#to my health and emotional stability mainly

[notemaker]

Don had a crush on someone named Missy, once. Short for Missile launcher.

#I hope my brand of humor is entertaining otherwise I will cry #that is a threat #to my health and emotional stability mainly #donnie keeps being the top contender in every youtube autism video ever #donnie #donatello #tmnt #tmnt donnie #rottmnt #rottmnt fanart #donnie rottmnt #donatello rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #donatello rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles art #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles fanart

[a-d-nox]

what's a solar return?

any time the sun transits and becomes exactly conjunct your natal sun (it is in the exact sign and degree it was in when you were born), you undergo a solar return. solar returns happen every year on your birthday. my solar return is coming up this october, so i thought "why not?let's continue my thoughts about the return charts."

but what can a solar return chart show you?

literally everything about your year ahead. you just have to look at it and know what you are looking at/for. so let's break it down some of the basics...

sun

energy/aura, attention you receive this year, leadership opportunities, creativity, pride/ego/dignity, how generous you are, individuality, personal development, self-awareness, what makes you happy, celebrations, and self-expression.

moon

emotions / emotional responses, self-care, comfort zone / safe space, femininity, mothers / matriarchal / maternal instincts, family, nostalgia, pregnancy/fertility, baking/cooking, adaptability, menstruation, and habits/routines.

mercury

communication/gossiping, mindset / reasoning skills, perception, writing, social media / cellphone use, short trips, ground transportation, and mannerisms.

venus

romance, beauty/aestheticism, pleasure(s), art/entertainment, self-love, harmony, femininity, sentimentality, how you compromise, parties/celebrations, and possessions.

mars

passions/desires, self-confidence, ambition, anger/aggression, competitiveness, athletics / physical energy, impulsivity, courage/bravery, tasks, masculinity, assertiveness, sexuality, and violence.

jupiter

luck, abundance, wealth, success, opportunity, popularity, wisdom, air travel, ease, higher education (college/university), optimism, justice/retribution, law, and fulfillment.

saturn

work, achievement/mastery, challenges, karma, fathers / patriarchy / paternal instincts, fears, guilt, delays/limitations, discipline, responsibility, past issues that are prevalent this year, practicality, stability, endurance, maturity, and grudges.

uranus

friends/fans/followers, technology, fluctuation/change, rebellion, independence, originality, unexpected things / surprises, and chaos.

neptune

creativity, selflessness, escapism, intuition, hidden things, deception/lies/delusion, confusion, inspiration, and addiction/fascination.

pluto

change/transformation, power, sex/seduction, death, intensity/magnetism, obsessions, manipulation, and purging.

1h/asc

identity, approach/mindset this year, physical appearance, mannerisms, and your presence.

2h

money/finances this year, material possessions, self worth, what you are giving/receiving, and resources.

3h

communication/gossip, mind / method of thinking, sibling relationship(s), interests, ideas/information, ground transportation, social media / cellphone use, publishing, and short trips.

4h/ic

homes/houses, family matters, parents (mainly maternal figures), inner child work you do this year, inheritance, traditions you practice this year, self-care you do this year, and femininity.

5h

children, talents / hobbies / entertainment / creative pursuits, drama, short-term romances, pleasures/gifts, fertility, and joy/delight/jubilation

6h

daily routine, health/fitness/diet, work/duties, self-improvement / shadow work, hygiene, and pet(s).

7h/dsc

long-term relationships / marriage / partnerships, how you care for others (if you care for others), minor legal pursuits, contracts/negotiations, known enemies, close associates / business partners, and equality/harmony/sharing (how you promote it and how (if) you receive it).

8h

changes (external and internal), death (internal and external), shared finances, what you invest in, stocks/taxes/inheritance/loans/assets, intimacy (intellectual and physical), secrets/mystery, mental health / trauma you experience, and possible surgery/operations.

9h

wisdom you gain, major legal pursuits, new beliefs/ethics/philosophy milestones, college/university, and air travel / travel abroad.

10h/mc

career, public image / status / reputation in society, responsibilities towards society/others, authority, paternal figures, and your professional aspirations (the progress you make towards them this year).

11h

friends/companions/allies/groups, ideals/desires, how your different this year as opposed to years past, technology, networking/socializing, and parties (formal and informal).

12h

how you heal this year from you past / mental health journey, karma, sleeping habits, your experience with solitude/isolation this year, unknown enemies, illusions/delusions you have about your situation, fears / self-limitation, losses, and what you secretly/subconsciously want most this year.

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[cupidastrology]

the life of libra ♥ positive & charming side of planet venus˚⁀➷

do not repost or copy my work.

let's talk about the very indepth yet calming libra, the charming and feminine side of planet venus ︎ ♀︎.

︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵

libra is known to be the light and significator of planet venus, which is known as the planet of love and romance. in these areas of life and existence, love and romance is the highest form of connectivity and understanding. it is what brings people, things, places, energies, and anything that all live together.

persuasion is a huge significator for planet venus. it is also the highlight for manipulation, seduction, and envy. venus doesn't have any issue with using their charm to get revenge, desire, and what they want. this energy is clever and its manipulative in ways that range from negative to powerful.

when we look to libra, we may see an energy that is full of pinks, is finicky, and very girlish. in reality libra is the total opposite; being the bright light of planet venus libras use their arts and creativity to express their wants and needs. there is never violence but a sense of shaking things up in groups and social worlds in passive ways.

libra is a cardinal, air sign that is okay with starting brand new things if its to get what they want. they're not a direct communicator but someone that uses methods of wording (romantic photos, drawings, or love notes) to express themselves to others.

due to there cardinal nature, they are inclined to always feel the need to be prepared rather than go straight into impulsivity like their counterpart aries.

libra is represented as the justice system, books on the law, rules, scales, the buttocks, the low back, the pancreas, the kidneys, and the back.

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libra through the 12 houses ⚘

libra in the 1st house: you may be seen as generous, persuasive, and seductive to your peers. there is alot of injustice and law related functions happening in your home town or neighborhood. jealousy and envy may have been surrounding you since your youth. lots of admirers, gossip, and drama in friend groups.

libra in the 2nd house: you attract peers and are very persuasive around gifts and what you desire. youre able to get what you want easily and use your voice to bring forth your wants or needs. attraction towards perfumes, music, and the creative arts creates an instant emotional connection that is hard to pull away from.

libra in the 3rd house: you do well in legal pleasures and high court situations. its important you have balance and stability in your connections in life. your childhood may have consisted of drama, gossip, and being the meditator is others issues. youre able to connect with creative arts in ways where you can use social media to express these ideas or creations. getting involved with fashion is a bi step.

libra in the 4th house: you have a family or household that is of the arts, gossip, and petty drama. there is always something happening in your household, mainly having to do with what is said. you may pursue the law or feel pressured to connect with the legal system due to possible family members involved. this is a position that works with balance and stability. the father is a big issue.

libra in the 5th house: love and sex are huge themes when it comes to this position. your art style or desires are heavily coated in femininity but you also have no issue wanting balance in the way you express yourself. this is the home of confidence and self expression in for of creativity so you may want to always show yourself in a loving but confident way. there is no issue with meditating situations but drama can occur easily with doing so here.

