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slyandthefamilybook · 4 months

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so this is something that's been on my mind for a while. I wish I could make a big magnum opus post on it but I don't have the energy

I've noticed in my travels that antisemitism seems to be one of the only forms of bigotry that's not self-evidently wrong. People may think they think it is, but I don't think they do. Every time antisemitism comes up as a topic, I see Jews sharing posts with twin explanations: one on why something is antisemitic, and one on why that's a bad thing

I've seen this a lot, and have fallen into it myself, although recently I've been trying to stop. On a post about Bibi changing his last name to "sound more indigenous": "Imagine if someone said this about Black people". On a post blaming Jews for what Israel does: "Imagine if someone said this about Chinese people". On a post accusing Jews of owning too many industries: "Imagine if someone said this about Asian people".

There was a post that went around claiming the IDF harvested the organs of Palestinians with very little evidence. (There are some great posts debunking that but that's not what this post is about.) I remember looking through the comments and one of them stuck out to me. I can't remember the wording exactly, but it went something like: "Israel heard about blood libel and thought why don't we just do that?". Ignoring the fact that blood libel is about the accuser, not the accused, this comment played over and over in my head. I thought about it as I went to sleep that night. Here was a person admitting that the thing they were saying has a strong resemblance to blood libel, but saying it anyway. It struck me that the underlying thought here was "it's not blood libel if it's true".

Once I realized that, I was stunned. I suddenly heard right-wingers in my head saying "it's not racist, it's just a fact that on average Black people have a lower I.Q.". And suddenly everything clicked into place. I know it might seem like an elementary idea, but it genuinely had never occurred to me

In the eyes of bigots, racism protects power. Antisemitism protects truth.

I've often said that all conspiracy theories eventually lead back to the Jews, and this newfound realization fit in nicely. A popular neo-Nazi slogan I've seen recently is "the goyim know". This idea that Jews have something to hide has saturated the political spectrum

Antisemitism is itself a conspiracy theory.

I realize that makes it sound like I don't think antisemitism is real. That's not what I'm saying, it absolutely is. But the way people talk about it is unlike how they talk about any other form of racism. The Jews are a shadowy cabal, who meet in secret to deplatform people who dare speak out against them. This is something we see on the right and the left, from Kanye accusing the Jews of destroying his career, to leftists accusing the "Zionists" of controlling social media.

Spouting antisemitism now becomes a moral good, a political necessity. It's the most important thing in the fight for truth

I understood then, why people on the left are so comfortable calling out accusations of antisemitism as "frivolous", "unserious", "over-used". How they think people are using antisemitism to silence them. You can't just say something is antisemitic and walk away. It won't stick. You also have to sit there on your computer for the next 2 hours, looking up sources to debunk their claims. You have to appeal to the truth. With any other form of bigotry, it's understood by leftists that whatever the facts may be, they don't excuse racism. The number of Black Americans who commit crimes doesn't justify saying Black people are all criminals. The number of First Nations people who own casinos doesn't justify playing off that stereotype. But when it comes to the Jews, it's open season. You can say anything you like about the Jews, as long as you think it's true. Being told that it's antisemitic isn't enough.

This is a great example of just that. "Yes it's antisemitic, but it's also true." The accusation of antisemitism becomes an accusation against the truth. So when it comes to people who really believe in what they're saying, it all just bounces off. This is why people never seem to learn. They hop from conspiracy theory to conspiracy theory. As long as someone assures them it's all true, the bigotry doesn't really factor. They apologize not when confronted with their own racism, but when confronted with the facts.

In this way, antisemitism has become baked into society, especially Christian societies. Because why wouldn't it? Yes, the Jew is greedy, yes the Jew is sneaky, yes the Jew is bloodthirsty. But the Jew is above all a liar. They lie about their names, their culture, their history, their victories, their defeats

I wish I knew how to end this post. Some sort of call to action, some idea of how to fix this going forward. But I have no idea. I suspect if I did, we might not all be quite where we are right now

#atlas entry #jew #jewish #judaism #jumblr #antisemitism #bigotry

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steddieas-shegoes · 6 months

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thank you gerry much

It's time forrrrr weekly fic recs! These are my top 3 (to me) fics by some of my favorite authors, but please check their AO3/masterlists because they have so many amazing things to read and sometimes what I love most isn't what you might love most!

This week is transmasc Steve truther, Sleep Token cult leader, @steves-strapcollection/@gerrystamour! Gerry is probably singlehandedly responsible for the transmasculine Steve Harrington tag on AO3 and I couldn't be prouder of his hard work. He also is responsible for the creation of quite possibly the hottest OC to ever exist: our boyfriend, Tig (more below). Cannot put into words how special Ger is to me and this fandom as a whole. As always, read the tags, don't like, don't read, and consider me the personal attack dog for him if you aren't nice 😇 And as with all of the recs, NSFW is below the cut, minors DNI with me or with Gerry!

ger's ao3 | ger's writing tumblr | ger's fandom tumblr

here i have found some peace of mind Rated E | 60,434 words I can't put into words how incredible this is. The moment Ger announced this fic, I was hooked like a damn fish. It's his pride and joy, his magnum opus, his gift to the world. One of many favorite lines: “Steve, you just sucked my soul out of my cock , don’t be fucking modest,” Eddie laughed, lifting his hands to dig the heels of his palms into his eyes. “We didn’t even make it to my bunk, Steve. I had everything set up, then you came in here and got on your knees like the perfect wet dream you are, and you’re gonna act like you don’t know exactly how good you are?”

