#i've been looking forward to this one ever since the list first came out which is why i went WAY TOO FUCKING DETAILED

[slushiebrain]

hey remember how i said the cartoony style was supposed to be faster, literally only yesterday? *insert so yeah that was a fucking lie meme here lmao* ANYWAY here's day 3 of @pale-gamkar-week: flirting! In which Gamzee unwittingly embodies every. single. one. of Karkat's pale fantasies and Karkat is in hell.

#my stuff #pale gamkar week #pale gamkar week 2024 #gamkar #gamzee makara #karkat vantas #homestuck #tavros nitram #nepeta leijon #sollux captor #i've been looking forward to this one ever since the list first came out which is why i went WAY TOO FUCKING DETAILED #like holy shit i started working on this at 7 pm-ish #it's now 1 am #hahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...... #the shit i put myself through for these little alien bastards in love

[cheriladycl01]

Fast Cars on the Island - Oscar Piastri x LoveIslandContestant! Reader Part 1

Plot: Your an engineer for Mclaren and you were asked as a PR stunt to go onto Love Island. You would keep your job of course but Mclaren wanted some more media traction.

A/N: I know they would never do this, and that's why its fiction!

Credit to brawn-gp for the GIF

You'd basically been an intern during your placement year at McLaren as an engineering university student. They then kept you on as an employee to work with them while you completed your final year of university.

That was in 2023, it was now 2025 and you were 23 years old and had worked for McLaren for the last few years.

In recent years PR for the teams was all getting the same. They made the funny and treading tiktoks, they did the 0.5 pics, and they made the memes which never got old. But all the teams were looking for something new... something refreshing. So when the team came forward with the idea for someone to go on Love Island, Zac Brown hated the idea.

He thought it was ridiculous.

It was ridiculous.

But after some thought of how Lando and Oscar, the stellar boys of his team... young and energetic brought like likeability and youth too McLaren that everyone loved. He then realized that this would give someone in McLaren a larger platform to open up too and show the ins and outs of McLaren and it would gain way more viewers from a different group of people.

So once the car for 2025 had been created he went through a long list of all the potential candidates he'd ask to apply. Maybe he could even see if he could sway ITV in anyway.

Obviously he looked at the social media girls and then any of the mechanics that they could let loose for the potential of 10 weeks. But the one that struck him the most was you. Y/N Y/L/N.

You were the perfect candidate, you were an engineer and travelled with McLaren from race to race working on the car's performance and helping the strategists when it came to optimizing car performance with driver ability.

So that's why you were currently sat in the ITV studio doing your little interview for your introduction.

You were a little gutted they told you they wanted you in on this project as you had a massive crush on driver number 81 Oscar Piastri and you knew both him and Lando would be watching you.

The Love Island Intro:

"My love life is non-apparent I think I've had a closer relationship with my car than a man!" you joked halfway through the interview when they'd asked you about your love-life.

"My name is Y/N Y/L/N, I'm 23 years old from London! I work for a Formula 1 Team, McLaren Racing as an Engineer" you smile looking at the camera shuffling on your seat a little bit adjusting you dress.

"The lights a really bright in this studio I think my makeup's running!" you say as a makeup technician comes out fixing your under eye a little.

"I think my last relationship was my first year of University and it lasted for about a year" you answer with a thoughtful look up.

"I think he got fed up with me! At that point i was very career focused and I still am." you answer the prompted 'and why was that' question asked to you.

"I'm not fussy when it comes to looks, but I tend to go for sporty guys that are taller than me and treat me well! My dad always told me, find yourself a man that will treat you how they treat their Vintage Pontaic and I've lived by that ever since!" you admit with a little laugh.

"Where I work in such a fast paced and big industry I'm very much a socialite and people person so i can imagine I'll make friends quickly in the villa" you answer again the question they asked you.

Walking into the Villa:

You step into the Villa, you of course were wearing a Papaya Bikini with a matching coverup in the form of a cardigan but sheer.

You walk through thanking the driver before walking into the villa looking around in awe.

Maybe it wasn't the worst thing spending your entire summer here. The only thing was you were gutted you wouldn't be updated on how your team was doing at any point! This year the villa was in Greece, it had been completely reformed with the pool being more like the one from season 1 where it had the beach sort of style to it.

You round the corner seeing two gorgeous girls sipping on champagne.

"Oh, look its another girl!!! OMG HEY!!!!" the first girl shouts beckoning you over.

"Hey!" you exclaim walking over as quickly as you could in the heels you were wearing.

The first girl pulls you into a hug kissing either one of your cheeks while gripping both your arms, she was pretty tall as well around 5'11, whereas you were around 5'7 in the heels you were sporting.

The next girl hands you a drink before kissing your cheek.

"So girl! What's your name, how old are you?" the first girl asks.

"Y/N! And I'm 23! What's your names?" you ask politely before taking a sip of your champagne.

"I'm Millie, and this is Auriela!" she smiles pointing to the other girl.

Seconds later another female enters the Villa with a shrilly sort of shriek, looking around at the place.

"Omggggggg! Heyy girls whats going on!" she says in a strong Scottish Accent.

Your then introduced to Zavi before you all get chatting about what you like in boys.

Oscar and Lando's Reaction:

"Damn, who knew she looked like that under team gear!" Lando compliments shamelessly checking her out as they slow-mowed her walk out on screen before showing her intro video.

"Yeah, she's pretty" Oscar says quietly while respectfully looking her over.

Oscar had a crush on you from when he was a reserve driver for Alpine and he saw you on work experience in McLaren from the end of the 2022 season and before he joined all the way through till the September of 2023. You then were in the MTC a lot between Uni, so he saw you a lot during the winter break before you were off for your finals.

You rejoined McLaren in May of 2024 for the Monaco GP where you cam with revolutionary upgrades for Zac Brown to oversee.

And you'd been with them ever since, always in Oscar's mind as the pretty engineer who not only made his cars race fast but made his heart race just as fast too.

He watched as she said she liked sporty guys, maybe he had a chance if she didn't fall in love while in there.

"That other girls pretty fit! Mille is that her name?" Lando comments but it goes straight over Oscar's head where he's so honed in on you.

Meeting the Boys:

The presenter had you all stood in the pool, and she explained how she was about to bring the boys out one by one.

"Okay first boy. Please come out and introduce yourself!"

"Hey ladies, all looking beautiful today, my name is Jai I'm 25 and I'm a training Surgeon!" he smiles holding both hands together as he looks at all of you.

"Okay ladies, step forward if you like the look of Jai!" she says and both Millie and Zavi step forward. You don't step forward as you can imagine he's pretty busy as a doctor and your schedules would clash too much.

"Oh woah, you've got too girls that have stepped forward for you Jai, what are your first thought, we feeling good?" she asks and he nods.

"Yeah, I mean they are both gorgeous ladies!"

"Okay lets find out more. Zavi, why did you step forward?" the presenter asks and she smiles.

"We're both doctors, so i think we'd make a pretty good match, we'd have lots to talk about. Yeah and your very handsome!" she says shyly and the presenter nods.

"Awesome and Y/N you didn't step forward, just keeping you options open?" she asks and you shake your head.

"You of course are very attractive and seem like a really funny and kind guy, but I travel a lot for work and I think with you being a doctor our schedules would result in a major clash unfortunately!" you explain, with a guilty look.

He nods in understanding before he goes and stands next to Zavi in her white bathing suit.

"Our first couple, Jai and Zavi!" she says and you all clap as Jai walks next to her placing a quick kiss on her cheek.

"Okay, our second boy everyone say hello to Chris!" she introduces and another man comes walking through the double glass doors.

"Hey, I'm Chris I'm 22 and I'm a Celebrity Hairdresser" he smiles waving shyly before tucking his arms behind his back.

"Okay girls you know what to do!"

This time only Auriela steps forward. You stay in your position along with Millie.

"Okay, so Auriela has stepped forward for you Chris! Aurelia why did you step forward!" she asks and Auriela laughs.

"Holy hell have you seen him? Hi I'm Aurelia" she smiles playfully at him, he looks down a small blush on his cheeks.

"Millie, you didn't step forward this time. Any reason?" she asks.

"Little disheartened after Jai, but I'm sure my times coming. Just not with Chris, sorry my ex is a hairdresser!" she laughs off her reasoning before he ends up choosing Aurelia.

"Our second couple Chris and Aurelia!"

"Okay, Boy 3 please make yourself known!" she exclaims and another very handsome man comes strolling out. He immediately sends a wink your guys' way and pulls the presenter in to kiss her cheek in a friendly manner.

"Hi, my names Daniel, I'm 25 and I'm a footballer" he smiles crossing his arms over his broad chest.

"Okay, ladies please step forward if you like the look of Daniel" the presenter smiles. You, Millie and Aurelia all step forward.

"Sorry" Aureila says turning round to look at Chris.

"Woah, that's the most we've had step forward! And this is in fact that first time we've had Y/N step forward" the presenter says and he looks between you and Millie trying to determine who it was.

"The one in Orange!" she exclaims and he looks at you, small smirk on his face.

"Hello beautiful" he compliments and you smile at him.

Eventually after she asks Millie who pleads her case heavily, he goes with her. You step back a little sadly and he looks over to you in apology but you just nod with a smile understanding his choice.

"Okay our next couple Millie and Daniel!" she says and you all clap happily.

"Okay boy number 4 please step out and make yourself known" the presenter asks again.

"Hiya, all looking really beautiful ladies. I'm Aaron I'm 26 and I'm a freelance photographer" he introduces before making a little side joke.

You, and Zavi step forward.

"So you've got Y/N who only stepped forward for one other boy stepping forward for you in Orange and isn't currently coupled up. Then you've got Zavi's who currently with Jai" she explains and he nods.

"But of course you can choose any girl even if she's not coupled up! Y/N why did you step forward?" she asks looking at you.

"You are very handsome obviously, has that sky book guy vibe about him. But I think your photography career would go wild if you came travelling with me for my job!" you smile looking at him.

She asks Zavi why she changed her mind from Jai giving a generic answer about keeping her options open before she questions Millie and why she didn't step forward.

"Aaron, please go stand next to the girl you'd like to couple up with" the presenter says and he walks standing next to you. He places a kiss on your cheek.

"You look stunning by the way" he smiles looking down at you making you blush and elbow him to shut up. So you could see what the presenter was about to say.

"Now, all of you are happily coupled up, we have Y/N and Aaron, we have Millie and Daniel, Aureila and Chris and Zavi and Jai. However, please say hello to our final male contestant Charlie" she says and a blonde guy walks out full of confidence.

"£10 that he's out by week 2" you whisper to Aaron making him snicker a little before covering it up with a cough.

"Hi ladies, I'm Charlie I'm 28 and I'm a Physician" he smiles.

"Okay, so obviously all these ladies are currently coupled up, however you are able to choose any of them and break the couple they are currently in!" the presenter exclaims.

"Oooooof the whole lot!" he says flicking his hand looking over all of you.

"I'm going to make it easier for you and ask if the girls like the look of you for them to step forward. Please do so ladies on the count of three" she says and counts to 3.

When no-one steps forward he awkwardly shuffles.

"Come on ladies lets not be shy" he laughs, until the presenter deems no-one to step forward.

"Okay, I'll go with her in the Orange Bikini" he says pointing at you. You look away from Aaron in shock.

"Okay, Aaron please come stand here with me and Charlie please go stand next to Y/N" she says and you keep your eyes on Aaron as he walks away. He gives a nod to you and you nod back.

An understanding.

"Okay, these are our current couples, no more couplings will happen today!" she exclaims before she explains that you have time to explore the villa and get to know each other.

Oscar and Lando Reaction:

"Okay, no I understand that, good for her" Lando says shoving some plain popcorn into his mouth as he watched Y/N not step forward for Jai.

"I bet Y/N would step forward for me" Lando says as she rejects the second guy to come out Chris.

"Do you recon she'd step out for me?" Oscar asks looking over to his friend.

"Yeah mate. Your a catch. I even heard her say to Emma, the girl in marketing once that her fav accent is aussie!" Lando admits eyes glued to the screen as she steps forward for Daniel.

"She does!" Oscar exclaims looking at Lando making his pause the TV.

"Yeah, mate. Now lets watch coz this may be the future Mr Y/N in the paddock!" Lando says gesturing to the TV.

"Nah, that's foul. How you out there rejecting my girl Y/N Y/LN!" Lando screams at the TV in horror that Daniel had just gone with Millie.

They watch as the next guy walks out and Lando and Oscar raise eyebrows. It was a brown haired, brown eyed guy that did the beluga smile as he came out.

"She's so stepping forward for him!" Lando says pointing at Aaron.

"I'm already putting my money on them as winners" he comments again. And she does in fact step forward. He of course chooses her, no seconds thoughts needed. They watch as he compliments her and kisses her cheek.

"Dude, she defo had school girl crushes on us!" Lando admits seeing the similar attributes and mannerisms the mail had to the McLaren driver duo.

They wait until they see Charlie walking in.

“Nah man, he keeps eyeing her up! He’s gonna take her away from Aaron!” Lando explains, but Oscar is just unhappy that she’s coupled up with anyone in general.

He should have admitted to her ages ago that he was madly in love with her.

They then watched on as the girls all parted ways walking into the bedroom and makeup area where all their clothes were in the wardrobes with their names on!

The boys all sat around the campfire talking to each other. Not fully getting to know each other wanting to save that for dinner later on.

But Oscar didn’t know how much longer he could watch this if you were going to be flirting with people the whole time.

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[blitzyn]

relax

alhaitham x m!reader

Request: well, since requests are open, perhaps I could request an alhaitham X male s/o where s/o has been really stressed lately with school and has been overworking himself. Because of this, alhaitham being the caring boyfriend he is comes to comfort and relax his beloved s/o with sex and aftercare. If possible, pls let alhaitham call his s/o a 'good boy' and just a praise kink in general, tysm!! 💕 — @ezraelo

a/n -> this mf reminds me of my dad so i kinda wrote what I think he'd say if i was in reader's situation tbh. NOT THE SEX THOUGH. anyways pgr fic first then hate sex w/childe next its been decades since I've done him (⁠｡⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠｡⁠) sigh sometimes i forget i don’t have to write so damn much

wc -> 3.6k

cw -> soft alhaitham (heart eyes pt2), anal fingering, anal sex, praise, not beta read

merry christmas and happy holidays!!

