#trauma isnt a fucking competition

[bunglegaydogs]

i hate twitter

i fucking hate it i want to burn it i despise twitter with a fucking passion

this post, look in the tags

it actually rages me and this is why i hate twitter and this is why im going to go into a rant about how these characters actually do have fucking depth and personality to them and that people need to stop pushing their outrageous agendas on people and being toxic xoxo

So, one main point I want to make is obviously Dazai and Chuuya, that's my main point here. They are separate entities as much as they are one. They have their own personalities, their own pasts, their own feelings, thoughts; they're fucking human. But something that a lot of people seem to want to do is make Chuuya's personality Dazai. That Chuuya is salty with him for leaving the mafia, and that Chuuya's "trauma" is Dazai (that man has fucking far worse trauma, Dazai leaving the mafia is not traumatic to him, especially when it had nothing to fucking do with the poor guy), and that his whole being is simply just Dazai. Dazai, the man who admitted that he spent every waking second thinking about Chuuya. The guy who got himself caught by the mafia partly because he wanted to see Chuuya. Are we all forgetting the dead apple scene? It's far more accurate to say that Dazai's personality is Chuuya, jesus fucking christ. That guy forgot to breathe when he watched Chuuya fighting like??? He's so homo, anyways.

Their characters are integral to each other, and they're made for one another (I'm saying this as a character creating thing, not romantically lmao (although-) ) and they compliment each other perfectly, they're perfect rivals. And, they can stand on their own as their own people, their own characters. Yes, whilst we meet Chuuya through Dazai in the series, and we see him as Dazai's ex-partner, the more information we get and the more content we receive about/from Chuuya steadily make him his own individual character, and Stormbringer cemented that.

I'm going to talk about the "Chuuya has trauma from Dazai leaving" thing because I saw it on Wattpad and it pissed me off.

Chuuya's trauma doesn't stem from Dazai, of fucking course it doesn't. It stems from Arahabaki, it stems from not knowing who he is, it stems from N (piece of shit), it stems from all his friends dying, it stems from being betray by his friends; this fucking guy has been put through the fucking mill, and yet the only thing that people like to focus on is how Dazai leaving affected him.

Dazai's defection from the mafia wasn't because of Chuuya, it was because of Oda. This is blatantly fucking obvious, yet again, some people like to think otherwise. Some people like to believe the most abhorrent shit. I swear there was someone one time that said he left because he "couldn't handle his feelings ofr Chuuya" like fuck off oh my god oh my god.

These two each have their own issues and their own traumas separate from each other. Can we please let Chuuya be his own character and let him have a personality without shitting on it?

These motherfuckers will scratch at anything, absolutely anything, to make anything about Chuuya to do with Dazai. Not every bad thing that happens to a character has to be topped by your deluded fantasies. "Oh, Chuuya was tortured? But Dazai-" LIKE NO FUCK OFF. We literally have NOTHING on the man, and you want to make some bullshit up just so that he can, what, be more mentally ill than others? Bruh? I don't know what these people are scheming or planning, but comparing trauma and saying that a character's is worse is so fucking awful and makes others feel like shit. I've always struggled with mine, because I constantly tell myself that worse things have happened to worse people, so I am a hypocrite here. But I understand how trauma works and affects people, and that it affects people differently. Your worst experience could be different to somebody elses, but you'll both be heavily affected by it. Chuuya doesn't show signs of the amount of immense trauma he has (mans internalises it and won't let himself show it because that's how he is pls PLS somebody give this man a fucking hug) whereas Dazai is clearly not right in the head; this doesn't mean you're allowed to say "Oh, Dazai has worse trauma clearly" because we have nothing about his past. We hardly have anything from his time at the mafia except his first mission, and his last. What happened in between for those 3-4 years? We don't know. We know bits now thanks to Stormbringer and Dead Apple about the Dragon's Head Conflict, but we still don't have much to go off. We haven't even had so much as a hint towards the first 14 years of his life, and we don't know anything about those two years he went undercover, except that he was unemployed and frequented Bar Lupin (I always thought about how the bartender felt after finding out about Oda but hey :') ), but other than that, we have virtually nothing on the man. We never know how he's feeling, what he's thinking, etc. He is a complex character, and he's made that way as a character because, and I cannot stress this enough, that is his character. Sorry, I derailed a bit there. Anyways, what I mean to say is that you can't use Dazai being bat-shit crazy as evidence for your delusions. That's his character, and yes, he may be influenced by his trauma, but we can only speculate. Clearly something has gone awry in his life for him to think the way he does and to crave death so badly, and to just be the way he is now. But, as I said before, trauma affects everyone differently. Just because Chuuya doesn't want to fucking kill himself does not mean that his trauma should be brushed aside and glossed over. Chuuya puts up a front because he doesn't want to be weak; all his life people have relied on his ability and his strength and wit to get them through, and even though the Mafia go a different way about it than the sheep, his ability and strength is still utilised; it's like Sigma, and Yosano. Nobody wants to be used, yet they still end up in a cycle of it until someone can come along to get them out of it. Supposedly Chuuya has been taken out of that cycle from the Sheep, but not necessarily so. Yes, the Mafia treats him better. But it doesn't really. Ah fuck I'm making zero sense yikes. Sorry, my bad. Ignore that lol.

