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loser-boyy · 2 years

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Eddie Munson x trans male reader smut ;)

WARNINGS: smut obvs, (sub eddie, dacryphilla and edging) mild tr@nsph0bia, cursing, violence?? idk

THIS ISNT PROOFREAD AND I AM SO SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG BUT ENJOY DNDENJNDIOVRHIDOEWHIJOREUGIO

i walked out of my room and down the stairs, waving a goodbye to my mom.

“no later than 11, honey!” she shouts from the kitchen, packing my little sisters bag.

“alright!” i shout back, closing the door behind me.

/\-school-/\

i stared at the clock, bouncing my leg.

c’mon lunch.. c’mon c’mon c’mon please hurry up-

“mrs [l/n]? are you paying attention?” my teacher asks.

i fucking hate my french teacher. she’s literally the only one to use she/her/maam/mrs etc.

she’s a cow and i hate her.

“erm.. yes..?” i say, uneasy.

“really? what are we talking about young lady?” she says, practically spitting in my face.

“french.” i say, glancing at the clock.

she scoffs.

any minute now.

any minute.

“wrong actually, mrs-” RIIIIIIINGGGGGGGGG

i grab my bag and run out the door.

see you in hell, mrs scott.

i was so hungry i practically ran to the cafeteria. the basketball boys were pumped up as always, shooting me the dirtiest looks you’ve ever seen. i joined the queue, quickly grabbing my food and sitting at my lunch table. “oh shit, hey y/n!!“ eddie says, his face lighting up as soon as he saw me. i tried to hide my pink face, but god something about his smile.. “yoo!!“ i say, a big, dopey, lovesick, smile plastered across my face. mike and dustin exchanged glances, looked at us, and looked back at eachother.

weird.

“what were you just in?” eddie asks. i laughed softly, “french,”

“french? fuck, man that sucks.” he groans, “hope that teacher dies, honestly” “i’m so close to doing it myself at this point,” i laugh, “one more she/her im going to she/hurl her down a flight of stairs.”

under the table, my leg is bouncing anxiously.

shit shit shit shit stop that right now

while maintaining conversation with someone at the table, eddie puts his hand on my thigh to stop it bouncing.

oh fuck.

i almost drop my milk carton in surprise. my leg stops bouncing, of course. however, his hand moves inwards, towards my inner thigh.

oh god oh god oh god don’t do anything stupid.. please..

i groan softly, biting my hand

oops.

still continuing his conversation across the table, a smile forms on his face. but not a happy, innocent smile, no, no. but a dirty, lust filled smile.

i squeeze his cold hand and give him a quick glance. “i’m off to the toilet i think..!” i say, staring at him, wide eyed. eddie blinked at me for a second, confused, and then stood up. “oh shit yeah uh.. me too definitely.” he said, standing up, and slinging one arm around my shoulders.

as if my face wasn’t red enough..

dustin and mike looked at eachother in a really ‘i know what’s going on’ way.

—

we laughed and ran down the empty halls, and i took his hand in mine. i squeezed it and twirled my self around, landing myself right in his arms.

“by the way, it’s pretty obvious you liked me,”

“fuck.. really?”

“yeah.. it’s a good thing i really liked you too, dipshit” eddie says, planting a kiss on my forehead.

i un-twirl my self from him, dragging him into the janitors closet.

he grinned, looking me up and down.

“ohh.. i get it..” he says, a little softer, holding me close.

i kiss him. i kiss him the way i’ve wanted to since i’ve met him. the way i’ve wanted to for all these years.. those chapped stupid lips that said the most out of pocket, sexual things. i thought back to the time i pulled his hair as a joke. what happened again?

only one way to find out.

i moved my hands up his side, to his soft, curly hair and gave it a soft yank. eddie let out a gasp and a moan.

“oh you bitch..” he says, quietly.

“what is it munson?” i ask, a mischievous smile on my face, “what you gonna do?”

his face lit up in the dim storage closet. god i loved his eyes. “i’ll do anything i want, doll.” whispered, voice raspy and low. i snickered. “will you, yeah?” i pulled his hair softly again, making him whine.

“please..” he mewls.

oh. my. god.

i ran my other hand along his back, moving him closer to me. “god you’re pathetic.” i grin. eddie tries to avoid eye contact but i move my hand from his hair to his chin, grabbing it and making him look at me.

