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fandoms-spamdom · 2 years

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5. How many wips do you have? What fandoms/pairings are they for? 13. Do you listen to music while you write? If yes, what have you been listening to recently? 14. What is your favorite location and position to write in? 15. What’s your favorite time to write? Do you write by hand, on your phone, or on your laptop? 17. Do you have a writing routine? 18. Do you enjoy research? Which fic of yours required the most research? 22. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles? 23. Is writing the beginning, middle, or end of the story easiest? Hardest? 24. How do you choose whose POV to write in? 25. What’s your favorite part of the writing process (worldbuilding, brainstorming/outlining, writing, editing, etc)? 26. What’s your least favorite part of the writing process? 27. What area of writing do you feel strongest in? 28. What area of writing do you want to improve in? 30. How much do you edit your fics? Do you edit as you write or wait until you finish the first draft? 31. Do you use a beta reader/editor? 36. What fic are you proudest of? 42. What’s your favorite title that you’ve come up with? 47. Is there a trope that you’ve written before but are now sick of? 49. What fic of yours would you say is the best introduction to you as a writer? 50. How would you describe your writing style? 55. Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc? 57. How conscious are you about including symbolism or foreshadowing in your fics? 59. Have you participated in any fic events/writing challenges? If yes, what were they and did you enjoy them? 73. What do you tend to get complimented on the most about your writing? 74. Do you have a fic you wish got a bit more love? 76. How do you deal with writing pressure, whether internal or external? 78. What motivates you during the writing process?

take as much time as you need, this is a lot heh. (if it's too many, pick and choose the ones you'd like to answer)

I’m answering them all cause I love questions wjjejshs

5 - I have maybe…5? Two for skk, one sskk, one fyolai, and then one’s not like a fandom ship writing, just a little story I’m working on!

13 - I’ve been having Another Love on loop for the last week just thinking of how to finish these wips T-T

14 - Mainly I write in my room while lying on my bed

15 - Late afternoon and on my phone

17 - I usually have to drink tea or coffee before I write if that counts!

18 - Ngl I don’t like having to do research (kills the creative juices personally) and I’m not sure what fic required the most research… maybe this one writing I did last year where they had like superpowers and stuff? One of the only writings I made notes for-

22 - After omg- I can’t think of a name until I reread it over. Usually it’s based off a scene in the fic

23 - For me easiest if definitely middle and hardest is the beginning

24 - Third person is my favorite POV so usually I don’t write in first person, but when I do it’s the character I find more blorboable

25 - Editing! It feels like I’m washing my story and making it perfect

26 - Writing cause I get brain fog

27 - Dialogue

28 - Description

30 - I edit them like 3ish times? I edit after, get a second opinion, edit, ask again, edit agin, get another opinion, edit

31 - @enmu-thick-thighs-supremacy1 beta reads all my fics

36 - Not a lot of my finished ones- I’m still improving my technique a bit. But if I had to choose it’s have to be A Field Of Flowers cause my friends said they liked it

42 - AHEM… Look Me In My Eyes and no I won’t elaborate T-T

47 - Not really! I like all my genres

49 - Mmmm I don’t know T-T

50 - Grew up on Wattpad and The Maze Runner

55 - Someone told me my style is like I want to write comedy but I have to write angst. Besides that I’m not sure-

57 - Nope. I’m bad at symbolism-

59 - I have not because I suck at prompts T-T

73 - All I’ve been told is that I’m a really good writer and no elaboration T-T

74 - My CroMaka one but it’s on hiatus so uhhh ;-;

76 - I usually stay up writing and finishing a wip if I have pressure

78 - “I can send it to all my friends and force them to give me compliments >:D

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sophiasve · 2 years

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Anorexia Nervosa.

So nearly 4 months ago, I got diagnosed with anorexia. I still remember that day. On the one hand I was relieved to finally have a diagnose after having but hiding this disease for so long, on the other hand it destroyed me and I could not believe it. I knew that I had this disease, but I didn‘t want to allow it, because this illness spoke to me, telling me that i‘m not sick, that this is the way to reach my goal and that my psychologist is wrong.

1 month after my diagnose I got hospitalized, the best thing that could ever happen to me. I was inpatient for 6 weeks, and ngl it was the hardest and most scariest time of my life. I was in pain. Letting an disease go hurts really bad, especially when it‘s a disease that tricked you into thinking, that you are perfectly fine, that everything that happen is normal and that your only worthy of something when you listen to it. Things scream when they die, is a sentence I can now completely relate to. But it got better everyday, every minute, every second. I was tired all the time, because I fully let myself feeling every emotion and never blocked anything to come out. That meant an emotional roller coaster hahaha. In a day I was crying in the morning, cause I missed my family, than I was mad because I‘m here and not on vacation, than I was angry at myself, for not being strong enough, and for letting this disease do what it wanted. Later the day I was happy cause I had good therapy and was chilling with my friends I met there, than I cried again cause it was time for lunch and than it was okay again. And with that „okay“ feeling I went to bad everyday.

I worked very hard on myself, getting to know why this disease had so much power and to find strategies to fight against it. The thing is, I hated myself, I wanted to d&e and I only was proud of myself or felt worthy enough to life or to be loved when I starved myself. One thought about food and this voice inside my head told me I‘m a piece of shit and can‘t do anything right and that I should just d5e. I like to describe this disease as your biggest frenemy- best friend and worst enemy. Thats what it felt like for me, it was my „best friend“, my „companion“, my „leader“, my „hero“ and my „life saver“. But it also was my worst enemy. It it is my worst enemy. Because it didn‘t saved me, it destroyed me. It took my smile and poisoned my heart, it took many months of my life, months where I could explore my life, myself. When my friends went out partying on the weekend, i was lying on my couch getting an IV. When they made any other fun activities and had the time of their life, I was lying in my bed in mental pain or on my carpet completely delusional. I know that many other people with anorexia or ED‘s in general think that it‘s the hero that saves you, that it takes your hand and leading you on the right road, the road to happiness. But thats simply not true. It destroys you everyday. It takes things from you. It leads you to de8th. I di7d everyday the last months. Everyday di7d a part inside of me. And now I try to reanimate these parts. Some of them came back and some not. But that‘s okay. I was told that I‘m not the old fia anymore. That really hurt me but yeah it‘s true. I‘m not the same girl I used to be but this happens when you go through something like that. I‘ honest it really traumatized me. And I don‘t know how to heal myself and letting go. But what I know is that this disease is an disease and that it not saves you, it does not help you, it destroys you. And thats so important cause although I know nothing and everything in my life is just a big question mark. I know that going back and letting my ED rule my life and take whole control is not an option. I know that it‘s scary and I really just want to give control to someone, something else because sometimes I‘m so tired and weak. But IT IS NOT AN OPTION. Recovery was the scariest but best thing to choose. And I only suggest you doing that. And for all people who are slipping in an ED or are in it. Get help, please it is not worth it. You don‘t want to brush through your hair and brushing out tuft of hair, you don‘t want to be cold all the time, having bruises all over your body from nothing, you don‘t want to feel your bones every time you sit somewhere or lying somewhere. You don‘t want to miss all the nice things in life cause you are to sick. Getting a clothing size down is not worth all of that. I went clothing sizes down and what happened. I‘m not happy about it, I still don‘t feel skinny, pretty or worthy enough. Thinking okay just a few more pounds and than I‘m happy is wrong. You will never feel enough, you will never be happy. You think okay I starve myself a little longer and than I‘m a size 6, than when you reach that you‘ll think, okay just a little further and than I‘m a size 4 and than I‘m happy and when you reach that your still not happy or feel enough and it goes on and on and on. Anorexia is an addiction, in germany we call anorexia also Magersucht among other things. Literal translation in english would be skinny addiction. I think this word describes it so good. I was addicted to the feeling of getting skinny. I was addicted of starving and of feel enough like the others or even more enough. I got addicted to the feeling of being good or better because I was so disciplined. Every time someone wrote a better grade than I did, I was first sad or upset but than something inside me told me, look, they may have written a better grade than you but you can resist the human primal instinct to eat, you can do what they can't, starve all day. This was addicting and still is so addicting. But it‘s not worth this disease and what it does to you.

Since 3 weeks I‘m not inpatient anymore. I would say I‘m stabil but not healed it takes time until your healed. But I try my best and I don‘t give up. I have much more energy and I finally feel something again. Deep in my ED I was so cold not just on the outside but on the inside, i couldn‘t feel anything for anyone. This was so hard for me cause I‘m a person who gives much love and affection to my close people. Everything got a lot or at least a bit better. I experienced things, things I never could have with this disease. So yeah I‘m much more happier and I‘m so proud of myself that I chose recovery. This is the right thing although it‘s hard, it is the f5ckn right thing.

The next weeks I want to document my journey here. I think it will help me in recovery. Maybe it will help you too. Just text me when you need help. xx

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talesofmetalandmagic · 1 year

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Anyway Lightning by Little Mix, their last good song, is totally an Azir & Xerath song.

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It’s literally about someone who’s stuck in a consuming relationship that’s destroying their sense of self and describes it either with exaggerated, pompous metaphors – opening with this nonetheless…

“I'd cross a desert and an ocean/To get away from the pain of your storm/I'd chase the sunlight, been running from your shadow/So that I could heal and I didn't feel”

…just by comparing it to being struck by lightning, repeatedly, in consuming pain they can’t escape and are somehow growing to like.

“That zig-zag shooting through my heart/That zig-zag hit me like a dart/Electricity, electricity/Oh, this love's tearing me apart/I've been running like the light from the dark/Electricity keeps on hitting me”

To me, a core component of Azir’s arc in the story is about learning to think with his heart and not his head (not that he’s used it much ngl), choosing to act with pure feelings like that one time he saved a wounded stranger just because she needed help, instead of building walls of hatred and resentment because of an authority of yore.

Which involves – and that’s the hardest part – putting his hatred for Xerath aside.

I’m known as a hater of the “every villain will be redeemed” Steven Universe trope, but don’t you dare call Xerath a villain to my face. Villains are Viego, Thresh, Mordekaiser, Bel’Veth, Swain, Renata, Urgot, Camille, Jhin… I’d even put Talon and possibly Elise and LeBlanc in there. These are people whom I don’t want to be redeemed.

(“Then what about X?” They’re either grey characters who can show love or principles like Vayne and Sejuani, traumatized people who just need help like Syndra and Xayah, or forces of nature like the demons and Zyra, yes I said something positive about her – and then there’s Sylas, who’s never been a villain at all and even Riot has learned it)

Xerath is somewhere in the middle, a traumatized madman who just wants to be – or feel – free, and since even Azir himself isn’t exactly a saint this helps spread the blame between them.

Azir has proven that he can put his pride and pain aside and cope with his trauma in a healthier manner, and when it comes to Xerath… like I said in the past, love is a powerful force. Even more powerful than Xerath, even more powerful than the Sun-Disc itself.

“Oh, lightning strikes twice/And it burns like ice/I wish I didn't love you again/Lightning strikes twice/And it burns so nice”

But if Azir chooses right and makes the ultimate sacrifice – his pride, his grief, everything he’s ever known, all for the good of his people – he will follow a route of love.

