And the universe said I love you, because you are love.
read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/kT7o1ah
by eyluvu
Bucky Barnes has started age regressing as a coping mechanism. Steve has always helped him through his panic attacks while big, so he will always do the same while he's little, too.
Words: 2625, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Series: Part 2 of Home.
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Categories: Gen, M/M
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Additional Tags: Age Regression/De-Aging, Non-Sexual Age Play, Vomiting, Panic Attacks, Bucky Barnes Has Panic Attacks, Age Play Caregiver Steve Rogers, Age Play Little Bucky Barnes, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Past Abuse, Past Torture, Bucky has a Giraffe Called Raf bc I said so, Puke TW, not graphic, Little!Bucky - Freeform, cg!steve, Safe For Work, Coping Mechanisms, Cuddling & Snuggling, yes - Freeform, I based this off the end poem, I don't regret a thing, Minecraft End Poem, Bucky Barnes Recovering, pacis, Steve Rogers never left Bucky, They lived happily ever after, The End, Tfatws Based, Pre-Episode: s01e01 New World Order (The Falcon and the Winter Soldier)
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Baby Steps
(Oneshot. Based on TFATWS: s01e01)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x (cis/trans)female!reader
Words: 2200+
Warnings: SPOILERS!!! DO NOT READ IF you haven’t watched the first episode!! Highly self indulgent. Not exacly smut but making out. Teensy bit of angst but mostly fluff. A dangerous amount of cuddling.
Summary: You take care of Bucky in the times he needs you to.
A/N: I really just wanted to desperately comfort our metal armed baby after watching the first episode, so here this is. Hope you like it!
It was a good day you decided, with the light cool breeze flowing over your heated skin and the sun shining as bright as the determination in your boyfriend's eyes. The determination to do the right thing, to right the wrongs he was forcibly made to do.
You stood beside him in the far end of the deserted parking lot, out of the view of Senator Atwood and the hitman. Your eyes were locked onto his face as he controlled her car through the tablet. The furrowed eyebrows, those lines on his forehead, the look of pure concentration on his face as his eyes darted between the controls and her white car, overtaken by that passive aggressive expression of his, the corners of his mouth pointed downwards and his jaw tensed. It absolutely took away your breath.
It shouldn't have turned you on as much as it did, but putting aside your horny mind, you were immensely proud of your man for taking the initiative and doing all that he did to face his past and fight his demons, all the while trying to do the right thing. After all the months that you had known him and the few that you had been with him, you knew how hard it was for Bucky to confront his past while finding his place in a world which had moved on without him for decades, but he tried. He tried his best with all that he had, and you were always there and would always be there to support him through.
Like then, when he strutted over to the Senator's car and said those magical words.
"I am no longer the Winter Soldier. I am James Bucky Barnes, and you're part of my efforts to make amends."
Completed flawlessly with that dazzling smile of his.
Bucky returned with a bright smile on his face, took your hands and practically skipped out of the parking lot. As soon as you were back in Bucky's car, you pulled him down to you, cupped his cheeks and pressed a long and loving kiss to his forehead.
"I'm so proud of you, baby." You said in the quiet, eyes brimming with affection for the man.
He leaned down and brushed his lip with yours until it turned deep and his plump lips had fully captured yours. "Thank you, for being there with me."
You smiled, pressing one last kiss to the corner of his mouth and leaned your forehead against him. "Always."
On reaching Bucky's apartment, you spent the evening cuddled on that tiny couch of his under a warm fuzzy blanket. The television screen was the only source of light in the darkened room as you watched some baking show together.
He was the big spoon as he liked to be most of the time, hands wrapped around you, holding you close to him. It was reassuring, knowing that he could protect you come what may, knowing that you trusted him enough to - literally - have your back. Holding your frame in his arms, having you sink into him, his body curled around yours, his head tucked in the crook of your neck occasionally leaving soft pecks on your skin.
It didn't take long for wandering hands to slowly turn into innocent kisses, which soon developed into heated ones. Bucky eventually had you straddling his lap as he kissed you passionately. Your fingers raked through his hair before finding purchase on the base of his neck. Completely and blissfully lost in each other, you didn't realise when his shirt and jacket had come off along with yours.