“you’re like a puppy with those eyes,”

he blinks.

“but i know you, sweetheart. you’re nothing but a slutty mutt, and i’ll make sure that you know that.” i say, sealing my words with a rough kiss. he pulls apart and looks at me dead in the eye with his beautiful dark eyes, filled with lust. i put my hands on his hips and tug at his waistband, “can i?” i whisper. eddie smiles, cocking his head. “please, go ahead doll,” he places another soft kiss on my cheek. it was pretty cramped in the closet, but there was just enough room for me to kneel. after pretty eagerly yanking down his pants and boxers, i knelt on the cold, sorta dirty ground. he groaned softly as the air hit his dick.

“you alright up there?”

he nods.

i smile up at him, and grab it.

eddie winced and grabbed a mop.

“sure you’re alright big guy?” i ask, smiling at the way he was holding an old dirty mop.

he takes a shaky breath.

“i’m fine..”

i place soft kisses along his inner thigh, as i begin to jerk him off. Eddie gasps, and grabs my shoulder. "fuck..!" he whines, his usually deep, harsh voice going higher each time he spoke. it was fucking pathetic and i loved every second. he threw his head back, hitting the wall. eddies soft curls covering his eyes, which were clenched shut. "you're doing so good for me," i say, kissing the inside of his thighs, "so good.." i begin to move my hand quicker making eddie bite his hand to keep himself quiet. he was so cute all embarrassed like this. i begin giving his tip soft little kitten licks, causing eddie to grip my shoulders with both his hands, his rings digging into my shirt.

"fuck, fuck, fuck FUCK- please, stop this I'm so -hnghh- close I'm gonna-" eddie cries out, gripping onto my shoulders.

"quiet, mutt. don't want anyone hearing us, do we?"

he shakes his head.

"attaboy."

my hand moves faster as i kiss all over his dick. eddies breathing is heavy and loud. its cute, really.

"please please please im- im so -hahngh...- close..-" he groans.

and no no no, we can't be having that. not. at. all.

and so, i take my hand away, making eddie let out a needy whine. he looked down at me, on the verge of tears. I've got him just where i want him now. a complete mess. my mess. "are you crying, munson?" i say with a laugh. his breathing is shaky and heavy, as he goes to speak.

"n- -sniff- no.." eddie sobs.

"you really are just a pathetic little mutt, aren't you?" i giggle, "you wanna cum, don't you?" eddie nods.

"too bad." i say with a smile, pulling his boxers and pants up. "But-" he begins. i cut him off with a kiss before opening the closet door.

"love you, stupid"

#eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #smut #oh this is good #sorry lmao #stranger things #smut fic #edging u guys sorry #puppy doll and mutt do things to me #god hes so #mommy but in a masculine way #jesus this took forever #this is hot #god i am gay #happy pride lads #woo #gay

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lupon · 2 years

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Door symbolism

There’s a lot of closing and opening of doors in Stranger Things, which yeah, duh, but I think there’s something more going on. The use of doors in media often represents the characters relationships. Letting someone in is a sign of love and openness to them. Forcing oneself through a door is a sign of disrespect and anger with the person. A locked door means someone is either trying to force the other to stay close emotionally, or is being shut out, depending on which side of the door they’re on. On the contrary, being in an unlocked closed door indicates closeness and a deep relationship with the other person. Think of the inside of a door being a characters heart or soul, and it’s interesting to see how it’s applied in the show.

El and Hopper

When Hopper first took El in, we see them entering the door to his cabin, then he quickly hides Sera's box, symbolizing him letting El into his heart, while hiding away his pain of losing Sera. Fixing up the inside of the cabin together was them metaphorically forming a bond with one another and finding love within each other. They’re both growing and healing from their past (Hopper losing Sera and El having an abusive father) and creating something new. Hopper now had a new daughter just as El now had a new father, so they had a new home.

He also uses a secret knock so he’s the only person she’d let him, he did this out of fear of her getting hurt or leaving him. This was also the point in the series when they were the most emotionally close we’ve seen them, regularly sharing breakfast, watching TV, playing games. He didn’t want her to see anyone else because he was scared of losing her, as he later says he needed her. He also expressed his fear of her growing up and changing in his letter. Hopper locking her in the cabin was him metaphorically keeping her close to him at all times, trying to stop her from growing up and possibly leaving him or getting hurt.

