#like incredible life

[june-again]

fucking depressed, might be the caffeine withdrawal, but i'm off of caffeine to help with the anxiety

#THIS SHIT IS SO #FUCK #recently saw a video #talkin about like. if you have a bad life you're not depressed you just have a bad life #and then it listed off what you should have that would mean you did not in fact have a bad life #i have a strikingly good life #like incredible life #all of the things mentioned that were components of a good life are things that i practice and experience #but i still get so damn sad and overcome with apathy #like um #that aint fair #why am i the way that i am #june shines #BUT THIS IS A GOOD POINT #the video made a good point #solve the external problems and if there are internal problems left over then you can start on them #prozac won't solve a parent's divorce etc etc

[labotor]

"Hey, chin up. I know the night just got darker, but it won't last forever."

#nick valentine #fo4 #fallout 4 #fallout #my art #light of my life #you dont understand how incredibly not normal I am abt him #16 year old me 🤝 24 year old me - getting emotional on the daily over a fictional antique synth detective #moreso a study to get a feel for his features - I drew him like once before in 2018 and thats about it

[sylladextrous]

went to a show and kissed some girls ama

#god. fuck. i need another show like that soon. that was so good #incredible bands. pretty tgirls. lovely friends #need more of that in my life #trans #transgender #gpoy #chloe.img

[chamerionwrites]

Possibly The most surprising thing I have discovered on the internet is the number of people who will unironically refer to others as "degenerates" without expecting anyone reading this to immediately assume that they are a straight-up fascist

#i don't mean the actual nazis though alas there are an eye-opening number of those on the internet too #i mean the 19yo purity wankers who will vaguely gesture at lefty talking points while freely tossing around 'degenerate' as an insult #apparently without recognizing that this sets off like 1000 warning sirens for anyone w the slightest familiarity w fascist rhetoric #bonus points if they actually use the phrase ''degenerate art'' #genuinely i have spent my entire internet life immediately blocking anyone who does this on the assumption they are an Actual Nazi #only to discover an alarming number of Kids These Days doing it????? to a point i don't think it can just be undercover fash????? #obviously the purity wank is itself concerning regardless of what political talking points they have learned to parrot but i just. #the multiple overlapping layers of accidentally-right-wing lack of self awareness are. TRULY incredible to witness. #my posts

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

#spilled ink #warm up #can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically #i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason #it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism. #and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out #we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you. #this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism #where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off. #your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell #at the industry - you are probably not listening . #anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit #but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance #> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally #> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field #> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :) #(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice #i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what. #cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men. #so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT. #instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them. #which btw. is like. actual feminism.)

[batfamhyperfixation]

New Robin Tim: *Just sitting there happily watching the Incredibles with Dick and Bruce*

Dick and Bruce: *secretly watching Tim and glancing at each other every time Syndrome comes on screen*

#they are terrified of cutsy little tim like their stomachs drop any time something even minor might tick Tim off #look so tim forced his way into the robin/sidekick role #syndrome tried that #syndrome became a supervillain who tried to kill mr. incredible and did kill many more supervillains #isnt Tim like a supervillain in different universes? #look all I'm saying is I feel like Dick and Bruce would see the parallels between the two and be thankful they said yes to Tim as Robin #they would be like 'thank god we didnt fight him too much cause now we dont have to deal with life mimicking art' #but it is always in the back of their minds and they always have that little voice pointing out he could still become syndrome on them #tim drake robin #tim drake #bruce wayne #dick grayson #incorrect batfamily quotes #batman #bat family #batfam #batkids

[ruporas]

green haired guy that has haunted my character types for 10+ years

#roronoa zoro #one piece #opfanart #ive spent a good 2/3 of my artist life trying to draw him in a way i like.... i'm inching to it slowly bit by bit as i improve #which is truly One of my greatest joys as an artist - learning to draw better so i can draw my faves better #zoro is genuinely my favorite fictional character everrrrrrr... i think.... i love him so much but i have long since ran out of words to #Describe why. and i dont think any other character has come close tbh -- EXCEPT FOR WOLFWOOD!!!!! god. WW!!!!!!!! #which is crazy. but ww is very special. very dear. zoro and ww are very different... someone more similar to ww would be sanji and robin #but there's also smth about them that are so Similar. i sound like an insane person in these tags and clearly im bias BUT I SWEAR!!! #it might just be the loyalty aspect - incredibly strong traits in both of them.... also nightow drew wolfwood in a haramaki once...... #connecting the most minor dots over nothing - but any ww + zoro lovers out there - maybe u understand what i mean.