To say you were tired was an understatement—you were exhausted. Stressed. Angry. It felt like everything that could go wrong did go wrong.

First, you accidentally woke up late, was scolded by your teacher when you arrived and made the "perfect" example on what a scholar from the Akademiya should not be. Then you had to study for several hours for a few of your upcoming exams and evaluations—all while having to take some more tests the following week.

And as if that wasn't e-fucking-nough, you had done horribly on one of your essays so now you had to redo it for a better score, on top of needing to start yet another one regarding... Something. You forgot what the prompt was. Honestly, you forgot to do a lot of things. Like eat. Or drink water. Which was something that really didn't help to improve your mood.

You stumbled through the door trying to pry your uniform off, haphazardly tossing your hat to the side. You felt like shit and wanted nothing more than to flop on your bed and stay in there for the rest of your miserable life. But, like the universe was trying to give you the biggest middle finger ever, one of the loops on your clothes got caught on the corner of a counter. While you'd normally just take it off and go on your merry way, you weren't having it today and just yanked yourself forward, tearing the loop and the fabric it was connected to.

Finally making it to your room, you flopped on the bed face-first, muffling the loud groan that came from you. You stayed like that for a moment longer before turning your head, remembering to breathe deeply.

Two knocks came from the door. "You okay?" Your boyfriend, Alhaitham, asked, leaning against the frame as he stared at you.

"You're smart. Figure it out yourself," you muttered bitterly, wincing at the accusatory tone in your voice. You sighed, deciding to face him. "Sorry."

He shrugged, walking to sit on the edge of your shared bed. "What's wrong?" He questioned, his expression unchanging even when he watched your brows furrow in irritation.

"It's just... Ugh," you grumbled, rolling your eyes childishly. "Just a bad week. It feels like everything's going against me." You rolled onto your back, arms and legs sprawled out like a starfish. "I don't think I can catch up."

"You're in the Akademiya," Alhaitham said, giving you a look that made it seem like he didn't know why you were complaining. "Obviously it's going to be hard for you."

"'For you,'" you repeated, glaring at nothing in particular, but it was getting increasingly evident that you were beginning to direct your anger towards him. "Of course you don't get it. You've been smart your whole life."

He was quiet for a moment, letting you try to calm yourself before speaking again. "Don't sell yourself short like that. It's unhealthy."

You huffed. "It's not selling myself short if it's actually true." You pressed your palms against your eyes until you saw faint fireworks coloring the darkness. "I have to redo an essay because apparently it didn't go with damn prompt. Then I have to do another one, and I don't even know where to start, and—" you listed off your problems, your voice getting higher in pitch until you were on the verge of shedding tears, overwhelmed with the sheer amount of work you accidentally accumulated.

"Hey," he interrupted you, leaning to place a hand on your thigh. "Calm down." He gave you an unimpressed look when you snapped your mouth open to retort, watching you begrudgingly close it in defeat. "Breathe. You're getting worked up over things you can change."

But when you could hardly focus on utilizing the breathing techniques he taught you, he decided to take a different approach. "Let's have sex, then."

"What? Why? 'Cause of the post-nut clarity?" You sighed, rubbing your temple to stave off the impending headache after staring at him incredulously. Damn. Sometimes you forget how straightforward he could be.

Alhaitham gave you a look. It was deadpan—because when was it not?—but you could still sense the slightest bit of confusion. "If that's how you want to word it, yes," he said, before elaborating. "Sex can also help you relax and improve your immune system."

He quickly looked you up and down, and despite not saying anything, you knew what he was trying to imply. You looked like a mess.

"It can also help improve your quality of sleep," he added, crossing his arms against his chest. "It has a few other benefits than just feeling good, you know." He watched you ponder his suggestion, chewing on your lip absentmindedly before giving in with a sigh.

"Fine. But you're doing all the work," you said, propping yourself up on your elbows to look at him better.

"That was the plan." The corners of his lips quirked up in a brief, subtle smirk as he leaned to place his hands on your shoulders to gently push you back down. "Just relax."

He continued when you nodded, running his hands along your body, gently caressing every curve and contour of your frame. An eyebrow raised in question when he felt the torn patch in your clothes but decided against mentioning it as he guided you out of your suffocating uniform with practiced ease. Already, you seemed a bit calmer than earlier, giving yourself a well-deserved stretch that made you remind him of a cat.

You felt the tension beginning to seep out of your body with every article of clothing that was carelessly tossed to the floor, reaching your hands out to tug him closer. He obliged without hesitation, sighing in satisfaction when he melded his lips with yours. His hands slid below your underclothes, snaking them upwards until they found your chest. He tweaked and pinched your nipples as he moved his way downwards, placing kisses along your jawline and neck.

You softly moaned, brushing your fingers through his hair that had him leaning into your hand. He removed your shirt, trailing appreciative kisses down your sternum. A hand made its way down your front toward your pants, slipping a hand inside to wrap his fingers around your flaccid dick. Your breath hitched, instinctively widening your legs to give him better access, much to his pleasure.

He was gentle; his hands were soft and careful, and neither of you were in a rush. You felt your eyes flutter shut as your lips parted with every quiet gasp and sigh that left you, and he couldn't help but stare.

It annoyed him how little you thought of yourself when he could clearly see you as something more. Sure, it irked him how you complained about things that could easily be changed if you put your effort into it, but you were also right. He always had it academically easy and often found it hard to connect with others or understand their problems on a level that wasn't with you. He was well aware of this issue, knowing that it often hindered his ability to comfort, and—for the first time in how long?—it frustrated him.

Even if he had no idea how to properly soften his words around you or to consistently change his facial expressions, he always showed he cared by spending time with you, teaching you new things, or helping you understand foreign concepts. But even then, he was willing to try to tell you that you were more than what those pompous Akademiya professors reduced you to, that you were better than what you said you were.

"Look at me," he said, his voice soft and smooth, coaxing your pretty eyes open. He slipped his hands out of your shirt and cupped your cheeks tenderly, ensuring your focus on him. "It doesn't matter what everyone says about you when they don't understand that you have strengths that rest beyond the traditional Akademiya expectations."

"But that doesn't—"

He gave you yet another stern look, to which you quieted down with a huff. "It's okay to struggle. Everyone does at some point. Even those professors found something difficult before they became what they are. But you know what they did?"

He paused, gauging your reaction. He was aware that what he was saying probably didn't make you feel better or make the most sense, but he hoped that you could feel the sincerity in his voice. "They took a step back, took a deep breath, and figured out what they were doing wrong. They didn't do that overnight or by working themselves to the bone. That's what you need to acknowledge."

"But all my other colleagues are doing fine, and I'm the only one struggling..." You appreciated his words, truly, but they did little to quell your worries.

"Are you? How do you know that for sure?" He countered, sliding his hands down to caress your hips. He watched you pursed your lips, squirming slightly under his gaze. "Point is, you shouldn't try to compare yourself to everyone around you and overwork yourself because that only leads to bad work and a bigger hole for you to climb out of. You have everything else to be proud of—not just your academic qualities. Understand? Besides, you made it into the Akademiya. That's something very few people can do in the first place."

You looked away with a frown, but you nodded softly. Even though it sucked knowing that you weren't the best, he did have a point. Wallowing in your own failure did nothing to better yourself, as much as you hated to admit it.

"Thanks," you muttered, sniffling a little. His thumbs swiped underneath your eyes, clearing away any of the tears that happened to escape you.

"Don't let them define you. Define yourself," he said finally, leaning back down to kiss you again. It was soft, tender, unhurried, like he wanted you to feel every ounce of affection he harbored for you. He pulled away slightly, resting his forehead against yours. "Do you still want to do this?"

You nodded again, giving him a quick peck to the lips before wrapping your arms around his shoulders. "Mhm. I really need those benefits." Plus, you didn't favor being horny and sad.

Your lips curved in a smug grin when you saw his own quirk upwards in amusement, but he didn't comment on it. He sat up to tug your pants and underwear down, revealing your semi-hard cock. You shivered instinctively but kept your focus on him, waiting in anticipation for him to continue.

He leaned over to grab a bottle of lube from your nightstand, squeezing a generous amount on his fingers before pressing one into your hole. You sighed, sinking your teeth into your lower lip. He only offered a few pumps of his hand before adding a second one in, gently spreading them apart in a scissoring motion.

He wrapped his free hand around your cock, slowly jerking you off. He rubbed his thumb over the tip to smear the precum across your skin as wet sounds gradually filled the room. You noticed his eyes locked on your face and the expressions you wore, committing them to memory. He added a third finger for good measure, feeling you tense reflexively before relaxing just as fast.

"You're doing so good, [Name]," he praised, his voice low. He curled his fingers, pressing them against your prostate. He could feel his cock twitch in his pants at the sound of your moan, straining against the fabric. "I'm almost done. Then we can start."

You nodded, inhaling sharply through your nose when he began targeting the sensitive spot inside you. You could practically feel every surge of heat shoot up and down your spine, ending at your fingertips. Alhaitham could feel it too, every time your cock throbbed in his hold.

Your body felt warm and tingly when he moved both hands away from your body, wiping them off using a few tissues atop your nightstand. He grabbed the lube again and poured some on his palm to coat his cock, using his free hand to spread one of your thighs a bit wider. He peered up through his lashes, subtly raising an eyebrow in question. He continued as soon as you nodded, slowly pushing himself inside you.

You both let out a satisfied groan as he filled you, grasping onto his wrists as he held onto your hips.

"Fuck," he hissed, pushing further until he bottomed out completely. "You're such a good boy. You're taking me in so well." He perked up in attention when he felt you tighten at his words, noting how your eyes fluttered shut like you were savoring them. He wasn't overly aware of this newfound information, but maybe you had accidentally brought it to his attention now that you're stressed?

Either way, he didn’t comment on it, instead deciding to continue. “You feel so good, [Name]," he praised, leaning down to press his lips against the skin underneath your earlobe. You could feel the low rumble of his voice vibrating in your ear, sending shivers down your spine. He let you take a moment to adjust to him before moving, gently thrusting his hips.

You noticed him moving away again as you opened your eyes, finding yourself enamored with the way his muscles flexed in every movement of his. Soft gasps and moans left your lips when you looked up, instantly noticing his gaze on you.

“Stop staring at me,” you mumbled shyly, squirming a bit. It wasn’t that you hated having him look at you—frankly, that’s all you longed for sometimes, it’s just that what you did hit you. Being as vulnerable as you were wasn’t something you preferred, even when Alhaitham didn’t berate you for it.

“You were staring at me, first,” he countered swiftly, and you could hear the rare undertone of his amusement in his voice. It was your favorite sound. “Besides, what’s the harm in looking at the most handsome man in Sumeru?” His monotony nearly made his words laughable, but you could see that he was genuinely trying. Knowing that sent butterflies in your stomach all over again.

You looked away, effectively flustered with all his attention. “It’s embarrassing…”

“Only because you make it embarrassing,” he said, sliding a hand upwards to toy with one of your nipples. He subtly shifted his hips, angling them so that his cock better pressed against your prostate. He watched you intently when you let out a throaty moan, feeling his dick throb inside you.

You reflexively clenched your thighs tighter against his hips, sinking your teeth into your lower lip. You snaked a hand down to your leaking cock, wrapping your fingers around the base to give it a squeeze. “You can go faster,” you muttered, looking down to watch the way he slid in and out of you.

He nodded with a quiet hum, adjusting his grip on your waist to shift the weight on his knees to sacrifice his slower, deeper thrusts for quick and shallow ones. Moaning, you jerked yourself off in time with his movements, unable to tear your gaze away from him, even for a moment. Your eyebrows furrowed in concentration as you brought your free hand up to bring him closer to you by the back of his head. You kissed him needily and fervently, letting out noises that mixed in with the wet sounds that came from your hole. Your body rocked gently, listening intently to the rustling of your bedsheets and Alhaitham’s deep, husky breaths.

Suddenly, he lifted a hand up to place over your abdomen, lightly pushing down on it just as he buried himself balls deep inside you. He paused for a moment, sighing as he watched you squirm at the sudden stop before continuing, feeling himself move in and out of you. You could feel the heat in your belly intensifying with every thrust to your prostate, back arching, legs tightening around his waist.

“Fuck, I’m…” you panted, clenching tighter around his cock. “I’m so close, ‘Haitham.”

“I know. I can feel you,” he said, gently moving your hand away from your leaking cock to wrap his fingers around it. Quiet slaps mixed in with your soft noises and his breathy grunts as he fucked you a bit harder, eyes fixated on the blissful expression on in your face. His dick throbbed inside you as he eagerly chased after his own orgasm, leaning down to press his lips to your jaw, kissing up towards your ear.

“C’mon, [Name], cum for me,” he whispered, sending yet another wave of heat shoot up and down your spine. You could hardly stop the stream of moans that spilled from your lips as he focused on the tip of your cock, rubbing his thumb on the sensitive spot just below it, as if trying to coax out your cum.

“Oh god,” your voice was strained as you felt the coil in your stomach tighten to an unbearable degree, trying to hold out just a little longer. “F—Fuck! Alhaitham!” You moaned in ecstasy when you finally came, squeezing your eyes tightly shut. You tensed and trembled as your dick spurt cum on your stomach and his fingers as he helped you ride out your high.

“You’re so beautiful when you orgasm,” he groaned, his thrusts beginning to lose rhythm as he neared his own climax. He dug his fingers into your waist tighter, muttering praises into your ear when you began squirming at the discomfort of your overstimulation. It didn’t take much longer for him to finish as he stilled, gritting his teeth when he quickly pulled out to stroke himself to completion. He sighed in satisfaction when his orgasm subsided, leaving your abdomen coated in ropes of his cum.

“Wh—Why did you pull out?” You panted, wiping a bead of sweat off of your forehead.

“Isn’t it annoying to clean up afterward? You're always complaining about it whenever we have sex,” he questioned after a moment, taking a second to bask in the afterglow before getting up to reach for a tissue to clean your skin. He put his pants back on, gathering your clothes to put them in a laundry basket.

