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natsukitakama · 4 years

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Headcanon : Being Eren’s Significant other would include

Author note : I had to confess I failed into this fandom not long ago but I couldn’t contain myself so I read all chapters and seen all episode. I just fell hard for Eren, Levi (still confused between Livai or Levi lol) and so many characters. I wanted to give it a try let me know if you enjoy this

Warning : nope nothing but fluff and gender neutral

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Remember how much he cares about Armin and Mikasa ? How protective he can be when it comes to them ?

Well you took that and you multiply by 1000

I am not even kidding even when times you think he can’t see : He does, he always has his eyes on you (not always for checking you)

After losing so many people in his life, it’s miracle Eren let himself fell in love with you : he’s not going to lose you no matter who he has to fight he won’t lose you

The poor boy cares so much about you, as a passionate people he can’t help but do everything in order to make you happy. You know better than taking advantage of this. May god protect everyone who dares put a finger on you : if not Eren, Mikasa would definitely kill them in a minute.

Speaking of Mikasa at first she wasn’t quite found of you, hell she doesn’t even like you. Not that she was jealous (just little bit but it’s a secret). She’s not a fan of new people, it took her time to have a relationship with people who weren’t Eren or Armin and now she has to live with another people who is stealing Eren’s attention from her, push him to do stupid things to protect them. Mikasa’s goal was to protect Eren and you put a threat on Eren’s life in conclusion : Mikasa wasn’t a big fan of you. After couple months of relationship she realized you were deeply in love with Eren and would do anything to protect him as much as she wanted to protect him. She learned to appreciate you and now you were on her top list of people she must protect

People tends to think Eren isn’t into PDA, it’s not that simple : there is time to do PDA and there is time where both of you have to behave.

For example when you two trained he won’t cuddle you or kiss you (but that doesn’t mean he won’t have look to be sure no one was hurting you while he was busy)

But when you two are alone or just with Mikasa and Armin (he feels confortable enough), expect a lot of holding hands, arm around you, even forehead kiss.

When both of you are just alone, everything turn well passionate : during this time, everything tends to be bit intime. Like a simple make-out session would turn into a hot make-out session.

Expect a lot of hands holding though, even during lunch time or meeting Eren always make sure to hold your hands : it’s something he used to love doing with his mum. Holding your hand relax him plus It remains a certain horse-face you are already taken and more than happy to be with him

At this point you might understand Eren is a little jealous …

I’m kidding

He is hella jealous

It’s not like he doesn’t trust you quite the contrary, it was already said on other blog and I couldn’t be more than agree with that fact. Eren is insecure not about your relationship cause like I said he trust you with all his heart. But he is insecure about himself. He started when he realized he was a titan, he was afraid you might be scared of him or worst disgusted about being in a relationship with a monster. Then, he was afraid he might be useless so he’ll became a burden for both of his friends and you : even when you told him you love him more than anything and it was ok to not being at his best all the times. He still has his moment when he is self-conscious.

He literally carries the weight of the world on his shoulders, so yeah you can expect a lot of break-down from him. But he never and won’t never be agressive on you directly. Sometimes he is just so angry he doesn’t know what to do with himself so anything you’ve might done could be use against you. Like if you have talked a little too much with Reiner he will complain about that. So yeah time to time you guys have argument but who doesn’t ?

It’s never heavy, nasty but still you two have your point and being the stubborn man he is he won’t apologize easily, thinking he is right and that you should be the one to ask for forgiveness. But don’t worry it never last long : either you or him will apologize because let’s face the truth you couldn’t live without your significant other

When Eren loves, he loves a lot you’re literally his world there nothing he won’t do for you. You are the most important thing of his whole life, you’re the one who helped him when he was down, you loved him for what he is not for what you expected him to be. You saw him as he truly is. He will never be enough thankful for that.

At first he was a bit shy about your relationship, because of his lack of experience he never has a relationship like this before so most of the time he acts with is own instinct. Which mean you guys were a bit awkward at first for your friends : let me explain, one day you were training with your friends at survey corps. you were drinking a glass of water when you felt a hand on your waist and before you could ever react you were face-closed against something quite hard. You lift your hands a little bit only to be faced with a blush-face Eren. In fact he wanted to hug you but didn’t know how to initiate it so he goes for it. See what I mean ? At the very beginning of your relationship that was how he expressed his feelings.

Then he learned quite quickly your habits and how you loved to be cherish what you were confortable or less, what you wanted to do in private and what you couldn’t do. Everything to please you.

