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marshmallowprotection · 11 months

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Happy Birthday, Saeran and Saeyoung! The 2023 Analysis!

Okay. Time to get our screaming out of the way, people. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. THEY ARE THE BABIEST OF BABIES. IF SOMEBODY IN THIS WORLD EVER TRIES TO MAKE THEM CRY, I WILL DESTROY THEM IN LESS THAN SEVEN SECONDS WITH MY BARE HANDS. I WILL KILL EVERY PERSON IN ROOM AND THAN GET RID OF MYSELF IF THEY CRY.

HAVE I GOTTEN THIS STIMMING OUT OF MY SYSTEM?

NO.

I’m okay. I just needed to scream a little where you guys could see it before I had a minute to break down all the details in this photo. So, as far as what I got right in this photo... the hard light coming through the window was a problem area for a lot of people. I wasn’t sure if they were going to be inside or outside, but these boys are inside. In fact, they’re inside their childhood home and that’s not what I expected given the fact that Cheritz mentioned they were going on an outing for the day.

Well, I know for sure they will be recounting one of their trips outside together on Twitter, but they’re inside this time around for the title screen. I didn’t think they’d be in that house given the fact tat that house is such an awful place. Yet, it’s very bittersweet in a way because that house is a nightmare. But, it’s the only place... where they got to be together before everything changed. It’s a bad memory and a good memory. They can’t get back what they lost—

But, they still have each other and that’s what matters. When Rika and V burned their house down at the end of Ray Route, it was the end of those days. There’d never a way to get a tangible representation of that life they lived. Sometimes, I wonder how Saeyoung feels about that since we don’t get to tell him about that fact. How does he feel about the house being burned down? We know how our boy Saeran feels about it because it’s told to us as plain as day.

But, is it bittersweet for Saeyoung, too?

It’s easy for me to say that Saeyoung might not have cared. After all, he spent years trying to formulate the way to get out of there with his younger brother. If he could get out of there with Saeran, then he would never look back because that place was a living hell.

He wouldn't want to look back at it because he would have what he wanted. He would have his brother and the clothes on his back. But, he didn't get to have that because he had to leave his brother behind due to his deal with the agency. So, what does the representation of his childhood home mean to him? It wasn't the house that mattered to him, it was his brother.

But, much like how Saeran mentions that that house was a representation of life with his brother and mother… does it bother Saeyoung, too? Saeran got a single chance to go back to that home in the end of Ray Route.

It was overwhelming and traumatizing for him to go back to that place, but in other ways, it was a good thing because it reminded him of all the good things he had with his brother in that place. Even though it's hard for him to go through that for the sake of trying to find evidence to save his brother, he goes through with it because it's a part of the process of his closure.

However, because it burned down, Saeyoung is never going to have that. He won’t get the chance to decide if he wanted to go back there or not to confront his demons.

It's not clear if he would even want to go back to that place, but he doesn't even get the opportunity to decide that for himself. It's similar to how he'll never be able to face his mother. He wants nothing to do with his father or his mother, nor would he follow the path that Saeran did to find closure… But if he wanted to tell them off or make them pay for everything they did to him, he should be allowed that opportunity.

He's just never going to get that opportunity. I think he should be allowed to hit Saejoong as much as he wants, just as much as Saeran was right to have a talk with his father.

The boys have had many things taken away from them over the years and it is hard to think about that. Even in the context of the Secret Ending, Saeyoung and Saeran don’t get to face all their demons. Seeing them in their childhood home can be bittersweet in many ways because it was good memories for them but also nightmares. It's hard to describe the feelings you can have about a house of horrors when it was also your only safe place at the same time.

It's difficult to explain that to people who haven't lived through that kind of abuse. Not everybody has the same feelings about the household where things went wrong for them. A lot of people would like the place to be burned to the ground and other people might like to go through the household to be able to sort out their feelings. Then there are people who don't care what happens to the place either way. I don't know, when I see these things, I think about the different kinds of closure that they get throughout the game and it gets to me.

But, yeah, it turns out they're in their childhood home in this picture and the only reason why that threw me off guard was because the background is so vibrant and white. I am so used to seeing their house as this dilapidated household. It isn't a place that feels like it should have any light because their mother doesn't want it to have that. The house never looks like a place that should be warm or inviting. But, to me, the fact that this photo is bright... kind of feels like we’re just seeing through the eyes of the boys.

This doesn't have to be a depressing memory because it's not one. The two of them have each other and this is a representation of that feeling they have when their mother isn't around and they get to just be little kids. They are having a normal experience that any child would have and there's something poetic about that. That's why this picture doesn't look dark or depressing.

They are getting a brief moment of what it feels like to just be a normal kid who is excited to realize that they've grown a little bit since their last birthday.

That is especially a good thing for two kids that are malnourished and not taken care of. It's a well-known fact that the two of them appear much younger than they actually are for quite a long time. That's why Saeyoung looks so happy here. Even though they're in the worst kind of situation, they are alive and they are growing. Despite the fact that nobody wants them to be alive, they are alive and they are together. That doesn't have to be a bad thing.

Saeyoung won’t let Saeran see it as a bad thing. He is fighting hard every step of the way to make sure that his little brother knows that they are going to get out of that house one day and they are going to live the life they deserve. They just have to keep fighting every year no matter what. They will get there and that's what this picture says to me.

It's been another year around the Sun and it's a good thing that they're alive. It has to be. I can even see those stickers as a representation as a countdown clock. Saeyoung would use stickers to mark their progress. He would try to lighten Saeran’s hopes and dreams by saying that once Saeran is tall enough to reach the rocket, they can get out of there. Sure, it might be the fallacy of the childhood fantasy to think that that could be the case, but they are children and they need a reason to keep going.

Saeyoung is a kid, just like his brother, but he’s been parentified and it shows all the time. Look at how Saeyoung always said that they shared a body, so if they had any good things happen to one of them, it also happened to the other. That was the only way Saeyoung could help Saeran feel like he was growing up with experiences he rightly deserved to have. You know what hurts more?

The fact that Saeyoung always tried to make a fuss about Saeran’s height... and the very first thing he says to him in Saeran’s After Ending—

It will show in ways he doesn't even realize for the rest of his life. I guess that's besides the point since I should be talking about the details of the picture, but you know that I can't help myself once I get started talking about the boys. You guys know I'm guilty about talking on and on and on in a tangent. Stickers! The stickers are really cute. I think he probably got them from Rika, but I don’t know for sure. You can’t gauge the twins by looks to figure out their ages, after all.

The little stars are what made me cry, actually.

[Link to Twitter Thread]

115cm is 3'9"ft.

110cm is 3'7"ft.

This is the first time we’ve gotten heights for the twins as children so I’m just so floored. I did do some math on this, though. This picture has to take place before they knew Rika or V. How do I know that? It’s because Rika’s Behind Story gives us a character sprite for teenage Saeyoung and I can use her height to tell you a guesstimate of his height at that time. Not a lot of people know about that since I know a lot of people don’t touch Rika content.

I’ll give y’all that while I’m at it.

So!

Rika is 5′2″. If I use her height to gauge Saeyoung’s height at the time, he is right about 4′11″ or 5′0″. So, this photo has to be well before that takes place all things considered. Saeyoung would’ve needed to hit a major growth spurt to move from his height of 3′9″ to reach that height. Considering how malnourished the boys in this game are, well... it’s hard to know how fast they’re growing considering their bodies never match their ages when they’re kids.

Rika and V commented often how they didn’t look their ages. So,

This is what the difference is between this flashback and the present day. I did a lot of configuring to gauge how old the boys were when this image takes place. I can tell you that at the maximum, the boys are younger than 14 years old in that photo. Saeyoung joins the agency at roughly 14-15 years old depending on what you’re reading or playing in the game since the timeline is just like that. If I had a guess on their age here, I would say they’re somewhere between 9 and 11. That feels about as close as I can place them.

However, I did have a thought when I was working on this. It occurred to me that there is a photo of teenage Saeran out there with him standing next to Rika and V from the After Ending. Now, the two of them are leaning over so that makes it hard to approximate the heights but I’m going to take a shot in the dark for this one.

So, Saeran is always going to trail right under Saeyoung when it comes to how tall he is and I can use my approximation of Saeyoung to figure out how short he is in this particular photo!

Since Saeyoung’s head capped at about Rika’s forehead, that’s how I was able to gauge where his rough height would be. In this photo, Rika has her head just tilted a bit to the side. But, if she were to straighten her back, the top of Saeran’s head would fall somewhere around the area around her mouth and chin. Which, would make sense if Saeyoung’s initial guessed height put him above that. With that in mind, (discount V here, he’s too tall for his own good and he’s squatting to make his work), Saeran’s height here is probably around 4′10″.

Which, knowing that would allow me to make a comprehensive view of what the twins were like at major points in their life. This is just my guess, so take all of it with a grain of salt! You guys know me, I have to spend hours figuring out these details for fun.

It was difficult for me to tell it first but I do think what Saeyoung is writing is his brother's name. The characters more or less seem similar but since it's written in a childish script, I had to do a double take to make sure that was the case since I am no expert in Hangul and I don’t want to say it’s something when I didn’t take a second glance to make sure. 최세란 is Choi Saeran, after all. That detail is the part that makes me want to cry. I know Saeyoung is the one that has to teach his brother who to write.

I want to believe in my heart of hearts that the first word Saeyoung learned how to write was his brother’s name so he could teach him. I don’t think he would’ve asked to learn how to spell his name.

Another thing I should point out is that I didn't expect them to draw the twins in any clothes that weren't already shown to us at the start. The boys don't exactly have options when it comes to their wardrobe. The only clothes they get to wear are the ones that likely come from a donation bin and nothing more than that. Over the years, the boys haven't been drawn in much of anything outside of the basic outfits we've been shown from the start when their children. Meaning that Saeyoung is in a hoodie, and Saeran is in a button-down.

There is something ominous about the fact that Saeyoung picked up a jersey with the number seven on it. I know realistically it's just a fun detail that the artist decided to add to the picture but I'm not the kind of person that would want to go with that since it's not as fun for me from an angle of analysis.

It's almost like a representation of what's to come and I don't think any of us want to think about that. I do really love what they drew Saeran in, though. It’s a simple shirt with a pocket, but imagine the trinkets he could carry in those pockets!

Crying at the thought of him finding a special rock or flower to take back home after a trip with Saeyoung. Anyway, I think it's really all I have to say about this picture this time around. I could go on and on and on about different thoughts and theories I have about their childhood but that could go on forever if I’m being honest. I can just say that it's been 7 years since I met Saeran and Saeyoung for the first time.

I will forever be grateful I had the opportunity to get to know these characters because if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be here with all of you today. I don't know where I would be or what I would be doing. They found me at the lowest moment of my life and I thank them every day for being with me.

I could say that a hundred times over and I definitely have in the past. But it doesn't stop being true every time I say it. I love these guys from the bottom of my heart and I know they care about me too. Just as much as I know they care about the rest of you, too. That's the good thing about these characters. They have not only helped many of us realize that we wanted to survive no matter what, but they've learned that they deserve to keep going no matter what, too.

That's why this particular picture hits so hard in the first place because it's a representation of the idea that even if we are stuck somewhere, we can get out no matter how dark things seem.

If Saeran and Saeyoung can do it, we all can.

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xelasrecords · 2 months

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if you were the writer of mysme are there any major changes you would have made to the story/it's direction?

Make the MC more assertive and less naive like who gets an offer for game testing and go hey I have to be blindfolded and transported somewhere! Gee I wonder why I have to stay in this princess bedroom unless they give me permission to go out? Oh wow what a cool AI game! Nice!

Who does that?

The way the romances were written for the MC to play therapist for the LIs doesn't sit right with me either. I wish the relationship could be more balanced instead of romanticising saving traumatised people and having them tell you that you're the only one who can help them fix themselves. I'm all for toxic relationships when they're portrayed as they are, but it isn't really the case in mysme love stories.

As the player, I wish there was an ending where everyone is happy, but as a writer I get how satisfying it is to doom at least one character into despair in someone else's good ending. So you know what, I accept this one as it is. Mysme's plot is very engaging and drama-filled there's nothing I want to change. They have brilliant writers.

Also, maybe change the void that is V and Saeran's Valentine's DLC into something with the said DLC? I want to be sappy with V without any threats please.

#xela answers #mystic messenger #jihyun kim #saeran choi

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anon-drabble · 10 months

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wake up

whoops, got bit by that inspiration bug again.

some good old seven angst because why not lol. similar to the reset theory but also inspired by a few other sources that talk about multiple universes.

ao3 | ko-fi | twitter | masterpost

When will she wake up?

Once more, Saeyoung reset the app. One more time. Surely, she’d remember. This time, she would.

He’d been repeating that with every reset. Every time the data was erased, he said those words to himself. Every time, he wished. But so far, she remained unaware. Maybe someday she would remember everything and remember him. But maybe she wouldn’t. That didn’t matter, though. He’d promised her that he would never stop trying. And she promised that she would remember him. It had been so long ago now, he almost forgot how she looked that day.

Everything had gone wrong. Mint Eye had won, Rika had finally managed to get her wish. For everyone to be happy. But it wasn’t real. It was all through her elixir and that wasn’t true happiness.

Saeyoung was in the prison with you. You two were the only ones left of the RFA. Unknown (who you now knew was Saeran, Saeyoung’s long-lost twin) had taken great joy in prolonging the torture Saeyoung was made to endure. At first, V had been there and had tried to save you and the rest of the RFA. But he’d been too late. In an ironic twist of fate, he simply hadn’t seen the signs in time. He was dead now. You and Saeyoung had witnessed it, watched the blood pool as his body went limp, as it slowly turned ashen. The floor of your cell was still stained with V’s blood. Saeyoung was kept in a separate cell beside yours. His stone floor was also stained but it was mostly his own blood now. Among other things. But he hadn’t been broken yet. Neither had you. You wondered if perhaps Rika and Saeran were going easy on you for some reason. After all, you had watched as one by one, each of the RFA members were taken and they slowly lost their minds. Became just another of Rika’s drones. Some of them took longer than others but eventually, they had all succumbed. At first, everyone had worked together to come up with plans for escape. But as their minds cracked, it grew more and more difficult. Saeyoung now was the only one left except for you.

“I think tonight’s the night,” he murmured. You imagined him in his cell, on the floor, hunched over in pain from Saeran’s most recent attack. You were unhurt but Saeyoung was nursing at least a few broken bones, more bruises and cuts than you could count. You had no idea how he was even still alive. Whenever you saw him being dragged out of his cell, he had dried blood everywhere, his hair matted in clumps from it.

You pulled your knees up to your chest, wrapping your arms around them. “Did he say something?”

“No. But I saw the room set up for another ‘recruit’. I think it’s your turn.”

