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inkybloom-luv · 6 months

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hi hi inky!! i hope youre doing well!!! i thought about my request and i decided to do something basic ^^ i hope asking for headcanons is okay? i didnt see any hc specific rules so UH IF!! YOU DONT WANT TO WRITE HCS DRABBLES ARE FINE!! WHICHEVER IS EASIER FO RYOU IM NOT PICKY!!!

im sure a lot of people can relate to this so yk,,, may i request azul (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and trey with a significant other thats very reserved around new people (like clings to them during social events and group projects but is still capable of working on their own if that makes sense?) just overall someone who feels really safe with them!! and theyre super bubbly and teasing when theyre around but with everyone else theyre :I

I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE?!?!? AND IF YOU DECIDE TO WRITE THSI REQUEST I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN!!! SUPER EXCITED TO SEE WHAT YOU WHIP UP EHEHEHEH and make sure youre drinking water and resting when you need to ^^ i will stop mothering you now just know that jamil loves u <3

Shy? Not quite

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Heyyyy I'm genuinely ashamed at how long this took me but ig I just needed better music?? Literally the second I put on the song I'm listening to rn it just came out like organized word vomit- anyway!!! HOPE YOU ENJOY I AM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT

Characters; Trey Clover and Azul Ashengrotto

Content; Trey and Azul hc's with a S/O who is reserved around most others, especially in a social setting but bubbly and teasing around them

Gender neutral pronouns used!

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Trey Clover

• I feel like Trey knows how to deal with a S/O that behaves in such a way

• He has siblings and in a way that’s how they act. That means he, in a way, knows how to handle the situation, but that doesn’t mean he’s not surprised when they act like that the first time.

• He remembers that clearly, they were teasing, joking and laughing on their way to an event but how much they quieted down once there almost shocked him.

• Almost because his sibling mode kicked in. He didn’t even realise until he’d taken most of the attention off them actually

• He didn’t ask what exactly happened with them at the event but when they left and were sitting back at home he did.

• He felt happy when they were back to their usual self although the teasing did make him grin sheepishly.

• He felt even happier when he learned the true nature of that shift; the fact they felt so safe with him that they could be themselves. The teasing sure did always catch him slightly off guard though

• Expect your favourite treat the next day with a sweet note and perhaps a few extra bits of affect here and there throughout the day

Azul Ashengrotto

• On the outside you wouldn’t think Azul was all that affected by his S/O’s behaviour

• Oh how wrong you’d be because he was very much affected!!

• Not that he chose to show it mind you, but their behaviour sure threw his poor heart through a predator-filled tsunami

• Regardless of that his acting barely faltered at the event itself though he did shoot them quite a few more glances than usual, as he was actually worried they were not feeling well.

• He actually asked about half an hour to an hour into the event if they were alright due to their suddenly much cooler nature.

• They were handling tasks with others rather well but still he was worried, so it put them at ease when they said everything was alright.

• He told them to speak up should they be uncomfortable or not feeling well regardless though.

• Like Trey he also only asked once having left the event and in the privacy of his office.

• To say his heard sputtered and his cheeks grew red for long enough to be caught like that would be divulging secrets, but here we are anyway.

• He did catch himself but he now knew they felt safe with him, safe by his side.. and perhaps he’d recognise soon he feels the same way about you.

#moots!! <3 #auburn! 🐙#inky's works #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland Trey #Trey Clover #trey clover x reader #azul ashengrotto #twst trey #twst azul #twst x reader #disney twst #twst #twst wonderland #azul x reader #azul ashengrotto x reader

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tonberry-yoda · 1 year

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Fluff alphabet for Chrollo, but with the letters in “reading”

Chrollo Fluff Alphabet

notes - ANON YOU READ ME LIKE A BOOK! I have been SIMPING for Chrollo lately, so you are just quenching my thirst rn <3 thank you so much love and dont forget to stay hydrated and well!! sending lots of love and hugs :)

based on this post

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

I think we know how romantic this man is. But since I am the writer, I will go further in depth for you. He loves romantic dinners, wine, late night, all that. Going out at night in the rain just to watch it. He would buy you roses and dancing in the kitchen with you. overall, he shows his love VERY romantically and loves you so so much. Even if it's cliche, it makes you overjoyed

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

I would say he is more dominant because he is very protective over you. He literally runs the phantom troupe, so he definitely takes the lead as the dominant one always wanting to protect you and be the one you can look up to

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Dancing in the rain, sitting by the fireplace and reading, walking late at night, getting dinner, cooking for you, laying in bed with you to just listen to the rain, talking to you until 3 in the morning, reading the bible to you if you want to hear the stories and his takes on them. As you can see, Tonberry has thought about this a lot... :) But overall, he just wants to be by you and doing romantic activities. Just spending time with you is enough <3

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

He wants a peaceful future with you. He wants to have a future without killing and having to run and be afraid. He wants a small home with just you and him and wants to know that the rest of his spiders are okay and safe. He wants a future where he doesnt want to worry about anything but what he is going to be doing for the day. He wants a future where you are by his side and you are both smiling. He just wants you both to be happy and safe <3

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

You were able to convince Chrollo to take life slow. He was always having to rush in life and worry about everything, but you let him slow down and relax. He was also finally able to do all of the romantic things he wished of doing with someone and that made him very happy. You also are very willing to listen to his past trauma and he will listen to yours, so you both have overcome a lot talking to each other like that

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

Love, my love, darling, dear, dearest, lovely, angel, doll

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

He is VERY grateful for you. Friends mean everything to him and become family, as we've seen his relationship with the troupe. When you entered his life, you changed something more in him and made him feel loved all over again. He never felt alone, but when he met you, he felt like there was an empty pit inside of him that filled. For that, he is forever grateful and happier than anyone with all that you have done for him <3333

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ro-botany · 1 month

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y'all HELP i'm indecisive as shit

this is by no means a guarantee that i finish anything, much less in a timely manner, i just. need to pick a Direction to point my brain. choices hard robot tired.

propaganda for all options i guess:

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The bittersweet one:

it's all planned thank fuck i dont have to worry about getting lost in my own plot

i am currently rotating frederick in my mind a lot why not do that some more

fun excuses to fuck around with some minor end/postgame robin headcanons since idk if people picked up some of the stuff i snuck into my debut fic

BUT... it's gonna be like 95% dialogue by volume. dialogue is so hard. making people talk and making it interesting is HARD... but there's just no action scene potential in this... it's all Missing Conversations... augh.