When Hopper came back late on Halloween, El at first refused to let him in the door, keeping it locked. And when she finally did let him in, she had brought the TV into her room and closed the door. She was angry at him, hence all the closed doors. Even the next day for breakfast, she got mad at him for lying and went into her room and slammed the door shut. Then later that day she unlocked the front door, directly disobeying Hopper, in search of Mike. When she came back, he let her in then slammed the door behind them. This connects to when Hopper later says how he would get so angry because he’s scared of losing her, again trying to force her to stay close with him. He’s locking her in because he loves her and wants to keep her close and safe. She immediately tried to go into her bedroom and close the door, but he forced it open before she could. After he grounded her from TV and Eggos, she began breaking things and slammed her door shut and locked it, officially shutting him out.

Even in the beginning of s3, she shut and locked her bedroom door when he saw her and Mike kissing. So then, what does the “3 inches” mean? Essentially, Hopper wants her to stay open with him. He wants to always have a place in her heart, which is why she kept it open all the time after she believed he died. She loved and missed him, always keeping him in her heart. When the reunited, he even walked in through the door she was keeping open 3 inches.

Mike and El

Door symbolism is first used in Mike and El’s relationship when El was going to use the bathroom and didn’t want Mike to close the door. Mike had been the first person to show genuine love and care for El, which was something she had never truly experienced before. Not wanting him to close the door was her not wanting him to shut her out, she wanted him to stay close, similar to Hopper. They later have a scene in the same bathroom, only with both of them inside and the door closed, indicating closeness and trust. This is when they had their almost-kiss. There’s also a moment where Mike locks El in the closet door to hide her from his mom. Queercoding aside, this is another Mike and Hopper parallel, hiding her and keeping her safe even if it upsets her.

Then in s2, El was looking at Mike and Max through the opposite side of a door, indicating that they weren’t on the same page, and that she was angered by what she saw. She felt closed off from Mike, and in response she tripped Max and ran. When they finally did reunite, she unlocked and walked in through a door, contrast from her previously running from him. In the beginning of s3, they’re making out in her bedroom, and she closes the door with him inside, again indicating closeness.

But then when Mike first lied to her over the phone, El walked into her room and closed the door when Hopper asked what was going on. She was hurt and confused, and that’s when she confided in Max. They went into her bedroom and closed the door, showing how El was listening closely to Max’s advice, and trusting what she was saying. El and Max spend a lot of the season being with each other behind closed doors, like when they were in El’s room having a sleepover, walking through the bus door together after El dumped Mike, or in the bathroom together cleaning up after the sauna test. This is showing how much Max means to El, and how they formed a very close bond with each other. The only other character El has spent more time with behind closed doors than Max is Hopper. Which makes the moment where he’s okay with Max and El being alone behind closed doors all the more impactful. Also worth noting is that Mike was on the opposite side of the door on during multiple of these instances. Mike walked in through and open door to talk to El at the pool, and she ended up leaving out of anger and disappointment. The door being open was a sign that although they were finally talking, they weren’t as emotionally close as they were before.

This is why it’s very important that El was on the opposite side of a closed door when Mike first said he loved her. They weren’t on the same page. After she heard what Mike said, she walked out the door and started showing interest in him again. She knocked the candy down for him and by the end of the season, they were officially back together. It’s interesting that their goodbye happened in an open door as well, and again ending with them not coming to an understanding and Mike being confused.

(Side note: Jancy’s goodbye being inside and open door was foreshadowing to their relationship becoming rocky in s4 due to Jonathan being afraid of leaving his family. Even in their conversation Nancy is coming up with fun ideas of how they could stay together, only for him to shoot them down to stay with his family)

Then there’s s4. The first time door symbolism is used is actually when Mike tried to look for El in the bathroom. The transition is what makes this so interesting, from Joyce leaving her house to get the money in order to get Hopper back, to Mike opening the bathroom door and calling El’s name. But El wasn’t in there, and he got kicked out by a bunch of other girls. This is symbolic of how Mike isn’t understanding El, or is looking in all the wrong places, connecting to when El later says Mike doesn’t understand what it’s like to be bullied like she has been. He doesn’t understand, not from lack of trying but because he just doesn’t get it. El had locked herself in the Rink O’ Mania storage closet, hiding from everyone, including Mike. This connects to her saying how she felt like everyone saw her as a monster, and that she didn’t belong anywhere. Even at dinner, she got up and left to go to her room after Mike made her angry, keeping the door open 3 inches for Hopper.

