TOO HOT TO HANDLE.
PART III
Han x reader. (s)
Too Hot To Handle masterlist
Synopsis: You and Han become contestants in a reality dating show, Too Hot To Handle. (14,1k words)
Author's note: Despite my hectic rl, I finally finished season 4! Thank you for tuning in this far with me ❤️
HAN: Why did I have that wank? [Facepalms]
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The group has lost another $10,000 and Han contributed $4,000 to that
It doesn't make him feel good letting everyone know that he rubbed one out in the shower earlier but also to everyone who will watch this show.
He wants to book a flight home immediately and never comes out of the house.
Han feels the need to apologize to you for what he did and worse is, not telling you about it. It's hard to get privacy so he waits until everyone leaves the dressing room to do that.
As you sit on your chair brushing your hair, he places a kiss on the top of your head, "Hi, nugget!"
You don't reply but keep untangling your hair with your fingers so he sits on the chair next to you, patiently waiting for you to soften around him.
After a moment, you look at him and softly sigh, "I can't believe you did that."
He hurriedly holds your hand to not let you go from his side, "I know," he meekly says.
"We've been here since day one and trying hard not to..." Your words trail off as you take a cotton pad and put something on it, "And we could have spent God knows how much by now if we did."
He nods and feels bad for it for letting you down, "Yes, know what you're saying," he confirms.
It's obvious to him now that you need time to cool down, he then holds your hand tight and turns your head to make you look at him.
"I'm sorry," he sincerely apologizes.
You put on a weak smile for him but a smile nonetheless, and then you tenderly kiss his cheek, "Wait for me in bed," you tell him.
He allows himself to hold you for a while and lands a quick kiss on your cheek.
"Don't make me wait long," he says as he softly nuzzles his nose in your neck.
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HAN: I apologized but I still feel like I need to win her over.
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When you finally come to bed, you seem to have gained your mood back but he remains cautious, he wants to be on your good side.
Han snuggles up to you, overlapping your body with his, and buries his head in your neck, inhaling your scent that puts him in an instant comfort.
The lights are off and not long after that, the chatter dies down the late it gets. He knows you're still awake from how you keep gently ruffling his hair with your fingers.
"Are you still upset?"
You weakly smile at how careful he is asking you that when you're not mad at all, just a bit taken aback.
"A little," you reply with your eyes closed.
He rests his head on his pillow and lays on his side facing you, "it's been hard not to do anything whilst getting closer," he says.
You hold the hand resting on your stomach and turn your head to look at him, "It's hard for me too," you mutter.
You lightly rub his forearm as you keep lowly talking to him, not wanting to disturb everyone else who sleeps in the room.
"I'm ovulating right now, I'm like... hornier than ever," you share with him.
"You what?" He asks in confusion.
"It's just... hard for me too," you skip on trying to explain what it's about.
He lowly chuckles at how you easily give in trying to explain it to him. He leans his head against the side of your head, "How can I not touch you when you're getting hotter and hotter every day, mmh?"
You hate how easy it is for him to make you melt with such cheesy words, you keep your cool and respond with a scoff.
He then places a long kiss on your cheek with his hand cupping your jaw, "And I'm getting more and more smitten," he adds.
You scoff again but you can't help but smile this time, "Cringe!" you respond.
He grins as he nuzzles his head in your neck and whispers into your ear, "I like you so much."
It's been a long time since you haven't felt this admired and adored by someone, it feels good and flattering. You feel like you owe it to him to tell him how you feel.
You look to the side and put your hand on his chin, turning his head to make him look at you.
"I like you too," you mutter to him and your heart is quivering, overflowing with warm feelings.
There's no excuse for this but you feel the urge to show him too so slowly you press your lips on him, kissing him with all of your heart.
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YOU: At that moment, I feel like it's the right thing to do so I... I kissed him [bites thumb]
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Han doesn't know how you end up straddling him and now, taking your camisole off of you. He hurriedly covers your body with the duvet as you lean down, kissing him on the neck and around his chest.
He wants to touch you all over, however, his hands are trained to stay on the safe side. He can only hold you as you place kisses across his chest.
"Baby, oh..." he forgets what he's about to say as you land a hot kiss on the column of his neck.
Your body is hovering above him as your hand wanders down his body, all the while your nipples are lightly grazing his chest.
He's high with your kisses but the moment your hand tugging at his boxer, his eyes snap open.
"You want to do it?" He asks.
You slip your hand under the waistband of his boxer, "we can stop," you simply resolve.
It's sneaky of you to throw the ball at his court. You know he wants this, therefore, how can he stop you? If anything, he wants more of you.
"I don't want to stop," he shamelessly admits.
Successfully taking his boxer off, he turns you over and has you pinned underneath him. He takes his turn to bury his mouth on your neck, kissing you down to your chest and he goes under the duvet to plant kisses on your stomach.
His fingers are tugging at the thin strap of your underwear before pulling it down and off your legs, you take it for me to put it on the bedside table.
There's nothing between your bodies now, it's just his skin rubbing against your skin. He watches as you look at your hands, trailing his shoulder blades then drag them down to feel the firmness of his muscles.
Then you slip your arms under and pull him close, sending him to collapse on top of you.
"You're so hot," you speak so low it's almost like a whisper.
You put your hand in the back of his hair and gently tug at his hair, "You're fire," you playfully compliment with a sly grin.
Han can say the same thing, except that he has not yet wrapped his head around the fact that you're both naked under the duvet. He can feel your body heat and the softness of your skin that he can't stop touching you.
"You're so beautiful," he mutters with an overwhelming sigh.
It feels as if there were only you and him existing at the moment that he completely forgot about everyone else sleeping in the room. He doesn't even remember that he has rules to follow.
Han presses a kiss on your lips and it continues into a slow, sensual making out where he can taste your lips, the plush and the warmth of it.
You let out a low moan as he pulled away from the kiss and without warning, put your legs around his waist to not let him go.
There's nothing to hide when you can feel his hardening member poking at your thighs, it's swollen and he's ready for you.
Seeing you spreading your legs open for him, he knows that he gets the permission to proceed with things.
Han reminds himself that he needs to calm down but rather than that, he does the opposite.
He gets hit by so many things all at once, how he shouldn't be doing this, about the money, and that everyone would be disappointed with him because of it. Everything is mixed inside his head and it overwhelms him.
He looks at you and the soft smile on your face, he knows you both want it but it seems like his body is failing him.
"I'm–" he swallows air to relax.
"I'm too tense," he says, shaking his head in panic.
He then collapses on top of you and hides his head in your neck, "I'm sorry," he murmurs with so much regret.
"It's okay," you assure him with a loving pat on his head and endearingly brush his hair to comfort him.
"It's embarrassing," he whines with his head still buried in your neck.
"It's okay, baby," you place a long kiss on his neck to convince him.
You both stay like that, syncing his breathing to the rising and falling of your chest as he rests his head on it and starts to get drowsy.
"We should put our clothes back on," you suggest before he falls asleep.
He reluctantly gets up and starts looking for his boxer, he gets panicked for losing it.
"I can't find it," he lowly speaks.
You wait until you put on your underwear to reply to him, "Huh?"
He clutches the duvet close to his chest, "I can't find my boxer," he says with intensified panic in his voice.
You stop him from pulling the duvet since you're not properly dressed yet and you're aware of the camera filming everything.
"Give me a second, I'll help you find it," you quickly put your camisole back on to help him.
He wraps himself in the duvet and gets off the bed, frantically looking for his boxer around the bed.
"It's nowhere," he says out loud.
You immediately put your hand to cover his mouth and he only realizes it now that he said it out loud. You press your mouth on his chest to muffle your laughter.
"I'm naked," he lowers his voice but says it with so much urgency in it.
"Okay but shh..." You mutter while silently laughing at the way he made a fool of himself out of panic.
