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novalizinpeace · 2 months

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Okay, i had this analysis in my notes for a loooooooooooong time, and idk if anyone had take a look in this aspect of Poppy Playtime/the Biggers Bodies Initiative, but is something that REALLY make me raise a eyebrow when working in the VHS for the critters.

So, let's talk about the confuse and inexplicable choices in Play.Co while creating the BBI

First of all, let leave it clear WHY they started this project.

Everywhere it said that they start it for two reasons: The first one, Ludwig's wish to revive her daughter/relative (something that worked i guess, since we have Poppy), and second reason, the one that the company care most, to reduce cost in employees with creatures that would take orders without asking questions (yay, no healthcare for the experiments!), since Play.Co was having a huge financial crisis at said moment (Again, due Ludwig draining all the money into the poppy investigations and the creation of playcare).

Okay, till then everything's right, the project started and the prototype and Poppy were created, for this analysis, let said the prototype is just like a humanoid/android amalgam, something they created to see if it was possible to bring someone to life, so they didn't care a lot about looks. Okay, good...

Then we got Boxy Boo

WHY IN THE LIVING HELLSITE WOULD YOU GIVE HIM TEETH AND CLAWS?!?!

''Oh his cartoon counterpart have it'' No, Cartoon Boxy had ONE little pointy tooth, and tiny claws, nothing this extreme.

''His purpose was to dispose any lower-ended employees aware about the Initiative.'' okay, right, first of all, gross, second of all, what they would do with him once there's no employees? 'Cause the plan was to not have more humans working in the factory at some point, this is basically the equivalent of adopting a lion to stop a mouse infestation, wasn't more easy to force everybody to give their resignation letter? Oh right, don't wanna loose those last paycheck, i see...

Okay well, such mistake with this fella, let see the next succesfull experiment-

WHY????

''His purpose was to function as part of the factory's security.'' No, no no no don't try to give me this bullshit, theres no need for the teeth, Huggy as a 8ft tall walking anomaly is enough to make any thief or tresspasser shit their pants if they saw him, the double set of pointy teeth in that big mouth of his is highly unnecessary, where they even got the teeth?!? Nor Children or human have teeth like that!!

Well, with this clear at least we can make a kind of timeline with the rest of the experiments before Catnap, 'cause we can see theres a change between teeth experiments and no teeth experiments like catnap or Mommy, maybe they learned that giving such weapon to the creatures they're trying to control isn't the most bright idea...

But still, said leasson didn't prevent them from creating the mini huggies, that remember, ARE ALSO REALLY AGRESSIVE!

And see, they weren't create for security like Huggy, no, this one were created TO PLAY WITH THE CHILDREN, but they basically break your neck if they catch you, and also, maybe is not the biggest part of them, but they have little pointy teeth too, again, why?

I can keep going: Why created a Pug-a-Pillar so big? Maybe something half the size would be good for children and less dangerous. Why give Bunzo pointy teeth if they're just a music player for a game? Why make Catnap so big if probably a half a size creature would make the same work with the red smoke? Why let Mommy so much mobility aroung the factory? She's not just the biggest experiment so far, but she also is able to free herself in any case thanks to the material she's make of, don't mention the fact that everybody knew she was hostile with adults, what, praying that there was always a child present to keep her grounded was their best idea?

Where i'm going with all of this? Well, Basically, Play.Co was doomed till the beginning with this iniciative, 'cause instead of created more physically controlled creatures or make better security systems, they basically created killing machines with plush textures to feed the sadistic mind of a mad scientist and fill the pockets of the shithead behind the administrative part of the factory, and instead of take all the security step you should take when dealing with dangerous creatures,they just treat them like emotionless toy without batteries that they could boss around without problem, and then Poppy react all shocked while retelling it.

Endint this, i hope all of the corporative and administrative members where in the factory during the hour of joy, 'cause they fucking deserved it.

#There a lot more i want to tell #Like the things that connect poppy with the prototype #But that for another post #Poppy playtime #Nova is having a long boring day at work

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ultimateloserboy · 7 months

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sorry dhmis fandom i havent been around to ramble as much because i was off getting mad bitches and touching grass. but im back and ready to get really sappy and emotional and compare my life to old man yaoi. so anyway. do you ever think about how lonely the main three are despite being right next to each other. how they really do love each other but they dont trust each other nor do they know how to properly treat each other. like they try their best but their best isnt enough. they try to teach themselves how to love but its made them selfish. growing up in shitass nowhere alabama, traumatized as fuck, this is how friendships have sometimes felt for me. nothing is serious, everything is ignored, everything is funny no matter what. our words may sting each other but we stay silent and fake a laugh. and then those friendships would fade into weird gay bromances. and yeah those middleschool ass homo-friendships might be shitty but theres something so nice about the moments in the dark, when you realize you like looking at each other. when you realize that maybe you should be kinder. maybe you should trust them more. maybe if you hold their hand long enough and close your eyes tight enough you wont have to go back to pretending to be cruel. and it might notve worked back in middle school, we may have crashed and burned, but i still look back fondly on those moments in the dark. and now that im older, and ive learned to be kinder, and ive met others whove learned the same, im finally with someone that likes looking at me even when the lights are on. im surrounded by people whove lived and learned. like sonic adventure two am i right guys. but seriously. ive said this before and ill say it again. dont hug me im scared makes my fucked up life feel represented, but it also gives me hope. those gayass puppets may forever be trapped in toxic yaoi, but i am not, we as real people are not. theyll learn how to love and forget in an hour, their efforts are hopeless, but ours are not. GO OUT AND KISS YOUR HOMIES TODAY. BE KIND. LOVE YOURSELF AND LOVE EACH OTHER. HOLD THEIR HAND IN THE DARK AND IN THE LIGHT. THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE DESERVE MORE THAN A MINUTE OF AFFECTION. YOU DESERVE MORE THAN A MINUTE OF AFFECTION. WE ARE HUMAN AND WEVE MADE MISTAKES, AND WELL MAKE THEM AGAIN, BUT WE CAN CHANGE, WE CAN GROW, THEIR LIFE WILL NEVER CHANGE BUT OURS WILL. THEY WILL NEVER DIE BUT WE WILL. YOU ARE NOT A BAD PERSON FOR THE MISTAKES YOUVE MADE, BUT YOU SHOULD FIX THEM WHILE YOU CAN, BETTER YOURSELF WHILE YOU CAN. DONT SPEND YOUR LIFE DRIFTING AND WAITING FOR A FRIDGE SCENE TO HAPPEN. MAKE EVERY DAY YOUR FRIDGE SCENE. AMEN

#this might be about my beautiful partner and how theyve changed my life so what #i like looking at them #dhmis #dont hug me im scared #dhmis tv show #dhmis tv series #fluffybird #dhmis analysis #dhmis trio #dhmis fandom

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neptune-ian · 1 month

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this might be a bit vague but can you do an overall reading on why in internet places do they one minute worship the idol then next tear them down for making one or two minor mistakes or in general why is idols dating seems to be a bit of a scandal when its nothing of actual importance to their careers? same for when idols discuss things sometimes they get so much backlash for no literal reason or if theres a comeback song like what le serrafim did but it still got so much hate? maybe these days its probably better to be distant from group activies and admire them from afar.

Hiii! That’s an interesting question!

Why do the idols get hate whenever they are dating?