It felt heavenly, having him close to you, his soft lips worshiping your body, his hands running along the bare skin of your back, mapping every dip and curve which he had ingrained in his mind, pulling you even closer than should have been possible. His lips traversed down your neck, along your collar and across your chest, leaving behind the most tender and intimate of kisses which left a trembling sensation in their wake.
You let out a soft gasp when Bucky gently nipped on that one sensitive spot right above your collar which he knew was your undoing. You were enjoying every fleeting second of it so much that you unconsciously started grinding down your hips on his. His hands gripped your hips to guide your movement. When he let out a breathy moan, you realised he was half hard beneath you, enjoying every moment of it as much as you were.
It went on for a while, heated kisses driven with a burning passion, soft moans released in the quiet. You were happy in the bubble you had created around yourselves, only consumed with the thoughts of each other and the pleasure both of you got. You hand slid down the hard span of his chest, appreciating his muscles as you went down further.
Bucky really was loving every moment of being pressed against your divine body and cherishing you with his kisses, but he realised a little too late that he was getting a little too excited. Desire coursed through his body without any restraint, in a manner he knew he wasn't ready to indulge in yet. It's not that he didn't trust you - he wouldn't have been here with you if he hadn't - he only needed some more time before he could fully lay himself bare in front of you, heart and soul.
He pulled back slowly, breathing erratically against you. "Can we...can we take it a little slow? Please?"
"Of course," You replied in an instant without any hesitation. "Are you alright? Was it something I did?"
Bucky hated hearing the concerned tone in your voice, the self-doubt, knowing that you blamed yourself, thinking that you had proceeded too quickly; knowing that he had caused it. "No, no, baby. It was nothing that you did, you were perfect. It was just...I need some more time, that's all."
You let out a sigh of relief, relieved that you hadn't unconsciously prompted him to do something he was uncomfortable with. You had been dating Bucky for a few months, but you had yet to take the relationship to the next level. And you were perfectly fine with that. Not that you had told him yet, you loved Bucky with all your heart, not because of the body he had - which was admittedly a cherry on the top, and you would have loved him even if he didn't look like a Greek god - but simply because of the man he was and the unbreakable bond you shared with him. His comfort was just as important as yours in this relationship.
"There's absolutely no rush. I will wait as long as you need me to, Bucky. I'm serious, as long as you need me to."
Bucky smiled, "I know, I believe you. Thank you, for being so patient with me."
You chuckled, leaning down to kiss the tip of his nose. "You don't need to thank me for it, baby."
"But I do," he said, intertwining his fingers with yours. "Stay the night?" He asked in a softer voice.
In the few months that you had been with him and the many before them when you had been his friend, you had spent a few nights too many to admit with him. Simply sleeping, cocooned in each other's warmth as you cuddled on the floor, talking through the night in case sleep decided to be a stranger to either of you.
"You sure?" You asked, to let him know that you were comfortable with anything as long as he was too.
"Mhmm," he mumbled, "If you don't mind sleeping on the floor with this old man, that is."
You grinned, "It never stopped me from being with my lovely hunk of a boyfriend before. It never will."
Everything was set. You couldn't have been anymore prepared for the night. With the lights darkened, the warmest of blanket draped over your couch, the fuzziest of pair of socks engulfing your feet and a deliciously dangerous amount of junk food comfort food laid out, just waiting to be munched upon, your were all ready to dive into a new fantasy series you had been eyes for a while now.
You were already a couple episodes in when the bell rang. Groaning, you got up to answer the door but any and all traces of frustration left you when you saw Bucky standing there. You knew he had dinner plans with Yori, so seeing him this early at your place startled you. What was more concerning was the blank expression he stood at your door with.
"Bucky, are you alright?"
A few moments passed before Bucky matched his gaze with yours and said, "I couldn't tell him."
"Oh, Bucky," your shoulders drooped, instantly connecting the dots. You pulled him inside the threshold and hugged him tightly. His hands slowly crawled up your back before tightening around you as he hurried his face in your neck.
You waited a moment before dragging him to your couch. You only wanted to wrap in your fuzzy blanket and hug him till the end of times and never let go. And that's exactly what you did.
Not a stone was left unturned as you comforted him, just like you did the night before when another unfortunate nightmare had tormented him.