You hurriedly look for it on the floor, perhaps one of you kicked it off the bed. You squat down, groping around in the dark while he waits, sitting on the bed wrapped in duvet.
"Got it! Here!" You hand it to him and climb onto the bed.
Still hiding inside the duvet, he quietly puts his boxer back on. It only hits him now how stupid everything was, he's regretting the way he behaved.
You peer inside the duvet and sweetly ask, "Can I join?"
He can let the duvet go and lay down on the bed next to you, he doesn't say anything but snuggles up to you. He feels bad for how things turned out.
"Hey," you softly scratch the hair behind his ear.
You wait until he looks at you to say, "I told you it's okay."
That makes you grateful that he's with you, he's not sure if anyone else would handle this well but you're so patient with him, and you understand him so much.
You bring your mouth close to sweetly kiss him on the cheek, "We'll get our time, mmh?"
He takes your hand and kisses it before resting it on his chest.
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HAN: This makes me realize that she means a lot more to me than just sleeping with her.
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There are times when Han looks exceptionally attractive and now he's looking exactly it. His upper body is in its glorious state, muscular chest and stomach on display and his skin is moist with sweat.
He's about to get into the shower when you step into the bathroom, pulling him by the hands to join you to sit inside the empty bathtub.
"So, what's our game plan?" You ask him.
He holds the back of your legs and pinches at the flesh, "Game plan for what?" He plays dumb.
You snort and put your hands on his shoulders, playfully slapping at it, "Should we tell everyone or wait for Lana to expose it?"
He takes your hands and intertwines them together on his knees, "And being scolded twice? No, thank you," he waves your idea away.
Well, you kind of hope that by telling them firsthand, they wouldn't be as mad when they find out about it from Lana. Yet you shudder thinking of being yelled at twice for breaking the rules.
There's another thing to be concerned about.
You put your hands on his neck and lean in close, lowering your voice as you ask, "Do you even know how many times we kissed?"
He suppresses his laughter and it forms a wide grin on his face, he's shaking his head having no idea how much you spent last night.
You lean in closer and lower your voice, "We kissed so many times," you remind him.
Then you get reminded of the hilarity of the situation last night and he seems to recall the same thing as you both break into laughter while looking at each other.
"You messed up," he mischievously accuses you.
"No," you deny, "you messed up!"
He pulls you close and keeps pulling you but you refuse to hug him since he's sweaty, "No, I don't want to hug you."
"Why not?"
"You're dirty," you reply.
"I am dirty," he says with a sly smirk and a wink.
With your hands on his chest, you push him away and get up, then step out of the tub.
"Come shower with me," he says.
You turn around to say, "No."
He uses the towel he's holding to slap your butt with it, "Come shower with your dirty boy!"
"No!" You persist, half-laughing.
Han gets out of the tub to chase you but before he can do that, you run out of the bathroom.
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YOU: I'm just a little concerned about how everyone is going to react [hisses air]
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It's another workshop for the boys and you're hanging out in the bedroom to escape the harsh sunlight at this hour of day.
You're on the bed with Avery and she's trustworthy enough to you, you feel like you can share about the infraction you did last night with her.
"How mad everyone will be when they know I did something last night?" You whisper to Avery, talking against the loud chat of Nya and Gwen on the other bed.
Avery tries to suppress her surprise and glares at you, "Depends..."
She puts her hair away to get more of the details, "What did you do?" She asks with a curious smile.
You can't recall last night without laughing and Avery patiently waits until you stop to tell her about it.
"What? What did you do?" She gets even more curious, dying to know what makes you laugh like that.
You catch a breath to calm yourself and hesitate to tell her everything about it, mostly because you want to spare Han from the shame.
"We almost had sex last night," you speak in a hushed tone.
Avery's mouth is gaping open and her hand flies to her mouth to cover it, "almost?"
You nod in confirmation.
It gets exciting to her that she leans in closer, not letting anyone hear about this and keeping this between the two of you, "What happened?"
To be honest, you have no idea how things went last night next thing you know you were naked under the duvet and you were all over each other.
"We kissed and got carried away... in the middle of it we just kind of stopped, you know," you tell her, not letting her in on the major plot twist.
"Oh?" She gasps.
"I couldn't remember how many times we kissed," you truthfully tell her.
She squints her eyes at you, "It's that good, huh?"
You chuckle at that and shake your head, "We got carried away and just didn't think of the rules at that moment."
Avery licks her lower lips and starts fiddling with the end of her braided hair, "I think they will be mad at how much money you spent on it," she says.
You may not remember how many times you kissed but you know it's worth a lot of money, "Yeah..." you agree even though you're in an impending doom.
"Everyone wouldn't be as pissed if they were still a lot of money to spend but babe, we barely have anything left," she reminds you.
Hearing that makes you feel worse about it and you regret telling anyone about it.
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YOU: I... [rubs temples] I hope Lana goes easy on me [nervously laughs]
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What is his problem, really?
Isn't it clear that he shouldn't be flirting with someone's girl blatantly like this? Han needs to do an intervention so he walks over to you, putting his arms around you in a possessive way.
"I've been looking for you, you sexy little minx!" He murmurs with a kiss on your neck.
Han glances at Ed and stares at him until he turns away, leaving you alone like he wanted.
You take his wine glass and steal a sip of his wine, giving the glass back to him afterward. While holding him close, you bring your mouth close to his ear to ask, "Do you think Lana will drop the bomb today?"
You seem more nervous than usual and he starts to think that perhaps it's a good idea that the two of you didn't end up having sex last night.
He sips his drink before talking, "I think so."
"I think everyone is going to be fuming," you tell him with a nervous laugh.
Han wants to sound convincing but he can't lie to you, you know that he's just as nervous, only that he masks it well.
"We got each other," he says.
And that's the only thing he can promise you, that no matter what happens, you can rely on him as much as he relies on you.
You look at him and smile, "I know."
If it wasn't for the stupid rules, he would have kissed your lips but for now, he settles with a kiss on your cheek.
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HAN: I hope that despite the rule breaks we did, everyone didn't think that what we have is purely physical.
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It's too early for you to relax but the night is getting late and you have drank all the three glasses of wine you're allowed to have for the day.
You're lounging in the firepit with Mikaela and Rio and Gwen being the chatty girl she is, sharing a funny story with everyone.
It's moments like this that you'll be missed once you leave the retreat.
Somehow your mind wanders too far off and you start thinking about life outside the retreat. It's hard in this retreat because of the rules but you think it's going to be a lot harder in the outside world.
You look at Han as he laughs at Asher's joke and hits by a wave of sadness that this is going to end soon. What you're afraid of the most is the change, things will change once this ends.
You kiss his cheek and it takes him by surprise, "What's that for?"
You smile then look away, "I just wanted to."
Han puts his hand on your neck and presses a long kiss on your cheek, not letting go until he runs out of breath.
"I wanted to do that," he says once he pulls away and places another kiss on your temple.
"Ugh, stop being so cute!" Mikaela says with a hint of jealousy.
"That's why she likes me, I'm cute," Han proudly says with his gummy smile.
Catching everyone off their guard, Lana chimes in and tells everyone to gather in the cabana.
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YOU: I am shitting it [laughs uncontrollably]
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The anxiety kicks in and your body turns rigid no matter how much Han is trying to relax you by placing rubs on your back.
Han knows how to play calm but you, you're just bad at hiding your anxiety. Your jaws are clenched, your foot is nervously tapping the floor and your fingers are picking at the ripped hole on Han's jeans.
When the melodic chime comes in, your heart drops.
"I must inform you that there's a breach of the rules," Lana informs.
And it's a bad thing when she talks without greeting first, that means she's not pleased, Lana is mad.
"Okay, you guys know what to do," Finn says with a tense expression on his face.
"Not us," Rio couldn't deny the allegation faster, shifting everyone's attention away from them.
You feel like wanting to shrink into a microscopic size and just disappear, however, you must face it, owning up to your mistakes.
