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flanpucci · 1 month

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I want to dedicate a love post to Enrico Pucci because I just love him so much and my brain will never be the same again

I love that he's complex and flawed and driven by his grief and the depth of his love. I love how unacceptable his destiny is and he will do anything to open everyone's eyes to the absence of power they have in the story's world. It is impossible for him to exist in his world where he was created only to serve the purpose of giving the Joestars something to oppose and grow from, and the remedy he has found to this is to simply take control of the story, end everything and start again with the knowledge he has acquired, and maybe, the hope to free himself from his sins and bring back his loved ones.

I admire his will and determination to strive for greatness, self-growth and to see things to their end more than anything, staying calm and not backing away, seizing every opportunity. He also learns from everyone around him, from their battle tactics, from their relationships. He's a very smart and analytical character even though he's also stubborn and throws fits from time to time, which show his humanity, which is necessary since he's so superior without those flawed moments. I like his loneliness, the way he has a way to talk to and taunt people that's very unique to him, and directed at himself, he doesn't care if you don't understand, he doesn't care if he's celebrating his victories alone, he'll do it anyway. He's fun and quirky to look at, when he interacts with people, he's fun to anger, and it's satisfying to see him getting in dire situations (especially if he gets up from them)

He's evil and flawed and is a ruthless, one-track minded man, he's self-centered and can't accept (understand?) that people have different mindsets than himself. He knows he's right from start to finish, and that makes him such a great character with incredible confidence and charisma. He's the most terrifying character in all of JJBA, arguably the most powerful, his ability is just pure chaos and his eyes are cold as hell. He's got a strong inclination for revenge and likes to carry it in style, even if it means taking some damage in the process. I also like how ambiguous he is with some other characters, taking advantage of the fact they are drawn to him, using his appeal as a means to obtain what he wants. His dynamic with Dio brings a lot of depth to Dio's character, giving him the almost 'humanity' he severely lacks in other parts (especially SDC), it's very enjoyable to watch the way they interact together, which is so different from how we see them act with other people. The whole idea of the bone, fusing, and MIH is aesthetically really interesting and I liked trying to notice moments where the Dio influence might have taken over Pucci's decisions.

The themes surrounding him are very referenced and fascinating, religion, art, biology, physics and space, technology, philosophy, the stand lore... The details and references that come give depth to his character are limitless, did you know there's an actual italian scientist on gravity whose name was Enrico Pucci? That the adulterous priest he reads about in church is a famous painter who regretted taking his oath at 15 and had ties to the real Pucci family in Italy? He's also a very well constructed character in terms of psychology, he's never OOC, he feels very 3D in a 2D world.

Also he's awesome black representation in terms of character design with references to fashion (Versace '97), probably Michael Jackson too, the flag of the city of Florence, the emblem of the Pucci family... His character design is holy with just a touch of sinful, and I'm not even talking about how cool Whitesnake is in general. I really like how Pucci/Whitesnake oppose both Weather/Weather Report but also Jonathan in terms of design. He's the most beautiful character I've ever seen overall, wears a beautiful tight and shiny gown, beautiful both in color and in black and white, first has a fun, pretty but manly design, which turns into a cute star-shaped motif shamelessly stolen from the Joestars, he has tired downturned eyes filled with depression, and the cutest nose in all of JJBA, he's tall and handsome with the big chest and shoulders especially in anime but also cute and feminine and has thin wrists and those cute sleeves... He's giving mom and dad at the same time and I love how curious he is with the green baby and how proud and happy he is with C-Moon and MIH and YES HES MY FAVE ANYWAYS

I didn't even get into how interesting he represents the relationship between faith, philosophy and science, or his relationship to the concept of blood ties, I could go on for hours but I'm late for class

#enrico pucci #pucci #jjba #jojo's bizarre adventure #stone ocean #analysis

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somethingpersonarelated · 11 days

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Why the fuck does Akechi read philosophy and psychology?

Have this metapost when i’m supposed to be working on finals papers hahahahahhahahahah. Follow up to this post!

This is kind of a middle of the night rant that came from nowhere so sorry if it’s a bit jumbled or erroneous in nature. I've always been a bit bothered by people saying that Akechi just reads philosophy and psychology to appear smarter. It's definitely a PART of it, but I don't think it can be singled out to one specific reason.

Yes, part of it is to appear smarter. though, appearing smart has a purpose, and he's proven time and time again in the story he IS intelligent.

It is also a coping mechanism

yes i do mean that let me explain

I'll also be following up to this post with breakdowns of the books on that list I made so if that interests you stay tuned, but I read some Jung and immediately something popped out to me about the will to power. The will to power, as explained on page 30 of Essays on Analytical Psychology by Carl Jung, is the instinct that compels us to do self-preservation. Further on page 31, he writes:

"The discovery is made that the 'other' in us is indeed an 'Other'-a live man, who actually thinks, does, feels, and desires all the things that are despicable and odious.... A true man, however, knows that his most bitter foe, or indeed a whole host of enemies, does not equal that one worst adversary, that 'other self,' who 'bides within his breast.'"

Akechi has already faced himself by the time we meet him, but still struggles with justifying himself as seen in no more what ifs and mementos mission. Let's talk about it in mementos mission a bit more (chp 4.5):

His justifications always end in some acknowledgement that he some control of his circumstances, and as long as that is true he can carry forward with the path he has chosen to take. But the fact that two years later, even around people that are not Joker, he still has difficulties with his position, is interesting.

These philosophies provide a way of living. Or it's better to say, a way of thinking about living, a way of thinking about what it means to live (in the case of psychology). Akechi (presumably) grew up very isolated from others and struggles with conceptions of himself. It's very typical of his age group to have these concerns, but on top of that-he's got a job as a hitman. Not good for self-perception or self-preservation. He is both the normal man and the 'other,' and does not become the 'true' person until Hereward is unlocked. That's when I imagine he kills the last of his doubts and settles on a perception of himself.

Philosophy (and psychology), in a way, can provide answers to these questions in a way that is separated from yourself. Jung hits a point that goes straight through Akechi, and Aristotle implies that souls are moved, rather than souls moving themselves. Both of these points are addressed in Mementos Mission. The latter is visible through those pair of hands wrapped around his neck, he is both a puppet and yet resolves that he is not one.

When these ideas contrast, there aren't many things you can do about it except philosophize (I guess. you could talk to a therapist but akechi doesn't really have that or a good support network so). Akechi having a mix of both in his reading repetoire means he both looks towards understanding others and himself. But he has a much stronger emphasis on what it means to live for himself and for his cause.

tl;dr akechi doubts himself and partially looks to texts like these to solidify his view on everything he does. and he does it to get smarter/look smarter. he's unfortunately that philosophy/psychology guy

#making goro akechi's philosophies everyone's problem #<- new tag for this kind of post #p5 meta #goro akechi #p5r #thinking emoji #i am very open to different opinions on this i wrote this on a whim so its not very good

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kitsmits · 9 months

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Nobody asked, but here are my rambling thoughts about Bleach’s Aizen Sousuke

Aizen Sousuke. The man, the myth, the legend. The villain who ~allegedly~ planned out so much of Bleach’s storyline that the fact that that is a meme is, in itself, a meme. And also probably part of Aizen’s plan.

I’m fascinated by this character, to say the least. I mean, why else would I be writing an Aizen/OC fanfiction on both AO3 and FF.net? (Shameless plug. Sorry not sorry.) Despite my many thoughts - so numerous are they that anytime I reply to a comment on “Mono no Aware,” I wind up with a graduate dissertation - I’m not entirely sure where to start with this guy. He’s complex in some ways, yet simple in others, fitting neatly into some psychological molds until you come across that one trait or act that makes you question your whole thesis. Fitting, really.

I don’t think there is one definitive, absolute answer for who Aizen Sousuke is. Even Kubo’s own idea of him isn’t necessarily the only one - once an artist puts their creation out into the world, that creation is open to interpretation by others. Again, rather fitting that we’re talking about a character whose entire power is based on the ideas of suggestion and perception.

It’s fun to explore various facets and ways to interpret a character though, so today I’d like to look at a few: psychology (Aizen the Sociopath), mythology (Aizen the Trickster), reality(I guess…) (Aizen the Opportunist), and philosophy (Aizen the Ubermensch).

