but they’re punished nonetheless because they aren’t wholeheartedly Team Cullen from the get-go.

So to explain why I’m so convinced that there’s a link between hair-cutting and punishment in particular, let’s talk about Lauren. There’s a definite gendered element to it this time, too -- by being tricked into cutting her hair, Lauren isn’t just diminished/shamed, but rendered (*thunderclap*) unfeminine.

Lauren Was Rude To Bella Like Twice, Let’s Humiliate Her

I think Meyer’s answer to the question “What happened to Lauren’s hair?” on her FAQ page speaks for itself:

Ha ha. I had fun imagining this one—I only wished that it had fit into the book somewhere. Lauren fell victim to the “model discovered in the mall” scam. An alleged modeling agent approached Lauren in a mall in Victoria, B.C., and told her she was a natural model. Lauren ate it up. The agent told her that if she did something edgy with her hair, and took some high quality head shots, her future was assured. Lauren followed the instructions—dropping fifteen grand on the pictures taken by the agent’s partner—and waited for her career to begin. She’s still waiting. Snort.

It’s pretty obvious that this was done spitefully. Here’s the list of Lauren’s crimes against humanity Bella at this point in the series: 1) she was jealous of the attention Bella was getting as the new girl; 2) she talked behind Bella’s back once, saying Bella might as well just sit with the Cullens now (and she isn’t wrong); 3) she eyed Bella “scornfully” the day of the La Push beach trip; and perhaps most damningly, 4) she’s blonde.

Post-haircut, she has the gall not to be thrilled that Bella’s deigning to speak to the lowly non-Cullens again, then sides with Jessica after Bella uses Jessica to make a point to her dad, is shitty company, and then risks getting them both raped and murdered in Port Angeles so she could get off on her hallucination of Edward’s voice.

I think it’s pretty common knowledge that long hair is tied to patriarchal notions of femininity and attractiveness. Women with short hair are still derided for being ugly, or assumed to be lesbians in a derogatory sense, or simply considered less feminine and therefore less desirable/worthy (because a woman’s worth depends on her desirability, after all). For many women and girls, losing their long hair -- whether because of illness, or gum getting stuck in it, or whatever -- is very upsetting and a hard blow to their self-esteem. Just look at Alice as an example of Traumatic Short Hair; her hair was shorn like that because she received electroshock “treatments” in an asylum. (Although in Alice’s case, I don’t think her having short hair is punishment, but a facet of the traumatic backstory all female characters in Twilight have to have for some reason. Plus, she started the series with short hair, which distinguishes her from the pack and Lauren, who were tricked or compelled into cutting their long hair during the series.)

But Lauren’s so bitchy, so she deserves it, right? Ha ha, she was mean to Bella and cared about her appearance too much, so now she’s ~ugly!

Leah Has It the Worst and It Makes Me Want To Burn Everything

The misogynistic aspect of hair-cutting as punishment is taken up to like, twelve with Leah. Not only does she suffer for being “against” the Cullens along with the rest of the pack (and Bella, too, so extra sinning), but she suffers uniquely for being the only female shapeshifter. A bunch of teenage boys regularly see her naked body against her will. Her previously devoted boyfriend imprints on her cousin/best friend, Sam dumps her and can’t even explain why, and the whole pack -- including her own brother -- resents her for being upset about it, even though she can’t help the lack of mental privacy. Because of that same lack of mental privacy, she has to hear every gripe the boys have about her, plus every enthralled thought Sam has about Emily while she’s still deeply wounded by their breakup.

She blames herself for her dad’s death, because she phased at the wrong time. We don’t get any indication that her fellow shapeshifters or the elders are trying to reassure her otherwise.

And of course, because she’s a shapeshifter, she has to cut her hair. In addition, because Leah’s a woman, this has the same misogynistic connotations as it did with Lauren. In Leah’s case, though, the de-feminization is compounded by her sudden infertility. It’s clear that Leah attaches her sense of womanhood to her fertility, rightly or wrongly -- she bitterly calls herself a “genetic dead end” in Breaking Dawn and thinks of herself as a freak. She feels like there must be something wrong with her, some un-womanly flaw, that made her one of the shapeshifters at all.

Then, just when Jacob starts to see her as a human being worthy of compassion, he imprints on Renesmee and doesn’t give a shit about anyone or anything else anymore. No more bonding with Leah, no blooming friendship to help her heal and come to terms with the new realities of her life. (This is one of those dropped threads that aggravate me to no end -- what was the point of having Leah opening up to Jacob, or starting Jacob on the path of realizing he was being a dick to her this whole time and that she’s a person with value, if he was just going to spend the rest of the book as Renesmee’s love-zombie and never think about it again? Disgusting.)

Leah was a lot more forgiving of Jacob than he deserved at that point in the story, for all the good it did her -- I think she’s mentioned maybe once in Book 3 of Breaking Dawn. At least she got her god-tier moment of yelling at a deranged, pregnant Bella Swan.

Speaking of Bella...

I’m just going to note, for no particular reason, that in Breaking Dawn we get to hear explicitly that Bella’s got hair that falls “almost to her waist” and that she looks like “a freaking supermodel” because she’s so “beautiful and pale.” It just strikes me as a telling contrast at this point.

#twilight renaissance #i stared too long and the twilight abyss gazed back #leah clearwater #lauren mallory #jacob black #the wolf pack #long post #i felt myself getting petty about bella okay -- i'm aware it's happening but i have no self control #i also know i sidestepped the racial element to this and it's because i don't feel qualified to speak on it #so any additions from more knowledgeable people on that score are much appreciated

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Twilight Characters Cast as Greek Deities - pictures + explanations

Warning:

This is a long one (but there are a lot of pretty pictures!)

By Greek Deities I mean all of them - the Primordial gods, Titans, Olympians, Daemones (personified spirits), and Nymphs. I focused on the deities personalities, abilities or history to find the right fit! Relationships are not taken into account!

Thanks to the anon who encouraged me to combine my love of Greek mythology with Twilight! This is for you!

These are simply my headcanons, so you're free to disagree or expand on them as you like!

The Olympic Coven

Carlisle's foremost characteristic is his compassion and desire to heal others. He saved the lives of most of his family members; Edward, Rosalie, Esme, and Emmet. Asclepius, the son of Apollo and famed physician, was punished by Zeus for saving the life of mortals from certain death. He was elevated to godhood in death.

Esme is described as the heart of the family. In ancient Greece, the hearth was the center of the home and family. Hestia received the first offering in every household since she presided over the preparation of the family meal.

Jasper participated in two major wars, both as a major and then as a second-in-command. He isn't rash or sadistic enough to be Ares, but his gift for strategy and charisma makes Pallas, the Titan god of Warcraft and military campaign, an excellent choice for him.

Alice has the gift of foresight, but her vivacious personality is why I chose the Titaness, Phoebe, out of all of the prophets and oracles. Phoebe is derived from the Greek word "phoibos" which means bright or radiant!

Emmett has superior strength than most vampires. Kratos is the personified spirit of strength, might, power and sovereign rule.

Rosalie was a difficult choice because she's like the lovechild of Aphrodite and Athena. She's beautiful, passionate, and desires children (procreation) but a she's also intelligent and interested in mechanics and engineering which is Athena's domain. I went with Aphrodite in the end because Athena is a maiden goddess and asexual.

Edward was an easy choice however because there are surprisingly few gods who rule music. Apollo is the god of music, poetry, and healing (to name a few) and Edward has an interest in medicine. To my knowledge, there are no Greek gods with the ability to read minds as Edward does.

The Quileutes

Sam was forced to keep the Alpha position by Jacob, which is an immense responsibility. Atlas was condemned to bear the entire sky for leading the Titans in their war against Zeus. Atlas came to mean endurance. (I thought of Hades at first, and I totally agree with you anon - he's got the 'hard on the outside soft on the inside' thing down to pat, but Hades fit another character better!)

Jared has the penchant for gambling. At first, I thought Hermes would be a good match for him, but Hermes many other titles (so, so many titles). I decided that Caerus, who is the god of opportunity, critical time, advantage and profit, was a better fit since those are attributes of (successful) betting.

Paul has a temper, but he's not a sadist like Ares. Poseidon is infamous for his temper tantrums, causing earthquakes and tsunamis (he's also a petty bitch, and I wouldn't put it past Paul to be one too if he could get away with it)

Jacob has a love for mechanics, and not many can say that they built their car! Hephaestus became the god of smiths, fire, and metalworking and his creations are prized and sought after by all the other gods!