Avery secretly glances at you with a subtle knowing smile on her face, probably trying to tell you that it's best to come forward.
You look at Han and he smiles at you, he then looks the other way and says, "It was me."
Mikaela dramatically gasps and looks at you, "What did you do?"
You place your hand on his back, letting him know that you're right there with him.
"We kissed a couple of times," he replies to her.
You hate to add to it but you must tell them everything, "A bit of heavy petting too."
"How many times is a couple of times?" Fabian asks.
You sense that things are heating and you remind yourself to keep calm, "We got a little carried away, that's what happened so we're not really sure how many times we did it—"
"What do you mean not sure?" Nya asks.
Han holds your hand to both comfort and strengthen him, "You know it's actually great that we stopped there," Han says.
"What happened?" Asher asks.
Whenever you recall last night, you burst into laughter, and that makes him laugh too. Everyone is just looking at you in confusion.
Han to compose himself first to answer them, "We almost had sex."
"Almost?" Gwen repeated.
"We didn't. Calm your knickers down!" You didn't mean to be snarky but well.
Asher is the only one having fun with this information, "You shouldn't have beaten one out yesterday, bro!"
Everyone is laughing and you throw your arms around him, feeling embarrassed for him but at the same time, wanting to comfort him.
Han looks at the staff and asks, "Can I call my mom?"
Everyone's laugh dies down as Lana drops the bomb, "Your indiscretion has cost the group $20,000."
The hilarity of the moment evaporates into the air and is replaced by a dark shadow hanging over everyone's heads.
"The prize fund now stands at $45,000," Lana updates.
Avery rubs her temple and loudly sighs, "There's not much left to it," she meekly says.
The guilt is gathering in the pit of your stomach, making you feel sick and a little faint. There's nothing you can say to defend yourself so you keep your head down and stay quiet.
"I asked you to respect my rules and you continued to break them."
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YOU: Uh-oh! Lana is mad, MAD!
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"I'm setting you to the ultimate test to see if you can adhere to my retreat rules under the most trying circumstances."
Test? Han has never been good at tests and not to mention, it's a test from Lana so he knows it wouldn't be easy. It's called a test for a reason.
Also, he doesn't like the sound of the last two words Lana said but they linger in his head far longer than he lets them.
"You will spend the night in the private suite."
Han exchanges a nervous glance with you, realizing that the two of you are in deep trouble Lana has to set you both on a test.
The others are either sighing or groaning, they don't like the idea of putting the two of you together in a suite. He hates to think badly of them but he doesn't like their reactions either.
"You trust us though, right?" Han asks them.
There's a shrug, an inaudible answer, and a lot of pessimism that only adds to the animosity in the air, he can't stand it anymore.
Han clicks his tongue and sighs, "Well, thank you for the support you guys," he sneers with a thin smile.
He puts his arm around you because he knows you're the only one on his team.
"Please make your way to the private suite," Lana orders.
He couldn't wait to exit this situation and spend the rest of the night with you away from everyone. He offers his hand to help you get up from the bed.
"Hey, Han," Rio calls him.
He turns around to look at him, "Yeah?"
"Don't do things I wouldn't do," he says.
"Is there anything you didn't do?" Han replies back with a grin.
Rio laughs in response and Han leaves the cabana, taking you by the hand to the private suite.
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HAN: [looks down at his crotch] Just hold on as long as you can, okay? Don't embarrass myself any more than I already have. [Laughs]
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This is not a bad thing after all.
Han never thought that he'd ever get to see the private suite and now he's here.
He's the first to enter the suite with you trailing behind him, looking around the room that has been set to a sensual setting with candles and rose petals littering the bed.
"Oh, thank you, Lana!" He shouts his gratitude out loud wherever Lana is.
Carefully, he hoists you with his two arms, attempting to carry you like newlyweds. You squeal as he struggles to get you to bed and he ends up, sending both of you collapsing onto the bed.
He has you pinned under him, using the chance to admire your beautiful face as he's catching his breath. The temptation to kiss you is so strong and the test barely started yet.
You softly nuzzle your nose against his and put your hand on the back of his head, "I don't want to break rules anymore," you mutter.
As much as he wants to do anything imaginable to you, he doesn't want to let people down anymore, so he agreed. He nods and endearingly caresses your cheek with his knuckle.
"Yeah. Me too," he says, making his mind on the spot.
He allows himself to plant his mouth on your neck, "We're mature. We're adults now. We can do this," he tells you, suddenly feeling optimistic about passing the test.
A grunt falls out of his mouth as you put your legs around his waist. You bring your mouth close to his ear and breathlessly whisper, "But I kind of want to continue last night."
Well, there goes his optimism, leaving his body the second you mutter the idea to him. Fuck continuing last night, he wants a do-over and this is the perfect opportunity to do it.
Suddenly, he feels like doing whatever he wants. He looks at your face that is mere inches away from his, "Oh, yeah, fuck money!"
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HAN: My head gets a bit naughty when it comes to her. She's just so hot.
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"Yes, get those titties out," he excitedly says as he watches you taking off your dress.
Han knows you've been wearing nothing underneath but thin black underwear. He feels your naked body against his but it's different now that he sees you with his own eyes and admires it as much as he wants.
With his body soaked in the warm water, Han rests his head on the edge of the tub, he's biting his lower lip as he watches you pulling your underwear down your legs.
"How are you so hot, baby?" He asks you in disbelief.
You're giggling seeing his wide eyes following you as you get into the tub, sitting down on the other end of the tub.
"We should have a toast," You suggest
"Oh fuck, I left the bottle in the room," he fumbles to get out of the tub.
He's covering his private part with his hand to retrieve the bottle of wine and returns with the bottle clamped under his arm.
You crawl over in the tub to sit on his lap, putting your legs around him even though you both know it's not a good idea.
"What?" You ask while chuckling.
As if that wasn't enough, you put your arms around his neck, sending your breasts squashed between your chests.
"I want to put my legs around your sexy little waist," you innocently say.
He grabs his drink and gulps it down, you refill it for him to have another toast, clinking your glasses together before taking a sip.
"You know what you look like?" He asks.
You laugh even before he tells you the answer, "What?"
"Like a popsicle," he answers with his hand splashing water onto your shoulder.
He tries to seduce you but he gets an unexpected reaction from you, you laugh instead of getting frisky like he imagined it would be.
"I just want to lick you," he says to you with a flirty wink.
"Lick it then," you encourage him with a seductive smile and a sultry gaze.
He is indeed going to lick you with or without your permission, he lands a long lick up the column of your neck as you tip your head to the side, allowing him to plant his mouth on it.
Can't stop himself, he plants kisses down to your chest and buries his head in there while you're holding him close with your arms around his neck.
As if the water in the tub suddenly risen a few degrees, he feels hot inside and out.
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HAN: [groans] I'm trying to be good here!!!
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The two of you don't take things seriously but that doesn't mean that it does nothing when he looks at you with such lustful eyes and you spread your legs open to tease him.
He crawls onto the bed and hovers above you, placing a long kiss on your collarbone, letting it go with a gasp.
Slowly, he puts his body on top of you but propped an elbow against the mattress to not put his whole weight on you.
"Can you resist me?" He asks with a hoarse voice.
You look up at him and nod.
He holds your jaw and puts his thumb on your lips, pulling at it to feel the plush of it.
"Why are you so hot?" He asks in a mix of disbelief and awe.
You smile at his word and let your hands touch his muscular chest. You use only your fingertips to feel the outline of his muscles and down to his stomach where it feels less firm but more softer.
Feeling playful, you pinch at his tummy but it does nothing to him because he's too busy listing over your body. He seems frustrated to not be able to feel you all over and he best believes that you feel the same way too.
"I can't resist you," he says to you with his hot breath brushing your cheek and rubbing his bulging crotch against your thigh.
"What should we do about it?"
You put your hands around him and gently claw at his back, "I'm open to anything," you daringly say.
