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murswrites · 4 years

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Jealous for No Reason ⎯ Klaus Hargreeves

Pairings: Klaus Hargreeves x Reader Fandom: The Umbrella Academy MASTERLIST Word Count: ~ 1,340 Warnings: Cursing, jealousy, a touch of angst, mention of addictions, Ben (not a warning but ya know) SUMMARY: You just want to finally be with Klaus but when you bring a date to a Hargreeves party, he seems to be angry. Request from @cheriehyuck: I was wondering if I could request a Klaus Hargreeves imagine where he and Y/N are on and off so he gets jealous/insecure when Y/N is seeing someone? (edited)

A/N Y/D/N = Your Date’s Name! This starts in Klaus’ perspective, but switches over to Y/N’s! This turned out way longer than I expected and I think I like it? It gets a bit rushed/fluffy toward the end! Thank you for requesting <3 FEEDBACK IS ALWAYS APPRECIATED !!

It wasn’t very often that Klaus felt jealous of another person in this way. He hardly ever wished to be in someone else’s shoes despite all that he’s been through... but seeing you laughing so freely with that person just... made Klaus unbelievably envious.

Ben, of course, was enjoying his brother’s sadness purely because Ben told Klaus to make it official. “And that, my friend, is what you get for not listening to me.”

Klaus’s nostrils flared as he hissed at Ben like a cat. That was a typical response whenever Klaus was too heated to think of a good comeback. And right then, he was losing his cool. And him being sober didn’t help at all, if anything it made it harder for Klaus to brush it off as you made your way over to him.

The party was in celebration of Five, the “youngest” Hargreeves sibling finally returning. Sure, Reginald recently passed but nobody really missed him (other than Pogo). Klaus invited you in hopes of finally asking you out properly... but alas, his original plan was squashed like a cigarette butt.

“Klaus! Thank you so much for inviting me!” You hugged him and Klaus did his best to try and seem normal, his smile felt forced but at least he gave it a good old fashioned try. “This is, Y/D/N! I hope you don’t mind me inviting them...” Your smile was sheepish but Klaus couldn’t help but immediately melt.

Ben rolled his eyes in the background but his brother could care less. Klaus just wanted to know who the hell Y/D/N was and why they were with you. Sure, you two weren’t dating, Klaus knew that... you knew that, it was his idea to take a break from your chaotic friends with benefits relationship anyway.

And oh how Ben loved reminding Klaus that Klaus had been the one to suggest the break. “You know... this is your fault, right?” Klaus ignored his brother and introduced himself to Y/D/N.

“I’ve heard so much about you, Klaus!”

He tilted his head to the side, looking at you with a curious expression before realizing what to do. “Oh, pray tell.” Klaus put on his best smile and made his eyes soft and innocent while you processed his reaction.

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You saw how he was glaring holes in the back of Y/D/N’s head from across the room... so why was Klaus being so nice now? You watched in confusion as Y/D/N practically spilled the beans right in front of you. Jeez, at least they weren’t being shy about it.

Klaus looked so intrigued but there was a tense nature to how he held his shoulders. “Oh, goodness, that’s enough!” You put a hand on Y/D/N’s arm and forced a grin, trying not to look worried. Before inviting Y/D/N to the party, you vented about how your relationship with Klaus was just so vague and confusing.

If anything, you complained about how you wanted some security, for Klaus to finally make it set and stone. But nothing was ever easy when it came to Klaus Hargreeves and you knew that going in. And you hoped that it wouldn’t be a complete hassle trying to settle him down a bit.

Sobriety was the biggest factor for you, he was killing himself and it hurt you... so slowly, you two worked on it, weaning Klaus off of his drugs was like trying to pull an octopus off of someone’s face. But you were patient, caring, and most of all understanding.

So you thought becoming a couple would be easy. When Klaus suggested a break, you thought the worst of it. You helped him and now he no longer needed you... so you turned to your long time friend, Y/D/N for help. And they honestly helped a lot, which was why you even turned up at Five’s party in the first place.

If anything, Y/D/N was the one who convinced you to come. There wasn’t anything going on between you two, they even seemed like a huge fan of you and Klaus. “No, no, no, it’s okay, I’d love to hear more... honestly.” Klaus’ tone was all off and it was really bothering you.

“Let’s go get a drink, yea? And maybe see some of the others before the night is over?” You decided to confront Klaus later.

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“Go talk to Y/N!” Ben urged his brother who was struggling not to get a bottle of vodka and hide in the study. “Klaus, quit being an idiot and talk to them before they decide you’re not enough to wait for!”

Klaus glared at Ben, “I’ll have you know I’m always an idiot, Bennarino. And Y/N doesn’t want me, look at them laughing with their date.”

Ben sighed dramatically, “They’re only friends, I promise you.”

“You make a lot of promises Ben.”

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It took nearly all night for you to finally corner Klaus. With Y/D/N’s words of encouragement repeating in your head like a mantra, you finally grew the courage to ask Klaus what was up with him.

Klaus was right where you expected him to be, the study... the very room the kids apparently were never allowed to even step into. He indulged how he planned to burn the room to ash because of his hatred for it.

“Knew I’d find you in here sulking.” You said quietly, not wanting to disturb the peace.

“I’m not sulking, Ben.” Klaus looked up at you and his eyes widened, he sat up in his father’s chair, his legs falling to the floor in the process. “Y/N? What are you-”

You knew about Klaus’ powers and how he was constantly accompanied by his (dead) brother Ben. “I’ve come to ask you what’s wrong? First you ask for a break and when I show up with a date you act like someone shoved a stick up your ass.”

His jaw fell agape as he jolted into a standing position, “I do not have a- hey! You’re the one who showed up with a date-”

“Because we’re on a break, like you wanted.”

After a beat of silence Klaus finally spoke, “I thought you wanted the break... after getting me clean, I assumed you’d want time away from me, I just thought you were tired of me-” You made your way over to him as he rambled and shook your head.

You put your hands on either side of his face, making him look you in the eye. “Klaus, I could never tire of you and your antics. May it be putting salt in my coffee or putting empty cartons of milk back in the fridge, I love everything about you.”

Upon hearing the l-word leave your lips your eyes widened. Klaus was clearly in awe as he marveled at you. “You- love me?” Instead of answering you nodded while he seemed stumped. “Then why’d you bring a date?”

“Y/D/N’s just a friend, they helped me get the courage to even come to this damn party in the first place.”

“Oh my god,” He put a hand up to his mouth, “I was jealous for no reason at all.” You replied with a ‘yup’ while popping the ‘p’. Klaus grew a bit serious in that moment as he met your eyes once more, “I love you too, you know?”

You nodded slowly with a smile, “So are we good now? Are we... together?” Your nose crinkled in a cringe, “Ew, I sound like a high schooler.”

Klaus chuckled lightly and leaned his forehead against yours while holding onto your forearm, “I mean if you want to be.” He briefly rolled his eyes before turning backward, “Eavesdrop much? Come on man, it’s not cool.”

After Klaus bickered with Ben you hugged Klaus to you. “Just know I’m not easy to get rid of, I’m like a tick.”

“I’d never dream of it.”

#klaus hargreeves x reader #klaus hargreeves imagine #klaus hargreeves #the umbrella academy #the umbrella academy x reader #the umbrella academy imagine #pew pew pew? more like queue queue queue #klaus hargreeves one shot #the umbrella academy one shot #robert sheehan

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bakujho · 4 years

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Strap in folks, it’s rant time.

So, let's talk a bit about manipulation and abuse present in fandom. It’s uncomfortable, but fuck it lets go, I’m tired of the “good vibes only” push that sweeps all this shit under the rug. I’m not pretending to be an expert by a longshot here and I’m happy to discuss, but I have dealt with enough abusive and manipulative people personally and professionally to spot em a fucking mile away and generally keep my distance. Unfortunately, I’ve noticed a gross trend where there are people being attacked, then are guilted into keeping quiet because the Abusers make it seem like it’s not worth mentioning or that it doesn’t really matter... Unfortunately, the Abusers know exactly what they’re doing, they’re really fucking good at it, and they know exactly the kind of response they’re going to receive (because in some cases, this isn’t the first fandom they’ve pulled this same shit in).

Right off the bat though, lets get some basic facts about fandom out of the way. No one in fandom owns any character: be it interactions, personality or anything else about said character. No fandom creator owns an idea, or has any right to tell people off for having similar ideas/techniques/styles etc. There’s no such thing as a completely original singular thought, and pretty sure if you think of something ‘original’, there’s inspiration from another source. No one owns a hairstyle, a costume, a backstory, a colour scheme, an item, a scar etc etc. If someone has a similar thing, neat, clearly you’ve got similar tastes. If someone has a carbon copy of your creation on multiple points, ABSOLUTELY question it, but having the same hairstyle isn’t copyright infringement, and having a similar history isn’t ripping someone off, it’s coincidence.

Going to put the rest under the cut, CW for manipulation tactics, abuse, and all those sorts of goodies.

So, I’ll start with the Abusers here. Everyone knows who they are, they know who they are, unfortunately the victims of them are worried about speaking out because, for the most part, the ones abusing people are in a position of perceived power and speaking out against them can put the victim in a tricky position. No one wants to be ousted from a fandom they enjoy for speaking out against someone that’s been around fandom since its inception. Which brings me to my first point.

Power: Abusers LOVE the feeling of having power (be it follower count, general clout, perceived hierarchy etc) and get really uncomfortable when they feel someone new comes to threaten their position. So, what do these people do in that situation? Option A is to completely ignore and hope they’re not dethroned, Option B is befriend immediately and subtly manipulate the person to keep a close eye on their actions. Keep your friends close, but enemies closer amirite?

So how the fuck does a person subtly manipulate another person, shouldn’t it be obvious? Fuck man, I wish. But there’s a lot of different techniques used to keep people reigned in and submissive: guilt tripping, evasion/diversion, attention seeking, lying, intimidation, playing the victim etc etc. So obviously these will all present differently based on the abuser, but the goal of all of them is the same. To stay in power, and keep control over everything they can.

So how would all of these present online? (of course these examples leave some wiggle room for context lost in text/translation/cultural differences etc, but for the most part it all fits the same pattern that the abuser would use in a face to face situation).

Guilt- tripping: “Well you wouldn’t be here if not for me” “You owe me for your place in the fandom” “well if we really were friends you’d do this for me…” etc etc. Things that pit your emotional attachment to the Abuser against you, the closer you are, the easier it is. Suddenly the Victim finds themselves indebted to the Abuser for their ‘friendship’ that the Victim didn’t realize was conditional.

Shaming: Invalidating the victims feelings by saying things like “even a child knows better than this”, “it’s okay you don’t understand, you’re probably young”, “I’ve been around fandom longer so I know how things go” etc etc. It makes the Victim feel like they’ve done something wrong by drawing boundaries for themselves, or sticking up for themselves. Remember, the Abuser doesn’t want to lose their crown so they will talk down to their Victims to make them more unsure of their stance, second guess themselves, and feel bad that they spoke up in the first place.