The happier one:

gets me out of the angst hole for a second. sometimes its nice to write a lighter-hearted thing :)

i get to bullshit about magic. and ignore several rules of magic for the purposes of Fun. >:D

it's looking like there's gonna be more Doing Stuff moments than there will be Talking moments so it could be refreshing

BUT it's not plotted AT ALL and i have no idea what the scope of it is and that scares me. AUGH.

"just start posting bits of it on the fly if plotting isn't working" i think i would actually implode and die if i did that, hypothetical suggestion giver. im mortally afraid of writing myself into a corner fhdsjkfhs

The rkc one???:

surprise its actually feh! but it consists of 99% awakening characters, feh is just a setting that provides a convenient excuse for certain characters to meet because i couldn't find an appropriate moment for it in awakening canon, so idk man

mmmm delicious angst. i get to throw all three (four??) of our main characters into Pain And Suffering. >:::)

this one has been stuck in the plotting dungeon for MONTHS i have NO CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH IT all i have is one (1) character interaction and a fucking prayer

seriously im in such a corner with this one. it won't cooperate with me. AUGH.

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dracula-enthusiast · 6 months

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commenting on ur chainshipping post days later through anon instead of reply: ITS ABOUT THE PROCESS!!! having gay sex of the mind in a grimy bathroom while one of you is still technically married does not an immediate healthy relationship make, and i truly believe that it would become healthy if they had the chance, but it would take TIME and i'm INTERESTED IN THE TIME

nodding my head and shaking ur hand rn bc yeah 100% it is about the journey to that happy ending thats much more interesting than the ending itself!!

but i definitely agree that they would end up in a much happier healthier place with each other given time, especially because they both strike me as very stubborn people and i dont think they would give up on their relationship before it could happen.

#u get it u get the vision #saw #chainshipping #asks #also im so obsessed w the phrase gay sex of the mind thats literally what was happening when lawrence watched adam smoke the cigarette #saw posting

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boytoyhalo · 6 months

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am i the only one who really dislikes the idea of there being a "cursed team" ???? like i'm seriously hoping it's only there to make the stakes for the eggs seem higher than they are because if it's a real actual mechanic that there is a chosen team that CAN'T WIN or else all your kids die teehee but you dont get to know which one!!! :3 then that's just. fucked. like it's stupidly fucked up that's so unfair both to the players and the viewers to put everyone through TWO WEEKS of this survival games style competition (which i love to be clear) where one team just straight up has no chance of actually winning???? I mean so far this whole event seems deliberately unbalanced (which is very very interesting and I'm waiting to see if it gets fixed before i try to theorize about it) but to make it unfair to that degree AND stake all of the eggs lives on it goes past being challenging or angsty and straight to just being actually cruel??? idk i think that would genuinely be kind of an asshole move on the admins part and I'm really hoping it's just there to be a lore plot device and not an actual part of the game. I hope that they just end up saying that whatever team wins was the cursed one the whole time and all the eggs die and the islanders call this eye fucker out on it's bullshit and band together and bring all the eggs back alive or something - i see no way for it to be an actual game mechanic that would be enjoyable for the players OR the viewers. IK the eggs were initially meant to be a temporary event but it would really fucking suck if we all spent this much time getting attached to them AND 2 months mourning their disappearance AND the whole lead up to this event being framed around rescuing them (which was a bit dishonest if u ask me but that's a different topic that I don't really think is important enought to warrant it's own post rn ) only for them to actually just get killed off like that. frankly even if it werent for the whole competition preceding it that's just a bit too grimdark for a minecraft roleplay that has been largely defined by it's happier moments so far.

anyway... i LOVE angst i LOVE watching my favorite characters get pushed to their limits and i'm so excited to see that happen but there's a delicate balance you need to keep between making things appropriately challenging and heavy and still keeping them fun for the people involved (fanbase included) and if there seriously is a 1/3 chance that no one wins and all the eggs die then that just. isn't fun I don't think. ESPECIALLY if the teams stay as ridiculously unbalanced as they are right now. I'm pretty certain the admins will sort things out because it's only day one and they've always been good at responding to feedback but.I'm a bit nervous ngl.

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #critical #qsmp critical #rambling #didnt mean for this to be as long as it is but ehh #but a

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awsugar · 3 months

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Flat White, Mocha, Herbal Tea?

Coffee or Tea? COFFEE!! i dont drink as much coffee as i used to sicne i moved, purely due to the convenience aspect. but i had my coffee today it was great.

Dream Job? i never grew out of wanting to be a rockstar/touring musician. but like more "realistically" i wish i worked in the music industry. i used to enjoy my job but rn i fucking hate it. and i dont think ill ever achieve my dreams but yea i think it would make me happier to work in the music industry and feeling like i was doing something to make a difference in peoples lives the way music impacted MY life. obviously i know music industry jobs dont all accomplish that feeling but like you know what i mean. i think maybe the reason i never achieved working in that industry is because i dont have a specific role in mind. i just want to work in music.

You’re at a candle shop, what scented candle do you buy? something that smells like food, most likely dessert. i love candles that smell like...like vanilla, cupcake, carmel, pie, etc. i love warm scents way more than "fresh" scents or anything floral.

thank you!! <3

#nocturnalxsaint #asks

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mel-loly · 11 months

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MELLL YOU ARE LITERALY THE BEST!! so sad that you had a bad day :((( you always deserve the best you are amazing even if you dont see that!! and i will always tell you how amazing you are even if you dont agree, im lucky yo have someone like you in my life/someone like you wanting to be with me and im super happy everytime you talk to me!!

answearing you question i am ok im just having a bit of a headache but i will be fine <3 ily!!!

