#im actually really normal :) so umm. yeah.

[flashbangstars]

How People Found out you two were dating

NCT Dream Edition

pink ~ y/n

Blue ~ dream

Green ~ secondary character/another dreamie

Mark

"so um Jeno found out about us dating"

"oh, I thought we were waiting until game night to tell them"

"well yeah uh funny story, I tried to put my sweatshirt on at Jeno's house and your hot pink thong fell out of the sleeve onto his carpet."

"I WAS WONDERING WHERE THAT WENT"

"Yeah I know me too, besides that. Jeno got mad and lectured me on not leading you on if I had other girls I was doing stuff with, so I uh.."

"you told Jeno the hot pink thong was mine"

"yeah basically"

"and I have to face him on friday knowing he's seen my panties"

"to be fair he did say they were cute"

"you know that actually didn't help at all"

Renjun

"hey babe can you help me really quickly, I need help moving my monitor, the cord is stuck somewhere behind my desk"

"Y/n can it wait like 10 minutes"

"No it literally can't I have a assignment due in thirty minutes and I will literally jump off a fucking cliff if I don't get full credit for this"

"Nice Hello Kitty Underwear"

"Renjun you're the one who bought me these, you've seen them and taken them off me numerous times"

"oh he has!! has he!"

"go put some pants on please sweetheart"

"I'm so fucking terrified why were their two different voices just now"

"Hi y/n"

"I'm gonna start crying please tell me Jaemin didn't just see me in fucking hello kitty underwear"

"Y/n please go put some pants on"

"yeah....yeah I'll go do that...... Uh just so you know....im not letting him hit for free.....he did ask me out"

"congrats to the happy couple"

"fuck you"

Jeno

"so how did you all manage to fail the same test?"

"I cheated off of Haechan, and Haechan Cheated off of Jaemin, so its basically Jaemin's fault"

"hey I thought Jaemin knew what he was doing"

"Haechan, Jaemin never knows what he is doing"

"fair"

"oh fuck, I have to go babe I'm gonna miss the bus if I dont run, I will see you soon" *phatass smooch before leaving* *leaves*

5 minutes later....

"alright I'm back I missed the bus"

"DID YALL JUST FUCKING KISS?"

"....no"

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN NO I FUCKING WATCHED IT HAPPEN"

"oh thats so crazy I think I just heard the bus, I have to go omg byeeeeee"

"so you're leaving me to deal with this"

"yes, bye pookie, smooches I'll see you later tonight, bye Haechan!"

Haechan

"are we gonna talk about it... or should I just ignore it"

"ignore what"

"im not following"

"are you two being serious"

"dude what the fuck are you talking about??"

"Haechan."

"what"

"you've been sitting in y/n's lap the entire time we've been here"

"and...?"

"we are literally just close friends"

"dog you are literally hand feeding haechan french fries"

"im literally baby"

"even that was a lot for me"

"im sorry pookie"

"allllriight get off, I wont be this couple"

"pookie did you just make it official!"

"can you please be normal"

Jaemin

"Hypothetically what do you guys consider too much for a gift for your significant other"

"well how long would you two have been dating"

"like 6 months...?"

"umm anything ring related, thats kinda scary, too reminiscent of marriage"

"well fuck"

"what do you mean oh fuck? what the fuck did you buy"

"a ring"

"what"

"what...."

"for who??"

"y/n"

"WHAT"

"Y/N?"

"WHY?"

"YOU'VE BEEN DATING FOR 6 MONTHS?"

"STOP YELLING AT ME"

Chenle

"the guys know you and me are dating"

"what? how"

"I got in trouble"

"what did you do..."

"they all got kinda mad at me and said I was kinda mean to you and asked what my issue with you was"

"and what did you say"

"please don't be mad"

"chenle"

"I told them not to worry because you think it's hot when I'm kinda mean"

"chenle"

they didn't believe me at first... and I was feeling pressured!...they literally cornered me!"

"chenle"

"so I showed them a little bit of our texts when you said...itwassexy whenIwasmeantoyou"

"run"

"I WILL TELL THEM ABOUT THE MOMMY KINK IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER?"

"run. now"

"ok!"

Jisung

"hey guys, just wanted to let you know me and jisung are dating now officially"

*shriek* "WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT!"

"Jisung what..."

"I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE"

"jisung park"

"please ma'am stop spreading that!"

"ANDY"

"I'm so sorry guys I dont know whats gotten into her!"

"jisung...She's literally your lockscreen"

"I literally have no idea what you are talking about"

"jisung I WILL do a coochie ban"

"this is actually bae 4 lyfe, she my day one and I worship the ground she walk on fr"

"thats what I thought"

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Hi! here is a little something from the drafts that is basically finished, I hope you like it! I am fr just getting back into writing so excuse any errors. But i hope yall have a good night/day!

#nct #nct dream #nct u #mark #renjun #jeno #haechan #jaemin #chenle #jisung #nct dream imagines #nct dream fic #nct dream scenarios #nct dream fluff #nct dream suggestive #mark lee #huang renjun #lee jeno #lee donghyuck #lee haechan #na jaemin #zhong chenle #park jisung #jisung imagines #renjun imagines #jaemin imagines #jeno imagines #chenle imagines #haechan imagines #mark imagines

[iloveslllycatss]

accidental confessions with the inarizaki boys 🥺

(I turned my autocap off for this request <3)

𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙛𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨

𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘨𝘰 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨?

𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴 : 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘢, 𝘢𝘵𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘶

𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴/𝘢𝘯 : 𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘣𝘤 𝘺𝘬, atsumu 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘵𝘺𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥 😞 (anon I actually love u for the autocap thing.)

r. suna ↴

✫ ok so for this you basically r watching the team practice (u r friends w them) and during the water break u decide to give ur good friend suna a call thinking it’s your best friend, ghalya (my irl best friend btw 😉). 

this whole day you’ve been thinking about one thing. whether u should or shouldn’t go watch your crush practice. the obvious answer was yes because you were friends with all the second years on the team, but in the back of ur mind you were rethinking the decision. so you decide to ask your best friend.

“bruh yes wth r u thinking ofc u should go 😐” 

ghalya looked at you as if you were the dumbest person in the world for letting the thought of not going cross your mind. “okok fine ig I will” you sigh, but then u get a idea “what if… YOU CAME WITH.”…. only to be answered with a 

“no. I’m not ab to go to a practice for ppl idk 😨.. and even if I wanted to I cant, I have to study for my exam next week” 

as if you ever study 🤨 is what you WANTED to say, but instead u settled for a “fine”. 

when u got to the practice the first person to notice your arrival was atsumu. “OMG Y/N HIII” he waved with a smile, gaining the attention of his teammates. after they all greeted you, you sat down watching them. your eyes constantly rerouting onto one person… suna. if you were being honest, your crush on him was FAT ASL. u were head over heels for this boy; not that you’d ever tell him.

during their water break you looked at him again, sweat dripping down from his hair as he drank his water, you kept looking at his hands. his pretty pretty hands, his long slender fingers and his short kept nails. as you started to examine his face, suna looked at you. after maintaining eye contact for a couple of seconds you looked away, flustered. his eyes were beautiful, a perfect shade of grayish yellow. they were practically glowing. so you did the normal thing to do, bother your best friend about it. 

you had taken your phone out of your pocket, opening the phone app and calling the 4th recently called person instead of the third.

“hello??” you start, leaving no room for response. “ghalya emergency. im FR ab to punch suna rintaro. why? u may ask. THIS MF. WITH HIS PRETTY ASS SELF DECIDES TO LOOK AT ME FOR A COUPLE SECONDS. like im already I’m love w u dont play. GHALYA PLZ I NEED HELP IM DYING FR.”

“umm… l/n????” 

“oh. okay. allow me to go kms.” 

when I tell u that u ran out. I mean u MF RAN OUT.  when you got home you called ghalya (actually her this time). and RANTED UR ASS AB IT until a certain someone  knocked on your front door. u went to look though the peephole, you saw him. so you fixed your hair and dusted your clothes rlly quick and opened the door. “hey-“ 

“ilikeyoutoo”

that was all he said, it was so quick and he barely muttered it, but you heard it so clear. and your jaw DROPPED. (not actually) “you WHAT?” you were FR in denial. “I said, I like you too” he said, slower this time. “so, do u think we could go to a cafe this sunday? as a date?” he had a blank face but you could tell he was kinda nervous. “yeah, I’d like that….. like I’d REALLY like that” you said without thinking. he smiled

after he left, you were laying in your bed those same words repeating in your head

I said I like you too

I said I like you too

I said I like you too

let’s just say, you were looking forward to your sunday

a. miya ↴

✫ okok so for this one, I feel like u just r stalking his insta or sum (fan behavior/yall r friends) and then u CALL HIM instead of ur best friend AKIRA. and rant about how good he looks 😞 

you were crying (not actually). not because you were sad but bc how FINE atsumu looked in his newest instagram post. you were laying on your stomach and KICKING UR FEET AND GIGGLING. u felt like an elementary school girl who had a crush on a boy. it was a selfie of atsumu after he had woke up, his bedhead was cute and all in his face, he was pouting and his eyebags were as visible as can be 😭. but somehow, he pulled it off. the picture was captioned “stupid ass brother CANT keep his mouth shut when I’m sleeping but at practice he don’t even call for the ball 😐” his comments were FILLED with girls saying things like “omg my pants suddenly fell off” or “don’t disrespect my man osamu like that!!!”…. 

you were jealous. 

so you just HAD to call your best friend akira to talk ab it. so you called and as soon as the phone was picked up you gave no room for anyone else to speak.