i could be honest, i could be human Rated E | 48,581 words This fic. HOOOOOO BOY. This fic has it all. It has the angst, it has the soft boys, it has the idiots, it has the gentle tender nasty fuckin'. And its follow up properly introduces TIG. i can't tell where you end and where i start is the first time I read anything so focused on an OC, especially when it's Steve and an OC. Tig is built different. He is and always will be our boyfriend. And let me just say, for the record, he is even hotter than this fic gives him credit for. He's been even MORE developed since and god help us all. Favorite thing: Just the fact that we've been given an OC that is so incredible. He's inspired people to do more with OCs and I think it's great. Tig is my hero, and Ger is my hero for making him THE hottest fictional man to ever exist.

you're in the walls that i made with crosses and flames Rated E | 7,659 words This was a birthday fic for @legitcookie (who will be featured on a rec soon!) and I would venture to say it may be one of the most romantic tender fuckin' scenes I've read to date. Ger sent me the scene from Atonement and I...changed as a human. Favorite lines: “Stevie,” Eddie breathed, the corners of his mouth ticking upward in something close to a smile, even as the next fluttering blink had the tears barely clinging to his lashes falling down his cheeks.

And Steve was helpless, staring up at the beautiful man in his arms, and he had to blink his own tears away as they blurred his vision. “Eds,” he said, not even bothering to hide just how awed and overwhelmed he was to have Eddie like this again. Steve made a promise to himself that he would make up for every single day he made this man feel unwanted, unworthy, unloved.

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #fic rec #ao3

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terramous · 4 hours

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twenty questions for fic writers

tagged by @sznofthesticks (thank you!! <3)

How many works do you have on AO3?

What's your total AO3 word count?

256,858

What fandoms do you write for?

actively writing for 911 lone star, my hero academia & chicago med. previously wrote for julie and the phantoms & onf

Top 5 fics by kudos:

1 - just for the sake of saving us 2 - mixing fireworks and gasoline 3 - tomorrow may not come again 4 - will the fever break or will i burn from within? 5 - call it fate (paramedic tk au)

Do you respond to comments?

i do not, i like to be able to see my stats but i appreciate comments a lot and i reread them often

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

shape-shifting in an endless sleep which i know people in my comments will never forgive me for

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

lead me somewhere i've never been which is my happiest fic in general marjan and tk have my whole heart

Do you get hates on fics?

i got a few hate comments on hands are tied and clocks are ticking but other than that and the occasional hate for never updating that one mha fic even though its been three years i don't really get hate comments

Do you write smut?

once and it sucked!!

Craziest Crossover:

i have never written a crossover

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i'm aware of

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope. jillian and i started on one but never finished

All time favorite ship?

tarlos have finally usurped malec in my heart, no one is doing it like them

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

probably the nyc fics i started back in 2020 with my oc khai because i love him but i feel like i would have to entirely rewrite the 9k i have for them to make even the slightest bit of sense

What are your writing strengths?

i dont really think i have strengths but i had to answer this for my creative writing degree recently and i said details. i like to think that i include a lot of details and make them somewhat significant

What are your writing weaknesses?

pacing. i always think im writing too much or too little in a set amount of words.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

love it. i could never write it because the only language i could do myself would be japanese

First fandom you wrote in?

twilight

Favorite fic you've written?

i think my magnum opus was we've never slept six feet apart because i love it and i think it's the perfect fic even though it's sad

tagging @nancygillianmvp @welcometololaland @morganaspendragonss @crockettmarcel @marjansmarwani

#tag game

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prettyiwa · 11 months

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WOW ok this WIP tag game is SPOILING us. I mean, do I pick something that you've already given us taste of, or do I pick something new? THE CHOICES! I guess I will have to follow my heart, and pick my best boys, and you can choose which ones/how many of them you'd like to respond to:

kuroo (vamp) - anxious wide awake kazuya - bittersweet lotus leaf tetsu - don't make me wait

ahahahaha I have an annoyingly long list of WIPs and the real task is wrangling them all and making sure I don't feed too many others when they crop up.

I can do a bit of each, though BLL will receive more attention because, well. You'll see. I changed my mind because there's so much to talk about that I'll never shut up.

Anxious, Wide Awake was something I wanted to do for a 2021 Halloween thing featuring creepier and darker stories, so more of a vampire in the horror and monstrous sense than necessarily pop culturally speaking? I wanted it to feature a sorceress!reader saving Kuroo from falling too deep into monstrosity and passing the point of no return.

Don't Make Me Wait is an idea that I've been playing with (and still am uncertain about continuing) wherein Tetsu and reader are friends and he develops feelings. Tetsu, being Tetsu, confesses to her, but does so without necessarily expecting anything—he tells her how he feels okay with whatever answer she gives. The answer she gives is "Give me time," and he waits, satisfied with being by her side. It's a bit too close in plot to Cross This Boundary and Wanna Run With You, so I set it down for now.

Bittersweet Lotus Leaf, however, is an epic. I'm approaching this almost with the intent of making this my magnum opus. It's a three act fantasy story (the one featuring my reluctant fave, prince!Mei), complete with world building, religion building, political systems, etc. etc. It's massive and it was a tiny little "Ha Ha" idea that my brain came up with while going to sleep.

