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Creator Spotlight: @velinxi

Hello! I’m Xiao Tong Kong, better known as “Velinxi.” I’m the creator of the webcomic Countdown to Countdown and have been doing freelance artwork since I was a teenager. I love telling stories with my illustrations! Tumblr was where I first got my start as an artist, specifically a small fandom artist as a hobby… and now I’m somehow here! When I’m not trying my best to stay awake in front of my tablets, I’m usually cooking, gaming, or sleeping. Sometimes all three, in my dreams.

Check out our interview with Velinxi below!

Did you originally have a background in art? If not, how did you start?

Yeah! I’ve basically been on track to become an artist since I was a child. I went to a middle school with an emphasis on arts and a high school specializing in it. I went to SVA briefly for computer arts but dropped out to pursue freelance and webcomics after my first year.

Over the years as an artist, what or who were your biggest inspirations behind your creativity?

My biggest inspirations growing up were Yuumei and Shilin Huang, two titans on DeviantArt back in the day. They still inspire me today, but the list of inspirations has grown exponentially over the years, including artists, movies, entire art movements, etc.

What was your thought process behind the creation of your webcomic, Countdown to Countdown?

Well, Countdown to Countdown started as a passion project back when I was 15, in high school, and pretty depressed. I just wanted to draw whatever story I thought was cool, inspired by my favorite media at the time. There was a very loose beginning and outline, but I was truly just writing as I drew the story. That’s why I had to stop the comic in 2018 and restart from scratch the year after. Now, the story has a set story and a clear outline. It still has similar roots, characters, and themes of neglect, abuse, and escape—but I think the story is a lot easier to follow now. It’s got an artstyle I can actually keep up with in the long run. The origin of why CTC exists also remains the same: I simply wanted to make a story I wanted to read for myself. Which happens to be about two dumb boys with superpowers navigating a hostile world that wants them dead or caged—together.

Have you ever had an art block? If so, how did you overcome it?

Oh, all the time. It’s part of the process. Personally, though—I just have to draw through it. Every month on my Patreon, I have my patrons vote on a theme I have to draw by the end of the month, and I try my best to make it as interesting as possible. I draw quite a few—tens even, of doodles or compositions for each of these themes to try to make something that tells a story while still being aesthetically pleasing and clear. I think pushing myself like this helps with art block, really. I also do remember to take breaks and simply consume other media I like! It gets the inspiration juices flowing.

Advice you would give to an aspiring creator?

If you do one—your first webcomic should be a short, fun, messy thing. It’s not often you can get it right the first time, but you’ll certainly learn a lot through sheer experience. This goes for a lot of things in art, to be honest.

What is a medium that you have always been intrigued by but would never use yourself?

3D Animation. I briefly learned it at SVA, and I think that’s enough of that tech for me. I accept that there are some things that are truly beautiful if done right, and I am too simple and lazy for it.

What is your goal for the rest of this year?

Get Countdown to Countdown book 2 finished! And live HAHA

Who on Tumblr inspires you and why?

@yuumei-art on Tumblr, still! They’ve been a huge inspiration for digital artists and storytellers online for years. I have no doubt that many digital artists of my generation have been influenced by them, and they’re still here, making beautiful art and stories. It’s a thing to behold.

Thanks for stopping by, Velinxi! If you haven’t seen her Meet the Artist piece, be sure to check it out here. You can also follow her for more amazing art over at her Tumblr, @velinxi!

#creator spotlight #artists on tumblr #velinxi #xiao tong kong #countdown to countdown

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kitocrystal · 5 months

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I finally decided to play Deltarune and finished chapter 1 yesterday.

Ralsei isn’t here because I was too lazy to doodle him. Sorry Ralsei!

And of course, how could I forget the interaction that will burn a hole into my memories?

Behold! Sans Deltarune!

#fanart #kitos art #deltarune #susie #susie deltarune #OH GOD I JUST REALIZED THAT SUSIE’S SPIKE BRACELETS ARE GOLD NOT WHITE #kris #kris dreemur #kris deltarune #lancer #sans #his sprite did not change one bit in the game #and i love that #i was emotional while talking to him #and holy crap the distant trousle of bones when you knock on his and pap’s(?) house #is just #i want to scream into the void #sans then proceeded to tell us that he befriended Toriel #i’ll make more fanart later but i just burned through most of my motivation for the week

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honeycombed-beloved · 3 months

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@finnitesimal behold the single love god phil x some missa(too lazy to do massive doodle things of them yet BUT I HAVE THE PIN BOARDS THEY GET FULL CLOSETS YOU PEOPLE CANNOT STOP MY BRAINROT OF THEM DESPITE NOT CONSUMING MORE THAT TWO OF PHIL'S STREAMS AND NOTHING SINCE THOSE TWO STREAMS!!!!!!)

I didn't get to do the big art I wanted but I WILL ATTEMPT SOON after the webkinz spam that I need to work through, there's so many and if I do not do trans lion pride + the cis clover lion who adopted all his amazing wives' cubs and stares lovingly at them before the end of the year I will internally die(jov)

#qsmp pissa #pissa #philza #philza fanart #missasinfonia #missa fanart #my art #love god phil

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oddogoblino · 11 months

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Random doodles I did bc I was desperate to draw sonic content but my arm wouldn't arm

Also, behold a very lazy doodle n coloring of my sonic oc Stickers the goat!! Kinda plain rn but I plan on trying to add more to him once I get comfortable with a sonic style

#sonic the hedgehog #tails the fox #sonic oc #doodles #doing my best #OddityGoblity

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smxmuffinpeddling · 3 years

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Raya: Me and tall dark and sexy over there are gonna be "forming Kumandra" tonight

Benja: That's not what I meant, but that's the spirit

#behold my lazy doodles #this is based on the thought if they met later and were gayer #ratld #rayaari #rayamaari #raya and the last dragon #smxarts #raya #namaari