ANYWAY sorry to cut this short, but my point still stands that Chuuya's character and personality does not solely revolve around Dazai, the man who has his ex-partner on his mind 24/7 and makes him come save him like a disney princess. Anyways lol.

These characters are their own people, and trauma isn't a competition. You don't have to come up with the most abhorrent shit to make Dazai's situation "worse" and then force that onto everyone else and start berating and belittling them when they don't believe you. ANYWAYS I am so sorry about this, the last few nights have been hectic for me.

Anyways I'll definitely be coming back to this, rn I'm honestly just too fucked to finish <3

have a lovely day/night <3

#i hate mischaracterisations #and i hate people twisting the characters around negatively #leave them bitches alone #trauma isnt a fucking competition #i cannot stress this enough #SIGHHHHHHH #need to stop before i get properly enraged lol #bungou stray dogs #bsd #anime #manga #novels #light novels #book #osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #rant #skk #soukoku

[balancethescales]

saw some discussion about how the message of s2 seems to go against s1 in that s1 was about the toxicity of the fine dining industry as a whole while s2 undoes all of that work, and id just like to write down some thoughts about that.

it definitely is true that the fine dining experience for many a chef sucks ass. this is perfectly portrayed in carmy, who is a ball of anxiety due to chef jeff winger (and his family but thats a different conversation for a different day), and sydney, whose trauma from her catering business and the to-go order debacle serve as the root of her debilitating fear of failure. but despite all of that, the ptsd the panic attacks the health issues the lack of a social life, they still love food. every chef at the beef/the bear does. you can see it in the way that tina is genuinely excited to hone her skills, the way sydney delights in making the simplest dish for a friend in need, and in the way carmy tries so hard to not fuck everything up. even richie, loud crude shithead richie, finds purpose as a server/host.

so while there is so much to be said about how the restaurant represents carmys past, that isnt the main social commentary of s2, and neither is the sentiment of “fine dining is the standard.” where s1 exposed all of the dark nooks and crannies hidden inside of a restaurant, s2 serves to remind us what a restaurant is supposed to be about, that it is so much more than what the industry has twisted chewed and spit it out to be. to work in a restaurant is to put your blood sweat and tears into pots and pans, put it on a plate, and then give it to someone. plain and simple. it is the oldest act of service, and is exactly what richie comes to respect in ep7, where chef terry tells him something along the lines of how she wants people to see all the work that went into one dish just to make them happy because it makes them feel special and people should be able to have that experience. to be a chef, to be a server, and to be a part of all of the work that goes into making and sharing a meal, is to love. 

ultimately, the overarching plot of changing the beef into the bear is not saying that simple sandwich shops made by regular people arent good enough. season 2 is a reminder that as dark as the fine dining industry can be, if you go into it with an actual love for the craft, an aptitude for service, and remember that everyone is a human being before they are an employee, working in a restaurant can be beautiful.

tldr: the “deep” social commentary of s2 is that capitalism and competition ruins food service by turning it into something horrible when its supposed to be about showing and receiving love through a good meal. the end.

#if you think s2 is saying gentrification good!!! then u did not watch the show #like as a story is just makes sense so much i cant believe people would say the writing was weak #u can say syd and carmy are perpetuators of the toxic industry #in that syd wants a star and carmy becomes exactly like the dickhead chef he hates #but thats just called being a victim #like for godsake its only s2 let them unlearn and grow #and also go to therapy #the bear meta #the bear #the bear fx #the bear spoilers #carmen berzato #sydney adamu #richie jerimovich #tina the bear #i love this show

[zeltqz]

do you think being made fun of for being to skinny is the same as being made fun of for being to fat?

im constantly teased about how skinny i am and how id be prettier if i gained weight bc then i would “thicker” idk am i being dramatic ab it. bc i mentioned how i felt to one of my friends whos a little chubby and she got upset with me about it.

its not the same, fat shaming holds more overall harm but skinnyshaming is still harmful.

i can speak from experience because i was born underweight and im black so my family were constantly telling me to gain weight, calling me stick and bones and other insults that hurt me when i was like 14 lmao, constantly told me i need more muscles on my bones.

being skinny shamed was harmful to my mental health growing up and its sad that people think that just because someone is skinny means theyre happy. it all depends on beauty standards in your culture

in korea, you cannot be chubby over there, its harmful and you will be shamed. you need to be skinny. in many black cultures, its bad to be underweight and skinny, you gotta be 'thick' ive heard that shit so many times. im no longer underweight either im average cuz i worked with my body issues and im happy now but the bullying and constant harrassment from my family still affects me to this day. skinny shaming is real and i understand you 100000000%

those who love to compare skinny and fat shaming are the same ones to comapre peoples trauma and make it a competition. its not a competition. fat shaming can be more harmful because its the norm to be skinny, people have made it the average beauty standard and i get that and im not saying its the same as skinny shaming so no one can try and twist and manipulate my words.

both are harmful all the way because at the end of the day because regardless it will give you body issues and fuck with your mental whether youre fat or skinny.

it doesnt mean you should fat shame someone or skinny shame someone either. bodies are bodies, everyones body is different and no one should be shamed for their body simple

and im sorry youre going through that, youre allowed to feel that way and no one is allowed to tell you that being skinny shamed isnt real or as harmful because thats just putting your own experiences and feelings down in the drain

[dillweedshole]

Why I'm making Asylum.

(uncharacteristic dillweed salt post? yup.)

Ultimately, a project like this can't thrive off spite alone, not a regular amount of spite anyway.