Leah was challenging to cast. Initially, I thought she'd make a good Artemis, but that goddess has notoriously born hatred for all men since her birth. The only side of Leah we get to see in canon is the front she puts up - burnt and bitter. She's argumentative, sharp-tongued, and downright vicious. Eris is... not pleasant to be around. I think Leah would join Artemis and become her handmaiden once she's calmed down and away from Sam and Emily.

Seth is our sunshine boy!!! (need I say more???)

Embry is reserved and likes his space. I think he's the type to take advantage of the trails around La Push and go on long walks and enjoy his own company. Pan was the god of shepherds and forests of the mountain wilds. The Greeks associated his name with the word pan which means "all." However, its true origin lay in an old Arcadian word for rustic, but I couldn't resist quoting Hitchhiker's Guide in the picture - it's my favorite. I'M ONLY HUMAN!)

Quil is remarkably relaxed and cheerful for a boy who's supposed to be raging with testosterone *cough* Jake *cough* Paul *hack*. He seems like the sort of guy to enjoy a good party, and Dionysos certainly does. It doesn't hurt that he's best friends with Pan (Embry).

Emily was against Sam imprinting her at first. She was a victim of circumstance (it’s still shitty what they did to Leah), and Persephone was precisely that: a victim. Hades asked Zeus for the hand of one of his daughters and Zeus said that he could have Persephone, but that he'd need to kidnap her because Demeter would never allow him to have her daughter. He stole her and later tricked Persephone into staying with him for eternity. They fall deeply in love by the end tho.

Kim's personality isn't known in canon - other than that she's shy. She's a favorite of mine though, so that's why she's here! In my headcanon, Kim is intelligent and offers great advice. She's cunning as well, and nothing goes past her - Jared doesn't stand a chance. Metis was a councilor of Zeus during his war against the Titans and hatched the plan which would make Cronus regurgitate Zeus's siblings. (She's also the mother of Athena - pls read her story it's incredible! ಥ_ಥ)

The Swan Family

Bella is a shield, both in her human life and as a vampire. She does what she can to protect her loved ones, even going as far as to sacrifice herself by drawing blood as a distraction during the battle against Victoria. Soteria is the goddess and personification of safety, deliverance, and protection from harm. Deliverance, the action of being rescued or set free, is appropriate since Bella saved Edward from his inner demons as well.

Charlie represents the human laws in Twilight as a police officer. He's calm and more accepting than most (though he has his limits *cough* Edward *cough*). Rhadamanthys was a famously just lawmaker during his mortal life and was appointed as one of the three Judges of the Dead and King of the Elysian Fields after he died.

Renée tends to shift her hobbies and interests from one to another. Horme is the personification of effort and represents setting oneself in motion, and starting an action.

The Volturi

Aro is the current king and ruler of the vampires. He isn't a philanderer, so Zeus was out, but how he murdered his sister, Dinyme, in cold blood to keep Marcus from leaving the Volturi (and thus losing his power) reminds me of Cronus's desperate attempt to thwart his prophesied defeat at the hands of his child. Cronus ate his own children and familicide was one of the worst crimes you could commit in ancient Greece.

Marcus was DEPRESSED after he lost Didyme, his mate. The guy whispered "finally" when his head was about to be ripped off. Penthos is the personification of lamentation and mourning.

Caius is a sadist whose answer for everything is death and destruction. Ares revels in war for its own sake. He delights in the din and roar of battles, in the slaughter of men, and the destruction of towns. When Thanatos (the grim reaper) went missing, and people stopped dying, Ares sulked and famously said: "What's the point of war if no one dies?"

Jane was easy. She experienced such pain when she was burning at the stake that she could wield it with her mind when she became a vampire. Lupe is one of The Algea, who are three sisters that are the personification of pain and suffering - in both body and mind - grief, sorrow, and distress.

Alec's power reminded me of Hypnos, who puts you to sleep before Morpheus gives you dreams. Alec shuts off all of your senses - kind of like turning the off switch.

Sulpicia isn't given much of a personality in canon, and in Life and Death, Smeyer simply turned her into a female Aro by giving her his abilities of tactile telepathy. She deserves more credit; she's incredibly old, and I like to think that while she's locked up in the tower, Sulpicia keeps up with the times by watching the news on TV or reading news articles on the internet. Mnemosyne was the Titan goddess of memory and represented the rote memorization required to preserve the stories of history and myth before the introduction of writing.

Didyme's power was inducing happiness. Euphrosyne was one of the three Charities and the goddess of good cheer, mirth, merriment, and joy.

Athenodora is said to be one of the oldest vampires still walking the earth. We don't know much about her, but I bet she's created a few vampires in her time to keep the species going. Gaia was born at the dawn of creation, and all of the heavenly gods are her descendants.

Corin's addictive power is what persuades the wives and Chelsea to stay content in their imprisonment. You go through severe withdrawal by leaving, but it can be done since Eleazar, whose ability Aro coveted, left with Carmen. Peitho personifies persuasion and seduction - not 100% fitting to Corin's talents but the best I could think of...

Felix is a high-ranking guard and relies on strength and combat techniques to serve his leaders. His physical capabilities are so powerful that he has maintained within the guard for centuries. Alexiares, whose name means unconquerable, is one of two brothers that preside over defense and fortification of Olympus's gate.

Demitri's tracking ability and "Casanova lifestyle" immediately reminded me of Hermes, who is the god of herds, travelers and hospitality, roads and trade, thievery and cunning, heralds and diplomacy. It's fitting because Demitri is also shown to be polite and restrained, but he undoubtedly has a few aces up his sleeves to have survived in the Volturi guard for centuries.

Chelsea's ability to strip people of their emotional ties and forge new ones is unnerving. Ananke was the primordial goddess of necessity, compulsion, and inevitability. She emerged from Chaos fully formed at the beginning of all creation and is thought to be untouchable by all, from mortals and the immortals. She's able to control the fates of other gods and make them slaves to their own urges if she so chooses.

Afton's ability to make himself invisible is not found in any Greek deity, but Hades owns a helmet which is made of darkness and renders the user invisible.

The Denali Coven

Eleazar's ability to see other's potential reminds me of Prometheus's forethought and the unshakable belief he has in the humans Zeus forced him to create.

Carmen is pretty chill and peaceful from what we get to see of her in Breaking Dawn. She isn't overly troubled by the legality of things since she accepts Renesmee, whose existence goes against both the laws of vampires and those of nature, at once. We see that Carmen is maternal and gentle when she asks if she can hold Renesmee. Eirene is the personification of peace, and for Carmen, I interpreted that as personal peace and not upholding the legal system. Statues of Eirene often depict her as a maiden holding the infant Ploutos (Wealth) in her arms.

Kate is OOOLD but not the oldest vampire in existence. Since the power of lightning is solely in Zeus's domain (and Kate isn't a serial rapist), I had to overlook her electric ability. Electricity is used as a source of light, so I think Hemera is a good choice for Kate. She's the primordial goddess of the day and would disperse her mother Nyx's dark mists every morning to bathe the earth in the light from the ether.

Tanya reminds me of the Titaness Eos because they both have an insatiable desire for handsome men. Eos shares Hemera's domain, and later took over her duty of bringing the dawn to earth by opening the gates for Helios's chariot.

Irina thought the Cullens had created an immortal child, which was the outlawed. To her, it seemed like the Cullens thought they were above their laws and reported them to the Volturi accordingly. Nemesis is the goddess who exacted retribution against those who succumb to hubris.

The Irish Coven

Maggie can detect lies. Aletheia's the personification of truth and sincerity.

Siobhan's talent is outcome manipulation, which I assume means she can affect the outcome of some event. Lachesis was the second of the Three Fates. She distributes the 'thread' of a life. "Lanchano" means to obtain by lot, by fate, or by the will of the gods.

The Amazon Coven

Zafrina's ability of visual projection reminded me of Pasithea's past time of inducing hallucinations and relaxation. She was one of the younger Charities but later married Hypnos and now resides with him in the Underworld.

Kachiri was the first out of the Amazon Coven to be bitten, but she didn't want to be separated from her two best friends, Senna and Zafrina, so she went back and turned them as well. I'm endlessly fascinated by their coven, so I didn't want to separate them here! Macaria is the goddess of "blessed" death which reminded me of how Kachiri came to collect her friends.

