#THANKS FOR KEEPING IT ALIVE

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[iiping]

Light of the Kshahrewar ✨

#thanks kaveh for being the light of my life and my lighting study subject #guess who just found out that learning art fundamental is super important?? #me 🙋‍♀️ #damn i really need to study more #my art stopped progressing for ages #myart #genshin impact #kaveh #thank god genshin has been keeping me alive and not burned out haha

[raavenb2619]

I’m not sure when exactly this happened, but I think it’s clear that the aro community really is a community, now.

For the longest time I’ve felt like we were still in stasis, not quite there; a proto-community, yes, but not quite a community. But we have more history now to lean back on, more of each other to talk to and laugh with and cry with and learn from. More people that’ll go forward and make a part of modern aro history. More people that believe us, believe in us, will stand with us if we ask them.

I wouldn’t consider myself an aro elder yet, though each year I’m surprised at how long aromanticism has been a part of my life, how long I’ve been free of doubt or insecurity about my aromanticism, how far we’ve come since I was questioning. Then again, when I was questioning, some of the people I looked up to for guidance were probably close to the age I am now, so I might be there sooner than I think.

And, I’m so so hopeful for all aros, young or old, new or not, because we’ve come so far. Day by day, progress is slow (and yes, it’s unfair, it should be so much faster), but looking back it feels fast. We are our own role models, the people we look up to for guidance. We carve our own path through life, making things up as we go. I used to find that terrifying, because I had no idea what the future would bring. But it’s actually amazing, because I can ignore all these silly “rules” and guidelines about what my life should be, and instead ask, “what do I want my life to be?”

Younger me, you have no idea how awesome your future is gonna be. I’m sorry about the pain and hardship you’ll go through first; it won’t be fair and you shouldn’t have to deal with it. But you’ll make it through, and one day you’ll be me. I can’t wait for you to get here.

#aromantic #aro #aspec #queer #lgbtq #original #text #can't believe i was busy on a day when aromantic got super trending #also on the topic of history: history is super important and we should make sure we're good custodians of it! #make backups of your tumblr blogs/wordpress sites/fanfiction/analytical essays/whatever! #save links into the internet archive/wayback machine! #future aros will thank us for every thing we save from link rot #current aros will thank us for keeping our resources alive and accessible

[cutter-kirby]

he’s a babygirl he’s a failwife he’s a losercore dumbass and he’s the most love-filled man to ever exist

#lighthearted ofc #i just think he’s neat #local man gets his heart ripped out and is like ‘but? I gotta go save my daughter??’ #also there’s something about #the thing you’re trying to destroy being the only thing keeping you alive #like woah!! #also he’s just funny #’hey don’t I get a say in this??’ #SIR #re8 #resident evil 8 #resident evil village #pulling out all the tags when I make an actual post lol #ethan winters #1k #!?!?!?!?!?! #thank you??? #i'm so glad you guys appreciate the funny biteable mold man <333 #2k #3k

[simplyavatrice]

sometimes the simple truth of being alive just...moves me

#ava silva #avatrice #warrior nun #avatriceedit #warriornunedit #avasilvaedit #alba baptista #albabaptistaedit #it is a very big loving ava silva kind of day today friends #i am deep in my feelings about her #also alba is going to be a fucking massive star and win a shit ton of awards #also taking these notes as a chance to point out to this growing trend i see where people keep talking about ava like she's dead #she isn't #that's the whole point of the end of season 2 #why bea let her go #she's okay #she's alive #and she's literally already back in the world #so let's stop with the ava's dead stuff okay? thanks #anyway #favorite character #number one #it's not particularly close #myedits

[the-hex-project]

#FFBC00

#hex project #digital art #bestiary #character design #not available #summoned AND adopted by lyndsefinethequeen #!!! #certificate: loading #yellow #ffbc00 #thank you so much for keeping the project alive! #🌟 #summoned

[redmarqar]

SNIPER TF2 TEETH‼️

what again?? are you a dentist or something ??? let him have his freetime cig oh my goddddd

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 sniper #anyway thank you for keeping this kind of tradition alive

[turnipoddity]

we all know that adam is more clingy than lawrence but there are times that lawrence is more clingy than him, like when adam is working with his photographs, lawrence would come up from behind and cuddle with him unexpectedly

oh now i will be passing away

#endless fluff prompt flowing through my inbox is what’s keeping me alive #THANK YOU SM YALL im thriving fr #saw #chainshipping #adam stanheight #lawrence gordon #saw fanart #myart #asks

[ballpitwitch]

John Wick: Chapter 4 - Blu-ray Featurettes

#me 5'4": i will pick him up #Keanu Reeves #kreevesedit #keanuedit #* #this man is boyfriend shaped #my favorite shape #is he even alive if he's not rubbing his hands together #survey says no #he really laughs HEEEEEEEHEEEEE #and it is precious every time #going to sew pockets in everything i own just so i have a place to keep him #thank you for being so animated and talking with your hands #because H A N D S 👀👀👀 #if i speak.... #*cash register noise* *glass breaking* *car horn* #man do i love me some old man eye crinkles #...that's a sentence #it's true tho #*me trying not to scare new people away with my tags and probably failing* #is that double black denim my dude #very canadian of you but slightly cooler

[x-gon-give-it]

Headcanon, theory, prediction, whatever you want to call it,

but I think the reason that the universe Miquel hijacked collapsed, and not Miles, despite them both being “anomalies” is because Miquel was trying to change someone else’s story, as opposed to Miles who inspires other people to change their own stories.

