#please I'm so lonely ):

[iceid]

Yearning for the quiet intimacy of living with my partner. The mutual trust, the quick understanding of every word and look and gesture, the shared looks, mumbled half-sentences and words we made up to describe things only we understand. Knowing where they are, what mood they're in, what goals they're working toward.

Knowing they'll be inside when I open the door of our house.

#please I'm so lonely #wlw yearning #longing #sapphic #wlw #dark academism #lesbian yearning #love #dating #dark acadamia aesthetic #intimacy #wholesome #lonely #need to love and be loved #lesbian #lesbian longing

[ruyalarincadisi]

Everyday I check the Pedestal (game) tag... To see a new post. Even something like "I'm playing Pedestal" would do. BUT nothing new at all 😭

#gem talks #please i'm so lonely #i'm one of the two people who played this game and got a brainrot #and the other one is my friend #maybe i should draw aoi and akari myself.... i'll see what i can come up with!!!

[ddejavvu]

come chat with me while i write celebration requests!! i wanna talk to youuu

#tell me about your day #ask me a question #talk to me about our favorite characters #please i'm so lonely

[katoninefandoms]

Is it too much to ask that a pretty girl would also think that I am pretty and want to kiss me on my lips so that I can die in peace?

#sapphic #bisexual #a gay lady #weeping #please i'm so lonely

[lil-tumbles]

Okay it's finally done.

Hello, people of Tumblr! Please, please spread this survey. Send it to your kids, your classmates, your niblings. Help me out here. I need people who did their GCSEs in 2022 in England to do this survey on the impact of COVID on GCSE results. It's for my EPQ. I need 100 respondents. Please, Tumblr... The fate of my grade rests in your hands.

Here is the survey: https://forms.office.com/e/tYkks2UfHe

Also, if you got this far, here's some GIFs from superwholock below the cut.

Also, I know y'all like polls, so here.

Listen: Sam Winchester may not have been able to complete his education, but he'd want someone else to complete theirs and do well, so do this for him:

And for you Lockers? You know your guy Sherlock is smart and autistic, like me. He'd want another smart autistic person to succeed and get into a good uni (did I mention this EPQ is my big grab for a top university?). Then I can become a top detective or whatever idk I didn't watch the show I'm sorry but if you do this survey and tell me you're a Sherlock fan who saw this in the tags then I swear, I'll watch it. For you. And my grade. Please.

Finally, doctor who, my beloved fandom. I love you all so much- well, maybe not all of you, but I appreciate the fandom as a whole for everything you've done for me. The word count of ff I've contributed to this fandom (AO3: z_in_a_blue_box for proof) should tell you all how much I love this show. Here, have gay people, and go do my survey. Please. I'm begging you.

The Doctor would say to always help people when you can. This can be your kind act of the day. "Always try to be nice, never fail to be kind". Please.

Thank you, fandoms of Tumblr. I appreciate you all.

#tumblr #help #personal #polls #science #psychology #COVID 19 #surveys #epq #btw if you have epq questions ask away! msg me! #please I'm so lonely ): #doctor who #twissy #sherlock #johnlock #gif #supernatural #spn #sam winchester #gifs #superwholock #ao3 #gcses #link #readmore #autism #poll #tumblr polls #england #uk

[phantomarine]

Four years (and four very distinct kinds) of Phantomarine Valentines Day Pics 💗💛💙

#phantomarine #valentines day #valentines #webcomic #i'm so lonely and sexy please don't leave

[supemaeve]

You really will do anything to hurt me, won't you? So… what are you and William cooking up? Hmm? Maybe you two brought that supervillain to town.