No. No no, I've read more than enough to feel out that LO does not care about a thing she does. Not anything from her silly little stories to her worst of crimes that she'll hide as best she can.

A woman without passion or care for any subject that doesn't put her in a good light. I can recognise she has real trauma, she isnt EVIL TO THE CORE!!! But she's taken the route of weaponizing her trauma and lashing out at anyone who even tries to critique her, or even just any ol person she just wants to lash out at. Everything to her is a means to an end.

Poke-Madhouse, LO's pokemon fanfic fyi, not only shows signs of those very things, but it's got legitimate promise. It has potential. That Ralts/Cala arc is unironically one of the best things I've seen come from her, and the fact we could have shit as good as that or even BETTER throughout angers me more than anything as a content creator. as just regular ass dillweed that shits fucking funny lmfao

LO has ultimately poisoned all of her works by making it all about her real life. She's taken the general saying "write from your own experiences" so literally it ruins everything she makes.

Asylum isnt just a way to critique Madhouse and LO's writing style, it's kind of like a fun little competitive experience for me. How do I make Bonnie make sense? How can I rewrite these characters to better fit my style? How do I deal with G's annoying nothing snark and make it either fun or actually kind of cool? I know we're not far in at ALL yet but I have ideas for the series. Bonnie's getting fundamentally changed, from why she exists, to how she acts, to what's going to happen to her. I have some original ideas i can throw in to the mix. Expect a meaningful, reoccuring Gallade character, and every character I explicitly mention for Asylum is going to exist (they wont be brought up way TOO in advance (Syir.)). G will suffer, and get a real name fucking CHRIST. Believe me, I know what I want from Asylum.

I do understand that some people may or may not be happy with the fact that I'm even doing this in the first place (jesus wait until LO finds out about Asylum lmfao) but this is both fun and a way to cope for me. I'm having fun, I get to see how I stack up to Madhouse, and I get to peacefully take out my quiet rage for Madhouse. It's still a parody so expect me to directly reference some of what happens in the source material, but I hope to make you excited, proud, maybe even a little giggly. I dont know. As long as you like it, I'm happy.

I like seeing the best in people and in their works. To see a story I know can be amazing constantly fuck itself due to creators too stubborn to make something that doesn't have weird stupid traits astounds me.

Bonus points if Asylum gets recognized more away from my little circle. Also, would be big huge winner sauce if someone had a full compiled Madhouse archive. the Violate arc is GONE. Nowhere to be seen.

#poke madhouse #poke-madhouse #lily orchard #this is one of the only direct lily orchard posts you should expect from me. #despite my issues with her i still won't ever directly bash her down unless we're talking madhouse lmao #my beef with her is like. so not that serious. especially reading what else is on the lily orchard tag GOT DAM

[langermanns]

vii. last thing for tonight

not going to make a post about what i was hearing bc it made no sense. might compile a list eventually though. just to see what to make of it all. a lot of times i hear music, i wish i could record it.

it feels nice to be able to talk about things without feeling like im being monitored. with [my ex], it was like a trap. if i posted on vent about anything specific, he would react almost passive aggressively irl. oh, god forbid if i talked about my ed anywhere he could see. its like suffering was a competition to him. he got me so sick and i let him.

it just feels so unbelievably freeing to talk about these things without fear of consequence. he isnt going to "get worse" because he saw me venting. i feel so much healthier. ironic, considering im engaging with such dark parts of my life now. but i mean it.

i used to dwell in such awful ways. i really dont want to make this post about my ex, but a lot of the ways i learned to address trauma and "cope" were taught by him, and his fetishization of trauma. all this obsession with "traumacore" and icky feeling music [nicole] and. i wont get into it. but the drugs, the romanticism, the backing out when it got too serious for him. when he got scared because "oh wow you really are fucked up," it was a mess. but now i can just... address these things so much more healthily? and im glad.

what happened was shit, and it had a massive impact on nearly every facet of my life, but it ends there. i dont need to dwell, i dont need to trigger myself, i dont need to be submerged in an environment like that. that wasnt "processing" anything, that was "naively feeding into your boyfriend's disgusting kink and getting double triple traumatized." so. yeah. im coming at things from a much better place, even if those things are still hard.

i am glad i started this blog again. i think im gonna keep it up. i have class tomorrow and the routine will begin again. its 5am jesus. i need to sleep lol

#.txt #// michael

[trickstergemini]

sorry guys this ones a bit of a vent post very specific to my trauma but i wanted to share anyways because someone out there might relate to this and feel very relieved when they do. its a bit emo i feel a little like a movie villain monologuing rereading this but i need to put this anger somewhere outside of my notes and current best friend’s dms