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kyotemeru-arts · 6 years

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5 shades of Kyotemeru Пока Лена Проблем

#behold my lazy coloring skillz #lies down #dont wanna post everything tbh #kyotemeru-arts #doodle #video #animation meme #persona #stuff #youtube

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ncumenia-archived · 5 years

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// Too lazy to draw stuff, I still have to seriously resume drawing oof- So, here’s a random and quick doodle. I needed a new cringy avatar-

#behold my banana drawing skills (mun art)#my art #just a lazy doodle #oh boy i’m moonstruck again (spamalot)

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omero-megane · 2 years

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Behold world witness the power of my doodle which is dusted and too lazy to post it and im not sorry to ya all eyes

Magusverse (Grimm,Frolic,Hex) belongs to @xfr3eax

#my art #digital #doodle #shitpost #cursed #undertale au #fan art #hex #frolic #grimm

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emiko-catherine · 3 years

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My Beloved Tyrant~♡ (Yandere!Demon King x Fem!Reader)

Scenario One: Writing Home

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[T/N] means your twin brother's name because I'm admittedly lazy right now. Sowwie-

Long before leaving to be wed, you promised your twin brother that you would always write letters to him should you ever venture outside of the kingdom. This was the perfect opportunity, and surely, Arthfael would understand and allow for you to do that.

So you asked, no, more like told Arthfael that you were gonna write these letters no matter what.

"Fine," he sighed, unable to argue with you. That determined and firm look on your face too cute to deny. "But don't let them take up all my time with you."

Your giddy laugh and joyful skip to you and Arthfael's shared bedroom made his heart skip as well.

And so, your letters to your brother commenced:

January 28th, XXX

Dear [T/N],

I'm sorry I haven't written like we promised I would for a while. How's Kaito? Is he holding up okay? And what about you? Still pranking him with your servants, huh? You wrote a cute, funny doodle next to the sentence. And, knowing you, you're being a worrywart over me, aren't you? Have no fear my dear brother, Arthy isn't so bad. He isn't that bad at all! He treats me well, though can be a little grumpy and brash. In any case, love you! Don't give our older brother too much stress with your dumb pranks now!

Love, your sister [Y/n].

Satisfied with your work, you rolled the parchment piece as carefully as you could, stamping it with the seal you saw on Arthfael's desk. Yeah, he'd probably let you get away with using all of his ink, paper, and insignia seal. Taking the letter with you, you had advised and entrusted the messenger with the precious parchment, despite his upwardly curved fangs that rested perfected over his top lip, and deep violet and rigid skin. This man was known as Toth, an ogre whose black puddles known as eyes and appearence screamed danger to anyone outside of the demonic kingdom, but he was more or less a gentle giant.

Especially to you, otherwise he'd get his hands and other limbs torn off and be skinned to the bone.

So, Toth delivered your letter without fail, and when he returned, he already had a letter for you. Immediately, you opened the scroll, wriggling it out of its rolled form. It was from your dear twin.

The letter read:

January 28th, XXX

My beloved and dear sister,

I am relieved that you are doing well, yet it doesn't reassure me that you are still living with that damn man and having him as your husband. Do not trust him, [Y/n]. You know well what he's done. Do not let his "well" side fool you; that man is a literal creature of sin and evil.

And, as for pranks, what ever do you mean? I am a respectable prince, your own twin brother, no less!

Okay, I can't kid with you when I write so formally. I stuffed a live frog underneath Kaito's pillow again. You'd think he'd know the culprit by now. Also... I am just rereading your letter again, and... "Arthy"? You gave that bastard a nickname already? What the hell---

The ink suddenly ran in a straight line to the side, indicating the writer was interrupted. A new, smaller paragraph began,

Hi hi, little sister! [T/N] is lying again, of course I knew about the frog! Why can't he be as angelic as you are?---

The new writer was interrupted.

Haha! Bullshit, as if, Kaito! [Y/n] and I played plenty of pranks on you! You just never suspected her---

It went back and forth like this, but that did not bother you, as you knew very well who the writers of the letter were. You thanked Toth for his time, dismissing him and leaving to your own lonesome to laugh about how silly you knew your brothers to be.

Your laugh was one to behold to your husband's ears, as he heard your heavenly giggles, however light or outright atrocious they were. Arthfael chuckled a bit, knowing full well the contents of you and your brothers' letters.

#yandere #anime #yandere x reader #monster x reader #anime x reader #anime style #reader insert #demon au

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notasecunit · 4 years

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I'm posting this here as a confession that I spent hours yesterday working on hair texture trying to calculate how long 6-10cm would be in curls, and also I spent way too much time not succeeding at making a cyborg body designed for killing look awkward enough.

Character Design Angst:

The SecUnit armor should be even bulkier, since the contrast of not being in said armor it is deeply confusing to everyone, especially Murderbot. Also that armor got like 1 minute of sketching and looks like broken noodles...I'll...get back to it. The excellent cover artist already figured that part out and I'm lazy.

Murderbot's hair length after Milu in "maximum sneaky human mode" should actually be startlingly different enough that other people can't recognize it without a long look and some squinting.

The solution to the riddle of someone who grows hair to disguise themselves, don't know what a haircut is, and somehow doesn't have that hair entirely in their eyes is: curly hair that forms semi-perfect loose puffs when extremely neglected. Specifically, I stole this hair from one of the people I went on a weeklong backpacking trip with years ago. Their hair only got more fleek by the day; it was eerie to behold. I have mostly straight hair and I can definitely confirm that running around neglecting hair like that means you have idiot anime bangs stabbing you in the eye during airsoft matches, which is an unacceptable performance reliability loss.

