#like im not fucking kidding

[dipyronegirl]

thinking (and rewatching..) inside job again and i dont think rand is that bad of a father? i mean, he made a lot of mistakes and he doesn’t even feel bad ab it, even tho he traumatized reagan and a lot, but he was never absent. he acts like he cared ab reagan’s career just bc it could help his career, but that’s not true. he pushes her to be the best all the time and it’s bad, but he genuinely cares ab her so much. and the whole ‘creating crises to force her to hang out w him’ thing is fucked up, but it’s cute that he just wants to hang out w her that bad. most fathers literally don’t care enough ab their kids to do any of that. most fathers don’t even know their kids as much as he knows her. maybe my standards are just insanely low, probably, but he’s a better parent than 90% of the parents i know

#not just fathers. my standards aren’t lower for fathers than they are for mothers yk. they’re both low #he’s a better parent than my mom #he raised her being completely emotionally neglecting and putting so much pressure on her to be the genius she is #but i mean #my mom was just as emotionally neglecting as he was. i like telling the story ab how she had me stitch up my own wound when i was 8 #and always mocked me for being ‘weak’. exactly like toxic masculinity except that we’re both girls. i couldn’t have feelings yk #rand isn’t as toxic as her when it comes to that. he neglects her feelings and even mocks them too but she still seemed allowed to Have them #if my mom thought i was being ‘weak’ she would scream at me ab how much she wished i had never been born. he doesn’t do that!!!! #like when she didn’t wanna skip 4th grade. if that were me my mom would have made me feel so guilty for being born #like i had to skip grades and actively pretend (i’m talking real acting here) to not be upset or she’d go on her rants #ab how life is difficult and depressing for everyone and i gotta swallow it and like it cause she sacrificed her happiness and health for me #cause my being born made her life so hard etc etc #i don’t think rand make reagan feel like her continuing existence kept him from being happy or healthy #my mom started blaming her diabetes on me when i was 10. #like im not fucking kidding #cause my expensive private school (that she forced me to go to all my life cause it was semi boarding so i had someplace to stay all day and #so she didn’t need to leave me home alone) made her work too much which made her stressed which made her eat more so being diabetic was a #sacrifice she made for my future #that’s just how it was #inside job #text

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

I just wanna say bc I KNOW you're somewhere on tumblr, to the teenage girl who attended Take Your Kid To Work Day at an office building in Ontario, Canada circa 2013 and had a conversation with a middle aged woman in which you showed her your Black Veil Brides fanart and fanfics and ship content and told her about different fanfic tropes including a/b/o verse bc she happened to know who Panic! at The Disco and Fallout Boy were and thus you felt the need to show her your bandblr ship art, that was my fucking mother and I had to clarify all that to her including looking my mother in the eye and trying to explain a/b/o verse without sounding like a lunatic.

It's been 10 years and I still regularly sent evil energies in your direction. Since you'd be probably two years younger than me and thus legally an adult now, please know if this post reaches you it's on sight.

#she cornered me in the car and asked what shipping was and i almost had a fucking heart attack #imagine being like 16 years old and habing to explain knotting to your mother #random emo music girl I'm glad you had fun talking about your Band Guys to my mother #bc i also attended take your kid to work day at that office and i know how boring it was #but christ alive why did you have to fuck me like that? #anyways i hope this post reaches you so at the very least you know i think about you at least once a week #this has been weighing on me for ten years #im almost tempted to blaze this post

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[paper-lilypie]

ok but that kid Mobius couldn’t prune was Loki right. like, that was Loki right. The brothers at the dock. That was Loki and Thor right. It was Loki

Mobius couldn’t kill Loki, chose his burden, and dedicated his life to him instead.

Mobius’s story started and ended with Loki. It had to be Loki.

#loki spoilers #loki #loki season 2 #lokius #mobius m mobius #LIKE #IM STILL WRAPPING MY HEAD AROUND THE FACT THAT HE WAS A HUNTER #AND NOW WE FIND OUT HES NOT BC HE COULDNT KILL A KID #HELLO #WE CHOOSE OUR BURDENS HE SAYS #HE CHOSE TO STICK TO HIS HUMANITY #THE SAME HUMANITY HE SEES IN LOKI #GRIPS SERIES #WHY DO MY GAY MEN ALWAYS END UP SEPARATED #FUCK #I NEED THE REST #WHERES THE REEEEEESST

[teddytheartist]