When it came to him, Eren is a pretty simple man just holding your hands while walking together is a must for him. But he won’t complain if you came to kiss his cheeks (he is sucker for cheeks kissing fight me) well it made him flustered at first but then it became it’s favorite things (with kissing you). Most of the time he’ll ask to not kissing him on the cheeks when people were there cause it made him blush and he doesn’t want to be seen like this, however you’re allowed to do this in front of Jean or Reiner cause it made them flustered. All the time you see Eren wearing smirk after doing this (he is super cocky when it’s about you)

Eren is huge supporter, seeing you being passionate about something made his knees weak : how can someone be so adorable without even notice it ? Whatever you are into he will support you and may study on his own to show off a little bit (bless him)

That’s the thing with Eren, he shows off a lot. He shows off about you, claiming how lucky is he to have you by his side mocking Jean for being a little baby.

He shows off about him too, always trying (most of the time failing but that’s okay he is so sweet plus he loves hearing you laugh) to impress you while being in his titan form or working. As I said before he is very self-conscious so seing you being impressed by him help him to not go down again.

He got his own type of kiss : Forehead kiss when he has to fight against titan (he won’t kiss on your lips cause that’ll mean he won’t come back and this angry boy has to come back he is too angry to die), Kiss on your lips in private or when he feels the need of kissing you (most of the time he « feels » this need when he’s jealous it’s his way to be sure you love him), kiss on your cheeks when he wants to get cocky but it end up about him being a whole mess. Hand kiss when he feels something is wrong with you like you’re anxious or tired, kiss on your nose when you two get a nap together.

After being intimate for the first time with him he became more possessive around you, can’t explain it, it just happens you noticed with the way he looks at men when they are talking to you. Probably some deep animalistic instinct ? Not like you didn’t like seeing him getting jealous as long as he is not sad it’s okay.

Sometimes he is afraid he will lose you, and one night he even made a panic attack after dreaming about you being eaten by a Titan. He was screaming, crying and shaking, no one know what to do so Mikasa came to your bedroom looking for you and explain you the situation. All you did when you were at Eren’s room was to put both of your hands on this shoulder while talking to him softly helping getting his breath back. When you were finally able to relax him you decided to sleep with him. It’s a rare occasion you can sleep with him and being the big spoon most of the time he is the big spoon

You can’t even imagine the power you have on him, you can always calm him no matter what makes him angry in the first place.

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thecloserkin · 5 years

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fic rec: Are You Mine? and I Want Some More by PoetHrotsvitha

fandom: Assassin’s Creed: Syndicate

pairing: Evie Frye/Jacob Frye

word count: 54k and 50k respectively (one is a direct sequel to the other)

Is it canon: yes

Is it explicit: this is the most explicit material i have thus far reviewed on this blog

Is it endgame: yesssss

Is it shippable: yes

One thing you guys should know about me is I don’t read a great deal of smut. I don’t actively avoid it either, and I for sure consume more smut in the context of fanfic than in professional published fiction because I feel the following quote in my bones: “It wasn’t that friendship needed to be sexualized, it was that erotica needed to be … friendship-ized.” So when I stumbled on this fic that is 80% smut stretched over the thinnest pretext of plot, based on source material I have zero familiarity with, what did I do but fall headlong for this pairing and this story. Bless you, anon who brought Fryecest to my attention, and praise the Lord for modern AUs where knowledge of canon is not mandatory.

Jacob and Evie Frye are twins born into an Assassin family and raised by their exacting taskmaster of a father to take down the Templars. There’s no Templars or Assassins in this modern AU of course, just Evie’s looming A-Levels and their absent academic of a father. Evie’s still the golden child, of course—she’ll follow in their father’s footsteps and get her Ph.D. Jacob is the problem child. He’s already fallen in with the Wrong Crowd, he’s impulsive, he drinks and gambles and mostly solves problems with his fists. His relationship with their dad is hella strained. And because this is supposed to be PWP the author wastes no time in ratcheting the sexual tension up to 11 by having Jacob pick Evie up from her posh school on his MOTORCYCLE, each of them pretending not to be so turned on they could have combusted from desire by the end of the ride. Cool cool cool.

Their relationship begins barreling in a dom/sub direction almost from the word go. Evie is one thousand percent the take-charge, Type-A personality, so the idea is that she needs to relinquish that control in the bedroom, and Jacob is the only one she trusts to dominate her. Because they’re twins and they balance each other out adfkdfkdfjdkfd. The scene in the beginning where Jacob tells her not to button up her blouse while she’s making breakfast, and she actually listens to him instead of ignoring or insulting him, holy shit that was hot. It starts so small but eventually he’s got her wearing a wireless vibrator to class and begging for her “punishment” when she takes it out without his permission because it was too distracting.