“I wish I didn't love you/(But I do)”

Some male covers if you need the atmosphere:

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#league of legends #lol #azir #Xerath #Shurima #lightning #little mix #get weird #yes I still think they started sucking after Get Weird #and even that was hit and Miss #they peaked with Salute and never improved since #now if I could find actual black men performing lightning that’d be nice #Youtube

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kkoongiee · 3 years

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txt scenarios — valentine’s day with them ‹𝟹

## fluff % gn!reader % wc: 707 [ cursing, suggestive themes, skinship, kissing ]

yeonjun seems like the type of mf to joke ab corny nsfw things on valentines day 🤨 like he’d prepare u some romantic ass bedsheets and shit, but he actually made it so he could flop down in it and mess it up 😭 jun will 100% want u to put on a childs movie while ur laying in this sexy ass room?? can a room be sexy idk,, just the set up FDSSDSS its very cliche :-) and then he’ll clear off the bed, spilling all of the decorations of flower petals and confetti off onto the floor and cuddle up to u, yeonjun mayy like to do extra ass things but he will let up on them because theres much more fun things to do than keeping the bed neat and tidy

soobin isn’t too big on dates or romance things i don’t think, maybe chocolates or something small but nothing like flowers or balloons, idk i don’t think he’s very grand on presents that much. he just wants to have a date or stay in!! u agree bc who doesn’t want to spend time with soobin?? anyways it’s fine either way, u two will have fun either way. he’ll just end the night with a kiss and send you back home 😁 orrr he might ask u to stay back?? who knows, u decide whichever u want 😧 whatever it is u choose, u have plenty of nice time together, soobin is veryyy sweet 😁 in many ways, so he will always be caring and gentle with u, all around letting you lead him around sooo 👀

beomgyu seems like the person you’d get gifts for?? idk why but i think he wants the gifts, bring on the teddy bears and chocolates and flowers because he wants it ALL!!!! so u get him a super cute bear with this heart its holding, ofc that’s your new son?? bear-gyu is such a cutie, he’ll leave it on the edge of his bed before getting on with the celebration. gyu wants to go to a restaurant and consume his weight in dessert and who r u to deny? he also wipes plenty of whipped cream on u, but u don’t complain 😭 he’s so cute today and it is completely fine if u just ... get your face sticky and smelling like the whipped cream (this sounds bad OMG) but u r more than happy with this, beomgyu giving u a big kiss on the lips to take care of the bits of whipped cream

taehyun seems chill for the most part, but he also seems like the biggest sweetheart?? like he gives u the works, mostly because he can’t decide what you’d like so he just gives it all. he will take u on a date & just talk to you, normal day and nothing tooo mushy gushy or anything. taehyun doesn’t really care too much for dressing up either i feel like?? so he just .. takes u out for icecream orr just a simple movie :-) yeah he tries his hardest to make you happy, u are very happy regardless of what he does, u make sure he knows it by ending the day with the biggesssttt kiss ever - taehyun deserves it!

huening kai is just there to have fun, u will be the one buying the presents definitely tho?? bc ngl i would love to buy him one 😁 hyuka just seems like the person to receive presents and all of that, so he is vv happy to receive a molang plush?? LIKE YES?? he will take it out with u two as well, he loves it sooo much 😭 he is the most grateful person ever (all of them are but huening kai DEFF expresses it the most, he has no shame) and he is ready to go on a date with u and molang 😎, he sits the molang plush right next to u and is like ... ‘perfect, today is good’ 😧 like damn he really just gonna do u like that for molang?? yes, i think anyone would because wow they r CUTEEE. overall, the day is pretty generic just a date and gift thrown in, i don’t think any would do much special things tbh?? just fine doing a date, no extraordinary things

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washymylifeaway · 3 years

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KyouHaba Fanfic recs

Hiya! How much do I love KyouHaba? Yes. This is one of my favorite ships and one of my comfort ships <3 KyouHaba has got some amazing fics, so even if they aren’t really your thing, you should still read this :D Anyway, onto the recs!

As always, pls check WARNINGS, TAGS, and SUMMARIES for fics before reading (esp since KyouHaba usually deals with darker topics and not all of them tag/warn for it!) and make sure you’re taking care of yourselves (since mental health is key!) Stay healthy loves <3

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Close to the Chest by darkmagicalgirl (T) 61.1k // THIS ONE man anyway I just love the progression of their relationship and the way this fic is written! The way we really go into who Yahaba is really what makes this fic great! Also there's some slightly ~angsty~ IWAOI so look out for that hehe.

Police Dog by surveycorpsjean (E) 34.9k // if you’re super against like any *furry* implications, pass this one LOL. But TBH I don’t like furries, but this one was pretty great (hence why it’s here LOL) and they make me laugh. Also I really like some of the head cannons for Kyoutani in this one and the writing style is super freakin’ good, so it’s definitely worth the read~~~ Pls CHECK TAGS AND WARNINGS cause there are a couple REAL spicy scenes in this one ;)

Team Mom by All_My_Characters_Are_Dead (T) 2.7k // so as I was going through this tag (because that’s what I do LOL), I remembered this fic and I love it. Like yes Yahaba is the fear factor and yes Kyoutani is the DAD. I really like the team dynamics in this one, and the first years make me laugh pls.

Camellias by kiyala (T) 1.9k // I love this fic and when I starting looking for this ship, it was the first one I thought of hehe. I really love magic and their interactions are so cute and the PLANTS ARE DOING THE MOST. Pls read both in the series, cause domestic KyouHaba is best KyouHaba ngl LOL. I love the plants, and if you read the second one, someone tell the trees to stop bullying Yahaba.

Sixth Time’s the Charm by tsumekakusu (T) 2k // ok THIS was SO FREAKING funny, please Yahaba how dumb can you get LOL. The number thing made me facepalm so hard, but the ending was cute and that’s all that matters, right?

Sleep by GangstaCrow (T) 5.5k // the plot twist…. omg…. I had to pause and take a moment of silence for the people suffering because of LL… Poor Kyoutani….. But this is a really funny but cute fic at the same time :D

a little bit funny, this feeling inside by postcanons (G) 5.4k // PLEASE THIS ONE omg crow matchmaker ftw. Like I said, I really love magic and this one is just so freaking funny. Also, very informational curtesy of one Kyoutani Kentarou.

meet me at the fucking pit (and let me hold your hand) by anyadisee (T) 5.4k // IF THE TITLE ISN’T MAKING YOU LAUGH ALREADY WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING????? (JK but am I really?) This was SO funny and it KILLED me,,, like all the conspiracies and how everyone was so seriously invested in it. Yes, CHAOS.

if not, winter by knightswatch (M) 54k // YES THIS FIC. THIS ONE RIGHT HERE. I love the development of their relationship,,, IT’S SO GOOD. Like when our boy Yahaba goes on that really friendly field trip and Kyoutani takes matters into his own hands? UGH YES. And when they visit? CUTE OMG. Yes this fic is it.

Isolated Parts by darkmagicalgirl (T) 3.3k // I love this fic cause old men KyouHaba are funny (fight those refs) and I love the nonlinear plot. It really adds another layer to the fic itself, and slowly unraveling the plot through the different years was SO IUAHFJF. I really loved it and piecing everything together :’)

Magicked by HoneyBeeez (T) 8.4k // CHECK TAGS, I love KyouHaba Hogwarts fics, and this one is SO good! We do love some slightly oblivious Yahaba and fake delinquent Kyoutani LOL. Though there is some violence and homophobia so if that puts you off, steer clear of this fic :)

stardust by InkCaviness (G) 1.4k // like I said, in love with KyouHaba and hogwarts fics, anyway,, this one was so short and sweet! It’s full of fluff, and honestly, if you like KyouHaba, read this entire series cause I really love these KyouHaba works :’)))))

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knightswatch // GREAT writer, but most of their KyouHaba works are explicit/mature, so be careful as you go through their works! My fav T one? all you have is your fire by knightswatch (T) 6.4k, but they’ve written some of the best KyouHaba I’ve read (they’re just mostly M)!

kiyala // another amazing writer and their works usually alternate between G and E LOL. But, all of their Gs are amazing, and rn my favorite was between Room To Grow by kiyala (G) 50k or Cost by kiyala (G) 1.1k cause it was either secret doggy relationship or magic LOL. But all of their fics are worth reading, and there’s a large variety of AUs!

snoqualmie // I love this writer, but they don’t have much KyouHaba (enough that I would put them here though LOL) My favorite? Mixed Signals by snoqualmie (T) 7.8k // it’s a really cute fic and I love the hc that Kyoutani has the good family! It has like a semi continuation (I think it’s in the same verse as it), but Jan. 6 features the sisters again! (Also yes for veggie fiend Kyoutani,)

tale as old as time by crossbelladonna (series) 30.2k // AHH this series is fully of such good KyouHaba fic!!!! I really love all of them but my favorite is through open doors by crossbelladonna (T) 4.3k // I love soulmate AUs and salty Yahaba is best Yahaba. Also at the end when the coffee incident happens, I love Kyoutani :’)

Words Not Spoken by Dogsocks (series) 51.5k // this is a continuous fic series (meaning all the fics are in the same verse and related to one another), but it’s so FREAKING good and I love reading it!!! It’s got some mentions of ABUSE, and things like that so please read the tags carefully!!!

kyouhaba week by InkCaviness (series) 6.7k // I loved KyouHaba week (all of them are just such AMAZING fics and tropes) and my favorite from this list was stardust by InkCaviness (G) 1.4k // I mentioned what I loved from it above, but it truly is a great fic :D

Kyouhaba Trash Week 2016 by HoneyBeeez (series) 28.9k // all three of these fics are SO good. I literally cannot choose a favorite because I loved all of them :’) Like no joke, just go read all of them because singing Kyoutani? Yes please. And also like the tattoo one was SO ajksdhfkjshdfjkln I LOVED IT AND DON’T GET ME STARTED ON THE HOSPITAL ONE. I loved loved loved the ending, and her going to the school? UGH ADORABLE. These fics were some of my absolute favorite KyouHaba fics!

Venom and Vulnerability by darkmagicalgirl (E) 48.3k // OAAJKSFNKJ I LOVE THIS ONE YES. The concept? AMAZING. Execution? FLAWLESS. This is a GREAT fic and it’s done SO WELL,,,, I realllllly loved the plot in this and their teamwork is making the dream work! WARNING check the tags and warnings cause there’s smut, (non kinky) bondage, and death!

it's tradition. by hicsvntdracones (T) 5.5k // this fic made me want to die from second hand embarrassment. GOD, the awkwardness and really the way they went HARD on those dares PLEASE. If you don’t mind feeling embarrassed (and even if you do) go read this fic cause it’s V funny and the comedy factor cancels out the embarrassment LOL (does it? That’s what I’m tellin myself LOL).

An Equivalent Exchange by Chibs (E) 14.5k // PLEASE THIS WAS FUNNY,,,, like chill Kyoutani, Yahaba is trying his hardest okay? BUT NOT HARD ENOUGH anyway it’s a happy ending in the long run and no one dies :D how nice is that <3 (but the baby agenda? yessssir.)

The Wall Thing by rideahorse (M) 6.8k // THE TENSION :0,,, but I love how many fics go based on that one KyouHaba wall slam in the middle of the Karasuno match LOL. Also, I love the dynamics they have in this one and the way fighting ~is their communication~ Some smut is here so WARNING and they do something about the tension LOL obviously :))) Constantly curing KyouHaba is good, happy Kyouhaba.

Sixteen by surveycorpsjean (E) 13.4k // Yahaba is a basic btch and Kyoutani does football LOL. Honestly, I think that’s a pretty good summary (jk) but what’s a fic without some good tension ;) Also, cheerleader Yahaba lives in my brain rent free and I would like to propose it live in your head as well :D Aren’t I such a kind soul~

Safe in Your Hands by shions_heart (T) 8.9k // um soft KyouHaba? I think yes,,,, this also do be a common trope in the KyouHaba realm, but I’m not complaining,,,, it’s a good trope :) There IS ABUSE in this fic so big warning here! Check the tags and warnings! But the real mvp is the girl on the bus and points to Yahaba for playing spot the difference unintentionally.