“omg. akira. I’m ab to give atsumu a big fat kiss bc why does he look so good. like IK I be talking ab him to u a lot and stuff but like HOLY SHIT. HOW CAN SOMEONE LOOK SO GOOD AND WAKE UP AT THE SAME TIME. but those girls in the comments can fr die bc like back off or wtv 🙄.”

“y/n??? u think I looked good 😏”

when I tell u your heart bursted out of ur chest I mean full ass HEART ATTACK. you ended that call so quick not even the flash could outdo you. 

2 minutes had passed and atsumu was spamming you with things like “Y/N ANSWER PLEASE” or “Y/NNNNNNNNNNNN IK U SEE THIS”. until one text message caught ur eye

“I like u too btw 🙄” 

ONLY THEN you answered with a “thats wild”

“oh so NOW you want to reply 🤨🙄”, you smiled at this, calling him back. “omg atsumus like soooo hot and  he my man fr!!” he mocked, you glared at the phone laughing sarcastically, then he added a “we should go on a date ykyk i pick u up at 6 tmrw and we go out ykyk i’ll make sure to make myself look extra good”. 

“yeah that would be great actually we should”

you both talked for a little after that, talking about your days and volleyball until you say u need to gtb.

“WAIT BEFORE YOU GO, about that big fat kiss…”

“good night atsumu.”

@/ilovesillycats

please don’t copy my work 😞

#runa ⭐️ writes #haikyuu #hq x gender neutral reader #hq x reader #hq fluff #hq #haikyuu x reader #suna headcanons #suna x y/n #suna x you #rintaro suna #sunarin #suna x reader #suna fluff #suna rinatro #suna rintaro x reader #suna rintaro fluff #suna rintaro scenarios #atsumu #atsumu fluff #atsumu fanfic #atsumu x y/n #atsumu x reader #miya atsumu #atsumu x you #msby atsumu #Suna scenerio #Suna fic #fluff

[justanotherdrfan]

WELCOME ALL DANNY FANGIRLS TO YOUR INSTALMENT OF DANIEL RICCIARDO’S DTS BREAKDOWN! 🍯🦡

I’m leaving this one open since you all skipped straight to this episode! (I waited and I don’t know how)😂

S6E9 (Three’s a Crowd)

GIF by @arturleclerc

DANNNNNNNNYYY BOYYY 😍😍😍😍😍😍

He’s already laughing (god I love him)

‘Alright, what’s up?, Daniel Ricardo, this is season six drive to survive, and yes I’m back’ (fangirling HARD)

WAIT HE WAS IN SYDNEY, HE WAS IN FUCKING SYDNEY (why did no one tell me I would have called sick at work)

Daniel and Blake I really wish you went ahead with that podcast because you two are poetic chaos together

Cue another Daniel montage (they have his whole discography on file don’t they?)

He looks so fucking tried though

Logan and Alex talking about DTS frothing at the mouth about Daniel returning is the most factually, correct thing I’ve ever heard 😂

Logan: ‘All I know is the most excited people when Danny Ricciardo came back was Netflix.’

Alex: ‘I literally think they had to change their pants three times. I know the episode already. Let…let me run it through. Ready? Here we have Danny Ricciardo watching on the sidelines. “Yeah, it hurts to not be racing.” Then all of a sudden, pans to Nyck de Vries. Lock up. [imitates brakes screeching]. Off the track. Crash. Oh shit! Boom. Fast-forward. Silverstone. Test. Daniel Ricciardo. Super quick. [laughs] Danny looking at it like…big smile on his face. “It is what it is. You know?” [man]“I never left” “I never left. I’m back,baby. Honey Badger. Don’t give a shit.” (Hire him now DTS because he nailed that)

Fuck why they got to follow that shit with Zandvoort though

Daniel whoring about in his Enchante tattoo thigh high shorts

“Feels right. Feels good” (It sure does Danny is sure does)

EVERYONE LOVES DANIEL

And they get him straight to a photoshoot to whore him out

THEY DID NOT USE HIM WINKING IN THE INTRO (da fuck you lot doing? Give the people what they want)

Yes Christian 2025 prospect (he’s a shoe in ahh? See what I did there) 😉👟🍾

FUCK YOU MICAHEL ITALIANO (why is he getting air time) I’m glad he’s left F1

OHH NO OHH NO OHH NO NO NO NO NO NO

IM CRYING AGAIN. I CRIED WHEN IT HAPPENED AND IM CRYING AGAIN

Ohh they have his X-ray

Clairey bear

Cue Liam Lawson (I do love you but I missed Danny terribly)

The others telling Liam to be prepared (this is very welcome to our toxic work environment)

‘She doesn’t even go here’ (a Danica story)

Liam out qualifies all the red bull drivers (yes kiddo)

DANNY BACKS (SCREWS AND ALL) for engineering purposes only

Umm why are you hurting him? DONT TOUCH HIM! (Look yes I know it’s physiotherapy and he needs it. But I’ve broken my hand before the left one as well and driving a normal road car caused me to cry in pain so when I say don’t touch him I mean it)

I SWEAR TO GOD ZAK YOU STAY THEY HELL AWAY FROM HIM

Checo clips Yuki and he’s out (he probably thought it was Daniel trying to take his seat. It’s his in 2025 mate there’s no fighting it)

Ohh look Alpine with reliability issues (things you continue to see)

Yes DTS let’s show Russel’s crash from another angle 😂

POINTS FOR LIAM 🎉🥳

Are we positive he was in Sydney and not Perth?

Yes king SWEAT SWEAT SWEAT

Yuki GP time

Not Suzuka having Daniel, Yuki and Liam on all the banners

Poor Yuki being overwhelmed by the fans. I understand fans being excited but he’s cornered in the car and clearly doesn’t feel safe (and for Michael to be like it’s ok the fans are happy is actually the problem at hand. His and all the drivers safety has to come first and he point blank didn’t feel safe you arsehole Michael so it’s not okay)

Yuki honey it’s okay Liam not going to hit you

If we can’t have an Aussie a Kiwi will do

Liam finding out Daniel’s and Yuki are getting announced for 2024 🥺

Liam mate I’m sorry you deserve better

Mexi-coooooo

HES BACK BACK

Yes yes your P10 in the constructors (just you wait, just you fucking wait)

Checo out before turn 1 (its AUSGP all over again)

Ohh look another McLaren/Alpha Tauri incident 😤

No McLaren the plan is not to attack Daniel (haven’t you fucking done enough?)

P7 BABBYYYYYY

ENCHANTE, MON AMI

See your P8 now (told you to wait and see)

Yes Christian, Daniel did drive a good race (remember that and who didn’t)

Look at him and his little moustache

Will: ‘ I think this is only part one of a far wider story.’ (Yes 2024 season will be epic for Danny Ric)

#why wasn’t the Maxiel stroopwafel cameo included? #should have been called DTS KING RETURNS PART 2 #or kill marry fuck (an alpha tauri story) #scriptwriting by Alex Albon #was Danny really in Sydney because I will cry #formula 1 #f1 #daniel ricciardo #blake friend #formula one #dr3 #danny ric #my mclaren burn book #red bull racing #liam lawson #yuki tsunoda #fuck mclaren #fuck Michael Italian #and fuck Zak brown #with special guest Logan and Alex #the alpha male could have been a sick episode name just saying #the alpha male #alpha tauri

[arudoe]

Ok, first of all I have to say that I love your art style, it's just so comforting idk how to explain it but it's really really really nice

Also I saw your bruise wallpaper hc and you are so right, but which other hc do you have of them??

OMG ueueue thank you so much that is so sweet of you 😢😢

and also im soo glad you liked my silly hc hehe because i have so many its not normal actually

i made a post the other day with some of my hcs (this one) but i have plenty more!! so um enjoy 🦈

- they are both autistic (i infected them /j)

- my jay is transmasc ! (cole too sometimes depending on how i feel)

- they dont rly do petnames only like mean nicknames that are said with very much love and affection (like dummy stink fartface yk…)

- i feel like they do everything together like train play video game even when theyre doing separate things theyre tgt… like its always cole AND jay and never just them seperate… always team up for missions and everything… when they arent together the others will go wheres your other half haha stuff like that also they bicker all the timr and never say anything to each other but when the other isnt around they always talk so fondly about each otjer and 😭😭 it makes me wanna puke /pos

- they have very different music tastes (i hc jay listens to kpop and cole to 80s rock & new wave) and theyll always talk about how bad the others music taste is but secretly they actually like it… (jays kpop playlist got a save once and he was trying to figure out who it was and cole was like whoever it is has the worst music taste in the world) (it was cole who saved it) (also vice versa)

- they play every game and watch every show together and when one of them starts something without the other they get offended 😭😭

- speaking of watching cole cant handle anything scary at all but sometimes jay will somehow convince him to and always puts on the scariest stuff because he thinks its cute when cole jumps 😭

- jay still sleeps with his plushies so when they cuddle jay is spooning his plush and cole is spooning him and sometimes cole lays on jays chest

- they playfight and wrestle a lot and sometimes get seriously hurt while doing it

- they play dancing games tgt… like just dance and ddr

- also i think jay deffo dances to stim (totally not self projecting here) and his dance moves are always a bit silly so cole will copy them and jay is like are my making fun of me >:( and cole is like yeah maybe i am

- on the topic of stims they deffo mimic each other a whole lot in the sense theyll copy each others vocal stims and it annoys the hell out of everyone else because theyll say the same silly phrase over and over again for weeks 😭😭

- i also hc them both as chronically ill (jay is hypermobile and cole has arthritis) and sometimes after especially hard training days they will give each other back rubs/massages…

- they arealso borh very smart separately but when you put them together they become super stupid and lose all their brain cells

UMM okay this is kinda long so ill leave it here i have like a million more but id sit here forever writing them so 😭😭😭 once again im rly happy for ur question im kind of obsessed with them if u cant tell but um yea… enough yapping from me… adios..

