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discopaddock · 10 months

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SNOW, SNOW, SNOW - PIERRE GASLY

PAIRING: single dad!pierre gasly x polish!fem!reader

GENRE: angst

WORD COUNT: 2380

NOTE: im back finally!! sorry for absence yall i just had a lot of school and i was on a school trip so i wasnt using phone too much. hope you like this one, x.

WARNINGS: burn, missing child, my english, google translated french

If Y/N L/N had haters, Pierre Gasly was one of them. If she had only one hater, it was him. And if she had zero haters, that meant that Pierre Gasly was dead.

Y/N had no idea why Pierre didn't like her so much. If there was something which happened and it didn't have a good outcome, he would always blame her from their whole group.

And because of his father, Claude Gasly didn't like Y/N either. He was Pierre's mini-me so of course he was acting the same as his father.

I guess it was the 2023 winter break, when Y/N, Pierre, Claude, Max, Charles, Arthur, Lorenzo, Lando, Yuki and their girlfriends were together in the Alps and the little guy got lost in the woods, but I'll tell you about it later.

“Enzo, none of them like me so why should I share a room with them?” Y/N asked, when she heard that she was going to be roommates with the Gaslys.

“Come off it-”

“I'm fucking not, for fucks sake, I don't want to share room with them, they are going to kill me and I am fucking serious at this moment” she announced, making Lorenzo, Charles and Max laugh. “I can even sleep on the couch, just not with them,” she added, but then Max said that he can share the room with Pierre and his son, but she would have to share the room with Lando.

She had never felt so thankful in her life before.

Sure, Lando was pretty disgusting, but he was better than the Gaslys, who hated her.

“Hey, hey wait! Y/N!” Verstappen yelled to her, watching as she was running upstairs with her huge suitcase.

“Hey Lando! Guess what, we're sharing a room” the girl said, after entering the bedroom, where Norris was sitting on his bed, which was the one against the window.

“Oh, okay?” He said a little confused, but he didn't mind. He was actually best friends with Y/N, so he was happy about it.

“So um yeah, bye Lando” Max announced after taking his valise and he left the room.

And then the Gaslys had arrived. Claude was an energetic boy. He was full everywhere. And as I said, he was his father's mini-me, so he looked exactly like him; the same ice-blue eyes, brunette hair, a gap between the teeth. As if you did copy paste in real life.

And Pierre liked to have matching clothes with his son, so it was even more copy paste in real life.

And again as I said, Claude was really energetic. And because of that just after taking off his winter clothes and shoes, he ran to his, Pierre's and Max's bedroom, not looking around, so he collapsed with Y/N, who was carrying a mug with a hot tea. This story for little Gasly had a happy ending, unlike L/N, who burned herself with the tea and broke her favourite mug.

“Kurwa mać” she cursed in her native language with teary eyes and a red hand. She quickly picked off parts of the mug and ran to the kitchen and put her hand into cold water. “I'll clean it up in a moment!” she announced but Colette, who saw the whole incident calmed her down, saying that she would do it for her. Fucking hell

“Do you need anything?” Augustin asked, after she entered the kitchen and saw Polishgirl, who still had her hand in the water. “Could you bring me my makeup bag? I have ointment for burns and frostbite in it” Y/N answered and Colette only smiled, nodded her head and went to the room of L/N and Norris.

“How bad does it hurt?” Lando asked, when he entered the kitchen with Y/N's makeup bag.

“Really bad? I guess” the girl answered, wiping her hand with a paper towel. “I don't have any bandages, damn it” she announced, rummaging through the makeup bag.

“Lorenzo's must-have” and with that, Lando ran to the eldest Leclerc's bedroom. “Enzo said if your hand won't stop hurting at night, he will drive you to the hospital,” Norris announced, putting the bandage on his friend's hand. The girl nodded. Her hand was hurting like hell, but she was hoping that she wouldn't have to go to the hospital.

“Fuck, I don't have any mug now” she said after a moment of realization. “I need to go to the town” she said and started walking to their room. Lando followed her, saying that he could go with her. “Be careful with your hand” the boy said, which made the girl roll her eyes. They were almost ready to go, when someone knocked on the door. “Come in!”

“Y/N, I know someone that wants to tell you something” Collette announced after walking to the bedroom. The little boy stood in front of the Polishgirl and mumbled: “Je suis désolé d'être tombé sur toi” I'm sorry I ran into you

“Je ne suis pas en colère, mais fais plus attention la prochaine fois, d'accord?” she answered, crouching, so she could look at Claude's face. I'm not mad, but be more careful next time, okay?

“Je suis désolé pour ta tasse” the boy added. I'm sorry about your mug

He actually felt sorry for that situation.

Sure, he didn't like Y/N, because of his dad, but still she was always kind and nice to him and it was his fault that all of this happened.

“Je ne suis pas en colère, ne t'inquiète pas” she said with a smile on her face and Claude hugged her. L/N had no idea what to do. After a while she hugged him back and because of that, he gripped her even tighter. I'm not angry, don't worry

Finally the boy moved away from her, so she could go with Lando.

“Bye!” the boy waved at them, so did Colette, who had a warm smile on her face.

“I don't remember if little Gasly had ever treated you like this” Norris said, when they finally sat in the girl's car.

“Same, Lando. Like I- fuck, he never liked me” Y/N announced. “Like his dad. Because they act the same but you know. I didn't even think that he would apologise to me”

“Yes, yes, same. Like he never wanted to play with you when we were hanging out, he was just mean to you like Pierre” Lando agreed with her.

“Do you know why Pierre doesn't like me so bad? Because for four years since I met him he always treated me like shit and never told me why” she asked, but her best friend didn't know.

“Since Claude was born he became really protective over him. So maybe it's because he didn't know you before C was born? Like he considered you as an enemy because he thought that you would hurt his beloved son? Like the female defends her young” Lando explained and the girl had no choice but to shrug.

“I don't want to think about them, just let me buy a new mug” Y/N said and got out of the car, so did her best friend.

They came back to the house after two hours, because they also went to the bookstore just to watch some books because they felt the vibe.

“You two were on a date or something?” Charles asked when they entered the living room.

“Who knows?” Lando moved his eyebrows in a suggestive way with a smile on his face. Y/N only shook her head, also smiling.

“Good luck on your new way of life!” Yuki yelled at them, when they were walking to the kitchen. Everyone laughed.

Well, everyone except Pierre who shook his head with a disgusted look. How old were they? 5?

“Oh, Pedro, stop being so boring,” Yuki told his best friend.

“You act like you were five,” Gasly said, which made Yuki laugh even more.

“Why are you laughing?” asked Claude, who just woke up from his nap. His English was broken but as a six year old bilingual boy it was really good.

“Because of your dad, C” Tsunoda answered, sitting the boy on his lap. “He's really jealous, you know” Yuki whispered to the little brunette boy's ear.

“Why is he jealous?” Claude asked, also whispering. “Y/N and Lando,” the Japaneseman answered quickly and quietly.

Well, yes, Pierre was jealous about Y/N and Lando. He was jealous of their relationship. In his opinion, they were together, like they were dating and did all that stuff, which people in love do and he used to do, when he was in a relationship with C's mother, Héloïse.

He was also jealous because he didn't spend as much time with Lando as they used to before the Brit-Belgianman met the Polish Girl during her Erasmus in France.

Plus, Y/N was really attractive, like she had catched a lot of women's or men's eyes, so did he. He wanted to date her actually, but he was at lost point; he fucked up at beginning of their acquaintance.

So Pierre thought that there was no other option, than just pissing her off for the rest of their lives.

On the next day, the whole group went skiing. Some of them like Lando and Arthur were snowboarding also.

It was a fun day. It was the only time when Y/N liked being in the mountains the whole year. Because she was a sea person (just like Pierre).

At twelve, they went to eat lunch. L/N was sitting with Norris, Charles and Colette at the table, while Pierre and the rest were sitting at the other one. It was only because the big table where Pierre was sitting was too small to accommodate them all.

After lunch they went for a walk in the woods. It was fun, relaxing and the trees were looking amazing covered with the white snow.

Everything seemed to be a dream until Pierre realised that he lost his son. They were at the car park, when Gasly realised it.

“No Pierre, you're staying here with Yuki, you're panicking and you won't be helpful in this condition” Lorenzo said, looking into the Frenchman's eyes.

“We should start looking for him as quickly as possible, let's go” Y/N said and ran into the woods, so did Lando, Arthur, Carla, Max, Gabby, Charles, Colette and Lorenzo.

“They'll find him, don't worry” Yuki tried to calm down his best friend, who was crying.

“I fucking lost my son, I'm a horrible father” Gasly scoffed and rested his head against the car seat.

“No, you're not! You raise him on your own, he doesn't have a mother, so you have to be both for him and you are doing it really well. And it is common that kids are lost, when they are small like C” Tsunoda handed the brunette man a tissue, so he could wipe his tears.

“Yes, but in markets not in woods!” Pierre cried out. “I'm so awful. Like fuck, I treated Y/N like shit for these four years and now she was the first person to ran into the woods to look for my son. That fucking hilarious!” he said.

