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Hugs | Steve Harrington

Summary: Steve Harrington hated hugs until you came along. [1.9k]

Fluff, comfort, slight angst, implied homophobia (against Robin)

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Steve Harrington hated hugs.

Hugs were meant to be soft and warm like ice cream on a sunny day, crackling fire on a chilly night, but to Steve they were anything but.

He blamed his aversion to hugs on the lack of affection he received as a child. He couldn’t recall a time when his father even gave him a simple pat on the back let alone a hug. And his mom, she tries, but when a rare ‘I love you’ slips past her lips it’s in the same tone she uses for the grocer at the store, so Steve can never tell if she means it.

Steve didn’t know the meaning of love until Nancy Wheeler broke his heart and Dustin Henderson nuzzled his way in with an unlikely friendship and demodog. Since then, he’s opened up his large and previously empty heart to a talkative Robin Buckley, Dustin and his group of ragtag friends, Nancy Wheeler (albeit it’s different now), a smidge for Jonathan Byers, and even Eddie Munson. Even though he loves his friends to the point of self sacrifice he can never seem to spare them a hug. He’ll give them an encouraging nod and an affectionate high five, but he’s never been able to engulf any of them in the warmth radiating off his chest. And Steve feels awful for this, he truly does. He felt awful when Dustin had to seek solace in Robin’s arms when Eddie was injured and when Lucas clinged onto Max’s hand while she was on life support. He knows they understand it isn’t anything personal, but he still wants to be able to show his feelings through a soothing hand hold or a comforting embrace.

The first time he sees you he's at Nancy’s house for a small gathering celebrating the completion of her and Jonathan’s internship at the big fancy newspaper in New York. You’re in the kitchen helping Nancy with the snacks, smiling wide at her full of sunshine and sparkle, a stark difference from the gloomy aura of Hawkins.

“I see someone’s caught your eye already,” Jonathan giggles, breaking him out of his trance.

Steve glances at you a final time before he turns to Jonathan and steals his drink.

“Hey, why can’t you just get your own?” Jonathan whines a little, the result of a smoke sesh with Argyle and Eddie slowly wearing off. Steve can tell he’s only got a few minutes left to question Jonathan about you before he sobers up and uses this to tease him in the future.

“Who is she? Don’t think ‘ve seen her here before,” Steve tries to act as nonchalant as possible, but he can tell he’s failing with the way Jonathan smiles.

“She’s mine and Nance’s friend. We met her at the internship and she wanted to visit here for a change of scenery. Isn’t that crazy, someone from New York finds a place like Hawkins interesting enough to visit?”

Steve nods in agreement, because why would someone like you, someone so full of light and everything good want anything to do with the drabby town of Hawkins.

“What’s her name?”

When Jonathan says your name loud enough for him to hear over Robin and Eddie’s loud chatter Steve gasps softly. He mumbles your name to himself thrice because it tastes sweet on his tongue, sweeter than the cherry popsicles he likes so much. You talk for the first time that night, nothing past basic introductions, but it’s enough for him to drive home with a smile on his face because he liked the way your lips looked when you said his name.

The first time you hug him he’s taken by surprise his body goes rigid and then pliant. He isn’t exactly reciprocating the hug, but he isn’t pushing you away like he would the others. He pulls back first taking a look at your disheveled appearance, Nancy had called him earlier frantically telling him you needed to be picked up from Creel House and he wasted no time coming to your rescue.

He brushes the dust off your shoulders as you huff in embarrassment. “I’m so sorry for this, Nancy told me to wait for her and Jonathan to get back but I wanted to see the house for myself. I thought I could handle it, but I guess it’s a little too creepy for me,” you explain sheepishly.

Steve chuckles awkwardly, still a little loopy from your hug, “Yeah this house isn’t for the faint of heart. We brought the kids here once to err- explore and we still have nightmares about it.”

Steve curses under his breath as you give him a curious look, pushing more details out of him. “There were just a lot of spiders, ya know and the history makes it creepy enough,” he plays it off like it was no big deal but he had an inkling you knew there was more to the story.

The second time you hug Steve it leaves him winded, but he decides he likes the feeling. He lets you hold onto him longer than last time and pulls back when you sneakily go to ruffle his hair. He pouts a little, hands swatting yours away while he tries to fix it the best he can without a mirror.

“Don’t worry Steve, you’re still the prettiest person in all of Hawkins,” you say giggling.