#ardosyapping #bruiseshipping #IM KIND OF EMBARRASSED POSTING THIS HAHA #but its okay i love them sm… #ty for ur question op gives you a high five

[im-coolrat]

SPOILERS FOR THE NEW ALEX AUDIO!!

SO THAT WAS ALL A DREAM RIGHT??? Okay but when he said “Fuck, you don’t know how beautiful you are, do you?” 0///0 anyways IT WAS SO GOING WELL. WE WERE HAVING A NICE LIL PICNIC DATE UNTIL WE WEREN’T. We just HAD to bring up Natalie didn’t we. I actually hated how fast and broad the mood change. The amount of dread that washed over me. I hate how much I love that part. My jaw was on the ground when Alex was explaining how they followed him when he was taking pictures of Natalie. And when he said he pulled away from Natalie and explained he had a partner he loved I was so emotional (I’m saying emotional because I was feeling so much in that moment I didn’t even know what I was feeling) and then when we rounded back to the ‘right person’ thing I just- AAAAHSVDUAJWBDHDOWMSDBFHWOWOW- y’know? I actually hate when we go back to that. But I also love the conflict and angst of it. BUT WHEN HE SWITCHED IT UP AND SAID “Am I the right person?” I-

I actually had to sit down on the ground and hug my legs…. I was going through it. Holyyyy- So did he stay in London orrr no? Because it was a dream, right? Was the date setting before the argument? Like, was it a memory? Because we already now this was after the argument but was the dream setting before the argument or was it just what the brain making something up like a normal dream? Did the date actually ever happen? And the way he talked to them was so sweet :( You could just hear in his tone how much he loved them. And then the change to a more dreadful tone. His tone made me feel so sad and guilty. And him explaining what happened with him and Natalie. “And what did I do?….mhm. I backed away, immediately. Told her we were just colleagues and that I wasn’t interested. Told her I had a partner I was in love with.” “No, you wouldn’t really know, what we talked about after I shut her down. You left before you could. So your just filling in the gaps, as usual. Filling it with the worst thought. Those thoughts never left you. But I did.” “The right person. Are you the right person?” MY HEART STOPPED. MY JAW DROPPED. I WAS PACING AROUND. “I’ll ask you again. Are you the right person?” At this point I was on the verge of tears and ready to call my non-existent therapist “… well, seeing as your obviously conflicted. I’ll ask this instead. Am I the right person?” NOW IM CONFLICTED. I WAS IN SHOCK AND AW. I WAS FROZEN. I WAS FLABBERGASTED. I WAS GOING THROUGH SO MUCH EMOTIONAL TURMOIL. I HAD JUST WOKEN UP AND ALREADY GOING ON THROUGH SO MUCH EMOTIONAL TURMOIL. Or maybe that was all their imagination and all that never really happened. Maybe his explanation was false and it was just them trying to think maybe that’s what did happen. But my god how much I relate to them(for better or worse). Like, I feel like I would have the exact same thoughts as they did. I feel like I would have also approached this situation the same way. Because being cheated on and losing trust in everyone for so long, but then trusting one person with all of you. I feel like they realized they trusted him with all of them and it scared them. Because it would scare me. Everything going so well it seemed perfect, a little too perfect. And then the thoughts start to flood the mind. And everything goes to shit. Or maybe I’m just projecting, idk! But.….umm…yeah… 10/10 would watch again! :D

(DAMN This is long…. My bad)

#sakuverse #alex zsakuva #zsakuva #I keep adding to this my bad #and i will continue to do so

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

re parent regret article.... recently got my mom to admit she and my dad are deeply unhappy and the only reason they got married and had kids (in their early 20s, and it has dictated every moment of their lives since) is because it was what was expected of them and they felt like it was just the thing to do ... its very upsetting to think of how unhappy and unfulfilled my parents are but at the same time its kind of freeing because I understand a lot of their actions better now and their inability to raise us and give me the care I needed. this year I am older than my parents were when they had my oldest sibling and I kind of feel like im older than them now because theyve never fully grown past that point at least not as individuals. ya I suppose everyone has their paths in life and it all fits together and works and means something but it is very sad to realize your childhood was painful because your parents were really just not suited to be parents and couldn't have done any better. im trying to not be weighed down by their lack of self actualization and to be an example for them by manifesting my life in the way I want despite them being upset by it, and to encourage them to become real people now that theyre 60.. umm ya sorry your inbox has become my therapy sessions recently it just feels so much better to confess these things anonymously and write it all out to someone instead of trying to explain to someone face to face and have it deal with their responses. plus i think u understand a lot of my issues although objectively our lives are quite different! anyway yeah hope you have a nice day!!!! xoxo 2012 :3

ilu <3 i relate to much of this i will detail my thoughts below , im glad my inbox can be of use to u i believ The Confessional is a very necessary function in society it can be so transcendent to get something off your chest w/o having to affect your personal life in any way ^^ and i did have a super nice day ty i hope u did too..<3 :readmore:

it is really crazy to think about the pressure ppl face to start families , seems to be less prevalent now but yeah even 20-30 yrs ago it was just, What You Do.. for my parents, they were in love, and i think they rly did want kids, they were together for 5 years before doing it they planned it out, i DO believe they were soulmates. but then once the reality set in idrk there was just this disconnect. my dad was the more nurturing parent, and he had kids from a prior marriage so he knew wat he was in for, i think he missed my brothers a lot so he had perspective. i assume anyway. but he was also major alcoholic which i thought was normal for so long (in england it is i spose). that took up a lot of his time. i know so little about him or his inner workings its quite torturous to me lol.

and my mom is still alive but i know so little about her too, other than stuff i learned thru drunken outbursts. when i try to ask her anything remotely personal or emotional now she stonewalls me so hard :/ she's always just been closed. her childhood was Horrific tho like both her parents were still minors when she was born, her mom is a WW2 orphan and her dad was a delinquent forced to enlist in the navy instead of being sent to juvie. all the stuff she HAS revealed to me abt her life is absolutely bats**t. its awful like i genuinely can not feel a single morsel of bitterness towards my mom knowing wat she's been thru.

that being said i WAS extremely angry at her for a big portion of my life its been a journey to unravel. but at this point i feel so much forgiveness idek how i got here or when. but i love her unconditionally! i also feel that my moms self actualization was rly stunted, not even by having kids but by my dads death, and being left with these kids she has to care for alone, oh god if i try to imagine how she felt it turns my insides to stone. like it really fractured her soul and made existing problems spiral out of control. although that being said she is doing WAY better now in comparison to the past, im rly proud of her. when we talk i try to always encourage her like u say..

really the best medicine is being able to zoom out and view the big picture of Life, not just your life but how all our lives fit together, when you zoom out you can spot the patterns find the order in the chaos. for ages n ages i cldnt understand the reason everything in my life was hell while all these other ppl i knew seemed to have it so normal. Nowadays i can understand how it lead me here, the trajectory and timing of everything, it brought me a lot of EXPerience i can use to help others..Even just by having this blog where i can talk about vulnerable topics , ppl tell me it helps them, i begin to see a new sense of value in my endured sufferings. if i feel like im healing someone that heals me ..

thanx for the msg :] ermm i hope my response dont come off as traumadumping or something LOL i write this all with a matter-of-fact tone in mind. just explaining some stuff for anyone who may need it. hope u have a good night 2012-chan keep shining bright for your family.. <3pmd9

[piffany666]

(I came up with this and now im making it everyone's problem)

Back when warden was working for the department and vega was their "patient"

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Warden: Epiphany. By Inchoate.....W. I was not expecting this, this was so much more, you have stayed the hungry hunters, you have locked deaths door. For all your skulking, slinking, sneering, for all I was...fearing. I was not expecting this. For you to step into the light and reveal yourself. I see you. I see the lamb you hide under the wolfs skin i was- ahh!

Cutie: warden! What are you up to?

Warden: haha!...umm nothing! Notes! J-just umm going over some of our little friends downstairs' notes! C-can i help you?

Cutie: i thought id see how being isolated from everyone else in the department is treating you

Warden: oh? Thats...thats kind (?) Of you

Cutie: anything on your mind?

Warden: oh plenty; dealing with the fact that the place i work for imprisons my own kind, vega being....vega you know the usual. I was actually thinking about visiting aria but well...work and plus somtimes the d(a)emons there can be a bit-

Cutie: yeah thats great, anything els?

Warden: what...?

Cutie: oh come off it warden, i saw you in the brake room the other day

Warden: how do you mean...?

Cutie: look, every day we get thrown with the next mortal terror to deal with, were always being brushed off our feet! The other day me and sweetheart where stressing out about the next big disaster and you could hardly be bothered by any of it, you where just there, staring wistfully off into space while running your finger around the rim of your mug!

Warden: i was.....detracted

Cutie: you like somone!

Warden: WHA- I! T-thats! I-i mean i-i really don-

Cutie: called it! Sweetheart owes me a 5ver! So~ who is it~?

Warden: i dont have to tell you anything!

Cutie: is it the head of the department?! I know youve been talking about them a lot lately

Warden: i-is this an interrogation now?!

Cutie: so it IS the head of the department!

Warden: i-its no! I-its not the head of the department!

Cutie: alright alright! Were getting somewhere! I-its not agent is it? (Agent from the audio "a matter of urgenc" - the one with the southern accent) oh warden you could do better better i mean did you see what he was wearing the other day?

Warden: i-its not agent and I don't want to do this! OK? Now if you could just let me-

Cutie: sweethearts taken but that doesn't necessarily mean it's NOT sweetheart~

Warden: NO NO

Cutie: wait are you being so dodgy about this because it's one of us?

