#hopeless romantic coming out

[undertheredhood]

jason todd falling in love with someone from the perspective of the other batfamily members has got to be the funniest thing ever, because he's not going to tell them anything about his personal life so easily, which is going to lead them to greatly misunderstand everything. so while jason’s giggling and kicking his feet while imagining his future wedding with his crush, his family is immediately calling john constantine to exorcise the demon that is clearly possessing him.

#dc comics #dc universe #dcu #batman #red hood #jason todd #jason peter todd #jason was never the angry robin #batfamily #batfam #jason once smiled at bruce and the entire family has descended into chaos trying to figure out what's wrong with him #tim has gone into extreme detective mode and has multiple theories #it’s either he’s possessed or he’s dying from a terminal disease so he’s finally getting his affairs in order #meanwhile jason asked out his crush and is meticulously planning his outfit for their date #hopeless romantic jason todd #it’s not that hard to figure out that jason’s in love but when the bats all come together their smartness just cancels out #they all share just a single braincell #jason todd prompt #jason todd headcanon #jason todd hc #this could be any of jason’s love interests btw #batfamily headcanons #batfam hcs #batfamily hcs #it’s all good because jason thinks it’s funny #jason started giggling while he was on the phone talking to someone and it was the most horrifying thing his siblings have ever seen #that’s the moment they find out that everything is fine and jason just has a crush #nobody ever wants to witness their sibling flirt #lovestruck jason todd #the gotham newspapers are entertaining everyone with the wayne family hijinks

[sunshineandviolets]

"Rose - Tinted glasses, call me naïve, Wishing on love, for sparks to be set free. Cheeks flush. Butterflies swarm, Can you be the one to keep me warm? " - 'Butterflies' by Strawberry Sweet Surprise

Got the chance to commission @danniseyebrows for an portrait of my @infamous-if MC, Shanaya Joshi - also known as Mintii <3. Is always dressing bright and cute both on and off stage.

#infamous if #infamous mc #oc: shanaya wiseman #thank you again for this!! she came out so good!!! #in awe with all the colours hehe #exactly how i envision her #my hopeless romantic disaster lesbian #who only realised she fell for her bestie after they left #and will end up falling for her idol's wife #Shanaya in infamous is just the au where you get to see both her eyes lmaoo #no awkwardly cut bangs here safasfasf #something something embracing her self and coming into her own shell

[depresseddepot]

trying to determine which parts of my relationship with sex are asexuality, which are trauma, and which are autism is like trying to have a conversation with three people talking loudly and all at once

#just to be clear: asexuality as a result of trauma or neurodivergency is still asexuality. full stop no debate. #anyway because i love oversharing on tumblr dot com: feeling very sex repulsed on this day #i was joking with some guy about fighting each other (specifically said ''you ever fight a girl over 200 lbs? id break your ribs'') #and like three different people said something like ''well that would probably turn him on'' #and. listen. i get it. that was a joke response to my joke threat #but what i felt in that moment and still feel now requires nothing short of academic study to understand #first of all: how dare they make me feel embarrassed in a social setting when i was doing so well. #secondly: why the fuck would me making a threat make them instantly think of sex #thirdly: how fucked up is my body image that i hear that and immediately think they're all out of their minds #i like fat women. i am personally attracted to fat women. not (usually) sexually but i do think they are very nice to look at #so why is it so hard for me to accept that someone else could find me attractive as well ! #i think about being in a situation where a relationship and/or sex is a real possibility and i flinch like its going to hurt me #but why???? where is this aversion coming from !!!!! i am a hopeless romantic i daydream about romance all the time #so whats the deal here. is it subconscious bc of my asexuality and i associate romance with sex? #is it because of my autism where i associate romance with touch and am afraid i am too unempathetic to have a chance? #or (most likely) is it just because im so fucking scared of trusting someone that even the thought makes me nauseous #did this all crop up from a throwaway sex joke? yes #but people don't make sex jokes to me. people don't even pretend to allude to me being cute #this same group of people said a few weeks ago ''at least you're pretty'' #which. is not the case!!!!!!! people do not say those things to me because they don't want to even slightly entertain that idea !!!!!!! #and i am extremely tired of having my life upended because of this #i have always been treated like i was ugly and teased about it and i FINALLY have managed to be okay with not being attractive #and now that im okay with it: NOW is when the pretty jokes start. im fucking angry about it actually #i can't be both. i cannot think of myself in terms that abstract. i am one or the other #and this leads me to believe that people think i COULD be pretty. but the catalyst is that i am fat and therefore cannot be attractive #which just makes me more angry!!!!!!!!!!! #how can i be completely indifferent to sex and attraction without seeming juvenile. i don't care so so much #but every time that sort of thing happens i feel like im 13 again and the hot jock is talking to me #i need to be put down. something's wrong with this one (me) #i realize i can't stop people from making sex or appearance jokes but god i wish i fucking could