Senna is the quiet one, but that might be because she was wary around the Cullens. Gorgyra is a nymph in the Underworld and gave birth to Hade's orchardist. I can see her chilling with Katchiri and Zafrina in her son's orchard.

James’s Coven

James is an asshole. He’s so petty that he couldn't deal with the Cullen's refusal of sharing their meal, so he tricked Bella into coming to him by pretending to have her mother (how would he know who Renée was and wasn't she in Jacksonville??? Use your brain, Bella). Dolos is the personification of trickery, cunning deception, treachery, and guile - so basically, he's a nasty piece of work. He and James deserve each other.

Victoria was the first one I cast. She instantly reminded me of Hera because instead of punishing her husband/mate for his wandering eyes (greedy, in James's case) she goes to great length to punish Edward by trying to kill Bella, who is the innocent one in this whole shitshow. Hera, the goddess of marriage, should have picked a better husband because Zeus already was notorious for panting after every attractive face that came his way before they wed (heck he even cheated on her during their wedding celebration).

Laurent didn't give me a lot to work with since he's only portrayed as a coward. That doesn't seem correct because he came back to warn the Cullen's of James's plans and he later returned to Forks as a favor to Victoria. Epimetheus, the brother of Prometheus, was the Titan god of afterthought and excuses. I think Laurent regretted his decisions in the end, both for having traveled with James, and for having listened to Victoria. He also gave Bella the excuse that he had to kill her since Victoria was his old buddy.

Nomads

Peter was another difficult choice. At first, I thought Thanatos might be a good choice since Peter enjoyed fighting in Maria's army. Thanatos's gentle touch kills instantly, but Jasper was the one who killed the newborns. Peter fell in love with Charlotte, whose newborn powers eventually expired, but instead of "delivering" Charlotte to her death, Peter told her to run and chased after her. Kharon (Charon) transported the dead across the waters to Hades in his boat but refused those that couldn't pay for the ride.

Charlotte is a survivor. She isn't a fighter by nature, but she made it through the Southern vampire wars alive and then fled with Peter to roam free as a nomad. Nike is the goddess of victory - both in war and in peaceful competition. I think Charlotte conquered all of life's trials and also when it came to love.

Alistair is an ancient hermit. He's suspicious by nature and rather displeased with his lot in life. I don't blame the guy since he was betrayed by his father and as a vampire, the falcons Alistair loved flew away from him in terror. Ouranos was the primordial god of the sky and was later betrayed by his sons.

Garrett was a hotheaded patriot who willingly fought for the colonies' right to self-govern. He was a true believer in the American dream. Menoetius was the god of rash actions and violent rage. The Greek word “menos” means might, force, passion, and battle rage.

Maria isn't a nomad, but I thought I'd include her on the list. She lived in Monterrey with her coven, her mate and two others that were like parents to her, before they were destroyed in the vampire battle for territory. Maria was the only survivor, and she built an army to extract revenge and get her territory back. Poine is the personified spirit of retribution, vengeance, recompense, punishment, and penalty for the crime of murder and manslaughter.

The Egyptian Coven

Benjamin was a tough one because of his elemental powers. The Greek gods divided the four elements between them, so there isn't one deity that has control over them all at once. Phanes was the primordial god of creation in the Orphic cosmogony. He was the generator of life and the driving force behind reproduction in the early cosmos. Phanes hatched from the world-egg, a primordial mix of elements split into its constituent parts. So he sort of had control over the elements at one point before dispersing them among his siblings. (Phanes was later known as Eros).

Tia was a quiet woman but when she did speak her words were insightful, and there was gravity to everything she said. Epiphron was the personification of shrewdness, careful consideration, and sagacity.

Kebi was Amun's slave while she was human. He chose her to become his mate because of her good looks. She was helpless from the start, and we never get to hear her speak or show any indication of being unhappy with her situation. Aporia is the personified spirit of powerlessness, want and difficulty.

Amun was tricky because, to be honest, he's a bastard, but we mustn't forget cultural relativity. Slavery was considered to be a-okay back in the days, and it was probably a fantastic way to keep a vampire's kitchen stocked. Now not so much but Amun doesn't seem like the type to evolve with the times. He's possessive and paranoid, keeping Benjamin locked away in an ivory tower so the Volturi won't come and steal him away as they did to Demitri. He also deprived Kebi of her choices and made her his slave/mate in death as well. Along with ruling death and funeral rites, Hades is also the god of the hidden wealth of the earth, from the fertile soil with nourished the seed-grain to the mined wealth of gold, silver, and other metals. Benjamin is Amun's hidden treasure.

Humans

Jessica is a normal teenage girl. She likes having friends, gossiping, and has a crush on the most handsome boy in school who doesn't return her affections. Echo was much the same; she gossiped, but she wasn't meanspirited, and genuinely wanted to help her friends in the conquest of love. She lied to Hera, who cursed her to have an echo of a voice as punishment for distracting her from Zeus's affairs with her endless chatter. She later fell in love with Narcissus who spurned her affections.

Angela is the sweetest, most kindhearted person we get to meet in Twilight. Philophrosyne is one of the younger Charities and is the personification of friendliness and welcome.

Mike has the hots for Bella. He has an on-and-off relationship with Jessica but only asked her out because Bella told him to. Himeros is the god of sexual desire and the personification of longing, and yearning.

Lauren is jealous of everyone who is pretty, despite being the most popular girl at school. She's also standoffish and snobby. Hybris is the personified spirit of insolence, hubris, violence, reckless pride, arrogance and outrageous behavior in general.

Let me know what you think!

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The Cordelia Pamphlet/Congratulations/Burn

May silently tugged her hair realizing the mistakes she cruelly made when realizing when she published her affair. Her heart was aching and breaking in pain once seeing everyone's reaction when reading the four-page pamphlet. Describing every detail of her affair with Phoenix Cordelia while paying it off to his wife; Daisy Cordelia. Approximately, almost three thousand dollars just to keep the affair a secret for a long and harsh 2 years. The guilt continuously ate every single inch of her flesh and blood with her heart screaming at her. Telling May to confess to her beloved boyfriend, Octavian Tabullo that she cheated on him with a married man. It may break Octavian’s heart at first but knowing they can still work this relationship but it will be different. But May’s brain says otherwise whereas not to confess about the affair toward anyone until now. After her enemies believe she was embezzling money from the Nutella Company (which was the main source of money for the Romans) but nope instead she slept with a man behind her boyfriend’s back.

Showing proof that she didn’t embezzle the orphanage money but use her spare money to hush the affair. Mentally slapping herself in the face wondering why she would something so stupid and so betrayed. After spending the entire writing a four-page pamphlet titling it The Cordelia Pamphlet. The morning after she finished writing the disturbance and disgust she has dwell within herself for far too long. Now she releases it out to the entire city of New Rome and Camp Jupiter and possibly will center gossip throughout all over Olympus. A juicy gossip like this wouldn’t be quiet or no…her enemies made sure that this pamphlet would be the end of her and her future career as Praetor. Along with putting her relationship on the brink of a breakup.

Emilie Jade/Nala Bank:

May Cordelia had a torrid affair

And she wrote it down right there!

HIGHLIGHT!!!

With her enemies spreading the news of her affair toward others while giving them the pamphlet. Attempting to leave the crowds that were surrounding but then suddenly she met up a familiar face. An eleven-year-old girl, who happened to be the daughter of Apollo the grandfather of her boyfriend, the current female Praetor, Princess of Olympus, the Sea, and the Underworld, Ghost Queen, Princess of the Shadows, Heir to Jupiter, Juno, Neptune, Ceres, Mars, Minerva, Apollo, Diana, Vulcan, Venus, Mercury, Bacchus, Vesta, and Pluto, ex-Centurion of the First Cohort, Praetor of the Twelfth Legion Fulminata, Friends to Major and Minor Gods, The Three Fates, Thanatos, Friend to Chaos, and Top Commander of the Chaos Army, she was very popular both among men and women. It was the only Lyria Eclair Graham de Vanily, the sister of Octavian Tabullo. She was beyond the perimeter of anger and betrayal. Clutching the four papers in her hand tightly with her bluebell eyes turned into the color of the sea during a storm that held pure hatred and frustration.