Warden:.....

Cutie: laughs* IS it sweetheart? Is it!?

Warden: I'm literally begging you....

Cutie: realises* alright fine fine have it your way keep you precious secrets but between you and me can I at least offer you a bit of advice?

Warden: I get the feeling you're going to anyway

Cutie: look nobody's going to notice you if you don't notice yourself first

Warden:.....what?

Cutie: OK look that came out wrong but what meant is take care of yourself because I know you Warden you will give yourself away until there's nothing left of you to love

Warden:......thats not fair.

Cutie: oh its true and you know it.

Warden:....maybe

Cutie: look I'm telling you this as a friend just think about it OK? Whoever this is they'll see how great you are not because of what you have to give away but because of where you stand firm and after all of Well whatever the hells been happening here you deserve something for yourself

Warden: hey that- that really means a lot thanks i- I will think about it

Cutie: good alright well I'm gonna head out

Warden: take care of yourself too

Cutue: Always do~ pew! pew!

Warden:....right where was I? Oh yeah yeah OK.

I was not expecting this for the sharp pain of jaws to give way to you-

OH MY GOD CUTIE! NORMAL PEOPLE KNOCK! NORMAL PEOPLE KNOCK!

Cutie: Sorry, sorry! Hey... it's not me, is it~

Warden: Oh would you stop!?

Cutie: cos if it is you know~....dance cards open~

Warden: just go away! Just go away!

Cutie: just putting it out there! Alright, alright.

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted incorrect quotes #tma quotes #tma parody #redacted dump #redacted warden #redacted cutie #redacted vega #the magnus archives #tma

[424151998]

I am in Athens and tomorrow I am going to Tbilisi

Athens is cool at first I was scared and kept thinking I was gonna get pick pocketed but it’s actually extremely chill here. I’ve been wearing the same outfit the whole time tracksuit pants and cardigan and hoodie with the addition of fleece and long sleeve and two puffer jackets and scarf wrapped around my head today and gloves coz it was like 10 degrees lol soooo not that bad but it felt hellish to me it’s gonna get sooooo much worse and I’m scared

Ummm yeah having withdrawals too so I’ve been sleeping a lot and feeling irritable but I’m optimistic that I’ll be feeling more normal soon

I didn’t go to any of the ancient ruins coz they cost money so I just saw them from a distance

Just tonnes of walking and eating

Food:

Tis theatrou to steki twice now…first time was better..first time I was like 😍 marinated anchovies and vegetables in vinegar and garlic and bread and saganaki w lots of lemon 😍 second time we got like an omelette which was average and meatballs which were boring and such a bad choice by me hmm kinda just like eating bread with little accompaniments rather than bigger dishes, cheap place

Went to some place max’s friend recommended that had vinyl records as placemats and we had this amazing soup with ceviche but after that dish it wasn’t as yum it was like a big stir fry type thing and that’s just not really my thing but max really enjoyed it and also some coconut rice thing which again meh I don’t really care but that’s just vegetarian food I’m so meh but also again I am in a state of withdrawal so maybe I’m just pretty anhedonic. We did get a little carafe of wine which was soooooo good and also some digestif after I forget what it was called but similar to ouzo super strong and when we got home I passed out I felt so drunk

We went to Atlantikos this like tourist famous fish restaurant for lunch and it was good yeh idk max was really into it we had squid and it was fine idk I think we ordered badly coz I was jealous looking at some of the other tables

We had giros at o kavourras which was so effing yum

We’ve also had a couple falafel wraps

I keep waking up super early it’s funny coz my sleeping pattern is so fucked up in Melbourne it’s like super normal here I wake up at 7am like 🤩and then have to wait til midday for max to wake up but anyway yeah it’s crazy I’m like early bird here but for some reason I don’t wanna leave the apartment without max I could probs go walk around and get a coffee but I’ve just been chilling on my phone and reading my kindle hmmmm until like 1pm when we leave the apartment , after about 5000 steps im fucking done and Need to rest before I can keep going..

Currently in bed and gonna go back out at some point idk I have these Greek cigarettes I might have one later but only one

Step count:

Wednesday: 12,299

Thursday: 12,719

Friday: 11,367

Saturday: 21,146

Sunday: 5,785

Monday (so far, will update): 8,521

Umm what else I keep having insane nightmares which is disturbing but I’m Hoping it’s just my brain cleansing itself …nd max says I’m grinding my teeth heaps so maybe I’ll get teeth grinding Botox when we get to Istanbul but idk

Lol

Ummm ok that’s all

Oh yeah and I’m obsessed with how easy it is to get thru the metro gates like soo amazing and not scary like they just stay open if u put your hand in front of them unlike the myki gates that feel like they’re gonna fully slam my pelvis

[leclerced]

Okay since my frustration is out the window I come bearing Maxoscar meeting their girl.

For me she knows from the beginning they’re vampires or has no clue about vampires apart from binging TVD. So maybe one time when Oscar is kind of new he maybe feeds on her friend and when she finds them she thinks he’s murdering the poor girl so she starts hitting him with her bag or sth and only after sees that he’s got fangs and her friend doesn’t look like she was being slaughtered or sth. So maybe she’s a little frick and starts asking him questions and is super interested in what it’s like to be a vampire. Then Max finds them and is like “oh fuck…Oscar what have u done and why is some human girl interrogating you in a dark alley?”

If she doesn’t know then I see Max and Oscar go to the store to buy groceries (in my head vampires still eat normal food not only drink blood cause it would be a sad life, not being able to eat). But Max knows only the basic since he was holed up in his mansion for however long. So the boys stand in the middle of the sweet’s alley and argue about sth and right this moment our girlie comes up to them and is like “umm not that I want to be nosy or sth but I recommend *this, this and this*”. Max would be mesmerised by her for some reason and awkwardly try talking to her but everything comes out wrong and Oscar is trying to save the situation but he’s the best in things like that either so they both are embarrassed af but she just thinks it’s cute and gives them her number.

okok ballerina anon sent another ask im gonna post after this one ! tell me which u guys like more they r all different

i like the idea of her going out with friends and catching oscar feeding on one of them!! she'd assume they're hooking up and she starts laughing, "oh my god you're so drunk you're hooking up in an alley? no, we are going home." and then oscar looks up and she sees fangs and blood. finding out vampires exist because one of them is sucking on her friend's neck in the alley way is definitely not the best way to be introduced to the supernatural underworld. so she's totally freaking out. max shows up while oscar tries to calm her down by telling him he wasn't going to kill her, and he immediately starts complaining about how oscar's a mess and he needs to stop feeding in public because this is the third time he's been caught in a month. they just bicker back and forth while she stands there in shock. idk how it would continue but the idea is funny

the grocery store thing is cute. i kinda love it. oscar's trying to explain what each of the packages of treats are, but keeps telling max he hasn't actually tried them. "i mean, its an oatmeal cookie sandwich with cream in the middle." "yeah but, is it good?" "i haven't tried it, but it looks good, doesn't it?" after oscar explains what he thinks zebra cakes are for a third time, she interrupts and tells them they should get the oatmeal cream pies, the honey buns, and that the cosmic brownies are a must have, too. max starts questioning her on them, asking what her favorite is and why? oscar apologizes for the questions and says she can finish shopping, but she thinks they're cute so she's like, "tell you what. i'll give you my number and after you try them you tell me your favorites and i'll tell you mine."

max doesn't have a phone, so he writes her number at the bottom of his grocery list and makes oscar take him out to buy a cell phone afterwards. i think he would call her instead of texting like oscar suggests, he wants to hear her voice. he really wanted to facetime her after the at&t employee told him about that feature but oscar quickly talked him down and made him wait a day before he let him call the number. with this idea, how and when does she find out they’re vampires?

#ask #lifeboredme #vampires

[booiiee]

Brooklyn Baby

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter- 3

MINORS DNI!!!!

You’ve had your share of dates, some good ones too, like that time this boy in college took you to see the northern lights- in a museum obviously and that one weird guy who took you to this restaurant with a complicated name that has the best wine you’ve ever had, none of those relationships lasted (fortunately?), but seeing a live band? For a first date? Very little possibility of anything going wrong really.

D- He is adorable but he is so stupid I’m sorry

R- Don’t say that! He is so cute

D- …..and dumb. Who takes someone on a first date at a noisy place like seeing a band? What was his other option? The Movies??

R- Dee….

D- No I’m just saying how are you guys supposed to get to know each other if you cannot hear yourself think!

But anyway, please wear white, you’ll look like a sexy swan, even better if he plays it safe and shows up in a black tux, you guys would look like you’re at your wedding reception

R- OKAYYY slow down, it’s a date, a first date

D- First of manyyyy

Now show me your final look

*You stand in front of mirror and flip the camera to show your final look to your ever so eager friend*

D- HOT HOT OHHH he is gonna dieeee

SEE WHAT DID I SAY THIS DRESS WAS MADE FOR YOUU

**Please picture this in white

**Hyunjae calling**

H- Hey, I’m outside your building.

You look out your window and as Hj’s searching eyes find you, you step away from the window.

R- I’ll be down in a second.

HJ's outfit

He’s dressed like a dream and Dee would have a field trip the moment she finds out you guys were coincidentally twinning, GOD he looks dreamy in white!

He hands you a rather big bouquet of flowers with a note that says “Don’t breathe if you’re allergic to pollen!” you laugh and say “I am not”

H- Well someone’s dressed to kill

R- And yet here you are, alive and well

Hand to heart he goes “Barely, Rose, Barely”

R- You don’t look so bad yourself

Funny how we’re accidentally twinning

He leans closer to your face making you lean on the car as he says in a hoarse voice “What if I was watching you and planned my outfit accordingly?”

