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#i need to go back to the doctor or therapy because I need help fr and like I will make sure I do as it’s my responsibility so like that’s go
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Ngl I’m boarding on a crisis and I have to go to work where I may or may not continue to spiral but can’t do anything about it and it’s terrifying but it’s only me and manager so I feel too guilty to just take a break every time this happens plus it won’t help anyway I don’t need a break I need to be knocked unconscious where the horrors can’t get me 😢 I’m just venting to feel better coz that’s all I feel I can do rn but dw
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minniefights · 6 months
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Update #13: Home at last
Last Thursday, we finally went home after more than 3 weeks in the hospital. Mom has been saying she wants to go home countless of times. But she wasn’t very well. So I was very dismissive of the idea. Until a few days ago, Mom cried a lot begging to be home. We know we can’t dismiss it this time.
But we have to give her the full scenario of her situation, including weighing the pros and cons. I had to clearly explain that at home we won’t be able to quickly respond to emergencies because we don’t have facilities nor medical experts at our disposal. She took a hard pause and thought about it. And finally I asked her to mark her choice and she ticked “Siblings. Love. Food. Etc.” That’s it. We start planning our discharge thereafter.
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Her tears speaks so much. You see when she found out she had Cancer, she has questions but I did not see her cry. Casually, we talk about death and she doesn’t cry either. But loneliness, isolation from the people whom she loves, and there goes the tears pouring. This speaks so much about who my mother is, what she stands for. She always chooses life! As if screaming “What will I do with the medical facilities and staff if that deters me from fully living?” Diagnosis, pain, even death does not scare her, it’s the aching pain of loneliness that does.
Mom went home and with her NGT (nasogastric tube) because she doesn’t eat very well yet. She also still has her Central Venous Cathether (it’s like IV line but on her right neck, she had it because her veins had gotten so thin, it’s hard for the nurses/med techs to access). And also she her urinary catheter. We had to manage and transition so many things. Currently we have caregiver who comes 7AM-7PM who helps us out, my uncle nurse who lives at home and our family doctor visits to check on my mom. They help us manage the situation so Mom could get medical attention while at home. We also chart her vital signs to show it to the doctors (Blood Sugar, Blood Pressure, O2 Saturation, Heart Rate, Temperature and Water intake and output).
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It’s hard but Mom’s joy makes it worth it. Upon arriving, she looked at me in the eye and said “Salamat ha!” I felt it deep into my core.
While waiting for our trip back home, she was also excited as ever. Check out her dancey dance!
But how is Mom really?
At the moment, we will still need to wait for the repeat laboratories to check on everything. As you know, when the patient’s discharged it’s also more difficult to access these things. But she’s already done with antibiotics for her UTI. Currently, the blockage in one of her arteries, is manageable as the doctors said. However, she’s really bed-bound now and has lost her mobility. She’s very determined to get it back, though, and looks forward to her Physical Therapy sessions.
But just basing on things not quantifiable by science, I could say my Mom is so much better because she’s VERY happy to be home. Her eyes sparkle more often, she smiles so much more and she even laughs every now and then! She’s eats more and she looks forward to her cold smoothies which I make for her daily. She has prescription milk which I infuse with fruits and ice, gives it to her twice a day. So far, she has been raving about her Durian Smoothie which she rated 10/10. She’s had it twice in the span of 3 days and we allow her since her blood sugar and blood pressure is on a healthy level.
We claim this is God’s miracle at work and we thank you for all those who have been praying for us! We know that our friends and family coming from different parts of the world have been praying non-stop. Our local community (The Light of the World) has also been praying together via Zoom three times a day! And you have been so generous in helping our practically and financially as well, it has helped us a lot in paying of our dues to the hospital! Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.
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A quick snap of Mom, myself and Nono Nard (Fr Maynard, my Mom’s older brother and best friend)
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tryingating · 1 year
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LISTEN UP PEOPLE!!!!!
A bitch just completed a 24Hr Psych hold in the ER. Let me spill the tea...
Cried a underwater river up in there.
Had to out myself fr fr n suicidal plans in detail (dammmn)
The doctor thought I should say n I was like ok...no...can..i...go home n come back...they said NEGATIVE
Locked myself in the bathroom had a meltdown because I wanted to be depressed in my own bed.
Got put on Lorazepam to calm me down n I went right in bed in one of the rooms.
So now I'm on different meds in addition to one old one. I have 10-9 days left of placememt I can't do them thankfully I can work modified to help alleviate the changes of these new meds.
I know after I finish this placememt I'm going on employment insurance because I need to follow through with these group therapies and be soft with myself. That shit was scary and eye-opening more so that things are off the rails again and I need to start a new chapter.
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sleepless-stories · 3 years
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Limitations AU |Meetings and a Meeting (end)
Summary: Roman, Virgil, Janus, Patton all go to a meeting of some sort of therapy group and become friends and play games. 
Warnings: None
Note please know that research was done for this series and people with some disabilities used did help with the ideas. if you find something wrong with this series please DM me
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Logan sat on Roman’s bed listening to him work and reading a book. Paper cutting, the occasional typing of a keyboard, fabric rustling, and quiet music from Roman’s playlist, which was primarily Disney and Musicals, playing. Roman cut the paper and glued it together, creating a paper puppet of a dragon. He was planning on doing another film with Logan soon. Though they were just relaxing and hanging out right now, planning a bit of the film occasionally.
 The door suddenly opened and Remus popped in, “H-hey bro, ready? Ready to go y-yet?” Roman looked over tilting his head slightly, he didn’t remember having to go anywhere. He didn’t believe he had any plans. Remus noticed Roman’s confusion and him getting lost in thought and laughed a bit, “For-forget al-already?” he laughed a bit, “It’s that st-tupid group therapy thing. I don’t… I don’t see why Mom signed you, you up for it.” Logan glanced over, “Group therapy?” “Yeah Nerd, Thera-py. It’s pro-bably just, just an excuse for Roman to, to get out of the ho-house and make Fr-friends.” Remus shrugged, today seemed to be a good day for him. Sometimes he had bad days and good days regarding his stutter. On bad days he felt like he couldn’t form a sentence without messing up almost every word. But today was alright. Logan nodded, “Could you drive me home after you drive him there?” “Why?” Remus asked. “Well, I walked here with Roman. I didn’t drive today at all, my parents needed the car.” Remus nodded, “Fine I, I’ll drive you.” Logan nodded looking back at his book before noticing the lights flickering. He lowered it looking over at Roman who was standing by the light switch. Roman smiled when Remus and Logan looked at him, ‘Thank you.’ he signed, ‘When do we have to get going?’ Remus watched then checked his phone looking at the time, “Now.” Roman rolled his eyes with an exasperated look as he went over looking in his mirror making sure he looked presentable, aka no glue or paper on him. Then he grabbed his jacket. Logan sat up stuffing his book in his bag before getting off of Roman’s bed and following the two out of the room and to the car. Near the front door he grabbed his jacket and shoes, putting them on, before they all left the house. Remus got into the car starting it up and turning on the radio, before he started driving to the address. It was across town and seemed to be at some community center, it was a place where people could rent rooms like office spaces or meeting rooms for any sort of thing they needed it for. Roman plugged his phone into the car and took over the music, starting to play his playlist some more throughout the ride. Logan just went back to reading his book for awhile till he lost interest. It wasn’t that the book wasn’t interesting or good, it really was a great book. But he just felt a bit bored of it currently and couldn’t read any more of it, that and he had been rereading the same paragraph for a while now and barely taking in what the words said. So he just sat back looking out the window as they drove through town. ____________
Virgil saw the flyer on the counter, group therapy. He knew his parents didn’t think much of him, but group therapy? For someone as anxious as him, that idea was shit. Why send someone who has an anxiety disorder to therapy with other random people they don’t know. Virgil stared at the paper, he had already determined that it would be the worst 3 hours of his life. But… it did mean he would be out of the house and away from his parents for 3 hours on the weekend. So… brightside. Virgil dropped the paper on the counter again before going back to his room. He was actually surprised about one thing though, his parents in question… weren’t actually home currently, which was shocking. His parents had a bad habit of being overbearing and over protective, or just fancy way of saying they were controlling. Virgil constantly was yelled at when he wanted to just go out of the house for a walk, saying how he couldn’t, he would get hurt, he’s too disabled to be on his own. Which was a really shitty excuse for their controlling nature. Virgil sat down on his bed and checked his phone, it was Saturday late afternoon, the group wasn’t for a few more hours, and his parent’s weren’t currently home. Virgil powered off his phone then put on his shoes and jacket before walking out of the house and down the street. He walked down the street not too far from the park in their neighborhood and went to a house. Most of the house was brand new, newly rebuilt, due to the fire a couple months ago. Virgil got to the door and knocked before standing there and waiting. Janus heard knocks at the door and stood up walking to the door. His bedroom was on the first floor right off of their living room. He walked out of his room to the front door. Thomas lifted his head up looking at Janus from where he was laying on Janus’ bed. He watched Janus walk out of the room before stretching and getting up following. Janus heard Thomas following and pulled a treat out of his pocket and gave it to the dog. He went over and opened up the door, “Virgil.” he asked as he opened the door. Virgil saw the door open and watched Janus’ lips, “Yeah.” he replied. Janus heard then smiled recognizing Virgil’s voice. “Come in, We’ll sit on the couch.” he said, still facing Virgil before turning and walking over to the couch and sitting. Virgil nodded, “Ok.” he followed. Virgil shut the door behind himself then went over and sat on the back of the couch before pulling out his phone and typing. “Apparently I have to go to stupid therapy.” the tts said. Janus heard and laughed turning in Virgil’s direction, “Wow, your parents are letting you out of the house?” “Yeah, surprising right?” “Oh absolutely, though I too have to go to some therapy group… My parents have been concerned since the fire.” “Yeah” Virgil nodded. Janus went silent and just leaned back, “You could hang out here for awhile.” Virgil nodded, “Thanks.” he put his phone away and leaned back relaxing. Virgil stayed for only an hour before he walked back home glad his parents were still out. He just went to his room and relaxed closing his eyes and napping for the time being until his parents were back and drove him to the stupid meeting. _____
Patton was in the living room sitting on the couch watching some show, his cat was laying in his lap demanding attention while he was adding more stickers to the side of his wheelchair. “Patton? We should get going so you’re not late.” his mother said walking into the room. Patton looked up, “Oh ok… why do I have to go?” “Because, it’ll be good, you’ll have fun.” Patton sighed and pulled himself off the couch and into the wheelchair. His cat got off his lap and looked at Patton betrayed. Patton wheeled himself to the door and put on his jacket before he went out of the house with his mom. He was helped into the car and sat there looking out the window. It wasn’t the first time he had to go to therapy through the years. He sighed watching as they went to the meeting. __________
Roman walked into the meeting, Remus and Logan decided to follow him in to make sure he got to the right place. Roman looked and saw a door with a cartoon of some guy and a speech bubble saying come right in. Under the character there was information saying what the meeting was. Roman opened the door walking inside the room. Inside the room there was a guy wearing a sweater, a pink tie, and some jeans was setting up the room. He turned when he heard the door open, “Oh! Hello! I’m Emile.” He smiled and signed as he spoke, “Welcome, are you three here for the meeting?” Remus threw his arm over Roman’s shoulders, “N-nope, just, just bringing my ner-nerd bro here.” He replied then pushed Roman forward. Roman stumbled forward then glared at Remus before smiling at Emile and waving. Remus looked at Logan, “Let’s go. See, see ya later bro.” Remus walked out of the room leaving and going back to his car. Logan waved bye to Roman before following Remus out and to his car. Roman sat down in a chair.
Only after 5 minutes three people came into the room, one in a wheelchair. A woman pushed the wheelchair inside, “Hello! This is Patton.” she said and brought the kid in the chair over to the sitting area. Patton smiled, “Hello.” he greeted. The third person went to the back of the room, he was carrying a fold up table with him and put it down setting it up. Emile walked over to the guy and talked with him. The woman, Patton’s mom, waved goodbye and left. She paused at the door holding it open for two guys and a dog before she walked out leaving. Patton lifted himself out of his chair and sat down on the couch next to Roman, “Hi! Roman smiled and waved slightly back. The two guys walked over and sat on the couch opposite to Roman and Patton. Emile smiled and walked back over, “Hello, shall we begin?” he asked, making sure to sign along with what he said. He smiled and looked at Patton, “Why don’t you go first then we’ll go around the room.” Patton nodded grinning, “I’m Patton! Nice to meet you all!” Roman nodded and looked at Emile, “I’m Roman.” Emile repeated, translating for Roman. He then looked at the other two. “I’m Virgil.” Virgil signed then elbowed Janus next to him after he watched Emile repeat him. Janus sighed, “I’m Janus, this is Thomas my eyes. No you can’t pet him.” Janus greeted. Emile nodded, “Alright! Nice to meet you all. I’m Doctor Emile Picani!” He grinned then motioned for someone to come over. The guy from earlier walked over to them. “Hey.” he smiled pushing his sunglasses off and to the top of his head. “I’m Remy. I’m catering basically. So… there’s food over there.” He nodded smiling then stepped back going back over to the area he set up. Everyone waved at him before looking at Emile. Emile smiled, “We’re mostly going to play some games, and talk a bit.” Emile said and nodded grabbing a few things before starting. Roman and Virgil got grouped up and Janus and Patton got grouped up. Originally Emile had paired Virgil and Patton and Janus and Roman… it didn’t work too well, Patton was excited and spoke too fast for Virgil to understand him, then Roman had difficulties communicating with Janus. The games went well.
Near the end of the meeting they went over and ate snacks. Roman laughed softly watching Remy failing at flirting up Emile who didn’t even realize. He was pretty sure Remy volunteered to cater to flirt with Emile. They all hung out, talking and eating. Remus came into the room to pick up Roman and smiled, “Hey Bro!” He said and walked over. He grabbed some food and ate Roman waved at Remus. Remy glanced over, “I see you have a twin, that’s cool. Hey, what do you think of the food?” Remus looked up, “It’s good, have you ever tried adding peppers and pineapple to cookies?” Remy Paused, “Nope, do you have any other ideas?” Remus went over to him telling him a bunch of other ideas he thought of. Remy took notes. Before leaving Patton, Roman, Janus, and Virgil exchanged numbers finding each other fun. Everyone was taken home, it was almost dark out by now while they all went home. Roman ended up texting Logan about the meeting telling him how they mostly played games and he was excited to go again. Logan was glad he had fun at the meeting.
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okay can we just fr a moment talk about how much Dumont sucks at her job like. okay I mean ofc we all know ethically she’s a disaster and not even one I care about but also just at her job in general. like billy Russo has cptsd and probably also ptsd and who knows what else. and she’s like “okay billy name five blue things in the room :)” like. I get that billy is a therapy beginner but she HAS to know that’s not gonna help for shit. like is she purposely bad to keep him dependent on her or what
Hello there anon, and thank you for calling with one of my favorite topics to rant about! D U M O N T. Yuck, gross. There are so many reasons why I despise her so, and I would like nothing more than to talk for a moment about them with you. (sorry in advance for my...expressive language.) 