Like, Miquel tried to force himself into a universe that wasn’t his. He took the place of his counterpart and pretended to be him, he was playing a part that wasn’t meant for him, he was changing a story that wasn’t his. And the universe rejected that.

Whereas Miles inspires people to change their own stories. His universe didn’t collapse because that’s HIS universe. It’s HIS story to tell, and sure the plot changed along the way, but he’s still telling it.

The same with 42-Miles. His story was drastically changed because he wasn’t bitten by that spider, but his universe isn’t collapsing because he’s the one still telling the story. He’s still shaping his own future.

And like how Miles inspired Peter B to have Mayday at all. Without Miles, Peter wouldn’t have gone back to his and he wouldn’t have had Mayday. But his universe isn’t collapsing because that’s a decision PETER made. No one forced him to make up with MJ and have Mayday. But Miles gave him faith and inspired him to go back and give life another try. (Don’t even get me started how Peter would have literally DIED if not for Miles. He was going to stay in Miles dimension. He was fully ready to deteriorate. He literally would have died if not for Miles saying “NO BITCH YOU GOTTA GO HOME” much less inspiring him to have Mayday, I’m just saying I’m just saying.)

And the thing is I don’t think Miquel realizes that. He’s so caught up in his grief and anger that he’s completely consumed with following canon and my never disrupting ANYTHING. He doesn’t realize that that universe collapsed because he tried to change someone ELSES story. He tried to become someone else to live their story. He didn’t try to make his own and that’s not how it works.

Idk just thinking thots tonight, And ATSV is always at the top of my brain

#i May just being delusional and rambling #but idk #it makes sense to me #im excited to see how the third movie ends #the conclusión #I WANT ANSWERS DAMMIT #gimme gimme gimme #also I think we collectively brushed over the fact real quick that Peter would have literally DIED if not for Miles #like i jusr think about that sometimes #Peter was in such a low place that he was okay with sacrificing himself in Miles’ universe #sacrificing himself to an INCREDIBLY painful death #but Miles saved him and inspired him to keep living and now he has a beautiful daughter and a beautiful wife #and he couldn’t have a better life if he tried #all thanks to that amazing kid who made him feel alive again #im deep in the feels tonight fam #i don’t know what else to say #peter parker #spider-man #miles Morales #miguel o'hara #Spider-Man 2099 #ATSV #ITSV #atsv spoilers

[realpokemon]

Fanart…

i've decided. her name is creampuff

#like puff the magic dragonite #thank you for the fan art. i am terrified #pokemon #unreality #pkmn irl #fanart #bart the gulpin #creampuff the shelgon #STILL MIGHT NOT KEEP HER. look alive #not naming her lisa

[celestial-artisan]

Vox, when he was a fresh overlord: Bye Alastor! Bye Carmilla! Bye Zestial! Bye Rosie! Bye Alastor! Velvette: You said 'Bye Alastor' twice. Vox: I like Alastor.

#hazbin hotel #incorrect quotes #hazbin hotel incorrect quotes #i actively HC vox used to have a personality like this #before he just became done with everything #radiodust #staticlovetune #vox #hazbin hotel vox #velvette #hazbin hotel velvette #velvette represents all the fans in my incorrect quotes #alastor #alastor the radio demon #vox the tv demon #thank you for all the attention you've been giving to my stupid little incorrect quotes they're kinda what's keeping me alive now #because life sometimes sucks #scratch that it always sucks #but seriously thank you #thank you and goodnight-

[red-hibiscus]

New you're doing great sweetie. He's telling them all the shit they needed to hear.

They are the reason Non went through all of that shit. If it wasn't for them Non would be alive and probably ok. He wouldn't have been in debt, raped, or worked to death. Even Phee, while I do think he did love Non and does regret his lack of actions, betrayed his own boyfriend and when he finally wanted to do something it was too late.

New lost everything and threw away what he still had left to hunt down answers and get revenge. He really does not care about ethics anymore. Why should he care when nobody cared about being a good person with Non?

I'm fully prepared for him to just annihilate everyone .

#pls keep white alive though #that baby really is just there at the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong person #white go team up with new thank you #bl series #lgbt #gay #thai bl #dead friend forever #dead friend forever the series #dff #dff the series

[gentlethempirate]

hey ! YOU !! 👉 do YOU like pirates? do you like queer romance? sitcoms?? do you care about the current state of the streaming and television landscape??? 👀 well you should probably sign this then!!

hbo has decided to cancel yet another queer show *except* this one is actually the most popular show on their platform! makes no sense!! let’s show them what they’re missing out on!! 🏴‍☠️❤️💪

#OFMD #our flag means death #save ofmd #renew as a crew #renew our flag means death #for real if you care about the state of my mental health you should sign because this show is single-handedly keeping alive thanks #frilly shirts and summer linens :>

[obiwan]

thanks kings

#met gala #met gala 2022 #succession #thanks for keeping fashion alive

[dailynakaharachuuya]

6. Yokai AU

#bungo stray dogs #bungo stray dogs chuuya #bungo stray dogs dazai #bungou stray dogs #bungou stray dogs chuuya #bungou stray dogs dazai #bsd #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #skk #soukoku #inktober 2023 #(No ones gonna understand what this means other than me since I have not mentioned anything about it) #(But thats okay haha) #(I love yokai au) #(Did you know I use to run a BSD yokai ask blog?) #(Do ask blogs still exist? Or am I too old) #(I wonder if theres any skk discords to join) #(I dont want to be the owner I can never keep a server alive) #(Okay okay enough of my rambling hahah thanks to anyone who even reads these tags)