#queen maeve #homelander #the boys #i'm having so many feelings about this today #i sometimes forget maeve is the only person who's ever called him that aside from his pseudo father #they are so much alike #these two together would've been unstoppable #whatever side they would've chosen #the world is lucky maeve didn't join him fully #though how cool an au like that would be #i really need maeve to be there when he's killed or whatever #she has to #i need to see that full circle moment #diabolical please i'm begging you give me an episode with them when they were younger #not even dating yet #just #lonely together #anyway i will stop now #or i won't shut up at all #my gifs #maeve

[moodyseal]

I got too deep into the Schema Theory while writing the paper for one of my exams and it got me thinking about Apollo's coping mechanisms yk

Basically the gist of this theory is that, in the eventuality that their primary needs are not satisfied during their formative years, a child might develop a bunch of different behavioural schemes in their adult life (which are too many to be listed here oh my god) that are a direct reflection of how the parent failed them during childhood

For example, one of these schemes is emotional deprivation, which is a person's tendency to emotionally distance themselves from other people due to the fact that they believe they won't be able to comfort them, and it's a scheme that's formed due to the guardian not satisfying the child's emotional needs. Basically it's formed through a "If my parent couldn't do it, then how could others?" sort of mentality

Another one, which I believe is very relevant here, is the sense of failure, which originates due to the guardian's immensely overbearing nature and the continuous dissatisfaction with the child's efforts. As an adult, the child in question believes that they're inept at everything, even if evidence points to the contrary, because of the fundamental belief that they hold that they're a failure

(Does it remind you of anyone?)

Now, these schemes tend to go hand in hand with modes, which are essentially coping mechanisms that the person uses to deal with whatever life throws at them and whatever negative emotion these schemes bring on. One of these modes is the *squints* scheme overcompensation? Anyway what it says on the article I got the info from is that basically people who use this coping mechanism tend to do the opposite of what their behavioural scheme tells them to do. If they're ashamed, they put down others. If they feel like a failure, they boast. (Again. Who does this sound like.)

AT FIRST it seems like a good coping mechanism but it's actually not, because the overcompensation leads to this vicious cycle where the more a person overcompensates, the more the scheme worsens. In Apollo's case, the scheme we're examining here is his sense of failure; in his overcompensation mode, to avoid feeling incompetent he tries to constantly put himself in the spotlight, drawing attention to his talents. However, he does it in such a ridiculous way (perhaps actually in some form of self-sabotage?) that the people around him insult those talents, call him a failure, and thus worsen his feeling of worthlessness.

(This might be tied to the punitive scheme as well, maybe? Considering how keen Zeus was on punishment, Apollo might've developed this scheme as a result, though over the centuries it could've shifted its focus from everyone to just him idk. The change between "I'm punishing everything and everyone for being so stupid, even my own son + this Ptolemaic god who breathed wrong in my direction" to "Actually I'm chill" seems pretty suspicious to me tbh)

ANYWAY all of this is to say that everything he does is so intrinsically tied to the damage Zeus did to him that it hurts. All his behaviours all his coping mechanisms. Everything

The arrogance is not just a façade he built over the years to hide his feeling of unhappiness and guilt!! It's quite literally an abuse response!!!!

And yeah maybe Leto was the one who spent the most time with him and Artemis and who took the most care of them so technically she should be considered his figure of attachment instead of Zeus but then again. How much time did Apollo spend beside her compared to the time he spent at Zeus' side, after the twins became Olympians? What do a few moments with her in a year do against entire centuries with him?

Leto's influence never really mattered. He was doomed since the beginning

#or rather not doomed just. really sad. thank god he's got friends now #shamelessly wrote this so i can memorize it better #it's a very fascinating theory though #i really recommend a read #btw some of this might be wrong bc a) i study medicine and not psychology and b) it's 4 am #actually almost 6? god i'm sleep deprived #anyway please don't mind it #it was just for funziessss!!! #trials of apollo #lonely thoughts #might delete later idk i'll see if this still makes sense in a few hours

[mocc-tok-flip-flop]

The submas brainworm is only getting stronger, so I have drafted a whole-ass comic for a new AU idea! One where Chandelure gets to take center stage and become the main character she was always meant to be~

The gist of the AU is that Chandelure has a ghostly soul-bond with Ingo, which essentially means that his soul is under her protection and he sorta registers as a ghost to other pokemon. Basically protects him from other ghosts trying to put their sticky paws on her trainer and also gives the two of them a bit of an empathetic connection. Not quite telepathy, but able to transmit complex feelings and lets them check how badly they're hurt.