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For the fans, it’s like a betrayal for them. All the efforts they put to support their « beloved » artist, everything they sacrificed for them seem like it has not been accepted by their artists. For them, it is similar to a rejection of who they are not only as a fan but as a human that gives all their soul to love, encourage and show appreciation to their idol. The parasocial relationships they formed with the idols impacts how they view them but also how they view themselves through the eyes of the kpop idol. They feel a deep connection that goes beyond superficiality, for the fans it feels like they are a close member, a close person for the artist and that they deserve to know his life as they give their all for them. They usually think that by being this engaged, they have a chance to improve for the better the bond that they create by their time and love, they expect the artist to be grateful for all their fans did for them to reach their goals.

In the fans’s pov they really worl hard on themselves for their favorites, some don’t eat, some don’t sleep, some go to the extreme and only live for who they love for them to achieve success and they hope all their efforts would be reciprocated. The more the artists are close to the fans, the more the fans think they have rights over them such as acting like a parental figure, sibling, lover etc. Someone who knows who they are. What I feel and hear the most is « We deserve to know them! » « We deserve to own them ». It could be an unconscious thought they have and they may act on it without even knowing.

Thus, making them feel abandonned, used and rejected if they learn their celebrity is in a relationship and they did not had a word to say about it — be it positive or negative. They feel like they SHOULD, they HAVE to talk about their life because they believe they sacrificed theirs for the artist to be where they are now. It’s like the artist mokcked them and to show how hurt, sad, disappointed and angry they are they try their best to show them that they are the one in charge « We brought you there at the top, we can also bring you back at the bottom ».

What those fans hate the most is hidden things, secrets happening behind their back and them not having power/a word to say over it. It seems that they want to have control for the good of their artists without noticing how toxic it is for the idols but also for themselves. It gives them a sense of power, of usefulness and a blessing for the artist. They want to feel important.

#neptune’s tarot reading #neptune’s reading #kpop tarot reading #kpop asks #kpop tarot #celeb tarot #celebrity readings #celebrity tarot

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sagezora · 9 months

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EARLY AUGUST ASTRO UPDATE 🌞

pick a card edition

(images left to right: temple, messages, beginnings)

take a deep breath and ask yourself what you need to see during this time and the rest of early August. which ever card you gravitate to has a message for you. take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. 🫶🏾

far left image: Temple

things may not be happening at the rate you want it to but you have to trust the process! trust your vision. You are constantly being inspired by the universe. Let the universe guide you. It has a plan for you and believe it or not you are on the right path. the journey you are currently only requires you to be disciplined. You may want to lean on unhealthy habits, be impulsive or over exert your energy. There is a need to be discerning, patient and embrace commitment. Continue to do the work and learn in preparation for whats to come. Perseverance is needed. Keep going after your dreams despite current challenges. You have the strength and determination to make it through. Keep the faith and have courage. Being persistent will help make your dreams come true. If you are dealing with anxiety or having a hard time grounding yourself, take time to connect with crystals or herbs. certain teas can help with soothing nerves. Taking some space and isolating for peace could also be very helpful for this group. The number 7 may be relevant to some.

middle image: Messages

you’re currently in an era of power change. you a ready to elevate. a lot has been removed from your life to make space for the new. take time for healing during this time. the past may be coming up in a lot of a ways to remind you that you still have a lot of learning and healing to go. it is time to commit to yourself and your healing journey. a lot of opportunities may be around for you but its hard to go after it when you are neglecting the work to heal inner wounds. i know dealing with emotions and the past is hard but its needed. its time to face certain situations. take time to find some balance in your life. Focus on the areas you have been avoiding. a lot of you may be going through your jupiter or saturn return. be open to making mistakes and learning from them. Some of you may be granted second chances to go after certain dreams and goals. Its time to be responsible for your own happiness, dreams and goals. let go of what isn’t realistic for you anymore. Stay true to yourself. Be honest with yourself there will be obstacles along this journey but the hard work will pay off in the end! Trust in your unique journey. share your experiences and gifts/talents with the world. Dont let pride or fear hold you back from connecting with others because there will be opportunities to interact with the public but you have to be open to it. Pay attention to signs for guidance! The number 5 may be relevant to some.

far right image: Beginnings

take time to connect with nature during this time period. animals can be very healing and nature could be very inspiring. time to approach things in a more simple way. go back to basics. even though theres alot of sudden changes going on( alot of these changes were eventually going to happen but you probably didnt give it much attention) please know that you are on the right path and everything is happening for a reason. theres a need to be challenged and pushed out of your comfort zone. it can be frustrating and scary but beneficial in the end. a lot of doors may be closing but new doors filled with new opportunities are opening. time to make a decision and act on it. embrace the new beginnings.

take time to envision the future you want for yourself. take note of your current environment. is it serving you? take time to declutter your space. you are in search of clarity but desperately need space and to remove yourself from chaos to see.

seeking support through your community would be very beneficial for you during this time. take time to express yourself with others you share the same mindset and interests as you. a great time to go to the movies with a friend, meet others at a concert, enjoy day parties, sports events etc. A great stress reliever ! some of you could be seeing 444 or 4444

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pbeltarts · 1 year

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I can’t remember where i saw this mentioned but someone pointed out how danny NEVER cries in the show. Like plenty of characters cry, just never danny, and mind you crying is necessary for emotional regulation. The phandom can use this as angst potential. Imagine characters seeing him cry and just going: “oh shit this is serious.” or theres some kind of last straw and Dan just kinda lets it all out at once and starts bawling. Im actually kinda begging u to make a comic based on this lil detail.

Bro in a remake I would love to explore Danny's relationship with his emotions in response to how he's handling his trauma. Because it wasn't done in the original and I think its such a let down!! The only major emotion I remember Danny expressing regularly, that got a slight spotlight, was anger. And that was interesting!

But imagine Danny starting out as an anxious teen, just starting his highschool career. He wants confidence, he wants to be brave, but its not that easy- and then the transition happens. Now, on top of a confusing puberty he doesn't want (because he's trans), he's struggling with this whole other biological change that no one can help him with. He doesn't feel like he can tell his parents for fear of what they'll do, he doesn't tell his sister yet because what if she tells their parents... the only people who know is his two best friends.

And so the anxiety is still rly bad, but he's learning to just brunt force through it because now? He's the only one who can protect people from the mistake he made. He feels responsible and despite the fear he feels, he has to move foward.

(Frankly, this whole 'get through the fear' thing I think would be mounted early on, as a "starting point" where we see Danny struggling p soon after getting his powers, eventually choosing "I can't do this" and wanting to just put it away and not think about it but something happens that sort of forces his hand and he has to do something and use these powers and the success of this proves to him that he CAN do this.)

From there we see Danny go from anxious and scared, to more confident and mischievous as he gains better control of his abilities. Its still awkward at times, its still bumpy but you can see the small change over time- and then he runs into his first biggest problem, Vlad.

Someone he should be able to relate to, someone he should see as a confidant, but instead Vlad treats him like Dash does. Like a freak, a burden, a loser. And it hurts so much more because Vlad is better at everything Danny is just brushing the surface of. And when he loses to Vlad? That puts this nail in the coffin of "I have to get better faster"

So Danny hardens. Subtly at first, spending more and more time as Phantom and practicing and training and at first his friends just think its a phase he's getting through- but he doesn't get through it. He just hardens more. No more goofy Danny, or anxious Danny. Just Danny Phantom, hero of Amityville, the person who faces any monster without fear. He starts not talking to his friends, to his family. He can't open up because they don't get it.

