#except like two

[paradoxolotl]

Okay instead of sleeping I binged Blue Eye Samurai on Netflix and here is a summary of my thoughts:

Oooh shit this is gonna be dark, huh

QUEER?!?!!

Oh SHIT BAD BITCH ALERT

What the FUCK

BAD BITCH STRIKES AGAIN

BAD MOTHER FUCKING BITCH!!!

Oh my gosh my heart is healing

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

Oh shit, GAY ALERT????

MOTHER. FUCKING. BAD. BITCHES!!!!

*incoherent screaming*

#I am not able to sleep now #like holy shit #why is there only one season #enemies to lovers PERHAPSMMSMSMSS?!?!?? #but what if…they stole his girl instead….???? #and literally FUCK SO MANY PEOPLE ON THAT SHOW #except like two #they must be loved at all costs #couple others I love dearly but damn y’all need therapy and like a solid conversation between the rest of yous #also #WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?! #SECRETS #FUCK #AH #I NEED TO KNOW #anyways #go watch it #it’s amazing #but like #super bloody and dark #and lots of dark themes #blue eye samurai

[queerasflux]

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

#I'm fine #just had a sort of blegh night with some people I'm playing dnd with #not a big deal but man the way I interact with neurodivergent people vs neurotypical people is like speaking two languages #except I'm only fluent in one of them and keep accidentally insulting people in the other #I'm just trying to make friends irl #flux's bullshuit #neurodivergent #autism #adhd #audhd #audhd things #audhd problems

[lungthief]

listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.

like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been

#like you get why all the fics about those two are insane right. the narrative is just so goddamn compelling #and thats not even getting into the whole thing abt the serum curing steve of every ailment except his love for bucky #which makes him realize it was never an ailment to begin with (despite the commonly held beliefs about homosexuality in the 1940s) #and bucky being *electroshocked* again and again into forgetting steve #like howd you make your gay ass movie that gay and not realize it. its kinda impressive #sorry for the ridiculous stucky retrospective its 4am and i rewatched the winter soldier recently #its not that deep. its not its not its not . but if it was anything other than what it is it could have been. and thats the worst part #shut up riley #marvel #stucky

[kithj]

good games i've played on itchio lately:

please tell me you love me - chat with your guild members for the last time before the game's servers are shut down

GIRLKILLER (covet) - there is a girl who looks like you, and today you're going to kill her

cover me in leaves - stuck in your small hometown, you get your first tattoo. and then a few more, and more, and more

don't rock the boat - play through the different perspectives of a women's crew team as they are stalked by something in the water

GUTLESS - you are the captain of a deep sea vessel. your mission doesn't go well

so, about last night... - you wake up sick and weirdly hungry after hooking up with someone at a party. you spend the next night trying to find her.

close the window, my love - short bitsy poem about closing the window. sound on! this creator has a lot of short bitsy works i recommend.

there is a beautiful star - just a short, cute side scroller. lots of short, lighthearted games from them, definitely recommend for a mood booster.

#these are all p short except for so about last night gutless and rock the boat #still not super long tho #these are all on my itch page too but whatever lmfao #also cringe i feel so awkward writing descriptions but i dont really have a lot to say personally #except. Good Game 👍 #also sorry recommending gutless a second time sue me #i think girlkiller is my favorite atm... i like the ambiguity in that one and two different endings #games

[forecast0ctopus]

these guys am i right

#sorryhaving a tos moment rn #oops! #star trek #star trek tos #spock #captain kirk #leonard mccoy #james t kirk #jim kirk #mr spock #dont try to talk to me abt the other series i dont know shit about them #i saw the reboot movie like when it came out i dont remember anything except a handful of visuals #star trek fanart #i have like two other color variations idk maybe ill put em on my ko-fi

[hyolks]

oh what a lovely family! i sure do hope nothing bad happens to them :')

#fma #fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #edward elric #alphonse elric #trisha elric #<.<..... >.>....... #i may. have a comic. as an oct 3rd post part 2 #except. it is barely sketched out #ive been so busy..... i got out of work the other day and was like sonuvabitch i have two days to crank out something #so teehee :^) #wastelands au

[clouvu]