So let’s start with psychology.

Aizen the Sociopath

Antisocial personality disorder, commonly/colloquially referred as “sociopathy,” is defined as “a mental health condition in which a person consistently shows no regard for right and wrong and ignores the rights and feelings of others.” (Mayo Clinic) For the sake of simplicity, I will be using the terms “sociopathy” and “sociopath” here. It’s one of four cluster-B personality disorders within the DSM-V (Diagnositc and Statistical Manual of Mental Health Disorders, 5th Edition - the most recent one as of 2023), along with narcissistic, borderline, and histrionic personality disorders. In other words, it is clinically recognized as a mental health condition by the psychology field, and it’s one of a family of personality disorders characterized as having “a consistently dysfunctional pattern of dramatic, overly emotional thinking or unpredictable behavior.” (Considering who we’re talking about…this is kind of surprising, honestly.

To paraphrase the Mayo Clinic’s list of symptoms, sociopaths…

ignore (or have little/no concept of) right and wrong

often lie, steal, use false names, and/or engage in cons

use charm or wit to manipulate others for personal gain

have an inflated sense of superiority and are extremely opinionated

often violate others’ rights and feel little/no remorse for how their behavior negatively affects others

Keep in mind that for a person to be considered a “sociopath,” one must consistently and repeatedly show these traits. Not every mean person is a sociopath, and not all sociopaths are mean (…all the time). Probably the most consistent descriptors I’ve come across for sociopaths are “manipulative” and “callous” - again, they’ll say/do anything to get what they want, and they have no remorse over whether it harms other people.

So…is Aizen a sociopath? And why should we care?

Setting aside the fact that Aizen is a fictional character, and fictional characters are often meant to be simpler than complex, ever-evolving human beings…I’m of the camp that yes, he is. It certainly explains a LOT of his behavior and actions; even the fact that he seems to have no “true” personality fits this mold. Partly because of how Kubo writes him, we can never be certain that anything Aizen says or does is “genuine,” or if he’s just trolling.

Why we should care if he’s a sociopath or not: Eh. Aside from the fun of armchair-diagnosing fictional characters, this gives us a framework within which to work. It gives us consistent traits that help us understand Aizen as a character. It’s sort of like a character sheet or profile: an easily referenced list of traits and tendencies.

However, even if we could truly diagnose Aizen with something, I don’t think that diagnosis would completely define his character. Far from it. Because this is fiction, every major character usually serves a particular purpose for the narrative that influences how they act and how they affect the characters around them. So let’s look at what I believe Aizen’s role is in the Bleach ‘verse.

Aizen the Trickster

A “trickster,” in terms of mythology and folklore, is “a character in a story…who exhibits a great degree of intellect or secret knowledge and uses it to play tricks or otherwise disobey normal rules and defy conventional behavior.” (Thank you, Wikipedia.) Classic examples of tricksters are Loki from Norse mythology; Anansi the spider from West African folklore; and Coyote from many Native American cultures, particularly groups in California and the Great Basin. Even Greek mythology’s Hermes and, at times, Norse mythology’s Odin act as tricksters, using their intellect to deceive others or defy conventions. Tricksters can be villainess or heroic, depending on the tale and their role in it. Consider Odysseus in the Illiad and Odyssey: in both tales (but especially in the latter), he is cast as a hero, but most of his actions are devious and even reprehensible.

I see Aizen as being a trickster in the Bleach ‘verse in many ways:

He’s highly intelligent and possesses “secret knowledge” (ie: truth of the Soul King…but more on that in a bit)

He seeks to defy convention and push all types of boundaries, from combining/transcending Shinigami and Hollow powers (physical boundaries) to being a Shinigami who commands Hollows (societal boundaries)

He openly questions, disrupts, and mocks authority (Even when he was playing the Nice Captain, he was one of the only people to openly question Rukia’s execution…granted, it was All Part of the Plan(TM), but I still find it interesting that he allowed that to be a part of his character at that time)

He enjoys trolling people and making them question their own beliefs and perceptions. Not even just because it’ll benefit him; I think he honestly enjoys throwing people mentally off-balance.

I mean…he openly says it during the TYBW:

Sure, you might say that Aizen’s goal was to kill the Soul King (…I have thoughts about that too), but THIS is the reason for that goal. If it wasn’t the Soul King, it would be whatever other being tried to reign over him. Yhwach, Ichibe, whoever else…Aizen would not tolerate anyone having authority over him. This fits with the Trickster archetype because, at their cores, this is what tricksters do: they challenge authority.

It’s also worth noting that in most Trickster stories, especially ones where the trickster plays the antagonist, the trickster doesn’t exactly “win.” Often, they’re foiled or humiliated in some way, sometimes due to their own hubris; I mean, Loki wound up being tied up with a snake dripping poison into his eyes because he couldn’t keep his mouth shut about having orchestrated the death of one of Odin’s sons. This is also something we see in Aizen’s role in Bleach: At the pinnacle of his power, he is defeated - not only by the hero of the story, but also by another possible “trickster” type (Urahara) and by his own arrogance and, possibly, not knowing his own deepest desires.

Btw - for an interesting take on Aizen “not knowing himself,” check out this video by Nux Taku: Anime’s Most Relatable Overpowered Sociopath - Aizen from Bleach

“Defeated” doesn’t necessarily mean he didn’t win, though. In my opinion, Aizen is, above all, a master opportunist who will turn ANY situation in his favor.

“All according to keikaku:” Aizen the Opportunist

Aizen definitely fits a classic “mastermind” mold, no arguments here. But I think people take the meme-worthy “it was all part of my plan” thing a little too far with him. Aside from the tendency of sociopaths and tricksters alike toward self-aggrandizing, and the fact that it benefits Aizen to be perceived as omniscient, let’s be real: He didn’t plan everything out himself from the start. To be honest, the idea that a “mastermind” necessarily sees all possibilities 100 steps ahead is…a bit much. Rather, masterminds like Aizen who play the long game are excellent opportunists.

Just look at how Aizen acts during “Everything But the Rain”: As far as Tousen was concerned, the Hollow “White” was a failure because instead of going after the powerful Shinigami captain, it attacked a Quincy - the one creature in the area that couldn’t be Hollowfied. But to Aizen, this wasn’t a failure: it was an unforeseen turn of events that presented an unprecedented opportunity to study the congruence of two diametrically opposed beings. After all, his whole schtick is about transcending the boundaries between species; of course he’d be curious to see if there was a way for a Quincy and a Hollow to mix without destroying each other. Plus, I’m willing to bet that Aizen at least suspected that this phenomenon might draw Urahara out of hiding, which would give Aizen his location (and thus the location of the other Hogyoku). The fact that Masaki survives with White’s Hollow energy inside of her, AND that she, a Quincy, and Isshin, a Shinigami, fall in love and have a kid…that’s all a bonus that he later works into his plans.

TL;DR: Aizen had plans for White, but when those plans fell through, he turned the situation into a new part of his plan. It all worked toward his ultimate goals in the end. THAT is what makes him such a formidable mastermind: he’ll take any opportunity that comes his way.

Aizen the Übermensch

Okay, I’ll admit I’m gonna be a little lazy here and point y’all to a wonderful analysis video by DBZimran that goes into this topic. The gist is that Aizen embodies the Nietzsche idea of the “Ubermensch,” or “super man” (from before the N*zis appropriated the concept), and that Urahara is the opposing “last man.” It’s really interesting stuff, and DBZimran explains it way better than I feel equipped to right now.

Sosuke Aizen: THE FALSE GOD | BLEACH: Character Analysis

While you’re there, check out his other videos about Bleach. I took a lot of inspiration from his analysis of the Hogyoku when writing Mono no Aware, to be honest.