Naturally, this means that when Giratina (who was honestly just trying to play around. They were given the tedious task of just opening rifts and looking through all those peep holes made them curious. So when they saw a soul that had a beautiful ghost bond, they became fascinated) snags Ingo and drags him through, Chandelure immediately feels when Giratina's power accidentally tries to overwhelm Ingo's soul and she absolutely loses her shit. Through psychically screaming and using her protective aura to try and bash Giratina, the distortion god acts like a dog that's done something they shouldn't and tries to hide the evidence of their messing around (Ingo getting fucked up via soul and getting not too gently dropped off a mountain).

I have more ideas, especially relating to how Emmet is taking his brother's ace losing her mind and how her actions affect the investigation, but if I keep going down these tracks I'm going to end up with another 90k WIP fic like i did with Naruto. (Though if people wanna see the AU written out...👀... I could absolutely be convinced. I'm very weak...)

#Whew...that's a lot of text for a silly WIP #but I honestly haven't drawn a comic in like 4 years so I'm actually kind of excited to finish this piece #not sure if I will do more...maybe if people have questions better answered through drawing... #poor Giratina. dude was just lonely #I kinda wanna have Chandelure have a Mystery Dungeon adventure to round up pokemon to rip through time and space with her #And of course she can't really communicate with Emmet #So his world is falling apart around him and his brother's beloved pokemon's insanity makes it seem like he's dead #oops...Chandelure please inform your trainer-in-law before the police arrest him on grounds of suspicion #aaaaand I went crazy in the tags too #oh submas boys...look what you've done to me... #submas #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #pokemon #my art #art wip #giratina #are there other submas/pokemon tags? I have only recently gotten into the fandom here on tumblr #Once I have a name for this AU I'll tag it

[lunarharp]

figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..

#to cheer me up.. i feel bad atm.. these things don't even make me feel very good tho bc i'm such a narrative/sketch-based artist.. #but Proper Beautiful Finished Pieces are what grab attention and look good at the end of the year all neatly lined up lol..... #so looking at a “yearly review” where i can only choose 'the best image of the month' (??) is like...What have i even been doing... #i did a month by month look back on twt for myself instead..but even that doesn't express the quantity of comic-based stuff.. #that i do put a lot of time/heart into..but alas i feel bad bringing even them back..RTing/reblogging my own art simply feels bad lol.. #AND WHY IS IT ALL B&W...trying to accept that i LIKE doing that and sketching and scribbling..not like i'm trying to like..Get Artist Job.. #this year was so profoundly lonely at times bc i spent all my time drawing instead of socialising and trying to find friends.... #please please please have achieved more of your dreams in the future so you can look back at 2023 and think.. #It was good that happened so that it got me further to the future. Or whatever i guess..................... #regardless i did have a great amount of fun drawing and improving this year and dwelling deeply & heavily on witch hat atelier. #art-wise and emotionally....march july & september were the best months i think..AUGUST WAS SO WEIRD SUMMER IS SO EVIL ALWAYS. #thank you very much if you are reading this for enjoying & leaving nice tags & such like <3 i've realised how fulfilling that is to receive #really keeps me posting stuff here instead of keeping it all to myself in my head #i wish everyone in this world could have a safe and happy end of year. i wish living in this world were easier

[idyllic-affections]

good morning. neuvillette with a dragon!child!reader who, once everything blows over in fontaine, goes to find furina and gives her the biggest hug. they've known her for a very long time. and many times, perhaps she almost, almost cracked to them... but her resolve stood strong every time, and she would backtrack with a laugh and some dramatic flair.

while they can't understand how badly she must have suffered, because they aren't human and their mind is not so fragile, they can at least imagine it. and they can't help but think that maybe she doesn't want to be alone right now; she's been alone for five hundred years. if she wants to be left alone... that's fine, and they know she'll tell them that, but at the very least, as one of her best friends (perhaps her very best one), should they not go check on her?

idk i'm going to play her story quest today probably so i will return with more thoughts!

