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Poly! Yizhan x Reader: Charmer

A/n: Could be read as the next part of ✨DRAMA✨ or as an individual story. This just has an established relationship between Idol! Reader and Idol/Actor Yibo. The reader is a KQ girl group member.

⚠️There's a lil bit of smut, so beware.

Summary: You've known your boyfriend was bisexual. But what will you do when you find out Xiao Zhan is actually his ex and the guy is now flirting with you, even though he knows you're dating Yibo. He says he doesn't want to take you from him, then what is his motive?

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"My girlfriend speaks CHINESE?!" Yibo exclaimed at his manager who was equally shocked as yours.

"Babe! We've been dating for 4 months! Howcome, you don't know that?!! I literally have Chinese members!" You said laughing.

"THEN WHY DID YOU NEVER TALK TO ME IN CHINESE?" He asked in chinese this time.

"Because it's weak and I don't use it much, but Wooyoung did tell you once." You said

"I thought he was joking" he said protesting.

The two managers shook their heads at your bickering.

"NOW NOW!" your manager brought your attention back to them "As we were speaking, China isn't like Korea, here we can manage the crowd and use means to not let news spread. But there it would be impossible. So?"

"We lay low" you said as you leaned into Yibo, who held you close.

"We don't want people to know unnecessarily so you'll be at your home" he pointed at Yibo and then pointed to me and said "you'll stay at a hotel, but. You can sneak in and out, we'll keep that option for you" his manager winked, as yours shook his head.

"We'll be leaving in a month, to start practice, script reading and costumes" your manager had told you.

"So basically I can't kiss you on set" Yibo pouted, you walked over to him and kissed him, your intention was for a peck, but you felt his strong hands immediately pulls you into him, closer until your bodies were smushed against each other. You feel him engulf your lower lip and suck on it as you complied with his intentions and gave in. His lips soon detached from your lips and attacked your neck, finding your sweet spot instantly and assaulting it, he inspected the area after giving it a satisfying hickey.

"You can't do that there!" You said

"I can only imagine how good you'll look in a Hanfu. How am I supposed to control myself?" He said tucking his head in the crook of your neck, rubbing his nose in a line, up your neck, as a shaky breath left your lips.

You both parted ways as you left the plane in Beijing. He left through his assigned door as you left yours, after waiting 2 hours in the airport. Yes you could have left on two different flights but Yibo insisted on either of you waiting. You walked out of the gate and were swarmed by body guards. You waved at your fans who cheered you on.

You reached the hotel and crashed on the bed as your phone rang, "Yes?" You asked

"Reached safely?" Your boyfriend asked.

"Mhm"

"Tired?" He asked

"Very" you mumbled

"Get something to eat first and then rest, I'll see you tomorrow morning before practice, okay?" He said

"Yeeeaaaa" you said and ordered some food before getting a shower.

You brought out the script as you dried your hair with your towel. Damn the directors are bolder this time. There are literally kiss scenes, you had one. You've already watched Yibo kiss another girl for acting, but you didn't know how you'd feel with the idea of his bring close to a guy in that sense. You'll meet the other cast today, you're actually looking forward to meeting Xiao Zhan and Liu Haikuan, they have been your favourite cast since back in the days.

It was not early in the morning (if you can call it that) when you heard your phone ring "Hello?" You said groggily.

"Babe. Open the door" you heard your boyfriend's voice.

"When you said you'll see me in the morning I had actually expected it to be after sunrise" you said as you walked to the door to open it. You felt his hands instantly push you inside and pull you to him, he held you close with one hand and used the other to lock the door.

"The thought of you being here but not beside me was killing me" he whispered.

"Your down bad" you said patting him

"You're worth it" he said pulling you into a loving kiss. You pulled him to bed and the two of you got cosy and fell asleep in each other's arms.

"Are you excited to meet Xiao Zhan again?" You asked Yibo as he ate his toast.

"Um.. I-I I-" he fumbled "I gotta tell you something, babe" he looked at you.

"What happened" you left trying to tie your hair and sat beside him, his eyes were glossy. "Baby whats wrong?" You asked

"I am- Zhan ge and I had a thing, like-" he started.

"Like a ritual?" You tried to help him, but he shook his head

"No I mean we um-" he stuttered again and then you got it.

"Oh my god!! Don't tell me you're saying what I think you're saying! Yizhan was real?" You asked

"What? Yes" he said looking down

"Are you bisexual?" You asked and he nodded "Ok. It's okay. I'm glad you told me" you said holding his hand.

"You're not angry?" He asked

"No. Surprised yes, but not angry" you said smiling and pecked his cheek. As he pulled you into a hug.

"I get it, it's nerve wracking to having to shoot with your ex" you patted his back "But you can do this Bobo" as he nodded. So, finally, after kissing all over your face and neck he left. You smiled at yourself and at the thought of your boyfriend. Soon, you started getting ready. You can't act intimately on the set, but you can't act unacquainted as well because it's a fact that you've done a drama together. So, it's friends. Hardly did you know what was waiting for you.

You entered the set greeting everyone with your manager. Your eyes landed on Yibo who smiled and waved at you as you waved back. You introduced yourself and were immediately swarmed by Zheng Fanxing (Lan Sizhui), Qi Peixing (Jin Ling) and Ji li (Nie Huisang). You looked around and found Xiao Zhan looking at you, did he smirk? Must be my imagination you thought as you spoke to them about the directors and scenes. You were playing Lan Sizhui's love interest, Nie Mingjue's daughter. So most of your scenes were with the juniors and Nie Huisang. Soon the directors came and welcomed everyone. That day you all practiced greeting, and bowing and talking politely. After lunch you ran a few scenes.