Projection: “Others have done X to me, I would NEVER do the same” It’s a simple yet effective tactic. The Abuser takes the things they’ve done to people, say it happened to them, and shift the blame to the now faceless enemy so the Victim feels obligated to side with the abuser because, yea, those things mentioned fucking SUCK and no one wants to experience it. No one wants to be that asshole saying “no you deserved it” (because no one fucking deserves to be doxxed, swatted, hacked, etc etc)

Playing-the-victim: Abusers LOVE playing this game. It’s their bread and butter to set the stage for manipulation. “Having a really hard time rn, sorry im such a fuckup”, “struggling with mental health”, “this is all so hard for me” (legit though, if you are struggling please seek help where/when you can, mental health is important). So any of these statements alone can be harmless, and overlooking someone's mental health can have dangerous outcomes, HOWEVER, when these sort of statements are paired with the other things mentioned, it’s no longer simply a vent or a way to work past personal demons, it’s a way to gain sympathy and support, and it is very intentionally done to garner that emotional response from those that will listen to them.

Attention-Seeking: can be as simple as “no one interacts with me anymore”, making a dramatic vague post, deleting that same post and making a newer, more dramatic post but this time seeking affirmation from the good responses of the last post, posting cryptic messages that ooze “ask me what happened” (vaguebooking is a plague), basically anything that is asking for a response without asking. How is it manipulative though? Guilt. If you’re aware of the Abuser, these types of posts are meant to abuse the Victim's sense of empathy, the natural response to these sorts of posts is “what happened, I’m sorry that happened to you”.

Diversion/Evasion: straight up changing the subject or switching the blame to anywhere BUT the Abuser. The Abuser says “change X you’re copying me”, the Victim responds “I feel I didn’t copy you”, and the Abuser presses “well the fandom might not think so” and changes it from a personal issue to a larger, more aggressive problem. In this case, the Abuser is the ONLY one with a problem, but are purposely misleading the victim to take the blame off themselves. It’s not THEIR problem, it’s the FANDOMS problem...now making it the Victims problem.

Blame: Abusers love to blame everyone BUT themselves for their perceived problems. Fandom isn’t interacting with them as much? It’s the fandom that’s dying. More drama in the fandom? Well there’s too many people here now. Getting called out for bad behavior? That’s the problem of the person who CLEARLY doesn’t understand how fandom must work. It’s the age old tale of “I’m perfect, it’s obviously everyone else who is wrong”. At what point does the Abuser realize that they may be the cause for their own misery? They don’t.

Intimidation: This is a fun one that’s usually a last resort because if the Abuser is pretending to be a sheep caught in a snowstorm, it doesn’t look good for them to publicly announce they’ve been the wolf the whole time. It looks like “well I have X on you”, “if you only knew what I could say about you”, and “I could ruin you” type shit. Of course, in most cases, the Victim hasn’t done anything to warrant this sort of aggression, but the queen is losing her pawns and is now grasping for anything to fight back with. And who knows what sort of lengths the Abuser has gone to to gain information on the victim. It’s pretty easy to find out a lot about a person online, so the Victims back down due to the threat of the unknown.

Avoidance: refusing to talk about the problem, which is an issue I have with fandom itself, in this case. The “no drama good vibes only” is so fucking detrimental when there are problems that need to be addressed. An Abuser will push the narrative that they’re only here for a good time and don’t want drama, while actively creating drama in the shadows. Its not a problem if we don’t talk about it, right? If no one knows, it’s fine. It’s fine. No, it’s manipulative, and if there are problems they NEED to be talked about, because that’s how you find resolutions.

Denial: This one ties in with avoidance and blame, in that the Abuser will straight up deny that they’ve ever been, or have ever created a problem. The Victim is making a big deal from nothing, they can’t control how others feel about them, so they’ve done nothing wrong. The Abuser will claim they had the best intentions when approaching someone, so clearly they have done nothing wrong.

Lying: Including omitting any information from arguments that may paint the Abuser in a bad light. The Abuser absolutely doesn’t want anyone to find out what they’re up to, so they’ll say exactly what they need to to change the narrative surrounding them. It could be minor changes to conversations to complete fabrications. Ex “I only approached X to make sure they were okay after X happened”, but X screenshots tell a completely different story. It’s not always easy to catch an Abuser in a lie, especially when there’s the push for “no drama” so no one talks about their personal experiences and can confirm/deny what was/reported to be said.

So bringing all of those points together and bringing it back to the Abuser wanting to have the power to control what they like/don’t like in fandom. Once they have that feeling of invincibility, they may coyly ask people to delete posts that could lead back to them looking bad, politely ask another creator to change their creation because the Abuser doesn’t like it, or them asking nicely to stop interacting with another member of fandom the Abuser doesn’t like. It may not seem like much at a first glance...after all they asked nicely. However, once you look a little harder and a little longer, it becomes very clear that the intention is to stay in control. The Abuser will do ANYTHING to stay on top, and will employ every trick they have in their arsenal to sew discord and mistrust amongst other members of the fandom to keep the fingers pointed anywhere but at themselves.

So, sound familiar to anyone? My inbox is open for anyone who wants to chat about the topic. If I’ve now made you uncomfortable and you’re going to unfollow/block, cheers, wish you the best. And if you’re feeling called out and attacked by my post? GOOD, stop being a fucking shitty person.

A few last reminders before adding some resources:

Setting and enforcing personal boundaries is not abuse.

Choosing not to interact with those who make you uncomfortable is not rude.

It is important to call out abuse when you encounter it, it could save someone from becoming a victim themselves.

Always stand up for yourself, you’re your own best advocate.

Now for some resources: I used a few of these while researching along with my old textbooks from my psych, abnormal psych, and human relations classes I took back in university.

Manipulation tactics

How to recognize a guilt trip

How to spot an attention seeker

#deep breath #i think that's all i have to say about this right now #for now at least #when i get salty i get real salty #fandom is the worst sometimes #though people in it can be worse #discourse

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thatadhdmood · 4 years

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Question for all ADHD folks I guess: At what age did you start dating or even having vaguely romantic friendships? I’m nearly 18 and I haven’t so much as told someone I like them yet. No first kiss, I’ve never dated anyone, I’ve never been asked out. Is this normal? I’m just wondering if late relational growth is a symptom or could be related?

_______________ oh mood im nearly 18 and i havent kissed anybody

ive dated someone online for a year and im trying atm to ask this cute girl out but like,.,.., progress is slow my lads

idk culd be because were a bit behind our peers developmentally for behaviour so we take a bit more to mature

and because rsd makes the idea of telling someone u like them and getting rejected sound like the worst thing in the world

and we dont get asked out as much because we appear #quirky and #weird and are kind of a mess generally so no one wants to be burdened by our fuck up ness

plus were bad at being in relationships because we’re unorganised and can seem like we ignore our partners for ages because we hyperfocused on something else and forgot everyone elses existence, and are forgetful of time and dates and things

hhhhh we do be HIGHKEY venting in the ask chat today LADS

idk thats my OPINION no facts or evidence here

put yall experiences in the notes or asks if u feel like exposing urself today

#adhd #actuallyadhd #actually adhd #asks #anonymous #dating #relationships #adhd relationships #adhd dating #thatadhdmood

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selfcareparker · 3 years

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LMAOO I WAS GONNA BRING UP FALCON AND THE WINTER SOLIDER BUT I WASNT SURE IF YOU WERE WATCHING IT HSKAJ (are you liking it? i know it’s only the first episode but ya know, another one tomorrow night- well tomorrow night for me, and did you like wandavision?? i loved it!!)

oh my goodness i’m watching lion king while writing this and i haven’t seen it in a while and i am..... emotional. but anyway, i love that streaming services think that imma pay for them while they charge $50 a month. like yes of course i have that kind of money and i am going to give it to you to watch tv 🙄 that $50 is budgeted to sims thank you. (ALSO SIMS!!! i’ll get to that in a minute) now see if i don’t google levidia right this minute LMAOO, not that i’m gonna use it.. just for the research...

AND HDKSHS SEND THAT CHAOS WALKING LINK LMAO i saw it for the third time with a different one of my friends and she wasn’t the best one to see it with? she literally was on her fucking phone and i was like ok whatever her loss not mine, and idk if you’ve read the books or if you’ve seen it by now, but by the end of the whole movie, after they’ve confirmed THE THING throughout the whole movie she asked the dumbest question and i’m like diD YOU NOT WATCH THE MOVIE, and i guess she didn’t. so. this sounds so vague but i don’t wanna spoil the movie for you just in case lol.

THE STORY LMAOO, so A DIFFERENT FRIEND LOL, like my oldest bff, we had a day together and we wanted to go see chaos walking. and i honest to God thought that no one would be seeing this movie. like NO ONE. every day, i checked the theater seating and no one was there right? plus i really wanted us to have the theater to ourselves. so we sit in the wrong seats, the row in front of us, STILL THINKING WE’RE ALONE. and then these 3 older people came in AND IM ABOUT TO SCREAM FHSJSH AND IM LIKE “are we in your seats?” and they we were like uh yeah, AND IT WAS SO BAD LMAOO , we’re moving and everything would’ve been FINE but my friend’s reclined seat was going down so slow and as it’s going shes LITERALLY SAYING ALOUD “awkward awkward awkward” so she thinks forget it, lemme just get up. HER BAG GETS CAUGHT ON HER CHAIR AND HER FRIES AND THEY SPILL ALONG WITH HER HONEY MUSTARD 😭😭 ALL OVER THE FLOOR! so i’m trying not to laugh lmao but those aren’t even our seats and we just made a mess, so naturally, i get on the floor and start cleaning it up with my napkins (this is going for too long) AND MY FRIEND IS STILL SAYING “awkward awkward awkward awkward” and i’m really abt to crack up bECAUSE LIKE SHUT UP HAHAHA and we’re cleaning it and shit and the oldest lady is gonna say “yeah you’re not gonna make an old lady get on the floor, are you?” AND I WANTED TO LAUGH AND SCREAM AT THE SAME TIME BC DID WE ASK YOU TO, NO, so then i had to get the manager and she helped us clean it, we got new fries and everything was fine, it’s just a crazy story bc LITERALLY WE COULDVE AVOIDED IT AND EVERYTHING BUT THESE ELDERLY PEOPLE HAD TO COME AND SEE THIS MOVIE😭😭 at least the gentlemen was nice.. he helped us clean. but then his wife was like “i aM nOt siTTiNg tHeRe” and at first i thought she was a teenager bc of her stink attitude but her husband was nice. and it’s not like we weren’t cleaning it up, we were!!! like i was so apologetic- anyway.

about sims! do you play console or pc? wait,, you already told me you play pc bc your computer was broken, i’m glad you can play now though :’)) litetally when i read in the tags that you’re playing sims !!!! and are you hyped for bunk beds? i have cc so i’ve had them for a bit, but they were glitchy... but i’m so excited we have them now! i should really play sims today...