libra in the 6th house - your health may constantly in touch with what you desire in life; you need to learn to balance your wants and needs before just choosing to indulge. liquids and the amount of things may be an issues if you're not careful with how you intake these subjects. getting into the political field or the world of law and crime may be a hobby but could also be a talent that becomes a job.

libra in the 7th house - you are involved in your engagements, though you may be into the gossip train tad much. you want to focus on the relationships you make in life, it is important that where you make choices there is so much peace. you have a knack for expressing any disagreements in pliant ways, always knowing how to convince another in conversation.

libra ♎︎ in the 8th house - you are studious and often not sure about where money sits in your life. you hide so many secrets to peoples' issues and dramas, and have the ways of using it to gain the upper hand. it is important that you are focused on what choices you make, and what contracts you are signing with the world of beauty.

libra ♎︎ in the 9th house - you are diplomatic in the world of religion and may not always be bound to one belief. you are around many that are not exactly in touch with the root of belief, but then you are able to see the reality for those that are in love with it. you have a desire for romance associated with a higher power, and may want to understand the love of the occult through education.

libra ♎︎ in the 10th house - you are seen as both sensuous and dramatic, in scales of calm and deceiving all at the same time. many people enjoy the gossip due to jealousy or intimidation by you, but your silence can speak many words. you may have to focus on how you see yourself in the world around you, especially your career.

libra ♎︎ in the 11th house - friends and peers admire you, but may have to deal with much jealousy and challenge issues. there is desire to connect, so you may come across all types of people but their issues hang in front of you very closely. you will have to always be aware of what crowd you're involved in .

libra ♎︎ in the 12th house - a hardship in relating to others, and having to constantly create just for your own enjoyment. this is where self care and self love is majorly important, because neglect comes in from a deep place. dont be afraid to love yourself, and to show the love into something solid and long term. you may have issues with romance, but healing with love is most required.

#astrology #aries #libra #taurus #virgo #pisces #aquarius #astrology signs #capricorn #astrology readings #sagittarius mercury #sagittarius sun #sagittarius rising #sagittarius

[lionheartapothecaryx]

Wake up it’s the 1st of the month …. 3/1/24

Happy Venus Day 💕 Life Update

As a black, neuro spicy love witch, I’ve always struggled a bit with the shop, blog, group and managing a business especially when I'm not in a creative space but finally I've been inspired again.

So let me reintroduce myself again. I started this blog almost 4 yrs ago and it took off really quickly, gaining lots of followers overnight. This was right around COVID and there was a renewed interest in Hoodoo and love magick around that time. I’ve mainly posted vintage photos, wrote articles and shared spells and had so much fun interacting with all of you.

I started off 2023, grieving a difficult breakup and reflecting on lessons learned about myself, my former relationship, his spiraling addiction and uncertainty about the future. On top of that, I got to the point where I quit working at my high paying but super intense civilian job that was leaving me constantly exhausted, giving me severe panic attacks and driving me crazy.

I decided to take a sabbatical and reconnect with my body, self and my craft. I’ve always struggled a bit with imposter syndrome and the past few months have been difficult but healing for me as I reconnected with spirit, the elements and my spiritual allies. I finally got my spark back and found a good creative space after working with the spirits of Mercury and Venus.

Some of that inspiration has come in the form of creating new spell oils. The past few months I’ve had multiple recipes come to me repeatedly. After struggling to figure out the logistics, finally I can start testing oils out on myself and a few other volunteers before I place them in the shop. It’s been such a cool but confusing process, I wanted to share with all of you, if you still care 🤣 what I’ve been up to.

The first spell oil that I’ve been working is called Love Uncrossing, inspired by myself, other women, friends, clients, SW’s, crazy experiences and some of the strongest people I know. In traditional Hoodoo, an uncrossing is used to spiritually repair and fix an situation or individual with crossed conditions. To be crossed is to be blocked up, stagnant, unlucky, jinxed or even hexed. As a practitioner for hire, I’ve come across crossed conditions for love work so often, I know it’s fairly common.

Experience has taught me as a devotee of Venus/Aphrodite and the Venusian Arts that real genuine love doesn’t always come easily for everyone. Life is full of wonders but often unfair. Whether it’s the grief of a bad breakup, the intense pain of heartbreak, aggravating soul ties, deep traumas, negative cords an attachments or simply never ending bad luck, love does not play fair … but it can be.

For my SW’s friends who regularly work the club, do other forms of s-work or are ex industry, I’ve found that protecting and clearing the sacral, life force energy regularly can protect your spirit, energy and mental health, shielding you from intense burnout. I’ve charged the oil to assist with this. Even if you aren’t in the industry though, regularly cleansing and protecting your life force/ sacral energy can help with bringing you more balance and stability, within yourself and others.

For survivors of SA & abuse (physical, emotional, and s*xual) this oil is also spelled to assist with healing and overcoming any traumas associated with that. As a survivor myself, I understand the unique difficulties that come with processing light and heavy traumas, so I worked hard to create a spiritual blend that covers a variety of issues.

*** this is not intended to be a substitute for proper mental health services. Item is intended as curio only.

After carefully gathering the right herbs, I’ve been crafting and charging the oil for the past few days.

I wanted to create something energetically restorative, with abundant free flowing energy, that also cleared stagnant energy. It needed to be cleansing but also help with dissolving blockages in all matters of love and relationships. Than the oil was imbued with strong protections. I found this part to be really important because it’s easy to be re-traumatized, especially if you’re dealing with heavy traumas which sets you back and impedes your progress and healing process. It’s kinda like picking at or having a scab ripped off accidentally. Likewise if you want the best results in love magick, you can’t leave it up to chance.

The last thing I did was enchant the oil to cut and clear out any negative cords, soul ties and spiritual attachments and then spell it with a soothing potent healing energy using the highest quality lavender and other herbs so the healing process wouldn’t be super painful or stressful.

For those who are spiritually sensitive like myself, spiritual hygiene is a important part of our regular routine. The oil will serve as a multipurpose spiritual primer, to remove, cleanse, heal, attract and grow more love for themselves and genuine love from others. It can be used generally, to maintain your spiritual hygiene in all matters of love and relationships or be set for a variety of aforementioned intentions. The oil is blended to work on five spiritual levels, the auraric field, soul, energetic/sacral/lifeforce, mental, and physical.

I hyper focused on this project because I want you guys to love it as much as I do. I also wanted to give something back to the community, I cherish. I know you guys appreciate my passion and attention to detail.

Before launching the spell oil, it will be beta tested on myself and a few other volunteers.

Thanks for reading and catching up with me. What do you think ? Is this oil something you need ?

Shoutout to my spirit team for sending me the downloads and recipes.