You were excited for the new day, Yibo had spent the night and left in the morning. This was the day for dresses, your character is supposed to wear Grey and blue. When you were all dressed up, you left the room to show the others. Fanxing, Ji Li and Peixing started clapping and cat calling, you found Xiao Zhan walking towards you he walked up to you and bowed "Hello, Nie Gunia, you look wonderful today" you immediately bowed back and said "You flatter me, Master Wei" you felt nervous. There was something in his aura, that intimidated you. And he walked walked away. You heard your phone notification

Bobo sent a message:

Baby you look ravishing.

🥵😘😘

-You look so handsome

-I can't believe I am seeing you in this outfit!!!

Someone's EXCITED

-Shut up

And you looked at him to find him looking at you. Your manager cleared his throat and you immediately looked away. Unknowing you two, a pair of eyes were already on you two. During practice Fanxing (Lan Sizhui), Peixing (Jin Ling) and Guocheng (Jingyi) helped you alot and you were actually having fun running lines with them and Ji li occasionally. There came a scene when Xiao Zhan held your hand to protect you from a corpse and it took everything inside Yibo not to pull you away from the man he almost dropped his character.

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1st day of shoot

You had your make up and dress up done and were waiting for the others to step out when Xiao Zhan walked up to you and you greeted him, he was still in his regular clothes. "You seem nervous" he said. "I still get the 1st day chills" you said "like even after performing so many times I still feel giddy before I step up on stage". "Well I do too, both actually so I understand" he said. "You? Impossible" you said. "No really. I'm human too" he said. This moment talking to him, you had forgotten all the past smugness, this seemed and felt real. His bunny smile felt real and you felt blessed to have seen it in person. Fanxing and Peixing soon left the make up room as Xiao Zhan greeted them and walked in. Gosh you almost hurt your neck to look up to him, literally. When you walked on to the set you found Yibo there waiting for you, well he said he just wanted to get the feel of the series back before his parts came up. "All the best" he told everyone, while passing you with a smile. One by one the scenes were being done. Your stylists running and fixing your make up and hair often. Sometime among this Yibo also got dressed. "You look good" you tell him in korean, "Yeah I get that a lot" he replied smugly and you shook your head.

Later in your hotel room as you lied down you received Yibo's call. "Hey baobao" he said making you blush you still weren't used to it even after all these months. "How was the rest of the shoot?" you asked as your group was done earlier. "It was not awkward, me and Zhan ge actually cleared the air. He was actually praising you, your accent and stuff" he teased. "What about you though?" You asked. "You look really pretty in them. But that Fanxing (Lan Sizhui) better keep his hands to himself" he said with his gremlin smile. "Gave you some deja vu?" You laughed, ne he wasn't necessarily jealous as you have worked on the same drama with different love interests. "You're still wearing make up?" He asked noticing now, "Yeah I came in just an hour ago, me and the other juniors went for dinner first" you said and watched Yibo pout. "Why are you pouting?!" You asked, "they can hangout with you like that, I can't even hold your hand in public" he said and you laughed at his cuteness.

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3 weeks into filming

"Ssup?" You heard the voice and almost got shocked, you were early to set and were waiting while reading your script, Zhan's voice startled you. It was one of your first scenes with him and Yibo today and you were excited. "I'm excited to finally meet the infamous Wei Ying" you said. "Hey, you meet him everyday almost" he said with a charming smile, that almost (ALMOST) made you blush. "Not this way, like directly, you won't understand" you said. "I wish I would" he said and walked off not before passing you a wink.

"What was that?" Guocheng (Jingyi) asked. "What?" You said. "Zhan gege was flirting with you!" He said excitedly. "No he was just being friendly" you said. "Yeah yeah of course you'd say that, you only have eyes for Yibo" he said. Your eyes went wide "WHAT?" you asked. "What? You don't have a crush on Yibo?" He said with a face that said he wasn't even joking. "Who doesn't" you said brushing it off and running away with a sigh of relief when your stylist called for your turn.

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"Master Wei, Hanguang Jun" you said bowing, as they bowed back. "Sizhui, report" Yibo said in his deep Lan Zhan tone. "Hanguang Jun, there are walking corpses all around, they seemed to be quite potent but not under control or anything" he said. "CUT" the director shouted. As all of you sighed in relief and walked off to the nearby chairs.

Yibo, Zhan ge and Fanxing literally picked up their skirts calling it ventilation, they all had shorts inside, so did you but it wasn't appropriate now was it. So, you sat there struggling in the humid weather, fanning yourself with the portable fan, suddenly your felt more breeze. You turned to see literally 2 more fans pointed at you. Zhan ge and Yibo, "Guys I'm fine" you said. "It's okay" two said at a time. At a distance you see Guocheng giving you a knowing smirk and you glared at him.

You were anxious for the next scene, this was your first fight scene, even though you've done these back in Korea, but this is the first with a sword. And you were excited, you have practiced a lot. As the director gave his queue you and your opponent started. And after 3 takes you were finally satisfied. And you hung from the harness, Fanxing who was also beside you asked "So how was it?". "I loved it" you said and he laughed at your excitement. You were given rest for the rest of the day. You went to get your make up off when you noticed your manager not where he generally stays, you checked your phone and found hid text.

-Y/n, please get a cab to the hotel, I have to handle some emergencies.

"oh damn" you cursed. "Where's manager nim?" Yibo asked and you showed him your screen and he said "It's okay I'll drop you".

"Something wrong?" You heard Peixing ask and you explained your situation. "But Yibo's house is in the opposite direction, I on the other hand would pass through there. Come Y/n I'll give you a ride. Yibo could go home and rest" he said. "But-" Yibo tried to protest but his manager stopped him and you were left with no other choice. You got into the passenger's seat of Zhan ge's car and he smiled at you before driving away.