Let’s start at the beginning, which as we learned in The Sound of Music, is a very good place to start. The first time we see Dumont, she comes into Billy’s room while Madani is paying him one of her sweet little visits (I could go into a whole different rant about that one and her many attempts to grab the title of “bat shit craziest asshole in season two”, but this is about Krista, so let’s get back on track.) So in walks Dumont, and while I am absolutely no fan of Dinah’s, Krista’s self-importance is really off putting from the get go. Did I want Dinah in there silently tormenting Billy while he was all wrapped up like a burrito? No, of course not. Did I want her to come in and be the one to “rescue” him from that? Fuckity fuck no. Not with that attitude, those motives, and those fucking blouses of hers like seriously her blouses are so fucking uptight...I feel myself getting off topic again... 
Anyway. First impressions aren’t everything, right? Right. So let’s see how she does professionally in these sessions with Billy... Hmm... So let’s be clear now: Aside from just being the guy in the psych ward who struggles to bang out 20 push-ups a day and can’t remember what continent he’s on, Billy Russo is like public enemy number one, a war veteran, a trained professional killer, the best liar known to man, a victim of sexual abuse, and someone who couldn’t define what a “stable home life” was if you gave him a dictionary and highlighted the pages that each of those words were on. In short, the damages in that brain are less like that peg game that they leave on the table in Cracker Barrel, and more like the Gordian Knot- not meant for school kids to solve. I’m not saying that the few methods we see her use with Billy don’t work. I’m not a doctor. My own brain freaks me out too much to try to start thinking about other people’s brains too much. But if I had to guess, I would say that someone with a file like Billy’s might need a better coping or calming mechanism than playing I Spy. 
(Also, this has always bothered me and I don’t think I’ve ever voiced this very specific problem that I have with Krista, but when she recites the quote “We are each our own devils...” I have to wonder if she actually knows where it comes from, or if she just heard it in that pop song that was a hit a few years back. Just the way that she speaks that line... the English Major in me cringes, HARD.) 
We don’t have to talk about how fucked up it is that she engages in a sexual relationship with her patient, right? We don’t have to talk about how Billy has already been in a fucked up sexual situation where one person had all the power, right? Cool, because I feel like I’ve beaten that horse to death already. But if anyone wants me to dig the old dead mustang up, we can saddle him up one more time. I will never ever ever ever ever support a relationship between Billy and Krista, so if that’s your jam find a different roll to spread it on cause I’m allergic to that. 
You bring up a GREAT point in your question!! Is she limiting the “treatment” that Billy gets to keep him dependent on her? We see her pull other moves to try to ensure she holds the power: removing paperwork from his folder, keeping his mask and journal, that whole cringey “it’s like touching god” thing, the timing of her first L bomb... everything she does seems calculated so it wouldn’t be too far from belief to think that she’s intentionally hindering Billy’s recovery. That bird in the shoebox she went on about? Cut me a break, lady. You just want something weaker than you to make you feel one rung higher on the food chain. I see you, bitch. 
Look, even before @something-tofightfor did the deep investigating and found the image of what was supposed to be professional medical notes, which turned out to be scribbled, misspelled and vague AS FUCK, I just couldn’t find it in my heart to give her the benefit of the doubt and say that there’s any part of her that is good at her job. (I mean, just look how well she did with Jake, right?) 
Thank you so much for cracking open this can of worms, anon. It is always a pleasure to discuss the depth of my hatred for Krista Dumont. 
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glasses-and-anxiety · 5 years
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let’s talk about my depressing life
ok so basically let’s start with me being born jkjk we’re not doing that.
so I kno no ones gonna read this but I have to vent somehow right?
TRIGGER WARNING
mentions of suicide and overdosing, mental health issues, anxiety
so we’re gonna start with mental health issues yay. it seems like everyone has them, especially on this goddamn site.
so basically sometime around a year ago (july 2018) I was put into an inpatient facility under a form 1.
(don’t drag me I haven’t done any research and this was a while ago)
I’ve had anxiety since I can remember. in SK (I was like 5 or 6 idk) I wouldn’t speak to my teachers cuz I was too scared. I have a vivid memory from grade 4 (9 yrs old or smth) when I cried in front of the class cuz my teacher picked on me to answer a question (I didnt have my hand up but that’s another issue I can rant about later)
I switched schools for grade 5 which made my anxiety rise but it was a private school so they had all sorts of thing around that stuff and eventually I got a lot better than I was before. the school however ended at grade 8 and I’d have to switch for high school.
so the summer between grade 8 and 9 a lot of things happened.
(my birthday is over the summer so I had just turned 14)
for the past like year I had been... idk how to say this... like casually contemplating suicide which led to actually contemplating suicide kind of thing. like I don’t want to say I was that serious about it. I mean I looked up stuff about overdose and shit so I guess I was serious about it, but I just don’t like to say so.
anyway keep in mind I had done research about how much it takes to overdose so I knew about what I would survive. so that summer I went and overdosed on a fuckton of advil and melatonin, but obviously not enough to kill u since I’m here telling the story.
it rly should have fucked up my insides at least a bit, but I knew it wouldn’t even come close to killing me. don’t get me wrong it hurt like I bitch, but I didn’t even have to like get any medical care from the hospital. all they did was check my vitals, nothing was actually like put into me (I did throw up a lot before the ambulance came tho)
anyway I’m out of town atm so it’s not a very state of the art hospital. I am in ontario but the hospital isn’t even close to busy. it’s practically abandoned (that was scarier than being worried I’m gonna die). the doctor who has no idea who I am comes in talks to me for about 3 minutes and decided I need to be placed under a form one because I’m either a danger to myself or to others (obviously it was meant for the former). like 3 fucking minutes to decide whether or not to fucking detain me? bullshit
(obv I’m biased since I didn’t want that outcome but like fr 3minutes?)
anyway they keep me overnight and force my parents to pay for an ambulance to the city I live in so I can be kept in an inpatient facility there. and when I get there they insist on wheeling me on a fucking stretcher through the lobby area (not the ER) for everyone to see and up to my new home.
now I’m sure inpatient facilities work for some people (more like 1% imo) but that was the worst thing for me.
I have SOCIAL ANXIETY (and general). yes keep me in with all of these people I don’t kno and expect me to be comfortable talking to complete strangers.
this was basically my first experience with psychiatrists and shit (other than that one time when I was like 6 when my parents made me go to this GROUP therapy thingy for my SOCIAL anxiety).
the woman who was assigned to like work with me was like fresh out of whatever program they learn in for this shit. she looked and sounded like she wanted to cry when she was talking to me (like yeah that’s helping me feel all comfy talking to u) and honestly it was the worst.
(I know my spacing of this thing is horrible)
(I also kno it’s long af)
so ima try to keep this in one paragraph now. they made me talk to them and whatever I said they would twist it to make it sound like I was unstable. I hid an ipod in my room along with earbuds cuz they found my phone immediately since I only put it under my pillow. they didn’t trust us with anything with a camera, anything long (like wires), etc. they locked away my clothes and made me wear a fucking gown that was way too big for me (but some other inmates didn’t have to). one time they left that thing unlocked and I took a bunch of my clothes from it and hid that shit in my room so I knew I could access it even if I couldn’t wear it. they let us keep a set of pyjamas (our own) which I ended up always wearing under my clothes even if I was super hot just because I was trying to piss them off ( I kno bad move). I was rly mad they’d put me in there. whenever my parents would visit (which was only allowed for a tiny amount of time each time) we’d be in a separate room where I’d take off the hospital clothes and wear just my clothes. I eventually didn’t put those other clothes back on and refused. it’s not like they could do anything about it. they can’t hit me. so that was my little rebellion. I wouldn’t eat any of the hospital food cuz it was disgusting so I just ate the snacks they let me bring in. they ended up keeping me longer than they said it would be so that was shit. it overall made me feel worse about myself than I had felt before. like I cry at night when I think about inpatient. there’s so much more i could talk about but I’m not feeling it rn
this was long
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trinamcmichaels01 · 3 years
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Sincerely Me
Welcome to my fic that is using a title that is overused! Anyways, this is based off a set of one-shots I posted, originally, on my other account. 
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Evan kept his head down as he walked to the school’s computer lab. He had to quickly finish his ‘self-help’ letter before his mom picked him up for his therapy session with Dr. Sherman. Slowly, Evan pushed open the door to the lab and shuffled over to a computer on the right side. Silently, he logged into the computer, found the google chrome search logo, clicked on it, and signed onto his google drive account. He moved the cursor over to the google doc containing his letter. After he clicked on it, he watched as a new paged popped up, and his letter loaded onto the screen. Evan quickly read over the letter, and noticed that he left off with:
Maybe if I could just talk to her. Maybe, nothing would be different at all.
He silent thought for a second, tapping his fingers on the table. Eventually, he began to type out the last part.
I wish everything was different. I wish I was a part of something. I wish that anything I said mattered to anyone. I mean, let’s face it, would anyone even notice if I just disappeared tomorrow?
He stopped typing briefly. Evan knows this isn’t what his therapist had in mind for him to write. These letters are supposed to say the good things in life, but when there aren’t any good things, why make it up? Why not just tell the damn truth? No one would even care anyways.
Sincerely, your best and dearest friend, me.
Suddenly, his phone began to ring. Evan fumbled with it in his pocket. He quickly checked the caller ID and was relieved to see it was his mom calling him.
“H-hello?” He asked. Evan has always hated phone calls, can't stand them. Even though it was just his mom calling, he still stumbled on his words.
“Evan, I’m not going to be able to bring you to your appointment. They needed extra help at the hospital and I was the only one on duty. Also right afterward I’m going to class, there are leftovers in the fridge for dinner.” Heidi Hansen rushed her words as if she really needs to get back to work. Which, Evan assumed, she probably does.
God, Evan thought, I'm such a burden, she wouldn't need to work so hard if I wasn't around. I have so many problems. She has to spend too much money on my pills and therapy, I hate it.
"O-okay, yeah, I’ll ea-t that.” Even while he says this, Evan knows he won’t.
“Did you finish your letter sweetie?" Evan knows that all his mom wants is for him to get better. However, he also knows that she knows she'd have a better life without him.
“Yeah, I just pr-printed it n-ow.” He says, clicking on the little printer button on the top right of the screen.
“That’s fantastic sweetie. I’ve gotta go now, but I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” Totally fantastic. Except for the fact that his letter basically states that he wants to just disappear and never come back.
Evan nods his head but then realizes she probably couldn’t even see him. Stupid. “Okay, love you.”
“Love you too honey.” And with that, she hangs up the phone.
Evan sighs once again, and then, he stands up to go and grab his letter. Before he can even take a step, Connor Murphy appears in front of him. Oh great. Evan really hopes he's still not mad about this morning. Connor had thought that Evan laughed at him, and so he shoved him to the ground. However, what had really happened was that Evan didn't laugh at him, He would never laugh at him. He would never laugh at anyone really. Evan was just nervous, and so he let out a nervous chuckle. Because of this, Evam have a mental freak out moment. He still didn’t know if Connor’s here to yell at him some more or what but he was absolutely terrified.
“Evan? Right?” Connor asks, looking Evan up and down, then into his eyes. Evan shivered slightly and nodded. Evan didn't shiver because Connor was scary, he's actually really pretty. Like his sister, Zoe. Wait, not the time Evan. Shut up. Evan looked back at him, and he noticed something. Connor seemed like he was trying to tell Evan something, but then seems to think better if it and instead says, “How’d you break your arm?”
It was an easy question to answer, Evan had practiced the answer many times, but he still stuttered.
“Oh, uh, I f-fell. Out of a tr-tree.” Evan stuttered out, picking at the hem of his shirt. Evan hates lying, but he didn't want people to see how broken he really was.
“Well, that’s the saddest fucking thing I’ve ever heard. Oh my god!” He laughs out.
Oh, how wonderful. Evan thinks. Now I'm an even bigger loser.
Evan nodded, “Yeah, uh, yeah.”
Connor glances at Evan’s cast, and he seems to notice no one has signed it.
Shit, now I not just a loser, but a friendless loser. Evan doesn’t know how this could get any worse.
“No one’s signed your cast.” Connor points out as if Evan hadn’t already realized no one liked him.
“Yeah, uh, I kn-know.” Evan just wishes he could stop stuttering, dammit!
“I’ll sign it.” Connor offers, probably pitying Evan. Defiantly pitying him. Most people did.
“Oh, you, you don’t have to.” Evan mentally hits himself, what is he doing? He needs his mom to think he actually talked to people. Why is he telling him no?
Connor ignores him and He holds out a hand, expecting a sharpie. Thank God he's persistent.
Evan nods his head and then stuffed his hand into his pocket. He pulled out the unused sharpie and handed it to the taller boy.
He grips Evan’s hand and tugs it towards him. “Ow,” Evan mumbled.
“Sorry,” Connor seemed to have pushed it out. As if he's not used to saying sorry. Connor quickly scrawls out his name, filling up half of the blonds cast with it.
“Oh, thanks,” Evan said, with a kind of sarcastic, sort of thankful, and a bit of wanting to get the hell out of there asap tone of voice. Thankfully though, Connor doesn’t seem to notice and smiles at the shorter boy. However, it’s more of a grimace. He then takes a piece of paper from his bag and lifts it up.
“Is this yours? I saw it at the printer. ‘Dear Evan Hansen,’ You're last name is Hansen, right?”
“Uh, yeah that’s mine, um, th-thanks.” Evan reached to take it, but Connor pulls back.
“Because there’s Zoe? What the hell,” He whispers this, seemingly confused, and Evan begins to freak out. Once again.
“C-connor, please give that ba-back.”
“You did this on purpose!” Connor’s yelling now, Evan hopes he can maybe calm him down?
“What?” Very good Evan, ask a fucking question. This is super helpful.
“Yeah, you saw I was the only other person in here so you printed this wanting me to see it.” Evan knows that Connor is totally misunderstanding the situation. Evan also knows that he has no clue on how to deal with this.
“No, I-”
“You were hoping I’d freak out right? So you can tell everyone what a fucking freak I am?”
“No, please-”
“Well FUCK YOU!” The long-haired boy pushed past Evan and runs out of the computer lab. All Evan can do is stare at him as he runs, forgetting that he still has his letter.
“You what?” Jared asks from the other side of the phone, clearly enjoying the situation that Evan had gotten himself into.
“I-I printed my letter out at school and Co-connor saw it. He thought I wanted t-to get him ma-mad! He saw that I me-mentioned Zoe, and-”
“Wait, so he read some crazy sex letter you wrote about his sister? That’s messed up.” Evan starts to really hope that Jared stops laughing soon.
“It wasn’t a sex le-letter Jared! It’s for my therapy-therapist.” Evan is trying to explain this the best he can, but Jared doesn't like to listen. He never listens.
“You write sex letters to your therapist? That's kinky.”
“JARED!”
“Whatever man, but why are you telling me this?” Evan can imagine that Jared is probably lying upside down on his bed, playing video games. He's definitely not paying attention to their conversation at all.
“Because you’re my cl-only family fr-friend.” That's all they’ll ever be because Jared knows that Evan is too much of a weirdo.
“Yeah, okay, I gotta go dude. Good luck with that sex letter!”
“IT’S NOT A-” Before Evan can finish, Jared hangs up the phone. Evan groans, tossing his own phone onto his bed.
How the hell is he supposed to convince Connor Murphy that that letter was meant to cause no harm.