Everyone in New Rome and Camp Jupiter knew that May was very lucky it was Lyria, instead of the other 3 people in Octavian’s tight circle of friends practically family. Lyria was the most merciful than Echo Olympia Butterfly, who was the daughter of Venus, May’s half-sister, the Centurion of the First Cohort, right-hand woman of Lyria, Second Top Commander of the Chaos, was the most violent one in the tight group family of 5. Reyna Avila Ramírez-Arellano, the protégé of Praetor Lyria, the next Praetor after Echo, part of the First Cohort, the daughter of Bellona, was training to be a more skilled warrior. Flint Donovan Vance, the current male Praetor, son of Victoria, would have issued an order or execution if it weren’t for worrying over Octavian’s mental health.

Lyria:

I know my brother like I know my own mind

You will never anyone as loyal nor as kind

While getting a heap of shouting from the most beloved demigoddess of all time unaware of her boyfriend's broken heart. Gathering every letter he ever kept in his office and would often read them whenever Octavian was stressed or tired. But the words that May wrote to him always encourage him to work harder and continue to push through life. Though now to Octavian all those words written in each letter he was reading meant nothing to him. Rereading every letter over and over again. Feeling his heart-shattering at each moment while feeling betrayed, angry, and heartbroken wrapped up in one emotion.

Octavian/Lyria:

I’m erasing myself from my narrative

(I love my brother more than my own life

I will choose his happiness over mine every time)

Let future descendants wonder how Octavian reacted

When you broke his heart

Octavian burned each letter into the fireplace of his office while watching each paper burn to death. The tears continued streaming down both Lyria and Octavian’s faces. Both of them are heartbroken by Eliza's betrayal and ruined their lives forever. Not only that the rest of the Venus and Apollo descendants were watching their brother in blood or in all but blood suffering from the pain and the embarrassment. The two groups of Roman Gods hugged each other tightly while May’s sister, Rose continued to read the pamphlet of her sister’s affair.

Meanwhile, Lyria is still continuing to tell May how lucky she was to have a boyfriend like Octavian. Though now, both of them will never know if Octavian is willing to forgive her after putting on a show that damages, not her reputation but Octavian’s as well. May felt Lyria gripped from the collar of her purple SPQR shirt as the tears flooded her face. Letting each word whether be Latin or English escape her lips before being pushed away harshly. Intending to reach Lyria but only to receive a punch to the nose and stomach. Surprise that Lyria punched her in public but no matter did anything to stand up for May since she brought this upon herself. Seeing the Praetor stepping away from her while glaring at her down to the pitch of her soul.

Lyria:

Put what we had aside

I’m standing at his side

You could never be satisfied

Gods, I hope you’re satisfied

And all of this only happened a few days ago whereas May is at the Fifth Cohort alone by herself. The Roman descendants moved to the Fourth Cohort, not wanting to live in the same place as of May. But the Venus and Apollo descendants, along with Flint, Reyna, and Echo were at Olympus in Lyria’s temple with their ancestors and the rest of the Gods. Apparently, all of Olympus heard the affair and had Mercury pick up Octavian and everyone else. The only thing Octavian left behind was the golden promise ring that he dropped into the palm of her hand. None of her siblings could look in their half-sibling's eyes ever again. Still…May lies in bed hopefully everything is nothing more than a terrible nightmare.

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Sadie Black (Chapter 6)

Things just kept spiraling out of control the next few weeks. Things really got weird when Edward requested my brother to go to Bella’s house to use his ‘wolf senses’ to sniff around after some vampire broke into her house.

I guess things hadn’t really gone well because when he came back home later that day, he was all upset because he had found out that Bella was going to be changed into a vampire after she graduated in a few weeks.

But he got over that pretty fast, convincing himself that he could change her mind by then. Bella was coming to the bonfire tonight, which was weird cause that was usually reserved for pack members and Quileute leaders only.

But I knew I wouldn’t have to hang out with them at the bonfire. Paul and the whole pack were gonna be there.

Sadly I had to go with him to pick her up at the border. Her leech boyfriend was dropping her off so he could go hunting. Gross.

His fancy ass car drove up to the border and Jake got out of his car to meet them.

“Are you gonna get in the backseat?” he asked, poking his head back through the window.

“Nope,” I muttered, popping the ‘p’ sound, not even bothering to look up from my book. I had my feet up on the dashboard while I read my chemistry book; I had finals coming up and I was stressing.

“Fine,” he grunted back at me before turning around.

“Doesn’t he own a shirt?” I heard Edward ask sarcastically.

I snorted at that. At least the leech had a sense of humor. I guess I had just gotten used to everyone that I was friends with not wearing a shirt.

A few minutes later, Bella got into the backseat and Jake started the car up. I continued reading my book while they made small talk. Thank god the ride to the beach wasn’t too long.

When we got there, the fire had already been started and most of the pack was already there. I abandoned my chemistry book in Jake’s car and walked slightly behind him and Bella down the beach.

“Hey babe!” Paul grinned as he yelled out from where he was helping Sam build up the bonfire.

I couldn’t keep the smile off my face as I ran ahead of Jake and Bella to give Paul a hug. I had worn a sweatshirt, but as soon as I got close enough to the fire and to Paul himself, I took it off.

“I don’t know why you even bother to wear those anymore,” he chuckled.

“Neither do I,” I laughed with him.

“Why don’t you grab something to eat and take a seat while Sam and I finish up with the fire,” he suggested before kissing me on the forehead.

“But then I’ll be cold again,” I pouted up at him, grabbing onto his belt loops and pulled him closer to me.

“Fine,” he chuckled. “Just give me a minute.”

He finished up gathering up more wood for the fire, throwing a few into the fire, before grabbing my hand and walking over to where Sue was serving up some food. We sat down on one of the logs by the fire and ate our food before the legends started.

Luckily Jacob had enough sense to sit on the opposite side of the fire from where Paul and I were sat. I always loved the bonfires; there had been a few since I had joined the pack. I thought the stories were interesting and I wasn’t going to let Bella’s presence ruin this for me.

I was always so excited to hear the stories, but I had been so stressed out lately with final exams coming up that I hadn’t gotten much sleep. And with Paul’s warm arm wrapped around my shoulders, I almost fell asleep.

After the bonfire, Paul drove me home as Jake had to bring Bella home and Paul didn’t really want me going to Forks anymore without him. And I didn’t exactly want to with vampires on the loose.

The next few days I spent studying my ass off. I was really worried about finals coming up and I wanted to get some of my studying done so that I could help Paul and some of the other wolves study as they hadn’t been in school much. It was stressing me out.

But at the moment I had been helping Paul study for the past two hours. Sure it was cliche, but I found that if I gave him a kiss after each correct answer he got it gave the best results.

“Sadie,” Paul whined. “Can we just take a break? We’ve been at this for too long.”

“Just a little longer, babe,” I answered. “We’ve almost finished with chemistry.”

“But I just want to kiss you…”

“You have been kissing me,” I giggled.

“I mean,” he started, scooting closer to me. “Really kiss you.”

He leaned in and kissed me slowly, holding my cheek gently in his hand. I lost myself a bit for a minute, but I pulled away quickly once I realized what he was doing.

“No!” I exclaimed. “We have to study!”

“We did, babe… now let’s just kiss a little before I have to go out for patrol.”

“But I-” I was cut off by my yawn.

“Or we could take a nap instead?” he suggested, laughing a bit. That sounded like a better idea. I hadn’t slept much lately.

“Okay I can do that,” I answered.

“Not sure if I should be offended or not that you don’t want to kiss me.”

“Shut up,” I moaned, laying down on my bed. He placed the notes and books we were reading from on the floor before flopping down next to me, making me bounce slightly on the bed.

“You need to stop worrying,” he told me. “You need to actually get some sleep. Sometimes I get more sleep than you and I have patrol practically every night.”

But I barely heard what he was saying, I had already started drifting off to sleep. I didn’t respond, I just snuggled into his side and wrapped my arm around his torso.

That Friday, after finals were officially over it seemed like things were going well until Jacob decided it would be a good idea to kiss Bella without her consent. And then she had punched him and broken her hand. That had made Edward extremely angry, yet Jake still thought it was a good idea for us to go to Bella’s graduation party.

Which is where we were heading now. I had told him that I wasn’t going to go to the party unless Paul came. Not that Paul wanted to come, but he couldn’t say no to me. Plus Quil and Embry were going so why couldn’t Paul come?