“You should apologise to her” Yuki announced, which made the other man take a deep breath before he started talking again.

“It's too late”

“No, it's not! Y/N is the kindest person I've ever met. Like if you tell her the whole truth that you like her in this romantic way, she will definitely forgive you” the man announced.

“Yeah and that's the problem. I'm grumpy and she is sunshine. I won't tell her that. She doesn't like me back. She's dating Lando” Pierre said.

“You're such an idiot, they're just friends”

And while Yuki was giving Pierre a lesson about Y/N, she was running in the woods just to find the little Gasly. It was getting dark so she was worrying even more about the little boy.

“Claude!” she knew that she shouldn't scream in the woods, but what could she do? She repeated the boy's name a few times, walking deeper into the wood. “Claude!” she yelled again and she was losing her hope, but then she heard a small voice on the left. She quickly ran there and found little Gasly, who was sitting under a tree with blue lips and red hands.

“Oh, Claude” she said and picked him up from the ground. The boy only hugged her and covered his head in her neck. The girl pulled gloves from her jacket pocket and gave it to Gasly to wear them.

She was terrified of his condition.

“I want Papa,” he cried. He was hungry, terrified and frozen. “I know, you'll meet him in a moment, I promise” she announced and kissed his head. “I was chasing a squirrel and then no-one was around” he said, which broke Y/N's heart. He was only six years old and it definitely was a huge trauma for him. “You're safe now. I won't let anything happen to you” she told him. “I think I know why my papa thinks you're pretty,” Claude whispered. “I heard when he was talking about you with Yuki in our living room. I think he likes you, but he doesn't know how to tell you” he added.

Y/N was shocked.

Pierre fucking Gasly was thinking that she was pretty.

“Do you like my papa too?” the boy asked and Y/N had no idea how to answer him.

“Well, he's nice” she only stuttered and started walking faster. It was already dark and she was worried that she would get lost too.

“We're here, Claude” she announced when they were ten metres from the whole group.

Y/N was the last person to show up (as always).

“Is Papa here?” little Gasly asked, but the girl didn't answer him, because both of them were hugged by no-one other than Pierre. “Papa!” Little Gasly gasped after he recognised his father by his smell.

“Je suis tellement désolé, Claude” the man said. “Et merci, Y/N, merci beaucoup” he added. I'm so sorry, Claude. And thank you, Y/N, thank you so much.

The talk with Yuki gave him a lot to think about himself, her and how he treated her and how he wanted to treat her.

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mirrorballhughes · 6 months

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I MISS YOU IM SORRY

luke hughes x adelaide hunter

starting us off with a good old instagram edit, some text messages and a lil in real life !! so enjoy :)

adelaidehunter

liked by stormallen, jackhughes, _quinnhughes and 115,130 others

adelaidehunter AHHH. words can not express how excited i am to say MY DEBUT ALBUM “good riddance” is out june 21st!!! ALSO “where do we go now?” is out TONIGHT AT MIDNIGHT!!

its difficult to imagine these songs living anywhere other than my most secret places, but rutger is my biggest supporter and reminded me that holding space for brutal honesty in songwriting is kind of the whole point.

i feel an unbelievable amount of gratitude for the opportunity to have made this album. writing this record allowed me to grow up in ways i needed to. it forced me to reflect and be accountable. it allowed me to walk away from versions of myself that i no longer recognize. it allowed me to let go.

also a big shoutout to my sister thats not blood, storm. shes one of the few people in this world capable of making others feel safe to their core when they are exploring the parts of themselves that are most raw. storm is rare and generous. im so glad you are my roommate, but fuck the canes btw!! ;)

thank you all for the support!!! im so nervous. im so relieved. i hope with my whole heart that theres something in here that makes you feel less alone. ill be thanking you all for the rest of my life for taking this record and making it yours!!! JUNE TWENTY FIRST!! AHHH see you at midnight!! <3

tagged: stormallen, rutgermcgroarty

COMMENTS

_quinnhughes Della!! I’m so proud of you! Cant waif to celebrate with you :)

adelaidehunter QUNNIIE!! thank you. see u soon

jackhughes Adds so proud of you.

adelaidehunter thx jacks. see u soon :)

user2 this album is gonna be so good.

user5 anyone think its gonna be about luke…

user6 u might be on to something..

user10 but his brothers commented??

user13 they are family friends, grew up together.

User30 Oh ik that tension in their summer lake house is gonna go CRAZY.

rutgermcgroarty STAR IS SHINNING !!

adelaidehunter thx!

stormallen MY GIRL!! I CANF WAIT TO LISTEN ( already have)

rutgermcgroarty yeah me too u arent special!

edwards.73 HEY I HEARD IT ASWELL!!

umichhockey i think we all heard it🙄

adelaidehunter I LOVE U STORMY!!

mackie.samo are we ignoring the fact that adel went out of her way to reply using the umich account?

luca.fantilli its lemonade she can do what she wants!

adamfantilli mackie dont be a hater now, ur just mad that u missed the listening party!!

umichhockey thx you fantilli twins!! :)

luca.fantilli we arent twins lemonade

adamfantilli last time i stick up for you.

adelaidehunter NOOO IM SORRY🙁💔

dylanduke25 good riddance: said to express relief at being free of a troublesome or unwanted person or thing.

user5 DYLAN???

adelaidehunter LMAOOO. duker thats crazy

seamuscasey26 DUDE THATS FOUL.

markestapa addieeeee LETS GO?? Im screaming at u

adelaidehunter IM NOT even WITH U??

markestapa okay.. u might be

user1303 WHAT.

lhughes_06 cant wait to listen. proud of you adelaide.

user3343 THE “ADELAIDE” HURT ME.

user559 shes definitely not replying to this!

caleb.hunter um im ur biggest supporter???

adelaidehunter thats true! i love u

user34 IM GGIGLING AHE TOTALLY SKIPPED OVER LUJES COMMENT.

user32 UR SO RIGHT OH MY GOD SHE DEFINITELY SAW IT

hughes hunter moment !!

quinn: caleb just got here. now where are u della??

jack: YEAAAH. where are u missy???

quinn: jack. we arent playing bad cop good cop.

jack: i know that??

quinn: god ur annoying

adelaide: im pulling in right now.

enough fighting please.

IN REAL LIFE!!

adelaide just parked her car, grabbing her bags from her car. she took in her surroundings, taking a deep breath in and out. the hughes hunter lake house was always her favorite place to be. something about this time seems different. the blonde let go of the negative energy before walking to the door. she opened the door, backing up feeling the door handle opening up from the inside.

“oh. hey adelaide. thought u were the pizza guy.” the youngest hughes brother was standing at the door, causing adelaide to go mute. “QUINN MOVE! IM TRYING TO GET TO THE DOOR. CALEB STOP HIM!” she heard the middle hughes brother say. “here do you want me to help you-“ the curly haired boy asked, “no its fine thanks.” the blonde spoke quietly walking into the house carrying her stuff in. “ADDS!! move LUKE!” jack said causing luke to move out of his way, the youngest brother was stood there admiring the girl.

luke checked up on adelaide a lot. always watching her stories, seeing her posts just never reached out. luke noticed how her hair still had little bits of brown in it from when she dyed her hair right after the two broke up. luke watched the two interact hugging each other and smiling. luke wished that was him. “shes my sister, why didnt i get the first hug?” caleb spoke as him and quinn finally moved over to where the group was. “she likes me more thats why cal.” jack said causing adelaide to roll her eyes, giving her brother a hug then hugged quinn. her and luke locked eyes, the three guys standing there noticed the love spark that were still there between the two.

the blonde girl broke the eye contact, “ill be back down. i gotta get unpacked.” she said shooting a small smile to the group of guys who nodded. there was a knock at the door, “great timing! the pizza here as well!” quinn smiled pushing luke to get the door as he was impatiently waiting for it. addie made her way upstairs smiling trying to make this lake house vacation will as best as she could.

caleb was at her door, seeing as though she finished packing. “you okay?” that caught adelaides attention, “im fine why wouldnt i be?” she said sitting down on her bed caleb following after her. “um i dont know, maybe its because of some certain boy downstairs? who you have been friends with since forever and then ended up to-“ “okay enough!” she said causing her older brother to laugh. “okay fine sorry! but if you ever wanna talk just let me know. im here for you, a.” the glasses wearing boy said, as the two hugged each other.

the hunter siblings went downstairs sitting at the bar with the hughes brothers already digging into the pizza. “so della how excited are you for your album and song release?” the oldest hughes brother asked, causing luke to feel smaller and tense. he was there when adelaide was writing the music, she told him about some of the songs. but once they brought up, luke knew she had to have some gut wrenching song written about him. sure he was nervous, but he would always be proud of her for any and all of her accomplishments.