His cheeks heat up but he likes you too much to throw a fit about your teasing. You’ve gotten closer over the past few weeks, always bringing him and Robin lunch during work and he thinks he might just keep you.

Steve realizes you're a hugger when the first thing you do after you pick him up from the station is trap him in your warm arms instead of yelling like the others would have. He thought he was over high school bullshit, but he couldn’t hold himself back when Robin called him from Tammy Thompson’s house on the verge of tears because Tommy Hagan accused her for looking at a girl a little too long for it to be considered straight. He was fuming when he pulled up to the house, Eddie meeting him at the doorway trying to convince him to not make a scene. He tossed Eddie his keys telling him to take Robin home while he threw punch after punch at Tommy for making someone he loved feel unsafe.

He pushes you off gently trying to explain what happened but you shush him softly, eyes falling to Hopper as he claps him on the back a proud smile on his otherwise stoic face. Everyone’s waiting for him when he arrives at the Byers, Joyce with a first aid kit, Jonathan with a smug smile (probably reminiscing his first fight with Steve), and Robin with eyes full of love and gratitude. He lets everyone fuss over him that night before he falls asleep on the Byers’ couch with your hand holding his.

Steve lets you hug him often now, he rolls his eyes and huffs a bit, but allows it with the pretense of it being the last time. It never is, but he doesn’t seem to mind.

You’re on his kitchen floor passing a bottle of wine back and forth sharing core memories. The others have gone home already after the last movie ended but you seemed reluctant to leave, so Steve offered you the guest room and a pair of old pajamas.

“Do you have any happy memories, Stevie?” You ask gently.

Steve shakes his head, “Not really, didn’t really have much of a happy childhood I guess, the only one I can think about is going to my Nana’s for christmas, but she died when I was five.” Steve’s a little tipsy now absentmindedly spilling his heart out to you not thinking about the repercussions.

You smile sadly, “I know what you mean, sort of.”

Steve waves his hand urging you to go on. You sigh softly, “I’ve been almost everywhere and yet it feels like I haven't experienced anything. I have loving parents but I never feel like they love me for who I am, they only love me for what I am, you know? To them I’m more of a trophy, something crossed off on the path of life to show accomplishment. I told you I came to Hawkins to research small towns for a project, but I think that was just an excuse. When I met Nancy and Jonathan they spoke so fondly about everyone back home. They might’ve been in New York, but their hearts resided in Hawkins. I wanted to find that for myself and followed them here…and I think I did.”

Steve shoots you a soft smile full of hearts as your eyes fill with unshed tears. You try your best to scoot over in your tipsy state and fall into his lap resembling a clumsy hug. This time he doesn’t pull away.

It’s nearing summer break for everyone now. Nancy and Jonathan are heading back to New York in a few weeks to present a proposal to your guys’ boss in New York for a new paper about small towns with mysterious histories. They put together a portfolio with files full of research done by you, articles written by Nancy, and photographs taken by Jonathan. The kids are finishing up finals and making plans for junior year. Robin passed her first year at community college and he quit his job at Family Video to work at the station with Hopper. And you, you decided to stay back in Hawkins. Steve can’t find a better excuse than this to throw a summer party at his house.

The sun is shining, bellies are full, hearts are happy, and laughs are loud in Steve’s backyard. Steve opened up his pool for the first time since Barbara Holland’s death and he thinks it’s time he starts moving on. Everyone is in the pool having fun, everyone except you and Steve. You’re lounging on one of the chairs, Jane Eyre in your hand and a lazy smile on your face, so it was no surprise Steve chose to stay at your side.

Steve is terrified to bare his heart to you, to tell you how he really feels, he thinks he might as well hand you his heart and a hammer on a silver platter. But then he remembers the shy smile you had when you told him you were leaving New York for good and you were staying in Hawkins. He looks over to you, your book finally pushed aside in favor of watching your friends have fun and he can’t hold his feelings in any longer.

His fingers brush up your arm slowly making their way to pet at your soft cheeks.

“You know you’re the only one who’s allowed to hug me.” It’s a concealed declaration of love an I love you that only the two of you can decipher.

“I know.” I love you too.

Steve smiles shyly before gently cupping your chin and pressing his lips to yours in a much awaited kiss. He pulls back gently only to pull you into his chest. He squeezes you hard pouring all his love into the first hug he’s ever initiated.