And then he's jailed in the ghost prison. Another trauma, another nightmare, but one he can't easily deal with and escape. It puts a lot of new pressure on him, being there and being surrounded by danger, and having to operate in this way that keeps him alive- to the best of his ability. He makes it out, luckily and barely, and there begins the start of the cracking. Because it was so fucking scary.

More and more I think we should see these moments in Danny's life that warp how he copes with them and see how he changes in response to them, and how the PEOPLE he relents this to help or hinder him.

#danny phantom #thoughts #drabbles #not art #sorry for long post but i LOVE EMOTIONAL EXPLORATION IN STORYTELLING

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pumpkzsafeplace · 8 months

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anon questions 💌: dealing with guilt & vulnerability issues in a dynamic.

guilt & vulnerability issues can be incredibly hard to deal with when thrown into a new dynamic, especially when you've been looking after yourself for so long <3. so here are pumpkin's top tips to help! <3.

letting your guard down. ⭐

letting your guard down, especially after being your own safe space for so long, can be incredibly difficult. sometimes the fear of getting hurt could quickly end a dynamic before it even has a chance to begun. take baby steps, know that fear will always be there but sometimes we still need to jump into the water to finally understand the beauty of the sea <3.

❀•°❀°•❀ opening up. 🌙

opening up and trusting somebody can look different to every person. some people open up and trust others easily- whilst others battle incredibly hard. don't be fooled in thinking theres a time limit- it took me around a year to be completely open with my caregiver, and look at us stronger than ever <3. do whatever makes you feel comfortable, just make sure to communicate that you're trying so that the other person doesn't feel too lost <3.

❀•°❀°•❀ knowning mistakes are going to happen. ⭐

mistakes happen in every dynamic, platonic or not and that's completely okay! i know if you're anything like me- the moment something bad happens your mind can go into overdrive, thus leading to panic attacks and meltdowns. but honey bees, without faliure even the greatest scientists wouldn't be able to create their long standing projects. we learn from our mistakes and grow in time. even three years later, me & my caregiver are still learning about each other. it's okay to mess up sometimes <3.

❀•°❀°•❀ it's okay disagree sometimes. 🌙

just like it's okay to make mistakes- it's okay to disagree on opinions sometimes too <3. remember, you two are two completely different brought up in two completely different households that would have held their own beliefs and standards. we can disagree, argue points and find the middle ground. it doesn't harm the dynamic at all by dicussing each others sides, who knows- you might just even come up with a more knowledgable solution <3.

❀•°❀°•❀ understanding boundaries & asking for help ⭐

understanding boundaries and battling with your guilt for bothering other people might be one of the hardest things you tackle in a dynamic <3.

i know it was in mine. i would upset muself by thinking my cg didn't care- and yet i wouldn't tell them i was upset because i didn't want to overcross any boundaries & force them do something. but what we need to realise as littles is that if we do something that bothers our caregivers, or upsets them in anyway- they will tell you. they're not expecting you to pick up on make believe signs to figure them out, they're there to help and do their best too. & nine times out of ten- when you're worried about upsetting them, they're probably thinking the same about you. it's okay to be nervous, you'll get through this together i promise <3.

❀•°❀°•❀ some things take time. 🌙

building a strong relationship with someone doesn't happen over night, it takes mistakes, laughter, disagreements, learning, postivie re-enforcement. remember life is a marathon, not a sprint. people's life journeys go at different paces, you've got this i promise <3

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acourtofthought · 4 months

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I’m not sure if it’s ok for me to ask you this but I really like your posts and the way you interpret. Disclaimer: I am not antielain but I get confused with her sometimes. If anything I say comes off harsh I apologize and plz kno I didn’t mean that way. Just heads up this will be long

I guess I sometimes think ppl expect almost too much from elain. Part of it is because we don’t know much of her character/personality. Like ppl expect that she’ll do a complete 180 and prove us all wrong. I do think she will prove us wrong but not like that I guess? Not so drastic? I’m thinking similar to how Nesta grew in her book where it wasn’t a complete flip of her personality but it was a build up on it. I personally think that’s the whole point of these books it’s to learn to give love to ourselves (via the characters) rather than change ourselves or personalities”for the good of others”

So I think ppl associate bubbly chatty extremely giving bighearted personality to elain bc of how she was as human, before her life changed completely. But I don’t even see her as that back then? Basically there is a “type” I see assigned to her by fans and for me it’s just not quite there.

There is so much anti-elain content out there so I understand wanting to contradict that and disprove the haters. And I don’t mean to bash anyone, but I guess envisioning her in one “appropriate” way by fans is strange. I hear too many what ifs about her and ppl getting upset at those who don’t agree with the what ifs of her personality/character (those “what ifs” are treated like gospel)

Additionally- I saw a post of yours mention that elain might be disturbed about feyre’s pregnancy and how she might be upset with herself for not being acquainted with her powers to foresee it and I honestly love that. it’s an exciting addition to look forward to about elain, but couldn’t sjm have mentioned that in nesta’s book? Like a scene where the three sisters talk about it or something?? This is what I mean about seeing a lot of expectations for elain’s character. Dont get me wrong I love this idea and I theres a good chance e it’s true, but I have to see it be shown for her character and so far I’ve been given nothing. Also why didn’t anyone tell Elain that the childbirth could harm feyre?? Maybe she could’ve done something! That could add to Elain’s character right! Even if Elain isn’t involved with ic stuff that’s her sister. I mean, Elain was smiling at her sis by the end (could be hiding her pain of sisters almost-death maybe?). Do we really have to wait for Elain’s book to know that she was disturbed by the events of feyre’s childbirth?

An anti-elain thing I see is that she’s not very bright. I don’t agree with this. I’m thinking if she was always aware what was going on bw nesta and feyre could she have done nothing? Especially since nesta has said she would do anything for Elain’s happiness. What of feyre’s happiness u know?

Elain never hurt others like Nesta did but when it’s pointed out how kind she is, I do believe it, but I can’t help but wonder if she showed that kindness to her sister Feyre. Like Feyre is so quick to say that about Elain, and Elain did own up to her mistakes, but it’s hard not to imagine how Feyre must have felt as a kid. feyre is so sure of Elain’s love for her I’m just wondering where that surety comes from because as a reader there’s a bit of a disconnect to what makes feyre feel that way. Could it be feyre’s guilt of them turning fae? And then elain never blaming her sis for it? I think maybe a little of it is that feyre understands elain. Do you think elain is a dreamer im the sense that she wishes good things for all people? Elain did had a chance at happiness due to her family’s love for her, maybe id like to see more of it reflected for her family? Do something big for them? I know she shows them affection constantly, and i love that I think it’s so sweet, but it still doesn’t tell me enough about her. As of now, Elain to me comes off as someone who puts herself first (not selfish but just knows her worth, not self destructive like nesta ), which will be exciting to see from the classic self-sacrificial type of fantasy mc, she is someone who maybe isn’t always quite aware of what she needs to do but she was the will and desire for it, and lastly, though she focuses on her well being she is still aware of the feelings and concerns of those around her.