Other interesting takes on Aizen

I can’t get enough of this man, and if you’ve made it this far in this ridiculous long post, I’m guessing you can’t, either. I’m definitely open to writing more about him, answering prompts, giving headcanons…just ask! Here are some other people I like to reference for Aizen and Bleach content in general:

Youtube:

MrTommo2304

DBZimran

This wonderful hellsite, aka Tumblr (not a definitive list - I’m sure I’ll forget peeps):

@bleachbleachbleach - I LOVE THEIR WORLDBUILDING HEADCANONS OMG

@my-my-my - large variety of headcanons and imagines, from worldbuilding/story analysis to romantic/shmexy stuff

@brittscafe - fun, shmexy headcanons with an excellent grasp on the characters

@recurring-polynya - writer who also has lots of interesting and fun headcanons about the Bleach world; also their page is just really pretty

@brainbleached - silly totally-real-not-at-all-made-up incorrect quotes and such

#bleach #bleach headcanons #aizen sousuke #aizen #sosuke aizen #aizen sosuke #sousuke aizen #that man has too many name spellings #aizen headcanon

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theconsciouscrow · 5 months

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A Rant Consideration about Mr. Scratch and his origins (Alan Wake 2 spoilers):

I've been seeing a lot of posts on various social media about who/what Mr. Scratch is. Before AW2 i've visited the youtube channel "Gaming University", which i think it's the most complete source of information about all things Remedy related (i'll put the url to his channel in the comments), and it's been eye opening.

SO first things first, let's make something clear: Alan Wake is about psychology. Ok? Ok.

Remedy uses psychology themes through all the remedyverse. Collective Unconscious? Psychology. Archetypes? Psychology. The Hiss? Polaris? Well, not exactly psychology, but it comes from it.

Sam Lake has been using tropes and themes inspired from a especific psychoanalyst named Carl Jung (the man below). The Jungian philosophy perceives the human mind as the modeler of the world, and not just it's spectator. To Jung, inside the mind we all have a set of actors, who regulate our behavior and at the same time makes us remember (on a conscious or unconscious state) of who we really are.

One of these actors is called the "Shadow". The shadow represents our repressed desires, the corruption, the will to violence, etc. The shadow is a key factor to the process of self knowledge: the ascension in the spiral (weee) of consciousness, and is natural to all humans.

When Alan comes back to talk to Agent Estevez after the Scratch boss fight, she asks "Isn't the shadow possessing you anymore?".

The FBC files mentions the shadow multiple times. Ilmo Koskela states through the game that everyone who leaves the Dark Place "gets out unwell". The Dark Place is a place of creation indeed, but its also a realm of the mind: it feed of memories, messes with emotions, causes despersonalization, psychosis, etc.

Reuniting all that information, we can safely assume that:

Mr. Scratch is the Shadow of Alan Wake given boost and agency by the Dark Place: they ARE NOT separate entities.

It is Alan, his corrupted desire to be the best writer, to feel wanted and loved, through all means necessary. Scratch is not exactly obsessed WITH Alan, he's obsessed in giving Alan what he wants in the most fucked up part of his mind.

And let's be honest: having an eldritch variant of you throwing at your face what you really are - beyond all morality and social rules - through its actions is pretty disturbing, traumatizing even. It's natural that Alan understands Scratch as his worst enemy, he still doesn't recognizes it as a part of himself.

Saga has her shadow messed up as well, when she gets to the DP, which was also boosted by the darkness. Her shadow humiliates her as a mother, Casey's partner, and a detective, representing her worst fears. "Seems like i'm my own worst enemy.", she states.

The shadow traps her inside her mind place, since the process of giving conscious to a unconscious part of your mind is so unnatural, that they both cannot be separated. A human mind cannot survive without it's shadow.

Also, the way she'd dealt with her situation is really admiring - Saga proved to be a much more self-conscious and stable person than Alan, who stayed 13 years suffering by the hands of Scratch.

Want more proof that Scratch is a shadow? Look at his photo alongside Saga's shadow in the "Profiling" desk:

Everyone deals with their shadow on their own way

When Casey get's "possessed by Scratch", i don't think that's exactly what's happening: the Dark Presence enters Casey's mind, messing up with his Shadow, boosting his most agressive and corrupt parts of it, and since everyone is in Scratch's Story, Casey's Shadow will do what the Story mandates (world domination).

So TL;DR, Mr Scratch and Alan are the same person. The DP boosts Mr Scratch to a point where he/it becomes another personality, who takes hold of Alan's body to do it's biding. Same thing happens to everyone who gets "touched" by the darkness. Alan kinda understands this at the end of the game, when he shouts "Come on MF, COME HOME!!"

Now, like Jung said, the Shadow has the objective of reminding us who we really are deep down, and as much traumatizing that can be, is by embracing our flaws and accepting our Jungian Shadow, that we reach a state of mind the psychoanalyst calls the "Self": a perfect state of auto consciousness and knowledge, the top of the mountain in the ascension of the spiral.

Let's just hope that Alan is getting close to it.

#alan wake 2 #remedy #mr scratch #remedyverse #psychology #carl jung #saga anderson #alice wake #sam lake #control

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gunilslaugh · 9 months

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Heyo! Nice to meet you!

I've been a villain for a few months now and I just confess, I like Gunil so so much! He instantly became one of my favorite kpop boys since I began stanning. (He's just my type, what a unique and incredible man!) Originally I wanted to request around for more Gunil fics... But honestly I have no idea what to request specifically 😭 I just want to read more about him cuz my crush is big and fat 😂 but I racked my brains and couldn't come up with anything...

So instead, I've had this idea for an OT6 fluff, if it's alright with you! How would XH react to having a very smart and academical s/o? Like, someone who likes to read a lot (not only fiction, but also nonfiction, like science, psychology, philosophy, spiritual books or stuff about social studies) and who genuinely likes studying and learning! They like doing research on many many subjects of their interest (wether those are something as common as space or not so common like learning the biology of marine animals) and they're always spewing out random interesting facts about things 😂 Bonus points if reader also likes solving mysteries and playing puzzle games some people might find boring ( like crosswords or sudoku).

Yes, this is pretty self indulgent 😂 but I'm also just very curious 👀

You are totally entitled to refuse this request if you don't feel like writing it! No pressure 😁 🖤

Nice to meet you too! Welcome to the fandom. I hope that you enjoy your request.

All member ;^o-o^;

Summary: Xdinary Heroes' reaction to having an academic significant other.

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Warning:grammar

photo not mine credits to owner.

Gunil

Gunil really admires how academically driven you are. Thinks it’s cool how knowledgeable you are. If you're knowledgeable across many varying topics then he would call you a human encyclopedia. He gets really happy whenever you talk or rant about a subject that really interests you. When you tell him a random fact he actually tries to note down the information and remember it. Loves to watch mystery or detective shows with you while trying to figure out who the culprit is together. On the chance that he figures it out before you or he was right and you were wrong he feels very entitled to his bragging rights.

Jungsu

On cold days he always makes sure that you’re wearing a beanie or that your hood on your jacket is up because you gotta protect that smart brain of yours. Jungsu would love to do crossword puzzles or other games like it with you. The members would tease you about being an old couple, but Jungsu would just shoo them away. Jungsu would try to learn some about your favorite topic so that he could talk about it with you. He’d write down the random facts that you tell him in his notes and at the end of the year he’d compile them all together. Almost like a scrapbook of memories, but with all the random facts you’ve told him.

Gaon/Jiseok

You were ranting to Jiseok about a topic that interested you. He jokingly told you that if you like it that much then you should create a slideshow presentation about it. It definitely caught him off guard when three days later you showed him the slideshow. He doesn’t tell you, but he now has it saved on his computer. Lovingly calls you a nerd. Really likes to watching sci-fi shows together with you. Sometimes there is part of him that wished he had the drive that you have about learning new things. He would tease you about playing a game like solitaire, but in reality he doesn’t even know or understand how to play.

O.de/Seungmin

Seungmin treasures how dedicated you are when it comes to learning about something. He thinks you are absolutely adorable as you’re hyper fixated on your laptop, researching a particular subject. Takes candid photos of you researching, might make one his wallpaper. Laughs whenever you randomly spew out a fact, not in a mean way of course. Your random fact spewing brightens his day. Especially if it’s something completely random like shrimps hearts are located in their head. Avidly watches mystery type shows with you and might end up being the more invested one funnily.