R- The chances of both of us being a serial killer are zero so, no.

H- OKAY I LOST, let’s not have this roleplay EVER

He opens up the car door and like a boy from a fiction book, puts his hand over your head as you sit inside.

H- I did not know what flowers you like so that’s why the bouquet is a little messy, next time I’ll get you the ones you like

R- I like most flowers, peonies are my favourite and I know you’d think ‘d say rose cause im named after then but they’re not really my favourite you know and-

WAIT how do you know there would be a next time?

H- You did say yes to this date and I am going to make sure this date doesnt suck so fingers crossed

OMG DID HE JUST ACTUALLY CROSS HIS FINGERS?

H- umm yeah?

R- did i say that out loud?

H- So you DO always make sentences in your head before speaking them to me!

R- How far is this place? And what band is it?????

H- We have actually arrived.

When someone asks you out to see a band you expect a cafe or a bar with loud music and a lot of people, like any normal person. Turns out, by band he meant a private band that’s going to play music whilst you dine ON A FUCKING YACHT!!! You guys sit down as the band plays a rendition of a song you fail to remember.

H- Did i leave you speechless or do you absolutely hate this place?

R- umm so when you said we were going to see a live band, this isn’t what i was expecting. Its a little….grand. It’s crazy Expensive!!

H- Oh of course, I had to make a good first date for you, I want many moree

CUTE

H- THANK YOU!

GOD I NEED TO STOP TALKING TO MYSELF

The date went really good. You were comfortable with each other all the while having the romantic feeling of the date, later in the evening he even asked for a little dance and OH did you fall for him again. One date became 3, his contact on your phone changed from Hyunjaei to J with a heart. It wasn’t until the third date- a movie night at his apartment- that you kissed and it was unlike any kiss you’ve ever had. The atmosphere was CALLING for you to kiss, hell you would've kissed him on the yacht 3 weeks ago but he didn’t initiate but now that he had, there was no way you would back down.

Your first kiss with Jae also became the second, third and fourth and it could’ve become so much more if his neighbour had not decided it was the perfect time to come knocking on his door.You were prepared for him to either ask you to leave or sit in an awkward silence the rest of the evening, in your experience that’s how guys reacted after an interrupted makeout session. Hyunjae, however, made sure to cuddle you on the couch and talked to you the rest of the evening and if he stole a kiss or two in between, you weren’t the one to complain.

Two months into your relationship Hyunjae had dropped the L word and you wasted no time to tell him you felt the same- he was still never finding out he was your bias, you are taking that to your grave, or so you thought. Dee was meeting Hyunjae for the first time in the 2 months you’ve been dating, blame it on her “I wanna see him treat you good first” attitude- she was lying, she loved him way before you actually dated. She knew everything except the part where he still did not know he was your bias and you used to stay up late reading fanfictions about him. So when she went back home and texted you “why did he seem so surprised when I mentioned your stan account? Does he not know you were a popular hyunjae author?”

GIRL WTF!!!

H- Soooo when you said you did not hate me, did you forget to add the part where you were head over heels in love with me Miss Hyunjaescurlsdaily???

R- OH MY GODD I HATE YOU BOTHHH!!!

You throw the cushion at him and try to run in annoyance without remembering he’s twice your size and faster. He pulls you onto him as you both fall on the couch and for the first time all evening you realise just how many buttons he’s got unopened.

H- You can ogle all day but I am still gonna talk you you about your fan account.

R- I AM NOT TELLING YOUU

H- Yes you will. Now be a good girl and tell mee

In all honesty he said it jokingly but the way you reacted to that name changed the tone of his voice immediately.

H- oh, is it something you like hearing me say? Hmm love, tell me, what else do you like hearing from me?

The context of the conversation is long forgotten as his hands slide down your waist onto your thighs GOD WHY IS YOUR DRESS SO SHORT? And before you can process anything he’s now flipped the position with you under him, one hand on your thigh the other holding your neck gently, slowly moving up to your lips.

H- tell me rose, what do i do in those stories you stayed up all night reading?

Hmm? Was it something like this? *a peck*

Or perhaps this? *a kiss to your jaw*

Tell me, love. He asks as he softly bites at the base of your neck, making you sigh- only fueling his actions cause now his other hand is travelling up and up and all the way to somewhere too hot for the couch in your hallway.

R- Jae please. You half whine half sigh

H- Please what love? You wanna tell me something? His kisses on your neck dont stop. His hands now circling around your breasts, everywhere but where you needed.

R- Touch me.

H- I am touching you. His hands are now caressing your neck all the way to your cleavage and stopping just before your breasts.

R- You know what I mean. THIS IS TOO MUCH and not enough at the same time

H- I really *a bite at your left collarbone* really *and the other side* don’t *one just above your breasts*

R- oh god- you moan loud

H- Don’t think about god right now, love. I want to hear my name. He says as his hand travels south and cups you over your not so fancy underwear.

R- hyunjae! You moan loud sending him crazy as he other hand *finally* takes a handful of your breast over your dress.

H- If you want me to stop just say the word my rose, I will stop right now.

R- No, no please. I want this.

He cuts you in between as he jumps to kiss you hungrily. You’ve had some intense kisses with hyunjae but none of them were like this. He was kissing you like he wanted to show you how much he needed you, which wasn’t something you needed to be told, his bulge was obvious and obviously big.

You don’t remember when he threw your clothes off of you but the moment he took off his shirt you really felt as if you were seeing it in slow motion. He visibly shivers when your hands meet his chest and you moan when his fingers make you aware of your own wetness.

H- I want you. Do you want this?

R- I do. I want you.

You realise you’ve been taken to your bedroom when your back touches the soft sheets. Jae kisses you once before getting down himself. His gaze makes me shy as you try and hide your most private parts of yourself from you.

“Don’t take away my privilege of seeing you, my love” he says as he pulls your legs apart and attaches his lips to your thigh.

His kisses grow hungrier as he goes down and down until he reaches your very core. This can’t be- He won’t go down on you, right? Guys hate-

R- OH GOD

You yell as he licks you down there, holy shit what was that feeling?!

H- I told you love, don’t think about god, let me hear you scream my name. He says as he really gets to work

R- oh hyunjae fuck !!

The smile on his face was devious as he watched you come. He got down from the bed and started to unbutton his jeans and WOW you underestimated his size and wow you said wow out loud. He smirks and laughs a little hearing you say wow which, even in this situation made you want to squish his face, HIS LAUGH IS EVERYTHING!!!

He made sure he prepped you well but eve he knew it wasn’t gonna be enough cause the moment he entered you he really felt like he could come then and there.

H- oh fuck you’re taking me so well, my love, mine

Fuck you’re just so perfect for me

He kept groaning and praising you as he put those dancer hips to use and soon you both forgot count of how many times you screamed his name in pleasure. He held on to your breasts like it was the only way to keep himself sane, like you were laced with some aphrodisiac, and you kept pulling him closer, wanting him to lose himself in you.

The morning after was far from peaceful as you both wanted a repeat of the night before so if Eric’s knocking at your door screaming his name at 12 PM, it really brings you both to reality and against your wish, away from each other physically.

E- I don’t even wanna know why you have got so many marks on your body when you have a schedule today but JESUS CHRIST she looks like she was hunted by an animal!

And oh my god doc, are you blushing at that?!

H- Eric, get out.

E- So you can have a round 2 and be late?

H- It would actually be round 4

E- OH MY GOD!! I am outta here! Meet me downstairs in 5 minutes. FIVE!

With a pout on his face, which you did kiss away 5 times, Hyunjae leaves for his schedule and you prepare yourself for all that Dee’s going to say when she sees those marks on you.

Days turned to weeks and soon hyunjae and you shifted to an apartment together. There were days where paps would follow him around but nothing he couldn’t fool himself out of. 10 months later you’d find yourself not getting a call or a text on your birthday but before you can throw yourself on your couch and sob your way into the next day, you come home to decorations and hyunjae, your hyunjae, on his knee- a blue box in his hand as he says, “Sorry I didn’t wish you at midnight, I was getting the correct blue box for you this time around.”

THE RING

You said yes- a sobbing mess- and as your friends and family emerged from the background you complained to Dee that she let you get proposed in such a basic outfit. Hyunjae said “you look ravishing” so that made you feel better, and the HUGE ring on your finger, obviously.

D- You know this ring looks so familiar to the one y/n gets in- you stop her mid sentence before Hyunjae could hear

R- I WILL COMMIT ARSON RN SHUT UP

D- You do know he’s read your fics right?

H- Now she does

You turn as you hear Hyunjae answer Dee

R- Oh my god i am so embarrassed right now

H- Aww babe don’t be. It wasn’t anything you haven't told me before. Although that thing y/n does we should try that toni-

D- Eww you guys are too comfortable around me!

You both laugh as Daisy leave with a disgusted face, joining Eric who by the looks of it must’ve guessed the reason.

R- I really love you, you know that right?

H- I do, and I love you.

ALTHOUGH, I would love if you do that thing that y/n does.