I guess I see that elain has some flaws and I’m okay with it. She’s probably hard on herself like Nesta is to herself. And I think she’ll probably still have a few hiccups along the way in her book which is always exciting in a book. I don’t tell myself that she’s this perfect, sweet, summerflower child who’s never done anything wrong. I think she is currently lost snd For now, could be changed later)I think that maybe this is the first or one of the few times where elain isn’t the one fully happy while others around her are l so it’s a new thing for her to understand, navigate, and find the happiness within herself and around her (she’s already doing some of that). Maybe she always found the happiness around her from things being good but now needs to find it within? Also she is now finding the part of herself she’s always maybe wanted to. Or now needs to be due to now being fae.

And why would it be wrong if she’s imperfect? What is this obsession with her being perfect knows it all who doesn’t owe anyone anything? Since the fandom likes to talk about these characters like they’re real- elain would most certainly not think of herself that way.

Maybe I’m not seeing it all clearly of her character? Sometimes it is hard for me to keep her character and personality separate I admit. I know she loves her family, I know she’s concerned about a lot that’s going on, but we only get like 1 instance of her showing anything and that’s it. So when the characters just keep saying this and that about Elain’s traits, but Elain is shown having that trait or quality once im ?? Where you at girl?

Ultimately I tell myself that it doesn’t matter how a character begins but rather how and what they grow into. I think being turned fae has forced her to do a lot of growing up (I don’t mean this in a bad way at all. As a reader, I think it’s v interesting)I’m willing to bet if sjm had done more planning from the start i would feel entirely different. I think im at a confusing spot with her character, but at a 100% hopeful&optimistic for her story kind of spot.

I’d love to hear your thoughts and If you don’t answer I completely understand. Frankly, I don’t want to add to any anti-elain discourse ( or even anti- nesta I love her) My intention wasn’t at all to bash Elain’s character. I am absolutely not an anti but if anything comes off sounding anti I apologize. I’m looking for some discussion and understanding of her honestly. I think the most important knowledge I’ve gained from your blog is that elain shouldn’t and can’t be compared to the other female characters of this series especially her sisters. I mean, none of the characters should even be compared, but yeah expecting her to be exactly the way her sisters are is not the way to go about understanding her character. I love your posts about elain and I very much like Elain thanks to you. I’m lowkey obsessed with elucien bc of you. and your posts are what got me interested in her character since you pay attention to her in such a healthy way.

Nothing you said came off harsh at all and I was excited to receive your message!

This is going to be long and rambling so I apologize in advance.

I absolutely agree that some seem to expect too much from Elain, both right now and later, especially when SJM has given us quite a bit of growth from her already and she's not going to become a completely different person.

She started off the series kind but fine with allowing herself to be taken care of. She still had thoughtful moments though, she used her "allowance" from Feyre to buy Feyre paints and to buy her father a new chisel rather than using it all on herself.

But by the end of ACOTAR, she started taking care of Feyre, planning the ball to honor her return, finding her a dress, preparing a horse and a satchel for her.

In ACOMAF, we see her apologize for failing Feyre, we see her willing to risk her engagement by letting Feyre use their manor to meet with the human queens.

In ACOWAR, after she had lost everything, she only spent weeks (maybe 2 months) sitting silently in her room in a depressed state. Then she started learning how to bake (and now helps cook for the IC) and thought of a way to help the humans, by having them head to Graysen's estate. Then she was cruelly rejected by Graysen, was kidnapped a second time but still helped save Briar and Az, then saved Cassian and Nesta (as well as many others) when she stabbed the king but then saw her fathers murdered body.

Though she mourned those things in ACOFAS, she still did not regress. She continued taking care of Feyre and Rhys's garden, began helping those in Velaris with their gardens, continued cooking for the IC. Then in SF we see her stand up to Nesta, see her offer to search for the Trove, see her go to the Hewn Cith with the others despite Feyre offering to let her stay home and despite the fact that it's cruelty bothers her.

I honestly don't know how anyone could expect anything else out of her before her own book and even after her own book, she's not going to morph into someone unrecognizable. She's not going to become a bloodthirsty, dagger wielding spy who thrives on going after the enemy and plotting their demise.

I see some claim she needs to get fed up with the others holding her back, where she'll head off on her own or seek out Lucien to help her. But where in Elain's personality has she ever shown to be rash? Where has she ever shown to be that angry with her sisters that she's going to go behind their backs to prove something? It's exactly like you said, Nesta's arc made sense for Nesta because that was within Nesta's personality.

If Elain has a problem, she addresses it with the person (as we saw in her argument with Nesta) and moves on. She was laughing by the end of SF when Nesta said "fuck you". She nearly watched Feyre and her nephew die in front of her. At the end of SF, Elain and Feyre were beaming at Nesta while Elain held Nyx in her arms.

Where in that is anyone getting the "I'm mad and I'm going to prove them all wrong!" vibe from Elain?

I have a feeling Elain's setup will be that of Rhys coming to Elain for help with something in Spring or the continent and that will kickstart her book. She's already told us that "she's part of the court and will do what is necessary" so all that we need to have happen is Rhys finally asking her to get her hands dirty. Her setup doesn't need to look like Nesta's did.

I do think we're going to see a different version of Elain when she's around her people (Lucien, Vassa, Helion, Jurian, the LoA), but to me that's kind of a given based on SJMs pattern of the FMC coming into her own once she's with her found family. So I do think we'll get more of the outgoing, life of the party version of Elain that we saw in ACOTAR, at least the Elain once she was overseeing their new manor and at the ball.

To your point about Elain feeling guilty, I don't think, if Elain were taking the events of Feyre's pregnancy onto herself, SJM would necessarily tell us that in SF. For one thing, Elain doesn't often share her deepest sorrows and regrets with her sisters. We know she's mourning her father because we're told how often she visited his grave but it's not because she sat down and had a deep heart to heart with Nesta or Feyre over it. Just like we had to wait for SF to see Nesta's complicated emotions over her fathers death, I think we'll have to wait for Elain's book to get inside her head and understand how she's processing everything that has been happening. For another, the end of SF was meant to wrap up Nesta's arc. We were meant to walk away with that HEA vibe for her character, not necessarily focusing on anyone else. I think SJM subtly hinted that we're about to have Elain's story when she closed out the book with the rose carving, when Nesta lets go this symbol of Elain and releases it into the world as a "permanent marker of beauty and good" but I don't think she wanted us majorly focusing on anyone else outside of Nesta and her journey.

For anyone calling Elain dumb, I think ACOFAS and SF prove how intelligent and aware Elain is. After Elain talks of traditions, Feyre notes her wisdom. In SF, Cassian notes how Elain had seen everything about Nesta and understood.

SJM has confirmed that Elain is a quiet dreamer, that she has a different strength than Feyre or Nesta, and that she expresses love openly in a way that Nesta always struggled with so I don't think we can deny those aspects of her personality, I'm not sure why people keep trying to claim her story can only happen if she spirals down the way Nesta did or until she gets angry at their treatment of her. I think it's more important to respect that because Elain is so different from her sisters, the start of her book might look different than what some expect and maybe she's going to simply internalize her frustrations then talk it out with them in her book. If she's even harboring resentment. I mean, SJM already had Elain call Nesta out for treating her like a child, she joined the others in the Hewn City as "part of the court", and she was laughing when Nesta swore at her and nearly lost both Nesta and Feyre at the end of the book so maybe Elain isn't really worried about resenting her sisters right now, maybe she's just glad they're all safe and alive.