Junhan/Hyeongjun

Junhan would love to have in-door dates where the two of you just read together. Sitting on opposite ends of the couch with your legs flailed across one another. Sometimes uses you as his personal internet. If he has a question about something he thinks you would know he’d rather ask you than actually look it up. Would try to race you in completing a sudoku the fastest. He really values your smarts and thinks that it’s really impressive how much wide scale information you have stored in your brain. He would send you things on topics that he found interesting and loves when you do the same back.

Jooyeon

You’re not just any nerd, you are his nerd. When you randomly state a fact he would respond with a “that is something only a nerd would know,”. Even if he teases you about it he still likes whenever you do it. If it’s been a while since you randomly told you a fact he’ll ask you to tell him one. Honestly his day doesn’t feel complete without it. He would really enjoy having a sci fi, mystery themed movie night. You two would turn off all the lights and huddle together under blankets. Occasionally he wishes that he was as academic as you because he thinks it would be nice to research things together, but if he has no interest his brain refuses to hold new information.

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courtofmatchups · 9 months

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hi! i've sent this to a couple other of my favorite COD writers, but it's a psycho-analysis thing on guy that i wanted to share as im curious about other's thoughts. i should mention that i am a psych student with a special interest in male psychological trauma and "toxic masculinity" (put in quotes because idk the scientific term for it Imao)

warnings for slight spoilers, i don't believe there's much of anything too triggering, just some mention of sexism in avari, and parental/generational trauma, but nothing too detailed.

(and j*sper jumpscare at the end but it's just slander)

this also isn’t at all and excuse for abuse or anything of the sort, and that’s not what i specialize in either; it’s more like a deeper analysis of internalized sexism, now if guy did anything on the level of j*sper or got physical or anything, i would not be writing this.

so, guy starts off very controlling (literally using mind control), but when you play his route + events (specifically the ones where he goes to avari) a much deeper story unfolds.

it is my understanding that avari has very different thoughts on women, and we even see guy tell MC that his father told him all women are cruel and only want power. i believe guy has been told all his life negative things about women, and that all he has seen was his father marry for power after his mother passed. we also see in a route that guy was much more open when his mom was alive, but closed his heart to everyone when she was killed. it is also seen that guy assumed his mother was murdered by other women. so, Guy has been told all his life these things about women, ever since he was a child, and never had the chance to see any differently as he never opened up to another woman until MC.

now this is where the beauty comes in. after a while, guy begins to truly love MC for herself and not just her power, and even tells her what he was told about women and says she changed that. guy was able to swallow his ego and be emotionally open to MC and begin to see her as an individual and not just a vessel for power. guy defends her to her father and tells him off saying that he truly loves her and no other, and it is not just because of her power, and that she will make a fine queen. we see him praise her throughout his stories and events, and through his thoughts we see he is truly a changed man who has changed his outlook on women through his love for MC.

although he is not yet open to fully sharing his thoughts quite yet, we see that he is actively working on himself for MC.

we also see a boyish side come out of him during these emotional moments, that i believe to be trauma regression and suppressed feelings that he has had to endure due to the excessively violent and aggressive nature of avari. i truly think guy's initial act towards MC is due to trauma and abuse he suffered in avari, and he only begun realizing he was lied to and was wrong about women through his relationship with MC. guy is actually my favorite character because of this, and i think it's truly a beautifully complex story that the creators made.

also, i love how his toxic masculinity was turned around and how it tells the story that growing up in such a toxic environment can truly damage a man.

thank you for reading my long ass ramble about a fictional character in a mobile game that i am utterly obsessed with.

Thanks for confirming that this man DESPERATELY NEEDS THERAPY

Real talk, tho. I am not a psychology major (psychology is more of a special interest of mine, so take what I say with a grain of salt. Or a kilogram. idk), but I can say that all of your points are valid. Growing up in a toxic environment will mess someone up, especially as a child. Bro basically grew up indoctrinated by the Saligian version of Andrew Tate's pHILosOPhY (for lack of a better term) and seeing that view on women unfold his eyes over and over again probably gave him a lot of trust issues too.

I do kind of appreciate that, despite him being very rough around the edges, his character was still ultimately salvageable. I just kind of wish we had the chance to explore his backstory more in his own consort path tho, cuz I feel that bit was a bit rushed. Or maybe it wasn't and I'm remembering wrong? Feel free to correct me on this. It's been a hot minute since I read his consort path

I still don't really like Guy, at least not as a consort, but I do appreciate his character growth, and you really hit the nail on the head

#court of darkness #otome #guy avari #not my usual stuff #i do like this character analysis of guy tho #maybe me appreciating his character development is also my character development #ithseem writes #court of darkness x reader #makai nightmare #court of matchups #man'z has trust issues and daddy issues up the wazoo

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loganwritesprobably · 1 year

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Peter Fucking Hale

So I reblogged that post about gay Peter but I’m just.. not done talking about him. All those cursed words tumblr has come up with to describe your favourite character? He’s all of them. Literally my entire brain is consumed by Peter Fucking Hale. So I’ve just decided to keep going! I do roleplay on discord and since April the only fandom I’ve interacted with is Teen Wolf so I have a lot of thoughts and my own very special entirely fanon concept of Peter Hale and I’m sharing it all with you now.

I think Peter is younger than we think. Derek’s age is hard to pin down because it changes through the series but even then, he’s not an old man. He’s young. At his oldest, he’s in his early twenties in season one, and Peter was young enough in appearance to be able to get onto school grounds when Derek was roughly fifteen. If I want really young Peter, I tend to float somewhere between having him seven and nine years older than Derek. Laura was older than Derek, making him somewhere between five and seven years older than his oldest (canon) niece, that we know of.

If we go with the low range for Peter’s age, making him five years older than Derek, and Derek was sixteen when the Hale fire happened that would make him just twenty one when his entire family was burnt alive, and he was abandoned by a niece who he was only five years older than, meaning that he grew up with them.

If Peter is that much younger than his sister Talia, then it isn’t a stretch to imagine that he would have been an accident. We know absolutely nothing about Derek’s grandparents, (can you hear me cursing Jeff Davis?) so we don’t know how they would’ve reacted to this. Parents that love him despite him coming along so late, or parents who constantly remind him that he was never supposed to exist? Is there a real reason for Peter being such a hateful teenager that he would do that to Derek and Paige? Who was the Alpha before it was Talia? Was it his father? Imagine having a father that is also your Alpha who hates you for something you cannot control - existing.

Peter Sebastian Hale. I just like that middle name for him.

Peter is a bisexual man, as I mentioned in the previous post, but I’ll go over it again. Imagine Peter, a young man in a rich family (and therefore presumably well known in the town) realising that he likes men. Imagine how scary that is. Look at Jackson. Something I like to use is that Peter only came out when Derek was struggling himself, to show his nephew that he wasn’t alone and that Uncle Peter was just like him. They could be strange together. Of course, Derek is accepted by Talia because she’s a good mother, and she’d accept Peter too, but this comes back to his parents. If we assume he had parents who resent him, I can’t imagine they’d take kindly to this. But Peter doesn’t care, he’s used to it by now, and instead chooses to lean into it. He’s flamboyant and dramatic, even more than he used to be, deliberately stays out late with older men just because he can.

Peter is damn smart. He’s annoying and taunts the pack and skirts around things, but he is clearly intelligent. It takes a level of intelligence to be as good at manipulation as he is. So picture Peter, still young enough to crave his parents approval and smart enough that school is too easy, he uses his family money to hire a tutor. He learns extra things. He picks up an extra language, maybe two (I personally see the Hales as being bilingual, speaking both Spanish and English, so these would be Peter’s third and fourth languages). He gets into exercise so that he can be strong enough to protect his family, because what is he good for if not that? He has nieces and a nephew to care for. He begins studying druidic practices because God forbid he ever be bored.

He finishes high school a year early, he just tests out, he’s bored. He goes to college. Gets a bachelors or two. Think law, literature, philosophy, psychology, something essay based that makes his brain work. Something that makes him think and allows him to debate with people. Peter’s tongue is vicious, and he puts it to good use with debate. His claws are more vicious, he comes home and becomes their enforcer as Talia becomes the Alpha. He will protect them, by any means necessary.