Steve Harrington used to hate hugs, but not so much anymore, not when your arms feel like home.

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thoughtkick · 2 months

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It had been a perfect fit, but perfection can be an illusion.

Kerry Lonsdale, Everything We Keep

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kimwxlers · 1 year

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And with the war almost over, I think there'd be work for ya here. Because there's nothing for you on Inisherin. Nothing but more bleakness and grudges and loneliness and spite and the slow passing of time until death. And sure, you can do that anywhere. So come, Padraic. Leave there.

Kerry Condon as Siobhan Súilleabháin

THE BANSHEES OF INISHERIN (2022), dir. Martin McDonagh

#my gifs #filmedit #filmgifs #movieedit #moviegifs #cinemapix #userfilm #the banshees of inisherin #kerry condon #kerry condon i love u!#(also i supposed to write fecking but i was looking on the existing subtitle and i'm to lazy to redo this... sorry :c)

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ato-dato · 1 year

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Breaking! Local senior citizen is embarrassed about past hair choices!!!

#you don’t wanna know how long these took me together #it’s embarrassing #anyway I don’t know if you noticed but cyberpunk 2077 has taken over my brain #to my dismay #it’s not even that good!!!!#I could write a ten page essay about everything wrong about it #and yet #here we are #a hyper fixation is gonna do what it has to do #and right now it makes me swoon over a 90 year old rockerboy #whaddyagonnado #anyway #Kerry is not proud of his bandana days and neither am I #cyberpunk 2077 #fanart #cyberpunk 2077 fanart #kerry eurodyne #v cyberpunk #male v cyberpunk #fan comic #art #artwork #my art #digital art #comic #drawing #I keep making simple comics too detailed I don’t know why #I tell myself I’m gonna take it easy this time and then there i am analysing Kerry’s tattoos when I really didn’t have to #I’d rather make shit stylizied but my brain goes no no no #this isn’t me bragging about making an effort btw I’m genuinely annoyed at myself

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perfectquote · 2 months

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It had been a perfect fit, but perfection can be an illusion.

Kerry Lonsdale, Everything We Keep

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alchemisoul · 2 months

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"Many attempts have been made to describe Discordianism. Many attempts have failed. Discordianism is a philosophy some have described it as like Daoism but funnier. Some people think Discordians take serious things humorously. That is not quite true; rather, we take humorous things seriously."

- Malaclypse The Younger

"Organized things cause Disorder. Disorganized things cry for Order. The colorful and flashy get noticed. The wary and wise wear camouflage. A mindfuck of epic proportions only happens when no one notices the set-up. Most games are won when using misdirection. Let other people wave their flags and storm the riot shields. You're not playing that game; those game rules were written by Authority. There is no way you can win at that. The wise spags learn all the rules, and then write different games. They create the Illusion that best fits their situation,and doing so, win."

- Chao te ching, Cramulus and LMNO

#Malaclypse the Younger #omar khayyam ravenhurt #kerry thornley #greg hill #discordianism #discordians #hail eris #philosophy #quote #writing #chao te ching #chaoism #daoism #taoism #dao #tao #chaos

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vole-mon-amour · 21 days

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No but Rogue and Kerry got to live their lives, they were alive and they LIVED those fifty years regardless of the trauma.

Rogue worked so hard and became the legendary fixer and the Queen of The Afterlife.

Kerry found himself, found his voice, recorded an album.

Yeah, Kerry was severely depressed, just like Rogue had to live with the trauma of Johnny being hurt by Smasher and that she got Johnny killed (he got himself killed, but she helped, she agreed, she probably thought it was her fault, too) and then she had to work with Smasher and the corps to stay alive, BUT BOTH HER AND KERRY STAY ALIVE.

While Johnny was in Mikoshi and it was a very long and lonely sleep at the place he blew up and he came back fifty years later, and so many things changed, but at first he thought he just slept and woke up in 2023. And he didn't get to live his life while his friends moved on (not really, but Rogue did) without him, and the world moved on without him, and in The Temperance ending he's alive despite all of that's happened to him, despite V's death, he has to figure out how to live with that, and it's his gift and his curse.