I- I......I'm literally crying right now, and I'm REALLY not joking....My day really was pretty bad, I just didn't want to say that because I didn't want to worry you or something, the only thing I want rn and that I promised myself is to see you happy, to see you well, so- I... I just.. I love you so much, Mike, I love you so much that I think 30 or 40 minutes have gone by thanking God for having you here, being so kind and loving to me, and everything went in its time.. It may have taken a while, and that I have suffered because I really always loved you, but it was worth it, and I'm glad it was like this and not in a hurry, because of that we are now here, together! It may be platonically, but if you saw how happy I feel to be with you even in a different way, you would know too how happy I am to have received this ask after a very difficult day...

Thank you so much for everything, Mike, not only for sending me this ask of affection and love, but also for everything, for being who you are, for being faithful, for always being with me at any time, for being sincere and respectful to me also too.. Thank you a lot, for everything, I love you, Mike, and I love you for real, I don't love you for the way you treat me, but for who you are, for who you showed yourself to be and still show yourself to be someone more special than anything in my life, because you are amazing, someone who has always made me happy with everything you do, not EVERYTHING but you understand what I mean, right?? Lol- at least I'm sure that now I'm with the right person, and even with the person I always wanted to be with! Without lying- my dream was this, being with you, so.. Yeah, I'm super happy to be with you, and now I'm even happier to receive your affection so loved and kind, that I always love to receive, in a difficult day! Like- as I always say and God always knows I'm right, "you always make my days better". Anyways- thank you so much for everything Mike, you are amazing, with a big heart and very kind, I hope I can repay you all that affection when you need it too/or not need and want anyways! I know it won't be AS good as yours but I will always do my best to see you happy, I love you a lot, my special kind silly💛

Oh, I hope that in all this time it took me to answer you it has already improved a little, if not- I will pray for you! I hope everything goes well! ily a lot more!!! <3333

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shadowynn · 10 months

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hey there, im sam, nice to meet you!

im a recent follower and started reading ilal around last month i think? i guess i got here when you had just released chapter 8. im such a big fan of this fic, you have no idea! its probably one of my favorites in all ateez tumblr rn. i wasnt a fan of fanfics that have chapters (ive read one-shots for the longest time) but this preference has started to change recently and ilal has a major role in it. the story and universe is amazing, im truly amazed!

and i love how you write y/n, i see myself A LOT in her. major intimacy and vulnerability fear gang here :)) i swear that some of her thoughts have been literally the same as mine's and thats so endearing and self indulgent to me. i also love her relationship with her sibilings! then being so close is such a heartfelt element in the story for me, as a person whos rlly attached to my sibilings too. and im not even gonna start talking ab the members or else ill write a full thesis about every. single. one. of. them. and. how. they. treat. and. treasure. y/n. so. fucking. much. even though ther relationship has problems.

just wanted to say hi, present myself and say that ill probably be a frequent in your asks specially to talk ab ilal. you're a wonderful writer! thank you so so much for sharing your talent with us! :)

ps. (1): a special thanks for using hongjoong's cruella hair in ilal. as a joong biased who was obssessed w cruella in teenage and loves his hair like that ive never been hapPIER

ps. (2): just saw this reel right b4 sending this ask and althought i imagine their clothing to not be so fancy during the trip (is is the correct word? struggles in non native english speaker) to taeyang, but this is chapter 11 yunho to me. i dont make the rules.

hi!! it's so nice to meet you too!

i'm so glad you enjoy ilal! it's been an absolute pleasure to write, and i enjoy nothing more than getting to share it with all of you! and wow, i'm so glad you gave ilal a chance! that really means a lot! i've always been more of a chapter person myself, but i completely understand why one-shots can be preferable because then you don't have to wait weeks/months to get more. i've wanted/thought about writing more one-shots myself, but sadly, i'm not very good with it. an idea gets into my head and then i write way too many words. which is also a problem because i usually struggle with finishing things. my drive is literally full of unfinished works. oops. but don't worry, i have never been more motivated to finish a fic before ilal. like, this one is going to be the one that i finally finish.

i'm so glad you love y/n's characteristics. i'm honestly really bad about using my own personalities and characteristics in characters i write because it's easier. and i think ilal y/n is probably the closest person i've written to myself. i didn't really mean for it to be that way, but oops. i'm glad though that you and others can relate to y/n though, and to know you're not the only one who struggles in areas like those. (like literally, i've been with my partner for almost three years now and i still struggle with being vulnerable around them.)

i don't usually write characters with siblings in my works, which i don't really know why because i also am lucky to have a very close relationship with my siblings, but it has been very fun to write!

i'm so glad you dropped by! i literally love chatting with all you lovely people, so always feel free to send an ask or a dm my way! i may be a bit slow to reply at times, but i will always try my best to reply!

(and cruella hongjoong is my favorite joong, so i couldn't not. and i won't lie, i have to restrain myself from using him for every one of my writings. oops.)

(ahh, this actually made me laugh. and, yes, while it would not technically be canon clothes wise, please feel free to imagine things however you want in your head. because, let's be honest, i think everyone wants this version of yunho.)

#winnie speaks

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valleynix · 2 years

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Oh God, i completely forgot to mention in my last review about my feelings towards Miranda! I was so caught up with theories and my love for Cass and all the other things, so it slipped my mind, but here i am! Again. Sorry if im being too invested and write too much, id probably get bored of myself already(:

So. I know Miranda is like the main villain and all, but since last month ive been reading a lot about her, watching, investigating and im not embarrassed to say i love this character almost as much as i love the Dimitrescus. It pains me to see so little fics written about her as the main character, truly. Yes, she's the villain, yes, she's hurt a lot of people, killed a lot, but so did the sisters? The Lady D? So if we can redeem them, even if their motives are just hunger, sure as hell we can forgive Miri her urge to bring her daughter back. Her daughter! And now im embarrassed to say that id probably do the same thing if a had a chance to bring my loved ones back, even if i dont have kids rn. Sad, but true. I think most of us would try to.