That meant you wouldn’t be coming back this time. They’d turn you, just as they had all the others. You knew it was coming. Rika spoke of you often, boasting about how she’d use you. She had already used you once, leading you to that apartment. That was when you had met the RFA. You had no idea at the time that it was her apartment. But it had all been a trap, meant to lure the RFA to Mint Eye, back to Rika’s embrace.

“What should I do?” you whispered in the darkness.

“There’s nothing you can do. Not this time,” Saeyoung replied.

“‘This time’?” you echoed.

“I think… I think I have an idea. It won’t stop anything in this world. I think it’s too late for us. But this might not be our only existence. I think I can save us next time.” You heard him shuffle over. His hand reached through his bars towards your cell. One of his fingernails had been ripped off. You clasped his hand as well as you could from your cell.

“Then we don’t have to say goodbye.” You weren’t entirely sure if you believed in other universes but he was trying to give you hope. And probably to give himself hope as well. That was in short supply these days.

“Right,” he said. You imagined him smiling a little. You squeezed his hand and heard him wince but he squeezed yours in return, reassuring you. “This time… I couldn’t save you. But I won’t fail you ever again.”

“You didn’t fail me,” you started to say, but he interrupted.

“I found a way to save us. Not our physical bodies but ‘us’. Our psyche, personality, spirit, whatever you want to call it. I can save those so that next time…”

“We can win?”

“Right. We can stop this. We can…save everyone. And we can be together…” He trailed off.

“How?” you asked.

“They left me my phone. I think they meant it to hurt me more, to make me remember how I’d messed everything up. But I made something. A program. If there are other worlds out there, it can transfer us. And we can stop this.” He sounded almost excited now. Despite everything, you smiled. He was always happiest when he was working on something outrageous. Even now, at the end, he still had that side of wonder to him.

“What do I do?”

He hesitated. “Nothing. Once your mind here is gone, it will transfer to another you somewhere else.”

“What about you?” You dreaded hearing his answer.

“It will be the same. Once I’m…gone, I’ll transfer. I can save you then.”

“There’s something you’re not telling me.” You could hear it in his voice.

Again, he hesitated. “You might not…remember everything. I tried to save everything but there are some holes that I can’t fix.”

“I won’t remember you? I don’t want that. I don’t want to forget you, Saeyoung!” you cried.

“Try to remember. At the end. Just think of me, okay? It will help me bring more of you over. Just think about me.”

You wiped a tear from your cheek. “I’ll remember you. I promise,” you said.

“And I’ll bring you back. All of you. And we’ll be safe.”

“Together,” you said.

“Together,” he answered.

It wasn’t until later that night that some cultists came to collect you. You were dragged from your cell. Saeyoung was at his bars, watching you. You could see him crying. You were crying, too. “I promise. I’ll remember,” you said again as you were ushered from the prison. You thought of him as they poured the elixir down your throat. You remembered his laugh. His cosplay. His self-hatred. You thought of how much you loved him. Even as the elixir was forced into your mouth, dribbling out the corners, you thought of Saeyoung. You thought of the times you’d had with him, short though they had been. You thought of his voice. His hand. His hair. His glasses. You thought about him. You thought…

The familiar screen and code flashed on his screen. Sometimes, it felt like she did remember. She said all the right things, she didn’t fall victim to Mint Eye’s traps. Sometimes she still loved him. But it wasn’t all of her. She never remembered their other lives. He almost didn’t want her to. He didn’t want her to know how he had been unable to save her, how he had been forced to watch her be carried away. At least she would never know what she had been made to do to him afterwards. That would remain locked in his own mind. But wouldn’t it be better for her if she didn’t wake up? If she didn’t have to experience those days again, even as a distant memory? But he had promised her.

And she had promised him. And someday, that life she had promised was waiting for them. Where they would be safe and together. Even as the reset code scrolled by, he longed for that day more than anything. He wasn’t exactly the same him that he had been. This Saeyoung had never been tortured by his brother, not really. But the memories were as strong as though they had happened. He wasn’t the same him and she hadn’t yet been the same her but once she woke up, then they could be. They would be themselves again fully.

Because Saeyoung could never truly be himself when he didn’t love you.

#mystic messenger #mysme #saeyoung choi #mysme seven #luciel choi #707 #seven angst #saeyoung angst #seven x reader #saeyoung x reader #mysme angst #mystic messenger angst #a writing egg

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pastelsapphy · 1 year

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Inferno

Warnings: Major character death, murder, suicide, arson, death by fire, unhinged Saeyoung

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A/N: I wrote this at midnight because the thought wouldn't leave me alone. I wonder what Saeyoung's plan was if he'd gotten all three of them to the cabin like he'd wanted in VAE. Whatever it was, it wouldn't be pretty. And I think seeing both of Saeran's killers in front of him... the thought that Saeran wouldn't want revenge wouldn't stop him. Not this time.

I might go back and edit the dialogue later. It wasn't the point of this; the point is the ending and Saeyoung's grief. The world needs more unhinged Saeyoung. Let him be angry and terrifying.

Normally I'm not a fan of unhappy/hopeless endings, but I couldn't get this idea out of my head. This is supposed to take place at the end of VAE episode 2 when Saeyoung initially interrogates Rika; the only difference is he managed to hunt down V as well. So maybe Jumin and Jaehee show up moment later and manage to save any or all three them. Maybe Saeyoung ends up with a cool scar to match Saeran's. Maybe not. Who knows.

There is an old clock in the cabin. Saeyoung isn't sure how it still works--it's not like anyone who comes out here is about to change the batteries or anything. Yet it works, filling the tiny wooden building with a steady tick, tick, tick as the seconds go by.

It's fitting, really. It's as if the universe is counting down the minutes. How many more does he have? Maybe it's only a few. Perhaps as much as an hour. Certainly not much more than that.

Tick, tick, tick.

He had already sent Vanderwood outside. Well, forced them out might be more accurate--they could tell something was wrong with Saeyoung. Of course, they knew about his brother by this point; they knew he was going to grieve, and grieving people do weird shit to cope. And Saeyoung is a weird guy to begin with. But something was just... off. It was a feeling in their gut. Something snapped in that kid's brain and Vanderwood wasn't keen on leaving him to his own devices.

"I'm not leaving you by yourself so you can do something stupid," Vanderwood had said.

"I know exactly what I'm doing, Vanderwood." Saeyoung did not shift his gaze away from the cabin's other two occupants. "It's in everyone's best interest if you wait outside."

"I told you I'm--"

"Get the fuck out!" Saeyoung snapped, briefly looking away to shoot a glare at the other agent.

Vanderwood had been momentarily stunned into silence. They yelled at Saeyoung on a regular basis--the kid had caused them so many headaches over the years--but never had Saeyoung snapped back like that. He would make smartass remarks, god knows he was full of them, but he never yelled. If he had ever been truly angry with Vanderwood, he had never shown it.

There was a long silence, broken only by the ever-present tick, tick, tick of the old clock. Then, Vanderwood had sighed and stood from their chair. "Fine. But if I think you're about to do something that will endanger both our lives, I'm coming back."

"You don't have to worry about that. Just wait outside, Agent."

Something about the way he said that sent a chill down their spine. Maybe it was his tone, now constantly laced with barely-restrained rage. Maybe it was the fact that he called them Agent. Maybe it was instinct. But after another moment's pause, they stepped outside the cabin. They reached into their pocket for their cigarettes, only to find them gone, along with their lighter. Must have left them in the cabin. By the time they turned around to check, Saeyoung had already latched the door behind them.

So now it's just the three of them, three people tied together by one unbreakable thread. Three people who weren't human anymore. Three monsters. Three killers with blood on their hands. The worst kind of scum, all responsible for taking the life of an innocent--someone too kind and pure for this world.

Saeran may have been the one to detonate the bomb that destroyed Magenta, but the three who sit in the cabin--Saeyoung Choi, Jihyun Kim, Rika Kim--are the ones responsible. They all killed Saeran. Saeran's blood coats their hands and would never, could never, be washed away.

Tick, tick, tick.

V, ever the mediator, is the first to break the silence. "Luciel--"

"Why?" The word tears itself from Saeyoung's throat, finally pushing past the lump of rage and guilt that threatens to strangle him.

"I'm sorry, Saeyoung," Rika says. "I'm so sorry for everything that happened. If I could go back, if I could trade my life for his--"

"You have no right to say that." Saeyoung spits, standing abruptly. "You have no! Right!"

Rika falls silent, her hollow-eyed gaze dropping to the floor. Saeyoung hates it. Her demeanor only angers him further. How dare she play the victim? Maybe the 'it's all my fault, I'm the worst, I deserve retribution' thing would garner sympathy from other people, but not Saeyoung. He, in fact, wholeheartedly agrees. It is all her fault. She is the worst person in the world. She does deserve retribution. The same goes for V and himself.

"Luciel--" V tries again.

"And neither do you!" Saeyoung's venom now turns to him. "Don't you dare say anything about sacrifice. It means nothing. It won't bring him back. It won't change what you did to him."

Tick, tick, tick.

"I trusted you," Saeyoung says. "I. Trusted. You. You promised me--you swore to me that you would protect him! How could you--" his voice cracks. "How could you do that to him? Saeran was good. Saeran was innocent. Saeran was kind, and gentle, and he deserved to be loved. But you--you--"

He lets out a frustrated noise, unable to turn his thoughts into words. His mind is nothing but a loop of rage, rage, rage. Rage and vengeance and shame and guilt.

"You killed him," he finally growls. "Both of you killed him. And... so did I. Every one of us is responsible for what happened to him."

"Luciel," V tries again. "We--" he sighs. "Please, Luciel... if anything, do not blame yourself--"

"How?" He snaps. "How?! I trusted you both to look after him. To care for him. To treasure him. And instead, you manipulated and brainwashed him. You tortured him just like our mother did." He feels a twisted sense of satisfaction at the pained gasp Rika lets out, as if she's been stabbed through the heart.

Saeyoung decides to twist the knife further. "Actually, you were even worse than our mother. At least she never lied to us. We knew from the beginning that she only wanted us to get money from our father, that she never loved either of us. But you? You lied. You promised to protect us, to help us. But in the end you were just the same. You gave us hope only for your own selfish needs.

"Saeran spent every day of his life living in fear while you beat all the kindness and gentleness out of him.

"And you--" Now he speaks directly to V. "You did nothing to stop her. Fuck all your excuses. I don't care about your sacrifice. You were only ever concerned with her. You were only ever protecting her. If you had really wanted to protect Saeran then you would have saved him from her. You can martyr yourself all you want, it won't make you any better than her."

Tick, tick, tick.

The air in the room shifts abruptly. It's charged, thrumming like a livewire. The explosive anger evaporates in an instant; it's replaced by something far more terrifying.

"All of Saeran's killers must be held responsible for what happened," Saeyoung says. His anger is no longer a raging inferno. Now, his anger is like ice. It's calm, now. No less intense, but calm. As if he had long ago decided a course of action.

Tick, tick, tick.

Saeyoung crosses the room and reaches for something behind one of the chairs. He wonders, briefly, what his brother's last moments were like. How did the bomb detonate? Had Saeran simply pressed a button and ended it, or was he forced to sit there and listen as a timer counted down his last minutes on Earth?

Tick, tick, tick.

Rika does not react, but V's eyes widen when Saeyoung lifts a large, red plastic canister from behind the chair. "Luciel, what are you--"

Saeyoung unceremoniously upends the container in the middle of the cabin's main room. The liquid quickly soaks into the carpet and the wood flooring, and the heavy smell of gasoline fills the room.

Tick, tick, tick.

"Luciel! Wait, let's talk about this--" V has risen to his feet, but freezes when Saeyoung pulls a beat-up zippo from his pocket.

"Talk?" Saeyoung says, laughing. "Talk?! You had years to talk, V, but you stayed silent and let Saeran suffer. The time for talking has long since passed."

Tick, tick, tick.

He flicks the lighter open with a small metallic clink.

"Saeran wouldn't want this," V tries. His half-blind, once-honest eyes are wide and desperate.

"Don't you dare speak his name!" Saeyoung shouts. "You don't deserve to say his name."

"Please--"

"It doesn't matter anymore what he would have wanted."

It's then that V notices the tears running down Saeyoung's cheeks, the tremble in his voice. Had he ever seen Saeyoung cry before?

"He's gone. And he's never coming back. And those responsible need to pay for it.

"Heh... you know, this is the first time I wished I could get into Heaven," Saeyoung continues, voice breaking. "Just for a few minutes. Just long enough to apologize to Saeran. For everything. For not being able to protect him. For leaving him. For being a terrible brother. For betraying him. For failing him. Beg for his forgiveness. All of us should."

Tick, tick, tick.

Saeyoung lets out a low chuckle. "Knowing Saeran... he would probably forgive us. Not that any of us deserve it. So perhaps it's better this way."

Tick, tick, tick.

"Take your revenge, Saeyoung." Rika's voice is hardly above a whisper, yet it seems so loud in such a small space.

Tick, tick, tick.

Saeyoung lowers himself to the ground, thumb on the wheel of the zippo. The gasoline soaks into the legs of his jeans. His head feels light, and he's not sure if it's from the fumes or if it's a weight lifting off his shoulders.

Tick, tick, tick.

"You wanted us all to be a family, right?" He says.

Tick, tick, tick.

"Then let's go to Hell together."

Tick, tick,

Click

Tick--

BOOM.

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rfaromance · 2 years

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I have been curious for a while now when seeing your posts: but what are you thoughts on SE Saeran? How do you think of him? I'd love for you to tell me :3

Hi! An excellent question, because my thoughts regarding SE have changed a lot since I started playing.

When I first played the Secret Ending, I didn't think much of him. I mean, he was my brother-in-law. But at the time I didn't have a full appreciation for Saeran as a character. I know plenty of y'all fell for the edgelord from day 1, but I honestly was creeped out HAHA. I saw someone who needed a lot of therapy, someone who'd suffered a lot, but I didn't have strong feelings about him. It doesn't help that canon didn't give us much with regards to SE Saeran.

But later, and especially after playing Ray's route and 707's Christmas route, I began to appreciate Saeran more overall. He was really just a victim who'd been jerked around by everyone in his life, and he doesn't get true freedom except in the good ending of his own route. And that helped me not only appreciate Unknown more, but in turn, SE Saeran.

I'll save my thoughts on Unknown for another day, since you asked about SE, but I will mention that Unknown is my favorite of Saeran's alters, so take that as you will.

I want nothing more than to be a friend to SE. He's someone who has only ever been truly cared about by his brother, and after years of lies, deceit, loneliness, and elixir, he can't even trust Saeyoung anymore. The people who were supposed to protect him all hurt or abandoned him. He's someone who doesn't have much faith in the world at large or in humanity. He doesn't want to be around people if he can help it. SE has spent most of his life in darkness, and all he wants is to feel wind on his cheeks and see the clouds in the sky. He just wants to have that freedom to exist, which should be the simplest freedom of all, but it's something he never had.