The next day when Mike goes to talk to her about what happened, the door is kept open, again signifying a lack of understanding and closeness with one another. It’s also symbolic of El’s heart missing Hopper, and how she now trusts what he says, which as she mentioned in another conversation they had behind an open door; “What if Hoppers right? If I only see you, and I’m a different species than you, than I should be with my species more” This is similar to how El feels like Mike sees her as a monster. Keep in mind that the last time her and Hopper had been together, she was under the impression that he didn’t like her relationship with Mike, so keeping the door open for him during this conversation is an interesting detail. The last time we see doors used in their relationship is at the very end of the season, when she closes the door (leaving 3 inches) in the cabin. This was when we learn that El hasn’t been talking to Mike, and has pretty much closed herself off from most people, most likely due to her feeling hopeless and guilty because of Max.

Mike and Will

Obviously there isn’t much use of doors in Mike and Will’s relationship in s1, since you know, Will was gone practically the entire season. Although it is cute how the party busts through the hospital door, finally being together again. However in s2, there’s a fair amount of door symbolism being used. In the very beginning we see Will wander out through the arcade door, then Mike coming out to get him and they walk back inside together. They were also behind a closed door with each other during the “crazy together” scene, and well as when Will opened up to him about seeing now-memories. Moments before that, Mike was knocking on the Byers door, anxious about Will’s wellbeing due to the lack of contact, as he was closed off from what was going on. Another interesting detail was the door being closed during the shed scene where they told stories to get through to Will, with most of the group being on the other side in the house. Only people who were emotionally close to Will were inside with him, Mike being one of those people.

Then in s3, Mike (and Lucas) ran out the door to buy El a gift, abandoning Will inside, showing how they’re both metaphorically and literally leaving him behind. The next day, Will started a D&D campaign that ended with him being humiliated. When he decided he’d had enough, he stormed out through the door, and Mike followed him, which is when they fight. Contrast from them previously being inside doors together when they were on the same page and understanding each other. Mike then chases Will and bangs on the Byers closed door, apologizing and pleading him to come out and talk with him. This moment parallels s2 when he felt like he was being closed off from Will. It can also be connected to s4 when Mike was looking for El in the wrong place, since Will also wasn’t where Mike was looking, the main difference being that Mike actually found Will.

They also contrast from Mike and El’s relationship with the door being open when Mike and El fought, versus the door being closed when Mike and Will made up. When Mike talked with Will in his bedroom, it was the first time we’d seen them having a heart-to-heart and being together behind closed doors since s2. They were finally on the same page again and were no longer distrustful or distant with one another. The next time they’re completely along behind closed doors is at the end of s4, when El walks out and closes the door. This is when Will starts opening up to Mike about what’s going on with him, and is likely building up to them having more moments like this.

So then, what’s the deal with all the exit signs around Mike? Doors tend to represent characters relationships with each other, but this particular detail is likely more about Mike’s relationship with himself. An exit sign is primarily there to signal an escape or a way out during an emergency. And what kind of emergency could Mike be having? Most likely, a sexuality crisis. He’s trying to escape from himself. This is also supported by the one way sign, another sign which shows the direction a person should go in order to stay safe, pointing into his open closet door. He’s trying to escape or run from his own feeling as a way to protect himself.

The Upside Down

The Upside Down was actually the reason I started looking into door symbolism in the first place. The doors opening by themselves during Will’s episodes more specifically. First at the arcade, then at his house. This is meant to show how the Upside Down was invading Will’s mind, entering without permission. His possession scene was especially interesting, since he exited the bathroom door out of his own volition, and we then see the Mind Flayer racing through the halls towards him. The Mind Flayer likely had to burst through one of the doors to enter the school, and we see Will run out through a pair of doors when trying to escape.