[cats-obsessions]

Durge and Gortash progressively playing a game of chicken as their relationship progresses where they continuously do vaguely threatening yet innocent gestures to test each other’s (dis)trust. It starts with something simple like Gortash placing his hand on Durge’s shoulder near their neck. He just wants to see the Bhaalspawn squirm, he justifies. Of course, Durge plays along- they won’t show weakness. So, it becomes a game. They do things like playing with a dagger while they talk, cutting the loose thread off each others’ shirt collar, bringing each other food or drinks with no guarantee it’s not poisoned, Durge insisting on shaving Gortash’s quickly growing beard for him after too many long nights planning. In the end, it just becomes habit, and they’ve just tricked themselves into allowing this intense domestic affection, allowing vulnerability and showing unquestioned trust. Oops. They still think it’s edgy though. Anyone else who sees it thinks they’re just married.

#it could vary from incredibly normal to unhinged ‘your life is in my hands’ #but even if it’s something normal like bringing the other coffee #they’re so weirdly intense about it at first #bc it is intense to them who never trusted another soul #stitching each others wounds is a good one #my Durge has an eyebrow piercing and I hc Gortash convinced Durge to let him do it #durgetash #goretash #enver gortash #gortash #durge #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #lord enver gortash #cats thoughts

[isjasz]

Sacrifice - Burst - Fool

Day 10, 11, 12 for hermittober and day 111 dddaily4sherin! :)

#dddaily4sherin #comic #hermittober #desert duo #grian #goodtimeswithscar #+ jimmy and scott cameo #3rd life #third life #third life smp #traffic smp #trafficblr #cw blood #cw corpse #my art #me when my friend zz gives me an idea and proceeds to make it a whole ass comic #i mean i need comic practice for future references so works out ig HASJDHADHA #not incredibly proud of this tbh i still need work on comics but!! hope u guys like it <3 #:))) #ITS FINALLY DONE KJASDIJAKDAWODKAODKDAOPD #FUCK I KEPT FORGETTING THE CWS ADDED NOW

[whomstdvelynt]

she’s dead, scar. you won.

#myart #trafficblr #secret life #goodtimeswithscar #goodtimewithscar fanart #secret life fanart #secret life smp #gtws #gtws fanart #secret life spoilers #? i guess just to be safe. idk how long people usually wait before not tagging spoilers #anyway. i am so incredibly normal about him. #also LOOK AT THE FLOWERS. THOSE ALONE SINGLE-HANDEDLY TOOK UP LIKE. HALF THE TIME IT TOOK TO MAKE THIS.

[egophiliac]

new chapter 7 installment dropped how we feelin????

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

THAT'S HIS DAD

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 6 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 6 spoilers #BABY DRAGON BABY DRAGON BABY DRAGON #i will take three thank you #god. lilia really has no idea how incredibly loved he is huh. #meleanor: (dies to protect him and her son) #malleus: (is literally born having a huge destructive tantrum because he wants lilia back) #silver: (bases his entire life and personality around how much he loves his dad) #lilia: wow i just can't understand why everyone is so upset about me dying #(somehow sebek ended up being the most normal about him and there's the most unexpected part) #man i really gotta redo lilia's um poster. i wasn't super happy with it to begin with but now there's like. fun shapes and context! #me: ha ha why is his magic called that. that's so weird. #me later: o-oh. oh i see. #SPEAKING OF SEBEK THOUGH there he is! THERE HE IS! #i was so afraid the armor was going to be a bad thing but NO he earned it! #he shook out his hair and turned out to have been beautiful all along! #episode 7 is about two things and two things only: dads and significant hair moments #and also speaking of dads! #i am taking lilia mistaking malleus for revaan based on his voice #as one more tick in the 'if crowley is revaan then there's going to have to be a really good explanation' column #the dulcet tones of dire crowley... #on the other hand if crowley tears off his mask and immediately starts sounding like malleus that would be THE funniest way to do it #auuuggghhhhh it's only been out for hours and already i'm like next part when #we've been cliffhanger'd again lads #idia finally came back to us and they were like 'please wait for the next release :)' #ortho did...did you somehow hack your way into silver's dream palace

[weaselmcdiesel]

Hiking with the matesprit

(this was hugely inspired by @/erysium and their gorgeous natural scenes! particularly, this post)

#my art #art #homestuck #fan art #karkat #karkat vantas #nepeta #nepeta leijon #wow. ive. never done a piece like this. at all. wow. #also i feel like it's incredibly easier to color alternia since all the colors are nonsense #i imagine if i had to paint a real life place itd be harder and also wouldnt look as good #this is once again in an au where alternia is cool n fashionable and karkat goes outside #this is my application to work for the hiveswap team <im lying #also i wish there were more resources on the flora of alteria. like serious id love to know what their nature looks like #ofc it's not explicitly katnep but 2 me it is. they r dating always #fun fact if you invert the colors on this the forest turns lovely and green #also karkats about to totally skewer his hand on that tree yeah

