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mc-critical · 3 years
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Hello, I just found your blog and I like it very much, it’s very interesting to read!!!. My question is : what is your opinion on Ahmed and Kosem’s relationship? Do you think he truly loves her? What do you think about him seeing other women? And what do you think about his relationship with these women (Mahfiruz, Katerina, Gulbahar and Yasemin).
Thank you for liking my stuff!
I think that, just like Süleiman, Ahmet loves Kösem in his own way. It's not as toxic or problematic or often questionable writing-wise as Süleiman's love for Hürrem, but it still has both its ups and downs that make it interesting to explore.
Ahmet and Kösem is perhaps the love story where the writers made the most effort to mask the possible worse aspects of. It could even be considered actually romantic at points, with their amazing first scenes in the gardens and the amazing chemistry of Ekin Koç and Anastasia Tsilimpou, the beginning sense of wonder and "mystery" it started out with.... when she first met him, Anastasia didn't know he was the sultan and put all her trust in him - a certainly good first impression. Ahmet himself is also very far from Süleiman's direct endeavors and tests of loyalty, he tries his best to be respectful in his own way, despite that he fails to do that a bunch of times. That's why it's easy to miss the darker aspects of the relationship at first and it could be perceived as probably the only thing in the franchise that is remotely close to a "fairytale" of sorts.
However, when the curtains start to fall slowly, but surely, we come to realize that while, say, Hürrem learns to want what Süleiman wants, to be fully loyal to him and to cave to his demands just like he often caves to her own, Ahmet and Kösem as characters have entirely different values and needs throughout their whole relationship. The fact that Ahmet wanted Anastasia because of a picture, without him having ever met her, is incredibly telling: he has created an ideal of her in his own head from the start and he wants to consistently maintain it. When he's with her, it's as if he's living his own dream, his own perfect world that has place only for him and that young girl. (that's why the garden is so symbolic: Ahmet calls it a place of solitude, only for himself almost immediately after the audience is introduced to it; also that line from him: "The world is on one side, Kösem - on the other." - quoting by memory again, but the meaning is the same) Their world views gained from their past and present environments begin to clash from the moment she finds out he's a Sultan - she wants to desperately go back to her family, both because all of them are still alive and her free spirit that cannot bear to live in this golden cage. Ahmet doesn't let her go also because he lacks the understanding of this desire: he has grown in the strict Ottoman system and having people like Anastasia stay in the harem forever is something he finds perfectly natural; for him it's unthinkable to stand against it. But despite of that "minor offense", Ahmet's idea of Anastasia's "purity" and "perfection" was working for awhile, with her seeming to meet his expectations and slowly warm up to him. But the real truth is way stronger than your own made-up lies. Anastasia's pleas to let her go only get stronger until they reach their climax with her attempt to escape. And you know what? If it weren't for her contrived, yet convenient excuse to come back to him, he would've lost her. Helplessly, in a blink of an eye, he would've lost her, due to what she sees as sheer ignorance from his part. And when she gains her own bit of agency later in the season and becomes Kösem, when she develops and realizes the actual stakes of the game, beginning to play it herself due to survival by default and the will for revenge, Ahmet's "perfect picture" breaks apart and that apparently hurt him so much, he stayed mad at her for quite some time. This wasn't the person he knew and loved anymore, this was an entirely new, reborn woman. He didn't seem to love and respect her for the virtues she actually possessed, but for those that he had imagined her to always have in his head. That is another, more "subtle" level of toxicity than with Hürrem and Süleiman, but it's still toxicity, that's why this relationship is far from healthy and the "beautiful, but quirky" dynamic it sets the impression of.
Kösem's view of Ahmet is very interesting and complex, writing-wise. I actually don't think she grew to love him as much. The place she forcibly got in made her feel very limited by him mostly, since he was the reason she was here in the first place and he was calling the shots in terms of her future (whether she would visit her family or not?). What made her become a bit affectionate wasn't fully him himself, but rather the oh-so-prominent theme of adaption in the harem. She wanted to escape so desperately, but there were so many happenings and situations during the time she was in the harem that just demanded for her to get used to everything. So when Iskender gave her the chance to escape, she as become used to the harem's environment so much, she felt unsure of herself outside of it. Her return was out of necessity rather than love and even her standing up to the people when Ahmet was sick was done out of necessity, too (like I elaborated in another ask about Kösem). I'm not saying that she didn't feel any affection whatsoever, but the affection she felt for him was easy to let go of (E25: "Today I didn't marry only Sultan Ahmet, I married the country!"), because I don't think Ahmet did his best efforts to understand her and I don't think Kösem felt completely comfortable around him, all that contrasted with Kemankeş in S02, who according to her, understands her better than anyone ever could.
Ahmet loves Kösem, because even after his perfect picture with her was broken and his anger and denial and refusal to accept it passed, he did try to make things better. What I loved most about his dynamic with Kösem, is his open honesty with her that continued till the end. There have been scenes where they seemed like true companions, especially their beginning one in E21 with all the kids gathered around them. I loved that despite of his mistakes, he did try to set things right. There was this sudden protectiveness that activated in him when Kösem told him the truth about the death of his father and why she acted the way she did and that could mean she now became something of a "cinnamon roll he just protect" and that is certainly a flawed mindset to have in many aspects, but that showed he could actually care for her beyond his idealistic perspective of her.
Am I okay with Ahmet having other women? Honestly, I'm glad that MCK lowered the concubine arcs to a minimum and with the way they did it, it doesn't offend me as much. I would even love some of them to be more developed for a change, because they did turn out to be solely drama tools, thanks to their lesser episodes and MCK's different themes as a whole, that basically did their purpose and left, instead of stretch out and outstay their welcome and that is just the other extreme in a bad disguise.
I won't talk about the relationship he had with his other women as much, because they just aren't fleshed out. I would've liked to see more of Ahmet and Mahfiruze: I believe he was way more decent with her than say, Süleiman was with Mahidevran, and their scenes weren't half bad. Too bad that would've demanded Mahfiruze herself to be fleshed out more as a character and the writers to give her more of a place in the narrative. Katerina was present only for an episode (or was it two episodes?) and we don't have as much conclusions to drive here. We only have his mild infatuation with her and... that's it? We have no idea what Katerina actually felt or how their dynamic would play out in the long run. We can only speculate. Gülbahar, by contrast, also had the least screentime of all his women who have comparatively minimal screentime, but her exploration in S02 helps us gain a better idea of how it went between them. I have the impression that she was the least favourite concubine of Ahmet's, ever. She did succeed to get pregnant and have a child, but it probably was a one and done thing and she didn't seem to get any other grasp of manly affection since then. Which is why, along with them taking away Bayezid from her by exiling her, she was so focused on scheming for one particular goal and this became what defined her. But then again, that is still a speculation in my part. Now, with Yasemin we have much more on-screen chemistry and interaction: that relationship felt very similar with what Süleiman thought of Firuze - infatuation, massive infatuation, but still not love, because just like Firuze, Yasemin also gave him poison and we don't know how much the poison affected his psyche, along with the sickness it brought upon him. These relationships have the opposite problem MC's concubine arcs had: these women were all unfavored or favored very temporarily in the span of an episode or two, which made them very stale and lacking in material.
Lastly, while MCK in its entirety, isn't very big on love stories, Kösem and Ahmet's relationship still had an evolution throughout S01, even if that evolution was more "condensed" than the others similar to it. It still remains the most fleshed out love story in the show, along with Kösem and Kemankeş's, and it was a very important part of the story that helped shape much of the narrative that succeeds it.
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hongism · 4 years
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bts kinks - all members (s)
compiled kink lists here woot woot!!
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Kim Seokjin
definite kinks
praise (giving/receiving) - i think seokjin would live for praise in the bedroom. he would wanna know that he’s doing well and that he’s treating you well, and vice versa. he wants to praise you and shower you with love and affection and tell you how good you are for him
cock-warming - i kinda went into this before, but i think seokjin would live for cock-warming as well. it’s something intimate and cozy, and it would let him feel oh so close to you so he would want to do it as much as possible, especially after having sex? hell yea
lingerie - seokjin would love to see you all dolled up for him. he would love to fuck you in your lingerie or slowly peel it off layer by layer until you’re bare before him. either way, he just loves lingerie and seeing you in things he buys for you
maybe kinks
marking (giving/receiving) - i think seokjin might be into marking, but obviously i’m not 100% sure (otherwise it would be definite ofc) but still i think he may enjoy the occasional marking here and there, but maybe not all the time
exhibitionism - seokjin is a proud man. i think that would carry over into sex. if he’s doing a good job fucking you, then he won’t care who’s around to hear or witness it. he’d be fine with people watching because then they can see how good he’s hitting it and be proud of making you come apart in front of others
definitely not
degradation - i really really don’t think that seokjin would ever wanna degrade his partner, even in a sexual situation. i think he would wanna maintain a equal playing field and mutual respect in terms of sex so degradation would absolutely destroy that for him and he wouldn’t want any part in it
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Min Yoongi
definite kinks
sir kink - yoongi definitely has a sir kink, at least imo. i know lots of people see him as a sub but i don’t think so. i def think he’s a dom, and sir would be such a dominant thing for him so he would live for hearing it from you
biting (giving/receiving) - yoongi is so into marking i think he likes that show of possession and such so he would love to bite and mark you, especially on your neck and inner thighs. he would love receiving as well, but would want you to keep it hidden and out of sight
breath play (giving/receiving) - yoongi would be super duper into breath play. like if you’re riding him and give him a little choke while you’re doing it. and if he’s taking you from behind he’s prolly gonna want to hold you against him and choke you a bit
maybe kinks
light bondage (giving) - i don’t think he would be too into bondage unless he’s in a certain mood or something but this would be about dominance too sO he may be into tying you to the bed or cuffing you
power exchange - again with the dominance thing, in a certain mood, he will want you to give the power over to him and just let him have his way with you bc he knows you trust him with that completely
definitely not
role playing - i think yoongi would just not be into role playing whatsoever. he seems like someone who would rather keep it real in the bedroom and idek what tf i’m saying at this point but yea. just no role play for him
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Jung Hoseok
definite kinks
sir/daddy kink - definitely no questions asked hoseok would be so into this so so into this. he’d be all “you like when sir fucks you like that?” in your ear no doubt. hobi ain’t an innocent little bean okay.