this one goes out to kit. i hope you’re happy sitting on your throne above all your friends yet still acting like youre “one of the people.” your ego isnt quiet. especially to the people you murdered the identities and agencies of. especially her, the purest core of me that ever existed. she is dead and its your fault. she was only 13. she did everything to meet your impossible standards and now im here and she’ll never exist again. thanks for that. for making me. i dont want to exist, i never wanted to exist, i did all that because you frowned at me when i was me. thanks for never making me feel like i could be my own person. thanks for preying on my innocence. thanks for judging and manipulating every thought i had or decision i made so you could still be top dog on your moral high ground. thanks for treating your best friend like a kindergartner with no experience of the world, and thanks for teaching me that condescension is inherent with every person ill call a best friend. thanks for making me feel inferior every time i was excited to show you i made a close friend. apparently i couldnt have any of those outside of you unless they were hopelessly obsessed with you. thanks for abandoning me and purposely enabling people to exclude and “forget” me. thanks for agreeing when your friends said i was annoying for just existing instead of sticking up for me. thanks for prioritizing your own friends and treating them as equals to you while treating your best friend as irrelevant. but when i started to move on from you, you couldnt let that slide! you had to have him too! lying through your teeth saying you treat him better than anyone else and see him as a person rather than a prize. we all know hes just your trophy, and that you’re proud of yourself for your excellent ability to manipulate your personality to get what you want at the expense of others happiness. im not the only one who has noticed by the way, every time you get all secretive when asked about him? im not the only one who noticed that shit. you can do whatever the fuck you want with him i dont care anymore, but i hope you understand youre on thin ice and your actions and lies and manipulation will come and bite you in the ass soon.

it sucks that everyone still likes you and it sucks that he ended up abandoning me too for you. it sucks that i have to exist carrying all of this weight and fear from eight years of emotional and mental manipulation just because you couldnt let me be better than you, because everything has to be a competition with you and if youre not putting people down youre not satisfied with yourself. and you’re walking scott free. closer now than i ever have been to the friends i made that i was so excited to introduce to you. they barely talk to me anymore because theyre busy with you. i hope youre happy knowing you have everything you have because you felt okay pushing me down. i hope to god you live knowing that every day

#mental health #actually bpd #bpd vent #mentally ill #vent #vent post #trauma vent #mental health vent

[kqtmansmokeschronic]

just a rant cause brain

i struggle to even play older games that i grew up playing, i struggle to play basically anything thats not gta online and honestly its just that; 1. I have to be good at something, it used to be skateboarding, i can draw relatively well but chronic pain makes it hard, I'm not the best player on gta but i know im better than most people

2. Thats the game i was playing when i had my head injury...brain trauma and memory loss. It was hard at first to really even competently play gta remembering the number of click up or down in a menu where a hurdle but ultimately was good for my brain and memory health, but its because i mostly knew it before i wasnt a full tryhard but i didnt start at square one, playing ANYTHING else, except left for dead 2 with my boyfriend i feel frustrated and lost and it makes me feel so stupid and it makes me not even want to try new games i barely gave RDR2 a try and that mostly functions like gta, im mostly just rambling, i do love gta i enjoy grinding and playing missions and i enjoy messing around in freemode doing stupid shit with friends and i love making little toxic rat cunts that think they're hot shit cry and rage like little babies because the gay furry bent them over in the game, i just normal pvp and 1v1's and playing beach or sniping or trying to snipe someone from something or trying to RPG a or forcing a spawn trying to get a certain kek whatever it is is that can be a cool video or clip and the i fucking love making the videos i couldnt give a fuck less they're the least viewd thing on the channel i love making them and its proof youtube success isnt skill because the kid that sit in RC cars and Armored vehicles have 50k subs and 200k views every video and all they do is bait or fuck with real tryhard and make a 15 min video about "look at him he's gunna EWO" or fucking up some wannabe and claiming you beat a real tryhard meanwhile i swear we do the most epic shit ive seen a gta youtuber do:

-killing godmode players -killing orb spamming booters -killing lagswitchers -killing perma off radar and job TP abusers -killing passive players

We are litteraly un matched on console no one has done the kind of shit we do in the game since SUCE did back in like 2018ish years and it was on PC we do everything on console where there's not a shred of doubt every shot we take is just our aim and accuracy and every fight outcome is just skill, a video where someone starts a fight, loses, goes perma off radar, loses further and then job TP around just to continue to get fucked up even off the radar teleporting around gets maybe 50 views is fine by me cause at the end of the day i know we're just living our best life and making a little content out of a game we'd be playing anyway, and people we'd be fucking up anyway because we arent ever really trying, i wont lie yes some videos we try, but a good portion of the time we just arent its more that the rats and cheaters are extremely predictable im gunna end the rant here its basically just that i guess i cant go on any other game and come out on top over other actual competitive PvP players and cheaters i know as i just stated i dont even need to be good at the top teir like that to make content but idk we're mostly just doing what we want maybe i'll try to start streaming some other stuff maybe i'll try streaming diablo or fallout as well, maybe i need to entirly lose my ego when it comes to video games cause they're suppposed to just be fun right?

[f1oofie]

??? fuck you man. trauma isnt a competition

I'm not a man 😌, hope this helps in your next anon hate with zero context 💞💞💞

[residentevildash-moved]

im genuinely glad that other people havent been traumatized/had 2 experience ptsd but theres a little ape in my brain that wants 2 attack people who make lame ass jokes about shit they havent gone thru

#idk. does this make sense #trauma isnt a competition but ppl who havent been abused should shut the fuck up sometimes. u know #idk #maybe this is mean & its just a Me problem #but.....well these r my thoughts #text #my post

[puppetsoftomorrow]

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#phoebe lifeblogs #urgh can self doubt just fuck off please #like i'm fine at my job!! #i'm fine at writing!! #but my brain is like No #and now i got self doubt over my fuckin tumblr #like Why #this isnt a competition!! so why do i feel like i have to be Doing The Best!! #this is venting lmao #pls dont feel like u need to come reassure me or smth #i'll work this out in my own time #its that mental illness trauma lmao