You shrugged. “I mean, sometimes. But I’m gonna take a bath either way.” You blinked in confusion when you saw him quirk a brow, fidgeting a bit when he didn’t stop staring at you.

“No. You’re going to sit and wait here while I make you something to eat, first,” he instructed, leaving no room for negotiation. “Afterwards, you’re going to go to sleep. Then you can take a bath when you wake up.”

As if on cue, your stomach growled audibly, quickly reminding you that you haven't eaten anything since yesterday. "But then I'm gonna be all sticky and gross when I eat," you said, knowing how much he disliked having dirty bedsheets for too long. It surprised you when he shrugged, leaning against the doorframe as he waited for you to decide.

"If you want to take a bath first, then I'll help you," he offered. You swiftly nodded, wanting to eat clean and comfortably. He nodded and told you to wait for a moment as he prepared the water for you, leaving you by yourself for a while until he returned. The two of you walked into the bathroom where a bathtub of warm water awaited you. But just as you raised your leg to enter, a sudden wave of dizziness overcame you. Luckily, Alhaitham was there to keep you from falling with a firm hand on your arm, carefully helping you into the water.

"Are you okay?" He asked, his eyes darting across your face for any sign of distress. He relaxed upon seeing nothing but waited for your response for further confirmation.

"Yeah. It's just something that happens when I get too hungry, y'know?" You explained sheepishly, splashing some of the water onto your arms and back.

"No, I don't know." He ignored the way you rolled your eyes. "I'll be right back, then."

You hummed to yourself, not minding his absence as you savored the warmth surrounding you, resting your head against the edge of the tub. You nearly fell asleep in the time it took for Alhaitham to return, jumping in surprise at the sound of his voice.

"Hey," he spoke, returning to your side with a bowl in his hand. "Eat this for now."

He kneeled down, bringing the bowl close enough to let you reach in and take whatever was inside. They were fruits, you saw as you happily grabbed one, tossing it into your mouth. You had to stop yourself from grabbing a handful and eating it all in one go, forcing yourself to appreciate every bite. You noticed him shifting behind you, leaning forward instinctively when he began cleaning your back with a small, wet towel.

The two of you basked in the comforting silence for a while as you let him take care of you until you turned your head to face him. "I love you," you said with a little grin.

"I know," he replied, putting the bowl onto the floor.

"Say it back." You pouted, but you knew he was only teasing.

His mouth quirked up in a faint smile, leaning forward to give you a quick peck on your lips. "I love you too."

#alhaitham x male reader #reader insert #genshin impact #male reader #male reader insert #reader smut #reader #genshin impact smut #male reader smut #x male reader #genshin smut #al haitam x reader #alhaitham x reader smut #alhaitham x reader #alhaitham x you #alhaitham x y/n #alhaitham x male reader smut #x sub male reader #bottom reader #dom character #top character #gay

[hopelesslyromanticshark]

hi are your rqs open? if not feel free to delete this but I love your writing and was wondering if you could do will solace x platonic!fem!aphrodite kid!reader childhood friends type thing? (that's a lot of "!" s lol) like they both came to camp at the same time and have been friends since they were both in the Hermes cabin and are still besties? like I can imagine reader and will teaming up to make fun of Nico (affectionately)

⋆⭒˚.⋆ platonic! will solace x daughter of aphrodite! reader hcs

content: platonic! will solace x daughter of aphrodite! reader hcs warning: language i believe???? this ones jsut silly goofy author's note: I FEEL SO BAD THIS TOOK ME LIKE A MONTH IM SO SORRY I JUST- THERE WAS A LOT OF PRESSURE I FELT- YA KNOW??? IDK IDK HOPE YOU LIKE IT, IF NOT I TOTALLY AGREE LETS BURN IT TOGETHER-

it was will's first day at camp and he was already missing his mom

just like this deep and unstoppable want for his mom

so he was being mopey and staying away from everyone, even though he wanted to make friends and have fun, he just couldn't bring himself to do so

until he met you

you were bubbly and insistent

and annoying

but, you managed to pull will out of his slump

you were also staying in the hermes cabin, unclaimed as can be

"do you think i could catch this grape?" you asked with a wide smile

"no way," will insisted, pretending to put on a scowl

you did catch it, crushing the grape between your teeth with a wide smile before holding your perfected manicured hand out to him

"i'm y/n. you?"

"will."

that shake of hands was the start of something beautiful

beautifully annoying

you two bounce off of each other, radioactively

like annoyingly fun sunshine characters x2 fr

and then will got claimed by apollo

he'd be helping put band aids on little kids when it happened

obviously he was met with loud cheers from the apollo cabin and feasts in his name or whatever

but he couldn't shake the look on your face when you thought he wasn't looking

just pure self doubt, unsure if it would ever be you in that situation

from that day forwards, will was determined to never see you look like that again

naturally, you guys tried seeking out your godly parent through doing things to see what you were naturally good at but all the tests held no water

after a few weeks, you waved will off, arguing that you were fine and that the hermes cabin was nice

which was a blatant lie, as that place was so packed and you didn't even have a bed

but, as much as will tried to argue, you shot him down every time

then, one evening, you and will were sitting around the campfire, a burnt marshmallow hanging off your stick, but that's the way you preferred them

you were raving on and on about some son of ares before turning to will, a soft and slightly teasing smile on your lips

"what about you, any girls caught your eye?"

"yeah, i guess," will replied, half heartedly, slightly turning away

you watched him for a moment before setting your stick down and grasping will's hands, pulling them into your own and forcing the boy to look into your eyes

"will."

"y/n."

"...have any guys caught your eye?"

"...maybe."

"omg, which ones?!" you instantly gushed, smiling brightly at him and giving his hands a squeeze

will listed a few but he quickly realized they didn't matter anymore, none of it did

it mattered to him how quickly you were to accept him, how quickly you were to share the love

and also, the hot pink dove floating above your head kinda drew his attention away

you barely noticed, yapping about whether or not you thought the guys will listed off were gay or not

when it finally did catch your eye, you nearly cried, squeezing your eyes shut with a wide smile before turning to will, tightening your hold on his hands

"thank you."

"why are you thanking me?"

"i don't think i've loved anyone like i love you, stupid. clearly, my mom noticed that."

CRYING WTF

anyways moving on to the torture of nico di angelo

you literally played matchmaker for MONTHS trying to get nico and will together, only for them to ALREADY BE DATING

will felt so bad keeping it from you (but also he was having fun being sneaky)

dont worry, he makes it up to you by having you be his best lady at his and nico's wedding

i just know that wedding speech goes crazy, laughing one sec, crying the next

hot take, i think children of aphrodite will just naturally take a shine to public speaking, i just think that's something they'd be good at

now, you and will had a weekly self care day, which you've been doing for YEARS

the whole nine yards, im meaning, face masks, foot masks, gua sha-ing, click flicks, orange juice and apple juice in fancy glasses

so, when nico and will started dating, you offered for nico to come for one of them, beaming a smile at the gloomy boy

he agreed to be there but outright refused to do any of the stuff

he kept coming back and week by week he started doing more until he had a face mask on and pomegranate juice in a wine glass, yelling at reality tv louder than you and will combined

at first, nico wasn't exactly your biggest fan

he would always say you took away will time or you were just too bubbly for your own good

but in reality, you reminded him too much of bianca

you tried your best to take care of him and will, always had snacks in your purse and band aids in your pockets

you were sweet and kind and it hit nico right in the chest

and you could tell, ever intuitive to people's feelings, so you pulled back and let nico figure it out for himself

in his own time, he warmed up to you, a while you still laugh in the same bianca did and sometimes you wrinkle your nose just like she used to, now he can look it with a fondness rather than guilt

and will was overjoyed when they were starting to connect

ummm his best friend and his boyfriend being besties??? yes pls

both you and nico fight for the great cause of Will Solace Getting Eight Hours Of Sleep agenda

constantly dragging that boy out of the infirmary together, each looping one arm

those are the days that will regrets that you guys are such good friends, kicking and screaming to get back to the infirmary

OH OH OH and you and will get mistaken as a couple all the time bc daughter of aphrodite things and you guys just progressively more funny with your responses.

"ewwwww that's my uncle grossssss."

"this chick?? she's not my girlfriend! i bought her off of ebay for a nickel, please."

"boyfriend?? bro, i'm a nun, wtf??"

"girlfriend?? bro, i'm a priest, wtf??"

the person always walks away feeling very confused while you two turn into a puddle of laughs on the ground.

all in all, you and will are a silly goofy pair that have your mushy gushy moments

#postcards from covey ౨ৎ #all my love ౨ৎ #pjo #pjo fandom #percy jackon and the olympians #will solace #nico di angelo

[smartycvnt]

Not Lost, But Found

Title: Not Lost, But Found Pairing: Gale Weathers x Reader Summary: Gale agrees to help a young journalist make a name for herself and finds something unexpected throughout the process. R WC: 2162

"Excuse me, Ms. Weathers," Y/n just barely managed to get out through heavy pants. Gale had half a mind to run off, but she recognized the young woman even as she was hunched over. Y/n was nothing but persistent in Gale's mind. Gale had rejected her pleas for apprenticeship again and again, and yet, Y/n always came back seeking help. This time, Y/n held a magazine in her hand, most likely containing an article that Gale had admittedly already read inside of it. "I did it, I did what you asked. I got myself published, something out in the world for others to read and critique."

"You don't quit, do you?" Gale chuckled as she took the article from Y/n. She read through it one more time, pretending as if it was the first time that she had ever read it. There article was well-edited, but done so without tearing away at the unique things that Y/n's writing brought forward. Gale didn't know much about the music scene that Y/n had been writing about, but she had heard good things from journalists who were in that scene. There wasn't much room for writing about music like that anymore unless she started her own publication, but Y/n had a ways to go until her name held the respect needed to do so. Gale applauded her for branching out into investigative journalism, which Y/n had admitted the first time they met each other wasn't her career focus. However, everybody had to start somewhere and studying under Gale Weathers was Y/n's preferred method.

"No, ma'am," Y/n said as she stood up straighter. Gale took in Y/n's appearance, which had been cleaned up significantly since the last time they had seen each other. She no longer looked like some wannabe undercover journalist with her jeans and hoodie. Y/n wasn't dressed for any galas or big events, but she looked like a respectable professional. Gale wasn't too prideful to admit that Y/n looked good and attractive enough to be put on one of those ridiculous top ten hottest news anchor lists that Gale had once been a frequent flyer of. "And before you ask, I've been picked apart by more people than I care to count and I'm still here."

Gale smirked at Y/n's words as she thumbed through the magazine. Y/n's writing was much more entertaining and painted a better picture than a lot of what Gale had read through. Y/n was able to invoke emotion, which Gale knew was a skill that some people spent years working towards. She would be a fool to reject Y/n again to have the woman study under someone else. Gale loved the idea of being name dropped as Y/n's mentor whenever the woman inevitably won an award for her literary prowess. Sighing, Gale closed the magazine and placed it back into Y/n's hands.

"You're improving. You've been listening to me enough to be half-decent. I can work with that," Gale told her. Y/n looked disappointed for a moment, as if she expected Gale to once again reject her. That look soon changed as Y/n's eyes widened along with her smile. Gale's heart started to beat a little faster with Y/n smiling at her like that. Y/n started to move in like she was going to hug Gale, but the older woman quickly put a stop to it. "Ah, ah, ah. Not so fast, I'm mentoring you. This isn't a friendship, it's just me making sure that you don't end up writing ridiculous fluff pieces of websites like Buzzfeed."

"Nobody really writes there anymore, but, um, thank you Ms. Weathers," Y/n said. Gale pinched the bridge of her nose as she turned away from Y/n.

"Second thing, don't call me that. Gale is fine since we'll be seeing a lot of each other."

Gale hadn't been sure what to expect from Y/n whenever they got to work. The young woman's writing was impressive, even if Gale was appalled by her writing process. The talent was there for Y/n, but it was her presentation that needed work. Gale thought there was something charming about Y/n, something that reminded Gale of Dewey. It was selfish, but Gale wanted to keep that to herself. She lied to herself and Y/n whenever she told Y/n that it was vital that Y/n create a public persona, something aloof and distant from her true self to shield her heart. Y/n had tried it, but Gale found that she started liking Y/n more and more whenever that strategy just didn't take.

"Uh oh, why do you have that look on your face like I just messed something up?" Y/n was a lot of things, but Gale knew the woman wasn't stupid. She could be a bit arrogant and stubborn, but that didn't make her stupid, just difficult. Gale was certain that there had to be a good reason for Y/n to pass up writing for a magazine like Rolling Stone, but for the life of her, she couldn't figure out why. That was the sort of thing that writers like Y/n dreamed about, and Gale just had to sit through a phone call where one of the head editors chewed her out for how her protege rejected them.

"Because I just got off the phone with Rolling Stone, and they're not too happy with you. What the hell did you say to that man?" Gale asked. She leaned against the side of Y/n's desk with her arms crossed over her chest. Gale had learned that stance was the easiest to get Y/n to just say what she was going the most directly.

"They wanted me to write a slam piece, and I said no. He told me that I was making a big mistake, and I said that I didn't want to be known for reaching so low. Then, I might have exchanged some less than respectful words after he commented on who I had chosen to work with." Y/n rubbed the back of her neck awkwardly as she explained herself. Gale's "no bullshit" facade fell when Y/n admitted to defending her. Integrity hadn't been something that Gale had held as virtuous whenever she had been starting out, hence her entire little feud with Sidney in their youth. She had been ambitious and allowed that to corrupt her work, something that Y/n outright refused to do. Her loyalty made Gale's chest warm up, almost uncomfortably.

"I think you're an idiot, but I'm also very impressed. They'll never be able to say you weren't an honest woman, which is more than they can say for me," Gale complimented. Y/n was absolutely beaming at the compliment, which was rare from Gale. Y/n knew that she was a good writer, but it was when Gale made comments on her character that always made Y/n feel the best. "Just don't make a habit of insulting big names because there's not a lot of damage control that I am able to do on my own."