Do you hear me? Do you understand? HIS FRIENDS WERE ALIVE AND GOT TO DO WHATEVER THEY PLEASED WHILE JOHNNY WAS TRAPPED IN HIS OWN MIND HIS ENTIRE LIFE, AND THEN MIKOSHI HAPPENED, AND ONLY THE TEMPERANCE ENDING GETS HIM AT LEAST SOME TASTE OF THE NEEDED FREEDOM, BUT IT'S ALSO HIS CURSE, AND HE HAS TO LIVE WITH THAT (while leaving all his friends behind, while his friends also low key left him behind (but then Kerry calls on the holo thinking it's still V and that V abandoned him, but it's actually Johnny who had to get out), and Rogue thinks Johnny did the worst thing ever and she can't stand his guts while V wanted Johnny to keep on living in their body).

And both Rogue and Kerry are someone while Johnny is a nobody in a body of a nobody, and he has no means to exist, and he has to build his life from scratch, and— And maybe that's good for Johnny, because the music industry wasn't the right fit the first time because he was so depressed, but he still! has! to! build! his! life! from! scratch!

I'm sinking my teeth into canon and shaking it like a dog and biting it and kicking it with my back legs like a cat would its prey. I feel unwell.

#johnny silverhand #rogue amendiares #kerry eurodyne #cyberpunk 2077 #cb2077 #silverv #kind of #natiswriting #me writing this on my phone is basically yeah #long post

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sophsicle · 1 year

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Once upon a time there was a pirate, who fell in love with a king

chapter 1

#i might have done a thing #cause i am weak #and cause kerry asked me to #and when kerry asks me to write things i am legally obligated to #this is just how it works #NO I DON"T HAVE A PLAN #yes i understand that this is insane #and that i don't have to post everything immediately after i write it and that #i could be normal #and hold things back until i have more of them #BUT I HAVE NO IMPULSE CONTROL OKAY #soph rambles #jegulus #james potter #regulus black #sirius black #wolfstar #pirate au #royalty au

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kharonion · 10 days

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I've done my first attempt at a photo story... and of course, it had to be Emotional. 🥴

After Mikoshi, Vikt feels the pangs of guilt gnawing him. He's put the man he loves through some of the most harrowing things imaginable, between going to raid the Tower by himself (very akin to Johnny) and needing to be cared for as he fought for his life. When those feelings hit, he always comes to the safest place he knows: the rooftop of Dark Matter. Where it's quiet, calm, and still. And this is one of those first moments that Kerry finds him there...

𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚝𝚘𝚖𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎.

#this started as something else but their playlist Feels kicked my ass entirely akjhf #this is simple probably... but it was super fun to write and put together 🥺#Vikt is always out here Thinking about all he has dragged Kerry through--some of it a Johnny Encore unironically #and he sometimes questions *why* Kerry puts up with it all #but we know it's because Kerry loves the fuck out of him 😭#i love them your honor #khar vp #.photo story #oc: vikt #kerry eurodyne #x: dark matter in our space #v x kerry #male v #cyberpunk 2077 #c2077

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mrssimply · 4 months

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"V, huh, everything all right? You sound strange." "'Course, yeah. Just wanted to hear ya"

"Hey Ker".

"Fuck, V?! What happened?!" "Not my blood."

"Shit you scared me... that call!" "Yeah, it's alright now.

"I huh... got a surprise for you."

"Fuck."

"Johnny... That really you?" "Flesh 'n bones, Ker. Happy to see me?"

"Can't believe it!" "Can think of a few ways to make it real. Just c'mere."

The heroes come back.

#cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #johnny silverhand #male v #kerry eurodyne #virtual photography #silverdyne #kerry x v #kerry x johnny #silverV #masc V #practicing practicing practicing #maybe getting the hang of it #since I'm not writing anything #decided to uses pictures

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whitecrossgirl · 7 months

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4. 'Halloween Party' - So how did Emily manage to convince Rossi to throw a huge Halloween party at his mansion? Well... there may or may not be some blackmail involved.

Tag list: @sequinsmile-x @ssa-sparks @denvivale317 @ms-black-a

#criminal minds #fic #hotchniss #emily prentiss #aaron hotchner #kerri writes

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elvenbeard · 4 months

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What if we kissed under the bigass neon Christmas tree at Corpo Plaza surrounded by virtual snowfall?