praise kink (giving/receiving) - nasty boi is still a soft boi and he wants you to know you’re doing well and he wants to know he’s making you feel good too
degradation (giving) - psYCH you THOUGHT jk jk i’m being deadass about this bc, as with the breeding kink, i think hobi would loOOOOVE degrading you while giving you a good fuck. it would be stuff like “you’re such a good little slut for sir” bc yoit
maybe kinks
breeding kink - depending on his mood, hell yes. if he’s feeling freakier then you can bet that this man is gonna be sO into breeding so you better be ready for it yoit
spanking (giving) - yo when did i get so kinky for hobi tho?? anyways deadass i think hoseok would be super into spanking you during particularly kinky sex just to see you writhe and squirm under him a bit
definitely not
toys - i don’t think much is off the table for hoseok, he definitely strikes me as the experimental type who is willing to try everything at least once especially if it’s for you. but toys? i can’t see him enjoying them at all. i think he would want to please you without the use of toys.
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Kim Namjoon
definite kinks
daddy/sir/master kink - do i really have to write this, is this necessary, do i neED to PUT THIS DOWN bc we ALL KNOW. jk i’ll try to be serious okay. yes daddy/sir/master kink on namjoon and that’s that because namjoon is a DOM. hard dom/soft dom/both as long as he’s a dom. he would live for daddy/sir/master
spanking (giving) - namjoon i think lives for punishing a sub and spanking would be a way of teasing and punishing you on every level. he’d love to see your skin ripple under his hands and see the red imprint of his hand on your skin
overstimulation (giving) - whew yeehaw namjoon would love overstimulation. he would love to tease and torture you with orgasm after orgasm until you’re crying under him
edging (giving) - similar to overstimulation, this would be a way for namjoon to assert dominance and tease you. he would want to be in control of your orgasms and only let you cum when he thinks you’ve earned it, and i guarantee it would take quite a bit to convince namjoon to let you do that
power exchange - this kinda connects to all the other kinks above this, but hell yea namjoon would be into some power exchange. he wants control and power, for you to give up your body to him and let him take care of you and make you feel good
maybe kinks
thigh riding (receiving) - namjoon is a big thicc boy and i think he would love love looooove to see you writhing above you on his thigh and getting off on just that part of him.
cum play - i think namjoon would be so into cum in that he would adore pushing it in and out after a creampie or fucking it in and out of your mouth after a blowjob with his finger
breath play (giving/receving) - i think namjoon would be super into breath play and choking, especially if you’re riding him? oh hell yea he’d live for it. you pinned under him?  helllll yea, he’s be into it too
deepthroating - whew alright, namjoon would adore deepthroating, i think he would love to see your lips around him and feel your throat constricting around his cock so so much
definitely not
um this is why i was scared of writing namjoon’s kink list because there’s so much i think he’d love and be into and so so little that he would not wanna be into probably. i don’t think anything is off the table for him tbh, i think namjoon would wanna try everything at least once and get down and dirty in every way
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Park Jimin
definite kinks
praise (giving/receiving) - no doubt in my mind about this one, i think jimin would live for giving and receiving praise during sex. hell he would love it even outside of sex, but in terms of kinks yes for sure
body worship (giving/receiving) - on the coattails of praise, jimin would adore body worship both ways. i think he would just live for that kinda of talk during sex, and stretch it past the bedroom as well, but it just makes him feel good to be worshiped and worship you
overstimulation (giving/receiving) - yeah i think jimin is a bit of a sadist and a masochist so he would be down for some overstimulation as a way to tease you and have fun
exhibitionism - i think jimin would be down to fuck in a lot of places and wouldn’t really care where or who might be there to see you getting down and dirty. i think jimin would get a kick out of it as well, he would adore seeing you get flustered about being teased and fucked in public and that would make him wanna do it even more
maybe kinks
master kink - i think this is a possibility, but also i think he might wanna try a bit of pet play perhaps, but being called master would make him feel good and dominant when he may not feel that way at other times. he may through a “kitten/puppy” in there as well
garters/harnesses - i think jimin is a switch, but if he’s in a dom mood i think garters and harnesses would def be hot to him. that or some pretty lingerie, but garners would be more kinky in his mind so he would love to try it out
definitely not
so i took a fat minute to think about this and really debate yaknow what would be off the table and i came to this conclusion: nothing. i don’t think anything is completely off the table for jimin. he seems experimental and highly kinky/sexual even if that side may not always come out in the bedroom. sure there may be some things he would be like “let’s not do it again” but he seems like the type to try everything at least once
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Kim Taehyung
definite kinks
sir/master/daddy kink - starting strong ofc that’s what i’m good at, but i seriously think taehyung would love being called any one of these names during sex. it’s a power thing, and i think tae is a dom, so this would just add to that intensity and arousal for him
power exchange - taehyung seems like the type who wants to have control, but only if you allow him to. he would want your verbal permission before he ruins you and rAILS you into next week. but he just wants to say please first uwu
light bondage (giving) - i don’t think he would be a fan of being tied up himself but oh boy he would love tying you up. pinning you down, tying you up, leaving you restless and needy and begging for more only to not give it to you. he’d love it
ice play (receiving) - i think when tae gives over a bit of control, he would lOVE ice play. he would wanna see you use the ice all over him (hell he’d want you to blow him with ice in your mouth)
maybe kinks
exhibitionism - so i think this might be a hit or miss for tae. i can see him enjoying privacy and wanting privacy during sex, but i can also see him wanting to get it anywhere and everywhere without a care in the world
pet play - so yeehaw i think taehyung would actually kinda be into collaring you and calling you something like “kitten”. i doubt he’d be into the other aspects of pet play like caging and such, but i think it’s a possibility for him to be into heavy petting, collars, name calling, reminding you who you belong to and other stuff
rimming - woah controversial incoming maybe? i think taehyung would really like being played with and toyed with while you’re blowing him or jerking him off just for that extra experience and pleasure for him that would set him off and send him to cloud 9
definitely not
dear boy taehyung, i sat here and thought and thought and still couldn’t come up with something that i could definitely said ‘no never not at all’ to for taehyung. i think he would be rather open-minded and interested in trying everything at least once, especially if it’s something you would wanna try. again he wants to please you so he will wanna be open to everything at first
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Jeon Jungkook
definite kinks
orgasm control (giving/receiving) - so this may be a controversial opinion bUT i think jungkook is a switch and giving or receiving orgasm control would be something he would enjoy a lot. i think that whether his partner is a dom or a sub would play into whether he wants to give or receive, but also just depending on his mood as well. anyways, i think he would get a lot of pleasure from it either way
marking (giving/receiving) - i’ve said this for a few other members on kink lists but it’s about a show of dominance and possession. i don’t mean this in a weird creepy way, but really i think he would take a lot of pleasure from seeing his marks on your body or vice versa
praise kink (giving/receiving) - jungkook definitely has a soft side to him, and i don’t think that he would always be one certain type of way in the bedroom. he would love to know if he’s doing well/pleasing you well and vice versa
maybe kinks
ice play (giving) - i kinda put this in the mtl i did of this, but he would definitely be down to try it at least once. i think he would actually enjoy it and love playing around with it to find out what gives you the most pleasure
exhibitionism - i think jungkook is shy to an extent and that is what kept me from putting this on definite kinks. he may get aroused from the thought of getting caught and the adrenaline factor that goes into it. i think he’d fuck with clothes on in cases like these just to minimize possible embarrassment and probs cover your mouth to keep you quiet if you’re loud.
definitely not
any sort of pain play - even though i think he’d be into marking, i think he would never want to hurt you. if he marks you, he is gonna make sure he doesn’t hurt you. i think he would feel so so awful if he accidentally hurt you, and he would feel uncomfy even if you asked him to do so. so no that’s off the table for him
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If Will and Mike be in a relationship, will Hopper get angry at Mike for “fooling” his daughter, or he will treat it with understanding?