So what im trying to say, is that when i first started to read LPA i was like yes, Miranda can go to hell, but now, when i got the whole picture and i really know the character the game gave us i have to say i love her a lot and that now i have to shove my feelings for her out out the window when i read such works where she's supposed to be hated. But its okay really, im used to it by now:D

And so im really disappointed to see how little fics are out there about Miranda and mcs being together, bringing Eva back, loving each other dearly (because i certainly would!), caring about each other. Where mc makes her feel better, wiser, truly happier. Ive see like one fic about that and thats just it, no more. Thats so sad and makes me kinda want to write something myself but im too busy with finals right now.

But anyways, even if Mother Miranda is a bitch sometimes i love Miri dearly. And i get why she receives hate so much (not literally but you get the idea) but i just love her as a character. I even started drawing her portrait on my wall right next to Dani's and let me tell you - her wings are a missive pain in the ass even tho i adore them. All those little feathers and lights they reflect, jeez, so hard to pain! Still worth it tho.

And she's so divine and so godly and strong and beautiful and powerful. And she's so smart! God, she's so smart. And when she grins evilly just like that-

Again, sorry for rambling, just wanted to get this out of my chest.

As always, sending my love for you and for LPA. Stay safe❤️

i could literally never grow bored of you; your reviews/asks/messages are the highlights of my day <33

as much as i've said i don't like her and call her a feathery bitch in my writing, miranda is still a very intriguing character. like, have you read her lore? homegirl was deadass about to kill herself because she lost her daughter and couldn't save her. also, i imagine a lot of the extent she goes to in order to revive eva is because of the mold, since I'm assuming it definitely alters peoples' minds and makes them cruel (like the bakers in RE7)

a lot of people in fics, i've noticed, tend to make her out to be a 2D antagonist who does horrible stuff just because she can. in LPA (and later in TPtM), I've tried to give her very good reasons for what she does. losing her loved ones over and over, being unable to revive them, no matter what you do... that takes a toll on people, and miri's been alive for over a century, if I'm not mistaken. she's just traumatized and wants her family back

but, you're completely right. we forgive lady d and her daughters for being cruel and write off their horrible actions, but many can't do the same for miri? she has motives behind her actions, even in canon, and she's a very good villain. she deserved more screen time than what she got

we need more fics of miranda and the mc being together and being *happy*. she deserves it after everything she's gone through. she deserves to hold her daughter again

i'd definitely love to see your paintings one day! I'm sure they look lovely and you probably capture them so well <3 i can only imagine how difficult the details of her feathers are, but you've got this! and, maybe when you have some free time, you could be the one to write that happy fic with miri and her love?

you never have to apologize for speaking your thoughts, i love hearing them. come to my ask box or DMs anytime you like, and stay safe and healthy during your finals. you got this <33

#asks #long post #i talk mad shit about her on tiktok #but honestly she intrigues me #i read her lore not too long ago when i started writing tptm to get a better feel for her #and it pains me to read #like yes shes a horrible person #but honestly #if i was in her position #if i'd lost my daughter and couldn't save her no matter what i did #and if i was infected by the mold for over a century while i did what i could to bring back my daughter #id be a little crazy too #a good villain/antagonist is one we can relate to #even if they go to extreme measures #and while i dont have kids #i can understand why she'd want to go through all this trouble #and why she'd be a little crazy and cruel #you see how happy she looks when she thinks she FINALLY brought eva back in rose?#and how quickly that was crushed?#that actually hurt me #like it physically pained me #give miri a break 2022

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momiamtired · 1 month

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i tremble and panic when remembering what my life will be. im scared and lonely and i dont want anything else, just to see my family and home. for some reason i feel like in mt first days here, and even then it wasnt that bad. im afraid of the idea that i have to get used to this. i don t find living in the apartments and going to work that scary but still just understanding of how life plays with me makes me feel misserable. oh how i wish i never looked up this university in google, when i was lying in my warm bed at the winter, excited, because i found western university that will bring me to my dreams and actually is afordable for my family. i feel so stupid and im so sorry dad i am you spend so much money on me and im not even grateful. this fucker oh fuck he asks if 2 pm is okay for me. i dont think any pm is okay for me. i think tomorrow will be horrible. i dont think he thinks of me in a romantic way, he has some chicks name in his user name sticker. i fucking hate him. but i wish he could comfort me. he probably doesnt care in the slightest ab me. for some reason i kinda feel like omori? is this a strange reference idk. well omori song just started playing so i thought of it. i feel like i dont really should be in this world. i want to come back to what it used to be. i guess a lot of people think about the same things but uh yeah. i guess tomorrows gonna be awful. i really dont want to see him espercially this early but i have to get out of the house, it will fucking eat me alive. i must have studied a lot today but ima lazy ass and cryed all day. i hate that the idea of crying is so normalized today. its like oooh i cried because of this dead pigeon!! wtf no i believe tears are not for this. people cry when they experience strong emotions. my other roommate is singing songs in the shower god i hate her. its 9 pm btw. she screams like a pig. sometimes she is nice and i truly believe she is a nice person. i still hate her and would like to see her dead. but no right now. im not that angry right now. when i think of my mom i start to cry. i miss her so much. it was always like this when i was a kid, i would always cry when i was at sleepovers. i dont know why, its a strange feeling. it is reallt strange. when im okay i dont even want to talk to her, its like i dont have a lot of stimuli to do so? but when i feel bad the only oerson i want to call is her. i guess shes the only one who i believe would reallt care. not even my best friend who i would always call the best person in my life. im just a bad person. when she tells me that something happened to her im always kinda happy it happened. its not always like this but sometimes i feel like oh lol ye u deserved it bc there is enough good in ur life. im just an awful always jelous person. i guess world would be a better place without people like me. people like me are the people who shoot schools. i would be happier if it uh fuck again its like when u remembering something like just spontaneus and u immediately start to cry and tremble and like idk feel bad? i feel so so so homesick. i didnt feel that homesick at the start and here i am after 3 months here. i really love my parents and actually my home i am so sorry that i never told anyone this or idk oh god im so so sorry i never respected never understood. i guess its just that im homesick and my home isnt that good but tbh i cant of a thing better rn than my home. fuck any other place. fuck heaven. i just wish i could my cat and my mom sitting and talking loud at 7 am when the sun is rising with her mom and she will make me awake and i will go and ask her to be quiet really angryshly and she will go to her room and i will try to sleep again but now i cant so i smoke my vape and browse through tiktok, lying in underwear and some t shirt, then my cat will come to me and start meowing for me to play with him, i will annoignly play alittle bit with him and then proceed to do my every day morning chores. but summer in my country when u have friends is amazing. i mean my city. okay i will end now to mush words