R- DON’T!

fin.

hope you like it @un-love 💞

#hyunjae fluff #hyunjae #the boyz fic #lee jaehyun #the boyz smut #tbz hyunjae #hyunjae smut #hyunjae loverboy

[grimsneverendingfuneral]

Actually and literally kicking my feet and giggling like I know you can’t see but I am - MIC ANON

Anyways while I have you gimme the most toe curling most delicious most tastiest Barty + Remus headcanons you have (platonic or otherwise, because I just read WCGS and am obsessed) 🎤

good evening mic anon. how lovely it is to come home after a strenuous day of work to your contagious enthusiasm. kisses your forehead tenderly

ok i got a few for you lol

first remus and barty dont penetrate each other. like they dont fuck. they always, always end up furiously making out or dry humping or jerking each other off but they never end up fucking. its just not a thing they do. they dont wanna. they're like..... shy about it. i think theyre just not comfortable being that vulnerable with each other and they can come just by kissing anyways so thats that

and its always in very private moments. none of their friends know and they will never know. ever. barty and remus find each other incidentally. its always like they both somehow end up smoking a cigarette at the same time outside of the bar in the alley and theyre both talking casually trying to avoid and suppress the feeling yknow. the i wanna kiss you right now feeling. but it always ends up happening and its ravenous. for sure they lick each others faces

remus is usually the initiator. not cause barty isn't brave or wtv but more like remus is really impatient and kinda just wants to get off real quick. wants to be in control of the decisions that are being made.

their relationship is very cis man vibes like.....idk how to describe it but other than doing gay shit together they dont really talk about feelings or whats going on in their lives its just always stuff like music and movies and other people's gossip. its a lot of nodding and look into the distance and making jabs at each other

remus is waaaay more in denial about it than barty. barty's cool with it honestly he's like ok im down to make out. slut me out. remus is more anal retentive. he's like that ferris bueller quote "his asshole is so tight that if you put a lump of coal in it, in two weeks you'd have a diamond." he often kinda freaks out about it and bartys like alright now man it aint that serious

barty is not really good at being submissive like even when he's bottoming he's like barking commands and trying to tear at the other person's throat with his teeth but with remus its like he just goes completely pliant. he's trembling he's like what. what am i supposed to do he's going so fast. remus doesn't give barty time to be anything because its just a quick fuck to him. just blowing off some steam. so barty kinda gets to let himself be manhandled. barty's spindly enough that remus can just grab his arms and shake him around like a straw stuffed doll lol

umm what else? oh yeah the only time shit gets kinda real between them and they can say earnest things to each other is when they're high or very very drunk. its messy. its forget i just said that and i dont know why im like this and we should really stop. theyre not each other's secret keepers they got other people for that

they do eventually stop when things between remus and sirius start to get real and the only thing that binds them together is their friends. they become normal around each other again when a lot of time has passed and theyre both dating other people and it just becomes this like haha. we did that.

#mic anon #anon #aaawww two manwhores #thank you for this scrumptious question #remus x barty #wcgtf

[iknaenmal]

tell me about ur new hyperfixation babe

YES THANK YOU OH MY GOD

OKAY. OKAY LETS SEE

theres. well theres this baby who is satans son. and theres also crowley everyone say hi crowley. okay so theres also two demons and actually you know what ill talk about crowley and aziraphale sorry i have been thinkijg about them nonstop for the past four days.

OKAY LETS SEE. (this time for real) crowley and aziraphale have been best friends for like. 6000 years i think? well. more like "best friends" with quotation marks idk if you get what i mean. like uhh off the top of my head i can remember two scenarios. one time aziraphale was. i dont remember where probably england ig. and he said ohh id love to eat some crepes!!!! and he went to paris bc apparently the only good crepes are made there. i think i should also mention that the french revolution was happening then. and so aziraphale went there all dapper and . well french people were decapitating members of nobility and they thought aziraphale looked a lot like an aristocrat. so they caught him and were going to decapitate him but then crowley appeared and saved him. i just mainly thought the crepes thing was funny tbh

AND THEN THE OTHER THING I REMEMBER. well there was a church. and. okay there were a lot of things happening there lets see. i honestlt dont remember exactly what was happening there but umm. aziraphale was hired by some guys to get all the prophetic books he could find including the. the nice and accurate prophecies of agnes nutter which he couldnt find. so turns out those two guys were actually umm. members of a mafia iirc? probably not but something like that. and they well they threatened to kill him for some reason. but aziraphale had been working with some random woman who came to help him. but turns out the woman was also a member of the midnight crew mafia and threatened to kill him as well. oh how the turn tables. BUT suddenly crowley appeared and was walking in quite a goofy manner bc the uhh. christian power of the church burned his feet or something. so well he introduced to the mafia guys and then he said oh yeah btw theres a missile coming right here and the guys were like wtf are you talking about they were gonna throw it somewhere else and oh rhis is confusing let me use quotation marks. so crowley said "yeah it would be very unlucky if it was thrown here. wink wink" and they were like "ummm i dont think what youre saying is true" and crowley said "ok i dont really care. also if the missile was thrown here my good friend aziraphale and i would die as well isnt that fun. we would need a miracle to survive to that. wink wink" so suddenly there was a missile and it exploded but crowley and aziraphale survived. bc of a miracle. probably bc aziraphale is an angel and can do that kinda stuff. and aziraphale is v thankful of that but then remembers the books which were rly important bc they were the first editions of those books. and crowley pulled out the suitcase the books were in from under a boulder and gave it to aziraphale. romantic music starts as aziraphale watches crowley walk away. flutters my eyelashes and i let out a dreamy sigh

Ok im gonna cut it here bc this is rly long but i think its pretty clear that im normal about them. completely normal

#ohh damn. sorry for this i think i went too overboard #oh well anyways #long post #ikna answers #kirboreturns #<OH YEAH TYSM FOR ASKING AHDJKSSNKS

[that1nerd-20]

A Break at Home - Deathbringer x (F) Hybrid Reader

This is on Wattpad, I wrote this I did not copy

Deathbringer x (F) Hybrid Reader (Rainwing sandwing hybrid)

Characters: Ark 1 and 2 characters (the character's from the quartz winglet, they are only named and never described in the books the picture above is someone's headcanon, the character will be replacing the rainwing Siamang)

Description: a hybrid character becomes friends with the dragonets of destiny and goes to jade mountain academy, she comes home to the rainforest during a break and meets a very charming dragon)

Warnings: None just pure fluff

Words: 4k ish

(the dragons mentioned in the winglets im just going off an image of reimagined versions of them since they have absolutely no info on them so they are just what I imagine they are like)

Check the picture for color guide for rainwings and for the imagined drawings of the winglet

Ever since I had hatched, everyone knew I was different. I didn't look normal, I mean I looked like a rainwing, but instead of a normal tail I had a barb on the end, and instead of a bareback, I had a sail running down it. All of the other rainwings said I was unusually warm too. The thing is, I still had camouflage scales and venom (though not as useful as a typical rainwings venom), but I wasn’t treated like the others.

Once I was around 4 I realized that I was different. Everyone around me didn't really pay attention to me, they would overlook me. Then the dragonets came. For some reason, I was the only one in the village who read. I tended to venture farther out of the rainforest than I should have but learned so much. When they came I was so happy, I wanted to ask them so many questions.

Flashback:

I ran up to the new dragons.

“Oh, my three moons!! I can't believe you guys are here!!” I stopped and bobbed my head a little, the bag that goes around my neck and under my right arm bounced slightly. The rainwing looked at me funny.

“Are you really the dragonets of destiny? What is the war like? Were you really raised by the talons of peace?!” they all looked really confused and surprised. 

“Sorry… I didn't mean to… umm... Im just a really big fan..” I spoke quietly hanging my head down slightly. I noticed the Nightwing looking at me curiously.

“If you're wondering why I look weird, I don't know, nobody here does.” I picked my head up slightly, and pulled my tail to my legs.

“You must be a hybrid..” the Nightwing pointed at my tail, “you have a barb on the end of your tail like sandwings do, as well as a sail” he pointed to my sail, and my scales rippled into pink, light gray, neutral blue, and light teal.

“Don't worry about being different, im funny looking too!!” the sandwing came up to me, she did look a little funny, at least compared to the sandwing diagrams I had. Why didn't I notice my own tail… I probably would have figured it out on my own.

"If you're a sandwing then why don't you have the tail barb?" I asked the tiny sandwing. She looked a little taken aback.

She smiled slightly "I don't know and I don't care, as long as I am me that's all that matters!" She chirped, and I smiled.

“Wait how do you know who we are?” the mudwing asked.

“Oh umm…” “D/N here is a little special… Y’know how none of us read or have any scrolls here? Well, she's the only one that does.” jambu interjected sleepily.

I sheepishly smiled and turned a salmon color. “You have scrolls?!” the Nightwing lit up and jumped in front of me, “Yeah!! You want to see?!” I jumped up, turning a bright gold color.

“Three moons yes!!” 

I smiled recalling the memory. I was around the same age as all of the dragonets and was really good friends with all of them. It was really strange when the nightwings came to live in the rainforest but I didn't really mind. When they opened jade mountain academy after the war I was invited to go and stay there. That's actually where I am right now.

3rd person:

D/N was currently snuggled in a corner of the library reading scrolls when sunny came in and looked around until she spotted D/N. 

She walked up to her “D/N I have a scroll for you.” the hybrid looked up from the scroll “I think I have plenty for now” sunny extended her claw out “It’s from glory.” she said, the hybrid perked up at this.

“Thank you sunny” she took the scroll from sunny’s talon. She opened the scroll and read its contents: Dear D/N  was scrawled in beautiful talonship. Im writing this weird scroll thingy to you to ask if you would want to come back to the rainforest for the next two weeks. I know you have the days off at the academy and I would like to see you so… plus It's been a while since we have seen each other. I have some things planned if you do decide to come. Don't feel pressured to come, I understand if you can't make it. Can't wait to see you if you are.

Queen Glory (can't believe I have to write that now)

D/N pov:

Heck yes!!! I jumped up and ran out of the library quickly saying goodbye to starflight. I ran down towards my cave, bursting into it. Scaring my 2 cave mates. I was in the quartz winglet, siamang the previous rainwing of the quartz winglet decided that they didn't want to attend jade mountain anymore, and in turn, I was allowed to go.

