#my mental illness is showing

[despite-allmyrage]

#sad poem #my poem #original poem #poetry #poets on tumblr #poetsandwriters #pretty words #beautiful words #cancer #sorry this is so sad #my mental illness is showing

[celosiaceo]

I’m a simple woman I get 1 speck of niceness from clearly not good-intentioned mfers and I fold so fucking fast

Omg angel doctor saved my life and didn’t kick me out immediately after?? I’m at his door with a rose between my teeth and signed body donation to science consent form. Heart eyes. Am blindly hopelessly smitten.

Very friendly and nice big tiddied totally not cultist man lets me hold his hand??? I’m at his door in green robes with a signed soul selling contract. Heart eyes. Am blindly hopelessly smitten.

Redstrewn inspired<333

#leander #kuras #leanderposting #kurasposting #my mental illness is showing #sense of self preservation leaving my body when any niceness #ahfjwkdkdjsjhdhc i need them both so bad

[digiworm]

BETTER VERSIONS OF THESE BECAUSE I LOVE THEM

Cool bits of them kicking ass + regular boring background if for if you dont hate your eyes

F2U with or without credit (credit appreciated tho xoxo)

#full credit to blinkies.cafe for helping me figure these out for some i used them as a base #gifs #blinkies #graphics #pixels #rottmnt #rise of teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise donnie #rise leo #rise mikey #rise raph #tmnt #tmnt 2016 #my mental illness is showing #old web #webcore #eyestrain #early web #neocities #geocities #mikey was really inspired by my original ones and he felt the need to one-up me x33 #ily angelo you showoff #mine

[ohihopeicanchangethislater]

I have this thing where I torture myself by scrolling social media. Aside from instagram making me angry (that's normal) today it was imdb.

I just watched the new TMNT movie today, and I loved it. I liked the Ninja Turtles when I was younger, but I haven't followed them as closely as other franchises, so I wouldn't call myself a "fan" (I know their names though).

As I often do after watching a movie for the first time, I looked up the cast, crew etc. on imdb, and made the mistake of glancing at some of the reviews. I don't have a problem with people voicing their opinions, but I'm not gonna base my opinion of something off of yours, especially if it's negative.

A particular review that stuck out at me said something to the effect of, "maybe kids and die-hard TMNT fans would love it, but it just didn't really stand out for me"

MAYBE BECAUSE IT WASN'T FOR YOU.

Maybe the PG-rated TMNT movie was made for... I don't know, kids and fans of the franchise?!

I'm so tired of wannabe critics being so toxic with their opinions when they aren't even the target audience! Ask a kid if they liked the movie, or someone who grew up with the turtles. If you aren't interested in animated film, the TMNT franchise, or fun in general, why would you watch the movie in the first place? Watch whatever movies are made for you, and let them have this one thing.

#I've been watching too much #big tugg #I'm starting to rant like him #I'm a good little tugglet #tmnt #mutant mayhem #teenage mutant ninja turtles mutant mayhem #teenage mutant ninja turtles #movie opinions #target audience #wells for boys #imdb #social media #is just the worst #my mental illness is showing

[p0is0n-is-th3-cur3]

ugh somebody out there loves you i love it so much it makes me cry

#my mental illness is showing #i cant #why is my mental illness is showing an established tag #mcr

[ed-reblogger]

it's cristmas time, we know what that means!

#i love christmas #BUT i feel so bad if i dont eat the food my mum spent ages on #and i know a lot of my friends gave me baked goods and candy #hopefully my sis wants some sweets:) #wintergirls #i actually just finished the book! #its the perfect kind of triggering #tw eating issues #tw edd #disordered eating thoughts #vent post #tw ana shit #ed motivation #stupid thoughts #mental health #eat1ng dis0rder #e4t1ng d1s0rd3r #my mental illness is showing

[klonopinandketamine]

Wish me luck guys, finally going to start Bojack Horseman…

#bojack horseman #bojack #my mental illness is showing #wish me luck #I will probably cry

[mvltisstuff]

guys i fear a new hyperfixation is beginning. this is not a good sign for my mental health but i cant stop looking at jonah hauer-king.

#he’s so fine #jonah hauer king #the little mermaid #halle bailey #live action little mermaid #my mental illness is showing #why is he so cute #prince eric

[borderlinebelle]

Someone in my life, someone that pursued a relationship with me, has put up a boundary and chosen to exit my life because I trigger them.

EDIT: Despite what I wrote earlier in the day while emotionally charged (see below…) I’m choosing to believe this decision is what’s best for the other person, so it will be what is best for me.

Sometimes people leave our lives for reasons that have nothing to do with us and everything to do with choosing to care for themselves first… and that’s okay. I’m trying not to internalize and to instead regroup and keeping moving forward in my search for more genuine human connection.

feel the feeling, sit with it, let it go, stretch: grow forward

🧠

Logically I understand this person is doing what they need to do to keep themselves safe but it’s guttting to have it confirmed that I’m the fucking problem.

baby really hurt me, crying in the taxi

he don't wanna know me

says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm

says it was poison

I left this friend on read on Monday while I wrapped up a 20 hour shift that went through the night. It was also my son’s birthday so after working those 20 hours I dragged my bones home to sing my son happy birthday. I fell asleep on the couch and then it was Tuesday and I was rushing to work where I got battered a bit by my inability to get things done on time and so I didn’t respond to him until I was walking into my home Tuesday and … I triggered him. My inability to communicate triggered him and for him it was the last straw.