I have to admit, this one had me thinking for a while. There’s just a lot of potential layers to how Hopper would react to seeing Mike and Will together. I suppose the best way to answer this is to look at Hopper’s primary motivators for his actions. So sit back because you’ve just prompted me to take a deep dive into Hopper’s psyche. Some of this I may have discussed before, but, eh, it’s a Saturday. I have nothing else to do besides go for a walk eventually.
Essentially what we need to consider is how Hopper reacts to anything. That is to say how he evaluates and reacts to a situation or stimulus. Everyone has a stress response system, mostly known as the fight-or-flight response. While it’s often a bit more complicated than that name would suggest, it’s essentially how we respond to a stressful stimuli. The idea is that our body reacts in the way that would best ensure survival. The problem is that what often triggers stress in a modern human isn’t benefited by such a response. We can’t exactly fight our boss or run and hide when we get in trouble at work.
Hopper reacts to stress with aggression. We’ve seen this time and time again. It’s unknown if this is what led him to be a soldier in Vietnam and eventually a police officer, or perhaps vice versa, but I’d imagine there’s a correlation. Then again, he’s also shown that he will hide under certain circumstances. In season 2, we see Hopper run and hide in the stairwell in reaction to his daughter’s illness and eventual death. This was a situation where aggression couldn’t help him, so he hid. If someone had confronted him at this point, he may well have reacted with aggression regardless of that individual’s intent to help. A more primitive level of Hopper’s brain is in control at that moment, and he is reacting instinctively to a threat, and it’s a threat he literally can’t pound into submission.
Hopper usually shows decent self-control, though I stress the usually part. This is another important quality of a police officer or soldier. However, when that self-control becomes inhibited, be it by anger, alcohol, or whatever, he dips down into that more primitive brainspace. This isn’t unique to Hopper, at least in real life, as both alcohol and stress inhibit higher brain functioning. Anyone who has ever tried to convince a drunk to give up their car keys or has been in a heated fight with a friend has seen how a normally rational person can seem like a different person. He sees Mike as a threat when he and El get close, and he seems to almost be physically restraining himself at times. However, when he’s calm and writing the speech that Joyce urged him to, he is actually much more understanding and rational. He tries to hide from the stress caused by El opening herself up to pain (via dating) by avoiding the confrontation with her. He then becomes aggressive when he perceives that Mike and El don’t take his concerns seriously. We have to remember that Hopper lost a daughter already, and that is the root of his overprotective behavior regarding El. He deemed himself a failure with Sara, and he won’t be the same this time around. He dislikes Mike, ultimately, because Mike is pulling El away from Hopper’s protective sphere, not because he has some specific dislike of Mike himself.
This brings us to the actual question you posed, and how he’d react to Mike dating Will instead of El. It’s going to come down to a handful of situations.
First, what is his current emotional/mental state when he finds out. Hopper does have decent self-control when he is calm. If he finds this out immediately after a stressful situation, which is considerably likely given what we know about Season 4, then the possibility for a bad reaction, caused by his stress response system telling him to protect El, is significant. If Mike were to be nearby when he learns about this, then Mike may want to start running. A negative reaction to this could be mitigated, however, if Hopper is also reacting to a positive situation, such as a reunion with Joyce or El. 
Speaking of El, her own perception of Mike being with Will would impact Hopper’s reaction. This would be particularly true if Hopper found out when Mike wasn’t around. Here, El would have the opportunity to ease, or perhaps rile, Hopper by sharing how she feels about it. If she indicates that she’s ok, or even happy, about Mike being with Will instead of her, then Hopper would likely calm down. It would be his desire to protect her, after all, that would cause him to get angry in the first place. Should El be angry about it herself, though, Hopper would probably be ready to strike the moment he saw Mike. 
Then there’s the ultimate elephant in the room. Mike and Will would be a gay couple. How Hopper reacts to that would undoubtedly be different than if Mike were with another girl. It could be good. Maybe Hop stops seeing Mike as a threat altogether. Then again, we don’t really know for sure how Hopper feels about gay people. He doesn’t seem overtly homophobic. While he reacts to Joyce talking about Lonnie calling Will a “fag” by asking if it’s true, he doesn’t press the issue, and it certainly doesn’t stop Hopper from wanting to find him safe and sound. I imagine he’d have some degree of 80-s typical discomfort, which could affect his reaction in some way, but we just don’t know for sure how severe it might be.
Regardless, I imagine he ultimately would come around if he did have a bad initial reaction. He’s meant to be one of the heroes, after all, and it wouldn’t do for him to end on a negative note. If he wanted to have any chance whatsoever with Joyce, it would be foolish for him to jeopardize things by threatening Will’s happiness. There’s also other things that could affect his reaction. They showed him treating Will sort of as a son in Season 2, so that could also come into play. Mike may be shown as more mature and heroic in his own right, allowing Hopper to see him in a new light. Hopper’s time as a Russian prisoner could give him time to reflect on his choices and actions, possibly resulting in a reconsideration of his priorities. 
This is an aspect of a possible relationship between Mike and Will that is tricky to unpack. I’m not sure how well I’ve answered your question really, as I feel all I’ve actually done is raise further questions. Unfortunately, it’s ultimately up to the writers to decide how Hopper would react.
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You have the best takes and I was wondering what an actual Akechi redemption would look like? Sending him to prison is a weird take I've seen considering the themes of power, corruption, and manipulation of youth, and quite frankly it's just boring and lazy from a plot/character standpoint. I imagine the first step would be talking to Futaba and Haru (and others who were affected by his actions) but I'm not sure what would happen after that.
ok firstly THANKS i do my best yellin into the tunglr void
second “Sending him to prison is a weird take I’ve seen considering the themes of power, corruption, and manipulation of youth, and quite frankly it’s just boring and lazy from a plot/character standpoint” is the SEXIEST sentence ive ever read re: goro and thank you for putting these words in this particular order i want it framed, truly it makes zero sense whatsoever
third thanks for this super duper cool question because weirdly enough i havent…………….. really thought about it before??? ive seen more than a few really interesting goro redemption arc fics but if i were gonna do one myself………………….. hmmmmmm
ok ok ok ok ok ok i will. do my best. big psuedo revisionist fanfic under cut
a redemption arc needs to address the wrongs and hurts that he’s done, as well as just generally other noxious junk. to rattle them off so we know what we’re working with, he
killed wakaba (unknown circumstances), which hurt futaba
killed okumura, which hurt haru
assisted shido in his rise to power
assisted an unknown number of other douchebags like shido in their rise to power
killed an unknown number of other douchebags
created psychotic breakdowns, involving casualties and potentially some deaths
was generally a shit on live television
lied to sae.
betrayed joker.
and from there he needs to address these in such a way that his character grows and is better for it.
simultaneously i think it’s important to weigh the opposite issues, which are the ways that akechi is either right or has a valid point, the ways that akechi has presumably been mistreated/abused by people around him, and just generally following through on seeing akechi become happier and healthier for having gone through a redemption arc. in no particular order, he:
apparently desperately craves approval/recognition from others, but not in a productive way (sorry the TV audience does not actually love you lmao!!!!!!!)
has some kind of complicated relationship with shido to say the fuckign LEAST, and i think addressing that angle of shido’s abuse is important
really suffers from his inability to be honest with just about anyone; how deeply he’s hidden his true self has not only exacerbated his loneliness, but it’s done so in a way that i think should be really understandable to any one of the thieves, who also need to hide their true selves and feelings when in public
is 100000% correct about how much shido should eat shit and die
does have a valid point about how dangerous the phantom thieves are, and, in irony of all ironies, probably is a good critic and moral barometer to make sure joker doesn’t go over any lines
is canonically the character who is most unafraid to go against joker’s orders
is smart all absolute FUCK while maintaining an attitude of FUCK COPS
so with all that in mind:
i’d say, the engine room confrontation happens as SOON as they enter shido’s palace. not necessarily specifically in the engine room, but that confrontation happens off the bat. the phantom thieves take two steps into shido’s palace and find that they can’t go anywhere–everything’s locked, or off limits, and the whole place is under more surveillance than any palace they’ve ever seen. sojiro was right when he said that shido’s paranoid as fuck.
they try to leave the palace for the day to regroup, and akechi’s there like a guard dog ready to defend shido’s psyche. why wouldn’t he be? he must have planned that perhaps the thieves would retaliate like this, whether or not joker was alive.
that whole very embarrassing breakdown happens. haru and futaba already canonically seem in favor of akechi rejoining the team, so although haru does say she won’t forgive akechi, i do think that doesn’t need to be at odds with them being in favor of him working with the team.
so, say, akechi’s on the verge of being convinced to work with the team, and he’s not necessarily all in on this whole “being alive” thing, and he’s not super convinced that he deserves redemption, but the phantom thieves really really really insisted, because the phantom thieves can and do change hearts, even when they’re not in palaces, and they’ve just changed akechi’s. 
cognitive akechi doesn’t show up because i’m using him later.
first thing: akechi, haru, and futaba need to have a talk, which is actually pretty easy and not even irrelevant. go through shido’s palace, get the letters of rec, everyone recognizes akechi. like haru in okumura’s palace, akechi’s practically their ticket into half the ship.