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phoebe-puffs · 2 years

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something id like to say where my husband can read it and i dont have to worry about posting to fb because of who can read/view it...

hes having a tough time mentally as of late due to his job and possibly other factors such as mental illness and enviormental factors such as fostering animals he has to take care of when he really shouldnt be doing it etc..

i want him to know that i love him, deeply and truly amd that my love nor faith in him has ever waivered. he gets it done, hes smart, handsome, funny, and he knows how to make me smile even if my brain thinks im a slave to its entrapment and therefore deserve less than basic decency. sometimes i get in my head and beat myself up for simple mistakes or when i upset him like in a talk we are having or something happens.. hes the one who held my hands and urged me to take a step, a step towards living for not only him but for myself. i still struggle with this whole living for myself thing but with him by my side showing me how beautiful life can be, despite the hardships and pain weve both been through..

when he gifted me his dads wedding band as my engagement ring, i couldnt have been happier. i know deep in my heart, that if my dad was here, things yes would be a lot different, but he would welcome him warmly as my mother has. i wish i couldve met his dad.. tell him everything i love aboht his son and how hearing his "hi honey" makes me wiggle my toes either mentally or physically and warm inside. i want to visit him one day, to give flowers, sit next to his tree, tell him stories of how we met and hiw he has healed me, how many adventures wr have been on!

he holds my hand when the fear gets too much, he lets me listen to his heartbeat when i get overwhelmed, his voice can bring me back from my daydream or from the clouds almost in an instant. i want him to know that he can count on me too. i know its probably been tough, dealing with me and supporting me but i want him to know that even if i am armed with a sword in my psyche, i am armed with a large sheild for him. we light each others dark, damp world amd make it bearable, together.

i love you and okay maybe im crying rn bc i want to be there at your house across the country, waiting to welcome you home with a "hi love welcome home!" in a warm tone. seeing each other would be nice again, but when my disability is decided, and approved, i will be visiting, even if i dont have my lisence yet. i want to be the present you get to see when walking out of your room on christmas. ill have jax wrap me in paper or something but i cant contain my excitement that long so i may just wake you myself.

*nuzzles* seeing you smile is all i need to face my fears. i love you, and cant wait to be with you forever.

@neosneopolitan

#ruby look #long post #long distant relationship #i love you #never forget

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seoksoonhoon · 2 years

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gym bro jihoon gym addict soonyoung and soonyoung's hot friend who shows up sometimes (seokmin). another ssh au

like we talk about seokmin being cute but we never talk about seokmin being hot nearly enough. have you seen that man. have u seen him. like. have you seen him.... winking.........

seokmin is formally introduced when he shows up in a padded jacket and mask looking tall as he is and soonyoung wraps his arm around seokmin's like "heyyyyy jihoon-ah this is my bestie seokmin!!!" or something

(this is inspired by how jihoon just casually watched soonyoung work out on vlive and corrected his posture....... this man wont ever say shit like "you looked hot" or "flexing those muscles i taught you how to gain, ey?" but very closely analyse his pullup posture and for what? like I fucking Hate Them so much)

But That's Besides The Point the point is seokmin starts to appear near the end of soonyoung's gym sessions and they eventually just talk while soonyoung washes up and gets ready to leave. one day seokmin shows up in a tank top (jihoon found frothing at rhe mouth so true) and then seokmin waves like "i signed up for gym membership recently too can i just join you and soonyoung's session? he said it'll be fine" and who is jihoon to decline seokmin all smiley and cute and maybe he wants to cuddle him! but you really didnt hear that from him!!!!!

and then seokmin starts working out yes, and then one day seokmin makes an offhand comment or maybe shoots a random sentence at jihoon like casually like "thanks for the session today" he winks and you know what maybe seokmin is actually indeed very sexy and he is very sexy when he's sweaty anf you can see his actually very sculpted back right through the fabric.......... yeah. jihoon may go insane smiley face Ya like i need more people to write about jihoon Yearning and just like idk FREAKIBG OUT. BC LIKE. dont look em in the eye and tell me he doesnt have an emotional reaction to shit IM WAVING MY HANDS TO TELL YOU HE DOES

one time: it's raining and there's no umbrella and so jihoon has to walk in the rain (not ideal) but then seoksoon are there like you can come over instead (very ideal) so jihoon goes over and oh my god sksn are such good hosts he??? malfunctioning??? and hes so well taken care of seokmin even asks him how he likes his eggs. can you believe it??