I do think Feyre and Nesta see certain aspects of Elain's personality but as all sisters do, I think sometimes they are blinded by other aspects. I also think they at times see her in a way that makes them feel better about things. Like Nesta assuming Elain was fine and settled at the start of SF only for Elain to remind them that she's struggling too. However, I do think Elain isn't truly Elain around them either, that she hides some of who she is. Like Rhys said, she may have been worried about disappointing them.

And yes, Elain has flaws (as they all do). It's funny that some will claim she's one dimensional while complaining about her flaws in the next breath. If she's canonically kind, loving and makes them all laugh at times while also being flawed....then how can she be one dimensional? I think it's because some are expecting her character to look like that of Feyre or Nesta's characters and the other badass female warriors in the series (or her other series). And that's a very narrow minded view, to only think someone is interesting if they look like every other single warrior heroine that SJM has written.

And despite her flaws, she has never lashed out at the other characters and I don't think she's given enough credit for that. She was afraid of the fae yet willingly opened up her home to them, has treated Feyre's found family with kindness from the start, made sure Feyre had a special cake for her birthday and has never blamed Feyre for what happened to her, held Feyre when Feyre was breaking down after Elain's kidnapping (so yes, I do think she has shown Feyre kindness ever since Feyre returned to the human lands in book 1).

Like you said, it's not that she's so much selfish as in "I do what I want regardless of how it affects others" so much as 1) she is more of an optimist and it's not easy for an optimist to understand a pessimists pov because optimists are constantly trying to focus on what's good and 2) she does seem to have a sense of her own worth and isn't going to beat herself down the way Nesta did, at least not to the extreme level did. She can still struggle with things while not self sabotaging. It's the same with Az and Lucien. Both Az and Lucien struggle with self worth and trauma but only one of the two is constantly trying to risk his life in foolish ways, arguing against orders, fixating on things he has no control over (i.e. Mor / mating bonds), brooding, distancing himself from the group. The other, despite his sadness, tries his best to focus on what he can control and I think that's Elain to a tee (T?).

And Elain has been open about the things she wants but she's never forced others to do them for her. For example, Nesta asked Elain whether she wanted to head to Prythian in book 2 or stay and Elain said she had to stay. Because she was engaged. So logically, it makes sense that she would. But never did she insist that Nesta had to stay with her, Nesta chose to stay. Elain should be allowed to make her own choices without someone calling her selfish.

I think she definitely could be labeled as selfish in the first two chapters of ACOTAR but I don't think we can say the same by the end of that first book. Some will claim Elain was selfish for bringing up their father to Nesta when, if she were observant as is claimed, she should have seen Nesta didn't want to talk about him, but.....Elain should be able to talk to her sister about their father because Elain lost him too. The trauma of their fathers death did not soley belong to Nesta (especially considering Elain actually loved him meaning she lost someone she was extremely close with) and while Nesta had a right to say she didn't want to talk about him, Elain is not wrong for attempting to bring him up in the first place.

And your comment:

"Ultimately I tell myself that it doesn’t matter how a character begins but rather how and what they grow into"

is hitting the nail on the head. Elain was meant to start in one place then grow from there but she's not going to grow into her full self until she's with the right people in the right place. I think the reason Elain's personality doesn't jump out to many is because she's not in the right place with the right people, just like Feyre wasn't fully herself in Spring and only came into who she was meant to be once she was in the NC. And maybe the reason there was more room for SJM to show us Nesta's personality was because as soon as Nesta ended up in the NC, she was with the right people in the right place. Her struggle came from letting go of her own self hatred but it was clear that she was free to be herself, even act out, because she belonged.

If Elain was super sassy, bubbly and outgoing in the Night Court then the entire narrative that SJM has built for her falls apart. She's got her full personality on mute because she's still waiting to find her own path with her own people and it's only then that her sisters will finally see her for all that she is too.

That's what I wish some in the fandom would understand about Elain. That they really shouldn't villain-ize a character for at times seeming odd and out of place, where she's in the background and not involved in the way the others because SJM has been hinting at her having to leave the NC before she can become true FMC energy. She's not going to have that energy before her book though even when she does, she's still going to be recognizable. She's still going to be loving and kind, she's still going to make friends easily, she's still going to want sunshine and nature. I think anyone trying to keep her in the NC tries to reason away the fact that they'd be sucking out a major part of her personality by claiming "Velaris has sunshine too! She can just avoid the Hewn City!" That's like saying someone can get the same sunshine in Alaska as they can the Bahamas.

But until it's time for her full arc, SJM has to keep Elain in a bit of a holding pattern since she's been driving home the narrative that she doesn't fit in where she's at. Elain isn't boring or worthless, she's just waiting for a reason to leave the NC and do her thing (again, something that won't happen until her book) and her individual journey can not be compared to Nesta's because no matter how much she fought it, Nesta always belonged in the NC and it was made clear to readers from the start.

#elucien #elain archeron #pro elain archeron

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taptrial2 · 6 months

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still mad

like would people rather princess bubblegum didn't run a surveillance state or run gruesome/inhumane experience or purposefully disconnect herself from her own emotions and the emotions of others to avoid confronting her own complex feelings and experiences. do you just want her to never be mean. her meanness is part of her autistic swag. like, the dictatorship sucks. but as part of her story, her character, the way she navigates life and the way that narrative shifts over time... it's an excellent narrative tool. and you're complaining because an important character isn't 100% agreeable to your real life moral sensibilities. jesus.

like..... im not a "fiction never affects reality" person but also it's pretty clear you're not supposed to be a fan of the surveillance state she runs. narratively it's ok for characters to be bad people and hurt others. there's these things called character flaws, conflict, and character arcs. and sometimes bad things or people need to be in a story. sometimes characters dont have to be labeled as good or bad people. sometimes women can be evil AND also be in a cute bi4bi relationship and learn to be more open to her own and others' feelings over time.

her arc wasn't planned out to be this way, but how she ends up is different than how she started in SO MANY WAYS and it's such a disservice to her character AND to the story adventure time tells to just slap a "BAD PERSON" label over all of her complexities. it feels like flattening such a layered and interesting woman into a generic villain because you dont like her choices

peebles has hurt a lot of people. she loves her citizens. she values her friendships even if she tries to put up walls. she's clinically minded and very matter of fact in a way that comes off as rude or hurtful sometimes. she desperately wants the people she loves to be safe, so she surveils them, she imprisons any and all threats even if they're infants, she lies and maims. she makes grave mistakes over and over again. she's lonely. she's brash. she loves giant silly pink clothes. she likes hanging out with dangerous and passionate people. she's a thousand years old and yet still has so much to learn. her age made her numb for so long, believing it was the only way to protect herself, and it just made her blind to the affect she had on the people around her and the people she was supposed to be caring for. she enjoys unethical science, she finds it fascinating, fun, just stimulating when she's bored. she doesn't think too hard about the consequences of her actions on the world around her because she's been around for so long... she's seen the apocalypse, she lived through it, and life goes on. why worry about what hurts now when everything changes and goes away over time?

she needs marceline so bad. they need each OTHER so bad so they can learn to be open and communicative and caring TOGETHER instead of isolating themselves apart. theres SO much more i could say but i'll stop here. princess bubblegum as a character deserves more respect and thought than some people give her.