I imagine this is what the 50 Shades of Grey phenomenon was about. I haven’t read 50 Shades of Grey myself, but I’ve interacted with people who rave about it and clearly got something out of those books, bad as they were. I’m not trying to compare the quality of this story to 50 Shades of Grey—it’s lightyears superior to that dreck—just that when I finished this fic I had the dazed realization that this was why people read smut.

There’s a throwaway line in Jacob’s internal monologue where he muses “they seem to be going about this backwards,” because he’s buying flowers for her the day after fingering her to a screaming orgasm, and yes I am 100% here for this trope. Ffs he sits with her in the library to keep her company while she studies! He waits for her/escorts her to her one hundred and one extracurricular activities! He’s a really immature 17-year-old and he’d never dream of doing this for anyone else, but when it comes to Evie he becomes suddenly sweet and thoughtful and solicitous. He’s constantly pausing in the middle of sex to ask for her enthusiastic & affirmative consent and reminding her to use the safe word. At the same time he’s madly jealous when anyone else shows a flicker of interest in her and he regularly makes her admit he “owns” her during their role-play. They are each other’s firsts which for some reason is really important to me in these kinds of they’re-teenagers-exploring-their-sexuality setups. This is Evie hitting up the lingerie boutique in preparation for their FIRST WEEKEND GETAWAY:

“I’m going away for the weekend with my-” Evie almost stumbled on the word, “-boyfriend.” What a strange concept.

I AM TRASH FOR THIS INCEST TROPE i love the way she stumbles over that word. Bc that’s not the box that Jacob occupies for her, is it? He’s much more than that. I love the way she alternates between begging him to put it in her cunt and calling him a prat and a shitheel; just because he’s the love of her life doesn’t make him stop being her insufferable little brother. You know what else I’m trash for? ALL the sneaking around tropes. One time while sexting with him in a storage closet at school she’s busted by one of the teachers and only barely has time to lock her phone before he confiscates it.

So the first fic ends with their dad finding the sexts and nudes on Evie’s phone, disowning them both, and Evie choosing to go to University of Edinburgh because their dad knows too many people at Oxbridge. The twins get a flat together and it’s happily ever after. Except no! In the sequel it’s ten years later and Evie and Jacob have returned to the house they grew up in to say goodbye to their dying father, and they’re ESTRANGED OH NO WHAT HAPPENED. Evie has a four-year-old in tow. We find out in fairly short order that the kid is Jacob’s, but Jacob doesn’t find out the truth until we’ve sent him through the angst wringer. The fic is about how they grieve and reconcile and how Jacob learns to parent, and this one is actually like 60% plot and I think I like it even better than the first one. This author’s note really spoke to me:

I’ve read a fair number of sibling incest modern AU fics in a few different fandoms and they all tend to end at “and then they ran away from their families and lived happily ever after/epilogue of sexy fun times possibly with the introduction of hey they've had a kid!”. And I mean I love that, don't get me wrong. But I guess I’m also weirdly preoccupied with the part about what comes after that, because it always seemed far too dreadfully simple an outcome. Normal relationships are rarely that easy, so why would these be? Then again I'm probably putting too much thought into a porn fic, LOL.

DEAR @poethrotsvitha, THIS IS A SIGNED PETITION TO PLEASE NEVER STOP OVERTHINKING THE PLOT OF YOUR PORN FICS. Like, nobody starts fucking their brother unless they really mean it, because the risk of the relationship going pear-shaped and the two of you still being stuck in each other’s orbit because there’s no “breaking up” with family? That’s a big risk. And also why incest pairings feel so high-stakes and I am trash for them, obvs. One of the reasons the dom/sub dynamic is so integral to their relationship was because Evie had a tendency to dictate to Jacob what he “can and can’t do,” and he understandably chafed against it sometimes. It’s what led to their breakup five years ago. And so him taking charge in the bedroom is a kind of counterbalance, and there’s a scene in this fic where she lets him role-play a noncon situation as a way to partly soothe his jealousy.

To a large extent it’s their son who brings about their reconciliation, but their son is also a hyperactive little git who throws a monkey wrench in their sex life, so now instead of hiding their relationship from their dad they’re tiptoeing around a four-year-old. And the big character development that happens on Jacob’s part is him recognizing that Thomas is Evie’s #1 priority now, and there comes a moment where he has to make a difficult decision to prioritize the two of them in his own life, too (by quitting his job and ending a toxic relationship). The other thing I really liked was how Jacob thinks ruefully he could have gone a another round if he were ten years younger, which he’s not, but Evie seems satisfied and that’s what matters. The recognition that he’s not a teenager anymore, and doesn’t have the stamina of one, but he’s also more mature and this time he’ll be able to give Evie what she needs? Oh, my heart. Like I said I loved them being each other’s firsts as teenagers but this, this second chance they’ve got as adults, this is beautiful.