The Cullen’s house was so… shiny and new. It was like no one had ever lived in it even though they had in fact been living there for awhile now.

The party wasn’t terrible though, considering it was thrown by a bunch of vampires. The food was pretty good, but not as good as Emily’s obviously. Paul and I were hanging out with Quil and Embry in the kitchen when Jacob rushed in. His jaw was set angrily and he motioned for us all to follow him upstairs.

We made it to one of the bedrooms on the second floor of the house and walked into what looked like a Cullen family meeting.

“What is this about?” Paul demanded. I stood in front of him with my back up against his torso and his arms wrapped around me tightly.

“Alice had a vision,” their coven leader answered.

“About what?” Embry asked.

“They’ll be here in four days,” the one that I’m assuming is Alice responded.

“This could turn into a bloodbath,” Carlisle stated.

“Who’s behind it?” Edward asked Alice

“I didn’t see anyone that I recognized… maybe one.”

“I know his face,” Edward said, reading her mind. “He’s local, Riley Biers. He didn’t start this.”

“Well whoever did is staying out of the action,” Alice concluded.

“They must be playing with the blind spots in your vision,” Carlisle stated.

“Either way,” the blonde one next to Alice started. “The army is coming and there aren’t enough of us to protect the town.”

“Hold up,” Jake intervened. “What damn army?”

“Newborns,” Carlisle answered him. “Our kind.”

“What’re they after?” Embry asked.

“They were passing around some of Bella’s clothes,” Alice responded. “A red blouse, a pair of jeans, and a light blue hoodie.”

“I don’t own a light blue hoodie,” Bella interjected.

“Well they were passing it around.”

Bella looked lost for a moment before she gasped a bit and looked over at me.

“What?” I asked her.

“That was your hoodie! You left it at my house that night you watched the game with my dad. I brought it to my room to remind myself to bring it back to you… I thought I had lost it.”

“So these newborn leeches are passing around Sadie’s scent!?” Paul demanded, starting to shake a bit. I placed one of my hands over his to calm him down. It worked to an extent.

“So they’re after Bella… and Sadie? That doesn’t make any sense!” Jake exclaimed.

“He was probably just trying to get any scent that was from around here,” Edward tried to explain. “And the wolves have been chasing Victoria too, maybe he smelt that on the clothing.”

“So what the hell does this mean?” Paul asked angrily.

“It means an ugly fight,” Carlisle answered calmly. “With lives lost.”

Jake, Embry, Quil, and Paul all glanced at each other, seeming to come to a quick agreement.

“Alright,” Jacob responded. “We’re in.”

“No,” Bella muttered. “You’d get yourselves killed. No way.”

“I wasn’t asking for permission.”

“Edward,” she turned to the vampire, pleading with him to say something.

“It means more protection for you,” he told her.

“She’s not the reason we’re doing this,” Paul barked out. “Sadie is apart of our pack and we protect our own.”

“So you think Sam would agree to… an understanding?” Carlisle asked.

“As long as we get to kill some vampires…”

“Jasper?” Carlisle asked.

“They’ll give us the numbers,” the one standing near Alice responded. “Newborns won’t know they even exist, it’ll give us an edge.”

“We’ll need to coordinate-”

“Carlisle!” Bella tried to stop him. “They’re gonna get hurt.”

“We’ll all need some training,” he ignored her to address my brother. “Fighting newborns requires knowledge that Jasper has, you’re welcome to join us.”

“Alright,” Jake agreed. “Name the time and place.”

“Jake,” Bella pleaded. “You don’t know what you’re getting yourself into.”

“Bella,” Jacob responded. “This is what we do. You should be happy. Look at us, working together. You are the one that wanted us to get along, remember?”

“But-”

“No, Bella!” he exclaimed. “My sister is being threatened and she’s apart of our pack. We protect our own. Now we should go get some sleep so we can be ready for our training session.”

We all made our way out of the Cullen house and into Paul’s truck. Jake shifted and ran ahead to inform Sam about what had happened. Embry and Quil sat in the truck bed while Paul drove with one hand and held my hand with the other.

“You’ll be okay,” Paul insisted. “I won’t let anything hurt you.”

“I know you won’t, baby,” I reassured him, squeezing his hand. “Just be careful, okay? I don’t wanna live without you.”

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There Ch. 8 (Bucky Barnes x reader)

Hello, my loves! I hope you day is going well, and if it’s not, I hope you come home to some good food to make up for your crappy day. If I could, I’d give you a hug, but alas, I cannot. *sends virtual hug* Anyways, here’s the next chapter of “There”. I’m going to start weening off of the one shots, so that I can start writing the chapters for the three new series’ I have coming up. If you have a request in at the moment, I may or may not get to it for a while. There may be a couple days where I do post one shots, depending on how quickly I work through the other chapters. Thank you for understanding, xoxo (Just a reminder that you’re beautiful and that I love you very much.)

Description: You lost your world. You lost the love of your life. All by yourself, with nobody to support you. Your daughter would have to grow up never knowing her father. But what happens when Bucky comes along? Will you let him in, or will you push him away like everyone else?

Warnings: None

Chapter 7

MASTERLIST

“Mommy! You’re here!” Victoria came running to the door as you were pulling the key out, barreling into you for a hug. She collided with your legs, and you bent over her, embracing her small body.

“Oh, I’ve missed my sweet girl.” You smiled, kissing her head. “Did you have fun with Grandma?” You looked down at her, and her big blue eyes stared back up at you.

“Yes, yes! We watched movies and ate ice cream last night.” She started jumping up and down, and her pace quickened rapidly along with her excitement. Soon, she was practically vibrating, and you knew that she had the same gift as Pietro. Behind you stood Bucky, a loving smile on his face. Victoria saw his metal arm that was shoved in his pocket. “Uncle Bucky!” She removed herself from your legs and ran to him. He knelt down to her, to give her a full on hug. He chuckled as she latched onto him.

“Hey, baby.” He hugged her a little tighter, then looked up at you, a hopeful smile on his face. He loved both of you, so much. Bucky wanted Vic to be taken care of and never have to worry about a thing in life. He was going to be the best father figure that he could be. And with you, he wanted to love you like no other. He wanted you to always know how beautiful and loved you were, and how much of a wonderful mother you were.

The sight of Bucky and your daughter brought tears to your eyes, but you quickly tried to blink them away, not wanting to cry in front of Victoria. She finally let go of him and pulled both of you to your mother’s living room to show you all the things she did while she was there.

Bucky wrapped his arm around your waist as you walked, kissing your temple. “I love you, F/N.” He mumbled against your hair. “I love you, and Victoria.”

You looked up at him, giving him a loving look as your eyes began to water. “I love you, too. And I know she does.” You shifted your gaze to your daughter who was picking up all of the pages of her coloring book that she had finished. You whispered to him, “How are we supposed to tell her?”

A slight panic began to arise in your chest. You never got to think this far. What were you supposed to tell your daughter? How? And when?

“We’ll figure something out, I promise. It’s going to be alright, okay doll?” He gave you a reassuring smile, then turned his attention to Victoria as she stood in front of you two, holding up her drawings. “Wow, that’s a piece of art right there. We should hang it up on the wall.” He gave her a wink.

“Mommy, can we?” She looked up at you with hopeful eyes.

“Of course, baby. We’ll go buy a frame today. Okay?” You raised your eyebrows in a quick nod, a smile on your face. She nodded back excitedly, running to go get the rest of her stuff. Bucky stayed with her as you went to the kitchen to ask your mom if she behaved.

“She was wonderful. Nothing to complain about.” She hugged you, the pulled away, her arms outstretched, holding you by your shoulders. “But first, did you and him.. you know?” She wiggled her eyebrows at you.

“Mom! What-I mean, psh. I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Your attempt to conceal the events from the night before were failing, your face turning a bright red.

“Oh my goodness, you did! How was it?” She was acting like a high school gossip girl and you couldn’t help but let out a laugh.

“We are not talking about this right now. And I’m not going to talk about it with my mom! Oh my god…” You covered your face with your hands, letting them drag down it in agony. She laughed at your embarrassment, but dropped the subject.

You said your goodbyes, and as you walked out the door, your mom was peppering Bucky in kisses.

“Mom, leave the man alone.” You chuckled out, shaking your head.

“It’s okay, doll. I love your mom.” He gave you a big smile and a wink, picking up Victoria’s things.