On one side, you want to fuck it and just do whatever you want but on the other, you really want to prove everyone wrong, that you have a genuine connection with Han.
But God! It's so hard to not touch him when his body is pressed close against yours.
"Let's settle this," Han suddenly says, rolling over to the side to get a rose from the bedside table.
He sets a pillow against the headboard of the bed and invites you to sit next to him. You eagerly snuggle to him, resting your head on his shoulder.
"I pick one, then you pick one," he says, holding the rose between him and you.
Han starts first, picking a petal off the rose then says, "Have sex."
You let out a chuckle before taking your turn, pulling at the rose petal, "Don't have sex."
He goes next, picking another petal and tossing it away, "Have sex."
"Don't have sex," you mutter while throwing away the rose petal to the back.
"Have sex."
"Don't have sex."
You continue taking turns stripping away the petals off the rose until there are a few left. You rip one off and leave one last petal on the rose.
Han grins knowing the result of his unusual way of settling the matter, he gladly picks the last petal off with a sly smile on his face and says, "Have sex."
You both look at each other as he seductively gazes into your eyes with a smirk dancing on his face. How can you say no when he's intensely looking into your eyes with so much want in his eyes?
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YOU: Ugh! This is torture.
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Han shrugs and then throws the bare rose away, pulling you close with his hand holding the back of your thighs. He deeply looks into your eyes as he mutters, "Even the universe wants us to have sex."
You snort at the way he put it and continue laughing as he tickles your neck with his nose.
"Take your clothes off!"
"No!"
You manage to break away from his hold and roll over to the side, taking something from the tray of sex toys on the bedside table.
Bring it with you, you're straddling him on the bed, and place a hand on his chest to hold him down.
"You've been very, very bad," you tell him and hit him with the leather flogger on his arms.
"Ow!" He yelps in pain.
His hand flies to rub the skin, "That hurts!" He grumbles.
"You're supposed to feel the pleasure in the pain," you tell him, tickling his chest with the flogger.
"No," He shakes his head, "It's just pain."
You both break into laughter at the same time yet you continue flogging him, this time, doing it gentler to not hurt him.
"Who's your mommy, huh?"
"My mom," he answers.
"Wrong answer!" You hit him on the ribs with the flogger.
You lean in close and try again, "Are you my good boy?"
He holds you by the waist and nods, "Yes, I am," he answers
"But I don't want a good boy," you say with a pout.
"I'm a bad boy," he changes his mind almost immediately.
You lean in closer until you can feel his breath on your lips as he speaks, "How bad?"
"Very bad!"
"Really?"
"Yeah..." he breathlessly says.
You pull away and slyly smile at him, brushing his chest with the end of the flogger, then put it away. You prop a hand against the mattress to hover above him, leaving a few inches between your faces.
"A bad boy is not afraid to break rules," you say with a soft caress on his cheek.
He's gripping your waist as your leg rubs at his inner thigh, "Yeah..."
"Are you bad enough to break the rules?" You ask him with a soft, wet kiss on his jaw.
"Yeah..." his voice is slightly quivering and teasing him like this makes you hornier than before.
You prop your other hand on the bed, caging his body in between your arms and looking down at him with his eyes wide and dark with lust.
"Take your clothes off!"
"Yes, ma'am!"
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YOU: Let's say... we had a lot of fun [smirks]
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It's too early or you personally think it is.
You force your eyes open and see that the curtains are already open, showing it's bright outside. Instead of waking up, you snuggle close to Han as he's still soundly sleeping next to you.
Without opening his eyes, he draws you closer and plants a kiss on the top of your head.
"We should get up," you sleepily tell him with your eyes still closed.
"Mmh..." he answers with a hum.
You turn your head to give him a morning kiss on the cheek, greeting him once you pull away, "Morning, sexy man."
He puts his arm around you, trying to make you stay snuggle close to him. He eventually gives in and takes your hand to hold instead.
You grab your water tumbler and take a big sip before sitting on the bed, letting Han rest his head on your lap. You put your hand in his air and play with his tousled hair.
"You were so sexy last night," you mutter.
That gets his ear perking up and his head turns to look at you, "I know," he confidently says.
"So hot," you emphasize the word with a heavy sigh.
Han turns over to lay face up with his head still resting on your lap so he can look at you, "Let's not go back."
You hold his head with both hands and gently squeeze his cheeks with your fingers, "You want to stay here?"
"Mmh," he says, placing his hands on yours.
This moment feels tender and intimate, you rarely get a moment like this with everyone in the retreat so to finally be able to be alone with him and fully enjoy each other's presence, you feel a lot more closer than ever.
"I don't mind staying here," you say with a nonchalant shrug and another squeeze on his squishy cheeks.
"Give me a kiss!" He cutely demands with his lips puckered.
To compensate for not being able to kiss him on the lips, you kiss him on both cheeks.
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YOU: Wake up this morning feeling great and amazing. I just can't wait to share my happiness with everyone [smiles]
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"Hello, Negative Nancy's!" Han pokes fun at everyone as he leads you into the cabana.
They look rather tense for his joke that no one is laughing at it. Probably because not only that it still early in the morning, but they're haunted by the possibility that they may lose more money today.
Especially after seeing that you're wearing his shirt with a radiant smile on your face. He reckons everyone already thinks that they have lost the money that isn't even theirs in the first place.
To be exact, no one owns it yet.
"How was your night, bro?" Asher asks, looking rugged with his long hair tied in a messy bun.
"Fucking great!" He answers without a beat, putting everyone on the edge of their seats with it.
He turns his head at you and asks, "It was fun, yeah?"
You nod with the smile not wearing off of your face, "It was nice and romantic, there were candles and roses and champagne..." you add.
He can see that Gwen is quietly rolling her eyes either in jealousy or displeased with what she heard. But Han is having fun teasing them and so are you.
"Did you do something?" Nya asks with her hand propped under her head.
Han glances at you then lets out a long sigh, "We're not sure..."
Mikaela gets triggered by it, "What do you mean by that?"
He puts his arm around you and puts on a cryptic smile, "We did a lot of things," he says.
"We used a sex toy or two," you egg on it, playing along with his scheme.
"We're just not sure if they were rule breaks or not," he says with a nonchalant shrug.
There are groans and sighs, it seems that he's succeeded at annoying them. He then looks at the cone sitting in the middle of the table.
"Let's just ask Lana!" He simply resolves.
Not long after, Lana comes with that melodic chime that twists everyone's stomach and makes them sit up straight in their seats.
"Hello, everyone," Lana begins with her usual greeting.
Most of everyone is half-heartedly replying to her while Han tries to lighten up the mood with a cheery one, "Hello, lovely Lana!"
"Last night, you spent the night in the private suite and were forbidden from any form of physical contact."
He doesn't really need the reminder but sure, Lana is cooking something in here and he hopes it's something good.
"I can reveal that..."
He takes your hand to get your attention and flashes you a goofy smile, he knows no one else is going to have fun with him except you.
For someone who spent the most money in the retreat, Rio looks nervous, Han sees that he puts his hands together as if he were praying.
And for artificial intelligence, Lana knows how to build suspense.
"They did not break the rules," Lana finally announces.
Everyone is cheering and whooping, clapping their hands his way. He never thought that these many people would be happy knowing he didn't get to sleep with the hot girl.
But he allows himself to hug you, congratulating each other for what you achieved together.
"For the record, I trusted you that you two will pass it!" Asher says with a proud smile.
But it doesn't stop there, Lana has another announcement.
"As a reward for passing my test, I'll return the money to the prize fund which now stands at $100,000."
Now everyone is going crazy. The boys are throwing themselves at him and pile on him while he struggles to get away.
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HAN: Your boy Han did it! [Throws fist in the air]
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Strangely, you feel good for not having sex with a guy you like but it feels great to see everyone is happy about it.