Peter floats between jobs. He doesn’t need to work because he has family money invested securely and family businesses that practically run themselves, but it again comes to boredom. He needs something to do. He picks things up, works until the job stops entertaining him and then moves on again. Think lawyer, librarian, teacher, interior design. Or he would. But the fire happens. And he loses everything for a very long time.

Peter Hale loves to cook. If we assume his mother was a good woman, I like to think she taught him. He can cook anything with even the most ridiculous ingredients, and he does it well. He enjoys it. He loves cooking for other people and in another lifetime, he’d cook for people that he cared about to show them that. He was never good at expressing his feelings, even before the fire.

If we assume that Peter isn’t much older than Derek, and that maybe Malia isn’t actually the same age as Scott and Stiles, we’re looking at Peter in a similar situation to Derek. Being a young man, a boy really, under the age of eighteen that was taken advantage of by an older woman. But his consequences were far different. Corinne became pregnant. That’s why Talia treated her the way she did. She contained Corinne, the repercussions for taking advantage of her little brother, and when the baby was born and the ‘Coyote ran, and Talia took Peter’s memories. His memories of what he’d endured, and the results of that.

This one is a little more self-indulgent, but I’ve found a surprisingly large amount of people agreeing with me - Peter is autistic. I imagine that he likes order and cleanliness, that he perhaps is more sensory seeking than sensory avoidant but likes his routine. While Peter may not be the morally black and white character that Scott is, he does have his own strict sense of justice which we see when he wakes up from his coma and decides his priority is justice (revenge) for the murder of his family. An autistic trait. He’s also very blunt, a less strong point and I’m sure there’s other things I’ve forgotten but those are my points off the top of my head.

Following the coma, he was once again killed by being burnt. Peter would absolutely be suffering from mental health issues following these things. I would imagine anxiety, perhaps even panic, around fire. I would imagine nightmares. I would imagine him becoming more protective of what remains of his family, this is why he keeps trying to run. Why he wants Scott’s power in season four. He wants the strength to protect what he sees as his. What remains of his family. That‘s why he’s surprisingly tender with Cora when she’s in the hospital in season two.

I also picture Peter as a collector. He has a lot of money, what is he to do with it other than spend it on things of value? Imagine the size of his library, comprised of ancient tomes and books that need to be handled with the utmost care. Books on the supernatural that have a surprising amount of correct information, so that he can be the person most informed when threats pass through. I think he’d buy wolfsbane so that others couldn’t, or so that he had it on hand for if he got injured.

I think Peter is someone that is good ay buying gifts, and he always knows what to get for you if he cares enough about you to get you anything.

I think Peter would be very particular about nicknames, not pet names but nicknames - his name is Peter, and you will call him that, not Pete or P, or Petey.

I think Peter used to be very touch driven and tactile, but now is more withdrawn and so incredibly touch starved and after all he has been though would probably flinch away if someone tried to touch him unexpectedly.

I think Peter wouldn’t celebrate his birthday, because he hates the reminder that he is getting older when his family cannot. He probably made a big deal out of his birthday before the fire, but now he hates it and would prefer to ignore it entirely.

I am done.. for now. There may be more in future, we shall see

#peter hale #teen wolf #character analysis #headcanons #headcanon #hale family #hale fire #derek hale #cora hale #laura hale #talia hale #jackson whittemore #scott mccall #stiles stilinksi #bisexual #autistic #this morally grey idiot means a lot to me

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mybodypaystheprice · 2 years

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Intro Post/About Me

First off massive trigger warning for EDs and Depression and Anxiety. I will reblog memes and vent, but I am not pro.

DNI

-Anyone <16

-People in recovery, but it’s your choice.

-Homophobes, Biphobes

-Transphobes, TERFs and Transmedicalists

-Aro/Ace exclusionists

-Racists, zionists, anti-semites, islamaphobes, and any other bigots

A little bit about me:

My name is Mircea (its Romanian and pronounced like“meer-cha”). I go by he/they or whatever male equivalents in your language. I’m studying History but idk what I’m doing with my life. I’m partly fluent in Romanian and live in so called Canada.

I’m autistic with ADHD, major depression, social anxiety, and have also gotten a diagnosis of almost every ED at some point. I went from BN to AN to BED to OSFED. I have experience with inpatient and outpatient treatment and experience of nearly dying because of this illness. I have been living in a state of pseudo-recovery for the past few years. I’m not trying to be deathly skinny anymore, but I still very much have an ED.

If you wanna know more…

I’m trans 🏳️‍⚧️ I’m a trans man. Mostly. Mostly male. Male for practical reasons but my gender is beyond comprehension. Been on T since 2018 and got top surgery November 2022. I’m also asexual and aromantic and have known from a young age. Somewhere on both of those spectrums. Or polyam. Honestly, I have no idea what’s going on and at this point I don’t care for labels. I’m queer.

Also I have an Etsy shop selling my linocut art and patches n stuff.

My interests include:

(and please feel free to msg me if you want to talk about any of these because I can and will go on for hours)

-Philosophy, History, Geography, Linguistics, and Anarchism (the left wing kind).

-Aesthetically, I really like spooky and gothic things, fairycore things, and 90s/2000s cyberpunk or webcore.

-My music taste is a little all over the place I really 70s disco and soul, 80s goth and post punk, 90s emo, and orchestral music. Also video game and movie/TV/Anime OST. And organ music. I go wild for that.

-I play bass guitar but not in a band or anything. Just a hobby I’ve kept to myself for like 4 years. Also I can play ocarina.

-Games I like are: Minecraft, Kirby, Zelda, Pokémon, Smash bros, Dead or Alive, Little Big Planet

-I love anime, but I’m not really into shōnen. I like experimental anime and psychological thrillers including: Shiki, Serial Experiments Lain, Texhnolyze, Monster, Ergo Proxy, Mononoke, Paranoia Agent, Pet Shop of Horrors, and Ping Pong the Animation.

-More mainstream anime I like: Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, Hellsing and Hellsing Ultimate, The Disastrous life of Saiki K, JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure, Psycho-pass.

-Bojack Horseman, A:tLA, Community, Psych, and the classic and new Twilight Zone are some of my favourite non anime shows.

-My favourite movie is Predestination (2014). And if you haven’t seen it, but like a good fucked up sci fi thriller, go watch it now. And don’t spoil it for yourself, it’s got a good twist.

-I like reading nonfiction, but I also really like old gothic horror and psychological thrillers.

TW Stats

169cm

HW 67 LW 42 GW 54-56

CW 61 59 57 56 54

Currently trying to maintain 54-56kg

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seijorhi · 1 year

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hi rhi! just checking in bc i had an epiphany (maybe??) about oikawa, after thinking about the ned fulmer cheating on his wife thing for arguably longer than i should. hear me out though, because this might get long and ramble-y (and frankly might not even have a point to it </3)

i like to think that ned fulmer liked the idea of a wife much more than he liked ariel. he’d constantly mention her in his videos but only as “my wife”, not “ariel”, despite the fact that everyone knew who ariel was. she was also a public figure and it was no secret who she was married to as well. this isn’t to say ned didn’t love ariel, that’s between them, but i will never not find this “wife life” psychology interesting. i really need to contemplate majoring in some form of human studies at this point.

as for oikawa in near all of your fics with him, it’s pretty easy to say he is infatuated with the idea of a wife too. in some form or another he wants permanence with the reader and his “relationship”, whether that’s marriage or marking her as his in some way, shape, or form. this information isn’t new, of course, but the contrast between oikawa and ned are so unnecessarily interesting to me bc they’re both in love with the idea of a wife- and both only really refer to their relationships as how they are (yes i know thats probably for reader not having a true name in fic sense but i like to think he would still refer to reader as his wife regardless). the only major difference is that oikawa only has eyes for one wife in his fantasy. reader.

it’s obvious to us that oikawa wants a family. wants to “settle down” and whatnot. but because of the parallels between his infatuation with the wife life and reader, reader is unfortunately roped into his obsession, and therefore now the only one oikawa has eyes for.

ned fulmer is (i assume) mentally healthy, unlike oikawa (and every single character in your fics, love it though), and doesn’t become unhealthily obsessed like the way oikawa does. he doesn’t have a true person he admires to associate with his love for the wife life, so the philosophy outweighs the love he has or thinks he has for his family.