Another interesting detail about the Upside Down is how the tears in time and space that connect their two worlds are referred to as “gates”, or as Alexie put it, a “doorway between worlds”. Which means when the gate is closed, you can think of it as a closed door. The right side up world and the Upside Down are opposites to each other, so they always stay on opposite sides of the door. It’s been referenced as being “the other side” on multiple occasions, first from Mike, then the Hero’s song, the comic about Will in the Upside down is called The Other Side, and even Steve in s4 referred to their world as the other side. The right side up and the Upside down can never truly be one and the same, close the door and the connection will break. Even the naming of the Upside Down suggests this - the underside of the D&D board could never be the top side, they’ll always be on opposite sides. Despite the fact that the Upside Down is now leaking into Hawkins, once the gate is closed everything from the UD dies in their world.

Noteworthy mentions

Max was holding her locker door open when Dustin and Lucas asked her to go trick or treating, showing that she was, in fact, interested and paying attention. However, she slammed it shut afterwards and walked away, since she originally wasn’t planning on going. She only decided to go after Billy nearly ran them over and felt bad since she actually did secretly want to go, and didn’t want them to believe she had any malicious intent towards them.

When character's are getting Vecna’d, all the doors are blocked off. They’re essentially trapped in their own mind, much like how Brenner told El that her mind was a prison. This connects to the moment where El is trying to escape from her memories when she’s first put in NINA, constantly running through all the different doors, but they all lead to the rainbow room. This also connects to Funshine claiming that Kali “freed” them all, first pointing to his head, then to his heart. Being unaccepting of oneself often leads to them being trapped in their own head.

Will has a NO TRESPASSING sign on his door, showing how he only lets in people he trusts. This is especially supported by the fact that the only characters we’ve seen on the other side of the sign has been Joyce, Jonathan, Hopper and Mike (other than the time the time the people from the lab were literally trespassing to take pictures of his drawings). Castle Byers is also password protected. This implies Will is selective with who he opens up to, which is supported by his claim that everyone treats him differently and by him implying to Mike how it’s scary for him to open up about how he really feels.

During their fight, Jason told Lucas about how he “never should have let him in the door” to which Lucas responded with “and I never should have knocked”. They’re talking about how Lucas approached Jason and the basketball team, something he did because he didn’t want to be made fun of anymore. This is Lucas saying he regrets ever trying to change who he is just to be socially acceptable. Lucas realized just how truly terrible Jason was wondered why he ever wanted to be like him. “Letting him in the door” meant Jason gave him the opportunity to become popular like he was, and as we saw, Jason trusted him in the beginning. It’s also a neat detail that once they realized Lucas tricked them, he was running out the door, officially letting himself out and breaking free.

When Nancy and Jonathan first got together, they were at first both behind separate closed doors. They both walked out at the same time and met in the middle, both trying to reassure themselves and each other that Murray was wrong and they didn’t have feelings for each other. They then went back into their decided rooms and closed the doors, showing how they were on the same page, but both were closing themselves off emotionally. Then, finally, they met in the middle again, only this time Jonathan kissed her. They shared a passionate kiss, then stepped back into Nancy’s room together and closed the door.

When Lucas told Max the truth about what happened, it was the first time they were alone behind closed doors together. She didn’t believe him, so she walked out the door, and Lucas followed. And once she did start to believe him, Billy showed up and she told him not to follow her out. This is symbolic of her being afraid of Billy knowing that her and Lucas are friends, and scared that he would hurt them. So she tells him to stay behind closed doors. where they’re safe to hang out together, hidden from Billy’s view. Lucas is on the inside of the door, aka the inside of her heart, because she cares about him and wants him safe and close. Of course, Lucas didn’t listen and ran out the doors as soon as they started driving away, foreshadowing to them openly being friends with each other by the end of the season, despite Billy.

There’s also a lot of instances of doors being broken down, most of which involving the monsters. The Demogorgon would quite literally break through the barrier between worlds, such as the Byers ceiling as well at the school wall. It also broke down the door between the party and itself, as well as attempted to force the door between itself and Hopper open. Flayed Billy burst through the sauna door when they trapped him in there to discover whether or not he was possessed. One destroyed all the doors at the lab and killed the kids inside. El broke down the door to the NINA project to save her friends when Brenner tried to force her to stay.

There are SO many other uses of door symbolism, but I think this has gone on long enough. And I’m sure there some moments I’m forgetting about so if you can think of any cool use of doors I’d love to hear it!

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