"I must say I'm a huge fan of your group and your acting. Loved the music style it's so different that the other gurl groups of your time." He said. "We try, it's all thanks to the pd-nims" you said. "You write songs too, don't you?" He asked. "Yeah" you shyly said "I have a habit of carrying my equipment everywhere" you added. "I know how it is" he said with this charming smile, your heart skilled a beat and you internally regretted, get a grip Y/n. "Yeah the activities need to keep going" you said. "Did you eat something? I'm hungry, let's get some ____ (your favourite snack)?" He said and You nodded. Gosh you were really hoping to get to the hotel soon, Yibo might be waiting there. He went through a drive through and ordered. "So, what about you and Yibo?" He asked, his eyes said he has been dying to ask this question. "W-what about us?" You asked, shit you stuttered. "Aren't you dating?" He asked "C'mon we're friends now right". "No we're good friends" you said even saying that sounded wrong, but duty calls. "Really? But your eyes say otherwise" he said looking dead into your eyes. You tried to get something out of your mouth but nothing came, so you resorted to advert your eyes and take a bit of your food.

When you reached you bowed and thanked Zhan ge "You don't have to bow you know" he said. "It's a habit" you said and bid him bye and walked inside. You rushed to your room, opening it to find your man waiting. He stood up as soon as saw you he stood up. He didn't see you that much this week, outside shoot. You jumped onto him and he caught you as he pulled you as close as he could. "I missed you baobao" he said. "Me too babe" you said. And you crashed your lips onto his, him immediately reacting to them like it was second nature. He shoved his tongue inside your mouth as he put you down on the bed and climbed on top of you all without breaking away the kiss. You grabbed him tight against yourself as he tilted his head to gain better access. He finally broke away and immediately attacked your neck with kisses careful to not leave marks. You pushed him off yourself and climbed on him and pulled him by the neck and kissed him eagerly, pouring all your feelings for him in the kiss, you undid his buttons and peppered kisses, he moaned as you kitten locked his nipple, you knew he liked it and gosh did you love to hear his moans as one of his hand was on your neck and the other gripping the sheets. He pulled off your top in one go and felt you up and you kept abusing his neck and nipples additionally grinding onto him, making both of you moan. You felt him hard against your core and knew you were wet as well. You kissed your way down. And lets say the two of you were soon moaning messes. You ended up cuddling naked and going to sleep.

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"I can't believe how you call them the boys, like how you refer to us as the girls" Nix, your group member said, her pout visible through the screen.

"Oh come on, are you really jealous of the Juniors?" You said laughing. You laughed, "But actually today, even Yibo, Zhang ge and Haikuan ge were there" and the girls 'awed'.

"Is it just me or isn't Xiao Zhan to cozy with you, he and Yibo literally follow you around" Aera pointed out. "Now it's justified for Yibo, he's your boyfriend but Xiao Zhan" Nix shook her head "Even in the leaked photos, his eyes are mostly on you" she added but you brushed her off. "It could just be the moment, any ways, I'm returning the day after tomorrow for the festivals and cons. I miss Soojin's food." You said. "I'll make you a good meal" Soojin said from across the screen, and you smiled. "Will Yibo stay there?" Nix asked and you nodded.

Later that night

-I heard you're leaving for Korea -xz

Yeah :) got group schedules. I'll be back in a month tho.

-The set will be empty without you.

Please, you'll hardly notice me gone.

-Not true

:)))

It was strange, he could have written that in the group chat, but you shrugged and went to sleep. The next afternoon you walked in and found Yibo, Zhan and Yubin laughing at something, you felt happy to see his playfulness come back. You were almost worried about leaving him here alone. Thank god he's warming back up.

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Back In Korea

"You're joking!" Aera said as you and her went back to the dorm, she came to pick you up, it was great to get your leader alone, you needed to talk to her alone and this was secretive stuff.

"I swear" you said, she sat for a moment still trying to wrap her head around this new info. "That makes him Bisexual, right?" She asked and you nodded "Maybe Xiao Zhan is too" she said. "I doubt it, he must be gay, and no he doesn't flirt with me, he's just friendly". "But Y/n was it okay to leave him there alone while you're miles away?" She said. "We do it all the time, what do you mean?" You asked. "Yeha but you don't leave each other with the other's ex's all the time, said ex who seems to be a smooth flirt" she said. "No. He would never do that to me. And even if he does" he stopped and sighed "We'll see". "More like me and girls will whoop his ass" she said with her fists in the air.

You and Yibo talked almost every other day, when you weren't half dead from practice. The Juniors video call you from the set often to tell you how much they miss you. They even watched your kpop festival performance and made a video of them cheering sending them to you and congratulating you on your performances. Xiao Zhan also texted you often, telling you how great you looked and did or random things that happened at set, or how Yibo messed up or he did and one teased the other.

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You were excited to go back to China, you missed your boyfriend to pieces. So much that you went straight to set to meet him. You saw him do a scene and stood in the side lines. As the director yelled "Cut", a few staff came up to talk to the actirs on scene, namely Him, The Juniors and Zhan with Yubin at a corner. You walked up to them and Yibo's eyes lit up and without even realising you ran into his arms and he hugged you back. "Your back" he said, in his Lan Zhan voice and you giggled, suddenly realising what you did, but you kept your calm. You released and went on to hug each of the juniors who welcomed you with open arms, Yubin you side hugged you and Xiao Zhan, who gave you a warm engulfing hug. You couldn't help but get lost in his scent, his own mixed with the scent of his colon. You snapped yourself out and pulled away.