The Sweetest Smile by FindingSchmomo (T) 6.6k // cake making! Yes! Bakery! Yes! It’s a great time and think about it, Kyoutani, our baby, working in a bakery making cakes? UGH my heart :’D Yes Oikawa is right, a cute grumpy puppy making flowers (CUTE VERY CUTE) and it doesn’t help that Kyoutani looks like a total bad boy in this fic too :DDDDDD

wear your love like it's made of hate by parenthetic (renaissance) (T) 3.3k // we are starting this off with the alt title totally worked and I would’ve read it either way LOL. Also, the ending was funny and thinking about why everyone was wearing it would’ve been so confusing to the other teams (also shout out to Yahabas line and Kyoutani calling his eyeliner a whore). But yes to random sexual tension, this is KyouHaba nation.

captain's orders by whitemiists (G) 3.7k // okay we love Watari in KyouHaba nation (surprised I haven’t talked about loving Watari yet but better now than never right?), but also Yahaba being messenger for Kyoutani (baby first years are ajhsajdfh). I love this trope and also I love rooftop lunch crew is yes :D

Running In Place by cleiioo (T) 33.3k // GUYS OMG THIS FIC. CAUTION ABUSE AND RUNNING AWAY AND BAD PARENTS SELF DEPRECATION I COULD GO ON BUT BOTTOM LINE IS BE CAREFUL READ TAGS! This fic is UGHHH YES. First, twenty questions make another appearance, and DUCKS. Yes, ducks. But this fic is just written really well, and honestly Kyoutani might be a tad bit ooc, but it’s okay, you don’t even notice. Distracted by the amazing writing :)

Something About Fate by patteh (T) 4.6k // SOULMATES! And then they were soulmates :D I love a good soulmate denial AU, and this is no exception. I loved Yahana’s backstory in this, and I think it set up a great framework for the plots progression! Also, the ending was really cute (and we all know, I’m a sucker for a cute ending :D)

toeing the line by masi (T) 2.7k // the mcDonalds cause WE’RE LOVING IT! But this was a fun read cause a. it goes pretty fast and b. communication exists? ANyway, I like the ending cause Yahaba is one smooooooth btch! It’s just a lot of banter (playful and not), and I’d read tags jic for this fic :)

bumblebee by shizuoh (T) 1.5k // he got sht on by a bumblebee. Points for creativity Yahaba, points. But this is just a fun, random AU where pepperoni on pizza is a universal aggrievance (esp the infused on cheese kind,,, I feel you Yahaba), we disown furries (for good reason), and you confront people staring at you! This IS a flirting 101 textbook. (also yes Yahaba, murder Mattsun!)

The art of fighting in heels by boxofwonder (T) 8.7k // yeah don’t question this fic. It’s like,,, you just kinda,,,, well,,,,,, I mean who doesn’t want to read about Iwa fighting in heels? Like you’re not thinking about magical guy Iwa? Maybe you should. (the way the summary has nothing to do with KyouHaba, I swear they’re a main component, but no thoughts just Iwa in sailor moon cosplay.)

yahaba vs. the miyagi captains by blessings (T) 3.7k // I love this hc and I wish there was more of it because Yahaba picking fights with everyone is fun and I like the chaos :D Like honestly, the creativity of some of the burns? Just amazing, it filled me with serotonin. I’m not kidding :0 But like, Kyoutani having to make sure that he doesn’t go overboard was askfkahf.

Love the One You Hold by shions_heart (T) 3k // f tough KyouHaba, I’m here for the soft, loving KyouHaba. Like mushy feelings KyouHaba, the kind which makes me feel singler than I already am single. Reassuring of feelings and ajsfdhla KyouHaba. The ending is KYAAA!!! Caution for implied bad parents!

a thousand and one roses by rorarot (T) 3.4k // I love florist Kyoutani and it’s honestly a crime I didn’t recommend more florist Kyoutani fics :( Points for the pun, Yahaba, points. Also, the progression of their relationship was YES, and this fic was SUPER cute :D

It Takes Two by Poteto (G) 24.1k // IT’S COHESIVE KYOUHABA WEEK! I really loved this fic and I enjoyed how they incorporated each prompt into each day! There is homophobia and running away so be careful when reading this fic, and check the tags!

So I Like Your Dog by helloyesIamtrash (G) 4.8k // FIRST, this is within a series of soulmate AU fics (all in the same verse) and SECOND, this was really good! I loved the way Yahaba’s family are a bunch of late bloomers and how YAHABA DIDN’T LET THE MF RUN AWAY. Yes communication, WE LOVE AND STAN.

but tonight i'll need you to stay by InkCaviness (G) 2.2k // the feels were strong with this one :’( Pushing my SOFT KyouHaba agenda. But I LOVE this one for the feels and also because they don’t dance around it. Just straight forward, random a confessions. It’s a great time. But also, I can’t believe he slipped LOL.

Down River Road by carafin (G) 4.4k // I love list fics, I think they’re great and I think I might just have a thing for lists in general (LOL). But also, I love the growth both of them undergo over time and the interactions with Oikawa in KyouHaba fics are always fun :)

I (Heart) You by darkmagicalgirl (T) 3.6k // I really like this fic. Like REALLY like/love. Maybe it’s the ending where Yahaba goes ham on that one guy. Or maybe it’s the magic. I think it’s just cause it’s written spectacularly. But no seriously, it’s a great fic and I really loved the AU :D

Five Times Kyoutani Failed to Say 'I love You' (And One Time He Didn't) by patteh (T) 3k // a 5+1! Yes! TBH I don’t understand the importance of saying ily to your significant others (maybe it’s just because I don’t understand romance very well LOL someone explain it to me), but if it’s important to them, IT’S IMPORTANT TO ME. Also, Kyoutani is dog agenda, full force ahead.

Baby steps (or 'Yahaba's guide to applying eyeliner on a grumpy puppy') by ghostsgf (G) 1.5k // more Yahaba and eyeliner fics! Of course :D If you can’t tell, KyouHaba nation and I really love Kyoutani + eyeliner, so yes. Eyeliner. But also, fractured arms and toilet adventures!

baby don't hurt me by orphan_account (M) 4k // LET ME BEGIN THIS WITH THE A/N AT THE END. YES I AGREEEE. Also SMUT alert but like nothing really happens? And again, while I don’t 100% get the ily thing, this one makes more sense to me and I can see why Yahaba got angry. We love crying boys though ahaha.

Retrograde by dreyars (T) 19.5k // AJFJLSFJLASD ANGST THE ANGST AND I- I love amnesia fics, they have such GREAT angst potential (which was totally used in this fic YES!) and UGH this fic. The feels you go through while reading this but ALSO THE ENDING! YES I LOVE. IN LOVE. THEY’RE IN LOVE YOUR HONOR.

restless by Crawlingthroughashes (T) 2.4k // PLEASE the petty Yahaba agenda is back and the way I ajfhdjkadshlf when he started his plan. BRB CRYING (of laughter ofc). Also the CONFRONTATION. Smooth Yahaba, oh so very mf smoooooth (very much so nailed it). Sugar high trick-or-treater in bunny slippers.

The Time Yahaba gained a boyfriend by sammysosa157 (T) 3.8k // PLEASE I saw the post for this fic and it was SO funny! I really loved this prompt, and the execution of it was done really well. Boo for weird food combinations, though ig if you’re in college and you’re broke, you gotta do what you gotta do :/

wanna give you a kiss by Slumber (T) 2.8k // kith give kithes muah muah (omg I’m so sorry you had to read that no regrets tho ahaha only shame). But this fic is SO cute and boyfriend chicken is fun :D Like the fluff in this fics is just so AJKKJAF and like Watari knows best.

Touch by tetskuroo (T) 2.4k // aihdjk PLEASE. This is SOFT! KYOUTANI! and non a hole but pushy! YAHABA! There is HUGGING cause WHY NOT! But the soft Kyoutani agenda is getting pushed hard today LOL. I mean the mans starts to turns the waters works ons. What more could you possibly need? (other than a cuddle session cause why tf not >:( and me to write normally LOL)

what the night does to the day by deathbyglamour (G) 9.9k // AHH HOGWARTS! I realized I forgot to add this fic to the Hogwarts list and I was so angry at myself. The potion version of our get along shirt :) I loved this fic and their relationship development was lovely :DDDD

Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back by Asimi_Shadowborn (T) 30.6k // I love magic AUs and this was ahdjsjjfjs. The trope was amazing, the execution was flawless, and the communication? Nearly nonexistent just how we like it :’) it’s a great read and you’ll regret nothing.

Baby, I bought a dragon by tetsuskitten (T) 1.1k // AJKSFHKJ WITCHES. I love them being witches/warlocks cause IT’S AN AMAZING TROPE DUH. But like the dragon made me laugh, the conman Kuroo is KJAFN. But yes, THERE’S ANOTHER FIC AND IT’S AJSHKJASF YES READ <33333 (why didn’t I just put it as a series, cause I forgot and then I got lazy, leave me be.)

Thorne-blessed by fish_wifey (T) 19.4k // (again, another that HAS ANOTHER FIC but then I was too lazy to transport it up to the series section deal with it.) But THIS YES. First tattoo artist Kyoutani is a sight to see. But also, Yahaba is baby. And like the ending of how it all got resolved was so satisfying and the conflict execution was really creative :D CAUTION FOR THIS ONE, some bullying and violence-ish!

what a wonderful kind of day by qingting (G) 1.2k // PLEASE. I love it when Kyoutani talks to animals, it fills me with joy. But also, ofc points to Yahaba for the new nickname, dog whisperer. Cute and I like it more than Mad Dog chan. Also, Kyoutani’s thoughts on Yahaba were funny and are worth the read LOL. I like pats too, Shiromaru.

what becomes of broken hearts by plumtrees (T) 8.1k // OOOOF some angst right here. Like I’m in paiiiiiiin. But you should read it so we can be in pain together :’D Like the way we had to witness the falling out AND the break up to be happy again. UGH. Just don’t think too much and jump in.

we both know what we know by Slumber (E) 4.7k // UHH EXPLICIT FOR A REASON LIKE WITHIN THE FIRST SECTION I THINK BUT THEN IT CONTINUES AHHAHA. But also, riling Kyoutani up and just teasing him in general? Fun times (at least Yahaba thinks so LOL). But like also, random thought but the comments on the (fake) IwaOi divorce made me laugh LOL.

new constellations by thealmostviki (G) 4.3k // reincarnation AU, but it’s like non linearish! It’s really good and the writing is very eloquent :D I really loved this fic and the ending was UGH adorable! I love references and the way they still feel things in the next lives :’) Milk and honey guys, milk and HONEY.