🥺👉👈😘🎄🐟❄️ (<- the emoji combo Kerry sent Vince to start off their date, probably)

Fantastic neon tree prop by @lokiina (you don't have to scale it up to 3000% like I did, but you can, and that's awesome!) 💚

Snowflake props, comfy sweater (Kerry), scarves, and pullover (Vince) by @pinkyjulien💛

Some headcanons and behind the scenes pics below the cut xD

I wasn't sure if I'd manage to do wintery pics still in time cause the last weeks I was ill and also busy as hell, so yeah XD But then, as I was playing around with the Christmas tree, knowing that it's scalable, I had the spontaneous urge to see just how big you could make it... and we'd been talking about how utterly decked out NC has got to be in colorful lights and shit around Christmas (because, yay, consumerism!). And since there are virtual cherry blossoms everywhere, there's gotta be virtual snowfall too!

This is what it looked like from afar :D

Now, headcanon time!

I think, as someone who grew up in the 90s and poor-ish, like me, Christmas must've been a special and magical time for Kerry, even if it's probably lost its charm as he grew older. I still think though, since I interpret him as someone very nostalgic who tends to linger in the past, he'd definitely be into decorating the house and having at least a small fake tree or something set up. He probably did that with Louise and his kids as well (cause yay, giving presents to make up for the guilty feelings of being a probably otherwise not very present parent - ba-dum-tss), and in the following years it brought back too many bad feelings and memories for him to really look forward to it. But with Vince he'd wanna make new memories, he'd probably be in the holiday spirit again for the first time in a long time... but little does he know that Vince is a little Grinch ("What the fuck is a Grinch?" - ".... movie night, right now!")

Vince's family *never* celebrated Christmas in a big way. His mother thought the decorations tacky and didn't want them in her house. Culture-wise, with his dad's Japanese background, Christmas is more a romantic couple's holiday than the traditional family or even religious thing we have in the west. So he doesn't have strong feelings about Christmas apart from "hm, yeah, the lights are pretty I guess". But I'd also like to think that Kerry does manage to get him in the holiday spirit at least a little bit too xD Cause in the end, it's about spending time with your loved ones and giving a shit about the rest imo XD

#cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #cyberpunk photomode #cyberpunk vp #cyberpunk 2077 vp #cp2077 vp #cyberpunk kerry #cyberpunk v #kerry eurodyne #kerry eurodyne x v #vincent ezaki #otp: to bad decisions #virtual photography #my vp #*writing whole essays about them again aösdfhasdfasfhdsa*#also finally decided on what they're watching in the movie night photoset from last week XDD

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sansevierias · 2 months

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no but changing v's age to a tiny little baby* was silly and it was extra silly to give both female and male V the same birthday, because i see them as totally different characters with different personalities. and them having different birthdays was a nice addition that kinda highlighted it. like of course everyone can make their own V and roleplay as any kind of character they like, but i think the voice acting (english version) and romance options do paint a certain type of base for their personalities.

male v is a man in a man's world and he has to act like one in order to fit in and to survive. he has to have this cool tough guy act on, but sometimes it breaks, and you can find out what he really is feeling (for example talking to vik after the heist or the scene with skye/angel at the clouds). his romance options are both pretty big and wild personalities, and vincent in comparison to them is almost like more of a calming presence. but he does happily go along with both panam's and kerry's shenanigans.

female v is a woman living in a misogynistic world and that pisses her off. she is quick to anger and doesn't try to hide too much what she is feeling. if someone has an issue with how she expresses herself, then that's their fucking problem. to balance this, her romance options aren't as wild as panam and kerry, and they both offer a certain kind of domesticity to valerie. judy wants to move in with her immediately after their first time having sex (like a typical lesbian lol), and river is a family man and you can't make him leave his sister and her children. valerie's sex scenes are also less crazy and more "serene" and traditional than what vincent gets (a tank and a burning yacht).

some of these differences are also probably due to some underlying sexism in the writing (woman being more emotional, man getting wilder partners and so forth). but i still like that there are differencies. and when you add the three different life paths, you can get some nice variety to this pre-written character.

*i'm being overly dramatic because i myself am "old" and also a bit of a clown.

#cp2077 txt #v #cyberpunk 2077 #i started to write this and then i was like am i being really stupid (probably lmao)#but anyway #the performance of certain type of ridiculous masculinity fascinates me in v's and kerry's relationship #one of my favorite under appreciated lines in the romance is #in the sun ending when V hugs kerry and kerry says "this is what you do when you don't want to talk'#and it gives me this impression that kerry is more ready to drop that silly macho act #probably due to his age and having more experience #and he has tried to make V open up to him more #but V isn't ready yet and just turns to physical affection instead bcs he's more comfortable expressing himself that way

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