“I told you, F/N. He’s a keeper.” She gave him a pat on the back as the two of you left the house, meeting Victoria at the car. You helped Bucky put the bags in the car. He buckled in Vic into her car seat and opened the door for you before slipping into the driver’s seat.

Your hand was on the center console as he drove down the street, a content smile on his face. Victoria began to tell you about all that her and her grandma had done together, including how long they stayed up to.

“Well, I’m going to have to talk to Grandma about that one.” You raised an eyebrow at her through the rear view mirror, a little smirk on your face. Bucky chuckled and you turned your head towards him, giving him a loving smile. He took one hand off the wheel and put it over yours, rubbing his thumb over the back of yours.

Victoria immediately caught this, detecting that something was going on. Damn, was she smart for an almost four year old. She furrowed her eyebrows at your hands, then directed her attention to the two of you, her curiosity peaking.

“Mommy?” She looked at you, suspicion raising her eyebrow.

“Yes, sweetie?” You turned around to face her, a soft smile on your face.

“Do you love Uncle Bucky?”

Oh my goodness, this series is almost over with. Holy shit. And it’s just been over a month that I’ve had this account and I have almost 800 followers which is absolutely insane, like oh my god. So, I officially have a set number of chapters till this is over, and that is two. There will be two more chapters after this one to concluded this series. And then, maybe an epilogue if I’m feeling it. I hope you guys have a wonderful day, I love you all. xoxo

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roosterprick · 7 years

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fuck it

It’s night right now. There’s something else you should be doing at the moment. You ate chicken today. You are lactose intolerant. There’s a nearby TV on. You get along with your neighbours. Twilight is a horrible series. You’re hungry right now. You have worked out today or will. Running a mile sounds awful. You have a job. You love to bake Christmas cookies. Your parents are still together. You woke up before 11 this morning. Baths are better than showers. You are 5’5” or shorter. You hate British accents. Victoria’s Secret is a good store. Cats are better than dogs. The 90’s sucked. Your favorite color is either blue or purple. Your hair is short. You are by yourself right now. The last thing you drank was water. You’re in your PJ’s right now. Your current hair colour is natural. Fred from Youtube is annoying. Damn this old You don’t drink soda. There’s at least 20$ in your wallet. It’s cold out. Orange juice is better than apple juice. can you put vodka in apple juice? You love someone right now. Video games are awesome. Your sheets are white. You have read works by Shakespeare before. You’ve been professionally diagnosed with a psychological disorder. You know someone in the hospital right now. You know someone who has beaten cancer. Sneakers are your favourite shoes to wear. Chocolate is better than vanilla. You’re allergic to peanuts. You’ve never been to New York City. You’ve never been on a varsity sports team.

You want to go to Europe. You’re using a laptop right now. Plastic surgery is a good idea. It’s 2017 bitch think of gender nonconformity Vanilla is the best scent a girl can wear. You’ve made yourself throw up. You’ve cheated on someone before. Your friends do drugs. School is too early. Your nails have nail polish on them right now. You’re Italian. You have a tan right now. You’ve been on a diet before. You shop in plus sized clothing stores. Hot Topic is scary. *shiver* There are socks on your feet right now. You’ve used a hair straightener. Shopping online is easier than shopping in an actual store. You’re in Verizon’s network. Your BMI falls into the overweight category. Your BMI falls into the underweight category.

You have gotten your hair cut in the past month. Your birthday is within the next 2 months. Comedies are better than action films. Math is the best subject. You are fluent in more than one language. You love Greek food. You consider yourself a picky eater. You have more than 3 pillows on your bed. You live with at least one parent. You’re happy right now. You are a high school graduate. You have a pet cat. You were born before April 5th, 1991. You have brown hair. You have blue eyes. You are in a relationship. You can count to 20 in another language. You have studied a foreign language. You voted in the 2008 presidential election. You own a vehicle that is older than a 2004. You have worked 3rd shift. You have worked in a fast food restaurant. You drove somewhere that was further than a half hour away today. You live in New Jersey. You live in Montana. You live in Pennsylvania. Your last name begins with an ‘M’. Your middle name begins with a ‘C’. Your first name begins with an ‘S’. You are older than 19. You are younger than 16.

You are an only child. Your parents are divorced. You have more than one sibling. You are a vegetarian. You have a gym membership. You are in the military. You have a relative in the military. You have been to Canada. You have been to Mexico. You have been to Europe. You are currently enrolled in college/university. You have done something you told yourself you wouldn’t. lol You have braces. You wear contact lenses. You have a tattoo on your ankle. You have a tattoo on your wrist. You have a tattoo on your lower back. You have a tattoo on your upper arm. You have a lip piercing. You have a tongue piercing. You have your nipples pierced. You have your cartilage pierced.

You have curly hair. You have received flowers from someone in the last 2 months. You are engaged. You are married. You have children. You are an aunt or uncle. Your bedroom walls are violet. Your bedspread is red. Your bedroom carpet is beige. You have been out to eat at a sit-down restaurant in the last week. You have been drunk in the past 24 hours. You are bisexual. You watch Scrubs. You watch Jon & Kate Plus 8. whom? You watch American Idol. jesus christ You have been to the movies within the last month. You have cursed in front of your grandparents. You had a lunch box with a cartoon character on it when you were little. You actually pay attention to politics. yes bitch. You have kissed someone within the last week. bonus that it was gay in a chik-fil-a parking lot You were told you looked cute today. You were hugged today. Your best friend is the opposite sex. You have paid more than $100 on one item of clothing. You had a date to prom. You are a good speller. You are always on time. You have done something illegal within the last 24 hours. You have ridden an elevator within the last 3 days. You have spent the night at someone else’s house within the last 2 weeks. You have been out of the country within the last year. You love Chinese food. You love Italian food. You love Mexican food. YOU LOVE FOOD. You love country music. You love rap. You love hip hop. You love punk rock. You love hard rock. You love metal. You love classic rock. You love bluegrass. You love oldies. You love techno. You love instrumental music. You know someone younger than 10 who passed away. You have taken pictures of yourself just because you were bored. You have been in a car wreck. You have had stitches. You have a parent who is a teacher. You have a savings account. hardly You currently have a $2 bill in your possession. You have dated someone who was 2 years younger than you. You have dated someone who was 2 years older than you You have broken up with someone for someone else. You have been cheated on. You are Catholic. You are Mormon. You are Buddhist. You are Agnostic.

You wish at 11:11. You have had your current job for more than 3 months. You have had your heart broken. You broke someone else’s heart. You felt bad about it. Did I You have an Aunt Karen. You have an Uncle Bill. You have a cousin Sarah. You have a cousin Adam. You have worked with a Danielle. You have ridden in a car with a Stephen. You have hugged a Tiffany. You have kissed a Blake. You have had class with a David. You have had a crush on an Emily. You have dated a Derek. You have been neighbours with a Hannah. You have done something just for the fact that you were old enough to. You have been to a cemetery at midnight. You have been a vampire for Halloween. You have been a witch for Halloween. You have been a pumpkin for Halloween. You have stayed up for 48 hours straight. You have been to Walmart in the past 3 days. You own a pair of scrubs. You own a cowboy hat. It’s ironic okay You own a leather coat. You are missing someone right now. You have been let down recently. You have had someone you thought you could trust betray you. lol You would rather have a one-night stand than a relationship. You would rather win $500 from the lottery, than guest on a game show. You have met someone famous. Chad Michael Murray, Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, various semi-famous politicians, various world-famous surfers, various grandfatherly astronauts, various mid-2000s pop/punk bands

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wanderlustlondon · 7 years

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4 July

hbd america

today in class victor kept calling people out and i am just not mentally there at 9 am so that was uncomfortable and awkward. we decided we should all take naps before doing anything else int he day because last night was so long. when i got back the wifi was down, so i took a quick run to tesco/boots/poundland just to use the shopping centre wifi for a bit. this is when i bought my ticket for the night bus tour so that’s really why i needed wifi tbh. I also got a few groceries but they were out of bags so I had to carry them all back to my room which was rough.