and so he's in an apartment in a room in a living room with a tv with a very sexy man's thighs pressed up against him and the other man cooking eggs and man can he ever feel any happier in his gay little life? its a bit awkward though because he's pretty sure he's still jealous of seokmin for being able to be so comfortable with soonyoung bc u know theyre friends flr longer etc etc because soonyoung is so pretty and funny and everything he's ever needed but the moment seokmin's came into his life maybe he thinks god i really need him too please let me have him. so he's kinda confused rn and needs to do more research but!!! We Like character development

they have a phase where they go over to each others' houses etc which is really nice and fun and one day seoksoon tell jihoon theyre dating and oh thats nice and jihoons happy but damn he cant even have one he doesnt even have a chance w one of them so he kinda mopes because I would. so idk. Or something. REALISTICALLY THIS IS UNNECESSARY but i need something for hurt/comfort im like insubstantial idk anyways. stress playing on guitar, stress exercising to the point the next time they have their gym sesh jihoon cant even get up to demo because his arms and legs hurt from overexertion from yesterday's session and yesterday's and yesterday's and yesterday's and yes it's destructive and he knows

which is why it doesnt continue for very long BECAUSE WE PROMOTE HEALTHY GYM ACTS IN THIS PLACE (seoksoon worried about him when he slumped on the floor after like 2 sets of pullups aka 2 sets lesser than his usual and jihoon was like im never gonna make them sad again!!!!!!!) but damn is he sad. he kinda goes fuck it idk haywire and starts just openly expressing his affections at some point touching soonyoung's biceps unnecessarily or holding seokmin's back because oh. his back.. right. and then he just gets miserable when seoksoon flirt infront of each other "SEXY HAN NAMJA" (but lowkey seokmin is flirting w jihoon too because hes keeping all the burnt pieces for himself and soonyoung and giving all the good ones for jihoon and even feeding jihoon. and soonyoung is pulling out all these funny stories and winking and calling jihoon names teasingly like jagiya etc right and its nice and it makes jihoon feel warm In this essay i will again ____)

one day completely on impulse he goes over to seoksoon's house at like 2am and just lies down on soonyoung's lap like so tired and exhausted and yet he's there feeling like he's home and even more so when seokmin's brush of his hair feels like a kiss and etc and hes just. yeah. maybe he cries into soonyoung's shirt and they all wake up uncomfy esp for soonyoung w a bent neck but jihoon massages him and its alright and then seokmin's like "do u wanna talk about why you came over" and jihoon takes a deep breath like oh boy like "i like you. both of you" or something and because it's me of course the feelings are reciprocated they have to be! now seoksoon flirt with each other (and jihoon) and happy ever after! shakes the earth i dont know how to write confessions but you get it theyre gay they profit OKAY.

#stream of consciousness #11pm is for ssh #this was fully stream of consciousness i just typed this entire thing in 30min #sksnhn:au

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hiilybemyfriendpls · 2 years

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tw venting (also not super regression related) (mother's day related) (but also I'm regressing right now sooooo)

MAN okay so mother's day, right?

For context: I'm a computer science major. I code things. It's something I'm good at.

But! I also have an inordinate amount of perfectionism and set myself really high standards for things, especially (as I've discovered this year) when it comes to doing things for others.

So, my mom's a big startup person, and she'd had this idea for an app for a while.

And! She's very hard to get things for.

So, I was gonna build her an app.

Which is a lot harder than I thought!!! ESPECIALLY bc I started with an egregiously terrible Android Studio way. (jgdfgkjdf)

BUT all the no-code or low-code options were WAY more confusing imo

but android studio just straight up doesn't work. ifykyk ig (it's REALLY slow and my computer sounds like an airplane every time I use it..... it's a coding environment??? if I need to emulate an entire ass phone I will but NOT RN RN I AM JUST MAKING BUTTONS GRRR)

honestly would be easier to make in python

as is everything lol

but that has its own hurdles

ANYWAY

so I burnt myself out trying to make this damn app and now it's mothers day and I am sitting here with my vimeo video and my fucking 20 slide sketch and AND I KNOW

I KNOW

as SOON as I start presenting these slides my mom's gonna think I coded her an app

and I KNOW she'll be dissapointed

and even though she'll prolly be fine with it and still happy bc mothers day

I jsut feel like I couldve done SO much better and made her SO much happier and

uggggg

I feel just

so dissapointed in myself /gen

and this is not the first time this has happened

I just set up such high standards for myself and get all pissy when I can't achieve them

because I COULD

I COULD BURN MYSELF OUT

AND HAVE GOOD TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS

AND WORK 8 HOURS A DAY

but I DONT and it SUCKS

smh

anyway, I'm not writing a script lmao

this is already skuffed

i don't want to code this app anymore

my gift to her will only be like 4 hours of work (ig 10 if u count my failed + inaccessible android studio work) so whatever

and here I was thinking I was gonna make my dad a game SDKJHFSDHKJ

I guess idk anything I didn't learn in school huh

i just really really wish I was more motivated for ANYTHING

that i didn't want to just sit and watch youtube all day

ALSO ANOTHER FAILURE OF MINE

IM SUPPOSED TO BE AVOIDING STRESS RN LOL

HAHAHA

I have a (partially) stress-induced skalp thing I'm trying to get rid of

DFHDSK anyway

idk

it's just a classic 3 am bout of stress

imma do a puzzle or smth and watch a show to feel better bc it's already pretty late anyway *shrug*

also! I've been listening to a rarity agere playlist for the past 4 hours!!! Top tier!!!!

#ask to tag #mother's day #vent #tw vent #tw swearing

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tartagliad · 3 years

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i came home from the hospital today because i tried to commit su*cide last night and i really need some comfort rn, so uhmm.. can you make a hc about how genshin boys would react to their s/o trying to k!ll themselve?

Ignore this if you dont write for such subjects!༼ つ ◕◡◕ ༽つ

...nonnie, I hope you feel much better... i'm bad at words and people said actions matter more than words, so imma hug you and do your request... *hugs you and wrap you with blankets* :3, I hope you feel better, do talk to me or anyone you trust if you want to pour your heart out.. we're here for you :)

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Don't Do It... Please..