[zarovich]

you’re so cringe tbh the way you rant in tags comes across very attention seeking you make it seem like mental illness is a deliberate choice LOL like grow up some people have actual trauma

Ah yes bc being abused as a child physically, emotionally, sexually and having my school shot up isn't real trauma LOOOL okay. Maybe if you were my psychiatrist, I'd believe you but he's says what I've been thru is severe trauma sooo hmm 🤔🤔 I think I'll believe the person with an actual medical degree. It's sad that you're so miserable you have to take it out on others while hiding behind a screen, really, hope you get better bc that's the true cringe luv. Also, own your shit anon. If you wanna talk shit, come off anon and own your words. If you think you're right and you believe what you say is correct, then you would have no problem coming off anon

#asks #time to rant in the tags for attention now since thats what im doing #lol like.... if i was attention seeking wouldnt you think i would just... say them on the post?? instead of hiding in the tags #??? like #also like its a bad thing to want attention bro... that just human nature babey!! we all want attention be we thrive off it!!! #youre in denial if you think otherwise bc you clearly wanted my attention by sending this #love that you took time out of your life for me luv!! im honored #also life isnt a fucking competition bitch who cares if someones trauma isnt as bad as anothers?? #ITS STILL CONSIDERED TRAUMA #youre legit a moron if you think what ive been thru isnt trauma #bc totally #also love that youre hiding behind anon bc you know damn well what youre doing is wrong

[cinderspots]

God I am loving the Truth Of It All. I hope you write more Mia x Miranda fics after this :D I'm pretty much cackling at this later chapter while also be "aww miranda" "AAA Mia D:" Breaks my heart especially that she has to like.. Seperate Eveline into two parts to cope with the fact it's the same kid who kidnapped and traumatized her. Though I am curious about one thing- What do the other lords, daughters and villagers think of Mia and her relationship with Miranda?

I'm sure there will be more miaranda fics! Especially since I feel like I need to make up for a. The lack of fics for them and b. how the writing feels mediocre comparitively to deep breaths. Also thank you! :D

Yes, I actually used some of my own fun trauma to make it seem more realistic, sometimes it's easier to seperate the person who hurt you into two (or more depending) 'personas' one from before, and one that was the abuser. This problem will not be solved by the end of the fic and will likely if I'm given too much power become it's own fic...

And the lords all have different perspectives on their relationship (though they wouldnt dare say anything).

Alcina is jealous at first, Mia is competition in her eyes, and she knows she wont ever be better than Mia in Miranda eyes and she doesnt like that. However Mia is very charming and eventually Alcina can get past her competitiveness.

The daughters are actually pretty happy. Mia is a human (used offhandedly, shes a mold woman in reality), they're not stupid enough to feed from her, but she can tell them about the outside world!

Salvatore is a lot of things. Hes jealous but overjoyed at the same time. New mother! But his 'first' mother likes her more....but someone to love and might love him back!.....but she might ignore him too. Hes kind of all over the place.

Heisenberg and Mia get along but dont at the same time. They get off on a rocky start when he assumes Mia isnt there willingly and covertly tries to convince her to poison her. But since it's the village, its pushed aside shockingly quickly (miranda is aware???) And they bond over their aggressive humour.

Donna fucking LOVES Mia. Mia is so nice, mia doesn't get freaked out by Angie, Mia lowkey adopted Donna??? AND AND AND Mia know plant stuff. Yeah Donna loves Mia, and the fact that Mia is helping Miranda not be a - for lack of better word - bitch to everyone? :D donna is happy.

#cinderasks #anon #mother miranda #mia winters #miaranda #mother miranda x mia winters #alcina dimitrescu #donna beneviento #karl heisenberg #salvatore moreau

[half-a-hetero]

ATLA BATTLE OF THE BANDS AU SETUP PT. 1

oK SO I’VE HAD THIS AU IN MY HEAD FOR TWO FKN DAYS AND I HAVE COME TO EVER SO GRACIOUSLY INJECT IT INTO YOUR MIND- THE GAANG PLUS YUE AND THE FIRE NATION GALS IN BANDS. a battle of the bands au. tHINK OF THE aRt. n i’m thinking zukka and yueki, and they meet at battle of the bands but yk...we got 2 sets of pining idiots yk yk. i thought this up five (5) days ago and iM DYING 

(tw: mentions of canon-typical abuse, and past death)

this is basically just the setup but i’ll add little tidbits and worldbuilding and art later

zuko (18): drums + backup vocals

mai (16): bass guitar

ty lee (15): keyboard

azula (15): lead guitar + vocals

suki (17/18): rhythm guitar

they do some group vocals/harmonies but not that often

so like azula has this really strong, really powerful voice, and that means she could do really moving rock ballads/power ballads, and etc etc. she took extensive guitar and voice lessons as a kid because of That Fucker Ozai™ and thats why she has so much control. same with zuko, except he didnt take voice lessons (he just liked singing) and quit guitar after ozai went to jail (it was a painful reminder of The Shit He Went Through) and took up drums to let out his anger and frustrations instead. Azula stuck with guitar because it was something she loved to do, despite her past.

where azula has a bold voice, zuko has a raspy-yet-smooth-at-the-same-time one that matches azula’s really well. while she’s off singing power notes, hes singing the lower, raspier undertones and it sounds really nice.

zuko also took up art classes and is genuinely proud of his work.