I had probably triggered him a dozen times before. Too chaotic, too childish, too self absorbed, too scattered, too flighty, too much.

He said he thought he had a problem with alcohol and a problem with our friendship. He never did quit drinking but he sure as fuck quit me.

Too much. Too much. Too much. Between the bpd and the adhd… Always too much.

I thought this person was my friend. I … do not understand why I am so delusional in believing I can make an actual friend but it’s exhausting to keep trying.

People, men in particular, will seek me out looking to fill their needs… she’s so full of life, she’s so funny, she’s so pretty, she’s so wonderful, she’s got such a “good heart”.

I try to be open and kind and honest and myself… I stupidly allow myself to be VULNERABLE…. again and again … and then once they’re done with me, it’s directly to the nearest trash. 🚮

the truth is I am a toy that people enjoy

‘til all of the tricks don't work anymore

and then they are bored of me

i know that it's exciting running through the night, but

every perfect summer's eating me alive until you're gone

better on my own

I’m so toxic he can’t even speak to me anymore. 🙂

Everybody agrees.

Friends communicate. Friends work it out. Friends … TRY. Were you ever really my friend? Why not communicate with me? Maybe we both could have grown… but it’s not even worth the fucking effort. I’m not even worth the effort.

The reality of being the manic pixie dream girl is so fucking lonely and gutteral. It’s being the fucking pretty positive ray of sunshine everyone wants to talk to, but the person no one wants once they get to know.

#I’m a liability #manic pixie dream girl #manic pixie nightmare #personal #i’m the problem #it’s me #it’s me i’m the problem #actually borderline #losing a friend #bpd vent #bpd problems #bpd feels #discarded #mental health matters #mental illness #my mental illness is showing #liability lorde #Spotify

[house-of-slayterr]

Making memes while having trauma flashbacks as a way to ground myself and cope… obvious Tw for child abuse ahead…

#tw: dissociating #dissociative disorder #ptsd flashbacks #trauma flashbacks #child neglect #child abuse #complex ptsd #cptsd #ptsd #mental illness meme #coping with humor #my mental illness is showing #abusive mother #abusive mom #Margret white #mother gothel #monica gallagher #shameless #Carrie #Carrie Steven king

[spiral-emoji]

shoutout to the time my nurse practitioner literally just assumed I had OCD based on everything she knows about me and I only found outs when she listed it as a diagnosis on a doctors note she wrote for me so anyway i might have OCD and if I do this is the best origin story

#not undiagnosed or self diagnosed but a secret third option #secret diagnosed #surprise diagnosis #she is the best nurse practioner this is SO not to bash her she is great #i also 100% at least have OCD /symptoms/ based on every mental health prof. ive talked to and everyone in my life so its not just her lol #my mental illness is showing #mental illness #actually mentally ill #mental health #ocd #actually ocd #obsessive compulsive #compulsions #deppresion #anxiety #generalized anxiety disorder #neurodivergent

[crayonboxcolors607]

y'all STOOOPPPPP i just realized smth!!!!!

so obv we all know that eddie runs after chrissy dies in his trailer which is what ultimately leads to everyone thinking he's a killer

but if he had stayed for literally just like 5 MORE MINUTES doing legit WHATEVER (like panicking or shit) then the police wouldve found him and taken him into custody

which means he wouldve had an ALIBI when FRED DIED

and he WOULDNT HAVE FOUND OUT ABOUT THE UPSIDE DOWN AND DIED

EDDIE RUNNING AWAY IS BOTH WHAT INEVETIBLY KILLED HIM AND MADE HIM A HERO

BRO MY LITTLE GAY HEART CANT TAKE THIS

#stranger things #eddie munson #chrissy stranger things #chrissy cunningham #fred stranger things #eddie is a hero #bro im too fucking gay for this #im sorry #my mental illness is showing #duffers i am in your walls #imma murder the writers of this show i fuckin swear to god #also imma tag #steddie #even tho its not #cuz i can

[thatonedelusiongirl]

idk why i just feel the need to look at a guys croch area to see if they packin an idk of glasses is packin it he got a horse in there like damn… anyways how are you guys did you eat or drink today?

#teacher x student #tc crush #tc feelings #tc struggles #teacher crush #tc blog #tc thoughts #teacher attachment #teachers pet #i need therapy #i need more therapy #i need explanations #i need serious mental help #my mental illness is showing #i get creeper an creeper by the day 😭 #bro is packin a 12 inch godddman #make me famous #i wanna jump off of a fucken brigde #i wish i was dead #i wanna be perfect #ughhhh #holy fuck #a series of unfortunate events #that’s it im done why can’t i be the only women he wants ( ima child ) but whyyyyyy

[dd-writes]

Man fuck the holidays, I'd rather be buried in mountains of work than let my intrusive thoughts take over

#personal #my mental illness is showing

[thesquishysquash]

Y/n: okay, what's your blood type?

Donnie: coffee.

Y/n: ...??

#rottmnt x y/n #idk what to do #my mental illness is showing

[boomsinpershots]

Quick announcement

I will sadly be taking a part time hiatus. For my mental health is getting worse and worse I lack motivation to do anything so I will be taking a short break. How long I don’t know, what I do know is that even though I’m on the hiatus I will still be posting it just might not be every week now. There will be no schedule or anything just when I have an idea maybe I’ll post it. I will still be doing anything I plan or was doing before the hiatus as well.

#hiatus #my mental health #my mental illness is showing