With Love, Gratitude & Magick

Lyonessa 💕

aka The HoodooBarbie

#hoodoo #the love witch #aphrodite #black glamour #witches of color #black witches #love magick #black women #lovecore #oshunenergy #witchtok #witches of instagram #pagan #self love #protection spell #striptok #witchcraft community #pagan community #paganblr #lgbtq witch #love magic #love spells #hoodoobarbie

[snailvibes]

how is she when she reaches being an adult? she doesn't look very happy in the art

RAD I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH THANK YOU FOR THE EXCUSE TO TALK ABOUT ADULT MAYA OUTSIDE OF MY FRIEND’S DMS FOR ONCE LMAOO

Ended up being long cus I ended up just going into a sorta summarized detail about all of Maya’s “adult moving out” storyline so putting it in a cut

//TW for mention of suicide + mention of suicide attempt

So a lot of this has actually been being workshopped for a LONGGG time and still is subject to change but as of now here’s the adult Maya lore that’s lead to her looking like. That. In the undertale mirror quote trend art lol

So, in the future this kinda starts with Maya moving out of living with Marie a lot earlier than she wanted to/was ready for, which was for a handful of reasons, mainly being A) Lucky and Ashley were moving out and talked to Maya about joining them in the place they found together and Maya felt bad about the idea of saying no to that, and also she felt bad still relying on Marie so much even as an early adult now and didn’t want to get in the way of Marie having space to do her own things now and have room physically and emotionally for any new relationships or life choices she wanted to make.

(Which side note Maya very much should have communicated to her partners all this and that this wasn’t something she was ready for, especially since this stage in their relationship is built on a lot of trust, but it was a mix of the Marie stuff and feeling like she’d be left behind if everyone else in her life was ready to quote on quote start “acting like adults” and she wasn’t which kept her shoving her own feelings aside. Not an excuse just an explanation for clarification sake)

This was rough already, but then combined with the fact that (lore drop; Maya as an adult gets a job working with the table turf company to work on the art team fun fact!) Maya already had been taking a lot more days off from her job than what the company was comfortable with for her mental health and this situation was making that a bit worse, she gets fired which even more so decreases her mental stability. Which is not helped even even MORE so with how she’s isolating herself from her mom a bit in an attempt to be more independent and act like an adult and show she doesn’t need to keep relying on her.

It eventually gets so bad that she sorta just breaks one night and. This part is the reasoning for the trigger warning lol. Ashley and Lucky find her in the kitchen before she can go through with it though and in the morning talk to her and make her call Marie who convinces her to go home so she can get Maya some help and support, which leads to Maya getting some therapy sessions in (as of Splat3 she started attending therapy regularly but by this point in her early adult life only did sessions when needed instead), Marie watching over her, and eventually Maya being able to talk to her mom about her bottled up emotions and fears to which Marie reassures her that she’s allowed to still rely on her and not force herself through stuff like this until she’s ready and it’s okay to not “grow up” yet, to which then leads to the more permanent for a long time arrangement of Maya essentially moving back home but still staying at her partner’s place now and then as a sorta second home. (Plus, Marie missed her daughter and having her home as much as Maya missed her and wanted to stay home because Marie need’s Maya as much as Maya needs her and I could go into a full on essay about that I love them sm)

ANYWAYS the art is more so in that era of her mental state being god awful because of everything and before she’s able to go home and get help for her problems

#ty for the ask! #Maya is a heavily traumatized kid with lasting PTSD there ain’t no way she’s gonna be a functioning adult anytime soon LMAO #didn’t go into detail about it but Ashley and Lucky are both fine with the new arrangement cus they just want their girlfriend to be okay #plus they relate cus Ashley and esp Lucky have their own issues with missing living at home and needing their parents still #and Maya getting her and support for those feelings ends up giving them similar courage to face their own feelings too #agent 4

[drawingpad-studios]

Anyways, a few posts after my past sprite edits of the final designs for As Thin As Paper. Here's more.

Content warning for blood and such, which y'all probably already know if you've been keeping up with my As Thin As Paper posts

Tretone:

Basically yeah, sense Tretone had 2-3 stages(if you count being fucking dead as a stage) of appearance, I thought it would be interesting if the bugs and glitches would mix up the sprites. Resulting in a painful sensation of being ripped apart, limp from limb. Since he's a Crevon and those are basically just demons, I would like to think he would survive this. Keeping a spell on his heart, which is the whole note on fire on the concept art, to keep it going and trying to keep his body together so that he could survive and potentially overcome the corruption. With his design, it's pretty obvious it didn't work. And that's pretty much the effect the bugs and glitches had on him. It was pretty fun to draw.

Here's the 6th chapter boss, with the idea of by the end of chapter 5, you would have been chased down to Sphaiano Spire. He would really have one of the least appearances in his particular chapter, mainly because of his size compared to the doors and such of the spire. Maybe being able to send down a spell or two, or maybe trying to grab at you. Basically this chapter will be like those early gen pokemon gyms before the gym leader, especially the gyms that have more than the members as obstacles in the maze.

Antagon:

This boy has EMOTIONAL DAMAGE.

Okay jokes aside, this is technically idea 2 for Antagon and Antagamom. Originally I had it where Antagamom was the one alive, with her flames turning her into a bear because she's like a "mama bear" in the original game, and the one grieving the other's death with her holding her son's heart and crown(?) thing. The whole idea of them was just "Why don't I make this family grieve". But sense I didn't really like the design I did for Antagamom, I decided to swap them and make Antagon the alive one. Taking inspiration from Onion Cookie from the game Cookie Run Kingdom, where he has a plushie(that looks like the fire element on the cards) that's possessed(by his mom) and his tears make him cry more.

Practically what happened to him was that, since he and his mom are Torchkin, I would imagine the bugs and glitches would change their fire into real fire. With his mom being burned to ashes, and Antagon almost fully burning away until Duskkar "helped" him by somehow stabilizing the flame and his body. It didn't take away the pain of the flames though. Now, under the belief that Duskkar could help his mom, he's basically just wandering around looking for her(either for each piece of ash or maybe in his hopeful heart maybe her actual body that he hopes there is a slight chance of not having been burned up fully). Sad shit times.

Sense he isn't really aggressive, with unintentionally hurting others with his tears and fire, chapter 7 isn't really that dangerous. In fact Antagon is gonna be a part of your party while you're in this chapter, since he thinks you're gonna help him find his mom, with a small random chance of him accidentally hurting you and your "party" during the random encounters. It's kinda like one of those "Bring something somewhere" missions(I forgot the actual term ATM). By the end of Chapter 7, you will find Duskkar, who will scare Antagon to not be around you and use Antagon to battle you. From inspiration of a drawing I rebloged by @theothergueck , Duskkar would basically use Antagon as a flamethrower; covering one of your options during random times, hurting Antagon to get more flames, etc and etc. to end this battle, you got to attack Duskkar until he's at half health, Kill Antagon(if you're going for a genocide route), or "passify" Duskkar somehow.

Lanter:

Basically, I had no idea better than this design. Had the thought of a sort of headless horseman, with his head being able to come off, along with being chained like "The One Who Waits" from The Cult of Lamb. Yeah this is definitely one of the designs where it's obvious I was losing steam for the concept arts.

Basically, he and Duskkar were some of the first people that the Bugs and Glitches targeted. Seeing his cousin being turned into a monster with the bugs and glitches amplifying his shown negative traits, Lanter tried to stop Duskkar. This led to a battle, where; Duskkar won, took Lanter's light in his pumpkin head, and chained his cousin to the room where you originally saw 1x/Tess in the original game. After a while of pulling and tugging at the chains, the chains still held but the ground that the chains were connected to pooped off. Once freed, while Duskkar's "help" to the others had no care in it, Lanter at least tried to make things better whenever he tried to help the others. Like when he Sewed Back together an orange haired girl that was torn to shreds.