GURL IM SO PROUD OF YOU 🥺🥲 i know you aren’t fluent in everything and you aren’t a linguistic genius LMAO but it’s still soooo amazing :’) here i am reading the captions while ur just going hahah, yea i tried duolingo but.... i didn’t stick to it HDJSH talking to you though makes me so interested because you know all these languages, not even studying them like that, but you have this foundation and ahh it’s just super cool. LOL YOU DONT SOUND LAME HAJA IM TELLING YOU ITS SO SO COOL, i’m loving this lesson btw oh my goodness- HSKAJS YOU THOUGHT I WOULD ALREADY KNOW THAT??? HDYSJHS MY ONLY ENGLISH SPEAKING ASS??? HAHAHAHHAH i find that word (Rindfleischetikettie- i’m not gonna write the whole thing i’m sorry) very interesting... like... wow. did you have to google that or did you just know lmao

OKAH THE WATER THING HDKDJDKS UR GONNA TERRIFY ME HAHAH OH MY LORD- first of all CROATIA 😍😍 but thinking about it like that, I WOULD FREAK OUT TOO HAHSGSG i never go that deep into the water, or if i do i have my dad with me lol and i kind of hold onto him bc ive seen/heard too many things about people being dragged into the sea. but i loveee the water (i wanted to be a mermaid soooo bad ohmigosh)

I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW ONE CANNOT LIKE MUSIC ITS AWFUL !! lmao yeah i haven’t even listened to harry’s his first album, everyone says they love it more. I WAS GONNA SAY IMMA LISTEN TO ONLY ANGEL BUT THE WAY YOU DESCRIBE IT HUHAHAH also i have never listened to anything by mgk (i actually had to google who he was IM SORRY😔) i’m tempted to listen tho lol PLEASE JUSTIN BIEBER- I PROMISE IM NOT LAUGHING AT U IVE JUSY NEVER HAD SOMEONE SAY THAT B4!! like i don’t know many people who’ve liked him bUT NOW IM GONNA LISTEN & the cardboard cutout- okay. 😭😭😭

oh my goodness to see the vamps live 🤧 TO SEE ANYONE LIVE PLEASE JJDGSHAHGD and little mix is so good oh my goodness- i actually haven’t been to that many concerts.. i was at my first one, elsie fest (it’s like a broadway thing really) in uhhh october of 2019, yea i took my mom for her birthday bc she loves darren criss and i’m obsessed with glee lmao OH MY GOODNESS YOUVE BEEN TO SO MANY!!! and those are such great artists 😩😩

LMAO UR FINE, hamilton is a musical that lin manuel miranda wrote and i think generally made? i’m obsessed, but basically it was on broadway and then recorded and put on disney+ ... idk i guess it counts a film bc it’s like a movie really cuz it was recorded but in what 2018 or 2016? i don’t remembers the date that is on disney+ but it’s strange how i got into it, a lot of my friends were obsessed and i was like uhh why? and while researching it and watching it, trying to figure out why people love it... i fell in love with it LMAO but the music is FANTASTIC and lin is incredible😭 but yes yes yes i loveeeee high school musical!! my dad actually took my cousins to see it on ice or something (i absolutely forget lmao) but i don’t know how people don’t know hsm. it upsets me.

OKAY IM DOWN TO THE BOTTOM HAHAHA (it takes me so long to respond, now i’m on lion king 2 WHICH IS SO GOOD PLEASE FHHSSHHSHSH) i could respond in chunks but i kind of enjoy responding like this? it feels a bit like a letter but if this whole thing is overwhelming i’ll cut it up lol

+ yes that was me about your fic and sleep and everything lol but it was so good😭 i don’t understand how you write peter so well like you have this ability to capture his.. everything? i’m crine. all the time. over your fics. & i cannot describe my happiness for youuuu :’) i’m so happy you’re writing again 🥺🥰 the thing about how you only want to write the long peter fic but you don’t know how to continue... i feel that so so so hard, i don’t think i told you but ughh i was so blah bc of that feeling of having pent up inspiration for only one fucking thing and not being able to write it. it’s so frustrating 😭

not to add more to this but i need to vent a bit? the situation is definitely different bc with your major it obviously requires for you to ya know, know english lol, but uhm bc i’m homeschooled ive been cheating on all my work SHSHDHSJ like i google the answers but i’m still learning! it’s just..... i find it so unnecessary, like going for an audition no one is gonna say to me “i want you to chanel the knowledge within yourself of the centripetal force of the circle that is the table on this stage” like tf??? there’s literally no point. i’m gonna be getting into voice lessons again soon and i’m already doing dance, AND i’ll be doing this summer camp program (more hamilton lol) and thinking about school is only making me stress more, like i haven’t been able to rehearse dance at all this week bc of it...... so

hahaha reading your tags, lonely anon would still be accurate HAHAHHAHA // another add: yea i love ur current theme, i’ve gotten used to “seeing you” like this, but anything will look super pretty :)) ALSO HOW IS IT STILL SNOWING THERE, i swear it’s getting warmer and warmer by the day here 😭🤧

these long ass posts, my gosh🥲 lonely lovely anon <3

Omg yes it does feel like a letter sldkdj and then the few days of waiting also make more sense okay i love this ❣️💕❤️💓❤️💞🧡💜💘(wtf)sksjhz

Dear lovely anon,

ALSKSJVKD yes i‘m liking falcon and winter soldier dlkdh i haven‘t watched the second episode yet but i‘ll watch it tomorrow! but i didn‘t watch wandavision........ eidislskks i was going to but idk i wasn‘t that interested in it and watching series is already too much of a commitment (what can i say i‘m a Sagittarius—🤧 (no i’m joking i actually know NOTHING about starsigns)) didjj that i couldn‘t force myself to watch it, ALSO i hate (idk if this is an unpopular opinion) when every episode is like a whole hour. i‘m rewatching an old series today (it‘s german so i won‘t even get into it) and the episodes are 25 mins each and i‘ve already watched 8 episodes today ridlndjdjd,,, and i feel like if the episodes were an hour each i wouldn‘t have gotten past episode 2 today like idk.... even if series had the same length in total, i prefer when the individual episodes are shorter idk why tho tbh (so yeah i already wasn‘t 100% convinced about watching wandavision so i just couldn’t make myself watch a bunch of 1hour episodes— i‘ve heard that it‘s good tho- but i‘m not much of a series person so. Dldkk (have we talked about this already??? sorry i don‘t remember what i said lol and i couldn‘t find my own post anymore so dkdjsh) (WAIT I JUST CHECKED THE WANDAVISION EPIOSRDES ARENT EVEN THAT LONG??? Okay wait i might watch it now - did you like it? let me know if i should watch it— why did i think they were 60minutes???)

okay another confession i‘ve never watched the lion king????? i mean i watched it when i was a child but i was too young to actually pay attention to any kind of plot i just liked the songs lol sldkdj i‘ve been meaning to watch it for years tho 🦁 (idk it just felt appropriate to put a lion emoji lmoaoo)

OH MY GOD THE CHAIS WALKING/CINEMA STORY AHSJSKKS😭😭😭😭 NOOOOO (very fitting that there was so much chaos when you were watching a film that has chaos in the title loool) and the “awkward awkward awkward“ SAME SKSKSLSKDJ, that‘s literally me 24/7 ahajshshhshshsh. Like i was so skdjdjdkdllsldksnsnsnsb while i read what you sent me djslslsjdjdbdn why are old ladies always so grumpy btw 🥲🥲🥲 at least the man was nice tho! and wait did i read that right... you have fries (which, to me, are called chips dusuusldk) at your cinemas?? (Movie theatres sorry sksjsh) we just have popcorn and nachos and drinks i want chips too when i‘m watching a film what😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺

Also i still haven’t watched it so thanks for not spoiling it!!! (idk when i’ll watch it i’m so bad with films and even worse with series💀💀💀- same with cherry. i literally forgot all about cherry, i was SO hyped when the trailer came out like i’ve never been so excited about a movie... and then it came out... and i still haven‘t watch it like what‘s wrong with me???? Dkdjdjdjdklsl i feel like i‘m not gonna watch it anytime soon tbh, but i wanna watch chaos walking i just have to find the time

Okay and @ your other friend who wasn‘t paying attention like why are you even watching the film then???? but ok (omg this sounds so mean i‘m sure she‘s very nice but in this situation just like❔❔❔)

SIMS ahhh, BUNK BEDS, ahhhh sdljdjdjdkdkdldksj i actually haven‘t played it since the update 🤧🤧 i made both of my sims (enisa (bestselling author already, thank you) and michael (aspiring doctor)) go to university and bro it takes so long 😭😭 and you can‘t do anything else if you want them to do well so literally the last three times i played sims i was just constantly clicking their homework and computerd to write their assignments (i play it in german so idk what its called on the sims) and do their presentations and do them all over again so that they get better or whatever for HOURS, but imma play again soon

also i‘m living my fanfiction life loool, so i made my two sims neighbours (on the same plot tho but i made two small separate houses lol, i still wanted to control both of them at the same time but i made sure they didn‘t interact before i wanted them to skdjdjdk). and first they both experimented and got some experience in the love department you know (all genders, cause i have to live my sexuality even in a pc game slskdjh— wait, i‘ve never lived my sexuality irl like i‘ve done NOTHING nothing with guys nothing with girls (🥲) but maybe that’s why i want to do it even more in the sims) and then they met at uni and realised like hey we‘re neighbours and now they‘re together (but michael accidentally had an alien baby with another woman (who was an alien which i was not aware of) cause i wasn‘t paying attention like i said woohoo not try for baby like michael why is your pull out game so weak tf LSHDDHDJDJSKKDKSKDKS okay but making out and flirting and doing all the fun stuff in the sims turns me on way more than it should PFAHAHHAHSH) so idk why i told you this but I’m creating that neighbour!au in the sims lmaoooo

i did not have to google Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsübertragungsaufgabengesetz (just did it again😌 sisjshhs) but i might have mixed up the words überwachung und übertragung or i might have even forgotten a word skskks but in the end it doesn‘t matter (by linkin park- ok i‘m so sorry it‘s 2 am and i have a headache from having waveformers in my hair all day but i still wanted to reply to this now so sorry if i‘m not making any sense right nowbahahshah)

i wanted to be a mermaid too dldjdksksj like h2O and all those series convinced me i could be one like. i remember i‘d always go in the deep pool and attempt to swim like them in all the series with that wave motion i must have looked so crazy with my goggles as well dkdjsksöksj (i was like twelve but still)

so mgk has two sides one is hip hop/rap which is like ~~~~ idk he has good and bad songs, but his latest album is like punk pop snd I LOVE IT SO SO SO SO SO MUCH, so if you like punk pop I’d recommend his album tickets to my downfall (i don‘t blame yoj if you don‘t like it tho like about a year ago i would have HATED that type of music dkdkdkkd)🥴