he’s secretly (its not that much of a secret) an art nerd

zuko, azula, and suki wrote a few songs together, kinda

for lack of better explanation, ozai was (canon-typically) abusive, and he got drunk one day and got mad at zuko and pushed him. zuko fell into the fireplace, and boom. scar.

azula got mainly mental trauma because zuko would take the blow for her, but she got therapy and theyre both for the most part better (there are still some relapses)

azula’s secretly a DC nerd

zUkO wEaRs riNgs 

the canon-typical atla “ozai pitting them against eachother sibling rivalry” comes into play through guitar (hence why zuko drops it. he wanted to let his sister have something she loved for herself. also, he didnt like it). ozai was a classical guitarist and famous [the money and the “royalty” canon aspects]

should i….mullet zuko?

aro azula and toph >>>>

ty lee is still from the circus, except this time mai was there too, which is where she learned knife-throwing. they both ran away from the circus summer after freshman year and met azula though mai’s bass lessons (alternatively, they met at martial arts classes). theyre 14/15. they moved in with azula, zuko, and iroh around the middle of sophomore year (grade 10) when ozai was arrested. the azula and ty lee were 15, mai was 16, and zuko was 17 at the time, around the ages they were in the show when the war ended (i think??)

azula said it didn't matter cause they had a huge house. she says it was half-empty, anyways, but mai and ty lee know that meant she liked their company.

they get along really well with suki

everyone realizes they can all play instruments, the core parts of a [rock] band. they start playing together, and eventually decide to become a band

their band is called ‘the kyoshi warriors’ (or something idk this is off the top of my head) in honor of the girls’ martial arts instructor, master kyoshi, who passed away

WAIT SJITGHHFSD FAN THE FLAMES IS A GOOD NAME TOO WHAT (although i can see that being more of a song name) credits to boom ( @boomerangsandadora) for that (go check out their ideas on this au)

theyre inseparable

together, mai, ty lee, suki, azula and zuko look fucking menacing. just imagine that. fucking bamfs

mai skateboards. just. this is a kind of important plot device. shh.

suki joins their friend group gradually. first, she’s attended azula’s martial arts class since they were in second grade, and moved up the belts like wildfire (along with azula). she tried to befriend azula a few times, but gave up over the years because azula wasnt interested in friendship (no thanks to ozai pressuring her to always be first. azula saw her as a rival, suki saw azula as a particularly competitive classmate and but equal in skill). She was zuko’s classmate since freshman year (grade 9) but only became his friend in sophomore year through a literature assignment the two were paired up in. she was really his only friend, cause everyone was too busy sizing up his scar. the two became inseparable then on.

she plays rhythm guitar because she loves guitar but agrees that azula is better at being in the (relative) spotlight

on the outside, suki and zuko looked tough, but underneath that, they’re two bumbling, pining gay idiots

suki’s parents both died in a fire, so she grew up with her “cool gay aunt” who was also a feminist and a mixed martial arts instructor.

suki spends her time teaching the beginner classes at the dojo

she met azula + the girls thru martial arts and zuko

overall thingies:

even though zuko is oblivious to sokka’s reciprocate feelings, no one else is. mai, azula, and ty le are just like “zuko wtf you’re more blind than toph”

he thinks the rest of his friends dont know about his crush bu he forgets who his sister is. honestly. all he talks about is sokka, it isnt hard.

unlike a lot of other bands, they actually have more complicated and interesting bass riffs, and a lot of times when writing songs they start with bass and build up from there

azula and toph get along becaus theyre the only sensible ones around. all their friends are pining idiots and they bond over their mutual superiority 🪄🧃🧃

mai skateboards at the same skatepark as sokka and aang. she’s long since past trying to teach zuko (he’s an uncoordinated gay mess) (who can somehow still play drums ??what???)but once she sees him agree to learn to skate from sokka she knows what’s up

suki’s birthday is during th time this fic happens, and she invites yue to the party (she tells zuko he has to invite sokka because even though she loves her bestie, he really is dumb)

“hey yue, we’re having a little get-together for my birthday, and i was wondering if you wanted to come?” compare to zuko’s “uh—hey sokka? i, um. suki’s birthday is pretty soon, and, well. we’re having a get-together to celebrate? and i—she asked me to invite someone? andifyoudontwannagothatstotallyfineimsorryforbotheringyou-” (includes much stammering and heavy blushing)

on the outside suki’s all calm (someone has to be the “i’m a mess but i dont look it” friend🙄🙄. honestly)but on the inside she’s like

“oh my gOD is that dyed hair hOLY FUcK thats so badass and she pLAYS BASS TOo that’s hOt”

“WAITWHATTHEFUCKISSHESPEAKINGTOME- ?? she’s laughing now she’s gORGEOUS- ThE giGGLEs i CANt bREatHE-”

“hOLY mOtHEr of kYosHi sHe’s wEAriNG lEsbiAn riNgS sHIT and her voice is so nice too fUCK i think i’m in love-”

#battle of the bands au #atla #i dont know what happened but i drank a gallon of fic idea juice and this happened #iT HASNT WORN OFF #THIS IS JUST PART ONE I HAVE THE REST TOO #im drowning in this fic idea #@writers 😏😏 hey #anyone wanna cowrite #zukka #yueki #possibly mailee #mailee #ITS ON #i’m so excited #im drafting some art too #avatar the last airbender fanfic #ideas #AYYO IF YALL HAVE INPUT AND IDEAS ILL TAKE IT #zukka fanfiction #yueki fanfiction #its a gay mess #okay imma stop it with the tags now #bye #suki #yue #sokka #zuko #azula #toph #aang