getting the letters of rec naturally brings up okumura and wakaba, imo, because it hammers home that these sorts of scumbags are the kinds of people that akechi was killing. and also that this is the kind of scumbag that okumura was, in life. have haru go through the five stages of grief all over again, like she did back in okumura’s palace, realizing that her father kills his own employees for the first time. have her struggle all over again to reconcile the father she loves with the father who died with the father who murdered and exploited and drove his employees to the brink of death. have akechi face that even the people he killed were people, too.
depending on your interpretation of wakaba, she was either just as corrupt OR she was genuinely a nice woman, but that can be addressed in a bunch of ways–akechi didnt know what he was doing at the time, or he totally did but didnt feel like he had any other choice–either way, some sort of contextualization of wakaba’s role in shido’s conspiracy needs to be unearthed. 
say futaba wants to know what her mother was like. say she asks akechi because akechi knew her, maybe knew wakaba better than futaba ever did, because futaba was young and also because futaba never spent a few days literally crawling through her mother’s psyche like akechi did. make akechi tell futaba about the woman he killed with his own mouth. maybe he tells her only the good parts. maybe futaba MAKES him tell her the bad parts. maybe futaba thanks him for it, and akechi figures out that an apology could never be enough.
the point, basically, is to use shido’s palace to have haru, futaba, and akechi come to terms with each other. forgiveness isnt necessarily the point–understanding is more important. haru and futaba come to understand how and why akechi did what he did, while akechi has to sit through several weeks of looking his victims in the eyeballs.
for extra bonus points of making akechi look his victims in the eyeballs, personally i think that futaba would be the most supportive of all the phantom thieves of akechi turning over a new leaf. she canonically tells him that “it doesn’t matter where you start over” and relates his struggles to her struggle to turn her own life around, and honestly i think sympathy would fuck akechi up the most.
meanwhile, in the real world, capitalize on akechi’s position: if he’s deep in shido’s conspiracy, it really only makes sense that akechi could locate the people they need rec letters from in the real world, and use that to find their cognitive equivalent in shido’s palace. show me akechi’s relationship with shido, founded on akechi trying to appease shido and trying to avoid shido’s wrath simultaneously. 
maybe shido’s closing in on the phantom thieves in the real world. he suspects that things haven’t gone according to plan. make use of the fact that shido trusts (to an extent) akechi’s word, and have akechi cover for the phantom thieves in the real world. 
maybe show me shido actively manipulating akechi with praise. show me the greys of that relationship, like how we saw madarame treat yusuke well, or saw sae at her best and worst with makoto. show me how difficult it is for akechi to continue to help the phantom thieves even while actively engaging with his own abuser.
make akechi a traitor to shido. being a traitor was his role, wasn’t it? to betray the thieves? just have him betray shido back. he’s good at being a traitor, isn’t he? akechi probably volunteers himself for the role. let him capitalize on his ability to lie and outsmart those around him. let him make it up to joker in the only way that akechi feels he can: even more lying.
get all the rec letters. akechi himself hands shido the calling card. confront shido–cognitive akechi is there and just as much of a bitch as always. show me how much disdain shido has for akechi, how little he thinks of akechi, how nasty he is–and how blindly adoring cognitive akechi is in return. it’s gross as all hell, but it’s a final nail in the coffin to haru and futaba’s grieving process, even forms some sort of solidarity. 
there’s half a second where akechi is in the position to kill shido. shido’s shadow is down, akechi’s got a gun, he could pull the trigger before anyone could stop him. futaba tells him not to. 
haru tells him that he can kill shido if he wants to.
everyone’s like HARU??? HELLO???? but haru says, as far as i’m concerned, this man is just as much my father’s murderer as akechi-kun is. if you want to, i won’t stop you. but i know that it’s harder to survive than it is to die, too.
akechi does not kill shido. they steal shido’s treasure and return to the real world.
at this point in the canon plot, yaldabaoth starts to happen really fast, but bear with me for five seconds–bring sae back on the scene. shido confesses, and akechi’s reputation goes up in smoke. people call him a fraud, people won’t stop talking about shido being his dad, akechi’s name gets dragged through the mud worse than back when the PT were at their most popular.
sae takes up prosecuting shido’s case, and akechi can’t avoid her forever when he’s supposedly a key witness. sae says, i’m going to give you one chance to explain yourself. you lied to him, you tricked me, you pretended to be my partner all that time and then ran rings around me. talk.
so akechi explains himself, even though half that stuff isnt permissible in court. he doesn’t butter her up and he doesn’t use his cutesy prince mask, and for the first time sae sees him as he really is. and sae says, those are some pretty serious offenses, akechi, what are you going to do now? 
akechi’s just gone through that whole bonding session with haru and futaba, during which akechi had to realize, ah, shit, i fucked over the lives of these two very nice girls and even inflicted the same trauma that i myself went through onto other people. so akechi tells sae, well obviously i don’t fucking know, i dont have a career, i might be expelled, and i’ve killed a shitload of people and there’s no way that i can make up for that. but if i could, i would want to do something to right the wrongs that i did–i’d want to address the murders i committed, and maybe do something to fix it.
sae says, you’re smart as all hell, what you’ve done is irrevocable, you know your way around the police and its corruption, you’re willing to do better and you know how hard doing better is going to be. i’m the same way. i might not have killed anyone, but i’ve ruined the lives of so many people in the name of my career and a distorted sense of justice. if you want to do better, i could use a person like you. what do you say that when this case is over, we become partners for real, this time?
akechi says, but sae-san, what about your reputation, what about your career, wouldn’t it be bad to have a fraud like me by your side?
sae says, i didnt have you as a partner the first time around because you were stupid. use your head, make it work, and maybe i’ll buy you sushi off the conveyor belt someday.
case number one is prosecuting the shit out of shido. sae said they’d be partners after akechi is no longer a key witness, but at this point, being a key witness is basically like being her assistant. sae’s there every step of the way while akechi gets shoved through the public wringer. i say, make him lose all his public fame and reputation and more, everything that he thought he wanted, and he come out with sae’s respect, akira’s support, and the phantom thieves on his side.
the trial starts to stall because of yaldabaoth’s influence, which then brings us to that whole reveal about yaldabaoth using akechi as well for yaldo’s own ends. yaldabaoth offers the p5 vanilla bad end, in which the phantom thieves continue on and become incredibly famous and eliminate most crime because they just change the hearts of anyone who does anything halfway wrong.
i say, let the thieves deliberate on that one. all of them, not just joker. it’s not actually a very bad deal, necessarily; it’s just vaguely skeevy and authoritarian. let’s say, akechi is the biggest opposer, and points out that if akira goes down that route, akira will be doing exactly the same thing akechi did for so long–using his power for his own self-satisfaction, power unchecked and out of control. let akechi use the fact that he’s akira’s “rival” and outspoken critic to good use. akira tells yaldo where he can stick it.
fight yaldabaoth, win. sae takes akira into custody. akechi makes good on his deal with sae, and both of them work together to use akechi’s testimony, akira’s testimony, and shido’s testimony to nail shido and clear akira’s name. 
from there, flash forward to the epilogue in the same way that it happens in canon, except akechi is now sae’s lackey and she’s overseeing his efforts to undo whatever damage he did to all the nameless people he’s hurt over the years. she’s going to become a defense attorney, and akechi’s probably going to become her assistant and later paralegal. both of them are committed to reforming the justice system for the better and addressing their past wrongs.
im actually big fucking mad at how little i had to change about persona 5 canon to make this redemption arc work. @ persona 5 royal meet me in the pit.