[rosicheeks]

Congrats on getting out of bed and getting to see some nature today! 👏 👏 I hope it helped some!

#nature always helps ☀️🌻🍃 #it’s just the matter of getting out of bed and outside #honestly it was really relaxing and I’m going to try and go back tomorrow 🩷 #I feel bad and guilty cause my sister is doing a lotr marathon this weekend (started Friday) #and I said I would maybe come…… #but honestly I’m getting antsy just thinking about going #I need to do something during a movie or I usually fall asleep tbh #and it’s really no hate on the movie #it could be my favorite movie or even a new one that I’ve been dying to see #just after awhile I end up getting sleepy and falling asleep 🤦🏽‍♀️ #anywayyyy #I’m super excited to go back and find different cozy areas 🫶🌈 #my hopeless romantic self kept daydreaming while I was painting #I was like hmmm what if someone comes to the park to walk their dog or go for a jog or whatever and they see me #and they can’t keep their eyes off of me #🥰🥰🥰 #ask #anon

[kodasea]

Outfits (2020)

#kodasea #own art #2020 art #artists on tumblr #own character #cold case crew #art #lawrence #cold case detective #outfits #lawrence's secret hopeless romantic side comes out here #still really love the second one #its a decent example of him on a good day #apprehensive and keeping distance but happy someone is interacting

[unproduciblesmackdown]

pondering a framework of Theme re: deh as like, the tension between having an idea of people that can be whatever you want it (them) to be, vs the realities of people that that idea doesn't cover, whether by conflicting w/the idea or being [more stuff you don't know]....from the aspect that doesn't really get taken up by audiences in how like, via the distance of Social Media you can be dealing w/those Ideas via what people choose to share to present an idea, and not see behind the scenes into the reality (which is like, this whole show could've happened with the [social media] component excised & replaced by other mediums/methods so it's not the most surprising that nobody's going "yeah my takeaway is that this wouldn't have happened if evan had been more offline & faced a book instead of facebook") to like Thee In-Person Relationships he's having

the whole story's focused on evan dealing w/the Ideas more so, putting in most of his effort on trying to offer Thee Idea of [whatever he thinks they want from him] to the murphys, and then to others beyond that via tcp, and then that all inevitably falling apart b/c reality didn't align is most of the runtime....the ending's always just kind of peak baffling b/c it's like, a Resolution sure is difficult when it's maybe more so been like Stuff Happening and then like, what does evan do to deal with The Realities instead of the Ideas....that would potentially be a whole second story from that point lol but he gets the (i guess first part of) resolution needed from like, confronting the supposed reality of himself (but still just an Alternate idea about himself in going like "im the guy who sucks plus i got depression") and this can be handled by his mom, who he also can handle realizing is admittedly not some Ideal of [the concept of The Mother] which is like, okay, except where do we go with that....here where they go from that is "not peacing out from each other's lives" but also like, "being in each other's life at all" is kind of just a peak basic premise of having any relationship, not the highest bar here or in & of itself a guarantee that now this is All He Needs, Really