While he does have a chapter, which is like chapter 10, he will appear throughout the game as a harmless merchant. Where you can buy some cards, weapons, tips, and healing items, and you can sell him some stuff too. By the time you get to his chapter, his chapter will be adorned with certain stuff you sold to him. Especially his battle. Practically, you're setting the difficulty of his chapter when selling certain items. Not every item, but specific items like certain weapons or something.

#super paper roblox #sprite edit #digital art #art #as thin as paper #tretone #Antagon #Lanter #cw blood

[marley-manson]

@charlesemersonwinchesteriii replied to this post:

I never really understood why people kept calling that scene a big hawkbeej moment, so I'm relieved I'm not alone in that haha. Also you make an excellent argument that Hawkeye doesn't actually "get worse" as the show progresses, which I'd never thought about before! I know people talk about his coping mechanisms becoming less effective in later seasons and I always just passively agreed with that cause I'm not super focused on him and also I've never watched any of the episodes in order (woops!) but now you're making me really think about it..... hmmm..... I can totally see this as another instance of fandom seeing a character arc where there isn't actually one, just like with Charles. Just for myself, the only concrete change I could point to noticing is the obvious and intentional "learns to Respect Women" thing. But I don't know if that's just me not being smart enough to see things lol

lol yeah to me it’s like, yep BJ’s def acting like a guy who’s known Hawkeye for a couple weeks and is totally out of his depth, which is fine and understandable but not really shippy to me. But also tbf I’d prefer that even if I was a huge hawkbeej shipper because I’m not much of an ‘instant magical connections and understanding’ person when it comes to romance tropes anyway.

But I mainly c/ped your comment so I could respond at greater length to the rest of it, so! I definitely don’t think you’re missing anything (and ik we’ve talked about it before but yeah I also very much agre with you about Charles).

tbf I think Alan Alda is the one who said that Hawkeye’s coping mechanisms get less effective, but it’s not the first time I’ve disagreed with his takes on the show lol. And I don’t have a fully solidified take on Hawkeye’s “character arc” tbf. But yeah my impression is that it’s not that Hawkeye changes, it’s that the tone of the show changes. Hawkeye does get more dramatic episodes and he does get more sad monologues as the show goes on, but he never stops balancing them out with humour and hope, he had plenty of sad monologues in the early seasons too, and he never falls apart to the extent that he did in Dr Pierce Mr Hyde or The Late Captain Pierce. Some of the later episodes reference the war getting to him and making him act out in petty ways, eg Dear Uncle Abdul, but like, so did Bananas Crackers and Nuts, the 7th episode of the show. Plus arguably his worst experience throughout the show, give or take GFA, was season 1′s Sometimes You Hear the Bullet, with Abyssinia Henry not far behind either.

He’s always been portrayed as someone who feels deeply and is greatly affected by the war and who’s barely coping - the funnier tone of the early seasons made it slightly less obvious, but it’s still pretty apparent. The dramatic tone of the later seasons gives the writers more leeway to show how affected he is, but again like, he’s never worse than he was in some of the earlier eps until the finale. And I tend to think that the prevailing idea that Hawkeye gets steadily worse emotional stability and mental health-wise throughout the show sells the early seasons short. If I mentally sort of compensate for the tone shift in my head, I don’t see Hawkeye changing - I just see the stress being framed with more black humour in the first half of the show and with more earnest drama in the second half.

I mean logically it makes sense that the more time you spend in a war zone the worse you’ll feel lol, and with the tone shift it’s easy to see why it’s such a common take. But yeah, I just don’t see it myself, at least beyond a potentially deliberate sense of exhaustion in season 11 when they knew they were wrapping up.

And actually I also think the respecting women angle is like, not really the case, imo? I think it’s something the writers were sort of trying for so it’s definitely telegraphed as a thing in several episodes, and it’s kind of become common knowledge that Hawkeye gets more respectful towards women so I def don’t think you’re wrong to pick up on it. I just think the writers failed to sell it at all lol. Like he presumably learned a lesson in Inga eg, but it’s forgotten afterwards as the show goes right back to using his now pathetic attempts at womanizing as a source of humour. He’s definitely less crass to Margaret when they become friends but he never completely stops objectifying her. He has a sad monologue about not wanting to date a 20 year old because he’s too jaded in Show Biz, but he turned down even just casual sex with a 20 year old in season 3 because she was too young for him, so that’s not actually a change, as much as the writers tried to make it seem like one.

And Who Knew (nonsensically) recontextualizes his womanizing as a fear of committment and emotional vulnerability (in the satirical seasons it was a distraction from the war) and suggests Hawkeye getting over that, but Who Knew is ooc, and again he goes right back to pathetic womanizing in other season 11 episodes, like Blood and Guts. He even hits on an orderly in the psych hospital in GFA lol, and the Hawk/Margaret kiss is a (frankly cute imo) throwback to early sexual harassment-y episodes like There’s Nothing Like a Nurse where he kissed her goodbye, or Abyssinia Henry where he told Henry to kiss her goodbye lol. So like, if the writers were aiming to show Hawkeye changing his attitude towards women, I don’t think they did a very good job, basically.

But yk I do think it’s fair to take the later seasons in the probable spirit intended and view Hawkeye getting less misogynist as an arc. I just don’t personally. But also I don’t think Hawkeye was ever misogynist in the way Inga implied, and I think the later show often misrepresented the womanizing a little to condemn it (eg Show Biz and Who Knew again) so yk. I just prefer a happy medium there lol

#mash #marley on mash #hawkeye mash #responding in a new post because the connection to the original post is pretty tenuous and it's long enough that i want it to be #its own thing

[cantkeepupwiththejoneses]

I'm up let's chat.

So, I was taking a long soak in the tub because of age and lack of agility. As I sat a thought crossed my mind. All the fighting to force someone to live life the way you want to is utter nonsense. A wasted war or battle with the loss being oxygen, time, energy, and emotional stability. Why do I say that? Because, if any person had an ounce of moral ethics in their thought process, they would let people live a life of love and freedom. The same that others would like to do. Instead, they are willing to fight tooth and nail for people outside of their home to live how they deem it appropriate. Whether it is due to religion, morals, or just control.

Why do I run down this rabbit whole at full speed?

I run down there because the beloved, Independence Day draws near. You know the day where all White Americans, that ran from England and didn't like the way they told them how to live, received their freedom from the dreaded monarch. Ya know that 1776 chant that those patriots fight to breed and bleed into every child's brain. That was the day every white person under the current monarchs thumb could live according to their wills.

Now that freedom comes with a cost.

You have to be Christian, hate people, love Red White and Blue (mainly White and Red), follow the 10 commandments (and whatever else they deem necessary from the Bible), and love your neighbor (as long as they look, *ahem* act like them).

Ironic is it not?

The same battle their ancestors fought, to be able to do as they pleased, is now to be used against them when others try to fight the same exact battle that was fought in the years prior to July 4th 1776. They just want to do what they want. They haven't killed anyone like you have for your religion and moral compass. They haven't jailed, imprisoned, or shackled anyone for doing wrong like you have or supported. They aren't hiding any skeletons in their closet like you are doing with a padlock and biometric locks. They haven't used their religion to hate and shun those your bible says to protect. All they did was ride a boat across the waters searching for food and clean water. They only asked to be left alone while they figure out their body and their health. They ask for time to explore and be themselves. They ask for understanding, while they pursue a career that isn't mainstream but still brings in money. They ask for room to enjoy their heritage and culture.