"Yes, ma'am," Y/n said with a mock salute. Gale smiled and let out a small chuckle as she walked back to her own office. She closed the door and leaned back against it as the realization that nobody had made her happy like that in a long time settled in. Gale didn't know how Y/n was doing it, but she feared that their relationship wouldn't be just professional for much longer.

Months went by as Gale pretended that she hadn't slipped up again. She ignored the way that Y/n looked at her, up until the moment when Y/n stopped. Gale started to long for Y/n's attention in a way that Gale hadn't expected herself to for anybody. Not even Dewey had ever managed to drive Gale crazy like that. She felt like she was losing her mind, and not even the anniversary of her first book release was enough to distract her from the raging battle of emotions going on inside of Gale's head.

"It doesn't get easier, does it?" Sidney had been somewhat surprised by Gale sticking so closely to her side during the party. It was a room full of people who were fully prepared to stroke any part of Gale's ego that she wanted, and yet, she had gone straight to the one person who wouldn't give in. At the very least, Sidney had expected the young woman Gale had been gushing about for the past three and a half months to stay at Gale's side. Instead, Sidney watched as Gale eyed the woman from across the room with a sort of jealous look any time that someone else got too close.

"What doesn't get easier?" Gale asked as she turned to face Sidney. She was still watching Y/n out of the corner of her eye as Y/n spoke with some guy at a publishing company in London who had begged Gale for an invitation. She knew that it was the set-up Y/n needed in order to launch her career in the direction she wanted, but that didn't mean Gale wasn't sad about the idea of losing Y/n.

"Losing someone," Sidney answered.

"Dewey has been gone for a long time. The worst part is that I'm used to waking up alone now."

"I wasn't talking about Dewey. You haven't taken your eyes off of that girl all night. Although, from the distance, I'd say you packed her bags for her already," Sidney said as she linked her arm with Gale's. "You should talk to her before you shut her out completely. She looks just as miserable tonight as you do."

"I'm fine," Gale lied. Sidney hummed as she started to walk Gale over towards Y/n. Gale realized what was happening just a few seconds too late. Y/n excused herself to meet the two women halfway across the room. "You seem to be very popular tonight."

"A wise old woman once told me that you never know where you might meet your next opportunity," Y/n teased.

"What did I tell you about calling me an old woman?" Gale shot a glare at Y/n.

"What? It's not like you're gonna punish me." Sidney's eyes widened as she glanced between Gale and Y/n. For the first time that night, Gale separated herself from Sidney completely as she pulled Y/n away from the party. Y/n was a bit nervous that she'd get her ass chewed out, but all of that went away whenever Gale stopped and took Y/n's hands in hers. "Are you going to tell me why you've been weird these past few weeks?"

"Are you taking the job in London?" Gale asked. Y/n's eyes narrowed as she looked down at Gale.

"What job in London? If you're referring to Mr. McAlister, he hasn't offered me a job. Even if he did, I've already told him that I'm not interested in moving," Y/n told her. Gale sighed as she let go of Y/n's hands. "Aren't you happy that I'm staying?"

"No! You need to go and make a name for yourself. What is keeping you here?"

"The fact that I don't want to work for anybody else. Have you been paying attention to anything that I've been doing while I'm with you? My website is really starting to take off, I don't need to move to London to work for some music magazine that was big ten years ago, but fell off in the age of the internet. I can stay here with you where I belong," Y/n said. Gale leaned back against a brick wall as she looked at Y/n. "I can't explain it, but I don't think this is the right time to leave. So, if you want to get rid of me, you're gonna have to kick me out."

"I can't imagine why you'd want to stay. I know what everybody thinks of me, I'm a bitter, old woman."

"I've always kind of been into the mean cougar vibe," Y/n joked as she stepped towards Gale. Y/n planned on kissing her, but Gale beat her to the punch instead. Y/n's head was spinning as she tried to take in the feeling of Gale's lips pressed against her own. Y/n parted her lips slightly to deepen the kiss, but Gale pulled back.

"If you ever call me a cougar again, I'll have Sidney shoot you."

"Noted," Y/n said as she stepped away from Gale. "Now, come on, you have a party to enjoy. There's at least a good five years left in you before you can start the crazy, reclusive writer shtick."

#my writing #one shots #scream x reader #scream #gale weathers x reader #gale weathers

[isahorcrux]

WIP TAG GAME

Thanks @kay-elle-cee and @alittlebitofeverything23 for the tags — since my life has turned upside down (work, and also Percy) I feel like it'll be good to do a little state of the union.

1. List the titles your top five priorities for WIP updates (link your fics for new readers!)

2. An upcoming scene, event, or detail in each fic that you're looking forward to writing

3. Bonus: make a poll for your followers to vote on which top 5 WIP they are most excited to see an update on!

4. Then tag 10 writer friends!

Titles

1. love, james -- jily love, rosie au multi-chapter.

2. london is lonely -- jily modern muggle au multi-chapter.

3. I am no mother, I am no bride -- jily first war au one-shot

4. a false start -- some with arrows, some with traps jily prequel

5. the hen do -- modern muggle au jily one shot (based on an incident that happened at a bachelorette I went to this year)

There are some spoilers upcoming so if you're behind on reading maybe don't read onwards...

Upcoming Writing

1. This is going to sound incredibly unhinged, but as we near the birth of James and Niamh's baby I was getting really nervous writing the rest of this fic. I don't have children and I'm not entirely sure I ever will, so I was worried about authentically writing the scenes to come. That being said, since adopting Percy, the nonexistent maternal bones in my body have awoken slightly, so I'm actually really excited to dive into the complexities of James and Niamh as parents.

2. london is lonely is one of my more popular fics, so I'm honestly excited to give the people what they want with fic (which seems to be another chapter). There's going to be an upcoming twist that I came up with pretty early on in this fic writing process that I'm excited for people to see. Moving forward I really want to stop over thinking this fic and really use it to write just to write (which was it's intended purpose).

3. I'm excited to see how I end up ending this fic. The reason this hasn't been published yet is because I have no idea what choice I want Lily to make at the end of this one. I think once I've got the latest chapters of london is lonely and love, james out, I really want to spend some time marinating on this one.

4. I love swa lily and james, so I'm really excited to get back into their POV. I also can't wait to write them falling apart, because that truly is the most exciting part of fic writing for me (evil? yes.)

5. This is a very fun one shot idea that I just can't wait to expand. It's based on a bachelorette I went on where the bride's wallet was stolen (nothing ended up happening irl, but excited to completely extrapolate for THE PLOT). Also the stag do jokes are just WRITING THEMSELVES.

Tagging a whole host of people that I'm sure might have already been tagged if you fancy: @thequibblah @clare-with-no-i @emeralddoeadeer @firefeufuego @oyprongs @possessingtheproperspirit @theesteemedladydebourgh @nodirectionhome-ao3 @mipwrites @sunshinemarauder and anyone else who'd like to do the wip tag!

#isahorcrux writes #wip tag game

[johannesviii]

Top 10 Personal Favorite Hit Songs from 2023

What a weird year for pop music, full of strange trends, confusing garbage and unexpected hits. Once again, even if the charts don’t always reflect it, music as a whole is currently very interesting to follow closely.

Disclaimers / Rules:

I’m using both the year-end top 100 lists from the US and from France while making these lists. There’s songs that charted in my country way higher than they did in the US, or even earlier or later, so that might get surprising at times.

No song that I already put on a previous list is elligible.

No old hit song that is re-charting due to a holiday or a trend is elligible either.

Of course there will probably be stuff in French somewhere on this post. We suck. I know. It’s my list. Deal with it.

My musical tastes have always been terrible.

I have sound-to-color synesthesia which justifies nothing but might explain why I have trouble describing some songs in other terms than visual ones.

A lot of bad stuff happened to me this year (several accidents in a row, and also my cat died) but some good stuff too, thank goodness. I only went to two concerts this year (Bloodywood and BMTH), but they were both absolutely amazing. Pretty sure the Bring Me The Horizon one was the best concert I ever went to, actually, and there's a lot of competition considering all the great ones I went to in 2022. I'm just sad 100 gecs had to cancel theirs, I was really looking forward to it. Oh well.

Let’s start with the good or interesting albums that came out in 2023, and oh my, that's a long list already.

Albums

Starting as usual with stuff that disappointed me: Depeche Mode's Memento Mori was... actually it was all right, but I miss the days when I could get excited about a new Depeche Mode album, I really do.

Pink Tape by Lil Uzi Vert was a giant fucking mess. There's some absolute bangers on it, and then you get to the next track and it's the worst thing you've ever heard. Which makes for an interesting listening experience, for sure, but one I'm in no hurry to repeat. At least it's never boring.

After the Magic by Parannoul isn't exactly my cup of tea, but you should definitely listen to it once, I think. It's something special. It might grow on me, though, because I only listened to it for the first time last month.

On the other hand, I listened to Scaring the hoes by Jpegmafia and Danny Brown a while ago, and while this one is definitely not my cup of tea, it's also a ton of fun and I don't feel like a single second of my time was wasted on it. You should listen to it for the samples alone, and just out of sheer curiosity if nothing else.

A kiss for the whole world by Enter Shikari is a weird beast, because the singles are absolutely incredible, but then the rest is a big pile of nothing (at least in my opinion). But the singles, man. I really don't know how to judge it as a whole, the quality is on a rollercoaster.

Kind of the same thing happened with Electric Sun by VNV Nation, one of my favorite bands of all times if not my favorite, if you recall. Some tracks completely floored me, the rest was meh. Oh well. Noire was so incredibly good that I can live with an average VNV album dropping after it.

Fanfare by Dorian Electra was full of absolute bangers but... I don't know, there's some of the madness of the previous record missing. And yes, I'm saying the album containing the minion line (you know the one) is more serious than My Agenda. Go figure. But it's still very good!

Two different friends told me to listen to 4D by Blank Banshee, so I did, obviously. Great electro album. Send tweet

I'm not entirely sure what to think of Atta by Sigur Rós. I cried several times while listening to it for the first time and it's a genuinely impressive series of tracks, but it's also so devastating I've only relistened to it twice since then.

I only discovered Svalbard a couple of years ago, and this year they dropped The weight of the mask, which might be even better than their previous album. It's mostly about depression and trying to fake normality while being depressed. Not a very pleasant topic, and yet this is full of energy and... hope? Everything sounds unbearably bright and between the screams, you feel like everything will be better eventually. Great stuff.

Speaking of depression, there's also No joy by Spanish Love Songs. If you recall their previous album was my album of the year a few lists ago. Their sound changed slightly, and at times it almost sounds like The Killers, but not in a bad way. There's a couple of tracks I don't like very much, but the writing is still on point, and some tracks are among my faves I put in the "unelligible songs" part.

Census Designated by Jane Remover, on the other hand, came out of nowhere just to kick me in the face. I don't even know what to say about that one. Go listen to it.

I found Gunship almost by accident a few months ago, and they immediately dropped a new album, called Unicorn. It's just a huge pile of great synthpop through and through - if you don't mind a couple of really stupid lines (godddd that third track is full of them). The other downside is that it's way too long (more than an hour), and if it was up to me, I'd remove at least four tracks from it. Unlike...

...10000 gecs by, who else, 100 gecs. It's less than half an hour long and it's so fun and so varied in its sounds and so stupid while still being incredibly well produced. For the longest time I couldn't decide which one of the last five albums on this list was my favorite, and then I relistened to all of them in a row and felt compelled to play this one a second time after I was done. Definitely worth the wait.

Unelligible Songs

This is kind of a non-hits rec list of sorts, but you know the drill. I also have to mention that two songs from previous lists (The Magic Key by One-T and Dernière Danse by Kyo 2003 represents) recharted this year for some unfathomable reason.

Gonna start with my fave tracks on some of the albums I already mentioned. Because why not.

The only song I consider great on the Depeche Mode album was People are good which sounds like character development considering People are people also exists

Speaking of Depeche Mode, one band arguably out-depeche-moded them this year so let me introduce you to ††† (Crosses) with Ghost ride, Invisible hand and Holier

Lil Uzi Vert is next with Suicide doors and its deranged intro immediately followed by FUCK YOU, AND FUCK YOUR BITCH then Uzi following that by stating they're the Crow. Yes, really. Also there's Werewolf, literally a Bring Me The Horizon song with Lil Uzi Vert on it, and if I had a nickel every time that happened this year I'd have two nickels, which isn't much but-

Wait let me interrupt this list with another song called Werewolf which I've listened to WAY too much this year. It's the kind of song you listen to ironically at first but after the tenth time that happens you realise it's no longer ironic and you love it for real. Seeing Motionless In White live kinda helped, not gonna lie, but still

For Enter Shikari, we have A kiss for the whole world, Bloodshot, and especially [pls] set me on fire, which might be one of my most listened to tracks of 2023, actually

VNV Nation had Wait, Invictus, and Artifice, which are all absolute bangers in my opinion. Ronan is angry and we love to hear it

By the way this year Pink released an extremely VNV-like song called Trustfall and it's very good but also uncanny

Kylie Minogue is also doing something vaguely similar with Hold on to now but in a more mainstream normal way btw

And then for something completely different, we have Dorian Electra singing about obsessive fans on Symphony, fame on Wanna be a star, and most importantly writing anon hate and immediately deleting it on anon

Run is the first track of the Blank Banshee album I rec'd and it's only one minute long so listen to it maybe

Technically I can recommend Gold if you want some taste of the Sigur Rós album but you need to listen to the entire album to get the full crushing effect

Svalbard isn't going to lighten up the mood with How to Swim Down and Faking it

Neither is Spanish Long Songs with Clean-up crew, Marvel, Here you are and Lifers, the last one being notable for having what's possibly my fave bridge of the entire year, and all of them for being endlessly quotable. Stay alive out of spite everyone

Also not lightening up the mood is Jane Remover with Census Designated on the album also called Census Designated

But what's this? It's Gunship with a steel chair trying to punch some joy into this list with Holographic heart, Nuclear Date Night, Taste like venom and Monster in paradise!!

