#actually osddid

[chemicalcarousel]

how it feels when you have to act like the host around others

#system art #did art #osdd art #pdid art #osddid art #cdd art #actually did #actually osdd #actually pdid #actuallydid #actuallyosdd #actuallypdid #actually osddid #actuallyosddid #actually cdd #actuallycdd #cdd system #system things #system memes #did memes #osdd memes #cdd memes #dont think we have an art tag uuuhhhh #we do art #thats our tag now lol #ours #levi here #yo its sof

[lovef0ols]

scrolling through simplyplural is like:

"Oh a new alter."

keeps scrolling

"wait a minute."

"OH. A NEW ALTER??"

#[ 🌻 ] chloe #osdd #osddid #osdd1 #osdd 1b #endos dni #actually osddid #system #system stuff #system memes #did memes #simplyplural #did #new is honestly being used lightly here really it means anyone I didn't know about before #like hello sir #shoo #why r u here #uve been here. how long #u can't just make a simplyplural entry front for 3 days nearly nonstop and then disappear I need answers

[baristasyndicate]

does anyone else ever feel like pwCDDs cannot have hobbies without being fakeclaimed? like it sucks that i have to keep my rp blogs separate from my DID blogs just because... fuck me i guess?

like. same goes for tabletop rpgs. i apparently can't do d&d OR collaborative writing OR just writing in general. i feel like i have to pick between my hobbies and my system, but i can't just get rid of my alters. and i shouldn't just stop pursuing things i enjoy either. idk. just because i like to create fantasy worlds and make things with friends doesn't mean my LIFE is fake but ok i guess

#rant #actually polyfrag #actually osddid #actually did #did system #actually cdd #dissociative system #life stuff

[unrelentingembers]

hey y’all looking for some advice/insight if you have the energy for that rn

we have some major pruning of the “family” tree to do however we’re also a system and members have very mixed opinions and experiences with these people. the bottom line is they are harmful and unable or unwilling to address and correct their behavior. the relationships cannot continue as they are so regardless of the attachments folks may have these cut offs will be occurring. that said I’m trying to minimize the damage for us.

in the past when cutting people off the ramifications were great. lacking the understanding I have now of being a system meant that there was no communication prior to relationships ending. entire system reset occurred and i’d like to avoid that happening again.

younger parts especially don’t necessarily have a full understanding of everything so tips on working with them through this would be great. whether that’s from the perspective of another system or a parent bc honestly this is essentially parenting lmao. how tf do you explain to a traumatized child the complex layers of abuse and racism within the people that raised you and all this other shit when it’s something you’re still processing yourself. and in general how do you cope with removing people that still claim to love you without ever following that up with genuine actions😶

also long ass shot but if you have RAMCOA resources.. lemme know

if you made it this far thanks for reading🫶🏽

-Tarrin

#actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallyosdd #actuallytraumatized #actuallycptsd #Black DID system #did system #osdd system #actually osddid #osddid #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #complex dissociative disorder #cdd system #trauma #no contact #low contact #recovery #healing #advice

[aquaticfreakshow-sys]

Treat the body like a customizable character.

Do the things that make you feel at home and happy within your body.

Green hair? Get green hair!! We did :]

We're going teal next, then blue!!

We're tired of the "system fakers with dyed hair" bullshit all over tiktok and reddit. Fuck it, a fakeclaimers cliche is a systems comfort and existence. Dyed hair, odd makeup, anything.

For us, we are nonhuman. We are different. We aren't going to look like some plain everyday guy. Colored hair is part of that, wearing pointy ears and horns is part of that, dude - wearing cat ears could be part of that. Fangs, specific clothing items, any kind of unique style and expression is amazing.

Exist as you. Exist happily.

Fuck everyone else, you matter and their opinions don't.

[ endos/demos/etcetera DNI, read our DNI. They/Void/He pronouns only. ]

#dissociative identity disorder #complex dissociative disorder #diagnosed dissociative identity disorder #diagnosed did #osddid #didosdd #actually did #actually osddid #actually multiple #sysblr #did system #did sys #nonhuman #nonhuman alter #nonhuman alters #nonhuman host #self expression #self identity #self love #self confidence #cdd system #anti endo #anti endogenic #endos do not interact #endos dni

[fascistsarefreefood]

If you are under 18 and live in the UK I have some important information: in some areas you can refer yourself to CAMHS with an online form.

