#toxic mothers

[x3nshit]

“you can’t heal in the same environment that made you sick”

i didn’t get this until someone put it into words. i’d never understand why i always felt better when i locked myself alone in my room rather than spending time with my toxic family. i never understood why i was bubbly and outgoing when i was with my friends but my energy was immediately drained the second i got home. i didn’t understand why regardless of the effort i put into healing i would keep getting triggered by people in my family. i never understood it until i read that sentence and it all just clicked. i can’t heal in an environment where the people are benefiting from my suffering. where the people don’t want to change the behaviour which affects me negatively.

#mommy issues #daddy issues #parent issues #toxic parents #toxic behavior #toxic mothers #toxic household #childhood trauma #inner child #desiblr #academia #dark academic aesthetic #desi academia #dark academism #desi dark academia #chaotic academic aesthetic #art academia #chaotic academia #academia aesthetic #trauma #healing #self healing #healing journey #journal #thoughts #deep thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions

[pain-is-my-game]

One of the worst realizations that I have ever made is realizing that all I ever wanted was to be loved by my parents. I never would've turned out like this if they just loved me unconditionally.

#i will never care if you reblog #vent #tw vent #cw vent #eldest daughter syndrome #eldest daughter #parentified child #parentification #toxic mom #cw toxic relationship #toxic parents #toxic mothers #toxic mother #toxic family #toxic father #toxic relationship #childhood neglect #childhood trauma #childhood emotional neglect #emotional trauma #trauma coping #trauma #wanting to be loved #i wanna be loved #sad thoughts #eldest sibling syndrome #eldest sibling #eldest sister #toxic thoughts #thoughts to throw into the void

[pinkberrybff]

“Bless the daughters who sat, carrying the trauma of mothers—“

Mommy issues.

/creating.sophie/Class of 2013 (Mitski)/Lady Bird (Greta Gerwig)/Persephone Made Me Do It (Trista Mateer)/Ijeoma Umebinyo/Wildflower Wildfire (Lana Del Rey)

#mother issues #toxic mothers #web weaving #compilation #collage #creating.sophie #mitski #lady bird #greta gerwig #trista mateer #Ijeoma Umebinyo #tw childhood trauma #tw mother issues #lana del rey #mommy issues

[livingtrauma]

My mother was prone to fits of towering rage, but she was completely incapable of reflection and never sought to investigate the reasons for her emotions. ... Whenever I defended myself against this unjust treatment, sometimes going so far as to actually prove my innocence to her, she interpreted this as a systematic attack on her person and frequently retaliated with ferocious punishments. She confused emotions with facts. As she felt attacked by my explanations, she took it for granted that I was actually attacking her. A capacity for reflection would have been necessary for her to realize that the real reasons for her feelings has nothing to do with my behaviour. But remorse was completely foreign to her. Not once did she apologize to me or express any kind of regret. She was always "in the right".

Alice Miller - The Body Never Lies, The Lingering Effects of Hurtful Parenting

#narcissistic mother #toxic mothers #toxic mother #narcissistic abuse #surviving narcissism #narcissistic family #narcissistic trauma #cptsd #trauma

[justabittraumatized]

revelation of the day: women who experienced a prolonged loss of girlhood and had their childhood innocence robbed are often the bitter mothers obsessed with “the feminine” and passing their flawed notion of femininty onto their daughters. this of course also applies to women who were exposed early on to society’s ideas of femininity 

#mommy issues #is that why they're obsessed with our weight #toxic mothers #its the patriarchy #mentally ill bitches be like

[xan-the-emo-trans-man]

*My mom cussing me out and telling me everything I’m doing wrong*

teenage me who was literally just trying to be helpful:

#Tw child abuse #abusive parents #toxic parents #mommy issues #mother issues #toxic mothers #Yelling mention #Family issues #family trauma

[midnight-love-song]

I am filled with all the love that was never given to me. I am not my mother.