Save me french yuri... Save me

#genshin impact #arledrone #sandrone #arlecchino #haha remember when we all thought that sandrone and arlecchino would both show up in fontaine and be gay together? #good times.... good times #jk i'm ready to end it all actually #I KNOW WE HAVE LIKE ONE LAST MAJOR FRENCH PATCH BEFORE NATLAN BUT IVE JUST ABOUT LOST ALL HOPE #the way that literally every wlw arle pairing got fed so well following arle's drip marketing EXCEPT for arledrn... hate it here so bad #anyways shipping aside HOW is it possible that the frenchiest of french harbingers with heavy ties to machinery #and like two major world quests tied to specifically to her lore and is even MENTIONED of being present in fontaine #also being one of the first harbingers ever mentioned dating back all the way to the description of chode's teaser trailer #just???? doesnt show up?????? #Sandy enjoyers are stronger than any us marine because my GOD are we struggling out here #anyways ignore the fact that I completely forgot to draw sandy's wind up key it was hard drawing through the tears #(actually it was cause i half-assed this doodle but we dont talk about that)

[coffeecatcraze]

I would just like to say how hard it hits me in the chest to see Charlie masking every time she's onscreen the day before the fight (including what we see on Vox's spy screens of course), except when no one is with her but Vaggie. Even during her emotional speech she tries so damn hard to keep that confidence up and smile on. But we do see her stop masking twice, when the only person watching her is Vaggie.

First:

No one's really paying attention to her, and she's not smiling; she's worried. When Vaggie approaches her, she doesn't put on a happy face. She talks about her mom with the same smile as in the first episode (during a very emotionally vulnerable moment with Vaggie, might I add). It's not happy or confident. It's nostalgic, wistful, and sad, because her mom's absence is something very personal and painful for her. When Vaggie asks if they're ready, Charlie doesn't instantly start to smile or answer with confidence even though she usually would (even within that short beat of time), because her mask is off. She's not confident or optimistic. She's scared. She's not ready.

Then Pentious comes out and she's all smiles again! The mask comes back on when someone other than Vaggie is there.

Second:

Of course, one of our favorite scenes. Charlie's alone when she breaks down, but when Vaggie shows up, she keeps the mask off. She admits how scared she is. When she does smile, it's not the big smile she's been throwing on throughout the day, and it's not strained either. It's soft, gentle, and real. She's not masking. Vaggie is genuinely making her feel better when she's finally letting herself fall apart, just by being there and reminding her that no matter what happens, she's already accomplished so much, and she's so loved.

Charlie is under a lot of stress and pressure. She's scared. She's not as optimistic as she's making herself out to be. She's giving everything she's got out there being a strong, confident, inspirational leader and friend in front of everyone, and it's only with Vaggie that she lets it go. She doesn't have to try to be strong. She doesn't pretend. She lets down her guard, because for her, Vaggie is that one infinitely special person who gets to see every part of her; the one person she can always be her honest self with.

There were plenty of times in other episodes when Charlie didn't mask her negative emotions around people, but that was when she didn't have anyone looking to her as a leader. She's running on adrenaline and the weight of people's expectations as Extermination Day gets closer, and she can't let the mask she's put on slip in public. She has to seem like she's totally ready for what's coming. But Vaggie is different.

The amount of trust and love Charlie has for her is staggering. She's under an insane amount of stress and pressure, and having Vaggie by her side is probably the only thing keeping her from completely falling to pieces. Seeing a relationship so full of deep trust and love is absolutely beautiful. <3

#hazbin hotel #chaggie #charlie morningstar #vaggie #no i am not saying her usual attitude is always a mask #just that when you're known to be a certain kind of person it becomes an automatic mask sometimes #and from these two moments and the situation as a whole it looks like that's what was happening here #she's probably spent the last month trying increasingly hard to keep up a face of confidence and fearlessness #except with the one person who's by her side and not following her #they are PARTNERS and that word means so much

[channnel]

Alan offers you his slushie. (Ft. Oc)

#my dear hatchet man #mdhm game #alan orion #mdhm oc #mdhm fanart #my art #also- thank you for 250 followers! #i had this for a month now- i made this a day before the livestream and after seeing it- i speed through it for two days- #i feel like the brothers would also casually say that their mother is dead and they don't expect anyone to react- except for Jules #Konrad insids the store watching and wondering why the fuck the forest guy is singing

[batfamhyperfixation]

*At a Batfamily meeting*

Tim: As the only one in a committed relationship- Selina doesn't count after your whole wedding drama- I really feel-

Jason: what do you mean 'thE OnLY oNe', you aren't the only one

Tim: oh yeah, who else is in a serious committed relationship?

Jason: Me? I've literally been married for years?

Bruce: EXCUSE ME???

Dick: who to?

Jason: Roy

Dick: EXCUSE ME??? EWWW YOU AND ROY, GET THIS IMAGE OUT OF MY HEAD, MY FRIEND AND MY LITTLE BROTHER GROSSS

Jason: Wait, did none of you know? I literally call him my partner all the time

Tim: To be honest we thought you meant partner in crime, not marriage

Jason: I mean, both but still...