FINALLY DONE. WHEW. I hope you all enjoyed these fics, and ik my commentary got/was super bad but pls just pretend like you’re not seeing it. I swear once upon a time it was informational but now it’s just me writing random sht down LOL. Again, I love KyouHaba so this honestly was a lot of fun to make (even if I kept complaining about it) and I ended up not splitting the list hence why it’s so long! I hope I made all of you into KyouHaba lovers cause it’s one of my favorite ships :D

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Omg, can you analyze my big 3? If you don't want to you can ignore this lol

Mine is Sagittarius sun, Aquarius moon and Leo rising

hehe hiii and yes sure! can't ignore a sag ^_^

zodiac ask game

sagittarius sun

okay i did this earlier so i hope u don't mind me copy pasting/paraphrasing... bc i went feral with this one lmfao; sags are genuinely my top FAVOURITES. i could talk to you guys for hours because AJRKDS you're just so fun and witty. great listeners and very easy to get comfortable with! i wouldn't be afraid to say the weirdest shit with you guys because you're so chill AND I JUST LOVE YOUR SASS AND HUMOUR SO FUCKING MUCH like i'd let you guys roast me bc you do it well LMAO could say you're a little quick-tempered, which can make you a little blunt with your words? it's not that you do on purpose, but fire signs are usually on-the-go type, so you need to have an outlet somewhere maybe? it really depends on your patience, nevertheless you are extremely bright, and ik sags were and always are capable of making me see the bright side of things, even if they're not very motivated themselves. are you addicted to things you're familiar with because the idea of change kinda scares you? uncertainty and the lack of clarity could just send you into a spiral sometimes, right? you're not set in your ways, you just feel like sometimes there are so many paths to choose from, and choosing just one path seems so fucking overwhelming. at least that's my experience with sag suns. nevertheless, you guys are understanding, and even if you don't understand someone's state of mind (due to how curious you are, you will eventually), you won't judge them for it. i see u have a fire sign (leo) as your rising too... could i say that whenever intense emotions come into perspective, you kind of lose control and it impacts your self-confidence?

aquarius moon

i did this earlier too! but i'll personalise it a little so it's a more relevant to your respective chart: i suppose this part of your chart accounts the part of you which likes to be alone? aquarius moons thrive in isolation, but not in a bad way. they like to do things on their own, and i could say you feel pretty detached from everything and everyone at times, correct? that's probably because you're used to be a loner, and people may point out how distant you actually are, maybe without you even being aware of it. you could say you're emotionally detached? and that makes it hard for you to bind close relationships. nevertheless, you are really good at communication. aqua placements generally treasure communication, and again, i'm guessing you're great at listening due to this. people find your serene nature to be so comforting, making you one of the most calming placements to be around. the aquas i know are extremely understanding, and not in the least judgmental. an ideal type of conversationalist, if you're around people you are comfortable with. now for you, i'm guessing it's hard to cope with how fierce your emotions can be sometimes since aquarius moons are more or less... detached and calm. pretty much versatile? fire signs (sag, leo, aries) are on-the-go, right, so perhaps you're torn between dealing with a problem slowly and wanting to get past it asap, which can lead to more stress and conflict. it really depends on whether or not you prefer to feel. nevertheless your sag sun really contributes to your social skills, and your aquarius moon just adds on to how reliable/caring you are.

leo rising

did this earlier too! but i will elaborate a bit more: all i can say is that: if you know what you want, not much can stop you from getting there (depending on how self-reliant you are). you have a pretty chill aura, but i suppose people would perceive you as enthralling if you're comfortable enough around them, especially if they give you the liberty to be yourself. people may view you as caring and supportive, and accuse you of having a heart of gold, which many people won't hesitate to take advantage of. it is nice to have a little attention directed your way, no? your sense of security varies with how people view you, so being praised is something you don't mind, but being insulted is something you can't take. leo placements are generally classified as leaders, but leo risings don't mind being lone wolves either, since overwhelming circumstances (crowded places, panicky situations) send them into a fit of agitation.

okay i can tell you're a friendly person? depending if you're comfortable with someone? literally all these placements make up one of the most friendliest, charismatic signs, but you aren't a pushover. i say that because one, leo placements have ego (good thing, not bad) and they don't really tolerate it when people try to step over them. can be defensive/protective too? sags don't tolerate bs either, and aquarius moons are reserved, but this kinda balances out everything. like you can be aggressive, but you can all be passive, depending on how well you can read a situation (you're a sag, i bet you're good at reading ppl's energy /gen) your aquarius moon hinders you from being too rash, your leo moon provides you with confidence and anything else which can offer self-defense, and your sag sun can help you adapt to people's energy. ngl your chart was one of the hardest to decipher i'm sorry if its not that accurate!!

#asks.txt #zodiac.asks #zen <3

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Hey Pia hope you’re doing well

I was wondering, is the thing where Arden picks up a bunch of random hobbies and commitments a part of his ADHD or does it have like a name?

I’m a highschool student and I get told by all my friends and teachers that I have overcommitment issues and part of it’s just for uni and whatever ofc but it’s also that I want to do ALL THESE THINGS

Like I’m in 4 different science competition teams, the school debating team, school orchestra, scholarship classes, editor of my school newsletter, I lead the school amnesty and unicef clubs plus the IB program and being in the national maths Olympiad team lol and I don’t want to let any of these go but it’s so stressful and I’m so tired and ppl say I have to say no to stuff which is also stressful!

Also, doing more is always portrayed as such a great thing and I feel rlly guilty letting stuff go? So I’m just reaching out because you portrayed it in such a refreshing way and I was really curious!

Firstly, massive respect for your ability to fit this ask into the Tumblr ask limits. Seriously :D

Okay secondly, Arden’s habit of picking up a bunch of random hobbies / commitments is part of his ADHD. People with ADHD have this to different degrees, and my beta in particular relates really hard to this habit of Arden’s.

But actually, one of the reasons I put this in is because this is a very bad habit of mine - which is overcommitting, and overworking. And not wanting to let anything go.

People teach you a lot of skills in your life on how to pick things up, but almost no one teaches you what to do when you have many hobbies you love, and they’re hurting you because you’re working too hard and don’t have time for your loved ones (or to even really have loved ones) as an example. And it absolutely is a crucial skill to learn for people who are dealing with this, though capitalists don’t want you to learn it.

In the media what I see is most folks having no hobbies and someone being ‘oh you have to learn some.’ I liked Arden as a contrast to that ‘no, that’s too many things, put some back.’ Where Arden’s ADHD manifests - though it’s much more controlled than it used to be - is that he desires to spend a lot of money on the thing as soon as he gets into it (because he only wants the best of the best - which wasn’t great when he wasn’t earning much money), and that he starts really hooking into it in an obsessive kind of way. Spending a night making bows for your dog is one thing. Then wanting to spend $500 and start an Etsy store small business is like...from one day of work, not great.

A lot of Arden’s life has involved choosing to let go of things he’s loved doing, for his own sanity. This is something I’ve had to do as well and I fucking hate it, and these are the techniques I’ve developed for myself (and my still frankly overcommitted ass, who has people saying ‘when are you going to do LESS’ all the time to my face).

* Remind yourself that dropping some things now doesn’t mean you’re dropping them forever. It doesn’t have to be permanent. Sometimes it’s good to put a time limit on something. ‘I’m going to drop this for four weeks / four months and put a note/reminder in my phone about it right now.’ Chances are high you are not going to be as interested in that thing in four weeks/four months. (Chances are sadly also high you may have replaced it with something else). Like, there will be science groups you can join for the rest of your life. And debate groups. And newsletters.

(That being said, none of those things count towards our grades in Australia? So I don’t know how much these things are counting towards your grades in general and I’m not going to like, touch that side of things - however overcommitment is a super fast way to do a lot of things not that well, or to suddenly get so sick you can’t do any of the things and then feel terrible while you’re sick, more on that later!).

* Time caps on certain hobbies and activities and commitments. This is to actually shoot my habit of hyperfocusing in the foot. I don’t have time to play piano for four hours, but I’m allowed to play it for ten minutes a day (sometimes more but not often). And ten minutes a day adds up over time. I literally sit down and put the timer on my phone. If say there’s something that meets up twice a week but some people only go once, be one of those people!

* Rate the things based on how they contribute to your a) career and b) quality of life and c) happiness. Anything that rates lower on the list compared to the others (that isn’t like, literal money-making work or literal classes) needs to be dropped.

* Dropping things is just actually one of the hardest parts and there’s no real trick to making this easier. I just remind myself: ‘Just because I can do this thing, and do this thing well, doesn’t mean it’s good or healthy for me to do this thing. I need to spend time with people I care about, and I need rest, and those things matter more even if they feel less like ‘accomplishments.’ I want to care for myself through my hobbies, not punish myself.’ That goes some way in keeping perspective, but look, ngl, it sucks to drop commitments if you have an accomplishment/achievement/job satisfaction addiction. It just sucks.

* Accept that you are going to feel guilty, and that guilt is just an emotion, and it doesn’t mean you’ve done something bad. Look sometimes guilt gets it wrong! Sometimes you feel crushingly guilty just for breaking a bad habit, it’s not useful, you just have to kind of be like ‘huh I’m feeling a lot of guilt for trying to look after myself, that’s really interesting, I guess I can understand that but I’m also going to try and praise myself for doing a great job. Just because this isn’t an obvious kind of achievement, I know I achieved something really big and difficult today.’

* Oh yeah, use achievement and ‘job’ type language for doing things that involve successfully taking care of yourself and your energy levels. Just...sometimes you have to ‘if you can’t beat them join them’ - chances are you’ve never been as kind to yourself or proud of yourself for resting and taking it easy and seeing friends, than you are for taking on too many commitments. So...challenge yourself to be kind to yourself and proud of yourself for resting and taking it easy and seeing friends and committing to less. Trust me, you are never going to forget how to overcommit, and you are never going to become lazy or lax because you dropped a few of the (billion) things that you’re committed to. You can afford to praise yourself for this! And generously!

* Seriously, seriously consider seeing doctors or psychologists about this. Despite a TON of PTSD, I actually see my therapist most for working too hard and overcommitting. We spend a lot of time talking about why I might not be the worst person in the world for taking a break. Take it seriously. Your list alone made me feel like I was about to have a panic attack, lmao, your friends and teachers are right, you have overcomittment issues.

* Workaholicism and work addiction is real. There is a growing amount of information about how to deal with it and it’s worth googling.

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Er anyway that’s what I do. It doesn’t always work. I have a lot of rules in place and I abandon half of them about halfway through the year and then s u f f e r. And have been doing that for over 25 years and I’m going to say bluntly now - it’s why I’m as sick as I am, and some of that sickness is irreversible. If nothing else, if you want to stay as active as you are now, I do not recommend that anyone push themselves so hard that they can no longer even do things that they enjoy on a regular basis, because they’re too physically debilitated to manage it, because they pushed their bodies too hard during the university years and just after. Because that is 100% why I became so sick in the first place.

And even extremely healthy people who have no history of chronic illness often develop something, in conjunction with years and years of working too hard or overcommitting. I’ve seen it happen to far too many of my friends, and you might feel like ‘just another six months’ or ‘just another three years’ but you’d be surprised how quickly you can go from ‘I’m doing it I’m doing it’ to ‘I keep getting migraines all the time doctor how do I fix this so I can go back to working as hard as I was before’ and your doctor being like ‘...yeah this isn’t curable. I’m going to give you some meds, that all come with horrible side effects, and you simply can’t do what you were doing before.’ Game over.

Trust me, that shit catches up with your body always. It might not be now, and I hope frankly it’s never, but overcommitment and workaholicism are the two fastest ways I know to chronic illness and once you get there, you can’t work your way out of it again.

Though god knows I have tried.

#asks and answers #personal #workaholicism #work addiction #like if you start stress grinding your teeth #for years #because you can't sleep well #because you're working too hard #trust me that will be over ten years of absolute misery and agony #as you crack your own teeth #because once you start stress grinding #you never stop #oh one final thing to keep in mind #you have been brainwashed by capitalist rhetoric #to believe that working is the greatest virtue out there #if you don't want to be a capitalist stooge for big business #unpacking overcommitment psychologically #even outside of impulse issues #can be pretty meaningful #but expect to need to do it more than once #because you will get that brainwashing all around you #for the rest of your life #(it's like body shaming sadly it's just everywhere)#some of my friends are going to read this advice and be like #WHY AREN'T YOU DOING IT PIA #tons of sympathy anon it's hard as fuck #seriously anon if you don't want to spend your life with a fucked up body FOREVER #learn some crucial skills now #administrator Gwyn wants this in the queue #Anonymous

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floraone · 3 years

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2020 Fanfic Year In Review

So, as is tradition now, I’m bringing @irritablevowel ’s fanfic review back and maybe you guys want to join me!

1. List of fics completed this year:

Completed Stand-alone Fics: 9 (Same number as last year woot!)