Also, how is he supposed to get it back from him before he tells the whole school? And, once the school knows how will he live through the taunts? No, wait, forget the jokes. Connor is probably gonna kill him.
God Dammit.
  Connor stared at the orange bottle in his hand as he sat on his bed. For once it was made, he wanted to feel productive for his last few hours alive. He also had a box filled with all the stuff he had taken from Zoe over the years placed on his desk.  He has about an hour before Zoe gets home from jazz band practice, and his mom won’t be home for another two. Connor isn’t sure when his dad will be home, but it’ll probably be late, as usual.
Connor uncaps the bottle and empties all the pills into his open palm. With no more thought, he downs all the pills and lays back onto his bed, waiting for the effects to kick in.
Zoe Murphy usually considers herself a lucky girl. She’s lucky because she made jazz one as a freshman, and sits in the first chair. She’s lucky that she is smart enough to be in most senior classes. She’s lucky that Alana Beck actually considers her a friend. She’s lucky that her brother doesn’t follow through on his death threats.
Zoe Murphy is also lucky that she got out of jazz band earlier than usual. A lot usual. AT least, according to the doctors, she is. Is she had called the ambulance not even five minutes after she had, her brother would have had no chance of survival.
So yeah, Zoe Murphy is a lucky girl. Luck apparently just comes naturally to her, and even though her relationship with Connor has been torn to shreds years ago, she’s glad that she’s luckier than most. Really fucking glad.
“Yo, Evan, did you hear what happened to Murphy last night?” Those are the first words Evan hears out of Jared’s mouth on the second day of school. Evan shuts his locker and looks at his family friend. Jared is practically bouncing on the balls of his feet, gripping the straps of his backpack.
“N-no, what happened to-to him?”
“I’m not exactly sure, but you know Calvin Ferrell? Well he lives across from the Murphy’s and he told Kelly Petie who told Kyle Gold who I overheard telling Kevin Lakes that an ambulance showed up at their house around five last night, and Calvin saw Zoe Murphy running out with paramedics pushing a stretcher with Connor laying on it out of the house and into the ambulance. Calvin doesn’t know what happened to him but Connor isn’t at school and neither is Zoe. So obviously it was something really big right? I mean why else would paramedics be there?” Jared is much too enthusiastic about this.
“J-jared! Why do yo-you seem so, so ex-excited? Wh-what if he di-died. That wo-would be te-terr-terrible!” Evan whisper yells.
“Eh, I wouldn’t worry about it, I mean so what? No one likes him anyway.”
“Jared th-that isn’t nice! You sh-shouldn’t say, say things like that!” Evan remembers how alone he felt this past summer, and knows that whatever Connor was feeling is probably ten times worse than what he feels. He hopes Connor isn’t dead, he decides that if, no when, Connor gets back to school, Evan will try his best to try and brighten the brown haired boy’s day.
“Whatever tree boy, I’m going to class.” Jared shrugged his shoulders and left Evan standing in the hallway by himself. Evan sighs. He knows Jared fakes a lot of how he acts. He just wishes Jared was like he was when they were younger, his actual friend.
Dear Connor Murphy,
I heard about what happened the other week and I want you to know I failed as well, over the summer. You’re not alone.\
Sincerely Me.
Connor stared dumbfounded at the letter in his hands. It was his second day back after being out of school for three weeks, and he had no idea as to why a letter had fallen out of his letter. He was even more confused when he realized the letter was addressed to him and not whoever owned the locker next to him. Then after reading the two sentenced note, he felt something inside him. It wasn’t happiness at being recognized, it was more like relief. Someone out there, though he had no idea who knew in some way how he felt. And who wouldn’t get the smallest spark of hope after realizing that?
Evan watched from around the Corner as Connor neatly folded up the letter and placed it in his hoodie pocket. Then he saw the brown haired boy give a small smile, and Evan couldn’t help but smile as well.
For the next month, Evan continues to write letters to Connor. He writes the letters on Monday and Wednesdays after his homework, then on Tuesday and Thursday mornings he shoves them through the cracks in Connor’s locker. Evan know’s that Connor doesn’t check his locker until after third period, so he knows that he won’t be caught.
Sometimes the letters contain personal information as Evan knows that Connor doesn’t know it’s him, so he’s not worried, for once, about being taunted. Sometimes they just include small things that happen over the week. Usually, the Tuesday letters are the long ones, informing Connor about Evan’s weekend, the Thursday ones usually remind Connor how great he is.
Evan’s noticed that Connor is usually happier on the letter days. He’s also noticed that Connor skips school a lot, but he’s always there on Tuesday and Thursday mornings.
Connor has gotten a total of six letters so far.
The second one was almost as short as the first, giving Connor one simple tip on calming down.
Dear Connor Murphy,
Counting down from ten is always a great strategy to calm down, in my experience at least. Also, my mom, she does it a lot, especially when my dad tries to contact us. He’s very inconsiderate when he does.
Sincerely, Me
Connor felt like punching this guy’s dad after reading it.
The third letter talked a lot about trees, as did the fifth letter. The fourth told Connor that the mystery guy has a crush on a girl in junior year. He wondered if Zoe knew the girl as the letter never mentioned her name. The sixth letter was longer than usual. It seemed as though Letter Guy, as Connor now calls him, was stressing about something and just couldn’t stop talking. It started out about a math test the kid had, then there was a paragraph on why trees are so important to the environment, then two sentences wondering if Connor liked trees as much as he did, and it ended with five sentences of the guy apologizing as to how long the letter was. Connor thought it was hilarious, and kind of adorable. He kept that letter on his bedside table.
After the next two letters come, and Connor finds himself wondering who the guy is, he realizes that he might actually sort of like him. But he tries to ignore it for two reasons. First, why would this guy like him back, especially since he already likes someone else? Second, Connor doesn’t even know who writes the letter, how can he like someone he doesn’t know. However, Connor does know the letter guy, very well from all the information he writes down. He just doesn’t know his name or what he looks like.
Evan sits behind Connor in math class, which Evan actually quite enjoys. Math is fourth period, which means Connor comes in right after reading Evan’s notes on Tuesday’s and Thursday’s. This also means that Evan gets to see the small smile on Connor’s face due to the letters that he receives.Evan always enjoys seeing that smile. It tells him that he was once again successful in making Connor happy. Evan knows that it isn’t a permanent fix, but he also knows that it works for at least an hour. And an hour is better than nothing in his opinion.
After Thanksgiving break, Evan realizes that he hasn’t thought, or written, about Zoe in a month. This really confuses him, how can he go from fawning over the guitar player to never even thinking about her? He isn’t entirely sure.
That is, at least, until the first Thursday of December and Evan catches himself staring at the older Murphy all of math class. At first, Evan tells himself that he was just making sure his letters were still making Connor happy. It wasn’t until Evan was in his room, trying to go to bed while still thinking about the long-haired boy that he shoots up, now fully awake.
“Fuck I like the school shooter.”
Which then leads to Evan actually slapping himself.
“Dammit Evan, stop listening to Jared.”
Evan continues to mutter to himself about the fact that he has just figured out that he is bi. However, he isn’t just bi, no, he’s really really bi for the kid he writes letters to, to make him feel better.
That’s when his mother, Heidi Hansen, Knocks on the door.
“Sweetie are you alright?” She asks, concerned that her son is mumbling to himself at eleven at night.
“Yeah, I’m fine!” Evan shouts back, quickly laying back down.
That night Evan falls asleep with only the thought of Connor Murphy on his mind.
The next letter Connor received he was surprised to see that the mystery writer told him he wasn’t into the junior girl anymore. At that, Connor walked to his math class with a small spring in his step. He knows that the letter boy might not be into guys, but he doesn’t like the junior anymore, he has a slight chance now.
When he gets to math, the kid that sits behind him, Evan Hansen, already has a notebook out. Connor remembers in middle school when he had a small crush on the blond haired kid. He can’t help but hope that Evan was the mystery writer.
Connor spends all of math wondering what Evan’s hand in his would feel like.
When Connor walked into math, Evan couldn’t help but blush at Connor’s happy gait. Evan can’t help but hope that it’s because Evan doesn’t like Zoe anymore, and maybe Connor likes him back. But that’s insane, who would like the wallflower anyway?
Evan spends the rest of the class wondering what Connor’s hair would feel like with Evan’s fingers combing through it.
The week leading up to winter break, Evan can’t stop thinking about what he should get Connor for Christmas. Sure, Evan is Jewish and celebrates Hanukkah, he knows that Connor celebrates Christmas. He only knows this because he overheard Zoe asking Alana to come over on Christmas Eve, as Zoe’s parents apparently want to meet her.
Evan wasn’t sure on what to get Connor until he was at the store with Jared because apparently he needed knew flannel and his mom thought he was ditching Evan. Which, he usually does, but Mrs. Kleinman doesn’t need to know that. Evan had seen a couple black hoodies and remembered that Connor’s were all worn out and faded. Then as he was walking up to the cash register, money already in hand, he saw a bowl full of nail polish and quickly plucked out a black bottle. Connor usually as his nails painted, sure they were almost always chipped, but they were also always black. Black seemed to be his signature color.
Wednesday night, Evan wrapped the gift for Connor, taping his note to the present.
Connor Murphy didn’t go to bed until one am that night. Usually, he’s asleep by 12 on Mondays and Wednesdays, but this time he stayed up. He needed to get it perfect. Sure there was a chance that Mystery Writer didn’t celebrate Christmas, but that’s why Connor is signing the card Happy Holidays instead. It doesn’t need to be a Christmas gift. Just a thank you gift.
Thursday morning, when Evan went to put the gift outside Connor’s locker, he was surprised to see it propped open, and not shut like normal. Curiosity was digging at him, so Evan carefully opened the locker and was even more shocked to see a small wrapped item on the bottom of Connor’s locker. He picked it up, and then he noticed the card, which was addressed to him. Well not him exactly, but it did say To: My Mystery Writer and who else would Connor be calling a mystery writer?
Evan felt a small smile grow on his face as he placed the gift he got Connor on the bottom of his locker, and quickly put the one Connor got him in his bag. He then swiftly shut the locker and made his way to his first class.
After third period, when Connor got to his locker, he was glad to see that Mystery Writer took the gift, he was also happy to find out that he was left a gift as well.
Throughout math class, Evan couldn’t focus. He just stared at Connor’s head. Which probably wasn’t a good idea in hindsight as Finals is the week he gets back from spring break, and he really should be paying attention the review they’re doing. But at that moment, he really didn’t care.
The first thing Evan does when he gets home is putting the gift Connor got him under the small house plant he has on his desk. Even though he doesn’t do Christmas, maybe this one time he can pretend.
When his mom gets home and sees the gift on his desk, she asks where it came from.
“O-oh, well um. There’s this b-boy, C-connor Murphy, and earlier this year he wa-was in the hos-hospital? So, um, I decided to, uh, write him letters. I-I wanted to ma-make him feel good. So, uh, I gu-guess he got me-me a gift?”
“Oh honey, that’s so kind of you! I’m so glad you have another friend!”
Heidi was so excited to see the excitement in her son’s eyes as he talked about Connor.
Evan didn’t have the heart to tell his mom that Connor didn’t know it was him writing the letters, which is how he ended up baking cookies with his mom the day after Hanukkah ended. As soon as they were done, Heidi had already left for work, and Evan was tasked with the job of bringing them over to the Murphy’s place.
Before he left, he found a pen and a piece of paper to quickly scrawl out a note.
Cynthia is a bit confused as to who would be ringing her doorbell at nine at night. She is even more confused when no one is at the door, and she looks down to see a plate of cookies with a note taped to it. She leans down to pick up the plate, walks back inside and shuts the door. When she gets to her kitchen, she plucks the note from the plate and reads it.
Dear Connor Murphy
Have an excellent Christmas
Sincerely Me.
Cynthia can’t help but grin at the fact that Connor has a friend. She can’t remember the last time Connor even talked about a friend. Cynthia places the note back onto the plate, then proceeds to pick the plate up and carry it upstairs to her son’s room.
She knocks twice on the door, and the music that was blaring from inside is turned off. She hears heavy footsteps and then the door opens, revealing her son who seems to not have gotten dressed today. Instead, he is in sweats, a tank top, and has an apron covered in paint over his pajamas.
Cynthia doesn’t fail to notice the hard glare on her son’s face, and so she just holds up the plate.
Connor glances at it, and noticing the note, he picks it up and reads it.
Cynthia also doesn’t fail to notice the small smile and slight blush that Connor suddenly now has, as he takes the plate of cookies and ducks back into his room.
Cynthia can already tell that whoever this new friend is, is a good fit for her boy.
Christmas morning comes, and Evan figures that now is a good time to open Connor’s present. He brings the gift over to his bed. He tears open the wrapping paper and finds a book with a note covering the title.
Dear Mystery Writer
You always talk, or write, about how you love trees, so, here.
Evan flips the paper over and sees a beautifully drown Oak tree on the back. Evan knew Connor drew, as that’s what he does for most of math, but he never knew he could draw so, realistically. Before even glancing at what the title says, Evan gets up to pin the tree to his headboard, smiling proudly at it, before looking at the book.
Evan laughs when he sees it’s the Encyclopedia of Trees.
Connor also sits on his bed as he opens Mystery Writer’s gift. First, he looks at the note that was taped to the gift.
Dear Connor Murphy,
Your sweatshirts seem to have a lot of holes, I didn’t know if it was for comfort or what but I got you a new one. Oh, and I really like your nails so here’s some more polish.
Sincerely me’
Connor can feel the blush already beginning on his cheeks.
He unwraps the gift and instantly notices how soft the two hoodies are. He also decides that he will be using the new nail polish until it ran out. He can also feel his blush deepen and nearly scolds himself for feeling and acting this way. He shouldn’t start to like someone he doesn’t know the name of. He really shouldn’t. But then again, when has he ever done something he should do?
A week after school is back in session, the Kleinmans come over to the Hansen’s place for dinner. When Jared enters Evan’s room, he instantly notices the tree that’s still pinned up, and as Evan was gathering snacks downstairs, it felt only reasonable for Jared to see if he could see who drew it. It certainly wasn’t Evan, as his art skills were no better than Jared, who could only draw cartoon cats and nothing else.
When Jared is close enough to read the signature, he would have spat out his drink, if he was drinking something. Why would Conor Murphy draw Evan Hansen a tree?
When Evan walks back into his room, Jared plays innocent and asks his family friend who drew the tree.
When Evan blushes and says that it’s from Connor Murphy, Jared demands that Evan tells him why Connor drew him a tree.
After Evan is done explaining the letters, Jared can’t stop laughing.
“So first, you write sex letters about his sister, and now you’re writing sex letters about and for him?”
“No! Th-they’re not se-sex letter Jared! An-and I only wro-wrote about him on-once!” Which, was the wrong thing for Evan to say as it throws Jared into another fit of hysterics.
For the next month at school, Jared starts to act differently when he’s around Connor, and Connor severely hopes that Jared isn’t the letter guy as that would mean Connor has a crush on Jared, and he really hopes that isn’t the case.
However, for a slight second Connor is relieved when Jared tells him who the writer is.
Connor was casually reading one of the letters when Jared pops up and says “I see you have another love note from Evan tree boy Hansen.”