They shouldn't ask for anything. When the origin of the country forced everything.

It's based on lies and the hero complex. Hatred and control. Money and greed. Christianity and a bleached history.

It's not equal anymore.

The truth is hidden.

Hatred and greed runs humanity.

Freedom isn't free.

It never was.

Not because veterans died in war.

Because they died for unnecessary reasons.

None that had to do with freedom.

And now, true freedom is unattainable.

But Happy Independence Day to those who enjoy the illusion of freedom.

#independence day #fourth of july #freedom #war #1776 #just ranting #rant #hatred #lies #thoughts #hero #heros #red white and royal blue #red #white #religion #rabbit hole #politics #random #blog

[disabledopossum]

For this and a myriad of other reasons, mainly my mental, emotional and physical declining health - I am not someone who could ever handle being a parent. I can barely take care of myself.

If you cannot provide proper care i.e: financial stability, emotional well being, and genuine love without expectation - you should not be a parent. Period.

So many children are brought into the world and cruelly mistreated by people that should have never been parents to begin with.

I'm speaking from experience as someone that was abused, mistreated in various ways, and neglected to the point where the courts stepped in and tried to take me from my Mother, but she forced me to lie so she could keep getting a paycheck from my Dad.

If someone says that they're "childfree", accept that answer and stop fucking pestering us.

#bpd #depression #bipolar 2 #disabled #chronically ill #child free

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hello hello! i'm sarah in the cst timezone. it has been a minute since i've been in a group rp so pls bear with me and my lil babes. props to all of you with detailed backgrounds but both of my characters are new so ... (yes, i am a mess lol) anyway i'm here to love all of y'all and your characters!

(—) ★ spotted!! indira jones on the cover of this week’s most recent tabloid! many say that the 31 year old looks like kylie bunbury, but i don’t really see it. while  the media personality is known for being ambitious my inside sources say that they have a tendency to be bratty i swear, every time i think of them, i hear the song girl like me by jazmine sullivan {she&her / cisfemale} - penned by sarah, 25, female, she/her

I can't lie, I saw her gif and had to use her so.

Basic Information

Full Name: Indira Naomi Jones

Nickname(s): Indi, dee

Age: 31

Date of Birth: July 13

Hometown: raised in Arizona

Gender: Female

Pronouns: She/Her

Orientation: Heterosexual

Religion: Raised COGIC

Occupation: Tv & media personality (think ryan seacrest)

Living Arrangements: with her dog

Language(s) Spoken: English, learning Spanish

Physical Appearance

Face Claim: Kylie Bunbury

Height: 5' 7"

Tattoos: n/a

Piercings: ears, cartilage

Clothing Style: minimalist with pops of color

Distinguishing Characteristics: N/A

Health

Allergies: bullshit, but realistically dust mites

Sleeping Habits: goes to sleep early, wakes up early, often sleeps 6 hours

Eating Habits: mainly pescetarian

Exercise Habits: often 2-3x a week

Emotional Stability: well would say 8 probably a 6

Sociability: forced extroverted introvert

Body Temperature: hot-natured

Addictions: chocolate

Drug Use: n/a

Alcohol Use: socially and every saturday

Favourites

Weather: overcast

Colour: red

Music: indie, soul, r&b

Movies: rom coms, documentaries

Sport: baseball

Beverage: iced latte with oatmilk and a pump of caramel

Food: filipino food has never done her wrong

Animal: otters

Family

Father: biological unknown, step father patrick monroe, 67, occupation unknown

Mother: caroline jones, 58, nurse

Sibling(s): 2 step brothers

Children: n/a

Pet(s): small poodle named rex

Family’s Financial Status: middle class

Extra

Zodiac Sign: cancer

Temperament: choleric

Bio

Indie never had dreams to end up in hollywood, her main goal was out of the U.S. - clearly she failed there

Her own mother had put aside her dreams of being an pilot when she was born. Caroline Jones was 26 with a newborn and her ass freshly kicked to the streets. By all definition she wasn't a teen mom, but she had been having an affair with a married man and shunned by her community.

Caroline moved from her Texas hometown to Arizona where a friend was offering a couch and a roof over her child's head.

For most of Indie's childhood, it was her, her mom, and Miss Martha, the woman who took them in. Although the same age as her mother, aunt martha was on all accounts the mother she needed.

Course her mother was in school for a lot of Indie's developmental years but even after that, her mother worked all the time and aunt martha did most of the raising. she was her discipliner, her cheerleader, and her confidant. everything the woman who gave birth to her was not.

She lost that the moment aunt martha got married. Indie wasn't exactly happy for her but she couldn't argue.

When Indie was 15, she and her mother moved to their own apartment.

At the new school, Indi joined the newspaper. Being forced to join a club so her mother could trust she was safe somewhere while she worked late.

She wasn't really a fan of the newpaper club, writing had never been her forte. When the media team came looking for help, she was a bit too eager to make the switch.

Being in front of the camera had been an easy adjustment. She had spent years putting on 'shows' for her aunt and she had the advantage of being a part of things without having to be part of it.

That was never something she saw herself doing for the future, it didn't seem like it would bring enough money, but it was something she continued in college.

Indie took her first chance to get away from home with college. Where she majored in business with plans to do something and minored in strategic communications mainly for fun.

While in her junior year, her mother got married. A wedding she didn't care to attend. Her mother still hasn't forgiven her.

Indi didn't enter the media world until she was 25, where she started as an assistant. It only took 2 years for her to become the face of the job she now loves.

Indi has been working as the main media personality for a big company for 4 years now. Red carpet interviews, hosting events, fashion takes.

Now she's looking to expand her portfolio, though she's not sure which direction.

to be continued

#hillzhqsintro #𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙚 𝙟𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙨 (𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱𝘀)

[catboyclarity]

okay imma toss you some oc questions lmk if you want more: 1. what characters of yours were/are currently the hardest to write, specifically because you have very little in common with them? 2. I'm curious what kinds of 'smart' the un/bound cast is (like who is booksmart, who is wise, who is more practically smart, who is a clever bastard or a quick thinker)

1. Right now I’m struggling a lot with writing Chase in Un/Bound but that might just be bc I’m struggling to write on it in general and he happens to be there. I also don’t LIKE writing Roman very much bc I don’t like him, but its not exactly hard.

I don’t tend to have trouble with writing characters as a whole, mainly specific scenes. And most of my struggle with characters comes from not having a good handle on them rather than lack of commonality—Illeni was hard to write bc of how underdeveloped he ended up being. I think if he’d been a MC he would have been easier on me. That’s probably also why I’m having trouble with Chase; he fills a similar niche as Illeni (missing family member).

2.

Moira is very practically intelligent and excellent in a crisis, good problem solver, but isn’t that emotionally/socially intelligent—particularly toward her own feelings and needs. Nicky is clever and analytical but a little less good in actual stressful situations. Emotional intelligence-wise they have a lot of therapeutic knowledge they can regurgitate but haven’t fully internalized, which leads them to be good at comforting and stabilizing others but their interpersonal relationships and health are mega-fucked.