And he still doesn't have it, because he was forced into the bunker against his will. I'll admit that wasn't Saeyoung's brightest decision, but his paranoia, guilt, and overwhelming love for his brother clouded his judgment. It's no wonder he tried to end it all. Why live in a world that had not once given a damn about him? How could he trust anyone when his biological parents saw him as either a useless tool or a liability to be destroyed, his found parents either abandoned him or turned him into a drugged-up hacking slave, and his own twin, his other half, supposedly left him behind as dead weight so he could live happily ever after?

Happiness and love and freedom are nothing but fairy tales, in his eyes.

On top of it all, he's carrying the weight of V's ghost on his shoulders and V's blood on his hands.

Again, canon doesn't give us a lot, but you can infer he's totally done. He's wiped. He doesn't care. He's pretty much just floating through life until death finally takes him, because that pesky twin of his is so intent on keeping him alive.

I'm not a fan of the "I can fix him" mentality for SE, ahaha. Especially as a Seven MC, myself. But I do see someone who needs a friend, someone who at his core is a gentle person who was forced into violence. Even the gentlest animals will lash out when caged. I think SE is really neat, because he's been through hell and back, and he's somehow still breathing. He doesn't look forward to much of anything, except for moments of sunshine & clouds, and ice cream. I think there's something poetic about him, and I'd want to be his friend not just because he's my brother-in-law, but because I think he deserves to have someone care about him who isn't obligated to do so. He deserves someone who just... cares.

And I want to help him enjoy the simple pleasures in life, the little moments that make life worth living. He's not going to be "okay." He's never going to have a "normal" life. But he deserves to know his life is still worth living, and I'd want to give him as much control over it as I can.

... after forcing him to watch a few too many shows about singing lesbians or cheesy lawyer movies.

#Thanks for the ask!#SE Saeran #mod mumbles #I think he's Neat your honor

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bluejay-writes · 2 years

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Sae My Name - Chapter 6: The Youngest Choi

Fandom: Mystic Messenger Rating: Mature Chapter 6 Wordcount: 1931 Pairings: MC (Jin) / Vanderwood, other background ships. Notes: This fic is focused around a trans MC, which plays a big role in her story. She is the focus character, though the rest of the RFA and side characters do play a part.

You can also read this on Ao3, updates Mondays.

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“The Savior and Saeran take tea in the garden every afternoon.” V said as they drove through the mountains. “If they sent Jin in to infiltrate the RFA, we have to assume she’s brainwashed Saeran into thinking the RFA are bad somehow. So our best bet is to send Jin in to see them while they’re having tea. It should surprise the situation long enough for you to try and convince Saeran to come help save Seven.”

“I’m good with that.” Jin said. “We’re not up to anything shady. We just need his help. And to make sure he’s safe.”

“I’m going with you.” Vanderwood said, not taking his eyes off the road.

“But…” Jin started to argue.

“But nothing, little girl. You have already cost me a night’s sleep worrying about you in what should have been an in and out job. You are not handling this alone. Not with someone else’s life additionally on the line.”

“Wow.” Jin said softly. “You really care about Seven. I wonder if he knows how you feel.”

“You—” Vanderwood cut off whatever he was going to say, and took a few deep breaths to calm himself. “You are infuriating, Jin Choi.”

“Thanks, I try.” Jin said, a cheeky grin on her face. Trying to stay positive was the only thing she could do right now. Otherwise, she was trapped in a quagmire of worrying about Saeyoung and the hell he’d been dragged into because of her.

“I’ll be ready to get the hell out of dodge when you get back to the car.” V said, settling into the driver’s seat. “And before you complain about me being blind, I know these roads well enough that I don’t need eyes, I’ve been driving up here for over a year. And I’m not totally blind. Yet.”

Vanderwood sighed, and tucked something surreptitiously into his pocket. Jin didn’t know what it was, but she was guessing that it was a weapon of some sort.

“Let’s go.” She said, and held out a hand to Vanderwood, who rolled his eyes and strode past her toward the odd castle-like structure.

Jin hustled to catch up to him, but didn’t say anything. She knew she was pushing the envelope of how much brattiness Vanderwood was willing to put up with, but it was the only thing keeping her sane at this point.

V’s prediction about the afternoon tea was spot on, the woman with flowing blonde hair sat at the table facing someone with bleached-white hair with pink tips, who looked out of place, what with his leather and chain accents.

“Who are you?” Rika said, obviously having noticed Vanderwood first.

Vanderwood simply shrugged and motioned to Jin. “I’m with her.”

“Um, hello again, Miss!” Jin said, and she saw the person opposite Rika stiffen up before turning around. She could see the grip of the pistol in his hand, and felt her breath hitch. “I was hoping I could talk to you and your tea companion about a rather urgent problem I have.”

“We don’t care, Saeyoung.” The white-haired man said, his gruff tone eerily similar to Jin’s own.

“I, um, I’m sorry to break it to you Saeran. But I’m not Saeyoung. He i s why I’m here though…” Jin said, and using her triplet’s name seemed to have been the wrong choice.

“Who the actual fuck are you then, bitch?” He stood, taking two steps toward them, with his gun out. In the same span of time, Vanderwood had interposed himself between the threat and Jin, one of his arms holding her close behind him. All Jin could think at that moment was That has to be wicked uncomfortable for his shoulder…

“Saeran, calm down.” Rika said, and like a marionette with his strings cut he collapsed back into his chair. “We should hear what your sister has to say before we send her away. She did get into the apartment, just like you predicted after all.”

“What, wait, what?” Saeran said, turning his agitation on Rika. “You didn’t tell me that girl you picked was my sister! Also, I have a sister?!”

“Imagine my surprise, finding you twins’ doppelganger at the coffee shop I visit to watch Yoosung. It was just too good to pass up!” Rika’s laugh was chilling. Jin was suddenly glad she didn’t actually get roped into this woman’s plans.

“Listen.” Jin said, shifting out from behind Vanderwood despite his protests. “I know this is a surprise. I didn’t expect you to be excited about meeting me. It’s a long story full of sighs that doesn’t matter even a little bit right now. Our father has taken Saeyoung and I desperately need your help to get him back. Clearly we all need to have a long talk, but we can’t do that if father kills him. Please. Please help me.” Jin said, her impulsive steps forward being stopped forward by Vanderwood grabbing her arm and holding her back.

“Oh, he won’t be coming with you, girl.” Rika said, completely relaxed. “He’s needed here at Magenta. Besides, Saeyoung abandoned his brother, why would Saeran want to help rescue him?”

“Abandoned?” Vanderwood said through clenched teeth. “I sincerely doubt that’s the truth. Someone who’s abandoned family doesn’t stare at photos of them every night until they fall asleep. He’s been trying to find you back for years, ever since Rika and V stopped telling him how you were doing. He thinks I don’t know these things, but then, he’s always been an idiot.”

Saeran blinked and looked between the unknown Vanderwood and the known Rika. It seemed clear who he was going to listen to, but Vanderwood’s words might just have cracked his façade.

“Saeran…” Jin said quietly, trying to force back her tears. “I always wanted a family who loved me. I have had a hint of that with the few hours I have spent with Saeyoung. I don’t want to lose him, not now that I’ve found him. Not now that I know you both exist. Please, just please…”

Vanderwood reached out and took her hand, his warm palm giving her some needed calm.

Saeran stood and faced them, tucking his gun back in his jacket pocket.

“Alright, but if this is a trick, just know that I will end you. And once we’ve found the idiot, I’m coming right home.”

“I swear, on anything you want me to swear on, I’m telling you the truth.” Jin said, one traitorous tear rolling down her cheek.

“Saeran~!” Rika called sweetly, and he turned to face her. “If you leave with them, you will never be welcome back in Magenta again.”

“What? How does that even make sense, Savior?”

“You’re turning your back on all of our teachings.”

“So I can’t even go bring Saeyoung into Eternal Paradise like we’d planned? I have to simply let our father have him?”

Rika shrugged, not even deigning to respond to Saeran’s questions. “Looks like someone’s due for a cleansing anyway.”

Saeran shuddered, and then turned back to Jin. “Let’s go, before I change my mind.”

“Saeran!” Rika called, not moving from her chair but half-screaming at him. “Don’t you leave me, Saeran! Don’t you dare. Don’t you fucking dare.”

Whatever a cleansing was, between the threat of it and Rika’s outburst, it was enough to make up Saeran’s mind, and for the first 500 feet or so he led the way away from the complex, before realizing he had no idea where their transportation was parked.

Jin > Jumin: We’ve found and gotten Saeran to join our efforts. Heading back to the bunker to figure out where our third is. Jumin > Jin: It is late, please be certain that your driver is alert enough. Jumin > Jin: Thank you for keeping me informed.

“God, our story is so fucking convoluted.” Saeran said, having listened to everything Jin had explained once they’d reached the car. “So you’re saying that our mother wasn’t crazy, just drunk.”

“Basically?” Jin said, sighing. “I mean I never knew her.”

“Oh. Right. You just… you’re not him, but you’re so much like me, I don’t know, I just keep forgetting.” Saeran said, grimacing.

“It’s okay, even Vanderwood didn’t realize I wasn’t Seven.” Jin said. Vanderwood, despite driving, reached out and mussed up her hair. “Hey!” she exclaimed, smoothing it back down.

“You two certainly got close quickly.” V said, chuckling.

“Ha, no.” Jin said, shaking her head. “I think Vanderwood also doesn’t know how to not treat me like Seven.”

Vanderwood just grunted and kept driving.

Despite his protests, they dropped V at his home on their way to the bunker. Saeran didn’t really feel comfortable around any of them, but V was the worst offender for him and they really needed Saeran to be able to hack in and get the tracker information for Saeyoung. It was pushing midnight by the time they got back to the bunker. Jin’s arms were full of fast food bags since they’d gone through a drive through, knowing that there was basically no food in the bunker. Vanderwood turned off the security system and got them all inside before shooing Jin into the kitchen and grabbing one of Saeyoung’s bug-out hacking backpacks from the office for Saeran.

Sure, Vanderwood. Put the woman in the kitchen. At least I still have shoes on. Jin thought, playfully exasperated.

Jin made up plates of food for Vanderwood and Saeran, who were curled up around the coffee table already hard at work.

“Thanks.” Saeran said. Vanderwood just nodded. Jin curled up with her plate of sandwiches and curly fries and watched them work. There was basically nothing she could do to help at this point other than be an extra set of hands and make sure they ate food and hydrated.

“NO. What!? Why…?!” Saeran’s shocked voice startled Jin, waking her. When did I fall asleep? Who put this blanket over me? She shook the sleep out of her head and sat up.

“Saeran…?” Jin said cautiously, concerned about the tone in his voice.

“I found where they’re keeping Saeyoung” he said, his voice breaking.

“What is it, Saeran?” Jin didn’t know her younger sibling well, but she knew what kind of emotion it took to break her voice like that.

“It has to be… my childhood home.”

“…”

“I know. I feel the same way.” He said, unconsciously leaning back into her legs.

Vanderwood walked back into the room, travel mugs in hand. “I made coffee. On your feet, let’s go get us a triplet.”

What time even was it? Jin glanced at her phone in surprise. 4am already? How long had she been asleep?

“You’ve both been awake all night. Should I drive?” Jin said, concerned.

Vanderwood shook his head. “I took a power nap around 3. I need you to navigate, this one’s going to nap in the car.”

“Got it.” Jin stood and grabbed the blanket, ushering Saeran towards the door, her triplet still latched onto the computer, hugging it against his chest like a teddy bear, ‘just in case they move him’.

Once they were settled into one of Seven’s less ostentatious cars, Jin passed the blanket back to Saeran. “Listen, Saeran, once we get Saeyoung back—”

“Not thinking about that until it happens. I have no idea and I don’t want to have any idea.” Saeran said, grumbling. “Just get us there.” He put the blanket over his head, and Jin would have sworn he fell immediately asleep.

Jin > Jumin: We’ve found him. We’re heading out now to retrieve him. Jin > Jumin: I know you’re still asleep, we’ll bring him home soon, I promise.

#mystic messenger #sae my name #triplets au #longfic update #choi triplets #choi twins #mysme

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asterjennifer · 2 years

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Hi jenni! ♥️ if you are still accepting requests could you write about saeran (SE or GE) with an mc who always helps others but doesn't like to accept help (because she thinks she is bothering others and because others might ask for something in return later) but at some point mc gets tired of helping others all the time, charging herself and never be helped, what would saeran do?

I hope you understand and that it doesn't disturb you!

🎀 A very cute scenario, my dear. Thank you for submitting that idea~ 🎀

Helping Hand

Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Pairing: GE x Reader

Category Angst (Fluff)

Warnings: Insecurities

Word count: 2343

Author's Note: I like to think for SE, he's able to understand to the core.

It's fulfilling being there for others. But over time, it does drain hardly.

He's especially concerned about that change in behavior. Coming to both confront and comfort you.

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Everyone could fuck off.

God, the frustration rushing through your veins like a bad drug caused your tears to spill over in ridiculous speed. The heat steaming off cooling down once they ran over your cheeks, silently landing on the pillow buried in your face.

You loved your friends to death, they're the reason for your life to be filled with happy memories. Regardless of the problems currently swimming around the group, there's always space for jokes, open appreciation when needed. They showed love and affection in their own way, everyone deserved to be treated nicely.

At times you missed being protected by your parents much against your liking, the thoughts would bubble to the surface now and then. Leaving you wonder how your life managed to make these big turns without your sanity breaking apart. Thinking about the past was never a good idea, considering it's filled with complicated feelings towards literally everyone and everything.

All strength's used for harmony in your life. It broke your heart whenever someone's crying out to you, asking and begging for your hand. No matter who, the people near you had priority. More than anything else, they're lovely souls owning flaws. Just like yourself. But that particular difference in treatment when it came to each other drained you to the bone.

It wasn't fair.

Not that they're never listening, on the contrary, the RFA had a passion to consume interesting stories as much as useful information. Maybe, you thought while sniffing into your abused pillow, if you'd open up more, they would be able to see the truth hiding underneath your helpful nature. They're not the only ones seeking shelter, after all.

Belonging and understanding were keys to many different possibilities in this world. When it came to self-actualization, there's nothing that could compete with truthful sympathy. The empathy burning inside your heart's a good example of that rare trait. However, as unique as it made you at times, it's just as much of a pain. Everyone assumed you're happy all the time without consequences following. That's simply false.

It's not their fault, how could you blame them? They're busy with their own demons. Some of their lives went down the hill for years in a row, was there truly any space to complain? Looking at the twins' enough to prove your insecurities wrong. They went through hell all their life; you could never comprehend the pain they're forced to face when growing into adults. Jumin, Zen, Jaehee, Yoosung displayed their sad experiences and the resulting fears sometimes, too.

Even Rika and the whole tragedy with V was a nightmare to consider. How are you complaining? They needed your light, that positive self which guided Ray through the darkest of imaginations. Saeran's saved thanks to such selfless behavior, he became a hero you couldn't dream to be like. But there's seemingly nothing left for your own growth. You gave it away whenever it's wanted. Which was all the time.