Based on my vague knowledge of population genetics, if you put a lot of humanity in a blender in order to make left-over-parts super-soldiers, curly hair and mid tone skin would DJ the allele party. I feel like a huge sellout for having some base-level character design goals that are the Nots: not the normal human features that get cast as robots (asians, buff white guys, skinny white guys). (Thing is, I look like a tall, sort-of-muscley half-Chinese/half-British, gender(?) person with an undercut fauxhawk, and I mostly wear hoodies and cargo pants, and I just don't want to draw someone who looks like me, that would feel super weird okay?) Also curly hair people get no rep as evil robots, so I'd like to fix this. #ImDoingMyPart

Based on my vaguer knowledge of bending biology to weaponry, if I was asked to design a human that could take a beating and then regrow most of its functionality in 8 hours, I'd force the cells and hormones to grow someone around 17-22, an age when immortality seems most possible and broken joints aren't as much of a thing. So, little to no body fat, twitchy nerves, mostly limbs and augments and no bulky human muscle.

I can't keep facial features very steady since I don't have a very coherent style. This sucks, sorry.

I'm trying for consistant skin tone and hair color, but I'm also doodling on a lot of nightshifted (darker, more yellow) screens, so colors are looking weird.

#murderbot #character design angst #the murderbot diaries #murderbot diaries

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floralkittygambler · 3 years

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Reposting for reasons

Response to Honest’s post here: Doing this to spread this awareness more as I know theres a bit of a rift in the critical community - plus I really fucking go on. Im PISSED and I do apologise however it NEEDS urgent addressing. I know people will hate me for it but Im used to hate and honestly? Hating rather than helping to solve the issue only furthers my fucking point here. So yeah this is so more people are aware (no offense to any of those involved in said rift either, but this is an important message. Thank you for understanding and if I can do anything to make all sides comfortable, then please message me and I’ll do my upmost.) “ More awareness of this is needed. Even if it’s your favourite, you can’t justify their shit but rally against another’s shit. Have people tell you you’re experiences arent real or invalid because, like Husk, people have - in real life - shipped you with someone you are far from comfortable with but you still treat them like a person. Because you have basic respect. And people force you to accept harassment, touching, stalking, advances for THEIR satisfaction. People use you for their fantasies. But you’re just a ‘tsundere’ for it. Or you have addiction issues but people think being with another addict will ‘save’ you because you’re apparently too incompetent to save yourself. Love isnt some magic fuckin cure so stop romanticising it as a fuckin saviour. It’s gross and fuckin creepy. Get stalked and have someone NEVER accept your no just because you show youre still decent enough to not treat them shitty or any different from anyone else. Try having someone way older or way younger (both in morally fucked up ways) advance on you and people encourage that. People you’re supposed to feel safe around.