The Unintentional Seduction of Chiba Mamoru Confession Deception Valse Triste Memories Saudade Blind Excuse Me, Ami Wrote WHAT?! The Chances We Don't Take

And usually I don't list the short stories from my running series(es?), but… I figure since I NEVER will mark those as completed, I'll stop not counting them lol?

So, in addition, I wrote the following shorts (9 as well!):

Crying in Purgatory Mamoru in Drag in my Miscellaneous Stories And They Were Zoommates in my Miscellaneous Stories His Bunny Mug in my Miscellaneous Stories Mamoru, My Girlfriend in the Lemon Tree Series Playing Outside in the Lemon Tree Series Oh Crap There's Doujins of Us in the Lemon Tree Series Pretending in Purgatory The Kings New Clothes in my Miscellaneous Stories

2. Number of words written:

234.290 words this year. In 41 chapters and 12 stories.

That’s almost as much as last year even though I expected to barely hit 20k words with the busy year that was predicted for me in January - and well, then I had a lot of free time at home that I did not expect to have. Let's see if NEXT year will be the 20k year lol?

Anyway, this is a lot more than I thought it was. A LOT MORE. It felt like way less!

3. Your most popular fic this year:

The Unintentional Seduction of Chiba Mamoru (by FAR, both by favs and reviews and kudos and hits)

Runner-Up: Deception

4. Your personal favourite this year:

For the first time ever, the most popular is my favorite, too. Seduction has my heart (Especially Chapter 3: Research. Obviously.) Runner-Up for me is Blind, though. Simply because that was such a personal fic!

5. Your favourite scene:

Hands down, Mamoru researching How To Do The Sex in Seduction. That was the most fun I ever had writing a scene, let alone a chapter.

6. A fic or scene that challenged you:

Mamoru, My Girlfriend. Because I wanted to do well not only by gender-bend tropes, but especially by anyone who ever felt they were in the wrong body befitting their own gender identity.

7. A line of writing you’re proud of:

I'm pretty proud of Valse Triste. Both because SilMil is not where my talents lie, and also because I got to subvert the Casanova-Prince trope and turn it on ist head, make him the Protected Maiden instead while keeping his character completely intact.

Anyway, that was hard, and because of that, I'm fond of this scene:

She didn't bat an eyelash at the ruckus outside, at the - to her - so foreign, bellowed words. Instead, her eyes were wide and calm and waiting and jumping between both of his, as if she were trying to look through him, as if she was searching for something, and he held his breath in careful, terrified anticipation until she found it.

The bark of the dogs rang off the palace walls, closer, and Endymion held his breath as the Moon Princess slowly stroked her fingers down his jaw, his neck, and dipped into his collarbone.

Every tendon in his neck was pulsing, his breath a heaving mess, his heart hammering in his chest, and he stood as still, still, still as he could.

But he couldn't keep the shiver in. When she ran a finger down the part in his tunic, the laces splitting open at her pull on them, her cool fingers against his burning chest.

His skin - his whole body - broke out in goosebumps where her fingernails brushed untouched skin.

"And?" she whispered to his lips, moved up onto her tiptoes. "Do you want to stay untouched?"

"No," he croaked, breaking and hushed in the dim, dim light. "No, I do not."

8. A comment that touched you:

This is ALWAYS THE HARDEST QUESTION FOR ME, EVERY YEAR. WHY MUST I CHOSE AMONG GOLD.

Anyway. I'm lucky in the review realms. I really, really am. So choosing is hard. @daikon1 wrote me a 20k+ character review the other day I wept on. So that one is up there. I also randomly screenshot reviews that made me happy though, so here, have a random sample of reviews I screenshotted from my phone gallery (i loves them):

9. Something that inspired your writing this year:

This year it's all about the fandom friends. Talking to you guys has been a HUGE driver of my (struggling) pandemic-creativity. Also brought out things like spontaneous collaborations like the one with @nari20 where The King's New Clothes jumped out of!

10. Your proudest accomplishment (that one scene; finally finishing that one fic; posting your first fic; etc)

Honestly? This year? Writing at ALL. I'm an extrovert soul who thrives on crowds and people and while I am ABSOLUTELY in 100% support of social distancing and do it very diligently, I SUFFER AND MY CREATIVITY SUFFERS WITH IT. So, yes, I am proud to have made words go at all this year, ngl!

11. Do you have any writing goals for the next year?

I really do want to write that smutty Evil!Endymion fic I've been talking about… And a Snow White AU or two I've had in my drafts for almost a year now!

Anyway, yes, this year was HARD but MAN did this community here keep me afloat and I am SO. FUCKING. HAPPY. To have you! So yeah, thank you for being here with me! For interacting with me, be it through tumblr, through chats, through reviews, through my ask box. You were a WHOLE DAMN LOT of my much needed social life this year!So, thanks for being here with me!

Also, PLEASE consider yourselves tagged! All of you who want to!!! Please!

Self-love is precious and needed and I wanna see your recap posts as well! So, getting this started, I'm tagging you 5: @daikon1 , @idesofnovember, @tinysagi, @allyunabridged, @ninjettetwitch - go forth and write me recaps and tag others!

Mwah! 💋

#fanfic year in review #self-love #fandom love #my fic #my stuff #I WANNA SEE ALL YOUR RECAP POSTS TOO #on reviews

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that-was-anticlimactic · 3 years

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I was tagged by the lovely and wonderful @zukosaturtle-duck :) thank you, Ellen:)

1. name/nickname: Corey actually is my nickname! My full name is Corrina but when I first made an Instagram fan account in 2012, someone asked my name and sixth grade me panicked and said Corey! I’m sick of having my name mispronounced even after correcting them, so I like giving people options:) I’ve also had two teachers accidentally call me Corona in the past year so I guess that’s a nickname too lol

2. gender: female

3. star sign: Capricorn

4. height: so. I haven’t measured or weighed myself in literal years because I just didn’t ?? Last time I measured myself, I was 5’1 1/2, but I think I’m 5’2 now?? Maybe 5’2 1/2???? I should probably measure myself haha

5. time: 12:31pm

6. birthday: December 29th

7. favorite bands/groups: ... I listen to Broadway:) so I’ll just name my favorite musicals: Aladdin, A Chorus Line, Come From Away, and Starry:)

8. favorite solo artist: ummm again, I listen to mostly Broadway so umm I’ll just name some more musical I like: Dogfight, Finding Neverland, anything by Team Starkid, Into the Woods, The Lightning Thief:)

9. song stuck in my head: Love Thy Neighbor from The Prom

10. last movie: Legend of Everfree

11. last show: I’m actually currently rewatching Psych (like literally right now I’m watching the episode Shawn (and Gus) of the Dead as I type this). It’s, in my opinion, the best live action show out there.

12. when did i create this blog: imma be real— I don’t remember?? Either 2017 or 2018???

13. what do i post: my blog used to be Ninjago, but now it’s a mix of atla / lok, Ninjago, The Hollow, and pretty much any cartoon! I also reblog some musical stuff, friendly reminders, and just stuff I think is important! I do post fanfiction on occasion as well! Love reblogging art because I can’t draw for crap and seeing beautiful art is 🥺🥰

14. last thing i googled: “when is kiss of the spider woman set” I was on a face time with my internet friends last night and every night I practice trying to say all of the MLP episodes in a season (alternates by night) in order, so I did s5 and then my other friend was like “gimme a year and I bet I can name all of the Tony nominees for best musical every year” and we were double checking haha

15. other blogs: this is my only blog akbekejrj

16. do i get asks: sometimes! The majority of my asks have to do with Sokka with Tourette’s headcanons or anything with TS, and I love that:)

17. why did i choose this url: my favorite word is anticlimactic and one of the scenes that made me laugh the hardest in Ninjago is in s5 ep4 when Cole thinks the other three are playing a prank on him and they’re running after him and Jay screams “DON’T OPEN THAT DOOR” and then nothing happens and Kai just goes “... well that was anticlimactic” and it’s just my favorite thing ever and I’ve considered changing my url to zukkaclimactic but I love that line so much I’m wjevjebr

18. following: 253 (crap I should follow more people wksbejje)

19. followers: 434🥺 thanks for putting up with my crap, friends🥺

20. average hours of sleep: hahahhaha umm god question. not sure. terrible sleep schedule, just ask Grace lol

21. lucky number: 3! I just love odd numbers and years ago (like sixth grade again) my friend and I made a dumb little Ninjago number code for whatever reason and my favorite character was three and idk I’ve felt a “connection” with three ever since haha

22. instruments: I played alto saxophone in band for seven-eight years, three years in marching band and tenor sax one year in marching band and part of my junior / senior year of high school!

23. what am i wearing: lol haven’t left my bed yet today so pajama pants with cute little cartoon pigs on them and a black long sleeve shirt hahahha

24. dream job: well, I’m going to college for English education, so teaching high school English is absolutely a dream job, but my impossible dream job would be voice acting, Broadway (if I could I actually sing ugh), or I would like to write a cartoon television show (and also lowkey voice a character). I do actually love my major, though, and it is a dream job!

25. dream trip: DENMARK DENMARK DENAMRK DENMARK!!! I love Denmark. I’m literally attempting to learn Danish for fun because I love Denmark. I know three Danish sign language words (I’m also almost fluent in asl but this is Danish sign language I—) but um ahem aside from Denmark, any trip where I meet my internet friends

26. favorite food: ngl I really like tomatoes. I eat whole tomatoes like apples a lot. Fantastic.

27. nationality: american

28. favorite song: my favorite song will always be High Adventure from Aladdin. That song is so important to me for reasons I won’t get into right now because this is long enough as it is, but that will always be my favorite song.

29. last book read: hmm I think the last book I read was fanfiction uhh but I am currently reading The Color Purple!

30. 3 fictional universes you’d like to live in: bro. Bro. Can I just live in a fictional universe. How must I choose only three ??? Umm Equestria from MLP, there’s just something so magical and powerful about the world from Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts and maybe it’s the fact that in the end humans and mutes live on the surface together so that’s my number two, and uhhh the world in Land of Stories like the book world.

Oh boy the hardest part: tagging people who haven’t been tagged yet. Umm @evelinaonline (I know you aren’t on tumblr as much, but friendship is magic haha), @tikmasjiens , @dnd-beyond (my fellow starkid fan), @rainydaysammy , and @canyourscienceexplainthis (feel free to not do this if you don’t want to! There’s no pressure to do it!)

#tag game #ellen I love you #thank you for the means to procrastinate #and rant about musicals lol

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ashkazora · 3 years

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2020 Fic Roundup

Stats:

Fics Posted (Total): 13

In chronological order: Cold Floors and Warm Hearts - a fluffy shance fic about the three times Shiro accidentally wakes up in Lance’s room. Exchange fic. 3,441 words.

These Boots Are Gonna Walk All Over You - a small klance fillet based on the US tv show, The Blacklist. 639 words.

the water was dark (and it went down forever) - a Lance-centric gen fic exploring his relationship with the Blue Lion, and her control over him. 15,618 words.

Coffee Grinds and Morse Code - a post-s8, Shance fic written for the valentines shance exchange! 3,593 words.

Nectar and Ambrosia - my first Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt fill for the square ‘denied food as punishment.’ Lance whump. 2,641 words.

there ain't no rest for the wicked - another Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt fill for ‘big brother instincts,’ but this time with Plance and Lance whump. 3,508 words.

Of Claws and Steel - a science-fiction, super sentai cat armour AU entered around the Lions as futuristic mecha armour. Most underrated fic here. 14,344 words.

Hairline Fractures - another Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt fill, ‘bleeding through bandages.’ Lance whump (again). 5,059 words.