meanwhile I Guess his second part of his resolution is meeting with zoe, i mean, It Is in that that's what the show offers as finale lol. but where zoe's kind of here to mostly talk about Ideas as still being helpful, including that i guess we can assume her life is fine Enough now just b/c her parents aren't going to divorce? like i think it would be better for everyone if they did, actually lol, but there seems to also be this [assumed shared assumptions w/the audience] aligning with Normality throughout of like, thee truly important, Necessary, Real relationships here are like, parent/child, parent/parent, [your dream soulmateship] as proto-[parent/parent] ideally surely, can i make it any more obvious what more can i say....for example iicth is agonizing to me lol like being hit with the details of evan's like Secret Joke Smile Bandplaying mini monologue is like oh my god lmfao. this is peak An Idea territory, like you're just making shit up about her but clearly in an Idealized way, and the song says nothing abt Why he likes her, personally, while for zoe it's just offering this contrasting idea to Her idea that idk connor hated her like skiing, or what all, and/or the possibility that there could've been a different dynamic....only us(tm) is back at it lol like yeah sure In Theory that evan shouldn't have to be on the defensive waiting to let people down but like, it's all downhill from there, like zoe should also be Able to say anything she likes about evan specifically, isolating yourselves & ignoring everything else = not great, actually. and it Could be examined like, i guess your just being a nervously polite someguy boyfriend who was supposedly separate Enough from all the stuff about connor was a nice enough distraction while it lasted....but i have no idea why zoe is still particularly fond of evan as The Idea Of The Romantic Ideal Of It All in the conclusion like, girl what. what did you guys ever talk about. the most like Interaction is that pre iicth moment, where also zoe's like grilling him about what classes his mom takes & where his dad is & why he doesn't appreciate being poor & is calling him weird & all which is still more interesting than the Non Interactions they will now proceed to have for the rest of the show lol

anyways it's just like, so far as we know All Evan's Needed for the year and a half has been his mom not hating him so much she wants to leave, and he's doing fine....like idk fine sure maybe but it's like, it's sure just like, the most important connections are "we held hands & That Status was magical regardless of like, being able to express the least Specific Thing we liked about each other, or talking about anything" and "at least my parents aren't divorcing, so things are good" and "at least my parent isn't disowning me, so things are good" like, i mean are they lol. maybe, but hardly a guarantee via these facts, and very like "yes you'll encounter conflicts w/your ideas of people that require effort, better focus that effort on the Peak Atomized Normal(tm) Relationships which are so most important that they're required, and so required that they're most important: nuclear family, and monogamous cishet lifelong romance as your path to nuclear family (the next generation)" like yeah man if you talked to zoe once ever maybe everything would be the same. what then? nonrhetorically.

and that also The Idea/ls vs The Realities of people, when it comes to Family, also only goes so far when the authority of Thee Parent is this foregone unalienable fact, so that the "yeah i'm not perfect" Fact of a parent's personhood doesn't have to translate into effort to do things differently (for the child) but rather means the child is supposed to lower expectations and just accept whatever negative experiences imparted by the parent, b/c also They're Your Parent so the child's required to have that Relationship just regardless of what the specifics of the relationship Actually Are. like how i guess dating is amazing & important b/c you sure were dating. cue heidi just cutting through an apparent breakdown of her actual relationship with evan with the aggressive I'm Your Mother, to be revisited when the murphys aren't your Family....and then concluded with kinda a [i'm your mother: nice mode] situation of like, guess you'd better Hope your parent/child relationship exists at all and is good enough, like you'd better hope your eventual romance exists at all and is good enough, both for forever, with these also being the only connections that can Really matter rather than like, what, peers you don't date? friends, acquaintances, strangers? log off & do family game night

anyways it's all like, not expecting or wanting deh to be like "any of this is all good or all bad," and that goes for like the [the actual person, beyond being able to be Known In Full] and [the ideas crafted to make enough sense of things along the way] and how too much Idea can be dehumanizing, but you also can't write everyone off as black boxes of the unknown so as to Never Get It Wrong if you even exist proximately to them....but it's like, if we're going like "hmm why do we feel so isolated" like i have some ideas and it's not "just call your mom" or anything. the deh finale doesn't have a character who gets to be like "what the hell" or suggest anything's still shitty so it's like, yeah great that there's (everyone needed it for / it's) Something, but we could even have some more things