People touch you when you pull away or show discomfort. Follow you home. Have pictures of you and wont accept you dont like them like that and it’s not ‘playing hard to get’ or ‘the thrill of the chase’. Fuck. OFF. In fact, Im not only disappointed in the fandom. Im disappointed in the entire team who some should know better from their OWN personal experiences - or at least the bare minimal of being a fucking adult. Im disappointed in especially females (sorry idk whether girl or woman is more appropriate here-) who statistically are more likely to have experienced something similar at some point in their lives think this is a cute gay moment. No. Angel is made out as a fucking predator - Im not saying he is, Im saying that his persistence is very fucking unwelcome like one. People like Husk dont need that fucking invasiveness. They/We need patience and someone on our level. Angel’s I know are the fuckin polar opposite - and some of them I know are very sexually harassing, including unwanted touching. It’s a shitty way to present gay people. Gays are fuckin people. Some are cunts and some arent. It’s a HUMAN thing. But considering the shit theyve been subjected to, presenting a gay as a victim only to also show them as a perpetrator is insulting! And for those Ive seen argue this about how people like AD wouldnt know how to express their love normally and whatnot? His pig. His best friend. He’s in his fucking 30s. There are literal real life criminals who get molested as kids and then go on to molest kids. Not all who grow up like that turn into nonces. Stop just fucking STOP justifying and romanticising this bullshit! I used to see the good in AD but now he makes me fucking sick. Especially with my verrrrrry fucking real traumas and connections. But fuck me, eh? Because this fictional guy matters so much more. Fuck real victims. And whilst we’re at it, fuck AD too when it suits your fetishes! Sarcasm aside, the fans and the team need to straighten up their abhorrent behaviour. Stolas. Fucking clearly having an affair, knowingly fucking up his daughter’s mental health and bribing a guy into sex who only wants the book and nothing more. He even has a fucking warning button over Stolas- Guys, how do you think any of this is cute? Even the team gross me out- I genuinely see potential and talent and it’s all gone to shit to satisfy horny teens, horny adults, and literally everyone who doesnt for the life of them understand being an adult is more than sex, drugs, violence and swears! I REALLY want to keep enjoying HB/HH but it’s getting harder and harder with such ignorant and bordering lazy creators (note: lazy as in wont do the fucking research or actually listen to real criticism and victims), such despicable fans (yeah, some HDers fuckin mocked that they triggered my ED, yet they had the fucking NERVE to support Angel’s potential ED AND laugh and blame me for me getting treated so badly for actually having the balls to call Angel and the teams hypocrisy. I got told to kill myself, that my problems arent real - oh but Angels apparently is! Which... They *are* but AD isnt real so technically only onlookers will suffer and not a drawing - and they just excused their toxic behaviours. These people are like “aww poor angie babey!” yet fuckin INSULT sex workers. All this red in Hazbin yet it feels everyone and they mama colour blind. The issues are getting worse and fans are outright becoming EVIL, VILE, Vindictive little bullies - from kids to adults. You SHOULD be ashamed of yourself if you conduct yourself in such a manner. And you need to readjust your attitudes and behaviours because the only fuckers getting hurt are actual fucking victims. Ever been violated and been gaslit so much you STILL fucking question it’s reality? So you drown that shit out yet somehow it’s effects still hit you? Fetishise it. Make it your uwu gae couple goals, you’re no better than people believing Harley and the Joker werent toxic af. If this shit happened to you, most of you would actually SEE where we’re all coming from. Also, stop making gay a fetish - you’re like those creepy old men in the alley heckling lesbians to make out so they can wank off. Gays, no ALL the LGBT+ are fucking people too. So dont give me that bullshit then start turning everything just gay or just straight to mentally wank off to. It’s degrading and dehumanising. And yes, fiction does effect reality. You crush on a fictional character? Mourn one? Support one? Hell, fuckin jerk off to one - that’s affecting reality. Remember how in fiction all blacks were treated as villians? Look how theyre treated IRL. JAWS, great classic unfortunately their was a spike in shark killings over a fucking movie - the shark in the movie wasnt even real for the most part because they dont behave like that! (Also the animatronic was so shit they genuinely had so many issues - I think they even took to naming each one! Some fun trivia there!). Tiger sharks are more nasty than great whites as tiger sharks will hunt and eat a human. Great whites prefer seals and dislike human flesh, they just mistake us for seals. Hell, theres the toothless basking shark - theyre often SWAM WITH by divers for being so friendly. Yet Jaws made people think all sharks are bloodlusting over humans. Slenderman was created for a fucking contest and that influenced a stabbing (NOT Victor’s fault). Watch a horror movie that isnt based on a real life event and tell me that at least ONE has left you peaking over your shoulder. Stella may be a bitch - we dont know for certain - but try getting cheated on. Y’know what? Try growing up in such a broken home like Octavia. Yeah reaaaaaal fucking cute now, huh? Funny how as well y’all petition for male victims to be taken seriously then laugh when fictional males experience this abuse, further adding to stigma. You can be hit on by the hottest mf on the planet but if you arent interested, that should be respected! Also we’ve all been inspired by at least one fictional character so yeah. Yknow, since I was little Ive been fighting for sex worker and homeless rights. But HH/HB treatment of both leave a bitter taste in my mouth. I’ll still fully support sex workers and the homeless, but that’s the fucking effect this show is having. Bearing in mind I wont ever share everything Ive been through - and I shouldnt fucking have to in order to be believed and validated (obvs proof is required in a legal case but that’s a whole other topic). Why should I share MY fucking pain especially when you fuckers have belittled and triggered it more so? We have our rights to our secrets but fuck ME you lot NEED to start acting appropriately and like decent fucking humans. ‘iTs HeLl’ yeah and welcome to Earth- the team and yourselves live HERE. You obide by THESE rules. And as someone with beliefs (and a LOT of ancient fucking texts and studies on this shit) their Hell isnt even a proper Hell! It’s closer to purgatory and even then it’s not. Regardless, it’s a poorly built world with the lore consistently changing per episode and tweet, with many plot holes, and is apparently easy to get into - even via accidentally watching porn according to a stream. If youre gonna parade youre a fucking expert and research into demonology and use real believed figures, at least get THAT right. In fact, Lucifer and Lilith (and Stolas tbf) are ESPECIALLY risky as theyre a lot more complex than most easy access texts will tell you. Likewise, Stolas’s first introduction and main focus is sex. He’s one of the FEW Goetia demons that dont have some involvement in relationship issues at ALL. He’s known for astrology, crystals and herbs but hes also known to aid MONEY troubles (it’s lesser known but it’s true! HB Stolas is an insult to the Prince). Turning Vodou into something evil is vile considering it’s powerful and liberated slaves. Pentagrams are nothing to do with Satan, they’re magic based sigils. Upside down cross is the symbol of a SAINT. It’s just some edgy attempt to trick people into believing they know more than they do. Also you should NEVER dabble and doodle sigils without knowing the meanings or respecting what they behold. Vox and Val, real fuckin cute way to make them look like a stupid fucking highschool drama instead of a fucking SEX TRAFFICKER (note: real pimps often target YOUNG folks too - aka minors - and groom them into sex work. Theres different types of pimp. Viv has shown barely any understanding of ‘the game’ and its a fucking insult to injury. Yes we KNOW what a fucking pimp and prozzie are! We dont need to see it. We need REAL AWARENESS.) and a fucking scheming bastard of a CEO salesman botman. And yet even THEN lets go a step further and make some yandere wuv on boyfweind aboose! Fuck off- Now I love a good anime but these tropes are getting fucking dangerous now. And unrealistic to real love and relationships. Kids nowadays know fuck all on a healthy relationship (neither did the fuckin 50s tbf) and Im seeing more romaticism and glorifying abusive situations. Like the show ‘You’. Ok, there’s a fuckin bloke online who slaughtered innocents and kidnapped yet people commented how cute he is on his IG and that they want to be kidnapped or killed by him next. Dont believe me? Look up Peter Manfredonia Connecticut and the comments people left him and then tell me why shit like whats being presented in HH/HB ISNT fucking concerning - because it is. For a series about redemption, it’s brilliant at the opposite (Quote from the creator herself, Viv has posted that it’s influencing her bad choices. Even as a joke, proof’s in the pudding). And the overall focus on sex in the way Viv does is so immature and really creepy, and this is from an ADULTS perspective. From one adult to another, Im concerned as to why any of them think this is a normal fixation. Then again they’ve hired quite a large amount of dodgy folks and even a child. Most of this shit gets avoided with a basic background check like most companies run. I DO like Hazbin. Or the premise. I love some of the cast and spite the others. In Helluva, I just like a tiny portion of the cast. And I critique it so harshly because Viv DOES need a wakeup slap, grounding to reality, people who arent going to big her up or kiss her arse for once and shape her up to be the best she can be. The actually reach and even surpass her potential. And to reach where you need to be, there’s a lot of harsh lessons youll face. That’s life. Shes chosen one of the most HEARTLESS industries and if she blocks out critique as ‘hate’ then she’s not strong enough and wont last. It’s just another unprepped YanDev again (except I dont believe Viv to be a nonce. Even with her dodgy past and dodgy present, I think her perspective on sex and relationship with sexuality is FAR from healthy BUT I dont believe she’s a pedophile. Ive bled my fair share and so far, I just think her sex perspective isnt healthy or mature for her age. But there’s little to nothing to suggest actual noncery - dont worry about accusations there. But YanDev is totally a dirty predator. Just clearing that up). Viv NEEDS some harshness and stability if she wants to do things right. And it’ll make her fucking cry but if she loves these projects as much as she claims to, then you’ll sacrifice blood, sweat and tears for that shit. Even the strongest points are mediocre at best when properly observed. She CAN do more, but she’ll have to face the harsh music. Viv wont see this, but if she does, I dont care if it upsets her. Why? Because this is that much of an issue - something she’s cultivated - that she needs to take action and not ignore it or be secretive about it. She needs to grow up and get tougher skin. Im not saying this to cause her pain. In fact, I wouldnt waste my fucking limited time if I DIDNT care. Trust me, I have duties to be met at a certain quota every single day. I say this shit only because I give a shit and care. If we met, she’d fucking hate me. But people like me are good for shaping people up to their potential. And we arent always this ‘tough love’ either. But when someone needs that level of harshness to help themselves, we’re not afraid to lose people or cause upset if the results end up being the best for them. If she ever saw this, she needs to re fucking evaluate her message, her story, and those she’s choosing to welcome into her circle. And all Im seeing is one rookie mistake after the other. Her paid patreon discord. Just like the messages Honest has posted on her side of being harassed (not in Vivs fyi), Ive experienced shit and bullying and even stay silent on their for being attacked for a group I fuckin paid to be in and yet I feel isolated. It’s all arsekissing and ‘thank you viv’ (thats an actual channel-) and it feels like a place of borderline worship and people trying to appease her 24/7 whilst kicking others with different opinions down. There’s so many I love but I aint kissin yer fuckin arse. Ask the closest friend I have - we’re fucking raw and wont just side with each other just because. We’ll call each other out if we think they’ve fucked up and then help each other build themselves up better. Because real fuckin people who actually care wont just want to be adored by you. They’ll care enough to point out your bullshit and help you, even if they upset you at the time. They’re real and upfront with you. People like us arent always the easiest to be close to either because we arent afraid of upsetting someone if it’s in their best interest and to help them. Likewise, we dont go out looking for fights either. Most times, we’re fuckin soft bastards- All this shit listed is the fuckin surface level of the real life hell of this fandom. And unsurprisingly, those who experience little to no toxicity have always been higher on that popularity ‘food chain’ - enough admirers and shared opinions that people wanna arse kiss regardless of their OWN feelings as well as neutral perspectives. I’d say you’re the lucky fans, but you’re not. You’re sheltered, and that isnt always the best way to be sadly. As for the fans. If Ive upset you. Well... I dont care. Because many of you have actively sought me out and weaponised my traumas against me. You never cared about my feelings then. Why should I care about yours? Im not doing this out of malice. Im fed up of humans behaving so pathetically yet claiming to be high and mighty. Most of you have been arseholes to those in and out of the community. The victims and non-victims alike. Hardly any of you considered once my real suffering. You put a drawing over a life. Many lives. You had the audacity to tell me Im full of shit. Some even using my real traumas to make a mockery of me and those Im around with a very similar history. Some with traumatic histories that differ from my own. You hardly ever considered the real lives of those effected. So no, Im not sorry for having the fucking balls to this day to still stand up for our rights and give us a voice that’s long been stolen. Im not sorry for being a fucking victim. Im not sorry for saying what desperately NEEDS voicing. And Im not sorry for not conforming to you or any fandom just to belong. We deserve better than to constantly be your fuckin arse monkeys (well... the trope is butt monkey but yknow-) and to be mistreated, misrepresented and harmed by you. You’re no different to the school bullies who give speeches on anti-bullying day. And I hope every single one of you starts looking into yourselves and improving. PS: Depending on the texts you read, Lucifer is said to have been redeemed or to be redeemed. Fun fact to haunt yalls with~ “