Ok so this is Evie begging Jacob to fuck her in a closet in the middle of their dad’s funeral service??!:

“Please, I just need to forget. Just for a little bit- I need to forget, please-” Oh, God, this was a terrible idea. A terrible idea that she would die before she stopped- she felt like an addict after years of sobriety, pushed by stress and grief to needing that all-consuming high that she'd never quite been able to forget. Her fingers worked at his belt, pulling it open, unbuttoning his trousers to draw the heel of her palm along where he was already hard. “Evie,” he rasped, shuddering against her touch. “Shh,” she said, tucking his pants down enough to pull his cock free, giving it a few firm strokes. “Shh.” If they talked, it would be too real. It had to be rushed and frantic, to feel like it was just the once, to ease the ache in her chest.

And this is after they finish (“if only it could have lasted forever”):

Silently, she turned to let him zip up her dress … There was a warmth against the back of her neck as she felt him draw her hair aside and press a kiss to the sensitive skin, hesitant and uncertain. "Thank you," she breathed into the darkness, listening to the click of his belt as it slid back into place. He just sighed, leaning his forehead against her shoulder, saying a million things without speaking a word.

LEANING HIS FOREHEAD FOR A MILLISECOND AGAINST HER SHOULDER OMFG I AM DECEASED

Ok so to return an earlier point: When you want a canon incest happy ending in a modern setting (as opposed to if you’re both Targaryens) the most popular option is run away and live as an unrelated couple, which necessitates cutting ties with everyone you’ve ever known. This may be more or less difficult depending on the quantity and quality of those ties; unless this is Flowers in the Attic and you’ve literally been locked in the attic for years there’s bound to be people you care about other than your sibling so this is a monumental ask. The Fryes choose option B, “living openly as siblings and keeping the incest on the dl”. This option is not without risk, of course, since exposure is always a possibility, and Evie has to put up with the other moms at Thomas’s preschool eyeing Jacob like a piece of meat. Still, it means Thomas gets to bake cookies with his grandmother, who would not have let Evie and Jacob back in her life if they flaunted the truth. I mean, it’s not that she doesn’t know her kids are fucking, it’s just that a don’t-ask-don’t-tell policy allows everyone’s relationships to remain intact:

She seemed to be struggling to get the words out. “Is Thomas…” There were a few ways that this question could go, as far as Jacob could see, and he didn’t particularly want to deal with any of them. He leaned against the counter, palms rigid against the cold surface. “I’m really tired, Mother.” “I know. I just…” There was a terrible pause. “Are— are you and Evie…” Still facing the toaster, Jacob closed his eyes. He couldn’t muster a lot of fake outrage, but he planned to deny everything anyway. He didn’t care about how plausible it was. It was easier for everyone that way, especially Mother. Before he could open his mouth, though, Mother’s chair scraped back. “Actually, never mind. It’s nothing. Don’t worry about it.”

Every Wednesday Evie (who’s moved back in with her mom) leaves Thomas with his grandma and goes to “book club” which is really date night at Jacob’s. And the two of them get right up to their old tricks:

When he gave her just the slightest nudge upwards with his hips, she finally let a broken whisper rasp out. “I can't- I want- please-” Jacob clicked his tongue. “You know what I want you to say.” She twisted her neck around again, and he could see that her eyes were now glassy with longing. “Huh?” “It's simple— just ‘My greedy cunt belongs to my brother’. “ “I will not."

The process of turning that initial “no” into a “yes” is scorchingly hot so there you go, I love these two, I love this fic, I have definitely seen the light and I'm ready to embrace smut.

#fic rec #jacob x evie #evie x jacob #fryecest #jacob frye #evie frye #poethrotsvitha

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aesjae · 6 years

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Boyfriend! Doyoung

#11 of Boyfriend! Series

Style/ Genre: Headcanon/ - Word Count: 1,334 Date Posted: 10 Dec 2017

doyoung as a boyfriend is actually much cuter than anyone probably thinks

doyoung is actually such boyfriend material???