I shared a cave with ebony the Nightwing of our winglet and coyote the sandwing of our winglet. Ebony jumped from her scrolls, while coyote merely lifted his head from his bedding with his tail up and ready.

“What's going on?!” ebony asked I started grabbing some of my stuff and putting in my pouches.

“Sorry I scared you guys, just really excited,” I explained briefly not lifting my head.

“Excited for what?” this time it was Coyote asking the question, “im going home for the next two weeks since we have off.” coyote nodded and layed his head back down as I continued packing.

“Okay well I hope you have fun!” ebony said, I grabbed the last item and started hooking each of my 3 pouches around my body. One around my neck and arm, one around my tail, and the final one around my wing bases so it resides on my back. I hugged ebony goodbye, and pat coyote on the head since he doesn't like showing affection to other dragons. They both said goodbye and I headed out of the cave. I stopped by Tsunami before I left.

“Hey D/N, do you need something?” she asked looking over at me from where she was sitting in her cave.

“Did glory tell you I was going back home for our days off?” I tilted my head slightly, my scales rippled into light blues and bits of gold around my fringe and my ears, “yeah she did! So you can go if you want.”

I smiled brightly, “okay thanks tsunami!” I bolted out of the cave and ran towards the entrance. As soon as I was clear of the ceiling I spread my wings and jumped.

The next day:

I had finally arrived at the rainforest, when I left yesterday I didn't stop, not even last night. Sure I was tired but I wanted to get here as soon as I could. Plus I can always recharge during sun time. I glided through the trees, pulling my wings in slightly. Every couple of trees I would grab a branch and swing, giving myself more momentum. I headed towards the queen’s makeshift throne room hut.

When it got into view, there wasnt much of a line, a few dragons at most. By the time I reached the platform the last dragon was coming out. There were no others to be seen. So I walked in. glory was sitting in the room by herself it seemed.

“I see this place has changed, definitely more flowers.” glory whipped her head around, she had a slight gold hue to her normal colors.

“You came!” she smiled slightly, getting up and walking towards me.

“Of course! I wouldn't miss coming home for the world.” when we met in the middle we pulled each other into a tight hug.

“You better not tell anybody I actually show affection..” she hissed slightly, her usual sarcastic tone ever present. I laughed softly and pulled away. We both had smiles on our faces. Someone is watching us. Not a rainwing though.

“So what have you been up to besides queenly duties?” she laughed slightly, “nothing much, just answering random dragon's questions, most of which sound like ‘my mango tree was assaulted’ or ‘the nightwings keep invading our sun time spots’” I laughed softly at her mimics.

“My my and who do we have here, I've definitely never seen you before.” I turned my head to meet a Nightwing, (a very handsome one at that) my scales mixed into a salmon and a magenta color I noticed immediately and tried to go to my natural colors, glory noticed also and was amused. I hoped that this Nightwing didn't know what the rainwing colors meant otherwise I was screwed. Luckily for me my scales finally died down.

“My name is… D/N” I looked over in his direction but not at him, I knew I was going to get flustered again if I did. “Well D/N, im deathbringer, queen glory’s devilishly handsom servant.” he got one thing right he was devilishly handsome, but I doubt glory likes him that much.

“HA! If anything you look like a squashed beetle” she hissed back laughing slightly. “And as much as id like to insult you more, it's sun time, and I know ill get yelled at so let's go D/N, I've got the perfect spot,” she said slowly standing up and walking towards the door. I got up and followed after her, but stopped right at the doorway.

“Have you ever experienced sun time?” I looked back at deathbringer, and he shook his head, “you should join us then, even if you're not a rainwing, it's still really nice, at least coming from a hybrid.” I then took off after glory.

As we were gliding I could hear the faint sound of a few trees whacking someone behind me, assuming it was deathbringer. We finally landed on a large platform in the middle of a wide canopy, the sun was shining through the gaps in the trees, and most of the platform was covered in the golden warm light. I heard a light thud from behind me, I looked back to see deathbringer covered in leaves and some pollen dusting his body here and there.

Deathbringer walked over to me “so how does this ‘sun time’ actually work?” he asked, I chuckled slightly “I mean I've seen the rainwings do it, but im not sure I understand completely…” I laughed slightly, turning myself around to face him fully.

“Just pick a spot to lay down and go to sleep.” he looked at me then glory then back to me “that's it?” I nodded. He looked down for a second, then looked back up and found a spot to lie down, he was situated in the middle of the biggest sunspot. He circled for a second and was about to lie down when glory threw some pillows at him.

“It's more comfortable with pillows.” he moved the pillows and then laid down. I grabbed some pillows for myself and laid down right next to him, he flinched slightly, im guessing he doesn't understand why im lying right next to him, practically on top of him. Our backs were against each other, and glory lay down in front of me with her back to me. She didn't lay down very close, since she's not big on dragons laying on top of her.

POV: Deathbringer

I had laid down and started to get comfortable on the pillows that had been given to me when I felt a warm body lying right against my back. I could feel what felt like a sail on the dragon's back, so I assumed it was D/N.

Rainwings must not know personal space, although, it feels nice, she was so warm, so on top of having the warm sun warming my scales (which felt really nice) I also had her warm body. I so wanted to flip around and hold onto her but I knew that would be weird since I had only just met the dragon. But oh was she beautiful. That first time I saw her I was mesmerized.

A couple of hours later

POV: D/N

When I woke up I was facing the opposite way I was when I fell asleep. I had my head resting on Deathbringer's neck and shoulder. I had one arm up on him next to my head, and our tails were intertwined. I was going to move away so that if he woke up he didn't get angry we were like this, but what stopped me was his tail squeezing my tail slightly and the smile of contentment upon his face.

I noticed my scales had neutral blue splotches atop a light gray base with a hue of light pink and magenta on the tip of my tail, my ears, the end of my snout, and a little in my frill, wing gaps, and my sail. I tried to move as little as I could not to wake him but he slowly started to wake up after a little while.

POV: Deathbringer

I slowly opened my eyes and blinked a few times. I lifted my head softly and yawned, but I felt a weight on my shoulder and something around my tail. I lifted my head farther up and the thing on my shoulder slowly moved off but there was still a lightweight on it. I looked behind me to see D/N  staring at me awkwardly.

She turned a jade green still with hints of pink, I couldn't pick out which though, whether it was a magenta or a light pink or both. She smiled a soft awkward smile and mumbled something as she slowly pulled away from my body. She got up and tried to walk away, with her tail still slightly intertwined with mine, but I tightened my tail's grip on her tail. She stopped and whipped her head around with a confused look upon her beautiful features.

“It's alright, I didn't mind,” I said and let go of her tail. I stood up and stretched my wings and legs. It was getting nearer to sunset by now. And the sky was turning all sorts of colors, as the clouds slowly turned colors to match the sky, kinda like how rainwings can change their scale color.

POV: D/N  (watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_GLwiFFYAU to understand the scene a little more)

I stared at him as he stretched, why wasnt he angry, I mean I know he didn't exactly want to let go of me while he was asleep but he was asleep he didn't realize it was me, he was probably thinking of someone else.

I slowly walked towards the edge of the platform and sat, it was eerily quiet because it was sunset I presumed everyone was heading to their huts and turning in for the night. I looked back to where we had slept and I noticed that glory had been gone, im guessing she probably headed to her hut. I could hear a few birds cawing in the distance and some crickets. The sun was still shining through the trees, but instead of the usual day sun, this was the deep gold sun that made everything around it gold.

“You wanna go for a flight?” I called behind me to deathbringer. I didn't need an answer I simply spread my wings, and basked in the light a little.

POV: Deathbringer

“You wanna go for a flight?” I heard her voice call out, I turned my head to her about to reply but when I opened my eyes my jaw dropped, she had spread her wings in the golden light, her wings catching the light and they glowed and creating colors along the platform behind her. Her wings were an iridescent purple with hints of pink and orange, matching the sunset in front of her. Her scales were mixes of yellows, oranges, and pinks. She was beautiful. I don't know how I had fallen for her within a day but she had this effect on me that I couldn't shake.

POV: D/N

I stood up and basked a little longer, I crouched down and leaned forward off the platform. I pushed off and glided downwards, I shifted my wings and used the momentum of the air to push me back upwards, towards the edge of the platform. I was fully vertical and I whooshed past the platform and up into the tree canopy, I could hear wingbeats below me.

POV: Deathbringer

I saw her lunge forward so I walked to the edge of the platform to see where she went, right as I got to the edge she flew upwards right in front of me. I spread my wings and took off after her. We pass through the tree canopy, scaring a few birds on our way up. I pushed my wings to take me higher, moving my legs to gain more momentum, as if I were galloping.

We were above the rainforest and It was just trees for miles. She was glowing in the sun, she did a few tricks in the air. I moved forward and our wings lined up, I shifted over and touched my wing to hers, she looked over at me and smiled.

POV: D/N

I felt a wing graze mine and I looked over to see deathbringer in line with me. I smiled and I looked forward and saw a small clearing in the trees a ways in the distance. The sun was below the horizon now and the colors were slowly fading. I landed next to the tall grass in the clearing when we reached it.

Deathbringer landed next to me. The sky had finally darkened the moon was shining bright. The only light was coming from the moon. I looked over at deathbringer and smiled I motioned my head towards the field and he tilted his head questioning what I meant, I rolled my eyes and walked forward. With every step I took, fireflies jumped up.