And the gecs with a second steel ch- wait no it's a plastic chair shaped like a frog. Anyway here's Dumbest girl alive and Hollywood baby, and both of them go wayyy harder than they have any rights to

ok that was a lot of songs already. Here's Everything goes on by Porter Robinson as a palate cleanser

Also the first reggaeton song to ever end on one of my playlists, Sci-fi by Tainy and Rauw Alejandro

Also I'm gonna put a gif here otherwise Tumblr won't let me post something with such a long uninterrupted list in it

Ok back to the list of recs

Let's get the humiliation out of the way and say that this year I listened to Raining blood but it's super emo more than I ever listened to Raining blood in all my years combined

Oh yeah and Linkin Park released some old (finished and unfinished) tracks from the Meteora era and I'm kinda pissed off cause Lost missed the year end list. Fighting myself is excellent too, and if you want a really heartwrenching unfinished track, Resolution has a giant Chester-shaped hole where its chorus should be and the lyrics make it even worse. You're welcome

Possibly the most mainstream song on this entire rec list but I'm also pissed off Bad Idea right? by Olivia Rodrigo didn't chart enough to count for my top ten hit songs

I can offer you Eat the acid by Kesha if you want an awesome but mildly disturbing listening experience

For some electro/future pop here's Head over heels by Solitary Experiments

Wait there's also Bring the noise by Neuroticfish

Over is there if you need some Chvrches doing some Chvrching

Justice for Gladiator by Jann

Pointing at Even Jesus got the blues by Gabe Lee and saying I would listen to more country if it sounded half as good as that song, not like anyone cares

Holding on to nothing by Sierra. Send tweet

Northwind + Sky-colored dream by Strawberry Hospital and Parasite Heart is just seven minutes of cool pastel screams

And for an absolute goth banger everyone collectively decided to ignore here's Train to Harlem by Korine

I can't get enough of Nosebleeder by Lil Lotus and that's probably mildly embarrassing at my age but I've decided to stay mildly embarrassing forever

kisses by Slowdive if you want vibes and vibes only

Blood and sugar by Boys Like Girls if, like me, you want something that sounds exactly like The 1975

Choose your fighter by Ava Max if you want something that sounds exactly like Barbie Girl

I really wish I could explain what my feelings are every time I listen to The King by Anjimile but the only thing I'm sure about is that I'm feeling something a LOT and that it's terrifying

On a lighter note here's Mall rat by Durry, a very upbeat pop punk song about mall goth teenagers having fun and it's extremely good, listen to it immediately if you're having a bad day

And as some of you might have expected because of that previous gif, we're gonna finish with some Bring Me The Horizon, who have joined my list of favorite bands alarmingly quickly (that new album can't drop soon enough), and let's just say LosT and especially AmEN! were some of my absolute fave non-hit songs this year. Seriously. What the fuck was that.

And now, some elligible hits that didn't make the list.

Honorable Mentions

Tiki Taka (Vacra) - Afrobeats is the best thing that happened to the charts in recent years.

Shining Light (Aime Simone) - I wish I liked that artist more.

Unholy (Sam Smith & Kim Petras) - At first I didn't like this one, and then I headcanoned Kim Petras as a girl in a confessional and Sam Smith as the priest on the other side looking concerned but also weirdly into it, and suddenly it was a really funny song.

Dance the night away (Dua Lipa) - I'm pretty sure that's the song Chained to the Rhythm by Katy Perry is talking about

Casanova (Soolking) - This is a borderline guilty pleasure, and also it sounds like Magic System. Which is a bonus, by the way.

Calm Down (Rema) - Afrobeats is the best thing that happened to the charts in recent years 2: the sequel

Rush (Ayra Starr) - Afrobeats is the best thing that happened to the charts in recent years 3: the sequel to the sequel

Strangers (Kenya Grace) - Very good low-key track to play when you're driving at night

Bloody Mary (Lady Gaga) - What can I say. It's Lady Gaga. It's good.

I remember everything (Zach Bryan) - And for "songs that would be on the list if I had good taste-"

Going going gone (Luke Combs) - The last cut from the list. Great earworm, good writing.

THE ACTUAL TOP TEN LIST

This is a very solid list, actually. All of these things are still on some of my playlists to this day.

10 - Bad Habit (Steve Lacy)

US: #39 / FR: Not on the list

This was the last cut from my 2022 top 10 and it was a painful one, so imagine my joy when I saw it was elligible for this year's list too! Welcome back, Steve Lacy, your little song is still an earworm and a half even after all this time.

9 - Cruel Summer (Taylor Swift)

US: #18 / FR: Not on the list

I have no idea how a song that rhymes "oh woah oh" with "summer" can sound so good. Well played, madam. Well played.

8 - Star Walkin' (Lil Nas X)

US: Not on the list / FR: #67

Not the best Lil Nas X song by a mile, and still quite good! It plays a lot at the gym for some reason. The hype is real, even after hearing it pretty much every hour on the hour. And despite that weird, weird line about his dad.

Very surprised it's not on the US year-end list, by the way.

7 - Vois sur ton chemin (Bennett)

US: Not on the list / FR: #69

If you're creeped out by the AI-generated kids in the music video, I think that's kind of the point, which is why I can tolerate it for once.

Anyway, this is a remix of a choir song about lost kids, originally from a retro movie called Les Choristes which came out back when I was a teenager. And now it's been turned into a somewhat creepy techno remix of itself, and you know what's bad about that? Not a single thing actually. Play it again.

6 - Fast Car (covered by Luke Combs)

US: #8 / FR: Not on the list

If you remember correctly, Fast Car was the number one song of the very first list I made in this series (1988). And since this cover is so similar to the original song, I considered making it non-elligible for this list. I counted it in the end but put it kinda low compared to the original. It's only fair.

5 - Anti-hero (Taylor Swift)

US: #4 / FR: Not on the list

I was pretty indifferent to this one at the beginning of the year, but it slowly but surely grew on me. Everything has already been said about this song. So yeah, it's very good. I like it. It's on the list.

Moving on!

4 - Substitution (Purple Disco Machine x Kungs)

US: Not on the list / FR: #56

Some songs just make you want to move every single time you hear them, without fail. The thing is, this one plays a LOT on the radio in public settings, so catch me dancing in the aisles of the local supermarket every time it's on. It's like some memetic SCP bullshit.

At this point, it should be possible to make a great playlist with all the best retro-sounding hits we got in the past five years or so - and yeah, put this one on it too, for sure.

3 - Miracle (Ellie Goulding, Calvin Harris)

US: Not on the list / FR: #51

At some point this was my number one, and can you really blame me? An Ellie Goulding song with a drop that sounds exactly like a Robert Miles track? Really?

Then I realised I loved Robert Miles' tracks because of that dreamy piano/synth melody they all have, and that this song only had a drop/musical chorus that sounded like that, so something was missing. Oh well. Still a fantastic dance track, though.

2 - Escapism (Raye)

US: #48 / FR: Not on the list

Welcome to the other side of most of The Weeknd songs, I guess, but that's also what makes this track so compelling. The intro sounds like anxiety, and even when the song gets more pleasant to listen to it just never goes completely away - just like in the lyrics, in fact. Well written, well produced, everything is on point and if I had better taste it would probably be number one on this list.

Alas, I am what I am.

1 - Just wanna rock (Lil Uzi Vert)

US: #28 / FR: Not on the list

At some point, this was the third song on the list. Why shouldn't it be? It's so brainless compared to Escapism, and laughably short compared to Miracle. It's just a fragment of a song. It sounds like the intro of a track that will never start.

It's also by far my most replayed hit song on this entire top ten list and I can't justify that in any way. So yeah, putting anything else here felt like lying to myself. The fact it never really starts also means the hype never really ends. Going "daaaaaaaaaaaamn" along with Uzi's distorted vocals is so satisfying.

I just wanna rock, man. What a vibe. See you next year!

#Johannes’ bad not good pretty terrible music lists #music #flashing lights tw #eye contact tw #god that one took ages

[randomobsessionsofa30something]

My top 15 kpop albums of 2023

It's been a year since I posted something. At this point, I feel I'm only writting to keep a record for myself of my favorites of the year. Still, if anyone cares to read this, know I've posted my favorite korean music and dramas of the year every year since 2016. First up, my favorite albums of 2023.

15. Heize-Last winter. I've honestly been in a Heize break for almost two years because I felt her songs started to sound too much alike but this album got me excited for her music once again. It has bearly been a week since it came out so I did hesitate including it but I think it portrays my favorite style of hers so at the end I was like "yeah, it deserves a spot". Forget me not feauturing BIG NAUGHTY's beautiful vocals is my favorite song of the album. However her title, a collab with 10 cm, is a close second. Picnic of the Night gives us a more uptempo beat and Chan's sweet vocals are so relaxing. I think I will be listening this album a lot in the next few months.

14. PENOMECO-Rorschach (Part 1). Ever since Penomeco entered my radar I have loved pretty much everything he has released. I do prefer his more chill music but this year he brought us more of his hip hop side and released two mini albums called Rorschach, both could have easily made my list but I think at the end of the day I like the album he released in april a bit more, and he does have two songs with Zico in this one, which did tip the balance for me. As I said, I do like his more layback music so my favorite song is Margiela feauturing Paul Blanco. The album starts with strong beats with Boy Pablo (2019) and stays on track with his title song Rindaman feauturing Zico. His other collab with Zico: Pew! is also a fiery song. As is Bubble. He slows down for his other three songs and they all are such a great listen.

13. TREASURE-Reboot. I think TREASURE has had really bad luck, from their delayed debut to the ups and downs lately. The thing is I've always prefered those groups I actually feel excited to listen to their whole albums and TREASURE has really delivered in all of them as far as I'm concerned. People keep saying YG is holding them back by making them have the typical YG songs like BONA BONA or STUPID on this album but since I'm a fan of those kind of songs so I really look forward to it. However it was the songs by their subunits I actually liked the most MOVE is just such an exciting song and THE WAY TO by the vocal unit is just my kind of ballad. To be fair listening to Jungwoo and Jihoon sing is such highlight for me on all of their songs. I just love their tones.

12. Taeyeon-To. X. 2023 was a year where I really got into Taeyeon's discography. So I was really excited for this comeback. The title To. X is a fun midtempo break up song. I would have liked Melt Away more as the title but I did love both songs. This is also a recent release so I moved it up and down in my list a lot. I'm also having a hard time picking a favorite song. I also enjoy listening to Fabolous with the quorky beat and witty lyrics but I think I actually liked all the tracks equally.

11. VIXX-CONTINUUM. VIXX has changed a lot over the last few years but somehow this album with only Leo, Ken and Hyuk sounds very much like VIXX used to sound in 2015. They really stand on their own and all of their voices are amazing. However I've always had a soft spot for Leo and his vocals in Lilac are just heavenly. Probably why I love that ballad so much. I was actually surprised with Hyuk's low vocals that give a needed twist to Leo and Ken's power vocals. All five songs in this mini album are so good. The title is Amnesia and the MV aesthetic is obviously inspired by the movie Dune.

10. NCT DOJAEJUNG-Perfume. This release kind of blind sighted me. I never thought Doyoung, Jaehyun and Jungwoo would come together in a subunit so in that sense they reminded me of the time I heard EXO CBX was debuting. I really love the title Perfume. It's one of those rare times the title is actually my favorite song of the album. I thought they would do a ballad for their title but the fact it was an upbeat sexy song was unexpectedly right. Doyoung is my favorite NCT vocalist so listening to him this whole album was such a joy. Jaehyun's vocals can be a bit overlooked in NCT127 just because Douyoung and Taeil are so amazing. Listening to him have more time in this album to shine was exactly what I wanted. I love Jungwoo's personality and honestly I was afraid he would get a bit lost in this album but my worries were unnecessary. Often I found his low notes were that little bit of spice the songs needed in this album. I loved all the bsides but Dive and Strawberry Sunday were specially a fun listen. And of course they had to do a traditional SM ballad (Ordinary) which is just beautiful.

9. D.O.- Expectation. I'll never stop wishing for EXO's Kyungsoo to do an r&b album but his heart is in easy listening heartfelt songs so I can't complain. I'm just happy to get anything from him as a solo artist. This mini album has so many pretty songs. I do is my favorite hands down and one of my most played songs of the year but Lost (both the acoustic and the regular version) is such a fun song to listen to and could have easily become the title. The vocals and the melody are so powerful. Ordinary days and The view also have a fun melody. The title Somebody is really catchy and the MV is so sweet.

8. TXT- The name chapter: Freefall. I have to confess I haven't gotten into TXT's content. I just came to like them gradually in the last couple of years and there was so much to catch up on that I haven't really get to know the members at all but the albums are a different story. Deep down is my favorite of the album but Happily Ever After is also a highlight. The title Chasing the Feeling gave us a fun retro beat and the chorus was really addicting. I also found Skipping Stones to be an interesting song. Love the guitar and bass on that one and the vocals by Beomgyu, Taehyun and Huaningkai are just heavenly. And of course the collab with The Jonas Brothers was a bit unexpected yet exactly what I didn't know I wanted.

7. Zion.T-Zip. This was almost out of my list because I just listened to it a week ago, but I had to add it. Zion. T is just so unique and entertaining to listen to. His collab with AKMU called V is my favorite. But as expected, this is a no skip songs with great use of instruments, beats, vocals and occasional rapping. He even released three MVs for this comeback (Stranger, V and Unlove). The album is 10 tracks long yet only sums up 26 minutes. Thank u featuring Yun Seokcheol is also a highlight.

6. V-Layover. To be honest, I was not excited for V's solo stuff. I was expecting a lot from Jungkook and Jimin but not from him. I don't know why. So it was so surprising when I actually wasn't excited with the songs they released but I really loved V's album. It's my fault really because I do tend to overlook Taehyun's vocals when listening to BTS. The sound he went for it's exactly my kind of music. Layover just feels sophisticated. Blue is definitely my go to song with its fancy r&b sound and Love me again has my favorite beat of the album. Slow Dancing is so sweet and For us takes you in a journey. The album is only 5 songs but from the first listen I knew it would make my top 10 of the year.

5. NCT 127-Fact Check. For me, this is the first NCT127 no skip album. I liked LIMITLESS a lot but even that one has a couple of songs that are just not for me. NCT 127's titles are either a huge hit with me or they rub me off, this time around I found Fact Check so addicting. I love Space's melody but Misty is my favorite overall. Everyone's vocals are on point but Taeil is such a wonder to listen to on that one. Love is a beauty is also a great ballad. Parade might be a hiphop heavy song but Doyoung's beautiful vocals really stand out to me. And Angel Eyes gave me a bit of NCT U's With you vibes. I love Mark's parts in Je ne sais quoi then again everyone sounds so good in that song.