oikawa, in that sense, is different. he of course wants a family first, and has always been infatuated with that idea from what i can assume from your writing. but because he falls hard for whatever he may see in reader too, he has a face associated with the wife life. he doesn’t necessarily call reader by name, only whittling her down into being his wife, and in that case objectifying/dehumanizing her, but i feel like we already know he does that based off the fact that he is willing to chain her up and break her legs rather than let her do something that goes against what he wants, aka the perfect wife.

i’m aware this doesn’t have a true point to it that we didn’t already know, but compared to the ned fulmer situation i find it so interesting. ALSO to justify this whole rant being called an epiphany i will say that this was more of an epiphany bc all of this was more subconscious maybe(?? please let me have this its like 4 in the morning and i’m not entirely cohesive, obviously)

anyway, i love your fics rhi, and i’ve been binging any and all oikawa fics despite the fact that i can hardly recall the titles (IM SORRY) to bring in specific instances </3

- ps idk if the emoji anon thing is still a thing but i’d love to stake my claim on 💍 or 🧣 anon if they’re available </3

okay, so i can't really talk about the whole ned fulmer thing because tbh i had no idea who the man was or what the hell the try guys were until suddenly everyone was talking about it. at one point i genuinely thought people were trying to gaslight me into believing that everyone knew because... sounded fake, but okay ghfjdkjhgfjdk

what i will say is that for some of the characters i write, marriage is meaningless. some would entertain if it was something the reader wanted (which, again considering 95% of my readers are firmly in the 'i hate you' camp.... doubtful), but you're just as much theirs with or without some stupid piece of paper saying so. and i would probably say the same thing in regards to wanting kids, for every character who wants to breed like bunnies, there's another who has zero desire in sharing the reader with little snot nosed gremlins any time soon.

oikawa sees marriage and motherhood as ties more than anything else. he (in the fics he's married ofc) continually calls attention to that bond to remind her that she's stuck with him. bound to him. it's a reminder that he won, she's not getting away, and he wants that reminder to sink in deep. she's his. it's both a victory flag and a blow to the reader's defiance in one. a term of 'endearment'.

which isn't to say that he doesn't want a family, he absolutely does, but he also loves coming out on top. it's not so much that he wants the reader because he wants a wife/mother to his kids, more that because he's obsessively gone off the deep end with the reader, he wants everything with her.

#rhi answers #and i only have two or three faithful emoji anons anymore #so you can be #💍 anon #if you'd like #<33

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writing-for-life · 5 months

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Tell me about your stories! What kind of stories you like to write? Any particular themes you like to explore? Any trope you're fond of (plot or character wise or both)? What inspire you as a writer?

Thanks so much for the ask!

I’ve been writing for as long as I remember; I think I must have written my first short stories when I was still at primary school and then got a bit more serious about it in high school (I held the school record for most words ever written in an essay for a very long time—brevity is not my forte, in absolutely nothing I write).

I am bilingual, and I usually write in my other language because I perceive it as slightly stronger (I grew up in a different country, my mum didn’t speak English with me, only my father did. I moved to an English-speaking country some 20 years ago though and mostly speak English today). My published books are all in my other language. However, I write fan fiction exclusively in English, for a million reasons, but mostly because it gives me a different voice I guess, and I can stay anonymous 😂? In any case, it’s quite interesting to explore how your voice changes between languages…

I love writing dialogue. It’s my greatest strength and my biggest weakness. I had editors tell me to look into screenwriting, and I always need to watch that I don’t write talking heads. I am not particularly fond of reading pages of descriptive text to set a scene (I don’t care about every tiniest detail of a wallpaper, unless it is truly essential for the plot and your name is Charlotte Perkins Gilman), so I think that has always bled into my own writing. I personally detest purple prose, it makes my eyes glaze over, and I don’t think it’s necessarily good writing to be ornate for ornamentation’s sake. It always reads self-indulgent to me and disrupts the narrative flow.

What inspires me? The human condition, psychology and philosophy, and although I mainly write (often steamy) romance, all my works deal with existential questions. I sometimes think it’s only romance because there’s a love story at its core, and I’ve definitely written stories that my publishers handed back to me because they didn’t fulfil genre expectations for romance enough (romance is probably the genre with the least breathing space, and publishing is a whole ‘nother topic).

Generally speaking, I think I just like people, despite being the worst introvert in existence (I am not shy, neither do I have social anxiety, and I find it important that people get that cognitive introversion is not the same as being anxious or shy. I can convincingly pretend I am an extrovert and have done presentations and performances in front of hundreds of people without problems. I can also start conversations and keep them going without trouble, and my whole life is built around human connection. But I can only do so much of it before I need to lie down in a dark room and feel completely drained, and I mostly live in my head if given the choice).

I like to write about human relationships, about grief and loss, also about trauma, but not in a self-serving way. I think the fact that I am a therapist (amongst other things—complicated life story) always makes me look at a way through instead of lingering on it, while at the same time acknowledging that these things stay with us forever. There is no life without them, but there is living with them.

I like to write female characters, and near all my works have female protagonists. I write both f/m and f/f relationships. I detest the caricature of strong women characters that seems quite popular though—they do everything the way a man does, have the physical strength of a man and generally behave like a bitch. I believe strong characters are not afraid of their vulnerability, and I find that a million times more interesting to explore and write.

Apart from that, I can work with most tropes and wouldn’t have particular problems with any if they slot nicely into the plot, but there are definitely some I haven’t written because there was just no opportunity yet, or I don’t find them particularly interesting. I mean, most of us are walking tropes in one way or another, but we’re also more than that. Am I particularly fond of particular ones? I don’t know. I quite like the idea of soul mates, and although it’s not always realistic, it’s interesting to write because it makes us think about what is important in ourselves and our connection to others. So I rather see it as an exploration of human connection than something that is the be all, end all. Funnily enough, I often write friendships that go into that direction, so it doesn’t always need to apply to sexual/romantic relationships. Even my fanfic has a female friendship in it that somewhat falls into that category, and it was important to me not to sideline it, despite it not being the main plot.

#asks open #send asks #about anything really: sandman | writing | life #about writing #my writing #on writing #writer #writers #writing #writers on tumblr #original characters #asks answered #asks

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berkeley-mews · 5 months

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for the book ask game: #3

thank you so much for the ask <3

3. what were your top 5 books of the year?

i won't attempt to put these into a specific order of preference, but the first book that came to mind was certainly william godwin's 1794 novel, caleb williams!! it was essentially a fictionalisation of godwin's earlier works on political philosophy, very saliently exposing institutional oppression, injustice, and abuses of power in britain at the time. what really drew me to this book, however, was godwin's gothic, suspenseful mode of writing, and its memorable characterisation. the central characters' dynamic and mutual obsession with each other really clinched it for me (and produced quite a number of queer readings, which i later followed up on!!). it's also just pure, unbridled fun most of the way. shenanigans were plentiful: from eighteen-year-old caleb's attempts at probing his employer's psychology through small talk about alexander the great, to his rants calling for prison abolition, his (several) prison-escape attempts, his joining a group of anarchist thieves, and donning very silly disguises. definitely a highlight this year!!

i also read jane eyre for the first time this year (which is very strange to think about, because i feel as if i've known her forever). i went into it knowing the plot twist at about halfway through, but without other expectations, and i was very pleasantly surprised. from the first few pages i was fully drawn in & immensely invested in jane's fortunes, and later, her relationship with rochester. i also find jane eyre to be narratologically fascinating, i think charlotte brontë does some very interesting things with narrative voice & also constructs her characters' psychologies really well -- i could talk about foils and parallels for hours and hours, so i better stop here!! i've also managed to read wide sargasso sea, jean rhys' post-colonial response or "writing back" to this novel, which provided even more perspectives & ideas!! <3

this year i've gotten into philip k. dick's works for the first time, having read both the man in the high castle and do androids dream of electric sheep? while i was much more invested in android's character, high castle was probably the more worthwhile & rewarding reading experience. it was anything but easy trying to get into it, and i found it wasn't really doing anything for me in the first hundred pages or so. slowly, a little inexplicably, perhaps, i came around to it, and allowed it to take me on a journey through alternate history, different realities, and planes of existence. the world-building is less interesting to me than the uncertainites, the interruptions of meaning, and the unspoken in particular this novel. it also had some very interesting things to say about the production of art & its role in history-making & culture more generally, but i'm still getting my thoughts about that in order -- essay forthcoming. /j

i've also read rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead this summer!! it feels as if were very late to the party, but i'm glad i managed to get here in the end. this one really speaks for itself -- Two Of Them, the absurd, existentialism, meta-theatre, whacky temporality (!!) & the whole shebang. i actually didn't quite expect it to be as funny as it was, now that i think about it, but i did thoroughly enjoy its humour at least as much as its weightier implications.