Just posting this on here because I only just found out recently and I wish I'd known sooner. CAMHS isn't the most amazing service in the world but it's worth a shot. There are options (at least in the form I filled out) so CAMHS won't even tell your parents you referred yourself (this probably won't apply for Sui and SH though) but it is an option. Please rb to let people know this is a thing

#mental health #mental illness #actually mentally ill #actually autistic #actually bpd #actually borderline #actually adhd #actually avpd #actually anxious #actually ana #actually anxiety #actually rsd #actually ocd #actually osddid #actually ptsd #actually paranoid #actually hpd #actually cptsd #actually bipolar #actually bullied #actually neurodivergent #actually maladaptive #signal boost

[npd-adds-to-my-sparkle]

Just realized I haven't posted in awhile! That's because my life is perfect and awesome and nothing ever goes wrong (sarcasm)

Anyways a few updates:

STILL WITH MY PARTNER! I love them deeply and I hope all of you find the connections and relationships you need right now. If you already have them I am so proud of you!

Got my appendix removed! It was very silly and I am still recovering from surgery lmao

Might be motivated to create art and such again!! Hooray!

Anyway gimme songs in the tags that you relate to as a Cluster B or System and such. Rant about it!! Put your favorite line!!! I want to hear them!!!

One of my favorites is The Bomb by Florence + The Machine, but that entire album is amazing I reccomend it heavily

#actually cluster b #cluster b #actually npd #npd #cluster b safe #npd safe #osddid #actually osddid #cw surgery #surgery mention #weather update!

[chaos-lizard]

Introduction

Hi, we (Charmeleon or Charizard) are plural. We are 2 souls in a Soulbond, who each have our own systems. We share a body and share this account.

Individually we are:

Char/Chard/Chaos - from this universe

and

Leon/Liz - from a somewhat similar but different universe

(We believe in the multiverse theory btw)

We have social paranoia & posting anywhere is always terrifying but we also want to express ourselves. We made this as a place for all of our system to be themselves if they want, at the pace they want. Especially for some parts of us to feel more real and humanized. We have been dehumanized a lot and relate to Voidpunk a lot.

We like talking about stuff and making art. Surrealism and/or horror art often.

#actually plural #soulbond #actually schizoid #actually schizotypal #actually schizospec #actually audhd #actually dissociative #actually osddid #multiverse theory #plurality #plural system #actually chronically ill #actually disabled #actually mentally ill #voidpunk #actually stpd #actually szpd #semiverbal

[pplatonic]

This is a callout for one of our alters Raziel Lusanctum. Ae sprayed fucking febreeze in our face TWICE the dumbass. According to the messages ae literally read the back of the bottle that said "DO NOT SPRAY DIRECTLY IN FACE" and then proceeded to spray it DIRECTLY INTO THE BODY'S FACE. Get dunce capped idiot

#actually osddid #actually a system #system #dissociative system #sysblr #system memes #headmate callouts #traumagenic system #did #osddid #did osdd

[revenantsystem]

me, trying to find a way to refer to some of our alters irl without letting on that they're fictives of characters who are incredibly popular right now.

Astarion, threatening to kill me every time i even think of assigning him some sort of nickname or diminutive

#j #txt #actually osddid

[chemicalcarousel]

system where all parts are hyper avoidant of conflict and will definitely let themselves get abused to avoid making thyoe abuser upset except that one spiteful bastard who wishes death upon any stranger online who disagrees with them on the silliest stuff

#tw abuse #tw violent language #tw violent thoughts #actuallydid #actuallypdid #actuallyosdd #actuallyosddid #actually did #actually pdid #actually p did #actually osdd #actually osddid #cdd system #system things #did things #osdd things #pdid things #osddid things #cdd things #idk what tags to use aaaaa #ours #levi is our protector and bless his soul #but he has so much anger in him too #so we have to handle that #a mix of both worlds or whatever /lh

[bitter-bloodbank]

asking here bc yeah.

does anyone know of any 18+ system servers? no, not for porn. i just dont want to engage in system talk with minors anymore. i want to engage in system talk with other adults.

we’re 24, its getting a bit uncomfortable to keep engaging with people who are a decade younger than us. i also want to be able to connect and possibly relate to other adults as well.

i would love if you could dm us! we dont mind how active/inactive the server is, we just want a place to hang out with other adults <3 /p -kas

mass tagging this to get it around!!  sorry. not overstepping, of course.

