#look at yourself now

[spaciebabie]

yall in my inbox rn

#fnaf #fnaf movie #fnaf movie spoilers #yall talked some big game huh. #were talking shit #look at yourself now #gfghjhgfjfjgf

[loumands]

#it drives me crazy how we're now moving into 'well we were all manipulated so it's not my fault i harassed victims' narrative #no we weren't i always believed amber ever since she first said she was abused and so did many other reasonable people #if you believed d*pp that is your fault and you need to take a hard look at yourself #amber heard #abuse tw #depp v heard #txt

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[kelenia]

The robes are hanging on for dear life

#I believe in Huge Binghe supremacy #he was a monsterfucker before transmigrating and he is still a monsterfucker now #sqq: luo binghe if you hide yourself like this from now on I will die. i will literally die again. is that what you want? #you’re killing your husband binghe #sqq finding sqh: YOU KNEW?!? YOU KNEW BINGHE LOOKED LIKE THIS AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME?!? #svsss #scumbag villain #scum villian self saving system #scum villain #my art #bingqiu #shen qingqiu #luo binghe

[ikeasharksss]

hey im curious

feel free to rb & explain your answer in the tags!

#i will go first <3 #i reread my own fics all the time!!! #it's so fun!! #i am the target audience for every fic i have ever written #like even if it's a gift/for an event i write it bc i am genuinely interested in it #so of COURSE im going to enjoy looking back on those fics #i have uh 24 fics on ao3 now? #so i dont reread All of them #i mainly reread my longer fics bc i just have the most fun writing them #i encourage ppl to reread their own work bc #1 its fun to see how your writing has changed #(my writing has gone through So Much since i started in 2019 lol) #2 if you write for yourself then youll always love what youve written! #n e way thats my 2 cents #pls share w/ me i am very curious #thanks love ya #fanfiction #fanfic #<- promo tags ig

[happyk44]

percy repeating that he can be good over and over again to himself while covered in the blood after an overwhelming unleash of volatile rage that destroyed all that threatened his loved ones while grover holds his face and steadily grounds him back to reality

("i'm safe, we're safe, it's safe, just breathe")

#grover underwood #percy jackson #grover looks past the violence because percy takes precedence and percy embraces the violence because grover takes precedence #like do you get it? do you get the sorrows of being an angry person trying so hard to be Good for the people you love and falling short #because you love too much and with your whole heart but your love is rage filled thing that you could never quite quell #(how do you fight a hurricane? how do you stop a tsunami? you can't. there's no outrunning the storm) #your love is a rage-filled thing and your love is strong and you would rather sacrifice yourself on a spit then be buried above their bones #and how fucking dare anyone try to threaten that #and now you are covered in someone else's blood and you are not Good (you never were you never were) and it's all you can do not to scream #(i can be Good i can be Good you say but the words are lies because you are a storm and who has ever looked to a storm as Good) #happy talks pjo

[uncanny-tranny]

Your fears that you don't have a body that will transition "well" are, sure, understandable, but there isn't truly such thing as a body that's unworthy of transition. Perhaps your changing body won't suit everybody's taste, but would you rather live for yourself or for the whims of random people who don't care about your happiness as long as they're attracted to what they see?

Transition is for anybody who wants it. It's okay to be fearful. It's okay to be uncertain. But it isn't the end of the world. You are in control, and if you choose to transition to any capacity, it should be at your behest. You and your body are worthy of transition. I hope you are able to seize transition and do what you truly want for yourself.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #have been seeing a small resurgence in some trans spaces that there is such thing as an 'untransitional' body #there are people out there who cannot transition for medical/financial/social reasons but that isn't what people often mean #kill the person in your head that says you need to adhere to cishet standards. it's okay to be trans and *look* it if you want #transition because it makes you feel happy or fulfilled. transition because it is something *you* want #while yes it's complex because appearing trans can be dangerous i ultimately want people to have the freedom to make decisions solely... #...on what *they* want y'know? #i have seen this idea that some people just aren't 'able' to transition because they won't 'appear cis' for years now and it's heartbreaking #like i used the whole 'i don't look cis' against myself because it's impossible for me *to be* cis... #...i will never be non-trans. i will never not be a transsexual and i used to hate that about myself... #...because i was taught that being trans is bad. i was taught that looking trans is a curse that nobody should EVER inflict upon themselves #and that the goal was to essentially distance yourself as far away from transness as you can #and it's okay for people to not want to 'look' visibly trans. it's neutral. what was harmful was the idea that TRANS was bad #there's a huge difference between 'i don't want to be visibly trans' and 'i think being trans and looking it is bad'

[whollyjoly]

i just have a feeling / you're better off than you think you are

(song insp.)

#maybe im just obsessed with the idea that buck has thought to himself for so long that maybe he doesnt get to be happy #and now what if he does? what happens then? #fuck i am so obsessed with these two actually #buck deserves something soft!! and tender!! #THEM #and the way tommy looks at him just kills me actually #them #bonus lyrics include: “i think there's a reason / you could even get this far” #“what if the voice in your head is ten years old? / and you've been trying to prove yourself right since middle school?” #“what then? / what then?” #anyways the buck coding KILLS ME #bucktommy #kinkley #tevan #tuck #otp: better ways to get your attention #tommy kinard #evan buckley #911 on abc #911 abc #911 spoilers #em's edits #special shoutout to the clown car my beloveds #mine

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Acquire BNUUY

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#poorly drawn mdzs #MDZS #season 1 #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Lwj's heart grew 3 sizes that day #I like to think that lwj has been a big bunny guy for years but due to the 'no pets rule' couldn't make his dream come true #that might be canon now that I think more about it #Get yourself a partner that runs wild in the nearby forests to capture juvenile bunnies for you without checking their sex #Get yourself a partner who breaks their stony masked face to look at you like they look at a bunny #This scene...man...go lwj for being a little more honest with what you want. It's hard; you have a lot of emotional maturity to catch up on #baby steps are still steps!