Okay talking about music, there‘s this german rapper and he is... not a good person. he‘s literally a criminal and extremely sexist but to me he‘s still hot???????? he‘s even cute at times even tho he has tattoos everywhere and is like 6‘5 and is super aggressive but i see him and i‘m like 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 my heart beats only for you💘💘💘💘and he released a new song today and i watched the video and i‘m wondering wtf is wrong with me 😃 (he did look particularly cute cause he was high so idk he wasn’t really aggressive in this one) 😭 so i thought i‘d share that LMAO IDK

(not saying tattoos aren‘t cute btw i LOVE tattoos imma get some soon, but you know he looks like someone your grandma would be afraid of (and in his case rightfully so💀)

okay wait i‘m getting so tired it‘s 2 am i think i‘ll have to do the rest tomorrow but i wanted to do it now😭🥺🥺 see you tomorrow

it is now 3:42 am and i couldn‘t sleep so here we go again

girl you can laugh at me for liking justin tho skskks i wanna laugh at myself idk, like i said i really really really liked him a few years go, basically my life was at least 50% justin and then he went on a break for a while and released an album last year which i hated 🥴 but this album is wow. (Still weird to me because it‘s literally the definition of pop and i don‘t ever listen to pop?) and it‘s so weird because i used to know so much about justin and had so many friends who loved him as well and now it‘s like I’m listening to someone new? Don‘t get me wrong i never KNEW justin and i never will and i‘m aware of that shahsh but yeah i used to be soooo used to him and it‘s like reconnecting with an old friend and you realise you don‘t know that friend anymore- like you don‘t know them anymore at all. I mean justin is weird nowadays 😂😂😂 so pls laugh at me tbh dskksjsjsh

awww it‘s so wholesome that you gave your mom tickets to the concert 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i gave my mum tickets for pink like 2 years ago and she loved it so much and i was like 🥰🥰🥰 (i went with her) AND OMG GLEE ok so unfortunately i barely remember glee, but i used to watch it too!!!! And it‘s actually on my list of series i wanna watch (again) so youre making me want to watch it even more (but like i said i‘m bad with series so 😩😩😩 who knows when i‘ll rewatch it)

When all this pandemic shit is over (let‘s be hopeful <3333) then you need to go to as many concerts as possible!!!!! i‘ve been to SO MANY and it‘s literally one of the things in my life i‘m the most grateful for, concerts are some of the best experiences i‘ve ever had in my life especially the ones that are in smaller concert halls where you can feeeel the vibe and everyone‘s energy (and that sounds awful thinking about it mid-pandemic 😐) anyway—

Okay omg you‘re absolutely making me want to watch hamilton right now like omg i WANT TO WATCH IT NOW but it‘s 4 am sodndkdldl

what you said about my peter fics🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺like omg i love these emojis they literally just describe how i felt when reading what you said so, yes, 🥰🥺 + thank you :) it really means a lot <3

and no omg i totally get the studying thing. like last year before i graduated .. was that last year? yes wtf omg okaykdjdj, so the last three months before i had my final exams we were just in a lockdown and we didn‘t even have online classes. We had nothing except one teacher who left our group chat (😭) because she was mad at us (?) and one maths teacher who did an online ““lesson““ once a week. he‘d ask: so does anyone have questions. us: . Him: okay, bye then. So. Yeah dndldldj. But we had one online test and it was in german and like i read the book wee were supposed to read? but the questions on the test were all unanswerable (is that a word?) and i had to google everything (got an A tho 🤪 but only because i googled everything so i was so scared that i wouldn‘t be able to get a good result on the final exam because what if i‘d gotten used to just googling everything and i couldn‘t do it by myself anymore? anyway it was all fine in the end but yeah at times i couldn‘t even study because i had so much anxiety about studying and yeah- like this whole annoying cycle. but you said you‘re still studying———- okay wait 👁👄👁 i forgot what i was going to say??????????????????????????????????????????????????? Like wtf. Is wrong with me? And i‘m reading what you wrote again and i just don‘t know what i was going to say? Like i get what you‘re saying obviously but i‘m like? Idk 4am brain ayeee, please vent more if you need to and elaborate further because right now i‘m???? Too dumb to respond to this right now wtf. I‘m so sorry lmao ddlkdjdjd what is even going on like i‘m sitting here open mouthed just like ? But btw the fact that you have Voice and dance lessons is like SO FUCKING COOL like oh my god that is sosososos cool wtf, i was thinking that when you first talked about it too

And “i want you to chanel the knowledge within yourself of the centripetal force of the circle that is the table on this stage” ODHDKSLDBDJDOFIDKDNDLDK

Yes i know about the weather dkdkdkjd but it‘s getting (a lot) warmer here too and where i live we kind of get a weird type of wind called föhn (which literally means hair dryer but idk if that‘d the reason why it‘s called that, i‘m too tired to think of whether it makes sense rn) and it gives me headachesssssss and the changing weather is also giving me headaches 😭😭😭😭 so this season right now is just headache season and i hate summer so i wish it would just snow again lmao (okay it‘s getting so late that it‘s early already snd i can hear this bird chirping so fucking loud wtf i‘m also getting a headache 🤧🤧🤧) but at least i can do my new theme soon (i hope it‘ll look good🥺 and omg thank you for what you said about my current theme- i always feel like i‘m so bad with aesthetics, i obviously like my theme but i feel like every single person on tumblr has a theme that is prettier than mine so it was very nice to hear you say that you love it👉🏼👈🏼 (i‘m so used to it by now that i actually hate it lmao so it‘s getting yeeted soon and i‘m making megan thee stallion my pfp 🤪 (if the graphics and shit works out skdjdjdj)

#lovely anon #<333 #okay its so late now i dont wanna post it now in case i‘m too tired to notice losds of mistakes #but i also wanna post it now so.#*loads #i‘m posting it #and i absolutely do not mind if you answer like this!!!! but if you ever do feel like it‘s too much or you uust want to respond to one thing #in particular sooner then pls go ahead! <3

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let-it-show · 4 years

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New Year, Same Love

Anna and crew come to see Elsa to celebrate the start of a new year and there is wine. And emotions. It is mostly a light-hearted piece but I can’t help myself it seems! A little bit of Kristanna, and some up-to-the-reader Elsanna, which seems to be my style lol.

They tried to warn her. They really, really did. 'Pace yourself' and 'remember this isn't what you're used to' had been said several times. Elsa didn't think there was anything to worry about. She healed faster as a spirit; she had more strength, endurance, all of that. Being something that wasn't quite human had really worked out for her in that regard. She didn't even get cold!

It was that manner of thinking that convinced her that she didn't need to take it so easy on the celebratory wine the Northuldra produced for the end of the year and the start of a new cycle. What could happen? She wasn't too much of a lightweight normally, unlike Anna who practically just needed to sniff a bottle to be on her ass.

Anna, who definitely should not have attempted to keep up with her sister.

Elsa hadn't made it to Arendelle to ring in the new year and as queen, Anna HAD to be there. Both of them had hated it and the way she heard it, Anna barely maintained her composure. The new year was a time for them to be together and to not be was pretty depressing and angering.

So when Anna showed up the day after the new year had begun, they hugged, vented, and Elsa dragged her to the roaring fire where some others were gathered. Everyone had waited for Anna to be there before getting into special food and drink. Although, it wasn't just Anna. As soon as Ryder saw Kristoff he had lit up and gone to greet his new best pal, and the two were almost immediately discussing Sven.

Elsa had one dainty ice glass of wine. So did Anna. So did Kristoff. Olaf was immediately directed to where all the children were.

Elsa had another equally dainty ice glass of wine. So did Anna. So did Kristoff.

Elsa was pouring her third and Anna was already giggling about...something. They'd been chatting, but she lost track. Anna had linked arms with both Kristoff and Elsa and her face was red and bright.

"Think you better slow down," Kristoff commented to her but there was a big smile on his face. "Think I better slow down, you've seen me after a little too much."

"Yea you try to graze!" Anna blurted without even trying to stop herself and Kristoff muttered while burying his face in one hand.

"I bench press the reindeer, that's what you are supposed to tell people, I bench press the reindeer!"

"You two," Elsa said, but laughed and shook her head. She felt much better with the added company. She liked Ryder, Honeymaren and everyone else, but having her family there couldn't be beat. She missed them all and tugged Anna closer.

"Ooohh you better watch out Elsa's stealing me, oooh..." Anna giggled, snorted, and giggled some more. She held up her empty glass. "More!"

"When isn't she stealing you?" Kristoff answered, and then reached for their particular group bottle. Elsa held out her hand. "Nope. Nope nope. Anna you need to stop for a moment." Elsa tilted her glass at her and spilled a third of it. "Oh..." She looked at it, her head spinning a little. Maybe she needed to pause. Everything was funny and kind of warm and good, so she wanted to embrace it. She set her glass down on the snowy ground and threw both her arms around Anna. With one hand empty now, what else was she supposed to do? The answer to all of her questions was always the same: Anna. Talk to Anna, hug Anna, think about Anna. In her drunken state, it didn't occur to her to question that, though she never did anyway.

How could she think? Anna giggled and leaned into her more. Her energy was just as drunk as the rest of her and it sent tingles up and down Elsa's spine with how erratic it was. The normal comfort was there underneath.

Kristoff unlinked his arm from Anna's and allowed himself more wine at least. His nose was red and eyes bright. Sven nosed him and he laughed, truly enjoying himself. It made Elsa happy. "Kristoff..." she said, but realized she had absolutely no idea where she was going with it so she just stopped and stared. She wanted to express that she felt his joy, too, but she wasn't quite sure how to say that.

He looked at her. "Huh? I can have more, right?"

Before Elsa could respond, Anna did. "Only if you pour me more honey! I will also finish Elsa's," she said, trying to reach for it.

"What? You will not," Elsa said and waved her hand to slide it gently out of Anna's reach. The glass absolutely flew into the fire and exploded with a harsh crackle. "Ah..."

"Is that a no? I'm really confused," Kristoff asked her with genuine concern in his eyes. Anna was tilting off the little bench they were on because she had completely dissolved into laughter. Only Elsa was keeping her sitting up.

Elsa stared at where her glass had been. "Um, yea have whatever you want," she said distractedly. Boy, she really had to focus. She hadn't lost control of her powers in a very long time, and just that little action, messing up moving her glass, had hit an anxious spot in her. It was so minor and it wasn't as if she had concentrated to begin with. But she'd have to be more careful.