At that Connor watches as Jared's eyes widen and he quickly leaves. It takes a second for the brand new information to kick in, but then Connor realizes that the cute dorky kid that sits behind him in math. The kid he’s always had a small crush on. The kid he silently hoped was the mystery writer, is actually the mystery writer, and Connor doesn’t remember the last time he was this happy.
Evan was just about to walk out of school when he suddenly heard someone calling his name. He turned to see Connor Murphy running to catch up with him.
“Evan, can we talk? Now?”
Evan isn’t sure why Connor wants to talk to him, but being who he is, he gives a simple nod and lets Connor lead him to the tree that he usually sits under during lunch.
“So, uh, Jared told me you were the one writing letters to me. Is, uh, is that true?” Connor seems nervous and a little hopeful. Evan isn’t sure why.
“H-he told yo-you?”
Connor nods.
“OhgodI’msosorryIprobablywasn’tthepersonyouwantedtpbewritingyouletters. Sorry.”
“Uh, could you repeat that.”
Evan takes in a large breath of air before repeating his previous statement. “Oh god, I’m so sorry, I probably wasn’t the person you wanted to be writing you letters. Sorry.” Evan’s nervous that Connor hates him now, and really doesn’t want that. He wants to be friends with him, especially since that’s the closest he can probably get to Connor liking him back.
“No! I’m glad it’s you. You’re probably the nicest kid in school, anyone else I would think was making fun of me. I just wanted to say thanks. So, uh, thanks.” And with that, Connor dashes away from Evan.
The next day at school, Evan is surprised to see a note flutter to the ground after opening his locker. He bent down to pick it up and is happy to find that the letter is from Connor.
From that day onwards, Evan and Connor correspond with letters for each other. They both want to talk outside these letters, be friends in real life as well.
In February Connor finally lets himself fall completely in love with the blond haired boy. However, he doesn’t tell anyone, especially Evan. Either way, Evan likes someone else. Sure, they have some of the same features, but there are plenty of kids at their school with brown hair. And the way Evan describes his crush? Definitely not him. One letter Connor received was all about this crush. Apparently, he has beautiful brown hair, gorgeous blue eyes with a small bit of brown in the left, and a face that was crafted by God himself.
Sure, Connor has brown hair, but so does half the student body. And yes, Connor has a bit of brown in his left eye, but so does Jared Kleinman and this other kid in his AP lit class. And Connor’s face was most definitely not crafted by God. No way in hell.
So yeah, Connor accepted that he likes Evan. Like, a lot. But he’s also accepted that Evan will never like him back. And that’s okay. Or so Connor tells himself.
It isn’t until mid-March that Evan asks Connor if he wants to go grab ice cream on Friday after school.
Connor replies back with a no shit and his phone number.
After school, Connor drove Evan to A la mode, his favorite ice cream place, and they hung out at Evan’s house until Connor left at eleven at night, running into Heidi Hansen, who was thrilled to finally meet the boy her son speaks so highly of. She then asked Connor for his mom’s number so she could talk to her.
Both moms were ecstatic to hear about their sons hanging out.
They were also happy to talk to each other about them.
Both boys had a blush on their faces for an hour afterward.
And both of them fell asleep with the other on their minds, once again.
For the last two and a half months of school, Connor and Evan are practically attached at the hip. Evan was at Connor’s house for Easter since Evan doesn’t celebrate it and his mom was working. Then, they skip prom and just hang out at Connor’s house watching 80’s movies. They fell asleep on the couch, Evan’s head on Connor’s shoulder, and Connor’s head on Evan’s head.
At the end of senior year, Evan informs Connor that he didn’t apply to any schools so that he could take a gap year and save up for school for a while longer. Connor decides then and there to just not go to college until Evan goes. Connor doesn’t want to be alone, he’s not good at making friends, and to get through life he just really needs one. He got lucky with Evan. He doesn’t think he will get as lucky again.
Evan gets a job at the Pottery Barn, and Connor works at the Michael's next door. They always share their lunch breaks together, and they carpool to work as Evan doesn’t like to drive, and Connor does. Plus it means more time being together, and neither of them will pass up that opportunity.
That winter, Connor, and Evan were at Evan’s house. Heidi was at work, taking on the night shift and wouldn’t be home until early the next morning. The boys took advantage of that situation and broke out a bottle of bourbon to share as they watched Lord of the Rings.
By the time they were on the second movie, both of them had a pretty good buzz going on.
And both boys were a little Childish when drunk.
“Hey, hey Evan.” Connor whispers, giggling.
“What?” After there’s a slight pause, Evan asks again, “Co-connor, what?”
“Oh! Oh right! I wanted to tell you something.” Connor isn’t giggling anymore, but he still has a large smile adorning his face.
“And?”
“It’s very important. I’ve know for a while now. I wanted to tell you sooner, but I was nervous. Haha, I’m kind of nervous now, but like, less than usual. You know?”
“Co-con, just to-tell me. Please?”
“Oh right! I haven’t said it yet! Well, I like you!”
“I know th-that Con! That’s why we-we’re best fri-friends!”
“No! I mean I love you! Like, I want to date you and kiss you! All the time. But I don’t cause I don’t think you’d like that.”
“Well, th-that’s not true Co-con! I want to kiss you all the time too!”
“Really?” Connor’s very surprised, but also extremely happy.
“Ye-yeah!”
“Then, can I kiss you?”
Evan answers with a swift nod and Connor grabs Evan’s shirt collar and pulls him in for a sweet kiss, that’s long overdue.
When they pull back, neither of the boys have their eyes opened all the way. They’re both smiling, and they’re both still gripping onto each other.
Evan goes in for another kiss, and they fall back onto the couch, kissing lazily until they fall asleep, Evan on top of Connor, arms, and legs tangled, smiles still on their faces.
When Heidi comes home, she promptly ignores the bottle of whiskey on the coffee table. Instead, she grabs a blanket from the basket by the TV and spreads it over her son and his new boyfriend. She smiles as she takes out her phone to send a picture to Cynthia, telling her that she expects the twenty bucks the next time they go out for coffee together.
She also decides that she’ll talk to the boys about the bottle after she congratulates them.
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Practical next steps on your Christian journey
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So you’re a Christian? Now what?
For the past month at Queer Theology, we’ve been taking a look at the fundamentals of Christianity — and of what it means to be an LGBTQ+ person of faith. We’ve sorted through everything from myths and misconceptions to downright toxic theology and we’ve tried to get at the heart of what it means to be a Christian.
Here’s what we’ve covered so far:
Back to the (queer Christian) basics
What do we do with the Bible?
The Exodus didn’t happen. The Exodus is true.
What does it mean to be a Christian?
The generosity of God
Building a Bible-based faith (that isn’t terrible)
a live webinar on the basics of Christianity (you can get access to it, and our entire webinar archive, in Sanctuary Collective)
But so what? What do you do with all this knowledge?
My junior high youth group director Dave used to tell us, “If you really believe in Jesus, that can’t help but change your life.”
Here are some practical next steps as you continue to pursue a (queer) Christian faith.
Not everyone has to believe the same as you.
Some conservative branches of Christianity are keen on making sure that everyone believes the same thing. There is one way to interpret each and every Bible passage. There is one correct way to relate to Jesus, one correct way to understand salvation, one correct everything.
The math-science nerd in me understands this: there is one law for gravity, 1 plus 1 does equal 2, human reproduction happens in a certain, observable way.
But, even in science, there is so much we don’t know. And so much that varies from person to person, experience to experience. You might work best alone in an office while your neighbor might work best from a crowded coffeeshop. You might be motivated by comfort while your friend might be motivated by fame.
We each experience and understand the world in different ways, and that’s a beautiful thing.
Sometimes it’s helpful to ask “what is right” as best we can know. Sometimes we can look to science for answers (vaccines really will protect your child, comprehensive sexual education really does help keep teenagers safe, the earth really does revolve around the sun).
But sometimes, when it comes to matters of faith or of the heart, “is it right?” doesn’t always have a clear answer (even if it feels so clear to you or me!). In those cases, “is it helpful?” is often a good question to ask. When that is the question, it’s possible to answer “yes” to lots of different questions. They can compliment each other, rather than compete with one another.
When it comes to the nature of God, the resurrection, and even what-happens-after-you-die, Fr. Shay and I often believe differently. But we can look at each of our beliefs, ask “Is it helpful?,” and see that the answer is yes.
Jesus models this in Scripture when he tells his followers to judge the tree of a theology by its fruits. Good theology bears good fruits.
If your theology — or someone else’s theology — is bearing bad fruit … that may be a reason to speak out or act up. But if it’s just different than yours? That’s ok.
Not every problem you face is a spiritual one
We believe in the power of God. A God that parts seas to set oppressed people freeand who defeats death. We believe that the divine dwells in you, too. And that you are capable of remarkable things.
It’s also important that we recognize that not every problem you face is a spiritual one — sometimes you need secular solutions.
Too often we receive messages from folks who have been told that their gender dysphoria is a result of their sin or that their depression or suicidal thoughts can be cured with prayer.
God works through doctors and therapists and nutritionists just as much as God works through priests and pastors.
Sometimes you need a doctor. Or a therapist. Or a nutritionist. You might need medicine or light therapy or daily exercise.
If you come from a conservative religious background, working with a therapist to unpack that experience and develop healthier, more productive ways of moving through the world can be hugely helpful. I cannot recommend it enough. If you think you can’t afford therapy, talk with your local LGBT center… they may be able to connect you with some low- or no-cost options. Also, check out this Twitter thread for options and alternatives.
It’s important that you think through how your faith and beliefs will affect your actions
It’s all well and good to have beliefs but how do those beliefs affect your life—your choices and your actions (and your inactions)? James 2:17 even says, pointedly, “faith is dead when it doesn’t result in faithful activity.”
We see throughout the scriptures — and in the example of believers throughout the ages — the importance of putting your faith into action. God asked Moses to lead the Israelites out of Egypt. The divine became incarnate in Jesus and then walked, talked, ate, touched (and led direct action protests).
If we take Jesus at his word that he came to “preach good news to the poor, to proclaim release to the prisoners and recovery of sight to the blind, to liberate the oppressed,” and if we understand that he asked those around him to follow him … then what will faithful actions look like in our lives?
Here are some questions for you think about:
what will I do with my money?
how will I take care of others?
in what ways can I speak truth to powers and principalities that they would take care of their people?
how will I treat others?
where will I worship?
where will I live? (and with whom?)
how will I spend my time?
what will I think about myself?
what will I think about others?
If your Christian faith is important to you, take the time and energy to grow in it
As Christians, we don’t get to download everything that we need to know from The Matrix and be instant experts, even Jesus studied at the temple.
If the Christian faith is important to you, set aside the time and energy to grow in it. Read books, listen to talks, audit classes, speak with experts. You don’t need a seminary degree to be a faithful Christian, of course, but there is something to be said about really studying the theology around your faith if that faith is important to you. (Need somewhere to get started? We have a whole class on how to read the Bible)
I’m a big fan of 1 Thessalonians 5:21 — “test everything; hold fast to that which is good” — it was instrumental in allowing me to question what I’d been taught about “homosexuality and the Bible” … but it doesn’t end there. Test everything. Your beliefs about God, prayer, salvation, about the outsider and the other, about hell, sin, grace, and more. (we take a robust look at 26 different topics over 13 issues of Spit & Spirit — you get a subscription to the magazine with Sanctuary Collective)
Find a community
Where two are more are gathered, there God is (Matthew 18:20). Something divine happens in community: here’s enough to eat (Matthew 14), there are no needy (Acts 2).
Whether your community is online or IRL, it’s important to get connected with a community of folks who believe like you and share your values.
To find community in real life:
GayChurch.org maintains a list of LGBTQ-affirming churches
Connect with the LGBTQ+ organization for a specific denomination for suggestions on where to worship. Those are
More Light Presbyterians
Reconciling Ministries Network
Association of Welcoming and Affirming Baptists
Dignity (Roman Catholic)
Integrity (Episcopalian)
Affirmation (Latter Day Saints)
Reconciling Works
Room for All (Reform Church of America)
To find community online:
Connect on the #FaithfullyLGBT and #QueerTheology hashtags on Twitter
Search for “gay Christian” on Tumblr or track the gay christian hashtag
Join Sanctuary Collective, an online community of LGBTQ+ Christians and straight, cisngeder supporters from around the world and across denominations (including some seekers and skeptics)
It’s ok to not be a Christian
It’s also possible that you’ll take a hard look at what it means to be a Christian and decide it’s not for you. That you don’t align with its values, that its beliefs are too different from your own, that you don’t want to be associated with the label, or that its caused you too much trauma and it’s just not safe for you. That’s ok.
It is OK to not be a Christian.
You can be a good, righteous, moral person and not be a Christian.
You can love God and not be a Christian (it’s also OK if you’re angry at God! or don’t believe in God).
And as Christian leaders, we’re here to tell you that God doesn’t think any less of you if you never step foot in a church begin because it’s triggering, if you don’t feel God’s presence, if you have major doubts, if you don’t believe.
We find Christianity to be a liberating and life-giving faith and we believe God wants you to be liberated and saved. If you find that somewhere, go with gusto!
What are some ways that you’ve put your faith into action? Reply or reblog!
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Homily on Happiness by Token
Here is the preview of Fr. Rossi’s homily on Happiness by Token:
Hopkins Mass Homily
 “Happiness”
by 
Token
 “Show me where Happiness is”
 The first time Ben Goldberg rapped in public he was 13 years old. 
 It was July 1, 2012, and Goldberg was part of a swarm of 30 or so kids who intercepted Hopsin, a Los Angeles-based rapper who had just finished performing at a local club. 
 While Hopsin signed autographs, Goldberg stepped forward.
 “Yo, I’m going to rap for you,” Goldberg told him.
__________
 This wasn’t a premeditated decision. 
 He didn’t weigh the consequences of embarrassing himself in front of someone he idolized, not to mention a crowd of his peers. 
 But Goldberg, who had already given himself the stage name Token, was confident. 
 It was as if he had spent the last three years building to this — countless hours in his room, pen to pad, constructing intricate rhyme patterns. 
 Hopsin was known for the complexity of his rap “flow”. 
 Goldberg thought he’d have to appreciate his style. 
__________
 “You chumps know it is dumb. Hoping / this young Token / for fun won’t split you, cut open / I come roaming / with a lyrical gun loaded. . . . ”
 The crowd fell silent, Hopsin included. 
 It felt, Goldberg would later say, as if he were onstage.
 When Goldberg was done, Hopsin offered affirmation and advice. 
“I see what you’re doing, and it’s sick,” he told him. 
 “You have the techniques, but sometimes take it slower and kind of steez it out a little bit — and have some fun with it.”
__________
 It wasn’t as if Goldberg had any doubt about his path before that point, but he recalls this moment as galvanizing. 
 “That night was the night of my life for years,” says Goldberg, now 19. 
 But there’s been competition for that title lately — much of it in the past 2 years.
 In October 2015, Goldberg’s entry to a rap video contest went viral, ultimately tallying more than 2.5 million views on YouTube. 
 In April 2016, he had another viral hit: a six-minute-long performance on the influential Sway in the Morning hip-hop show on Sirius XM that was so powerful it moved a co-host to tears. 
 Then in September of last year, he released a mixtape, “Eraser Shavings,” which reached number 3 on the iTunes hip-hop charts and made it into the top 40 overall. 