#warning long #long post #hazbin critical #very long rant #important #hear victims voices #just sick of how awful people can treat one another and believe this is acceptable #everyone is accountable #toxic fanbase #Toxic shippers #toxic ships #im literally too fucking old for this #forgive the anger but after years and years it gets so cumbersome and tiring #im happy to be the pariah if it means victims actually get heard and helped

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loveamongthesailors · 4 years

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@nihililithism behold, my lazy phone editing suite

line camera i use for some filters and cute stamps, some doodling and collage sometimes..

chroma lab is pretty nice and flexible for glitching and fucking with color, has some good light and texture effects. only remotely respectable app on this list

background eraser is just good to have for doing collage shit, i usually trim pngs in there then arrange them in vaporgram

vaporgram has a lot ov nice glitchy and vaporwave tuned presets and some fun assets for collage.. its frustrating actually moving yr pngs around on a pic tho it doesnt manage them well :/

so i just get some pics and cut em up and shuffle em through various programs til i get what i want

#editz

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wwounu · 5 years

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Still in shock, you continue to ask Seokmin questions ever since he has taken you upstairs to his comfy studio, asking you to take a seat as he takes a small break, cleaning the room.

“How long have you been doing this again?”

“Two or three years?” Seokmin replies, leaning more to a question than a statement. “Something like that.”

“Oh cool. Pretty long then.”

“Yep, it’s crazy thinking about it… Really crazy…”

“Aren’t there any clients after me?”

“Nope. My shift would be over right now since I usually work at the dog cafe this time, but I called in that I was sick so shush don’t tell anyone.”

The male lifts a finger to his lips, his lips forming a curl.

“So!” He claps his hands after your giggle. “You can get as much as you’d like. We can be here all night — What would you like to have?”