Here's a single portion of my many, many notes:

Prince!Kazuya who can’t stop thinking about his first kiss with knight!reader but he doesn’t know how to talk to her about it (or how to express that he wants more) so one day she’s talking to him as they set up camp and as Mei goes to hunt (he kept complaining that the rabbits Kazuya were catching were too small but that’s just the rabbits in the area) and he can’t stop staring at her lips as she talks. By the time she notices, he’s stopped working altogether and he’s leaning in just a bit and the last thing she hears is what she had told him: “forgive me.” And he kisses her very softly and very experimentally and he’s so pleased when she starts kissing him back until they hear a thump of rabbits falling and a fake gag from Mei.

#📨.incoming #💜.froggy #anxious wide awake's magic/monster mythos is heavily influenced by that of the Witcher. playing with it is a lot of fun but intensive #and i'm worried about repetition with don't make me wait ahaha #BLL on the other hand #i had an epiphany that makes the story so much better and actually allows me to have almost the entirety outlined #i'm so so so excited #but i refuse to start it if it means i'll abandon my current projects #✒.ix writes #awa #bll #daiya no ace x reader #miyuki kazuya x reader #hq.✒#daiya.✒

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electricshoebox · 10 months

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AO3 Meme

Tagged by @poemsfromthealley, thank you so much!!

Tagging in turn (no pressure as always): @adventuresofmeghatron, @just-another-wasteland-merc, @vault-heck, @totally-not-deacon, @mercurymiscellany

Rules: Give us the links to your wonderful words with the most hits, most kudos, most comments, most bookmarks, most words, and least words.

(Doing this tallying up all my various fandoms I've been in, because the Fallout-only results would all skew one way)

Most Hits: A Line in the Sand (Fallout 4, Deacon/MacCready, Rated E) Okay so this genuinely surprised me. I've been writing fic on AO3 since 2012, so I definitely thought this would go to one of my older fics. Pretty genuinely touched by everyone that revisits this one. Anyway, this is my antagonists-to-lovers Deacon-centered Fallout 4 magnum opus slow burn that doubles as a deep dive into Deacon as a character, trauma in the Fallout universe, survivor's guilt, and grief.

Most Kudos: How to Share a Bed Without Killing Each Other: a Love Story (Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dorian/Bull, Rated T) A five chapter look at different times throughout their growing relationship that Dorian and Bull tried to--literally--sleep together. A little bit of angst, a lot of humor. So much snoring.

Most Comments: Also goes to A Line in the Sand. Second most is the (ongoing) sequel, The Eye of the Storm.

Most Bookmarks: Also goes to How to Share a Bed. Second most is Across Whatever Distance (Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dorian/Bull, Rated E) Set post-Trespasser, this is a string of scenes of Dorian and Bull using the sending crystals to stay close over all the miles separating them.

Most Words: Unsurprisingly, this one goes to the Fallout novels again lol. Third place is Uprising, my abandoned attempt to re-write Dragon Age 2 with Velanna as the Dragon Age: Awakening character that ended up hosting Justice instead, based on a comment from the developers that this had been the plan early on in the DA2 development. Even though I didn't finish it I'm still pretty fond of it and love how much I got to explore even so.

Least Words: Just a Stolen Moment (Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dorian/Bull, Rated T) First thing I ever wrote for DAI. This is just a brief little imagined Mass Effect AU scene.

#tag memes #ao3 memes #my writing

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taihua · 5 months

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20 questions for fic writers

Tagged by @gekidasa whose answers were excellent to read at 2am when I couldn't sleep <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 91

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 437,726

3. What fandoms do you write for? TGCF obviously is the main one, and Tolkien fic is something I regularly write because it feels like going home. I dipped my toes into Genshin fic this year and I've been known to randomly drop one-off fics for other fandoms when the brainworms hit!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

After Hours. The magnum opus. Deserves its place at the top.

I Want to Ki** You. I never expected this fic to get so popular so it amuses me that it's still near the top.

Further Precautions. Dumb humor win!

Carved in bone, heart engraved. The trope inversion amnesia fic!

Bet On It. So near and dear to my heart that I have spent the last two years trying to scrub off the serial numbers for publication and if that ever happens, it'll be amusing to see who recognizes it.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I used to, but then a depression era hit and now I have Inbox (666) and it fills me with dread to look at the number. I do read each and every comment and 9 times out of 10 I start tearing up even if it's something short like "loved this, thanks!"

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I'm too sappy to do actual unhappy endings, but Still Have Time sort of implies a cycle of toxic breakups that can't be fixed.

... I also forgot that I have that one Celebrimbor/Annatar pre-torture fic, which is objectively much worse than breakups now that I think about it. Does it count when Tolkien is the one who wrote the death-by-torture ending for Tyelpë, though?

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? All of them!!!!! But I'll nominate Money Maker, because it's the only fic I think I have ever written, for any fandom, that involves the couple getting married at the end. I bullied them so hard in this AU that I decided they earned it.

8. Do you get hate on fics? Never in the comments themselves, but I saw people being dicks about my writing on Twitter every now and then, which is the unfortunate downside of having a well-known fic in fandom. Not everyone has to like my fics, but like... I can see what you're saying on the public forum in the community that I myself am active in, guys.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? *gestures at my AO3 profile*

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? The most I've done is throw in a cameo from other MXTX fandoms, and I guess that one self-indulgent Sk8/tgcf fic that lives in my drafts and will never see the light of day. I just don't find "they meet!" to be enough of a plot to be worth reading or writing. The thought of writing all that introducing sounds like hell, sorry.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Yup, there was that time the person almost word-for-word replicated Still Have Time. They claimed it was an accident and apologized before taking it down when I commented, but that wasn't fun. I felt like a jerk for commenting even though it was blatant theft; they even left kudos on my fic :/

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes, I have a handful of my fics translated into Russian thanks to some Twitter pals!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Sadly no. I always thought this would be fun, though, so if anyone wants to try it sometime... just sayin'........ my inbox open....