Zukka for the win my guys

#it’s that one scene in the middle of the night in the tea shop in We will last the night by CSHfic #guys Zukka has a chOKEhold on me like #a DEATH GRIP #im not kidding I’m fucking dying out here man #they produce the most egregious amount of serotonin in my brain #like it’s not even fair #like i love them so much you don’t understand #rec me fanfics PLEASE #fanart #Zukka #zuko #sokka #atla #atla fanart #avatar the last airbender #atla zuko #atla sokka

[stil-lindigo]

PARTY ROCKERS IN THE HOUUUUSE TONIIIIGHT

#how the FUCK did they make this MOVIE #every single person who worked on this movie needs a kiss on the mouth and approximately a trillion dollars these fucking MAGICIANS #are yOU KIDDING ME #god im never gonna be the same #i cant believe i have to wait NINE MONTHS FOR THE SEQUEL RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH #SHAKING THIS MOVIE IN MY JAWS LIKE A RABID DOG I LOVE YOU SPIDERVERSE TRILOGY #spiderverse #miles morales #hobie brown #spider man: across the spider verse #gwen stacy #stillindigo art

[puppyeared]

so a few things

my brother and i have our rooms facing each other he recently got a mood light installed and he can change the color his favorite color is purple

which would normally be. FINE but every time i walk to my room its just been this

#get meout get me out hget me OUT. OF HEREEE. #i cant even tell him to change it cuz like what. im gonna make him stop using his favorite color. because of two dumb gay fuckheads #BUT LIKE FOR REAL EVERY TIME. EVERY TIME. I HAVE TO GO TO MY ROOM #ITS LIKE IM WALKING INTO FUCKING SHADWOPEACH CROSSROADS. FUCK #LIKE THAT MEME? THE ONE WITH THE GUY AT A FORKED PATH BETWEEN THE EVIL CASTLE AND SUNNY MEADOW? #THATS ME RN #my road not taken ass going thru it every fucking evening when i have to. WALK TO MY ROOM AND NOT SAY ANYTHING ABT IT #LOSING MY MIND #yapping #diary #doodles #shadowpeach #lmk #lego monkie kid

[carrotkicks]

"yo shirase, these edibles ain't shi-"

#shirase is FUCKING DONE with this kid #sheep era chuuya seemed like a pretty moody kid (when is he not tbh) but im sure he has gotten up to Some Shit #shirase has been this guys big bro for years he has to have seen some real nonsense #bsd #bungo stray dogs #chuuya #shirase #yuan #fifteen #doodles

[turrondeluxe]

always happy about the fact that in 2012, mikey often asked donnie questions if he didn't understand something and donnie always answered no matter what

this can be seen in a bunch of episodes but my favorite example of it it's the one in half shell heroes where mikey is extremely excited to be in the museums and is the one actively asking donnie questions about the exhibits they saw and also actively listening to donnie's explanation (before raph got silly lmao). he was very excited to learn!!!

And while it's true that mikey would lose interest quite fast if the explanation got too lengthy with too many technical terms, it doesn't change the fact that he does retain the info donnie is always rambling on about different things!!! (even if mikey himself doesn't notice he's doing it lol) and also i find it very sweet that no matter if donnie himself got annoyed, donnie would always answer the questions. no matter what. he would always try to explain if he didn't understand something

This is prob because mikey is the one brother who is often seeking out donnie to pass time around him Meaning that donnie might have used mikey as his rubber ducky whenever mikey hangs out with him while he's working (explained him a lot of his experiments and theories while trying to solve them himself and in this way mikey also learnt in the process WHILE spending time with his brother! win win!)

it also helps donnie because accompanies him while not letting him get lonely in his lab 24/7, sometimes explaining things to someone makes it better to understand it yourself AND it's shown in the comics that donnie is quite used to his brothers just Living as background noise and literally cannot function without it lmao

They are literally the two smart kids in the family even if none of them notice it and it's all because mikey looks up to his brother and is like an sponge with donnie around. donnie is actively teaching mikey and mikey is learning! even if they have no idea they are doing it

#fer silly twt rambling #i wasnt going to post it here but i think yall will like this one lol #STEM KIDS!! #they mean so much to me #literally is so important to me that donnie; if not stressed the fuck out by a lot of things going on; would always explain calmly to mikey #thats his only little brother!!! hes thoughts are prob 'if mikey asks i must answer. im such a cool older bro' #makes my heart warm with joy #ALSO #mikey looks up to don and wants to do the same things as don does based on how he mimics him in that one ep where donnie is silly goofy #i need an ep of 2012 b team visiting museums and being happy and excited about learning #the b in b team stands for best friends!!! #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt mikey #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt donnie #tmnt donatello

[nerdpoe]

AU where the first time Zuko fights Aang on the ship when the Avatar's escaping, Aang accidentally energy bends Zuko.