After all, this was a test to prove to everyone that what you have with Han is genuine, it's meaningful. Nothing feels better than proving everyone wrong.
Everyone is settling down, returning to their seats since Lana has not yet done talking.
"Do you feel that you have made a deeper emotional connection?" Lana asks both of you.
"Yes, absolutely," you reply without a beat.
"A hundred percent, yes," Han answers not long after.
You're busy brushing his messy hair from everyone ruffling and patting his head.
"You probably think that I'm a joker, always joking but what I have with her is serious, it's genuine and I..." he turns his head to look at you, "With us passing the test, it's the proof of that."
This is when you find Han the most attractive when he speaks out with confidence but with all honesty. You believe your eyes have hearts in them as you look at him.
Avery and Gwen are cooing at the same time, melting on their seats and you like seeing jealousy in their eyes.
Everyone else is giving you both a round of applause for being the couple that they never expected to grow this much in this retreat. They probably didn't expect that you would end up with Han.
Taking you by surprise, both of your watches chime and turn green. It takes you a while to register what it means, you slowly turn your head to have his hand cupping your jaw, crashing his lips against you.
The kiss feels so special and rewarding, you allow yourself to be open, pouring all of your heart out into the kiss, ignoring everyone else who is watching and cooing at you.
Dare you say, it feels like a movie scene.
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YOU: I'm glad that we got the green light and that shows that we have something real. I just can't wait for what comes next to us [smiles]
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Han is going for a swim on the beach with Rio and Fabian when they get curious about last night.
"Was it hard, man?" Rio asks because the idea of being in a room with a girl and not having sex is a lot for him to comprehend.
"Rock hard," Han immediately replies.
"I bet, I bet," Fabian says while laughing and splashing water onto his toned abs.
They're all laughing with their bodies engulfed in the saltwater, facing the sun that is slowly sinking into the horizon.
"How do you feel about her now?" Fabian asks.
It's surprising to hear the question coming from this God-like man, it makes him look deep into his heart to answer it.
"I feel a lot closer, man," Han honestly says.
Anyone other than you or himself wouldn't get it and comes from him who was once anti-Lana, he can see that he slowly changing his course, he's learning the lesson now.
"I just think we're very similar, we have the same energy, I like little things about her," he stops himself as he's aware he's foolishly smiling as he talks about you.
Fabian is cooing at him and lands a pat on his shoulder.
"I was with a girl once, thought she was everything and she obviously let me down so whenever a girl comes in, I just... can't commit anymore," he doesn't know where it comes from but he feels comfortable to share it with them.
"You don't want to get hurt again, yeah," Rio is nodding along to his words.
"And now I'm here and it's completely changed everything," he says.
Rio takes it that Han is onto something, "So, what do you have in mind?"
Han inhales air as he takes in the beautiful view, "I feel like it's time I make her my girlfriend," he says.
Without warning, Fabian punches his arm almost sending him staggering in the water, he holds Rio's shoulder to steady himself.
"Aw, man..." Rio says, sounding like a proud man.
Not enough by punching his arm, Fabian jumps onto Han's back sending them both falling into the water and Rio joins him to playfully sink him into the water.
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HAN: It's been a long time since I got close to somebody so this is a big deal for me. I don't know if I have the guts to ask her.
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Your time in the retreat is coming close to an end and out of all the parts of this big villa, you're going to miss this dressing room the most.
It's not just a room where you do your make-up and hair, but it's also where everyone usually gathers and fools around with each other. So many things happened in this room.
After taking a shower, you decide to may as well start getting ready for the night. You're not the only one having a head start, Gwen is there curling her hair into loose waves that frame her small face.
"I don't know what I'm going to wear tonight," you share as you sit on your chair next to her.
To be honest, you run out of clothes to wear now that the retreat is about to end and you kind of want to look your best.
"You can borrow mine, babes," Gwen kindly offers.
You softly laugh and make fun of yourself, "It would be loose around the chest, I'm afraid."
Gwen has the kind of laugh that sounds more like a shrill and it's filling the room as the two of you continue chatting about things while doing make-up.
Until Han comes into the dressing room and sits across from you. You look away from your mirror to see him, "Hey, pickles."
He slumps on his chair and compliments you out of the blue, "You look gorgeous, babe!"
You lowly chuckle as you keep filling your eyebrows, "I'm not done with my eyebrows yet," you tell him.
Then Han gets quiet and you keep glancing at him because he looks like he has something to say but he seems to hesitate.
You know he has that awkwardness in him but it's not it. Something is off and he looks nervous but he's too afraid to tell you about it.
You're about to open your mouth to ask what it is but the cone in the room chimes, making everyone startled on their seats.
"Oh, fuck, I feel sick when Lana comes on," Gwen says with her hand clutching her chest.
"Hello, guests!" Lana greets.
It makes you nervous still whenever Lana speaks even though you know you don't do anything wrong, "Yes, my darling?"
Then Lana calls both of your names, making your head turn at the cone in the corner of the room. Then you glance at Han, "What have we done now?"
Han who's faintly biting his lower lip shrugs in utter confusion.
"As an existing couple in this retreat, I am sending you on a date for a chance to open up and form a deeper connection."
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YOU: Oh, finally! Lana came with good news!
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The first thing that you both do after receiving the news is get off your chairs and run towards each other, you throw yourself at him as he catches you, hoisting you against his body.
"A date! Yay!" You squeal in excitement, then place kisses all over his face.
As Han leaves to get ready for the date, you get back to your seat and can barely do your make-up anymore, you're too excited and at the same time, nervous.
You forgot what you're about to do with your face so you pick up your brush and mindlessly brush some powder onto your forehead and chin.
"I'm excited for you!" Gwen says, sounding more excited than you are.
"Me too," you say with a breathless chuckle.
You put down your brush and pick up a tube of mascara next, your hand is slightly shaking for you to apply it to your lashes.
It's not like you never got on a date before so you don't get why you're so jittery.
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YOU: Why am I so nervous? We almost had sex once for God's sake!
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Han regrets acknowledging your beauty a little late.
He can see it now, how radiant you are as you descend down the steps that lead to the beach, looking so stunning in that bright blue dress.
He offers his hand to help you walk down the last three steps and clasps your hand with his.
"I don't want to be an asshole but your tits look great in that dress," he compliments with a naughty smirk.
He knows you're going to laugh from the way you scrunch your nose and there it is, the sound of your laugh that has become one of his favorite sounds in the world.
"I must say your tits look great in that shirt," you compliment back.
A boat is waiting to take both of you, taking you on a trip around the island with the sun slowly yet surely setting for the day.
There are cocktails and a basket of food provided on the back of the boat. You both take a seat facing each other and decide to make a toast to start the date.
"I've never had a date on a boat before," you suddenly share.
It never ceases to amaze him how he keeps sharing common things with you, "Me too."
He takes another sip before adding, "We both won't forget about it then," he says.
You lift your glass, initiating another toast with him, "Cheers to that!"
He's not sure how many percent of alcohol is in that cocktail but he really needs it to gain a little courage to ask the one question that's been bothering him all day and night.
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HAN: I have to pull it off. I HAVE TO!
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Well, there's one way to prepare him for the big question. He knows how to ease both the tension and you, well, it's actually just things that he knows are true about you.
"Do you know that you scrunch your nose before you smile? Or laugh?" He asks.
You finish chewing the grape to answer him, "I think, yeah..." you doubtfully answer.
Han also picks a grape and pops it into his mouth, he wants to take his time, doing it right.
"And you also purr like a kitten when you sleep," he adds.
You let out a nervous chuckle, "Is that a compliment?"
He's not sure about that one but he wants to show you that he knows the little details about you. He knows more than just those two, he can list them for you but he's afraid it'll take the whole day.
"It is a compliment," he says with a grin.
He rolls a grape between his fingers, just something to fiddle with because of how nervous he is
"You have to give me a compliment too," he demands.