aaaaand finally i will go with george eliot's the lifted veil -- a gothic novella (and subtle frankenstein pastiche, i like to think) narrated by the world's most pathetic, sad, sopping-wet sliver of a man, known only as "latimer", who finds himself developing clairvoyant & psychic powers. it is extremely well-structured, without a single awkward, unnecessary, or out-of-place sentence (or maybe i'm saying that becuase i'm just really, reaaally partial to eliot's writing style!!). the narrative structure is chilling, and is constructed in such a way that the reader feels as if they were partaking in latimer's strange powers. as is usual for her, eliot offers percepitve & profound insights into the human psyche and character, without ever losing a beat as to the progression of her gloomy, gothic narrative -- and everything is neatly, devastatingly tied up in the story's inevitable conclusion.

well, there's 5 books!! i could mention many, many more (jean toomer's harlem renaissance masterpiece cane comes to mind, so do several short stories & the novella mathilda by mary shelley, rhys' voyage in the dark, acd's valley of fear, agatha christie's and then there were none, austen's persuasion, and even dracula, which i also can't believe i read this year), but i shall restrain myself and stop here, to everyone's relief, i'm sure :)

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kreiarchives · 1 year

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Silent Lovefool / introduction of characters 3

Fyodor’s Friends

Depicted as 20 years old. Perhaps the most intimidating student Aude has yet to offer with his smarts and demeanor.

Unlike other popular identities like Dazai and Ranpo—Fyodor is well-known because he is one of the very few who was seen scary and almost dangerous to many students because of how stupidly sharp his mind is. His different approach to life is what also makes others want to avoid him, however despite such negative description—he is still an individual people can go to. So long as they don’t make a fool out of themself, then Fyodor will take his time to interact back.

As such, he also has friends in this university. Memorable names like Nikolai Gogol and Tatsuhiko Shibusawa are two that he seems to be very close with, for he is seen with them both a good amount of times. With how close he is to the two, many mistaken that they are a ‘trio’, however it does not look like it for Fyodor shakes his head to the term. Asides Nikolai and Shibusawa, he seems to also be friends with Dazai Osamu and Chuuya Nakahara, closer to Dazai.

Fyodors majors are psychology, computer engineering and also has an eye for philosophy. Carrying of what is seen as extremely difficult majors—Fyodor takes them in like bringing a pet to walk as he is seen doing these majors effortlessly, even bringing his knowledge to it in his academic records that have never been quite beaten yet. Dazai’s academic record was a close opponent, but there was still more to catch up on. At least, that’s what Dazai shows, and that’s what Fyodor’s would reply with.

Depicted as 20 years old. A playful and charming student.

Despite Nikolai not being a student council member, his fame strikes almost bigger than theirs as he is an individual full of enticement, even stating that he is a clown with abilities of a magician. When doubted, he’s quick to prove otherwise—playing up tricks up his sleeves that was able to twist the contradict into an agreement instead. Some may dislike his loud behavior, but Nikolai is one who is able to keep it to a level once a situation will call for it. But for times where it does not—he is pretty much titled as the most loudest student of Aude. And it’s almost surprising how prideful he takes it instead of being ashamed.

As stated, for being so famous—it can’t be surprising that he’ll also be thriving with friends in this prestigious school. There seems to be no dorm of this university that finds no interest in this self-proclaimed clown and magician, for all will either like him or have no center opinion. However, he is always seen with Fyodor Dostoevsky since both are childhood friends. It’s also mentionable that he tends to stick to Sigma too. Yet it’s unsure what Sigma thinks of this.

Nikolai’s major was difficult to be certain of as he surprisingly doesn’t talk much about it, however it was stated that he takes anthropology. For such a character that almost never cares to adapt towards anyone's personalities and expectations of him, it’s either a shock or the most obvious thing that he would take anthropology for his major. It’s never really explained why, though it is rumored that Fyodor only knows.

Depicted as 19 years old. Yet another man of intellect that brings no surprise due to him being Fyodor’s close friend.

He’s not as well-known as Fyodor and Nikolai, however, similar to Sigma’s case—he ends up being a person quite known because of the two other ‘higher’ profile. Shibusawa is a student who actually holds arrogant patterns in his behavior, and he is told to be this way because of how ‘bored’ he seems of in life. When he was once asked why he went to Aude University, his response was easily a “search to cure my boredom”, and so was most of his replies in almost every situation. He was pulled down as a guy who just wanted entertainment to cure a seemingly incurable boredom. And while it was correct, much of his personality was still unseen by the university…

…And it seems only Fyodor is aware of it. In terms of friendships, he isn’t really seen with many people other than the said guy. Sometimes Nikolai, however it only happens when Fyodor brings the situation to that point. He does interact with people from time to time, but the most loyal he has been with is for Fyodor—a person Shibusawa claims that understands him more than anyone else could.

Shibusawa has yet to find his major, for he seems unable to stick to one. He is not content with most majors and he can’t seem to find one that will truly cure what he always likes to say, ‘boredom’. He once tried psychology like Fyodor’s current major, however he was quick to discard it once he realizes how impossible it is to surpass the guy’s knowledge to this field, stating that he needs a major entertaining enough to have others challenge him while also being one of the best.

#silent lovefool

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darlingkara · 8 months

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So, I haven't written here since December of 2022

I am finally reorganizing my everything! Well, that's the play, anyway.

Sorry for any typos-- I will be careful. I am working with a new but old laptop and I am not used to the keyboard. But, it works for my vanilla IT job and camming. I have not broadcasted publicly with it, but ran a password protected show and saw it from a phone, a TV, another PC screen. It looked okay at 720/60fps. I have not tried to hook the Cannon up to it yet.

I wish I were a desk person. I am just not. I have never been, haha. Chairs are uncomfortable, the desk height is usually off, and they are hard and uncomfy! I cannot study, or read, or work at a desk. I have always been a bed, couch, floor person.

My classes start in exactly 2 weeks from now... September 5. Now I can finally take the philosophy class I have wanted to take! I don't dislike economics, but the program degree is Philosophy, Politics and Economics (PPE). I like socio-economics and more so ethics and behavioral strategy. So one Philosophy class and one Politics class. I won't be too too specific, as it wouldn't be too hard to find me. But I am excited-- I love both studies.

Btw, not like I care if people find ''out''. My family knows I am a cam girl... I think they mostly support it. My mother thinks it is like Twitch with boobies. Hahaha. Kinda, but I don't play games when I broadcast. Or really never or rarely.

Speaking of the devil, 2 outta 3 siblings are blocked on FB and I will never talk to them again, I assume. My sister said something about having to pay taxes on a parking lot that her church rented out to sell vegetables. She is umm... a Libertarian. I said, ''Well, at least the concrete was taxed''.

She told me to eat concrete... Like, wtf, I know. And then a slew of recent things she has said to me just hit me. Like, some stupid hypothetical boat story she was discussing a few weeks back. A person is on a boat and has to get to an island. They see a person drowning, and have space in the boat. I said, well, of course I would help them and pick them up. I am going there anyways, and it is not like I can watch someone drown. She said she wouldn't help them, but ''it's not like it was her hand drowning them''. I am sure I said something about how humans need each other and her thinking was a bit.... antisocial, shall we say.

After the EAT CONCRETE weirdness, she sent me a link with pre-made cookie dough being recalled for having woods chips in it, and told me I should eat that, too.