“oh! im so excited, but nervous. it does feel good to have it released out to the world instead of being stuck inside with just me.” she said looking over at luke whos head was low, then brought her attention to grabbing some pizza. “so “where do we go now?”whats that gonna be about?” jack asked knowing most of her songs had meaning, jack always adored adds music he has to be her biggest supporter. “its basically me reflecting back on all the little white lies in a one-sided love that beamed as bright red flags, finally leading to ending things. and the question of where they should go, start afresh or not, looms over this delicate ballad, though remains unanswered.” she said causing luke to look up and then quickly brought his head down. “oh well i cant wait to hear it! any songs about our good man luke here?” jack asked causing luke to look up and glare at the older boy. adelaids face flushed, “you dont need to answer that a. jack is just picking.” caleb said sending the boy a wtf look.

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mrpenguinpants · 3 years

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Genshin: When you’re cold [V1]

Whenever I write these it’s always when I have a pile of requests on my desk that I said I was going to get to but never do. I even missed a day yesterday because I crashed and burned and slept the entire day haha. Might miss today too since I’m going out to see my mum.

This is like 90% crack and 10% actual content. I’m gonna post this and proceed to have shock therapy and wipe it from my memory.

I just want to be happy and it’s cold af where I live. I’ve also learned from maagdalen that Russia is insane with snow.

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Today’s appreciation post goes to asoundofdrop. Ty for the love on the Childe HCs hehe. Honestly, just the fact you tag everything blows my mind because I hate tagging so just seeing you do it with my mess of tags (back when I screamed my feelings before tumblr dropped the ban hammer on me) is like wow. That’s some next level effort, wish I had that haha;; I’m just gonna say this in advance, I am so sorry for the mess of tags I’m about to drop on this.

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Genshin: Holding Hands [V1]

Genshin: University AU [V1]

Genshin: Roommate [V1]

Genshin: Royalty AU [V1]

[Masterlist]

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[taglist] <- if you want to be added, please read this first.

@hanniejji @mikeysbike @unionwitch @musekala @twistedsunnshiii @stanzastic @akaasea @xoneaboveallx @adoring-ghost @asheseiler @childelover @dilucsz

@youaskedfurret @snowy224 @mayumintsu @tigerpriestess

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Xiao

Excuse me? What is this cold you speak of? He’s an adepti he doesn’t know what cold is. Is it a demon he’s not aware of? Should he go beat it into submission if that’ll make you feel better? He’s already gone with his spear and out to go slay this cold demon before you can explain what the hell temperature is.

By the time he’s back, he seems so proud of himself for killing a dragonspine yeti that you don’t have the heart to tell him that was literally not what you wanted or expected him to do. Your fingers are about to break their finger kneecaps. pLEASE sir just hold my hand.

Bad idea, he’s been outside in the cold and he’s not exactly wearing mittens so your fingers end up colder. But you’re finally holding his hand that you suck it up and cry when he does actually break your fingers because he doesn’t know what muscle control is.

Keqing

Ruthless business woman one second and then you show up, tell her you’re cold, and she’s reduced to flustered mother hen. All she has on her are these long sleeves that all Qixing wear. Would you like some warm milk? She knows you like your milk heated to a simmer right at 187.7975 degrees Fahrenheit.

Okay, first off, who measures in fahrenheit anymore this is China Liyue. Second off, how the hell does she know that and why is it so precise? She’s already throwing whatever Liyue duties she had back at the poor worker that has no idea what possessed the normally confident and admirable Keqing into this...creature. Making new plans for a heating system in Liyue while also coddling you.

Catch her outside at 3am pounding the snow ground, crying, as she curses Rex Lapis for making it so cold in Liyue when he’s not even the Cyro archon. Zhongli sneezed while looking over papers burning the 3am oil. Maybe he needs to go home before it gets too cold, he might be getting sick.

Diluc

God you’re such an idiot. Didn’t you see how hard the snow was falling? I can’t believe I married someone with 2 braincells. Are you trying to give me a heart attack? What would father in the sky think if my partner died because of frost bite when I’m a goddamn pyro vision user? I can commit arson to make a make-shift fire place, I have the money for the damages.

Dilu- NO I DON’T NEED YOUR SHIRT. IT’S -20 DEGRESS. IT’S OKAY. YOUR COAT IS ENOUGH. PUT YOUR CLAYMORE AWAY WE CANNOT SET THE KNIGHTS OF FAVONIUS HQ ON FIRE WE AREN’T EVEN NEAR THERE. KAEYA IS INSIDE- DILUC - NO COME BACK.

Your make shift fireplace is Kaeya’s “ugly” scarf. That’s it. That’s the post.

Amber

Oh you’re cold? It’s okay, here take her baron bunny to cuddle with while she lights a fire. She thinks she saw some boar’s in the forest, she can make her specialty and that should warm you right up! So sweet, so wholesome. Don’t worry this baron bunny won’t explode in your face, she tripled checked she wasn’t giving you a dancing bomb.

While you’re huddled around a summoning circle of baron bunny’s, nice and warm, is when she relaxes and joins you. She grins to herself and pats herself on the shoulder. See that haters, she can make her partner nice and happy without your #buffamberwhen.

Kaeya

You’re cold? Maybe you’ve just fallen so hard for him that whenever you think of him you get cold. He never knew you cared so much it’s so cut- okok you can stop hitting him now. He’ll offer his scarf if he had one but Diluc might have burned it but he does have his tit window.

Basically impenetrable, you could bounce bullets off it so naturally the cold bounces off. You have to tell him up front that he sound borderline crazy and the fbi are already at his door. The fbi is Diluc. So instead he offers his overcoat and asks you if you would like to join him in some cozy tavern that hopefully has heating.

It’s a nice and comforting experience until he drags you to Angel share and you know it’s just to 1v1 Diluc in the parking lot.

Scaramouche

lol perish

So naturally, you grab his ridiculous hat that he wears to compensate for his gremlin height and throw it like a frisbee.

Go fetch

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God, why is there no official content of you scaramouche you bitch, you’re ruining the aesthetic. This is why I only give you one point of dialogue. This isn’t even funny. It’s a therapy session. This entire post was just for me to say tit window because I didn’t get to say it in my last Kaeya fic.

Wow, I wonder which characters I like in genshin. Could it be “wow I hate everything and everyone don’t fucking touch me” male characters??? Could it be “Head strong but are secretly adorable” female characters?? Kaeya is only there because Diluc is there.

I had to redo all my headers because everyone was taking up so much space in their 240p quality. Keqing is the only one that actually stepped forward when it was picture day. I don’t have enough energy to care about sizing I’m sorry.

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lynx-paw · 3 years

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Stray Kids album review no one asked for, but I still did because yes.

Every song has 3 "reviews": before looking up lyrics, after looking up lyrics and final.

1 – Cheese

BEFORE: Ohh the guitar riff. I am WEAK for guitar in this one. Probably a song I’d play waiting for the traffic light to go green. It has nice, somehow fun beat. But, we definitely could have survived without them naming types of cheese.

AFTER: Heh. A real fuck you in not romantic way.

FINAL: I appreciate the entire idea behind the song. Tho, we still could’ve survived without types of cheese.

2 – Thunderous

BEFORE: Idk why, but beginning reminds me of Rhythm Ta. Yes Changbineeeeeeey take it away.

Did I hear it right? "I’m not sorry, I’m dirty." Babes, are we okay?

Ah yes, Aussie line being more Aussie with each passing day. OMG THAT LAUGH AT 2:03 YES.

Oh I def heard it right, I’m not sorry I’m dirty. Cool, cool, ok. The rapapapam bought me, seriously.

It has very Kingdom!Ateez sound to it which isn’t a bad thing at all, I’m a sucker for Kingdom!Ateez. But… I don’t know, I miss either more intense build-up or beat drop. That would, like, totally kill me and pay for my burial.

AFTER: Oh. Changbin’s part is really, really good. Okay, okay, seriously props to whoever wrote the lyrics. But we really could’ve survived without I’m not sorry, I’m dirty.

Kkundeuri wasseoyo and Gyerani wasseoyo need to have a collab if you know what I mean hehe 😉

FINAL: I feel like my precious I.N had so much fun in this one, so I give bonus points. The song is good, the lyrics are bomb, but the sound lacks intensity. I wish they went with a bit harsher tone, the song would be absolute bomb slap then. All in all, I like it.

3 – Domino

BEFORE: GOING IN STRONG YES. Yeah, goodbye brain, I’ll be going around singing Domino, domino, DOMINO. Yo, that stop and then intense rap at approximately 1:15 is very nice touch.

Don’t kill me, but in my very humble opinion, Chan’s parts feel a bit out of place in the song.

Oh… I don’t like the pace change starting at 2:40…

AFTER: Ah, yet another fuck you, I’ll succeed no matter what you say song.

FINAL: Kinda have a feeling it might grow on me after a few days, but right now… Hm. I don’t know. Maybe one of those songs which need to marinate and which might slap after I come back to them randomly.

4 – Ssick

BEFORE: Oh, the beginning gives me Ikon vibes, yes please. Okay, okay, this drop at 0:50 is really good, I like it very much.

This song has nice transitions and per se, variety, that maybe previous songs lack. For now, my favourite song. It is repetitive, just like the previous ones, and that’s not a bad thing, but I think this one has the best mix of repetitive and filled with variety in beat.

AFTER: 3rd fuck you haters song? I mean sure, fuck haters, but isn’t dedicating 3 songs to them giving them a bit too much attention? This one isn’t just about fuck you tho, it’s also about being there for your friends and I like that aspect. It’s like fuck you to haters and i wuw you to friends and supporters.

