#but I don’t

[lilislegacy]

percy and annabeth: *fully clothed, innocently cuddling, both sound asleep*

frank:

#i hope he actually walks in on them one day #can we make that an HC? #i said what i said #i should probably take it back #but i don’t #hehe #percy jackson #percabeth #pjo #heroes of olympus #annabeth chase #frank zhang #mark of athena #friends #mondler #phoebe buffay

[crevicedwelling]

a little Phidippus audax juvenile from some time ago. eye-wipe and a cheeky glance at the camera

#bugs #cw bugs #arachnid #spider #jumping spider #I should like jumping spiders more #but I don’t

[brattylikestoeat]

This is so cute.

#I wished I like hosting #but I don’t #I like it in theory but the idea of having people in my home is crazy #anyway #charcuterie board #shark coochie board #meat #cheese #vegetable #fruit #crackers #Halloween #Halloween 2k23 #brattylikestoeat #food #foodlr #food blog #video #foodie #cooking stim #stim cooking #savory stim #yummy

[headfullof-ideas]

Ant and Maddie are absolute chaos gremlins when left alone in a room together, which means i love the idea of their friendship. Have some incorrect quotes about it

#I don’t know how to draw rebreather helmets #you think i would when one of my favorite fandoms takes place nearly entirely underwater #but I don’t #i love these two so much you dont even know #as soon as they start getting along everyone who knows them immediately wishes they still hated each other #neither of their families have known peace since these two became friends #the deep 2015 #ant nekton #antaeus nekton #mad madeline #incorrect quotes #the deep cartoon

[muckyschmuck]

ya dawg we got flow ya dawg no massive amount of blood ya dawg Also u can kinda see my bruise from last shot LMAO

#ok there’s like a spec of blood but it’s a little #i don’t use bandaids bc i’m goated #jk #but i don’t #blood #just in case i just tagged blood incase #yeah #:3 we got flow ! #very pleasant shot no pain this time

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Who else does that thing where you prolong going to sleep because you really don’t want to endure another day?

#ryan.txt #this is why my insomnia is getting worse partly #I feel dread whenever it’s close to sleep time #you would think I like sleep bc you know ultimate escapism #but I don’t #I always have nightmares #and sleeping means having to wake up and I’m just so over everything #also it’s hard to fall asleep I dread the whole process

[the-golden-dragoness]

Every day I fight the Aaravos ear worm that is whispering in my ear telling me to be a bitch when it costs me almost nothing to be nice instead

#tgdposts #I think it’s because I feel like I’m expected to have the same feelings back #and express them back the same way #but I don’t #like I don’t want to play this little game when it’s not how I operate #but I can’t just ghost them either #so I say things I technically mean but just don’t feel like saying bc it feels like I’m doing it for politeness #instead of naturally #I don’t like that #personal

[bikerwizard4ever]

everyone’s like abigail and adam omg they r besties like???? r we forgetting amanda exists???? get that twink outta there, it’s abigail and amanda. they r the besties.

#like get it #but i don’t #abigail hobbs #amanda young #adam stanheight #hannibal #saw #like the father figures that john kramer and hannibal present to them? #they wouldn’t even have to trauma dump #it’s the same

[thedvilsinthedetails]

look ok I don’t have a crush on my friend but I also have a crush on literally everyone

so SOMETIMES there’s only so much fake flirting I can take yk

like why’s he gotta flirt sm?????

bitch don’t u know that’s how I fall in love

so he🤭

and I just fucking die.