That was it. That was my breaking point. I told her... WOW... What a lovely Christian you are being. You are selfish and ill-willed, and you are dipping your toes into alt-tight territory. And that is the last thing she saw before I blocked her. And I feel so much lighter. She was not like this before. She's 5 years older than I am, and she is not stupid. She has 2 Master's degrees Philosophy and Psychology. Thank fuck she isn't someone's therapist. She did have a patient kill themselves when she first started... and she found them. She was distraught for awhile, which is understandable, but I repeatedly told her that she had nothing to do with it-- The person would have committed suicide anyways, at some point. She obviously wasn't allowed to talk about the specifics (HIPAA). But I felt for her.

Anyways, it is weird to mentally lose two siblings. Albeit, they were older than I am by 5 and 9 years, but we were still close. I was the youngest-- I am not quite Gen X, but due to their ages and influences, I am half Gen X, half Millennial, whatever that means. Of course they are both Anti-Vax (but just recently). It is just so odd. We were not raised this way. They have both become fairly religious. I am almost certain my brother has been celebite for a decade, if not more.

His daughter, who is 18, started college in a kinda southern and eastern state. For some reason, he decided to follower her, move there and I was thinking like, man, get a life. I loved my dad, but that's the last thing I would want him to do-- follow me states away at 18. Bejesus.

....Enough whining from me. Sorry, I don't have an outlet for my feelings.

...8 hours later... I worked way too much. I did my IT job for 4 hours and I re-did the floor (again) for another 4 hours. It's getting there! If only I realized I probably only needed stronger acetone to remove the damn spots and tar, it would have been much easier. It is like, half wood, and half I don't know. There are pics on Twitter. I think I will eventually have to buy some oak stain for some spots I over-sanded. But, not so ba+d or expensive thus far. Nail files, acetone, mineral spirit alcohol and a stove scraper I already had, haha.

My weight loss had plateaued for a bit. I was stuck at 90 kgs/190 lbs for almost a month, and now I am 86.7kgs or 191 lbs. I really only want to get to about 160-170 pounds, Anything less than that, I look kinda weird, imo. Start weight was a very shocking 247 lbs or 124 kgs. Yikes. You don't realize how slow you pack in on. I am sticking with 1100 calories a day. But I am so bad. All I want are these little chocolate doughnuts, veggies and meat. It could be worse. :)

I will try to update more than every 6 months, haha. Lately all I have been doing is being snarky on Twitter, working, and reading.

This Trump et al thing is craaaaazy. But I am not surprised. I cannot believe people are so gullible and believe in such bizarre lies. I have been obsessed with Erik Prince and Mike Flynn fir awhile, as well as the Wagner group, before they were all on most people's radar. And Musk/Twitter-- that was not by accident. None of this is.

Until next time... Keep yourself sane, content and safe!

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#politics #philosophy #e girl #family #Youtube

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aspoonofsugar · 2 years

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I see a few people talking about how Mercury's is more about how he actually isn't strong in order to subvert tropes but I think that goes against a lot of what has happened with characters in RWBY and how that adversity the suffer causes growth (with growth sometimes being represented through fights such as the Adam fight) and I think the bigger thing with Mercury is how his strength hasn't really helped him very specifically with his father because while he is free from Marcus physically on a mental/emotional/spiritual level he hasn't been able to properly heal from all that

Hello anon!

I agree with you tbh. I am literally 0 interested in power levels and personally I think RWBY follows this very wise philosophy:

In short, rather than having fixed power levels, the characters are presented as individuals with a complex set of abilities, which makes them more effective in some contexts and less performing in others. Similarly, psychological factors or well thought plans can influence the outcome of a battle.

For example, RWBY vs Ace Ops is a fight clearly influenced by the Ace Ops repressing their feelings. Similarly, Ruby is a less skilled fighter than Neo, but she still manages to win against Ice-Cream Girl twice because of her quick thinking. Even in the famous Bumbleby vs Adam's fight it is implied Adam is a stronger fighter than both, but he still loses because of his flaws.

Honestly, a tons of other examples can be done, but the point is that RWBY does not care much about power levels. They are consistent, but ultimately unimportant because not really decisive. Sure, the main characters are becoming stronger, but if they need to get their asses handed to them, they do in usually believable ways. Similarly, if they need to do something insanely cool, cool things happen :'')

And I guess the same thing will work for Mercury too. Does he need to have his ass kicked, so he can grow? A defeat is coming. Does he need to succeed? He will succeed. Honestly, Mercury is like the other characters imo. He is shown to have skills that can be useful. Would they always work? Nope. However, if he needs to power up, he will. I mean, Weiss clearly underperforms against Vernal, but thanks to Jaune's help she is able to unlock a new summon, which is key for the whole battle. Morevoer, after that she is shown to have become much better at summoning (and this happens in like... a couple of days or weeks at most). Ren struggles a lot throughout his Atlas's training, but in a moment of clarity he unlocks a new power, which becomes key in searching for Oscar.

In short, obviously Mercury's arc will deal with the ideas of strength and weakness. It is also true it has a component of overcoming toxic masculinity. However, I doubt this will happen only through an aknowledgement of some kind of difference in skills (simply because it would be boring and useless for the plot). If that were really the point, Mercury would not really have to look that far beyond where he is :''') Salem is an immortal Witch, Cinder is an elemental powerhouse and Tyrian is on par with Qrow... Mercury kicks :P I think he can infer pretty clearly he is not exactly the strongest man around. Hence him cowering in fear whenever one of these three targets him.

The thematic truth is instead what you highlight. No matter how much Mercury (or other characters for that matter) pursues strength and power, it is not gonna solve his problems, which are rooted in trauma and identity issues.

Anyway, I am really not interested in this angle of analysis and I don't think it is very meaningful or resonant. That said, people are free to enjoy these kinds of metas and look for deconstructions or inversions whenever they like :)

Have a nice day and thank you for the ask!

#rwby #mercury black #asksfullofsugar #anonymous

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kylosbreedingkink · 1 year

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I get so dismayed by a lot of Luke takes. He's either the best thing ever and the sequel trilogy is just wrong because Luke isn't this perfect being, or he's the absolute worst thing and led a cult because he was mean to Kylo.

How about the middle ground, which is more accurate to how we as humans are anyway? A man with all the best intentions, taking on perhaps a bit too much in his quest to do good, having so much going on that he misses or overlooks things. A perfectly natural thing to happen. Or maybe is so excited and positive about things that when the negative side swings in he isn't equipped to deal with it - either ignoring or overreacting.

He's not a teacher but knew so many kids needed help with the Force that he sought to create a school for them. He doesn't have the teacher training background or even other older Jedi physically there with him to help out. Instead he has the older students that he himself has taught and maybe some friends interested in the force despite not being force sensitive, like Lor San Tekka.

He grew up learning about how amazing the Jedi are and how perfect the Jedi order was, and he wants to replicate that. Perfectly understandable. So he goes by what the old Jedi texts say to do. He doesn't have the background in child psychology to think that perhaps removing children from their parents isn't always the best developmentally and I doubt Jedi texts would talk about all the times it went wrong - but be more focused on the rigidity and how it should go rather than how it did go. It would be natural for the Jedi themselves to not point out their own flaws. Basically the general fanon interpretation of Luke makes him so incredibly boring and simplified, I don't know why people want to do that when he could be such an interesting complex character. He's human, and humans make mistakes. He's not perfect. He's not evil. He's just a guy trying to do his best.

And sometimes someone trying their best doesn't work out. Luke trying his best wouldn't necessarily be what Kylo needed. Though Luke did do what he could using the tools he could find and what he had learned before.

He made mistakes. Kylo reacted to those mistakes in a way that it seemed even Kylo didn't really want to react.

Even the fact that Luke didn't know how to deal with the mistake he made and so went into hiding is so real. It's very human to try to run away from your mistakes. My main issue with him doing that was that there were still other students alive. Though him running is the most selfish thing he ever did and it was right off the back of him making the biggest fuck up ever. I think it's really human of him and is the thing which makes Luke interesting. As otherwise he's 1 dimensional good guy who never does wrong or the flip I've seen from others - evil cult leader. Luke was just as much drawn into the Jedi philosophy as anyone else, and he learned like the Jedi before that it isn't all roses.

#luke skywalker #kylo ren #kylo ren meta #luke skywalker meta #sequel trilogy

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