#aphelion speaks 🌸 #this post is not about neuvi i am sorry for leading you all on like that 🙏🙏🙏 /lh #EVERYONE. GO APOLOGIZE TO FURINA. RIGJT FUCKING NOW. APOLOGIZE TO HER. #LIKE. HOLY SHIT. #i felt so bad for her that i almost CRIED and i am not even exaggerating #i know we are all so enamored by neuvillette and how he genuinely loves the people of fontaine #but can we PLEASE take a moment to talk about *furina* and her love for her people? #because holy shit. holy shit dude. #she must have been so so so lonely for so long #but she KEPT ON. RELENTLESSLY. FOR FIVE HUNDRED YEARS. #yknow #i know the whole point was to destroy the throne and the position of “archon” #but.... man. furina is fontaine's archon and she always was. as far as i'm concerned. #she persevered out of love for those like her and even went as far as to relentlessly + #+ do her own research into what was causing the disaster #she tried so hard. and fucking NO ONE apologized to her yet. #FURINA LIKER AND DEFENDER APHELION REAL 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

[s-aint-elmo]

that tidbit in @kchzndrvh‘s post about nana transferring a lot bc of her family and therefore being incredibly lonely is kinda making me a little insane. bc in that situation kids typically either wall themselves off and stop trying to make connections OR present themselves in a way that invites interest and fosters connection (even if their presentation is dishonest or the connections are shallow). and the way that nana clearly went hard on the latter option—making herself appealing by centering others and making herself available to counsel or comfort them, then feeling worthless when she perceives that her help isn't needed (as seen in overture my best friend overture)—makes me SO sad. just. the image of this desperately lonely kid who got it in her head that to be loved she has to be needed, and to be needed she has to be useful. who chose to be useful by being kind and nurturing and offering her love one baked good at a time. kinda tragic kinda heartwarming (as many things about daiba nana are)

#revue starlight #daiba nana #mine #do you understand. DO YOU UNDERSTAND #i love daiba nana so much. the way that she's so kind and so loving and so lonely and so UNWELL #THE WAY. that this adds yet another layer to her Fated Stage(TM). she'd finally found the love and community she was starved of growing up. #of course she'd want to stay. by any means possible #i'm not over it. she chose to keep loving and keep putting herself out there even if the way she went about it eventually became untenable #and also insane and concerning #big banana character of all time #this was supposed to be a dm but if there's something i want to be known for in the revstar circles it's spiralling over daiba nana #so here it is for the world (my cherished revstar followers and mutuals) to see #if you want to buy my silence in the public arena please tell me there's a revstar discord

[theladyvalkyrieskyeart]

I'm on the firm belief that Ascend Astarion cares that you broke up with him but because he's so full of himself and his ego is the size of all of Faerûn that he will never tell you that he's hurt. He would rather throw himself to a pack of wild ravenous owlbears than let you know you have hurt him.

#ascended astarion #this post is brought to you by me watching a video of AA epilogue with a Tav that broke up with him #she refused his offer to become a spawn #and he was so pathetic #“I'm doing great. GREAT i say!!!... I'm not lonely at all!” #sir please #you still think about Tav and their hair and lips #so pathetic #i say with love lol #i love AA exactly because his propensity for being pathetic

[larsified]

THIS IS ME IF YOU EVEN CARE </3

now i need tumblr moots please love me

#lars ulrich #metallica #this is me #literally #he's so real #looking for moots #i'm lonely #love me please #RRAAAAHHHH