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“i’m just a painting that’s still wet: if you touch me, i’ll be smeared, you’ll be stained, stained for the rest of your life”
Have you ever used emotional blackmail to get your own way? WOW, no. What a starter. Has anybody ever used emotional blackmail on you? Not to my memory. Who did you last worry about and why? Honestly? Myself. My physical health just isn't very good right now. When are you next at work? Do you enjoy your work? N/A When was the last time you ate/drank something gross just to be polite? I'm not sure; I'm honestly very, very bad at this. I struggle big time hiding if I don't like something. Last time you heard a growl, who or what did it come from? My stomach. When did you last make up a baby’s bottle? Never. Do you have a mouse for your laptop? (Assuming you have a laptop) I use a mouse. I'm not a big trackpad fan. Do you have the right time set on your microwave? Yeah. What is your most expensive bill? I don't have any bills that I pay myself, because I can't. Do you have a big yard? No. Is there someone you would love to punch right now? Myself lol. Does the water in your shower take a long time to get warm? Yeah, it does. Song playing? I have "Leave A Scar" by Marilyn Manson on. Are you tired? I'm always tired. If you had the power to instantly transform someone’s life (for the better), who would you choose to use this on? My mom. Her entire life has been so fucking unfair, and she doesn't deserve it whatsoever. Just one day of her being perfectly happy would make my entire life. You wake up to a ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE. Your family is safe, but most of your city is zombified. You need weapons and various other supplies. What is your first general course of action? I seriously cannot even begin to imagine what I would do besides panic and be one of the first to die, honestly. If a family member (or boyfriend/girlfriend, if you have one) happened to be infected by one of these undead creatures, how would you go about dealing with that situation? It would tear me to shreds, but shoot them in the head to hopefully prevent them from turning. I couldn't let them suffer. Does someone’s view on homosexuality affect how you feel about them in any way? Sure as hell does. How about someone’s view on religion? This one depends on what their beliefs entail and to what intensity. If you were paralyzed from the neck down, would you still want to continue living? Why or why not? NO. NO. NO. This is seriously one of my biggest fears. Just fucking kill me. That sounds like very legitimate torture to me. Has any medication you’ve taken ever made you sick? How so? Three, to my memory. When I started Latuda, it made me throw up semi-frequently, BUT its effectiveness made me stay on it. My body eventually adjusted. The same thing happened with my current mood stabilizer, Vraylar. I was also on another, Trintellix I think, and that one did nothing but consistently make me puke, so I stopped it. Would you ever consider being a foster parent? No. Would you rather drink alone or with friends? With friends. Do you have too much time on your hands? WAY too much time. And yet I do nothing productive with it. Have you ever thought about hurting someone? Not seriously, no. Do you thank people for helping you? Always. Have you ever seen a zebra up close? Yeah, a few. Do you freak out if you see blood? Nah, it doesn't bother me. Have you ever complained to a manager about anything? What was it? No. Are there any songs that make you feel angry inside when you hear them? "Eternally Yours" by Motionless In White makes me feel that, among a thousand other emotions that are way too strong for me to handle, so I just don't listen to it. Have you ever been in a building that was on fire? YIKES, no. Are you in an argument with anyone right now? No. Have you ever written a poem for someone? Numerous times. Who’s the last person who cussed you out in anger? I think only my grandmother has done that. Who is the person you are closest to that you’ve meet online? Sara. (: Have you friended your parents on FB? I have my mom on there, but Dad doesn't have a FB. Where do you go out to eat for a special occasion? It depends on what we're in the mood for and what the occasion is. When someone sneezes, do you say “Bless you,” or “God Bless you?” Just "bless you." Have you ever seen the movie A Walk to Remember? Cliche or worth watching? Yeah, it's a wonderful movie. Do you live in a house, apartment, or another type of arrangement? House. Are you one of those people who like to spell out numbers? Grammatically speaking, any number below ten should be spelled out. I obviously spell out "ten," but w/e. Did you or do you still have a Furby? Was/is it annoying? I did as a kid. It didn't annoy me then, but as an adult I know they're creepy as shit lol. What's one event your town has that you don’t like to participate in? I don’t participate in any town events. Are any of your siblings married? What are their spouse’s names? Yeah. There's Nick, Josh, and Franky. Do you know how to sew? What's your favorite thing to sew? No. Have you ever owned a turtle? Did it ever bite you when you owned it? It's so awful looking back on, but my sisters and I kept a box turtle that wondered into our yard once as kids. No proper husbandry or anything; it was just in the kiddie pool. Thankfully, we were smart enough to not actually keep it forever (or rather, until it probably died from improper care); we wound up releasing it into the pond near our house, from which we assume it came from. Do you have Photoshop? If so, how often a day do you use it? I do; it comes with the Adobe photography bundle I have. I definitely don't use it daily, or even weekly. Has your school ever had a lockdown? If so, for what reason exactly? No, only drills. Do you enjoy it when your school has drills? (ex/fire or tornado drill?) I didn't, no, because I didn't like imagining the real situation. Do you watch any shows that you know your parents wouldn’t approve of? I'm an adult, for one. But anyway, I've never watched shows they'd have a problem with. If you have any pets, how would you describe their personalities? The cat, Roman: very, very affectionate, boisterous, demanding, playful, smart as fuck, and shy when it comes to strangers. The snake, Venus: curious, chill, and a bit timid. Do you have any friends that own a private lake? Not to my knowledge. Do you have a drone? No. Who is your favorite comedian? It was John Pinette, but following his death, probably Gabriel Iglesias. Where were you the last time you stayed in a hotel? I think at a dance competition? Do you know anyone with Crohn’s disease? Yeah. Out of all of the shows, movies, and books you love, who is your OTP (one true pairing)? Probably Spyro and Cynder from The Legend of Spyro trilogy. I love them. But I honestly don't have like, intense OTP feelings for any fictional characters? No real reasons, I just don't. Rhett and Link are my *true* OTP haha, but I didn't know if they counted since they're obviously real. Have you ever written a fanfiction? Did people actually like it? Nah. Have you ever liked playing dollmakers or online dress-up games? OH MY GOD my little sister and I would do that together ALL the time. Have you ever sent any celeb fan mail? No. Have you ever gotten a serious injury at school? What happened? No. Do your pets follow you when you walk around the house? Oh yes, he's my shadow. What was the very first social media site you signed up for? Myspace. Are you the type of person who knows exactly what they want in life? I mean, I know what I want, I just don't know if it's achievable for me. Do you have commitment issues? Nope. If you were to start a business, what kind would it be? I'd love to have like my own facility for boudoir photography. I've only shot boudoir once, but it immediately became a passion because of how empowering it was for my then-friend. I could go on a real ramble as to why I love it. What’s something you’ve done that sounds too crazy to be true? Been to psychiatric hospitals like six times. I honestly did lose count. Are there any flowers planted outside your house? No. What was the last thing you drank? Water. Truly incredible, I know. What’s the weirdest decoration you’ve seen in someone else’s home? *shrug* Did you have your own bathroom when you were growing up? No. Does anyone in your family smoke? My dad and his wife. What’s an opinion you find impossible to take seriously? That dinosaurs never existed. What was the very first election you voted in? This past one, actually. Do you feel positive and optimistic about your future? I don't want to think about this. What exes do you still associate with? Just Sara and Girt. Who told you they loved you last? My mom. Your worst enemy? I don't say I have any enemies. People who don't like me or I don't like them, but "enemy" isn't the proper word. What was your last dream about? Ugh. What a fucking question to ask, considering what I dreamt last night. I had both a nightmare and a normal dream; in the nightmare, I was sucked up into a tornado and carried away, and it felt so, so real. I was terrified. The dream is more vague in my memory, but I know I was at Jason's house (which wasn't actually his house) and his mom was still alive. I was hanging out with her and just chatting. It made me wake up in a really somber mood. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? Psych hospitals, yes. Have you ever built a snowman? Yeah. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? Chocolate. Do you have any scars? I have a lot, but most are from negligible instances that just won't go away for some reason. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? Putting all impossibilities aside as well as any potential health repercussions, maybe a meerkat and an opossum? Just in general a meerkat with a marsupial tail would be SO cute. Plus imagine the pattern. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? Oh I don't know. Can you do any accents other than your own? I can pull off a really convincing British one. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. No. I just get clean, get out. I've always hated showering (the process anyway, I obviously enjoy feeling clean), so I get my business done adequately and then I'm done. Do you believe in aliens? Eh, maybe. It does seem pretty questionable to believe NOTHING else can exist in an infinite space. I doubt they're little green men, though. What do you think about babies? WAY too much work and WAY too much responsibility. Keeping another life safe, healthy, happy... the idea alone is terrifying. No thanks.
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Ayesha Liveblogs Tiger King 
“I think it would be fair to say that Carole is the Mother Teresa of cats” now there’s a sentence I never thought I’d hear
“I’d never been a person who had friends” statements like this always perplex me because surely there had to be ONE other person in however long you quantify childhood that you identified with. Like not one whole ass person? You’re not the only person who loves cats Carole
The juxtaposition between Carole Baskin’s “Animal Print for Animal Rights” and Joe Exotic’s “Tiger King underwear is our bestseller” is poetic cinema
Okay this isn’t a reflection of my opinions on this man but I Saw a Tiger is a good country ballad there I said it 
“When I first met Joe, I was like a month out of high school” well that’s not good
[Joe Exotic voice] Some people have tigers to cope
Doc Antle has only been on screen for 30 seconds and already he has made himself memorable by directing the film crew
Is Bhagavan Antle Indian in some way or did he just have a really intense Eat Pray Love journey with his guru
Also is he really a doctor orrrrrrrrr
“I am out there in the forefront so known of being this guy that is in love with big cats and has them love him back” please don’t tell me this guy does anything weird to his animals
“People only care about saving what affects them” 
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“You can’t put a price on holding a baby tiger” but you did and apparently it’s $625 
The fact that multiple tigers have had albinism is probably a sign of major inbreeding practices at these zoos
You know, even if I ate meat*, there is no way I would be able to handle any kind of early prep stage of it bc seeing these cow carcasses is A Lot
*If u r reading this I don’t care if u eat meat leave me alone
“Animals just wasn’t enough, okay? So then I started adding magic” well that took an unexpected turn
I don’t know if it’s for real fair to criticize every person who has brought a big cat out in a public venue/talk show because I know at least like Dave Sal/moni is always going “THESE ANIMALS MAKE TERRIBLE PETS” 
As a sidenote from what I understand this Saff person keeps being deadnamed/misgendered throughout this documentary and I do not appreciate it 
“I grew up a professional cowboy in a family of professional cowboys” every sentence on this show is a journey
WHO is letting their ONE-YEAR-OLD lay on top of a tiger cub I know you’re at a zoo but BRUH
“It’s going to be a small Waco” to say this ON THE NEWS
This 2 minute stretch of episode is all the PSA anyone ever needs to never own a gun
Well I think we can all agree that PETA is a fucking mess
God this is like battle of the people who are terrible at doing anything good for animals
“What do you carry that gun for?” “People” AHHHHHHHHHHH?!?!!!!?!?
