a bi struggling 👀👀👀 yes communication is key but it's useless when someone is determined to misunderstand you. sorry you had to endure that, glenn. yikes
The sky was so clear and the moon was so bright and the water was so calm and it was kinda warm still and I wanna go look at the sky in a boat with someone :(
The struggles of being bi in the Grishaverse fandom is so funny to me. Because I'm constantly like, "oh, if I could date any character without ruining a relationship, who would I date?" so then I mentally run through the list of characters.
Alina and Mal are both with each other, so that rules them out. I would never date the Darkling because he's a bitch. Genya and David are together (and one's kinda... Well, you know), same with Zoya and Nikolai. Tamar is with Nadia, which sucks cause I'd totally date Tamar. Tolya is cool but he's canonically aro/ace and I respect that. Kaz and Inej? They've got their whole investment to lovers and I'd hate to ruin that. Nina and Matthias are a thing until CK but then Nina's with Hanne. I would never ruin the beautifulness that is Wesper, and there's no way I'm going for one of the older people or the assholes like Rollins or Van Eck or the lady who runs the Menagerie who's name I can't remember.
So after all that I come to the conclusion that despite all of the characters I have to choose from, I wouldn't dare any of them if it meant I ruined a relationship.
(if I wasn't thinking of that, definitely Nikolai, Zoya, or Jesper are the ones I'm gunning for. I love Kaz but I don't think we'd be good together.)
I'm so tired of people telling women that it's easier for us to get sex, like yeah it's easier for us to find an abuser who will absolutely neither respect us nor give us the slightest pleasure. Yeah we can have sex but like what kind of sex ? At what cost ? Not worth it, will stuck to dating women thank you very much 🙄
Okay so maybe love is too much of a word to describe this shitty feeling inside my chest but I do. So God help me please let me salvage whatever is left to be salvage so you'll continue to think of me as this extremely clueless, gay disaster that is totally so not in love with you because fck I'm so happy you're not leaving me after all but how can I possibly show my face now?????