he can be a very joking and fun boyfriend

but everything he does for you and with you would radiate with love for you

tbh i would say that most of the time he would show the loving side of himself to you

he would be so loving and caring

the nct members would be quite shocked too

i’m pretty sure that in different situations or circumstances, people will show different sides of themselves

sides that maybe even the closest of their companions may not have known they had such sides of them

similarly, when doyoung gets into a committed relationship

he would be different as to how he usually is when with his friends

doyoung would probably only get into a relationship with someone whom he is completely comfortable being alone with

and someone he can envision having a long-term future with

he would often discuss plans about the future with you

uall would probably like to have very chillax dates

maybe just chilling and cuddling on the couch at one of your homes

with both of you pressed about the soft fabric of the couch

and doyoung’s arms wrapped around your frame

both of your warmth radiating out of you

and doyoung would point to areas around the room

“in future, when we get our own house, i want our curtains to be a pretty shade of baby blue”

“but baby blue would be easily dirtied doyoung-ah”

“but it’s pretty... and it reminds me of you because the colour represents my love for you -- soft, calming as if medicine to my soul, as deep as the sea and as vast as the sky”

“also let’s get a big bed. i know you take up a lot of space so it’s perf- oUCH”

“I DON’T TAKE UP THAT MUCH SPACE”

“I WAS KIDDING (Y/N) I LOVE YOU OKAY PLEASE DON’T HIT ME;;;;;”

“I wanted a big bed so that our child can sleep between the both of us next time and we wouldn’t have to spend extra money buying another bed for it...”

“if we get a daughter, i hope she would be as pretty as you are... two is better than one, i will never get tired of your face :-)” /doyoung beams happily at his words/

“and if we get a son?”

“he has to be as handsome as his dad of course!!”

“...... time to find taeyong”

“??? waIT WHAT HEY GET BACK HERE I’M THE HANDSOME DAD”

doyoung is hella handsome like bruh stan those visuals man

also, we know how doyoung loves food and /clears throat/ inactivity

same doyoung same

we seldom see doyoung sharing food or even waiting for the other members to eat before he starts eating 😂

but when with you

he would wait for you to start taking the first bites of the food first before he starts eating himself

or he would feed the first few pieces to you first

he would enjoy sharing his food with you

ensuring that you are able to be filled with good and nutritious food

hoho

that also means that mom doyoung would frequently cook for you

he would intentionally search up and learn new recipes online

he wanted to ensure that you were getting enough nutrients and was well fed while you were busy with work / school

even if he is busy himself at times, he would try to cook at least 3 meals for you per week

which would usually be breakfast

or lunch that he prepares in the morning so that both of you can have the food as packed lunch in school/ work

also, doyoung would be quite a protective boyfriend

he would be defensive whenever the nct members start to tease you/ both of you as a couple

even when gong myung starts to tease both of you

“oh my~ look at my little dongsaengie being such a sweet boyfriend eh~ why aren’t you ever that sweet to me :-( come, give your hyung a 뽀뽀 (peck) too~~”

“hYUNG dON’T BE DISGUSTING-”

/ doyoung wrapping one arm around you and pressing you close to his side so that one of your ears are covered by his chest/ shoulder, while his other hand covers your other ear /

we all know how the nct members ( esp ten ) likes to tease doyoung for looking like a bunny

with no exception, you would probably do that too

but doyoung wouldn’t mind that, since it’s coming from you

“i’m a bunny? thank you,, that only means you think i’m as adorable as one” /sends you finger hearts/

oh yes

doyoung would probably be the kind of boyfriend who would enjoy laughing heartily at your embarrassing baby and childhood picture

“oh my gosh (Y/N), that’s you??? god, this is hilarious!! i won’t stop reminding you about this for the rest of your laugh hoho 😈”

doyoung the type of boyfriend would likes to sing for you, especially acapella

be blessed by those vocals

especially when you’re having a very stressed out day, or simply having a very tiring day, doyoung would lay you down with your head on his lap

as he strokes your head gently

singing soft tunes to you in the quiet night

allowing those nerves you had been experiencing to die down

and for you to relax

as you become intoxicated by his calm and soothing voice

feeling your breaths slow down into shallow, rhythmic ones

doyoung would peck your the top of your head/ forehead as he drifts off to sleep himself

no matter how tired he is, he would ensure you fall asleep well first before sleeping himself

if both of you did not spend the night together

and if you suddenly call him in the middle of the night due to certain reasons

doyoung would have been startled in his sleep, but as soon as he sees your caller ID,

would regain full consciousness and pick up the phone, worried

he would spend the rest of the night/ dawn just talking to you

allowing you to calm down for whatever reasons or merely just accompany you throughout the night

even if it was just hearing your voice

doyoung would have been assured of how you were feeling/ your safety

tbh i feel like doyoung would be the kind who would love taking long bus rides

both of you would frequently have days when both of you just have an impromptu meet up and get on a random bus