*Later, during the ✨vigilante hours✨ of the night*

Bruce: I hear you are married to my son

Roy, panicking cause Bruce is really protective of his kids: Oh, shit, um, yes- yes sir

Bruce: without my blessing

Roy: uh, yeah, we were on a time crunch, married couples can't testify against each other

Bruce: without inviting me to the wedding

Roy: I uh- you were gone that weekend, business trip

Bruce: I haVE A PRIVATE JET, I WOULD HAVE FLOWN IN! IT WAS MY SONS WEDDING, I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO HAVE BEEN THERE

Roy: I'm sorry, sir

Bruce: tell me one more thing

Bruce: was Ollie there?

Roy: No

Bruce: Does Ollie know

Roy: No

Bruce: your recompense is to allow me to be the one to tell him so I can brag to him that I knew first

Roy: uh, sure?

#bruce tells ollie #who has the same freakout and interrogation except against Jason #and both men force the two to have a vows renewal so they can all be there #but both men just use it as an excuse to one up each other #roy and jason are just like i mean free stuff #and tim is just sitting in the corner with bernard all angry cause he wanted to be the first wedding within the family #and he coulda been if he just shut his mouth and let Jason be happily married at the courthouse without a wedding involved #jayroy #jason todd #roy harper #red hood #red hood and the outlaws #jason todd and the outlaws #tim drake #dick grayson #bruce wayne #incorrect batfamily quotes #bat family #batfam #batkids #the outlaws #dc outlaws #the only person who knew was alfred #he was their witness and he was the first person Jason told #and lian obviously #and kory was there but she couldnt be a witness cause she is an alien

[hamsternamedmarinette]

Anyway,

#had a dream last night that i was making my sister watch fmab #except in the dream the show we were eatching was a mix of fmab and the powerpuff girls #i woke up thinking 'haha how silly. those two shows couldn't be less alike' #but then i was like 'well actually' #fmab #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fullmetal alchemist #ppg #the powerpuff girls #powerpuff girls #мой пост #not ml #listen. there's a central theme in both of these shows about Creating a Human with Special Ingredients™. #do you Understand. do you Feel Me

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

[mobius-m-mobius]

#ep 2 but upgrade every parallel 😳

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #marveledit #loki spoilers #once again we're only on episode TWO?? #and since that was a peak of the first season and now they're infinitely more married and equals in every way!! #as someone extremely unwell about parallels this ep has me losing my whole damn mind lmaooooooooo #bc theres's honestly like a dozen more to add except they're multi scene #and i'm running on fumes being unable to stop giffing them as is so these are just the first obvious ones i remembered 😅 #loki s2 spoilers #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

[lotus-pear]

the besties!!

#(i say besties but ik they were making out against the wall in dead apple when shibusawa left the room) #NEVER FORGET THAT FYODOR CANONICALLY CALLS DAZAI “DEAR” IN DUB.. FYOZAI IS REAL GUYS #I WASNT CHOOSING DIALOGUE AT RANDOM WHEN I DREW THIS HE ACTUALLY SAYS THAT I WAS ECSTATIC WHEN I FOUND OUT #at first i was like mmm fyozai as a joke but.. i dont think its a joke anymore💀 #god help me i have fallen for another lawlight variant except these two mfs actually want each other dead #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #fyodor dostoevsky #fyozai #lotus draws

[vilayrou]

THE ONLY WEEK THAT EXISTS CAW LESBIANS CAW🦅🦅🦅🦅

#i cant stop thinking about the pregnant key. it WILL become real trust #also slayer’s there. fun fact like a year ago i didnt know gg lore except slayer and para so i thought Oh THOSE two are lovers #later that year i found out they were NOT lovers and i was completely mistaken #guilty gear strive #guilty gear #paracelsus #paracelsus guilty gear #aba guilty gear #aba #a.b.a guilty gear #a.b.a #aba x paracelsus

[mccoyquialisms]

for reference the London live show line up was Murph as Kugrash, Emily as Sundry Sydney, Lou as Fabian Seacaster, Zac as Skip, Ally as Pete Conlan and Siobhan as Adaine Abernant (everyone had a buddy!!!). In the words of Lapin, “this is the worst group of people I have ever met.”

#there was so much PVP y’all LMAO #with like two exceptions they all hated each others asses it was so funny 😂 #dimension 20 spoilers #dimension 20 live #dimension 20 #dropout #my musings