Iseul is a sheltered autistic 15 year old is knowledgeable and good at a few select things but is not-so-smart about a lot of others—which is normal, they are a kid—and a willingness to learn+general desire to be good to people but not so great social skills (HARDCORE oversharer. Leigh is primarily booksmart and emotionally aware in the way longterm abuse victims tend to be, which is to say she picks up on very minor emotional signals and goes into panic mode over them, which almost never works. Leigh is not stupid at all but she is deeply deeply traumatized and has not been given appropriate treatment or safe relationships to heal from that and so her sense of self is really out of whack in a way that causes her to struggle with almost everything.

Pan knows a lot about many things due to being one of the oldest sentient beings and is great at manipulating people but vulnerable to manipulation himself and really simple in terms of his wants and goals—he has never tried to solve a problem in his life. Argent is incredibly emotionally intelligent when it comes to other people and then treats his own well-being like it doesn’t exist.

#asks #feel free to send me more if you would like 💖

[venusluvrr]

The Psychological Horror Manhwa “Killing Stalking” is not a Romance, but an Emotional Series Depicting the Codependent Relationship Between Two Ill Individuals

Content Warning!!: contains mentions of sexual abuse (rape) and mental illness.

Killing Stalking is an immensely twisted webcomic series, mainly popular within the Yaoi community for its boy on boy focused plotline. The story follows characters Yoon Bum (Bum), a shy, scrawny young man with a haunting past filled with abuse, and Oh Sangwoo (Sangwoo), a younger man who also has a quite damaging upbringing but masks it perfectly with his vibrant, extroverted personality. After being saved from a rape attempt during his time serving in the military, Bum develops a crush on his saviour, Sangwoo, from which an unhealthy obsession starts to arise and he eventually finds himself locating and breaking into the man’s home one day when he’s out. When he does, he discovers a terribly injured woman being held captive in his basement, and with further evidence, soon comes to the realization that his crush is actually a serial killer -- hence the name “Killing Stalking,” as Sangwoo kills and Bum stalks. For a very specific reason though, Sangwoo decides not to kill the man that had been stalking him, and instead holds him hostage in his custody. From here, the story goes into exceeding depth of the abnormal, toxic, and manipulative relationship the two form during their time spent together. By just the mere description of it, it’s a bit concerning to know that a large portion of readers still support Sangwoo and Bum’s relationship. In other words, they believe they truly loved each other and that the story was not only horror fiction but a romance as well. One could easily come to this conclusion by basing their relationship on the few parts within the novel where they showed affection towards each other -- for example when Bum allows Sangwoo to hug him to sleep when he suffered through the night, or my personal favourite, when Sangwoo buys Bum a stuffed frog keychain after finding out that he had an affinity for such creatures. But we cannot simply dismiss the underlying factors of their relationship because of some cute things they did that made our heart melt -- Sangwoo still abused Bum at his leisure which makes those moments quite meaningless in the sense of it all. What Sangwoo and Yoonbum shared can’t be classified as “love,” because even with their peculiar bond and endearing moments, the psychological damage they both endured played a bigger part in the way they perceived each other.

Many toxic relationships start out lovely and glamorous until the couple have become comfortable enough to start revealing some bad habits, but in Sangwoo and Bum’s case, they were already off to a bad start, as the reason they remained with each other was solely for reasons pertaining to their poor mental health.

At the time Sangwoo saved Bum in the military, Bum still suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) -- a disorder he inferrably developed due to the fact that he grew up being constantly physically and sexually abused by the people around him. People with this illness may easily develop an infatuation for a person who shows them even the least bit of care; It can reach the point where they begin to idolize them and see them almost as a perfect human being -- which is exactly how Bum viewed Sangwoo after he helped him to escape a rape attempt. The likely specific term for what Sangwoo was to Bum is a Favourite Person (FP). To an individual suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, their FP is everything -- their self-worth, identity and emotional dependency all rely on this one person, making them the center of their lives. In contrast to this sincere fondness, the only reason Sangwoo kept Bum alive was because of the man’s resemblance to his late mother -- the one person in his life who he truly loved. While his father was abusive and negligent, his mother tried her best to care for her son even while her own mental stability wasn’t so great either. Even though it was implied that he was responsible for the murder of both his mother and father in high school -- getting away with it scotch-free because of how perfectly executed his plan was -- he still shared a special bond with the woman, allowing her existence follow and continue to torutue him mentally as he grew older. When he saw Yoonbum, he felt as if she had been somewhat resurrected, or at least he could pretend so by dressing him up in his mother’s clothes and making him cook and do the chores; He also played the husband role by abusing and assaulting Bum just as his father did to his mother -- mostly just out of his own nature. Sangwoo had his own issues, “mommy issues,” and he initially needed to keep Bum alive so he could fulfill his own longing desires. Knowing the man’s character though, things wouldn’t end there and instead headed down a very gruesome and frightful path.

The very reasons that the two were drawn to each other we’re even more evident the longer they lived under the same roof. While Yoonbum continued to recall the perfect image he had of Sangwoo in his head, Sangwoo continued to manipulate the man in order to satisfy his own needs. A healthy relationship cannot be based on deceit, because one person will end up victimized instead of loved.

Oh Sangwoo is a sadistic sociopath with a history of kidnapping, abusing, raping and torturing innocent people, and because of his illness, he shows feels and shows no remorse for his actions and even proceeds to kill off his victims as they pleaded in objection. What some people don’t understand is that when Sangwoo met Bum, the only reason he treated him differently was not because he thought of him as special, but because he had a personal agenda that included making Bum think that was the truth and that he was indeed the favoured victim among many. It’s no surprise with the man’s manipulative personality that he would enjoy planting a lie in Bum’s head to make him stay and continue to do as he says, and this is confirmed whenever he returned back to his old destructive habits even after showing the man acts of affection. Yes, Sangwoo spared Bum’s life, clothed him and fed him, but as their bond grew, his narcissistic attitude was still more apparent than ever.

Upon meeting Bum for the first time, Sangwoo didn’t hesitate to aggressively break his ankles to prevent his mobility, he left the man within the dark confinement of his basement for a certain period of time before letting him out only after he had gained his trust. He made him sit in a chair to wash dishes and make dinner because he could no longer stand. Sangwoo also constantly dragged Bum down with derogatory words and statements every chance he could get, this included calling him a “retard,” and referring to him as a “disgusting” and “filthy” human being. As confirmed by the author, Sangwoo is also heterosexual, which is further proved by the homophobic remarks he made towards a significantly older man who was sexually attracted to him while murdering him with Bum’s aid. This fact alone is another one that should justify a strong point that demonstrates the true hostility of their relationship -- Yoonbum never gave his consent to have sex with Sangwoo, nor did he allow it to happen because “he wanted it.” He specifically used phrases such as, “No,” “Stop,” and “It hurts,” implying that sometimes there was no mutual agreement when they had sex and Sangwoo had actually raped him several times.

People with Borderline Personality Disorder have been reported to have difficulties seeing the faults in their partner -- this explains why Bum still held on to him. He chose to stay when he had the chance to escape, and with tears rolling down his face from excruciating pain he still told Sangwoo he loved him. In a scene where Bum is left alone with the police as they investigate the suspicions they have surrounding him, he questions them saying, “Could you kiss somebody like me? Could you love somebody like me?” As he believes nobody but Sangwoo could answer yes to those two questions, convinced that Sangwoo really does have feelings for him. It’s saddening to know that the poor man had successfully been lured into a trap, and because of his mental health it would be much harder for him to realize it.