#deh #like step one everyone's problem is: they're in high school fr #no ''ugh Just Teen Angst'' like you're joking or you Are the joke; being a child? going to school? ton of potential & p guaranteed Bad Time #what if evan could Go Out even if he doesn't have friends; for one #meanwhile when it comes to having friends it's like ''you guys don't align w/my Ideal Idea of friendship so i guess it's hopeless'' like ok #and Ideal Friends also potentially being ppl who require no effort from you but are on-call to provide effort For you anytime #also ''as good as'' / substitute Family in their own right; otherwise you Ought to be all set b/w family & your romantic partner #and friendships are kind of funny little [occasional reasons to leave the house & get together in public b/c you can't do that alone] #anyways just the eternal Assorted Thoughts that deh inspires lol. lot going on in there. and also not enough going on in there

[fortune-maiden]

Okay, now I can: 💐🌺🌼🌹

So many flowers :D

💐 Who tends to worry the most?

I feel like their both worriers but in different ways. NHS is the open worrier - every little thing will set him off and be the end of the world (sure some of the dramatics are Headshaker-related, but he really does worry too!)

Lan Xichen is more the type to worry less overall, but really worry about the things that do affect him. And unlike NHS who copes by making his problems everyone's problems, LXC is quiet about it. NHS can usually tell though.

🌺 Do they go to sleep at the same time as each other?

Lan Xichen goes to bed at 9 on the dot like a good Lan. NHS goes to sleep when he goes to sleep though he isn't that bad about staying up late. He likes his beauty rest.

🌼 How do their personalities complement each other?

Here we go......

One common thing I like in OTPs is a dynamic of a serious one and a flighty one BUT with the serious one also being an idealist, while the flighty one will get things done.

I also like the contrast of LXC as the perfect role model of the cultivation world, but also someone who is placed on a pedestal, doesn't have many people he can be close with, and with a mountain of expectations and people watching his every move. Meanwhile NHS is... NHS. He's weak, he's silly, he's also struggling with expectations, but he's also a nice sociable guy who's easy to get along with and befriend, and I think his brand of silliness is something that would make LXC relax, but LXC's encouragement also inspires him to make an effort.

I just think they fit really nicely together.

🌹 Who is the hopeless romantic?

Lan Xichen! He has a very romantic view of love from plays and literature, and enjoys spoiling NHS with sweeping romantic gestures (or what he considers to be sweeping romantic gestures). NHS returns the favor although his own views are a little more practical.

#thank you! #this was fun #I love the personalities question & also the hopeless romantic question #on the note of the serious idealist and the cold flighty one - my love for this dynamic #originated from a dubbed episode of sailor moon. there was a line of dialogue that i am 90% certain did not exist originally #(the scene where it came up was very heavily rewritten in the dub) #but that line just really stood out to me and even now i remember it when i'm inevitably drawn to that dynamic #it's that gap between appearance and personality! it's so good!! #although come to think of it my beloved peixuan may be the one serious/silly pair that doesn't follow this #the serious one is also the practical one while the silly one is a purehearted idealist. it's also good <3 #mdzs #xisang #lan xichen #nie huaisang

[kakuzuko]

i dont have many friends on here but this was my spoofy wrapped this year : )

#spotify wrapped #shut up roman #wasnt lying abt luis miguel #i heard that song off a tiktok where a real life boy was sharing a fanta with a jpeg of Asuka to this song #I think Feel Good Angst refers to the fact i cant stop listening to pumped up kicks directly after Running Into The Night comes on #and reverse #did NOT have to call me out on the heartache hopeless romantic shit though #like damn its true but it hurts #also the 70 new genres ive explored i feel like i have to give most credit to stranger things fanfiction #never been introduced to music like this #OH and tiktok ofc #i have no idea where i discovered wicked game from but like damn i could NOT stop listening to it #(and yes i think of steddie) #(embarassing) #(i want to draw fanart/animatic of them with that song so badly though) #(god damn) #(like the two lines: #i never dreamed that id love somebody like you #i never dreamed that id lose somebody like you #god DAMN dude)