It never ended.

Hurt kept repeating, for them and yourself. Who are you to put yourself first if others longed for safety much more openly? The fact you repressed these needs was a result of nobody asking about your own pain. It's not their fault, it's yours, if anything. Saying what's weighing down your soul, however, it felt like violation in the extreme major. It's like interfering with their lives. The others weren't there to bear your whiny butt, they owed you nothing.

Did they? You're uncertain the more time passed by. Giving's fine, always had been since growing up. Yet to know you're rarely receiving anything in return began to leave you exhausted to the bone. You didn't want to be a hypocrite, only doing good in exchange for favors. You wished to stay a person offering help and affection unconditionally. It's disgusting thinking about own benefits when someone's looking for comfort.

That's why you did everything to escape these selfish desires. To be heard when it's not even that horrible, to be seen in your low moments as well. Getting pampered when complaining how bad life's treating you. It's unfair towards the people who truly needed attention in order to feel fine again. Despite your awareness, it's still a string in your chest which left you suffocated.

You wanted someone to return your help.

As shameful as it seemed to pray for, it's no use denying forever. You wished that similar devotion came from the people you deeply cared about, all without asking for it. Couldn't they return it, even if there's no specific reason? Were you so time consuming that they couldn't afford to care? A few words of appreciation and asking about your condition, was it too much work? Were you useless when not working through problems of others?

»(N)? There you are, I was looking for you.« What a bad timing. Saeran's warm albeit rough voice echoed through your room, asking for your presence. In all honesty, you preferred staying lonely for now. Although you're not in the mood to have a conversation, you swallowed the upcoming sob silently. If he needed assistance, you couldn't just turn him down. Saeran less than any other human on this planet. »Sorry... Was tired.« You half lied, since it's not completely wrong. You were struggling with fatigue.

His steps came to an end, the mattress shifted afterwards. He's sitting close, you're able to feel his warmth come in contact with yours. »Oh, did I disturb you? Are you taking a nap, perhaps?« His strong vibe showed how much he'd grown, this man was a living wonder. Saeran's the kind of role-model you wished to be one day. »No, it's fine.. What do you need?« The question scared you, hoping that he might came for another reason instead.

But when putting it realistically, it's a low percentage. Everyone’s seeking something from you all the time, even the guy you looked up to. »I was wondering if you want to join me making dinner. Saeyoung asked me to make spaghetti, so I thought it could be fun doing it together.« He explained almost excited. There's really no energy left on your part, though. Imagining to cook right now's killing your motivation even further. »Not. Really.« Was all you answered.

For a while nothing's exchanged between you both. If he hadn’t sat on the bed, you’d have thought he left the room again. »(N).. What's wrong.« Like an arrow drilling through your heart, you stopped breathing. It didn't sound like a question, on the contrary. Saeran was claiming something's up. Was your depressed attitude that obvious? If so, you wanted to sink into the ground for the rest of your life. »You're acting... different, lately. Is there something bothering you?«

»No,« you lied straight, mumbling into your pillow. »I'm good. Don't be worried.« Although you're longing for the opposite, on the other hand you hoped he'd ignore your pain and leave. You didn't look forward to ruining his mood alongside your own, he didn't deserve to deal with such negativity. Saeran narrowed his blueish eyes, watching your body all curled up. Resembling a hedgehog hiding away from the rain. »But you're refusing to do activities with everyone..« He sighed quietly.

The sound caused guilt to rise into your mouth, a bitter taste you despised more than anything else. »It feels like you're running from something. Am I right?« Why's he so skilled in reading your inner voice? How come Saeran's capable of looking into the deepest corners of your head and finding all these demons awaking fear from within? It's not fair. None of it was. Therefore you didn't answer, just curled up as much as possible.

»Hey.. Please don't avoid me.« The pleading tone melted your heart, a new wave of tears soon streaming over your face. If you would pull away, he'd see how pathetic you truly were. »I'm sorry.. I can't be of help right now.« You whispered broken, cursing yourself for the obvious pain corrupting your words. Saeran came closer, sliding to your side until one hand landed on your shoulder. The touch both calmed and angered you. »(N). Please tell me what's wrong. I want to be there for you, like you are for me.«

As if he knew exactly what to say. You shook your head while digging your nails into the pillow more. There's no way he didn't notice your body trembling. »Are you hurt? Did I do something wrong?« That made your patience snap. You looked up to him, brows frowned hard enough to hurt. »Of course not! I'm the one being a burden right n-now, not you!« His face showed the shock he's under, the guilt expanded all over your shoulders. This was a mistake, it’s really stupid, all of it.

»See? I'm– I can't bear to give any m-more right now! And.. And if I can't give..« Your thought trailed off to the faces of the RFA, the drama that happened ever since becoming a part of the group. You realized once again you're being childish. »If I can't help t-then there's no– no need to care for me! Leave me alone..« You hissed, slapping away his hand before burying your face back into the pillow. »I have to recharge first.. I'm not u-useful right now..« It hurt to speak these dark thoughts out loud.

You're sorry for Saeran to deal with nonsense like this, he's already having enough problems stacked on his plate. You're supposed to help him get rid of them one by one, not creating any more. Saeran's hand came back to your shoulder, this time however, it ran up. Taking hold of your hidden, wet cheek. »How can you say such a horrible thing..« He sounded sad. Great. Now you've done it. »Since when do you think like that..? (N)..«

The next sob was unavoidable. Saeran kneeled onto the bed, coming closer until he's right in front of you. But you're too much of a coward, no way you're making eye contact. »Just because you're not helping doesn't mean you have no use.. Who in their right mind said that to you?« It's almost laughable how offended he seemed. You sniffed, swallowing the lump stuck in your throat sadly ended in vain, though. »Nobody.. It's just..« It's your turn to sigh.

»I don't want to bother you.. or anyone with my stupid problems. I wanna help.. not.. be a burden.« You explained and saying out loud how you're feeling had you painfully self-aware. How toxic that thought process truly was. Saeran huffed, pulling away the pillow without warning. The white shirt and hair owned a touch of yellow due to the sun shining through the window. His bright eyes an ocean, so transparent with his feelings. He's looking bewildered at first glance.

One hand came up, stroking away the tears that continued to ruin your face. It's the kind of comfort you've been dreaming about all day long, having Saeran do it was another desire coming true. »You're never a burden. Never. I can't believe you didn't tell me how you feel, (N).« He's smelling sweet as usual, the familiar sent had you lower the barrier an inch. Including your legs for him to come closer. And Saeran took the invention.

»I'm sorry I didn't tell you..« But he cut you off right away. »Don't. Insecurities aren't your fault. I just wish.. I would've known.« He smiled, a sight so pretty making you return the gesture. »I'm sorry I didn't realize any sooner.« His fingertips warm against your cooled skin, you placed both hands above his, small in comparison. »No, I'm sorry for not telling you.. I'm not used to ask for help. I normally give it.« He nodded, pink hair tips almost close enough to cover his eyes, scanning every inch of your face with care.

A bit embarrassing, there's no reason to refuse him regardless. »I know you give a lot all the time. I..« He broke eye contact, searching for the right words. You let the heavy air escape your lungs once he titled your head into his palms better. A simple, yet so effective touch. It had your heart beating faster than before. »You don't have to help all the time just to get appreciation, you know that, right?« As you kept silence hanging in the room, Saeran rubbed circles over your skin.

»You don't, now you know. Because you don't, we all care about you very much. Even when you're down or not able to help.« He promised in a soft voice, hitting a nerve which made you tear up for many different reasons. He must've known, considering he hummed amused. »Don't keep that pain inside, please. I don't want you suffering like that, you mean too much to me.« What a man with words he could be if necessary. You giggled, the soul of yours already lighter.

Now you're coming back to your old self, all thanks to him. »Okay, thank you... I mean it. Thank you, Saeran. I can't tell you how much that means to me.« His left hand stroked past your cheek, carefully going through the loose strands of hair. The affection's intoxicating on your otherwise tough mental state. »I should be thanking you, (N). Only thanks to your love and pain I'm able to understand myself. You're my world.« A little bump sound lingered in your ears once his forehead's pressed against yours.

»You at least know that, right?« Again, his silly question had you snicker. Saeran's body's comfortable when you pulled him into a hug. He's healthier than back at Magenta, that's a relief you thanked God for every single morning. He imitated your movements and put his arms around you, keeping you safe and sound in his embrace. »I know, yes.. And you're also mine. That's fine, right? Even if I'm not able to provide a lot..?« The doubt died immediately by the kiss on your cheek. The loving words he whispered. »Of course. I adore you, no matter what you give.«

#mystic messenger #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran #saeran choi #ff #au #one shot #saeran x mc #x reader #good ending saeran #good ending #after ending Saeran #ge saeran #ge #angst #fluff #romantic

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animeomegas · 3 years

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Hi!!!, first, congratulations on 1000 followers!I wanted to ask you something, could you make a list of omegas that would have worse self esteem during pregnancy.if you can't don't worry, have a nice day and again congratulations.

(Hey, thank you so much for your congratulations!! Hmm, I’m sure I can make a little list~)

Warnings: Insecurities of all sorts, mentions of sex.

Insecure over appearance:

· Itachi – Itachi is worried about how skinny and sickly he is. He’s always been on the small side but pregnancy has stopped him being able to keep much food down, and so he just kept getting smaller and smaller. It’s a small insecurity at first, but he does find himself staring at his reflection and wondering if his mate finds him attractive. Itachi goes a long while without sex because of how sick he gets during pregnancy and after birth, and that feeds the insecurity that his alpha doesn’t find him attractive.

· Tamaki – He’s completely fine until he gets lost in a rabbit hole on some parenting and omega focused forums. He finds all these posts from other omegas about how their alphas don’t find them attractive anymore, and about how they’ve stopped having sex. Now, Tamaki is extremely sexually needy during his pregnancy, so he’s suddenly paralysed with fear. Has his alpha been forcing themselves this whole time? Have they just been doing it to please him without enjoying it themselves? He cries about it quite a bit until his alpha finds out and knocks a little bit of sense into him.

· Asmo – Asmo puts so much effort into his physical appearance. He’s very proud of it and he’s very reliant on his appearance to carry his self-esteem. So, a drastic change of any sort would be extremely distressing. He buys every cream and treatment imaginable to stop stretch marks, and acne etc. but things still change with his body. And because Asmo views his worth through looks, he assumes that his alpha does also. He tries to hide, to turn down sex, but of course, this alerts his alpha immediately to the fact that something is wrong. He never really gets over the insecurities while he’s still pregnant, but his alpha can minimise the effects with copious love and praise.

· Julian – He’s extremely insecure as it is, constantly questioning why his alpha finds him attractive at all but being pregnant adds enough layer on to the pre-existing insecurities. He always tries to reassure his alpha that they don’t have to touch him if they don’t want, that they should leave the room before he gets changed or when he’s bathing because they probably don’t want to see him like that. His insecurities run very deeply, just like Asmo’s, so they can’t be fixed, but they can be helped with lots of comfort and reassurance.

Insecure over abilities (e.g., being weak physically etc.):

· Sasuke – The fact that he can’t go on missions or train pisses him off. And as the months go by, he’s gaining weight and losing muscle definition and it freaks him out because he feels like he’s losing who he is which drops his self-esteem. Training has been a part of his life for as long as he can remember. Just design some softer workout routines for him with a mednin and remind him that he can still practice throwing kunai before he loses his goddamn mind.

· Bakugou – The physical condition of his body changing isn’t that big of a deal for him. He has a very small tummy, especially considering he’s pregnant with twins, and he knows he can bounce back after the birth because he’s super dedicated to his physical routine. What he’s not so confident about is the slipping control he has over his quirk. He has (had) an iron clad control, and the random explosions while pregnant are so embarrassing. Not to mention the disruption that his quirk causes in his nest. He has to replace so many cushions which makes his instincts go wild because significant changes to an omega’s nest while pregnant is distressing. If his friends tease him about the loss of control, he gets genuinely mad about because it’s something of a sore spot.

· Jumin – Jumin tries to keep his life while pregnant as close to his life before being pregnant as possible and in many ways, he nails it. He buys copies of his favourite suits and has them tailored every other week to fit his growing stomach. He buys non-alcoholic wine and drinks it with a grimace. He schedules lots of massages to keep the aches and pains away, so he feels normal. But there is one thing that isn’t so easy to keep normal: his emotions. Now, this fits into this category rather than the one below because Jumin gets insecure about how his emotional control impacts his ability to work. His emotions had never impacted his career before, but now he can’t help but tear up when he gets overstressed, he can’t work long hours without getting lonely and wanting to go home, he can’t take business trips because he doesn’t want to leave his nest for too long. It makes him feel a little like he’s lost himself because these things are things he’s been doing with ease for his entire life. He’s quite irritated by it and it damages his self esteem somewhat.

Insecure emotionally (e.g., unsure about being a good parent etc.):

· Tamaki –Tamaki also makes it onto this category. His insecurities are very specific, but he worries about being a bad role model socially for his pup. If his alpha is very socially adept, I’m not sure he would worry as much, because he knows that his pup can learn from their other parent, but if Tamaki’s alpha is also a little shy or prefers not being around people, then he gets really worried about it. Him being so shy and anxious has really impacted his life and he really doesn’t want it to impact his pup in the same way. He really worries that he’ll be a bad influence in that regard. (but the prospect of an extremely extroverted child is an equally terrifying concept in a different way haha.)

· Lucifer – He is very worried about being a good parent because all he can focus on is the past times when he wasn’t a good older brother. I mean, Satan hates him, and that’s as close to a father/child bond that Lucifer has, so surely that must mean he’s not cut out to be a father? He’s not good at emotions or reasonable punishments or showing affection or… well, point is he doesn’t think he has what it takes to be a good parent, when all he’s ever had is a shitty father himself, and all he’s ever been, is a shitty older brother that drove his family apart.

· Levi – Levi is insecure about most things that have to do with himself, so it’s not surprising that he gets very insecure about being a good parent which drops his self-esteem to an all time low. He can’t even watch any anime that focuses too much on parent/child relationships because he can’t help but compare himself every time, and he works himself up into a mini panic. It’s difficult to calm Levi’s insecurities but his partner can help him somewhat.

· Hawks – Keigo is very insecure about his abilities to protect his pup. His has this conspiracy theory that the hero commission will try to kidnap his child. They were furious when they found out he was pregnant during the peak of his career and they pushed him heavily towards abortion. Keigo leaked the pregnancy news to the public to force the commission’s hands, but he’s still so paranoid that they’ll stage a 'tragic accident' for his pup to force him back into hero work, or try and kidnap and raise his pup as they raised him. He doesn’t have any proof, per se, but he’s terrified that he can’t protect his pup so he really doesn’t like to leave his alpha’s presence. When he’s close to his due date, he’s too insecure with all his conspiracy theories clouding his mind to even let his alpha shower by themselves.