Leverage - last Bad Things Happen Bingo fill for the year, for the prompt ‘on a leash.’ Featuring Shance, and Lance and Shiro whump. 7,743 words.

Lay It Down To Save It - Leakira Klance AU written for Leakira week. Made in collaboration with @crapoftheworldblr! 18,102 words.

to the stars and back - The Dragon Prince Plance AU with Prince!Lance and Elf!Pidge. In collaboration with @rosieclark! 36,574 words.

Sweeter Than Honey - written for the Blue Moon Lance zine! Features BAMF!Lance as the honeypot on a mission. 4,098 words.

In The Closet - Klance fic for the winner of my fic giveaway. Fluffy, and definitely a bit saucy. 2,363 words.

Fics Posted (Gen): 5

the water was dark (and it went down forever) Nectar and Ambrosia Of Claws and Steel Hairline Fractures Sweeter Than Honey

Plance: 2

there ain't no rest for the wicked to the stars and back

Shance: 3

Cold Floors and Warm Hearts Coffee Grinds and Morse Code Leverage

Klance: 3

These Boots Are Gonna Walk All Over You Lay It Down To Save It In The Closet

Collaborations: 2

Lay It Down To Save It to the stars and back

Ship/Character breakdown:

Ship breakdown:

This year, the biggest ship I wrote for was Shance (3 fics), with Plance (2) and Klance (2.5) coming in from behind. The k/l ficlet doesn’t count as a full fic.

Character breakdown:

Of the 13 fics, Lance is in the most with 13 (insert surprised pikachu face here), then it goes Shiro (12), Keith (10), Pidge (8), Hunk (7), Allura (6) and Matt Holt (2). Other characters appear only once, such as Coran, Haggar and Kolivan. Technically, the Blue Lion clocks in at 2 mentions.

Characters that had the main focus:

Lance had the sole POV for 7 of those fics, and shared POVs (in a collaboration) iin 2 additional fics. Shiro had the second most POVs at a total of 3, while Keith had 1 sole POV and 1 shared POV, and Pidge with one shared POV.

Specifics:

Best/worst title?

Best title: the water was dark (and it went down forever), but honestly so many other fics has titles I liked. This title was based off of the Tim Winton short story by the name name, The Water Was Dark And It Went Down Forever, where the main character swims and debatably drowns. So it’s fairly fitting.

Runners up titles include Sweeter Than Honey, to the stars and back, and Lay It Down To Save It.

Worst title: Hairline Fractures. It’s dumb and it makes no sense. It was the first thing that came to mind.

An honourable mention includes Leverage, which would be first if not for the fact that the title inspired the ending, so it’s not too bad.

Best/worst last line?

Best: From the water was dark (and it went down forever):

Blue’s grasp on him was like an endless expanse; an opulent and brilliant ocean. Her waters were dark, and it went down forever.

This was definitely my favourite, even though it’s pretty cringe. The way it was formatted in ao3 and the way it related to the title plus the reoccurring symbolism of water made it pretty neat!

Worst: From there ain't no rest for the wicked:

Pidge laughed, and turned her back from the darkness.

I’m sorry. This ending was so cringey. I hate it. There’s nothing else to say except I have no idea how to fix it. Oof.

General questions:

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted?

tbh, I wrote a lot more, considering I had my final exams this year. Breaching 100k was crazy.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

Honestly? Klance. I’m not the biggest fan of the ship but writing it is very interesting, and I enjoyed it.

What’s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest.

Of Claws and Steel hands down! It’s the first fic idea I ever had for VLD, and the one I really love the most. One day I’d love to write a continuation of it, but the reception of the fic wasn’t great so idk.

Okay, NOW your most popular story.

the water was dark (and it went down forever) even though it was started in 2019, was finished this year and is my most popular fic of all time! It’s got 4k+ hits and 450+ kudos. Crazy, since it was only supposed to be a dumb little warm up fic to get me back into writing in preparation for Of Claws and Steel. Alas, turns out people really liked it!

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

Of Claws and Steel. It was the fic I worked the hardest on this year but got the least amount of attention :)

Story that could have been better?

Easily there ain't no rest for the wicked. There was so much plot and so many things I wanted to include but didn't. There’s a lot of things missing and bad plot flow. One day if I got more time, I’d love to write more on it.

Sexiest story?

In The Closet, hands down. It gets a bit steamy with a k/l makeout session. Originally it was going to be a lot saucier but I wasn’t too comfortable in my ability to write it well ahaha.

Saddest story?

None of my stories were sad, per se. Most of the sad ones were more scary/foreboding rather than actually being sad. I guess to the stars and back right now, because it’s dealing with Lance’s insecurities and Pidge’s desperation to find her brother (and a lot of other things, which will be revealed in the future!)

Most fun?

Sweeter Than Honey! It was fun to write and is my most fun fic. BAMF!Lance and his witty commentary is always a great laugh.

Story with single sweetest moment?

I can’t choose :,). It’s a three-way tie between Cold Floors and Warm Hearts’s last scene where Shiro realises Lance bought him the necklace, Lay It Down To Save It’s scene that I can’t say because it’s technically unpublished ;), and to the stars and back’s scene where Lance and Pidge talk about what they would like to be in life (ch3).

Hardest story to write?

Probably Of Claws and Steel, as I completely stagnated on the story for a long time. It took me 8 months to write it. Without Rue’s help, I probably would have taken so much longer. Runners up is Leverage, as it took me like a solid week to write 90% of it, and 3 more months to write the remaining 10%. For some reason, parts of that fic were such a pain to write.

Easiest/most fun story to write?

The easiest was definitely to the stars and back. I could relate to a lot of Lance’s actions and thoughts in the fic, so writing his POV was super easy and rather cathartic ngl. However the most fun was probably Sweeter Than Honey, as it was super self indulgent ahaha.

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

Lay It Down To Save It changed my perception of Keith. I don’t particularly like Keith in canon, but I’ve warmed up to his fanon self and general character after writing from his POV.

Most overdue story?

Of Claws and Steel easily! It was the first VLD fic idea I had but took 8 months to write. Oops?

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

For the first time I incorporated HTML coding into my fics, which taught me a lot about coding and different ways to convey certain messages and detail things. These codings altered fonts and colours, which you can see in

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

Write my tua/vld au fic, which will be my first solo multi chapter fic, and hopefully finish it by the end of next year. Also, sticking to a consistent writing schedule and try to write at least 100 words a day, plus finishing TSSAB. I’d also like to finish some more BTHB prompts!

That’s all, folks! Thank you all for sticking with my writing! Hopefully 2021 brings even more writing, fun times, and great fics. Happy New Years (in 24 hours), everyone!

#ashka writes #fic roundup #2020 fic roundup #MASSIVE shoutout to rue for giving me these questions #if you've read ocas ur officially my favourite person #ao3

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sapnapsdummy · 3 years

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— first burn

pairing: fundy/dream

genre: angst w/ no happy ending

warning(s): swearing, cheating, usage of fire to burn things

summary: when dream cheats, fundy decides that enough is enough.

note: lmao fundy angst is my favorite ngl,, this is also posted on ao3 !! this is based off of first burn from hamilton so i suggest you listen to that while you read !!

the cool night air slowly crept into the room as fundy opened the window. a small sigh left him as he gazed up at the night sky, goosebumps making their way up his arms. he stayed like that for a moment or two, allowing himself to pretend that what happened didn’t happen and that it was just like any other night. any other night, fundy would have made sure the children ate, put them to bed, and wait for dream to get home from work.

except, it wasn’t like any other night.

tonight, it was dream who was putting the children to bed.

and fundy?

fundy was trying to figure out how he was supposed to go on about this, after all, there isn’t really a step by step manual on what to do when your husband decides to tell the whole world about the affair he had behind your back.

especially when he told the whole world before he even uttered a single word about it to you.

fundy blinked away tears as he turned away from the window, looking around the bedroom that had once brought him a feeling of warmth and secureness, now nothing but a constant reminder of what occurred when he was not there.

the bed that he used to collapse onto after a long day, relishing in the smell of his husband’s cologne, the same bed he and his husband had spent some nights reading bedtime stories to the children on, was now just the place his husband took that wench onto and did… things.

it no longer brought back fond memories, only feelings of bitterness, humiliation, and anger.

so much anger.

as he thought about it, fundy grew more and more emotional. emotions of every sort were hitting him one after the other, like truck after truck was just ramming into his body, pushing him further and further towards the edge.

how could he? was fundy not good enough? had he not been a loving enough husband? he tried his hardest to make dream happy, he really did. he kept the house clean, made sure there was always a homemade hot meal on the table when he got home, spoke very highly of him when people asked and yet, he picked him.

he picked george.

what did george have that he didn’t?

hot tears were now streaming down fundy’s face, feeling like small droplets of lava on his skin.

he was so tired of crying, so so tired.

fundy bit his lip as a thought crossed his mind, debating on whether or not it was a good idea. he didn’t want to throw a temper tantrum. he didn’t want to act childishly. he had to be the bigger person here. he didn’t want to act like dre-

“snap out of it, fundy! you have the right to react however you want!” he whispered to himself, making his way over to the bed that now disgusted him so much. the floorboards creaked underneath him as he crouched down next to it, reaching under the bed and slide a box out from underneath.

the contents of the box rattled as he picked up and set it on the small ottoman that sat at the foot of the bed. picking up that box had always made fundy feel as he did when dream had first started courting him. he used to feel so free, so in love with the man he called his husband. now, however, all he felt was deep dread and hurt.

fundy’s heart clenched as he slowly opened the box, a choked up sob escaping his mouth. countless letter accompanied with various things like pictures and keepsakes sat in the box, stacked into neat piles. fundy’s throat seemed to be closing up, his breathing becoming more and more ragged the longer he stared at the contents of the box.

“no,’ he thought to himself, squeezing his eyes shut and taking a few deep breaths, “i can do this. i need to do this. i have to do this.”

fundy shakily set the lid of the box down next to it, rapidly blinking to prevent any tears from slipping out his eyes. he sat still for a moment, just gazing into the box. he clenched and unclenched his hands a few times before hesitantly picking up the envelope on the top of the pile.

he turned it over, examining dream’s handwriting, reading the address over and over. it read the address of his father’s home, where fundy had spent this past summer with the children. the same summer dream had done what he did with him. with george.

fundy wrinkled his nose in disgust, thinking about the way his heart had leaped when he saw that letter arrive.

how naive of him.

with a few quick deep breaths, fundy slipped the actual letter out of the envelope and set the envelope on the table. he bit his lip before finally opening the folded piece of paper and reading it.

my dearest, fundy,

oh how i wish i could’ve ran away with you and the kids for the summer. i miss you all so much but, as you know, duty calls. how’s grayson? is he still bullying toby and tommy? are those two still holding hands all hours of the day? how are you, my love? are you getting along okay? i miss you so so much, my dear fundy. i cannot wait for your return with the children next week. i’ve written you twice since i last saw you and with every letter, my heart becomes heavier and heavier. i love you very much, trust that i am longing for the man i call my husband. adieu, best of husbands and best fo men. embrace all my darling children for me.

ever yours, dream

fundy swore he felt bile creep its way up his throat before he swallowed. the tears that he thought he was able to stop for now were now flowing freely, pulling a few broken sobs out of fundy.

he slammed the letter on the table and stood up, going straight to the small trash can in the corner of the room. he hurriedly dragged it over to the table before plopping back down in the spot he was sat in previously.

he sat there for a single moment, letting himself feel the hurt, anguish and just downright betrayal before he grabbed the letter along with the envelope and held it over the candle on the table.

the flame caught the paper within seconds and fundy let out a small sigh as he watched the letter that he had once cherished so much, burn to nothing but ashes.

before the flame could burn his hand, he let the burn piece of paper drop into the empty tin bucket, watching it burn before he turned back to the box.

repeating the process, fundy picked up another envelope. he examined it, opened it, read the letter, then burned it, dropping all of it into the trash can.

it all brought him a strange feeling of contentment and relief.

that feeling, however, was quickly yanked away from him as his husband entered the room.