“I sleep with an AK-47 under my mattress, loaded, ready to roll” WILL SOMEONE HELP THE U.S. OF A
I was warned about this show and yet I was still not prepared for the level of UNHINGED it would be 
How in the FUCK does a place like this not have an on-site medic
“Why don’t you come back on another day” he said, after telling the public an employee had his arm taken off 
“I am never gonna financially recover from this” SURE JOE THIS IS ABOUT YOU
To go back to work a WEEK after getting your arm amputated... BRUH
“Any law that you think’s unfair or unjustice, it is your obligation, it is your responsibility to stand up against that bullshit law” well Thomas Jefferson was a slaveowner so clearly the injustice thing was relative for him
Traditionally don’t drug addictions fuel people choosing extreme paths with their life rather than the other way around? 
JKHGKJHGKJH this whole exchange:
Interviewer: What kind of doctor is he?
Maria: Mystical science.
Interviewer: Mystical science?
Maria, nodding: Yeah.
“How many wives does Doc Antle have?” I didn’t expect this but somehow it tracks
I’m gonna bet none of these people with subcontinental names have a single bit of South Asian heritage like okay “Moksha” and “Rajnee” did Bhagavan name you
On a more serious note: It’s really fucked up that these men keep meeting literal teenagers, making them their employees, and then also get into relationships with them. I cannot emphasize this strongly enough THIS IS NOT GOOD OR HEALTHY
It’s pretty weird that Doc Antle keeps emphasizing so frequently that one of his partners is Italian 
“I’m gonna go be a yoga animal trainer” ah, white people bullshit
“Goodbye. Don’t fall in love with your boss.” Good advice, Dad
I was not expecting all this subcontinental imagery to get under my skin this badly but what’s your problem dude can’t u be normal for like a second 
“You’re this garbage person, but if you listen to me, I’ll make you great” again this tracks but gross
Again, on a more serious note: if a partner ever talks to you this way please call a domestic abuse hotline 
Not that India is at all in a good place right now but I personally ban Doc Antle from ever entering India. Banned. Forever. I will not be accepting constructive criticism at this time
“I didn’t really know any better” is a really good way of summarizing what all of these younger partners have been through
Wow Carole is really explaining this abuse issue succinctly 
Antle’s indignation at being implied to be a cult leader despite the fact he is most definitely a cult leader
Joe’s story in his documentary is constantly “is this going to be a humanizing moment PSYCH it’s still terrible”
HOW IS THIS LEGAL PAY YOUR WORKERS A LIVING WAGE
Why is this husband-killing thing JUST A FOOTNOTE AT THE END OF THIS EPISODE OH MY GOD
We have deviated so far from the tiger thing oh my god
Why is the only man in this documentary who is faithful to his spouse the man that smuggled drugs inside of snakes
Every time I learn a new thing about a person in this documentary I have to reorient myself
This whole episode has been about this murder and I’m concerned that its title, “The Secret,” hasn’t even been revealed yet
GOD I take back what I said about I Saw Tiger, the concept of this song/music video for Here Kitty Kitty is so disturbing that this man deserves no credit whatsoever as a musician 
CAROLE WHY ARE YOU GIGGLING ABOUT THE MEAT GRINDER IT’S NOT FUNNY
Well I don’t have much to say about this episode other than yikes
I guess if you’re really out to spite someone stealing their brand and posting exactly the opposite of everything they stand for is an effective if weird and petty way to do it
Do you think the whole throne footage moment was a “Frankenstein realizing what he has wrought” kind of thing for Kirkham
This is really like watching a sports game of two teams you can’t stand except the sport is murder and other miscellaneous crime
If we’re all being real with ourselves the documentary filmmakers themselves MUST have had some issues going on to be able to walk into this situation and not do anything about it
This series really seems to present a compelling case for why every major figure in this documentary has potentially committed at least one terrible crime
Ah there’s the judgment from the woman in Florida I guess it’s two crimes with one stone
God these poor animals they do not deserve anything happening to them
While obviously people are enticed by the prospect of someone they’re into having an animal JUST GET AN ALREADY DOMESTICATED ANIMAL LIKE DOMESTICATED CATS AND DOGS EXIST OH MY GOD DO NOT USE EXOTIC PETS AS DATE BAIT
 It has been so long since we heard about Travis ngl I already forgot about him 
Why is every single person in this show SO OFF THE WALLS I mean I know why but also WHY
This documentary is also a treatise in the flaws of the U.S. prison system and how it sets up people up to fail or re-offend upon release
Take a shot every time a middle-aged man in this show mentions that he casually bought himself a big cat as a teen
“Joe was the entertainment director.... by title” I don’t think this was meant to be a burn but what a burn
I am almost certain I WATCHED that Last Week Tonight episode during that election and if u told me that 4-5 years later I would be rewatching that clip in a documentary about this man’s journey to being convicted for murder then I cannot say I wouldn’t be surprised but I would probably believe it 
Also I have to wonder what John Oliver thinks about being part of this 
[“Beyonce?” voice] Shaun Majumder?
Sidenote: Until this exact moment I thought of Shaun Majumder as Ben Mulroney even though Brian Mulroney is white as hell I guess I have faceblindness but only for Canadian talkshow personalities
I have been aware of this before now but the fact you can buy a GUN at a Walmart what in the FUCK is U.S.A. doing
Man does this campaign manager really want to take ownership of anything Joe Exotic has ever done
Ngl I was wondering why someone who had at one point clearly had a lot of money seemed to have such poor dental care access but meth certainly does explain it
I mean people can be attracted to both men and women (hello) but since Joe was fuelling their drug addictions since they were teenagers attraction is at best a null factor and at worst an added layer of terrible to this whole mess
It’s hard to even respond to this in a meaningful way because this is so fucked up. Don’t own guns.
“That was a big fucking mistake,” he said, right after someone explained that he was driving large groups of people in an enclosed space in a busy city with wild animals that could maim or kill them
Padlock penls piercing really does not seem like a first date bombshell
“We went to dinner and he never went home” well if that doesn’t set you with a sense of foreboding
TWO MONTHS AFTER WHAT IN THE HELL OH MY GOD also I hope Dillon is okay
“It wasn’t about the animals anymore” you THINK
“It was sort of funny when they started but it’s gotten really dark” how meta
Of all the reasons Joe could’ve abandoned his zoo, I really didn’t think embezzlement would be what pushed him
“He won’t tell anyone where he’s at, not even me,” said Dial, with no acknowledgement of the fact that Joe is also theoretically still married and would maybe tell his husband???
Oh Dillon spotted??? Yikes get out dude
Take a shot every time a white person who really doesn’t understand where the word “karma” comes from starts talking about karma as if it is the Law of Revenge
The fact this man brings a film crew out with him while he’s on the run evading a federal investigation..... incomprehensible
“Joe just wanted to put it in somebody’s name and continue to be the tiger queen, I mean king,” really REALLY of all the reasons to object to Joe you’re going to choose homophobia wow
Is this about an attempt to have someone murdered or does something happen to Baskin it is very unclear
This documentary has an interesting format of switching focus from crime to crime to crime 
“I’ve never been as proud of being married to anyone as I am being married to you” It’s weird to compliment your husband by comparing him to all your other husbands
How is the lesson for Jeff Lowe in this “let’s build another zoo” surely at that point it’s better to just cut your losses
[Garretson voice]: You should pay me for being a bro, dude
“I’m a libertarian, so technically, fuck the Feds,” I’ve never heard an intonation that better suits a conservative millennial 
I mean I don’t think it was advisable but honestly why are people surprised Joe took the stand isn’t delusions of grandeur kind of his thing
Sometimes it’s just that they’ve added in other moments to break up the awful immoral crimes with just run of the mill douchebaggery like the nanny/gym thing huh
I guess the silver lining in this is that potentially these big cat zoos will shut down but like where do these animals who have been raised in captivity go??? I don’t trust anyone in this documentary to not exploit them in some way ugh 
“Not a single animal benefited from this war,” correct, Saff
“I was wrapped up in having a zoo,” not really an excuse but ok
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so my father disappeared from this world when i was an infant, he disappeared from my grandparents life (with whom i maintained a relationship against the fact that i am their son’s daughter and he was no longer communicating with them), he also vanished from my mother and i’s world, and nobody ever talked about or discussed his existence during my whole childhood, at least not until i started therapy and it became obvious that it was a manic neurosis the way everyone avoided mentioning him and telling me what really happened. until this day it isn’t really clear what triggered his self imposed exile and what made him start despising his own family so he had to delete his presence.