 His work caught the attention of Mark Wahlberg, who helped him land a guest spot on a November episode of the “Wahlburgers” reality show and a role as a college kid in the movie Patriots Day, released last December.
__________
 Goldberg also had the opportunity to tour for the first time in 2016, doing several solo dates in France and Switzerland — two places where one of his viral hits got heavy play. 
 Then, he played more than 20 dates in the U.S. 
 This time, he was an opening act. The headliner: Hopsin.
 “He doesn’t remember that night,” Goldberg says, laughing. “I reminded him many times.”
__________
 From an early age, hip-hop was a therapeutic for Goldberg. 
 Even as a first-grader, he was getting suspended from school for yelling at his teachers and fighting. 
 “He had this explosive anger,” says his mother, Leslie. 
 At home, he’d have an episode — screaming, throwing things — and then retreat, horrified about what he’d done. 
“He would go into his room,” she says, “and you could just see in his face that he was crestfallen. 
 He’d ask, ‘What’s wrong with me?’ ”
__________
 Goldberg went from therapist to therapist and was eventually diagnosed with depression and anxiety. 
 He was also slow to read, and doctors identified a language disability. 
 And, yet, as he continued to work on his word skills and composition, writing became an outlet. 
 “When he started writing, you could see he used it that way,” says his sister, Madeline, who is five years older. 
 “He’d blow up, try to say something, and if he didn’t have the right words, he would go to his room and write.”
__________
 It worked. 
 “I don’t think I realized, holding this pad, this is the answer — this is the reason why I don’t feel bad anymore. 
 But subconsciously, I knew it, and that’s why I kept going back to it,” he says. 
 “Honestly, at some points, it feels like it’s all I have to get this negative energy off of me.”
__________
 Soon, Goldberg’s diary-like writing turned into poems, and the poems turned into raps. 
 He started recording himself when he was 10 years old, using GarageBand and rhyming over beats playing from the computer’s speakers. 
 They were self-therapy sessions set to music. 
 “I was basically hiding them from everybody, because they were for me,” he says. 
 But one day, a friend found them on his computer and pushed him to create a YouTube channel and upload them. 
 After some protest, Goldberg relented, releasing his first song — him rapping over the beat for Lil Wayne’s “Drop the World” featuring Eminem. 
 His MC moniker at the time was his initials, BDG (Benjamin David Goldberg). 
__________
 “When I got my first positive comment on YouTube, I was like ‘This is what I need to do for the rest of my life.’” 
 “The fact that somebody could like something that I love to do so much, it’s like 
‘That’s it — that’s what I’m going to do. There’s no question.’”
__________
 And that’s where his song “Happiness” comes in.
 It’s the first track released from his first major project “Eraser Shavings.” 
 It was released on the 23rd of September 2016.
__________
 “Happiness” is an emotional Hip Hop track that is sure to pull on the heart strings. 
 Before the release of this track, Token took to social media.
 There, he said,“ This video I got is next level, man….
 “I’m showing you guys a part of me that I never put out there before.”
__________
 This song presents some insights into Token’s life at home and his family’s history with depression. 
 It’s about two teenagers.
 A boy who has no friends and seems to have nothing going for him
 Ironically, it’s also about a girl, approximately the same age, who appears to be perfect in everyone’s eyes, but, in fact, is in the same state as the boy.
 Through their stories, Token airs his feeling towards mental illness and the affects it has on him, his family and other people. 
 It asks the big question, “What is happiness?” 
__________
Goldberg says in the song,
 Sometimes I just am feeling down
Sometimes I just feel no one will ever understand
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I want to crush my family's so-called medication look in their eyes
And tell them they don't need it as long we just have each other
But then sometimes I watch them suffer
I just wonder where happiness is.
 But, I think he answers this question by the way he’s been living and working.
 What’s he been doing?
 He’s been reflecting on his life, finding out what his talents and abilities are, and then disciplining himself to develop those talents further.
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 We as Christians can add one more element to that equation: God.
 We can ask God to help us think about and consider who we are, who he has made us to be, and then pray that He will help us acquire the disciple needed to expand those talents.
__________
 Token says, “Happiness ISN’T as easy as "happy life = happy person” and “sad life = sad person.” 
 “There’s a lot that doesn’t meet the eye…"
 He certainly is correct there.
 It takes hard work and patience.
 And it takes help from outside ourselves.
 The psalmist is right on the mark this week:
 You are my God whom I seek.”
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Richard Chamberlain - How he keeps the Faith in his Private Life
"Fame isn't the answer. The answer is allowing yourself to be who you are."
"I'm not interested in being a multimillionaire; I want to do the kind of work that interests me. When I was beginning, I wanted to do everything: films, TV, modern things, period things, classics, musical theatre, I wanted to make records and I also wanted to paint. I'm a medium with occasional goods. I took dance lessons, and I have discovered that you can't do everything, but I've done a lot of it."
In a company town, Hollywood, where a favorite indoor sport is to trash everyone, its almost impossible to find anyone with a sour word to mutter about Richard Chamberlain.
The erstwhile Dr. Kildare, perhaps unintentionally, has made a secondary career of winning friends. He is Mr. Nice Guy wherever you turn.
He is therefore going against casting in his current role of Father Ralph in the ABC-TV mini-series, The Thorn Birds. For those unfamiliar with the best-selling Colleen McCullough's supernovel, Fr. Ralph does just about everything a priest isn't supposed to from having money of his own - courtesy of the character played by Barbara Stanwyck - to not being obedient or chaste.
In fact, there are those who might consider him a bit of a rotter. Not so Richard. We're sitting in his offices at The Burbank Studios just a few months after he has finished production on this massive film. He is about to don another hat: that of executive producer on a TV movie for CBS, hence the office setting complete with a round black glass conference table and comfortable chairs. Only successful executive producers rate such perks. But enough business talk. We are here to discuss The Thorn Birds, how he feels about yet another blockbuster following his so-successful Shogun and his real life.
First of all, Richard doesn't believe that Father Ralph behaved in such a reprehensive manner. "He followed his destiny," he states. "That process brought him to a kind of humility he never would have found otherwise. He needed to do that. He needed to fall from grace. I'm not saying all priests do; Ralph was too in love with the image of a perfect priest, with the glamour," he explains.
Those sentences give one a clear indication of what makes Richard Chamberlain tick. He's a perfectionist, although certainly not a bore - far from it - but he does get inside the character he plays. That's what makes him such an outstanding actor.
For this part, he researched Catholicism with Father Terry Sweeney, a Jesuit priest. He visited a Jesuit novitiate and stayed over with the young novices. "I had never before been involved with organized religion, and I got the feeling of what it's like to be part of a group of people who put the love of God and humanity before personal happiness. It is unusual and rare. The novitiates I met are in the process of doing that," he learned.
The painstaking research aside, working in TheThorn Birds was a grueling six-month assignment. A large portion of the nine hours was filmed in the Simi Valley, north of Los Angeles, where an exact copy of the Australian Drogheda landscape has been built. And it was hot. Richard's priestly garb, donned in layers, must have been well nigh unbearable.
With a boyish grin, he acknowledges that it wasn't an actor's dream come true, commenting that the plastic collar cut into his neck a lot. Just another of the ordeals that an actor goes through for the sake of a great role.
And a great plum it is. "I wanted it when I first read the book four years ago. I salivated over the part; it was such a wonderful love story. I chased after the part for years. I told my agents I wanted to do it; at that time, it was to be a feature movie and it went through the hands of numerous producers. They had Robert Redford at the top of all their lists. So I waited it out, like I did with Shogun. When they realized it couldn't be a film and Warner Bros. decided on a mini-series, then I knew I was in a good position. The producers - David Wolper and Stan Margulies - wanted me - and it became a dream come true," he says comfortably.
The dream realized, Richard was in the same position as all other actors when a role is complete: he was out of a job. "I have the actor's habit of thinking once a job is over I'll never be hired again. I can get very anxious about not working. It doesn't go into anxiety attacks, but there is a sense of fickleness about the business. If I allow myself, I can worry a lot."
He didn't allow himself to this time. Instead he took off for two and a half weeks to his little house in Hawaii. He has what he describes as, "a place on the beach in the toolies where there is nothing to do except eat." Or so he says. It doesn't show on his trim waistline two weeks after he has returned.
"I had forgotten what it was like to spend a day doing nothing. I kept saying I must be doing something wrong, this can't be right. I had a vague guilty feeling. So I just lay there on the beach and I didn't do anything," he laughs. "I find it an incredibly healing experience to go there. It's a wonderful change from the madness around here," he motions to indicate Hollywood. "I'd like to go there more often. As it is, I get there twice a year if I'm lucky."
The house has a live-in caretaker who looks after the property while its famous owner is gone. It is also rented out, through an agent, so the tenants never know that they're sleeping in Richard Chamberlain's bed. Pity.
It would appear that Richard is indeed the golden boy we all envy, whose life has been comparatively uncluttered with the "stuff" that make most of us miserable. And looking at him, handsome, trim, relaxed, just a few flecks of gray in the beard and mustache he has grown for his next part, he reflects total peace and tranquility. He's sipping a cup of herb tea from a delicate Japanese cup, NOT imported from Japan as were many of his household furnishings. Shogun did leave an impression on him.
He admits of being happier with his life as it is today than in previous years.
"As I look back, one of my big motivations for working so hard in this business in the early times was to find for myself a kind of self-worth which I imagined I would see reflected from the world when I became famous. It didn't work." He laughs shortly. "Being well-known has worked in other ways, but it didn't make me particularly happy. When I first realized that wasn't gonna work, I found other ways to work on myself, through Gestalt therapy, and working with Dr. Brugh Joy (a world-renowned metaphysician who gave up his medical practice to work with groups at his establishment in California's Lucerne Valley. Richard brought the film rights to Dr. Joy's book, Joy's Way, three years ago, and has a contract to produce and star in the story for CBS. He hopes to get it under way later this year.)
"Fame isn't the answer. The answer is allowing yourself to be who you are. I grew up at a time when certain values were deeply impressed upon children: in school and at home. There was a certain image to be maintained and a certain goal to be achieved."
One must bear in mind that Richard was born and raised in the rarefied atmosphere of Beverly Hills, where most of his friends at school were super-rich. His own father was a first salesman for a market fixture company, and then took over the firm. But he still wasn't raised in an atmosphere of wealth.
He became interested in acting while he was in college, but recalls, "My family wasn't enthused about my going into show business. They'd seen me in some college productions," he laughs. "I did want to go to college, but in my senior year I made a decision to take the gamble and get into acting. They didn't say 'don't do it'; they were supportive and they helped me, even though they didn't say 'Oh boy, this is terrific'."
His career proceeded normally: he studied with noted acting coach Jeff Corey, he got minor roles in a dozen TV shows, and in 1961 he got really lucky with Dr. Kildare. By the time that show had finished its run - there were 132 one-hour shows between 1961 and '65 and 57 half-hour episodes the following year - Richard Chamberlain was a big star. So big, he wondered if he'd live down his reputation of being the noble young doctor who did everything including make house calls.
He did what was then considered a rash step: he moved to England and worked in repertory. "I went to England because I felt it the best place to go and study. I had this real powerful hunch that I should go there and study. I was attracted to British theatre and I had amazing luck."
Indeed. He got raves for his role in a six-part adaptation of Henry James' Portrait of a Lady on the BBC. He appeared in Hamlet, The Madwoman of Chaillot, Julius Ceasar, and played composer Peter Tchaikovsky in the Music Lovers opposite Glenda Jackson. There was more Shakespeare, other classics, and when he played Aramis in two versions of The Three Musketeers followed by Cyrano de Bergerac, no one made anymore jokes about the boyish Dr. Kildare. Richard Chamberlain had arrived, as a serious actor of the theater and films. Deservedly so.
He is, of course, delighted that he listened to that powerful hunch, as he terms it. "I always try to listen to my inner voice. That seems to be one of life's most ironic essences: that very soft little voice of intuition is so easy to ignore, yet it's so often accurate. I always choose my roles intuitively. They appeal to me for reasons I couldn't say. I always have an answer as to why I choose a role, but the answer really is that it has a magnetic quality. Now, as a producer, I know that I read scripts looking for ways to make scenes work, and ideas that come up seemingly from nowhere. They just spring into my mind. It's not an intellectual process. Oh, it is to some extent, but it is largely emotional and intuitive."
As noted, here is a man who is comfortable with himself and he doesn't have to prove anything anymore. He's done that. So, when asked how he can top the role of Father Ralph, he says easily, "I don't think in terms of topping things. Everything is different and real to me. My next movie, titled By Reason of Insanity is for my own production company. I play a man named John Balt, who murdered his wife, spent years in an institution in therapy and is now back in society as a contributing member. In fact, he wrote his own life story, which this is. This story goes into areas I've never touched upon, so it's a vast challenge.”
"After Shogun and Thorn Birds, I find my interests are turning back to more ordinary parts - not that the John Balt story is ordinary, it isn't. He's an ordinary man who gets caught in an incredible vortex. Yes, I have leaned towards larger-than-life roles and that might have something to do with the fact that I have a very romantic nature. I didn't find life terribly interesting when I was a little kid. I hated school and I didn't like sports. I didn't like anything that anyone else liked. I felt out of it. It isn't that I didn't have friends. I did. And I had a pretty good time, but I was always fascinated by adventure movies. Especially Errol Flynn. But the other night when I couldn't sleep I turned on an old Errol Flynn movie and it was boring. It didn't hold up. The Three Musketeers and that kind of swashbuckling does, but not the one that I saw," he mock mourns.
Every actor has a dream role, and Richard has played such variegated parts - has he played it already or is his dream part still in the future?
"I think John Balt is as fascinating a part as I'll ever get. What are dream roles? Roles that call for words like depth and complexity, people who want things passionately and have to overcome tremendous obstacles to get them. My theory about John is that he wanted wholeness in his life that he unconsciously felt wasn't there. I think murdering his wife was unnecessary, but who am I to say that? He was living a life complying to images. He had an image of manhood, an image of the writer, of the husband and father, and he never said 'Who am I, what kind of man am I, what kind of father, do I love my children?'"
"Who am I?" Richard repeats the question. "I'm beginning to get answers at long last. What I am is an ever-changing alive being, who is not an image, who is not consistent, and I'm beginning to allow myself to BE instead of trying to be consistent and trying to comply to images. Images such an American hang-up. And so here I am in a business where images are more powerful than almost anyplace else except sports. I have found that I have warmth and lovingness and creativity. I might have doubted that before. I'm much more comfortable with people, much more willing to speak my mind. I don't have to try to manipulate people into liking me. I don't. I thought that I did." He is very thoughtful now and seems to enjoy looking within.
What are his long-range goals these days after 20-plus years of a good and rewarding career?
"I've done some satisfying work in the theatre, and I'd like to do more but I find it difficult to find the time. I want to continue along the lines I've been pursuing. I really like what I've been doing. I like my mobility in TV, I want more emphasis in films. I think I'm ready for that."
"And I like my life. I've finally created a home that I really love. I've had several houses, but I just remodeled this one - in a quiet canyon street, and it's just perfect for me. It's slightly Oriental, slightly Japanese. I brought back a lot of stuff from Shogun."