[foraging-beast]

when uquizzes call me a hopeless romantic i laugh so so so hard

#i swear every single uquiz calls me a hopeless romantic #like. all of them #i do like to romanticize life so maybe that’s what it comes from?? #but. babygirl i hate romance it grosses me out #although i do like to ship…. #i’m suuuch an enigma #zosting

[avid-adoxography]

Hyacinth, Sweet pea, and Daffodil for whomever :>

-@/fictionallyinparadise

@fictionallyinparadise Hiii bestie!! Sorry for the delay and thank you so so much for your ask ily 💜💜

I'm doing this for Silvia Baronio and Sturm since I've been planning our wedding for weeks now sdfghjk

Hyacinth: What do/ what would you and your F/O do to celebrate your wedding anniversary?

Honestly I think we'd just spend some quality time together as a couple. Enjoy the day by ourselves, simply appreciating each other's company, and get in touch again with the true meaning of our lives together... ya know?? <3c <3c <3c

Alternatively we can always go to our special place near the Reservoir and set camp there for a nice night out. Or until Moreau notices us and promptly assigns himself the role fo third wheel sdfghk

Sweet pea: Does your wedding have a ‘theme’ or a color scheme that you try to adhere to? If so, what is it?

No surprise here, we're going with a traditional Romanian wedding.

I mean, considering the village is stuck in time and under the thumb of a freak obsessed with holy iconography who dictates the terms over both the religious and civil events of the place, I guess there's not much of a choice really 😬

So expect odd customs (you know what they say in the Village: Câte bordeie, atâtea obiceie!*), lots of homemade food and alcohol, the bride aka me getting kidnapped, woven colourful textiles with floral and animal motifs, small wooden goats in random places, folk music and many MANY dances (Hora Miresei my beloved <3c)

*: Many houses, many customs

In terms of color scheme, I think we'll go with a rustic down-to-earth combination of sage and white since it will be the textiles mentioned before to bring splash of colors here and there <3c

Daffodil: What do you and your F/O’s wedding rings look like?

Finally having Heisenberg as a friend bears fruit, and he better be making our ceremonials crowns too! sdfghjk

Anyway, I was thinking of a matching wedding ring set featuring two fire-treated hammered finish titanium cog shaped bands with silver lining. I'm going fancy with these one lads, we deserve it uwu💅✨

On the inside they have custom engravings, one saying "Here Is My Heart" for his and "Guard It Well" for mine (if you know you know waaaa).

#resident evil village #re8 sturm #selfship game #karl heisenberg #salvatore moreau #re8 self insert #fictionallyinparadise #avid answers #f/o: sturm #s/i: silvia baronio #ship: sturm und drang #i'm gonna make these rings. it's a promise and a threat. #and if they do come out good i might even 3d print them and wear them like a hopeless deranged romantic <3c

[cowboylarries]

the adrenaline of new music has worn off and now i’m ready to sob for the entire 41 minutes of harry singing about loving someone so hard

#something about his voice is so delciate even in the poppier and faster songs and it’s making me tear up #everything comes back to delicate point of view and i don’t want to think about it or else i will cry more #it also makes me wonder if i will ever love someone as hard as harry loves louis #like he is really out here singing about domesticity and sadness in a relationship that has been going on for over ten years #and there’s still so much emotion and attachment to who he’s singing to LIKE WHEN IS IT MY TURNNNN #i swear being a larrie made me hopeless romantic who is destined to be lonely bc nothing will ever beat my larents love story #ANYWAYS #this turned into #it’s just me talking to myself here :) #sorry

[slythernnn]

#if this had come out on the original speak now I wouldn’t be a hopeless romantic lmfao #‘you are now the exception you will never learn your lesson’ #‘I’ll get your longing glances but she’ll get your ring’ #‘And you will say you had the best of intentions And maybe I will finally learn my lesson’ #that shit would’ve devastated younger me and probably snap me out of my delusion lmfao #taylor swift #foolish one #speak now #music #audio #Spotify

[rosicheeks]

What would be your perfect date? 😊

First date? Probably just a classic dinner at a restaurant or homemade meal. I want to get all dolled up and they actually dress up too and we spend the time getting to know each other.