You let him lay his head on your chest, knowing that listening to your steady heartbeat calmed him down. You curled your arms around him and held him close to you, being the big spoon he needed you to be in that moment, letting him know that he was safe and secure with you, letting him sink into your warmth, and whispered sweet nothings into his ear, knowing that he needed the love and affection and softness, all of which you had, only for him, in endless quantities.
Your fingers combed through his hair, helping him relax. You could feel the guilt and shame rolling off of him, and it truly broke your heart into a million pieces.
Cases like Senator Atwood, you understood how important it was for him to take away the unjust power he was made to give them. Cases like Yori though…
Had Bucky Barnes been in control, he never would've done any of the atrocities the Winter Soldier was made to do. But that was the thing, Bucky Barnes' control had been snatched from his own self. He was forcibly transformed into a mindless puppet for deluded, power hungry people.
James Bucky Barnes didn't need to pay for or apologize for any of the crimes the Winter Soldier was made to do, because it wasn't him in the first place. And yet Bucky had taken it upon himself to ask for forgiveness for something he wasn't responsible for. He didn't have to, but he did.
And that was what you loved about him. The strive in him to do the right thing, his unyielding will behind it. You knew he did it to relieve his own conscience more than anything else, but even then you appreciated his efforts.
You reminded with soft words and gentle kisses and loving back rubs that the path to recovery wasn't an easy one, but he was trying. That instead of cowering under a bed, Bucky was fighting his demons head on. And you were so proud of him for that. You reminded him that it was more important to focus on the fact that he was progressing beautifully, that it was alright to fall back sometimes, and that when he did, you'd always be there to catch him and help him get back on track.
"Baby steps, Bucky." You whispered softly.
You knew Yori had become a close friend of his in the past few weeks, and breaking that news to him might absolutely finish one of the most pure friendships which Bucky had formed after having himself back. It was understandable if Bucky needed a little more time, a little courage before he took the final step.
It was a while before he had relaxed enough to let you go - not that you minded in the least. What was a better way to go than being cuddled to death by the cuddle bear that was James Bucky Barnes? Nevertheless, you needed him to let you go so that you could make him some tea.
"What did I ever do to deserve you?" Bucky thought out loud as you came back, balancing two cups of tea in your hand.
You shook your head with a chuckle before handing him his cup and settling against him. As soon as the tea was over, you cuddled with him under your weighted blanket like you had before, his head on your chest, your hands gently rubbing his back, legs comfortably entangled. You were happy, back inside your blissful bubble. There was no other place that you rather would have been.
"Stay the night?" You asked.
Bucky tilted his head until his chin was resting on your chest. "Don't you get tired of sleeping on the hard floor, baby girl?"
You smiled, leaning down to press a warm kiss on his forehead. "It's you, Bucky. Sleeping on the floor is nothing against spending time with you. You deserve everything, love."
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i was t/gged by @benoitblanc to list either my favorite and most popular posts of the year 🥰
JANUARY
popular this Danbeau gifset.
favorite a tie between that gifset and this Peggy one.
FEBRUARY
popular tfatfws!Sambucky gifset.
favorite my script-to-film gifsets about iron man!pepperony (i, ii, iii)
MARCH
popular Sam in TFATWS.
favorite Bringing Up Baby
APRIL
popular Bucky being white in TFATWS lmao
favorite Peggy's 100th birthday :)
MAY
popular & favorite Buckynat + Siken.
JUNE
popular Lokius in S01E02.
favorite Mobius in S01E01.
JULY
popular Black Widow scene.
favorite Steve & Natasha friendship tropes. FRIENDSHIP, you heathens!
AUGUST
popular men attracted to Steve Rogers.
favorite Natasha + kids.
SEPTEMBER
popular Monica Rambeau in the MCU.
favorite Danbeau/Steggy parallels.
OCTOBER
popular & favorite eu gosto de apanhar de mulher bonita + MCU 😉
NOVEMBER
popular i for inspiration for the Steggy alphabet.
favorite i can't decide between my CATFA's novelisation gifsets (i, ii, iii), this Danbeau set or this Steggy one.
DECEMBER
popular this IM2!Natasha gifset for dailyavengers.
favorite this Buckynat gifset.
i'm tagging @sersi, @pegsccarter, @rhodeys, @yelenabeluva and whoever wants to do it! :) (feel free to ignore me btw)
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