Also very, very, very important and positive part of the lyrics is “Oh yeah, I know that I don’t have anything special. But, yeah, do you know that I myself am special?” This, boys, girls, rocks and flowers, this is very valuable lesson. You don’t have to own something special because you are special by just being. Don’t belittle yourself. Even skz is telling you that.

FINAL: From all the fuck you songs this is probably my favorite.

5 – The View

BEFORE: Awww very summery song, very sweet since the beginning. OH SHIT I AM CRYING WTF?

Fuck, this reminds me of a feeling, if you get me, but I don’t know which one? I like it. I LIKE IT SO MUCH. YES. BRING IT ON. BRING ON THE TEARS YES. (i am probably the only person being excited to cry but that says a lot about me sush please).

This is one of the songs I’d LOVE to randomly hear on the radio. Just driving to the beach, vibing you know.

And getting attacked by sudden rap and beat change because why tf not, you know?

AFTER: “Clouds like a submarine swim” I told you, summer vibes.

Ah, fuck. Here, it’s this why I cried. I sensed something in the way they delivered this part of the song and it was this: “The road in front of me seemed dark ‘cause i never ever let it go. Now I feel comfortable, I like it, this feeling and I’ll never ever let it go.” Not to be someone who’ll be like Aha! This is the meaning behind this! but to me this reminds me a lot of feeling stuck with bad self-image, both mentally and physically, and because I said this is like a summer song, my brain immediately goes to all those summers I hated my body and this one being the first summer ever that I didn’t actively hate myself. This part of lyrics is for me like finally breaking out of the shell or maybe a better expression, shedding old skin and just leaving it behind, going forward with new, more positive mentality and a sense of liberation.

“I like the view right now” is like 1) i literally like the view (sunset on beach type of vibe), 2) i like looking at you/myself and realising you’re feeling comfortable around me/yourself/myself, and/or 3) i like this new view on life I have.

Look, I could literally quote entire song and give in depth analysis of on what level they resonate with me, but I won’t do that. I’ll just say these are one of the best lyrics I’ve ever read and they’re so well combined with music ughhh. And the fact this song came at the right time in my life *insert chef’s kiss*

FINAL: I love it. It was really good before I read lyrics and after it’s like three times better. One of my faves on the album.

6 – Sorry, I love you

BEFORE: Nothing special for except for the slight angsty tones I hear. I like it, but nothing crazy. I’d like it to pop up on my playlist occasionally. I think it would be an absolute BOP for me if it was leaning more to the rock genre. Like, a bit slowed down with accent just on guitar and their voices. But, that’s just me always being a sucker for rock ballads. For some reason to me, best ballads and most songs which evoke strong emotion from me are the ones which accentuate the words, the voice and one instrument.

AFTER: Very convinced this song is written by the one who is watching Nevertheless (is it Seungmin? or someone else?). My roommate strongly disagrees with that, but look, I don’t make rules, I think, I say.

FINAL: I hate to admit it but it’s catchy. I’d love live band version of this ngl.

7 – Silent Cry

BEFORE: Interesting intro huh. But something doesn’t sit with me right with the rest of the song. I don’t know what. I really don’t.

AFTER: Yeah sure, hit me with depresso lyrics right in the beginning.

FUCK. The lyrics are really killing me.

FINAL: I just can’t suffer through music. Lyrics are amazing, but idk, music is so not my style and somehow don’t suit the lyrics.

8 – Secret Secret

BEFORE: WAIT WHY DO I HAVE EMOTIONS ALREADY IT’S ONLY BEEN LIKE 10 SECONDS INTO THE SONG. Fuck. I’m on the verge of tears. Imagine listening to this and then Ex I would straight up have emotional breakdown. Yeah, yeah, I’m crying. Leave me alone. The softness, the preciousness, the cuteness, ugh I am broken™.

AFTER: Yeah, fuck. I’m crying again.The lyrics are killing me.

FINAL: This song makes me very emotional, I am a literal mess right now. Kill me, resurrect me, kill me again.

9 – Star Lost

Not my type of song. Like, nothing’s wrong, it’s just so not my type.

10 – Red Lights

BEFORE: Well, the beat drop for sure slaps. The song reminds me of something, it’s either a movie or a song, but I can’t remember. And that’s not a bad thing, I just hate the fact I can’t remember what it reminds me of.

AFTER: “I’m staying up all night again.” I see what you did there, tsch.

“Now tell me you hate me I can’t stand you any longer. But I know, you and me, there’s nothing I can do.” this is very good. I like this.

FINAL: This song could be about so many things. Lust, control problems, feeling of losing yourself, not knowing what your stage personality is and what is real you, anxiety, insomnia, depression… The thing they really managed to do is achieving a level of intensity. I like the song more after I read the lyrics, but I have to say I thought it would be much, much more intense and in your face. I’ll let it crawl in my mind and heart. Slowly. Hehe.

11 – Surfin’

BEFORE: I’m not a fan of summer. Or summer songs. But this is good. Wtf. Something’s going on with me lol. I have nothing much to say, I like the song, that’s it hahah.

AFTER: Felix talking about working 24/7 isn’t something I thought I’d hear in such a summery song.

“My head is overheated just like my laptop.” yo Changbin, mood.

FINAL: I hate summer songs, but this one slaps. This is the only summer song I’ll ever love and accept. Absolute bop.

12 – Gone Away

BEFORE: Oh the beginning surely is something. Oh no, no, no, no, no, I’ll cry again. Oh no. I’m dead. Fuck. I’m crying without lyrics, what’s going to happen after I listen with lyrics? Fuck man.

OH SHIT WHAT WAS THIS AT 3:00? THEY’RE PULLING OFF SOME MAYFLY SINGING UNIT THING I AM LITERALLY DEAD HERE. My. Jesus.

AFTER: Yeah, I’m crying a river. Pass me handkerchiefs.

FINAL: Seungmin, stop watching Nevertheless.(Don’t. I need more heartbreak songs ty.)

13 – Wolfgang

- The song I lowkey hated on Kingdom, but it crawled in my mind and heart later. Hyunjin just added some spice heh.

14 – 애

- Not gonna comment much, this could be the worst song ever and I’d still adore it because of what the song means. And who it brought back 😊

#stray kids #noeasy #cheese #thunderous #domino #ssick #the view #sorry i love you #silent cry #secret secret #star lost #red lights #surfin'#gone away #wolfgang #애

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atasteforsuicidal · 3 years

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In response to your tags: do you get a lot of anti/hater activity?!

Nooooo, sorry. I didn't mean to imply that, but I can see how it did 😓

I am just ruled by my anxiety in all facets of life, and receiving messages online is no exception. (Seriously, I'm that person whose heart immediately starts pounding if someone says 'can we talk?' or when a superior at work calls you in to talk or something. My second-to-last SM at Starbucks used to preface those kinds of messages with something like 'DON'T WORRY' or 'everything is fine' lmao.)

If someone talks to me unexpectedly, my brain goes OH NO! BAD! (Also maybe because the association I have with unexpected messages is often 'hey please cover my shift?', one of my old roommates popping off in the group chat about being unhappy about things, or my mum proceeding to ask me 13457 questions. There was also a chunk of time when two or more missed calls from home meant Something Bad Is Happening. Voicemails make me want to peel my skin off, and I have 300% let them expire without being checked before. 98% of the time, they're only spam/auto-dial messages or my mum making sad, guilt-inducing, call me when you can... messages, and yet I still Hate them.)

With messages, the anxiety is worst when I've recently posted a fic or textpost that's either darkfic- or batcest-related. But I'm also a Tumblr Old, and I remember how rampant anon hate used to be, and I see that starting to make a resurgence in some of the fandoms I follow people from, so I think it's just sort of in my brain.

TBH, most of the messages I get these days on tumblr (and instagram) are "sugar daddies" which I tend to assume are really just phishing scams. Those are usually through messages and not asks, though.

tl:dr, no, I'm good, no one is bothering me in particular, I am just a ball of social anxiety at all times lol 😣😭

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sincerelyreidburke · 3 years

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Day 22: a party, Reid Burke style

Friends, I promised you some content featuring a bunch of characters who aren’t my main characters, and here we are. I wrote today’s fic for a fun secret Santa-style gift exchange among a few of my friends from here/the Kiersey discord, and we did gifting yesterday, so I’m posting it as part of the 25 days of Kiersey today.

This one is hefty! I accidentally wrote a lot. I’ll give you the first bit under the cut, but head to ao3 for a lengthy continuation. Featuring all the Reid Burke content your heart could ever desire. Plus Awkward Freshman Cole, the beginnings of his relationship with Claire, and also Reid’s rommates who I love and cherish.

Set the school year before our main characters come to town. Reid and his roommates host a raging holiday party. There are plenty of friends we know in attendance. Have fun!

the 2017-18 school year | december

- cole’s freshman year

- claire’s sophomore year

- reid’s junior year

Group: Reid Burke, Cole Kolinsky, Claire Deshaies, Jhiron Hassan, Ellie O’Reilly, Jacob Reisman, Eli Fisher, Brianna Cameron + 18 others

12/4/17, 8:21 PM

Reid Burke created this group

Reid Burke changed the group name to #HoHoHoedownAtDuff3

Reid Burke: WHATS UP PARTY PEOPLE!!!