4. Taeyang-Down to Earth. Taeyang came back with a bang. Every song on the album feels so big. I wasn't a fan of the title VIBE featuring BTS's Jimin on the first listen, but it really grew on me. The chorus just pops in my head from time to time out of nowhere. Shoong featuring Blackpink's Lisa is amazing, and the performance video is crazy good. Seed is the power ballad of the album. Nightfall featuring Bryan Chase is also a highlight with its retro pop beat and beautiful vocals.

3. Taemin-Guilty. The void Taemin left while he was in the military could not really be fulled by anyone else. He's just different. And yes, a lot of it is the performance but the music always comes first. This album is only six songs but they all are so good. Not gonna lie, the first time I heard The Rizzness I was confused because the strong beat and rapping surprised me. I didn't know if I liked it but it really grew on me after hearing it a couple of times. I'm obsessed with She loves me she loves me not and its playful melody plus it's definitely my most played track of the album. Not over you and Blue takes us in a dreamlike journey.

2. Red Velvet-Chill Kill. I was surprised to realize this is the only album from a girlgroup I liked this year. I even forced myself to listen to some albums of the most popular girlgroups right now but it's just not my kind of music. However this album is straight up my alley. A Velvet R&B album. I hadn't enjoyed a Red Velvet album so much since The Perfect Red Velvet. My favorite Red Velvet comebacks are always the one with a creepy twist so Chill Kill was on point with that strong beat paired with a sweet chorus. Knock knock (who's there) is a seemless follow up to Chill Kill. Underwater is one of my favorites for sure but these days I keep going back to Nightmare. Iced coffee and One Kiss have catchy chorus while Wings is uplifting with beautiful vocals.

1. EXO-EXIST. My Spotify Wrapped top 5 songs belong all to this album. It's actually the first time it happens. Despite me being an EXO-L, some pop or indie songs are usually in the mix, but I guess I missed EXO. They just did all the things I love in an EXO album: r&b, beautiful harmonies, and fun beats. I keep changing my favorite song of the album. At first, it was Regret it just because the production is so great. Then I was like, actually, all the falsetto and runs in Cinderella makes it my favorite. Yet I kept feeling No makeup was the perfect r&b EXO song, so I thought: that one for sure! But of course, the title Cream Soda is so catchy, and the chorus is expectacular, so obviously, that's the one. Nevertheless, Love fool is so much fun to listen to, and I do love Sehun and Chanyeol's verses in Another Day. Then why is my most played song of the year Let me In? And what about Hear me out that makes me happy every time I listen to it? Don't even get me started on Private Party's lyrics! Anyway, you get the idea, so just do yourself a favor and check out this album.

#kpop #exo #shinee #penomeco #khiphop #taeyeon #zico #snsd #nct dojaejung #doyoung #junwoo #jaehyun #bts #v #red velvet #kdrama #bigbang #taeyang #taemin #treasure #the black label #sm entertainment #hybe #zion.t #txt #nct #nct127

[jaymzeecat]

I'm Gonna Ride This Plane Out of Your Life Again, I Wish That I Could Stay, But You Argue...

I woke up on Wednesday morning fairly early (as I usually do) and cleaned up the AirBnB apathetically. Sad and tired I just wanted to crawl back in bed but we had an early check out time (10:00 AM) so there was no chance of that. Le sigh.

It was a sad morning knowing that this was the last few hours but on the plus side we did find a nearby place to get some breakfast which was pretty good (we both had the Vegan Chorizo Hash). The staff at the restaurant seemed so nice and friendly I felt bad that there were no other customers (save for a Door Dasher who was complaining about the wait for the food). If you're ever looking for breakfast in the Montrose neighborhood of Chicago maybe hit up Breakfast House.

On the way to the train we saw a heart under the overpass which appeared to be made of smeared human feces and if that doesn't make you feel loved by a city I just don't know what does!

The long train ride to O'Hare was spent with me mostly weeping "I'd cry too if I had to go back to Portland." The Funny Bunny said. I was at least looking forward to getting back to Alzee and the cats (a life with no cats?? Who needs it?)... but I started ugly crying as soon as we parted ways at the airport. It was so bad that the security lady was like "ARE YOU OKAY???" I would've thought crying at the airport was a common occurrence but maybe I just cry like a crazy person, haha.

The wait to board wasn't too long thankfully and the plane was a little nicer than the one I flew in on. I got the impression my seat mate (a white haired older fella) was confused by what I was doing in First Class (don't let the colorful hair fool you, I'm a bougie bitch) but the flight attendant remembered me "Oh, Jaymz! Didn't I just have a flight with you?" "About a week ago, yeah." "Wonderful!" See, man? I'm famous.

I had a lot of thinking to do on the long ride home and I was a little overwhelmed. I don't know yet how to break the news to my mom that I don't think I can handle a flight over 4 hours (she wants me to come to Florida, I just don't see how). But at least I got some warm nuts and ginger ale.

The vegan meal was pretty good too. White Bean Chili and Polenta. I erred on the side of caution again and skipped the cookie since everyone got one and I assume it's not vegan. So just be aware of that if you're vegan and you fly Alaska.

I got a nice view of the mountains to welcome me home. I wish I was better at taking pictures out of plane windows, haha.

As we de-boarded my new best friend flight attendant said "Goodbye, Jaymz will we be seeing again soon?" I laughed and she turned to the other attendant and said "She's the quietest passenger I've ever had." She has not heard my cackle...

Alzee picked me up at the airport, it's really nice to live only like ten minutes away from it, haha.

All in all it was a good trip, I'm glad I finally got to see Chicago so I can cross that off my bucket list, haha. Ashley and Shelly were proud of me for stepping outside my comfort zone and going on an adventure. I'm also really thankful that the Funny Bunny was willing to show me all around because I know I wouldn't have been able to figure out the trains on my own. I also came away with a few mementos...

From left to right, Gifts from the Funny Bunny: Sue the T-Rex from the Mold-O-Rama mold machine at the Field Museum and Klondike Kat & Ricochet Rabbit figures (thanks!). Pine cone from the Botanical Garden and flat penny (DNA strand design) from the Science Museum. Mug with "The Loop" train map design I got at a souvenir shop. Precious memories.

I hope you all enjoyed reading about my own personal Adventures in Babysitting, I will try to document more adventures in the future. I have been meaning to make it up to Seattle again sometime soon and visit Arizona and California again so I should really get to planning... If you're vegan and want to show me around your city (and not murder me!) feel free to hit me up sometime. As long as it's not more than 4 hours by plane, haha.

#chicago

[darkpoisonouslove]

2023 in Words

We got 2024... tomorrow. 0_0 Normal. I am so fucking normal about this.

How's it going? My eyes are closing, my hands are shaking and my to-do list until the end of the day has several tasks more than I can handle on it as usual which is all a pretty good summary of 2023. Let's see what came out of it:

Word Count:

101 079 words

Phew. I was afraid it would be much worse. That's not super bad considering I've been stuck on one story for more than half of the year and those words are not included here. (Also not included is my almost 40k-word outline for said story, nor any other outlines, so... uhh... actually way more words were written this year.)

Stories:

(I'm not bothering with an overview of the fandoms because it's just Winx.)

A total of 7. And that's counting the first chapter of Fallen Love as a story. Ouch! I hoped to get more done this year but on the plus side, I really love the stories that I did write (and the ones I am still planning)!

Actually, there's 3 other finished stories that I do not ever plan on publishing, which rounds up the total number to 10.

Favorite writing moment - this is tough but I'm going to go with coming up with a completely new angle to Griffin's motivations for pretty much anything she's ever done. I've decided to step away from the righteous fight for getting dark magic users the equality they deserve and see how her character looks through a more selfish prism. I have to say that I love what's currently brewing in my head and the newest reason I've given her for leaving Valtor finally is something really personal that only has to do with the two of them and isn't just... guilt in a trench coat. I like to think that means I am healing as well and don't need to work out my subconscious guilt through her.

Wildest writing moment - definitely one of those 3 never-to-be-published fics. It was a total nothing smut idea and then I'm suddenly left with the most cohesive piece I've written since... ever. Usually when I try to explore several different angles of something in one piece, I start to get tangled up in the different threads and completely lose myself in the story. Whether because this was for fun and I wasn't stressing or for another reason, that didn't happen with this story and all threads are in their perfect place. I'm... thrilled about it! :D

Ships:

This department has suffered too. There's the usual Griffin x Valtor, Griffin x Faragonda, Erendor x Samara (in my documents) and a side of Marion x Oritel and Marion x Griffin (yay!)... and that's about it. Frankly, I am not truly disappointed by this as it has allowed me to focus more on the relationships (that interest me) and on the characters.

I wrote Oritel PoV for the first time this year! Truly an accomplishment considering that he's just Marion's husband in my head and that's pretty much it.

I am also confident in saying that I have a much better grasp on Griffin and Valtor both as characters and as a pairing and most of the enlightenment happened over the last couple of months. I am looking forward to applying all this new knowledge into my fics next year!

That would be videos. I'm pretty sure those are also less than I made last year but that doesn't matter because I feel that I made some really good ones this year!

Other works:

Naturally, my favorites are Griffin x Valtor ones:

Griffin x Valtor - Haunting

Griffin x Valtor - "It's turned to an obsession"

Griffin x Valtor - Daylight

I do have to mention these two:

Griffin x Faragonda & Valtor - Another Love

Griffin x Faragonda - Slumber Party

They are so polar and I love the contrast of Griffin being unable to move on from Valtor in the first versus Faragonda stealing Griffin from Valtor in the second. XD

And last but not least, the video that I am proudest of because of how little material there was to work with and because this is my ship that I made from the ground up:

Griffin x Luna - Lethal Woman

#my writing #my fanfiction #my fanfic #about me #personal #my videos #2023 #2023 in words #winx club #griffin x valtor

[puzzlebeanficrecs]

I thought it would be fun to share fics and other things I have recently enjoyed in one place. This list is by no means comprehensive but just some things I adored and that stood out to me!

Fics:

The first fic I want to mention is Lent From Tomorrow (today was too small for us) by @aimmyarrowshigh. It's very rapidly becoming one of my Stucky fics ever (and I've read thousands at this point). All the details and the care and research that has gone into this, is incredible. On top of that the writing is absolutely stunning and the characterization and commentary is all spot on. I look forward to where this story will take the characters.

The second fic I just have to mention is in loco parentis by @auntieclimactic. I also mention this on my Ted Lasso rec list but I just have to mention it again as I can't stop thinking about it. Henry's POV was so great to read and the characterization was excellent. It was interesting reading about Henry's struggles and nice seeing Trent and Ted get closer.

The third fic I want to mention is a lovely Milex fic. The energy in the story was so good and the story flowed really well. I liked that Miles was so insistent to talk things through and how they worked it all out. It's Some Velvet Morning by @subtle-as-an-earthquake.

Lastly I want to mention Run by @hollie47 which is a really great Kate/Yelena story. I loved that it included the rush of a mission/fight and mentioned the softness they need after. The characterization was also really good. The use of the cold to set the scene was also really well done.

Books:

I've been reading and loving the Nancy Drew books. I've mostly been reading the Nancy Drew Diaries series (though I did read things from other series as well). My favorites so far have been Mystery of the Midnight Rider and Hidden Pictures.

I also read Margo Zimmerman Gets The Girl by Brianna R. Shum and Sara Waxelbaum. I flew through this book and genuinely loved it. It gave me all the feelings. Also, the autism representation in this book is so good and I'm super picky about that typically. As is everything else. Seriously, this might be my favorite book of the year.

I also re-read a few of Shira Glassman's books. My favorite was Knit One, Girl Two. It never fails to make me smile!

Shows:

I'm late to the party with all these shows but I love them and have been making my way through them and having the best time. I had to take a brief break with watching due to a vacation but I can't wait to get back to these shows and these blorbos.

Ted Lasso

Star Trek

Stranger Things

Podcasts:

I've recced this podcast before on my main blog but these are fannish recs and this podcast is great if you are even a slightly fannish person so I will just rec it again:

This Week in Fandom History @thisweekinfandomhistory

Their Stranger Things episode is what finally got me started on Stranger Things (after meaning to watch it, at some point, since it came out and being weirdly intimidated to). The Dashcon episode was also great.

I also highly recommend joining the patreon if you can and like the show because the behind the scenes episodes are delightful, too.

The show is not only fun but also a really valuable addition to fandom!

Music:

Movies:

My favorite movie that I watched recently has been Nimona. I loved the animation and I loved the story.