“the children are asleep for now, the twins kept asking for you- what- fundy what are you.. what are you doing?” dream asks, stopping a few yards away from the table fundy was sat at.

fundy stayed quiet for a bit, still reading the letters and burning them, before looking up at the man.

“you know, i saved every single letter you wrote me. from the very first one all the way to the one i received before the end of summer. from the moment i saw you, i knew you were mine, you said you were mine, you said you were mine, and i really thought you were mine.” fundy mumbled quietly, lighting yet another letter on fire.

dream stayed quiet, opening his mouth to speak a few times only to shut it, choosing to stay quiet. he didn’t know what to say, he didn’t want to hurt fundy any more than he had already.

“do you know what alex said when i told him what you’d done?” fundy asks, humming when his husband shook his head, “he said, “you’ve married an icarus, he has flown too close to the sun.””

dream blinked back the anxious tears that pushed at the back of his eyes and went to take a step forward, intending on trying to console the man he had hurt, only to be interrupted by fundy again.

“don’t,” fundy said sternly, putting a hand up, “take another step in my direction, i can’t be trusted around you. don’t think you can talk your way back in my arms, clay.”

clay.

fundy never called him by his name.

he had only done so once before.

on their wedding day, during their vows.

“i’m burning the letters you wrote me, as i’m sure you’ve noticed. you can stand over there, if you want.” fundy whispered, waving in the direction of the bed as he resumed reading and burning the letters.

“f-fundy, please, just let me-”

dream, again, was cut off by fundy.

fundy puffed out a small laugh, the letter in his hands crumpling as his grip on the piece of paper tightened out of anger.

“i truly don’t even know who you are anymore, clay. i have so much to learn, nut for now, i’m rereading your letters,” he holds a small stack of 4 letters he had just read over the flame, watching the ember lick at the aged paper, “ and watching them burn.”

“fundy, seriously, i’m so sorry! i shouldn’t have done it and i should’ve told you myself! i just.. i just wasn’t thinking right, they were accusing me of fraud and-”

“you published the letters he wrote you. you told the whole world how you brought this man into our bed, in clearing your name, you have ruined our lives, clay! how do you not get that?!” fundy screamed, slamming his hands on the table.

fundy got up, almost laughing quietly to himself.

“i.. i had to! they were accusing me of fraud and-”

“heaven forbid someone whisper “he’s a part of some scheme,”” fundy yells, “your enemy whispers, so you have to scream!” fundy yells, getting closer and closer to dream with every word.

dream subconsciously took a step back, almost as if he were scared of his husband. he wasn’t, he was sure he wasn't, but fundy was.. different now. fundy laughed an empty laugh, gripping his ears, tugging them in frustration.

“w-wait- don’t do that- your ears are sensi-”

“shut up.”

fundy grinded his teeth together, finally meeting dream’s eyes again.

“i know about the whispers, and believe me, i see how you look at sapnap.”

dream fell silent.

he reached to grab his husband’s hand, flinching as fundy snatched his hand away from him.

“don’t! i’m not naive, i have seen men and women around you. don’t think i don’t see how they fall for each and every one of your charms,” fundy yelled, biting his lip as his voice lowered to a small whisper, “they fell.. they fell just like i did.”

dream felt sick to his stomach. he felt as if his insides were twisting and turning, his hands becoming shaky and clammy.

“you’ve practically thrown it all away, clay!” fundy screamed, stomping back over to where he was, picking up a large stack of letters as holding it over the fire, dropping them into the trashcan.

“now you get to watch it all burn!”

a few tears fell down dream’s face, his knees feeling weak.

this is what he had done. this was his doing. this was the result of his selfish acts.

“and when the time comes, explain to the children the pain and embarrassment you put their father through! fuck, clay, when will you learn? they are your legacy, we are your legacy!”

with tears blurring his vision and the need to spite dream fueling his anger, fundy became careless as he set letter after letter on fire, not even bothering to read any at this point. his carelessness quickly lead to his sleeve catching fire, pulling a gasp from the both of them.

“fuck, fundy, hold on!”

dream quickly grabbed a nearby vase, pulling the flowers out of it. he quickly moved towards his husband, going to throw the water on his whimpering form, but stopped when fundy put his good arm out in front of him.

“don’t.. don’t give me your pity water!” fundy yelled, wincing as he quickly ran to the bathroom attached to the bedroom.

he soaked half his shirt as he shoved his arm under the tap, shivering at the feeling of the ice cold water.

dream was gobsmacked, watching as fundy quickly changed his shirt, roughly wiping away the tears that started flowing again involuntarily.

he looked at dream, making eye contact with him for a second. a soft look flashed through his eyes before he squeezed his eyes shut, exhaling calmly.

fundy calmly walked passed dream, not sparing him another glance.

“if you thought you were mine.. don’t.” fundy said before leaving the room.

leaving dream by himself.

#dream #mcyt #mcyters #dreamwastaken #dream x fundy #dreamnotfound #fundy #minecraft #sapnap #quackity #gerogenotfound #tommyinnit #tubbo #purpled #angst

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haikyutiehoe · 3 years

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🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

📝 What is one growth area you have for your writing?

📚 Do you read your own fic?

🌈 What inspired you to write [insert fic here]?

🤔 What is the hardest part of writing fic?

🧠 What’s an idea you have that you can’t quite call a WIP yet?

💻 Do you do research for your fics? What’s the deepest dive you’ve done?

✨ Choose three adjectives to complement your own writing.

💭 What is a headcanon you have about your own work?

daishou suga meian oriver yachi tendou ushijima semi etc

describing bodies is something I wanna enhance. I know I have it in me I just need more time to do writing studies about it

nope I throw away whatever I write onto tumblr and don’t look back or else I’ll hate myself for days

-____- no one

for me is writing so you understand the plot without me having to describe the plot in great detail. also writing short. my adhd makes me internalize the world through so many mediums, collapsing all those experiences is difficult and stressful

a lot haha it’s a suna fic idea

yes I do research. I like to do research about Japan and the setting

nope can’t complement my writing ngl

ley writes emotions you haven’t experienced yet but she has yet to release them :)

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littlepenguin21 · 3 years

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My notes/complaints/hope? on the end of SPN

(This was written the night of November 19th) My list of grievances against the last episode of Supernatural 1. There is absolutely no way on Jack's green earth Sam didn't look for Dean. When Sam got a dog and didn't look for him, Dean was so angry and sad that I refuse to believe Sam wouldn't at least try to bring him back, especially since Sam had no way of knowing a)where Dean went (Dean was even a little surprised to see he was in Heaven), b)about Heaven's reform, or c)whether that was what Dean truly wanted (he's lied before, remember?) It almost makes Sam look like a bad guy who just doesn't care about his brother as much his brother cares about him. I will acknowledge Dean's final wish was to not be brought back, but I still think Sam would've like investigated the afterlives to see where Dean ended up.

2. Cas's sacrifice was completely meaningless. Cas was always happy to bleed for the Winchesters, but his final time hit the hardest because he wanted Dean to lived so much that he admitted to happiness and caused his own death to save Dean. And then Dean dies. Like three weeks later.

3. Dean, the greatest hunter in the world, the man who killed Hitler gets impaled on a piece of metal and thinks, "yeah, this is how I wanna go out." There's no way that that's an outcome that Dean would've accepted so easily. Being killed in a vampire's nest that they already half wiped out. He could've prayed to Jack, or taken his chances getting to a hospital. His death had no purpose, other than to forced Sam to move on without Dean.

4. Why didn't Jack bring Dean back? I get that he wants to be hands-off, but he brought Cas back, and if I know anything about Cas, he wouldn't want Dean dead/separated from Sam. I'm going to choose to believe that Cas, Jack, and Dean sat down together and discussed the pros and cons of bringing Dean back.

5. The dog died. We didn't see it happen, but it did.

6. Only Bobby is seen. If they're in Heaven, and almost everyone (I see you Kevin, living your best afterlife) Dean knew and loved is there, why doesn't he go see them? All the people he couldn't save or that he couldn't say goodbye to, and he just leaves it at that? What about Ellen and Jo, Dean? You're not even going to check on them? Pamela? Jess? No one?

7. Dean rides alone in the car. Even though his best friend, his son (Jack, not Ben or someone), his mom, his other friends, and both his dads are in Heaven (and closeby), why doesn't he take any of them along for the ride? Sam gets to raise a family, but Dean can't have a road trip buddy? Even if the Covid restrictions and stuff didn't allow Misha or Alex or another guest to come back on set, you'd think they could've put a body double for Cas (or whoever) in the seat for a couple of minutes. It just makes Dean's life seem less important than Sam's because Dean has to wait for Sammy, while Sam's free to hang out with others and socialize. Even if time works differently in Heaven or something (like 40 years on earth was only 2 minutes in Heaven), Dean could've found somebody to tag along instead of just being a loner.

8. Sam's wife isn't established to be Eileen. If Sam had like signed to her in ASL or something, or we could've had some clue as to her identity, that would have been wonderful. Instead, she was just a nameless means to an end (getting Dean II).

9. The beginning of the ep establishes that there are very few monster cases. So, does that mean Sam gave up hunting? Apparently not because his son has an anti-possession sigil tattooed on his arm (even though with Rowena in charge, those tattoos are super unnecessary). Sam hunting could've been another moment that would've been okay to see.

10. The ep had a noticeable lack of inside jokes. Normally tuning into a series finale means you're going to hear callbacks to other episodes and be able to reminisce on the past. Besides the pie part, I don't think there was much of that. No jerk, no bitch. Did Bobby even say Idjit?!?!

11. For an episode that supposedly was written to resolve their family arc, the boys were barely together, and their created family was almost nonexistent (other than Bobby and his mentioning of Cas and Jack).

12. The show forced family to end with blood. Dean drove off to wait for his biological brother, while leaving Bobby (and apparently Cas) behind. Sam, on the other hand, marries, has a kid, and lives a full life, but too doesn't have his family network outside of his nuclear family. There are many living friends that Sam has that we don't see him visit because all the time is spent on his raising of his son so that his death can parallel Dean's (someone the care about tells them it's ok).

13. Jared doesn't really look old.

14. During his death, Dean wouldn’t have wanted to Sam to be left alone. They were in a vamp’s nest, and Dean just decides that he’s gonna allow himself to die with no guarantee that Sammy is safe. There’s no way Dean would do this.

15. Gay love didn't pierce through the veil of death and save the day. Instead, Dean died and we all got was a lousy existential crisis. DISCLAIMER: I'm only writing about what happened in the ep, not what could have happened. Like, Sam could've had dinner with Jody and the girls every weekend and Dean could've made out with Cas offscreen, and I would be non the wiser. I'm going off of what I saw and heard in the episode. This was written on the 20th 15. Dean died young.

16. The forehead thing was a little weird, ngl

17. Sam didn’t even try to pray when Dean was dying. Did he believe that Jack just wouldn’t listen? His dad was dying, there’s no way he would’ve left him to die. And Sam would’ve tried anything. Why did he think their (Cas, Dean, and Sam’s) son wouldn’t want to help?

18. Sam burned Dean’s body by himself. No friends.

19. Chuck got to live his life, while Dean didn’t.

Pros, I guess? 1. Sam does get a dog.

2. Dean really wasn't okay. He wasn’t coping well with Cas’s death and Jack’s leaving. That’s the only explanation for why he’d be willing to die. He was depressed, or at least hopeless.