Jhiron Hassan: reid i ahte you

Jhiron Hassan: why am i in this group

Jhiron Hassan: i lierltly live here

Reid Burke: I lierltly don’t care

Jhiron Hassan: 🖕🏿

Reid Burke: Everyone in our apt is in this chat

Jacob Reisman: Hi reid

Eli Fisher: hi reid

Reid Burke: Hi jake and eli 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Reid Burke: Okay, anyway

Reid Burke: Happy Monday everybody. This is your formal invitation to campus’ best holiday party, happening this Saturday night at 8pm in Duffy Hall apartment 3. We welcome those celebrating all holidays at this party, most of all Festivus. Holiday attire is recommended. There will be karaoke and food. Jhiron will be serving his famous Swedish meatballs and peas.

Jhiron Hassan: that last part is fkae

Jhiron Hassan: fake*

Jhiron Hassan: im not mkaing no nasty swedish meatbsls

Reid Burke: See, this is why I added you to the chat. You can defend your honor

Eli Fisher: i’ll be there

Eli Fisher: 💚 you reid

Reid Burke: I love you too eli

Ellie O’Reilly: the girls and i will be in attendance

Reid Burke: Define ‘the girls’?

Ellie O’Reilly: claire and fiona

Reid Burke: NICE

Brianna Cameron: Idk if I can make it. I have so much studying to do… and I heard the guys in Duff 3 are kind of weird. :///

Jhiron Hassan: i aslo heard that abuot them

Jacob Reisman: Same

Jazmine Lewis: So did I…

Reid Burke: Very sad. I hope the haters will still be able to make it

Jhiron Hassan: idk i also hvae a lotof hwomrk

Daniel Cho: See you guys there!

Daniel Cho: But only if Jake makes latkes again

Jacob Resiman: As if I wouldn’t

Daniel Cho: YES!

Reid Burke: Danny marry me challenge

Jazmine Lewis: Bri, please get your man under control

Brianna Cameron: I can’t. This is what happens when you let him create a group chat with 25 people in it. He’s unhinged

Reid Burke: :D

iMessage

12/6/17, 6:12 PM

Reid Burke: Hey dude!

Reid Burke: I know there are a ton of people in that group chat, so I might have missed if you said something, but can you make it to the party at my apartment this weekend?

Cole Kolinsky: oh! i think so

Cole Kolinsky: im sorry i didn’t respond in the chat

Reid Burke: Nooooo don’t be sorry

Reid Burke: Like I said, there’s a ton of people… it’s chaotic

Reid Burke: I love it but lol

Cole Kolinsky: yeah hahaha

Reid Burke: But you can make it!!

Cole Kolinsky: yeah i’ll be there!

Reid Burke: AWESOME

Cole Kolinsky: thank you for inviting me

Reid Burke: Don’t thank me!

Reid Burke: You’re my pet frosh, of course you’re invited

Cole Kolinsky: hahahah

Cole Kolinsky: i don’t think i have any holiday clothes though

Reid Burke: Don’t worry about it!

Reid Burke: Actually, do you want to borrow one of Jake’s Hanukkah sweaters?

Reid Burke: I can give it to you at the drama club meeting tomorrow

Cole Kolinsky: hahaha

Cole Kolinsky: umm

Cole Kolinsky: i guess only if he wants to?

Reid Burke: He’s always down to spread the Hanukkah cheer

Reid Burke: Plus, he already has an outfit

The real fun begins on ao3!

#25 days of kiersey #mel writes #ao3 link #kiersey drama club #my writing #the insanely cool reid burke #actually he's cole #claire eyes full hearts #claire/cole #duff 3 #jhiron the man hassan #breid

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youarejesting · 4 years

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BTS365

[Masterlist] Please tag me in your work if you use my prompts. I want to see your work. Ever your Jester.

Tell me your birthday and I will tag you on your special day!

Announcement: 600+ followers and I’m sorry to how dark some of these got but you know I kind of like when stories don’t always have a happy ending.

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March 25th - April 1st

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Kim Seokjin: Makeup

Heading into work you had a headache, it was excruciating, the throbbing behind your eye and the tightness around your temples. Your face felt swollen, and you packed on as much makeup as physically possible and you knew it wasn’t a good look. There were no lashes or mascara, no eyeshadow, no lipstick. Just concealer and foundation to the max.

You stepped into work and the receptionist gave you a weird look, usually; you got compliments when you wore makeup; you were pretty good and knew what worked well on your face. But today you looked strange. Your eye was too swollen to put anything near it and so you just looked like a one tonne alien.

“Hey babe, what’s going on?” A voice said, “you bailed on our movie night last night and didn’t even text me?” Seokjin was your saviour he made your dull job manageable. He took one look at you and froze he knew this wasn’t right. “What did he do?”

“It’s not that bad it’s just a bump”

He dragged you by the hand to his desk taking his face wipes from the first draw he tried to grab your chin, but you turned away. “Please let me see” he gently wiped away all the makeup he liked when you had a clean face. It was like he was seeing the real you, that isn’t to say he didn’t like when you dressed up, he liked how you could accentuate your eyes and lips.

But this, this was wrong. He felt sick, the more he removed the more the colours were revealed dark purples and blues stained your smooth skin, there was a small scab on your cheekbone where the skin had split on impact. He shoved the packet of wipes into your arms and turned declaring. “I will kill him”

Min Yoongi: On a stick

“It’s just meat on a stick?” You rolled your eyes at your best friend who was being lured from his apartment from his roommate Jungkook. You had planned to spend the afternoon together where you were going to tell him how you feel about him finally after all these years. Hell, you even stood by him when he dated girls through high school even though it nearly killed you.

“Yeah, why do you make it sound like a bad thing?” Yoongi scoffed grabbing his jacket, “Come along we can get some food and come back and watch the movie”

“Look you don’t have to come, we don’t need haters ruining our dinner” Jungkook sighed grabbing his keys, and you reluctantly slipped on your shoes and coat running after them. You didn’t even order before you snapped.

“Jungkook what is your problem with me, I just wanted to spend the afternoon with my best friend and maybe tell him that I have been in love with him since fifth grade and you’re out here making me feel like absolute trash,” You hissed Yoongi was frozen starring at his menu. He looked like he was deep in thought. Realizing what you said and how he had reacted to your blunt and unexpected confession you left.

“y/n!” Jungkook shouted he caught you quickly “hey, dude I am sorry, I thought you liked me and I was trying to push you away because… Yoongi likes you, said he has liked you since fifth grade and has never wanted to ruin the friendship. I really am sorry, go back inside he is in shock and is silently freaking out that he will never see you again. Lunch is on me, here”

Jung Hoseok: Smoke and Mirrors

Your son wanted to be a magician, and you spent a fair amount of money on all the books and toys and such but as his passion grew so did the hole in your bank account. You bought him front row tickets to see a world-renowned magician live on stage. It was an amazing performance. The magician was very good looking and was so bright and bubbly he danced he made all the sound effects. Your son insisted you see him backstage, and you took him back there. It took a long time but your son refused to leave. The dressing room door opened and there he was, his shirt buttons undone slightly.

“Why hello, who do we have here?” he smiled at you and your son and you gave him an apologetic smile

“I am so sorry to bother you, my son, he is an aspiring magician and well he wanted to meet you and I really couldn’t say no to at least trying”

“No, don’t apologize,” he looked at his watch and grinned, “I got time, come in and sit and tell me about yourself. What’s your name? Do you know any tricks?” The two talked until your son had fallen asleep on the couch.

“Whatever you did, that’s real magic right there,” The two of you laughed.

“Do you need help to your car, he looks a little heavy, or I can carry your bags if that’s more comfortable for you,” He smiled and the two of you headed to the parking lot. Buckling your son into the passenger seat, you turned to say goodbye, and he swept his hand behind your ear. “It seems my number was behind your ear this whole time”

He placed the paper into your hand and gave you a grin, one hand slipping into his pocket to find his keys and the other waving goodbye.

Kim Namjoon: Walk in the Park

Namjoon was a smart man, he knew everything that happened in the neighbourhood. The street lights along the park path flickered off for twenty seconds every three minutes. The old lady Lady by the store shut her curtains at 6:15 exactly after watching her shows and feeding her cat. The walk through the park took Five minutes exactly, and that there were three security cameras on the path.

People were going missing and were usually found dead days later. He set off on his usual walk at 6:00 heading to the store; he stopped to pat the cat and waved to the old woman. He bought a single bottle of Soju as he did every night. Explaining how he had to get home before his slow cooker was finished, showing the timer on his phone. “It’s got 8 minutes left I should make it home by 6:15”

Walking he saw you alone, he sped up a little and matched your stride. “Don’t look now but there is a drunk man a little way ahead, and the path lights are switch off for about thirty seconds every three minutes” Just as he finished his sentence the lights switched off. You grew stiff under the moonlight. “I am Namjoon”

He continued walking talking to you about the stars, the old lady was feeding her cat before bed, it was 6:10 she would soon close her curtains. He waved to the old and then to you. Thanking him for the help you both parted ways saying goodnight to the old lady. Namjoon smiled to himself walking out of the camera frame and the lights flickered out. You walked hesitantly in the dark but didn’t get very far before you were knocked out from behind.