He’s now seated, in the middle of putting his gloves as you speak. He swivels in his chair to get a plain book and pen, opening to a clean page.

You awkwardly begin, “Uh… I’d like something simple — and hidden — so no one can notice it upon first glance.”

“I get you, ‘small and simple’.” Seokmin jots down his words in the book. “Anything else?”

“I’d like it to be a flower.”

“Ah, of course! Anything in particular?”

“A cherry blossom.” You cringe once saying it aloud. “I must sound basic right now, but I’d like to keep it minimalistic. Maybe not so much because I want there to be detail, but I think the blossoms should be the focal point of it all, while they’re growing scattered on the branch…”

Not knowing why, your voice says away at the end, watching Seokmin’s hand move left to right.

“So like this?”

He holds up his notebook, showing an ideal sketch of the tattoo you imagined perfectly, and you hum in agreement. “Damn, you really get me.”

“I guess I do.” The man grins. “That would look great on the ankle I think. It’ll sting a bit, are you ready for it? You can choose anywhere else if you want.”

“No I’m good with your decision, I trust you.”

Seokmin pauses at your final words, almost zoning out, but he eventually comes back on earth and gets himself started. “Attagirl!” He laughs, getting straight to work

A few minutes in and the silence is unbearable for you. You didn’t want to distract Seokmin either, but you quietly say, “Can I talk while you work? I don’t want to ruin your focus or anything.”

Seokmin hums. “Feel free too. I love talking to clients about anything — And you as my client makes it even better.”

“What made you want to start doing all of this?”

“It came out of nowhere, really. Soonyoung was busy doing thumbnails for a drawing of his, I think it was a back tattoo? For one of his characters, and I would it pretty cool, asked if I could contribute to some ideas. I think he only told me to go for it because he couldn’t care less.”

“And then?”

“I get to work too and after a few songs yada yada, I show him my ideas and stupidly start talking about the details I included. It was rushed but I don’t think Soonyoung realised that — You should’ve seen his face! I felt intimidated and proud. Next thing you know it, he tells me I’m really good and that I should be a tattoo artist. And now look at me! A very stupid story, but it’s close to my heart.”

“Cool! What do you prefer to do on people?”

“I’m cool with anything but I love doing complex tattoos — people are always satisfied when I do them, it feels really great helping them. But when it comes to myself, I prefer something uncomplicated.”

“Hm, why?”

The male snorts, rubbing his nose shyly. “Mainly just the backlash and looks from everyone… Plus I don’t think big, bold tattoos would look great on a guy like me-“ He’s stopped by the slip of your laugh, which is caught on by Seokmin too.

“Don’t your friends know about this? That you do this for a living?”

In reply the male chuckles. “Well… At first they didn’t, I wasn’t vocal about it and everyone already knew about my jobs with dogs. I think hearing about me being a tattooist would freak them out…”

“Tell me about it!”

“On one night my four friends were gathered somewhere near the parlour to hang out — at the time a friend was new to the city so they brought him there often to familiarise himself as the others were regulars…”

“My friend — Wonwoo; the new one back then — told me that he heard my laugh a bit away from the parlour and ‘knew my laugh but didnt at the same time’. He gets closer to the studio, and I don’t realise his presence, and he sees me laughing with some guys I’m close to while adding another tattoo onto his sleeve of ink…”

“With someone like Wonwoo, he doesn’t look like the strongest man but never underestimate him…” Seokmin shudders, flashbacks in his mind. “Um anyway, he has really bad eyesight and was too lazy to step into the parlour so late at night, but he apparently mistook me as Soonyoung because of our smilier hairstyles and laugh. Plus, it’d make sense for Soonyoung since the latter’s an artist, but even Wonwoo knew that Soonyoung wouldn’t do something like that at all…”

“At that exact moment, Soonyoung texts Wonwoo asking him to convince Minghao — Our model friend — to be his model, which didn’t add up for Wonwoo, and it was by the time Vernon yells out his name, wondering why he’s there, and I happen to hear it, seeing the two of them stare at each other Wonwoo stares at me, followed by Vernon, before yelling out my name in shock...”

“Apparently I’m ‘way too precious for that’ which is why they were all in disbelief. Only Joshua and Soonyoung knew about it before the accident, and apparently Jihoon too since he wasn’t phased by it.”

“I wouldn’t blame them,” You agree, smiling. Seokmin pouts but eventually smiles afterwards. “So have your friends asked you to do tattoos for them?”

“Here and there. Minghao asked me to do an infinity dragon for him in return of a favour. Other times it would be dumb tattoos my friends would want and I’d have to refuse the offer… Especially when it’s Soonyoung!”

Now adding the colour — and mainly because you had stopped distracting Seokmin from your non-stop chattering — you feel the pain come through on your ankle.

You’ve tried so hard not to feel the pain (as well as kick your foot due to how sensitive that area was), but the male puts you at ease, hushing you and telling you how good you’re doing.

A few more moments, chatting to Seokmin here and there, and you finally hear the “Ta-da!” From the latter.

“How does it look?”

“Why don’t you see for yourself?” Grinning, Seokmin grants you to sit and passes you a mirror, seeing the tattoo more clearly. “So…?”

“I don’t know what to say-“ You stammer, “It looks amazing! You’re amazing Seok’!”

“Ah, don’t flatter me…” He huffs, resisting his smile. “I’m just happy you like it. Oh, but I need to give you some heads up before you can enjoy your tattoo.”

You nod, letting Seokmin protect the tattoo with a bandage, watching him do the process before he sits back down again, cleaning his studio once again.

“Don’t take the bandage off after a day. Take extra care with it, sometimes the ink takes a while to settle, so no long showers or baths, and keep the tattoo dry — It’s better to gently wash over it frequently, but don’t go crazy with it though…”

“Got it. What else?”