Kristoff was pouring himself more as Ryder sloppily approached, grabbing Kristoff's shoulders so hard he nearly spilled what he was pouring. "Kristooooofff!" he managed.

"Ryder? Buddy, you uh..." Kristoff looked over his shoulder to where Ryder wobbled in place, grabbing one of Sven's antlers to right himself. "You alright?"

"Are YOU?" Ryder asked, and then, trying to mimic Kristoff's voice for Sven, he leaned closer to the reindeer, "Kristoff is doing just fine! I've had more to drink to him." His voice was slurring and Sven cast a worried look his way.

Anna was reduced to nothing but hiccups.

Elsa may have too, but she was still annoyed at herself. Her mind kept reassuring her the thing with the glass was small. No big deal. She wasn't going to drunkenly ice Anna or make a snowstorm, right? She could control herself, right?

She stared at fire, still.

And she must have been staring for a while because suddenly she felt a warm breath on her ear. It might have been calming had it not been followed by an especially loud hiccup. "Elsaaaaaaa," Anna whispered, and then smushed her nose against her cheek. "You're quiet Elsaaaa, are you okay?"

"Hmm-mmm?" Elsa felt like she suddenly pieced herself back together, whatever had been luring her out of her own head was gone. She was back in the moment listening to Kristoff and Ryder taking turns doing Sven's voice and Anna was draped against her. "Oh, yes. I'm okay."

"Liar." Anna hiccuped again after the word. "I'm not too drunk for...I know you."

"Mmm.." Had her arms not been occupied with Anna, she would have crossed them over her chest, something she hadn't done in a long time. "When I moved the glass, I didn't mean to fling it into the fire. I don't want to lose any control just because of a little wine. I-"

"You won't hurt me or anyone else," came Anna's sweet and incredibly unconcerned voice. Elsa turned her head so she could face Anna. Anna decided not to move a single inch and her nose was almost on Elsa's mouth.

Elsa raised her chin so she could look into her eyes. They were soft and happy, with absolute trust in them. That trust wrapped itself around her shoulders and gently covered them, making her feel more secure. "You..."

"I believe in you more than an-y-one," Anna reminded her and hiccuped yet again. "So don't worry, okay?"

Elsa laughed lightly. "Okay. Okay okay."

"If you do anything silly it'll probably be freezing your butt to the bench. And if that happens, I can rub it," Anna told her firmly, and then immediately the giggles were back.

"Hey, what's this about rubbing butts? Mine could use a scratch!" Ryder-as-Sven's voice sounded over the giggles.

"That is my fiancee, Sven!" Kristoff growled, before his eyes widened and he realized it was in fact, still Ryder and Sven was also still a reindeer. "Wait..."

"You know you two can...go away," Elsa said suddenly, then covered her mouth as she realized how that just sort of came out. "Sorry, I don't mean that! I..." Well, there was no making that one look good. She really didn't mind them! But she also didn't know why that popped out.

"Yea go away," Anna chimed in and waved them off for a second before her arms went back around Elsa. "Go fishing or something, go do guy things."

"Wow, harsh!" Ryder commented, his mouth hanging open as Kristoff stood up.

"Nah, she's right, let's go do something. Otherwise you'll get worse, and I'll end up like you," Kristoff said. Ryder snorted as though he were offended, but just shrugged. Kristoff turned to the sisters. "Can I have a kiss, Anna?"

"Hmm." Anna looked at him, grabbed Elsa's hand, and kissed the top of it. Elsa's skin tingled.

"Uh..." Kristoff ran his hand through his hair. "I guess that works. Here," he said, holding out his half drunk glass of wine.

Before Elsa even had a chance to say no, the little spitfire lunged forward, grabbed the glass and poured the entirety of the contents into her mouth. Her cheeks puffed up with her mouth full and she turned quickly to look at Elsa, her eyes wide as if to say 'oh no, I've made a mistake'.

Elsa groaned. "It's fine, it's fine. I'll hold your hair back later."

Anna swallowed and Kristoff sighed. "Oh, boy...I should not have done that. Love you honey..." He smiled meekly at Anna, and then Elsa.

"Just go," she told him, vaguely annoyed he gave her the rest of the wine, though overall she wasn't too concerned. And she shouldn't be mad, he got caught up in the moment just like the rest of them and she was drunk too. The only way to pry Anna off her side would be from a harsh gust of wind from Gale, so at least there was a guarantee she was safe.

"Love yooouuu..." Anna managed and waved at Kristoff before he turned to walk away with Ryder and Sven. Then she curled up against Elsa again. "I'm cold."

"You want to go closer to the fire?" Elsa asked, concerned.

"Nooo."

"Want to go inside my hut?"

"Nah..."

Elsa shrugged, not sure what else to suggest. Anna had on a fairly thick coat and cape. With the alcohol in her, she was surprised she was cold. Even Elsa was warm. "Okay. Well when you want a change, tell me."

Anna fell quiet for a couple of moments, her head on Elsa's shoulder. "I don't want a change," she said quietly. "Don't want..." Elsa's mind swirled a little, processing. It was still hard to focus.

"Don't want to move. I just want to stay here with you. I miss you so much," Anna told her.

Oh. Elsa's heart fell a little. "I miss you too, every single day." And every morning, every night.

"Can you freeze this moment?" Anna asked in a small voice.

Elsa laughed a little. "Now, why would you want that when you're already cold?"

"I..." Anna giggled again. "Oh yea." Then the giggling stopped. "But I'd stay cold always if I could have you back. Will you come back if its always cold?"

"Oh Anna, you know I don't need-"

"I know, it's not like you're a...something that actually lives in snow. But if you were I'd have it snow all the time. I'd live in an igloo. Please please, I don't want to let go," she said and her arms were tighter around Elsa.

"Anna...I don't want you to either." Elsa turned on the bench. "I really, really don't. But - but I have to help up here, at least for now. When I know everything is in balance, when I know they'll be alright, I'll come home, I'll come to you. I promise." Yea, it was a bit of a drunken promise, but she meant it. The Northuldra wouldn't need her forever. Ahtohallan could be welcoming, but without those she loved it was a large and empty expanse where she watched many memories she could do nothing about even if she learned a great many things. She didn't have to stop going, didn't have to stop learning.

But she could stop living there when the time was right. The other spirits might miss her but they could easily reach her.

Anna could reach her too but Elsa didn't want her to have to.

"I want to be with you," Anna said, sliding down against Elsa. Somehow her body still fit on that bench despite it not being too wide. "I love Kristoff and I love Olaf and I love our people but I love you the most." Her voice sounded thick.

"Anna, hey, hey." Elsa's own eyes were starting to tear up, and she wanted Anna to not go the sad drunk route, partially because she would take Elsa right along with her. The air around her had shifted from comforting to despair and she did not want that. "Anna, I'm here. I'm right here, okay? I'm with you right now. And someday, I will always be with you. It might be annoying. You'll be trying to sleep, and there's me causing a snowball fight in the bedroom because I'm having a dream."

By then Anna's head was in her lap, and she was silent before popping out a question. "Has that actually happened?"

Elsa didn't know for sure, but Yelena had mentioned a circle of slightly menacing snowmen surrounding her hut one night when she was having a nightmare, so it was a possibility. "Maybe. But do you really want to find out?"

"Yes!"

Elsa shook her head with a smile. "Of course. That was a silly question. I love you, Anna." She gazed down at her and stroked her face. Anna took her other hand in both of her own and held it to her chest.

"I love you more."

"Impossible," Elsa whispered down to her. She couldn't imagine anything that could compete with her love for Anna...

"Nuh-uh." Anna glared up at her. "You don't even know how much..."

The glare was met with the continued warm smile. "I can feel it, so yes, I do. I really do. I suppose neither of us can win this argument."

"Nope. So stop! And just let me be here, okay, right here. I don't wanna be anywhere else."

"I know." Elsa slouched a little so she could lean over her more. "I'm not moving. I'm not going anywhere." When it did start to get dark, she'd move to carry Anna to bed and that was about it. Meanwhile she still stroked Anna's cheek. Anna always was more of the clingy drunk type. Once or twice Elsa could remember Anna literally falling asleep outside her door, before Elsa had been comfortable enough to cuddle with her.

Never again would that happen.

Anna didn't say anything for a little while though she continued to watch Elsa. Everything felt at rest, and though Elsa still felt a little dizzy, she was alright. And they may have indeed stayed there until the sun went down, until...

"Elsa...about holding my hair back..." Anna hiccuped, and it did not sound good.

Well, she almost held her alcohol.

#Frozen 2 #fanfic #elsa #anna #kristoff #elsanna #kristanna

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endless-whump · 4 years

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A Frantic Phonecall

~~Massive TW for suicide attempt~~

This was written for one of my characters in an rp as a non canon vent type piece and decided I wanted to post it. Please please heed the tw and stay safe❤️

Everything hurt, hands shaky as he fumbled for the phone. His vision was blurry, making it difficult to make out the words and numbers on the screen as he struggled to find Jays contact. There was blood, so much blood, running down Simon’s arms and staining his shirt.

The phone rang for what seemed like forever, and for a moment, Simon panicked at the thought he wouldn’t pick up at all. But like always, the buzzing stopped as it cut to the line, Jays cheerful voice coming through.

“Simon? What’s up kiddo, it’s really lat-“

“D,Dad?” Simon stuttered, choking on a sob. “Dad,,I, I did something really stupid. I’m sorry, I’m s,so sorry, it hurts,”

There was a loud noise on the other line as Jay stood up, sending his chair falling.

“Hey, calm down, Simon, are you ok? Where are you?” Something was wrong, Simon’s voice too panicky and breathless.

“N,no,” Simon admitted. “My,,my place,,I’m sorry, I wasn’t thinking-“

“I’m on my way right now, Simon, hang in there. Can you tell me what happened? Are you hurt?” All Jay got in response was a choked sob, and the sound of Simon falling to the floor.

“Hey, kiddo? I need you to keep talking to me. Please keep talking,” there was silence for a moment, the awful sound of Simon’s panicked breaths coming from the phone before he answered.

“D,dad,,I’m scared.” He said, almost a whisper. “I,,,I don’t want to be a,alone.”

Jays heart dropped, and he felt sick as he drove, making a beeline to Simon’s apartment complex. The kid had just started his fist year at college,,,he’d seemed excited, if not a little nervous. “I’m coming, Simon. I promise I’m coming, your not alone, I’m right here. Keep talking to me, bud.” His grip tightened on the steering wheel, panic filling his entire body.

“Is Rayna home? Is there anybody with you that can help you until I get there?”

Silence.

“Simon?”

“N,no,” came the quiet response, and Jay paled at how weak his voice sounded.

“O,ok, that’s fine, I’m pulling in right now. Just stay on the line with me, ok?”

“Ok,” Simon laid his head against the floor, trying to keep focus on Jays voice. He was so tired, tempted to let his eyes shut, tempted to let go. He stared at the red staining the white tile, eyes a little unfocused.