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? 300,000+ of my AO3 wordcount is for Fengqing and they're always going to be one of the most specialest ships ever for me for many reasons, but I also feel like I have to give a shoutout to Maedhros/Fingon in Tolkien fandom for being my longest-running ship? I got into them in high school and they're the ship that I feel I can just sit down and write something for them whenever I want.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? There was that Fengqing police AU I started and I thought it would be good, but it ended up not really feeling like them and that was part of what pushed me to focus on original writing instead of fanfic this year. Funnily enough, I Frankensteined some of the concepts from that AU into Constellate, which is to date my only unfinished WIP on AO3. I never really had a plan for what I was doing with that fic and I thought I could just power through it, which failed miserably.

16. What are your writing strengths? Humor, probably! It's hard to be funny in writing, but I do try.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I have about a year's worth of fic that needs to be line edited and reposted because I was cueing--sentences like "He felt that he was afraid" rather than "His heart pounded in his chest" etc. A writing teacher pointed it out to me this summer and I've been consciously trying to fix it, but I know a lot of my fics are worse because of this.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I never see this done well in fic. Personally, if I'm writing Chinese characters in China in an English language fic, it's implied that they're speaking Chinese, so there's no need to stick "Hao jiu bu jian" in quotation marks, yknow? It only makes sense to change languages if it's implied that this section of language is different from the rest of the narrative, and even then it can be distracting in a bad way to have it written out rather than saying "'Hello,' he greeted in French."

19. First fandom you wrote for? Lord of the Rings probably. I'm not going to look at my FFN profile to check.

20. Favorite fic you've written? I have lots of favorites for lots of reasons, but I'll give a shoutout to No smoke without fire this time because it's my only OC-centric fic and I'm happy that people like it anyway even though OCs aren't really a thing in danmei fandom.

Tagging: I will take the lazy route and say steal it and tag me. I like reading answers to these

#meme answers #i miss fics so bad... rattling my cage rn!!!!

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misscammiedawn · 15 days

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Papyrus (Is "The Garden" on that playlist?)

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

CW: Discussion of severe mental illness and suicide.

I had my "mental illness indie playlist" on and for the record Pills & Good Advice by Left At London (her gosh darn magnum opus to living with a SPMI) is the song that came up.

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This is legitimately one of my favorite songs of all time and helped me a ton during the worst portions of second puberty when our BPD symptoms were off the charts. Left at London does amazing music ranging from talking about the 2020 social unrest which includes the refrain "Fuck you and the slavers that you work for" or finding joy within having a dissociative disorder or the terror of discovering one. As well as one of the most uncomfortably accurate songs about Disorganized/Insecure Attachment in BPD (the Patreon only edit even including a voice mail that ripped my heart to shreds the first time I heard it.) and a break-up song that includes a lyric that takes me out every time I hear it:

And if falling in love is all that it takes To make you love the world You’ll be bitter when they go Because even infinity in its entirety Still can turn to nothingness When it's multiplied by zero

But let's talk about the song which actually showed up on my random, Pills & Good Advice.

The song is built upon Nat's experiences from being released from a mental care facility after a suicide attempt and the fear and insecurity of being released into the world with nothing but medication and doctors recommendations to keep her from trying to kill herself again.

On my first day out My familiar town Felt the same as in my dreams Crying in my sleep When the sun came down Thinking "I am cured, it seems" But I don't know my name at all But what else is new? Should I show my pain at all? If you only knew You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I have left: Pills and good advice

Each verse of the song fluctuates between moods and depictions of chronic mental illness from the bridge having rapid voices displaying her impulses to experience a high to escape the pain of existing versus the desperate desire to stay the course and get better and mirrored refrains of "Please hold me down" symbolizing both a self-destructive impulse to die and a terror; begging their partner to kill or save her.

The song includes depictions of Identity Disturbance, a BPD symptom where those suffering lack a stable sense of identity and require an external source to mirror and receive acknowledgement from; Nat sings on multiple occasions about not knowing who she is and viewing her support in this crisis as her "mirror". I imagine imposter syndrome for Nat's music/poetry may be invading some lines such as "I'm plagarizing everything, stuttering solioquies (who am I again?)"

The song is set in 3 parts with the third part being a descent where the line (Higher) is repeated after every line and Nat struggles with her suicidal impulses, concluding:

Spend too many of my minutes getting higher (Higher) I've attempted way too much to even count (Higher) I've been committed, but committed to the people that I love And if I try to love myself, I guess that I could live forever crying

Knowing the sickness is a part of her but she doesn't want to die, even if she wants to die; she cares too much about the people in her life (the committed/committed line is actually genius and one of my favorite in all of her discography) and the best thing she can do is commit to loving herself and continuing along with life in spite of the pain inflicted by her illness.

The ending is ambiguous to my ears and /@/ isn't popular enough for me to see a lot of discussion on interpretations.

But on my last day out Let me scream to God, Family, friends, and enemies "So what happens next? Is this what you want? All I am is dead to me" So I can't hear my voice at all What was I to do? Did I have a choice at all? Seems I never do You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I'd have left: Pills and good advice I could try to heal Care is imprecise All that you'd have left: Pills and good advice

On one hand, I view the song as a positive rally into accepting that SPMI are as the letters describe "Severe Persistent Mental Illness", fuck knows I've lived with the weight of those letters on my medical records. It doesn't go away. You just have to learn to live with it. To enjoy the joys before the despairs.