“Do be aware that it will itch, so I beg you not to scratch it since it’s the ankle and that’ll definitely do a thing or two to you. It’ll be hard but I believe in you! Also, use moisturisers too. Do this for two to four weeks and you’ll be all set!”

You hug the male, thanking him countless of times before you let go. You couldn’t thank Seokmin enough. After letting go, you pay for the tattoo and he asks you to stay around as he cleans up the parlour.

What ended up feeling like an hour suddenly turned into six, with the sun beaming its golden hour and the streets filling with more people while you converse with Seokmin, listening to his oddly fascinating dog walking stories.

“What other tattoos do you have? I’m kinda curious now.” Casually, you look outside the window and notice the sky gradually turn darker. When you turn back to look at the male, he scares you another time as to how close he was. “I swear you need to stop scaring me like that.”

“Sorry!” He chirps, humming a little at the end. “Should I tell them in order?”

“Alright,”

He shows you each inked drawing one by one.

The first tattoo was one you’ve already seen. An inked outline of a sunflower, running down his inner left bicep. As it was his first, he was scared what the outcome of his tattoo would be, since the what ifs wondered in his head and that a mistake will be made, yet things went the opposite for him — in a good way — and the old man who tattooed him became somewhat of a father to him as he was desiring to become a tattoo artist.

The second, a tiny doodle of a puppy’s slanted eyes, upside-down triangle nose and ears shaped in an ‘M’. That was his first self-made tattoo, located on his ankle. And of course it was directed to his unconditional love for puppies. For a first try, it wasn’t that bad — The tattoo was mainly credited to Soonyoung who drew the tiny doodle in the exact location (You had no idea how he managed to draw on his ankle, but you went with it), which Seokmin looked at afterwards and thought ‘This is nice’ and behold the tattoo.

And for credit, he had his friend put his initials — ‘KSY’ — to tattoo it additionally, just to the corner of the tattoo itself.

Thirdly; A constellation. Seokmin had to remove his shirt for this one, which was awkward at first, but the awkwardness was taken away the moment you laid eyes on his shoulder blade to the right hand side. The tattoo didn’t have a special meaning to it, but as it’s Aquarius, he got it as he was one himself (quite obviously).

‘Say yes’ was what you remembered about his fourth tattoo. Just underneath his inked constellation, it was tattooed in a typewriter font. Briefly, he explained that it was a duet he had to with his friend for Jihoon’s project. All he said was that it hit home, which you thought he was going to continue, but he fell silent for a few beats and his shirt back on.

“Finally,” He heaves, the mood feeling heavier than usual, “this.”

He lifts up his left arm, stretching it out to move his sleeve, revealing the small tattoo you had a glimpse on his wrist.

“It’s a — uh — lock. It’s really small, you can’t really see it. I did it myself. It-“ All of his words sounds disjointed, panicked, “It means a lot.”

With the vague description, he didn’t look like he wanted to go further, and it was only for you to respect that. If it meant a lot, then it’ll take time for him to tell you. One day, maybe, one day.

He acts more quiet now, with less words and less liveliness in him. It was a long day for the both of you, and you didn’t want it to end on a bad note.

Fiddling with his hands, Seokmin doesn’t acknowledge your head weighing on his shoulder.

“Sing me a song Seokmin.”

“A song? My singing isn’t that great…”

“Either way — I like your voice, I want to hear it.”

“But…”

“Just sing to me, I won’t judge, you have a pretty voice. ‘If I’m good at it, I shouldn’t hide it’,” You mimic his words, choking a laugh out of him.

He silent for another moment, then begins to softly sing the lyrics to Half Moon to you, going falsetto when he reaches parts where it would be more pronounced at, and adding a breathiness to his singing. To you, it felt like you were on the moon — lost in space — because of his singing alone.

And your eyes begin to get heavier, Seokmin’s voice lulling you to sleep. You did it; You made the day end well. And for you and Seokmin, neither of you wanted to ruin it.

OPPOSITES ATTRACT PART TEN — Tattoo Artist!Seokmin x Florist!Reader

finally back to updating! (hopefully...)

one • two • three • four • five • six • seven • eight • nine • ten • eleven

masterlist

#seokmin #lee seokmin #seokmin au #seokmin texts #seokmin imagines #seventeen seokmin #dokyeom #dokyeom texts #dokyeom imagines #seventeen #seventeen texts #seventeen imagines #seventeen opposites attract au #kpop #kpop texts #kpop imagines #tattoo artist!seokmin

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sweetcinnamonmaplesyrup · 5 years

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Lucie-Marezi Gohanz || Custom MC/Persona

So here are the promised references of my persona/custom MC for Mystic Messenger ahah ^^ I’ll have a few more doodles and information about her under the cut!

But basically, she’s just me, lolol ^^

Lucie-Marezi Pam Gohanz

- Prefers to be called “Maple” over her real name, but won’t complain. Doesn’t mind “Lucie” or “Marezi” by itself, though she definitely favours “Marezi” due to it’s uniqueness

Age: 22 years

Height: 4′7″ (144.7cm)

Likes: The colour/shades of pink and red, ice-cream (cookies and cream, caramel or strawberry? now that’s a hard choice…), galaxy aesthetics, stars, starry nights, space in general, flowers, cats, bows, sweets, drawing, writing, reading, anime (lol)

Dislikes/Fears: heights, being left behind, spontaneous social interaction, snakes, spiders, seeing wounds/injuries (will definitely and instantly care to those wounds), pressure, dishonesty, gore/horror/thrillers of any kind, shape or form, fighting/confrontation (but will suck up her fear so that both parties are relieved and better), death to anyone

> Is very anxious (every second of every day) and quiet, but when desired or relaxed enough, she will be loud and crazy, but serious and sensible. She doesn’t wish to embarrass herself or those around her, especially those she has just met and her family.

> Proud optimist! Will always try her best to have others look at the bright side while she does too, but will look at the reality of things too.