“-imon?!” Simon jolted a little at the loud, alarmed tone of Jays voice, unaware that he’d even zoned out.

“-y,yea, sorry, I’m here,” he whispered, noticing he was shivering now, skin pale.

“D,dad?” He took a shallow, wheezy breath. “I,I love you. I’m s,so sorry,”

“Don’t say that,” Jay snapped, and it almost made Simon flinch. “I’m here, I’m just trying to get in, I already called somebody- damn it, this door won’t open!”

Simon’s eyes wouldn’t cooperate, closing as Jays voice got more distant, more muffled. Tears fell down his face, sobs shaking him. This wasn’t peaceful like he’d wanted. This was just scary and painful and lonely and he came to sharp realization that he didn’t want to die. He didn’t want to go.

“-mon!?” Came the sharp voice again, but it didn’t startle Simon back to focus like before.

“Simon, kid, I need you to answer me, keep talking to me. Simon? Simon!”

The phone slipped from his hand, falling with a small clatter to the kitchen floor as Simon vaguely registered yelling, and a bang, and then everything went quiet.

#whump #tw suicide attempt #vent writing #noncanon character au #my oc #my rp oc #suicide #writing #hurt #comfort #open ending #frantic phonecall #fear #scared

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sorry if this is a dumb question, but im a bit confused about what you do not want us to reblog? i don't want to be the follower who reblogs stuff you dont want bc i wasnt paying attention or something, nd if i did im sorry 😬

NO WORRIES im not very particular about it tbh its just when i specifically say ‘dont reblog’ and people do that bothers me. It can kinda be like ?? when people reblog personal / venting posts but its whatever most of the time its vague stuff that ig is relatable to others so w/e! I might start tagging it clearer if it’ll help, but im almost always ok with my posts, especially my art, to be reblogged. Ill start tagging things more so everything that doesnt say dont reblog is fair game!!

The post i was complaining abt the other day was this one

Which i just didnt want reblogged because i didnt include any info about the image. But its not that big a deal, i was more miffed that it got reblogged when i specifically said dont [but yea im not gunna block anyone over it or anything i dont care pffff] And the one last night i did include a link to the source so i could let ppl reblog the art if they wanted to

So sorry for the confusion! I get that too im often not sure what people are ok with being reblogged so ill try to make it clearer in the future

#asks #anon #tldr: im only gunna be kinda irritated if ppl reblog things that say dont reblog. and even then its usually just 'bro.?'

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vent OS

He tossed himself around in bed, staring at the wall mere inches away from his face. It had been hours since he shut off the lights, and he just finally felt his eyes slide closed. He let himself drift, terrified he wouldn't have another chance, until his phone buzzed on the floor where it was charging. Incoming call: LANCE Keith immediately answered. "Lance? Hey man, what's up?" "Keith? Keeeeeiiiithh! My buddy! Mah Manz!" Oh yea, Lance was very obviously drunk. "Lance what the hell dude it's 3:07 am on a Thursday. Why are you drunk right now?" Keith bit back his concern and replaced it with annoyance, in a desperate attempt to scare Lance away from the public-sounding setting in the background. "Me? Drunk? On a... Thursday?" Lance feigned some sad attempt at a sigh, "Of course I am, Keith." He had already sat up and reached for his shoes before the question fully formed in his mind. "Do you need me to come get you?" "Wha? No no it's... it's okay, really. I have a means of getting home." Lance didn't sound very sure of himself, so Keith grabbed his keys anyways. "Right. Where are you?" - It wasn't like Keith hadn't experienced a drunk Lance, because he definitely has, at full force no less, but this Lance wasn't the drunk Keith was accustomed to at all. This drunk Lance didn't flirt senselessly to him, didn't try sitting in the same seat, didn't even so much as look Keith's way. If he hadn't've said thank you when Keith opened the car door, he would've been sure that Lance didn't even register his existence. Keith pulled into a parking lot after a few long painful minutes of silence. "What's up, dude." Keith flipped the car into park, and turned to face Lance. "I-It's just..." And then the dam broke. Lance was crying, he was holding his head in his hands, he was shaking so violently that Keith was certain he was shaking the car. "Keith, I... we've kissed before, right?" Lance had yet to look Keith in the eye. He vaguely remembered being dared to when they first met, but never since then. "It was a dare. You seemed absolutely repulsed by it." Lance finished before Keith ever answered. "We were practically strangers then, not to mention I have little to no experience in the field." Keith wanted Lance out of this mood, and out of it now. He didn't have the time or energy to talk Lance through yet another "you have value" speech, especially at such a late hour. "I could always tutor you. Seems to be the only thing I'm good for anyways." "Bullshit. First, Lance you are in no position to try and teach anyone anything, second, you do so many great things, and people take advantage of that. They don't deserve you. They don't deserve the boy who gives awesome hugs and loves to cuddle and is always fun to talk to." Keith looked at the clock, 3:49 am. "My only redeeming qualities revolve around my own needs for reassurance and physical attention. Nobody wants to deal with me." Lance huffed into the window, and Keith sighed before starting the car. "You're much more than wanting reassurance and attention. You're a really cool guy, and my friend. Don't beat yourself up over this." They drove the rest of the way to Lance's house in silence, and when Keith pulled in front the driveway, Lance turned before shutting the door. "I love you, Keith. Thanks man." Lance gave a casual wave before heading up the sidewalk. "Love you too dude, get some sleep." He waved, and drove off. 4:58 am. He doubted Lance would go to school with a hangover, but Keith figured he'd just have to suffer through another school day without any sleep the night before. Or before that. Or before that. He cared about Lance, really, he did. Lance was getting to be a handful, and even when Keith pushed himself past his own personal bubble to ensure Lance felt included and loved, Lance wanted more. More hand holding. More random cuddles that Keith never originally agreed to. More exaggerated hugging in the middle of the high school halls. Keith didn't want to make Lance feel as if he'd been leading him on, just as he hoped he wasn't being lead on. Keith was tired. Keith just wanted to be able to go to sleep for once. Lance still felt like a bother, like he had worn his friend out. He cares about Keith, but he needs to know that someone gives half a shit about him or his efforts. Lance was alone. He felt abandoned but slowly being rebuilt, and hoped Keith dealt with him long enough to where he could fix himself. Neither let go of the anxiety balling in their chest settle all day. • the real guessing game: was i keith or lance who knows but holy shit i want death and sleep and courage.

#klangst #klance #langst #kangst #im exhausted #but i want to be there for my friends #ugh

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Prompt [BNHA]

[Boku no Hero Academia Fanfiction]

To Reject Fate’s Design

While I did read the manga when it first came out, my feelings on the Bnha are lukewarm, and the story and plot has lost me. I’m writing this to mostly work out my frustration with it. Be warned this may or may not be continued, or added on. Anyone may adopt it at any time. Just let me know if you do, I’m interested to see what direction other people go.

Overview Summary: When Izuku’s family discovered his lack of a quirk, a decision was made and a family heirloom was passed down. Izuku receives a set of hairpins and everything changes. Or the fanfiction where Izuku has Orihime Inoue’s hairpins and becomes able to use the powers of rejection and things change drastically. NOT a Bleach crossover.

Izuku’s has more family just his mother and his absent father.

When he’s quirk doesn’t manifest like all the other kids, his mother turns to the rest of her family, and she gets a rather long ear full. Especially when they make her explain his situation in depth.

They remained her rather painfully how quirks didn’t use to exist, and it was normal, rather that quirks are like their name--quirks that pop up.

Izuku and his mother move back home, and Izuku is given the support and freedom to be the best he can be.

He gains skills in multiple forms of defensive, and his ability to analysis quirks is encouraged to the point that even his grandfather is shocked (and his family members will speculate that maybe the doctors are wrong and he does have a quirk).

He gains the Shun Shun Rika hairpins at some point and soon masters using them.

Izuku studies hard, and enters another hero school, graduating early, but finds himself disillusioned with the hero system. He’s 14 years old, and at a crossroads.

Heroes are famous but most end up in debt, and there’s so much damage to public property that the people saved often spiral into poverty trying to recover their livelihood, even though heroes are supposed to pay them back.

80% of people who become heroes are from rich backgrounds, while 70 to 80% of villains are people who lived in poverty, and/or crime-field neighborhoods. People that society has forgotten, or doesn’t care about. But the most damning fact that 30% percent of villains are the direct result of hero intervention.

Thus, Izuku comes to a number of realizations. Most heroes even after they graduate, still don’t fully understand their quirks, and don’t the fine control needed to protect the public, and still, end up hurting people.

Thus, when Izuku returns to his old hometown, he moves into one of the most troubled neighborhoods, and tucks his hero license into a safe deposit box in the back of his closet and starts working. He goes out into the neighborhood and starts helping where he can--fixing old buildings, setting up shelters, setting up soup kitchens, teaching kids to control their quirks, helping children with their homework. He uses his hairpins to heal injuries and becomes a central pillar in the neighborhood, stopping fights and even getting the two yakuza groups in the area to get along.

He becomes so famous, that everyone knows ‘Deku’.

He does so much that the area that once was so dangerous, is changing into a safe place to walk at night, that even rich neighborhood can’t say they are.

But he also starts hearing troubling things. Starts hearing about the League of Villains, and refuses to let such a dangerous group of people destroy the peace.

So, he takes the problem into his own hands. He makes a visit to U.A. Academy. He is not impressed. At all. The students' freak out and the teachers start attacking him before he can even explain anything. Because they assume he is a villain. He is not. Apparently, no one reads the U.A. School Rules or they would know that the U.A. Barrier allows Students, Special Entry, AND all registered Heroes entry. (For the record though even Nedzu doesn’t know think about it because the U.A. Barrier Rules are like three hundred pages long.)

‘Deku’ instantly becomes a famous villain, and he is not happy. He gets a call from his mom (still in the middle of a messy divorce with her husband, worried and he has to explain everything, “I didn’t break into U.A. I walked into U.A. with my hero license on me. I am a registered hero. The U.A. Rules allows registered heroes access.”)

Still, he is so done, so he goes home and wakes up the next morning ready to get this nonsense fixed only to discover that everyone in his area is beyond happy for him. Because obviously being a villain is the only valid job for people like them. Even if ‘Deku’ is the strangest villain they’ve ever met.

“I always thought you were the coolest person ever!” Says yet another kid as he passes by. “Even if you nag me to eat my greens.”

Suffice to say, Izuku is very much not happy, so the next days he returns to U.A. only to get caught in an actual attack on U.A and he ends up having to save all the idiot kids and their teacher. He holds off the villains long enough for all the other heroes to appears, and while they do the fighting he heals Eraserhead.

After the villains finally retreat, about with some pointed threats, they turn their attention on ‘Deku’ and of course try to capture him, thinking he’s hurt Aizawa.