#affirmation????? #i talk to everyone like I’ve known them forever because I’m scared no one ever wanted to know me #it’s kinda selfish bc everything I do is a plea for my mother to apologise #how hard was it? I do it every single day #I never forget a birthday #every object is a potential present #I Will stand up for you if you’re hurt #I Will stay with you if you’re scared #I don’t have to know you #emotional abuse #family issues #mommy issues #mental health #love #adhd #family #toxic mothers #toxic family #friendship #affirmations

[hiding-in-my-blanket-fort]

TW: eating disorders

There is something so unique about the flavòr of disordered eating that daughters inherit from the mothers who use them as a personal therapist, dumping heedless complaints about their own body image struggles, diet attempts, “don’t ever get fat, remember that, you’ll never be able to lose it again,” and “I’m so desperate to lose weight” and “when you get fat, no one loves you anymore.”

Never paying any thought to how it impacts the daughter. 🙃

#toxic mothers #emotionally immature parents #narcissistic mother #ace talks to herself #mother was complaining about her weight gain again this morning #*i’m walking every day! it’s not fair!!!* #she’s not walking very much #and she eats a phenomenal amount of food #*i’m getting so desperate!!!* #while she changes nothing about her eating habits whatsoever #and my old eating struggles are flaring up again #but she’s too wrapped up in herself #to ever notice that anyone else has problems outside of herself

[ugetsu-2]

Mother's will really say the most vile shit to their daughters and still sleep like as if it hasn't changed the trajectory of my existence

So you want me to be here or just stop ?

#mother #toxic mothers

[x3nshit]

me when i have to do another breathing exercise and count to 10 after my mom says the most vile, traumatizing thing to me because if i say what is really on my mind it would make the situation 100x time worse

#going to therapy because the people who actually need therapy don’t go #mommy issues #this is my life now #parent issues #daddy issues #toxic mothers #mother #toxic #toxic parents #toxic mom #toxic relationship #parents #toxic family #family trauma #trauma #i'm traumatized #eldest daughter #the eldest daughter #eldest sibling

[pain-is-my-game]

It's terrible knowing that if I ever show sadness or show anything emotion that's not positive towards anything whether it's my fault or not I'll either get blamed for it or told that my emotions are irrational.

#i will never care if you reblog #im so tired #i just wanna escape #vent #tw vent #cw vent #eldest daughter syndrome #sad thoughts #eldest daughter #eldest sibling #oldest daughter #toxic mother #emotional neglect #emotional abuse #emotional abandonment #toxic mothers #toxic mom #toxic parents #thoughts to throw into the void

[siwekubheka01]

I wasn’t always this introverted and socially anxious… but I was made that way, by you.

#childhood emotional neglect #engulfment and neglect simultaneously is a dangerous combination #as well as parentification and infantilisation #abelism #toxic mothers

[until--i--disappear]

Just to give you an idea of how f*cked up my mother is as a human being, she's been washing all the dishes for the last week except my cup, that's been in the sink for more than 7 days. Because i must clean it. I just noticed it because I haven't gone in the kitchen in more than a week (I can't touch their leftovers because I'd be stealing everybody's food, even if they don't eat it and everything ends up in the trash if I don't eat it).

She even went as far as to take it to my bedroom. This cup hasn't been washed in a week, left in the sink as it was while she washed the other dishes, because she's angry at me.

And I have no one to talk to except people on the Internet. More people who don't care about me and just don't see me.

Currently waiting for the shower to be available again so I can go to the psychologist for a free coffee... I have to take this present to a friend who couldn't even be bothered to reply to my messages and tell me when we could meet, for more than two weeks. So, yeah...

At least I have guitar lesson later... I can only afford this second month and everything will go to hell again...

And then another afternoon and evening all alone...

#toxic mothers #daughters of toxic mothers

[hymnless-space-nugget]

I don't care how old your children are, parents should never talk shit about their kids within earshot.

#parenting #parenting tips #adult child #still living with parents #living with parents #toxic mothers #parent problems #cant wait to leave this shithole #get me out of this shithole #shithole #emerging adult #young adult #adulting #trying to manage #family communication #communication #im done #block out the noise #reaching my limit here #mental health #leaving the nest #forced dependence #personal #relatable #text post

[darkk-stallion]

The thing about a mother's hate is that it's not that different from a mother's love

Sam Gordon, “A Mother’s Hate

#dark academia #quotes #academia #academia aesthetic #dark academic aesthetic #poetry #love #hate #love and hate #mothers #toxic mothers

[thatoneidiotyoulovesomuch]

I just love it when my mom complains about doing mom things like taking care of her children she had and being a mom.

#parents #toxic mothers #i love being a burden 🤪✌🏾 #sighhhh #cw toxic relationship