And who lives in this perfect house?
Just Richard Chamberlain and his pals. "I have two dogs," he says with all the love in the world in his voice. "Two Dalmatians: Jessie the Bandit Queen and Billy Boy."
And what does Jessie steal to merit that colorful name?
"My heart," he says in a tone that any animal-lover can recognize.
And so, then, one knows that Richard Chamberlain, a really happy man, does indeed have it all.
© 1983 Isobel Silden
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Submission about getting help for depression and anxiety
Recently my depression and anxiety has been effecting me a hell of a lot along with paranoid thoughts and gender dysphoria … ( 21y/o Male) Previousl been on meds, (stopped before christmas because my paranoia spiked about the meds) and previously been to therapy (stopped because of paranoia about the therapist and his methods) I’ve been doing well over the new year my anxiety and depression sympotm seemed to have calmed down for quite a while so I thought I’d go to the club with my friends(it was one of them’s birthday), because I’ve not been in months. I was having fun while we were out and drinking etc and I moved over on the bench and asked the guy standing around awkwardly if he wanted to sit down, he didn’t but then started going on about how he’d been in the military for 15 years and pushed me to answer if I’d ever been scared in life and just the atmosphere changed and I didn’t know what to do and then he started asking some horrible questions from what I can only guess are based on his experiences from the milatary… and he made me feel so horrible for even having anxiety and paranoia, I’ve already spent so long trying to tell myself I shouldn’t feel guilty for having bad thoughts and fr being scared of shit because other people have it worse so I should just get over myself because wow I’m fckign useless and pathetic… I mean you know it’s bad when even your ‘loving’ father calls you pathetic and tells you that you don’t know what REAL depression is like…. and idk it felt like 50 steps backwards because I’ve not seemed to be able to seep properly since… today I missed work because I slept in, and instead of getting up and trying to be productive or ringing in work to apologise, I just went back to sleep… I’ve slept the whole day, even though I was supposed to get up at 4am and got up at 8:30pm. I seem to just make everything worse for myself… I got in contact with the doctors to send a referral to get an appointment at a gender clinic yet 2 years after Ive heard nothing from the clinic they supposedly got in contact with… other people I’ve helped to encourage to go to get a referral in recent months have had letters a couple of weeks after they got reffered  and all sorts and here I am fucking… not even a letter… and I feel like it’s too late to say anything and I’m stuck because I can’t even fucking use the phone without my anxiety getting the better of me and I can’t afford to go private because of the distance and cost of the appointments.. I’ve been getting paranoid about so many people around me that they don’t really care they’re only acting a certain way because it’s me, that non of them care they’re plotting something against me I know it except afterwords I don’t think it’s as likely and I feel awful for even thinking those things about my friends, family and partner…. I don’t know what to do…
Hi there,
I’m really sorry to hear that you’ve had all of this going on. I’m glad that you decided to message us and I hope we’re able to figure something out.
No matter what others have gone through, your struggles are just as valid as theirs. I know that it’s easy to compare your struggles with what others are going through, but that doesn’t mean that what you’re going through doesn’t matter. You deserve to get the help that you need, just like everyone else who is struggling with their mental health. What you’re going through matters. You matter. Anyone who tells you any different is wrong.
If you still haven’t heard anything from the clinic and your anxiety makes it difficult for you to call, do you think anyone would be able to help you make that call? It definitely isn’t too late to contact them about it, especially if others have already heard back from the clinic. If somebody can call, they would probably be able to say what’s going on and why you haven’t heard anything in so long. It’s possible that somebody along the way dropped the ball on your case, so a phone call might be what it takes to get things moving again. Since you would really benefit from their help right now, consider asking someone to help you contact them to see what exactly is going on. 
When it comes to the cost of going private, there are mental health professionals who charge their clients on a sliding scale. This means that they take your financial situation into consideration and charge a more reasonable cost if you can’t afford the regular fees. If you can find someone in your area who does this, it might be worth considering.
It sounds like the paranoia that you’re having might be a result of your anxiety, as anxiety can sometimes convince a person that nobody really likes them and are just merely tolerating them, when that’s actually not true at all. If it comes to it, you could talk to your loved ones about these concerns and maybe they can help ease your mind a bit. It wouldn’t likely take those thoughts away completely, but having those lines of communication open can be really helpful when you find that you’re really struggling. That’s just something to keep in mind.
I also just want to say that it’s okay to put your health before your work. I know that a lot of people think that it’s not okay to miss work, but sometimes our mental health gets in the way of that and that’s alright. If your job has a problem with that, it might help to talk to them about it. If it’s still a problem, maybe consider looking for a job where the employers are more understanding. You just have to do what’s best for you, whatever that may entail.
You can do this!
-Samantha
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Do landlord usually have homeowner insurance? Also is it true that most homeowner insurance have liability coverage? And if they took out a mortgage does the mortgage company require them to have some kind of homeowner insurance?
My Car insurance Progressive won't pay for my stolen car because my insurance got canceld 2 days!?
I brought my car 2 months ago from RPM auto sales! I have full coverage insurance with progressive! April 7th 2009 my mom was suppose to pay my car insurance and on april 9th they sent her a cancelation notice! Then on april 17th it got finalized! Then on april 19th my car got stolen at gas station! I called the cops right away and my insurance! The follow day my insurance said they wont cover it because the insurance was canceld! IS THERE ANYWAY I COULD SUE PROGRESSIVE OR FIND SOMEWAY TO GET THE MONEY FOR THE CAR 00 BONNEVILLE WITH ABOUT 900$ IN SOUND SYSTEM STUFF IN IT! HELP ME PLZ THIS IS MAKING ME SAD AND DEPRESSED!!!
Do I need to be insured on my parents insurance to use the car?
I live in Florida, I have a Drivers License Class E. Do I need to be listed on the insurance to drive my moms car occasionally on my own? If so, does Gainsco cover an occasional driver for free? How much would it cost?""
How to insure a used car off of the lot with no previous insurance?
I have never had insurance in my name before (my parents had me under their insurance within the past 6 months, but I am now not insured, nor driving a vehicle). I am interested in buying a car from a buy here, pay here lot and I don't quite understand how it works as far as insuring the vehicle off of the lot goes. I was told that the dealer would give me a few options of insurance (usually crappy) and I would use that insurance for the drive home, and subsequently get my own insurance. This is so ridiculous to me, to pay for insurance twice?! I just want to know the legal & affordable & practical way of insuring this vehicle. Is it not possible to be at the dealership, buy the car, get insurance over the phone while still on the lot, and then drive it home? Because I realize that the dealer will not let you drive it off of the lot if you don't have insurance. Also, how will they know I have the insurance? Since I currently do not have any, I won't have an insurance card or anything material to provide as proof... will they accept an over-the-phone affirmation by the insurance company as proof?""
Can I get insurance and buy a car using Irish drivers license living in New York?
I will eventually sit the test and get a NY drivers license, but in the meantime can I buy a car and get insurance based on my wholly clean Irish driving licence?""
California renters insurance?
I reside in california and i am going to rent an apartment. Is personal liability required in renters insurance or is it optional?
Cheapest car insurance for young drivers?
Hi I've been looking in a few insurance sites for the best possible quote for my self, Are there any insurances company's that you would recommend based on cheapest quotes ? Thanks P.s I'm 19""
Is it possible for me (a 17 year old) to get put on my dads insurance to drive his car? ?
If so how do i do it and how much would it cost :o?
What does it cost to get registration and tag for a 1992 thunderbird? also insurance a month?
i am 18 years old and this is my first car...
Looking for an insurance that will take my pre existing condition?
Hi, I have a double ureter in my left kidney causing me infection 4 times a year, I've been having this for almost 13 years and is painful and I can't have a normal life. No insurance wants to take me because this pre existing condition and if they do my monthly payment is between $300 to $400 monthly because of my condition, I've already applied for Medi-cal and I wasnt elegible. I tried so many antibiotics and I want to start a treatment and without insurance it is impossible, could anybody tell me if there is a insurance that will accept me without paying so much. I live in Southern California. I want a normal life. Thanks.""
How much will car insurance cost for me?
i am 17 years old and i have my g2. i live in oshawa ontario canada. i will be a secondary driver on my dads car, which is a 1999 yukon gmc. i have also taken driving school. and im a girl. any clue how much insurance will cost me per month?""
Car Insurance Rates (Speeding Ticket) (California Colorado insurance)?
Ok, so I got a speeding ticket. I'm 19, am a Californian resident but got ticketed for doing 96 in a 65 zone on the highway. I took a drivers education class immediately the week after, but I have a court date next week on Monday, the violation is a 6 point traffic offense as per the ticket. This is my first offense of any type. I am a good student, I ended up speeding because it was the end of the first week of school and I felt good, that was very stupid. Now, the car is registered under my dads name, he hasn't gotten a ticket for about 15 years, besides a talking on cellphone will driving citation in California a few years ago. My question is, how much will this hike my dads insurance premium? I haven't told them my parents I got a speeding ticket, but I will as soon as I get done with court... Yea, and how does a ticket in Colorado get transferred to the insurance agency in California? How long does it take? I really hope the judge marks the ticket down at least a point or two if I plea bargain. Thanks, I know I screwed up big time, but I don't need any comments scolding me, it's been in my mind for 2 months and its killing me thinking what might what will happen at court. I also drive a Volvo, if that means anything insurance wise haha.""
Does anyone know a cheap car insurance company?
Im About to Turn 17 and am Male,, I need to know if anyone knows of a cheap car insurance company, I have a 2002 Citroen Saxo VTR, I live in Dudley,UK Preferably i would like to pay less than 3000 (i am only a student) Preferably i would like to go in my name but i do also have the option to go in my 44year old dads name. If anyone could get back to me on this i would be very greateful p.s -- I have tried all of the comparison sites and have only found 1insurance company cheaper than 3k Gett Back to me please Thank You xx""
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Is there any user friendly and cheap motorcycles out there?
Hi, I'm 17 years old and looking to get a motorcycle. I have good grades and will only drive a motorcycle when the conditions are right. Like weather, cars on the road Sat. Sun. which has less cars, and going to school and to work. I don't care if I die and I'm not afraid to die. I have $7,000 saved up in the bank and would like to buy a Ninja 250 for $3,500 -2008. Plus $400 for gear and classes. I will get my driver's license this December and will take the MSD courses in spring of 2010. I can't find any used or cheap ninja 250's around my area and I think I would rather go stright to the dealer rather then the seller because of too much red tape and work. I think my insurance will be cheaper because I will ride only to school and work and I have good grades. Even though I am young. SO, is there any place I can find any user friendly bikes or cheap ninja 250's?""
How much will car insurance be for me?
Well I'm 17, I have a 2008, mitsubishi eclipse se, and I've been driving since age 16, no violations or accidents. It will be added onto my parent's account.""
Buying car insurance?
Do you have to buy car insurance before you get a car from a dealership? Can you drive home and then get the insurance when you're home? Does the dealer provides temporary insurance?
Urgent question: car accident/ no insurance?
Let say someone gets into an accident but did not have insurance on it( it is a long story but the car needed to be repair and be sold, so he was driving it to get it fix so he can sell, unfortunatly, while he was on the highway, he tries to stop just to realisethat the brake was not working and he bumps into another car. well the car is complety a mess and the air bag even came out. As it is for the other car no need to say that it back was mess up too) ok my question now what is going to happen, can he take a lawyer to defend him and how much do you think it might be to fix the other car. Please let me know I am so worried. the person lives in dallas, Texas. Thank you for your time ( the police came and said they are are going to court, the other car has insurance)""
Best health care insurance for 25 year old?
I just got off parent's insurance because it's only until I'm 25. I can't use my job's since I work part time, because I'm trying to finish college. I hardly get sick and see the doctor, but I know things happen. (Like whenever I got appendicitis not that long ago) What's the best affordable one's out there for me?""
Gta V - How do i get car insurance?
I got myself a nice Bugati Veyron, how do i get car insurance on it?""
I'm planning on getting affordable coverage for my dog. what would be best recommended?
okay well the question explains most of it. I'm currently doing some research on what company has the most afforable coverage for my dog. But there is so many to chose from: ...show more
How much do you pay for babysitting insurance?
So i'm doing a social studies project & it asks for liability. im doing babysitting service. help?
Hit a car. How much insurance can go up?
Have good driving record for 3 years and with Progressive. How much insurance can go up if I hit a car and damage like this... http://www.whymagic.com/html/images/front_bl_before_lg.jpg http://www.whymagic.com/html/images/before-after/front_before_lg.jpg
If the policy holder on car insurance crashes does it affect the named drivers?
I am wanting to get a car and been 19 it will cost a lot , my insurance drops below 1000, if i put my parents as named drivers. I was wondering if the policy holder (me) had a crash would it affect their insurance or is it just the other way around, if they crash as named drivers it will affect the policy holder? As they have no claims discount and i have none , so i can not apply NCD protection ? Thank you :)""
Cheap car insurance...?
If you buy a shitty car for like $500, can you get insurance that only covers the other person in a crash and not you?? I know they used to have this?""
Do insurance companies had out new phones?
This is the deal. I bought a new phone. HTC Desire S. I then accidentally dropped down the toilet. This caused it to get water damaged which equals broken phone. It's with the insurance company, and I know my claim has been accepted and now they are deciding whether they can repair the phone or send me a replacement. Now.. What does a replacement mean: Does that mean a new phone (fresh out of box) Does that mean a refurbished phone (second hand) Does that mean a different model phone (not a HTC Desire S) I've never used a insurance company before for this kind of thing because I'm always very careful when it comes to my technology and gadgets, so I don't know. I'm hoping I'll at least get the same model phone I had. I only had this phone for 2 weeks (Upgraded from Vodafone)""
A IF Car insurance question?
For example. Got a insurance paper from Jan 1st 2010 to Jan 1st 2011 But i stoped the insurance at June 2010 for example, after that i get pulled at July so police checked the papers and see its still with insurance and let me go? How you think about it? Means you dont have to pay insurance and wont get res until you got into a accident and the other side wants to tell the insurance company?""
If you get a learners permit will your parents insurance go up?
my mom wont let me get my learners permit cause she says her insrance rates will go up is it true? I live in california and they got Farmers insurance
How much will my insurance go up after a DUI??
I got a D.U.I. and i am going to get my license back soon and i am wondering how much my insurance will be compared to before.
Can the color of a car affect insurance rates?
Can the color of a car affect insurance rates?
How much is your liability car insurance?
price per month? your age? your state? car year and model?
Do you need motorcycle insurance in iowa?
im 16 and im moving to iowa from florida and in florida you dont need insurance. so i was just wondering if you need insurance in iowa
Car Insurance Payments?
Is the car insurance still in act even if I don't pay for it on the day the payment is due, or does the insurance stop and resume until I pay for it? And, if I don't pay the car insurance on time, will they charge me until I pay them?""
Provide proof of insurance online for Florida?
My previous insurance got canceled and i need to provide my new insurance to the state of Florida so my license doesn't get expired... can i do this online?
How do you get new home owner's insurance after you were dumped?
Hypothetically speaking, say your home owner's insurance company does NOT renew your policy? How long do you have to find a new company and what if no company will take you on due to too many claims?""
Why are insurance companies getting blamed for dropping coverage?
when it was because of the regulations in the patient protection and affordable care act that ended these plans?