· V – Jihyun sort of convinces himself that he’s cursed when it comes to looking after people (Rika, Saeyoung, Saeran), so he’s very upset by the prospect that he’ll probably fail at raising his child too. He originally says that he wants to give the pup up for adoption to save them, but eventually you talk him around and start working through his problems. He just doesn’t thing he’ll be a good role model. The longer he waits to have children after the more traumatic events of his life, the less these issues crop up.

Miscellaneous:

· Aizawa – Shouta gets insecure when people pay too much attention to him being pregnant. He doesn’t like people giving up their seats for him on public transport, he doesn’t like his students and colleagues asking invasive questions, he doesn’t like those awful shop attendants that try to shoehorn him into buying baby supplies he doesn’t need. He wishes people would just treat him normally. (and he absolutely starts to activate his quirk every time someone tries to touch his tummy without asking first.) But yeah, all the eyes and attention makes him super uncomfortable and it makes him overanalyse everything he does which does impact his self esteem.

· Light – Light has a very specific insecurities while pregnant which revolve around the fear that he’s lowering himself by carrying a pup. All his life he’s had people tell him that because he’s an omega, he should give up on all his dreams and have pups and stay home instead. It really doesn’t sit well with him that he’s doing what all those awful people told him to do (at least it feels that way to him). He feels ashamed and he hates it. He avoids everything stereotypical while pregnant. He’ll kick you in the face if you try to rub his feet, he does everything in his power to avoid giving in to cravings, and he doesn’t make a nest. It all takes a serious toll on his health but it would take one hell of a stubborn alpha to get him to bend on any of that. It puts a strain on the relationship.

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suspiciouslybluemilktea · 2 years

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Hello! This might be a bit of a personal request, so I hope it's okay for me to ask. I have really bad intrusive thoughts (especially at night) and one of my most common ones are imagining scary faces and creatures watching me. It sometimes gets really bad that I just hide under my blanket, because Im scared of my thoughts actually coming to life. I was wondering how all Saerans would react to that and if they would try to comfort me somehow? I hope you're having a good day, goodbye!

It’s perfectly alright! These characters are our sources of comfort :3 so I 100% understand reaching for their love when it comes to things that are more personal.

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“Each and every Saeran” can say they relate to you in their own way, actually. Starting from birth, both twins always had to live with the creeping sinking feeling of constant eyes on them sent by their father. As children, it’s so very easy to twist what you can’t properly understand into nightmares and paranoia, and I would guess when very little, they saw those men in suits as monsters. It’s also possible Saeyoung had to explain them to Saeran as monsters as an “easier” method of digestion.

Growing up in an environment like that causes damage that never truly goes away. It’s probably another reason for his lack of sleep, knowing if those lights go off and his eyes shut, he’s left himself vulnerable to attacks. Saeran and Saeyoung both have lived their entire lives on constant watch, and still continue to do so as their situations aren’t much better until Mc shows up. They both have been conditioned to wake and ready at the slightest noise.

If you tell any Saeran about your struggles, they can certainly empathize with you, even if it’s in a way that’s slightly different. It’s easy for him to also morph what isn’t actually there into one of those fears.

Ray is quite paranoid on a few fronts, especially when it comes to the nightmares and negativity that swirl around the idea that he’ll never be able to have you.

What if while he’s not by your side one of his many monsters of the past snatch you away from him? In V’s route, this is exactly what he feels is happening and is why he freaks out to the level he does.

Ray wants to be there for you, so he’s absolutely happy to sit by your side late at night as you explain to him what ails you. He wants to be the shining prince who can wrap his arms around you as you cower in fear of the dragon guarding your tower, swearing to you he can slay it and save you from all of your problems.

He finds this a bit shameful, but you opening up to him gives him more confidence to step in and care for you. He can be here for his prince(ss) to ward away the demons your mind creates.

“I promise nothing in Mint Eye can ever harm you. Here, you’re safer than you ever were in the outside world.”

I don’t know about that one, Ray, but at least his gloved hand gently caressing your cheek feels safe. It’s his indoctrination talking but he’s got the right spirit.

“Would you like me to stay until you fall asleep? I’ll be here…I’m not going anywhere. I’m always at least just a phone call away. I’m sorry I leave you alone so often-”

He’s prepared to drop everything to ensure you can sleep sound, and you make him feel he isn’t alone in these thoughts himself.

Suit Saeran is likely to try and use this against you with rude teasing. As we know, it’s not that he’s an uncaring asshole, it’s actually that he cares too much for his own good and thus he must shove you away. It’s for his safety, and it can even be argued that it’s for yours. If anyone found out about that spark in his heart you seem to ignite, you’re both as good as dead.

He’d berate you for it, but I sense it would be in a manner that follows his own method of sweetness. Like Ray, he gets it, and he’s quite surprised to learn you have this problem yourself.

Aren’t you supposed to be this shiny perfect person who took advantage of Ray? He’s labeled you in his mind as this manipulative individual who’s lived such a good life unlike him, so learning this isn’t true is quite ground breaking for him. Like Ray originally did, Suit has his own idea of you crafted in his head and it’s up to you prove him wrong.

He’s rude to you over your vocalness over your struggles, but for one reason or another, he’s not leaving you alone to wither away.

“I can see you on the camera hiding, toy. So you weren’t lying to me earlier? Pathetic. Oh, don’t go crying on me now. You’re so much like that bug, no wonder he was so into you-”

Unlike usual, he doesn’t hang up quickly. His voice continues to fill the silence, and you’re not left alone with your thoughts. Maybe you can get him to come to you if you’re willing to put up with some harsh testing.

GE Saeran is absolutely here for you in anyway you might need. Want cuddles? He’s there. Need kisses? He’d be happy to give you those. In your shared sleeping space, he’s here to hold you and ensure nothing (other than him) can touch you.

For the first time beyond his events within the AE, he is finally free and safe from everything. It’s a chain removed from his ankles, and he isn’t used to the feeling of it quite yet. Like you, at night his brain will still continue to run wild.

What if one of his fathers old supporters/investors seeks revenge? What if his and Saeyoung’s fans start becoming the new stalkers? He has a lot to think about, and it still raises the hair on his neck as the darkness of night envelopes him.

He’s soothed by the fact that you can both hold each other to be rid of these frights. Saeran is really big on communicating through things, so he’d be happy if you shared your problems with him. Not that he’s happy that you have problems, but addressing them can lead to real solutions.

His hand slowly running up and down your back is grounding and warm.

“You know something, my love? I used be afraid of the shadows too. In fact, I still am. But, with you here, I’m reminded I actually have nothing to fear at all. Rest in my arms and allow me to remind you it’s all in your mind.”

Unknown much like Suit Saeran will act like he doesn’t really give a damn about your problem for the most part, but like Ray he feels here presents an opportunity for him to ensnare you deeper within his arms. Fall for him, depend on him, lean on him, plead for his affection…it’s cute and it’s amusing. The more tangled up in his care you become, the less he has to fear you ever leaving or misbehaving. He’ll admit though, you make no sense as you cling to him.

Why would you come to him, the real monster you should be afraid of, to whimper about the fake ones? You’re a real odd ball, truly sick in the brain if you want him to ease your troubled mind.

He won’t get up to go lay with you, he has too much work to do. That being said, he’s not offering no solutions here, and decides the best course of action would be for you to-

“Sleep either on the floor by my feet or in my lap if you’re so scared, assistant. Don’t worry, I won’t ever allow anything to hurt what’s mine.”

His fingers in your hair is a nice feeling, and your head rests on his chest if you take the lap option. Don’t get too comfortable though, if you’re right there with him, he’s waking you up earlier than usual for being lazy.

Also do not be fooled by his aloof demeanor, he understands you same as the others.

#saeran choi #saeran x mc #saeran x reader #unknown saeran #ray mystic messenger #suit saeran #unknown mystic messenger

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amysteriousmessenger · 3 years

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Rfa comforting MC who thinks that she's useless, replaceable, boring, and feels so lonely

I’m going to add Saeran and V to this because this request really spoke to me and they would Definitely have something to say about it, I’ve been there too, anon. I guarantee that neither myself nor the RFA think you’re useless or replaceable or boring! I hope I did okay!

Yoosung Kim with an insecure Reader Headcanons

Yoosung knows what it’s like to feel lonely, and to feel like everyone just overlooks him. He knows how much it hurts and he just cannot stand the idea of you feeling like that. He also knows all too well what it’s like to feel powerless as the youngest member of the RFA.

He’d send write you little notes in your lunchbox saying how much he loves you, or would try to draw your face in ketchup on his omurice: even though it looks terrible, he put a lot of love into it.

He’s like a little puppy, the second he notices that you’re feeling sad he’s going to come bounding over to cheer you up, whether that’s doing something you like or asking if you want to join in on a LOLOL guild expedition.

He gets easily flustered trying to convey what he wants to tell you, but everything he does comes from the heart and the fact it aches over you feeling the same way he did during his darkest times before he met you.

He specifically wants you to know that you’re not replaceable, there’s only one of you and that means you’re extra special to him.

Zen/Hyun Ryu with an insecure Reader Headcanons

Firstly, Zen absolutely worships the ground that you walk on. He never knew that someone so beautiful and perfect and understanding could just stumble into his life, which is why his heart aches so much at hearing you’re feeling so many negative things.

For a moment, Zen would worry that he had caused this with his own narcissism. He’d worry that his need to big himself up out of anxiety would have caused you to push yourself down in comparison. Which is so, so untrue. He realises that it must be... difficult for you to hear him constantly talk about wonderful and handsome he is when you’re feeling so low about yourself. He wouldn’t necessarily stop because he can’t, but he’d try to be more considerate of your feelings.

Zen would go all out to make you feel special, he’d buy you flowers, tell you how gorgeous you are and how undeserving he is of you. Zen will let you know that no one makes him feel the way that you do, ‘in more ways that one’ he’ll add in a husky whisper before flashing a cheeky smirk.

He can’t always help that you feel lonely without him when he has rehearsals, so he’d try to make the time you have together feel even more special. Whilst he wants your undivided attention and gaze, he knows it’s not healthy for you and will encourage you to reach out to friends and Jaehee specifically when you’re feeling lonely.

When he’s at work, he can’t usually answer his phone but he’ll always answer if you’re upset or worked up and need to talk to him about it. You’re his angel and he’s not going to let you cry without being there to soothe you.

He’d also make sure you know that regardless of how pretty you think his co-stars or backing dancers are, they don’t hold a candle to how beautiful he thinks you are.

Jaehee Kang with an insecure Reader Headcanons

Jaehee knows all too well what it’s like to feel lonely, replaceable and dull. She’s treated like a tool by Jumin, both in and out of hours since he acts like her work schedule is 24/7. She feels boring regardless, and feels like her only interests are coffee and Zen’s musicals. So, she doesn’t understand how someone as wonderful, creative, and interesting as you could possibly think of yourself as boring!

Jaehee would assure you that you’re anything but boring, and would do so by listing everything she can think of that she finds unique, special or interesting about you.

If anything she’s the one that feels replaceable because of how she’s treated at work and how bland she feels overall, she knows how cold that feels inside, so she would never let you feel the same way and wants you to know that.

She also would insist on you hearing her out when she says that you’re not useless, you’re extremely competent to balance everything that you need to during the day and that she admires you for being able to do that with a smile on your face.

It turns into a little bit of a comfort cuddle and cry on the sofa because you both understand how the other one feels and don’t want to see your partner hurting in such a way.

Jumin Han with an insecure Reader Headcanons

Jumin isn’t particularly good when it comes to comforting someone, especially since he’d never really received any sort of intimate comfort before meeting you. He’d go down what he sees as the best route, which is slightly analytical and factual than you probably wanted your reassurance to be.

He assures you that you’re not useless or boring, as no one with such qualities would ever have been able to catch his attention in the way that you did, let alone catch his heart with it.

He’d feel particularly unhappy with you viewing yourself as replaceable because you certainly are not replaceable to him. You opened up his eyes and heart to so much of the world he didn’t understand or felt closed off to. His father views partners as replaceable, Jumin most definitely does not as he will not have you thinking such a thing for even a moment with him.

He does feel apologetic that he works such long hours, and would try to make some re-adjustments to his schedule (much to Jaehee’s grief) to allow the two of you to spend more time together. If you’re up for it, he would also take you away on weekend vacations to be able to relax and enjoy one another’s company without stress.

Saeyoung Choi with an insecure Reader Headcanons

Seven absolutely does not understand how you could feel that way about yourself. You’re such a wonderful person to him, you cracked through his cold shell and loved him for him, even when he tried to push you away. He feels like the useless one, you could never be so.

He just wants to pull you close, cover every part of your body in a kiss and tell you how loved you are. Seven is absolutely someone that believes he can simply squeeze the sadness out of other people, and will attempt to do that with you whilst blowing raspberries into your shoulder. Don’t trust him, if you’re still sad after you’ve been squeezed, he will move on to tickling.

If you feel boring in comparison to seven’s eccentricity, he’ll assure you that you have to be weird to have been able to put up with him for this long, and weird is never boring! He thinks you’re so interesting and funny, he loves listening to your stories and about the things you like.

Once again, Seven understands loneliness. No one has seen him for who he truly is in a very long time, so he understands how isolating that can feel so he’d make a conscious effort to see you for who you are too.

He’d try to finish his work quicker in future so that he can spend more time with you doing things that would make you happy, such as going on a date to the cinema or for a drive in one of his cars to a cliff where you can listen to music and stargaze on the hood of his car.

Saeran Choi with an insecure Reader Headcanons

It would probably take Saeran a little while to figure out exactly what was wrong if you didn’t tell him. He’d understand that you were upset, and would try to distract and cheer you up but he’d struggle with specifics if you didn’t explain it to him. But god, it’s hurting him inside.

He had always been the useless one and so aggressively obsessed over it after having it be driven into him so many times that even hearing you refer to yourself as ‘useless’ is a little overwhelming for him and he has to have a time out to calm down.

You were the one who saved him from such a dark place and assured him that his worth does not come from his usefulness, and that he does not need to be useful to be worthy of love, so he tells your own lesson back to you and wants you to accept the same love you offered him.

When you tell him that you feel lonely, he’d initially get a little worried thinking that he wasn’t enough for you, but once you assured him that that wasn’t what you meant, he’d be more able to help. He’d try to invite you along to more of his favourite activities such as gardening and baking, and also ask if there was anything else that you wanted the two of you to do together.

If you need a cry, Saeran would simply hold you and let you cry out everything that you need to, since he knows the damage that can be caused by bottling everything up. He’ll mutter small reassurances that you’re not boring and that he’s already had too much excitement in his life as it is, he likes you just the way you are and that you could never be replaced to him.

V/Jihyun Kim with an insecure Reader Headcanons

He cannot believe what you’re saying. He’s always thought you were absolutely, entirely perfect. He understands that you might not feel the same way about yourself but he wants to bathe you with so much love that you forget that you could have ever disliked the person he has so much unmatched devotion for.