They all told you how much they missed you and Zhan suggested for all of you to go for dinner, they all insisted and you agreed. You noticed how playful Yibo has gotten teasing Zhan ge. You smiled seeing him happy in his element. The dinner was fun as always, you sat with Yibo on one side and Zhan on another, both constantly making you laugh. At a point Yibo's leg brushed against you and you let it there for a while. Yibo and decided to 'drop' you at your hotel. All of you went to your different ways. You two discreetly walked inside the hotel, he ripped off your mask and attacked your lips with his. "I missed you" he said and hugged you tight.

He told all different things that happened, things that reminded him of you and how much he missed you. How much he wanted to be there and watch you perform and how everyone was in awe for your performance. You told him about the new idols you met and the groups you watched. And you ended up cuddling and talking until you two drifted off.

Shooting the next segments was fun as they were mostly outdoor segments. China was a beautiful country and shooting and seeing new places was fun. You were a lot closer with the others too, and being away from the main city gave you and Yibo a lot of time to sneak around.

Zhan, Yibo and you went on coffee. "One (Your favourite drink other), One Americano and One Iced Latte" Yibo said, at the counter and you were surprised for him to know both of your and Zhan's orders by heart. Yours was quite obvious as he brought you coffee quite often but- You didn't think much. The three of you immediately got engrossed in a conversation, about the new advertisement campaigns these two were doing, they did a lot of these when they did the first season, when they were dating. You smiled and wondered if you could ever get there? In a campaign with your boyfriend. "What's wrong Y/n?" Zhan asked and you shook your head "Nothing, I was just thinking about the script" you said and smiled.

You looked at the time and cursed "My next scene is scheduled next, I better go, see you both later" you said and walked back to the set, some people looking at you as you passed, of course they did, you were wearing a full-fledged hanfu.

"How dare you?" You said and pulled out your sword, pointing it at the other guy's neck, "Let it go, Y/n. He's not worth it" Fanxing said, and you gripped your sword tighter, eyes never leaving the man "I'm sorry Gunia, I didn't know" he man kept pleading. "huh" you mocked and put down your sword and turned around, making sure the long sleeves flip as you do so. And walked away pushing Peixing. "Cut" the director yelled. "That was so good Y/n" Peixing said, "you looked like you'd really kill him" he said and suddenly you heard laughter. You all looked toward the vanity and found Yibo and Zhan messing around and laughing as Yibo hit him with his long sleeves. "Thank God they are back like how they used to be" Peixing said. And then it hit you like they used to, back then, when they were dating? Are you missing something? Was Aera! No. He would never.

They both stayed back, that is where he stays, it's too convenient, be careful Y/n. The voices rang in your head. Was that the reason why Zhan was so friendly with you? Was that his motive all along. You breathed in and out. No, you can't jump into conclusions. You needed to calm down.

"Y/n, are you okay?" You heard Guocheng's voice. "Yeah? Yeah, I'm absolutely fine" you said pulling a smile. "Really" he asked, his face said he saw through you, but you nodded your head.

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However, your world came crashing down on you 3 days from then, when you walked into the wrong vanity and found Zhan holding Yibo's hand hus word "I still do love you Yibo", and the reply came "I know, I- Y/n?" Yibo's eyes went to you and he pulled away his hand. "Y/n baobao, it's not what it looks like" he rushed after you. "Don't. Ever. Call. Me. That" you said. "Y/n please listen" Zhan followed him, approachung you from the other side and you put the prop sword in your hand on his chest, keeping him at a distance. "I don't want a word from either of you. I trusted you Yibo, I thought you'd tell me if you ever felt something like this. I know I'm nothing like him and you could always love him. But, at least I deserved honesty!" You said tears in your eyes. "Y/n it's not-" Yibo started but you cut him off. "Save it. Don't ever show me your face outside the set" you said and walked away.

"That bastard, I'm booking a flight right now" Aera said. As you cried and your members were teary eyed too. "No, don't be stupid, you still have your Show to conduct" you said. "We cannot leave you like this okay" Soojin said. "Then I'll go" Nix volunteered "I'll accompany Y/n unnie and visit home later" she shrugged. "You don't have to do this for me please-" you were cut off. "NONSENSE SHE'S GOING THAT'S FINAL, SHE'LL BE IN THE FIRST FLIGHT TO BEIJING CITY" Aera said and you lied down having your member would of course feel better. And that happened the next evening when you reached your hotel, you ran into Nix's arms, you didn't have shooting but other side projects that came along with this project.

"I'm so sorry you have to go through this. When do you have to shoot next?" She asked. "Tomorrow" you deadpanned. "It's okay, I'll fend them off, I'll stick to you like gum" she assured.

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Hence, the next day Nix went with you, she was true to her word. When Yibo tried to approach you, she stared him down to a point be couldn't even walk close to you and so was Xiao Zhan. They both knew that you weren't going to listen to either of them. And a week went, Yibo came to your room a couple of times, but was driven away by Nix. Even his manager tried to call you but your manager helped you in making it stop. Meanwhile you felt like crying even when you looked at him, doing the scenes were so tough. Even the others noticed how you seemed off all the time.

You were angry in Yibo for cheating on you, but you also felt cheated by Zhan, as you knew he flirted with you but found him professing his love for Yibo. You were angry at yourself for letting this happen to even have intrusive thoughts of Zhan. You were cursing yourself for even trusting these two men.

A week went by, you were feeling much better, you managed to not feel like crying and stopped having bad dreams. Nix had to go back and so she went home, though your members didn't want you to be alone so Aera and Soojin video called you. You heard the bell ring and you bid them farewell thinking it was your room service. You opened the door to see the last person you expected it to be.

"Please let me in" he pleaded, looking deep into your eyes. His eyes were screaming at you and you did, you moved aside letting him in and closing the door.