Chained to an old metal bed frame when you woke, your eyes needing time to refocus you saw Namjoon standing there in a white coat. “Shh it’s okay, you are okay, you see I am an expert. My alibi and the camera footage, I just picked you up and tipped you over the stonewall of this apartment block and walked home. As all footage and security cameras show me parting ways with you even the old lady saw you go off on your own, nobody knows. Nobody knows that is is me”

Park Jimin: Burn

You opened a sealed box, and you read the stupid script. You were using it as a chance to practice your reading and speaking Korean. But you had let it out, and it was chasing you. Its eyes blacked out and horns coming out from his hair. He looked eerie and was still recovering strength which gave you time to run hiding in a church.

Stopping at the door it watched you and you were relieved until it reached in blackened nails gripping the door frame. It stepped inside calling your name sweetly, you could see the embers flaking off its body slowly not enough to kill it but enough to annoy.

You ran hiding in the confession booth your breathing was shaky. It sang a haunted tune. Its voice layered a low sound that crackled and a high breathy sound like a whine. You held your breath as it passed, calling your name. You thought it was gone, but you didn’t want to take any chances.

You opened your phone the words you had spoken in the translator the demon's name was Jimin and upon searching the name you found it was a demon of Lust, Deception, Chaos and Misfortune. It resides in the third outermost circle of hell with Preceding Taehyung and following from Namjoon. The strongest demon being Kim Seokjin.

A hand busted through the wall of the confessional by your head and wrapped around your throat pulling you threw the thin and shattered wall.

Kim Taehyung: Battery

You forgot to plug your phone in the night before so you charged it while you got ready; it was only at 28% and you sighed heading out to work. You met a client and discussed his hotel remodelling.

Your phone which you had turned off when you weren’t using it at work was now at 16%. It was early in the afternoon and you were emailing a client important information and rushing across town to meet with a supplier. You crossed the road getting hit with a car laying in the rain you found it hard to breathe all the air seemed to have escaped your body. Dragging your arm across the concrete your phone held tightly in your fist you pressed the numbers for emergency services you hit the call button when your phone powered down.

A face appeared about you looking horrified he called the ambulance shaking there was a light behind his head. It seemed like a halo and he was your very own angel.

Jeon Jungkook: Beach @live-2-fangirl

The beach was quiet; it was overcast and occasionally would sprinkle with rain. You were never deterred, and this weather was better for churning up the sea and creating a few gnarly waves. You laughed at the expression gnarly and swore on your life never to think nor speak it ever again. Getting on your surfboard you swam out to sea it was incredibly exhilarating weaving across the water.

The water grew unforgiving in what seemed like a second pulling you out and you were dunked by a wave and tossed around. You didn’t panic swimming to the light. Breaking the surface, you blinked the saltwater from your eyes and tried to get it out your nose and throat. It was brighter than you remembered. Maybe there was a break in the clouds.

“Can we be of aid lad?” A voice called you looked up to see an old wooden shop, the kind that looked like it belonged in a Johnny Depp quintology of films. Leaning over the side of the ship was a young man, his hair shaggy hair falling forward as he looked down at you. Your wetsuit removed any femininity from your figure and your hair was in a very messy bun. You climbed up the rope ladder on the side of the ship as you didn’t see any signs of your beach anywhere.

It was so sunny with not a cloud in the sky. Did you die? Getting up onto the ship you laid your board down on the deck removing the surf leash from your ankle.

“Where be your port?” He asked they all looked like they were fresh out of a romance novel with billowing shirts and shaggy hair.

You ripped the velcro around your neck and pulled the zip down your back. Peeling the wetsuit of your arms until they were free, letting out your hair shaking it with your fingers hoping it wouldn’t take long to dry. Some of your swimsuit was on display and as you went to take the wetsuit completely off a long waistcoat was draped over your shoulders.

“My apologies, my lady, we will fetch you some dry clothes,” you shrugged his coat off onto the deck.

“No, need I will be dry soon” you continued to strip, and he unbuttoned his shirt and fastened it around you buttoning it up.

“These scallywags cannot be trusted with a beautiful woman like yourself” he smiled “you are as tempestuous as the waters we sail”

Next Week

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atc74 · 6 years

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What If (1)

Written for: @emoryhemsworth and this request - Hi Angelina! I was wondering if you could do a fluffy/smutty Jensen x Reader fic based on “What Ifs” by Kane Brown ft. Lauren Alaina? Maybe the reader is super insecure because she’s quite a bit younger than Jensen, and has never considered herself beautiful because of a chromosomal disorder, but Jensen comes along and changes all of that and tells her how smart and beautiful she is? And surprises her by saying he wants to marry her one day?

Also written for: @spngenrebingo

Square filled: Accidental Confession

Emory, I am sorry it took me so long to get around to writing this for you! I skipped the smut, but I hope you like this! Thank you for your support and love!

Warnings: Talk of infertility, reader’s insecurities, age gap (17 years)

Pairing: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 1531

Beta’d by the best team in the world, @hannahindie and @pinknerdpanda - thank you loves!

THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION AND SHOULD BE REGARDED AS SUCH. NO DISRESPECT IS INTENDED TOWARD THE ACKLES OR PADALECKI FAMILIES.

A/N: Song lyrics have been turned into dialogue and will be bolded. Italics indicate flashbacks.

“What if you leave Jensen? What if you hurt me? Because you realize I am not good enough for you? Because I can’t give you what you want...what you deserve?” you cried. It was all you could think about lately. All the what ifs of your relationship with him. He looked at you like you had just slapped him in the face.

When you moved to Austin for college the only soul you knew was your roommate. You decided to take a few yoga classes in town to meet new people. It was through the yoga studio that you met Genevieve Padalecki. You and Gen quickly became friends and she appreciated that you always treated her like she was your friend first and not a celebrity. You were the same way with Jared when she introduced you to her husband. It wasn’t until a couple years after you and Gen met that she offered you a part-time job watching their two boys. In the time you had known Gen, those boys stole your heart and you jumped at the chance to spend time with them.

It was by chance that you met Jensen Ackles.

“Hey, I didn’t expect you guys back so soon,” you rose from the couch and started putting your books away when you heard the key turn in the lock.

“Who are you?” a deep voice boomed off the walls in the Padalecki’s family room.

“I’m Y/N, the babysitter,” you told him. “But the question is, good sir, what are you doing here?” You crossed your arms and waited for an answer. Of course you knew who he was, but you had no idea what Jensen Ackles was doing there.

“I need a bottle of wine,” Jensen explained quickly. “Jared keeps several in the cellar. I’ll be right back.” With that he was gone down the stairs before you knew it. He returned a few minutes later with two bottles.

“Red or white?” He asked holding them out to you.

“Dude, I’m twenty and I don’t drink. Why don’t you just ask your date what she prefers,” you scoffed slightly, then took in the look on his face. “I-I’m sorry Jensen, that was uncalled for.” You slumped back into the sofa and covered your face with your hands.

“For your information, it isn’t for ‘my date’, it’s for my mother. She asked for a glass of wine, but I didn’t have any. Secondly, you’re really only twenty?” he asked.

“Yes. College student at UT; third year history major. Again, I am so sorry for what I said,” you apologized.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay. I shouldn’t have just barged in like that, even if I do have a key,” his voice was smooth and calm, his eyes soft as he set the bottles down. “Listen, I gotta go. It was nice to finally meet you, Y/N.” He shook your hand, grabbed his bottles and was out the door. You followed and locked up behind him. Great, you thought, the first time you meet Jensen and you make a fool of yourself.

Over the course of the next few months, Jensen would find his way over to the Padalecki’s more and more frequently. First it was a cookout when he should have been out of town. The next, borrowing some tool he said he needed. You became closer with each drop in. Even though watching those boys made you happy, you found yourself smiling each time you watched them, knowing Jensen would pop in, usually unannounced.

It wasn’t until your twenty-first birthday, a few months later, that you actually got a little nervous when you saw him. Jared and Gen took you out for dinner and drinks at San Jac Saloon. You were seated at a private table in the back, when you felt a warm pair of hands on your shoulders. “Happy Birthday Bits.” He pressed a soft kiss the top of your head and took the seat next to you.

As the night wore on, you and Jared became increasingly drunk. Jensen offered to drive you all home so Gen didn’t have to deal with the both of you. You don’t remember everything from that night, but you do remember waking up with a post-it note on your phone that simply said “Read Me.”

You groaned at the thought of what happened the night before, but unlocked your phone anyway and held your breath, prepared for the worst. What you found melted your heart:

Before you ask, no, I didn’t see anything, you were able to change your clothes all on your own. Secondly, if you don’t mind being seen in public with an old guy, would you have dinner with me tonight? ~Jensen

You stared at the text message for what felt like hours before you remembered you hadn’t answered it.