I chose to believe those last lines are saying that other people could try to help but in the end all the sufferer has is medication and therapy techniques, change must come from within and that to live with someone who suffers will cause pain too and all the person helping can do is receive the same level in care in return.

"You could try to help" vs "I could try to heal" with all that I/you having left being Pills and Good Advice.

But in my darker days I focus on the "on my last day out" and how the singer bemoans never really having a choice and all their work in staying clean being for nothing. In that read, I worry that the final lines are the singer giving in to their symptoms and attempting to kill themselves again, with the final line being less of a "we can get better together" and more of a "I know this will hurt you, have you considered seeking psychological help?"

I prefer my positive spin on it but that may be optimism winning out.

Either way, the song is fantastic and deeply personal in a way I almost feel like I'm intruding to hear at times.

Suicide is a topic of massive importance to me; it is also my number one emotional trigger. For the past few months I've had a draft I've been toying on about how I feel it should be discussed and ironically I am terrified to post it because of how sensitive the topic is. It's really hard to put yourself out there.

I admire this work of art because it really tries its absolute hardest to share a perspective of what it's like to be living with these conditions and feeling like no matter how much you reach out to other people, they can't truly help in the ways that you need. It's a song about terror, it's a song about healing and my god I hope it's a song about growth.

But it may just be a song about cycles.

#camden asks #ask meme #bpd #did #watch me post my trauma in public #albeit this isn't my trauma this time #but I do like it when art is made from places like this #I may very well be wrong about everything I have written here #and given the artist is small enough that she has a limited Tumblr presence #I hope this post never reaches her eyes #I'd die instantly if I misinterpreted a work of art in front of its creator

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violant-apologia · 2 months

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Top 5 in game locations?

i should really be going to sleep but instead i will answer this

5: University Laboratory I do actually enjoy the lab a lot after the update, especially the metagame aspect of optimising it. I still love going and looking at my lab optimisation spreadsheet, even though I don't really need it any more. (and also it isn't that good (but it has so many colours!))

4: Burrow-Infra-Mump I love Burrow for the exact opposite reason that I love the lab; it's alllll in the flavour and emotional investment. I love my Church in the Wild and my parish council, and it's pretty imporant for the Apologist. I never actually go there though, because there are exactly 0 things to do in burrow unless you need Verses of Counter-Creed for some reason.

3: Irem There's a lot I like about Irem and the Loom, from the novel idea of card-smuggling to all the rad flavour in the different futures. I especially like that they even added cards to flesh out the old destiny locations. I love the chilly future a lot and it's nice to see more of it. (plus neon future is the best thing added to the game ever)

2: Hearts' Parlour Another location I appreciate on a mechanical level. I love Hearts' Game; it's the most engaging repeated activity to me by far: there's strategy, there's variance, it makes actual use of equipment other than BiS's, it's wonderful! I just wish I was spending less time grinding so I could do more of it. Speaking of which...

1: The City of the Tracklayers I am SO glad that the place I'm grinding all my wines right now is the City of the Tracklayers. It's such a great location: it's so responsive to your choices with regards to it and the rest of your PC, it has great characters, it has great writing, it remembers that Nemesis exists, it does it all! I have said it before and I will say it again: the City of the Tracklayers is the magnum opus of manifest text. It feels so unique and personal; nobody else's CotT experience is exactly the same as yours.

(also it leaves a good amount of space open for personal interepretation of your city. i'm so invested in pilgrim's dawn and the ideas i've had for it. i wish there was space in my next fic for it honestly)

#thanks for the ask!#it's a good question too #took a lot of thought #thedeafprophet

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sage-nebula · 5 months

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✈+📚!

favorite places you've traveled

I mean, Japan wins out over everything else. I spent two weeks there and it was honestly the happiest two weeks of my life. Not just because of the amazing places I got to see (such as Himeji Castle, Nara and the temple there, etc), but also because my sleep schedule actually fits a diurnal schedule over there, so I was well-rested. I was eating well and getting plenty of exercise walking around. Japan is clean and the default there seems to be to treat people with respect. Like people naturally don't hog the whole escalator, for the most part there wasn't any litter, most people kept smoking to the designated smoking areas, etc. It's a big contrast from here in the States where you'll see people chuck giant plastic cups out of the car window, or put their luggage on either side of them on the escalator at the airport so you can't pass them, and cigarette smoke just wafts from restaurant patios and the like. And like, here I can't walk around at night because I've been stalked that way, but in Japan that wasn't really a concern at all, even when we accidentally went through the red light district trying to get to Baskin Robbins. It was just a really beautiful place and I miss it a lot.

Having said that though, I also did a road trip to the Grand Canyon with my best friend and I have to say that everything that has been said about it (positive) is true. Like it is breathtakingly gorgeous. You don't really think it could be that beautiful until you are actually there, and it is. And because there's basically no artificial light around, at night we were able to go out and see BILLIONS of stars. As well as two planets with the naked eye! It was one of the most astounding experiences I've ever had, and I want to go back someday when I'm in better shape and can actually do some hiking. (We just walked around the rim, which was still wonderful, but I want mooooore.)

how do you come up with the fics you write

It really depends! Usually it's just whatever I feel like I'm in the mood for in the sense that, this is something I wish would happen in the games / show / comic / whatever, but it hasn't happened, so then I need to make it happen myself. Or this is something I think will happen next, for things still on-going, so I write based on that. I also have opened prompt memes before, and actually my 100k magnum opus for YGO was written because someone sent me a prompt that I was like, "how can I fill this but still make it IC," and the fic spawned from there. So it really just depends! Inspiration can come from the wildest places sometimes.