#exoticbutterstxt

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lilietsblog · 4 months

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anyway the reason I was thinking about Krapivin is because his books are for children and about children - protagonists and target audience from preschool to older teens, centering around the tween age

and they are very good

and they always, with very few particularly fairy tale exceptions, feature Bad Things That Happen To Children. like... in the real world. like a lot of them have supernatural elements but there are plenty that just straight up have none and these books talk about

bullying

abusive school staff

abusive parents and stepparents

illness and death

being caught in a war zone

disability and chronic illness

poverty

the fear of living in a totalitarian state

random abusive authorities

not having agency in your own life

any and all of the above happening to your parents, neighbours, friends, siblings

when the supernatural elements show up, they tend to give the kids MORE agency than the mundane world does. maybe there are monsters, but the kids can actually fight them (which presents a nice difference from -). maybe there are dangers, but the kids can actually actively do something about them. theres actually a unique 'real world' danger that shows up in the supernatural stories - government experimentation - but its still usually because the kids CAN do something.

Some of the books have adult protagonists who just interact with children (generally to have their life changed by them) (generally its a middle-aged writer having a midlife crisis, Krapivin doesn't bother obscuring shit, the kids are the real main characters anyway)

(...and when I say kids, it's usually boys. There are girls too, but they tend to be secondary characters. I can only think of one book right off the bat that straight up has a girl as the main POV protagonist. Still, it does exist and it's actually damn good. It's a personal experience bias, not downright bigotry)

these books are fucking terrifying. they are very much about what it's like to be a very small person in a big world full of people most of whom don't give a shit about you. it's about what it's like when adults get mad at you for correcting them when they make a mistake. it's about what it's like when your parents are not around because they're too busy taking care of you by earning money for you to live on. it's about what it's like when everyone thinks your preferences and relationships and attachments don't matter. (but it's not everyone. it's never really everyone)

and these books are also really good at portraying, just... life in the soviet union and in post-soviet russia. from the point of view of children growing up in the middle of it, and from the point of view of the occasional adult who is trying to stay kind and keep their integrity while assaulted by all of that on all sides. i think they are mandatory reading for all self-proclaimed tumblr communists. go learn russian just for them and then read them and then come back with your brilliant ideas and then ill talk to you

#krapivin #vladislav krapivin #childrens books #literature #writing #communism

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freemindedspirit · 2 years

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Hlo there!Can you do reading abt who in bts is a feminist?

SO BEFORE STARTING THIS READING A FEW THINGS I WANT YALL TO BE AWARE OF.

It’s extremely easy to judge someone political engagement when they come from a different country than yourself especially when you’re like, American or Western European and the people you are asking about are Korean, which is still a pretty traditional country when it comes to gender roles.When I read for people, I always try to take into account how their upbringing was different from mine, and try to approach things with curiosity and compassion rather than a “holier than thou” mentality, which truly helps no one.I’m not saying we shouldn’t call them out if they do or sa something sexist, but first of all don’t come at me or at them because of this and second of all check yourself before trying to get other people’s ass.Is the action you’re taking truly helping the cause or are you performing activism just to be proud of yourself and shit on someone else ?

PS: (if you’re unaware of all the backlash openly feminists peopel get in South Korea I beg of you to read upon it before even daring to continue reading this post, because it is I think necessary to know that to truly understanding South Korean feminism and how it became how it is today.

With that in mind, I’ll be using a pendulum and my intuition for this.

As usual, for entertainment purposes only.

Who in BTS considers himself a feminist ?

Namjoon :He strongly affirms himself as a feminist and will not back down despite backlash.He’s aware he lost a lot of ARMYs’ trust because of the mistakes of his younger years, and he’s genuinely sorry and trying to do better, and making tremendous progress at that.He’s so much more aware than he used to be, and a part of him still feels guilty he didn’t know any better.There’s also a small part of him though that’s afraid of crossing the line between “using his privilege to speak out” and “speaking over women”.He’s however certain that he educated himself enough to be able to tell the difference to make sure it doesn’t happen, or is able to fix it if it does.

Seokjin:The pendulum strongly said yes, but I’m getting a bit of “he’s confused but he got the spirit” energy.I think he does considers himself a feminist, but he may feel like he “doesn’t deserve the title” in some way?Likes he’s very aware he hasn’t figured it all out and still needs education, he feels like he needs a lot of education actually but I don’t think he’s that far ?Theres just a lot of self doubt in general wether he’s doing the right thing or not, bu he’s overall very willing to work on it and listen and learn more.

Yoongi :Tbh I almost feel like he was a tiny bit offended that I asked 💀A huge YES again.The respect of humans right, equality and open mindedness have always been part of his value system.I think he had had some personal, up close experiences dealing with toxic masculinity early on in his life and it caused him to question things such a gender roles and gender inequality pretty early on.However he’s still a human being who makes mistakes, but he’s always extents determined to fix them and do better and better and educate himself and others.He might actually have been educating the other members for a long time?Even before debut I’m feeling ?Obviously he isn’t and never was a perfect person who was always able to tell when he said something wrong but I’m really getting the idea he’s quite knowledgeable.

Hoseok: yes again.I’m kinda getting that feminism specifically isn’t his number one priority, but he quite aware of te concept of intersectionality and enjoy learning a lot about it, how being part of certain minorities affect someone’s quality of life,traumas, how they can be put in danger.Don’t kill me but I’m having the feeling that right now he wants to learn a lot about the LGBTQ+ community, it’s history and how it came to being, especially because it’s not talked about at all in South Korea or barely.I think experiencing racism, xenophobia and homophobia ( yes calling BTS gay because they wear make up is homophobia, you don’t need to actually be gay to experience it) opened his eyes to a whole lot of things when BTS started to go big all over the world around 2016-2017.I keep seeing him stumbling upon an ARMY calling him a twink on Twitter then him looking it up an laughing to himself.I don’t actually know how much he can understand English this may not have ever been a true moment but I think it speaks to how curious and open he has become to how diverse can people lives be.

Park Jimin:Another confused but happy to learn boy.I think for him it’s more about internal work than external education.His deep compassion and need to see justice makes him an obvious support to the feminist cause, but he has some internal issues to deal with, linked to toxic masculinity, toxic expectations of himself as a man, gender expression.He also has made tremendous progress in that field but I feel like he’s still unsure of himself, he still catches himself going back to his old beliefs about what kind of person a man should be and suddenly he’s afraid he hasn’t made any progress and is spiraling in self doubt.Somebody tell this man it’s okay to fall sometimes, even if you know better,omg gonna cry he’s genuinely afraid that he may not be doing enough😭buddy you’re light years ahead of most men we know, we all raised our standards thanks to you.

Taehyung:A big yes again.Most definitely identify as a feminist, but he’s still a traditional, family man.Even though he’s feminist he still wants to find someday that family woman who will give him his big family five kids two dogs a pretty picket fence and who will love and cherish him and their kids and be happy being a mother.He will be an extremely involved dad and will expect the same of his spouse.I vote him most likely to rely on his fortune to be a stay at home dad and his spouse also staying at home for some time .He’s perfectly aware though that’s not every woman wants that, and just wants everyone to be able to pursue what they truly want without others butting in thinking they know more than them what’s good for them.Really “live your life the way you want it and mind your business” mindset

Jungkook:heard a “YEAAAAAH” even before grabbing my pendulum .I think he’s emotionally very invested in it ?I think when it comes to the women in his life he’s always ready to help, like making sure someone gets home safe, talking with you on the phone if you’re walking at night in a scary street, calling out creeps and sexual harassment.He may not be that involved like in terms of donations to feminist associations and shit, but on the personal level he kinda uses his privilege.height and muscles to his advantage 💀Like I can see him standing up between an old guy who was whistling at middle schoolers in uniforms very unhappy until the middle schoolers were far enough and explaining calmly to the old guy that he’s being a creepy pedophile and it’s in his best interest to never do that again.In terms of toxic or healthy masculinity I think he’s pretty healthy, but he enjoys being this like, softball baby star candy who looks like he could kill you.He also still has a hard time being completely open with his emotions but it’s more his personality and “I’m only feel pain when hyung is in pain” mindset.