when I got back to my room i almost instantly fell asleep for a long time. even though i set an alarm I kept falling back asleep until like 4. at least by this time the wifi was back on. I didn’t end up going to the imperial war museum with anyone but I really didn’t mind too much. I watched aladdin and ate some of my calzone instead. I talked to mom and casi for a bit before sarah and I headed out to get our tickets printed and maybe get some dinner. we took the bus to Victoria and holy nut sacks was it a hot and long right. but it was cheap so I can’t complain too much. we found the place easily and while we waited to ask the service desk to print our tickets, we started talking about shows since they had a lot of west end posters. some guy overheard us and came up asking about our favorite shows. he told us to go see the play that goes wrong and that he’s seen it 9 times, going for his tenth in the fall

we got our tickets printed and ate at this sketchy little food place right next to where we had to meet for the bus tour. I had fried chicken and it was the most patriotic thing I did all day tbh. we get in line for the bus tour and it turns out the guy that stopped us in the other place is our tour guide!!! his name is simon and he right away recognizes us and says he’s excited to have us aboard and he’s jus the sweetest little bean.

the tour itself was way more fun than I even anticipated. i had a lot of flashbacks to the one thing music video. the first thing simon did before we even started the tour was attempt to sing the national anthem for us americans and bless his soul, he tried real hard. but his voice was incredible???? he told us later he was an aspiring actor and everything made sense after that. throughout the tour simon ended probably every sentence with “my loves” “lovelies” “my darlings” or something along those lines. he made corny dad jokes and sang songs and kept saying “my mum says I’m special” “mum would be so proud” and other cute lil things like that. he told us he auditioned for britain’s got talent but when they asked him for a sob story he didn’t have one “which really isn’t too bad, it means i’ve got a good life and i suppose it’s better this way”

on our way off the bus he asked sarah and i if we enjoyed our tour and of course we said yes. we waited next to the bus for a bit to talk to riley and emily and simon walked past us, waved to me (and sarah I guess) and said “good luck out there my darling” and that is most likely the last thing i’ll ever hear simon say but man he was so perfect

sarah and I took the bus back to dante while others went out for a pub crawl. we started talking a bit how neither of us really have interest in them, and also how neither one of us like taking control of situations. i just learned that if i have to i will and she would still much rather sit in the back and be annoyed if she doesn’t like the person who takes control (@john daily bc he is over confident). at this point I was getting a little annoyed with her but we made plans to go to the bookstore tomorrow so I guess I better learn to appreciate her some more tonight. currently I’m back in gym room just chilling on social media and it’s time to take a shower and call it a night

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rueur · 7 years

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Morning Pages #15 (21.01.2017)

Saturday 21st Jan - 8:01 a.m.

I know I haven’t written for the last two days, and I do regret it a little bit, but I’ve been egregiously ill so I’ve also forgiven myself for it. I’ve been coughing up phlegm every day since Wednesday. The timeline of events are as follows: Wednesday, I schedule my doctor’s appointment (Bernice at 5:40 p.m.). I tell her everything about what happened to me over the weekend, and she gives me the number for Victoria Police’s assault line, and the number for the Mill Park Police Station. She writes me a note for a full STI scan - blood test and urine test - which I have to come in to get done tomorrow. Malith drove me to the blood test and urine test on Thursday morning, because I tried getting my sister to do it but she’s apparently got tonsilitis right now and is as sick as, if not sicker than, me. She also yelled at me a lot for getting assaulted in the first place, like it was my fault when really the entire thing was an absolute fluke.

I took a big break from writing to talk to Ikaros. Ikaros and I kind of ended things again on Wednesday, after I returned home from my appointment. He had gone to Lentils for the afternoon and was going home the same time I was. He got on the wrong train at Victoria Park and ended up at Northcote, so he just waited for me. I was really not in the mood to talk to him because at that point, I was still convinced I had an STI and I could never kiss him again. I was quite depressed, I thought my life was over. I told him I wanted some time to myself and he was very understanding. He’s always very understanding. He’s easy to talk to, he’s just not always easy to be around. So taking a couple of weeks just talking to him over Facebook sounds like ideal circumstances for me right now. I want simple. My life has been so confusingly complicated over these past few weeks, I just want simple for a little while in any way that I can attain that.

After the blood and urine test on Thursday morning, Malith drove me home to Mill Park where I was reunited with my parents, who had flown home Wednesday night. Immediately, my mum was so excited to show me a bunch of dresses that she’d bought for me. And let me tell you that I was excited to see them! They were GORGEOUS. There was a flowy black one with a floral pattern AND POCKETS; a grey-white striped cotton T-shirt dress; and a blue floral dress that feels a little like a bathing suit. I’d say my favourite was the flowy black one although it is a little too big on me, being a size 10. The T-shirt dress has weird arms but is otherwise fine (or I guess I have weird arms), and the blue one is just cute but it also seems a little like something a dressy grandma would wear. Anyway, I’m still not totally sure what to wear on my date with Evan which is happening tonight, and which my mum now knows about with thanks to my very loud and not at all discrete sister. I’m just intensely nervous right now. I don’t know when I should start getting ready or what else I should do today to take my mind off of this. I don’t know when I should have a shower, I don’t know what to wear! I was almost going to cancel because I’ve been sick for the past few days, but I woke up feeling a lot better this morning, and I don’t want to cancel I mean I am just so excited. I can’t actually believe how excited I am to see this boy again.

Dan came over last night. And Sam came over on Thursday night. Sam and I went back to her place in Diamond Creek, but she’s actually housesitting at the moment as well, in Fairfield in an apartment on Station Street. Right near the gas station, like neighbour to the gas station. Like they share a fence. I think I’d be able to bike there but I don’t know if I’ll have the time. I’m only going to be here in Northcote for seven more days, I have to remember that. It’s weird though, the idea of leaving here has been pushed back because Emily asked me to stay a couple of extra days. So this time last week I was mentally getting ready to move out, and now I’m finding myself mentally getting ready again, so it feels like I’ve done absolutely nothing for the past week when in reality, I really haven’t been mentally preparing for that long. Anyway, when Sam came over I was still feeling really ill but I didn’t want to cancel on her because I miss her just too much. I miss them all too much: Toni, Sam, Jeri, all of my friends who it’s not easy organising things with. Dan and Malith I just naturally tend to see often, because it’s easier for us to make time for each other. Sam, I probably speak to a lot more than Toni now, yet it’s still easier for me to talk to Toni. It’s odd. Jeri, I only need to see a couple of times a year because whenever we meet up all we do is talk about high school. I feel like there’s an expiration date on our friendship for that reason: there will come a time in the future where we’ll run out of things to talk about. I don’t want that to happen, but I just know that it will. Or at least there’s a high risk of it happening if we don’t stop talking about people we haven’t really had much contact with in upwards of three years.

Sam and I went back to her place in Diamond Creek under the pretext of making nachos and then proceeding to eat nachos in her spa. I still haven’t gotten my period, I’m assuming because of my stress-induced cold that I thought for sure was syphilis or glandular fever for most of this week, so I was all set to go for a warm dip in the spa. We didn’t though. We just made the dopest nachos and ate those at her dining room table whilst also playing a two-deck round of Go Fish which I won. We also played two rounds of Jenga at Emily’s place, and I won both of those too. I remember the last board game I played with Sam was Scrabble and I won that too. I should gamble with her some time. Anyway, she said comfort food would be good for me during my sickness and boxed up the rest of the nachos (with my homemade guac, which she said was really delicious and that compliment alone made my night) for me to take home so I can ‘get well soon’. What a babe.