"5 mins" you said looking straight at Xiao Zhan. "Okay, what you thought was wrong, Yibo wasn't cheating on you per say" he said. "Did he send you here to spew all this bullshit?! You didn't even know" You asked him sheeting in anger. "I knew you two were dating and Yibo doesn't even know I'm here. But please trust me I wasn't trying to snatch your boyfriend from you" he said. "Really?! Cause it seemed to be like that was your intention to get me to be comfy with you and then you take him away" you said. "NO NO. I WOULD NEVER.-" he was cut off by you. "You left me alone, you took him away! I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU" you said. "I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG! ONLY THING I DID WAS TO LOVE YOU!" he said. "Excuse me what?! Are you tryna two time us or something?! Weren't you telling Yibo you love him? The fuck is wrong with you?" You said. "Yibo loves you" he said and you scoffed but he went on saying "but he loves me too. I knew I was still in love with him but the more I saw you, the more I fell for you too". "What do you even-" but he stopped you and continued. "I didn't want to break you, I wanted to be a part of you too. And don't even lie two, I see the way you looked towards me how your body acted towards me" he said and put his palm on your cheek, you tried to flinch but you couldn't, he caught you. "We both love you so much. But, it depends on you. If you say yes we could give it a try, but if you say no, I'll walk away, please don't leave Yibo, he's lost without you. I am too, but it's essential for me that the two of you aren't hurt." He said and tears stung your eyes, you fisted your palms and hit his chest as you broke into more tears and hit your face in his chest. You couldn't hold it in any longer. It's true your own head has been a mess. And now things looked clear but were you really up to this.

"Please say something. I swear we can figure this out. Please" he said he pleaded, you look up to see that even his eyes were red it's that you noticed tear stains. "I need time" you finally said pulling away. And wiped your own tears "leave" you instructed and he did wordlessly with his head down.

The past few days were gloomy on the set nobody talked much, laughed much. You three weren't seen together for over a week. People were talking a lot. You on the other hand were running late the next day, having been thinking the whole night and not getting any sleep. No you've never cared what people said but can what he said really happen? And you looked up on the internet to see there have been many in the past and are still there. It's not something odd or unlikely. You thought back to Yibo to all those memories and Zhan, could you really give it a try. This thing Zhan suggested.

You were still contemplating when you were buying coffee, later at noon, if you should do it. And you finally did it, you walked to the vanity of the two main protagonists and pulled the door open and entered startling both the men inside. Both silent, almost forgot to breathe, watching every move you make. You simply walked up and took a seat on the couch, placing the three coffees, on the table and smiling at the cups.

It's as if Yibo knew what you were thinking, he rushed to hug you the impact, sent you both backwards falling on the couch, you could see tears in his eyes. "I thought I lost you, I thought you'd never see me again. Oh God! Y/n I missed you baobao" he kept on rambling, it was actually the first time he was so vulnerable in front of you. It was almost to a different level. You slowly sat up with him still attached to you, you looked up at Zhan who looked at you with a faint smile. You were holding and patting Yibo with one hand, you extended your free hand and signalled him to join you both and he literally rushed in to hug the two of you. You thought you'd feel strange but you didn't, you strangely felt at ease after a long time. "I don't know how this works but I'm willing to give this a try and see how this works" you said and immediately felt two pairs of lips on both of your cheeks and closed your eyes feeling a blush creep unto your face. "I love you" the two said almost in sync, "I love you Yibo and Zhan ge, I realised how much I fell for you even though my feelings for Yibo were intact. How much you meant to me, how much I missed you. And how much this thought excited me." You confessed.

Life came back to the set in no time. Currently you were giggling at how your hair was flying every time you did jumps on the harness. You were literally laughing as you hung while Peixing and Fanxing were laughing standing below along with Yibo and Zhan ge.

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The three of you went to get coffee together like before. Sometimes dinner, it was one such day that you finally got the courage to invite them to your room. "We don't have shoot tomorrow right so, do you wanna come upstairs, watch a movie or something?" You said. And they agreed, they both let you choose a movie and you put on a studio ghibli movie. "Come here" Zhan ge said, patting at the place between him and Yibo. You laid on Zhan's arm as Yibo engulfs both of you with his arms. It was comfortable, being there with the two you loved. Their smell was intoxicating to you, and you felt bold, you contemplated if you should act on your impulse and your impulse won. You placed a kiss on Zhan and then on Yibo.

Yibo took no time to immediately connect your lips to his, moaning into your mouth as if he's been dying to do it. He pulled away and held your chin turning it towards Zhan. Who looked towards your eyes as if looking for permission which you granted and he placed his lip on you it was soft at first, but you lightly bit his lip and he moaned when you felt Yibo's lips on your exposed neck, leaving kisses. You felt two sets of hands roaming your body and it turned you more on. You pulled away and ducked down, pushing their faces towards each other, their kiss was hot and filled with want. Suddenly, Yibo pulled away and pulled you up in a sitting position so as you were on his lap but facing Zhan. You felt Yibo's member against your clothed ass, as he pulled down the shoulder of your shoulder to gain better access and Zhan kissed you, holding onto your waist, as he made you grind onto Yibo. Yibo reached out one hand slinding down to your core other to Zhan's and you both moaned in each other's mouth.

Soon Yibo picked you up and laid you down on the bed. "May I?" Yibo asked, holding onto your top, and you nodded. "You both too" you said and in one pull both pulled out of their t-shirts. Damn, it was like you were in bed with two gods. Fine body, and their smell was clogging your brain. You were pushed down as you felt a pair of lips on your chest, looking down to find Zhan and then a pair between your legs kissing your inner thighs. "Fuck" you cursed, you knew you were done for.