To the readers that think, “Sangwoo and Yoonbum needed each other,” -- You’re not completely wrong. They did need each other in the way that they found somewhat of a saneness from each other’s presence, each using one another to each other’s benefit. But being together at the same time built on their insanity, as the presence of Sangwoo’s mother seemed to grow even more prevalent with Bum, who resembled her, also in the picture, and Yoonbum growing so unhealthily attached to Sangwoo that he constantly feared of abandonment and turned the sociopath into the only source of his happiness. They needed each other, but not for the right reasons. They were attached to each other, but there was no love, otherwise it would reflect throughout the story. One of the most debate-worthy scenes that challenge this fact is when Sangwoo is reported by an old lady in the hospital, the one that had ended his life, that he was calling out Bum’s name throughout the night as he lay in his deathbed. Those were his final words, and Yoonbum’s final word was also Sangwoo’s name before he was very well implied to have been hit by a car while he chased an illusion of the man he “loved.” Even I almost felt that this was solid proof that even through the tough and terrible of their relationship, deep inside, the two really were in love but could not express it in the right way due to their mental health issues -- after all, what someone makes of their final moments before death is much more meaningful than most of what they've done in their life entirely. But I came to realize that the only way I could support this relationship would be if they had met in an alternate universe where they did not suffer from such dreadful childhood trauma that made them into the hurting individual they had become before meeting each other. As difficult as it is for me to picture the two with different partners, it would be best if the two had not met at all as they only fed into the severity of their conditions.

#killing stalking #sangwoo #yoonbum #yaoi #horror #manhwa

[titansaints]

If you know me as a person outside of my writing you might know that i have several rare conditions and one that hasn’t even been researched enough to have a name and list of criteria yet. so rare disease day is something that’s important. This year is about something that i’m currently in the process of understanding more about: Systemic Mastocytosis. 

What is Systemic Mastocytosis?

Systemic Mastocytosis is a rare immunological disorder where there are too many mast cells built up in one’s body. Mast cells are a type of white blood cell that gets released as part of an allergic reaction. These cells are made in one’s bone marrow, and in SM can be made in abnormal ways and higher amounts. This leads to a heightened immune response to any sort of stimuli, things such as different foods, medications, or even simply the friction of a piece of clothing. SM is more than just a skin response though. It can affect the GI tract, the lungs, the reproductive organs, practically any part of the body. The reactions SM causes can range from simple hives to an nigh uncontrollable anaphylactic reaction.  The longer the condition goes untreated, the more likely it is for someone’s reactions to ramp up to anaphylaxis. 

For more information on the condition look HERE.

How I’ve Been Affected

Before I was diagnosed, I mainly had rashes and hives on my face and arms. I frankly have had those most of my life, and had no idea that SM and other mast cell disorders existed. In 2019 I was diagnosed with mast cell activation syndrome, a similar condition where mast cells are simply hyperactive. I generally say its like my body has an itchy trigger finger for allergic reactions. Unfortunately with the pandemic i was unable to fully continue the initial treatment i was put on. Going outside in any sort of weather beyond cloudy and drab meant flares. Cold weather and hot weather would cause my skin to turn bright red, i’d feel the energy drained out of me, i’d get dizzy and shaky, all because my body overreacted. Sunlight also did the same thing, plus the lovely symptom of sneezing lots. 

Other things that would and still sometimes cause issues: lamp light, extreme emotions (laughing, crying, panic attacks,) certain foods cause me abdominal pain, medications (my allergy list is long and filled with random meds) tape, red food dye, being awake too long, being sleepy, dry air, humid air, showering. Things that just shouldn’t be a problem.

The symptoms can seem so obscure and random that diagnosing this is hard if your doctor doesn’t know of the condition. Things like brain fog, mood swings, heart rate increase and blood pressure drops (something I already deal with due to dysautonomia) abdominal pain, bloating, asthma attacks with no discernible trigger, the list goes on beyond this.

My life for years was limited because of this condition without my family knowing it even existed. It was because of someone I follow on instagram talking about it that i even had the idea to ask about it. I cried when i looked it up and saw how many symptoms i had that could be attributed to SM.

So now i’m on an antihistamine cocktail, four different medicines at high doses. I have a monthly injection that helps too. That said I still break out. I still have days where i’m in bed because everything is fucking with me. There are more treatments I can try. Unfortunately they’ll be harder on my body. Certain kinds of chemo medicine can be used to kill the mast cells that are abnormal. There are medicines called mast cell stabilizers too. But due to my other health conditions my team has to be careful. I deal with a metabolic condition, so my baseline can be messed with extremely easily. 

What can You do to Help?

Well if you’re a mutual reading this, you’re already helping. My writing is my outlet. I’m shit at communicating but talking when it does happen is also helpful. If you are in America and want to do more, then you can visit the site below and click on either (or both!) the NORD rare disease advocacy tab and the get involved tab! NORD works to put policies in place at both the state level and the federal level to ensure people with rare diseases have access to adequate healthcare. they are the ones who head up rare disease day in hopes for more understanding from the general public that rare diseases exist and people who have them deserve a good quality of life like everyone else. 

NORD 

There’s a medical saying in America, ‘when you hear hoofbeats think horses not zebras.’ It meant to say ‘look at the most common things instead of jumping to the worst conclusion,’ however due to thinking in such a way many doctors have left medical zebras like myself to fend for themselves. Yes, it’s good to make sure it’s not something simple, but to go ‘its all in your head’ when you can’t find an answer is disrespectful. Many rare diseases could very well be simply under-diagnosed. The more awareness and understanding there is in the world, the better chances people across the world have to live healthier lives.

Thank you for reading, LJ  PS: absolutely you may reblog this. 

#this is a long post i know #ask to tag #* ~ PSA. #* ~ OOC.

[yenafmd]

❧ (see) right through me.

#famedtask12: headcanon big five personality traits word count: 674 warnings: discussions of mental health (very faint though)

openess: probably the most surprising of results of yena’s? it’s very... neutral, which makes it hard to say a lot about. i think it’s heavily influenced by the fact that on the one hand, yena is very curious by nature? she sticks her nose where it doesn’t belong and likes figuring things out and hearing about things and in that way is pretty open to new experiences and lines of thinking. at the same time, she’s not a very serious person and tends to think, whether she’s right about that or not, that she isn’t in the position to speak on deeper, philosophical thinkpieces. i mentioned this before but yena lacks a certain level of introspection and self-awareness when it comes to higher levels of self-actualization. so while on the one hand yena is rather open-minded she isn’t always in touch with her own feelings and thoughts.

conscientiousness: yeah this one is pretty obvious. yena is far from an orderly or self-disciplined. yena is terrible with making plannings or sticking schedules  or showing up on time. yena tends to be lazy and disorderly and chaotic and honestly it surprises me that her score isn’t lower than it is really. yena definitely isn’t a hard-working go-getter, more the flexible improviser who likes to see where it will go (and then let other people solve her problems). yeah, she’s not the most reliable or organized person, she is a whole lot of fun. 