and yes, what i just described isn’t an anomaly whatsoever in this society, it has been normalised in our conception of families that the paternal figure doesn’t really hold a lot of responsibility when it comes to emotions or raising a child, and it’s necessary to also understand that patriarchal communities that ensure that gender stays dichotomised in a binary archetype that gives different and drastically different purposes and amounts of privileges to each of them does construct a rigid and hierarchical familiar system that is inevitably and inherently violent and aggressive with anything that doesn’t conform to its norm; probably the root of so many social problems that we are facing right now worldwide, such as mental health and how it relates to individuals who can’t and will never adjust and/or adapt to society unless society goes through a series or transformations that will eventually lead us to being able to change the way it is and the way it submits the minorities, the divergent, the powerless and the vulnerable. 
so, what i am trying to say here, taking in consideration the consequences of an absent and unaccountable paternal figure that directly relates with the way with cis-men are raised and how we perceive them in and as a patriarchal society, it is a fucking tragedy that it is a fucking standard: my dad vanishing and everybody taking care into acting as it wasn’t important or relevant and making me forget so i forgot about his existence and the pain it means to be abandoned and neglected as a child, to be able to normalise the discomfort we are taught to swallow when it comes to us and trying to develop a sense of identity, purpose or spirituality; naturalise the generalised misery we go through daily with the promise of an upgrade in our existence through acquisition of material goods (a bigger house, a faster car, a more luxurious life), so we learn to follow the social norms that are supposedly going to make us less uncomfortable and dissatisfied with the lives we should oh so desperately love (because wanting to kill yourself is seen so negatively even though probably every last one of us have had at least a fantasy with suicide) and very rarely attain any kind of happiness getting more and more hopeless and frightened that we will never be truly happy so we avoid pain.
unfortunately (or fortunately), with humans depending on their senses to understand reality, and also our senses providing us with very unpleasant physical manifestations of pain through our nervous system, our instinct makes sure we avoid sources of pain because usually it means danger, sickness, death. and because of this it may be easy to trick the human psyche (at least to an extent and where the consciousness rules over the subconscious) into thinking that it is possible to be happy (or at least happier) through not experiencing physical pain and through pleasurable activities and hedonistic behavior that it is and it has only (in a historical sense) been possible through privilege and power. 
only when you’re wealthy you have time to feast because you don’t need to spend all of your energies trying to get access to food in the first place.
in times in which a considerable amount of the population has almost immediate access to multiple and abundant varieties of food, in which we have developed technology to a point where we have running water, health services, life insurance and free time if we have power of acquisition, is easy to be fooled into thinking that we might eventually be happy and no longer suffer as we earn power, or rationally validate the delusion of mercantilism that has made possible to materialise power transversely in our society: it’s easy to trick ourselves into thinking that as long as there is money in abundance we will get some sort of happiness along the way. 
and now i’m practically preaching Freud (and i am so deeply sorry because i definitely am not his fan neither do i share most of his ideas but psychoanalysis is important and most definitely not his exclusively) but because we have to indeed repress our deepest emotional needs and because we are forced to neglect ourselves at mercy of patriarchy. so, if the only redemption is to at least be able to be forgiven by our physical pain, we will stay in permanent crisis and war with our deepest needs, leading us to indulge and be condescending with our wounded subconscious, so it’s stops being relevant how we secure our comfort, how we take into consideration what we destroy to get what we want. and ironically we never get it, so it escalates into even more violent ways of achieving by any means, an even more comfortable comfort. 
it’s no surprise  that the powerful and wealthy will stay disastrously frightened of loosing their power and design even more unfair and violent systems to ensure that things won’t ever change, to ensure that we stay ill and unhappy chasing a less painful existence through precarious coping mechanisms that will never be able to relieve us, the same way they don’t relieve them.
in order to transform society, the world we live in, we need to transform ourselves from within and only then, transform our families and the way we are raised, so we can start changing our community and stop feeling attacked by minorities that are fighting for their own rights. fighting against a society that doesn’t take them into consideration because its owners are rendered terrorised due to their own inability to face the inner pain that won’t ever vanish. because it can’t be excised. so it turns urgent for them to be able to face it and become comfortable with it. and it is because they have already given so much in order for them to get enough power or privileges so they can afford a more comfortable life, or because they have never had to deal with the nuisances of getting where they stand in terms of power and wealth that they are unable to come to terms with the idea of facing said suffering in the first place and get fucked by fear. fear about about having to deal with said distress. 
without ever having to deal with pain we get fucking terrorised by the idea of it and are incapable of even measuring it against anything we know because in fact, we don’t know pain and all we have ever been told is that it is intolerable. biologically, when we feel pain, bells start ringing because it means that our existence is being threatened, so we associate every kind of pain with the danger it represents. we flee from any kind of stimuli that signifies pain. we fight, like our own life depended on it (and it truly, let me tell you that it probably doesn’t endanger the precious gift that life is when it comes to our inner turbulent and psychic conflict), and we become aggressive against anything that threatens to take comfort away from us, being violent in reaction to any whom is jeopardising our well being. 
it probably is (at least to some extent)  because of this that we might completely end society and humankind with our reckless ambition to avoid suffering.  because the powerful, the privileged, the supremacy, submits everyone to become comfortable with the pain that society and reality inflict, to exempt themselves by oppressing others. others who are different, who are enslaved, who can’t adjust. so they can live a more comfortable life at mercy of the misery of others and never even attempt to ever trying to come to terms with the fact that we are not able to ever eradicate pain because we are not in control of reality and we can’t evade its principle. or maybe, if we learn how to face the struggles inside ourselves and our inner wounds that hurt and makes us uncomfortable, the unavoidable truth, that as long as reality exists and permits that we coexist with other individualities, and wish to continue enjoying the blessings that comes with cooperating and developing a culture (such as technology, language, art, love, pleasure, the possibility of developing ourselves spiritually) we will have to pay the price of respecting every form of existence and them will have to respect us by suppressing their urges to evade the distress of not being able to get what we want how we want when we want without working for it and negotiating with reality first. 
pain is the price we pay to be conscious. because consciousness (as it has been depicted many, many times) exists to restrain the unconscious. and restraining the unconscious is tremendously and terribly painful.
and what i wanted to say in the first place, and what i am aiming to illustrate here in relation to our challenges to get to a better society in which we develop finally an additional level of consciousness that has to be with a way of collective thinking and perceiving reality is that probably, right now that we are transitioning still through the era of Pisces to the era of Aquarius, is that astrology might be a fundamental and irreplaceable key to what and how we continue our path. 
Because astrology, learning to read its language and understanding how we have developed it so that is able, through the study of transits of celestial bodies around us, to identify and associate certain characteristics to them that affect us and the way we perceive and interact with time and reality. because it helps us to understand our pain, where it comes from, where we are, how we are and how we can transform ourselves to attain a more purposeful existence in a life that lacks purpose, knowing that everybody represents an otherness with its own intricate network of sensibilities, inherently divergent and sometimes radically difficult for us to relate due to the way that they exist can make us become more empathetic and ready when it comes to experience pain and not letting someone lead a dreadful existence by the expanse of our own.
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On Impawsibility - 7
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A popular!Logan and loser!Roman high school AU based on @2pointomg’s idea with eventual Prinxiety. 
impossible 
ɪmˈpɒsɪb(ə)l
adjective
·       not able to occur, exist, or be done.
Eg. It is impossible to fund both the sports and drama programmes with the school’s limited budget.
·       very difficult to deal with.
Eg. The situation which Logan Sanders, Student Body President, is in after he convinced the school board to cut the unsuccessful drama programmes is impossible.
·       (of a person) very unreasonable.
Eg. Roman Prince.
To Roman, nothing is impossible. Not following his older brother Patton to acting college, not being a loser taking on the school’s popular Student Body President and definitely not writing and performing an epic school play with no money and six cast and crew members.
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Logan’s father had made him promise to do his best in the debate, and to be careful of the New York boys as his own heart had once been broken by a pink-haired artist from the Bronx. His mother had told him to not bring revision and have fun instead. As soon as he got onto the coach Joan was in charge, making sure everyone was ready, and he’d uninstalled email from his phone so the only motions he’d be worrying about were hypothetical questions with meticulously researched answers. His bag was full of notes and Agatha Christie novels. Virgil and Roman had never been connected to debate at all.
‘Alright, guys, we’re almost there so we need to wake up a bit.’ An orange beanie popped over a seat.
Susan threw a travel pillow at Joan and groaned, ‘It’s five in the morning!’
‘We’re going to do word association games!’ Logan sat up, grinning at Joan, who had looked right at him when they suggested that.
‘Debate!’ shouted Miles at the back.
‘Happiness!’ was Logan’s reply.
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Below-gan a cheerfully shabby apartment near the best theatre school in New York City, a bespectacled teen was psyching himself up to ring a doorbell with a pawprint on it and a handwritten label in multi-coloured felt tip. ‘You need help, kid?’ asked someone half-dressed in costume for their audition in Heathers. ‘I’m fine, thank you.’ replied Logan stiffly, trying not to stare at the garish tartan blazer.