just sitting there for hours and allowing the bus to take you to wherever

just having your hold intertwined in his/ your arm hooked with his

and both of you silently enjoying the beautiful passing scenery

enjoying the sight of other people’s lives revolving around both of yours

as if both of you had stopped in time as you relished in a moving film of life

we also all know how doyoung can be very talkative

being able to talk about anything under the sun ( though not everybody may be interested in what he says ;; /coughs/ vroom vroom talk show /coughs/ )

however, at the same time

doyoung would like to be in the quiet company of you

they say that true love cannot be expressed in words

and that it is evident in everybody’s eyes even in the absence of words

hence, both of you would love being in silent companion

because what both of you felt for each other would not need to be said out loud

both of you would know each other’s heart

to sum up,

a relationship with doyoung would not be full of teenage fluff like the dreamies’

but would definitely be a very soft one

it would be a relationship that would seem to never die

and would be like a small but steady flame glowing in both darkness and brightness

everglowing.

[unedited]

#nctwriters #neoculturenet #nctwetnet #nct #nct u #nct 127 #nct dream #doyoung #nct scenario #taeil #johnny #yuta #taeyong #ten #winwin #jaehyun #mark #haechan #renjun #jeno #jaemin #jisung #chen le

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tiemeupspidey · 7 years

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Can’t Help Falling in Love with You- Please Don’t Leave Me

Relationship: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Reader is sick with cancer , Tom comes home after an interview to their son Jaxon crying..

Warnings: Swearing cause I love swearing IRL. Plus Tom swears too :,) Dad Tom, Cute Fluff,Adorable,Sad

Word Count:2,500+ Hella long sorry 0.0

A/N: REQUESTS ARE OPEN :,) Look at my post about it to submit to me.

[Reader’s POV]

“Look over here!”

“Are Tom and you going to split?”

“Does he still love you even though you’re sick?” Your eyes stung with tears as you heard that.

Thankfully your bodyguard pushed them away. How could they ask you if Tom still loves you. You’re married to him, it’s death till you part for fucks sake. Yet death does seem close cause that’s If the cancer doesn’t kill you first…

Heading home from my chemo treatment session I close my eyes. Your body felt very weak since this morning. Tom’s mother was watching Jaxon till my appointment was finished. His parents have been a huge help since your diagnosis. Nikki also taking wonderful photos of Jax for you.

A speed bump makes you cringe from the pain. Pulling Tom’s beanie further down so it doesn’t fall off. It was a little difficult adjusting to your no hair lifestyle. Tom would kiss your head every morning saying “you’re beautiful and it’s just hair.. It will grow back” His support helped you through the hard parts of your illness.

“Mrs. Holland, we’re almost to your residence.. Are you feeling alright?” Illianna your chauffeur asks.

“Y-yes” I say with a small smile. Holding the puke bag in front of you. I could feel bile rising to my throat. Swallowing the liquid before it could surface. It was embarrassing to puke in public and especially in front of people. You’d rather do it on your own.

“We can drive back to the hospital if we need to miss” Her eyes look at you in the rearview mirror.

“N-No I promised to be home after my appointment, Jaxon is waiting for me” A small smile pulling up on my lips. You spent more time with Jaxon ever since your cancer started to progress. Spending time with him was your main priority. The doctors say you’ll make it but your body doesn’t feel like it.

“You’re a wonderful mother miss, don’t listen to them” her statement making me smile, I felt like an awful mother being weak.Illiana is a lovely and sweet but also a woman you didn’t want to make angry. Her driving was quick but slowed whenever there was a bump. You were thankful she did that because the speed bumps hurt your body so much.

The car pulls up to your home stopping by the driveway. Slowly moving my purse to my lap I open the car door. By the time my door fully swung open Illiana was waiting for me with her hand extended. I thanked her as I grabbed her hand as she helped me out of the vehicle. Her hand giving me support as I walked towards the house. Tom’s mom opens the door with Jaxon on her hip. His little smile reminding you of Tom making your heart melt.

He reaches out towards me once I reach the front porch. Holding my breath as I held him, the aching in my body rising. I press a kiss to his forehead carrying him inside. Nikki tried convincing you to set him down.

Refusing because you would look weak if you did. Jax needs affection from you, you don’t know when your last moments with him will be. The thought of leaving him alone scared you. If you died you don’t know how Tom would react either. Tom was your everything,and Jax was your reason to get up every morning and fight your sickness away.

“Mumma I want to show you what we worked on today!” Jaxon smiles up at you excitedly. His eyes shining ,the twinkle reminded you of stars.