[wren-kitchens]

there’s not enough lizzie ldshadowlady appreciation in this fandom and frankly I think we need to rectify this

she acts terrified of absolutely everyone except her husband, whom she is increasingly exasperated by. she and ren were rivalling dogwarts with their interactions. she was boogeyman twice in two different seasons and essentially did the exact same trap, that failed in essentially the exact same way, and somehow she still managed to get the kill because the person was too confused to process the fact they were being stabbed. she’s a fairy. she’s the shadow queen. she’s totally definitely pearl, she just has an amnesia cold. she spends half her time complaining about her husband, and the other half flirting with him in front of people. her dogs were named dragon, ogre and taxes so they’d be intimidating. ‘and so I left this world how I entered it: confused.’ she griefed the server. jimmy killed her.

#i’m bad at this kind of post but idc #I love her #yes she was only in one and a bit seasons so what #mumbo was only in one season and he gets more love #lizzie deserves so much more attention than I see on here #not traffic life related but she mADE A WHOLE MUSICAL #I FEEL LIKE THATS IMPORTANT TO NOTE HERE #she’s an icon #I love her and I need her in the next season and I need her to team up with pearl because I think they’d be incredible together #lizzie ldshadowlady #ldshadowlady #trafficblr #traffic smp #traffic series #last life

[somegrumpynerd]

A few more Freaky Friday au doodles, Dream is trying to keep up the act and Nightmare has been worn down

#UTDR #UTMV #Freaky Friday au #Nightmare sans #Dream sans #My Art #Neither of them are convincing but Dream is clinging to his act for dear life #Nightmare has done far too much people pleasing and is giving up #Luckily Blue is so incredibly chill and just rolls with it #The boys are pretty suspicious but they’re more worried than anything #Like boss did something happen? should we call someone?? #I want to draw more but I have to sleep 😔 #One more day of work and then I have some free time!!

[visenyaism]

july side quests:

- buy a peach from a stand by the side of the road. (isn’t it sweeter than anything? i love you.)

- sit in a cool creek on a hot day. let it run over and around and through you.

- grieve.

- say “it’s not the heat, it’s the humidity that’ll get you.”

- get too damn drunk off of something sticky-sweet made for 17 year-olds to swipe at the barbecue, giggling. cry.

- sit out on the porch and watch the thunderstorms as they roll through every day before dinner. (we needed the rain, didn’t we?)

- grieve. it hangs in the air with the steam rising off of the pavement. breathe it in.

- disregard what your mother told you about electricity to stand tallest in an empty field and watch the heat lightning on the horizon. (i’m sorry. i know i shouldn’t. i love you.)

- stare into the night sky until something stares back. (there’s dipper, that’s the only one i could ever find. say hello)

- teach someone you love how to pull apart honeysuckle, petal-pistil-stamen-nectar-tongue.

- grieve. catch a firefly. let it go. (there are fewer of them than there used to be, when we were kids. i love you.)

#i have spent every summer of my adult life 1) in the sticks like incredibly rural valley and 2) wrapped in a whole lot of grief #this is the first summer i am not. it is strange. #it is time to embrace posting just. whatever

[hansama]

Day 7 - I love you

i cried multiple times while drawing this q///q) even now my eyes are still teary asdlkjfhskdh////// god... I love them sm.... thank you @htsan/@sansxyouweek for hosting this wonderful event!!! my heart screamed and break danced so much during it!!

thank you for everyone who enjoyed my drawings during this week!! Q///Q) ♥

#undertale #sans #undertale sans #underswap #underswap sans #underfell #underfell sans #horrortale #horrortale sans #oc #han #oc x canon #sansxyouweek2023 #sans x you #han x skellie #I've never been this incredibly self-indulgent as this in my life #even my sister screamed when she saw this #she was like OMG HAN?!?!!???? i can't believe you drew this!!! WOW YOU'VE COME SO FAR IN DRAWING YOURSELF WITH THE SKELLIES!! #i kid you not i had to take a lil break in the middle bc i couldn't see the screen from my tears #my god #i'm #tearing up rn again #i know the skellies are fictional #but my god have loving them done wonders to me #they've helped me during some of the worst times in my life #and they still continue to help me #they're so so precious and dear to me #i love them so much #GOD AAAAAAAHHHHH #I CAN'T STOP SNIFFLING ASDHGDHGALDKFJ