I’d love to. And look on the bright side...you get a discount on meals and movies ;)

His reply came before you could set your phone back down.

Haha very funny Miss smartypants college student. I’ll pick you up at 7

A smile spread across your face and you replied with a thumbs up and a smiley face. You panicked and realized you didn’t know what to wear and called Gen for help. She didn’t need to know it was Jensen, only that you had a date.

You had told Jensen everything early on. It was something he needed to, no, he deserved to know about you. It was better that he knew upfront.

“Darlin’, why the tears?” Jensen crossed the kitchen and wrapped his arms around you. You and Jensen had only been dating a month and you dreaded this conversation since the first date.

“We need to talk, Jay,” you pulled him to sit next to you. His eyes were filled with concern and worry as he wiped away the tears that had fallen.

“Whatever it is, we’ll figure it out,” he whispered as he held you close.

“You shouldn’t be with me Jensen. You deserve so much better,” your voice was barely a whisper.

“Shouldn’t I be the one to decide who I want to be with? Is this because of your age, because I already told you I don’t care,” he told you.

“No, that is not why, at least not all of it. I can’t ever give you what you want.”

“I already know what I want and it’s you, pretty girl. No more, no less.”

“Jensen, I see the way you are with Gen and Jared’s boys, how great you are with them; how happy you are when they are around. How you look at them with longing. That is something I can never give you.”

“Hey hey, we don’t need to have this conversation today or even in the next few months. I am perfectly happy with where we are and where we are headed. I am already head over heels for you, Darlin’. Talk of babies can wait.”

“Jensen, I can’t get pregnant. I can’t do fertility treatments. Not even in-vitro. I can never give you the child you long for,” you sniffed as the tears came again. “Wait...you love me?” You looked up at him, his face soft and full of love.

“You caught that huh? Well, I may have accidentally confessed to being in love with you, but all that other stuff? That can all wait. If we can’t have babies, we can explore adoption or a surrogate, whatever. I just know that I can’t live without you.”

“You say what if I hurt you? What if I leave you? You think you don’t deserve me? Is this about the haters? Ignore them,” Jensen took a step closer to you, but you backed up, keeping him at a distance. You were afraid if he held you, your resolve would crumble.

“No, it isn’t that, Jensen, but I need to leave. I can’t be here anymore,” you moved past him and were almost to the door when you heard his boots on the hardwoods. His warm hand closed gently around your shoulder and he turned you around.

“The what ifs? Is that what this is all about? Well, before you make your mind up I gotta ask, what if I was made for you and you were made for me? What if this is it, what if it’s meant to be?” his voice cracked with emotion and he stared into your eyes.

“It can’t be…” you broke in. The tears became too much for you and you turned away from him again.

“What if I ain't one of them fools just playin' some game? What if I just pull you close, what if I lean in? What if one of these days, baby, I go and change your name? What if I loved all these what ifs away?” his voice dropped off and there was nothing but silence. The seconds ticked by.

What if he walked away? What if he realized you were right? You slowly turned around and found Jensen down on both knees, a small ring box in his hand.

“I wanna change your name. Who cares about the what ifs?”

to be continued...here

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Jensen’s Jamboree: @thing-you-do-with-that-thing @supernatural-jackles @trunk-full-of-ideas @kayteonline @ruprecht0420 @kathaswings @bringmesomepie56 @deandoesthingstome @starry-chaos @dean-winchesters-bacon @pisces-cutie

#spngenrebingo #jensen ackles #jensen x reader #jensen ackles x reader #jensen x reader fluff #jensen x reader flangst

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jimonies · 6 years

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KATIE GOOD LUCK ON YOUR MIDTERMS ♥♥ i'm sorry you are suffering rn, don't forget to take care of yourself!! these are gonna take awhile to answer but 3, 5, 6, 8, 10, 12, 19, 21, 46 & 47!!!

Ali you kind beautiful soul ahhh thank you to the moon & back my beloved friend ☆〃these midterms are brutal but I’m making slow & steady progress ! i hope you are doing well ! miss you ♥♥♥

help me take a break for midterms

ANSWERS UNDER:

3. has bangtan influenced your life in any other way ? // my older sister introduced them to me I’d say about a month or two before I started university. I’m really fortunate that she chose this time because I was going through a lot of changes in my life. It was a new beginning for me and a scary one at that. I went through a really rough patch my first quarter and as cheesy as this sounds, it was their music that really helped me get through it. bts has given me so much happiness and motivation to persevere forward. from their vlives to their tweets, it made every single day- as hard as it could be -so much better. I’ve been able to make friends and connect with so many more people because of them ( I even got my roommate to start listening to them ). when I read things about how jimin was good at chemistry and he practiced so much to be number one in dancing or just listening to songs like lost or 2! 3!, I feel so motivated to do my best and just be a better person, that it’s okay that I don’t have it all figured out. In my first weeks away, I replayed MAMA so much, just crying while doing homework in the study lounge missing home and just wanting to do good for my family. before, I could never understand why people were really into bands or fan culture and stuff, not that I shamed them or anything, but I could never relate until I found bts. they’ve helped me grow up so much just in these past couple of months and I’m really happy on the influence they’ve had on me.

5. favorite album ? // I really really really can’t choose. I literally love all of them with all my heart. wings & the most beautiful part in life: young forever are precious to my heart though hahahaha I’m such a cheater lmao

6. favorite lyrics ? // I have so so so many and if it weren’t for the fact that my break is almost over I would write all of them but I guess the one that really hits me is from sea : where there is hope, there are trials and definitely almost all of spring day lmao that song just gets me all the time .

8. which cypher part do you like best ? // I didn’t even have to hesitate to answer this cypher pt. 4 is the most iconic cypher there is, like , telling your haters to go love themselves ? ? S A V A G E .

10. your favorite cover of BTS ? ( Doesn’t matter if it’s one of Jungkook, Taehyung, Jin, etc. ) // we don’t talk anymore jimin + jungkook and also the young forever remix version

12. your favorite live performance ? // every time I watch this, this, and this, I gain a few years of life back

19. Who do you think would be your best friend in BTS? // not even saying this just because he’s my bias, but I really do think Jimin would be my best friend. I really love the dynamic of vmin and the reason I bring this up is because from an analytical standpoint, I love the way he see’s and values their friendship. jimin is so caring, always looking out for others, is endlessly kind but I love how attentive he is of others and their feelings. I’m definitely not as cute as jimin but I do relate to him a lot and I feel like he’s a good representation in friendship of how I am irl. ( also just for kicks and giggles he’s a libra and we all know aquarius have strong relationships with libra i mean have you seen the jihope spam lately ?? case closed )

21. Name the feature you like the most about each member ! //

jin: lips + his hardworking ethic and mentality on happiness/life

hobi: smile + ability to project his positive energy onto others

yoongi: gummy smile + determination

namjoon: button nose +intelligence

jimin: EVERYTHING

tae: nose+perseverance in overcoming hardships

kookie: bunny cheeks + work ethic

46. What subunit would you look the most forward to? // jimin+jungkook is a given, I’d really like to see more Jin + Tae, basically vocal line lmao

47. Do you prefer Hip-Hop BTS or the more Pop-ish BTS? // it really really depends for me what I’m feeling at the moment. I have a lot of respect for their beginnings and roots but I really think bts is starting to figure themselves out and what they like and what makes them happy. I know some people have strong opinions on this but I actually do really like pop-ish bts. they’re very experimental and I’m liking where they’re heading !!

#this was such a reliever omg #thank you so so so so much ali #ily sm!!

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valeriemperez · 7 years

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hey so realworldofflash on ig made a post against iris in 4.02 and there's so much hate in the comment its making me sick, can you plz post this so we can hopefully get some more people there to defend our girl!

He’s made several, and I want to advocate not engaging but then I would be a huuuuge hypocrite because I just wasted precious time fighting, lol. So if you want to defend Iris from trolls, then here are some of his best hits: 1 2 3.

I completely understood what Iris was talking about with Barry leaving her. My fiancé died about 2 years ago, and I spent some time being angry with him for leaving me. It’s not rational, but it doesn’t change my feelings. It was valid for me to feel that way, and all of those emotions helped me to heal. She’s a human and she’s allowed to have emotions. We all know that in the end she would have told him to go. But, she was left out of the conversation and powerless. He’s entering a partnership.

I’m so sorry that happened to you. Everything you said is so right, though. We can’t control or change our feelings, and we grieve in different ways.

Are the ratings for the flash this season really as bad as people say they are? i’m worried?

Depends on how bad people are saying they are. The ratings for the premiere were stable. The second episode dropped to 0.9, but every scripted show dropped last night other than TIU. Flash is still the #1 show for the CW, unless RD soars even higher and takes its crown in the morning lol.

@eboniangelvibez said:

I’m cackling at some of these comments from H8RS about Iris after 4x02. My Mom used to tell me, baby it’s ok for people to talk about you, it’s when they stop that you need to worry. Regardless of how they feel, the EPS, critics, writers, team and Barry are at her command. Queen Iris is large and in charge and don’t give a Chris Brown damn about how these H8RS feel. The show runners are laughing they’re ratings off, and us fans are loving it!