#perfect first date and perfect date in general would be different though #I’m a hopeless romantic so I have plentyyyyy date ideas 😂 #the one that comes to my mind right now is a paintball date #(specially thinking of the scene in 10 things i hate about you) #but really??? #truthfully? #I want them to plan a date by themselves and just tell me when to be ready for them to pick me up #i wouldn’t really care what we did #just the thought of having someone actually spend the time planning and getting a date together? #that would blow my mind tbh #i wanna say I’ve been on like 3ish ‘real’ dates and I’m pretty sure I had to decide for each of them #if you know me you know I HATE decisions #so I think having someone know that about me and decide for me and plan it all so I don’t have to lift a finger?? #yeah that sounds like a dream #for the first date I like the idea of just a classic dinner date so then you can kinda feel out the vibes #if we can talk over dinner and constantly have something to talk about (no awkward dead silences) then I’m sure I’d have fun #doing anything else with them #** also I was trying to reply to this ask while I was at work but it didn’t go well 🤦🏽‍♀️ #every single time I looked down at my phone or started typing something would happen in my yard #so I had to set my phone down and take care of it 🤦🏽‍♀️ #only one more shift left and then I’m outta there 👌 #lol this is all over the place I’m sorry #I don’t wanna go back and redo any of it tho so here we are 😂 #I just really want to go on a date in general 😭😭😭 #I want to flirt and blush and get swept off my feet 😤 #thanks for the ask sweetheart 🩷 #ask #lovely mutuals

[gregmarriage]

the thing is, i could write porn without plot, but the plot keeps getting in the way 😔😬🫣

#literally most of my fics start out as pwp and rapidly devolve imao #i mean i do have ideas for ACTUAL pwp that actually doesn’t have plot soooo who knows #probably jinxing myself lol #i’m too preoccupied with making them fall in love IM SORRY #i’m a hopeless romantic BITCH #you can’t just be having sex you must also be hit with the ‘in sweet beautiful love’ beam #there must be other factors to sex or i can’t write it #why are you having sex? what is the reason? < current mood just in general #but also what i need to know™️ when i write my fics unfortunately imao #i literally cannot™️ be casual about anything it seems #gwen writes a romantic sex fic coming soon to an ao3 near you #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[thelostboys87]

the way i said beau wouldn't be a self insert but i accidentally made him be a caretaker for a terminally ill loved one at 22 years old

#all the infodump thats clogged my brain this week is coming out..... #nah cause i thought i couldnt write something like that but now its exciting to me hehe #DIDNT EVEN NOTICE THE SIMILARITY AT FIRST #writing autofiction (being sat on a commode whilst your terminally ill loved one talks shit about the district nurses) #the way beau's a hopeless romantic but so much of lover boy is about love and intimacy in non romantic settings #like that's his best friend....he took care of his best friend #beau taking care of his dying best friend and beau taking care of his 7 year old brother can someone take care of HIM?!?!? #felix moran this is call to action

[rxmye]

" 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐃𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐄 "

𝐀 𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐍𝐈𝐀𝐂 𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄 — you're his entire world, his only thought, the very illness that has corrupted his mind and body . . .

gender neutral reader / yandere oc x reader / mentions of sleep medication / pathetic yandere / suggestive content / a character slightly aimed towards people with a savior complex

masterlist | requesting rules | character info . . . a/n: edited, Lucas first fanfic is out !! . . click here to read it !! <3

He was someone with fleeting attraction—yet a hopeless romantic, who'd spend most of his class time doodling away in his notebook instead of taking actual notes, writing these scenarios that played out in his mind—tired hazy doodles of small characters, blurry lines of writing, scribbled out text, as he struggled to stay awake—

He had never had a proper sleeping schedule, and if he did he'd never stick to it, a night owl who often faced the consequences of his own actions, sleep medication was something he was all too familiar with, the feeling of being restless without sleep, his nerves always on edge, dark circles under his eyes made him feel insecure, and alarmingly out of character.