“Of course my little star, show me what you did” Setting him down on the ground I watch as he takes off. Taking a deep breath in I walk a little faster to catch up with him. A hand wraps around my wrist causing me to look.

“Take it easy love, you should be resting after your treatment…” Nikki looks at you with concern written in her features. You hated seeing the way people look at you like that. It makes you feel weaker.

“I’ve been at the hospital all week.. I just want to see him” your voice cracks a bit. I hated feeling this way. Being stuck in a hospital and trying to be a mother is so hard. Missing moments with him was the worst. You didn’t let Tom bring him to the hospital while you were there. If Jax saw you connected to tubes and beeping you were afraid he would get scared.

“Him seeing you fighting is what’s good for him, don’t you let those stupid paps say anything to discourage you.. My son’s wife is a fighter, Jaxon seeing you fight is going to be an inspiration to him I promise you” her arms pulling me into an embrace. She smelled like the cookies that they must have baked.

“Thank you Nikki” a smile coming up to your lips. She kisses my forehead before helping me into the kitchen.

“Grandma and I made cookies an- and we did a puzzle too!” He points over to the table showing a puzzle of Spider-Man. You’re surprised he didn’t do the one that Robert made. It was one of Iron man holding a sign saying “Best Godfather” on it. He is so extra, but it’s amusing.

“Jaxon, now you be careful with your mum.. Your daddy has big news for tonight so we’re going to celebrate” she explains while kneeling down next to him. His eyes sparkle a bit with excitement.

“Does that mean you’re bringing cake grandma?”

A laugh escapes Nikki as she kisses his forehead “ yes I will bring cake, you’re just like your father.” Her hand ruffling his brown curls.

“Thank you for all your help today Nikki” I say picking up Jaxon. Loving the way his arms immediately wrap around your neck.

“Get some rest love for tonight, see you later pumpkin” she blows a kiss to Jax before closing the door behind her.

“Mumma ‘m tireddd” Jaxon rubs his eyes with his tiny fists.

“Okay love let’s head upstairs” My eyes shifting towards our staircase. Looking up them they seemed so much longer in my mind. You can do this.. Do this for Jax.

Heading up the stairs holding him close to your body. Taking a deep breath you slowly ascend the stairs. Halfway your legs start to get shaky. Normally Tom is the one to carry him but he’s currently at an interview. Jax’s small puffs hit your neck signalling he’s asleep.

Finally reaching the top of the stairs I let out an exhausted sigh. Stumbling a bit but catching myself on the railing. Jaxon stirs but relaxes again. “Thank God” you whisper heading towards his bedroom. Opening the door slowly slipping in cautiously not to wake him up.

“Mumma..”

“Shh baby, go back to sleep” I whisper setting him into bed. His arms still locked around my neck. Grasping his tiny hands I unlock them from behind my neck. He lets out a little sigh as you tuck him in the covers. Brushing his curls out of his face you stroke his cheek with your thumb.

“I love you so much my little star” I whisper as a tears falls down my cheek.The door opens more making my gaze drop. Tessa walks in towards Jax’s bed. Her head peeking above the covers to sniff him. Turning in a circle after quietly laying down next to his bed. Pulling your phone out of your pocket taking a picture . A grin appears as you look at the photo.

Once in your bedroom you head towards the bed. It looked so comfortable the longer you stared at it. A content sigh leaves my lips once my body lays down. Crinkling fills your ears making you sit up. Looking around where your head was there’s a piece of paper.

Hey beautiful wife of mine,

I left the TV on, my interview should be on after you settle Jax down for the afternoon..

I love you and can’t wait to see your gorgeous face tonight.

-Love Tom xx

Ps. I love you more before try and say I love you more.. HA :)

A laugh escapes my lips as I look up at the TV. They just cut to break so you pull out your phone. Quickly sending him a picture of Tessa and Jax. Your phone dings shortly after it being sent.

Wonderful Husband:

Look at our little human. We did that babe! Oh Tess what a sweetheart ! Gotta go babe I’m on in a few xx

“Mumma I had a nightmare!”Jax’s crying grabs your attention. Getting up fast and heading out the door.

“Jax I’m Co!… coming”I gasped out as the room swirled around making the hallway look like a funhouse mirror. I tried grabbing onto the staircase only to fall against it hitting my head. My vision going blank and into darkness.

[Tom’s POV]

“So how’s the life at home Tom?”

“Jaxon has formed a bond with Tessa, she’s around him more than me now” I respond with a little laugh. The audience laughs along with me.

“How’s your wife doing though? She’s been in and out of the hospital..”