#fic recs #other recs #fic rec #recent favorites

[zayalive]

*dated september 2023*

i am here to post more things individual to me! this time, it's my top 25 video games. i am honestly not remotely content with this list and will update it around september of this year, and make it a tradition going forward. i never realized how hard it actually is to put this out on a chart/list. i always knew what i held dearly to my heart, but god when it came down to it, i had to REALLY think. imagining how this list will look by the end of this year is currently challenging. this chart is in no order besides grouping series. certain games will ALWAYS be on this list, most definitely the red dead series, and grand theft auto series. those are masterpieces, or damn near. red dead redemption ii is 100% the best game i've ever touched. the first redemption game i still highly regard to be one to stand the test of time. i have a fondness for fallout, there are many things to love, and things to not love, and that's all i'll say there for now. grand theft auto iv has one of the best stories i've played, and it's so played out but the VIBE of that game, the darkness, grittiness, it's great. san andreas is one of my childhood games, i owned so many copies because i was a stupid child. moving onto guitar hero, i still remember my first experience with it at my sister's, i remember getting my first copy of the game from fred's of all places. i mainly play clone hero nowadays, and am mostly average. i play expert, still have never got past that ttfaf intro. i got into wwe pretty early on in my life like most of these games, being able to watch the show weekly and hop in the games after school was special. cozy survival crafting is definitely one of my favorite things ever, and it's funny to call terraria cozy but it is to me LOL. i will never EVER understand terraria hate, how can you hate something so good? i have fallen out of love with minecraft over the years to the (in my opinion) underwhelming updates and odd direction the game has taken. with that however, the new auto-crafter and trial chambers look so sick. i want to say i got into stardew valley in 2018 and have loved it ever since, still haven't gotten through the beginning of ginger island though, maybe someday. ever since extremely late 2017 or early 2018, my main game has been fortnite: battle royale. at one point, i wanted to go pro and make a living streaming, but sadly i am NOT built for that. i've always loved zombies, first experience was probably like season 2-3 twd, and been hooked ever since. project zomboid was such an insane experience in february of last year. such an eye-opener. easily the best zombie game ever made. 7 days to die is also a great game, the impending doom you feel every week is fun and refreshing from what i normally play while still have that survival crafting i love. i grew up on tony hawk games and wasn't sure which ones to put but these were the standouts, and i didn't want to load the list up with a ton from one series. i remember spending all my savings as a kid on saints row: the third and i still wonder if that was a good decision or not. i have played tons of call of duty in my day, although i stopped at ghosts, and have dabbled in and out ever since. black ops is easily my favorite, the campaign, and multiplayer, agh. zombies even. modern warfare 2 is a classic and one i cannot ignore. ghost looks cool. i have played HELLA sims 3 in my lifetime, yes i have played the sims 4 and i can confidently say the sims 3 clears with ease. i dumped crazy hours into the console ports and the pc as well. around this final stretch of the list is where i really struggled so i went for nostalgia with atv off-road fury 2. that series and mx vs atv were definitely a blast to 10 and below me, and might even be today. i'm not quite sure. if anyone actually finishes this, i am sorry, for i am the rambler.

#gaming #ps2 #xbox 360 #xbox one #pc games #top25

[noforkingclue]

Can i ask for a eleventh or tenth doctor fic ? So reader and doctor have been travelling for a while then one day, they decided to take a rest or sth and drop reader off back to earth her home ? A few weeks later doctor came back to pick up reader and found out that she was abused by her family and doctor was very mad and instantly took reader away and promised her that he won’t leave her again ?

I chose the 11th Doctor for this as he's my favourite. I've also been re-watching his era and really enjoying it!

Title: I'll Always Protect You

Warnings: abusive parents

Doctor Who tag list: @v4n1r, @queerconfusionthings, @yourneighbourhoodclown, @love-of-fandoms, @emilythezeldafan, @fabulous-jj-style, @theseeker945, @pleadingeyes, @kjaneway1, @truthbehindthemysteries, @im-a-muggleborn, @startrekkingaroundasgard, @mythandmagik, @geocookie21, @zerocanonlywriteshit, @thewinterpoet2, @anteroom-of-death, @night467

Everything tag list: @greenrevolutionary, @imjustassaneasyou, @spngingerbread21, @layazul, @lov3vivian

“So, where to now?”

The Doctor flicked a lever on the TARDIS console and spun around to face you. He gave you a big grin as you leaned against the railings and folded your arms.

“Earth or a different planet,” he said, slowly walking towards you, “Past, future or present. No, wait, forget present. Why would you want to do that? Nothing ever exciting happens. It’s boring, dull. We’re in a time machine that can go anywhere. Anywhere at all, y/n. Just tell me where you want to go any I’ll take you there.”

“Actually, present.”

“Present,” the Doctor wrinkled his nose, “Why?”

“I want to go home.”

The Doctor froze and an unfamiliar look flashed across his face. For a second you swore that it was a flash of hurt.

“Just for a short while,” you added quickly, worried about hurting your friend, “I just need a rest, that’s all. Feel like it’s been all go for ages and I just need some time to rest and recover.”

“Right.”

The Doctor swiftly turned his back on you and marched towards the console.

“Home it is for you! Although,” he once again spun around and clapped his hands, “if it’s rest you want I know the perfect place!”

“Doc,” you smiled as you walked towards him, “Even relaxing trips always end up with us either running for our lives or helping people out. I just need some time on Earth.”

You punched in the address for your place into the console and rested your head against the Doctor’s shoulder.

“It won’t be for long,” you said, “Just a couple of weeks.”

*

With you gone the TARDIS was strangely empty. The Doctor had become used to your presence and he was getting impatient waiting for your rest to be over. He knew that he could pop forward two weeks and see you but that would be cheating. Besides, you always seemed to know when he did that. But the Doctor couldn’t help it, he was longing to see you again. He had made a list of all the places he was going to take you, although first he was going to have to pick you up.

The TARDIS landed with a shuddered and the Doctor practically ran towards the doors. He flung them open and grinned, expecting to see your familiar, beautiful face waiting for him. However, the smile quickly disappeared when he realised you weren’t there. With a frown he left the TARDIS and walked around the park the two of you agreed to meet at. He quickly pushed down the worried feeling that something might’ve happened to you. You were human after all. Not every species had perfect time keeping.

“Get the hell back here, young lady! I haven’t finished talking to you!”

The Doctor’s eyes narrowed at the sound of yelling. He looked behind his TARDIS and felt a sense of relief to see you rapidly approaching, which quickly disappeared when he saw the person following you. His eyes narrowed at the angry expression on her face and you gave him a desperate look.

“Y/n,” the woman barked, “Who’s this?”

“Mum,” you said quietly, “This is the Doctor. He’s a friend.”

“Friend,” your mother sneered, “Since when did you have friends. You spend most of your time locked up in your room. You don’t go out enough to have friends. How did you even meet?”

“At… work.”

“Well,” your mother looked the Doctor up and down, “What prospects does he have working in a shithole like you do. What type of doctor doesn’t work in a hospital?”

“Y/n,” the Doctor’s voice was low and dangerous, “Get in the TARDIS.”

“But-“ you said

“Now.” He said

You glanced between the Doctor and your mother before disappearing inside the TARDIS. Your mother took a step forward but the Doctor was quicker. He moved to block her path and glared down at her, his face eerily blank.

“Stay out of her life.” He said

“Excuse me?” your mother recoiled, “I am her mother. You do not get to tell me how to live my life or how to treat my daughter.”

“You will leave her alone.”

“Or what?”

“Or,” the Doctor smiled at her but there was no warmth, “I will destroy your life.”

Your mother hesitated and the Doctor leant down and whispered,

“Do not test me. You’ve hurt someone very dear to me. Even worse, that person you’ve hurt is your own daughter.”

“I can-“

“No,” the Doctor’s voice turned harsh, “You do not get to treat her like that because she’s your daughter. You are meant to love and protect her and you’ve done the opposite. Now, you’re going to stay out of her life.”

“And if I don’t?”

“I know people who can, and will, destroy your life.”

“Because you tell them to?” she sneered

“Yes, because I tell them to. Do not test me. I will do anything to protect those I care about. So stay away from her. Understand?”

Your mother held the Doctor’s gaze for a second before nodding curtly. The Doctor’s grin turned cheerful as he stood up straight.

“Good,” he said and clapped her hands, “Great conversation.”

The Doctor turned on his heel and marched into the TARDIS, leaving your mother spluttering in shock. You looked up nervously as the Doctor walked silently to the console.

“What did you say to her?” you asked

The Doctor didn’t say anything as he took off. You fell over and gripped the side of the TARDIS to steady yourself.

“Doctor-“

“Why didn’t you tell me anything?”

You closed your eyes at the sound of the Doctor’s voice. The pain was evident and you hugged yourself tightly as the Doctor gripped the console.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked

“I… I didn’t want to bother you,” you said quietly, “You have so much going on that more important-“

“No!”

The Doctor turned around suddenly and marched towards you. You flinched at how loud his voice was and regret crossed his face. He took a step back and ran a hand through his hair.

“Don’t ever say that you’re not important,” he said, “You’re the most important person in my life. I don’t want you to worry. You’ll never have to go back to that house again. You’ll never have to spend another minute with that woman ever again.”

“But where will I live?”

“Don’t worry,” the Doctor raised his hands and when you nodded he put his hands on your shoulders, “I can help with that. Ever heard of UNIT?”

“But why?”

“Why what?”

“Why are you doing this?”

“Oh y/n,” he gave you a sad smile, “Isn’t it obvious?”

#tw: abusive parents #fanfiction #doctor who #reader insert #request #the doctor #doctor x reader #eleventh doctor #eleventh doctor x reader

[brokenmimir]

I just finished reading Supernatural Affairs (again). It's probably my favorite work of fiction and I think it's an absolutely amazing work, and it served as my introduction to the lovecraftian genre. A few questions:

How do you get the idea for it? What inspired you to write a lovecraftian RWBY story?

Did you have problems keeping up motivation to write the story? If so, what did you do to counter them?

It's been a couple years since you've written anything (at least one AO3), would you consider writing more? Did something convince you to stop writing? (This isn't meant to be pressure to write, more curiosity)

I remember in some comment you saying that Supernatural Affairs is a retelling of RWBY (in some ways) in a lovecraftian setting. Did you ever feel a tension between sticking to the RWBY plot/canon and telling the story you wanted to tell? If so, how did that play out?

Did you know it was going to be as long as it turned out to be when you started?

Follow-up, did you write all 410k words in the year and two months that Supernatural Affairs was publishing?

What is your writing process like? How did you get ideas for Supernatural Affairs?

What advice would you give to writers who are wanting (or in the process of) to write something as grand as Supernatural Affairs?

Dust Trader was one of the first fanfics I ever read, and also one that I enjoyed immensely (and really shows off how amazing a writer you are). I don't want to make you choose between children (so to speak), but which story do you like better? How they differ in your mind? Did you have a different process for them?

Apologies for the long list of a 'few' questions. Love your stories and I'd love to hear your thoughts!

Thanks!

Wow, I'm happy that you love my story so much, and I'll try to answer your questions as best I can.

I love Urban Fantasy with Supernatural Police -- I've seen it a few times, but it's pretty rare. I decided if I wanted to read one I might as well write one, and after a little thought I decided against using Vampires and Werewolves since they're a little cliche. I've read all of Lovecraft, so I decided to use that as the starting point for my setting.

It was very hard at times -- around the 20k word mark I realized how big it was getting, but it got easier after that until I was in the last case, which was _hard_ to push through. I decided early on that I really wanted to tackle and complete this project, and I decided to use a Stephen King quote as the basis for my writing -- "Amateurs sit and wait for inspiration, the rest of us get up and go to work." Basically, even if I was feeling uninspired I forced myself to sit down and write 1000 words a day every day no matter what.

The Quarantine did a number on both my motivation and my writing process. I know I need to just start writing again, but... it's been hard to do anything the past couple years.

Not too many. When I started planning the story I came up with a list of about 15 or 20 cases that would be fun to write. I then laid out the major events of RWBY seasons 1-3 that I wanted to re-tell. Then I looked at my two main characters, and decided what character arc each was going to experience, as well as what the relationship arc was going to be like. I then set down those 3 arcs in order, added the RWBY plot points I wanted to hit, and then divided all of that up into 9 segments. Then I looked at my case ideas and picked the 9 that would most easily tie into those arc segments.

I knew it was going to be longish (I had an outline written in advance as part of my plotting) but I expected all of my cases to be about as long as the first case -- 4-6ish chapters each, so maybe 30-50 chapters max, or around 100-150k words. Obviously I underestimated how big things would get as I got more comfortable with the story.

I started publishing when I had about 60k words written, and I wrote 1000 or more words a day every day going forward. I finished Case 9 about halfway through posting Case 8, so not too far off. I think the final tally was 1 year, 1month all told.

I start by taking my overall story outline and writing a much more detailed case outline. In the morning just after breakfast I sit in a comfortable armchair with no one around and the house silent so I can really concentrate. It usually takes around an hour to write and edit 1000 words, and I won't stop for anything until I finish that much, though I'll keep going if I have time and am in the groove. Every chapter (which usually takes 3 days to write) I give a second edit when I finish it. After the whole case is done I give it a third edit all the way through, and before posting I edit each chapter one more time. I like to write in the morning because before I go to sleep at night I think about my story, and I try to daydream out how the whole next scenes would unfold. In the morning I can usually commit those ideas to paper pretty easily.

I think the two biggest things that helped me are (1) have a very thorough outline! I spent weeks writing my outline, and I had an even more thorough outline for each case just before I started it, but it was still barely enough to keep a giant story like this wrangled. Feel free to follow your muse on details as you go, but an outline is super important. And (2), I will reiterate that Stephen King quote I lived by -- "Amateurs sit and wait for inspiration, the rest of us get up and go to work." Writer's block is just an excuse. You can write something no matter what. Maybe it'll suck, but if you try it'll usually be better than you'd expect.

I used the same writing process for both. I think my favorite is probably Supernatural Affairs because I like Urban Fantasy more than Sci Fi, but I really enjoyed both. Dust Trader let me play with my own plot structure since I wasn't borrowing RWBY's, which was nice. Supernatural Affairs was my baby, though.

[thecandywrites]

Kinktober Day 30- Restraints

I did it! Finished them all.

However, I have one more. An Ode to Kinktober as a whole that I will be adding and will most likely be a multi-chapter thing. But it will have literally, every single prompt in it, all in one fic. It's going to be EPIC. Hopefully. And there are easter eggs to it that have actually been in a few of the predeceeding prompts. So it'll be fun to see everything come together.

As always I'd like to thank @starsandskies for sharing these amazing prompts with me. I hope it's been fun for everyone to read and it's what I've really needed to get me through everything. Especially since tonight the death toll among my family and friends within the last year officially became double digits. And it will not have been a whole 2 months since the last death in my immediate family. And while some of the deaths were out of the blue, others, tonight's especially has been a very long time coming. And I'm just relieved that they're no longer in pain, or suffering. And can pass as peacefully as humanly possible.

So thank you to everyone who has read, and liked and enjoyed these. Because all of it makes me feel less alone and if I can take my pain and my grief and turn it into something beautiful and something at least enjoyable to read. Then that will be enough.

Thank you. Enjoy.

Kinkitober Day 30- Restraints

“So this is the harness.” Shivahn said as she picked up the heavy gold chained harness that was currently sitting on an iron form to show how it was worn. 

“So who wants to try it on first?” She asked. 