Izuku is annoyed and lectures all of them while he dodges attacks before he leaves.

‘Deku’ becomes even more famous and suddenly there are people talking about him in the highest levels of the hero world when Recovery Girl discovers that not has Aizawa been healed, he’s better than before. Healing Quirks are incredibly rare less than 0.05% have them, and the fact that he is so much more powerful than Recovery Girl’s is dangerous and incredibly useful.

Plans are made and a secret agreement is made by the Japanese Government, the highest levels of the Hero Community to only capture and not kill ‘Deku’ no matter what, because his quirk could be the only thing to restore All Might.

Becomes the most hunted person in Japan almost literally overnight. Sightings of him are now sent to the police and U.A. as they try to capture him and fail. (Because Izuku may not be as experience in fighting as them, he is very resourceful. Sewers, vents, parkour, and when that doesn’t work, flying on his barrier, Izuku knows the terrain and used it to his advantage.)

Both the police and the U.A. are so confused by ‘Deku’, and can’t understand him at all, but they don’t have time to focus on him because the Villian League are getting bolder.

It becomes a habit. The police and the heroes chase Izuku, Izuku runs, but one day it seems like they capture him, and then things get weird when it's discovered not to be Deku, but some morphing villain and eventually it gets solved but not before some pointed questions get asked.

Kacchan remembers Izuku and does some research (but he’s bad at it and thinks his former loser friend becomes a villain) and suddenly the cops go beating down the door of Inko’s house and start demanding answers about whether her son is a villain. She firmly denies this and proceeds to prove her point with pictures from his hero graduation with thoroughly confuses the police because their one lead is wrong. (No one considers the fact that they are the same person because Izuku is in his hero outfit in all the pictures at about the same height, while ‘Deku’s’ hair is more unkempt and he’s not wearing his mask.

It eventually all comes to head in that the villains attempt a massive recruitment and Izuku stops them but not before getting hurt and ends up in the hospital were the U.A. staff and police start interrogating him when another unrelated villains attacks and things get confusing.

Izuku does solve the problem by restoring the hospital and healing the heroes before he runs off because he needs to get groceries.

He returns the next day, and finally, FINALLY explains the problem and shows proof, and All Might is healed.

More Ideas

Yea, there's a lot of thoughts I had for this particular universe but I wasn't quite sure how to add them all in/was to lazy to. Izuku does a good majority of the work by himself, I'd like to think, but I think he has a team of sidekick he might let intern with during the school year from his old school, and eventually it becomes something that the school mandates because it shows a different side of the hero industry that just isn't present or even obvious.

Also, in this universe, I might even go the route and say that maybe Izuku has a super-supportive family that backs him up like 150%, especially when they see how many good Izuku is doing, and the people he's affecting. Maybe local businesses donate food or funds and there's like a ton of charity work going on and so on and so forth. I think maybe somewhere down the line (I can't decide where I think it would be better for this to happen) Izuku's quirk is listed and even though it can heal its not immediately obvious for a couple of reasons.

Reason One: Izuku read up on the rules about Quirk Registration and even though he needs to register his quirk, it can be named anything and in any language. So he names it "Apversti Dalla" in a little obscure language (Lithuanian: reverse fate) and of course, that's vague as fuck but no one can complain because what he did is not illegal and he lists it as being to make barriers, even though it can do so much more. But then again laws don't require he write a comprehensive report on his quirk just that he writes something 'correct' down. Izuku does both, technically and because he knows quirk information is part of open records for both the heroes and the public he know that he's made a good decision.

Reason Two: Unlike U.A. which is all showy and has a televised sports festival, his school is smaller and not as rich. So anything that happens at his school is...not really an open secret and it's not like the people are going to shout about his power from the rooftops so, nothing really comes of it. Maybe word of him will get out but meh. It's all rumors, and everyone is much more interested in the newest kids at U.A.Maybe instead of a different country, Izuku simply goes to the Internation School on the American Military Base and get his certification through them, and receives his American/Japanese duo license and registers the paperwork. I don't know the ideas are endless.

I'll have to think more on this later.

#bnha #izuku midoriya #bamf izuku #prompt

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Season 13 Episode 16: Who Is He (And What Is He to You)?

Songs of the Episode:

Doubt by Mary J Blige

You Don’t Know by Jill Scott

Synopsis:

It is JAPRIL THE TREQUEL. That’s right, the episode focuses solely on April and Jackson. Of course it starts off a little rocky. Jackson is ready to board his family’s private plane, when April pulls up. Mama Avery did some scamming and switched Grey who was originally supposed to accompany Jackson, with April. Mind you they are not on the best turns. So this trip could be really great for them, or a complete disaster. I choose to believe the former. They head off to Montana to help a girl who has a horrible throat cancer. The goal is to salvage her vocal cords so that she won’t lose her ability to speak. At the hospital, their first task is to inform a patient that there is nothing else they can do for him and suggest organ donation. Obviously the father is devoted and doesn’t want to give up, but the Jackson references his and April’s deceased son. He tells him that, he had to find meaning in his son’s life and suggests that organ donation could do that for him. April is upset that Jackson referred to their deceased son to win over a parent. After speaking with the patient with throat cancer, they have come up with a plane to save the daughter’s life. Needing to rest up and prep for surgery they head to the hotel. April suggests that they prep together while Jackson seems determined to study alone. It becomes apparent as he heads out to a bar, that this trip had two motives: to save a patient and to meet his father. He goes to his father’s diner, but is too nervous to say anything to him and instead gets drunk. April barges into the diner to find Jackson drunk, which isn’t the best timing considering there are complications with the patient. Jackson runs out, but before April leaves she finds out Jackson’s father works in the diner. Everything began to click for her. She knew now that’s the reason he’s so distracted, and why he came all the way out to Montana for the consult. They first have to figure out what they are going to do to save the patient given the new complications. Their first thought involved her losing her ability to speak. Unimpressed, the mother books a flight to find care elsewhere, but Japril knows how dangerous it would be to transport her. They were able to persuade them to stay for one more day because Jackson said he had a plan (he was bluffing). Time is now of essence. But April knows that they will not be able to progress until Jackson faces his past. So she decides to confront him about his father. Finally, Jackson removes the hard shell he’s been hiding behind and opens up about his father and how he couldn’t say what he needed/wanted to say. She pushes him to go back to the diner and talk to him. Hesitant, he finally talks to his father and … it’s as uncomfortable as you would think it is. He doesn’t even recognize him… so they are already off to a great start. His father tells him how great his Catherine was and how they met. He told him that his mother was meant to be an Avery and that he couldn’t handle the pressure. Then he asks about Jackson’s life, his career, his family. Jackson briefly and vaguely tells him before he goes back to the drawing board to save his patient. He vents to April and while they are talking they come up with a solution. They do an amazing groundbreaking surgery where they take her appendix and intestines and use them to create a new esophagus. While it is experimental and risky, they get the parents approval. She makes it through the surgery! Both of them feeling exhilarated after performing the impossible, they get back to the hotel and … APRIL AND JACKSON FINALLY RECONNECT! He just gives April the look and then he’s “just thinking about our track records in hotels.” (Screaming! I just need a minute to soak in all this happiness….) Okay ready now. So yea they slept together (finally) and check in on the patient who gets her voice back! While things are starting to look up, Jackson can’t leave without getting closure. He goes back to the diner and tells his father that he’s not his father, not a grandfather, and that he will never see him again. He vowed to make a promise to be there for his little girl and he doesn’t plan on breaking it anytime soon. Jackson and April ride back together in bliss and reunite with Catherine and baby Harriet once they land. Jackson has a newfound appreciation for his mom and thanks her.

An additional thought:

THANK YOU SHONDA FOR RECONNECTING JAPRIL! I’ve been waiting for this day for a long time, but I knew it would happen. They just have so much history together, that this needed to just happen already. Also I am so proud of Jackson for finding his father. I think this will help him move on and appreciate the life he has. His experience, while it sucks, has made him a better father because he knows what it’s like to grow up without one. He also stands up for himself and shows his father that he doesn’t need his approval, or his help to turn into the amazing man, surgeon, and father he is. I just hope that this means that Jackson and April are back together! Cause no relationship is safe at Grey Sloan.

#grey's anatomy #grey's abc #tv show #music #song #review #season 13 episode 16 #you don't know #jill scott #doubt #mary j blige

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> Caefora: Separate

caepaecaesurae > A sudden, weird, wrenching sense of loss -- and a weird hollow sensation, that at least slightly evens out. Where once there was Mostly Cae, now there is a back-to-normal Lurky instead. > ..and Caesurae's mind is quiet. > He blinks several imes, woken up from a sound sleep, looking up at the canopies of a strange bed. sugary-empress >Condy startles. What's going on? Where's that person she was? She's supposed to be more... >When she wakes up more fully, she figures it out. It's Tuesday, and all good things must end. "Good ewvening, sweetness~" >Fuck! "Gods dammit, yoar not efin in t)(ere and I'm still doing it!~" caepaecaesurae > He burst out laughing, flopping backwards, a hand dropping to cover his forehead. "You're wvelcome!"