V would want to do something special for you, to show you how precious you truly are to him. Whilst you were out one day, he’d have gathered every single picture he had ever taken of you and hung the loose images by threads from the ceiling.

When you’d come home, he would have come behind you and covered your eyes before guiding you into the room and presenting you with... yourself. V takes you through each picture, and god there are so many, and tells you the date, what was happening at that moment, and how he felt about you when taking that picture.

There are so many different photographs, with so many different emotions captured; happiness, sadness, pleasure, melancholy, excitement, ecstasy, mystery... But the emotion that V always explained himself with was Love, adoration. These memories could never be replaced, and neither could you.

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heylookitsyc · 3 years

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Visiting Home

Pairing: Saeran Choi x Reader

Game: Mystic Messenger

Genre: Fluff

Synopsis: With your parents living outside of Korea, you don’t have the opportunity to visit them very often. You and Saeran decide to pay them a visit so they can finally meet your newborn daughter, and a sweet moment with your husband ensues.

Warning(s): None

Note: Takes place some time after the good/normal end of Saeran’s after ending (no spoilers though). It has been awhile since I played the game, so please forgive me for any mistakes ( - v - ;;) I just needed something sweet, you know? Please enjoy!

Story is down below!

“These lilacs look beautiful…”

“Oh, I’m so glad you think so!” Your mom clapped her hands together, obviously pleased. “I’m not that great at gardening, you see. (Y/N) was the one who influenced me, actually. She won’t stop talking about your love for flowers whenever we call.”

Saeran chuckled at the woman’s words. “Why am I not surprised?” He delicately touched one of the petals with the tip of his finger. “Your garden is wonderful, jangmonim. Even better than mine, if I’m being honest.”

“Oh, hush now.” Your mom blushed, waving a dismissive hand in the air. “Even though it has been some time, I still remember your garden, Saeran. You really do have a talent when it comes to flowers.”

“Thank you, but I-”

“As humble as always, honey.”

At the sound of your voice, Saeran turned to see you standing right in front of the patio door. You held Jangmi in your arms, the baby fast asleep as you rocked her gently.

“Ah, yeobo.” Saeran smiled at the sight of you. “You finally got her to fall asleep…”

You let out a huff. “She was able to sleep now, but she cried so much during the plane ride,” you said, shaking your head. “Why couldn’t she sleep then?”

“Perhaps the plane was too loud for her,” Saeran said. He noticed how tired you looked and gave a small shake of his head. “Why don’t I take care of her for now?”

“There’s no need,” you said. “I’ll place her down on the couch for now, since Dad said that it’s time to call you two in for dinner.”

“Dinner already?” Your mom looked surprised. “Goodness, I didn’t know that the time went by so quickly. Come along now, Saeran. My husband made a special dinner for you tonight.”

You moved aside to let your mom inside, Saeran following her closely behind. He stopped at the doorway, however, placing a hand on your shoulder to catch your attention.

“I’ll handle Jangmi,” he said, a small smile on his lips. “Go sit down with your parents. I’ll be there in a couple of minutes.”

“Ah, alright.” You carefully transferred the sleeping baby into his arms, pressing a quick kiss onto his cheek after doing so. “Thanks, honey.”

“Of course, yeobo.”

Saeran returned your kiss with one of his own before making his way to the living room.

“You look exhausted, dear.”

“I’m fine, Mom,” you assured, taking a bite of the tofu soup that your dad had prepared. “Saeran is more exhausted than me, honestly. Every time Jangmi wakes up in the middle of the night, he’s usually the one to go to her.”

Saeran felt his cheeks go slightly pink at your words. Your dad gave a nod of approval, whereas your mom let out a squeal and clapped her hands together.

“How sweet!” she exclaimed. “When you were a baby, (Y/N), your dad only woke up if I managed to push him off the bed. Not even your cries could wake him up.”

Your dad shook his head. “I woke up when necessary,” he said gruffly.

“I work really late, so usually I’m still awake when Jangmi wakes,” Saeran explained. “There is no point for (Y/N) to wake up if I’m already up.”

He suddenly felt a warmth on top of his hand, and he glanced down to see your hand on top of his. Your hold on him was gentle.

“Saeran really is amazing,” you said. “I’m so lucky to have him in my life. He’s more than I could’ve ever asked for.”

“Oh, my heart!”

As your mom continued to gush over your relationship (with your dad giving the occasional nod), Saeran felt himself smile.

He really was happy with you.

Warmth greeted your lips as you took a sip of the drink that your mom had prepared for you. You sat on the patio steps, Saeran sitting by your side. He had a mug of hot chocolate in his hands, for your mom had given it to him along with a small lecture on how he needed to take a break from caffeine.

The evening air kissed your cheeks and tousled your hair as the wind gently breezed past; the smoke from Saeran’s hot chocolate blew in your direction, the sweet scent greeting your nose with its pleasant smell.

“The guest room has been prepared,” you said, breaking the silence. It was quiet, save for the indistinct chatter coming from the television inside and the occasional buzz from an insect outside. “Do you want to go to bed?”

“Not without you,” Saeran said, and he reached out to intertwine his fingers with yours.

You allowed yourself to rest your head on his shoulder, giving a small laugh. “Alright. We’ll sleep when we finish our drinks, then.”

He didn’t answer, instead placing his head on top of yours.

Another few seconds of comfortable silence passed between the two of you. Clinking could be heard coming from the kitchen as your mom organized the last of the dishes, and soft music filled the air as your dad changed the television channel to one that played relaxing instrumentals. Your dad usually did this when he was dozing off to sleep.

“How do you feel about the visit so far?” you asked suddenly.

Saeran thought for a moment. “It’s… good,” he said. “Your parents are as nice as always. They were very excited to meet Jangmi.”

“That’s because she looks like you,” you joked, finishing up the last of your drink. “My mom is more than happy seeing that your good looks have passed on to our daughter.”

“You’re too much.” Despite the embarrassed look on Saeran’s face, however, he held a smile.

“I’m just being honest,” you said. You placed your empty mug down next to your feet. “Almost everyone says that Jangmi looks like you. I’ll admit, it does make me a bit jealous…”

“We’ll have to make sure our next child looks like you, then,” Saeran said, and you would’ve spit out your drink if you hadn’t finished drinking it a few seconds ago.

“S-Saeran…” Your cheeks were hot. “We just had Jangmi-”

“I don’t mean so soon,” he said, and though his tone was serious his own cheeks held a faint blush. “Maybe in the future. It would be nice, I think.”

You stared at your intertwined fingers, taking in the sight of his rough fingertips as he held your hand. You noticed that he had set his mug down to use both of his hands to hold onto yours, the wedding band on his ring finger glimmering faintly under the moonlight.

“When I’m with you…” he began, his voice a bit softer than usual. You saw that he was now staring up at the sky, a slight smile on his face. “I feel like I can do anything. Ever since you came into my life, I’ve never felt happier. And with Jangmi now in our lives, well…”

He turned to look at you, mint eyes staring at you with love and affection.

“You’ve given me a happiness that I never want to lose,” he said.

He lifted one hand to caress your cheek, staring into your eyes with a tender smile before leaning in to press a kiss onto your lips. Your eyes fluttered shut immediately, and he tilted his head to deepen the kiss even further.

His mouth tasted of hot chocolate, the flavor as sweet as the way he kissed you. The hand still holding yours tightened their hold, as if wanting to bring you closer.

He pulled away a few moments later.

“Saranghae, (Y/N),” he said quietly, his warm hand still resting on your cheek.

With a smile of your own, you took hold of his wrist and turned your head to press a kiss onto his palm.

“And I love you, Saeran.”

Translations:

Jangmonim ~ mother-in-law Yeobo ~ honey/darling Saranghae ~ I love you

#mystic messenger #mystic messenger saeran #mystic messenger saeran choi #mystic messenger ray #mystic messenger saeran x reader #mystic messenger saeran choi x reader #saeran x reader #saeran choi x reader #saeran #saeran choi #mystic messenger imagine #mystic messenger imagines #mystic messenger fluff

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marshmallowprotection · 11 months

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Thinking Thoughts about mysme once again and they started to overlap.

So, I feel like it's pretty likely that V has some scars from the fire when his mom died. The house was fully on fire when his mom went to save him. And there's one chat, for the life of me I can't remember which, where V mentions he doesn't like taking off his clothes in front of people (which made me start thinking it).

Also I looked through all the album images and what title screens I could find, V is almost always wearing long sleeves. There's a handful of times where his sleeves are rolled up (mostly title screens, and usually still below the elbows). there's one (1) image where he's in short sleeves without a jacket and it's one of the defaced pictures Ray sent to the RFA so it's not super visible (but honestly even if they showed V without scars cheritz can't stop me. Like the twins are also covered in scars. they can give us all the tank top saeyoung they want but i KNOW he's got scars)

ANYWAY so... VAE. V is the one who goes back to Magenta and gets Saeran out of the wreckage and runs off with him (a thought that came later: I wonder how he felt walking through burned ruins, hoping someone survived such pure destruction). There's a lot of complicated feelings between V and everyone else--ESPECIALLY the twins--but I wonder. Towards the end of that two years. He and Saeran must be at some sort of peace. Saeran's physical wounds are... healed, as much as they really can be. The scars will stay.

Maybe one day V just rolls his sleeves up or tugs his shirt collar aside or something, just enough to show Saeran he's not alone. He knows how it feels to burn long, long after the flames have gone out. The only other person who's seen his scars is Rika (And probably Jumin, either in the hospital after the fire or by accident over the years). Not the rest of the RFA, not even MC yet.

I don't know how to word it but just. that... A sense of not being alone or just being seen when you see someone with wounds similar to your own. They're not exactly the same, no two wounds can be, but on some level you both understand it.

Finally. God. Do you know how long I've been trying to advocate for Jihyun's burn scars by putting them in countless stories? There's no wrong answer for the placement of the scars, but I've always thought that they were on his back and likely patches of his arms. Jihyun is a modest guy in general, so it makes sense why he doesn't show much of his body off, but when you add in the accident with the fire... well, I think his being insecure about his scars would make sense.

It's not even that the scars make him feel bad about his reflection. Those scars are a mark that reminds him his mother is dead every time he looks at him. No wonder he wants to cover up. His life went through a change that nobody will ever understand when he lost her. His personality changed, he withdrew, and he started to hold back on everything because that grief wrecked him in ways that he still hasn't started to unpack by the time you encounter him.

Between feeling insecure about himself and carrying a constant reminder that his mother died for him; You can only imagine what things must be like in his head for years. The accident happened when he was a teenager. Somewhere between the ages of 16-18, that's the only definitive answer I've got on that. By the time MC comes around, Jihyun is 25.

That's almost ten years of carrying shame and self-hatred. We all know how he feels about his mother, but imagining him carrying every scar like it's a punishment for not "loving his mother enough," now, that's hard to stomach. I sympathize with him. Learning how to love himself is going to come with the price of learning how to accept his scars, too. In the same way that Saeran and Ray have to learn how to accept theirs.

I truly believe that Jihyun would've shown his scars to him at some point. He fights hard to help Saeran, but I just know he's going to be quick to run out of answers within the first couple of months and he'll have to resort to thinking outside the box. He'll have to learn that the best way to get through to Saeran is to show him, not tell him. Words are empty to him given what he went through. You need to show him what you're made of.

That's why revealing his scars would be crucial in the healing process.

Imagine Saeran and/or Ray lashing out at V for months because they are angry, afraid, and want nothing to do with this healing that Jihyun is selling. They fight him every step of the way and there's nothing the man can do to stop it. V would be at his wit's end. He would have to try and find something else.

An angry cry of: "You can't even begin to understand my pain, V! You'll never know what it's like to carry these scars!"

Jihyun will have no choice but to roll back the fabric and show Saeran the weight of his worst trauma. "...I'm afraid I understand more than you'll ever know."

No words will be spoken between them about that. Only thoughts of pain and confusion because Saeran didn't know that V had scars like that. V will give him space for a while before Saeran comes back to his side to ask about the scars, and to learn about the story that comes with it... so that's how they open up to each other and finally start to have a healthy dialogue about everything and anything that happened to them.

#jihyun kim #kim jihyun #ask #mod kait #vae saeran #vae ray #v after ending #pastelsapphy #character analysis

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juminsmysticmc · 3 years

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Been gone for a while, see requests open? Nice. Oh, and can I get the RFA react to an MC who is a game developer?

RFA with a game developer Mc

Hey! of course, here you are! I hope you enjoyed this Headcanon! Please tell me your opinion, okay!

Have a great day!

Jumin

,,It’s a pity that you already have to leave,’’ Jumin said as he walked you to your house.

,,Jumin, you know that we will be married soon! You will see me every day!’’ you chuckled and kissed him on his nose after you typed in your code to open the door.

,,Yes… but it’s 4pm!’’ he added, looking kind of like a baby.

You tried to explain that you still had to get ready for the next day since your investor wanted to see your demo game.

At that point, Jumin’s head was up again with his eyes staring into yours with surprise.

,,You work?’’ he asked you.

,,As what?!’’ he added.

You had to chuckle. Did he think that your bills would be paid by doing nothing?

And so you explained that you were a game developer.

,,I write the storyline myself, the designs are done by me, and, in the end, even some of the programming,’’ you sighed.

,,Okay, I will be your Plan B if they don’t want to pay, okay? And after you live with me, I will make sure to get you some people who work below you to support you!’’ he told you and kissed you, going back.

You still could hear him talking to Jaehee and asking him to send Luciel to him so that he could buy everything he needed to support a game developer.

Zen

Being your boyfriend’s manager and also a game developer was tiring.

But even worse was to hide your second job from him.

It was a lot you had to do, but thank god you just had to do the design and the storyline on your own.

The reason you wanted to hide it was simple: You were working on a game where Zen was the main character.

This had to stay a surprise for him!

And so, months went by without Zen noticing that you were getting busier and busier.

Just when the news spread the rumor that a game was inspired by him, he began to notice that something was fishy.

,,This person has to know me… Maybe Luciel pranked me… These details are way too accurate… Look how handsome I am and how good my habits got described….’’ he praised you, without knowing that he was praising you.

,,It was me,’’ you finally told him, looking into his red eyes as they grew bigger.

,,What?’’ he asked you again.

,,It was me,’’ you repeated ,,I am the one who made this game. I’m a game developer, Hyun,’’ you finally said.

Your boyfriend was overjoyed that someone, his girlfriend at that, got inspired by him.

He was so overjoyed that he actually began to tear up…!

,,Tell me the storyline…’’ he whined a few days later as he read his lines on his phone, hoping you would give him a little spoiler...

Yoosung

The first time both of you were on dates, you tried to get to know each other better.

Both of you already knew a lot about the other.

You knew that Yoosung liked to play LOLOL and that he studied to become a vet.

Yoosung was pretty much interested about you and tried to get to know everything about you.

There was just one thing he never asked: what were you interested in at work?