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"I've been dreading this day" you heard Zhan say. "What's wrong?" You asked. "It's that scene today"Yibo said and then you realised it was the day your little kiss scene with Fanxing was scheduled. "Trust me, I have faced worse" Yibo declared, remember the other time he had to witness you deeply kiss your love interest.

"He better not lay a hand on you" Zhan said. "It's just acting gege" you said and got ready for the scene. The scene is simple, you fall on top of Sizhui and your lips touch for a moment.

Yibo laughed as he watched Xiao Zhan watch you do the scene. "This Fanxing is having too much fun" "Was it supposed to be this long" "At times I wished your sword was real". To all Yibo responded with "It's okay" "Calm down" "It's acting".

You on the other hand had to do the same scene 4 times, half way by the second Yibo had walked off taking Zhan with him. "Oh god really?" You said as you laughed and took the piece of nugget into your nugget into your mouth that Zhan ge was holding for you. "Yeah, I had to hold him down" Yibo said rolling laughter.

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The promotions were fun #Yizhan/n has been trending, since you started going from city to city. Watching the fans fangirling over the boys was something. It was your first time giving interviews in chinese, without your members and you were nervous. Whenever a question was thrown at you and your face went blank Yibo knew and would rush to your ear to explain it in Korea, you didn't even had to ask.

You were sitting in your room sitting and scrolling through your private twitter account, seeing what the fans have been posting when a tweet thread caught your eye.

You smiled and clicked on the thread. It was filled with various comments.

It was true that Xiao Zhan travels ALOT, but it's also true he has been visiting alot. Yibo has always been on both sides, but the three of you try to take time out for each other, as 2 or sometimes as 3. Try to spend time even if it is on a video call. And that the three of you often went out, cause it's difficult and not always all three can be at the same place so you try even if its any 2 at the time. You often get insecure and the two always give you assurance. "We found what we were missing the last time. It was like something was missing" Yibo said. "Yeah like there was a missing piece. And It's you, Y/n" Zhan said. "You completed us" Yibo said. But you shook your head and said "in the end we all complete each other. It's us three, that's it" and the two kissed your cheek and you felt all your insecurities melt away.

You were smiling to yourself while sipping coffee and reading comments when one comment caught your eye and you choked.

Imagine? Well. You though.

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Chapter XXXIV - How Can You Mend A Broken Heart

TW : none for now, but please check 'About Nomen' for more informations

WC : around 2300 words

Previous Chapter : Amandoti

Next Chapter : Still Don't Know My Name

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Four years ago, Paradis Island

“Levi, we have to go now.”

“Give me another five minutes.”

"I can think of younger days when living for my life was everything a man could want to do. I could never see tomorrow, I was never told about the sorrow."

Hange closed the door behind her, knowing I always maintained my promises. Whoever bedroom it was, I have to say it was tidier than I would’ve expected. Only a single bed, few other furnitures. I wanted to pick up a vase from the living room, but seemed like there wasn’t one around, so I grabbed a wine bottle. I weighed it in my hand, thinking about drinking it all by myself. I opened it and the smell suggested it wasn’t really a good idea to do so. Probably the bottle wasn’t properly closed or whatever happened I couldn’t care less. I emptied it outside the window, knowing very well how no one was walking on the street anymore. Shiganshina had been empty since years ago, now there were only the few of us trying to recover the forces to go into that fucking basement. Flowers. I needed some flowers. I was even searching for a vase but I still didn’t have flowers to put inside the bottle. I looked outside the main door of that house I had just broken into and picked a few wildflowers.

“Look at the shit I do for you. I even picked flowers for you, you damned blondie.”

"And how can you mend a broken heart? How can you stop the rain from falling down? Tell me, how can you stop the sun from shining? What makes the world go 'round?"

Inside the house there was still a bucket full of water, probably a remanent of the last rain that leaked through the open window under where it was positioned. Again, I couldn’t care less how there was still water in that bucket, I just dipped the bottle inside it, wetting my sleeve, to collect some water before putting the wildflowers inside. It was all pointless, as those flowers would deteriorate even in a bottle with water, but I was still determined to do so. I went upstairs, in the garret, and positioned the bottle on the bedside table under the window. Flowers needed water and sun. Sun. He was my sun. I had just lost my sun. I looked over at him. His body was now resting on that stranger’s bed I had just tidied before, with the rest of the room, because I couldn’t permit to leave Erwin there, surrounded by dust and cobwebs, even if his body would deteriorate soon, even if I was planning of going back and give him another burial. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. Actually, I was used to do so, but I knew this was different. I grabbed his cape and smelled it. There was still a bit of his smell on the collar area, the rest smelled of blood, rusty and pungent. Without properly thinking, I put his cape around me and used mine to cover his body. Before I could cover his face though, I caressed his cheek for the last time.

“You know I keep my promises. I even told you I would’ve killed you the first day we met and, in the end, I really did it. So, if you’re watching, listening to me or whatever, I promise to you again that I’ll kill that fucking monkey. I won’t rest until that piece of shit is lying six feet underground. I’m sorry I…I couldn’t find a better way to bury you. Maybe one day I’ll be back and I’ll put you next to your father or I don’t know. Before that though, I’ll learn the truth for you. I lo… well, you know it. It doesn’t matter anymore.”

As I covered up his face with my cape I felt my heart ache, as if someone was squeezing it, leaving me breathless. I dropped on my knees at the side on the bed and my hand grabbed his. I wasn’t ready to let him go.

“You even thanked me, you fucking jerk! If I ever find you in another life I’ll make you regret this. I’ll make sure to really break your legs.”

"I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees and misty memories of days gone by, but we could never see tomorrow Would you believe that no one, no one ever told us about the sorrow?"