Zendaya places a hand on my shoulder. Did he seriously have to ask? I could feel my nerves building up because I tried not thinking of her sickness. I just think of her as my loving,caring,quirky and beautiful wife. Looking up I give a small smile, I know she’s watching the interview she watches them when she can.

“She is taking life like a champ, I know it’s hard for her when I’m away as well. I’m so blessed to have a loving wife like her. Our son is going to grow up full of love ‘cause of her.. If you’re watching this, I love you! Give Jax a kiss for me” I blow a kiss to the camera making the audience go “awww.”

“Have the doctors said any-”

“I think you’ve asked enough.” Zendaya says bluntly holding her hand up silencing the interviewer.

“I didn’t mean to-”

“This interview isn’t about your nosy questions pertaining his sick wife it is about the second and third Spider-Man movie..” she looks at the man annoyed. Her hair is flipped over her shoulder staring at the man with a glare.

The audience was dead silent.

“That was really unnecessary and insensitive” Jacob crosses his arms over his chest. I felt like a kid who’s parents were sticking up for him.

“So sorry Mr.Holland, Let’s get on with the movie questions” he fumbles nervously with his cards trying to find the one he wanted.

Walking to the front door I get my keys out of my trousers. Unlocking the door I head inside. Setting my keys on the hook next to the door. A blur passes by causing me to look up. Jaxon stands in front of me crying, tears pouring down his cheeks. Ripping my headphones off I toss them onto the ground. Kneeling down in front of my son placing my hands on his cheeks.

“What’s wrong buddy?”I ask looking over his body for any injuries. Why was he crying?

“N-nightmare an-and I called for mum-mumma and she did-didn’t come then s-saw she was on th-the floor and w-would’nt wake up!” my heart stops for a second once he finishes the sentence. Standing up I rush up the stairs taking bigger steps to get up there faster. The closer I got to the top I could see her body on the floor.

“God babygirl please wake up, what the hell happened?Wake up darling please” I beg shaking her body. Her face not stirring from the motion I was causing. Lifting her body up I carry her to the bedroom. I heard Jaxon still crying downstairs. The sounds of him crying and the situation that’s happening made my heart pound harder.

“Fuckin’ hell please please wake up love” I whisper setting her on the bed. Going closer to her face I listen for breathing. Feeling her light breath made me sigh in relief. Getting up from the bed I get a washcloth getting it wet. Folding it after I squeeze the excess water out. Quickly heading back to the bed I place it on her forehead. Lifting her head I place a pillow underneath it. Climbing onto the bed I hold onto her body.

Praying quietly that she’ll wake up, tears falling down my cheeks. Seconds felt like minutes and minutes felt like hours. Looking at her chest rise and fall slowly Jax comes into the room trying to hold Tessa but failing. Tessa jumps onto the bed laying next to her feet. I help Jax up and he lays in between us.

After thirteen minutes she finally spoke “T-Tom? Where’s J-Jax?babe, wh-why are you crying?”

“Y-You were unconscious for I d-don’t know how long cause Jax can’t tell time and I got ho-home later than normal” my voice shaky as I tried hiding tears.

“I’m f-fine Tom I think I just got up too fast is all” she gives me a small smile making my heart ache. She’s not fine, she tries to be so strong when she’s this way. I take her hand giving it so many kisses.

“Darling, there’s a fine line with being fine and this happening..” I press kisses to her face after removing the cloth from her head. She tries to protest but Jaxon interrupts.

“Mumma wh-when will you get better?” Jaxon asks tilting his head. His cheeks and nose were red from crying.

“Hopefully soon baby, I’ll let you dress yourself for daddy’s surprise tonight okay?” Jax nods with a smile following Tessa out of the room once he’s let off the bed.

“C’mon babe, I’ll go put the kettle on” Her lips press against my cheek as she sits up. Slowly she stands grabbing a beanie off of the side table. Pulling it on she looks in the mirror fixing her outfit. Turning to the side she re-zips her dress. My gaze dropping to the floor. I almost lost her. I could have lost my everything.

“Tom”

“Tom Holland”

“Thomas Stanley Holland”

Looking up I see her looking at me with a small smile. Standing up I head over to where she stands. Wrapping my arms around her waist. Her body flush against mine.

“I love you darling, please don’t leave me..” I whisper holding her head against my chest.

“I love you more” she whispers humming against my chest.

“Well I love you most” I whisper lifting her up and carrying her downstairs. Her head laying against my chest. I could feel her smile against my chest. Once downstairs I set her down as I get the kettle ready.

“I love you more though” she tries to argue looking at my walk around the kitchen.I pause looking back at her with a smile.

“Not a chance darling, not a chance.”

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