“I do!” You volunteered first before you came forward and she put a silver collar  that went over your own moura collar to pull your wings back into your body but still allowed you to wear only a thin bodysuit to cover your bodies before she put the harness on and clipped it into the collar and adjusted the chains until they were snugly over your body. This thing had to weigh over a hundred pounds. 

“Oh good grief.” You blew out a breath as you had never felt so weak before as you braced your legs so you wouldn’t fall to the ground because you knew if you did, you’d never be able to get up again as your most promising potential mate Emanuel put the other one on and actually did fall back onto his butt and then flat out on his back when it was put on. 

“How the fuck are you still standing Jenimare?” Emanuel asked as the others had to really pull hard to get him back up onto his own two feet before he stumbled down to his knees and then to his chest on the ground. 

“Becuase women are naturally leg strong whereas men are usually chest strong. That’s why most of the kamoba champions are women. Because they can carry the harness better and still fight better and once they learn how to fight and move with it on, and then they find out how to really use the weight to their advantage instead of their hindrance, they’re the first to excel and then never give up that lead. Because remember, during the great hunt it’s our foremothers that were captured and restrained and enslaved first. And this is only a replica of those early restraints. Which is why everyone in Dorierra learns from the age of 3 how to do this. Because now that the Great Hunt is over for the most part, mouras as a species should be more than ready, willing and able to overcome any other thing anyone can ever come up with to try to use against us. And where we start- is at the lowest of the low- humans. Ever since the convergence it has always been humans from earth with their filthy black plague that brought them here to the supersphere- that have used their own minds, cunning, ruthless and mercilessly hunted us the most and for the longest until they finally used our moura gold to buy and build cities and royalties and dynasties of their own here." She sneered rather spitefully.

"But after training, all of you will be able to face anyone from a goblin, orc, rakshasa, elf, even onikuma.” She finished listing off as you all looked at her with wide eyes. Because onikuma were the bear people. Your home colony was near the northern pole. Onikuma were the most common of the other kinds of people who lived in the north pole.

Especially since the southern pole was claimed by the Neveahans even though most who flew over it, never saw much of anything other than snow and ice and glaciers on the small island that was at the absolute center of the pole. The south pole was actually more of a sea surrounded by a ring of islands, all of which the people who called themselves Neveahans called their own. They had brought the most kinds of dragons into the supersphere since the convergence. And so far, any and all dragons were welcome there. And all the surrounding islands had special super electro magnetic properties and would throw off anyone’s compass. And it even messed with a moura’s ability to navigate around it and they had to use solely their sense of sight to follow the southern aurora borealis. Even as downright gorgeously and beautiful and completely unique as it was and as long as mouras flew as high as the southern lights, they were not messed with and were free to follow their ritual of following the lights during the solstice. Or at least, that was what the dragons who were Neveahan who took refuge in the colonies told you and all the mouras who flew in the southern pole when it was the southern colonies turn to host the winter solstice that they volleyed with winter solstice flights between the north pole and the southern pole. 

“Who wants to wear this next?” You asked. 

“I’ll take it.” Aurava volunteered before you were happy to take the restraint off while the instructor moved the collar off of your neck to hers and then moved the restraints from you to her as she didn’t even squat or bat an eye. 

“Holy shit Aurava! You’re a beast!” You crooned at her happily. 

“I carry the twins on each side.” She shrugged nonchalantly since she had a set of boy girl twin younger siblings that probably weighed more than she did when combined before the instructor took the harness off and finally freed Emanuel from the floor by taking the harness and it’s collar off of Emanuel who simply coughed and rolled over before he managed to regain his footing, thanks to you helping him to get back on his feet. 

“You ok?” You asked him. 

“No. Shit, that’s what our foremothers and forefathers endured?” Emanuel rubbed his neck where that silver collar had inhibited his own golden moura one before the leader put both harnesses on Aurava who didn’t even budge just moved the chains to be more evenly worn around her body. 

“Damn.” The others in the class blinked in surprise. 

“Aurava, I’m calling it right now, you’re going to be the competitor to beat. No one has ever worn both harnesses with that much ease before except the native orcs who are used to heavy loads.” The instructor praised. 

“I’m part taunston.” Aurava admitted. 

“Oh, that would explain it then.” She nodded in understanding even though she didn’t look that taunston, but she and her family were always very strong period.

Class began and Aurava sat front and center of the class and seemed to catch on the fastest while you and Emanuel barely managed to follow along. And by the time it was time to compete, you barely beat Emanuel only because he lost his balance and fell to the ground and could barely get up past his own hands and knees. 

Aurava though. She blew through the class and then was the class champion before she was gifted a very special gift. The ability to become a mega phoenix. Meant to guard the colony’s bunker where the uncollared and half collared mouras usually took refuge when the colony would come under attack or attempted to be invaded. And you couldn’t be prouder that she of all people got that honor and privilege. 

“Congratulations Rava. If anyone could ever take that post and protect any colony, it would be you.” You congratulated her you hugged her and smiled when she was even slightly warmer to the touch than usual. 

“Thanks.” She thanked you as she hugged you back just as tightly before all the champions of the various classes competed against each other for the championship of the class and you and others who had grown up with Aurava in your home colony cheered the loudest when she beat every single opponent. Even wearing both harnesses doing so and all of you couldn’t be prouder of her for doing so. 

But all the guys from your colony were all related in a way to all the others. And all the other guys she bested, they were obviously hurt that she, even being half as big as them, beat them so easily and so quickly and tried to excuse as to why they weren’t “at their best”. Which got you to roll your eyes because of how sore losers they were being. 

And when she had to face off against the next lowest competitor of the local class, who was only 8, he had been training since he was 3 and he used his smaller size and the actual harnesses to beat her which got all the other guys she had beaten to cheer the loudest which pissed you off. 

“You did great. You should be proud you even got to graduate your class, not to mention the championship I know your parents will be so proud to see your trophy and practically brag about it until even the onikama hear of it.” You tried to soothe and reassure her as you and Emanuel helped her to her feet and helped take the harnesses off while the young boy was carried on the wings of the others Aurava had bested. 

“Yeah.” She softly said as she got up and dusted herself off and at least, congratulated the victor. Who was very impressed and moved by her own sense of sportsmanship and took that moment to use her as the perfect example to the others of how a real champion of Kamoba behaves and graciously takes their victories as well as their defeat. He even invited her to sit with himself and his own family for the feast as all the other guys were once again incensed for her to be recognized as better by even the Dorrierrans. 

You could only sit back and glare at them and their immaturity and the fact that they were now practically schmoozing any other girl leaving her to sit there simply holding her trophy off in a corner because no one would even ask her to dance. 

“Don’t worry Aurava. The right guy will be impressed and his chicken egg shell fragile masculinity will never be intimidated by you or your strength or skills. If anything he will be just as proud as you and all the rest of us are.” You reassured her as you came over and wrapped your arm around her shoulders.

“I feel like this cost me any chances of ever finding a mate though, at least any of the one on this flight.” Aurava muttered. 

“And that’s why the winter solstice is the best of all the solstice flights. These literal and figurative losers can go fuck the weakest and stupidest of our brethren all they want. You are saving yourself for someone extraordinary. And I have a feeling you’re going to meet them on that southern solstice flight. I feel it in my bones. Besides I’ve heard that the southern lights are even more spectacular than the northern ones. So don’t settle for anything less than mediocre ok?” You urged her. 

“Because a Moonchild deserves nothing less.” You added as you pressed the crown of your head into hers and that got her to grin and really, truly smile for the first time this whole flight. 

“You should get back to Emanuel, looks like he’s about to start humping air at this point.” She pointed out. 

“Yeah, we were gonna go to the gardens and get a quickie in.” You revealed to her. 

“Well you better hurry up. We have to leave before the sun fully sets.” She reminded you. 

“Oh shit, you’re right. Excuse me.” You excused as you pressed a sweet kiss to her cheek and left and stole into a nice darker corner in one of the many gardens. 

“Feel better now that you don’t have those restraints nailing your ass down to the ground?” You taunted Emanuel as he pinned you against the wall as your moura cloak clothes separated for him to spear your center with his cock as you blew out a breath of relief to feel him enter you. 

“Oh like this?” Emanuel taunted as his own moura cloak grew ropes to restrain your hands above your head and even tied your ankles behind his lower back so you were the one restrained which only made you squeal in delight as you were happy to surrender yourself into his arms as he was kissing you so passionately, it was almost bruising. Almost. But that only made the pleasure that much more intense as your moura marks and his own soon began to intertwine and pulse together, faster and brighter. 

“Yes, yes, yes, just like that!” You keened as his cock hit all those pleasure points in your canal before your orgams bloomed only a heartbeat before his own as you both had to close your eyes to keep them safe from the brightness of the marks that always piqued with sexual release before he took your arms and looped them around his neck as he held you tightly before you smiled when the ropes receded so you could fully wrap your arms around him. 

“I love you.” You sighed happily. 

“I love you too.” He returned before you decided to forgo with the tradition and took his collar for his. 

“No point in waiting.” You smiled. 

“Nope. So, is it gonna be my colony or yours?” He asked. 

“Flip a coin.” You shook your head with a shrug. 

“Ok, fine. Let’s do it.” He smiled as he reached out and pulled a leaf off of a tree and turned it into gold and made a coin with his thumb print on one side as you pressed your own thumbprint into the other side in the other direction, flattening it as you did so.

“Your thumbprint is heads because your colony is at the poles. My colony is to the south so it’s tails.” He suggested. 

“Deal.” You beamed before he flipped the coin, caught it and put it over the back of his hand. 

“Heads.” He smiled when he lifted his hand to reveal your thumb print on the back of it.

“Yes!” You cheered as you took the coin and made a strand of gold out of another few leaves to put the coin on. So that you’d always have it with you. 

“Perfect.” He praised as he kissed you sweetly before you could see and hear more and more couples finding completion only moments before the sun was about to touch the horizon which would signal for all of you to get into the air again to keep following the sun back to the host colony. 

“Time to fly My Love.” Emanuel urged you as he got your hand and led you to where all of you would be jumping off into the sky from. 

“Yes, time to fly, free as the birds we are.” You cooed back before you both transformed back into birds and soon took to the air by the thousands, waiving back to your hosts and calling back countless thanks as you did before you got to the air to see Aurava already in her mega phoenix form, her trophy clutched in one of her huge talloned feet. 

“Woo! Looking good Rava!” You crooned as you soon took up position to catch those sweet air currents coming off of her wing tips as the sun helped give her all the power she would need to practically coast from her current height back to the host colony as the others who had gotten the gifts of the mega-pheonixs form the mighty birds as they soon made their own V, leaving Aurava to either take up the end of the V or fly solo. 

“Sore losers. Don’t let them get to you. You will find a man who will happily follow wherever you will lead.” You encouraged her as you flew next to her extra large head. 

“Hopefully.” She sighed as you and all those who had been in your colony soon took up the V behind her. Showing their own sign of solidarity and support which Aurava really appreciated. Because birds of a feather should always flock together.

#Kinktober #Kinktober Day 30 #starsandskieskinktober #so many easter eggs! #Big moura ones

[musicas-studios]

My CVAP Experience Part I: A Voice and a Dream

"...for a brief moment of adrenaline-induced hyper-clarity, I came to a decision. I looked up on that voice acting workshop my friend had signed up for years ago, didn't think, and did it--I signed up. This year was going to be different. This year, I was going to make things happen."

I have always been passionate about telling stories. Voice acting has been the many ways I've been able to express that. I loved being able to breathe life into characters through my voice. You could say it's an innate passion.

So when I first heard about the Certified Voice Artist Program (or CVAP) from a friend who had landed a scholarship not more than around 3 years ago, I was curious.

But when I was presented that same opportunity the following year, I was in college and swamped with work to the point that I'd doubted I'd ever have enough time to dedicate for it. So I hesitated, passed up on this opportunity to my and my friend's disappointed.

Months, a few years passed and I'd forgotten about that workshop for a bit. And with it, my voice acting ambitions.

The year was 2024 and I was in a very weird place, didn't start in the best of headspaces, but I had a sprawling list of things that I had and wanted to do and I had a lot of trouble trying to distinguish which was which.

But for a brief moment of adrenaline-induced hyper-clarity, I came to a decision. I looked up on that voice acting workshop my friend had signed up for years ago, didn't think, and did it--I signed up. This year was going to be different. This year, I was going to make things happen.

I was nervous, a bit scared, but most of all excited.

I couldn't fully attend opening night since I was coming home from commute, but I was able to get the gist of it. I didn't know what to expect at first but I was thrilled to get to know my fellow enrollees or Voicemates as well as our beloved hosts nonetheless.

The hosts were incredibly talented and had a knack for keeping the vibes up, you can tell they were experienced voice artists and I remember thinking that I wanted to be like that. And my Voicemates who'd gotten to interact with them gave infectious enthusiasm. These were going to be the people I'd be spending the next few weeks with.

We had our first official session the next day, and professional voice actor Sir Navi Garcia was to open the floor into the world of CVAP. It was a thought-provoking lesson that brought up tons of questions of who we are and what it means to be a voice artist. But I was most touched by Sir Garcia's willingness to tell his story, to be vulnerable. Something that not many people are brave enough to do.

The thing that stuck with me the most was how we always have the opportunity to put ourselves out there, where there is always someone who needs to hear your voice. I found it moving because in every little thing we do, there is always the possibility to create ripple effects, to be heard by somebody who'd need it at the exact timing. I thought it was profound.

It would be one of the core learnings I'd bring with me going forward.

Next, I got to meet my groupmates! A ragtag group of individuals with diverse voices and a shared dream. I never would have expected it but we immediately hit it off; we had excellent chemistry and worked really well together. We call ourselves the ICEBR3AKERS, the third group or BR of CVAP'S batch 24 and we were going to break the ice!

If you'd told the girl who'd had to chicken out on that opportunity years ago that she'd be getting to be a part of a dynamic group of aspiring voice actors, learning from the best in the industry, and becoming more and more like who she wanted to be, she would not have believed you. And yet here we are.

Needless to say, the first session was session that would set the stage for the weeks to come.

And still, I was scared, yet thrilled and excited to get my voice out there, to make things happen.

#CVAP B24 #musicas blogs 2024