I didn’t cry in that moment, mostly because rage was burning every single other emotion, but still my lips trembled when I kissed his knuckles before getting up and look at him one last time. It was time to walk down the stairs and reach Hange, Mikasa and Eren to visit that damned basement. As I finally moved the hood to cover his face, I whispered one last sentence.

“I just wished we would have more time, Erwin Smith.”

“Help me mend my, my broken heart.”

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June 23, Thursday, 17:48 (present time)

“You felt guilt too, right?”

"I-"

She interrupted my answer and maybe it was better this way. I was never good at reading feelings. I often refused to even give a name to what I felt, because giving a name to some kind of emotions seemed to only worsen the situation, making it more real. The exact moment she asked me if I had felt guilt too, my feelings, confused as they were, started to make sense and took form. Yes, I was feeling guilty, but I wasn’t sure about what. Probably towards Erwin’s memory, as I got intimate with someone when I was so sure it would never happen again. Perhaps even towards her, as I gave in on my instincts without thinking about the consequences. Or worse, choosing to ignore them. Maybe even because I wasn’t truly caring for her, but only for the warmth she had provided me with a few touches, and in the back of my mind I knew I could’ve given in again to feel it one more time, breaking principles I didn’t even knew belonged to me.

“I…Well, I…Mizuki asked me to stall you for a while.”

For a moment I thought it would be better to speak clearly, but her answer to my search for honesty echoed through my head and so I decided to confess something entirely different from what I originally wanted to say. Exposing the favor Mizuki asked of me wasn’t even on my mind, since I had developed the urge to talk to her during the trip to her university, an urge that made me almost forgot about that stupid mission. But once again, something stopped me from clarifying the misunderstanding, as it happened that day, when I didn’t ask her to stay. And so, as I did before, I let her assume whatever she wanted, even if it was partially wrong. In the end, she was right about something: it wasn’t a mistake, but it was better to go on. There was a weird peace that followed that statement, as if we both knew it was just an unstable superficial calm that made the silence between us almost touchable and even the most innocent word could make it worsen. I washed my conscience thinking it would have been wrong to ask her to stay when I was lost in confusion, but my own lies became clear when I recalled how my body reacted at the sound of the honk of the car that almost hit her. As music and her singing went on, I remembered how I felt the pit of my stomach drop at the sound of that honk. I didn’t even see her at the traffic light, since I was looking at my own feet, but for an obscure reason, as I heard that sound I sensed it was about her and my body reacted swiftly, turning and searching for a way to her. With the same speed I stopped as soon as I saw her speaking to the man inside the car, and as relief flushed all over my blood, I realized it wasn’t like me. I was used to adrenaline and I was capable of dominate every single emotion, even when surprised, but this time worry took the best of me for the first time in years. That was part of the warmth she provided to me, and I was scared of losing this sensation again.

"How can you mend this broken man? Yeah, somebody tell me. How can a loser ever win? 'Cause, baby, help me mend my, this old broken heart. I think I, I believe I I feel like I got to, I feel like I wanna live again."

Worry. It was strange to even think about being worried about her, like it wasn’t real, just a figment of my imagination. As if I was in someone else’s body. There was a chance she had helped me find soothe in the act of living and surviving without me being properly aware of it. The way she looked at me, how she responded to my presence, the blushing, the stuttering…I wasn’t blind. At first I was irritated, but even so I wasn’t capable to suppress the warmth those attention provided to me. Only now I understood how much those little things, her attention had affected me and cracked an opening in a part of me I thought was forever lost. I closed my eyes. Guilt overtook my senses, replaying time and time again Erwin’s words.

“Levi…Thank you.”

Thank you. Thank you. A phrase that should sound sweet and bring relief, but to me, it only brought trouble and pain. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Those were also her words while she was letting herself die at Akura-Ou’s hands. I never truly understood why she said that. Maybe one day I’ll ask her. But how did her face and her voice overtook Erwins’, just right now? I sighed while passing my index finger over my forehead, desperately trying to regain myself and focusing on my surroundings searching for a sound to anchor me. Unfortunately, the only thing I could hear was her music and her singing voice. There was no escaper from her. I noticed there were lyrics she sang with a stronger intensity, but I knew it usually corresponded to some kind of difficult situation she faced while driving. At an important crossroad, while turning, while hitting the brake suddenly. She channeled attention increasing the volume of her singing. I remembered noticing this weird habit of her even on the first time she gave me a lift, when I had found her crying in the middle of the road, leaned over the hood of her car. That night, I thought only an idiot would cry and scream in the middle of the road, and I was surprised to see the idiot in question was her. Remembering Miss in that occasion stung somewhere beneath my ribs. I looked at her, but then I saw a tear fall down from under her sunglasses. Another sting. The song in the background was in Italian, but I could feel it was important to her, even if the meaning was hidden to me. I looked at the screen on her player to look at the title, hoping it would give some hint about the content. ‘Amandoti’. I decided to search for the meaning later. I didn’t want to put her again in a stressful situation by asking difficult questions about her or the song, so I tried to make a conversation to distract her. While asking I wondered why I was worrying about her again. Before with the car, now with her silent tears, weeks ago with her expressions, I was always worrying for her, and I was scared to acknowledge the reason why.

“So, where is Sebastian?”

“Oh, yes. I’m sorry Mizuki asked you to do this.”

“I wasn’t asking because of that.”

“Why then?”

“Because the timing seemed a bit off. He seemed to be worried about you hiding things from him.”

“Seb doesn’t worry, he only thinks about preparing his meal properly.”

Seb. I knew they were really close, but I wasn’t expecting that hearing her calling him by a nickname would made me raise my eyebrow. But it wasn’t only the nickname that made me upset. What was she talking about? Meal?