[robjn93]

we need tim drake to have an organic friendgroup far away from the bats. not necessarily bringing back old characters but at least have a genuine group of people in his life he cares about. his entire character relied on having a clear distinction between tim drake and robin, on keeping organic relationships as tim drake intact while also adhering to his job as robin the boy wonder. ‘red robin tim’ neglecting that side of the character, neglecting tim drake to the point of becoming ‘tim wayne’ and cutting away all ties not just with the bats but also with his friends served as such a nice tool to see how this line he spent his whole life preserving became blurrier and blurrier without him noticing until it broke him. him having friends as tim drake and away from the bats is such a necessary tool to understand who tim is and to write him properly.

#and im sooooo tired to ‘batboy tim’ i’d rather see him have a 6 issues mini serie where he just goes out with his friends #90s tim drake taking jabs at bruce wayne like ‘lol i have friends’ well look at yourself now boy… #batman #tim drake #bruce wayne #dc comics #robin

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst

When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.

It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.

“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.

“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.

“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.

“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.

“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.

“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.

“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.

“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.

#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this #and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj #but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!! #I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written #there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone #and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost #and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again #but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same?? #they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem #not them* heck #it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself #where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’ #and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories #but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you #and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time #you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them #so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT #sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in #okay bai #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[astystole]

STEP BY STEP, BOY 💭 ; @nsves summer collection incoming!

#ts4 #the sims 4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4edit #;ozen #;amelie #;isadora #;sofia #g.edit #look at what i'm able to do with my mouse!!!!! get FUCKED tendonitis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #shoutout to all my bitches with tendonitis please try and get yourself a lightweight mouse #i got a pulsar elite v2 the mini one that's like 55 grams #i've been playing the horsey pack for like 3 days now and my wrist hasn't hurt AT ALL #very very happy being able to be creative with my edits again

[vegaseatsass]

DFF ep9 spoilers

I love gay revenge, I LOVE gay revenge, I love gay REVENGE, I love GAY revenge, HOWEVER

I also love brothers with an uncrossable chasm between them whose parents compare them who lose each other and their entire family along the way... guess what I'm saying is, I love guilty golden boy brother revenge, too

#that shit was so good #i'm so disappointed in phee for losing FOCUS i could write a whole post about it lmfaoo #i was defending you despite all your red flags for being someone who really really fights for your loved ones n now look at you #but it's delicious tragedy im glad he is caught up in this shit without actually knowing the full scope of jin's crimes #and i'm transferring my affections to new as the person who keeps his focus and keeps his fight #poor joker smiling orphan boy #poor guilty asthmatic smoker who THROWS AWAY HIS ENTIRE LIFE #everything he ever worked for everything his conditionally loving parents ever valued about him #to get some JUSTICE!! phee look at my man then look back at yourself #dead friend forever #dff spoilers #dff the series spoilers #dff

[sweetmilkbread]

Sun Bleached Flies, Ethel Cain // Shiv Roy

(Kendall, Roman)

#'baby girl good luck taking care of yourself' vs 'I've got to look after me because no one else will' in 4×01 #the preachers daughter...how bad was dad?...I can't let go when somethings broken. its all I know. it's all I want now #sun bleached flies is truly shivs song (it's never been more over) #shiv roy #logan roy #tom wambsgans #succession #ethel cain #preachers daughter #web weaving #my stuff

[pettyprocrastination]

colonel könig buying gifts for his favorite camgirl! (he sends you a dildo that’s the same size and length of his cock so he can watch as you try to fit it in while in a private chat)

PLEAAAASE

He's got his camera and Mic turned off cause he's still uncomfortable with you seeing him just yet but watching you struggle and your legs twitch while trying to take it all just makes him absolutely red in the face cause he can't help but imagine how the real thing would be, how his fingers would curl into your hips and he'd guide you through it while mumbling praise in your ear because "i know, I know. You almost have it all, you can do it."

he has to settle for typing it all in chat and saying how pretty you look riding his that cock.

#ask #asks #ARF #cam enjoyer könig #that's the tag for this now lmao #you just think 'oh guys like this' but hoooooweeeee its a whole different thing for him #you start the show by saying how you had to prep yourself beforehand because just looking at it you knew it would take a lot and he was #ready to GOOOO #könig x fem!reader #könig x reader

[harbingersecho]

"your eyes, Soran. your eyes are cursed."

#a tale of crowns #atoc #atoc if #interactive fiction #art #mine #*23 #crown soran #i replayed atoc (its so good) bc i got the sudden urge to draw more 'historical' clothing. which im gonna go do now but this just appeared #you ever feel like yourself suddenly level up while drawing? yeah #tbf i did use a reference for this. man is surprised when shit looks better referenced than not < im man #but i've been feeling like my art is boring bland garbage lately so. its nice to draw smth and be pleasantly surprised