True! Iris is causing all the conversation right now, because she’s relevant.

I am definitely in the minority here, but Iris as team leader seems a little “forced” to me. She should have been the one to figure out the connection between the victims. Plz don’t hate me, lol. I love Iris, and I want to see more of her, but as a reporter. Other than that, I loved this episode.

I have no issue with Iris as team leader, other than I would prefer to see her bringing Barry stories to follow up on from CCPN. But I’m not gonna hate you for that preference. It would have been cool if she figured out the connection between the victims by interviewing Tim, but oh well.

I like the fact that iris is the leader of the team and she is taking charge, however, i would MUCH prefer her to be working on her journalism instead of being stuck in star labs. I don’t care what these racist/sexist fan girls and boys think because she was very much justified in what she did in the last episode. but in my opinion i would take a reporter arc and iris being out on the field any day over being the team leader and i am still butt hurt about the fact that she isn’t doing that.

I pretty much agree with this. I mean, I’m no longer butt hurt but I would much rather see her have a supporting cast at CCPN that intersects with CCPD sometimes than ever see STAR Labs again. Cisco could be Barry’s college roommate who gets a job as the Tech Specialist at CCPD - or he could be the IT Guy at CCPN haha - and Caitlin could work at the morgue. Viola!

They completely missed the point of what Iris was saying, I saw one YT reviewer who isn’t happy about what Iris said but he wasn’t a dick about it. He said he understood where she was coming from but essentially didn’t like how it was worded. He said that as married/engaged couple you do things as a team and have to consult your partner but he thinks a lot of general audience wouldn’t get it. Which I think is one of the problems, they take things so literal and don’t get context.

Yeah, one issue is that audiences take what Iris says literally. Another issue is that they are waiting with their Tiki torches in hand for her to breathe the wrong way so they can go to town.

I know we shouldn’t pay attention to what haters say bc thankfully actual critics from major news/media sites seem to like Iris this season especially, but I am worried some of the “casual audience” or fanboys I’ve seen take a dislike for Iris’ new role might spiral to season 1 levels of hate which I’ll be honest is what its kind of reminding me of lately, and I don’t want that bc we have come a long way.

Not sure how to combat that, other than to spread positivity and comment first!

#the flash for ts #eboniangelvibez #anonymous #iris west defense squad #tatiana's thoughts #more asks under the cut #long post for ts #negativity for ts

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texanhusker · 7 years

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Kaitlyn Screenshots

Foreshadowing much, Kaitlyn.

Within an hour of meeting Kaitlyn and she already had my mc in a bikini. Man, she works fast.

Aww, thanks Kaitlyn.

I totally missed the meaning behind this the first time I was playing it.

Kaitlyn’s most embarrassing secret part 1

Kaitlyn’s most embarrassing secret part 2

Kaitlyn’s Ultimate Fantasy

I think you’re special, too!

Kaitlyn is a team player.

Yeah, Kaitlyn you are amazing.

Acting out the play before it is a play. Part 1

Acting out the play before it is a play. Part 2

Acting out the play before it is a play. Part 3

Acting out the play before it is a play. Yes, James you were interrupting something.

Getting in a sorority house part 1

Getting in a sorority house part 2

Thanks Kaitlyn 😉

Girl Wonder, huh?

Tell me what you really think, Kaitlyn?

Kaitlyn x MC first kiss part 1

Kaitlyn x MC first kiss part 2

Kaitlyn x MC first kiss part 3: aftermath

I guess wow is a good thing.

Whatever you say, Kaitlyn. Do I have to spell it out for you?

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 1

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 2

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 3

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 4

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 5

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 6

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 7

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 8

Kaitlyn x MC first time part 9

Kaitlyn x MC: the perfect date…Kaitlyn and dressing rooms

Game Selection

Aliens aren’t cute

I don’t want to share Kaitlyn with Travis.

MC and Kaitlyn at the roller rink part 1

MC and Kaitlyn at the roller rink part 2

Kaitlyn x MC on the beach part 1

Kaitlyn x MC on the beach part 2

Kaitlyn x MC on the beach part 3

Kaitlyn x MC on the beach part 4

Kaitlyn x MC at the taco truck part 1

Kaitlyn x MC at the taco truck part 2

Kaitlyn x MC at the taco truck part 3

Secret Santa part 1

Secret Santa part 2

Ready for some show and tell.

Yep, the best girls are from TEXAS!!

@hollyashton anon request answered I hope part 1

@hollyashton anon request answered I hope part 2

Until later

Undress rehearsal??

Kaitlyn wants to play dress up

Kaitlyn’s Audition

Kaitlyn & MC rehearsal part 1

Kaitlyn & MC rehearsal part 2

Kaitlyn & MC rehearsal part 3

Kaitlyn & MC rehearsal part 4

Kaitlyn & MC rehearsal part 5

I think someone else posted this but, it is so awesome I had too.

Man Kaitlyn you rip out MC’s heart.

Kaitlyn x MC eating ice cream part 1

Kaitlyn x MC eating ice cream part 2

Kaitlyn x MC part 1 (V-DAY Special)

Kaitlyn x MC part 2 (V-DAY Special)

Kaitlyn x MC part 3 (V-DAY Special)

Kaitlyn x MC part 4 (V-DAY Special)

Haters gonna hate.

But Kaitlyn you are adorable

Kaitlyn x MC book 3 chapter 9 part 1

Kaitlyn x MC book 3 chapter 9 part 2

Kaitlyn x MC book 3 chapter 9 part 3

Kaitlyn x MC book 3 chapter 9 part 4

MC, you might be too good for some people.

Duh, Zig everything is NOT okay.

You better be sorry 😐….I was kind of pissed on how she was acting.

You got lucky, Kaitlyn.

I can’t wait to see them. 😏

And for a moment everything is alright in the Kaitlyn x MC’s ship.

Sorry to say but, I am messy, too.

Yes, my character would like to be your date.

Dress 👗 Shopping with the girls part 1

Dress 👗 Shopping with the girls part 2

Dress 👗 Shopping with the girls part 3

Dress 👗 Shopping with the girls part 4

Spring Dance diamond scene part 1

Spring Dance diamond scene part 2

Spring Dance diamond scene part 3

Spring Dance diamond scene part 4

Spring Dance diamond scene part 5

Spring Dance diamond scene part 6

There is just something about Kaitlyn and dressing rooms part 1.

There is just something about Kaitlyn and dressing rooms part 2.

Kaitlyn’s Room Part 1

Kaitlyn’s Room Part 2

Kaitlyn’s Room Part 3

Kaitlyn wanting to see the stars with MC part 1

Kaitlyn wanting to see the stars with MC part 2

Kaitlyn wanting to see the stars with MC part 3

Kaitlyn wanting to see the stars with MC part 4

Kaitlyn wanting to see the stars with MC part 5

I am glad she is here, too.

At this point, I thought we were a package deal.

Yes, because you make me watch them silly 😜

Kaitlyn’s Time

Chris is a wuss and Kaitlyn is not. Lol 😜

Ha ha looks who’s roommates again

Kaitlyn being cute again

I like that full view….

Kaitlyn x mc at an antique store part 1

Kaitlyn x mc at an antique store part 2

Kaitlyn x mc at an antique store part 3

Kaitlyn x mc at an antique store part 4

Kaitlyn x mc at an antique store part 5

Yes you can

Kaitlyn looks hot playing the guitar 🎸

Diamond scene with the band part 1

Diamond scene with the band part 2

Diamond scene with the band part 3

Diamond scene with the band part 4

Party Prepping Part 1

Party Prepping Part 2

She does know how to get MC to smile

Alone time with Kaitlyn part 1

Alone time with Kaitlyn part 2

Alone time with Kaitlyn part 3

Alone time with Kaitlyn part 4

Setting up the band’s website

You guys should figure out a band name

MC to the naming a band rescue

The band finally agreeing on a band name

The horse cave with Kaitlyn

More sightings of Darren

Loose pins what kind of name is that?

Secret candy stash smh, Kaitlyn 🤦🏼‍♀️

Jealousy streak

I never liked her

Calm before the storm

Kaitlyn got mad

I’m too honest for my own good part 1

I’m too honest for my own good part 2

I’m too honest for my own good part 3

Kaitlyn before going on stage part 1

Kaitlyn before going on stage part 2

Kaitlyn on stage part 1

Kaitlyn on stage part 2

Kaitlyn x MC after the backyard concert part 1

Kaitlyn x MC after the backyard concert part 2

Kaitlyn x MC after the backyard concert part 3

Hartfeld Horror Story Chapter 1 diamond scene part 1

Hartfeld Horror Story Chapter 1 diamond scene part 2

Hartfeld Horror Story Chapter 1 diamond scene part 3

Hartfeld Horror Story Chapter 1 diamond scene part 4

Hartfeld Horror Story Chapter 1 diamond scene part 5

Hartfeld Horror Story Chapter 1 diamond scene part 6

#kaitlyn liao #the freshman #kaitlyn x mc #the sophomore #playchoices

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