“I’m sorry, what?”

“Nothing you should know about. In any case, he said he had to take part on a meeting on my behalf in Japan. It’s not unusual, we have some factories there, that’s why I told Hange I could help you all, even with the Azumabito’s. Seb often goes there, especially since my brother…wait. Oh, God. I can’t believe it.”

“What?”

She slammed her hand over the steering wheel while slightly accelerating on the highway. I noticed she had just stopped singing and how she was chewing her bottom lip. For a moment I left all of my questions about whatever was going on inside her head in a remote corner of my mind, focusing on her features and how rapidly they changed. It was obvious how her mind must’ve been making thousands of connections in a few seconds. She took her time answering me and when she did, it wasn’t even a proper answer.

“I just realized…that fucking bastard! I’m really an idiot! Captain, you have my phone there, right? You already know my code, so could you please call Albert for me?”

What?

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Winter, almost five years ago

“Sebastian?”

“Yes, My Lord.”

“A-another thing.”

“You shouldn’t speak, My Lord.”

“Don’t fret S-Sebastian. I-I know this are my last moments. But I have to make sure…that everything is in order bef…before I go.”

“You already gave me orders about your sister.”

“I know, I wasn’t speaking of my L-Lucrezia. I hate my-myself for leaving her like this but…”

“My Lord, your right ear is bleeding again.”

“S-shit. Well, Sebastian, let m…let me say this. I order you…mereda…find A-Yuan and make s-sure he’s a…alive, that he stays alive. I regret not c-contacting him s-sooner but…I thought…Lucrezia…Luce…I need more time w-with h…”

“Yes, My Lord. Please, rest now. I’ll search for the phisician.”

The only sounds in the room were my stepping and the troubled breathing of My Lord. I was ready to collect his soul but I sensed it wasn’t really his time to go. I could still wait a bit more. Usually I would’ve already deceived him and eaten him, but his soul was different, so complex and fascinating, I just wanted to prolong the wait and take my time to properly taste his soul. Even in this poor condition of his, I could already foretaste him on the point of my tongue. Poor soul, he didn’t even realized we were already in contact with his precious A-Yuan through his contacts in Japan. Well, it wouldn’t do any good to him to tell him now, right? Why make him see that his adopted nephew was the frail and scary boy dipped in the mafia? When we escaped China, he wasn’t experienced enough to gave me the correct order about how to properly take care of that child, as he only asked for to ensure the boy could have the means to not feel lonely and survive. Of course what I did wasn’t a good job, since My Lord asked to me to give priority into searching for his sweet sister Lucrezia instead of assuring A-Yuan a good life. I did what I could, and even gifted the little one with a blessing or two before letting him go. Or maybe they were curses, it’s all a matter of perspective after all.

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June 24, Friday, 3:02 (present, Japan’s time)

“Sebastian-sama?”

“Yes.”

“Welcome to Tokyo. I’m the designated driver the Funtom Corporation choose for you today. Where do you want to go, sir?”

“To Yokohama Bay, please.”

“Yes, sir.”

What My Lord ordered me right before dying was constantly haunting me, and it was binding me to his will because his soul hasn’t been consumed yet. That lost fragment of his soul was still assuring a truce between me and Claude. This meant I still had to obey his last orders, including the one asking me to make sure that the little A-Yuan stays alive. My Lady shouldn’t know about him though, as he A-Yuan was a part of his brother’s life that was long forgotten, even by his Hanguang-Jun. The only one who knew about him was probably Jiang Cheng, only because they had met briefly when I was taking A-Yuan away from the Burial Mounds were the battle was enraging. My master himself had asked to me to keep the secret with anyone else when we first left China and I still had to continue to do so, never saying a word about the lost boy. My Lord never asked anything about the child and so his whereabouts were forgotten, until in his death bed, when he asked to search for him again. That was why, with an excuse, periodically I travelled to Tokyo, making sure the boy was still breathing, which was ironic considering his physical conditions. But it was My Lord’s fault was to not have been specific about the future health and wealth A-Yuan should’ve lived in. I knew leaving him so little in the slums with a bunch of children wasn’t a good choice, but I had to admit, he grew stronger than I predicted. His name was known and people feared him. I was sure My Lord would’ve preferred something else entirely, but he messed up with his files by choosing me as an ally, and so little A-Yuan lived a poor a miserable life, even if I got him a sister, so he wouldn’t be lonely, and his powers, perfect to hunt and survive anywhere. I gave him what my master asked for him after all, but if they were blessings or curses…it was just a matter of perspective.

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Author's note: Hi! Yes, I know, it was probably painful to read about how I imagined Levi's private goodbye to Erwin, I tried to pour my best in it. I used the famous panel where Levi clarifies to Armin how he choose to let Erwin die and we're showed an image of Erwin covered by a cape in a simple room with flowers in what seemed to be a wine bottle (chapter 85 of AoT). The song doesn't need any explication, it represents part of Levi's thoughts but, since he's not thinking of that song which he doesn't even know it exist, I decided to put the lyrics on the right, as I did some other time before. The song, which comes from the soundtrack of Notting Hill, is meant to describe the feelings, not a memory or a way to express himself. Later the song also asks for a way to escape that heartbreak and we all know where this is going, no point in hiding it anymore. Well, my intentions are clear, but it's all a matter of how we're going to see this story develop. Before letting you go, two more things. I used the term "mereda" which in Japanese should mean something around "I order you", it's a formula used in "Kuroshitsuji", and even the "My Lord" thing come from there of course. As second, did you figure out the other identity of A-Yuan? I promise to reveal it later, but from here you can also guess it easily I think. As always, thank you for reading and see you soon!

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