Does anyone know of cheap car insurances for new drivers i am 17 years old.?
Does anyone know of cheap car insurances for new drivers i am 17 years old.?
Where can I get the best Auto Insurance Quotes?
My semi-annual auto insurance renewal is coming up. I've shopped before and I think I'm already getting a damn good rate, but still I'd like to try to get an even better rate. I've tried both Geico and Progressive, and both quoted me over $200 higher per year than I already pay. Any other good suggestions? This would be for coverage in California.""
How can I lower my auto insurance rate in California?
Details: Licensed at 19/Now 25yrs old. I have a clean record but can't afford full coverage because it's in the thousands. Is it pricey for me because I'm Asian? I don't get it, I hear about people being fully covered for a whole year for less than $1200, but I only have basic coverage and I'm paying $1100 per year. Can anyone help?""
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Simple Exercises To Practice With Pompoleism
We all realize that intercourse daily life is of fantastic value to our self-esteem and well-being. In a different submit in that series, I even talked for you concerning the strengths of intimate gymnastics for sex. In today's write-up, let's get an additional stage, knowing the benefits of pompoarism to health and fitness. I'm absolutely sure you'll be surprised and appreciate all the things these workout routines provide. They're very simple strategies, but they can have favourable effects within your every day existence, such as the reduction from the menstrual time period and therapy on the signs of menopause. Had been you curious? So stay with me and see how pompoarismo improves your health and top quality of life!     Today we'll finish with doubts about pompoarism and highlight the benefits that this practice can deliver to your health and fitness. Here's what intimate work out can do to enhance your high-quality of life: Minimizes colic and menstrual time period Reduce signs of menopause Assists pregnant ladies put together for childbirth and assists postpartum recovery Improves bowel perform Treats urinary incontinence with movements of pompoarismo Fight vaginal flaccidity The woman gets far more "tight" and can simulate virginity Increases lubrication and libido By studying the posting you will be much more confident and will achieve in wellness, balance and self-esteem. Test out! Minimizes colic and menstrual time period Easy everyday female affairs are nonetheless taboo to go over, from talking about sexuality in colleges in the course of adolescence or speaking to girlfriends in adulthood. Quite a few girls are nonetheless ashamed to go soon after information about their health, even in everyday topics such as menstrual cramps. The well known colic happens on account of the involuntary contractions made from the uterus to expel its inner layer that didn't receive the fertilized ovum. Because of these movements, it is actually common to feel discomfort. Exploration indicates that more than 90% of ladies who menstruate report colic within this period. The movements of pompoarismo and also the masturbation can alleviate this discomfort considerably, due to the fact we've a greater manage over the contractions. In addition, the perineum is highly irrigated on account of intimate gymnastics. As being a consequence, there exists an improvement in hormonal regulation as well as quantity of blood that "needs" to go out for the duration of menstruation decreases, reducing the times of your menstrual time period.     It is actually worth remembering that there are actually other attainable leads to for colic, which needs to be accompanied by a medical doctor, as an inverted uterus (influences 5% of Brazilian gals in accordance with USP surveys) and endometriosis (15% of women in Brazil are afflicted by this illness). In all cases, it truly is feasible to utilize the movements of pompoarismo to improve the situations of feminine wellbeing, considering the fact that it strengthens the blood flow and it strengthens the pelvic musculature. For additional details go to pompoar   Benefits of pompoarismo for overall health Lessen signs and symptoms of menopause Do you already know the irrigation in the pelvic place that regulates the hormonal aspect to decrease colic? For this is actually the exact same result that aids females who are going through menopause. But this is certainly just one with the benefits of pompoarismo for wellbeing within this time period. We now have already talked here within the blog site about menopause and we talked about how it is a defining time period for that lives of us girls. In the end, it truly is once the ovary stops generating eggs and there's a hormonal imbalance as a consequence of this truth. And climacteric is the time in advance of menopause. Even so common it might be while in the female cycle, you can find many difficulties and discomforts, mostly on account of the difference in hormones, resulting in the so-called menopausal symptoms that, in line with authorities, harm the woman's affective and sexual daily life. depressive problems and improvements in sleep. The primary results that intimate gymnastics treats in menopausal or climacteric females are: vaginal dryness, decreased libido and dyspareunia (pain in the course of intercourse), amid many others. Let us understand a little bit every single one of them:   Vaginal dryness ordinarily happens in females within their 40s or 50s. This is actually the lack of lubrication because of the hormonal improvements skilled through the climacteric and menopause. It causes challenges each associated to irritation and troubles to get sex, not counting self-esteem that is certainly fully impaired. With the movements in the pompoarismo, the female can contract and increase the irrigation of her vaginal canal, which stimulates it to become a lot more "wet" and may even truly feel extra pleasure through the penetration.   Decreased libido 1 with the most talked about menopause signs and symptoms would be the reduction of libido. In the end, with all the hormonal roller coaster as well as the diminution of these substances within the body, it really is a fact that does not feel like getting intercourse, but not whatsoever! It's the heat, the dryness that we have now talked about, the lousy mood, amid other signs that really detract in the woman's sexual pleasure. Hence, currently being in a position to contract your vagina any time you desire to assist, it is possible to have manage with the best minute to come to feel pleasure. Using the workouts of intimate gymnastics, whether alone or along with your spouse, you can even get self-esteem. In the end, you will be much more relaxed and lubricated, achieving orgasm more effortlessly, producing this 1 a lot more with the benefits of pompoarism to a woman's sexual overall health. Dyspareunia (pain through intercourse) Feeling soreness during sex can indicate numerous items, but in ladies from the menopause time period this is often prevalent, either because of lack of lubrication or involuntary contraction, also referred to as vaginismus. Making pompoarismo movements and practicing daily will allow you to do away with these pains and troubles, since you may have control of once you will contract and how. Which is: elevated lubrication, a lot more rest and manage of vaginal muscle movements will reduce the soreness throughout the sexual act in this presently troubled period. Using the practice of pompoarismo gals within the menopause control to do the job improved the muscular rings of their vagina, expanding the lubrication, getting rid of the pain through the intercourse, comforting additional and managing to enhance their libido and self-esteem. And as breathing techniques in intimate gymnastics are explored, you will discover other health rewards to women during this time, such as rising sleep top quality and reducing signs and symptoms of depression. Helps pregnant gals put together for childbirth and assists in postpartum recovery The lady who practices pompoarismo turns into additional conscious from the whole of her pelvic place, drastically bettering the delivery time. This is because it develops power through the entire area, that will aid in pure contractions, boosting the child much more effortlessly during typical delivery. For additional data check out remedio para aumentar o desejo feminino   This strengthening from the pelvic floor also accelerates postpartum recovery, since the pompoar movements leave the muscles extra labored. Right after a time period, because the obstetrician releases, it is achievable for the mother to return to vaginal physical exercise lightly, gradually returning for the intimate gym, returning even a lot quicker to her typical existence. Having your intimate muscles worked together with the movements of pompoarismo brings great added benefits to the mom the two through and right after childbirth. With this particular, the female gains in health and fitness and tranquility for this particular time. Improves bowel perform That has not suffered for remaining "outraged"? This expression is linked to the malfunctioning of your intestine, which typically must do with all the lack or slowness of your peristaltic movements, that are what lead to our body to evacuate generally. The benefits of pompoarismo for well being also consist of support in that area, since gymnastics will do the job the many stomach muscle tissue. This can stimulate intestinal transit, each by the motion itself and by growing irrigation, helping to fight any dryness. Treats urinary incontinence with movements of pompoarismo Likewise as if it's possible to deal with the intestinal spot, the movements of pompoarismo treat the urinary incontinence. It is because the perineum is definitely the muscle area that, amongst other factors, controls the output of urine and feces. Together with the workouts with the intimate gymnastics, the female manages to control these muscle tissues and, as a result, to cut back the signs and symptoms from the urinary incontinence. But don't forget a single issue for you: often drink a lot of water and assessment your eating habits! This can assistance whatsoever for your health! Do you experience urinary incontinence or intestinal malfunction? So benefit from this benefit of pompoarismo for health and fitness, bettering your peristaltic movements and strengthening the perineum muscular tissues. Fight vaginal flaccidity Our entire organism suffers with time and also the force of gravity. Consequently, vaginal flaccidity is widespread to all ladies, particularly inside the most sophisticated stage of existence, where collagen is lacking plus the physique gets to be much less hydrated. Lack of training leads to your inner muscle groups, like every other, to start to flab. Additionally, the whole pelvic floor location suffers from continual put on and tear, each from sexual intercourse and through the fat the bladder, urethra, rectum and uterus exert on this location. This is why intimate gymnastics is a great solution to prevent and treat vagina sagging, strengthening and supporting inner organs. 1 from the advantages of pompoarismo for wellness is following the hysterectomy, because the intimate gymnastics prevents troubles of prolapse with the uterus and on the bladder, in addition to holding the musculature free of charge of vaginal flaccidity. The woman gets more "tight" and might simulate virginity   That is one of your most incredible health advantages of pompoarismo! The force that may be acquired from the muscles of your total pelvic area will allow the woman to entirely tighten her partner's penis, simulating virginity inside a two-piece joke, raising the level of pleasure in the course of intercourse. Picture you surprising your partner by totally contracting your muscle, simulating the hymen's rupture yet again, or leaving it tight ample to take advantage of the sensation? Mainly because which is what we get after you do your intimate gymnastics effectively and daily. Increases lubrication and libido The movements of your pompoarismo, creating contractions vaginal and soothing as a result of the workouts, boost the degree of excitation. With this, the woman gets much more lubricated and feels extra pleasure, which improves her libido being a entire and progressively. With the intimate gymnastics finished consistently, the region is totally irrigated, raising the level of sensitivity, which facilitates penetration and improves sex even more. Amid the advantages of pompoarismo for wellbeing is the raise of lubrication and libido, which will make you reach orgasm a lot more conveniently and can make improvements to your pleasure during the sexual relationship as being a total! And let's talk extra about orgasm? Let us go! Follow the blog site that brings this theme for you love your body and your spouse. Do not overlook to inform me every thing that took place if you place our guidelines right now, taking benefit of the many benefits of pompoarismo for well being. How about to begin practicing the movements of pompoarismo? For more information and facts take a look at   http://mulherafrodite.com/attack-problems-through-pompoleism/
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Attack Problems Through Pompoleism
We all know that sex existence is of great relevance to our self-esteem and well-being. In an additional submit in that series, I even talked to you about the advantages of intimate gymnastics for sex. In today's report, let us get yet another step, understanding the benefits of pompoarism to wellbeing. I'm absolutely sure you will be amazed and get pleasure from every little thing these workout routines provide. These are simple strategies, but they can have positive results inside your every day existence, this kind of since the reduction in the menstrual time period and therapy from the symptoms of menopause. Were you curious? So stay with me and see how pompoarismo improves your well being and good quality of daily life!     Right now we will finish with doubts about pompoarism and highlight the benefits that this practice can carry for your well being. Here is what intimate training can do to enhance your good quality of life: Reduces colic and menstrual time period Reduce signs of menopause Assists pregnant women prepare for childbirth and assists postpartum recovery Improves bowel function Treats urinary incontinence with movements of pompoarismo Fight vaginal flaccidity The girl gets much more "tight" and will simulate virginity Increases lubrication and libido By studying the short article you'll be all the more confident and can attain in wellness, stability and self-esteem. Test out! Minimizes colic and menstrual period Straightforward each day female affairs are nevertheless taboo to go over, from discussing sexuality in schools during adolescence or talking to girlfriends in adulthood. Lots of women are nonetheless ashamed to go immediately after information regarding their wellbeing, even in every day topics such as menstrual cramps. The well known colic takes place on account of the involuntary contractions made by the uterus to expel its inner layer that did not acquire the fertilized ovum. As a result of these movements, it is actually frequent to come to feel pain. Investigation signifies that a lot more than 90% of girls who menstruate report colic within this period. The movements of pompoarismo as well as masturbation can alleviate this discomfort considerably, given that we've got a greater control around the contractions. Additionally, the perineum is highly irrigated as a consequence of intimate gymnastics. As a consequence, there's an improvement in hormonal regulation as well as amount of blood that "needs" to go out for the duration of menstruation decreases, cutting down the times of the menstrual time period.     It really is well worth remembering that you'll find other attainable leads to for colic, which have to be accompanied by a doctor, as an inverted uterus (affects 5% of Brazilian females in accordance with USP surveys) and endometriosis (15% of women in Brazil are afflicted by this illness). In all cases, it can be attainable to utilize the movements of pompoarismo to enhance the conditions of feminine health, because it strengthens the blood movement and it strengthens the pelvic musculature. For more information and facts visit bolinhas tailandesas   Advantages of pompoarismo for health and fitness Reduce symptoms of menopause Do you recognize the irrigation of the pelvic spot that regulates the hormonal component to decrease colic? For this is the same effect that aids women that are going through menopause. But this can be just one of the advantages of pompoarismo for overall health within this period. We've by now talked right here about the website about menopause and we talked about how it can be a defining period for your lives of us women. In the end, it is actually once the ovary stops producing eggs and there exists a hormonal imbalance as a result of this truth. And climacteric may be the time in advance of menopause. However frequent it may be while in the female cycle, you'll find different challenges and discomforts, mostly resulting from the difference in hormones, leading to the so-called menopausal signs and symptoms that, based on professionals, harm the woman's affective and sexual daily life. depressive issues and alterations in rest. The main results that intimate gymnastics treats in menopausal or climacteric ladies are: vaginal dryness, reduced libido and dyspareunia (soreness through sex), between many others. Let us recognize slightly every single one particular of them:   Vaginal dryness ordinarily takes place in women inside their 40s or 50s. This is actually the lack of lubrication on account of the hormonal modifications knowledgeable through the climacteric and menopause. It leads to difficulties each associated to inflammation and problems to have sex, not counting self-esteem that is fully impaired. Together with the movements in the pompoarismo, the lady can contract and boost the irrigation of her vaginal canal, which stimulates it to turn out to be more "wet" and will even really feel additional pleasure during the penetration.   Decreased libido A single on the most talked about menopause signs could be the reduction of libido. After all, together with the hormonal roller coaster along with the diminution of those substances within the physique, it truly is a fact that will not feel like getting sex, but not in any way! It is the heat, the dryness that we've talked about, the bad mood, between other signs that definitely detract from your woman's sexual pleasure. Hence, being ready to contract your vagina if you desire to help, you could have management of your greatest second to come to feel pleasure. With the workout routines of intimate gymnastics, regardless of whether alone or with your companion, you may also achieve self-esteem. In the end, you'll be much more relaxed and lubricated, achieving orgasm extra simply, making this a single additional from the advantages of pompoarism to a woman's sexual health and fitness. Dyspareunia (discomfort throughout sex) Feeling ache in the course of intercourse can imply a lot of matters, but in women inside the menopause period this can be common, both as a consequence of lack of lubrication or involuntary contraction, also called vaginismus. Creating pompoarismo movements and training everyday will let you get rid of these pains and troubles, because you could have control of any time you will contract and the way. That is: elevated lubrication, more relaxation and manage of vaginal muscle movements will reduce the discomfort throughout the sexual act within this already troubled time period. With all the practice of pompoarismo girls during the menopause handle to get the job done superior the muscular rings of their vagina, raising the lubrication, getting rid of the pain during the intercourse, relaxing much more and managing to improve their libido and self-esteem. And as breathing approaches in intimate gymnastics are explored, there are actually other wellbeing benefits to gals throughout this time, this kind of as raising rest high-quality and decreasing symptoms of depression. Aids pregnant girls prepare for childbirth and assists in postpartum recovery The woman who practices pompoarismo gets to be additional mindful of your full of her pelvic location, tremendously enhancing the delivery time. This is because it develops strength through the entire area, that will assist in all-natural contractions, boosting the baby extra simply through regular delivery. For extra info pay a visit to bolinhas tailandesas   This strengthening of your pelvic floor also accelerates postpartum recovery, as the pompoar movements depart the muscle tissues a lot more labored. Following a time period, because the obstetrician releases, it's attainable for your mom to return to vaginal exercising lightly, steadily returning to the intimate gymnasium, returning even faster to her regular existence. Owning your intimate muscle groups worked with the movements of pompoarismo brings great rewards towards the mom each for the duration of and following childbirth. With this particular, the girl gains in well being and tranquility for this exclusive time. Improves bowel perform That has not suffered for remaining "outraged"? This expression is linked to your malfunctioning in the intestine, which ordinarily has to do together with the lack or slowness on the peristaltic movements, that are what cause our entire body to evacuate normally. The advantages of pompoarismo for well being also consist of aid in that place, mainly because gymnastics will get the job done the many stomach muscles. 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Title: Road Crosses  Fandom: Sherlock Genre: Action, Adventure Ship: Sherlock & OFC, SIblings broship Characters: Sherlock Holmes, OFC (Lucy Holmes), Mycroft Holmes, very very brief mentions of 007 Word count: 2591 Triggers(s): ... injuries? Rating: T Additional Tags: Lucy is a master of disguise, Sherlock gets himself into trouble Summary: Sherlock goes undercover after Reichenbach and Lucy decides that she'll shadow him in order to protect her brother. (007 tags along and Sherlock doesn't know better) Notes: I apparently wrote this a long time ago and never posted it. I found this while cleaning my drive and figured why not. Also, HEY! This is my 50th story on Ao3. Haha! Anyway, this writing style of mine is old and I wonder why I fell out of it. There are some snippets in my drive of this fandom that has great dialogue. I love this one particularly.