You stop chewing and lick your lips, "Well, uhm... I like the way you sit with your legs looking like those anime girls," you say, copying the way he sits then break into laughter.
In his defense, he unknowingly sits like that. He laughs it off then says, "You find everything attractive about me."
"That's because you're one big attraction, baby," you immediately respond.
It's a rare occasion that you let your thoughts unfiltered with him and that's good, that means you're comfortable around him.
He seems to like what he heard from the way he's brightly smiling with the soft sunset reflected in his eyes.
"I like that we're not taking things seriously, we do silly things together and I think that's cute," he shares.
You nod and understand that really well, it has not yet sunk in that you found someone like him here of all places.
"It doesn't hit me yet, you know, that I met someone like you," you tell him with a smile.
Then you get hit by a wave of sadness that it's going to end soon and you fear that things are going to change between you.
"All I know is... it's going to be weird not waking up next to you and spending all of our time together," you sadly tell him.
It seems like he reads your mind, he snatches the words you're about to say to him right out of your mouth.
"I'm glad I got to know you," he says with glints in his eyes.
You softly smile at him, "Me too."
But you don't want to keep hanging everything on maybe, you want to know if this can continue outside the retreat. You take a sip of your drink, then take a deep breath after, "It's been so good for us," you say.
You take another sip of your fruity, alcoholic drink to continue talking, "And I'm thinking... what's next?"
You don't want to pressure him, of course, and you don't want to have seemed demanding as well but it has to be made clear.
You look at him with eyes that seek an answer from him, "I'm just hoping that nothing bad happens."
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YOU: I fall in deep and I don't know whether Han feels the same.
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Han knows that he's in the trenches when you ask what's next?
The answer to it is at the tip of his tongue but he can't muster up the courage to spit it out. His past experience haunts him, reminding him of the chance that this could hurt him too, even worse than before.
"Obviously, I came bere not expecting to meet someone like you," you say with a smile.
That smile makes him nervous, thinking that he'll never be able to see it again once he popped the question.
You fix your hair from being blown by the wind and tuck it behind your ear. Such a mundane thing but he likes it whenever you do it.
"But I don't want to waste my time anymore, you know," you say.
And he gets nervous again.
"What about you?"
Such a simple question but it takes everything in him to answer that question. He looks back at his past relationship and he realizes that he shouldn't compare it to what you and him have.
And it's you, you're different and you make him happy. Why should he stop seeing someone who makes him happy?
Before he can tell you that, he feels the need to tell you why he hesitates so much and that it has nothing to do with you.
"Ever since my last relationship, I struggled with commitment, attachment... and I don't bother trying knowing it could lead to disappointment," he shares.
You intently listen to him, look him in the eyes, and take every word he says with an open mind.
"I often find myself thinking why put somebody through something that could potentially hurt them?"
You nod in understanding, "Yeah."
"My problem is I fear heartbreak," he confesses.
It's one thing to share a piece of his past with you but letting you know his fear... he's basically handing you the power over him.
Despite the things he shared with you, you tip your head to the side and adorably scrunch your nose at him.
"How about now?" You ask.
A wind blows, sending your hair caught between your lips and you take a moment to put all of your hair away, "Are you ready to commit?"
Han doesn't see heartbreak, he sees happiness in you so he nods.
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HAN: I've got a funny feeling... I'm overthinking the situation, but I know it's the right time.
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You have never seen him like this, so terribly quiet and still. You place your hand on his and crack a low laugh, "Why are you nervous?"
Han always knows how to lighten up the moment or make fun of something, it seems like he has lost that skill at the moment.
Then he stares deeply into your eyes with a tense and serious expression on his face.
"There's a question I've been wanting to ask you," he says.
Maybe it's your turn to ease the tension, you bat your eyelashes at him and cutely ask, "Oh, really?"
You can see that he's still nervous, his Adam's apple is bobbing in his throat from swallowing air.
"Uhm... this whole experience has been enjoyable because of you. You're lovely, you're beautiful inside and out..."
There are a lot of compliments in one sentence and ignoring the anxiety tinted his words, you coo in response.
He gulps air again then asks, "How'd you feel about being my girlfriend?"
Not that he can't act this gentlemanly but it takes you by surprise, it feels like he's pulling a joke on you. Maybe it is?
"You're joking..." you say with a dry laugh.
"I'm being serious!" He says with so much urgency.
You just need to ask one more time to be sure, "You're really asking me to be your girlfriend?"
He aggressively nods, "Yeah."
Han sees that you're still doubting him, he tries again but more candidly, "Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Can't tell if it's the wind or that you're deeply touched by this heartfelt moment, you feel tears in the corner of your eyes. You gently dab it with the pad of your fingers to not ruin your make-up.
"Oh, my god," you breathlessly gasp.
You look at him and he's still waiting for your answer in anticipation, you nod, then say, "Yes."
This is the weirdest thing ever but most endearingly. You feel warm and ecstatic but the two of you just sit there, looking at each other, laughing.
You almost forget about it until they chime, you turn your wrist to see that it's indeed green.
Han notices it too, he then gets up and takes your hand, he pulls you close to lean in, kissing you with so much love.
Your heart is shaking and the content is pouring out of it yet it never empties. Your heart is overflowing with warm feelings.
And his lips are just as warm, as welcoming as his embrace.
When he pulls away, he delightfully sighs.
"Fuck yeah, I finally have a girlfriend!" He mutters against your lips before planting another kiss.
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YOU: My God! I can't stop smiling it's so stupid [gleefully smiles]
-
Other than you, Lana is also sending Rio and Mikaela on a date but you're the first one to come back. You find everyone is getting ready for the last party in the retreat tonight.
"Oh, they're back from the date!" Avery delightfully gasps at the sight of you walking into the room while holding hands with Han.
"Oh, my God! How was the date?" Gwen asks, propping both hands under her head.
Nya puts down her eyebrow pencil and glances at you, "Tell us all about it!" She demands.
You sit down on your chair first before speaking and Han takes the seat next to you, "We got on a boat and we had pretty cocktails, it was gorgeous," you tell them.
Asher walks into the room to plop onto the small sofa in the corner of the room, "Oh, I'm so jealous!" He says in a sincere tone.
"Then it got pretty serious, don't you think?" Han asks you.
"Yeah, it was," you say with a small nod.
You don't know how to tell them without making it like a cringe moment, you feel silly but also excited to share it with them.
"This guy asked me a funny question at the end," you say with a cryptic smile.
Everyone shifts their attention to Han and they wait for one of you to continue the words. You look at Han and decide to break the news.
"He asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend," you tell them.
There's a collective gasp and Avery's jaws are hanging open, so invested in your storytelling.
"What did you say?" Nya asks you.
You wait for a moment to tease them, building the anticipation in the room. Then again, good news should be shared.
"I said yes," you finally answer.
The next thing you know, everyone is coming at you and congratulating you with a group hug. You look at Han and he's being smothered by Asher's hug.
"I'm so happy for you," Avery says, sounding like she's in tears as she's hugging you from the back.
After everyone takes their turn to congratulate both of you, you and Han exchange a long hug, feeling overwhelmed with happiness.
"You two are so cute!" Gwen comments.
You turn around to face her and Han holds you from the back, "No, but I've been wanting to tell him how much I like him and obviously, I've been keeping it to myself because I was afraid he didn't feel the same way," you honestly share.
You remember just feeling so smitten, falling in deeper but you can't say anything about it because the fear of being rejected or the possibility that your feelings are not being reciprocated is bigger than what your heart can contain.
"This is like... the cutest thing ever!" Avery says with an exciting squeal.
"We also got a green light earlier," Han shares.
"Has a few snogs, eh?" Fabian says, joining in late into the celebration.
"Definitely!" Han shamelessly shares.
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YOU: Things couldn't be more perfect. I'm the happiest I've ever been [smiles]
-
Everyone is wearing white to match the theme of the party.