#bts tarot #jungkook tarot #jimin tarot #taehyung tarot #namjoon tarot #seokjin tarot #hoseok tarot #yoongi tarot #feminism #pendulum #intuition

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pillows1616 · 8 months

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sometimes i think. damnm. i spent so much time feeling scared and isolated. it wouldve been so nice if someone came up to me and told me what being trans was when i was 12 so i couldve understood sooner. and done something about it

sometimes i fantasize about what my life would be like rn if i wasnt so scared back then,,, i feel as though i wasted 2 years of my life just hiding away ,, theres so many opportunities i missed without even realising

but sometimes i think maybe its ok.

like. i did it, i got all this way on my own two feet ,, and with help from a lot of very amazing people!!!!

do i wish i did some things differently?? yeah!? but,, thats normal right?? i forget that having regrets is like. a normal human thing

maybe its a few years later than i wouldve liked ,, but im so glad im finally at a point where i can look in the mirror and see a GIRL skdkslfksl

do i still have to keep going?? yea!! theres a longg fucking road ahead,, but ,, im a lot more confident now :)) ill probably still slip up sometimes but im definitely learning from past mistakes !! anyway. mistakes are what make you , You

crying because i realised that hating things from the past ISNT NECESSARILY A BAD THING ?! it just means i can improve upon myself in the future ?? crazy ikr???

sometimes im really cringe lol

#spent too long typing this #its 6am goodnight #but its definitely something thats been on my mind for a while

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mithrilbookofmystery · 2 years

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE GAY FIREFIGHTERS AREN'T CANON!? AND WHAT DOES A COUCH HAVE TO DO WITH IT??? - from, an outsider who's invested but has no clue what's going on (P.S. I wish you the best with the rest of the season lol)

I MEAN THEY AREN'T CANON 😭 To be quite honest, and I hate to be the one to break this to you, but we don't even know for sure if they're gay 😔

But LONG(ish) story short(ish), there was a scene in the season opener where Buck (gay firefighter A - actually no wait gay firefighter B bc his name is Buck - aka the blond one, if you identify them through that) was complaining to Eddie (gay firefighter A, aka the dark haired one) that Bobby (their captain/also kinda Bucks father figure) wasn't thinking about naming Buck interm Captain while Bobby went on his belated honeymoon (he and his wife got married like 4 seasons ago I think but they've been, like, busy and shit rip in pieces) and he's complaining to Eddie whiLE HE MAKES EDDIE AND CHRISTOPHER (Eddie's son) (also somewhat Buck's son but if I went into that we'd be here literally all day) LASAGNA IN HIS APARTMENT and Chris says "maybe it's because you don't have a couch" while he looks pointedly back at where there is a large empty spot in Bucks living room where a couch should be because Chris is cheeky like that and we love him, and Buck's like "well my last two couches came with girlfriends" because this is true, and then Eddie goes "no, your last two girlfriends came with couches" because this is a much better way of putting things and Eddie's been going to therapy all last season so he knows how to do that now, and then Eddie goes "Taylor (Bucks last girlfriend) left four months ago, you could have replaced that couch by now" while fucking staring Buck down in the eyes in the soul and Buck goes "maybe I'm afraid of choosing the wrong one" and we're not talking about couches anymore we're talking about relationships. Got that? Good.

And then at the end of the episode, Bobby names Hen (who is the actual canon gay firefighter of the show and we do not talk about her enough we should all be talking about her more we love her we stan <3) as the temporary captain and then he goes to talk to Buck about it, and says that he didnt choose Buck because Buck doesn't have enough life experience, and Buck just kinda. Deflates. And goes "is this because I don't have a couch?" And Bobby is SO fucking confused by this god bless and says "Why don't you have a couch???" (as any normal person would ask) and meanwhile Buck is still in the relationship metaphor and goes "I'm afraid of making another mistake" bc Buck relationships are NOTORIOUSLY messy and Bobby sees what's going on because he always does and he talks about how Buck needs to learn to look at what he has in his life now and know that it's good, and he deserves to learn to settle. And then later, in the closing montage (except not bc theres a plot twist at the last second but its about other characters, you dont need to worry about that) there's a clip of Eddie and Chris playing a game together for like. Really no reason?? Like everyone else in the closing montage had Something going on in the episode that needed a few seconds of closure, they really didn't Need to cut back to Eddie and Chris but they did and anyways immediately after that it cuts to Buck as if he was looking at them, or at least he's looking at the table where Eddie and Chris were earlier, and he smiles, Bobby's words about seeing what you have in your life right now in front of you still ringing in our ears and I tell you I GASPED at Bucks little smile, ok? And then he picks up the armchair he's always had and moves it to where the couch used to be and sits down in it. Because he has what he needs right here.

And then another small thing: Buck canonically sleeps on Eddie's couch sometimes. He has done this multiple times in the past. He will likely do it again in the future and the second Eddie asks him to stay over is the day this fandom combusts and explodes

#and the fucking lasagna convo in and of itself #the parallels between buck wanting to be chosen by bobby and also maybe possibly being chosen by eddie. exquisite. im going feral #911 spoilers #911 on fox #buddie #buck 911 #eddie 911 #911 #911 fox

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teslacoils-and-hubris · 1 year

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what’s your favorite virus/bacteria/whatever you want? personally, i’ve been very invested in rabies recently

Oh man anon you fell right into my trap and activated my infodump card!

Long story short is I'm obsessed with anything that changes its hosts behavior, not sure I could ever pick a specific favorite

Rabies is very fun! It's absolutely terrifying and can lay dormant for decades and there is no effective cure, just a slow horrible death. It's the closest thing we'll ever get to real life zombies (hopefully) and the more I learn about it the more it scares and fascinates me

Prion diseases hit the same vein of horror, though not a virus in the traditional sense. Imagine your body making one little mistake and suddenly you just. Can't sleep. Ever again. You can't sleep and so you slowly go insane with exhaustion until you die. It's so fucked up! It's also fucked up that they're contagious like chronic wasting disease in deer, they're just a misfolded protein but if you come into contact with them then they can cause YOUR proteins to start misfolding in the same way! That's fucked up!! It shouldn't work like that and I don't understand how that works but it shouldn't work like that! I'm not even sure scientists understand how it works because ive yet to find a source that explains it

But my true love is parasites! Ever since i saw a documentary or something (mightve been river monsters i dont remember) where they pulled this huge multiple feet long worm out of some kids leg ive been obsessed! Everyones heard of the fungus that highjacks an insect before making it climb up a plant before erupting out of its body, but theres just so many more facinating ones! Anyother decently well known one is that flatworm that makes snails go out in the day and swells up their eye stalks to make birds think the snail is a caterpilar so the bird eats the snail and the flatworm continues reproducing in the bird. There's a kind of isopod that eats its host fish's tounge before attaching itself in the tongues place, it eats everything the fish tries to eat until the fish starves. Even if the bug leaves the fish will die without its tounge. There's a species of wasp that injects venom into a cockroaches head that makes the cockroach completely docile so the wasp can drag it back to its little den and lay eggs in its still alive body so the young can eat it when they hatch

And that's not even to mention parasites that can infect humans! Like that worm that you can get by swimming in certian rivers that travels through your whole body just to find your eye. Could you imagine a pilgrimage so gruesome? People say they can feel it squirming around in their eyes, even see its shadows dance across their vision.