[jubberry]

oohkay let's go tua with those ship asks: fiveya, horrance and alluther.

thanks el i love you

Send me a ship and I'll answer three questions based on if I ship it or not.

fiveya obvs i ship this since this is 90% of my tua drawings lol

1. ill wait ill wait (to be the one) by georgiestauffenberg made me ship it cause holy fuck dude. I dont know if i ship them romantically when i saw them onscreen cause first of all, age difference is kinda weird lmao. Second, they dont rlly interact much outside literally the first couple of eps. But he was so soft for her, and i felt like they had so much unexplored history.

so i looked at fanfics cause i was wondering if ppl still ship it, then i liked the description of this one so i gave it a go.

Basically the premise is that vanya dates a much older man who seems to know a lot about her. And it was amazingly in character and just provided their characters some depth that u wouldnt find outside of a romantic relationship between them. (The implication of five pining while she doesnt know who he is, their missed chances when he time travelled, fives missed chances of living and having a 'normal' life bec of his own hubris, vanyas insecurity and being able to open up bec shes with someone whos known her since childhood). Its so sweet and thats how i was like, oh yep i can do so much more with these two, and what has kept me interested in drawing them etc.

2. My favourite things are the shippers cause i made some friends in the fandom who are super cool and supportive! I dont get super involved in fandoms and usually just watch from afar so finding people to talk to and muck around with in this tiny fandom is super cool 😭

Though thats not to say I havent come across some bad apples in this fandom and things that I dont like. I think thats the importance of carving out a place for yourself and ur friends in fandom tho.

Another thing I like about the ship itself, i just like the grumpy person whos soft for one person trope. Its so cute. I like all the little clues in canon on how their relationship as kids is quite warm, which is interesting cause five is basically the star student and he can be quite cold vs vanya who is the black sheep of the family.

I also like how five likes her powers even when she caused the apocalypse he spent the majority of his life in lol. Like its a popular hc that five is just a wife guy and i love that.

I see vanya as the type who has a lot of love to give, and she sometimes has unrealistic expectations of what her partner can give. Betrayal and lies really angers her, but also when her partner cannot meet her expectations of love she gets very upset bec its also an indication of how shes not good enough, or not loveable enough to be able to have this in the relationship (her insecurity means every failing always comes back to her, even if its out of her control).

I feel like five would be a level-headed person enough in the relationship to not be afraid to say 'vanya ur being stupid' (ie. the s2 confrontation lmao). Also, five's personality means she will never have to doubt his actions bec she knows hes the type who will not give u the moment of the day if hes not interested.

Not to mention they also have the whole apocalypse vs. saviour, hero/villain thing. Theres just a lot to explore!

3. I probably have several. But mostly I dont mind five being a dick to vanya bec first, even if the appeal is hes soft to her hes already kind of a dick in canon lmao. Also, vanya isnt a child. Shes grown and she can handle petty af things like five telling her shes not good at cooking lol. I also dont mind it cause I feel like people are getting too afraid to write... conflict for fear or portraying an abusive relationship or smth. Like, chill. Conflict is fine, resolving it is how u get a story. However in saying that, nobody should be obligated to write any way unless you want to! Fanfic is for comfort so if what your doing is making u happy then its good enough!

horrance which i also ship but i love the platonic and romantic relationship equally:

1. I came in tua in general not shipping anything so Im honestly not sure. I do remember someone doing a meta before s2 came out that was basically how ben acted weird when klaus summoned dave in s1 that made me go 👀 Otherwise, tua s2 rlly made me like them cause tua FED horrance shippers. Like..... the fact that klaus didnt want ben to leave him, and ben knows thats why he stayed 😢 or the fact that klaus was all over him for some reason???? Somebody also mentioned gay ben once and I resonate with that deeply. Like i get that jill exists but i resonate with gay ben deeply.

2. I love their bickering, theyre so cute together. I just like ben being angry bec hes self aware that hes got both shit and amazing taste. Shit bec he cant believes he likes Klaus (and also amazing also bec Klaus). I think the idea of them being kind of underdogs, theyre not rlly leader types and dont want to be, helps them bond together even in platonic horrance. They're both down to earth, and even tho they can annoy each other, they also know if they want a space to feel comfortable its with each other. Theyre not pressured by rivalry over leadership, or any sort of competition.

I love the idea that even tho ben is like klaus's ''conscience'', hes also down for chaos and bitchy. I feel like klaus rlly enabled that side of him, its not exactly a good thing but its p funny lol

3. I know some people think their dynamic is unhealthy but i dont care lol

alluther. So id say i dont ship this, mostly due to the fact that im not invested? Just like all tua ships so far I rlly came out not wanting anything but platonic relationships cause I feel tua doesnt do romance very well. With alluther, theyre so cute but im not super invested in either of their chars so they havent stuck for me. I appreciate seeing them and talking about them tho, and I'm def open to exploring them further.

1. I think tua canon romances are just so lackluster 😔 Idk who writes the romances but I was just like 'nice' but afterwards I dont really think about them. I love their dance scene and the message behind it! Otherwise, theyre sweet like most of the tua romances but im not super invested, same with all the non canon ships.