Summary: The boys reacted to reader for committing su*cide

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: Childe, Kaeya, Diluc, and Zhongli

F reader!

Genre: angst with comfort at the end!

Warnings: high sensitive content!!, minors DO NOT INTERACT!!, sharp objects, poisoning, blood, drowning, falling, and i'm using my last braincell to made this since I want to publish this ASAP- :)

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Childe:

Childe was on his way back from work when all this happened

He was just finishing his work near Jueyun Karst

The place was surrounded by hills and mountains so, it's a bit of a challenge when he want to go back to the harbor

When he was on his way... he saw someone.. from the distance

He take a closer look and found out.. it was you.. what are you doing at a place like this?

It's a bit odd especially it's almost dark, he's concern

You didn't hear him... you could only hear the winds brush through your body

When Childe is like a few footsteps closer to you.. there it is, his nightmare came

You jumped down without hesitation without hearing his cries calling for you

Your body fell into the water... your body started to feel lighter and you were about to go unconscious

But then, someone jumped in and picked up your body

Childe hurriedly put your body on a dry place and started to pump your chest, he started to cry

When you slowly opened your eyes and spit the water out from your mouth, his eyes darted to you

His breath was so unstable because he was worried and panicked

Childe hugged you tightly and he cries to your shoulders

"No... no no, don't do it...'' he said... he holds you tighter

''C-childe...'' ''Do you think I'll not miss you when you do this?!'' you were left speechless

Shivers when down your spine as the words replayed in your head.. you regretted your actions

You put your hands around him and gently rub his back and silently saying 'sorry'

Childe looks at you and kissed your forehead and gently cupped your face

He smiled at you, the feeling of hope is shining when you see him...

Though it shatters him seeing your eyes so empty

Childe then carried you in his arms and head back to the city

From there, Childe always keeps an eye on you (well, not stalking ofc)

He would put his duties aside and put all of his attention to you

If you wanna go somewhere, he'll oblige, if you just want to stay in the house, he's alright with it

He'll always reminds you that he always loved you and when your in the couch or in bed, he'll cuddle you

He will also kinda spoil you (?), he would bought the items that you wanted

Childe is really soft around you, he tries his best to make you feel better and happier, seeing you barely smiles hurts him

"Talk to me if you have something that bothers you, I'm here with you.. I would rather help you at your worse rather than not knowing a single thing that is happening in your mind. I love you..''

Kaeya:

Kaeya arrived at home early today, given the fact that his duties are finished

He wanted to spend some time with you together, given that he's always been busy

When he entered the house, he didn't saw you.. thinking you might be in bed or still working on your commission

Then he hears a sound coming from upstairs

Kaeya is curious what's going on, and when he arrives upstairs.. he heard that the sound came from the bedroom

He thinks that you're inside since.. well, who else would be inside besides you two

So, he turned the nob and.... silence

He saw blood on the floor, then he saw you holding a sharp object

You didn't know he was there because you were lost in your mind

'One more...' you said to yourself...

Just as you were about to do a one last swipe, something stopped you

Kaeya held your hand and immediately took the sharp object and threw it across the room

He then turned you around, you didn't look at him

Kaeya held both of your hands and sighed

He brings you downstairs, sat you down and get the first aid kit

The alcohol felt really cold against your skin and there's a slight sting to it

But Kaeya tries his best not to do it harshly

It was rather awkward since you were afraid to talk or face him and he was trying to process what happened and focusing on wrapping your arms with bandages

You were zoned out and pulled out from your mind you feel something warm was holding you, it's Kaeya

You didn't return the hug, but you can hear his breath started to hitch

"Why must you do this to yourself?'' he speaks, you didn't answer him.. you don't know how to say it.. but here it is

"I just... well, feel like a burden to anyone else and... no one needs me so...'' then you fell into silence, not wanted to say anything further

"hah.. look, you aren't a burden to anyone, and without you knowing it, people needed you, they loved you even the littlest things that you did to people made them really happy..'' Kaeya said

''You are special, that is why I wanted to be with you.'' he added, you only sat there and hear everything he said

You hugged him back and melted into his touch, comforted by his words

Kaeya could feel you smiled and he himself is really happy that he could help you

Day on, he would slowly help you through everything

Tries not to make you stressed since you're still recovered

He would take you somewhere quieter like Cape Oath or somewhere else, so you can feel more relaxed and feel better.. he know that crowded places wouldn't help that much

Kaeya will always be patient towards you and he always keep his mind open about everything he hears from you

"No hesitation if something you wanted to say, I'm always here giving you my up most support. Just talk your hearts out, I'm all ears."

Diluc:

Came back from his job as a batman for the day lmao

Diluc was walking back from the city and was on his way back to the winery

On his way back, a worker from the winery walked up to him and told him that you weren't home yet

Hearing this makes him panicked, it's literally almost midnight and you aren't home yet

He then ran to look for you around the areas of Mondstadt

There was no sign of you near the city, so he tries to think where was your last location for todays commission

It was near Wolvendom, so he went there and check it there

He remembers there's one location near Wolvendom that connected to the Stormterror's Lair

He had a feeling that you'd be there and he's right

Your figure was standing there staring at the moon and the place was rather windy

The wind was howling and it crawls on to your skin, sending goosebumps around your body

Your mind was else where, you wanted to fall but your nervous.. then the blow of the wind slowly pushed you closer

At this point, Diluc started to get a little suspicious about everything he sees

Didn't want to scare you, he silently walks up to you... but.. you jumped down

He ran in an instant... that is a far fall, then he jumped down and opened his glider, trying his best to catch up to you

The wind seem to answered him and give him a push to catch you

You closed your eyes and feel that you were almost at the ground... meeting your end

Then... you met with something warm, carrying you and slowing you down from falling

You opened your eyes and saw Diluc

His hair was messy because of the wind, he was staring at you.. you dont know how to describe it but you know he's upset

He helds you closer, "Why..?" he simply said, he wants answers from you yet he knows he cant force you

You didn't answer him and more over, you're scared to face him

Then he puts you down and hugged you, breath started to get uneven

"I already lost my father, I don't want to lose you either... stay... please..'' he says, tears running down his face

"You're important to me..'' he adds, you felt silence, but at the same time, you felt more at ease

"That's... sweet of you" the only words that came out from you

Diluc holds you tighter, but not until you're out of air

Once both of you calmed down, he took you back to the winery

From there and the day on, he helped you and accompany you

Also he didn't make you work that much so you don't stress too much

If you want some time alone, he'll respect that and gave you the time and space you needed

He wanted to help you move through all of this and he'll be very patient towards you, he loves and cares deeply about you

"Don't be afraid to speak to me, I'll be happy to give you all of my attention and time towards you. Never ever pull a stun like that again... you're everything to me.."