I'm much more interested in species specific ones, though less picky parasites have their own charm in their resilience. But imagine, millions of years of evolution just so you can take over somethings body, completely rewire a mouse to be attracted to cat urine so the cat eats the mouse and the parasite can propagate inside its true host the cat. What marvelous little creatures, amazing they managed to figure it out.

#doc rambles #asks #parasite tw #animal death #body horror #maybe?#let me know if this should have more tags

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joalinder · 9 months

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Imposter syndrome

How to overcome imposter syndrome. Aaaah yeah, the voice of “reason”, trying to convince you to not have trust in yourself and your abilities. The constant need for validation, and still, when you do get praise, you tell yourself it was luck, or nothing special. Nothing to be proud of.

Imposter syndrome is usually a package, it can include insecurity, anxiety, self-doubt, need of attention, depression, you name it. Ill share some of my experiences with it, so if it doesnt totally bore you out, feel free to continue reading.

Imposter syndrome has most definitely been a struggle in my life, and still is, now more than ever actually. I`ve always been bad at mathematics, and barely passed my math classes in highschool. I felt like the dumbest person alive, and it really got me questioning my worth. After highschool I started to self study, just by myself in my free time. I would spend countless hours at the local library, because i wanted to “gain” my worth. It sounds horrible to have such a motivation, but i was really hurting, more than id like to admit. Everytime i got something wrong, i would shut down, isolate myself and get mental breakdowns. I always went back to the library, continuing my own mission to “become normal”. I didnt even view it as self improvement, but that id have to reach “normal knowledge and capability”. I ended up studying and learning all the curriculum for the first year of nursing school, even before starting my education. I knew it all, and my first year of nursing school was a breeze. Do I feel proud of that? No. - and that`s when this became really toxic. I don`t feel proud of any achievements, cause i still think of myself as stupid and less worthy of praise, no matter what I do. I learned japanese by myself as a hobby and went to Japan alone after two years of self study. I talked easily with the locals. Do I feel proud? No. Im still that lousy kid in high school that skipped classes, made minimal effort and hated to study. I still freeze when I have to do calculations of any sort, and im therefore worthless - at least in my mind. So, how do you overcome imposter syndrome? i wish it was a easy fix. A “do this and wait seven minutes”, like when you`re making pasta. I wish everything was like making pasta(lol). I think severe imposter syndrome won`t go away completely, no matter what you do. However, i do think you can live without it screaming into your consciousness every single time you make a tiny mistake. First, if you are like me, a people pleasing, insecure, but also a humble brat, you have to get rid of the fear of sounding arrogant. Yes, even when you`re talking to yourself in your own mind. Try saying things like: “Im actually great. I`m awesome in so many ways”, and then give reasons for it. “Im great because-, i`m awesome because-”. Don`t fall into the trap of adding “but”. Theres no but, only because. You won`t automatically turn arrogant or selfish by giving yourself compliments. It`s actually quite important. It`s self love:) Just like when you`re putting on lotion on your skin, or eating a healthy meal. You are taking care of yourself, and by doing so, you will slowly change your mindset. Keyword being slowly here, it`s not a magic cure. It takes practice, just like everything else. Just like math:P

Okay, so ive ranted quite a bit. I`m totally aware that your experiences with imposter syndrome might be completely different, and yes, this tip is not original by any means. It`s very basic, but it needs to be spoken about, because it tends to not be put into action. Im a prime example of someone who needs to be reminded by this. If any of you resonate, leave a comment, or contact me, i really struggle with it and would love other insights as well. Other than that, have a nice day, and be kind to yourself<3

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I wanted to send in an ask for the in-character ask meme for mark but i couldnt think of anything, so instead i ask you to ramble about one of the things regarding mark that makes you lose it! Stuff you're totally so Normal about in a Lying way!! It's so fun hearing about that stuff as well as WHY it makes you lose it, yknow?? does this make sense??? hope it does lmao

k im breaking out this ask cause im doin bad. if you dont know or care about mark dont bother reading htis - i found that sometimes my mark tag shows in the general vtm tag and im sorry.

im so normal about how vampires live forever but also live in constant danger (usually)

on the one hand Mark knows he has eternity

on the other hand he knows that in a few nights it could be his last

but the man lives off denial and so he focuses on the first one.

this intersects w some of his... motivations in interesting ways

for example a main one is who he considers it his responsibility to protect sampson. but ok 1: he is a ghoul, so he'll live forever but does he want to? 2: its a dangerous world so protecting him is a big task and can he do that forever? and 3: what happens if sampson does want to live longer but turns against him either emotionally or in a deeper way? what then.

like basically the situation he's in... can it last forever? probably not. will mark grapple with that fact? No <3 its fine for now cause he isn't even a year in yet but it will be a problem at some point...

another one is serving Julius. so far julius has not asked anything too heinous of him but if there truly is eternity that's not gonna last forever. also, mark doesnt know this, but I Do, that when the pyramid falls, the blood bond may traumatically break but that does NOT mean Julius is gonna let go - only become more coercive, with mark more aware of the shit spot he is in. i am going to go absolutely insane when that happens. mark is gonna have a mc'freakin breakdown and if sampson isnt his friend at this point idk what he will do cause thats the only person in his life who could possibly understand.

Ok and finally just how literally like. ok so. mark struggles against the beast like every kindred does and GENRALLY does well because of a promise to himself after he murdered a guy in hunger frenzy, that once he gets That Hungry (mechanically hunger 4) his top goal will be reducing it and at hunger 3 its one of his highest goals. Like he has to believe he can keep it in check. but with eternity... mistakes happen. like there isnt any way he could prevent himself from ever making a mistake like that again. he is in such denial about it though. and when he fucks up again he'll be forced to accept that it will happen Another time, and Again. itll be so delicious <3 (like the blood i mean what)

Anyways.

mark believes he is taking a long view of things but he truly is NOT. he's just using that idea to Cope. he tells himself he has to settle things in his territory, w sampson, w such and such julius task, then he can sit down, study like he wants to, keep things in check ; but here is the thing. vampire society isnt like that. things are gonna shake up eventually. because you either die fast in one of those shake ups, or you live forever always long enough to see another one.

he is telling himself to just go a little longer, push a little harder, and then he can rest. then itll be ok.

but that might not ever come.

he has to learn some coping mechanisms soon... or have friends. hes not in a place where he could actually step away and get a break.

he's getting there on the friends bit w his coterie mate rose cause she agreed to stop dating Lucky (LOTS OF CONTEXT NEEDED WHY THIS IS IMPORTANT BUT IT IS ) and that meant a lot to him and he'll be more willing to open up to her in the future- but i think that will still require some sort of come-to-jesus moment where hes like. Oh shit im doing really bad actually.

which he is

but if you ask him, he will just say theres a lot going on and he's somewhat stressed <3 omg

anyway thanks @eric-the-bmo for my life

#mark vtm oc

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