Meeting up with Dan was a lot different, as it usually is. Both Dan and I are extreme budgeting at the moment, so he was content to come around here and just sit and talk with me. We were supposed to go to Laundry again tonight, but I was feeling ill still and his ankle is still a little weird from when he partied too hard on New Year’s. Anyway, he came over around 7:30 and stayed until midnight and we just talked the entire time. The time flew, honestly. I made both of us a grilled cheese and let him help himself to my pappadums and we drank the second bottle of wine that I had bought on the 31st for New Year’s. It was a good night. We drank the entire bottle, but I think he might’ve had more than me. I was so tipsy by 11:30, but apparently he felt nothing. He’s tall and German though, so neither of us were surprised. I’m short, brown and a total lightweight. I spoke to Dan about Evan and about my being assaulted and my stress-induced cold that I thought for sure was syphilis or something, and my STI tests, and my parents coming home and everything else that’s happened in a week and beyond (Ikaros), and he spoke to me about the same stuff, the way we always catch up except this time within four walls with minimal walking and also with wine. It was a nice change of pace for Dan and I. I showed him the dresses too and he gave me his opinions on them. He told me he totally agreed with how I saw the T-shirt dress with my denim jacket. He also agreed that I should wear the black one tonight when I see Evan. Honestly, I know I should wear that one too. I’m just scared, I don’t know. I’m not usually a bold dresser. In fact, the first time in a long time that I dressed boldly was when I wore my mesh hoodie to Laundry with no other larger jacket over it. But ‘I am a pioneer for oppressed Asian-Australian women’ and I should just do it, just be myself. This flowy black dress is most definitely the dress version of me. It’s a little big though, it’s like wearing a burlap sack over my boobs. But it’s so flowy! And Evan’s already seen my boobs, I mean what I wore to Laundry was quite slutty. I told Dan that, and showed Dan the mesh hoodie too because he was curious about what it looked like. He laughed immediately upon seeing it. We laughed a lot last night actually. It was a fun night. I told him that I was on the stage with a whole bunch of other girls last Friday night, and he was like ‘I didn’t even know you could dance on the stage’, and then I reminded him of how there are always girls on the stage who are dancing it up for everybody, and he immediately prayed, pretended to be ‘blessed’ and then IMMEDIATELY after this, prepared himself for when I hit him. But to his surprise, I was totally ‘blessed’ myself, because those girls were crazy gorgeous and goddamn I still can’t believe that I was ONE of them last Friday. I was a crazy gorgeous stage-dancing girl in a nightclub. I just never thought I would do that, or be that. But I was and it was legitimately because of Evan. I mean it’s also because I’ve been working the last two years on bettering myself and finally find myself feeling good about my body and have no adopted a very liberatingly positive attitude towards life, grabbing every new opportunity that comes my way, but also because a very lovely boy lead me by the hand and danced with me all night. I’m probably romanticising whatever has happened between Evan and I to no end, like tonight probably won’t be as big a deal to him as it is to me, I think. I don’t know. I shouldn’t underestimate myself or devalue myself, I know. And he did seem to like me, he danced with me all night! I’m just so so nervous. I shouldn’t be, I know. I have henna on my arm right now, my sister did it on Thursday. I haven’t worked out since I got sick and I feel like my arms are big. I told Dan yesterday, I feel like everything is in proportion right now except my beefy arms. He said my arms look fine. I hope they do, I don’t know. This is me, okay. I am a textbook trainwreck, an overthinking mess, a hopelessly hopeful romantic who can’t stop thinking about this really fun dude. Fuck.

#21.01.2017 #15 #morning pages #stream of consciousness

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pietro-capimagines · 7 years

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There: Chapter 1 (Bucky x reader)

Hey there lovelies, I hope your Sunday is going grand. I’m trying to write as much as possible and come up with new ideas. I’m really questioning whether I should continue with “Our Eyes”, but what do you guys think? Rest assured, I will be keeping up this one because it’s really working for me. I want to get some good fics out to you guys, I know they haven’t been that great lately, so I’m really trying to get my creativity flowing. Have a wonderful day, I love you all. xoxo

Warnings: Depression

Intro

MASTERLIST

For two months you stayed in your house, the house you had shared with Pietro. Every single day you would get up, wake up Victoria, drop her off at the babysitter’s house, and then pick her up after she was already asleep at night. She was so little, she was only two, and she didn’t understand. She didn’t understand why her daddy wasn’t coming home, why she didn’t see her mommy often, or why you didn’t even look like her mommy anymore. That was because you barely ate anymore, and over the course of the last couple weeks, you were beginning to lose weight rapidly. Your cheeks and eyes were starting to hollow out, and your once radiant and bright skin looked pale and lifeless.

Seeing your daughter every day was like a dagger in your heart. She painfully looked so much like her father, and you couldn’t bear it. That’s why you sent her to the babysitter. Most days you sat in the bedroom you shared with Pietro and looked at pictures of you and him from when you two had started dating, up until the latest pictures of your little family. Some pictures brought up fond memories, and with every memory came tears. You cried yourself to sleep every night, clutching a piece of his clothing to your chest, taking in his scent. You feared that you would forget it, that somehow he would slowly fade from your memory, and that one day there would be no memory of him to hold on to. You were reminiscing in a life that you no longer had, a life that still included Pietro, a life where you were still happy.

It was one of those nights when the pain was unbearable, but you had to stifle your sobs since Victoria was sleeping. As you balled up a pillow in your fists as you buried your face in it, your phone chimed. Through the blur of tears, you managed to see that it was a text from Bucky.

F/N, talk to me. I want to be there for you.

You sighed, wiping away your tears. Bucky had always been a close friend of yours, he understood your pain like nobody else did. He always seemed to intervene at the right times, just before you thought your world was ending. But, well, it seemed to have ended when you lost your lover a few weeks ago. The thing was, when he was with you, a little life surged through you and your mind didn’t distance so far away from you.

Okay… I don’t think I can do it over the phone though. Can you come here?

You pressed send. You really needed someone to talk to, you just never wanted to admit it. Keeping all these emotions to yourself was putting a toll not only on yourself, but also on your relationship with your daughter. You had been detaching yourself from her because you didn’t want Victoria to see you this way, and because seeing her was a grueling reminder of what you had lost.

Ever since the funeral, you hadn’t seen or talked to anyone besides the babysitter. Right now, Bucky was the first person you had ever responded to. People had been sending you countless messages, wishing you well, and sending their condolences. They all hoped for some sort of reply, which you never gave them. They pitied you, but you didn’t want their pity. You wanted your husband back, and that was it. Bucky never pitied you, he understood you. Your phone chimed again.

I’ll be right over. Do you want me to bring some ice cream?

You stared at the bright screen. Bucky was always endearing, especially to you.

No thanks. The door is unlocked, but just be quiet. Vic is already asleep.

Fifteen minutes after sending the text, you heard the door quietly open and close. You got out of your bed, and looked at yourself in the mirror for the first time in what seemed like forever. There were dark shadows under your eyes, your skin looked transparent, and your cheekbones were slightly jutting out. You didn’t know how he would react to seeing you like this, but you had nothing left to offer anybody. This was all that was left of you. You were a hollow shell of the person you used to be. You heard footsteps silently going up the stairs and down the hallway to your room. Your back was towards the door when it opened.

“F/N?” The concern in Bucky’s voice made you wince. You didn’t want to turn around. You didn’t want him to know how badly Pietro’s death was affecting you. “F/N, please. Let me see you.” His voice was barely a whisper across the room.

You owed him this much. He had been trying to contact you for the duration of your time that you had yourself holed up in your home. You slowly turned around to face him, tears brimming in your already bloodshot and puffy eyes. Your gaze was on the floor, but slowly trailed up to meet his gaze. Hurt and shocked was etched across his face, his eyebrows knitted together with concern as he looked over your withering body. You noticed this and crossed your arms over your body, averting your eyes back to the floor.

“Bucky, I-I…” You paused, the tears beginning to spill onto your cheeks. “I have nothing to say.” Your voice was shaky and your bottom lip quivered against your words.

“You don’t need to say anything.” He crossed the room in long strides and wrapped his arms around as your sobs broke out, and you collapsed into his chest. He held you close to his chest, letting you cry. The two of you sunk to the floor, your face buried in his shirt. He shushed your cries, telling you to breathe.

You took deep, but shaky breaths, trying to calm yourself once again. He pulled you away from him, studying your features as he wiped away you stray tears. It pained him to see you this way, he was cursing himself in his head for not showing up weeks ago. You looked so unhealthy, his concern for you was tremendous.

Neither of you said anything as the two of you moved to lean against the bed frame. He wrapped his arm around you, and you placed your head on his shoulder. He rubbed your arm, trying to lull you to sleep. He could tell that you had gotten none, and that you needed it.

Slowly your eyelids began to feel heavy, and you drifted off into a peaceful sleep. You didn’t relive the moments on Sokovia, nor did you have any nightmare at all. That was the first night since it happened that you had gotten real sleep.

As sleep pulled you down, you whispered to Bucky, “Please don’t leave.” He let out a small sigh, a small, pained smile came on his face. Gladly for him, you wouldn’t remember his next words.

“I’m not going anywhere. I’m not letting you slip through my fingers again.”

Hey babes! So, ta da. Here’s the first actual chapter of “There”. Sorry it wasn’t much of a cliff hanger, but I’ll have the next chapter up tomorrow, yeah? What did y’all think? Did you like it? I really love this story line, so shout out to my best fren for it. xoxo

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