Zuko is no longer a Fire Bender.

Zuko is now an Air Bender.

Zuko is also Freaking The Fuck Out, and so is Aang.

"Change it back, change it back!"

"I don't know how! I don't know what I did!"

"Then learn! Fix this!"

Meanwhile, Iroh is internally screaming because yeah, this is a death sentence for his nephew.

Sokka and Katara are just. Hanging out. Staring at each other and then the crew.

Everyone's confused. The crew just...slowly edging away to get back to steering the ship and laze around and stuff.

Katara knows it's a weird Avatar thing Aang did.

Sokka has now formulated a conspiracy theory that Zuko was only pretending to bend Fire the entire time.

#ATLA #ATLA AU #story prompt #zuko #aang #katara #sokka #uncle iroh #poor iroh man what the fuck #ur brother attacked ur nephew and ur just trying to keep the kid alive #and some rando air bender avatar grants him the kind of bending thats an automatic death sentence #zuko hears what sokka's conspiracy theory is #and is like ya know what #that's actually a pretty good idea hold on im gonna learn how to do that

[fyoht]

oh my god. look at him. what a little bitch.

#AND HE WAS RIGHT. #the little 'hands on hips' adklbjndkbndb what the fuck #michael sheen i have questions about your acting choices. #but also like. yeah. that's them. #honestly though this scene drives me nuts cause aziraphale is such a little bastard in this one. look at him. so smug #so righteous. 'AH YOU SAY YOU CAN KILL KIDS? HAHA. NOPE. I KNOW YOU'. a bitch. poor crowley. but also i love them. #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #good omens #good omens 2 spoilers #and YES. im aware i missed the 'well' part. I KNOW. IM SORRY. my photoshop works at the speed of 2010 internet. have mercy.

[christakisbang]

chanlix moments i think about a lot (7/?) - channie’s room ep. 105

#stray kids #bang chan #chanlix #stray kids gifs #skz #skz gifs #my gifs #chanlixmoments #oh my god everytime he moves the lighting changes i cannot be fucked to adjust every layer im sorry #we're all gonna have to live w it ik it looks awful #anw horrible coloring aside.....this was A Moment. 3rd gif look how he perks up when he hears i made them like u said!!!!!! #sa u get a smooch assuming this is the one u meant unless another one exists w brownies that im forgetting about. if so im witholding #the smooch until u point me in its direction thank u

[gingerthesnap]

the fucking isolation sally jackson must've felt when she was trying to pry her demigod child who physically cannot drown from the edge of a pool bc he's afraid to learn to swim. it is such a comedically stupid situation but she cant complain about it to a single mortal soul.

#pjo #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #im so glad the show is aggressively pro sally jackson #i fucking love the beginning of titans curse where she's driving them all to their battle #and percys so embarassed #lol #she obviously didnt know he couldnt drown but still #id want to scream at him that he's the son of the sea god so many times lol #like #kid this is going to be the easiest thing you ever learn you've Got to naturally good at this

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[mikakuna]

the dumbification of jason todd despite all we've seen he's capable of is caused by adult men who dick ride batman so hard i'm sure they get wet at the sound of his name

#stop letting batman superfans write jason comics!!! #the white elitist view needs to stop im so tired #like yes billionaire bruce wayne believes in the redemption of petty criminals more than jason fucking todd- #the child who stole for a living on the streets and whose father was a petty criminal to provide for his family #yes jason todd the kid who grew up in gotham's most forgotten and overlooked area would want death for all small time crooks #i'm so tired #it's genuinely just so disheartening #how on earth was he written better in the 80s and early 2000s #the classism was still there but fuck it was tackled better #now it's just full on classism and dumbification and elitist dickriding #jason todd #red hood #batman #dc #jason peter todd #bruce wayne #dc comics

[hayaku14]

Detective Conan vs. Kaitou KID Compilation Movie Posters

THEY LOOK SO GOOD OMG

#kaishin #detective conan #kaitou kid #edogawa conan #dcmk #I CAN BE NOT NORMAL IN THE TAGS RIGHT #COS AAAAHHHH LOOK AT THEEEEMMM #KAISHIN FUCKERS WE ARE EATING A WHOLE FUCKING MEAL #im assuming theyre reaninmating The First Encounter episode and several others? #BRUUUUUHHHH #HOLY SHIT LMAOOOO #it's like we're getting 2 kid kovies idc that the other one is recycled I WILL EAT EVERY CRUMB #yes i know i enable the cashcow-ery of dcmk im sorry ✋😔 #it's kaishin dude i cant do anything about it 🤧 #dc prattles #not sure about the exact details of this but i will be seated for anything LMAO