Yoosung thought, from the start, that you were studying.

He wasn’t sure why, but he simply thought that you wanted to become an assistant just like Jaehee, seeing how interested you were in the RFA and how much you supported Jaehee for the last few months.

However, he got to know about your real degree - three months after dating.

,,Wow, they are using a really good designer, see these details?’’ you asked him, when you first visited him and watched him play LOLOL.

Yoosung looked up at you, question marks all over his face.

,,How do you know that?’’ he asked you.

,,Well, I am a game developer. This is my job,’’ you chuckled.

For a few seconds, it seemed as if Yoosung himself became a question mark.

,,And you didn’t tell me?’’ he asked you, kind of hurt.

,,Well, you never asked me… I thought you already knew or simply didn’t care…’’ you laughed, a bit embarrassed by now.

Yoosung immediately jumped up. ,,NO, OH MY GOD! YOU’RE FAMOUS!’’ he exclaimed.

You laughed hard and tried to calm him down.

Both of you kind of became closer and you decided to bring him to your workplace.

,,This is my best friend, and the CEO, and this is my place,’’ you said to him, after he greeted your friend.

Looking around your workplace seemed like a game room.

You had a beautiful room with posters all over the wall and a lot of computers.

It seemed as if you were the female version of his friend Seven.

Since then, he came to visit you two times a week and observed you working on a new project. Once again, he realized how awesome you were and how lucky he was.

Jaehee

,,That’s an amazing idea!’’ Jaehee nodded, pouring Seven another coffee, who for once, crawled out of his room to listen to the business idea you had.

,,I’m good, but I’m not that good to do it myself. That’s why I would love to have your support, Seven. I need you and I would like to also give you a part of the money,’’ you said.

,,Don’t let it fail! The girls are putting their all into it!’’ Zen warned the red haired boy, as he took a bite of the cake.

The whole RFA, except for V and Jumin, was in the shop, listening to your idea.

,,Again for me,’’ Yoosung begged, making Zen roll his eyes.

,,Okay, you know I’m a game developer and since I started business with Jaehee, I’m now on my own. However, I still want to do what I love, so I want to develop a game related to our shop.

People will work with us in a game and I want them to play the version here in our shop. If they all like it, we will launch it for the whole country!’’ you explained once again. This time, you didn’t use that many words Yoosung wouldn’t understand.

,,I think it’s a wonderful idea. We should also launch a cat game to-’’

,,NO!’’ Jaehee, Zen and you said at the same time, cutting Seven off.

,,I need a few more gadgets. I already got most of them from my old office,’’ you began, facing Seven, who listened to you and read your list.

Jaehee and Zen, as well as Yoosung, decided to leave you both alone.

,,Don’t you think that Jumin would like to invest?’’ Yoosung asked, using the moment to look at his phone and notice that he was way too late.

With a quick ,,Bye!’’ he jumped up, running towards the main street while his bag jumped up and down.

,,He will never change,’’ Zen laughed.

,,Yes, neither will Jumin… and luckily, never will Mc…’’ she chuckled and observed you, explaining to Seven what you pictured in your little head.

Saeyoung

,,Ah, so this is also made by her,’’ Saeyoung mumbled to himself as he played the game you developed.

It’d been a year since Saeyoung met you and managed to save his brother thanks to you.

He still remembered the first time he found out that you were a game developer while trying to do a background check on you.

Ever since then, he saw you as a rival and as the woman who could possibly win at all possible games.

However, a year later he was the one supporting you the most and helping you out, despite being jealous over you being so good.

,,Hello, yes, thank you very much. The virus attack could get stopped thanks to a personal friend. Yes, we are currently working on it… Yes of course! One moment,’’ you said over the phone, putting it away from your ear and telling your fiancé that someone wanted to talk with him and know how he managed to destroy the virus which almost destroyed your whole carrier.

,,Hello, Saeyoung Choi, fiancé of MC, what can I do for you?’’ he said, teasing you as you were rolling your eyes.

,,He is such an idiot,’’ Saeran commented. He was also working with you guys.

And you had to say that it was really helpful to have some people who could support you.

Designing and developing the storyline by now was funnier than earlier, when you had to also programm the game.

,,Okay, here you are, wifey.’’

,,I am still not your wifey, dummy,’’ you teased him and took your phone, changing the application on your phone to the saved pictures, where the current image of your latest project was displayed.

,,Okay,’’ you began, putting your hair behind in a ponytail, ,,Are you guys ready to work the whole night?’’ you asked them and began to let your fingers dance on the keyboard of your computer.

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anonymousbaev · 3 years

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RFA+Minor Trio Celebrating New Years Eve w/MC

I hope you enjoy it! It kind of sucks but it’s my first one...so pls bear with me! (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) !!WARNING!! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

!!PROFANITY AND SLIGHT MENTION OF NSFW!!

☆Yoosung☆

☆Everyone agreed on staying more lowkey for this year’s New Years and decided to stay home instead of doing their traditional New Years Eve get together party. Especially with the pandemic... it would be safer to stay home...

☆ Yoosung and you didn’t mind as you’d get to stay home being all lovely and touchy with each other. You two planned to chill playing LOLOL till 10 PM and have a mini party with just the two of you and Lisa waiting for the big count down on TV with an enormous box of fried chicken.

☆ Yes, that was the plan until...Yoosung had to whine about wanting to play a few more rounds. You gave in to his adorable begs and played a couple more rounds.

☆ Looking up to check the time after playing what only felt like two rounds, your heart dropped. It had past 12, the countdown that had only come once every year has passed as you stayed playing games- something you could do anytime, any day. Yoosung doesn’t notice the darkened expression on your face and continues to blabber on about his new favorite equipment. Yoosung stop...

☆ He stops talking, as he takes off his headset when he notices your silence and follows your heartbroken gaze up to the clock. The longer needle directly pointing at the 12 and the smaller pointing at the 20. He gasps, unable to close his mouth before shaking his head back into reality. He carefully reaches out to your cold hands before begging for forgiveness, “Baby I’m so sorry- I had no idea...” He knew how much you had looked up to this New Years Eve- the first New Years Eve you would spend with him, the New Years Eve you had talked about for 3 days straight on how perfect you wanted it to be.

☆ You let out a helpless sigh before holding his hand, “It’s fine, really” you smile as he brightens back up standing up to lean towards you. He pecks your lips before a smug grin appears on his face, “It’s not too late to celebrate now.” You flush red as he pulls you into a deep make out session before he screams, “YAY ITS 2021!!!!” What the fuck, just ruined the moment there Yoosung... ಠ益ಠ

☕️ Jaehee ☕️

☕️ The timer on your phone rings as you and Jaehee jump up from the couch in excitement and rush over to the oven where the cookies you two have baked spread the scent of chocolate around the house. When Jaehee looks away to get plates , hallucinated by the sweet smell you reach out to the oven without second thought . “MC!” Jaehee yelps as she grabs your wrist, an inch away from the flaming hot oven.

☕️ Startled you back away, “I’m so sorry I don’t know what I was thinking.” you reply still surprised on what you were about to do. She ruffles your hair, pinching your cheeks as she laughs, “Why’re you apologizing? Let me see your hand.” she lets out a sigh of relief when your small soft hands are clean from any burns. She grabs her oven mittens and take out the fresh batch of cookies.

☕️ You follow her into the living room where you put in Zen’s special New Years musical DVD. Jaehee holds your hands together quickly placing a kiss on it before blushing and looking away. “Be careful next time, I don’t want you to get hurt...” you giggle as you laugh at her adorable bright red face before nodding in agreement.

☕️ You both sit down waiting for the plate of cookies to cool down as you both fangirl over Zen, a duvet over the both of you cuddling. You whisper a suggestive and gentle, “Happy New Years” before Jaehee places a quick peck on your cheek as she immediately looks away after, embarrassed. You giggle gently shifting her to look at you as you place a kiss on your adorable Baehee. ♥‿♥

🎤 Zen 🎤

🎤 You rub your eyes sitting up to see that you’ve been sleeping like a mess diagonally, thankfully though, the bed was a king sized and you were fairly petite so it didn’t really matter. Except, Zen was no where to be found on the bed. You brush it off as Zen was always an early riser. You head to the bathroom connected to the bedroom to freshen up. After brushing your teeth and hair, you wash your face. Looking at the mirror you blush, you’re wearing Zen shirt, only 3 buttons barely holding together from exposing your body. But you don’t remember putting it on after yesterdays interesting events with Zen so he must’ve dressed you when you were sleeping...

🎤 You get dressed in a comfy sweater dress because you know Zen will avoid you all day trying to contain the beast if you go out in his button up shirt. You close the bedroom door to be astonished when you look up to see the decorated living room. Lettered balloons writing out “Happy New Years”, confetti all over the apartments wide living room with Zen coming out of the corner with a party hat on his head. He kisses your forehead, “Jagiya good afternoon!~”

🎤 Something overwhelms you as happy tears swell in your eyes, Zen is flustered as he rushes to put down the plate of fruits in his hands and pulls you into his arms. “Thank you so much. I must’ve saved the world in my past life to deserve you...” He laughs as he brings your face closer into his lean build. You hug him for ten minutes straight and ask with a baffled expression, “But wait what time is it exactly? Good afternoon?!” He scratches the back of his neck wondering if he should really tell you, “3...PM...”

🎤 You stagger back before screeching, “THREE PM?” He lifts your chin up to see your eyes, “To be fair I did keep you up all night.” your face turns red as you refuse to answer him. He scoffs before guiding you to the couch, “It doesn’t matter that you woke up super late. It actually gave me more time to decorate. Now let’s celebrate our first New Years Eve together babe~” He was right, and you didn’t really care that you woke up at three in the afternoon, just a little guilty he had to set this up all by himself. But either way you were super thrilled and touched that he’d taken so much time and effort to make your first New Years Eve with him the best. You kiss him thank you once again as he gets flustered, stumbling away to contain the beast.

🎤 Bonus: It took Zen 30 minutes trying to dress you in his shirt. One minute trying to dress you, another minute looking away with a flustered face as he apologizes to god. Back and forth, and barely manages to dress you...✌♫♪˙‿˙♫♪✌

♛Jumin ♛

♛ Let’s pretend the covid doesn’t exist here...You explain to Jumin about how excited you were for the first New Years Eve with him and you only. He doesn’t really see the point of celebrating New Years Eve. However regardless of what he thinks, he books a private jet so he can bring you to see the big countdown in New York. He’s just thrilled to see you so excited for something and is willing to do anything to make the day as perfect as you wish it to be.

♛ You’re SO-SO- surprised when he wakes you up five in the morning, telling you to get up and dressed for the private jet waiting for them outside. You haven’t known about this AT ALL! Either way you didn’t want to waste his money so you and Jumin fly to New York City first thing in the morning, barely keeping yourself awake.

♛ After spending the entire day eating delicious food, visiting intriguing landmarks, and relaxing at the luxury hotel suite it was finally around 11 pm when the countdown was soon gonna start. He makes sure you’re in warm clothing as he wraps a scarf around your neck. He holds your waist to keep you close to him as your eyes twinkle on the big screen of the countdown. He quietly laughs as he watches you without you noticing him. The entire crowd begins to countdown when the clock is at 10 seconds. You countdown along with the crowd as Jumin just watches you as he thinks you’re adorable.

♛ “10!, 9!, 8!, 7!, 6!, 5!, 4!, 3!, 2!, 1!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!” You pull on his tie and stand on your tippy toes to peck him on the lips. You blush as you brightly smile at him and look away quickly after. He stands still startled at first before he gently pulls your arm and leans in for a warm French kiss. Before you know it you’re on live TV on a channel as a camera records the both of you.

♛ When you go back home a couple days later, the RFA can’t stop making fun of the two of you, you’re embarrassed and hides from all of them for the next couple days while Jumin is just proud he had showed you off. (n˘v˘•)¬

👓 Saeyoung 👓

👓 You’re upset to wake up, Saeyoung not next to you on the bed. He’d probably stayed up working again...even if he was piled with work he’d always make time for you except for the past 3 days. You understood as you assumed work had become incredibly overwhelming this time. Although, you’re a little upset because you were hoping to celebrate New Years with him. You put a long fluffy cardigan over your strapped night gown. You freshen up in the bathroom before heading out to the living room. It was chilly in the house, worried for Saeyoung you go down into the basement where you find to see the door is locked. You bang on the door, “Saeyoung?”

👓 He seems to be awake already, his voice sounds like he is genuinely surprised as he says “I’ll be there in a bit!” He opens the door blocking your view from the room. You frown crossing your arms below your bosom before bursting into giggles when you see his worried expression. “Come on Sae, what’re you hiding? Let me see!” you try to jump up in attempt to get a glance but he’s too tall. “Just a bit later!” he laughs as he bops his finger gently on your nose. You jokingly act pissed before muttering fine. Suddenly Saeran comes from behind Saeyoung screaming, “ARGGG IM SO DONE!” he shoves his way through Saeyoung and heads upstairs. You take the chance to steal a glance, you see balloons everywhere, everything themed galaxy. But before your eyes explore more Saeyoung hugs you as he buries your face into his red shirt. You can feel his abs through the thin cloth.

👓 “Woahh!! C'mon let’s go up babe” he continues to walk up as you both struggle to waddle up the stairs still hugging. He suddenly picks you up like a princess and places you back on the bed. “Promise me you won’t come down until I’m done with...something?” you sigh before breaking into a smile, “Fine.” He pecks your cheeks thanks before heading down again.

👓 You chill watching TV with ice cream on the couch with Saeran. You flood Saeran with questions like ‘Can you pretty please give me hints?’ ‘What were you doing down there?’ ‘Did you guys stay up all night?’ When he ignores everything you say you pout and quietly watch the TV again.

👓 Later, it’s already night and Saeyoung finally runs up the stairs to hug you in his warmth. He pecks you on the lips and blushes as he says, “Sorry I made you wait long.” You pretend to wonder either to forgive him or not before saying, “Depends, let me see what you did first.” you smile as he immediately picks you up in his arms. He whispers in a seductive voice, “Don’t open your eyes until I say so.” You nod and smile nervously. Saeran follows you both into the basement.

👓 You feel your bum on something extremely soft as he whispers, “Open your eyes.” You slightly flutter your eyelashes as you peak up and around the room. In front of you is a big screening of the galaxy. Everything is magical and astonishing, you can’t take your eyes off of it all. Then you gasp, Saeyoung kneels down in front you neatly in a suit with his glasses hanging on the pocket of his shirt. He takes a quick cute little breath before saying...”Will you marry me?”