“She’s sleeping beside a dog.” “Yes. John,” Sherlock rolled his eyes. “I can see that.” “Since when she had a dog?” “Since yesterday. Animals are good therapy. She did always love dogs.” Mycroft answered from the doorway. “I’d appreciate it if you didn’t scream down the hallways.” “And cats.” Sherlock added, ignoring Mycroft’s jab. “She used to bring home cats.” “There was snuffle-face.” John said, remembering of the brown and white stray she brought back into the apartment. “Then you experimented on it.”
And this one too!
John parried her easily, accidentally knocking her into the wall. She slumped against the wall. “Oh god. Sorry, sorry, sorry. Are you okay?” He hurried over. Lucy got up and threw a punch at him which he quickly dodged. “John, she’s still trying to kill you. I don’t think you should go close.” “Yes. Thank you Sherlock. Can see that.” 
Lastly.. this is part of a series: Indestructible Holmes siblings
Ao3
Bogota, Colombia
“Sherlock! Wake up!” Sherlock’s head rolled limply in her head. “Come on!” She reached over and slapped him hard. Lucy was risking everything to pull him out of Colombia and that didn’t even begin and end with her cover. Everything would be futile he wasn’t alive. The man groaned, the large red handprint on his face would leave a bruise but it had broken him out of the shock that he was going into. Lucy slipped back into her cover as he became more conscious.
“Who are you?” He half moaned.
“Sstay down you idiot!” She put on a lisp accent, pushing him down to the seat. Still focusing on the bumpy road ahead, she shot him a concerned look when he did not press his questions on. “Cwot would be very disspleassed with me if I let anything happen to you.”
The van behind had been following them for the last 5 minutes. Lucy swore vehemently, muttering a hang on to the semi-conscious Sherlock, swerving the four wheel drive down an alley. A perfect tight swerve into an alley that could barely fit, she didn’t think there were going to be any drivers as good as her. She swerved down another lane, twisting and turning to throw their pursuers away. The car was going into a ditch somewhere tomorrow.
Pity.
She liked it very much. Free from the pursuers momentarily, she fumbled the dashboard and threw Sherlock a bottle of beer. He raised an eyebrow at her. There wasn’t time to explain. She spun the car into another alley, this time with another car waiting. Flinging Sherlock’s door open, she helped him into the other car and slid into it. Her hand reached to the backseats while still driving down the roads, this time in a less hectic pace.
“Put it on. Dissguisse and pouw the beew on youwsself.” Lucy didn’t need to explain further. Wherever they were going, there was no way Sherlock was going to be able to walk straight. It was less apparent and far less obtrusive pretending to be drunk and reeking of liquor. The hastily bound bandage had down a good job in slowing the blood flow to an ooze, she observed with another side-glance. He was far too quiet in this situation, had he seen through her disguise? She had eluded him even at point black in London before, there was no reason for her ability to disguise to slip up.
Sherlock groaned as he shrugged the clothes off. He was somewhat unhappy that Mycroft had sent someone to shadow him and apparently haul his ass out of there yet in the back of his head, he was very relieved. He didn’t remember how the man had done it but it was clear that he was no slouch. His mind was blanking out, unable to deduce the man that was driving. He did however agree that the man was a very good driver and had clearly a contingency plan.  He stifled another moan of pain as the man pulled him out of the car to their apparent destination. Sloshing the beer over his shoulders, he beamed widely as he could, leaning heavily onto the man to guide him to where they were going. A building with four stories and clearly no lift. “Please tell me we’re not going to the four floor,” he muttered. He didn’t think he was going to be able to climb all the way up and his rescuer didn’t have the physique to carry him up.
“No. Jusst the ssecond,” the man lisped. His lisp was terrible, how did was he even a shadow? A man with such terrible lisp would stand out like finger. Sherlock shook his head, focusing his thoughts on deducing the man in order to dull the burning pain in his abdomen. Small sized, local accent with lisp. One more flight of stairs. Blond hair, blue eyes. The man probably wasn’t in this line because of his ability to blend in. His physique indicated flexibility rather than strength.
A man was waiting for them when they reached the second landing. Sherlock had assumed his mind was blanking out due to his inability to deduce the man, but it wasn’t. The man that was waiting for them, a doctor, was perfectly deduced. He turned back to his rescuer.
“Who are you?”
The man only smiled and nodded to the doctor. “Ssafe hewe. Leave you in hiss handss.” The latter was directed more to the doctor than him.
Sherlock watch the man turn to leave and after a moment, he asked the doctor. “Who is he?”
“No one. None of us know his or her real name.”
“Her?”
The doctor nodded, his attention focused on stitching Sherlock’s wound. “He dressed very convincingly as a female. If it weren’t for his adam’s apple, I might have assumed it was a girl dressed as a man.” Sherlock nodded and with the strenuous week’s events he found himself extremely tired. “Sleep. I’ll wake you.” And though his mind rejected the thought of sleeping in an unfamiliar and uncertain whether it was secure place, his body drifted off.
It’s been done. 35 Catherine C Road. 16-23-42-01-32 – Senka
Will you be following him? – MH
If not me then who? Someone needs to keep him out of trouble. – Senka
Says the one who gets into trouble all the time – MH
:( Meanie. See you soon. XOXO – Senka
Stay safe – MH
Mycroft sighed and pinched his nose bridge. His sister and brother were going to be the death of him. Sherlock had no idea what she had risked for him but he couldn’t know that Lucy was shadowing him. Though he knew she was good at her job, he still couldn’t help but worry. This was the most dangerous thing that he had ever let her interfere and it was not his choice. If Sherlock slipped up or if her cover was blown, he would be losing the one if not both of his most important people. The thought festered like a dark pit in his stomach and there was nothing the almighty Mycroft could do except hold his breath.
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Kaunas, Lithuania
She snuck along the rooftops. Sherlock didn’t know she was shadowing him, watching his back as he limped across the bitumen. He was injured but not fatally. She would not risk exposure to assist him when he was perfectly able to do so.
A pursuer.
Her dagger left her hands, burying deep into the man’s neck even before Sherlock saw him. The pursuers would know someone is watching for him now. But she would leave it for another day. At least Sherlock was as home free as he could be.
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Karagandy, Kazakhstan
Blasted Sherlock. She swore. He had to fall terribly sick. She slipped into the room, carrying a small haversack. This time, she hadn’t bothered to disguise herself. He was sick and a familiar face would help him feel better. She placed the cool towel on his head and set about making a tiny gruel for him to stomach.
“Lucy?” he whispered through his dry cracked lips. She hovered over him, checking him once over. “Lucy is it really you and not some hallucination?” He pulled her close, savouring her natural smell and body heat. “Oh god it’s really you.”
Sherlock wept uncontrollably and she patted him awkwardly. “I’m sorry I couldn’t come earlier.”
“I kept dreaming the Moriarty caught you or killed you or he was torturing you somewhere.”  He was blabbering. He had been stuck out by himself all alone for so long and Mycroft could only help him so much.  Sherlock could never bear to ask him about Lucy. The years of their estranged relationship taking toll on him. Did she think he was dead as well? Was she weeping over his grave? Did Mycroft let her know the truth? Was she safe? Those questions plagued him at night. Dreams of Moriarty torturing her, the broken John standing over his grave, Molly watching as he left that night, Mycroft watching him as he walked into the airport. Then he dreamt that one of them had died, that he failed them and they had died. “Why didn’t you contact me earlier? Why?”
“I couldn’t. I can’t.” She wiped his grimy face with a clean towel and pressed him back into the bed. “They were watching you too closely. You’ve no idea what I’m risking to be here.” She laid a hand on his too warm face and kissed him. “Sleep. I’ll be here when you wake.”
Sherlock watched her as she busied about the stove. It had been far too long since he had seen that view. The day she left he had been busy throwing one of his ridiculous tantrums and never got to say good bye. She came back several times in-between her missions but it was never quite the same. It felt like she had been torn from his side. He watched her until his eyes drooped heavy from exhaustion and sleep overtook him.
It was evening when he woke up again. It was all a fever dream. A dream that is his sister was alive and well who came to take care of him. Sherlock laid his hand on his eyes. Taking down Moriarty’s web was far more taxing that imaginable. He wondered once again how his sister had been able to do all of it in the last four years. Had she suffered in silence?
Sherlock pulled himself up, pushing the thoughts of his sister and his irate brother aside. There was a set of clean clothes on the broken side table with an envelope.
My associate will find you three past dusk. Be ready. Food on the stove. You’ll need it.
It wasn’t signed off, but he knew who it was from. Mycroft favoured large loopy cursives and Lucy favoured tight cursives that were slanted terribly, almost messy yet somehow equally elegant. This was undoubtedly from Lucy. Sherlock breathed a sigh of relief and stumbled towards the stove. It was rice gruel with chunks of carrots, mushrooms and chicken. He shook his head thinking that perhaps it hadn’t been a fevered dream.
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Leipzig, Germany
“You’re a bloody ass!” Lucy ducked again, feeling the whiz of the bullet fly pass her wig. This time she was in the cover of the same man Sherlock had met earlier just that she chose to change the accent. She wouldn’t fool Sherlock if she tried to take on another role. Her height was far too noticeable for a man as observant as him.
“You’re my sister’s operative, aren’t you?” Sherlock chuckled. The pain was definitely making him weird. He had been lying in a pool of blood when the blond man swerved the van beside him, blocking off the gunfire momentarily and dragged him into the van without much care for the pain shooting through him. They had far more important things than to worry about his pain, far more like getting away. It was the second time the man had came to save him but it was his fourth time seeing the man. The man was good at disguises, Sherlock grudgingly admitted that. “Your accent changed.”
“Yes.” Lucy wasn’t afraid that he’d recognized her. She had placed on well-made silicon mask to hide her true face. Though why he recognized her as her operative and not Mycroft’s was bothering her and so she asked.
Sherlock folded his other hand over his bleeding side. His leg would probably need stitches too, judging by the amount of blood seeping through his hastily made bandage. “Mycroft wouldn’t have sent the same operative to shadow him. He may or may not send a local agent to shadow me instead of risking cover. My sister, on the other hand, probably values your ability to adapt and instead of sending someone that might be half assed, she chose to send someone good.”
Lucy was impressed. Not by his very wrong deduction but the fact he managed to deduce and say all that with a bleeding side, a broken leg and probably a concussion. Well, that was Sherlock alright. He never did things half-assed. She smirked and Sherlock took that as an affirmative.
“How is she?” He asked. Since that envelope, he had not gotten any news. He could have asked Mycroft but his pride wouldn’t let him.
“You could have asked your brother for your sister’s number.”
“I could contact her through the phone?” Sherlock couldn’t dare to hope. Most undercover agents were rarely that easily contactable. Even for him, Mycroft could never contact him. He would wait for Sherlock to contact him in order to tell him news. For two people constantly on the move, working behind the scenes, he had doubted he would be able to contact her. All the running and pretences will whittling him down. Two years ago, he would have been excited for all his adrenaline rush, now he just wanted a day to sit down, have a cup of English tea and not worry for pursuers or giving his cover away.
Sherlock closed his eyes. “Don’t sleep now. You have a concussion.” Lucy reached out and shook him. He wasn’t waking. She hoped it was from exhaustion. Muttering an apology, she dug her finger into his leg wound. The pain jolted him awake. “Stay with me until we reach the hospital.”
“We’re going to the hospital?” He murmured.
“Yes.”
“Why? It’s not safe.”
“You have a grade three concussion. Your right tibia is broken, you probably need ten stitches on your right thigh and you have a gun wound on your side. You need to go to the hospital. There is no underground doctor here that is capable of that.”
She jerked the handbrakes, allowing the car slide into a tight-fitting alley and pulled out a black mobile phone. “Eugenio. Incoming. Three on tails. I’m heading to the hospital.”
Sherlock marvelled at the efficiency of his work. He had previously seen his driving skills but he never knew the full extent of it. Barking commands on the phone, formulating plans and pathways and all while aggressively driving to shake the tails off. He lost track of time between the burning pain running through him and holding back the nausea. There was an almost audible relief when the van finally came to a stop and he was loaded onto a stretcher. The man was rapidly firing in German to the nurses. Just as they wheeled him away, the man pressed a paper into Sherlock’s hand.
A number.
Sherlock hesitated for a long time. Was he putting her at risk by texting her? He gave himself an insufferable sigh and pressed the send button.
Hello – SH
It was many hours later when he received a text.
Good god! Moving to Melbourne finally. Heard this news from Mattie. You know right? :) - Senka
It was a code. A simple enough code. Senka was probably her codename.
"Good to hear from you :) - Senka"
She knew he’d recognize he and it also told him that the phone she had was easily comprisable. He had to be careful with what he typed. Still, it was better than nothing. Sherlock felt his eyes wet and quickly deduced it must have been all the tension and exhaustion building up that was causing him to be excessively emotional.
Emoticons are only used by people who do not have sufficient linguistic skills – SH
terrible as ever I see. – Senka
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