2. I really feel like tua needs to decide on what their relationship is. Like, just say its incest or not and stick with it 👀 Or if you wanna support it or not, just make up ur mind. I think I would've liked it better if I found the characters more interesting. Allison especially I feel like suffers from the fact that tua just doesn't want to make her ''mean''. They want to make her supportive and are less interested in making her flawed (ie. she should've had a conflict with Vanya in s2, but the writers didnt want to write the girls fighting which is stupid imo and not what that conflict is about).

In regards to Alluther, the scene where Allison gets annoyed at Luther for sleeping with someone else felt out of line. Like, how are you marrying other people and moving on but Luther isn't allowed to? But honestly, I don't mind if they actually just acknowledge it and make it a deliberate part of Allison's trait that Allison can expect a certain loyalty automatically from other people (which can tie in to her childhood being a star, and the rumour).

Luther is a big simp for Allison, which is sweet, but at the same time it would be nice to have him explore himself for a bit, and who he is outside of the academy. Then maybe they can rekindle their relationship again as new people and see where they go from there.

3. I don't hate them, but they're ok. I'm not super invested in them, just like all the tua canon romance. But I wouldn't mind making content for them if I were a bit more invested in their characters. I love their dance scene in s1 and I feel like its super a underrated portrayal of what their relationship is meant to be. I know no one talks about it but it's just such a great scene, and I'm pretty sure the choreographer was into interpretive dance? The scene had a lot of meaning that I don't see people dig around with.

Essentially I'm pretty sure the fairy lights are obviously a throwback to their childhood together, spending time outside of Reggie. So the dance scene kind of symbolized that pocket of space they made for each other in their life (even if theyre far away, or with other people, they will always have that space for each other).

The way they danced was more like playfighting than dancing, which means their relationship isn't sensual. It's more ''pure'', and romantic. Its basically two kids rekindling their love as adults. I also think this is a response to the incest, cause in s1 tua klaus literally said that 'thank god Regg is not their real father' right before Allison and Luther meet lmao. So its kinda like saying Allison x Luther isnt supposed to be 'ohh step sibling hot' but two people who experienced the same trauma as kids and finding comfort with each other (and rekindling that love after many years).

#harcest #fiveya #horrance #i dont think this is anti alluther but i did say i dont ship it #cause im not invested in tua canon romances #i wont tag just in case #ask game #THIS GOT SO LONG

[springatito-moved]

me thinking about c!quackity and c!tommy's relationship and crying like he cares for that boy your honor! I thought the same about c!quackity and c!tubbo but canon is ruining my dreams there

c!quack still cares abt c!tubbo a bunch. he said on the alt stream he knew tubbo was still good at heart and really did want to reason with him. its just that c!tubbo rn is an immediate threat. unlike wilbur's stone dick to make "competition", tubbo is running a large, looming outpost, and building giant walls.

and q's thoughts on this are only worsened by his trauma & paranoia. he doesnt dislike tubbo, he dislikes what tubbo is doing. he's had multiple homes blown up before. tubbo threatened him with fucking nukes. q doesn't want to hurt tubbo but he sure as hell isnt gonna just,,,, sit there,, yknow?

#/rp #he wants whats best for the both of them but tubbo is just more of a direct issue rn #thats the only reason they're strained atm #?? #💌

[autumn-foxfire]

I also dont like the comaprisons of shos n dabis trauma cuz

1. Trauma isnt a competition

2. The idea always seems to be 'dabi suffered more thats why hes like this'

Like first of fuck the whole way off with competing peoples traumas and second off maybe shouto had more support in later life because he made an active choice to stop being an emo little bitch and conect with his peers and learn to love himself and move on from his trauma on his own terms maybe thats the real difference.

Shouto could have very much ended up like dabi, he was angry of endeavor n rejected his own quirk at the start too. He was lucky for izuku to pass by and bitch slap some sense into him but izuku didnt hold his hand and guide him from milestone to milestone that was all shouto learning how to connect with people and sorting out his feelings on himself n his father.

I know i sound mean when i say it but your trauma isnt an excuse to be a murdering asshole. A bunch of us were traumatized n chose to be relentlessly kind instead. Put a middle finger up to your abuser n show them their infulence wont define you, thats a way bigger fuck you to them then wallowing in misery and turning into just as big of an asshole

BNHA is full of characters who have suffered abuse and trauma under the hands of others and have had different reactions on how they deal with it. The heroes, for example have used their trauma to try and help others so people don’t have to go through what they experienced.

The civilains have been a mixed bag. You have Kota and Eri, who due to their ages are more neutral parties, however both have them have been inspired by the side of the heroes to be good and want to protect others they way they have been protected. The Todoroki siblings are also interesting, both Natsuo and Fuyumi went into professions where they would be helping other people. It’s another example of how they use their trauma to motivate themselves to be better people.

This is why I don’t get people being upset that the villains represent a more negative that trauma can be used and handled. It’s not like they’re the only ones who have this trauma and such aren’t being presented as bad people just for having it. Criticizing them and their unhealthy methods of dealing with their trauma isn’t us hating their characters, in fact it’s usually the opposite. Most people love the villains and are worried for their future!

People need to learn that trauma itself isn’t an excuse for your actions. It can explain the way you are but the end of the day, you need to take responsibility for yourself.

#bnha #bnha manga spoilers #thanks for the ask!! #thegaygyrus