He felt something touch his back, he froze, nerves all over the place, a pit growing in his stomach as he turned almost instinctively to face whoever touched him, pushing their hand off harshly . . . "Hey Yoichi . . what's up with you man, why so aggressive?!" Lucas asked . . and then he froze, letting out a nervous and rather embarrassed chuckle, "Ah—um . . sorry Lucas . . just feeling a little tired that's all", he replied softly, voice barely coming out.

To be quite honest, when he first saw you, Yoichi thought nothing of it, he sat at the very back and you for some reason, sat in front of him, not that he minds, you're presence covered him from the teachers eyesight, which allowed him to do whatever he wanted, he was even able to drift off to sleep during that period.

However, it wasn't until he found himself, drawing tiny versions of you in his notebook, little doodles, pink ink staining the paper as he hearted your initials together—his name then your last name . . your name then his last name . . . names of future children—that he realized he was crushing on you . . . big time.

His emotions was fleeting, it had always been, he didn't think much of it . . it was just a simple crush, everyone has one of those, and they go away with time.

Yoichi was a punctual student—and a well organized one—he'd rarely forget his books, much less the notebook with his embarrassing doodles of him and you, it would ruin his image to be quite honest . . yet for some reason he had forgotten it in class today, it could've been his ever-growing restlessness due to a lack of sleep, or maybe the caffeine that's been fucking with his head since early in the morning—he sighed—knocking himself out of his own thoughts, as he twisted the doorknob, hopefully the teacher left the class unlocked.

The door was open, to his utter relieve . . . wait . . . "y/n?", he spoke, taken aback—you were soundly asleep on your desk—you looked so at . . peace . . . calm? . . . Nothing could describe the emotions he felt as he approached you, slowly reaching over to his desk and grabbing his notebook, quickly stuffing it in his backpack—he should go . . , that would be the best course of action . . .

Yet he couldn't . . . he knelt down on the floor, leaning his head on the desk, starring at your face, looking into every curve and line, in his eyes every imperfection just made you even more perfect, the pattern of your breath was soothing to his otherwise restless mind, a soothing scent radiated off of you, and for the first time in months, he felt sleepy . . . like he could sleep without a care . . . everything felt so right. . .—nothing felt displaced or disoriented.

That was the day that started it all, it seems, Yoichi had started forming something that was akin to obsession, he couldn't sleep at all without you—a piece of you—something that reminded him of that calming scent that he felt that day, you calmed his overdriven nerves, you halted his troubles for more than a fleeting moment.

Yoichi knew what he was doing was odd, especially when he found himself picking up the wrapper you threw out, and taking inhaling it, his eyes growing half lidded—he felt like a drug addict—drunk off of you . .

Fleeting touches would tick off his ever delusional mind, a small compliment could set him on overdrive and in the back of his head he knew he was growing addicted, a pit in his stomach grew as he felt slightly disgusted with himself, with the obscene and rather degrading things he'd do, just to get something touched by you.

Lucas stared at his friend, who seemed no better than dead, "Are ya' okay?" he asked, looking him up and down, "You look like a train-wreck", he stated half out of concern and half out of clear disdain and possibly curiosity, "Is it normal?", Yoichi spoke up, taking a gulp of air as he continued, "to want someone so badly that it's hard to explain—like—a part of me feels obsessed, like I feel like carving my own heart out and showing them just to prove my love wont be enough—they could claw out my fingernails—and from where I'm standing, I'd still look at them with only love . . . but at the same time I feel disgusted with the feelings I feel—", Yoichi kept blabbering on, until his friend shushed him, taking a sip of his drink as he jokingly replied, "I mean . . if you love them that much, then their clearly the one . . ."

Yoichi blanked out, as Lucas chuckled, he has no idea how much of his teasing words Yoichi would take to heart that day nor of it's lasting consequences . . .

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