#itstimetodrew #thanks for sending these!!#prompt meme

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moumantaimf · 7 months

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Intermission, Page 4/4

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With this... I want to finally celebrate the first anniversary of this comic! While technically the first page was done on September 19th and some of the characters had been created long before, it was a sketch the one that kickstarted the whole comic idea and that one was made on September 17th, 2022.

Last year I was working but I had lost most of my love for art due to multiple reasons. I decided to start this comic because "If I don't do it now i will never do it". And it ended becoming a sort of miracle cure: Working on this brought me back all the love I had for arting. And while properly getting back into the groove was extremely hard (couple with a lot of RL reasons), this comic helped me to regain my sanity and the appreciation for everything.

I decided to pour here everything I had learned so far. Writing. Trying to make a story that didnt rely on crude jokes, edgy stories just for the sake of being edgy, and trying to keep it SFW to an extent.

Chapter 1 didn't have much writing on it beforehand (just a vague note); I was trying to just "draw, don't stop". I was also afraid of losing interest (like has happened with most of my stuff before) so I wasn't sure how far I was going to reach with this (and that's why I didn't try to make a page like this for the comic at first). But I carried on. And started properly writing the story I wanted. I look at it now and its insane for me to think that I have an actual proper story, a lot of characters and relationships that feel natural.

This story is what I think is my magnum opus and I'm putting all I know, learned and have into it. However, saying I've done this alone would be super false. I tried to put in the credits the peeps who have helped me in one way or another, and I want to sincerely thank not only them, but also you, the reader, for your interest and for reading this, and also to everyone who shares this and so. I hope to continue making a story you like.

See you during November or December when chapter 8 comes!

- Vic

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Panel 1: D is in a graveyard. He says "…And that's what's been going on. I even got a space sister, one that actually acts way less spoiled than your daughter in spite of having much more".

Panel 2: D smells a handful of flowers with their eyes closed.

Panel 3: D drops the flowers next to the gravestone of 'Emma Reh' with an epitaph in German: 'Der Tod, so bitter er auch sein mag, ist nicht das Ende, sondern nur eine weitere Stufe, von der aus wir zu einem besseren Leben übergehen'. D says "You know what, old hag? I forgive you for all the bullshit. To be honest, I'm sorry you never found happiness in your life; unlike what you taught me, I learned that life actually can be beautiful and worth living. I don't really love you, but I genuinely hope you found some peace at the end, and that you're having fun with all your boys down there. Now it's my time… to leave with my new family, or pack, as we call ourselves. And you… You sleep well or whatever. Auf Wiedersehen wir sehen uns in der holle".

Panel 4: The band is walking through a street, but both Sher and Rowi are hugging D. Rowi says "Hey D, you're still very stressed. Wanna get some Döner Kebab with us?". D replies "S…sure! Thank you guys. You're the best thing that has happened to me in my life".

Panel 5: Roi, standing on a ceiling, wearing a visor, says "We love you too, D. You can be sure of that". There's a small narration square saying "End of recap. Thank you for reading this intermission. The story will resume in Chapter 8".

#moumantai #comic #alien #cute #avali #vampire_bunny #moumantai motherf★ckers #furry #manga #deer

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zannolin · 8 months

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🍣 🥮 !!! -kai

🍣 What helps you focus or get in the mood to write?

being at work. no okay i'm joshing you but also...you know how you like get in the writing mood at the worst times? that's me when i'm marching miserably around my workplace. some of my best ideas have hit me then. or in the shower (hence why i keep bath crayons in my shower caddy so i can outline on the walls like a madman). or when i'm about to sleep. any not-wilbur from the fey au fans? yeah that idea + description hit me when i was like THIS close to falling asleep and i jolted out of bed like a zombie, no lights no glasses, fumbling across the room for my phone so i could text it to myself unintelligibly before i forgot it. usually i try to find a nice quiet place, sometimes with people around sometimes not. i really like to be outside in nice weather if possible, and i listen to instrumental music, but usually just one song on loop because i might get distracted if not. and it can't be like my FAVORITE instrumental songs, especially this one because i'll just sit there and stare into the middle distance daydreaming about horses. no joke. usually if i'm really struggling i will turn on a sprint or i'll try to write by hand. those are very good at getting me unstuck. that or the looming threat of finals.

🥮 Do you have any writing milestones you're working toward?

i WAS working towards 100 fics on my ao3 but then i put 28 of them on anon so that set me back pretty far and i went eh never mind. i used to have a list of "must write" fics i wanted to get done before i left the fandom that shall not be named (sorry, can't help joking) but then i kinda hit my limit with some shitty things that happened and the poor magic of pegasus au didn't get written, nor did summer's end, nor did the life is strange au or the coma au with tam, all of which pain me immensely, and wild geese still isn't finished and and the taxidermist can't even be posted because it was for a zine that's in limbo and i'm miserable just thinking about it now. those aus were so damn good and they'll never be written....but at least the fey au got written. my magnum opus. um...other than the agonies of things unfinished....not really? i was going for 50k written this year and i already did that. i'm hopinggg to maybe be able to write the final girl au (resident evil fic, for those unfamiliar) but i dunno if that will happen. i keep bouncing around and just working on whatever makes me happy, which is Not Writing at the moment. just soooo much reading. so many books. and i already hit 400k words on my ao3, and i'm not really feeling like working (in earnest) on anything original at the moment, though i've had some ideas i might play around with. just going wherever the wind blows me i suppose.

thank you for indulging me and sending asks to distract me from The Horrors <3

ask game!!