Zhongli:

Zhongli wanted to come home earlier from his work to have some more time with you

Once he was finally done with some documents, he finally goes home

He wanted to have dinner together with you and maybe a little talk about each others day..

He was really happy about the things that he wanted to do with you

When he arrived and opened the door, you weren't there

Confused on where you are, he decided to check the kitchen but something isn't right

On the coffee table at the living room, there's a bottle but he's really unfamiliar with it

He took the bottle and read what was written there.. it's poison

His eyes widened and he noticed that the bottle was half full.. oh no..

Zhongli ran to the kitchen and found you

You were about to drink it and without thinking any further, he ran towards you and throws the cup from your hand

You were shocked that he's here and knew what you're about to do..

"Why did you do that?'' he said to you, looking at you in the eyes

Slowly, he approached you and hugged you.. holding his tears

''Since when you have the urge to do this kind of thing?'' he then asked you, ''Not.. long.'' you muttered

Then Zhongli rubs your back up and down to comfort you

''I've lived for a really long time and lost my closest allies because they've met their end... but, you.. decided to get to the end closer...'' he says, he started to lose his composure

''You are still very young, there are a lot of things that you haven't see in this world, would you mind if I made a contract with you to take care of you?'' he adds, you silently sigh and smiled at his words

He then takes you to the living room and he goes back to the kitchen to make your favorite food

From the day on, he'll continue to fill you with his endless affections

Zhongli even puts his work aside to be with you

He will always hear you and always give the conformity that you needed

He'll also take you to a walk and listen to you talking, he tell some stories sometimes but he wanted to hear things from you

"I'll always be here for you no matter what, I have a contract that I've signed to take care of you.. Don't die on me.. I've always loved you and will always be by your side until my last breath.''

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(A/N: wot is this trash :"), anyways sorry for the long delay, I've been busy this past week.. if you wanted to request let me know, my inbox are open... have a great day!!)

#genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #genshin boys #genshin impact imagines #genshin impact angst #genshin imagines #genshin headcanons #genshin impact headcanons #genshin diluc #genshin kaeya #genshin childe #genshin zhongli #diluc #kaeya alberich #childe #zhongli #diluc ragnvindr #tartaglia

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theriverdraws · 3 years

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Im sorry if I sound rude but like, I feel that people saying how "It's good that Camila feels bad now, after sending Luz to 'normal kid camp'" is kind of,, a dramatic way of seeing things?

Luz had the right to be upset, she didnt want to go to a boring camp when she knows she isnt great at socializing, and there was this cool fantasy world at her grasp, of course she would stay. It isnt her fault, she acted impulsively sure, but there was no way to predict things escalating like that so rapidly.

But like, while her fears are valid, at the end of the day, it was just a normal camp?? With actually good advice for her future! And luz needed to be more mature - she was becoming an actual danger at school, and that was very worrying. The fact that Camila only suggested a summer camp and didnt get any lawsuits was amazing!! (Props to the principal for that lol)

She wasnt trying to "make luz normal", she loves her creativity! She was trying to make a better life for her, make her happier and safer. People saying that she did "such an awful thing", but I think I would be a lot more mad than she is at Luz, like, super mad! So I think Camila handled things very, very well!

It would have been nice if she and Luz had talked things through a bit more. Im sure Luz would have made friends at camp! It was literally a bunch of weirdos all together, it would have been fun, but like I said, she was hurt and had every right to be, I actually dont think staying at the Boiling Isles was a smart decision on her part, but I mean, it worked out for her extremely well and I honestly would have done the same thing and feel bad later lol.

And talking to Luz would have made Camila understand her daughter a lot better and it would have improved their relationship, but well, things didnt go this way at the end of the day.

While I agree that Luz is much happier at the Boiling Isles, Camila's fears and wants of Luz staying with her are so very valid. She just discovered Luz chose to be at a very dangerous "demon realm" - who btw there's a demon realm actually - and if Luz really told everything to her, she is living with a ex-wanted criminal and was enemies with a powerful evil dictator, who she fought with. OF COURSE CAMILA WANTS LUZ TO STAY WITH HER!! And hearing that Luz prefered that over living with her mom, really hurt Camila (because Camila never saw nor talked with The owl house gang, she wouldnt have known they were good for her only based on Luz's words, it's just a lot). Camila only wants Luz to be safe with her, and while she should talk to Luz about this and see that Luz is happier living there and also safe, her feelings are valid, and seeing people thinking they arent or ignoring it are very dumb.

Im sorry it's just, I dont see a lot of people defending camila's feelings and are focusing more on Luz (I mean, fair, there is a lot to unpack there. Poor Luz is not having a good time rn I'm very worried), So I wanted to do this, yeah.

#if you havent seen people talk about camila this way #lucky you #this whole situation is just very complicated and messy #no one is in the wrong really #luz is not keeping that promise probably and that worries me a lot #shes also keeping a secret from eda and crew hnnnn #luzzzz its gonna be okkk #camilaaa its gonna be okkk #aaaaaaaa #toh #the owl house #toh spoilers #camila noceda #luz noceda

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