extraversion: another not very non-surprising outcome. though, i must say the full 100% surprised me a little bit but what is yena if not extreme and dramatic i suppose. but yeah, yena is a social butterfly, this surprises no one. she loves to hear herself talk, she loves being the center of attention and loves big, crowded events. yena seeks out crowds of people, on the one hand because as state above, loads of people means loads of attention for her to receive but also just because she loves being busy, loves having loads of stuff going on around her and being constantly in motion. yena really is an extravert through and through.

agreeableness: yena and agreeableness is a tricky one. personally i’d give her slightly higher? the other test gave her slightly higher for agreeableness more like slightly below the 50% and i think that makes a little more sense but alas i rest my case. i feel like yena fluctuates a little on this scale because she’s very different depending on the person she’s with. yena can be very warm and very loving with the people she really loves and trusts but truth be told, those people are few and far between. it doesn’t help that yena can be a bit abbrasive and have an incredibly sharp tongue, she can be off-putting and intimidating and all of that doesn’t really help. yena can be soft and kind, she truly can be, but it’s reserved for a very, very small group of people. 

neuroticism: yena queen of being mentally stable. no okay she’s still kinda unhinged. but for a muse of mine this is, yeah, pretty good. i think what kind of saves yena is that she’s remarkably good at handling stress? this is kinda a surprise mainly because... have we ever seen yena put herself in any stressful situation? gosh no she avoids those. but when it comes down it to it, in the face of chaos and stress, yena is very capable of putting her foot down and doing what needs to be done, she just won’t seek those situations out. but if she has to, she really can. of course, she has her insecurities and self-esteem issues and plenty of anxieties but yena is definitely an ‘act first, deal with shit later’ kind of girl, and i think that keeps her somewhat more stable than people would expect of her? also i think a certain amount of her all her emotional bagage she simply has yet to unlock and really realize, once she does, her stability definitely crumbles some.

#famedtask12 #✿ — headcanons.

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Kirby Roussimoff Fact Sheet (Jan 20 2001)

Yes I am open to RPing with my characters. Especially Kirby Roussimoff. Tagging @piratewithvigor @wendigoruble @enigmaticandunstable and @the--blackdahlia (because I think y'all will like this)

From @rphelper 's (NEW AND IMPROVED!) BASIC CHARACTER STATISTICS TEMPLATE

Basic Information

Full Name: Kirby Andrea Roussimoff (Formerly Trevor)

Nickname(s): Kirbs, K, Andi

Age: 31

Date of Birth: Jan 13th 1970

Hometown: Ellerbe, Richmond County, North Carolina, USA

Current Location: Depends on the show, (lives in Ellerbe)

Ethnicity: Caucasian (Irish-Welsh & Scottish-Norwegian)

Nationality: Naturalised American Citizen

Gender: Cis Female

Pronouns: She / Her

Orientation: Biromantic & Demisexual

Religion: Wiccan (Formerly Christian)

Political Affiliation: Apolitical

Occupation: Professional Wrestler

Living Arrangements: Lives on the road mainly, staying in Motels, Hotels. Lives alone when at home (Since '93)

Language(s) Spoken: French, English, Spanish, Welsh, Scottish

Accent: North Carolinian, with a faint Welsh lilt / inflection

Physical Appearance

Face Claim: Alison Lohman, Anika Braun, Elle Fanning, Evan Rachel Wood

Hair Colour: Blonde

Eye Colour: Blue/Aqua

Height: 6'10" / 208 cm

Weight: 250 lbs / 113 kg

Build: lean but athletic, an acrobat's body shape

Tattoos: check out this post

Piercings: double lobe piercings (both sides) triple helix piercings (right ear), double helix piercings (left ear), conch piercing (right ear), flat piercing (right ear), tragus (left ear)

Clothing Style: gothic / geeky / grungy

Usual Expression: straight-faced, stern but helpful

Distinguishing Characteristics: scars on both eyebrows, scar on left side of her top lip, beauty marks beneath left eye and left side of her bottom lip, faint scars on other parts of her body, fairly obvious signs of gigantism (larger hands, jaw, proportions in general)

Health

Physical Ailments: Gigantism / Acromegaly

Neurological Conditions: Anxiety

Allergies: None

Sleeping Habits: Light sleeper, often wakes at the slightest sound, sleeps around 5 - 7 hours a night, goes to sleep early (like as soon as she gets back from a show) and wakes up early (usually around 4-6 am)

Eating Habits: Often skips meals, drinks a lot of coffee, fairly healthy, cooks her own food when she can, protein rich meals

Exercise Habits: Exercises when she can, often 1- 2 hour work outs, mainly focusing on her legs and flexibility

Emotional Stability: in public or on screen - 10, she has to be the strong, straight-faced one often, in private - 5, depends on who she's with, but she isn't the best at staying calm

Sociability: looks like a loner but prefers to be around people, she only needs to be alone to sleep and she hates being alone, she loves to forget how she feels about herself by being around others

Body Temperature: cold-natured, tends not to show much emotion

Addictions: Clean (used to be addicted to Ecstasy)

Drug Use: Currently none, used to use weed, LSD and ecstasy

Alcohol Use: drinks socially

Personality

Label: The Acrobat, The Artist, The Clever, The Cool-Headed, The Cynical, The Emotionless, The Generous, The Ghost, The Guardian, The Heir, The Independent, The Invisible, The Medium, The Observant, The Professional, The Protector, The Respectful, The Shadow

Positive Traits: bright, calm, caring, creative, determined, generous, gentle, hard-working, honest, imaginative, independent, intelligent, kind, polite, powerful, reserved, self-disciplined, thoughtful

Negative Traits: cynical, impatient, jealous, moody, nervous, overcritical, pessimistic, quick-tempered, ruthless, sarcastic, secretive, timid, vulgar

Goals/Desires: 1 - return home, 2 - find love, 3 - have a family, 4 - win the Women's championship belt

Fears: Arachnophobia – Fear of spiders, Atychiphobia – Fear of failure, Autophobia – Fear of being alone, Claustrophobia – Fear of confined spaces, Nosocomephobia – Fear of hospitals

Hobbies: collecting comic books, collecting wrestling and movie memorabilia, photography, scrapbooking, film making, painting, drawing, arcade games, poker, foosball, pinball, acrobatics, gymnastics, skateboarding, surfing, reading, poetry, cooking, baking

Habits: Tendency to mumble, relies on buffer words ('uh', 'um', 'like'), rubs her neck when embarrassed

Favourites

Weather: Mist or fog

Colour: Orange (of any shade)

Music: Deee-Lite, 'Goodnight Elisabeth' from the 'Recovering the Satellites' album by Counting Crows, rock, metal or funk, Counting Crows

Movies: Philip Seymour Hoffman or Chris Farley, Winona Ryder or Sarah Michelle Gellar, the Princess Bride, Horror or Comedy

Sport: Wrestling

Beverage: Espresso Martini or coffee (w/ 2 brown sugars)

Food: "I don't have one." or macarons or crème brûlée

Animal: Frogs

Family

Father: Biological Dad: Eric Liam Huw Trevor (Deceased) Adoptive Father: André René Roussimoff (Deceased)

Mother: Biological Mother: Heaven Trevor (Neé Taggart) (Deceased)

Sibling(s): Surrogate Brother: Paul Wight / Big Show

Children: None (Currently)

Pet(s): None

Family’s Financial Status: Rich, very rich

Extra

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

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