👓 You burst into tears as you can’t stop crying. You take a moment to take deep breaths so you can talk. You nod furiously, “Of course!!!” He smiles brightly, his bright pearl teeth showing as he brings you into a hug before kissing you with tongue. You hear Saeran whisper ew in the background but you also can see a slight grin on his face. New Years Eve celebration? Psshh, you didn’t need that. You were so thrilled your heart couldn’t stop pounding. You loved this man in front of your eyes so dearly. He stayed up 4 days straight to prepare such a wonderful proposal for you. You held onto him so tightly for dear life as if he would disappear if you didn’t. You wipe his tears of joy before he wipes yours. You would never forget about this day...♪ ♬ ヾ(´︶`♡)ﾉ ♬ ♪

👓BONUS: MY OWN HEADCANON MADE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH SAEYOUNG EVEN MORE...Vanderwood is dead on the floor after Saeyoung forced him to help him with no sleep for 4 days straight凸(¬‿¬)

🌚 Saeran 🌚

🌚 It was 8 pm, New Years Eve you were explaining all the fun things you and Saeran could do but Saeran rather seemed indifferent as he slumped back in his chair, drumming with his fingers on the table. You frown at his rather uninterested replies, you had even dressed in a white ruffle nightdress despite it being unbelievably uncomfortable.

🌚 You’re slightly disappointed but you also don’t want to show him you’re upset not wanting to force him into doing stuff he doesn’t want to do. You gently whisper, “It’s fine if you don’t want to do anything. I’ll be in bed.” you don’t see his surprised expression when you walk into your shared bedroom with him.

🌚 He walks into the room as you put down your phone. You were watching memes. He sits down on the side of the bed as you lean your head against his shoulder. He stutters nervous to say, “Um... so shit, how do I say this. I wasn’t trying to be indifferent I was just nervous...because I have something for you. Sorry...” Your eyes light up and you smile so brightly you can’t even hide it- you don’t even make an attempt to hide it.

🌚 You startle him when you immediately don’t hesitate to jump on his muscular back, wrapping yourself on him. “Well? Bring me to this little surprise of yours!” you giggle as he scoffs and holds your legs to secure you. He stands up to bring you up to the rooftop?

🌚 You notice to see a telescope as you gasp in amusement. “Wow...” you don’t hesitate to run over and peak your eyes through the telescope and watch the stars before you pull Saeran as you both fit your eyes through the big glass. You laugh pointing out all the interesting and astonishing stars. “Thank you” you mutter still amazed. He takes off his coat and places it over your thin nightgown as he attempts to snuggle into your chest but he’s too tall.

🌚You eventually fall asleep on the bench on the rooftop so Saeran carries you back into bed where he falls asleep next to you. ★~(◡‿⊙✿)

♧ Jihyun ♧

♧ You feel someone petting your head on the table when Jihyun takes his hand away flustered as soon as you wake up. He clears his throat and pretends to read his book attempting to keep his composure. You smile gently pulling his arm to kiss him on his lips. “Sorry I fell asleep while reading.” you blush as you fiddle with his sleeve. “Why are you apologizing? No worries.” He smiles, tucking a strand of your hair behind.

♧ You and V didn’t care for New Years Eve at all. You both just spent the day just like any other day, loving each other without missing out a single second. You then come up with an idea, “You haven’t gone out for a long time! Let’s go out to the greenhouse!” He laughs as he gently ruffles your hair, it’s almost ticklish at out lightly he’s doing it afraid to hurt you. “If that’s what you want to do.” You help him grab his cane as he opens the backdoor.

♧ You can immediately smell the scent of fresh flowers, each one you and Jihyun have planted personally together. He did most of all the work. He holds your waist and carries his cane with the other hand. He doesn’t really have to use it because he’s already so familiar with the garden. You lean your head against his strong and tall build before crouching down by a pot. “Wow look we planted this last week! It already has a sprout!” you help his finger gently touch it as he smiles. “I’m going to go get the watering can, wait here!” he nods as you search for the watering can before whimpering in pain at your finger that has slashed against a piece of broken glass. He rushes over to you so quickly he is able to immediately find you with his hands and pull you into his arms. “What happened? Are you okay darling?”

♧ “I’m okay. I almost tripped that’s all.” he can smell your blood and holds onto your hand before feeling a streak of blood. “Where are you hurt really?” You blush embarrassed from your failed attempt of hiding your pain. “I cut my finger but I’m okay.” He holds your waist as he guides you back into the house, sitting you down. He takes a quick breather before he smiles, “I’m scared because you always try to hide your pain from me.”

♧ “That’s not true! I just didn’t want you to...worry.” He bandages up your finger, pulling you into a hug “But we said we wouldn’t keep anything from each other. However, there’s something I have also kept from you...” You look up curious and kind of nervous awaiting his next words. “I’m going to get surgery for my eye.”

♧ You’re so surprised, you knew he didn’t want it at first, so why so suddenly? You caresses his cheeks, “Because I’m so damn clumsy, and you can keep your eyes on me?” he nods as you frown, crossing your arms with a small “hmph” he must’ve heard you because he didn’t hesitate to apologize, “Ah sorry, I was joking...” You’re so startled, why was this man so kind? You giggle, “I was joking as well.” he rests his head on your lap “Actually I want to get this surgery because I want to be here for you, and I know I can do more of that when I get my sight back. Are you okay with this?” He’s so damn surprised when you fall to the floor next to him and slightly sit on your knees to kiss him. “Of course! I’ll support you no matter what.” he’s touched by your words and pulls you into another kiss. ★~(◡ω◡✿)

🧸 Vanderwood 🧸

🧸 He’s a teddy bear just because “So why’re we doing this...” Vanderwood faces down in shame as you scoot him over to sit next to him and turn on the Boogle meet. “What do you mean ‘why are we doing this’ silly. This is a safe and great way to interact with other people during quarantine!” You turn on your camera and mute your mic as you enter the room. Jaehee and Jumin are the only ones on so far, Jaehee with her camera facing the roof of her kitchen and Jumin’s camera in his neat apartment as he sits with Elizabeth the 3rd like a statue. Nobody really wants to be here except for you and Seven but they all agree to because you desperately want to and they all give in to you.

🧸 “Hi Juju! Hi Jaehee!” Jumin is taking aback as he quickly says, “I have told you not to call me that-...” he sighs as if saying ‘whatever’ when you pretend to be sad. He forgets to mute his mic afterwards but his house is extremely quiet and he doesn’t talk so it doesn’t really matter. “Hello MC. I’d like to say this was rather quite an intelligent idea.”

🧸 “Aw thanks Jaehee!” Jaehee also forgets to mute her mic afterwards, these two Boogle idiots. Soon after everyone begins to join and you introduce them to your boyfriend Vanderwood. Everything is utter chaos and you can’t help but regret this. Saeyoung even hacks the meeting at one point making everyone sound like demons. When Yoosung is drunk and begins to rant about V being here, you decide to leave. You look next to you, Vanderwood has left the chat his soul looks like it’s escaped his body.

🧸 “Thanks for doing this, I know you hate interacting with other people.” you peck him on the lips as his face flushes red. “It was okay...at least it was through a screen...”

🧸 “Still...I’ll make it up to you.” You kiss him as you push him down on the sofa until you’re interrupted with “MC! NO! ALL MEN ARE WOLVES!” You realize in fact that you’ve not left the meeting, flustered you immediately click ‘End Call’ You and Vanderwood awkwardly refuse to look at each other before he leads you to continue what you were doing. (●´ω｀●)

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RFA + saeran’s petnames headcannons

GENDER NEUTRAL

something small to start the blog off hehe~ here are the RFA’s and saeran’s (minus v because i literally haven’t played his route or looked at him HJGHGJ sorry-) favourite pet names to call you: (minor spoilers for saeran)

yoosung:

not gonna lie, poor baby yoosung is probably the one *being* called the pet names most of the time; but after a while he does start to get more comfortable and less anxious and flusterable (is that word? LMAO) when giving affection to the MC. he starts off very slowly, calling you the pet names when you’re both sleepy, or when you’re focused on a game with him, so you don’t notice it too much (though his face still reddens in anticipation to your reaction) and then pet names become a more natural thing for him, and just start slipping out- especially if you give him a positive reaction because he just wants to see you happy!

pet names include: - honey (delivered with a cheesy grin, he thinks he’s all smooth and classy) - bubby (literally just baby but with extra yoosung sweetness added - it started out as something he used in his sleepy voice and then you picked up a liking to it- it still kind of embarrasses him) - birdie (likes the concept of you being all small and fluffy- *is small and fluffy*- yoosung’s version of the classic pet name ‘dove’) - snuggles (definitely WAS NOT the name of his old teddy bear that he MAYBE still keeps as a SECRET to cuddle when he misses you-) - his little pogchamp

zen:

pet name GOD - shamelessly started using pet names as SOON as you two hit it off, this man is a pet name machine he has TRICKS UP HIS SLEEVE. bro. he uses as many pet names as he can to figure out your weak spots and then TAKES ADVANTAGE OF THIS KNOWLEDGE. it boosts his ego to see you flustered because of him of course - though he wants you to feel special too! he has a few favourites listed here with special meaning~

pet name include: - babe/jagi/jagiya (duh bro?? its like canon or sum) - beautiful/handsome/gorgeous - whatever suits you most~ (NEED I SAY MORE? SOMEONE AS BEAUTIFUL AS HIM WILL ONLY BE WITH SOMEONE EQUALLY AS GOOD-LOOKING?? he also give constant compliments be warned) - cutie (wholesome zen moment) - good-lookin’ (said as he casually pulls you in by the waist to kiss your forehead, wow zen you’re so smoo0th) - sexy (IT’S THE BEAST BRO)

jaehee:

unfortunately none of us have really seen jaehee’s more lovey-dovey side in the game - she probably prefers calling you by your name the most, and she speaks it almost like it’s a praise, but the odd time she calls you pet names just as a way to appreciate you, or to remind you that she cherishes you. does it very casually and naturally, she’s quite a steady-paced girl so she needn’t force pet names to come, they just do whenever the moment calls for it really.

pet names incluude: - love - darling (you are dear to herr!! she’s so busy all the time - moments with you are cherished and precious - you’re like a pocket of hope and sunshine in such a grey world full of deadlines and schedules... someone she can truly relax with!) - beloved - dear(est) - sweetheart (BCS. YOU. ARE. SO SWEET! you’re always looking out for her and being so patient with her as she works - you have a heart of gold, and she admires how kind you are to the RFA members - she’s truly lucky to have won a place in your heart <3)

jumin:

this man. this man is so nonchalantly smooth. he doesn’t even know it - or maybe he does - you can’t tell because he’ll just slip in a pet name mid-convo and make you mELT. when he gets soft... pet names are maybe one of his favourite things to tell you, because he gets to show you his more vulnerable and affectionate sides. he uses pet names as a way to spoil you - and spoil you he does because HIS VOICE *IS HEAVEN*, and the light kisses and touches he places on you as he speaks to you so fondly are a BIIG BONUSS. it takes him a while to start using more ‘personalized’ pet names - he sticks to the generic ones at first, they’re classy and simple - but after a while he conjures up newer ones out of his sheer emotion for you - only to be used in private though.

pet names include: - the usual at first, dear, beloved, honey, love - AND THEN BOOM: precious (you are the most precious thing in his life HANDS DOWN. gets so sentimental when he uses it aswell - will whisper it to you before bed or when he’s trying to comfort you - nothing in this world compares to how much you mean to him) - kitten (yeah you thought i would stop myself - no.) - mr/mrs/mx* han (after you get married he does this a lot in public - maybe to show off a little bit and see everyone’s surprised faces as he follows it with ‘dear’ or something - he isn’t big into PDA but he has his smug sneaky ways of letting you know that he is thankful to have you) - HIS prince/princess/your majesty/highness: (DUUUDE... he wants the BEST for you - you’ve finally shown him what the wonderful feelings of love do! you hold that power over him at least! ...will kiss your hand when he uses this)

saeyoung:

saeyoung has... stranger more unique ways to show you affection, and the pet names he uses do not escape his whacky tendencies - uses pet names as a way to put a smile on your face and to make you laugh, to see that cute bright smile on your face! of course though, saeyoung has a (small) share of pet names that are more sensical and have some sort of more obvious meaning behind them. he starts off using dumb pet names, then as he gets emotionally attached stops, then he accepts he loves you and starts using really cheesey pet names, theenn he regains some of his happiness with you and becomes more jokey again (WHEW!).

pet names include: (besides the normal boooring ones /j) - his star (you guided him to his happiness... you shone for him brightly when he had no shine himself - you cheered him up with your beauty and warmth - and you guys did kick ass stuff in his good end like it was a MOVIE or something – also spaaace??) - weird food names - starts off as honey and sweetie pie - gets weird fast... will call you his chip and his nurse pepper ( doctor is reserved for the drink - otherwise it gets confusing) - LOWKEY MAKES FUN OF YOU... if you’re short he’ll call you shortie - if you’re tall he calls you tallie (haha funny.) if you’re blonde he calls you blondie, and if you have freckles or dimples OR GLASSES - consider it your new name. also starts calling you after the things you wear - if you wear chains, he calls you chains, if you wear dramatic makeup, he starts calling you a diva - will call you noob i’m sorry - sweet cheeks (SEVEN WHICH CHEEKS-) - boople snoot (yes.) - his galaxy (the seven alternative to my world)

saeran:

okay so - it’s assumed that saeran is actually a DID system but i’m writing for good end saeran because um - lets be honest the alters were not the most healthy and probably wouldn’t have been doing any pet name calling (ray being too insecure, black suit saeran and unknown... being black suit saeran and unknown? it would have been sarcastic and mean)

after all of the hardships you guys had gone through... saeran was TERRIFIED that you would leave because why on earth would you want to stick by with him i mean?? all he had known his whole life is literally mistreatment he thought you were too good to be true. but you stuck by and you gave him what he had needed for so long - you always made him feel safe and he finally belonged somewhere, felt like the world wasn’t ALWAYS out for him, he could breathe easier now. very reluctant at first - messing up with you especially gave him paralyzing fear. but then you showed him such loyalty, he looked at you and saw that yes you made mistakes, that you were human, and you reminded him that it was okay to be human too. so slowly he trusted that you would accept him being affectionate back - he wanted to appreciate you like you appreciated him - despite all of the flaws he saw in himself constantly. (WHOO I LOVE SAERAN SO MUCH OMG CAN YOU TELL??)

pet names include: - angel (do i need to explain this?? you’ve saved his life - his future, everything. he sees you with a halo around your head constantly, even at your darkest moments, because he’s been there before too!) - flower (at first glance may seem like a cute thing because ray liked gardening - which sure part of it is that - but moreover he talks about your beauty when he uses this pet name, about how happy you make him, he sees you as someone delicate and gentle yet at the same time someone bold and bright - someone that the world NEEDS) - sunshine (you brighten his day, his month, his year, his life - aaand well a garden does need sunshine doesn’t it? you keep him going when he feels like giving up) - love and dear (too classic not to be included with a man that wore fancy suits JHGH) - sweetheart/sweetie/honey (along with his big sweet tooth - he thinks you’re the sweetest person he’s ever met) - sugarplum (pls let me have this)

*mx is like m(r)s and mr but for non-binary folks :)

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