You look so gorgeous in that white, skin-tight dress he can't help but ogle as you lean close to the mirror on the bathroom sink, fixing your hair with your back slightly arched.
"Fuck..." Han says with so much frustration in his voice.
You glance away from the mirror to look at him, "What?"
"Stop looking so hot!" He holds you from the back, then playfully bites at your bare shoulder.
It seems like you are already immune to this, you're not bothered to scold but continue fixing your hair and secure it with hairpins.
Han looks at your reflection in the mirror and he can't believe that you're his girlfriend, it feels like a reality check but it's as good as his imagination.
How the fuck you said yes to being his girlfriend? He doesn't know but he's happy, he's over the moon.
"Do you like it?" You ask.
He knows you're asking about either your hair or your make-up or the whole look but everything looks good on you.
"Yes," he answers, tightening his hold around you.
You rest your head against his shoulder and also look at both of your reflections in the mirror, "You look so sexy with your hair pushed back," you compliment.
He presses a kiss on your temple, "yeah?"
You slightly turn your head to look at him, "Mmh, yeah."
This proximity is dangerous and your lips are only inches away from him, they're coated with red lipstick, making them look luscious, inviting him to kiss.
"Kiss?" He asks even though he knows you wouldn't risk money on the last night in the retreat.
Yet you puckering your lips at him, teasing him and he does the same, leaning in close until you dodge away.
"It would be funny though to lose money on the last night in the retreat," he says with a playful grin.
It seems like Lana is letting everyone off for the day and not interrupting the party as usual. It's a little suspicious but Han wants to spend the rest of his time in the retreat not caring about anything but enjoying the moment.
Rio comes through to give him a pat on the back, "Heard you got a girlfriend now," he teases him.
It hasn't registered to him yet that he has a girlfriend now, he stifled a nod, "Hell yeah, I am!"
They exchange a side hug and have a toast with their drinks. Rio seems happy so he assumes the date went really well and he wonders if he took things further with Mikaela.
"I can say the same thing to you, right?" He says to him with a sly smile.
Rio licks his lips after taking a sip of his drink, "I dropped the L bomb, bro, it was nerve-wracking," he says, wiping his moist forehead.
"Wow, that's..." Han can't find a word to say to that.
"That's a big deal!" He finally continues.
"Yeah," Rio says, taking another gulp with a smile on his face.
Looking back at it, he can see that everyone is going on their own journey, something has changed about them in the best way possible.
Han can see the change in himself too.
He came as someone with a closed heart. He thought that he couldn't love again and he would rather be on his own for the rest of his life.
But now, he's ready to leave the retreat as an open person and ready to love again.
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HAN: I've been bottling things up and I feel like the retreat helps me get back, it's almost like a fresh start. Also, I'm leaving with a girlfriend [smiles]
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Seeing him already tucked in the bed, you can't help but jump and startle him as he lies with his eyes closed.
Han draws you closer, planting his nose in your hair then kisses the top of your head, "I'm so tired."
You hum with your head resting on his chest, "Me too."
His hand is softly rubbing your back, putting you at ease and making you feel safe in his hold. Remembering that it's going to be the last night in the retreat, you suddenly feel melancholic.
You're going to miss this, not caring about anything else but making deeper connections with each other. You lift your head and plant your chin to look at him, "This will be the last time we share a bed," you sadly tell him.
With eyes still closed, he shakes his head, "We'll still share a bed after this," he says.
Han opens his eyes just to wink at you and you chuckle at that.
"I mean, in this retreat," you correct yourself.
You slip your hand in his hair and play with it as you look at him, "Honestly, I didn’t expect this.
He rests his hand on your waist, "Expect what?"
"That we'll be together," you reply with giggles.
Now that the retreat is almost over, you can't help but recall a few moments from the time you've spent in this retreat.
"Be honest, you didn't even think you'd fall for me, did you?" You press him with a question.
Han looks too embarrassed to admit it, he laughs it off because he knows you're right
"You wouldn't fall for me either, right?" He turns the table back at you.
You lean in and kiss him on the cheek, "That's because you're so cute," you tell him with another kiss on his other cheek.
"Also, you weren't easy to win over," he adds as he gently squeezes the flesh on your waist.
You nod, admitting that you were indeed so hard to open up to him. You have to give him props for that so you give him a long kiss on the cheek.
"Thank you for being so patient with me," you sincerely thank him.
He proudly smiles and looks at you, "Kiss me then," he sweetly asks with a pout.
"You're cute," you tell him.
You lean into the side of his head to whisper, "But not that cute."
Without warning, he catches you with both arms and pulls you close, not letting you get away from him.
And you're not planning to get away from him.
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YOU: When I came here, I was very closed and I didn't want to let anyone in but I feel like Han has helped me with it, I let my guard down and let him in which I'm proud I did.
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Lana chimes the moment the lights are on in the morning.
It's like you're used to getting anxious at the sound of it, your body turns rigid even though you've just woken up.
"Good morning, everyone!" She greets.
You clutch the duvet close to your chest and rub the sleep off your eyes, "Morning, Lana!"
"Welcome to the last day of the retreat!"
It feels real now that Lana said it, you finally come to the last day of the retreat and it's so bittersweet, it's almost like graduation day. Well, talking about graduating from a sexless retreat, that's an achievement!
You see that everyone is feeling sentimental as well with the way some of them are replying with sad groans.
"I will be announcing who the finalists are shortly," Lana informs.
And you almost forgot about the prize money.
Well, you gained a lot of things such as emotional growth, friendship, and love, and those things can't be valued in money so in the end, everyone wins something out of this retreat.
Everyone seems to think the same way, they're mostly focused on making the last day count.
"It's the last day!" Finn emphasizes it for everyone.
"Let's make it count!" Avery says to everyone with a cheery smile.
Everyone starts their day with positive energy and soaking up everything before their time in the retreat ends. You did your daily routine of swimming at the beach and getting ready for the day with the girls in the dressing room.
Lana wants everyone to the cabana later in the afternoon and then you catch a few chats about who's going to win the money.
To be honest, you have no idea because everyone is going through their own journey so you can't really judge.
You decide to spend the remaining time in the retreat by cuddling in the hammock with Han, just enjoying a peaceful moment together in comfortable silence.
However, you can't help but ask him, "Who do you think is going to win?"
He squints from the bright sun, "It could be anyone," he answers.
"Yeah."
"I don't really care about the money," he remarks, his fingers lightly pinching at your arm.
"Yep, me too," you agree with him on this.
He turns his head to look at you, "I got the most beautiful girl in here," he says with his flirty wink of his.
"You meant to say that to Avery," you tell him with a gentle slap on his chest.
"No," he quickly denies.
He holds your face and looks into your eyes, "I win the biggest prize of all."
He pretends to groan in disgust after saying that, aware of how corny it is.
"Cringe!" You say but with a foolish smile on your face.
"I know you like it," he says, pulling your head close to his neck.
And you stay like that with him, taking in the view while in each other's embrace.
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YOU: I learned a lot in this retreat so I wouldn't feel sad leaving without the money [smiles]
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It's finally time.
Everyone's curiosity is about to be answered soon because Lana is going to announce the finalists soon. Han tries not to think about the money and indeed, the possibility that he can win it is slim but hey, he wouldn't say no to receive that much money.
The melodic chime finally comes and he can feel his tummy churning in anxiety.
"Definitely not going to miss hearing that," Fabian says with a repulsed expression.
"Hello, everyone," Lana begins.
"Hi, Lana!" You reply as you sit up straight next to him.
"I've been collecting data since you arrived and have now conducted my final analysis."
He tries not to be so nervous but it feels as if he's not in control of his body anymore, he's unknowingly balling his hands into fists on his lap.
"As you are aware, there was a prize fund of $200,000 allocated to aid your development. The prize fund now stands at $100,000."
"That's a lot of money, isn't it?" Asher says, looking at the brighter side of things even though everyone has lost half of the initial prize money.