> Gives hugs, cuddles, quiet reassurances and hold hands with her sad friends, before pulling a few jokes/ attempting to make them laugh. She will also try to get them to open up about their sadness.

> Enjoys lazy days cooped up in her room, drawing the day away (if it be for herself or her work), reading a good amount of writing online, and watching videos to pass time.

>Simultaneously short-tempered and calm. One minute, she’ll be yelling about some small thing that set her off, the next, she’ll be asking about your day, it thoroughly confuses the RFA and herself.

> Tries her best to cook, but always ends up messing up at least one thing due to her nerves, so she needs a buddy who’ll be able to calm her down and deal with her ever squeaky screeches of stress.

> Game Dev/Artist, who’s currently working on a quiet project with a few of her friends. But she’s failing on the “quiet” part…

> She basically blabbers about the project to her fans on Tripter, sometimes sneaking a few screenshots of progress, before deleting the post a couple hours later (Seven definitely saves those shots)

> Always, and I mean always, laughing and smiling when talking with her friends (which includes the RFA) face to face. It had become a habit of hers when she had to wear braces in her younger years.

> Enjoys being short, doesn’t let it bug her one bit.

> A proud asexual.

Alright :D meeting is underneath the cut, but it’s heavily oc x canon >_>

She meets the gang (in person) after the whole Mint Eye thing is resolved (4 months after, to be exact), and Saeran is tomato head! MC ends up with Yoosung, but she helped Seven look for Saeran. The entire RFA is the same age as they were when MC met them in this, and agree that there will be no more secrets, and the twins’ father is behind bars. This is also based on a thing I’m writing, which I won’t be releasing;; it’ll be too embarrassing >///<;;

> She actually visits the same café the RFA do! But she didn’t meet them the way you’d probably think. Seven’s actually one of three fans in the group (the other two being his brother and Yoosung) and he became friends with her over the net when he had “accidentally” hacked (Saeran knows) into her account and called out a bunch of people who were bothering her professional life (she was mortified when she found that post on her page, along with the apologies in her DMs). After that, she basically scrolled through the internet and relied on her knowledge of coding to try and find information about the person behind the hack. But compared to Seven, her skills her miniscule.

> Eventually, though, after a few hours of Seven watching her try to make a dent in his firewall, he gives in and messages her phone directly. It startles her, but overtime, they developed into a friendship from there on out.

> Though, they both don’t know what the other looks like (Saeran was pissed when he found out and basically fights against his brother when he tries to hack into her camera to sneak a glance, even when he thinks Saeran isn’t looking. His reason; “You promised not the hack into anything, and you already have, so at least respect the privacy she asks for on her blog”)

> Eventually gives up, but he’s bummed.

> They find out about their identities one day at the café, after being friends for 7 months now. At this point, the two were close knit.

> Basically, the two were at the café (Seven with the RFA while she’s by herself, the usual) and he had just sent her a joke. She ends up giggling, catching his attention.

> Brushes it off, so the convo continues.

> But then, she gets dizzy from her lack of sleep. She was used to her dizzy spells, so she shrugged it off and tried to type out her next message, but she ends up fainting, causing a commotion.

> It alarms everyone, especially Seven. The RFA members sort of gravitated towards the limp body while the staff at the café try to sort out the situation. Seven sort of shrugs it off, but then realises that his chat buddy had yet to respond, which was strange. She didn’t mention any task that had come to her attention, something she’d usually do, so it concerned him,

> He reassures himself, however, saying that she probably was busy.

> That was until he notices that she hasn’t responded for 2 days now.

> He than hacks to figure out her location and his stomach sinks. He basically runs out of the house and straight to the hospital, to find out where his friend was.

> It was tricky, trying to get into the room, but he manages to get in, revealing a truth he had already been suspecting.

> The girl was the one he had seen in the cafe!

> Said girl was startled by the appearance of a worried man practically busting the door open, her heartbeat was skyrocketing at his appearance. But those glasses caught her off-guard. That couldn’t be…

> Lo and behold, the man introduces himself as God7, her pancake. This causes the girl to laugh, surprised he had actually used that silly nickname that she had only used to address him once. However, she questions how he found out where she was, earning a nervous chuckle.

> She catches the hint, remembering him mentioning that he used to hack as a profession and how they had became friends, so she sighs and just apologises for not being in contact. “I have my phone with me so that I can check the time and message my family, I did want to contact you, but it’s already hard enough to message them.” She explains.

> She’s about to explain more, but Seven interrupts her, pulling her into an unexpected hug. She hugs him back.

> Not before she says, with a big smirk, “Soo, should I continue to call you God7, oor should I call you Saeyoung?”

> He laughs, before telling her to call him by his real name. “And what should I call you?”

> She hums. “Lucie-Marezi is a mouthful…” She says. “So, just continue to call me Maple, but you can use my real name.”

> After that, Saeyoung visits everyday until she is dispatched. He’s always messaging her if she’d eaten, when to sleep, how well she slept, etc., not wanting the same thing to happen again. He also uses her real name more frequently than she thought he would, what’s more shocking is that she doesn’t mind it and finds it nice.

> And when they are under the same cafe roof, Saeyoung wastes no time in introducing her to the rest of his friends, who quickly become friends with Lucie.

> And a few months after that, they got together and now the RFA deal with two Sevens.

> During their first months of being together, Lucie is a bit on the flustered side of things whenever they do cutesy things, she still is afterwards too, but she doesn’t snap at him like she did at first. She will not admit it, but she enjoys those quiet moments when they’re doing those things. She does, however, tell Saeyoung of her asexuality, to which he doesn’t mind. He does become cautious over his actions, he’s scared that if he does one wrong thing, he’ll lose one of his most precious friends.

> Seayoung basically joins her in creating the game, gushing over everything with the same energy as Lucie.

#mystic messenger #mystic messenger oc #mystic messenger custom mc #personal oc #lucie-marezi

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