#syscourse #endos dni #anti endo #actually traumagenic #actually DID #actually OSDD #actually OSDDID #OSDDID #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder

[unstablemotions]

No, you're not bad for feeling empathy for your abuser(s)

TW // csa , incest , physical ca , emotional ca

Partially a post for ourselves to process things, partially something we hope could make others feel less alone <3

It's okay to have complicated, contradicting feelings about your abuser(s). We are personally struggling with the fact that we have empathy for our grandma who's not only abused us, but also dozens other kids - her own and others - physically, emotionally and sexually. Our empathy is what she manipulated us into feeling for her. Our empathy is what we had to possess to survive in an environment where we weren't able to handle seeing her as the monster that she truly is. No alters of our system like her, but we have different feelings towards her. Some have 0 fucking empathy for her and would like to kill her in the most painful, drawn out way possible. Some of us are just scared and will fawn or freeze if we were to deal with her again (we've tried to cut her off). Others feel bad for her, since we know she's genuinely lonely and struggling mentally due to her own severe childhood trauma, yet we also know that it's no excuse - especially when she clearly knows it's wrong shown by her keeping her abuse secret from others and focusing it on people who can't tell anyone what she's doing (fx too young to speak or in other situations where she's holding power over them)

So you're not alone in this or a "bad person" - even if you feel sorry for someone who's done such horrible, indescribable things. Your brain is trying to keep you alive in whatever way it believes will work, and if that is to have empathy for the very people hurting you, then it will do that. Abusers will also often very much deliberately manipulate you into being compassionate for them. You're not weak, stupid or horrible for having been made into feeling bad for or even loving them. This can happen to anyone and it doesn't reflect your morals. It's a trauma response

Maybe this makes 0 sense. We struggle making well formulated posts, but we needed to at least write it down for ourselves to process these struggles. Take care <3

#tw csa #tw child abuse #tw abuse #tw incest #actuallyabused #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallycdd #actuallydid #actuallyosdd #actuallyosddid #actuallytraumatized #actually ptsd #actually cptsd #actually cdd #actually traumatized #actually abused #actually osdd #actually did #actually osddid #my posts #personal

[sleepy-eyes-system]

WELCOME TO WEENIE HUT JR’S!

What we offer:

- A safe space for teenage alters (13-17) in adult bodies for when you wanna hang out with other teens but you don’t feel comfortable around bodily minors!

- 18+ SFW environment!

- simple verification to weed out raiders and trolls

- Screen reader safe!

- Reaction roles

- Mimu with a few roles for sale

- Endo free environment!

- Opt in channels for POC, LGBT/MOGAI, neurodivergent, and disabled folks

**Please note that although this server is focused on teen alters, alters of all ages are allowed here.**

**Also note that if you are bodily under 18, this isn’t the server for you.**

#system #actually dissociative #actually osddid #traumagenic #system teens #systeens

[vixensandfoxes]

As a persecutor dating another persecutor, both of us recovering, i feel super sappy and would like to say

It's fine when you relapse, you know ? I don't mean my partner, but like, every single one of us. It'll happen. Sometimes something grabs the little parts of you that are still so sensitive. And it rips it out in the open. And you snap. And it's scarry and painful and it SUCKS. And you will relapse a bit. And it's okay but listen to me. Take it from me if nobody else says it to you :

You're still loved more than a mama bear loves her cubs, more than the weight of all the oceans put together and more than the emptiness of space. You are loved so fucking much ! And you're not alone. I won't fight for you, but i *will* fight alongside you. And be angry, and cry, and fuck, and scream, and run. With you always. Untill you feel better again, and start healing again. I'm not scared of your dark, it won't taint me, it won't scar me. It makes everything real, your pain is strenght too, i'll help carry it every single time you let me !

You are still an incredibly valuable and loved and beautiful person when you relapse. It will be okay, it will get better. You are not alone. Hang in there <3

#omegapost #persecutor #osddid #did osdd #actually osddid #actually did #cptsd #ptsd #share love #recovery #healing #idk what else to tag jeeze XD #drink water #sappy vampire

[the-er-system]

Funny sort of quirk we have-

When trying to figure out whose fronting, whoever is up front will often be like “Is X fronting?” or “Is this X?” which is obviously followed by “Well if you have to ask then the answer is no.”

#system memes #actually osddid #actually a system #endos dni #just girly things