#answered asks #faebriel #kai my beloved <3

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buginateacup · 1 year

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Okay OBVIOUSLY Topsy has to be my fav, it's like your magnum opus! But aside from that, RRR, Date Night, and A Formal Affair should be mentioned because I really love those and will sometimes go back and reread them ❤️

Topsy is the leviathan. It's been such a journey and its still going but I love looking back at how far the characters have come and I feel like we're slowly coming around to the point where everyone will be able to see where these two are going. They've still got issues. So many issues. But they're trying, and its starting to feel more and more like a serious relationship where they are going to be willing to commit to not just fucking on every available surface and actually face what its going to take for a career supervillain and a career reporter to build a longterm relationship with one another. What are they each willing to sacrifice? And is the relationship going to be something they both want enough to make those changes and work together to figure out.

Megamind can't leave, and villainy has no halfway point. If Roxanne wants to join him she can't dip a toe in and change her mind later. And she's not a person who deals well with being boxed in.

(what she is good with, and what skills she can bring is something I am VERY excited to start getting into).

I dearly love it and I'm glad you do too! But I don't know how you managed to pick the three I reread the most as well! Especially RRR that one had zero downtime between posting and reading when normally I have to take a few months before I can look at it with the editing brain switched off.

RRR I think might be my favourite smut I've ever written? There's something so fun and open and joyous about it? Without the weight of the emotions is kind of how I think about it? Megamind and Roxanne, once they reach the point where they both actively and openly agree they want to sleep together there's a trust between them that feels real and rock solid and they can just relax and have fun and be silly with it. Plus its a loveletter to fanart. Because fanartists deserve more love.

Date Night. Wow remember when I thought I was only going to have one explicit fic? What an innocent Bug I was...But the fake dating I don't want to trust you but we have to work together and Roxanne being absolutely feral were both so much fun to write And the smut of course was hot AF.

I have a real fondness for setting some things very early in their "relationship". Anything under two years tends to be high feral bitey untrustworthy and there is So Much fun to be had in that zone.

A Formal Affair. Oh man someday I will go back and add more to that 'verse. I don't write Metro Man often but sometimes I just get a glimpse and he's even more alien than Megamind. He wants so differently that its fascinating to stick my fingers in and wriggle them around to see what it stirs up.

Plus voyuerism hot

#ask meme #bug asks #this was lovely thank you #I will babble about fic all day XD

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aberooski · 1 year

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fanfic ask: 5, 13, 21, 24! 💫

Yay! I love answering questions!! 😆

5) Do you prefer to read/write long fics or short fics?

- in terms of writing, I prefer to write long fics. I tent to lean towards doing the most approximately all of the time when I write, and it makes it very difficult for me to write short fics. And honestly I wish it didn't but long fics are the way for me baby.

- reading though, I think I tend to lean more toward short fics. If I'm just looking for something casually to get my fix, I find myself engaging with more short fics. But on the flip side, I write long fics so I love them, and if I come across one that piques my interest and really grabs me, then man I'm hooked and it will consume my life akskskk but generally speaking I find myself reading more short fics than long ones. I think because I have such a hard time writing them, I'm drawn more to shorter ones when I read. Or something like that I guess?

13) What are some of your writing/reading pet peeves?

- Y’know I haven't really thought about this all that much before. Of course the standard mixed up spellings of there/their/they're and your/you're because good lord people it's not that hard 😭

- I also fuckin hate the trope when like a character is captured and they make friends with the guard or whatever and they like turn good and shit ugh 😭 or when there's a fuckin self insert that's a bad guy but makes friends with the good guys and turns good no. No. I don't mind oc's, I've had some in fics, I mean Angel's Tears and OUAD have Fiona and her crew as minor antagonists, and OUAD and SBH have Mrs. Rhodes and Mrs. Princeton. But the thing is they're just kinda there. They don't overstep in their roles. And when I was like 12/13, I 100% wrote self inserts too because everybody does at some point in their lives and that's normal and fine, and they don't really bug me all that much. But let bad guys just be bad guys sometimes 😭 I want the actual characters to save each other and have that satisfying reunion 😭 Ireally don't know why that makes me so angry but it does aksksk

21) What are your top 3 fics you've written and why?

- oh boy this is such a loaded question akskks 😅 Now we all know I'm of the opinion that favorite and best are not inherently mutually exclusive, so this changes they way I think about it a bit.

- so in that event, I think I'd say my top 3 fics would be: Once Upon A Duelist, Sons of The Stars, and Salt In the Wound.

Honorable mention goes to Sustained by Hate (Abby's version)(from the vault)

-If I had to explain why, well I think we might have another novel of an answer on our hands but I'll try to be brief 😅

- OUAD I've said before is my favorite fic I've ever written as it stands right now, and also just so happens to be the one I feel is my best. I think it has the most solid plot I've written in a long time, even if you ignore that it's a Sleeping Beauty adaptation so the plot was already there to begin with. But only with the basic plot line, everything I did to put my own spin on it worked really well, and it's the best executionl of a romance plot I've ever done aksksk 😅 and there's just some fuckin bangers of dialog and character interactions in it that make me giggle and kick my feet in the air like a school girl and also sob my eyes out.

