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twoheadedfather · 8 months

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d0llyxtears · 7 months

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I never planned to be an adult…. Why am I here ??

#tw vent #tw sui ideation #passive suicidality #sui thoughts #actually traumatized #actuallymentallyill #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression

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altbutterfly · 3 months

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(jeżeli ktoś nie lubi czytać o myślach sam00bojczych to niech lepiej nie czyta tego posta)

Chciałabym se p0dciąć żyły mocno i głęboko aby kr3w lała się bez przerwy, umrz3ć w spokoju i nikogo nie oglądać, wiedzieć że już nie będę musiała żyć dłużej na tym świecie.

#sui thoughts #depressing shit #self h@te #sorry for being depressing #tw sui ideation #suic1de

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nemosopenletters-blog · 8 months

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Tonight will be the night. Somehow. Some way. I'll find it.

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nihilisticscarification · 2 years

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can i fucking drop d3🪦d already?

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entity56 · 2 months

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i dont think i can make it to my 20s

#sui ideation #sui mention #sui thoughts

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twoheadedfather · 6 months

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i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to

#tw suicide ideation #tw sui ideation #sui thoughts #sui ideation #vent #childhood trauma #trauma #childhood abuse #childhood neglect #complex post traumatic stress disorder #cptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #mental illness #mentally ill #toxic parents #fuck literally every single person who had the power to help me and didn't🖕

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cryptidscene · 10 months

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Chronic Pain and PTSD Nightmares.

#mumbles #trigger talk #sui thoughts #traumacore #ventcore #cryptids photography #📷#personal photos

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altbutterfly · 3 months

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nienawidzę tego że mam ochotę sie p0ciac ale nie moge bo boje sie ze ktoś zauważy

#sui thoughts #depressing shit #$h tumblr #sorry for being depressing

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yuristarwars · 7 months

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I don’t even know where to put this. I’ve been having intrusive thoughts all week and I wanna die so badly. I don’t feel like I can talk to any of my friends about it because I don’t wanna burden them with something else bud god it’s been so bad. I don’t even know what to do. I really wish I had a normal brain I wish that I was normal

#sui thoughts #sui tw #Sh tw #vent post

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weedoman-no-omori · 3 months

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YALL I BETTER NOT GET DMs ABT THIS POST i s2g im fine but i just need to be able to write this out to the void where it won’t burden anyone specific and dump on them, and also where mandated reporters cannot use it in a medical setting to keep me from going home bc none of the psych wards close to me have accommodations for wheelchairs and severe degrees of chronic pain . sorry but ye >_<

Tw for suicide and grief and shit. it’s just everything man, it’s EVERYTHING !!!! ToT

i dont know. i dont knoooow aaaah!!! idk how i woke up after 4 overdose attempts this past week and didnt even go to the hospital. nothin nada fuck all babey. off balance and feeling heady ? FUCK YEs??? But jesus christ i guess now our only hope is renal failure as a complication later down the line (JOKING). Lol. maybe idk. well ive sort of come to the conclusion that if 100 pills of diclofenac on tuesday followed by 48 bendadryl tablets the next night PLUS every thing we took on Monday night and monday morning with alcohol isnt enough to due meh in~ well BABEH~~ maybe it’s just not my time >_< also my entire outlook on grief has changed drastically in those 3 days. like i get it now i understand a bit better than any other attempt ive made in relation to friends who were successful in their suicides that sometimes everything is too much and hurts too bad and sometimes the only way to stop that hurt and those aches and that pain is to apologize to those around you that love you and . be like. hey im sorry that my peace has to come at the expense of your grief but i CANT do this. </3

#.txt #khamiyus.txt #proceed with caution #tw sui ideation #sui thoughts #overdose tw #grief tw

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unfilteredrealities · 1 month

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I’m a ticking time bomb. I do not know when I’m going to explode.

Having audhd , cptsd, chronic illness, being disabled and somehow pushing to go to work since 2 years already 40h a week.

I do not know.

Where I get this power from…I most likely am in severe spoon debt.