sugary-empress >She sighs and shakes her head. "I can't believe you're t)(e worst, and also contagious~" caepaecaesurae "It's my one flawv." sugary-empress "As far as singular flaws go, being t)(e worst is a pretty bad one~" >Condy has the correct number of boobs and her hair is right again, but still. She'll miss Cae. Having a reasonable person in one's pan is helpful. "You need to be getting back... Some)(ow~ Water we gonna do aboat t)(at?~" >She doubts she's allowed to know how to get there. caepaecaesurae > He blew out a breath, hand unconsciously dropping to lay across hic chest, which was Flat. ... He sat there a moment, then looked puzzled, then headrattled and adjusted his bracers. Then he suddenly had a nice modest set himself. It was boob time. Fuck the uniboob. The fake gold boob was probably laying somewhere around. "...I imagine I'll go to a neutral spot, maybe those backup coordinates wve wvere givwen, and then ask a quadrant mate to pick me up." "Givwen your leavwe, of course." sugary-empress >Condy will have that gold boob framed and hung somewhere as a memory of their time together. >Hm. "Given my leave, dear?~ W)(at do you mean?~" >It's unclear from her tone if the question is sincere or not. caepaecaesurae > That kind of thinking is exactly why Cae still has a ratty old shower curtain Nadaya gave him. caepaecaesurae > He seemed relaxed still. "WVell, I'm your guest here, it seems polite to ask." caepaecaesurae > He tried to remember what her favorite food was and the memory just wasn't...There. Hm. They'd definitely split apart again. ...He produced a small tray of chocolate-coated berries from nothing, set it down between them, and snacked on one. sugary-empress >She waves a hand dismissively. "Na)(, bro~ I mean, I~ didn't kidnap you, but you were still basically kidnapped, you didn't detide to come over or anyfin~" >She grins a little sharply. "Plus, if people only left w)(en t)(ey )(ad perfis)(ion, I'd still be evil~" >She snags a strawberry. Mmm, food. Things taste different as a full trickster, no concepts of things being too sweet or differing tastes to get in the way. "Yoar free to go w)(enebber~ caepaecaesurae > He decides to actively gloss over any potentially-threatening parts of that and focus on the parts he likes. "Sounds like a plan. ....Hn, wve made a lot of parting gifts, I'll havwe to be creativwe wvhen gifting you things nowv." caepaecaesurae "..I think I'll head out either before breakfast or after -- Any preference? I'm here anywvays." sugary-empress ")(ave breakfast )(ere, sugarplum~ I'll call in a sl-- servant, w)(at do you want?~" >They aren't slaves anymore, they really aren't, but hey, old habits. "Y'know I kinda figured t)(is was gonna end badly, like ebberyone else's did, and I'm glad it didn't!~" caepaecaesurae "Thanks for not kicking me out immediately," He glanced over with a wry grin, scratching his chin. "..A sandwvich maybe? BLT?" He hazarded. "I guess it's just our luck that wve aren't that incompatible -- My sympathies on havwing to deal wvith an Ampora for a wveek." sugary-empress "We can manage t)(at, cupcake~ Oh, I would never!~" >Well... She can think of a couple situations where she would do that. "I would usually not~ Yea)(, it's good luck t)(at we're moderately bros, and also uncomfortably similar~ And of course, I'm sorry you needed to deal wit)( my w)(ole nonsense, I'm normally better at not feeling negative emotions!~" caepaecaesurae > He rolled his eyes and rubbed at his cheek. "I don't think you're the one that wvas bringing us dowvn, there. You knowv my stance on that sort of thing." sugary-empress "It was dolp)(initely a little of bot)(, t)(e Sal fin really t)(rew me off~" >A servant appears at Condy's summons, seemingly unfazed by the sight of the two of them in bed together. Condy orders french toast and hot chocolate, lets Cae order, then dismisses the servant. "You're an interesting guy to be, you know~" caepaecaesurae "WVell, at least you havwe some time to think about the Sal thing before dealing wvith it nowv. ...Best of luck," he sounded honestly sympathetic. He was also good at casually ignoring servants as if they weren't there. It was polite, eye contact from highbloods was scary. "I imagine it must havwe been quite the change." sugary-empress "O)(, I'm not gonna deal wit)( it in any way, I'm )(oping it's done now~" >The eye contact thing was definitely true. Condy may be less... playful... now, but being singled out for personal attention from her or one of her friends is historically not good. "It was!~ You're very reasonable, and full of anxiety, and gods awful at s)(aring t)(at kinda fin~" caepaecaesurae "That is one wvay of dealing wvith it," he mused. "...I'm glad I wvas reasonable at least. The anxiety is ah -- I'm wvorking on it still." "... I havwe no excuse not to talk to Dee left." Nosewrinkle. sugary-empress "No, you've got no excuse, and if you don't I'm going to need to bully you into it! T)(at's a sweet troll wit)( no reason to use it against you, so any paranoia is unfounded, and it'll make your conversoceans more pleasant!" >Condy is Frowning Sternly, which she never does, but it doesn't last. "Talking is important, you mysterious secretive nerd~" "No, you've got no excuse, and if you don't I'm going to need to bully you into it! T)(at's a sweet troll wit)( no reason to use it against you, so any paranoia is unfounded, and it'll make your conversoceans more pleasant!" >Condy is Frowning Sternly, which she never does, but it doesn't last. "Talking is important, you mysterious secretive nerd~" caepaecaesurae > His eyebrows lifted as she went on, and he leaned slightly away -- not in fear, but as if blown literally away by the force of her opinion. "--It's not paranoia, I just.. don't WVant to, I don't like talking about things." "I don't like being wveak, and if I don't Admit it .." sugary-empress "-Ebberyfin you do is at least a LITTL-E bit aboat paranoia~" >She shared that brain for a week, so she's definitely more qualified than him to say that, clearly. She sighs. "I know, dear, I really really know, but it's dumb!~ Your pan is working against you improving your life, and I know it's not some massive fin, but also, it kind of is!~" caepaecaesurae "WVell, I mean," He couldn't Entirely contest that, so he swapped to another subject. Any subject that no one managed to get him to lose counted as a win after they'd forgotten about it, right? ...Finding another subject was taking a moment. caepaecaesurae "It's so stupid that they'd havwe to tiptoe," he floundered. sugary-empress "No, it's not, but even if it was, life is full of stuff bulls)(it t)(at you do becod you love someone, and or want to be considered a decent person~" caepaecaesurae "I don't wvant to need them to do that," sugary-empress "And asking t)(at someone not randomly mention t)(eir ass)(ole in conversation isn't asking t)(em to tiptoe~" caepaecaesurae Dramatic Eyeroll. "That depends on the person, unfortunately." sugary-empress >Condy dramatically eyerolls right back! "Yoar only unreasonable aboat your own fins, w)(ic)( makes sense, ebberyone is, but still, it's like, dude~" caepaecaesurae > He sighed deeply and flopped backwards, resting the back of his arm on his forehead again. "I'll--Look, /today/ I havwe other things to wvorry about, wvith getting back into my univwerse and dealing wvith wvhatevwer safety measures they wvant and all that." "But i'll get around to it," caepaecaesurae "And they'll be nagging me too," sugary-empress "W)(at will you )(ave tomorrow, )(m?~" >Well, they will nag, at least that's true. Siiigh. "It's a good fin I adore you, becod you're annoying~" >It isn't said with any malice, just affection. caepaecaesurae > He blushed despite himself, which set off a bit of the bioluminescense. "WVell, at least I havwe that then." sugary-empress >Oh no, that's cute... >The food arrives just in time, and Condy digs into some huge pieces of French toast dusted with powdered sugar. It prevents her from needing to say anything about that, but she does speak after a couple bites. "I'm gonna bug you if you don't do t)(e fin, you know~" caepaecaesurae > He accepted the food with an absent thankful nod for the servant -- positive aknowledgement, without any personal identification. ..and pressed a hand to his cheek for a moment, shaking his head. "..I appreciate that, thank you. I'll be doing it." sugary-empress "I know you will, eventually!~ I believe in you~" >No more gross friendship emotions, only food now. caepaecaesurae "Should I bother changing my vwent blog passwvord? I imagine our social circles wvould be distressed if I didn't." It was currently pumpernickel. He'd been vaguely hungry when he made it. sugary-empress "Mm, feel free if you'd like, I wouldn't c)(ange mine except t)(at Nadaya )(as it now~ I know )(e was one of t)(e people w)(o read my vent and passed it around t)(at one time~" >Her password was redbloodvelvet, for similar reasons. "O)(, and tell basically ebberyone you know to c)(ange t)(eirs, I'm sure t)(ey know, but still~" caepaecaesurae He grimaced his sympathy, nodding, and starting in on his sandwich. "I wvill. It's almost tempting to make a second vwent blog for those that don't get along wvith my current friends, but that's probably a bit much." sugary-empress "T)(at is definitely a bit muc)(, it's also t)(e most you t)(ing I've ebber )(eard~" caepaecaesurae He sighed. "They can't all be wvinners. It's atrocious that I can't talk openly anywvhere though." sugary-empress "Always feel free to glub at me, babe, I know it's not t)(e same as doing it to an audience, but still~ I'm sorry, t)(oug)(, s)(it sucks~" caepaecaesurae > Sigh, nom. "I wvill, thank you." "I'll pull through just fine, I knowv it's not like it's a hemoflip and I'm not fearing for my life outside of edge case scenarios like this wveek, it's just frustrating sometimes." sugary-empress ")(ow often are your edge case scenarios, my dear?~" >She isn't THAT concerned, really, she isn't, it's just that she likes him and he deserves only great things! caepaecaesurae > He shrugged, chuffing softly, and focusing on a bite of sandwich for a bit. "...swveeply, biswveeply, in that range. It might cool dowvn as wve all get used to one another." Or heat up as tensions rose, or stay exactly as it was, who knew. But probably that first one. caepaecaesurae "...And it's nevwer something that wvould... compromise my contingency plans to stick around, thusfar. Mostly." He shook his head. "Price of doing business I think." sugary-empress "Good, good. People I like can't die, I don't like it. Besides, those are pretty solid stats, dear. You're incredibly c)(arming, clearly, but we knew t)(at." caepaecaesurae Another of those little grins. "I don't like it wvhen people I like die either. Take care of yourself best you can, alright?" caepaecaesurae > He let out a breath, and ran his hand through his hair. "..I do my best. I'll...see howv wvell I can do." sugary-empress ")(m... Well, I'm awful at making good decisions, but I'm )(istorically amazing at being alive, so I guess it's a tossup~" >She pats him on the shoulder. "You'll do just fine~" caepaecaesurae "Improvwisation counts for a fair bit, as wvell evwidenced by Nadaya," he mused. The pat earned her a smaller smile. sugary-empress "I sink Nadaya is proof t)(at even an unrealized )(ope aspect is fucking amazing, actually, but I get your point~" >You finally finish your french toast, and busy yourself with wiping the powdered sugar up with your finger and licking it off. "T)(anks for being so cool aboat ebberyfin~" caepaecaesurae His mouth opened and he paused that way, before hesitantly nodding. "...True, there is that." "..Thanks back at you. Sorry for all the second-hand ah. /Fuss/. From my clade. I'll see wvhat I can do to put them at ease tonight." sugary-empress "No need to apologize, I understand~ I even understand it from t)(eir points of view, I'm just a delicate w)(iney flower~ T)(ey'll be )(appy to )(ave you back!~" caepaecaesurae "WVell, I think wve're all a bit delicate wvhen it comes to being personally threatened. And they wvill." He shook his head. "..I'm glad this doesn't havwe to be some big production." Today at 7:44 PM sugary-empress "I'm glad as well, sugar~" >She beams at him. What a good dude. "Are you ready to go?~ Is it time?~" caepaecaesurae He grinned back at her and rubbed his head. "Guess so. Can someone showv me to the pad? I think wve alwvays teleported..." sugary-empress "I will, sweetfins~" >She got out of bed and led the way to the nearest transportalizer, not far from her room. It should probably be farther, for security reasons, but it's so convenient... "Let me know if you need anyfin atoll!~" caepaecaesurae > Especially considering she could teleport.. "I wvill. Thank you." Best not to spoil the moment. He followed. When they finally reached the pad, he started typing in numbers and gave her one last smile and a wink. sugary-empress >Wink and fingerguns! caepaecaesurae > Wry grin, fingergun, and port out. (( that's /so fucking corny/ XD )) sugary-empress >They're both fucking nerds. caepaecaesurae > Yeup.

#M!A: Caefora #ooc eyes only #sugary-empress #The day started off so well #long post/

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