The girl squinted at him for a moment. ‘You Patton Prince’s little brother?’
If there was one thing Logan wanted to do less than approach the brother of his nemesis the night before the most important debate competition of his life, it was small talk. ‘I sure am.’
His voice was shaky and he was desperately avoiding eye contact. Taking pity on him, the girl quickly leaned over him and pressed the button. ‘Patton, your brother.’
There was a crinkle on the line while Logan awkwardly manoeuvred himself under the girl’s arm. ‘Send him up right away! Boyo am I glad to see you!  Whatcha doing out here? Well you’d buzzer come right up. Thanks Gabriella. Good luck!’
‘Thanks Pat!’ The girl shrugged at Logan’s scowl, put her croquet stick over her shoulder, and marched off, whistling ‘Candy Store.’
Recalibrating the school legend of Patton Prince with this goofy character, Logan started up the stairs, needing to reach the apartment as quickly as possible before he began to panic and rethink this truly, truly awful plan. Oh, look at that – he was already panicking! He paused outside 109, rehearsing what he would say. Then he rapped smartly on the door. It was flung open by a – woman? With glasses? He’d thought that Patton was a guy, but clearly-
She was singing. She was singing at him. She was wearing a trilby. A man jumped out behind a hat stand and swirled her into a kiss before two more men came out with synchronised jazz hands. Unsurprisingly, the group’s singing was very good. In time with the music, a man in a baby blue polo, the same glasses as Logan himself and a trilby jumped out ‘I want to be a part of it – New York, New York!’ He cut out suddenly, leading the other four to trail off, looking at him in confusion.
‘Who are you?’
Logan tried to practice socialisation, he really did. He could do small talk with students, ask intelligent questions about music with Elise and had stopped using probability percentages and fronts in his discussion of weather. But he was not ready for this. The display explained Roman but not really anything else. Patton recognised the boy in the doorway – although based off the pictures Roman had sent him he should have devil horns in red biro ink. It just took him a moment to process what that particular boy was doing here, some thousand miles away from their home town. The boy readjusted his tie and decided to break the silence. ‘Greetings, Patton Prince. I am Logan Sanders, the Student Body President of your alma mater, Simmons High.’ He paused for a moment, observed the expressions of the five roommates and explained further. ‘I am not Roman. Nor do I like or even tolerate singing, dancing and such frivolities in make-believe.’ When no-one responded to this he continued. ‘However, I am here about Roman and his play. On behalf of the school.’
Patton’s face broke into a sunshiny grin, ‘Well, shucks, come on in.’
Logan quickly unlaced his shoes, although he didn’t like the lack of formality that afforded him. He was pretty sure that the yellow of the hallway walls and the purple of the carpet were clashing colours, and he did not understand why there were multicoloured handprints on the kitchen cabinets or a host of stuffed animals on the sofa even though the average age of the occupants was twenty-two. Despite the fact that the other four students had each been in the middle of something before trying to surprise Patton’s little brother, they made themselves comfortable in the living room, interested in the next instalment in the saga Patton relayed to them each week. Logan elected to stand, not taking off his backpack.
Larry spoke incredulously over the quiet noises from Patton making tea in the other room ‘Logan who closed the theatre programmes?’
‘I did not close the theatre programmes, I advised the school on the best course of action to take to help the sixty-five students in sports-based extracurriculars.’ Logan replied to a spot one metre over Larry’s head.
Dot continued – ‘Logan from Patton’s old high school? In Florida?’
Corbyn broke in, ‘Do you want to sit down, at least? We’re not scary people.’
‘Yes, yes and no thank you. Scariness is subjective.’ Logan still couldn’t make eye contact.
‘What’s your favourite Disney film?’ was Sloane’s question.
‘Big hero six. I fail to see how that is relevant to the matter at hand.’ He was being weird, he was being weird, what would Virgil say? ‘Since we are all destined to die alone anyway.’ Reading the room, he should not have taken socialising tips from a guy who hissed when people annoyed him.
‘Well…’ Sloane replied, trying to keep his expression neutral, ‘I have a Baymax plushie in my bedroom if you want to hold it?’
‘I am not a child.’
‘So…’
‘Yes please.’
Patton nudged the door open with his hips, holding three mugs in each hand. With a swiftness caused by bitter experience, Corbyn took a few off him. Logan was now sitting cross-legged on the floor holding a Baymax toy and cradling a mug of tea, surrounded by college students and cartoon memorabilia.
Patton sat near him, leaning his back on an empty armchair. ‘So, kiddo, what’s up?’
‘You may be aware that Roman is attempting to put on a play without any school funding.’
‘Yes.’
‘Well, I am here to ask for your assistance. It is likely students here would donate to putting on the play given their passion for theatre and probable affection for you. As both a fourth year and scholarship student it is also likely that you could ask a scout to go and see the people performing, as well as the set and costumes.’
‘I’ll do whatever I can, sure. People love an underdog. How’s Roman doing?’
‘Whoa, whoa, whoa!’ broke in Corbyn, ‘Logan, do your parents know where you are? Why are you in New York?’
‘I am here for a national debate competition.’
‘Yeah, I’m still a bit confused.’ added Sloane, ‘aren’t you trying to stop the play, so they won’t get funding.’ He broke off at Patton’s ‘parental warning’ eyebrows.
Logan put his mug down on the coffee table with a bang. ‘Falsehood!’
‘Alright slugger, calm down. Sloane here was just getting a little carried away, is all. I’m sure you’re all president and correct.’
‘Humorous.’ said Logan with no expression whatsoever, ‘If you are in accordance with this plan, then I shall leave, I have a competition tomorrow after all.’
‘We do need to iron out some details first. Could I get your number?’
As they exchanged numbers Dot made an escape back to her thesis, but the rest of the students were in this for the long-haul.
Corbyn was not going over his Hamlet monologue one more time, so he grabbed a piece of paper and a pen in the intent of taking notes. ‘How much money do you need?’
‘About $200 should be sufficient. That will cover costumes and the last few props.’
As Corbyn scribbled that down Patton tilted his head to the side. ‘Roman didn’t mention that you co-ordinated this with him. He could have just called me.’
Logan stood up a little straighter, ‘Well, uh, the thing is – he doesn’t know I’m here. Technically he does know that I am in New York, but not that I visited you. I asked Talyn for the hypothetical price of costumes and decided to set this plan into motion.’
‘A random, anonymous act of kindness?’ squealed Patton.
‘…sure.’  This was strictly true, even if Logan’s reason for not wanting to have a conversation with Roman and his friends was a little more complicated than that. ‘It is common knowledge that you came here for college, and Elise asked her older brother where you lived. He gave me the address on the condition that I told you ‘spotlight llama’. What does it mean?’
Patton burst into laughter. ‘Just a little incident involving us two when we were in ‘Singing in the rain’ together. Nothing to…’ he broke off giggling, ‘Nothing to….hoo boy….nothing to allarma you.’
Inside jokes and people laughter at something Logan didn’t understand. Another one of his favourite things.
‘So rather than talk to Roman and email Patton, you estimated the costs of the costumes plus props and visited us in New York?’ asked Corbyn, looking up from his sheet.
‘I do not understand everyone’s confusion. I am here to help. Just let me sort this out.’
‘You don’t have to do too much. I know I may seem like a big ol’ goofball but I’m four years older than you and perfectly capable of doing this. We just need to find a way to transfer the money.’
Logan frowned at Patton. ‘I never said you weren’t capable. I do not doubt that you will perform your part of this adequately.’
The man shrugged guilelessly as Corbyn smiled down at his sheet, still not quite used to Patton’s ability to read people after four years. ‘Well, let’s sort this out.’
Eventually everything was prepared and Logan got ready to go back to the hostel for dinner and last-minute practice with the team.
As Logan put his shoes on, Patton leaned on the garish wall opposite him, looking at the door rather than into Logan’s eyes.
‘Everything’s going to be fine, kiddo. Be easy on yourself.’
‘What makes you say that?’
‘A feeling.’
‘The bane of my existence.’
Patton smiled then held the door open for him. ‘Good luck tomorrow – have a de-great debate! Yeesh, not my best. Ooh, also! Say hi to Elise for me! And tell Roman to sleep and to call me if he has a problem with the play.’
Logan straightened his shoelaces, then stood. ‘I can’t do that. From the way your roommates were behaving, you should know how much Roman dislikes me. I mean, he thinks I would sabotage his play!’
Patton folded his arms and raised his eyebrows. ‘No. You’re going to tell him. You’re going to tell him that you came to New York and asked me for help, and you’re going to tell him that I think you’re pretty neat, and you’re going to tell him to stop overworking himself on the play and to go out on the weekend with his friends, and you’re going to do the same thing!’
Logan saw his mother in that speech and was rightly scared of the sound of tough love.
He nodded.  ‘Alright. Thank you. Farewell.’
So Roman hadn’t told Patton that Logan didn’t have any proper friends now. Perhaps it was hard to tell when from the outside Logan was objectively one of the most popular people in their school. Still, it was a small mercy, and since he had no intention of following through with any of Patton’s orders he was glad that there was at least one promise he wasn’t breaking.
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