I work 8 hours and then after work I rest 6 hours , I eat and then sleep 2-8 hours depending how severe my insomnia is, or my overthinking or my anxiety or my chronic pain or there is a flare up.

It’s difficult this week especially. It’s my 7 year anniversary of still being here after attempting. Each year it doesn’t get easier but my body is still giving me psychosomatic symptoms and flashbacks.

I still remember how peaceful I felt , I heard myself think “Just close your eyes. It’s okay. You are safe here. You don’t have to suffer anymore.”

These days are so hard bcs I have suicidal ideation again and I’m thinking about it more than usual.

But I don’t really want to burden anyone with it again bcs everyone has their package to carry.

The thought though of eternal peace and the final decompression sounds like this warm safe embrace I am longing for 😞

I’m definitely not doing okay. I’m telling this to this void that echoes.

#everyday echoes #unfiltered realities #echo rambling #echoes echo of today #chronic pain #unfiltered life #mental health #neurodivergent #mental illness #chronic fatigue #suicidal thoughts tw #suicidal ideation tw #sui mention #sui thoughts #i’m not okay #flashbacks

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iloveyouemanuelmarco · 2 months

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Hm, maybe that Sonic The Hedgehog meme about never trusting how you feel about your life when it's past 9 PM is right because when I wake up and it's during the day when I'm not at school atleast, I'll feel lonely but at the same time just be super bored and fall asleep through it or something before I get home and look at random braindead internet content from other neurodivergent LGBTQIA+ people before chatting with myself with rambles that go so deep into thoughts that the idea itself become obscure and meaningless with obsurdity. Then when I get home and hours later get ready to go to bed as the sun settles down into the night, suddenly I start to realize that for all my life I've never truly been super physically intimate with someone I know irl and might never have a romantic relationship dynamic with anyone that's here still in the universe/dimension I am in right now unless it's like an unhealthy and immoral one with an older man you fell inlove with over the interwebs who turned out to be a manipulative perverted monster to you before I slowly start having another mental breakdown while I lock myself in my room about how God might be punishing me for being something I didn't and still don't know about. Literally attempting to somewhat write parts of a future sv!cid£ note in your phone's notebook app. And before anyone as anxiety stricken as me decides to report my post to the authorities for safety purposes or whatever despite me doubting that you'd care that much over a stranger from the internet on a random social media platform for other unstable individuals, no I am not suicidal at the moment nor do I want to hurt myself or others so please don't get any sort of idea on such a matter, thank you and I appreciate your supporting me by not ruining my life temporarily in that way again for no reason also I don't want to be selfish and abandon my dog whos basically still stuck as a puppy forever because she'll never know what happened to one of her owners and why his family is sad or something lmao. Anyways, I have a headache lol(Btw sorry for not posting anything on my Tumblr Blog in a little while, I was busy on my other accounts on different social media platforms with random crap as usual but that's a whatever excuse I guess. Lmfao ok I'll stfu and get out now).

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erevosvoid · 5 months

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As my self harming scars was shining in the sunny beach... Scars in my stomach, ribs, shoulders hands and legs... Many people had their own opinion : "Have you lost your mind?" , "YOU ARE CRAZY" , "wrap a stone around your neck and dive to the sea" ........ These were some of my friends, hehe

Do you know the meme with SpongeBob " i dont care" ???

That's the truth, at the end you don't have to care about the opinion of the others, it's not your responsibility. And the spirit is to be as bad mathafaka as SpongeBob is

#selfharm #self destructive tendencies #self healing #sui thoughts #healing #mental health #dark aesthetic #self h@rm #sad but true #my thougts #SpongeBob #dark thoughts #tw self destruction #self care

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twoheadedfather · 7 months

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contemplating suicide after every conversation i have (i was too vulnerable) (all i told them was surface level information about any person)

#tw suicide ideation #tw sui ideation #why am i like this #trauma response #sui ideation #sui thoughts #988blr #self destruction #childhood trauma #trauma #mental illness #mentally ill #vent #mental disorder #questioning cluster b #😭

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cryptidscene · 6 months

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IF I COULD KILL MYSELF, I WOULD

#mumbles #trigger talk #sui thoughts #traumacore #ventcore #cryptids photography

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