3. They're all together at the end, even thought it isn't shown. And by all, I mean all: Jack, Cas, Bobby, Rufus, hopefully Ellen and Jo...

4. Dean likes Kansas

5. Dean finally got a kid named after him.

6. The Hunter Corp. Sam and Dean are somewhere, living their best lives.

7. The movie is possibly happening in 5 years

#spn #supernatural #destiel #spnfamily #spn 15x20 #15x20 #dean #dean winchester #sam #sam winchester #castiel #cass #cas #jack #jack kline #i may come back and add more later

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Survey #445

“you’ve got a lot of nerve, but not a lot of spine”

Have you ever created a fake internet persona for yourself? No. Do you enjoy going to weddings or showers? What is it that you like or dislike about them? Not... really. They're triggering for me. And I don't use "trigger" lightly. They legitimately, deeply affect me. It's part of the reason I've lost a lot of interest in being a wedding photographer. Is there a person in your life whom you support by showing up for the sports games, concerts, or other performances? This question, uh... sucks. Because I'm that awful aunt that doesn't go to her nephew's t-ball games while everyone else does. It's the heat that does it, but still... it shouldn't. How many video games do you have? A lot. We have a big case of them. Why did you take the last pill you took? My heartburn is especially awful today. Has a girl ever stayed up with you all night? A guy? A girl, uhhh... maybe? Idk. A guy, yeah. Do you think guys look good with makeup? Hell yeah. How long would you wait to become sexually active with someone you’re dating? That would just depend on how quickly we deeply bond in a relationship. I wouldn't go that far before I knew I was in love with them, though, so it definitely wouldn't be quick. Do you enjoy a good debate or prefer keeping the peace? klasd;jkla;jfklwdj I HATE confrontation, so I strongly prefer to keep that peace. Debates rarely ever stay civil, anyway. Can you ever see yourself and your ex back together? One, easily. The other... I wish. But it won't ever happen because I fucked that relationship up way too much. Are you thinking about anything that’s upsetting right now? Yeah. My PTSD is being really bothersome. Would you ever want to ride in a canoe? Yeah, sounds fun and peaceful. So long as I'm not rowing, ha ha. When did you last see an attractive member of your preferred sex? Did you speak to them? Do you think you’ll see them again? Two days ago. Yeah, 'cuz he was my personal trainer. I don't plan on quitting the gym, so I'll probably see him around there now and again. Have you ever tasted baby food? How about pet food? Save for when I was a baby, obviously, no. I once tried a guinea pig yogurt treat, ha ha. How many times have you had your heart broken? Once romantically, twice overall. Actually, no, four. Quite a jump, I know, but Teddy and Jason's mom both dying was nothing short of heartbreaking. Think of the person you fell hardest for. How many people has he/she been in love with, besides you? One, before me. I don't know about since. Find 5 people on your Facebook friends list, whose names begin with K. Who are these people, and how did you meet them? Katherine: an online friend. We met on YouTube. Kim: she's my stepmom. I met her through my dad, obviously. Kelly: a high school friend. We met in art class. Katelynn: was Jason's old friend's former girlfriend. We met through said friend when we all hung out together. Kieley: she's the wife of who I call my "big bro," a close gaming friend. We met through Sam, the aforementioned friend. Sometimes do you wish you lived in a fantasy world? Yeah, who doesn't? What would you say if the ex who hurt you the most told you they hated you? "I don't blame you" or something to that effect. Have any of your friends dated an ex/previous crush of yours? I don't think it's accurate to call her my "friend," but Jason's first girlfriend and I are friends on Facebook. I'd love to get to know her better and actually be *real* friends. One word to describe the last person you kissed? Strong. Has anyone ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend with you? You could say that. Does your hair have layers? No, not anymore. Who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom. Have you done something recently that helped someone else, in any way? I don't know. Which Disney princess do you think is the most beautiful? Why? Probably Jasmine. I just think she's really pretty. If you’ve had a bad experience in a past relationship, did you find that you were scared to get into another relationship, in case the same thing happened again? I'm terrified to this day to start new romantic relationships. I had so many panic attacks about losing Sara when we first started dating. If you were going to buy a present for the person you love/like, what would you generally choose? Absolutely something Frieza-related. If you met the celebrity that you most admire, what would be the first thing you’d say to him/her? Probably just "oh my god, thank you" and start crying lmao. Is there something you generally always ask for help with? I'm sure there's something, yeah. When was the last time you cried? Today. Do you like sausage? Yep. Ever held a newborn animal? Kittens, yes. Do you know anyone with a dual citizenship? Uhhhh maybe? Have you been called a bad influence? Yeah. Like she had ANY room to talk. Do you get stage fright? Yes. Would you be excited or annoyed if your favorite book was being made into a movie? Both of my favorite books are also movies, and they're wonderful. Do you need structure in your life or do you prefer to just go with the flow? I require structure, for sure. Without it, my anxiety goes rampant. Change is something I do not cope with well. Post a picture of you from one year ago. No. Have you ever written a fan letter? If so, who was it to and did you receive a response? No. What trait(s) would you not want your children to inherit from you? My mental illnesses, primarily depression. I have A LOT of reasons for not wanting kids, and my poor genetic makeup is even one of them. I don't want to pass on all the shit I deal with. What is the worst place you’ve woken up? Waking up in a shitty bed at the ER while waiting to be transferred was never one of my favorite things... Are you the type of person who has to study to make good grades or does it just come naturally to you? Aha... I was lucky in that once I heard something in school, it had a tendency to stick. I didn't need to study very much at all - usually. When on YouTube, what types of videos do you mainly watch? Mostly let's plays. What was the last conversation you had with someone about? Sara and I were kinda fangirling over how cute Maieykio and Rumours are, ha ha. Do you have any currency that’s not your native country’s? No. Can you describe your father in one word? Complex. Do you still watch movies intended for children? Yeah. Hell, I probably tend to prefer them. Who is your favorite stand-up comedian? That's living, probably Gabriel Iglesias. What is your strangest phobia? Probably whale sharks. Which part of your state/province do you live in [upper,lower,middle]? I live on the eastern side. Who in your life can you count on the most? My mama. Would you rather eat your pizza cold or hot? It depends on what I'm up for. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? No, I'm not a fan. Last thing you drank? Pink lemonade. Have you ever thought you were going to marry someone? Sure did. The belief was clearly mutual. But I ruined that. Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down? Sara or my mom. Have you ever thought you liked someone, and then found out that you really didn’t? See: Girt. Describe the last dream you had that you can remember. It was actually... really fucked up, so the squeamish beware. I don't remember the details, just the shocking part: a little bird flew into me, and I thought it was a bug, so I crushed it in my hand. Heard and felt the bones break and it was just... ugh. It's nauseating to recall. I'm sick and tired of dreaming of only awful things. Any current family issues? Not any big ones that include everyone. The only "issue" that really exists in my family is how my mom feels like Ashley (my older sister) avoids her, and therefore Mom doesn't see the kids nearly as much as she wants. She feels very overlooked. Whose room of the opposite sex were you in last? When? Uhhh, probably my nephew's? Sometime when I visited my sister's house, idk. The last movie you watched with a friend? Elf, I think. Have you ever played with fire? Uh no, because I'm not keen on being burned. What industry do you want to be a part of when you’re older? Art, in some form. Who do you usually text the most? Since Sara and I started chatting mainly on Discord, definitely my mom. Have you ever been surprised with breakfast in bed? No. Llamas or sheep? Sheep. Have you ever seen anyone famous in the street? No. When do you plan on moving out? Whenever I'm in a long-term, stable, happy, and healthy relationship. I really don't at all think it would be healthy for me to live on my own. What’re you going to be for Halloween? I'd actually love to dress up this year seeing as I've really been feeling the holidays, but the money to like... make a recognizable costume isn't really with us. So I'll ust answer as if I had it, in which case it would be a handmaid from The Handmaid's Tale, but with fake blood splattered over my stomach region. Will you buy a cake for your next birthday? We always do for b-days. Do you like brownies? BITCH I love brownies. Have you ever dressed up as a witch on Halloween? Yeah, as a kiddo. Have you ever been to a masquerade? No. Do any girls like the last guy you kissed? Maybe, I don't know. Do you have a second mom? I have a stepmom, if that's what you mean. When a bee is coming close to you, do you stand still or run away? Ngl, I gtfo. Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex? I haven't hung out with Girt in around a year. Really need to change that. When you go out to eat, what sides do your order with your food? Fries. What is your winter coat like? ... I actually don't know if I have one? Did you do well at fitness testing in grade school? I did fine. Are art museums interesting or boring to you? Interesting. Inspiring, even. Do you know how to use an ATM? ... No. :x How about write a check? uhhhhhhhhhhh... Are you Italian? Not to my knowledge, no. We don't know my dad's heritage. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings? I commented on one of my sister's Facebook posts earlier. Are you interested in photography at all? Very much so. Do you own an acoustic guitar? I don't believe so? Ashley had one when she was waaaay younger, but I haven't seen it in forever. I think Dad might have it. Can you talk to your parents about anything without them judging or bickering at you? Because you said "bickering," no. Mom knows how to pick fights on a lot of things... Who was the last person you took pictures with? My sister when she came to visit a few months ago. What is the wallpaper on your best friend's cell phone? I'd be willing to bet it's either her and Jem or Frieza. Do you melt butter to put on your popcorn? No. We get the movie theater butter kind. Do you consider flirting cheating? Sure do. Have you ever been on probation? No. What is normally on your Christmas list (if you celebrate it)? A tattoo and meerkat stuff. Do you like KoRn? They're one of my favorites! When you were little, did you pick up worms? Do you pick worms up now? Ha, I did. I would sometimes dig just to look for them, especially if I knew Dad was going to take me fishing later that day. I don't like touching worms nowadays. Would you ever go see a stand-up comedian? Yeah, I think it would be fun. Do you have any best friends that you only know online? BEST friends, not current ones, anyway. I've met my current best friend. Have you ever gotten into a physical fight? Nope. Do you have a problem with swearing? No. What do you do when you see a spider? My reactions vary. If it's a tiny little thing, I tend to ignore it. In most cases, admittedly, I get my mom to come kill it. :x I really, really want to get on a level where I can just cup the spider and take it outside. I want a few types of spiders one day (tarantulas, jumping, and velvet), after all, so I really should get used to interacting with them. I know in my gut they're nowhere near as dangerous and scary as your head makes them seem, but it's so instilled in you (most "you"s, anyway) from a young age to stay away from spiders, so it's fighting almost like instinct. Do you have big dreams? Meh... When is your father’s birthday? Sometime in April. The 16th, I think? Maybe. Are you interested in anime? Yeah. They can have some great stories. Do you eat three meals a day? Most days. Are you part German? German and Irish make up most of my heritage, yes. Do you dream of being a porn star? Uh, I can confidently say no. Have you ever been on a farm? I have. What is your favorite type of muffin? Blueberry, I think. I like the moisture it adds to the muffin. What is the last type of salad that you ate? Just your normal one with iceberg lettuce and ranch. What do you usually put on your waffles? A layer of peanut butter and then some syrup. You NEED to try it. Would you rather have a cottage on the beach or in a forest? A forest! Name all the people that you talked to today. Online, through texts and in person. Mom and Misty are all, I think. Do you know a schizophrenic person? My half-sister. Did you ever watch Sailor Moon? If so, who is your favorite? I did. I don't think I had a favorite character. Name the last 3 people you kissed and list one nice thing about each one. Sara: she's very loyal. Girt: he's funny as hell. Tyler: he, uh, cares a lot, I guess? When was the last time you felt EXTREMELY depressed? Why is that? Yesterday, actually. I was passively suicidal just over... a lot of things. Would you ever dye your hair pink? I want pastel pink hair anyway.

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