#Ik it sounds like I have a crush on him #But I don’t #the most boring soap opera

[larapaulussen]

#eating together #wish I had someone for this #but I don’t #digitalart #Illustration #food illustration #drawing

[dearweirdme]

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#to some of you #i’m not gonna respond to asks in which i’m pitted against other blogs #i understand some like a bit of drama #but i don’t #so instead of sending me blog links #send me asks you formulated yourself

[evilwriter37]

I feel so unsatisfied with my day…

#I posted a fic and finished an art piece #so like… I should feel satisfied #but I don’t #fuck depression honestly

[shirkers2018dirsanditan]

i did resolve to stop throwing myself so many pity parties and to cultivate a practice of indifference towards my own life so that i could one day truly feel indifferent but i don’t :( and it’s silly and self indulgent but i do want somebody to feel bad for me. i don’t want advice, i don’t want encouragement or positive thinking, i don’t want motivation. i just want someone to take seriously the conclusions i’ve come to even though they may sound ridiculous - i understand they do! trust me i do! they are so ridiculous i don’t fully believe them even though i need to! - and i want someone to take seriously at least how depressed it makes me and i do want them to say and express. poor you. i don’t have a lot that makes me sympathetic or unique, but it hurts enough that i just need a little pity…..and it’s so rude of me to… when people are being nice to me and trying to ensure like, no these conclusions aren’t true! life is long! the future is open! if you want these things you’ll get them. because it’s nice and i feel, genuine. i used to be optimistic like that. and i’m not someone who really suffers, but plenty of people suffered their whole lives and died. plenty of people have been lonely their whole lives and then they just died. plenty of people have been depressed their whole lives and then they just died. and from my vantage point what i can realistically hope for is that my end is sooner rather than later. but this is a depressing thing to say and something no one wants to hear. and certainly no one will be like, i agree and i hope your life is short and your end near. and i’m not saying i want someone to tell me this. but i don’t want to hear about how these things will come and how it’s just a matter of time or if i want something i can have it or how it’s okay to be down sometimes. i don’t believe you. and it’s not a comfort. and i feel bad that it isn’t. but i’ve been delusional and i don’t like it. i don’t like chasing after delusions. i don’t like being hurt. and i know that’s life and blah blah blah but i do feel it should not all be this hard. it’s just not worth it. i feel, narcissistically, that on some level my decision to let go of delusional optimism and try and accept my fate is kind of noble. lol. at the very least it’s very difficult. and some, encouragement is not the word but like. literally just some pity would go so far. like yes. poor me. but i’m coping with it. but that’s too much to ask!

#i hate the idea that life is what you make it and your life is up to you blah fucking whatever #like on a political level i think its shallow #but on a personal level i don’t think it’s fair #life is not fair sometimes for no reason #some animals get lost from the pack and then die of exposure. or whatever #it can all be so very random #i’m sure you could say i haven’t tried enough #but when trying is painful it hurts to keep doing that #you can only take so much rejection…..you can only be disliked by so many people in so many subtle and overt ways before it gets to be #too much #and its easy to see someone unhappy and be like. well they’ve chosen this #and like no well the circumstances chose me idk #i don’t like being unhappy more than anyone else #i’ve been depressed for like two years or something like. i don’t like that at all #i would rather be happy and social #and feel loved and understood #i would rather feel normal #i would rather feel like i belong #but i don’t #and that’s not my fault #and some pity would be nice! #i should have put this in my notes app or something or maybe i need a journal but #this is my blog so everyone will have to witness my breakdown

[neptunes-saddest-alien]

Every single time I drive a car I want nothing more than to make it my last .

#but I don’t #why #i don’t know anymore #tired #exhausted #deppressed #numb #mentally tired #lonliness #pathetic #worthless #passively suicidal #suicidal ideation #suicidal #tw sui ideation #deppresing thoughts #i hate it here

[only-lonely-www]

I love them

#pokemon #pokemon legends arceus #pokemon irida #pokemon adaman #PUT THEM IN PMEX #NOW #sorry I didn’t do anything with adaman’s bandages #maybe I would have if I had more brain juice at the moment #but I don’t

[aliothbuzzsawshark]

One of these days I’ll talk about that sevens rewrite in my head. One day

#I should really talk about it #But I don’t #Mainly because I don’t think about it much #So I don’t have much for it #Just ideas #I mean if y’all wanna know more you can ask #But you won’t get a lot of info