- Also y'know, it gets bonus points for being a Sleeping Beauty adaptation which is my favorite movie of all time, and Aurora's my favorite princess and I've been in love with Phillip for as long as I've had conscious thought and memory so having Chazz and Atticus in their roles was the best ever 😭 plus Slade and Jagger actually die which is what I want for them. Perfection.

- Still really wanna do an OUAD 2 but really gotta clear some stuff from my WIP list first 😭😭😭

- Sons of The Stars, of course my 136k GX fantasyish au I built from the ground up. I'd love to say it's my magnum opus, but it really isn't. But I love it so much, it's very important to me. Ironically it is also the only fic I've done where Chazz and Atticus have 0 interaction because they're never in the same room at the same time. And when they are, they don't interact on screen 😭 of course I wrote it before I knew I shipped them but I digress.

- There's a lot of elements from season 3 in that fic where the plot is concerned honestly, Yubel wanting to combine all 12 dimensions which would destroy everything, Axel's entire storyline is a parallel of his arc in the survival duel arc, Jaden and Jesse being not at all straight, and so on. Honestly there's probably ploy holes and stuff and some stuff that's confusing that I don't explain well or whatever, but the general plot I think is so cool and interesting 😭

- Not my best execution of a romance plot but it also was the first time I actually tried to do that at all so I give myself a little grace for that. Also I did refer to Yubel as she/her throughout the fic like they do in the dub because that's what was just how I was introduced to that character and that became default in my brain. But eventually I will get around to going back and fixing that I promise I have so many fics to write right now 😭

- But also what I love about that fic is the wardrobe I designed for it it's so good 😭 I've shared drawings of that before for anybody reading this who hasn't seen those asksks and I did that just kinda for fun since I was in high school when I started planning and writing that fic and I just kinda started drafting up wardrobes in class instead of working 😅 but after designes and redesigns and all that I fuckin love the wardrobe for this fic and it was such a fuckin awesome creative outlet that I needed.

- also some of my best chapter titles are in the fic bro, like some of them are so fuckin good 😭 Skyfall, Secrets of Ages Past, Fragility of The Heart, Purity of The Heart, and Confessions of The Heart (the trinity as I affectionately call those chapters) among others. I'm not good at fic titles but dammit I'm good at chapter titles sometimes 😤

- and real quick before I move on, the entirety of Chazz and Alexis's relationship in this fic. She's all kinds of messed up emotionally in this and she's grown jaded and cold, and she hated him at the start. She hated him when they met when they were kids and she never let go of that or let him change in her mind all those years. But Jaden gets her to think that she's wrong, and when they meet him after they rescue him for Crowler, she accepts that she was wrong, but she's still cold to him. Alexis likes Chazz, not like likes him but she's endeared by him, but she doesn't like that she likes him and she ends up staying cold to him for a while. They argue like a married couple the whole time, and in Fragility of The Heart when she's overtaken by the influence of the darkness seeping out of the core of the 11th dimension because of Yubel, she's not in her right mind and she says a lot of harsh things and makes accusations she shouldn't be saying. And Chazz has to reveal to her the scars he's gotten from his brothers and brings her back down to earth and grounds her back into reality. He heard her crying to Atticus earlier in chapter 12 so he knows he's the only one who can get through to her then, and when he does she softens up on him from then on. And all of this ends up leading up to Alexis turning to Chazz to be her shoulder to cry on at the end of the penultimate chapter. The first of now 2 times they've had that FF7R Cloti moment.

I love the evolution of their relationship on her end especially, she grows the most throughout the entire story of everyone I think, and it just makes me feel good inside.

- and my number 3, Salt in the Wound.

My aftermath to episode 95... I've ranted enough about this, but it's just such a cathartic fic for me. One of the free short fics I've been able to do, and I just love the actual writing. So much of it was stream of consciousness, and I cried a lot working on it. I'll come to Sy's defense at any time anywhere and against anyone. Especially his own brother. He's my favorite character, he's also me in more ways than I care to think about sometimes. I love that fic so much, but it's also really hard to read sometimes. I know I'll write things that hurt me more, I know I will. But right now that's the one that hurts me the most. After everything Zane did and how far he'd fallen, Syrus still cared about him. Syrus still loved him and wanted his brother's acceptance. And writing that just hurt my heart in an entirely different way than anything else I've done before. But the whole experience like I said was so cathartic and I needed it. So it's one of my favorites.

24) If I could tell my past self something before I posted my first fic, I think I'd have something to say at various points in time. Like my first grade school fic, middle school fic, and high school fic eras. Nothing from before high school exists anymore, but no matter what specifically I might think so say to each of those past mes, I think the same thing that would be said to all of them would be not to ever for a second forget to have fun. And to tell myself that you're gonna feel like a failure sometimes. Your stuff won't take off right away, you're gonna feel burnt out, you're gonna feel bad. But you're also gonna love it. You're gonna feel the best you've felt in your life when you write. And don't worry, there are gonna be people that love your work.

I'd tell myself to just sit back and enjoy it. It's all gonna be worth it. You're not wasting your time. You're only gonna get better. I won't say to change anything I've written, I'd let myself write the crap and the actual flops and things I'm embarrassed by how bad they were when I look back now. Because that's what led me here. That's how I learned. That was me being an authentic kid.

I'd tell past me to smile and be proud of herself.

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