POV: Deathbringer

She was so beautiful, the fireflies jumped in the air and circled her. As she walked, I found myself in awe of the fireflies and her. My jaw had dropped slightly, a smile evident on my face, as I stared at her as if she had told me she loved me. I think I might love her, I had fallen hard, and something about her drew me in, as no one had before. She soon turned around to face me and she had the most beautiful smile grazing her features. Her eyes were full of wonder as the fireflies sparkled in her eyes. Everything seemed to stop, nothing else mattered at that moment, just us, just her dancing under the moonlight. She looked at me and motioned for me to come closer. I was in awe of her but like a moth to a flame, I slowly inched forward. My mouth all the same was slightly agape with a smile unmovingly resting there.

“Close your mouth, if you're not careful you might start drooling," she chuckled as she tapped the bottom of my chin, I closed my mouth with a huge smile evident on my snout.

“Dance with me?” she said, even though the birds were making songs, there was no sound, “but there is no music” I hesitated, glancing at the ground “and I don’t know how to..” I trailed off when my eyes returned to hers, she had an eyebrow raised her smirk was wide.

“seems the oh-so-confident flirtatious deathbringer isn't so confident now” she teased softly, I scoffed sarcastically, with a smug smirk on my features. I lifted my head and stood tall. I sauntered towards her. I went past her, letting my tail brush her red face.

“getting cocky now, are we?” I questioned her, I continued to circle her. I stopped beside her and moved my head towards her ear, and whispered sweet nothings into her ear as her scales turned all sorts of colors, I smirked widely at this.

POV: D/N

I could feel his hot breath on my neck, his tail was running along my side, in a feather-light touch. It sent shivers down my spine. His husky voice started whispering in my ear, things that made me fall deeper into his grasp. He touched his snout to my cheek. I looked at him, I tried to speak but it only came out in a mumbled mess.

“Still want to dance?” he whispered, for a moment I stopped and looked at his genuine smile, and nodded, “I thought you didn't know how?” I inquired, and he chuckled softly.

“ill figure it out, I can't leave a beautiful lady hanging now, can I?” I chuckled, I quickly showed him how to, so there we were gliding in the grass, our necks wrapped around each other, our tails intertwined, and our wings tucked in. Nothing mattered at that moment, just the two of us. Even though there wasnt much sound, it seemed as though music was being made just for us, from whatever was around. The blades of grass were whistling, the rustling of leaves and the many birds singing out into the darkness. It was perfect.

Timeskip: 2 days later

Glory and I went to a local fruit stand and grabbed some fresh mangos to eat. We sat down in a splotch of sun with a table in between the two of us, talking as we ate. She fed some fruit to her sloth, silver, as we talked.

“So how have your classes been going at the academy?” she questioned, “made any new friends?” I swallowed the fruit in my mouth.

“My classes are going great, it's so interesting to learn about the other dragons from someone who is that species, instead of hearing stuff from books,” I answered thinking back to moments that I remember about some of my classes, “and I've definitely made some good friends, most of the dragons there are still not used to the whole idea of conversing with other dragon tribes in a friendly manner.” I chuckled softly.

“Hello ladies, how's it going?” a deep voice sounded from behind me. I turned to see a smirking deathbringer, he walked up to the table. In the process, he intertwined his tail with mine secretly.  I smiled not acknowledging the presence of his tail.

“It's going alright deathbringer, what brings you over here?” glory skeptically inquired. I stood there and watched his features as he spoke.

“What? Am I not allowed to check in on the queen and her friend?” he chuckled glancing down at me quickly. I looked over to glory who was looking at me suspiciously, I gulped slightly and smiled nervously trying to act like nothing was going on.

“GLORY!!” a loud high pitched voice yelled, we all looked at each other and then looked in the direction of the voice. Jambu was coming straight for us, he landed next to the table panting.

“What is it now jambu?” glory rolled her eyes slightly, with a hiss in her voice. He took a moment to catch his breath before he started talking.

“Problem…angry dragons…your hut…” he breathed out still slightly out of breath. She sighed and rolled her eyes again before slowly standing up and walking away.

“Hopefully ill be back soon, dont have too much fun while im gone, lovebirds” she called out behind her as she walked, chuckling out loud to herself, we stared at her in disbelief as she walked away. “oh and D/N?” she turned around for a second to look at me.

“Y-yeah?” I gulped slightly, “be careful with him, he's tricky.” she pointed her tail towards deathbringer. She turned back around and took off.

“Im tricky?” deathbringer asked beside me. I laughed, and he looked down at me and laughed too.

I moved my head underneath his chin and rubbed my head against him, he wrapped one of his wings around my body and pulled me close.

I didn't want this love and attraction to seem rushed but I've definitely felt attraction this quickly, and that's what this is supposed to represent, attraction. Sorry if you didn't like this... but I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing it

- EJ

#wof #x reader #deathbringer #deathbringer x reader

[acespec-ed]

hi!! im on tumblr during class trying to figure shit out rip

anyhoo, thing is, i think im aroace.

but also i've only just considered the aro part?? i've been thinking about the ace thing and i think im almost crtain that i am ace, but as for the aro part, it is like RECENT recent but ive been thinking about it non-stop so i thought id look for some resources.

umm, okay. here's the problem. me thinking about if im aro or not is problematic because. i. umm. have a boyfriend.

saying the words itself make me cringe, but it wasn't like that before like when we started dating becauseeee i didnt realise that i wasn't going to like any of the mushy stuff he did like at alllllllll. he's the first person ive dated so i didnt know what it was going to be like, and it's not like he's forcing me to do anything weird or whatever, but like i knew from the beginning that he was way too serious about this stuff than i was and when he does like the datey stuff -- like when he asks to kiss me, or yk asks to idk go on dates with the objective of it being 'romantic' -- it makes me cringe so hard and like. i feel like a disgusting human being but. i just. despise it. we were friends before this and i liked that and i still like the friendly stuff we do but when it crosses that line i feel. like. very eew. yk?? and it's not just that guy like if someone else did that to me i'd feel the same i think like it's the actions i feel very icky about

i'd thought i was pan(romantic) before because everyone felt the same to me like i didnt really think about gender and stuff in a hypothetical person that i might be interested in dating but idk. maybe i didnt think about it because of this?? but now that i have yk this guy as an so i feel like im not made for this shit like i actually physically recoil whenever he does something that's meant to be romantic

i. i feel like a shitty person🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️

also to clear things up i LIKE the idea of romance. like i love reading fanfic and romance novels and shit but idk. ugh

ty for reading my brainrot😭

Yeah, you are in a bit of a sticky situation here. But plenty of aros and aces and aroaces have been in a similar position as yours. You're not alone! It does sound to me like you’re somewhere on the aro spectrum, possibly strictly aro. Having a boyfriend doesn’t mean you can’t explore the very possible possibility. In fact, there’s a bright side to your situation. Now you know for sure you don’t like doing romantic stuff yourself. Some aros spend their lives questioning if they’re aro because they haven’t done any romantic stuff. You’re spared from that. You’re probably having a hard time seeing anything good about your situation at the moment though, and for good reason. I can only think of three ways to fix your predicament, none of which are pleasant. 

One option would be to tell him the truth about how some actions just make you uncomfortable. Be very clear that you'd feel like this with anyone- not just him. You don't have to come out as aro, but if you decide to, you should be extra certain that he won't be arophobic about it, and that he won't out you. Best case, he'll be understanding and you can continue your relationship without the stuff that makes you uncomfortable. Worst case, he breaks up with you. (But on the bright side- no more putting up with acts that make you uncomfortable!) I understand this option isn't easy, and that it's difficult to admit your feelings towards romantic actions. Especially since your feelings aren’t common. And especially especially since it sounds like he loves those actions. But it's a noble thing to do and I'd applaud you for being brave enough to share your true feelings with him.

Another option is to tell him you liked it better when you were friends, and that you want to go back to just that. Best case, you go back to how you used to be. BUT- I would be very surprised if things go back to "normal" between you two now that you have "history" or whatever. It's common for alloros to be all weird about remaining friends with someone they once had a romantic relationship with. As in, they refuse to do it. Or things are just, never the same again. I don't get it either, but it seems like the majority of the world operates this way. You'd know better than me how he'd act about it. But if you go this way thinking he'll be cool with going back to friendship, be prepared for things to be different. Or for him to not want to be "just friends." Maybe things really would go back to how they used to be. But worst case with this option: he’s unhappy with being “just friends” and leaves your life. (But on the bright side- no more putting up with acts that make you uncomfortable!) If it were me, I'd go with this option. But only because I'd be too chickenshit to go with the first option.

The third option is, continue this relationship exactly how you are now. Best case scenario: You continue putting up with actions that make you uncomfortable and it miraculously doesn’t affect your mental health. Worst case scenario: Forcing yourself to put up with actions that make you uncomfortable wears down on you. You start building up resentment. Things progress further. You end up forcing yourself into doing those other things. You become miserable. One day you can't take it anymore and reveal the truth about how all those actions have made you uncomfortable from the start. He's hurt that you've been "lying" to him all those months/years. You two have a huge falling out over it. Possibly trauma on your end, possibly trust issues on his. This is unfortunately common among aces and aros who were in your current situation. Most would not recommend this option. I wouldn’t either, but I also understand why you would choose this option. At first glance, it's the easiest and looks like it would cause the least amount of stress and drama. Unfortunately, it'll cause the most amount of stress and drama in the long run. Keep all of this in mind if you go with this option. (But again, I do not recommend it! It’s the worst option you could possibly choose.)

I wish I could think of a better option that wouldn’t lead to the high risk of him leaving your life. Losing a good friend always sucks. 😟 It's a messed up situation you’re in and I'm sorry you have to go through it. Just know that you're not a horrible person for feeling the way you do. Lots of aros out there share your feelings on romance. They're not horrible people for it. Neither are you. You should seek out aro spaces, especially ones with a focus on being romance averse/repulsed. You’ll come to see that there’s nothing wrong with your feelings. They’re valid. 💚

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