Han doesn't want to entertain the idea of winning the money but also, but the possibility is there, it's wide open. Not trying to lie but that much money is life-changing.
"There are three places in the final," Lana informs.
Everyone coos in wonder, heads are turning to silently guess who would make the list.
"Following my rules alone isn't enough to win. The finalists are those who have shown the most personal growth during their time at the retreat."
That only confirms his assumption that it's not only about couple growth, therefore, his chance to win is bigger.
"The first finalist is... Rio."
Rio gets up from the sofa as everyone claps in joy for him.
Han couldn't be happier to hear that his close friend is one of the finalists and that means he has changed into a better version of himself.
It's getting tense once again as Lana is about to announce the next finalist.
"The second finalist is... Asher."
This one is kind of unexpected and he doesn't mean it in a bad way. Asher has grown so much personally but he's mostly proud because Lana acknowledged the changes in him.
"The third and final finalist is... "
Han is losing hope but that doesn't mean he's not happy about it. He's happy whether he wins or not, he reminds himself of that by looking at you softly smiling at him.
Then, Lana calls both of your names.
He shoots up from his seat, "What?"
"You guys deserve it!" Portia says as she hugs you.
And Han is getting a hug from Fabian, confirming that Lana did call his name and yours.
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HAN: I did not see this coming [lightly shakes head]
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"Please stand!" Lana orders.
Han helps you get up from the sofa and holds you close by his side. You're wiping the corner of your eyes when he looks at you.
"I'm emotional already," you say with a quivering voice.
You look the most beautiful when you're vulnerable like this so he hugs you with both of his arms around you.
"Your relationship has helped you both grow equally as individuals," Lana says.
You both are listening to Lana listing the reasons why you got chosen to be one of the finalists as a couple.
"You both came in as horny singles and began your journey as friends. Despite having commitment issues, you slowly built a connection and have learned to commit and formed a loving relationship."
He looks at you and can see the journey you both went through to get to this point, he couldn't be proud that he has made all of these decisions that led him to this, to you.
"And that is why I have chosen you to be in the final as a couple," Lana concludes.
Everyone is cheering and clapping for all the finalists.
"One of the three finalists will walk away with $100,000 and the decision will be made by the remaining guests."
At the end of the day, it's up to the group to choose who wins the prize money. Of course, Lana is the one with power but everyone knows each other personally and therefore, they know which one has made the biggest improvements.
"Will the shortlisted guests please the cabana whilst the voting takes place," Lana instructed.
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HAN: We never thought we'd get this far, did we?
YOU: Not at all.
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The finalists are being gathered in the front yard.
Rio and Asher are taking seats on the bean bags so the two of you can take the small sofa to sit together.
"I can't believe we're here," Rio says, still in disbelief.
Asher brushes his long hair to the back, "I'm happy to just be here with you guys," he says with a gruff voice.
Han looks speechless as well, he hasn't said anything since Lana announced both of your names as the last finalist.
"It's... mad!" He finally says something, rather sounds still in disbelief as well.
You look at them and feel grateful already that you're surrounded by nice people.
"How do you feel?" Asher asks, curious as to why you stay quiet.
"I feel like a winner already to be honest," you reply.
After almost half an hour of waiting under the sun that is slowly sinking into the horizon, the cone lights up and chimes.
You get used to getting nervous whenever you hear it but this time, you unconsciously grip at Han's forearm.
"Hello, finalists," Lana greets.
"Yes, darling?" Rio answers her.
"Your fellow guests have voted and a winner has been decided," Lana informs.
The tension is rising once again and Han turns to be the nervous one, grabbing your hand and squeezing at it.
"Please join everyone on the beach where I will announce who has won the $100,000."
Asher is the first one to get up from his seat, flipping his hair to the side as he says, "Okay guys, let's go!"
As you both make your way to the beach, Han leans into your ear and whispers, "My palms are sweaty. I'm shaking," his voice is tinted with anxiety.
You smile at him and say, "I know."
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HAN: I'm grateful for how this retreat has changed me and our relationship.
YOU: [Nods] Fingers crossed!
HAN: [Crosses fingers]
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Everyone else is already waiting by the beach for the last hurrah with the sun setting behind them, casting a warm glow on their faces.
Han knows he shouldn't be stressing much about this. Winning the money isn't that important, it's what he takes from this retreat that is the most important.
He takes a seat on the long wooden bench with you and waits for Lana to come online.
After a while, that anxiety-inducing chime comes and the cone starts talking.
"During your time at the retreat, I have observed you all commit to the process and show significant changes."
Everyone nods in agreement and cheers to that with a proud face.
"The time has now come to announce the winner of the $100,000 prize money," Lana says.
She then calls all the names of the finalists, including him and yours.
"Finalists, please stand!" Lana instructs.
Rio and Asher are standing up while Han keeps on pulling you close to his side even though there's no space left between your bodies.
"Your fellow guests have voted and the person in third place is..."
It's getting to him now that you and him potentially going to win that money and it's a lot of money. He gets overwhelmed thinking of it.
"Asher."
His head turns to the left where Asher stands, applauding himself for what he has achieved in here and you both doing the same for him, congratulating him for it.
"I love you guys," Asher says in the most nonchalant yet cool way.
The tension returns as Lana continues with the announcement, calling the names of the finalists again and making him feel faint.
"One of you has been chosen to walk out of the retreat with the prize fund..." Lana reminds.
The money, well, the money, obviously would help with this new relationship. Then again, it's not about the money.
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HAN: No matter what happens, I feel like I'm a better person after meeting her and yeah, I'm actually proud of myself and I don't often say that about myself.
YOU: [Looks at Han] I'm proud of you.
HAN: [Smiles] I'm proud of you.
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"The winner who will be leaving with $100,000 is..."
His heart feels like it's about to explode, he can't contain this much anxiety and excitement and love and fondness, everything is mixed inside his chest.
And it explodes as Lana announces him and you as the winner.
"Oh, my god!" You shriek, covering your gaping mouth with your hands.
Everyone is running at him, throwing themselves at him while the girls are coming at you to give you a hug.
"I wanted it to be you guys so congrats!" Avery says as she hugs him.
But seeing you keep wiping your eyes as they're glassy with tears, Han feels the urge to comfort you. He comes to you, holding you tight because this moment belongs to you and him, the two of you did this.
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HAN: Can you believe it?
YOU: Honestly, no.
HAN: We went from nothing to friends and now... [Looks at you]
YOU: [Giggles] Now... what?
HAN: ... [Shyly laughs] [Hugs you]
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"Your time at the retreat is over and therefore the rules no longer apply," Lana announces for the last time.
Everyone is cheering in triumph but he feels good knowing that he can touch you, kiss you, and do anything he pleases to you now.
But for now, he can settle with a long, lingering kiss that quench his thirst.
"I'm not wearing underwear," you playfully tell him.
His hand goes down your rear and feels you through the dress you're wearing, his eyes widen even though he finds out that you're lying
"We can definitely have a quickie if you want," you jokingly say.
Feeling tricked, he aggressively kisses you as a way to get back at you and lifts you before spinning you around as his body is filled with euphoria.
The celebration continues with more congratulations passed around at each other and the champagne bottle is popped open.
Asher comes to you and sincerely congratulates you with a warm hug, "I'm happy for both of you," he says.
He then looks at Han and says, "Han, I'm going to steal your girlfriend!"
Before Han can say anything, Asher hoists you onto his shoulder and takes you running with him to the beach, then he puts you down in the water.
Soon everyone joins in with you, continuing the party soaked in salt water. You eventually find Han and immediately locked in a loving kiss.
You both face the sunset, looking at it and feeling so hopeful for what the future holds for both of you.
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HAN: No more rules!
YOU: [Whispers to Han] How about we continue that night?
HAN: Ah... [Smirks]
YOU: [Giggles]
HAN: [Looks at the camera] Now will you excuse us because we have business to finish!
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